The worst thing about depression is that when it starts you think it's nothing and that the feeling will pass. When in reality........... your life will never be the same again
People don't understand how it feels...... to feel hopelessly sad but you don't want to do anything about it. Because everything takes ×100 times effort to do, even simple things.......
i tried i failed, tried again failed again, convinced myself to try it again then failed, i work so hard i dont sleep, telling myself everyday that its gonna be okay, i dont know whats wrong, im sorry for being a failure
I think of depression as different kinds of weight Sometimes it feels like a weighted blanket, you feel comforted by it Sometimes it's a weight tied to your foot pulling you into the surf begging you to stop fighting Sometimes it's the weight of an elephant sitting on your chest that you just can't make go away Sometimes it's such an overbearing weight that you stop feeling it but it's still there Sometimes it's the weight of your choices Or your shame Or your regret Or your trauma Hell guys, I'm just a kid but if there's one thing I've learned in my battle against myself, it's that no matter how alone you feel, how desperate you are to let go, someone, at least one person would be shattered by your death. No matter how much hurt you think you've caused, it's not enough to warrant you killing yourself. No matter how hopeless it is, and I know that can be really really hopeless, there is a reason you are where you are. I also know one thing about weight, maybe it's impossible to shoulder right now, so share it with someone else and make yourself stronger so one day you can do that same for others.
What am I supposed to do? What am i supposed to say? First I lost half of my family then when I feel when I found true love after 37 years I had to let her go so she can be with her family 3 years later she comes back with a new boyfriend I’m not happy All I got is my other dream the only dream i have left in my life I’m still not happy I’m just being happy for my family
My husband did too Tbh he’s the best man I have ever know … You’d never know looking at him… hard on the outside but a father missing his child inside. My father left me when I was older… When I look at my husband I think of how I found someone who will love his little girl the way my father did not love me. Idk why im telling u maybe I’m sad today but I have never met someone who loves so hard…. Your daughter is lucky you love her so much! ❤ a parents love is the best ❤ My husband and I are duel military we say “until Valhalla” … until we meet again ❤️❤️❤️ Xoxo thanks for sharing!
I'm not certain what I'm going to do with my life. I lost the girl that gave me a reason. I was fucked up, I know. I hurt her. I've been depressed as far back as I can remember myself existing. Always felt lonely. Numb to what was happening around me. And what I remember is being six years old. I had friends at school, I guess. But as soon as I got home I was alone. My mother wasn't there, she had to go to work. I'd study, and wait. By the time I was nine I had some friends in the evenings. They were younger than me, so they didn't get me, and I didnt yet understand what I was feeling. My parents broke up when I was two, so I dont have memories with my father. I tried to reach my mother as a child. I couldnt sleep at night, so I wanted to sleep in her bed. But she locked me out. I WAS alone. I didnt just feel alone... By the time I was ten, I had been conditioned by my grandmother to be a perfectionist. She would break my toys, hit me, tear out the pages of work I'd done when I didn't do it how she liked. I was the best at school, always. Sure. It was worth it, right? We'll see. Soon I was twelve. This was my first year in middle school. I started to hang out with kids my age. I still felt alone. I didnt like them at all. I was damn good at pretending to be okay though. A year later, at thirteen, we moved away, so I had to lose said friends. It was the first time I remember feeling the deep sadness. I could barely fathom it though. When I was fourteen, It started to feel worse. Broke up with my first girlfriend because she didnt understand me. I spent a summer when the sadness got way too bad. I made an attempt on my life after my grandfather told me I was worthless, and that I'd do nothing with my life. I failed, then I cut myself on my arm thirteen times. I bled on the floor, on my sheets, but no one found out for a few months. I just covered it, and no one noticed. Because I was alone again. Next year when I was fifteen... I met her. I met what I consider to be the love of my life. The first person to ever understand me. She had the same issues I did. She struggled with depression and anxiety, she felt alone. And then we didnt. We were together. We were happy. We both made mistakes, me most of all. I threatened to break up with her over a stupid argument due to me not being able to accept that she had her own opinion... How stupid is that? She stopped doing makeup because that's what it was over. I didnt want her to stop, I didnt want her to feel suppressed. She always said I was her forever... She spoke of how she felt an uncertainty always, but with me she felt certain. We would stay together our whole lives, that's what she said. We had plans. Due to the way I was raised I struggle with avoidance issues. So when we had a fight over me not being able to go visit her, I started to avoid her. Eventually I lost feelings, and I told her. And she was oh so hurt... Two weeks later I felt the love I had but it was so much stronger... I never wanted to leave her, but it was what I felt, so I told her, and she suffered. When she came back, she said she didnt love me, but took it back a day later. She did love me. She started calling me her forever again. She got me gifts, wrote me letters. Made me feel loved. Five months after that we argued again. I was a real asshole to her. Made her the perpetrator, basically. Said that she was the problem. And a month later, we argued again, and I hurt her. She stayed two more months. In these months she opened up about how I'd hurt her, told me what I'd done. I apologized for the first time in our whole relationship. She was so relieved to hear it... She cried. She sounded happy. I spent more time with her than I did before. I tried more than I did before. And then... One day she said that we might break up. She spoke to her therapist and figured out that she was staying out of a habit. So she left me. Now I'm eighteen. More lonely than ever. I hope to somehow reach her some day with the songs I'll write about her... She said that we will never be together again because she doesn't trust me. I don't want to hear "Just move on". I dont care about all that. I love THIS person. Its been two months since we broke up and I feel more than I've ever felt. I love her, I've always loved her. I'm more depressed than I've ever been. I've been wanting to kill myself so bad... I don't know what to do other than focus on music, and hope I reach her. She's moved on, she's dating someone as far as I know. So I don't know what to do.
please don't end your life. I know it sounds stupid for someone to tell you that over a screen, but life is worth living, I promise. depression is so evil that it can literally tear you and your life down. I may not have gone through what you have, but I sure do understand what you are going through. It hurts. Please, find something that makes you happy. even if it is a little thing that happens in your day that isn't boring. and you don't have to move on or forget anything. I think in some cases that is impossible. Please, hold on.
“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that so whosoever believes in him shall not perish but have everlasting life” - John 3:16 Have faith in God he is close to the brokenhearted, he will never leave you nor forsake you. I was once in that dark place but he delivered me and now I see my true purpose in life and Jesus Christ is truly the only way to eternal happiness. Don’t be scared to call out to him, come as you are and he will heal you.❤️
The first clip is the truest thing I've ever heard in my life, depression collapses all of your time to create one endless loop of days...
having depression is so much more than just being sad.
Yes very true it’s a lot of things
morrrreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Many people dont understand it
I'm very depressed Dennis says I'm not. Well I hope he never gets like me. Karma and all. And my book will be all about us. Yes I'm writing a book.
I understand it cuz I myself have depression
Been struggling with it ever since i was 13 and it's honestly debilitating
Yup😢😢😢😢😢
You're right but I do since I'm currently suffering from deep depression.
They don’t understand it because they are animals
People think they know how it feels like when they have depression. But until you actually have depression you understand it.
The worst thing about depression is that when it starts you think it's nothing and that the feeling will pass. When in reality........... your life will never be the same again
I come home after being out with people or at work and watch these because it's the only way I feel understood.
People don't understand how it feels...... to feel hopelessly sad but you don't want to do anything about it. Because everything takes ×100 times effort to do, even simple things.......
i tried i failed, tried again failed again, convinced myself to try it again then failed, i work so hard i dont sleep, telling myself everyday that its gonna be okay, i dont know whats wrong, im sorry for being a failure
"I'm gonna kms" is so real
At least there are people who know what I feel
I'm actually really surprised this doesn't have many more views. It's incredibly well done.
To anyone watching this, hang on. Things will get better💙💙💙
When
I am going through it some days are ok some days are bad but we need to believe that things will get better
It doesn’t seem like it…
This happened for me last year this time.. I thought I was doing better I really don’t want to go down this path again
I relate to this so much😢😢😢
Nothing harder then trying to explain your depression to someone who has never experienced it
I feel this 100%no one else understands. I am alone in this war in my brain. I wanna be done
Such a good video
Been filling this way for a long time
they don’t know how it feels.. 💔
i am literally fucked up😂
God damn i relate to this so hard
I think of depression as different kinds of weight
Sometimes it feels like a weighted blanket, you feel comforted by it
Sometimes it's a weight tied to your foot pulling you into the surf begging you to stop fighting
Sometimes it's the weight of an elephant sitting on your chest that you just can't make go away
Sometimes it's such an overbearing weight that you stop feeling it but it's still there
Sometimes it's the weight of your choices
Or your shame
Or your regret
Or your trauma
Hell guys, I'm just a kid but if there's one thing I've learned in my battle against myself, it's that no matter how alone you feel, how desperate you are to let go, someone, at least one person would be shattered by your death. No matter how much hurt you think you've caused, it's not enough to warrant you killing yourself. No matter how hopeless it is, and I know that can be really really hopeless, there is a reason you are where you are. I also know one thing about weight, maybe it's impossible to shoulder right now, so share it with someone else and make yourself stronger so one day you can do that same for others.
So many words I want to say... But thank you ❤
SO MUCH PAIN😢😢
I am so tired...
so relateble...
What am I supposed to do?
What am i supposed to say?
First I lost half of my family then when I feel when I found true love after 37 years I had to let her go so she can be with her family
3 years later she comes back with a new boyfriend
I’m not happy
All I got is my other dream the only dream i have left in my life
I’m still not happy I’m just being happy for my family
the worst thing... I lost my daughter..
Sending love your way🫶🏽🫶🏽
My husband did too
Tbh he’s the best man I have ever know …
You’d never know looking at him… hard on the outside but a father missing his child inside.
My father left me when I was older…
When I look at my husband I think of how I found someone who will love his little girl the way my father did not love me.
Idk why im telling u maybe I’m sad today but I have never met someone who loves so hard….
Your daughter is lucky you love her so much! ❤ a parents love is the best ❤
My husband and I are duel military we say “until Valhalla”
… until we meet again ❤️❤️❤️
Xoxo thanks for sharing!
I lost my mom
This is the one
What the name of every movie in the video
What is the song in the background called please😢
Not About Angels by Birdy
"Im gunna kill myself" ik its not funny but i also manifests this.. ha..
Hope wasn't depressed, she wanted her mom!
😢
I'm not certain what I'm going to do with my life. I lost the girl that gave me a reason. I was fucked up, I know. I hurt her. I've been depressed as far back as I can remember myself existing. Always felt lonely. Numb to what was happening around me. And what I remember is being six years old. I had friends at school, I guess. But as soon as I got home I was alone. My mother wasn't there, she had to go to work. I'd study, and wait. By the time I was nine I had some friends in the evenings. They were younger than me, so they didn't get me, and I didnt yet understand what I was feeling. My parents broke up when I was two, so I dont have memories with my father. I tried to reach my mother as a child. I couldnt sleep at night, so I wanted to sleep in her bed. But she locked me out. I WAS alone. I didnt just feel alone... By the time I was ten, I had been conditioned by my grandmother to be a perfectionist. She would break my toys, hit me, tear out the pages of work I'd done when I didn't do it how she liked. I was the best at school, always. Sure. It was worth it, right? We'll see. Soon I was twelve. This was my first year in middle school. I started to hang out with kids my age. I still felt alone. I didnt like them at all. I was damn good at pretending to be okay though. A year later, at thirteen, we moved away, so I had to lose said friends. It was the first time I remember feeling the deep sadness. I could barely fathom it though. When I was fourteen, It started to feel worse. Broke up with my first girlfriend because she didnt understand me. I spent a summer when the sadness got way too bad. I made an attempt on my life after my grandfather told me I was worthless, and that I'd do nothing with my life. I failed, then I cut myself on my arm thirteen times. I bled on the floor, on my sheets, but no one found out for a few months. I just covered it, and no one noticed. Because I was alone again. Next year when I was fifteen... I met her. I met what I consider to be the love of my life. The first person to ever understand me. She had the same issues I did. She struggled with depression and anxiety, she felt alone. And then we didnt. We were together. We were happy. We both made mistakes, me most of all. I threatened to break up with her over a stupid argument due to me not being able to accept that she had her own opinion... How stupid is that? She stopped doing makeup because that's what it was over. I didnt want her to stop, I didnt want her to feel suppressed. She always said I was her forever... She spoke of how she felt an uncertainty always, but with me she felt certain. We would stay together our whole lives, that's what she said. We had plans. Due to the way I was raised I struggle with avoidance issues. So when we had a fight over me not being able to go visit her, I started to avoid her. Eventually I lost feelings, and I told her. And she was oh so hurt... Two weeks later I felt the love I had but it was so much stronger... I never wanted to leave her, but it was what I felt, so I told her, and she suffered. When she came back, she said she didnt love me, but took it back a day later. She did love me. She started calling me her forever again. She got me gifts, wrote me letters. Made me feel loved. Five months after that we argued again. I was a real asshole to her. Made her the perpetrator, basically. Said that she was the problem. And a month later, we argued again, and I hurt her. She stayed two more months. In these months she opened up about how I'd hurt her, told me what I'd done. I apologized for the first time in our whole relationship. She was so relieved to hear it... She cried. She sounded happy. I spent more time with her than I did before. I tried more than I did before. And then... One day she said that we might break up. She spoke to her therapist and figured out that she was staying out of a habit. So she left me. Now I'm eighteen. More lonely than ever. I hope to somehow reach her some day with the songs I'll write about her... She said that we will never be together again because she doesn't trust me. I don't want to hear "Just move on". I dont care about all that. I love THIS person. Its been two months since we broke up and I feel more than I've ever felt. I love her, I've always loved her. I'm more depressed than I've ever been. I've been wanting to kill myself so bad... I don't know what to do other than focus on music, and hope I reach her. She's moved on, she's dating someone as far as I know. So I don't know what to do.
please don't end your life. I know it sounds stupid for someone to tell you that over a screen, but life is worth living, I promise. depression is so evil that it can literally tear you and your life down. I may not have gone through what you have, but I sure do understand what you are going through. It hurts. Please, find something that makes you happy. even if it is a little thing that happens in your day that isn't boring. and you don't have to move on or forget anything. I think in some cases that is impossible. Please, hold on.
It's going to be okay 😢
Here again
0:41 - 0:51. BETH MY BABY ILY IM GONNA CRY 😭
I’m cooked
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“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that so whosoever believes in him shall not perish but have everlasting life” - John 3:16
Have faith in God he is close to the brokenhearted, he will never leave you nor forsake you. I was once in that dark place but he delivered me and now I see my true purpose in life and Jesus Christ is truly the only way to eternal happiness. Don’t be scared to call out to him, come as you are and he will heal you.❤️
My ex boyfriend broke up with me because of my mental illness...he says im evil and selfish when im triggered and i need to get my emotions together..
you deserve better❤
i understand, i hope this helps there's someone else somewhere in this world going through your pain... in a way or another you're not alone.
He's an asshole for doing that, shallow people are. Just scared of realizing the battles we fight everyday
What are the name of these movies with Zendaya is the dark moments