Depressed, Alone And Desperate: Finale
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- Опубликовано: 8 июл 2024
- Hey everyone, I hope all is well. I sat down to make this video because I have been feeling really down about things lately since it's taking so long for anything to progress in My life.
This is part 3 of 3.
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I feel the same way. Possibly worse. I'm alone 24/7 & have been in poverty for my whole life. Recently turned 33. The only family I have are my parents----they're mental, elderly & awkward. I resent them for bringing me into this world of slavery. I suck at capitalism. My waking existence is suffering. Being alone so much gets really freaky and scary. It feels so wrong. I'm just too scared to end my life. Scrolling on my phone & smoking cigarettes & laying in bed for most of the day is how I'm coping.
I pray Blessings to you my friend....
I can relate. Capitalism is not for me.
Don't give up, there is always a way to find some hope in this world. I hope My videos can help You feel less alone because I know how devastating it can be. enjoy what You still can whatever it is and that will help keep You going. Life is not meant to be easy, but that doesn't mean we shouldn't try to enjoy it to the fullest. screw society, do what You want to do and is meaningful to You and the rest will come.
Sorry to hear this. I am 31 and can relate to all that you have said. Life is tough and we all know that deep down this is no way to live under this crushing capitalist hellscape.
I know of a discord channel, but every time I write a comment it gets deleted
what are you doing every day ? what's your first 10 minutes look like ? don't get over whelmed by your future , society and your past... start by changing first 10 minutes thats possible and doable , no matter what you think about yourself
Hello. Hope you’re doing well. Hang in there. I’ve been here and came out the other side. You got this !
I totally get it with human interaction! Sending my encouragement to you, protect your peace, and we’re here to support you ✨
Thank You!!
we are all here to support you and hoping things improve quickly for you, I definitely remember many junctures in life feeling these feelings. Keep hanging on, sad is also an authentic part of life and you never have to feel bad about sharing your experiences. That is what makes us human. Things will get better from here, one day at a time, one foot forward at a time.
You are very right. Thank You for Your support!!
I feel the same. No one to talk to. My mom passed in dec last year. I miss her 😭 she was the only one that would listen to me 😢 i'm sorry
I am so sorry about Your Mom I cannot imagine.. I hope that You can find someone You can talk to again.
I can tell you from what I observe and have noticed over the years is that society is becoming more of a woman's world. I say this because many opportunities now are geared towards technology and not manual work for educated people. At 61 I am coming to the twighlight era of my life. Before 30 years ago I was already a veteran of the Marine Corps active duty and a veteran of the Navy reserves. I also worled many jobs that were physical in nature. Most of my friends did the same and we hung out drank beer and chilled out together. The economy and social media has created a generation of lost people imo. Too much disciraction and little direction. I needed a chance for all the opportunities in my life and they didn't entail sitting at home, in a room on a computer. My heart goes out to you but it is what it is now. It is what it is. Best to you man.,
struggled like you since my teens, now I am 47 and I still do😏
I wish I could help you, but I am far away in Denmark
sorry to hear that, don't worry I am feeling better. greetings from USA!
@@InfinitusYT I am glad to hear that 😊 wishing you all the best your way
Brother... You put words to what I feel so well... Thank you.
I can see and feel how hard you fighting and if you're anything like me, you just want to be HELD for a bit (or a few days 😕) if I were there I would do that for you brother... We all need it and we all deserve it.
Your family dynamic and your "friend" structure are just like mine... It's so hard doing it alone... But, God! You're so brave and so strong and I'm so grateful to you for sharing... You matter and you make a difference for just showing up.
I'm really happy to chat with you, I'm old enough to be your Dad and I used to work with young people who lived through neglect before my breakdown and i have been tackling it from many different directions for many years. I might be able to share what I've learned or we can just shit-talk life for a bit.
I'll leave it up to you, no pressure... But thank you for showing up and just being you... You're doing important work for all of us 🙏
Hey man! I can relate a lot to what you are talking about. Hang in tight, it can be very difficult, but you will find a way out. It worked out for me. There is hope.
Thank you, I will!
God bless you man and keep fighting. Life throws storms at you constantly, but they do come and go, things change as we age, it can take decades sometimes for changes to come about but they always do. You have to persevere, and get away from toxic things and toxic behaviors...this all helps. Trust your gut and it is OK to be angry with people and with family, that is normal and natural. You get stronger with time also, and right behavior. Focusing on yourself and what is best for you is usually the only thing that helps. God bless and take care, you'll get through it man
Thank You!! You are absolutely right.
I so understand. I'm alone every day, all day. I have no friends or support system. I just sit in my apartment. I'm poor as well. If you ever want to talk I would be happy to. I have major depression and severe anxiety.But I'm a good listener if that could help you.Take care,Deb
Hey man, I feel like I understand you. A lot of others do too. Do NOT give up. That includes giving up on yourself. If you are so inclined, do things for yourself to start a new path. Ensure it is fulfilling -- not the bare minimum. Personal connections come and go too (with effort and time).
i can relate. I just turned 39 and my whole life got uprooted during the pandemic. i dont have any male friends and cant really talk to my dad. its brutal being isolated, and i feel the pressure of my age, needing to figure out if i can get married, have kids etc.
It’s over
Forget marriage, that will only make your life way worse
sorry to hear that, isolation can be very devastating. don't give up Yourself, You've made it so far!
You have to be that person for yourself...no one is coming to save us and as adults our happiness and well being is or own responsibility.
Hang in there, , you have something better waiting for you
I saw how you treated the adoranle cat, and that says a lot about your genuin qualities.
And almost 900 subscribers now👌
Haha My Moms cats are adorable. We are well on the way to 1k aren't We!? its so exciting.
You’re even more handsome than Kevin Kostner was when he was young
USE that for what it’s worth
B, looks like you have some good comments here....Blessings....Love, Eileen.
Right?? It's hard to believe how many kind and generous people have responded to these videos, My faith in humanity is being restored!!
Hey, I can totally relate to you
My father passed away when I was 2, I don't remember anything about him, honestly thought I was OK until recently that I felt like I needed a role model, someone to give me courage to move forward in life.
I started talking to myself, I said hey you didn't have a father and that's unfair, but life isn't always fair, I (older me) will take care of you (inner child) to the best of my ability and that may never be enough to fill the void but we'll be OK.
And for the first time in 23 years I actually mourned the death of my father and felt like I could lay his memory(or lack thereof) to rest.
I also chose a role model, someone who I could relate to personally and professionally and that has helped a lot.
Hope you heal from this, I'm rooting for you and I'd totally hang out with u irl ❤
I'm sorry about Your father, You are very strong and wise to have overcome that and build a better relationship with Yourself as a result. I choose the people I look up to very carefully these days. Take care.
Hi myfriend, what your going through is part of growing m8, we all make mistakes, some bad some not so bad, But as long as we learn from those mistakes & grow, how we own our mistakes & remember your a man, be strong, strive to do good where you can, help yourself first then you can shine & might be able to touch others, no one wants a looser ok ❤
Charles Bukowski helped me put things in perspective. Kafka, marcus Aurelius. But now i can barely do my cube job. Because it is so meaningless. About to be living in my car at 58. And looking at it as a new adventure. But the loneliness can be overwhelming.
Ever want to talk look me up. I could be a wise old sage.
Your thinking too much...don't think just do. Go out and let things just be. Go with the flow. Baby steps to love
You are right.
I’m alone but introverted but more lonely 😞
You will be able to be the Dad you need, trust me, just put it into the universe and your gonna find that.. and you don't need anyone who don't need you, you need to look into Self Esteem/ Self Worth and finding a way to self love.. if you need anyone to chat i can as am a healer.. but you said you only wanna speak with guys and am a girl from Scotland so idk if thats cool with you or what :) I think usually the people who have most about them and most intresting are the ones who people don't see, because the matrix tried to hide the real ones, its the same for woman who are offbeat from society.. who wanna go there own way..
You gotta join like a crossfit gym or a group fitness place. Running group. It's a great network usually of professionals who are often times older. Yeah you have to pay to be in them but over the years they pay for themselves in spades.
Small steps will improve your life. Hang in there
Keep holding your intentions for things you want and things too get better things have too improve. ❤ are there any community groups you could join?
Honestly not too sure about what kind of groups there are and transportation is a bit of an issue. I am feeling better now though Emma since I recorded this set of videos and all the support shown has really changed My perspective.
Hi 👋 i identify with you . I remember feeling very lonely in my youth. I spent my youth in the 1970s. It was also hard for me coming to terms with being gay. Back then people were very homophobic. People are alot more open minded nowadays. I had difficulties with my father too. Im 64 now. My life is so much better. I had an issue with drinking in my life , after being brutally assaulted in a robbery. I received serious head injuries. I started drinking alcohol to deal with the pain. To cut a long story short i hit a rock bottom and cried out to the lord please help me. I have 8 years of sobriety this year. I I have handed my life over to the lord. I have peace of mind and i feel loved by the lord. I dont feel empty anymore. Not everyone is judging you. The lord wants a relationship with you😮 and he will not judge you. I have repented for my sinful past. He has wiped my slate clean. He has helped me in other areas in my life. It works for me. When i was drinking i was an atheist. Believe me , my life is much better and more manageable. You could start by accepting things as they are , start doing things that you feel are right for you. You are responsible for your own happiness. Take care from Carl.
I understand how you feel. There are similarities in our situations that truly leave me gutted for you. Could luck on your journey to becoming the man you want to be. I have no advice. I want someone to help you also.
I hope We can work on overcoming these difficulties through eachother! Thank You for the support!
Bro I will aways hear and understand not sure where you're from but we would be good friends for each other hope this doesn't sound like creepy but just understanding your place in life
I appreciate You!
I completely understand your situation as i myself have been through tough battles with depression and mental health issues. I can honestly say that there is someone who cares and loves you unconditionally that I found and his name is Jesus Christ! Seek the Lord 🤲💞😊
Damn dude, I havent listened to one second of this, but the comments are full of proud, arrogant, unhelpful, self righteous fools. Emma is cool though, she's one of the real ones 💚
hi, Debbie
I guess, try not to focus on the comments too much then. I just appreciate the engagement.
Emma is very kind.
@@InfinitusYT don't let Debbie downer get YOU down too...
Where do you live?
Ever heard of the meaning crisis? Its not just you, but theres a bunch of people who gather around the chabnel of paul vanderklay
You should go to a ACOA meeting... i think it would help
i hate the fact that nowadays even good lookin guys are alone. like, this is nordic model, Ryan Gosling type of look. women these days treat men like an absolute crap
Well, looks aren't everything I suppose.
So wish you were closer Would love to chat with you more .
that would be great, but We can always talk here! maybe I will set some more stuff up like forums and direct messages through somewhere outside of just comments etc.
@@InfinitusYT That would be great
The money focus is very much an American thing. If you have budget, try and get away for a bit. The south of France is a good option, it's healing, and you can inbibe and absorb an older, different culture thar has a healthier attitude to money, status and life.
It opens you up and shows you that what you imagine is the world, is not the world.
Depression sucks. But on the positive side, you speak beautifully with a good accent and vocabulary.
You are also more handsome than most, with a sensitivity that is both rare and attractive. Unfortunately, that sensitivity can also make you prone to introspection and depression.
Be kind and forgiving to yourself, don't burn bridges with your father, just learn to avoid the subjects you disagree on.
Don't self medicate, stay focused on being the best you can be.
Greetings from the UK ❤
Because ppl from everywhere arent concerned about money.. its an American thing? Holy shit dude, take a breath and get sone oxygen into that brain for a change!
Great suggestion, I need to get out of the culture of the US some day. Thank You very much for all of the compliments, it means a lot!!
I will try to bridge the gap between Me and My father when I am ready, I am not so sure I am yet but eventually, before its too late.
I will do My best! cheers.
I'm going through the exact same thing right now at 17 and am a loner, and feeling alone. I've tried many times making a bit of conversation with others, but it's really short and then that person just walks away. Now I don't know if I have the energy anymore to do this cause it seems like now there's just a lot of negativity around. Soo yeah I don't know what to do, I'm really lost.
I love you...Eileen, from Missouri.
@@Wonderman62 Thank you so much, love you too and sending that love back from Canada
I'm 20 and that was how I felt when I was 17. Work on your self-esteem, self love, and confidence first, then work on your communication skills after. Learn to get out of your comfort zone more often, and you will eventually be used to it. Almost like reminding yourself thats "it not bad compared to what you think or expected". You have plenty of time to do so and you are still young.
Sorry to hear this, unfortunately friendship/companionship cannot be forced and it has to happen naturally. consider making some videos talking about Your life too and You might find some like-minded people to get in touch with, You don't have to feel like this forever and nobody should.
@@xmanx0 Hey man, thank you so much for this advice! I know this might take more time to work on especially for someone who's self image is really low. I've tried pushing myself out there out of my comfort zone to try to make at least a couple of quality friends, yet it's hard to find them out there and idk if I should say this rare.
Do you have discord by any chance? I'd like to chat more about this (only if you are okay with it).
Sorry.....may you find peace within you... Am here talk to me please
We are the only thing on this planet that asks if they're enough. An exploded nebula doesn't ask itself if they're an a-hole
wow....cool....
true
You're a young man in your early twenties? I was alone alot like you when I was that age too, and I still am, but its by my own choice right now.
Anyway if you wanna break the curse of being alone you have to start becoming active and doing stuff you are interested in. And if there's nothing you're interested in you should start working out regularly. Because you will start feeling more positive and you will start to attract other people and your confidence will be boosted.
Another thing is you should stop doing bad habits like junk food, watch porn and video games and stuff. My best times in life has been when i've had good discipline and just kept working on myself and avoided the quick fixes. This is when everything else comes like girls and stuff.
I didn't watch the first part. Which routines are you trying to establish? Take it day by day and prioritize. I am going through it with you on the loneliness thing.
well My sleep is probably My biggest issue right now but i can never maintain a decent schedule for long it seems.
I hope things get better for You, We can get through it together!
@@InfinitusYT My best advice for sticking to a sleep schedule is to eat at the same times every day and exercise. Recently I've been using magnesium glycinate which helps also. The challenge for me is waking up at the same time every day I always want to sleep in. I set an alarm for 8am now and luckily it's been sticking. I understand that it isn't so easy especially when you are dealing with loneliness and internet addiction. Good luck man
20-30 is a difficult age to be in. Save a lot of money now and dont ask too much questions
Hey, hope u do see this comment, serious question, and I myself am 30 years ago and I haven't been saving tbh, I do work, pay rent and just keep spending tbh, cos I feel like it made me happy, but now I relies I have wasted 1000's when I could of had 1000's saved. I am changing my ways cos how I feel with life, myself and the whole London and england crisis right now I feel like it's all over. Would u say being 30 and really starting to save now is good or maybe a but too late?
saving is always good.
hey @chaosiscoming9184 it's never too late to work on Your spending habits and save. don't give up!
@@InfinitusYT thank u brother, keep staying strong and awesome. Much love from England
God is the😢best😢father anyone could have. Can you find a male therapist? But you are not alone when you connect with God and Jesus❤
You can always spend all your time and devotion to God. When you own no kingdom, search for one in the heavens. God will always be there when people are not. Ram Ram.
Only thing that I could tell you and I hope you read this is that there is a God who loves you very dearly and you never have to be alone again God says that he takes the lonely man and puts them in the middle of a family I was homeless in God took me off the street and bring me home and homeless people can be some of the loneliest people on the planet because no one wants to talk to them but God loves you very much except Jesus and you will never be alone ever again
Hang in there. I know it's easier said than done. Do you read the scriptures? We really feel for the young .
I don't but at some point I should look into them more. Thank You for commenting!
You can talk to me
Thank You!!
Hi bro
Hello
If you need someone to talk to hit me up. I'll he your new friend. 😊
Do you respond to comments? There’s tons of nice ones.
I do! just sometimes not right away on new videos.
Learn to play guitar brotha, I think it may change your life. God Bless 👍✝️
We could converse in discord. Play a game or something just talk my friend
Hey handsome
lol hello
@@InfinitusYThow are you? You look great 🥰
As shit as it sounds to hear you're a guy in your mid to late 20s. Even if people see you falling apart no ones going to come and rescue you because at the end of the day your happiness is your responsibility you are an Adult now. The best advice I got from my Dad when I was in my early 20s falling apart was to just pull it together, don't sit in the house all day, get a job and be out in the world.
People like you are truly pathetic. If you had any honor or any kind of life to live, you wouldn't be kicking a guy whose down on youtube😊
You should watch the movie the Nutty professor.
Or Mandy? Or Lawrence of Arabia? Or the Unkown Soldier?
LOL fat Albert, is that You?? never seen it but looks funny.
Sadfishing
... or just authenticity? I am not exaggerating anything.
Word. Like my comment, and I can get some bros with you.
Depression almost always has to do with your diet
Not sure if that's totally true, source?
@@InfinitusYT literally hundreds of articles over the course of a year that I’ll never be able to source or remember, it’s a statement from experience and the culmination of all the painstaking research I did.
That’s how I cured my depression, alongside other things like career fulfillment, exercise, hydration, dha, etc (the list goes on). Magnesium and vitamin D, vitamins b12 and b6. Calcium, zinc, these are all key nutrients and minerals that the brain needs to stop itself from experiencing anxiety, and anxiety leads to negative thoughts and negative thoughts lead to depression. I doubt you are getting all these extremely important things into your brain everyday and in the right quantities. Also… you’re the one that’s asking for help don’t know why you’re trying to contest me. Unless you’re born with “happiness” genes you’re susceptible to the same consequences of nutritional deficiency like me and everyone else. Also, again, I can’t stress fulfillment enough, for me that came in the form of a dream/career. And yes I know, everyone is physiologically different but not THAT different, we all require a baseline level of human maintenance
@@InfinitusYT I came here to say exactly this. I was also very depressed in my teens and 20s. I was an energetic black hole and had a hard time in relationships because I didn't have the energy to really be or express myself and connect with others, I could only be an energy drain. What helped me was switching to a high fat, mostly raw, animal based diet. Your brain is mostly fat, your whole body but especially your nervous system needs raw animal fats and proteins. (Cooked/pasteurized fats swell and don't absorb into your cells as easily.) If I could say anything to the 25 year old me at rock bottom I would say to eat as much raw butter and raw fish as possible to start, and to generally focus on gaining physical vitality. The primary role of the father is to provide physical necessities to his children; you can begin your self-fathering journey by focusing on providing the physical necessities to your body to develop into a creative/radiant being rather than a consumptive/draining one. Once you start gaining momentum in strengthening your nervous system you will naturally start feeling better, even in solitude, coming up with creative solutions to your problems, attracting opportunities and people. Highly recommend reading We Want to Live by Aajonus Vonderplanitz. It's entertaining, informative and a quick read. You can DM me on IG (same @) and i'm happy to send you the PDF if you can't find it. It changed my life and I hope it will change yours too
I'm halfway through and I haven't heard you take any responsibility for your situation. It seems that you think it's everyone else's fault. Your life is what you make it. If you want to have a friend, then be a friend.
Asshole detected
apparently you don't know what's going on here, Mr Quick Judger.
@@Wonderman62 I'm responding to what I see in this video. You're right, I don't have the back story. However, I stand by my observations. Everyone else is being blamed, but the responsibility of the happiness of one's life lands in the lap of the individual, nobody else.
If you want a friend, all you have to do is be a friend. It's really that simple.
Yeah, it takes some effort. I guess when we get tired enough of our loneliness, that's when we take steps toward change.
@@rippleling6187 still don't know...opinionater.
I take full responsibility for all of the decisions I have made, that doesn't mean that things out of My control did not lead Me to making some poor decisions at earlier stages in My life. Not everything is solely the individuals fault You know, everything is interconnected.
No one looks down on you. You are your own worst enemy. Stop the pity party. The outside world doesn't give you validation. Be your best friend and quit wait I g for someone to fix you. Only you can do it. Get a relationship with God and Jesus❤❤❤
Phuck, enduring fools like yourself is unbearable
Pull yourself up by the boot strap nonsense reply. Glad your type of mentality is a relic of a dying generation that is not gonna be around for much longer.
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If this helps ..I have been thru some difficult phrases of my life..byproduct of all the trauma and conditioning..
Lately been exploring with mediation..Vipassana and mindful breathing and body work and experience with plus casual sense of spiritual and eco village community ..it's been a great help..here in Europe( Italy ) its fairly popular...and free of cost...given that you are willing to make effort and work on your health..
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Thank You for the link, I agree something like a retreat could be really good for Me now and again. I have absolutely been interested in Buddhist Theravada practices they are so interesting and really resonate with how I think and feel as a person so really appreciate the recommendation.
I watched a video from a Norwegian phsyciatric institution where a nurse decided to hold around some young girls and boys more or less for two years,and They became healthy,Very healthyCompassion.Proximity.I can hold around you at least virtually
I think the pandemi destroyed human interaction,
And social medias.People have become shallow and false.Interaction is almost impossible
I appreciate that a lot, I will do the same for all of You as well.
I»m a big fan of medication. The overiding anxiety slowly goes away, and you get more energy and peace.And freedom to do more activities.I learned that I have to have some passions in my life, and started to ride my bicycle...That is freedom and excersize.And the wonder of being in nature.I don’t have a job so I enjoy my life so much more now.My life started when fear disapeared
In Norway the welfare system is well developed.So It is not that not that difficut to receive disability benefits.I know this system is so to speak non excisting in the US?
Or m I I wrong?