Dunno who will see this. Doesn’t matter: I spent a decade working a corporate job hoping to climb the ladder and land a spot where I was fat and happy. But I’m unhappier than ever. I helped someone build their dream and postponed my own. On the day of my 10th anniversary I received a card from the company. No one had signed it except for my recently departed boss with the message “Best of luck”. Money is just money. Follow your ideas and dreams.
I wish my dad knew this, he wanted me to do art as a hobby or a side thing and do enegenering which I hate He said how masculine jobs are more valuable than feminine jobs and idk what the hell he is talking about I wanna be happy than just do it for money like my purpose is doing it for money I'll burn out
You answered a question that I think about all the time. “Why do I keep thinking about this project?” Because you care about it. I needed that. Thank you.
"Why it keeps bubbling up is because you actually care about that shit" was so unexpectedly poignant, played it back 3 times. Lately I have been creatively procrastinating on a lot of things honestly. I haven't been in a musical in 3 years, haven't done an audition in 2 years and the last thing I wrote was 2 lines of a poem back in October 2023. I miss creating, I miss performing, I miss working with other artists. I guess I've been procrastinating on starting over again. I have had so many strong ideas, and little to no desire to execute them. Depression is a beast, but maybe one day I can tame it so I can spend my days visiting it & tending to it rather than fighting it. Subscribing to your channel, I hope you meet all of the goals you set for yourself and I'd love to witness it.
@@Pawndaunt yep, it sure did! I started writing again. I've been journaling and I started writing an autobiography. It's not the project that I expected to start, but it feels good. I like to think that it matters that it feels good. I also started voice training again! And singing in front of people again! I can feel myself getting yoinked from the depression pit that I've been in for months. It's nice to feel the sunshine of life on my face again. It also helps that I just finished an accelerated Statistics summer class with a B (my 2nd time taking the class, the first time was back in 2015 and I dropped out). I've started wearing makeup again. Wearing my hair down again. I'm not completely out of the dark yet, but I can feel my soul again.
i think everyone needs to watch this. this is what the people of today need to watch. we’re all stuck in a limbo, wanting to start over tomorrow. but it never comes.
1:09 "We try to drown ourselves in monotony and busy work as if distraction will lead to amnesia, and not dissatisfaction, resentment, regret." This line goes hard
No other creator has inspired my own creativity more than you! Ever since I discovered your instagram I have been enamored by your art. Love that you're in RUclips and love this entire challenge!
Your voice so soooooooo important. Like I already know these things, but when you say them the way you say them how you say them…wakes me the fork 🍴 up, asking me to finish my breakfast.
"I implore you to check your own pockets for the key before reaching your hands for something they do not posses" is prbly one of the hardes qoutes on the internet i have ever heard!
Thank you for this, Nneka. These poems aren't going to write themselves and my camera won't shoot on its own. Thank you for your openness. See you in video 001!!
This video has come into my life at the perfect time. I've recently started my RUclips channel after over 3 years of wanting to but being too afraid to start. I have a chronic illness so it can be a struggle to keep up with projects, but I'm so happy to finally be doing it even if it takes me a while to upload a new video. This inspired me to work on editing a video that I've filmed and have been wanting to upload! I'm really looking forward to following you on your journey and sending you many kind wishes for this project! 😊
If I tell you that I have a project in the drawer that I really want to accomplish, you won't believe how much your video has inspired and encouraged me. This project is called A Music Memoir, and it's about stories written from songs that I love and that have been part of my life in a profound way. This project came about when I realized how serious my grandfather's Alzheimer's diagnosis was, and after I watched a RUclipsr I really like share a musical diary of his life's memories, just after his own family had been diagnosed with Alzheimer's. I'm insecure and scared, but I'm going to write it down and record it for more people to see. You are light. Keep producing and I'll keep watching you. Xo.
I am procrastinating on the same project during 4 years ! everybody i have to do it to actually have my degree but in some point I am afraid of being a civil engineer because i want to have many skills ad competences before. but what i realise is we are not perfect, we are all stillleraning and what i have to do is doing what it has to be done and let God decide if i am worth to be an engineer ! maybe one day i will come back and say it was worth it !
I found out something recently, in the cortex there is a specific part dedicated to will power and it has some fancy name that I can’t remember at the moment. Basically, the way it works is that the more you force yourself and will through the things you put off or find challenging or don’t like doing, the more it will grow and the easier it will get into doing those things you don’t want to do or are a struggle to do. But when you continue to put things off, don’t do the challenges, don’t do those things you don’t want to do, it will decrease and your will power will become weaker and weaker the more you just don’t will yourself into things. Just something to keep in mind when doing this is that you are actually bettering yourself just by doing this. Feel free to send me a letter! I’d like to feel obligated to send you a letter in return.
This speaks to my soul and where I'm at right now (and where I find myself year after year). I have found that life/creativity is a process of starting over...again and again and again.
I'm so glad you can relate, Mack! I was reading an old journal yesterday and literally thought to myself, "this is almost the exact same thing I'm grappling with now but just a different project, person, choice." It seems like life is a series of mountains beyond mountains, a constant process of one step at a time. Again and again and agan.
I love seeing the comments of so many others who have THAT project (out of many) that they can never stop caring ahout. Thank you queen!! Excited to see your project unfold
Today, I discovered my notes for a forgotten game I had been diligently working on, hidden within a book from a friend I once cherished but is now on the other side of the planet.
i turn 34 tomorrow! I feel like a bunch of us 34 year old ladies are feeling this way, 34 feels close to 40 in my head so its definitely a wake up call and also realizing how long I pressed snooze for on things. Since 2024 I've started writing poetry and working on my memoir with movie adaptation ideas. Been procrastinating past 2 years on starting my own RUclips channel
The words I didn’t know I needed to hear. I’ve been putting off so much. And tbh, it’s a reflection of what the past year has been for me-putting myself last. Time to get back to things. Thank you for sharing this!
You are so talented, don't question, just do. Perfection isn't possible, shoot for 50%, pick it apart and shoot for 70% but never perfect. It will never live up to our standards if we wait for perfect. You are beautiful and creative, just believe.
I was considered a prodigy and was doing incredible work as a child that got me noticed by fashion designers, actors and other artists- but I was in a major accident that effected my health and even before that I was bullied out of doing anything I ever loved. and no one supported me in anything I ever wanted to accomplish, so my time as an artist has unfortunately come and gone. I don’t have the resources, finances, strength, time, energy, or health to retrain myself. anytime I pick up a pencil or stare at a canvas or look at my old audio files, all I feel is heartbreak because I know where my skill level should be, and it’s not there. I’m so glad you all found your voices again. Take it from an exhausted millennial that has given up all hope: don’t be like us. It’s so tempting, but you have something to give, something to say, something important to offer. Keep with it- don’t sacrifice the things you love for literally anyone. Yall can do it. I believe in you.
I need to come back to this video multiple times. I feel like it’s a good reminder that I’m not alone in my struggles of putting pin to paper. It’s tough to just do it. It’s overwhelming to see others pass you by in their creative endeavors, but there is hope and community out there. I thank you for sharing your side of this.
I have a novel in my mind, a metaphor about my journey of self-discovery and my transition. A prince is tasked with slaying the final priestess from a sect of witches that were banished from the kingdom as the prince was born. It starts off as a normal "hero's journey," but as we wade with them through the Weeping Sands, through a series of flashbacks, we realize that the prince...is the fucking villain of the story... It is one of self-hatred, mortality, self-acceptance, the inevitably of change, and the foolishness that pushing back against change entails.
You’re so inspiring… I been procrastinating on just making an effort using my camera to create for myself.. I’m so obsessed with trying to make money while being creative that I feel overwhelmed to just create to just.. create. Thank you for this video. I look forward to seeing more from you.
Man! THIS. It's a constant struggle trying to create just to create without thinking about how to monetize. Product vs process. We all deserve more time in the making of things that we truly believe in. Thank you for watching, Stedmen!
i hate this video...... because it ends!! i wanted it to go on for another 90 minutes. thanks for sharing, thanks for making me feel not alone. i'm excited to see ur creative world
Being thirty-four myself, I really feel the urge to finish my creative pursuits as well. I'm only getting older and this is my biggest or deepest passion in life. The love to tell a story. It's time I finish and keep finishing.
For years, through my whole youth I carried this idea of making a certain Story (Manga/Graphic Novel) with certain characters and a certain meaning. Through the years it transformed many times and evolved so much, taking twists and turns- planned to be my magnum Opus. When the time was right. When I had published Stories before just to know how it‘s done. It had to had to be my main work, my epic with the most Volumes- all in my head. For the last to years I told myself i will start *soon*, making designs, elaborate on Worldbuilding, fleshing out everything, even what pigments to use for which characters if i would colour it- Needless to say this whole bubbled up construct kept me from ever bringing it out of my head, some charcter illustrations aside. But now, I‘m happy to say your Video came at the right time, because my Story hatched- just into one, simple small short story. Taking away the pressure of being a big project, it actually opened up so many opportunities and i‘m so eager to bring it out now. Also the idea became so pressing, my brain doesn‘t even leave me a choice anymore, last sunday i finally started writing the script, currently furnishing it. Can‘t wait to start and draw the first page…
and sometimes there is this one person that is different, has that edge, is that creative, doesnt't stop where society puts them. ITS FUCKING THIS WHAT IM SEARCHING FOR!
Ooof I love when the algorithm does me some good! 👏 I have many personal side projects that I’ve been trying to launch for years, but there is *one* that is “bigger” and way more personal for me, and it’s the one I have the most resistance to starting because I know it requires me to show up in the biggest way. Thank you 🙏
You're right. I gotta stop getting in my own head about my music. I want to compose, I want to write bars without constantly concerning myself with what other people will think about them, and about me. It's important to me. It's from the heart. I'm a pasty white boy trying to rap and it genuinely means the world to me, and I can't keep being scared of it.
Thank you for this. I needed to hear these words today. I make so many creative projects but they are always for someone else. Or to pay the bills or to solve someone else's problem and yet the things I dream of doing myself always sit by the sidelines hoping for that "Someday" when my position on the Maslow's hierarchy of needs is finally above the level of "Safety and Security" enough that I can actually spend time on it and not feel immensely guilty for neglecting something or someone I love. I forget sometimes that the person I am neglecting is myself.
I’ve been working on illustrating an Oracle Deck for the last 4 years. Sometimes I get really discouraged because I’m not as healthy and capable of follow-through as I once was. But I haven’t given up; I hope next year is the year I finally make this project a reality.
5 years ago I collected addresses to do something very similar…called the mailman’s daughter (my father is a retired mail man)… I never sent one letter and the inspiration and conviction I felt watching this…my goodness . I’m both grateful for and annoyed with you ma’am! Thank you 🙏🏾💚and for that reason I’m Subscribing
I was on the verge of shelving my creativity when this video appeared in my feed. Like a sign from the universe I still care and I should keep going. I liked this video. It's well edited and the message is well timed.
I've been procrastinating a lot and this was my sign "YOU SHOULD START AGAIN" damn right, I should! This video spoke to me in volumes, each frame was perfect, the color grading was awesome and the narration was top-notch. Your voice is so unique, that it kept me hooked to the video. I would love to see you on this journey while following my own! Lots of Love from India
And here I was thinking you've already set the bar way too high lol. Little did I know it goes higher! Cook sis, COOK! Impatiently waiting for a new buffet😁
@@alexathegr8 of course! Yes, I shoot in s-log3 with a Sony FX3 and grade in davinci resolve. I've been loving all the cineprints @tombolles puts out for a more film-like look. He has some AMAZING tutorials on his page
My thing is soooo fricken CRAZY and there are possibly a billion obstacles and I keep reaching into the void for help and no one is answering….so maybe I am crazy. I changed my life over the last 4 years DRASTICALLY I sound spirituality and as I worked with Source/ God to heal I had a creative explosion. I channel stories, movies, shows, inventions…with music. Music also charges me magically and I can do some things that mediums do. I also do psychic art. I think it is time to start on my book but I don’t know how to write. Your call to arms is just what I needed. Thank you.
I was half expecting another shoe commercial at the beginning because they are a vague sense of motivation. I love this. You are right random lady in my suggested list, I should start again. I think I will. Thank you!
You just reminded me of my drive to go back to writing my Victorian historical novel on the development of the science of geology, that I keep putting aside because there is so much research involved. But I started it because I'm passionate about that research. No more procrastination. Opening up the draft and writing, right now!
I've wanted to learn a ton of languages so I could be a translator and my first language was Japanese. I started lessons and just stopped eventually. I'm almost out of high school so I needed this. Thank you
Your video was so captivating for me because I was procrastinating the publication of my poetry book. Now I have the manuscript already done, as well as the writing of my novel and many short stories. It's not easy when you're still a student and broke. keep going. big like from Italy. Zac
Oh I needed to see this one. So so sooooo many unfinished projects waiting for me to revisit and actualize. This is such a powerful and wonderful reminder. Thank you for sharing your art and looking forward to that premiere for #100!!!
Just stopped in the middle of this video at 11PM to test out a recipe I’ve long procrastinated just to be sure I like it before publishing it Can’t stop thinking about it 😅😊 Can’t stop thinking about it! 😅
I’ve had this video in my watch later. Just sat down to do some work and while playing my watch later videos in the background. This video is cinematic and beautifully made that I had to stop what I was doing! Felt inspired affffff 🥹
Best RUclips vid I’ve seen in a long time. Cinematic, genuine, curious, intriguing and very motivating. Nneka your personality is so inviting girl, super smart and crazy pretty and cool. Love it, keep going beautiful 😊
Huh..? This is so good, it makes me feel something. I'm sorry "so good" was an understatement. It's unbelievable to have come across this video. So this is what it looks like when someone puts their heart into something. Brooo I cannot wait to see more of this
You, my dear, are MEANT to be a filmmaker (coming from a fellow photographer with a degree in critical film studies.) This has been my introduction to your work, and I rarely come across visual storytelling this good. Automatically subscribed. I also needed to hear this today, so thank you!
Nneka!!!!! You are a GENIUS! The WORLD needs your TALENT!!!I can’t get enough of yours shorts. Definitely got me tapped in and honing into to my creativity as well! Thank you❤❤❤❤
This gave me a serious ASMR moment! You've a very powerful voice, and an even powerful storytelling technique. I really thought this was a short film. And to answer your question on what I've been procrastinating on?... Well, since 2017, I've been procrastinating on creating an animated series.
Ohhhh my!!!!!!! wowwwww, wow, wow.. ok so I do not know you yet and it is my first time seeing your work, but I'm hooked to your freshness, the reliability and of course the challenge and I just can't wait to see you succeed Dear! You are sooo, raw, creative and yes interestingly delightfullllll... thank you so much for sharing your heart! I can't wait to continue to watch you - and rather than be peripherally inspired, perhaps I too will jump in to do the work that I toooo keep waiting to do as well but just think about it ruminating. My Magnum Opus - 3 -4 years of procrastination in progress.. I'm inspired, inspired by you. thank you, Gracias Mil!
I have so many creative projects I want to pursue, but the one that gives me the drive you speak about is not what I'd call creative. But listening to you has made me think, "You know what? I am doing something completely new in this. It IS a creative process. It IS infusing my every thought and effort. And I AM procrastinating on key aspects because they DO make me uncomfortable." Imma follow your journey now, because I am going to connect with and parallel it in my own endeavour. Which IS a creative one. Go Us!
I dunno who you are, or what I searched to change the algorithm in order to deserve to have this video come across my feed. I dunno what kind of life you’ve had, I dunno how you vote, or what kind of company you keep, I dunno how many dimensions you have, or how old your soul is. I do know I love you, and I believe in you. Subscribing now. PS. This project NEEDS to happen, it has reason, it has purpose, it has depth. Show us who we are. ❤ you got this.
this is one of the most beautiful things anyone has ever written me. thank you simply isn't enough, but thank you for every single word. i'll be saving this.
I know it's a lot of work but please keep sharing and posting because ... holy cow. Your voice and these thoughts are so needed by the creatives of the world who are still trying to figure this out alongside you. 💚
Great job on everything, loved the video, the content, the information, the music and of course you're young, smart and beautiful. ( I'm 60 so I can say that ). I am just starting to research information on a channel at my age and have issues to think about, that's one reason I'm impressed with your video. Keep up the good work and never let anyone tell you different!🥰
I’m very glad this video came up on my recommended. As a 20 year old I have no clue what to do with my life. When you said “why do I keep thinking about this project” I realized. I think about being a freelance artist A LOT. This video gave me some motivation to keep doing that even though it will be hard. So thank you^^
This is incrediblely well made! I can tell it took a long time...THANK YOU for making a video about your creative process and goals. Earlier tonight i spoke to my grandma in a disgusted-and-worry fueled rant about the blatant theft and deception that is AI, how its stealing people's videos and art...but your video is what humanity is really about. I guess you could say it's not important in the big, big scheme of things...because HUMANITY is more important and will always be. THIS is more important. Human creation and artistic struggle! Artistic CARING!!! So thank you!!!
"If it's too open it's not going to get done." Realized this 1.5 years into my creative journey. I need just enough structure to reduce decision fatigue but not too much to crush creativity. Love the details in your video. On creative resistance: I found it to be very uncomfortable but also very rewarding to send that first blog/video out there. Even social media post. I think if you love "doing" it, you should keep going. Even if you stop for a year or don't get any results. It build character and adds a spice to the mundaness of everyday life.
i enjoyed the way the scenes switched abruptly, kept me locked in. the scoring was dramatic without being overbearing. visuals 10/10. it’s like you translated the way you perceive life seamlessly. lucky find. fucking inspiring. ❤️
I used to consider taking on a creative project to push myself out of my comfort zone and just experience things freely without judgment. I won't be using social media this month, but I'll definitely follow up with your project when I return. Thank you for sharing this wonderful message at the perfect time 🌺🌱⭐ I also need this and I appreciate it so much. Wishing you lots of love and good vibee ✨
Im learning art again, design and form and color all over again, because I spent 10 years of my life focusing on such a small part of art, style, that I didn't learn anything else. I didn't learn the rules and despite all my hard work, I am not satisfied with it. So I'm learning all over again, going through all the pain staking lessons I should have already learnt but sacrificed for immediate satisfaction. I think this video is a sign that it's about damn time, so thank you. I hope to see more of your journey soon
Wow. Thank you for starting again. I feel seen.The vulnerability, the accountability, the procrastination, the rebranding of the same project with the same passion and desire to get it done. For me, it's my podcast.
I have been creatively procrastinating on being a working artist. I’ve spent so much time supporting my friends who are artists and sitting in the background and now it’s time for me to produce my own work consistently and be loud about it.
This video spoke to my soul. The many projects, the video footage sitting on my external hard drive, the novel waiting to be edited, the stupid screenplay about a TV repairman. It's all waiting...and yet I sit and let it stay. Thanks for the inspiration.
"Never give up on something you cannot go a day without thinking about." -Winston Churchill
i love this. thank you for sharing 🤎
Much as I hate Winston Churchill for the nasty things he did to India...when the man's right, he's right.
Wow. Profound
what if that something gives up on you
that quote literally changed ma life :)
This one of those cinematic videos you watch and you’re like Wtf.
I’m genuinely inspired. The story telling, color grading everything is just amazing.
means the world! wow. thank you so much 🙏🏽💛
Took the words well outta my mouth :)
J2, 100%😊
Agree ❤❤
Dunno who will see this. Doesn’t matter: I spent a decade working a corporate job hoping to climb the ladder and land a spot where I was fat and happy. But I’m unhappier than ever. I helped someone build their dream and postponed my own. On the day of my 10th anniversary I received a card from the company. No one had signed it except for my recently departed boss with the message “Best of luck”.
Money is just money. Follow your ideas and dreams.
David, thank you for this. I don't think enough people openly and honestly express their feelings about THIS. Thank you.
@@nnekajthank you. Felt good to get it off my chest if I’m honest.
I wish my dad knew this, he wanted me to do art as a hobby or a side thing and do enegenering which I hate
He said how masculine jobs are more valuable than feminine jobs and idk what the hell he is talking about
I wanna be happy than just do it for money like my purpose is doing it for money
I'll burn out
@@infiniteX3 what
how is art feminine and engineering masculine?
@@infiniteX3 you should follow your dream of becoming an artist
I got an entire feature length film sitting on a hard drive, in a lock box that I use as decoration for my room, that I glance at every day...
I wanna see it
Let it out!!
Oh we NEED to see this! Let it fly, my friend.
lmao i love that its in a lockbox 🤣 the staring contest between the two of you
I wanna watch too
You answered a question that I think about all the time. “Why do I keep thinking about this project?” Because you care about it.
I needed that. Thank you.
A question I have to answer for myself all the time! Thank you for watching 🙏
Same.
@@nnekaj Yw!
"Why it keeps bubbling up is because you actually care about that shit" was so unexpectedly poignant, played it back 3 times. Lately I have been creatively procrastinating on a lot of things honestly. I haven't been in a musical in 3 years, haven't done an audition in 2 years and the last thing I wrote was 2 lines of a poem back in October 2023. I miss creating, I miss performing, I miss working with other artists. I guess I've been procrastinating on starting over again. I have had so many strong ideas, and little to no desire to execute them. Depression is a beast, but maybe one day I can tame it so I can spend my days visiting it & tending to it rather than fighting it. Subscribing to your channel, I hope you meet all of the goals you set for yourself and I'd love to witness it.
LIKE! LIKE! LIKE!!
Did you start yet? This video got me off my ass to start again.
@@Pawndaunt yep, it sure did! I started writing again. I've been journaling and I started writing an autobiography. It's not the project that I expected to start, but it feels good. I like to think that it matters that it feels good. I also started voice training again! And singing in front of people again! I can feel myself getting yoinked from the depression pit that I've been in for months. It's nice to feel the sunshine of life on my face again. It also helps that I just finished an accelerated Statistics summer class with a B (my 2nd time taking the class, the first time was back in 2015 and I dropped out). I've started wearing makeup again. Wearing my hair down again. I'm not completely out of the dark yet, but I can feel my soul again.
i think everyone needs to watch this. this is what the people of today need to watch. we’re all stuck in a limbo, wanting to start over tomorrow. but it never comes.
thank you for these words, Isabella! Nothing moves unless we do. I'm always learning this.
She has started again and we are here for it, starting with you. 🦋
I appreciate you ALWAYS, Amber 🥹❤we got thissss!
yep I'm in 🥂💫
1:09
"We try to drown ourselves in monotony and busy work as if distraction will lead to amnesia, and not dissatisfaction, resentment, regret."
This line goes hard
No other creator has inspired my own creativity more than you! Ever since I discovered your instagram I have been enamored by your art. Love that you're in RUclips and love this entire challenge!
agreed!!!!
Same!!
Nasiha! These words made my entire yearrrr. So thankful to find you here 🥰
@@pjjones4444 thank you PJ! 💕
@@Omi_nus thank you my dear! ❤
Your voice so soooooooo important. Like I already know these things, but when you say them the way you say them how you say them…wakes me the fork 🍴 up, asking me to finish my breakfast.
ahhhh! man. thank YOU. seriously. holding this sentiment close. thank you so much for watching🙏🏽
You had me at the thumbnail! But you also HAD me in the first 5 seconds! Amazing work!
The idea that starting again doesn’t mean you’re behind, but rather on a new path, is so comforting
Never have I been so invested in a RUclips video… cinematic masterpiece
this means the world 🫶🏽 thank you so much for watching!
"I implore you to check your own pockets for the key before reaching your hands for something they do not posses" is prbly one of the hardes qoutes on the internet i have ever heard!
I don't need motivation or permission, just a pathway to walk into and keeping walking. Thank you.
Thank you for this, Nneka. These poems aren't going to write themselves and my camera won't shoot on its own. Thank you for your openness. See you in video 001!!
Shewww! "These poems aren't going to write themselves and my camera won't shoot on its own." WE got this, Yan. One step at a time :)
As a creative who keeps procrastinating, I needed you. Thank you for Starting🙏🏽
This video has come into my life at the perfect time. I've recently started my RUclips channel after over 3 years of wanting to but being too afraid to start. I have a chronic illness so it can be a struggle to keep up with projects, but I'm so happy to finally be doing it even if it takes me a while to upload a new video. This inspired me to work on editing a video that I've filmed and have been wanting to upload! I'm really looking forward to following you on your journey and sending you many kind wishes for this project! 😊
If I tell you that I have a project in the drawer that I really want to accomplish, you won't believe how much your video has inspired and encouraged me. This project is called A Music Memoir, and it's about stories written from songs that I love and that have been part of my life in a profound way. This project came about when I realized how serious my grandfather's Alzheimer's diagnosis was, and after I watched a RUclipsr I really like share a musical diary of his life's memories, just after his own family had been diagnosed with Alzheimer's. I'm insecure and scared, but I'm going to write it down and record it for more people to see. You are light. Keep producing and I'll keep watching you. Xo.
It's almost 3 am here in South Africa and I'm just laying in my bed in awe!!
Procrastination had a hold of me for a minute, but I recently got past it, thank God.😄
Whew! It's had me in a realll chokehold, Trina 🤣 So glad you're DOING.
I am procrastinating on the same project during 4 years ! everybody i have to do it to actually have my degree but in some point I am afraid of being a civil engineer because i want to have many skills ad competences before. but what i realise is we are not perfect, we are all stillleraning and what i have to do is doing what it has to be done and let God decide if i am worth to be an engineer ! maybe one day i will come back and say it was worth it !
I found out something recently, in the cortex there is a specific part dedicated to will power and it has some fancy name that I can’t remember at the moment. Basically, the way it works is that the more you force yourself and will through the things you put off or find challenging or don’t like doing, the more it will grow and the easier it will get into doing those things you don’t want to do or are a struggle to do. But when you continue to put things off, don’t do the challenges, don’t do those things you don’t want to do, it will decrease and your will power will become weaker and weaker the more you just don’t will yourself into things. Just something to keep in mind when doing this is that you are actually bettering yourself just by doing this.
Feel free to send me a letter! I’d like to feel obligated to send you a letter in return.
Gurrl...you spoke to my soul with this one. Your voice, your words, the cinematography -- so powerful! Thank you
This speaks to my soul and where I'm at right now (and where I find myself year after year). I have found that life/creativity is a process of starting over...again and again and again.
I'm so glad you can relate, Mack! I was reading an old journal yesterday and literally thought to myself, "this is almost the exact same thing I'm grappling with now but just a different project, person, choice." It seems like life is a series of mountains beyond mountains, a constant process of one step at a time. Again and again and agan.
Indeed!! 🦋
I love seeing the comments of so many others who have THAT project (out of many) that they can never stop caring ahout. Thank you queen!! Excited to see your project unfold
Today, I discovered my notes for a forgotten game I had been diligently working on, hidden within a book from a friend I once cherished but is now on the other side of the planet.
GOD BLESS this WOMAN this CHANNEL & HER LIFE
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i turn 34 tomorrow! I feel like a bunch of us 34 year old ladies are feeling this way, 34 feels close to 40 in my head so its definitely a wake up call and also realizing how long I pressed snooze for on things. Since 2024 I've started writing poetry and working on my memoir with movie adaptation ideas. Been procrastinating past 2 years on starting my own RUclips channel
The words I didn’t know I needed to hear. I’ve been putting off so much. And tbh, it’s a reflection of what the past year has been for me-putting myself last. Time to get back to things. Thank you for sharing this!
You are so talented, don't question, just do. Perfection isn't possible, shoot for 50%, pick it apart and shoot for 70% but never perfect. It will never live up to our standards if we wait for perfect. You are beautiful and creative, just believe.
needed THIS. thank you, friend ❤
@@nnekaj ❤️ Even though each of us seem worlds apart, we are each struggling in silence under the same conditions ❤️
i never been more genuinely inspired from a youtube video.
I was considered a prodigy and was doing incredible work as a child that got me noticed by fashion designers, actors and other artists- but I was in a major accident that effected my health and even before that I was bullied out of doing anything I ever loved. and no one supported me in anything I ever wanted to accomplish, so my time as an artist has unfortunately come and gone. I don’t have the resources, finances, strength, time, energy, or health to retrain myself. anytime I pick up a pencil or stare at a canvas or look at my old audio files, all I feel is heartbreak because I know where my skill level should be, and it’s not there.
I’m so glad you all found your voices again. Take it from an exhausted millennial that has given up all hope: don’t be like us. It’s so tempting, but you have something to give, something to say, something important to offer. Keep with it- don’t sacrifice the things you love for literally anyone. Yall can do it. I believe in you.
I believe in you ❤
I need to come back to this video multiple times. I feel like it’s a good reminder that I’m not alone in my struggles of putting pin to paper. It’s tough to just do it. It’s overwhelming to see others pass you by in their creative endeavors, but there is hope and community out there. I thank you for sharing your side of this.
I have a novel in my mind, a metaphor about my journey of self-discovery and my transition.
A prince is tasked with slaying the final priestess from a sect of witches that were banished from the kingdom as the prince was born. It starts off as a normal "hero's journey," but as we wade with them through the Weeping Sands, through a series of flashbacks, we realize that the prince...is the fucking villain of the story...
It is one of self-hatred, mortality, self-acceptance, the inevitably of change, and the foolishness that pushing back against change entails.
You’re so inspiring… I been procrastinating on just making an effort using my camera to create for myself.. I’m so obsessed with trying to make money while being creative that I feel overwhelmed to just create to just.. create. Thank you for this video. I look forward to seeing more from you.
Man! THIS. It's a constant struggle trying to create just to create without thinking about how to monetize. Product vs process. We all deserve more time in the making of things that we truly believe in. Thank you for watching, Stedmen!
i hate this video...... because it ends!! i wanted it to go on for another 90 minutes. thanks for sharing, thanks for making me feel not alone. i'm excited to see ur creative world
Being thirty-four myself, I really feel the urge to finish my creative pursuits as well. I'm only getting older and this is my biggest or deepest passion in life. The love to tell a story. It's time I finish and keep finishing.
right here rooting for you 🤎 you got this one step at a time, friend.
@@nnekaj Thank you. We get one chance at life. We should enjoy it as best as we can.
This made me so happy. How refreshing.
thank you so much for watch 😩❤️
For years, through my whole youth I carried this idea of making a certain Story (Manga/Graphic Novel) with certain characters and a certain meaning. Through the years it transformed many times and evolved so much, taking twists and turns- planned to be my magnum Opus. When the time was right. When I had published Stories before just to know how it‘s done. It had to had to be my main work, my epic with the most Volumes- all in my head. For the last to years I told myself i will start *soon*, making designs, elaborate on Worldbuilding, fleshing out everything, even what pigments to use for which characters if i would colour it- Needless to say this whole bubbled up construct kept me from ever bringing it out of my head, some charcter illustrations aside. But now, I‘m happy to say your Video came at the right time, because my Story hatched- just into one, simple small short story. Taking away the pressure of being a big project, it actually opened up so many opportunities and i‘m so eager to bring it out now. Also the idea became so pressing, my brain doesn‘t even leave me a choice anymore, last sunday i finally started writing the script, currently furnishing it. Can‘t wait to start and draw the first page…
A simple short story is great. Then later, if you want, you can do volume 2 and add to it all you want. You got this😊
A short story is great. Can always add more volumes to it later if you want😊
Sorry for the double reply. My internet is messing up since they came out and upgraded it🤪
and sometimes there is this one person that is different, has that edge, is that creative, doesnt't stop where society puts them. ITS FUCKING THIS WHAT IM SEARCHING FOR!
Ooof I love when the algorithm does me some good! 👏 I have many personal side projects that I’ve been trying to launch for years, but there is *one* that is “bigger” and way more personal for me, and it’s the one I have the most resistance to starting because I know it requires me to show up in the biggest way. Thank you 🙏
I’m awake! And seeing those beautiful match cuts. 😍 Message and visuals received, Nneka. ❤
You know it made my heart sing that you noticed the match cuts, Samantha! 🥰
I was definitely meant to see this today because I also turned 34 last Friday! Thank you 🌷
happy belated birthday, friend! we got this. one day, one step at a time 🤎
You're right. I gotta stop getting in my own head about my music. I want to compose, I want to write bars without constantly concerning myself with what other people will think about them, and about me. It's important to me. It's from the heart. I'm a pasty white boy trying to rap and it genuinely means the world to me, and I can't keep being scared of it.
my god I've never subscribed to a channel faster... beautiful work. I can't wait to see more. Such inspiring and thought provoking shot compositions
This cinematography is like nothing I've ever seen! Incredible👌🏾
Thank you for this. I needed to hear these words today. I make so many creative projects but they are always for someone else. Or to pay the bills or to solve someone else's problem and yet the things I dream of doing myself always sit by the sidelines hoping for that "Someday" when my position on the Maslow's hierarchy of needs is finally above the level of "Safety and Security" enough that I can actually spend time on it and not feel immensely guilty for neglecting something or someone I love. I forget sometimes that the person I am neglecting is myself.
4:12 It’s me literally avoiding my film editing homework as I instead watch this LOL. *sigh* Hope to befriend the “uncomfortable” very soon ✨
I’ve been working on illustrating an Oracle Deck for the last 4 years. Sometimes I get really discouraged because I’m not as healthy and capable of follow-through as I once was. But I haven’t given up; I hope next year is the year I finally make this project a reality.
Ngl I can keep coming back to this video over and over. Best 5 mins spent tho love your work 🔥
highest compliment 😭🫶🏽 thank you!
5 years ago I collected addresses to do something very similar…called the mailman’s daughter (my father is a retired mail man)… I never sent one letter and the inspiration and conviction I felt watching this…my goodness . I’m both grateful for and annoyed with you ma’am! Thank you 🙏🏾💚and for that reason I’m
Subscribing
This wasn’t supposed to make me cry. But it did. Lost everything, having a hard time starting over and this really hit me. Thank you.
This is beautiful. Thank you for creating this🫶🏾
Thank you for watching, Archie! ❤
I was on the verge of shelving my creativity when this video appeared in my feed. Like a sign from the universe I still care and I should keep going.
I liked this video. It's well edited and the message is well timed.
😂😂 “it’s taking tOO long already…” x2 🤣🤣
LMAO it would've gone on for 30 more minutes!! 🤣
I've been procrastinating a lot and this was my sign "YOU SHOULD START AGAIN" damn right, I should! This video spoke to me in volumes, each frame was perfect, the color grading was awesome and the narration was top-notch. Your voice is so unique, that it kept me hooked to the video. I would love to see you on this journey while following my own! Lots of Love from India
And here I was thinking you've already set the bar way too high lol. Little did I know it goes higher! Cook sis, COOK! Impatiently waiting for a new buffet😁
lmaooo you are my favorite, Samerah! now you got me screaming LET HER COOK!!!
Girl you’re on another level with your story telling and beautiful visuals. Wow. Loved this
Alexa! Thank you so much beautiful 🥹❤️
@@nnekaj I have a question! do you shoot In S Log? would you consider making a video on color grading or have any recommendations? 🥰
@@alexathegr8 of course! Yes, I shoot in s-log3 with a Sony FX3 and grade in davinci resolve. I've been loving all the cineprints @tombolles puts out for a more film-like look. He has some AMAZING tutorials on his page
@@alexathegr8 maybe one day once I geet my workflow together I'll make a grading vid! 🥲
@@nnekaj appreciate the response!! Thank you so much
My thing is soooo fricken CRAZY and there are possibly a billion obstacles and I keep reaching into the void for help and no one is answering….so maybe I am crazy. I changed my life over the last 4 years DRASTICALLY I sound spirituality and as I worked with Source/ God to heal I had a creative explosion. I channel stories, movies, shows, inventions…with music. Music also charges me magically and I can do some things that mediums do. I also do psychic art. I think it is time to start on my book but I don’t know how to write. Your call to arms is just what I needed. Thank you.
Yes! I've never hit a notification bell so fast. ❤ Thank you for creating this!
thank you for being here! wow ❤
My Thing: Writing this feature film. You just inspired me to get back to it.
I was watching my watch later playlist while doing something on my other monitor. That intro - that got my attention. This was fantastic
I was half expecting another shoe commercial at the beginning because they are a vague sense of motivation. I love this. You are right random lady in my suggested list, I should start again. I think I will. Thank you!
You just reminded me of my drive to go back to writing my Victorian historical novel on the development of the science of geology, that I keep putting aside because there is so much research involved. But I started it because I'm passionate about that research. No more procrastination. Opening up the draft and writing, right now!
Im rooting for you, Nneka ❤
i appreciate you, friend 🥹❤️
@@nnekaj waiting for your next short 😇
I've wanted to learn a ton of languages so I could be a translator and my first language was Japanese. I started lessons and just stopped eventually. I'm almost out of high school so I needed this. Thank you
Your video was so captivating for me because I was procrastinating the publication of my poetry book. Now I have the manuscript already done, as well as the writing of my novel and many short stories. It's not easy when you're still a student and broke. keep going. big like from Italy. Zac
You spoke to my soul. And I NEVER comment on videos, but, you spoke to my soul, and I want in on the challenge, I want to finish my album in 100 days.
Oh I needed to see this one. So so sooooo many unfinished projects waiting for me to revisit and actualize. This is such a powerful and wonderful reminder. Thank you for sharing your art and looking forward to that premiere for #100!!!
GIRL
THAT INTRO WAS GORGEOUS IN SO MANY WAYS
Just stopped in the middle of this video at 11PM to test out a recipe I’ve long procrastinated just to be sure I like it before publishing it
Can’t stop thinking about it 😅😊
Can’t stop thinking about it! 😅
I’ve had this video in my watch later. Just sat down to do some work and while playing my watch later videos in the background. This video is cinematic and beautifully made that I had to stop what I was doing! Felt inspired affffff 🥹
I am so excited that I found your channel. I love the vibes. You are throwing out!!
Best RUclips vid I’ve seen in a long time. Cinematic, genuine, curious, intriguing and very motivating. Nneka your personality is so inviting girl, super smart and crazy pretty and cool. Love it, keep going beautiful 😊
Huh..? This is so good, it makes me feel something. I'm sorry "so good" was an understatement. It's unbelievable to have come across this video. So this is what it looks like when someone puts their heart into something. Brooo I cannot wait to see more of this
You, my dear, are MEANT to be a filmmaker (coming from a fellow photographer with a degree in critical film studies.) This has been my introduction to your work, and I rarely come across visual storytelling this good. Automatically subscribed. I also needed to hear this today, so thank you!
Nneka!!!!! You are a GENIUS! The WORLD needs your TALENT!!!I can’t get enough of yours shorts. Definitely got me tapped in and honing into to my creativity as well! Thank you❤❤❤❤
This gave me a serious ASMR moment! You've a very powerful voice, and an even powerful storytelling technique. I really thought this was a short film.
And to answer your question on what I've been procrastinating on?... Well, since 2017, I've been procrastinating on creating an animated series.
Ohhhh my!!!!!!! wowwwww, wow, wow.. ok so I do not know you yet and it is my first time seeing your work, but I'm hooked to your freshness, the reliability and of course the challenge and I just can't wait to see you succeed Dear! You are sooo, raw, creative and yes interestingly delightfullllll... thank you so much for sharing your heart! I can't wait to continue to watch you - and rather than be peripherally inspired, perhaps I too will jump in to do the work that I toooo keep waiting to do as well but just think about it ruminating. My Magnum Opus - 3 -4 years of procrastination in progress.. I'm inspired, inspired by you. thank you, Gracias Mil!
I asked God to speak to me and your video popped up❤. Wow. Just what i needed yo hear
I have so many creative projects I want to pursue, but the one that gives me the drive you speak about is not what I'd call creative. But listening to you has made me think, "You know what? I am doing something completely new in this. It IS a creative process. It IS infusing my every thought and effort. And I AM procrastinating on key aspects because they DO make me uncomfortable." Imma follow your journey now, because I am going to connect with and parallel it in my own endeavour. Which IS a creative one. Go Us!
I dunno who you are, or what I searched to change the algorithm in order to deserve to have this video come across my feed. I dunno what kind of life you’ve had, I dunno how you vote, or what kind of company you keep, I dunno how many dimensions you have, or how old your soul is. I do know I love you, and I believe in you. Subscribing now.
PS. This project NEEDS to happen, it has reason, it has purpose, it has depth. Show us who we are. ❤ you got this.
this is one of the most beautiful things anyone has ever written me. thank you simply isn't enough, but thank you for every single word. i'll be saving this.
Thank you, I've been pushing off "Poject 13" for... YEARS at this point. This is really motivating me to actually work on my magnum opus 😂❤
I know it's a lot of work but please keep sharing and posting because ... holy cow. Your voice and these thoughts are so needed by the creatives of the world who are still trying to figure this out alongside you. 💚
Great job on everything, loved the video, the content, the information, the music and of course you're young, smart and beautiful. ( I'm 60 so I can say that ). I am just starting to research information on a channel at my age and have issues to think about, that's one reason I'm impressed with your video. Keep up the good work and never let anyone tell you different!🥰
I’m very glad this video came up on my recommended. As a 20 year old I have no clue what to do with my life. When you said “why do I keep thinking about this project” I realized. I think about being a freelance artist A LOT. This video gave me some motivation to keep doing that even though it will be hard. So thank you^^
This is incrediblely well made! I can tell it took a long time...THANK YOU for making a video about your creative process and goals. Earlier tonight i spoke to my grandma in a disgusted-and-worry fueled rant about the blatant theft and deception that is AI, how its stealing people's videos and art...but your video is what humanity is really about. I guess you could say it's not important in the big, big scheme of things...because HUMANITY is more important and will always be. THIS is more important. Human creation and artistic struggle! Artistic CARING!!! So thank you!!!
The alignment of this message with me today is mind blowing..... THANK YOU AND HERE ARE YOUR VIRTUAL FLOWERS 🌹🌹🌹❤💯🤞🏾!!!!!
the quality, top notch. Truely wow. I feel content after consuming this piece of content. You go girl
"If it's too open it's not going to get done." Realized this 1.5 years into my creative journey. I need just enough structure to reduce decision fatigue but not too much to crush creativity. Love the details in your video.
On creative resistance: I found it to be very uncomfortable but also very rewarding to send that first blog/video out there. Even social media post. I think if you love "doing" it, you should keep going. Even if you stop for a year or don't get any results.
It build character and adds a spice to the mundaness of everyday life.
You’re incredible. Storytelling. Visuals. Music. Thank you for blessing my timeline today 🙏🏼
thank you so much for watching, beautiful ❤️
Thank you. Found thus video accidentally. I feel called out. I've been working on a book for 3 years. It's time to finish it.
Can't wait to read what you write!
i enjoyed the way the scenes switched abruptly, kept me locked in. the scoring was dramatic without being overbearing. visuals 10/10. it’s like you translated the way you perceive life seamlessly. lucky find. fucking inspiring. ❤️
I used to consider taking on a creative project to push myself out of my comfort zone and just experience things freely without judgment. I won't be using social media this month, but I'll definitely follow up with your project when I return.
Thank you for sharing this wonderful message at the perfect time 🌺🌱⭐ I also need this and I appreciate it so much. Wishing you lots of love and good vibee ✨
Im learning art again, design and form and color all over again, because I spent 10 years of my life focusing on such a small part of art, style, that I didn't learn anything else. I didn't learn the rules and despite all my hard work, I am not satisfied with it. So I'm learning all over again, going through all the pain staking lessons I should have already learnt but sacrificed for immediate satisfaction. I think this video is a sign that it's about damn time, so thank you. I hope to see more of your journey soon
Wow. Thank you for starting again. I feel seen.The vulnerability, the accountability, the procrastination, the rebranding of the same project with the same passion and desire to get it done. For me, it's my podcast.
I have been creatively procrastinating on being a working artist. I’ve spent so much time supporting my friends who are artists and sitting in the background and now it’s time for me to produce my own work consistently and be loud about it.
This video spoke to my soul. The many projects, the video footage sitting on my external hard drive, the novel waiting to be edited, the stupid screenplay about a TV repairman. It's all waiting...and yet I sit and let it stay. Thanks for the inspiration.