i want to make it clear that: the picture in the thumbnail was me in the high school where my binging was at an all time high (left) and the other photo (right) was a photo taken a few days ago where i am nourishing my body and also working out! i don’t want any of you guys to assume that it was the aftermath of my ed.
Via you are sooo beautiful and brave and I love you soo much💞 You are a big inspiration for me. I have some problems and I am trying overcome them but we need to live life in the best way cuz we live once . Take care yourself you are precious to me girll🤍🤍🤍
I have a genuine question Via, did the eat disorder encourage you to go vegetarian and was it a hard transition? Btw I am very proud of you🤍not only for the decision to give your body the love it deserves but also for all you have accomplished in the past year !
It’s so tragic thinking of your body as a lover whose love will never be reciprocated. It’s like a child seeking to be something great for your praise, only for you to call it “ugly” and physically harm it. The perspective change really alters my own as it makes me feel like a villain and it’s essentially what I am. Your body is the only one you’ll ever get so make sure to love it as much as it loves you.
“I was never called beautiful”… it hurts that soo many beautiful souls have not been told how gorgeous they are.. I hope that you give yourself all the love you deserve!!!
honestly getting this during a really bad relapse feels like a sign EDIT: thank you guys so much for the support. i’ve had my ups and downs since this relapse but i’ve kept going. i’ve been trying not to get irritated with myself each time i relapse because, as somebody in the replies said, healing isn’t linear. but it’s baby steps for now. and i hope the rest of you are doing good.
honestly, ive been aware of my eating disorder, which was mostly rooted in my mind from me being insecure, for over a year now. im trying to get better at eating and seeing food not as a "i eat something just to stay alive" and my habits are bad still, but i love to see somebody else recover. it makes me motivated, thank you so much for this video
My dad used to comment on my weight all the time and it really affects the brain and becomes a problem. I also went from binging to fasting and after losing weight I still saw myself has over weight but I wasn’t. I don’t understand why people have to talk about weight so much. I can’t believe the rude things your parents said to you 🥲breaks my heart
Your body IS YOU. She’s a part of you, the vessel you carry to move through life. With a ED, you think of your body as a possession when it is completely who you are. The body you carry shapes you.
when you started explaining how it is important to treat your body like its own being, almost like an inner child, I felt my heart crack..I'm 16 years old (going on 17 this year) and I've spent too much time worrying about my body. time and time again i would restrict/binge myself to where I felt like I was being a burden for no reason to my parents by saying things like "oh, I can't have that ice cream because it doesn't fit into my deficit", forgetting that my body ISNT EVEN FULLY DEVELOPED YET. i honestly admire the bravery you have in eating, travelling, and let alone vlogging yourself. thank you for this video
As a person who struggled with eating disorder for 5 years and completely ruined my health , my hair,body,nails,skin , even it affected my height growth … this video helped a lot , thank you so much via you are amazing
I developed anorexia when I was just 9 years old. My childhood was ruined because of that, but I am glad to be born in this era where everything is at my fingertips. These types of videos have been helping me since then. I am 15 now, but I still have an unhealthy relationship with food. Sometimes I eat a lot, and some days I eat nothing. But when I binge eat, I see myself instantly fat in front of the mirror and I feel like total crap after that. I feel aggression, self-hatred, and more. I do 1 hour of workout daily, and as a human, there are those days when I didn't do my workout merely because of my school and studies. Because of that, I feel like trash thrown outside. I am on a journey of self-improvement, although my illness does affect my height, and because of that, I am 4'11 while being in class 9. No one in my family actually believed in eating disorders; they used to think that I was being stubborn, starving myself, while being a pain in the ass for my parents. They told me that I was ungrateful and spoiled. According to them, that was the reason for me starving myself. This actually hurts when I think about it this way. My parents used to beat me, a nine-year-old, so that they could force me to eat something, and then I would be left with bruises all over my body. It hurts. I went through a lot, but now I am on a journey of self-improvement. I am sorry for dumping all this. This whole chat should be a yes or no thing, but I wrote a whole life summary.
Oh my god I'm so sorry you had to go through that, you're so strong for still fighting. I'm the same age as you and struggling w ana too, but we can win this disorder❤️
i didnt go through hating myself bc of an eating disorder but i did have body dysmorphia and i totally know how it feels. i had a terrible mindset for around 2 years where i was so lonely and couldnt enjoy doing anything. i think what helped me the most was finding a sport that i was really passionate about, as it allowed me to take my mind off how i look as well us taking up a lot of my time and energy, so i dont have the time to worry about it. it doesnt have to be a sport, but i think the best thing to do to stop obsessing is to find something youre really passionate about and spend lots of time on it.
The end of the video low-key made me think that we all are kinda like ghosts possessing a body and you just realized you can't treat your "vessel" bad otherwise you will have to wait very long before you can possess another vessel again, and I think that is beautiful
Via I was never called beautiful too. Like never until one of my friends randomly called me beautiful cause she noticed putting myself down , at 21 year. It felt bad. I felt like I was overreacting. But I was hurt. Seeing you cry , cause i cried and told her that too. I realised it wasnt our fault. We were regular humans seeking validation and love. And that need wasn't fulfilled. If I would meet high-school via maybe I would say you everyday you look beautiful. We are beautiful via internally too.
My mother also took a picture of me to show me how I looked like from behind. But it hurt me when my sister made a video and showed me how my hips were so fat. Honestly, from day on, I have started to cover up myself from back even more. I feel like I don't deserve to wear anything pretty or beautiful.
this is the first video that has actually helped me, it truly feels genuine. im currently overweight and struggling with how i look, any picture of me/remembering how i look i find disgusting, so much that it stops me from enjoying time with my friends or enjoying my hobbies that i get stuck in time. this video makes me see things in a different way and sparks a light of hope. thank you soo much for speaking about this topic!
I completely understand that thing about seeing your body as your younger self :') a couple years ago i was seriously thinking of ending my life. I was living at home at the time and my mum had these photos of me as a baby. She told me she used to keep them on her desk at work in her old job. And that made me almost burst into tears. That's her baby. I thought about hurting her baby. How could I do that to her? How could I even think about harming that little girl. Being a biologist as well made me feel so guilty because it made me think about how hard my body was working to keep me alive and healthy, and I treated it like that.
aww this made me cry 🥺 the part when you talked about your body being like a little girl who is dependent on you. Although I’ve never had an eating disorder, this video reminds me of how negative my self talk used to be towards myself, how abusive those words were. I’m so glad you’re doing better than you were in high school, and we love you too via!
Via li I can relate to you in so many levels. I never got any attention in my teenage years and was never been in relationship. I was very introvert also being average no one would approach me. Now I'm almost 21 and I've come to peace with everything. I'm glad I found this community. I dont feel like I'm left out anymore
My friends laughed and mocked me for having belly fat a long time ago, I too have never been called beautiful, I exercise more than I need to. If by any chance someone tells me "I gained weight" it gets worse- I stop eating. When I became very very thin due to excessive exercising and not eating properly, my parents were scared and said I look malnutritioned and should eat but my "friends" said I looked pretty. I was 16/17 when this happened. Now I am 25 and have body dismorphia. I am still trying to heal from all of these but it takes time. ❤
i dont think you understand how badly this touched me , as someone who grew up "overweight" and had such a clear horrible relationship with food (still do -) but people around me didnt think its a big deal bc im overweight , and as someone who was told "are you eating your siblings food?" as a joke bc theyre skinny and im not , someone who was forced to be on a diet since 5th grade , someone who developed being a "picky eater" bc the constant thought of food just makes me feel sick to my stomach , someone who had to throw up after every meal , drink huge amount of water to get rid of "calories" after or work out just to feel like i got rid of that slice of the bread i had , as someone who hate it when people take group pics and as someone who heard shitty things everyday for a literal living , i cried watching this , hearing you describing a very familiar life of mine made me feel seen for the very firt time in my whole sixteen years of living , especially that youre one of my "comfort youtubers" , so i really wanna thank you from the deepest point of my heart , thank you for recording and posting this Via , that meant so much to me
I could relate so much with her because I've dealt with food until last month where I would have a mental breakdown and questioned myself as to why I was hurting myself with food.I'm 24 and the issues with food made me quit college.I was depressed and took medications a lot.And I've been told as well that I was not beautiful and I really want yo change that narrative.Thankyou Via for this awesome video❤
Tysm, I often restrict myself in a way of doing things, like going on a walk. This helps me a lot because now I realise other people struggle/struggled with it too.
as someone who has been in a constant battle with disordered eating and mental health struggles for around 5 years now and still struggling, i want to thank you so much for making this video. you posting this video is so brave and inspiring for someone like me. seeing stuff like this makes me want to get better so bad and gives me hope that someday i will. thankyou via
This video is really something I've been needing for the past 4-5 years.. it gives me hope. I really related with the household stuff and all, makes me hope that things will actually get better when I leave. Thanks via you give me hope, I've watched every self help video but they're just like something to procrastinate, I listen to it but it never actually gets to me. You're one of the fews if not the only one I feel like understands me
About the last words you said at the end of the video, Via please don’t be sorry to touch a serious topic. I found your channel not so long ago but I really love it, and this is one of the reasons. Your videos have a perfect balance of vulnerability while also being a place of comfort and heartwarming. Talking about these kinds of topics is also a part of it. So as long as you feel comfortable talking about this kind of things I think you shouldn’t worry about posting it. Also I have these same struggles and I want you to know that this wasn’t triggering at all, you talk it from a great point of view. Sending you lots of love and I’m so sorry you went through all of that but I’m happy you are in a much better place right now❤️🩹
you're an absolutely beautiful young woman, let nobody tell you otherwise. i'm so sorry you grew up in a household like that. my therapist and i are finally working on my eating disorder together, my story regarding that's pretty similar to yours, and like... my therapist basically told me that once you approach your body with a sense of compassion and act out of love instead of shame/fear, your relationship with food won't necessarily heal, but it'll be a lot easier to tackle that. the thought of your body loving you unconditionally is definitely a helpful one for me, i'll definitely be taking that with me
Thank you immensely for your vulnerability and for sharing your story, Via! I've been battling my binge eating disorder for quite some time now, and I've watched numerous videos in the hopes of changing how I perceive myself. Your video really struck a chord with me; it brought tears to my eyes. I've never felt so understood and seen someone who has gone through such similar experiences. Viewing myself as someone who cares for me, nurtures me, and keeps me warm is truly a powerful perspective! I'm determined to integrate this mindset more into my daily life. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your story with us. Not only are you treating yourself with the love you deserve, but you're also helping countless others do the same. You're truly incredible.💓
it really hit when u said that these obsessive and self-deprecating thoughts about food and ur body make u unable to enjoy life. Its constantly on my mind, when im out with friends, when im out in the world, when imjust trying to exist. its so so limiting and hard. ive been struggling so hard, thank you for this video. I have been preventing myself from living, truly. im glad ur video came when it did, I appreciate you.
thank you for your authenticity! i didn't have eating disorder but I'm now healing my ptsd. and it's interesting how disorders are similar in terms of how you fixate on just one thing and your whole life just revolves around it. as for me with ptsd, my life just revolves around places and certain behavioral patterns that are related to my trauma. and to me, it's so sad that with time it's not only your disorder, but certain patterns or just overall feeling of shame and sadness that crop up due to the disorder. because once you lose control over something, it's very hard to believe that you'll be able to change it and heal. not to mention all the regret and hatred that come once you realized how messed up your childhood was and how unsafe you felt as a kid. :( I'm so happy that you feel much better now! Thank you for this video!
She is a comfort person, inspirational person, big sister and the list goes on......She just makes me realize how many things I am missing, just can't express how much I luv and respect her. Love u ❤🩹 and thanks a lot❣
Thank you so much for this video, I'm also almost crying now... Feeling so related and just want to hug you right now, you're such a sweetheart and brave beautiful creature! Thank you Thank you Thank you from the bottom of my heart 💕🤍
everything Via said is SO REALLLL 😭 esp the slowing down of ur metabolism bcs of starving urself and not going out bcs of thinking that everybody is judging u. i am still battling with my anorexia nervosa ed and it's hellllll like i can't eat this eat that cause it's "off-limits". i have been trying to heal but whenever i look at my body i just relapse and not eat while also do heavy workouts. i still have a lot of things to say but i can't find the words to say ykyk. so, Via thank u for this, thank u for sharing ur experience, and thank u for the making me realize more things if i keep losing to my ed ❤️🩹
Thank you for being brave and honest - it takes a lot to share this very vulnerable part of yourself in public. This video may be the words someone else (going through what you have/are) needs to hear today and might be the very catalyst needed to get support for what they are experiencing. Blessings your way, and continued strength. xx
Via I sincerely want you to know your videos are literally saving my life. I love you and i so badly wanted to feel accepted by everyone. I relate to this entire video start to finish. Every single word you spoke in this video is something that I felt so deeply understood by and I can’t explain how much you mean to me and how I love and appreciate your vulnerability on this channel. You are changing so many lives babe. You have such a beautiful heart and it shows because youre not only beautiful aesthetically you are beautiful no matter what. You’re one of the most beautiful people that exist in this world and I’m so sorry you were robbed of feeling beautiful for so long. i cried with you watching this video and that little girl you mentioned would be so unbelievably proud to know that you impacted so many other beautiful little girls out there that are taught to be ashamed of themselves for no reason. You are incredible.
Thank you so so much for this Via! 💞 I wasted all my teenage years being terrified of what others might think of me. I was scared of going out because I didn't want to be near food, and I never talked to anyone new as I was scared of judgment. Now I'm 20, I'm terrified of intimacy, can't wear a tank top and I'm still haunted by my old ED thoughts sometimes. It really does ruin your life. I would give everything to go back and tell my 12 years old self to not worry that much about my body. I was so young, yet I made myself go through so much... It took me 6 years to get rid of this horrible sickness, and I'm still growing. Last year, I started to work out again, for my own health this time, and I finally feel like I'm taking care of myself! If you are a teenager and going through this, just know that it's absolutely NOT worth it. I didn't believe those words myself a few years ago, but now I realize that I will never be the same again and it is truly sad. Take care of yourself, ask for help if you need to, but especially have a bit of compassion for yourself. You are human, not a Barbie, your body will change over time, and that's okay! It's okay if you don't like what you see in the mirror, but that doesn't give you the right to hurt and punish your body. You will never be happy until you start to respect yourself. You only get one body, so take care of it, please! ❤🩹
Watching this gave me the direct call that I was trying to avoid numerous times. I was really wasting my time torturing myself and missing opportunities, I'm glad that I watched this video to make myself feel that HIT that I was always avoiding. I know I need it and the half of me needs to hear it really. Thank you!
The family thing is exactly what I’m going through and while I’m really sorry you went through it it feels relieving to know that my “food is my only controllable factor” mindset isn’t something I struggle with alone
Eating disorders are absolutely insane and everytime I think I’ve gotten out of it and recovered I’m back as quickly as it ended I hate it here. It’s gotten to the point that sometimes I just genuinely forget to eat until my friend asks me about if and what I ate to keep me on track but hopefully I get better and build my appetite back up 🤞🏾
Aww Via when I first saw you I was like “omg she is beautiful, rlly gorgeous!!” this is something that is personal and very sensitive to talk about but I’m glad you are able to be open enough with us and express this about yourself, I know how it is living in an Asian household because I am half Asian and they are very judgmental and out of pocket with their words and growing up with that hurts and I’ve also had negative thoughts about myself but instead it was about my skin color and they used to bully and tease me, it takes some time and it’s a very emotional journey to go through to be content within yourself but I’m glad that you found that peace within yourself and food, you are strong!! 💓💓
Thank you for making this video. A few days ago, I started realized that I'm obsessed to what I eat or not and that's not okay. My main goal of this year is to be able be health and safe but do not worry so much about it. (Sorry, English is my second language but I try to do my best).
I struggle with binge and emotional eating, and I just wanted to say big thank you. After trying to lose weight for who knows which time I gained ever more that I lost. Right now I know that if I still focus only on losing weight and not on loving and nourishing my body, I'll not go anywhere. But loving and taking care of your body after YEARS of self-hatred is just so fucking hard. I don't even know how it feels to love yourself unconditionally. You gave me hope that recovery is possible. For anyone reading this, you can do it! Do not give up and have a great day
I just want to tell you that your videos give me positive energy and motivate me, whenever I am sad or upset I watch your videos and feel better, after watching your videos I want to go out live and be happy I really like the way you give us the message with energy and I just love you Keep going and never give up❤ Out of the concept but I have an idea to make the intro for the next video by opening the fridge and you pop out saying hi and ...like that I don't know if you understood me but yaa
i have been struggling with severe anorexia for almost 3 years now and have been in and out of hospitals since the age of 13 but this hit me more than anything else ever has. thank you for talking about this i needed to hear it.
11:45 you're making me cry with you. My sister passed away at two years old. Such a little baby who was so active walking all over the house got sick and was in the hospital for a month before passing away. She couldn't even walk in that month. So I really feel guilty when I don't take care of my body because I'm also very healthy. And even when my sister wanted to walk around her body couldn't. So I feel guilty too when I just use my time to lay around all day watching things on the internet.
when you were telling us about how you were never called beautiful as a kid i felt it so much. I almost cried myself. nobody deserves to be treated like that. nobody deserves to hate themselves. i felt everything you said - waking up hungry and not being able to eat, counting hours before going to bed because you just want to pause that hunger. Via, you're very, very strong. I'm very glad you're in a good relationship with food now. ED is one of the hardest things i've ever been through and it breaks my heart hearing other people having gone through the same. but also, i don't feel alone in my struggle. thank you so much for sharing your experience and talking about this. and you are beautiful, both inside and outside♥
Since recently I've been in recovery and kind of was hitting a relapse but then I saw your video, I started crying when you cried too bc EXACTLY like you said "how can I do this to my body" and just the way you can feel her fighting to still keep you alive... thank you so much for this video! Im very happy you are having a better relationship with food and I hope you can continue to grow within yourself and reach more healing for the things that have happened to you :)
Thank uuu sooo much for inspiration 🥹😭💗I'm literally sobbing 😭I've had Ed for more than 3 years already but haven't still got out of it😭. Every single time I try to think positively about my body, people start commenting on it which makes me starve myself and after that binge eating starts💔this cycle seems endless sometimes. But throughout time I hope I'm gonna make it, I'm gonna get out of this loop and see my happiest self, who just enjoys every moment of her life and every inch of her body. Luv ya Via💗🫂
Oh via i'm so thankful that you made this video! You have no clue, i grew up overweight, beliving that nobody never would love me because the way i looked, today i'm okay with myself and finilly getting compliments lol, but my relatioship with food never get better. It's so confortable heard about this and think "i'm not alone"
As someone who still struggles with ed and body image issues, thank you. Thank you so much for being brave, and talking from the depths of your heart. I will be kinder to myself and the little girl in me from now on🤍
Seriously, your videos are helping me a lot. I was severely underweight when I was a teen but when I went to college and move out from home I kinda recover, even my period came back. The thing is that lately I have been looking at my old pictures wishing I was that skinny again, I’ve been feeling desperate and in literally hell, Im’m afraid of myself. I don’t want to study, sleep, eat or even live, I feel alone here, but I’m glad I came across your channel. Thank you!!
im not even saying that because of the sake of saying it but as an artist i find you to be very pretty in a sense that is like a joyous moment just very pure beauty in a sense ..just wanted to say that 😙
:( similar situation to you. My parents call me things like "thunder thighs" and "bulky" all the time and tell me my butt is so big and squeeze my sides. They even encouraged other family members to make fun of me. But the thing is I was always very fit. Like I was in track, cross country, basketball, and then I was the rock-climbing captain but their comments made me seriously consider extreme diets like the one where all you eat in a day is an apple and a sweet potato. Then I'd binge even though I wasn't hungry while feeling incredibly guilty. It took time away from my family and a lot of self confidence to view my body in a good way and now I'm trying to eat healthier. Thank you for sharing your story
this made me burst of tears : ' ) thank you for making this your channel is a safe place for me and others this is not an easy topic to talk about : ( thank you for doing so it makes me feel less alone with the disorder i'm living with
From my whole heart, thank you for sharing this. Just hearing your story made me feel less alone going through this as I grew up in a similiar situation as you, grew up in an asian household where there was a toxic relationship with food. I've always felt obligated to eat what was given on my plate or finish my food despite being full because "kids in Africa don't have food", so I was constantly being force fed. It doesn't help that my dad is a chef and constantly cooks food for us, and I understood their sentiment as no parent wants to see their kids starve. I always envied those that could eat so much and lose it all so quickly or never gain anything, in fact it was the one thing my mom prided and boasted about herself, always boasted about gaining 1kg from eating so much food in one evening but it never showed on her body. I never hated how I looked, yes I may be a little overweight currently from working overtime and eating fast food for a couple of weeks, but I am happy with my body as it is my body, and no one but me can say if they like my body or not as it is my body and no one else. If certain clothes don't look good on me, I will look for something else that will flatter my body and make me feel confident with myself. My mom constantly shames me for having a big butt from sitting all day, and always tells me to do exercise, yet always criticises me for my every action, so I will feel judgement no matter what I do. I once starved myself for 2 days and lost a load of weight, and she still called me fat. I feel the only way to get her approval is if I become anorexic and I don't want that for myself. I will also feel that if I do get to the stage of anorexia, she will tell me that I'm too skinny and that I need to eat more, and it then becomes an unhealthy cycle. I can't wait to move out soon as I can take care of my body the way I want and not for anyone else but myself. Sorry for writing so much, I just wanted to say that I appreciate you sharing your story and struggles and I heavily resonate. If anyone has read this far, thanks 👍
I'm 16 and severely overweight for my age. I too have never been called beautiful. But the things you have gone through is unimaginable to me. I have had my parents support as far as I remember. My relatives do pressure me into losing weight (also to grow taller). I have a sister and brother who do call me fatty without meaning it and I laugh with them too. But sometimes when I'm already feeling depressed cause of my weight I find myself crying to myself in my room after pretending to not be hurt by their comments. If you are going through a hard time please feel free to vent your feelings down below. We all can OVERCOME this!!
cried my shit out while watching lol i've been struggling with ed for idk how many years, but probably around 8 and still counting. it started in school when i gained some weight and then got constantly bullied because of it. still hate how my body looks and want to cry almost every day even though i lost some weight. i've never starved completely but ofc restricted myself a lot and even nowadays i'm thinking about "eating less". but i really hope one day i will think about these times as something that "was" and not still "is". thank you for this video, Via! and thank you for telling this story. a little reminder for everyone who sees this: you are beautiful and worthy of every little thing. keep going and don't give up
ED is tough, and people rarely give helpful advice (it's not like we don't "know" we have a bad relationship with food, a worse one with our body, and not the correct tools to deal with our triggers, none of the criticisms we hear help whatsoever) so I really appreciate you sharing your experience, and agree with all your points - especially on self-forgiveness & self-love !! Tbh I still struggle a bit these days, with highs & lows but during the highs, it's not like I do better on the ED front ... it's everything else that makes it easier to control it : when life is less stressful, when I'm having the time of my life being fully engrossed in some activity that ED or my body/mental issues aren't even in my thoughts so I "naturally" tend to have much better control over my impulses ... when all my energy goes into trying to not have everything fall part, impulses easily take over.
Thank you so much for this video. I'm a teen who's at big risk of an ed. You really help me and probably lots of other teens. You're beautiful girl, and the fact that you made this video shows that you have a good heart too❤
Thank you so much for this video. I'm 33 and am currently the heaviest I ever was. I've struggled with my weight my whole life but never like this. I too have/still suffer from BED, and your video really woke me the hell up. I never thought of treating my body as a *she* rather than an *it*, but I am now and will for the rest of my journey.
When I saw you in the recommendations, I put off watching for a long time and I regret it, because what I heard seemed to be the same as everywhere else, but it was your "train of thought" that seemed to touch the soul, especially when you cried, explaining that the body is literally a living being... Mindblowing:D I don’t seem to torture myself, but I’m still overweight, but after your story, I realized that I still have points to work on, so thank you By the way, I’m watching you for the first time and I didn’t expect such a serious and mature voice from such a gentle girl (I myself have a very “soft” and quiet voice, and I expected about the same, but you burst in and blew my mind set to hell with your "bad words":D And also you reminded me of Chloe with your speaking, she's from the game Life is Strange, she is my favorite character UwU) Perhaps the comment is a little inappropriate in places, but I wanted to speak out precisely after the comfort that I felt from your video; and also, English isn't my native language, so the translation may sound strange, sorry😅
I relate to having unsupportive parents. Im going to college this fall and hoping i can finally have the chance to fix my mindset and actually see myself as my own person
❤️❤️❤️ this video came at the right time. We young girls can be so hard on us, especially when parents make comments on it, even when it’s rare, it just kinda always sticks with you, girls, especially girls who’ve never been loved cause of weight, you’re not alone. And you’re worthy of love, even at your worst❤️
I can say that i relate so much with many of the thoughts of this video, now i have 22 years but i have anorexia when i was 15 years old and it was a very dark time for me, even when i grew in a family with full of love i had a very low selfsteem, this get bigger when i was in my first years as a teeneger, cuz i was not feel beautiful and never apart of my family said i was pretty sincerely, this grew so much for the fact that never someone had a love interest of me but many of my friends had it, so for me in that time even when i was in the normal weight the solution was lose weight, in the first time was a little bit, but soon this became a huge obsession for me until the point that every person around me notice that i was not good and all of them looked me sadly, even some people called me crazy, that time i became in such a sad, angry and lonely person, i hated so much to myself to the point that i tought i was a monster cuz i hurt to my family in the process too. It's a really long process heal so many scars and change your mind, for me when i gain weight again i was so scared, and even when physically i was good, my mind was not. Now i have a better relation with my mind the things tooked time but it's all for good, now i can a said i'm more happy and i'm not ashamed of my body. Thank you via for being my safe place
thank you for posting this via , , it truly makes me feel less alone , , seeing this in a bad relapse right now and i couldn’t help but tear up , , this one really hit for me ; every word made me reflect on my journey in regards to my ed . im forever grateful that you openly speak about this stuff , , i hope you’ve been taking care of yourself ! here’s to recovery 💌
via, thank you so much for sharing your story and sharing some advice. i wish 21 year old me had this video available because she would’ve gotten help sooner rather than later
11:11 this is so true y'all please please PLEASE APPRECIATE YOUR BODY and FOOD more! Just when I finally healed my relationship with food, I was diagnosed with chronic gastritis and GERD after an infection :/ now food hurts to physically eat although I literally WANT to eat, and drinking water is a struggle since it messes up my gut/it doesn't go well with solid food. I've been struggling for 8 months now, meds didn't work and now there's nothing much I can do since it's a life-long condition ;-; I miss soups, hotpot, eating my favourite desserts... enjoying full-sized meals with fam and friends... It's really important to take care of your health, you only have one body, so please treat it right!!!
idk why but after watching your videos..I've felt that i'm basically the exact same younger version of you..the circumstances..the reactions...problems everything..and I hope my future would also look the same like yours
i am also fighting an ED for years now, but only last week i felt able to talk about this with my therapist. It's NOT an easy thing to live with or to talk abt. Thanks Via for the post and for making me realize that i'm not alone and that i never will be... seeing here all these other girls talking abt their experiences, we all have the back of each other ❤ we all can overcome this someday, and everything WILL BE BETTER !!!!!!
im struggling with eating and have been since i was 10/11. im turning 14 in a few months and i want to get better but i cant talk about it. every time i think of not eating i watch this and this really helps!! tysm
I feel like self-care is always talked about as something we need to do all the time, and while I know self-care is so important and nuanced, I also think sometimes life is just about survival. And we try to find ways to cope with stress and just get by as best we can, and it's not always the best method we choose. But we're all just trying to get through life in one piece. Thank you for being so open with your story, Via. It's really helpful, and you're a really strong person. Are you okay after sharing this?
‼️TW‼️ pls don’t Read this if sh, ed etc.. triggers you I don’t want to make you feel uncomfortable so a warning I doubt anyone’s gonna read this anyway but erm‼️ this video helped me sm you don’t know how much I appreciate it I’ve been suffering from anorexia since I was 9 and it’s haunting me I wish I could be like other people, like normal people. growing up in my environment my family used to make comments about my body especially my mother. she would tell me stuff like "are you really gonna eat all that?" Whenever I tried to eat something no matter how small it was. She was the cause of my eating disorder. Im 15 currently now and I feel so sick my thoughts are just "starve you’re not skinny enough" growing up with an eating disorder I grew a habit of counting my calories and calbs and it’s terrible, my lack of blood sugar makes me want to faint when I was between 9 and 10 I was not even fat I was just a little chubby but only a few words that come out of your friends, families, relatives mouths can ruin your entire life. I was and still am bullied by my friends for looking like "a skeleton" or looking too skinny. I’m currently on my 6th day of starving myself tbh I feel like I’m gonna faint at any moment, I currently weight 44 KGS I’m not even sure if this is healthy for my age but I honestly don’t even care anymore, my anorexia also caused me to have severe depression and it’s Leads me to sh I feel so inhumane I honestly don’t even know what to do anymore, whoever reads this stay strong ilysm you’re not alone
thank you for speaking the things from the back of my mind that i understand but refuse to admit out loud. an eating disorder is not fun, and trying to fix that mindset is one of the most difficult things i’ve ever done. i’m constantly battling myself… but really for what?
I really needed this video so I'm thankful that you decided to upload it despite your initial fears. I've been attempting to lose weight using unhealthy methods despite knowing the harm it'll cause because I'm scared that I'm becoming ugly and no one will like me meaning they'll abandon me(it sounds a bit silly but its true). I'm honestly a bit sad I didn't find your channel much earlier since it probably would've helped younger me realise that she/me are precious who only have one life and shouldn't waste it on unreachable goals(my goal used to be 35kg). I'm happy that you were able to break away from your bad eating habits and I hope you get better soon. I can't wait for your next video! 😊
This is scarily relatable. I currently have anorexia at 14, even though I'm considered skinny, probably due to media. I'd pretend to eat around my friends, but honestly, I don't even know how much longer I can continue doing this for. Sometimes when I finally do eat, my friends say that I look like I'm about to cry. I joke about it a lot in order to mask it, but anorexia has brought along depression, leading to SH and insomnia. All I've been doing is starve and overexercise. My brain is only telling me "Starve. You're not skinny enough? Oh? You say you're only 47kg? Not enough." I've maybe starved for 4 days straight by now? And I get so much brain fog and the lack of blood sugar makes me shake so much. I feel like at any point I might faint during my dance or fencing sessions.
this is a increadible video thank you , i struggled in school with anorexia and i feel better after i watched your video and i saw that im not alone with this, my family didnt help me to get better and i feel like eating disorders are so much misunderstood and the victims have such a hard time to find help because my experience is that no one takes you seriously and everybody says: "Just eat more" or "Just dont struggle with food" .
Via, you are literally the older sister I wish I had growing up. I love hearing you talk in your videos and would love to hear more of your thoughts on girlhood! Thank you for sharing such beautiful advice ❤
I have suffered from this condition during my last year in uni, I didn't realize it then but i had anxiety and i found myself eating lots of unhealthy stuff just because of it, Also developed an unhealthy relationship with coffee cause it literally was the only good thing in my day! I had it rough i even developed anxiety attacks...again i didn't even realize it but now that i do I'll tell yall to take it easy and go to a therapist,in case u can't afford it like me , be patient it shall pass ❤
To anyone going through an eating disorder you’re not alone and life is already hard as it is, take care of yourself raise boundaries. I think learning where your limits are sucks but that’s part of growing up so don’t resent it too much bounce back!! ❣️
Hi Via! I usually never comment on people's videos, but there's just something about yours that makes me feel like you're my friend and I can talk to you :) I just want to thank you for being so brave and vulnerable at the same time. I've never learned so much from someone as much as I do with you. I'm really happy I've found your videos
Thank you so much for making this video, Via. You’ve been my role model for months now and you talking about your experience made me feel less alone. I love you and your videos so much, watching your videos brings me so much comfort. I will never stop recommending your channel to my friends. You’ve helped me create a healthier mindset and i’m genuinely so grateful for you. Thank you and take care!
i want to make it clear that: the picture in the thumbnail was me in the high school where my binging was at an all time high (left) and the other photo (right) was a photo taken a few days ago where i am nourishing my body and also working out! i don’t want any of you guys to assume that it was the aftermath of my ed.
You’re so strong via I’m so happy and proud of the person you have become ✨
Via you are sooo beautiful and brave and I love you soo much💞 You are a big inspiration for me. I have some problems and I am trying overcome them but we need to live life in the best way cuz we live once . Take care yourself you are precious to me girll🤍🤍🤍
I have a genuine question Via, did the eat disorder encourage you to go vegetarian and was it a hard transition? Btw I am very proud of you🤍not only for the decision to give your body the love it deserves but also for all you have accomplished in the past year !
I love you so much for this comment
goodbye i thought that was a photo of wonyoung
"People treating you badly doesn't give you the right to treat yourself badly" this touched my heart so bad... i love you via
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It’s so tragic thinking of your body as a lover whose love will never be reciprocated. It’s like a child seeking to be something great for your praise, only for you to call it “ugly” and physically harm it. The perspective change really alters my own as it makes me feel like a villain and it’s essentially what I am. Your body is the only one you’ll ever get so make sure to love it as much as it loves you.
this is really profound
this comment hit so deeply, wow. thank you for that, truly
Unconditional love is a good thing. It means loving something with no bounds. Do you mean unrequited, which means a love which is one sided?
@@Maomaomahu yes I think that’s more fitting, thank you for the clarification I’ll make sure to fix it!
Except I’m not insane and live in an adult body that is my own. We aren’t separate entities. I’m literally my body. It’s not that deep.
“I was never called beautiful”… it hurts that soo many beautiful souls have not been told how gorgeous they are.. I hope that you give yourself all the love you deserve!!!
honestly getting this during a really bad relapse feels like a sign
EDIT: thank you guys so much for the support. i’ve had my ups and downs since this relapse but i’ve kept going. i’ve been trying not to get irritated with myself each time i relapse because, as somebody in the replies said, healing isn’t linear. but it’s baby steps for now. and i hope the rest of you are doing good.
best wishes for recovery :( you’ve got this
Yeah this is BIG sign !
stay strong fam i believe in you
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healing is non linear, just keep on going, there is always tomorrow, you can do it, you will be okay eventually
you got this ! from one person in recovery to another
"just because other people treat you horribly doesn't give you the right to treat yourself horribly too" - damn, that it hard
That's the best advice someone can ever give
honestly, ive been aware of my eating disorder, which was mostly rooted in my mind from me being insecure, for over a year now. im trying to get better at eating and seeing food not as a "i eat something just to stay alive" and my habits are bad still, but i love to see somebody else recover. it makes me motivated, thank you so much for this video
Hey good for you every day you’re getting better. I’m proud of you.
“i was scared of drinking boba” and that line hurt my heart fr
My dad used to comment on my weight all the time and it really affects the brain and becomes a problem. I also went from binging to fasting and after losing weight I still saw myself has over weight but I wasn’t. I don’t understand why people have to talk about weight so much. I can’t believe the rude things your parents said to you 🥲breaks my heart
Same story of me. I understand you😢
Thinking of my body as a separate living being has also also helped me; "she is there to love you unconditionally" is a really powerful mindset! 🥰🥰
Your body IS YOU. She’s a part of you, the vessel you carry to move through life. With a ED, you think of your body as a possession when it is completely who you are. The body you carry shapes you.
Kaeya pfp !! also tysm this helped sm
via is literally one of my fav ytubers and therapist i love her soo muchh
when you started explaining how it is important to treat your body like its own being, almost like an inner child, I felt my heart crack..I'm 16 years old (going on 17 this year) and I've spent too much time worrying about my body. time and time again i would restrict/binge myself to where I felt like I was being a burden for no reason to my parents by saying things like "oh, I can't have that ice cream because it doesn't fit into my deficit", forgetting that my body ISNT EVEN FULLY DEVELOPED YET. i honestly admire the bravery you have in eating, travelling, and let alone vlogging yourself. thank you for this video
I am the same way, this video is going to help me a lot!!
As a person who struggled with eating disorder for 5 years and completely ruined my health , my hair,body,nails,skin , even it affected my height growth … this video helped a lot , thank you so much via you are amazing
Same, we got this bro.. I wanna change for better once for all.
Im literally fucking balding I’m always tired I just hate this so much I’m trying to get better adghghk
I developed anorexia when I was just 9 years old. My childhood was ruined because of that, but I am glad to be born in this era where everything is at my fingertips. These types of videos have been helping me since then. I am 15 now, but I still have an unhealthy relationship with food. Sometimes I eat a lot, and some days I eat nothing. But when I binge eat, I see myself instantly fat in front of the mirror and I feel like total crap after that. I feel aggression, self-hatred, and more. I do 1 hour of workout daily, and as a human, there are those days when I didn't do my workout merely because of my school and studies. Because of that, I feel like trash thrown outside. I am on a journey of self-improvement, although my illness does affect my height, and because of that, I am 4'11 while being in class 9. No one in my family actually believed in eating disorders; they used to think that I was being stubborn, starving myself, while being a pain in the ass for my parents. They told me that I was ungrateful and spoiled. According to them, that was the reason for me starving myself. This actually hurts when I think about it this way. My parents used to beat me, a nine-year-old, so that they could force me to eat something, and then I would be left with bruises all over my body. It hurts. I went through a lot, but now I am on a journey of self-improvement. I am sorry for dumping all this.
This whole chat should be a yes or no thing, but I wrote a whole life summary.
Oh my god I'm so sorry you had to go through that, you're so strong for still fighting. I'm the same age as you and struggling w ana too, but we can win this disorder❤️
@@winefish5006 hope u recover soon
i didnt go through hating myself bc of an eating disorder but i did have body dysmorphia and i totally know how it feels. i had a terrible mindset for around 2 years where i was so lonely and couldnt enjoy doing anything. i think what helped me the most was finding a sport that i was really passionate about, as it allowed me to take my mind off how i look as well us taking up a lot of my time and energy, so i dont have the time to worry about it. it doesnt have to be a sport, but i think the best thing to do to stop obsessing is to find something youre really passionate about and spend lots of time on it.
The end of the video low-key made me think that we all are kinda like ghosts possessing a body and you just realized you can't treat your "vessel" bad otherwise you will have to wait very long before you can possess another vessel again, and I think that is beautiful
I really love the fact that you are so genuine 😭🤌🏼
Via I was never called beautiful too. Like never until one of my friends randomly called me beautiful cause she noticed putting myself down , at 21 year. It felt bad. I felt like I was overreacting. But I was hurt. Seeing you cry , cause i cried and told her that too. I realised it wasnt our fault. We were regular humans seeking validation and love. And that need wasn't fulfilled. If I would meet high-school via maybe I would say you everyday you look beautiful. We are beautiful via internally too.
люблю когда любимые блогеры выкладывают видео о том, с чем ты сталкиваешься в данный период своей жизни
это как знак от вселенной 😭
Я впервые вижу русские комментарии на канале Вии, афигеть… ты со всем справишься, солнце 🫶🏻🤍
@@radaheyyyy сейм хахаха! спасибо большое 😭🤍
У тебя все получится, главное не дави на себя
@@sonyamaslova9837 спасибо 🥺
YESSS FOR REALL😭💗💗
My mother also took a picture of me to show me how I looked like from behind. But it hurt me when my sister made a video and showed me how my hips were so fat. Honestly, from day on, I have started to cover up myself from back even more. I feel like I don't deserve to wear anything pretty or beautiful.
this is the first video that has actually helped me, it truly feels genuine. im currently overweight and struggling with how i look, any picture of me/remembering how i look i find disgusting, so much that it stops me from enjoying time with my friends or enjoying my hobbies that i get stuck in time. this video makes me see things in a different way and sparks a light of hope. thank you soo much for speaking about this topic!
I completely understand that thing about seeing your body as your younger self :') a couple years ago i was seriously thinking of ending my life. I was living at home at the time and my mum had these photos of me as a baby. She told me she used to keep them on her desk at work in her old job. And that made me almost burst into tears. That's her baby. I thought about hurting her baby. How could I do that to her? How could I even think about harming that little girl.
Being a biologist as well made me feel so guilty because it made me think about how hard my body was working to keep me alive and healthy, and I treated it like that.
aww this made me cry 🥺 the part when you talked about your body being like a little girl who is dependent on you. Although I’ve never had an eating disorder, this video reminds me of how negative my self talk used to be towards myself, how abusive those words were. I’m so glad you’re doing better than you were in high school, and we love you too via!
Via li I can relate to you in so many levels. I never got any attention in my teenage years and was never been in relationship. I was very introvert also being average no one would approach me. Now I'm almost 21 and I've come to peace with everything. I'm glad I found this community. I dont feel like I'm left out anymore
My friends laughed and mocked me for having belly fat a long time ago, I too have never been called beautiful, I exercise more than I need to. If by any chance someone tells me "I gained weight" it gets worse- I stop eating. When I became very very thin due to excessive exercising and not eating properly, my parents were scared and said I look malnutritioned and should eat but my "friends" said I looked pretty. I was 16/17 when this happened. Now I am 25 and have body dismorphia.
I am still trying to heal from all of these but it takes time. ❤
You got thisss
i dont think you understand how badly this touched me , as someone who grew up "overweight" and had such a clear horrible relationship with food (still do -) but people around me didnt think its a big deal bc im overweight , and as someone who was told "are you eating your siblings food?" as a joke bc theyre skinny and im not , someone who was forced to be on a diet since 5th grade , someone who developed being a "picky eater" bc the constant thought of food just makes me feel sick to my stomach , someone who had to throw up after every meal , drink huge amount of water to get rid of "calories" after or work out just to feel like i got rid of that slice of the bread i had , as someone who hate it when people take group pics and as someone who heard shitty things everyday for a literal living , i cried watching this , hearing you describing a very familiar life of mine made me feel seen for the very firt time in my whole sixteen years of living , especially that youre one of my "comfort youtubers" , so i really wanna thank you from the deepest point of my heart ,
thank you for recording and posting this Via , that meant so much to me
Your story cannot offend anyone, because it is YOURS!
I could relate so much with her because I've dealt with food until last month where I would have a mental breakdown and questioned myself as to why I was hurting myself with food.I'm 24 and the issues with food made me quit college.I was depressed and took medications a lot.And I've been told as well that I was not beautiful and I really want yo change that narrative.Thankyou Via for this awesome video❤
"she is dependent on you, she is there to love you unconditionally" . This changed something so big in me, thank you so much via.
Tysm, I often restrict myself in a way of doing things, like going on a walk. This helps me a lot because now I realise other people struggle/struggled with it too.
as someone who has been in a constant battle with disordered eating and mental health struggles for around 5 years now and still struggling, i want to thank you so much for making this video. you posting this video is so brave and inspiring for someone like me. seeing stuff like this makes me want to get better so bad and gives me hope that someday i will.
thankyou via
This video is really something I've been needing for the past 4-5 years.. it gives me hope. I really related with the household stuff and all, makes me hope that things will actually get better when I leave. Thanks via you give me hope, I've watched every self help video but they're just like something to procrastinate, I listen to it but it never actually gets to me. You're one of the fews if not the only one I feel like understands me
About the last words you said at the end of the video, Via please don’t be sorry to touch a serious topic.
I found your channel not so long ago but I really love it, and this is one of the reasons. Your videos have a perfect balance of vulnerability while also being a place of comfort and heartwarming. Talking about these kinds of topics is also a part of it. So as long as you feel comfortable talking about this kind of things I think you shouldn’t worry about posting it. Also I have these same struggles and I want you to know that this wasn’t triggering at all, you talk it from a great point of view.
Sending you lots of love and I’m so sorry you went through all of that but I’m happy you are in a much better place right now❤️🩹
you're an absolutely beautiful young woman, let nobody tell you otherwise. i'm so sorry you grew up in a household like that. my therapist and i are finally working on my eating disorder together, my story regarding that's pretty similar to yours, and like... my therapist basically told me that once you approach your body with a sense of compassion and act out of love instead of shame/fear, your relationship with food won't necessarily heal, but it'll be a lot easier to tackle that. the thought of your body loving you unconditionally is definitely a helpful one for me, i'll definitely be taking that with me
Thank you immensely for your vulnerability and for sharing your story, Via! I've been battling my binge eating disorder for quite some time now, and I've watched numerous videos in the hopes of changing how I perceive myself. Your video really struck a chord with me; it brought tears to my eyes. I've never felt so understood and seen someone who has gone through such similar experiences. Viewing myself as someone who cares for me, nurtures me, and keeps me warm is truly a powerful perspective! I'm determined to integrate this mindset more into my daily life. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your story with us. Not only are you treating yourself with the love you deserve, but you're also helping countless others do the same. You're truly incredible.💓
it really hit when u said that these obsessive and self-deprecating thoughts about food and ur body make u unable to enjoy life. Its constantly on my mind, when im out with friends, when im out in the world, when imjust trying to exist. its so so limiting and hard. ive been struggling so hard, thank you for this video. I have been preventing myself from living, truly. im glad ur video came when it did, I appreciate you.
thank you for your authenticity! i didn't have eating disorder but I'm now healing my ptsd. and it's interesting how disorders are similar in terms of how you fixate on just one thing and your whole life just revolves around it. as for me with ptsd, my life just revolves around places and certain behavioral patterns that are related to my trauma. and to me, it's so sad that with time it's not only your disorder, but certain patterns or just overall feeling of shame and sadness that crop up due to the disorder. because once you lose control over something, it's very hard to believe that you'll be able to change it and heal. not to mention all the regret and hatred that come once you realized how messed up your childhood was and how unsafe you felt as a kid. :(
I'm so happy that you feel much better now! Thank you for this video!
She is a comfort person, inspirational person, big sister and the list goes on......She just makes me realize how many things I am missing, just can't express how much I luv and respect her. Love u ❤🩹 and thanks a lot❣
Thank you so much for this video, I'm also almost crying now... Feeling so related and just want to hug you right now, you're such a sweetheart and brave beautiful creature! Thank you Thank you Thank you from the bottom of my heart 💕🤍
everything Via said is SO REALLLL 😭 esp the slowing down of ur metabolism bcs of starving urself and not going out bcs of thinking that everybody is judging u. i am still battling with my anorexia nervosa ed and it's hellllll like i can't eat this eat that cause it's "off-limits". i have been trying to heal but whenever i look at my body i just relapse and not eat while also do heavy workouts. i still have a lot of things to say but i can't find the words to say ykyk. so, Via thank u for this, thank u for sharing ur experience, and thank u for the making me realize more things if i keep losing to my ed ❤️🩹
Thank you for being brave and honest - it takes a lot to share this very vulnerable part of yourself in public. This video may be the words someone else (going through what you have/are) needs to hear today and might be the very catalyst needed to get support for what they are experiencing. Blessings your way, and continued strength. xx
Via I sincerely want you to know your videos are literally saving my life. I love you and i so badly wanted to feel accepted by everyone. I relate to this entire video start to finish. Every single word you spoke in this video is something that I felt so deeply understood by and I can’t explain how much you mean to me and how I love and appreciate your vulnerability on this channel. You are changing so many lives babe. You have such a beautiful heart and it shows because youre not only beautiful aesthetically you are beautiful no matter what. You’re one of the most beautiful people that exist in this world and I’m so sorry you were robbed of feeling beautiful for so long. i cried with you watching this video and that little girl you mentioned would be so unbelievably proud to know that you impacted so many other beautiful little girls out there that are taught to be ashamed of themselves for no reason. You are incredible.
Thank you so so much for this Via! 💞 I wasted all my teenage years being terrified of what others might think of me. I was scared of going out because I didn't want to be near food, and I never talked to anyone new as I was scared of judgment. Now I'm 20, I'm terrified of intimacy, can't wear a tank top and I'm still haunted by my old ED thoughts sometimes. It really does ruin your life. I would give everything to go back and tell my 12 years old self to not worry that much about my body. I was so young, yet I made myself go through so much... It took me 6 years to get rid of this horrible sickness, and I'm still growing. Last year, I started to work out again, for my own health this time, and I finally feel like I'm taking care of myself!
If you are a teenager and going through this, just know that it's absolutely NOT worth it. I didn't believe those words myself a few years ago, but now I realize that I will never be the same again and it is truly sad. Take care of yourself, ask for help if you need to, but especially have a bit of compassion for yourself. You are human, not a Barbie, your body will change over time, and that's okay! It's okay if you don't like what you see in the mirror, but that doesn't give you the right to hurt and punish your body. You will never be happy until you start to respect yourself.
You only get one body, so take care of it, please! ❤🩹
Watching this gave me the direct call that I was trying to avoid numerous times. I was really wasting my time torturing myself and missing opportunities, I'm glad that I watched this video to make myself feel that HIT that I was always avoiding. I know I need it and the half of me needs to hear it really. Thank you!
The family thing is exactly what I’m going through and while I’m really sorry you went through it it feels relieving to know that my “food is my only controllable factor” mindset isn’t something I struggle with alone
Eating disorders are absolutely insane and everytime I think I’ve gotten out of it and recovered I’m back as quickly as it ended I hate it here. It’s gotten to the point that sometimes I just genuinely forget to eat until my friend asks me about if and what I ate to keep me on track but hopefully I get better and build my appetite back up 🤞🏾
Thank you so much! I appreciate this a lot!
And I’m so happy that you can have a healthy mindset and relationship with yourself
Aww Via when I first saw you I was like “omg she is beautiful, rlly gorgeous!!” this is something that is personal and very sensitive to talk about but I’m glad you are able to be open enough with us and express this about yourself, I know how it is living in an Asian household because I am half Asian and they are very judgmental and out of pocket with their words and growing up with that hurts and I’ve also had negative thoughts about myself but instead it was about my skin color and they used to bully and tease me, it takes some time and it’s a very emotional journey to go through to be content within yourself but I’m glad that you found that peace within yourself and food, you are strong!! 💓💓
Thank you for making this video. A few days ago, I started realized that I'm obsessed to what I eat or not and that's not okay. My main goal of this year is to be able be health and safe but do not worry so much about it. (Sorry, English is my second language but I try to do my best).
I struggle with binge and emotional eating, and I just wanted to say big thank you. After trying to lose weight for who knows which time I gained ever more that I lost. Right now I know that if I still focus only on losing weight and not on loving and nourishing my body, I'll not go anywhere. But loving and taking care of your body after YEARS of self-hatred is just so fucking hard. I don't even know how it feels to love yourself unconditionally. You gave me hope that recovery is possible. For anyone reading this, you can do it! Do not give up and have a great day
This made me cry, I didn't realize how much I needed it.
I just want to tell you that your videos give me positive energy and motivate me, whenever I am sad or upset I watch your videos and feel better, after watching your videos I want to go out live and be happy I really like the way you give us the message with energy and I just love you Keep going and never give up❤
Out of the concept but I have an idea to make the intro for the next video by opening the fridge and you pop out saying hi and ...like that I don't know if you understood me but yaa
i have been struggling with severe anorexia for almost 3 years now and have been in and out of hospitals since the age of 13 but this hit me more than anything else ever has. thank you for talking about this i needed to hear it.
thank you for this video
11:45 you're making me cry with you. My sister passed away at two years old. Such a little baby who was so active walking all over the house got sick and was in the hospital for a month before passing away. She couldn't even walk in that month. So I really feel guilty when I don't take care of my body because I'm also very healthy. And even when my sister wanted to walk around her body couldn't. So I feel guilty too when I just use my time to lay around all day watching things on the internet.
when you were telling us about how you were never called beautiful as a kid i felt it so much. I almost cried myself. nobody deserves to be treated like that. nobody deserves to hate themselves. i felt everything you said - waking up hungry and not being able to eat, counting hours before going to bed because you just want to pause that hunger. Via, you're very, very strong. I'm very glad you're in a good relationship with food now. ED is one of the hardest things i've ever been through and it breaks my heart hearing other people having gone through the same. but also, i don't feel alone in my struggle. thank you so much for sharing your experience and talking about this. and you are beautiful, both inside and outside♥
Since recently I've been in recovery and kind of was hitting a relapse but then I saw your video, I started crying when you cried too bc EXACTLY like you said "how can I do this to my body" and just the way you can feel her fighting to still keep you alive... thank you so much for this video! Im very happy you are having a better relationship with food and I hope you can continue to grow within yourself and reach more healing for the things that have happened to you :)
Thank uuu sooo much for inspiration 🥹😭💗I'm literally sobbing 😭I've had Ed for more than 3 years already but haven't still got out of it😭. Every single time I try to think positively about my body, people start commenting on it which makes me starve myself and after that binge eating starts💔this cycle seems endless sometimes. But throughout time I hope I'm gonna make it, I'm gonna get out of this loop and see my happiest self, who just enjoys every moment of her life and every inch of her body. Luv ya Via💗🫂
Oh via i'm so thankful that you made this video! You have no clue, i grew up overweight, beliving that nobody never would love me because the way i looked, today i'm okay with myself and finilly getting compliments lol, but my relatioship with food never get better. It's so confortable heard about this and think "i'm not alone"
I am in love with your content, I feel so related to it like you just know me you are amazing big sis 🥹💗
As someone who still struggles with ed and body image issues, thank you.
Thank you so much for being brave, and talking from the depths of your heart. I will be kinder to myself and the little girl in me from now on🤍
Seriously, your videos are helping me a lot. I was severely underweight when I was a teen but when I went to college and move out from home I kinda recover, even my period came back. The thing is that lately I have been looking at my old pictures wishing I was that skinny again, I’ve been feeling desperate and in literally hell, Im’m afraid of myself. I don’t want to study, sleep, eat or even live, I feel alone here, but I’m glad I came across your channel. Thank you!!
im not even saying that because of the sake of saying it but as an artist i find you to be very pretty in a sense that is like a joyous moment just very pure beauty in a sense ..just wanted to say that 😙
:( similar situation to you. My parents call me things like "thunder thighs" and "bulky" all the time and tell me my butt is so big and squeeze my sides. They even encouraged other family members to make fun of me. But the thing is I was always very fit. Like I was in track, cross country, basketball, and then I was the rock-climbing captain but their comments made me seriously consider extreme diets like the one where all you eat in a day is an apple and a sweet potato. Then I'd binge even though I wasn't hungry while feeling incredibly guilty. It took time away from my family and a lot of self confidence to view my body in a good way and now I'm trying to eat healthier. Thank you for sharing your story
this made me burst of tears : ' ) thank you for making this your channel is a safe place for me and others this is not an easy topic to talk about : ( thank you for doing so it makes me feel less alone with the disorder i'm living with
Oh my God I really really like you. You're so honest and down to earth
From my whole heart, thank you for sharing this. Just hearing your story made me feel less alone going through this as I grew up in a similiar situation as you, grew up in an asian household where there was a toxic relationship with food. I've always felt obligated to eat what was given on my plate or finish my food despite being full because "kids in Africa don't have food", so I was constantly being force fed. It doesn't help that my dad is a chef and constantly cooks food for us, and I understood their sentiment as no parent wants to see their kids starve. I always envied those that could eat so much and lose it all so quickly or never gain anything, in fact it was the one thing my mom prided and boasted about herself, always boasted about gaining 1kg from eating so much food in one evening but it never showed on her body.
I never hated how I looked, yes I may be a little overweight currently from working overtime and eating fast food for a couple of weeks, but I am happy with my body as it is my body, and no one but me can say if they like my body or not as it is my body and no one else. If certain clothes don't look good on me, I will look for something else that will flatter my body and make me feel confident with myself. My mom constantly shames me for having a big butt from sitting all day, and always tells me to do exercise, yet always criticises me for my every action, so I will feel judgement no matter what I do. I once starved myself for 2 days and lost a load of weight, and she still called me fat. I feel the only way to get her approval is if I become anorexic and I don't want that for myself. I will also feel that if I do get to the stage of anorexia, she will tell me that I'm too skinny and that I need to eat more, and it then becomes an unhealthy cycle. I can't wait to move out soon as I can take care of my body the way I want and not for anyone else but myself.
Sorry for writing so much, I just wanted to say that I appreciate you sharing your story and struggles and I heavily resonate. If anyone has read this far, thanks 👍
I'm 16 and severely overweight for my age. I too have never been called beautiful. But the things you have gone through is unimaginable to me. I have had my parents support as far as I remember. My relatives do pressure me into losing weight (also to grow taller). I have a sister and brother who do call me fatty without meaning it and I laugh with them too. But sometimes when I'm already feeling depressed cause of my weight I find myself crying to myself in my room after pretending to not be hurt by their comments. If you are going through a hard time please feel free to vent your feelings down below. We all can OVERCOME this!!
cried my shit out while watching lol i've been struggling with ed for idk how many years, but probably around 8 and still counting. it started in school when i gained some weight and then got constantly bullied because of it. still hate how my body looks and want to cry almost every day even though i lost some weight. i've never starved completely but ofc restricted myself a lot and even nowadays i'm thinking about "eating less". but i really hope one day i will think about these times as something that "was" and not still "is".
thank you for this video, Via! and thank you for telling this story.
a little reminder for everyone who sees this: you are beautiful and worthy of every little thing. keep going and don't give up
ED is tough, and people rarely give helpful advice (it's not like we don't "know" we have a bad relationship with food, a worse one with our body, and not the correct tools to deal with our triggers, none of the criticisms we hear help whatsoever) so I really appreciate you sharing your experience, and agree with all your points - especially on self-forgiveness & self-love !!
Tbh I still struggle a bit these days, with highs & lows but during the highs, it's not like I do better on the ED front ... it's everything else that makes it easier to control it : when life is less stressful, when I'm having the time of my life being fully engrossed in some activity that ED or my body/mental issues aren't even in my thoughts so I "naturally" tend to have much better control over my impulses ... when all my energy goes into trying to not have everything fall part, impulses easily take over.
Thank you so much for this video. I'm a teen who's at big risk of an ed. You really help me and probably lots of other teens. You're beautiful girl, and the fact that you made this video shows that you have a good heart too❤
Thank you so much for this video. I'm 33 and am currently the heaviest I ever was. I've struggled with my weight my whole life but never like this. I too have/still suffer from BED, and your video really woke me the hell up. I never thought of treating my body as a *she* rather than an *it*, but I am now and will for the rest of my journey.
When you said you think as your body as your younger self it really reached me, I'm really glad you made this video thank you
BABE YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL 💗 You're so strong you've been through so much thank you so much for sharing your story with us 💗 I love youuu so much 🥰🥹 💗
When I saw you in the recommendations, I put off watching for a long time and I regret it, because what I heard seemed to be the same as everywhere else, but it was your "train of thought" that seemed to touch the soul, especially when you cried, explaining that the body is literally a living being... Mindblowing:D
I don’t seem to torture myself, but I’m still overweight, but after your story, I realized that I still have points to work on, so thank you
By the way, I’m watching you for the first time and I didn’t expect such a serious and mature voice from such a gentle girl (I myself have a very “soft” and quiet voice, and I expected about the same, but you burst in and blew my mind set to hell with your "bad words":D
And also you reminded me of Chloe with your speaking, she's from the game Life is Strange, she is my favorite character UwU)
Perhaps the comment is a little inappropriate in places, but I wanted to speak out precisely after the comfort that I felt from your video; and also, English isn't my native language, so the translation may sound strange, sorry😅
I relate to having unsupportive parents. Im going to college this fall and hoping i can finally have the chance to fix my mindset and actually see myself as my own person
❤️❤️❤️ this video came at the right time. We young girls can be so hard on us, especially when parents make comments on it, even when it’s rare, it just kinda always sticks with you, girls, especially girls who’ve never been loved cause of weight, you’re not alone. And you’re worthy of love, even at your worst❤️
I can say that i relate so much with many of the thoughts of this video, now i have 22 years but i have anorexia when i was 15 years old and it was a very dark time for me, even when i grew in a family with full of love i had a very low selfsteem, this get bigger when i was in my first years as a teeneger, cuz i was not feel beautiful and never apart of my family said i was pretty sincerely, this grew so much for the fact that never someone had a love interest of me but many of my friends had it, so for me in that time even when i was in the normal weight the solution was lose weight, in the first time was a little bit, but soon this became a huge obsession for me until the point that every person around me notice that i was not good and all of them looked me sadly, even some people called me crazy, that time i became in such a sad, angry and lonely person, i hated so much to myself to the point that i tought i was a monster cuz i hurt to my family in the process too. It's a really long process heal so many scars and change your mind, for me when i gain weight again i was so scared, and even when physically i was good, my mind was not. Now i have a better relation with my mind the things tooked time but it's all for good, now i can a said i'm more happy and i'm not ashamed of my body. Thank you via for being my safe place
thank you for posting this via , , it truly makes me feel less alone , , seeing this in a bad relapse right now and i couldn’t help but tear up , , this one really hit for me ; every word made me reflect on my journey in regards to my ed . im forever grateful that you openly speak about this stuff , , i hope you’ve been taking care of yourself ! here’s to recovery 💌
this is the first video that I watched from your channel and it makes me cry
via, thank you so much for sharing your story and sharing some advice. i wish 21 year old me had this video available because she would’ve gotten help sooner rather than later
11:11 this is so true
y'all please please PLEASE APPRECIATE YOUR BODY and FOOD more! Just when I finally healed my relationship with food, I was diagnosed with chronic gastritis and GERD after an infection :/ now food hurts to physically eat although I literally WANT to eat, and drinking water is a struggle since it messes up my gut/it doesn't go well with solid food. I've been struggling for 8 months now, meds didn't work and now there's nothing much I can do since it's a life-long condition ;-;
I miss soups, hotpot, eating my favourite desserts... enjoying full-sized meals with fam and friends... It's really important to take care of your health, you only have one body, so please treat it right!!!
via honestly i cannot thank you enough for this video, but THANK YOU!! so many people including myself found this really helpful! i love youuu!!! 🧡🧡
idk why but after watching your videos..I've felt that i'm basically the exact same younger version of you..the circumstances..the reactions...problems everything..and I hope my future would also look the same like yours
i am also fighting an ED for years now, but only last week i felt able to talk about this with my therapist. It's NOT an easy thing to live with or to talk abt. Thanks Via for the post and for making me realize that i'm not alone and that i never will be... seeing here all these other girls talking abt their experiences, we all have the back of each other ❤ we all can overcome this someday, and everything WILL BE BETTER !!!!!!
im struggling with eating and have been since i was 10/11. im turning 14 in a few months and i want to get better but i cant talk about it. every time i think of not eating i watch this and this really helps!! tysm
I feel like self-care is always talked about as something we need to do all the time, and while I know self-care is so important and nuanced, I also think sometimes life is just about survival. And we try to find ways to cope with stress and just get by as best we can, and it's not always the best method we choose. But we're all just trying to get through life in one piece. Thank you for being so open with your story, Via. It's really helpful, and you're a really strong person. Are you okay after sharing this?
‼️TW‼️ pls don’t Read this if sh, ed etc.. triggers you I don’t want to make you feel uncomfortable so a warning I doubt anyone’s gonna read this anyway but erm‼️ this video helped me sm you don’t know how much I appreciate it I’ve been suffering from anorexia since I was 9 and it’s haunting me I wish I could be like other people, like normal people. growing up in my environment my family used to make comments about my body especially my mother. she would tell me stuff like "are you really gonna eat all that?" Whenever I tried to eat something no matter how small it was. She was the cause of my eating disorder. Im 15 currently now and I feel so sick my thoughts are just "starve you’re not skinny enough" growing up with an eating disorder I grew a habit of counting my calories and calbs and it’s terrible, my lack of blood sugar makes me want to faint when I was between 9 and 10 I was not even fat I was just a little chubby but only a few words that come out of your friends, families, relatives mouths can ruin your entire life. I was and still am bullied by my friends for looking like "a skeleton" or looking too skinny. I’m currently on my 6th day of starving myself tbh I feel like I’m gonna faint at any moment, I currently weight 44 KGS I’m not even sure if this is healthy for my age but I honestly don’t even care anymore, my anorexia also caused me to have severe depression and it’s Leads me to sh I feel so inhumane I honestly don’t even know what to do anymore, whoever reads this stay strong ilysm you’re not alone
thank you for speaking the things from the back of my mind that i understand but refuse to admit out loud. an eating disorder is not fun, and trying to fix that mindset is one of the most difficult things i’ve ever done. i’m constantly battling myself… but really for what?
I really needed this video so I'm thankful that you decided to upload it despite your initial fears. I've been attempting to lose weight using unhealthy methods despite knowing the harm it'll cause because I'm scared that I'm becoming ugly and no one will like me meaning they'll abandon me(it sounds a bit silly but its true). I'm honestly a bit sad I didn't find your channel much earlier since it probably would've helped younger me realise that she/me are precious who only have one life and shouldn't waste it on unreachable goals(my goal used to be 35kg). I'm happy that you were able to break away from your bad eating habits and I hope you get better soon. I can't wait for your next video! 😊
i was crying so hard when you started talking about the little girl
This is scarily relatable. I currently have anorexia at 14, even though I'm considered skinny, probably due to media. I'd pretend to eat around my friends, but honestly, I don't even know how much longer I can continue doing this for. Sometimes when I finally do eat, my friends say that I look like I'm about to cry. I joke about it a lot in order to mask it, but anorexia has brought along depression, leading to SH and insomnia. All I've been doing is starve and overexercise. My brain is only telling me "Starve. You're not skinny enough? Oh? You say you're only 47kg? Not enough." I've maybe starved for 4 days straight by now? And I get so much brain fog and the lack of blood sugar makes me shake so much. I feel like at any point I might faint during my dance or fencing sessions.
this is a increadible video thank you , i struggled in school with anorexia and i feel better after i watched your video and i saw that im not alone with this, my family didnt help me to get better and i feel like eating disorders are so much misunderstood and the victims have such a hard time to find help because my experience is that no one takes you seriously and everybody says: "Just eat more" or "Just dont struggle with food" .
Via, you are literally the older sister I wish I had growing up. I love hearing you talk in your videos and would love to hear more of your thoughts on girlhood! Thank you for sharing such beautiful advice ❤
Girl you’re my idol😭I watched your videos while struggling through a similar experience to you and you helped me SO SO SO much. ❤️
I have suffered from this condition during my last year in uni, I didn't realize it then but i had anxiety and i found myself eating lots of unhealthy stuff just because of it, Also developed an unhealthy relationship with coffee cause it literally was the only good thing in my day! I had it rough i even developed anxiety attacks...again i didn't even realize it but now that i do I'll tell yall to take it easy and go to a therapist,in case u can't afford it like me , be patient it shall pass ❤
To anyone going through an eating disorder you’re not alone and life is already hard as it is, take care of yourself raise boundaries. I think learning where your limits are sucks but that’s part of growing up so don’t resent it too much bounce back!! ❣️
Hi Via! I usually never comment on people's videos, but there's just something about yours that makes me feel like you're my friend and I can talk to you :)
I just want to thank you for being so brave and vulnerable at the same time. I've never learned so much from someone as much as I do with you. I'm really happy I've found your videos
I don't know how to explain my feelings about this girl,she have my complete respect and love
Thank you so much for making this video, Via. You’ve been my role model for months now and you talking about your experience made me feel less alone. I love you and your videos so much, watching your videos brings me so much comfort. I will never stop recommending your channel to my friends. You’ve helped me create a healthier mindset and i’m genuinely so grateful for you. Thank you and take care!