My Miscarriage Story | 14 weeks

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  • Опубликовано: 14 май 2017
  • It is important to talk about miscarriage. So many women go through it, share this video if you are or know someone. Let miscarriages not be a silent topic. You are not alone and most importantly you are a mom.
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Комментарии • 865

  • @duchess6661983
    @duchess6661983 7 лет назад +444

    Your story is my story. I miscarried at 12 weeks a couple of days ago and here I am, looking for answers and comfort in the same place you did. I'm so sorry you went through this, but please take comfort in knowing that this video helped someone.

    • @KatKamalani
      @KatKamalani  7 лет назад +21

      That brings joy to my heart that i brought a little comfort to your sweet family.I am so sorry you went through this. I am sending all the love in the world to you. Thinking of you!!! xoxoxo

    • @danajones07
      @danajones07 5 лет назад +7

      Same here. Just had my miscarriage confirmed today. Thank you for posting.

    • @crazyicecream2237
      @crazyicecream2237 2 года назад

      @@KatKamalani ruclips.net/video/o-UOA-BjKCs/видео.html

    • @kristina_lynn
      @kristina_lynn Год назад

      Same. I hope you’re feeling better now since this is an older comment. It happened yesterday for me

  • @GigiNaj
    @GigiNaj 6 лет назад +393

    I had 3 missed miscarriages.. horrible! The 3rd were 8wk old twins 😢 now I’m 14wks (which is the longest I’ve been pregnant) and I’m freaking out. I am so sorry for what you both went thru! ❤️ God is with you.

    • @jese2222able
      @jese2222able 6 лет назад +31

      Honey please relax and try to not think so much of the loses you have had. You can a rainbow baby and this one could be that one, but you have to relax and try to stay positive. I had 2 loses before I had my last 2 sons. One of the things the Doctors told me is my anxiety was so bad w my baby that I was making it hard for myself to hold onto the baby I did have. Try to relax love. This is not the babies you lost it's a whole new baby. Be happy enjoy it, you are farther along than the others and that is a great sign. I know it's hard not to think of the past TRUST ME, but you must. Think positive as much as you can. If you need to reach out, reach out to me. I am a great listener. If I can help in anyway I will. Bless you and your family and that beautiful baby to come love.

    • @WhoTFisPhoenix1018
      @WhoTFisPhoenix1018 5 лет назад +3

      How are things going sweetheart?

    • @KrazeDoesIt
      @KrazeDoesIt 5 лет назад +1

      Hope everything it well!

    • @amaanzia007
      @amaanzia007 5 лет назад +2

      Hi had 3 miscarriage one is 2 months 2 twin January 16 miscarriage sorry for you

    • @zzevonplant
      @zzevonplant 5 лет назад +6

      I see that you posted this 8 months ago, so I was wondering, how did everything turn out, and how are you doing? Just wanted to check on you. I'm praying that everything went okay.

  • @theemmabarnett
    @theemmabarnett 7 лет назад +138

    Honestly, I've watched every single miscarriage story on RUclips since having my missed carriage at 12 weeks and this was the most honest real and home hitting one. It was almost nice to watch this and know someone else in the world can relate to me. I'm so sorry it happened to you and we can hope for rainbow babies soon. ❤️

  • @tishaelauren
    @tishaelauren 4 года назад +13

    Literally had the same experience. I had to deliver 2 days ago a 15w old baby. I miss my angel. I feel everything you’ve felt. I eat healthy, I did everything right. My body didn’t even tell me that the baby stopped growing. I was sitting here thinking I was 19 weeks and the baby was only 15 weeks. This is the worst pain I ever felt. And it’s true. You don’t realize how much you want to be a mom until you become pregnant. I just had to search and get some comfort so thank you. I’m Def going to be crying forever. I just keep looking at the handprints they gave me. And I cry every time. I don’t know if I’ll ever be the same tbh. I’m sitting here bleeding out missing my baby. Feeling like I failed her.

    • @tishaelauren
      @tishaelauren 4 года назад

      And to add to that my bf died in November and I can’t even say “I can just try again” I feel like I can’t have another chance, not that she’ll ever be replaced.

  • @ChristinaJosue
    @ChristinaJosue 5 лет назад +139

    After two miscarriages in a row we are now expecting our first baby girl 💕

    • @tansookjing
      @tansookjing 4 года назад +10

      I had two miscarriages in a year. So happy for you, I hope my next pregnancy will be successful.

    • @jelinaangel
      @jelinaangel 4 года назад +2

      Bless u and your family

  • @laura11h
    @laura11h 3 года назад +23

    I lost my baby at 12 weeks a few days ago. I started spotting two days before my appointment and was reassured by my friends and family this was normal... but I knew something was wrong. I never knew how much I could love someone I had never really met. Miscarriages should not be a silent topic and the grieving process is so, so hard. Hearing I am still a mom brought me to tears

  • @omnistgangsterenlightenmen3788
    @omnistgangsterenlightenmen3788 5 лет назад +13

    I really appreciate you’re vulnerability and sharing this, and I love how you said “ it’s not necessarily in time that you heals but rather learn how to grief” also when you said “ I’m choosing to go down a good path and bring light into other peoples life” you’re an angel.

  • @bryonysheppard4076
    @bryonysheppard4076 3 года назад +10

    The emotional pain of a miscarriage is something that can’t be put into words. I miscarried a few days ago at 12 weeks. sending all the mums and dads of an angel the biggest hug ❤️

  • @janessacarlton5326
    @janessacarlton5326 4 года назад +4

    It’s 3 am and I’m awake searching for answers, for comfort, for anything. We found out today at 10 weeks pregnant, our first baby, didn’t have a heartbeat. A missed miscarriage. I was in complete shock. I didn’t even know what a missed miscarriage was, now it’s all too real. Your story touched my heart and I’m thankful for women like you brave enough to share. It helps to know you’re not alone.

  • @kellythompson9714
    @kellythompson9714 4 года назад +6

    I know this is an old video, but you have just helped me feel that I’m not alone. People try to comfort you but it’s hard to accept condolences from people who I know don’t understand. I had a missed miscarriage at 9 weeks, nearly 3 weeks ago and the pain is so strong. I had a feeling something wasn’t right, no symptoms, just a feeling so I went for a reassurance scan, and that’s where I saw the baby but no heartbeat, my world fell apart instantly.
    The way you said “Am I still a mom?” Really hit me, and I believe I will always be a mother to my baby after hearing you say that. Thank you so much for being so brave because I could not have made that video. Sending lots of prayers to all the ladies who come here looking for some support, like I did x

  • @eeriingraacee
    @eeriingraacee 5 лет назад +40

    You are the mom of a tiny saint in heaven! Thank you for sharing your story

  • @CarlaPrincipessa
    @CarlaPrincipessa 6 лет назад +11

    Thank you so much! If your goal was to help others in the same situation I can tell you that you did. I don’t have anyone to talk to that has experienced a miscarriage and that is why I started searching online.
    So many of the things you said in this video made me feel so closed to you, a complete stranger, because that’s exactly how I am feeling. Specially when you said that it doesn’t matter if you carry a baby for 2 weeks, 2 months or 20 years, you are a mom. I carried my baby for 2 months and I just found out yesterday that unfortunately my little angel is not longer with us.
    Your courage and your honesty are giving me strength and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
    Much love from Perú ❤️

    • @KatKamalani
      @KatKamalani  6 лет назад

      oh my goodness carla. i am thinking of you. i am sending you all the love in the world. i hope one day you will get your rainbow baby sweetheart

  • @lifeaskowanna
    @lifeaskowanna 5 лет назад +7

    So glad I found this video. I just had a miscarriage on May 22. My princess Kailey was only 19 weeks. I actually had her in my moms bathroom. She just fell out after I went to the bathroom. It was terrible. There was blood everywhere. (Sorry for the details) I was panicking because I didn’t know what to do. My fiancé tried to do CPR but she was already gone😢. She was my fiancé and I first child and it hurts so much. I never would have thought I would have had to bury my own child. We tried for 5 years and when we found out we were pregnant we were was so excited. It’s a wonderful feeling❤️. Come to find out I have a incompetent cervix and its crazy because I just had a doctors appointment the week before and everything was fine. I feel your pain and I’ll be praying for you❤️. We have guardian angels now😇

    • @P03ticJustice
      @P03ticJustice 4 года назад

      Women should be resting while pregnant

    • @soph2799
      @soph2799 3 года назад

      I’m so sorry for your loss. Your beautiful baby Kailey is looking down on you. She loves you as you love her. She protects you. ❤️

  • @gemmala8704
    @gemmala8704 4 года назад +11

    I lost my first pregnancy a few days ago. My story is so similar to yours.
    I was 9 weeks but I started light bleeding so my doctor sent me for a reassurance ultrasound telling me everything will be fine but there was no longer a heartbeat.
    I was given those pills too and it was the worst pain of my life, I ended up having an emergency D&C
    Now I’m dealing with this emotional pain.
    I’m so happy to see you went on to have children, this was my first pregnancy so I really hope I can get pregnant again and have a healthy baby 💓🌈

  • @elbafuentes2877
    @elbafuentes2877 4 года назад +5

    I want to give you a hug so bad! I've had multiple miscarriages over a span of 5 years, every word that came out of your mouth hit me so hard! Having to tell friends and family that you've lost the baby that they were all so excited for is the worst. When you said "am I a mom? I don't have a baby" I cried so hard! Its something I've said too many times. I know I don't know you, but we share the same story and the same pain, and for that, I love you. I hope you and your husband finally get your prayers answered.

  • @belkisjcruz
    @belkisjcruz 4 года назад +6

    I’m going through the same thing at the moment. I went to my twelve week check up on June 23rd and my doctor couldn’t find a heartbeat with the Doppler and sent me for an emergency ultrasound. My doctor explained to me that if everything was fine the tech would share the heartbeat, and they were only to call my doctor if something was wrong. When I got to the hospital for my ultrasound, they saw me right away, I laid down and was optimistic. As she started the ultrasound she immediately turned the monitor towards her. I knew something was wrong and started sobbing. She asked me to wait in the room because she needed to call my doctor. My baby was measuring 12 weeks 1 day and on the 23rd I would have been 12 weeks 2 days.
    I am still pregnant waiting to be scheduled for the procedure. It’s been two days of agony, two days of me begging God for this to be a bad dream. I look at myself in the mirror and I see my bump, started to show very early and I’m just devastated.
    I feel alone, I feel like in our culture it’s not considered a real loss. Everyone tells me to cheer up, not to get my feelings get the best of me. I feel like I’m not allowed to grieve, like I’m not allowed to cry or feel like I have a lost a part of that’s still inside me. Thank you for your video.

  • @ugobridget7727
    @ugobridget7727 6 лет назад +18

    i just lost my almost 12weeks baby today, and i cant explain how i feel. my husband is not saying anything and i cant shed a tear even though i want to. ...i understand how you felt and i pray God consoles us sooner

  • @peach8167
    @peach8167 7 лет назад +69

    I lost my first pregnancy at 10 weeks but the baby stopped developing at 6 weeks. I know your pain so very well and although you will never forget your baby time will help. I hope you get your rainbow baby best wishes

    • @KatKamalani
      @KatKamalani  7 лет назад +5

      im so sorry. sending you all the positive vibes and love your way! i hope you do too geneva! xo

    • @donnaortiz7827
      @donnaortiz7827 6 лет назад

      Geneva Casellas so sorry. Did you hear the heartbeat first and have to go through a dnc?

    • @cutefassihvlog2494
      @cutefassihvlog2494 6 лет назад

      @@KatKamalani How many kids have you now dear ?

    • @cutefassihvlog2494
      @cutefassihvlog2494 6 лет назад +1

      @@KatKamalani your baby will be in heaven ... Love for your baby ... from Pakistan ... You are a great lady May Allah gives u a lot of happiness... and also give u A lot of healthy babies

    • @clarisseganga5847
      @clarisseganga5847 5 лет назад +1

      Geneva Casellas the same yesterday went for scan i am nearly 11weeks but the told me the baby stopped developing at 6weeks and no heartbeat but i am going back for over 2weeks and hope for miracle i am desperate 😪

  • @tylercarr2310
    @tylercarr2310 6 лет назад +6

    I can't thank you enough for posting this. I had a miscarriage after being raped when I was 15 and never told anyone until after i turned 18. this helped me accept what happened to me and understand that it's okay. I am so sorry for your loss but you're not alone. thank you again

    • @soph2799
      @soph2799 3 года назад

      I’m so sorry you had to go through that alone. ❤️

  • @danafields1946
    @danafields1946 7 лет назад +22

    It gets better. I had a missed miscarriage at 14 weeks as well. I was in your shoes one year and two months ago and have yet to have my rainbow baby. My heart goes out to you and hope you have your rainbow baby sooner than later ❤ miscarriage is not talked about enough but talking about your experience helps. You seem like such a strong young lady and I am truly sorry you went through this. Not a day goes by that I don't think of my baby, they say time heals and it will. ❤

  • @Crystallightclarity
    @Crystallightclarity 6 лет назад +7

    I just went through my missed miscarriage at 11 weeks 3 days. Thanks for being so transparent! I opted for a D&C after 2 nights of labor trying to do it natural. I was terrified of taking the pills. I'm so lost right now 1 day after my D&C I'm here at 1:40am searching for anything relatable. Thank you for this video.

    • @KatKamalani
      @KatKamalani  6 лет назад

      I am so sorry about your miscarriage. I hate you have to go through that. I am thinking of you!!

  • @wafahubroman8202
    @wafahubroman8202 2 года назад +1

    I came across your video after having my missed miscarriage at about 10 weeks with my twins last week. Your story is similar to mine. It was the most traumatizing moment in my life when the doctor told my husband and I that they couldn't find their heart beats. I opted for a d&c because I knew I wouldn't handle seeing my pregnancy pass. I'm taking it day by day grieving. Knowing that we can be healthy and taking good care of ourselves and this still happen has helped me with the guilt of wondering if I did anything wrong that may have caused my miscarriage. That this has happened to others too. I'm so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your story.

  • @desireesanchez6992
    @desireesanchez6992 5 лет назад +18

    I lost my baby girl at 17 weeks and I had a life threatening infection. I had a d&c done and had to stay in the hospital and the hardest part was when the nurse brought me a memory box for her and that was the hardest thing I ever had someone bring me. Stay strong your not alone

  • @amess4816
    @amess4816 6 лет назад +4

    Thank you for making this video. I had a miscarriage 3 weeks ago today, at 11 weeks. The pregnancy was a complete accident. I was on the pill, and had been for four and a half years, and suddenly I was pregnant. Up to that point, I didn't even know whether I wanted children, but as soon as I knew it was there I wanted it so much. I've had such a difficult time dealing with it since then. All I do is try to keep myself busy, hoping it'll give me something else to focus on, but it's always there anyway, at the back of my mind.
    We hadn't told anyone about it. I'd read that once you hit 12 weeks that the chances of miscarriage were significantly reduced, so I was waiting for that and to have a scan to make sure it was alright. I was going to tell my family on my birthday, which was 10 days after the loss.
    For some reason, this point of hitting 3 weeks since it happened has hit me really hard. I think it's because it feels like it could have happened just a few days ago, and it's like time has slowed down for me in my grief, but the rest of life just carries on, like it didn't matter.
    Anyway, thank you for sharing your story. It meant alot to listen to someone who feels the same way I do. xx

  • @ancheesh
    @ancheesh 5 лет назад +10

    I'm 11 weeks pregnant now, going on my 12th, and it drives me crazy everyday not hearing the heartbeat, feeling it turn and all. I am crying at this video because this is my biggest fear. I know I may be driving myself crazy, but I know a lot of moms are with me. I hope you're okay now. I am praying for you and your family.

    • @starstines5024
      @starstines5024 4 года назад

      ancheesh are you okay now ? How’s your pregnancy going ?

    • @starstines5024
      @starstines5024 4 года назад

      I am 11 weeks almost 12 now and I’m only here because I’ve been experiencing severe back pain tonight .. kinda scary

    • @Preciousmae22
      @Preciousmae22 4 года назад

      Hi how are you? This covid is driving me crazy I can not go to the hospital for a ff up check up.

  • @ItShelbyKnown
    @ItShelbyKnown 4 года назад +2

    Honestly thank you for being strong enough to tell your story. It’s coming upon the time of my due date and I was really struggling and feeling alone. On July 4 th ,2019 two days before I was 17 weeks I had my miscarriage. I had just seen my doctor on Monday and everything was fine. Then the morning of the fourth my water broke early . I prayed and prayed there would be someway God could save my baby. I was offered the pill or the D&E I declined and ended up going in to labor clots and clots of blood . Not only was I losing my baby but they said that I would be possibly be losing my life as well. When I can to it was abosulutely horrific I had no baby and here I was bed written in the hospital. I got out about 3 weeks later and the pain of leaving the hospital without your child is nothing I would ever wish upon my worst enemy. I’m 3 weeks shy of my due date and I honestly don’t know what to do. I really don’t. And then your video came up and I think it was God helping me push along. THANK YOU so much I really needed this

    • @sydneejordan1434
      @sydneejordan1434 4 года назад +1

      ItShelbyKnown this just happened to me 3 days ago because my body was going into labor too early I was 16 weeks and 5 days I’m having her service tomorrow idk how to go on without her this is the hardest thing ever leaving the hospital without my baby was also very very hard for me but it feels good to know I’m not the only one going through this

    • @sydneejordan1434
      @sydneejordan1434 4 года назад +1

      I also just had an appointment with my doctor just 1 week ago 🥺

  • @shakiylashanea1247
    @shakiylashanea1247 4 года назад +18

    I just had a miscarriage last night and I cried right along with you. This has to be the worst thing I’ve ever been through. I feel like a failure but I’m trying to find hope at the end of the tunnel thanks for sharing your story

    • @morgan1478
      @morgan1478 4 года назад +1

      shakiyla shanea god bless you love 😔💕

    • @vanjaskoric7494
      @vanjaskoric7494 4 года назад

      I am going through this now. You’re not a failure and I know that’s a cliche because I feel the same. We’ll have our babies when the time is right. Stay strong

  • @modernwarpaint
    @modernwarpaint Год назад +1

    Thank you for exemplifying the courage to share your story. Many of us look for miscarriage support online, and I am one of those moms seeking it. I also had a MMC around 12 weeks. Similar situation as yours, except I let it happen naturally.
    It is different for everyone, but during the grieving process I found solace in watching fertility success videos and educating myself on the importance of preconception practices. I’m 41, but I still have hope.
    I am 13 weeks today. The trauma from the last pregnancy still lingers. We bought a Doppler to help ease that anxiety in between dr. visits.
    I hope your rainbow, if not yet already arrived, is on the horizon. Very sorry for your loss.

  • @ingridrivera9961
    @ingridrivera9961 4 года назад +3

    Thank you so much for this video. I went in for an 18 week appointment & already having heard the heartbeat once before, so sure of hearing positive news. Unfortunately they couldn’t find a heartbeat & baby had passed at 14 weeks. I am due for surgery tomorrow & so scared but your story helped comfort me in knowing it will be ok. Thank you so much for being so brave & I can assure you that you’ve helped others out there as well 💗

  • @TheHADZIELFamily
    @TheHADZIELFamily 5 лет назад +4

    I can relate so much to your story. On April 2019 this year I found out I was 3 months pregnant 👼🏼and on May 2nd 2019 I had a miscarriage 😭 in my home. After having my healthy first born I never thought I would have to experience a miscarriage. To hear your story truly bring me sadness and I pray you are blessed on the right time with a beautiful Angel ♥️. Thank you so much for sharing your story Kat. ♥️♥️♥️

  • @kendraolafson5672
    @kendraolafson5672 5 лет назад +3

    I know you posted this a long time ago but I just went through something similar. I was pregnant with my first baby, my husband just got married this past summer. We were over the moon excited. I started having some mild cramps at home and the smallest amount of bleeding so I went to my doc who did an emergency ultrasound and I received the dreaded news that my baby had no heartbeat. I was 10 weeks 5 days when I found out and was admitted to hospital. I had 3 rounds of the misoprostol pills. It was as horrifying as you described and then had to have a D&C because I was still unable to pass everything. It was absolutely horrible. Thank you for sharing. Your story resonated with me more than anything else I’ve seen so far. ❤️ wishing you healing

    • @KatKamalani
      @KatKamalani  5 лет назад

      oh kendra, my heart is breaking for you. i am so so sorry. it is so hard to go through and even though your heart will never fully heal, it will one day start the healing process. i hope one day you can have your rainbow baby sweetie. xo-kat

    • @kendraolafson5672
      @kendraolafson5672 5 лет назад

      I hope so too, one day at a time. 🙏 thank you.

  • @erinrock-ballard2826
    @erinrock-ballard2826 5 лет назад +1

    Thank you for sharing your story and your pain. I just miscarried at 8 weeks. I decided to wait a week after I found out to tell my husband on Father’s Day. I kept the secret, I told him Father’s Day morning and he was over the moon. I miscarried later that day. I am dealing with so much grief and pain. Everybody tells me I have my older two children and I should be thankful. That at least it happened early. That I can try again. But I don’t want to have to try again, I Wanted this pregnancy, I loved that baby and I will never get to hold him or watch him grow. Nobody around me seems to understand. The only thing getting me through is the moms online that have been there and that let me pour my heart out to them. Thank you so much for sharing and pouring your heart out to us. Sending prayers and love to your family.

  • @2fast4u94
    @2fast4u94 7 лет назад +10

    Oh my god!!!
    I just needed to her some one else .. I had a Miscarriage on June 19 I had to deal with it by myself and to this day I still feel a hole in my heart. I got extremely excited and I planned so much and then in one day everything went dark I was almost 2 months . God bless you!!

  • @cydneyhalley2847
    @cydneyhalley2847 7 лет назад +10

    Thank you so much for sharing. I had a miscarriage November 15th 2014 and I still think about that baby every day, even though I now have a 16 month old beautiful daughter. It is so hard. And it never goes away. But trust me when I say you will get your rainbow baby and you ARE a amazing mother. ❤️

    • @KatKamalani
      @KatKamalani  7 лет назад +1

      I loved reading your comment. Brought me so much joy!! sending all the love to you and your babies :)

  • @jemmamobach1983
    @jemmamobach1983 4 года назад +2

    Thank you so much for this. I also had a silent miscarriage and found out at 11 weeks. Then went on to have further complications because the pill didn’t work, so took it a second time which put me in full labour on my own at home. It’s been lonely going through this during lockdown. You’re positivity just really lifted me up then, thank you x

  • @jessicasidel520
    @jessicasidel520 6 лет назад +3

    Thank you so very much for doing this video! My first pregnancy ended at 14 weeks due to second trimester miscarriage the anniversary is coming on Aug 16th it will be 15 years and it kills me still. It ruined me completely I had a successful D&C. I then had my rainbow baby boy Andre almost a year later 7/21/2004! I then lost our third angel at 6weeks in 4/2006, I tried to have a D&C with this angel but they had to stop due to them being concerned of rupturing my uterus. I delivered this angel at home with full labor and delivery while I hated doing this at home I was lucky enough to hold my sweet angel and grieve. Then we had our 2nd rainbow baby boy at 34 weeks 2/27/2007, and then God blessed us with our beautiful daughter on 10/23/2008. As the dates come up I go through a depression.
    Through the years I've been able to help two very close sweet women find clarity along with showing them that God still loves us, and while we may not know the reason for his plans and we may never know until we are back in his all loving presence that is ok.

    • @KatKamalani
      @KatKamalani  6 лет назад

      ohhh jessica i am so sorry you lost your babies! i am praying for you sweet girl!

  • @larissapearl3369
    @larissapearl3369 4 года назад +2

    I had my miscarriage at 14 weeks due to a birth defect but I chose the d&c and I can tell you that there is no easy way around the trauma of recovering from something like this. My recovery process after the surgery was similar to your experience in a sense that there was tons of blood and stomach pain for DAYS. The emotional recovery is the toughest thing I think anyone could go through. I posted my announcement the night before the appointment where I found out. One of the worst things is when I had to tell people what happened and because I was just 19 at the time people would say something along the lines of “aw well look at the bright side” or “now you have time to prepare”. Just terrible things, insinuating I wasn’t ready to be a mother and it was a good thing this happened. I just passed the one year anniversary of my miscarriage and I can tell you I still think about my baby every single day, but we’re not alone! Every Mother’s Day, every healthy belly that walks by us out in public, every acquaintances healthy birth may sting but we’ll all get through it together!

  • @jillianbrown630
    @jillianbrown630 5 лет назад +3

    I was 13 weeks yesterday, and found out last night I had a missed miscarriage, just like you. It's the most horrible thing I've ever experienced, but it's things like this that make us stronger. Your courage inspires me. Your story is almost identical to mine and this brought me some comfort to watch. Thank you for posting. ❤

  • @marjie8959
    @marjie8959 5 лет назад +17

    We lost our first baby in April at 14 weeks and 3 days so I can completely understand and relate to everything you are saying stay super strong xxxx

  • @SurayahAlize
    @SurayahAlize 5 лет назад +1

    your story truly touched me!! i had a miscarriage at 6 weeks about a week ago, and i’m still beyond depressed and idk how to act tbh!! i’m sorry for your loss!! i’m here looking for help and answers! and i’m sorry this happened to you!

    • @KatKamalani
      @KatKamalani  5 лет назад +1

      oh i am so sorry you are going through this. it is so difficult and hard. i hope you know i am thinking of you sweet girl! lean on the people in your life and eat whatever you want :) i pray you get your rainbow baby one day sweetie! xoxo

  • @paigealexis3034
    @paigealexis3034 7 лет назад +3

    I am sooo sorry 😭😭😭 I've had 2 MMC's first May 2016 @ 12 weeks, and the second one (last month) June 2017 @ 15.4 weeks. I had d&c's with both. I totally understand what you're going through and it is most def frustrating! You feel guilty, discouraged, let down by your body, you know it's just all around devastating. But you have to remember that it is absolutely NOT your fault, I tell myself this every day and this is what gets me through. Keep up the good energy because most ppl won't even talk about it 🤷🏽‍♀️when it's actually pretty common and should be talked about to bring awareness to women ttc and even thee expecting mommy's. This tragic event can happen to anyone, and at any point in your pregnancy! I'm just trying to stay positive with each passing day, I find that's what helps me on my TTC journey. My bf and I are both very healthy 25 yr olds (still pretty young) so we won't give up and my best advice is that you don't either! We'll soon get our 🌈 babies 🤗😘 *baby dust to you* ✨ This is ONLY a test, and the only way to pass it is to NOT give up! 😘😘😘

  • @leahbillard36
    @leahbillard36 7 лет назад +2

    I am so so sorry for your loss, I lost my little boy 7months ago and this is the first time I have come to the internet regarding miscarriage. I think your such a strong person to publicly share your experience. Everything you have said is exactly how I'm feeling and I've never spoken to anyone else who has been through this. You've really helped me understand it's okay to grieve.. it's hard to carry on when all of your world feels like it's falling apart. I send all my love and prayers for yours and your partners future x

  • @mollyjones3835
    @mollyjones3835 3 года назад +1

    Earlier this year I had a missed miscarriage of twins. It’s awful. I ended up getting the D&C and while it was quick and relatively painless, it was during COVID lockdown so I was alone, my husband wasn’t able to be with me, and it was very traumatic. Not only did a need to grieve but I also was getting bills in the mail from the ER, the D&C, the ultrasounds, it was like an awful punishment for something I never even wanted to happen. The feeling of people moving on and the word carrying on while you are stuck in this place is so very real. I had to mourn the babies, but I also had to mourn the woman I was before this happened because I knew right then that I’d never been the same. Now, 6 months later, I can say it does get better. Therapy has helped a lot and I recommend you seek help if you can. If you’re going through this now, please know it gets better. You will laugh again and be hopeful again. You’ll find ways to honor your baby/babies and carry them with you. It’s incredibly hard. My heart is with anyone who has or is currently experiencing this.

  • @SarahTiggerfluffs
    @SarahTiggerfluffs 5 лет назад +8

    This is my second missed miscarraige at 12 weeks. Heart stopped approx 3 days before my scan this time. I've gone through this in twice in 6 months and it's so incredibly painful. Especially when people know. I have my D&C tomorrow. Sitting at home knowing your baby is dead inside you is mentally just ... well I cant describe it. Makes me question if I could go through it again. Seeing a positive test scares me having a scan scares me. If I dont feel exhausted or sick... it scares me. Thank you for your video it made me feel less alone xxx

    • @laurynanne2570
      @laurynanne2570 5 лет назад +2

      Sarah Western I had a spontaneous miscarriage which happened completely out of the blue when I was at home it took hours and hours I had no idea what was going on until I was in excruciating pain on the toilet and that was it I passed my baby at home. I was 11 weeks pregnant and that was all taken away from me in one night. I am gutted in fact gutted isn't the word im so disappointed with my body for getting rid of something I had planned for. I feel every inch of your pain hope you're ok girl and that we have our rainbow babies when we're ready. Life can't be all bad We deserve this ♡X

    • @irmaebochs-homeloans6597
      @irmaebochs-homeloans6597 2 года назад

      Hi Sarah Western, Wow! That is how I feel getting pregnant again. Were you able to get pregnant again with a healthy pregnancy after your second missed miscarriage?
      I had three miscarriages. First one was a chemical pregnancy, and the last two a missed miscarriage. One D&C, and the second one just went through 3 days ago naturally at home. Going to tge ultrasound makes me so anxious, nervous, scared. It is how you said, everything in this process it's scary.

    • @SarahTiggerfluffs
      @SarahTiggerfluffs 2 года назад +1

      My third pregnancy was successful. Shes now almost 2 :)

    • @irmaebochs-homeloans6597
      @irmaebochs-homeloans6597 2 года назад

      @@SarahTiggerfluffs Amazing! I am so happy for you!❤🙌
      And knowing your story makes me hopeful that my next pregnancy can be my Rainbow baby. Thank you for your reply. :)

    • @SarahTiggerfluffs
      @SarahTiggerfluffs 2 года назад +1

      @@irmaebochs-homeloans6597 she was our last try because I couldn't take the heartbreak anymore. I really hope you get your rainbow soon 🌈 xXx

  • @amberheadrick802
    @amberheadrick802 5 лет назад +15

    I lost one at 10 weeks and 3 days. I had to have a d&c. Hardest thing I've ever gone through. There's still hope though. Don't give up 💜

  • @eddinamartinez6291
    @eddinamartinez6291 5 лет назад +7

    I feel your pain I was crying with you. I lost my baby girl at 22 weeks last year in January. She was alive for almost 2 hours but the NICU said they couldn't do anything to help her unless she was 24 weeks. I just remember them wheeling me to the labor room and just being in pain and so scared and not a day goes by that I don't think about it. Last year in June I had an early miscarriage I was probably about 5 or 6 weeks pregnant. Here I am pregnant again little one will be 15 weeks on Monday and I had the procedure I had to get to help keep this little one in till full term last Tuesday. I'm just praying for healthy rest of this pregnancy and delivery. It really is hard to see babies or see others having a successful pregnancy. I had 2 sisters that were due the same year as me my nephew was born also in January last year at full term and healthy and my niece was born last year in August and she is healthy. I remember the first time I was around my sisters with their babies and me just empty handed I broke down and just cried.

  • @alyssabrown6877
    @alyssabrown6877 5 лет назад +1

    I’m very sorry for your loss it almost made me cry to be honest with you. Let me share my moms testimony with you! Around 6 months of her pregnancy she started bleeding a lot and what she told me as soon as that started happening she declared me in prayer “ this is my baby, Satan you can’t have her” yes that sounds extreme but the enemy comes to kill steal and destroy. When she finished that prayer she called her doctor and calmed her self down and stoped bleeding. I hope this gives you or someone else hope because that is the only reason I’m here. When you get pregnant again and you get that fear worry any signs do just that please. I wish you all the best I don’t mean to sound religious but this just had to be done. You stay blessed and healthy much love ❤️ 💕

  • @JK-ct2xl
    @JK-ct2xl 4 года назад +6

    This is exactly what I went through at 10 weeks. I also had a missed miscarriage, and had to take the pill. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever gone through. I still mourn that loss. I will be 14 weeks tomorrow. I have a fetal Doppler at home now just so I can hear the baby’s heartbeat whenever I want. It helps so much, but I still worry every single day.

  • @kotijadeofficial
    @kotijadeofficial 7 лет назад +63

    I'm so so sorry for your loss, it's so unbelievably heart crushing to go through. Your story is so similar to mine except I was 10 weeks when I found out there was no heartbeat, every part of what you said I could feel your raw emotion rip straight through me, I share your pain and I cried with you watching this, my ultrasound was so similar to yours, we got in there and as soon as she put the ultrasound wand on my stomach I knew something was seriously wrong, my partner thought everything was fine he had no idea, he was sitting beside me happy while I layed there silently with tears streaming down my face. It was so strange but I felt great up until the morning of the ultrasound, I had this overwhelming feeling of dread and anxiety, it wouldn't go away and I couldn't stop shaking. We got home and layed in bed as well and just held eachother and cried. We didn't move all night. I ended up having a dnc and wish I took the pills. I hate the way my baby was taken from me, my body never showed signs of anything being wrong either and I waited for 2 weeks after the ultrasound to have a dnc, I wanted it to happen naturally so I was waiting for that. But at the end of 2 weeks still having had no bleeding or cramps my body started going septic so I was admitted to hospital and had to have an emergency dnc. You hear of these things happening but you never think it's going to happen to you. I'm supposed to be due soon and as the date comes closer I'm finding it so hard to deal with. Been trying ever since with no luck and it's heartbreaking every month.

    • @KatKamalani
      @KatKamalani  7 лет назад +7

      my heart breaks for you sweet girl! no one should have to go through that. i hope one day you get your rainbow baby! keep spreading that love and light xoxoxoxo

    • @adriannavanoyen
      @adriannavanoyen 5 лет назад +2

      Yes, this. I'm so sorry and I share your grief. I lost my first pregnancy to a silent miscarriage at 11 weeks, and it's been heartbreaking to try and have no positive after how easily we conceived the first time. I can say that I'm glad to have had a D&C though, for me it was tearing my heart to shreds knowing that I had carried my dead baby for weeks without knowing anything was wrong, it felt like a betrayal.

  • @sabrinahendricks9563
    @sabrinahendricks9563 4 года назад +4

    Girl I’m so sorry!!!! I had two missed miscarriages in a row and my son passed away day before my appointment at 16 weeks 4 days April 2019. First two I did the pills and my last miscarriage I had a managed miscarriage where I gave birth to my son. I’m sorry for your loss! Don’t give up. It’s been 8 months since I’ve lost my son I’m still grieving about him. We named him Joseph Adam, we are expecting again I’m 10 weeks 6 days today. It’s okay to cry, it’s okay to grieve. ❤️ pray and heal from this.

  • @brittanymazurat6458
    @brittanymazurat6458 5 лет назад +6

    I never could have imagined the sadness I would feel going through a miscarriage. It’s a different kind of sadness I haven’t felt before ..

  • @triciadalusong200
    @triciadalusong200 4 года назад +3

    I just had my first pregnancy and found out my miscarriage last week! I’ve been watching stories about miscarriage.. I feel numb and I’ve been having nightmares and couldn’t really sleep. I prayed for that baby and I did everything I could for her to be healthy but it’s still happened, they said it’s common to have miscarriage but it’s still hurts. I’m trying to cope up and be healthy and after few months me and my husband will try to conceive again and hopefully this time he/she will be healthy and I can hold her in my arms forever! I know your video is two years ago already and I went to your channel and you had a baby I’m so happy for you hopefully I would be the same in a few month! I would want to know what you did after miscarriage to conceive again and this time to a healthy baby..

    • @EdnaKathrin
      @EdnaKathrin 4 года назад

      at what weeks u had d miscarriage? u take meds or by surgery?

  • @amymcmahon3865
    @amymcmahon3865 7 лет назад +25

    I'm so sorry this happened to you.. I just had a miscarriage yesterday I was 7 weeks.. i took the pill just today and it's honestly the worst pain ever.. I could never go through this again. I hope you are doing okay x

    • @KatKamalani
      @KatKamalani  7 лет назад +5

      i hate that you have to go through that! i wish i could be with you to give you a big hug. Love to your family xo

  • @cgco9182
    @cgco9182 5 лет назад +15

    Thank you for this video. Made me feel like I wasn’t alone. I just found out I miscarried today.

  • @sve87
    @sve87 5 лет назад +2

    Hi Kat, I just found you here looking for some support and answers and I don't know what else.
    I live in Zürich, Switzerland, with my husband and my 2yo daughter Annabelle.
    My husband and I we decided to have another baby and we got pregnant last December. We did the Clearblue test the 31st of December and it was positive but I knew it even before that, I swear I could feel it in my heart! We were overwhelmed and we immediately started telling our daughter that there is a baby inside mommy's belly and we began thinking about the baby's names and everything that goes with it.
    The 29th of January, 1 week after my birthday, I had a missed miscarriage. We could see the gestational sack but baby inside of it. We had to wait one week as maybe it was just too early. The hoping and the prayers were so intense. No luck. We lost our baby but the sack was continuing to grow as it should be. We were miserable.
    I took "the death pill", as I call it, and it was HELL! I was practically having a labor and the bleeding and the contraction were insane! I had the checkup afterwards and the sack was still there!!! You said one thing in your video that touched me deeply "my body was holding tight to that baby, it was fighting for it" and that happened to me.
    I had to take one second pill. Hell again. It was worst then with the first one. I thought I was dying, literally!! I found myself pushing, trying to push out the sack in order to feel better but in the same time I was so afraid of doing that as I knew what I was about to push out: my baby.
    My husband use to say "that was only his little home but he wasn't there. He was never there. He is still in your eggs waiting to come" but of course I will never be able to think at it that way.
    The second checkup showed that there was no sack anymore and I was almost out of it fiscally. Mentally is definitely another thing. It is hard to overcome that loss.
    It is hard to be a good mom for my daughter and still thinking about my unborn baby. It is hard when I see another woman with 2 kids around my kids age and think "I could be her". It is hard to try again and honestly I am thinking to stay with just 1 child. I am afraid of going through it again. It would devastate me. I feel I am still grieving and I don't really know how to overcome this.
    I want to have that baby back. I want my baby back.

  • @katiespangler8581
    @katiespangler8581 6 лет назад +3

    On 12/25/17 my husband and I found out I had miscarried our first precious baby at 16 weeks. I'm so sorry for the pain you've been forced to endure. We are still moms

  • @brielle8356
    @brielle8356 5 лет назад +1

    Thank you so much for your video. I suffered a miscarriage last week and thought I was at the point where I was feeling good again... turns out it comes in waves. I'm in tears hearing your story and I feel for you... it's SO nice knowing you're not alone in these feelings, though. I thank you for being so vulnerable and I wish you all the best.

    • @KatKamalani
      @KatKamalani  5 лет назад

      i am thinking of you!! so sorry for your loss

  • @Samantharae1111
    @Samantharae1111 7 лет назад +1

    Hello Kat, I just wanted to say thank you for sharing your story. It brought so many emotions my way . I had my missed miscarriage at 10 weeks. May24 th, was the hardest day of my life. Healing has been so so sad, and I just want to say I'm so sorry you and your love have to go through this. I feel so void, I wanted that little baby more then any thing. I keep hearing oh well you can try again. And it's just not helping the pain. I feel like even though I could try again. It was my first pregnancy, and so so hard to just jump into the next. I'm glad more women are talking about there stories. It's been so so painful, I just feel for you. Thank you for shedding some light, love it has made me feel less alone. Much love to you and your family. Xoxo

  • @shorty6160
    @shorty6160 6 лет назад +1

    Oh hun your story really touched mu heart. I lost a baby at 12 weeks as well and I had a d&c. I'm so sorry for what you went threw. Just know it does hurt a little less over time. And when you do get your rainbow baby you appreciate everything so much more.

  • @arypou29
    @arypou29 7 лет назад +16

    Thank you so much for sharing your story! I also had a miscarriage on February 16th , being 13 weeks pregnant. It is the worst thing ever but it feels better when women like you share their stories because for once, you feel understood and you are not alone anymore! I can relate so much to your story and feelings. I cried so hard when you were talking about the fact of still being a mom even though you don't get to see your baby grow up... Let me tell you that if we get a chance that others don't, it's to be moms of angels, and that is prescious! Bless you heart, and always remember that you're little baby angel is and always will be watching up on you. I'm so sorry for your loss, I'm sending much of love and positive thoughts your way xxxx

    • @KatKamalani
      @KatKamalani  7 лет назад +1

      oh my goodness i could not agree with you more! you are such a sweet spirit and I'm so sorry for your loss too! sending you all love in the whole universe!! xo

  • @bethhull1132
    @bethhull1132 5 лет назад +2

    I'm so sorry for your loss and yes, you helped me with my heartache...thank you! Although it's been 28 years for me and 3 healthy children later, the pain has never gone away. The thoughts of the gender, what he or she would look and be like and of course the why are still thoughts I have to this day. I lost my baby at 11 weeks. It was my second pregnancy but I conceived that baby only a few months after the birth of my first child so I thought maybe it was to soon and my body wasn't ready. My saving grace is when my mom said when I got pregnant for the third time, "this is the baby you lost...she just came back to you when she was ready." I think about that statement all the time and believe it because it helps me get through my loss. I also believe it because I found out I was pregnant with the baby I lost on Mother's Day. When my second daughter was born 3 years later, it was on May 12th so her birthday occasionally falls on Mother's Day.

  • @lifewithsariya.
    @lifewithsariya. 5 лет назад +55

    I just had a miscarriage yesterday 8/26/2019 ...I wanted my baby 😢😢😢

    • @ene1323
      @ene1323 5 лет назад +3

      I'm sorry mama I'm sending prayers your way. Stay strong you will have your rainbow baby one day

    • @vanjaskoric7494
      @vanjaskoric7494 4 года назад +2

      I’m so sorry. I just found out my baby has passed but haven’t miscarried yet. I’m so scared and sad.

    • @Cuishi10
      @Cuishi10 4 года назад +1

      I'm sorry Felicia....I feel the same way....I lost my daughter last week. Hang in there

    • @nikkiannvistro7728
      @nikkiannvistro7728 3 года назад

      @@vanjaskoric7494 what happened to you?

    • @vanjaskoric7494
      @vanjaskoric7494 3 года назад

      @@nikkiannvistro7728 they never told me anything. Said it was most likely just a natural cause such as a chromosomal abnormality or other defect. I got pregnant, first ultrasound was fine but it did show slight bleeding- this was at week 8. Then my 12 week ultrasound there was no heart beat and gestational age was determined to be 8 weeks. So, my fetus passed at week 8 shortly after my first ultrasound and I had no clue. My body did not go into miscarriages. I had to go into hospital and they performed a D&C (basically an abortion) to remove the dead tissue from my uterus. This was a year ago, and I haven't been brave enough to try again. I hope that helps you somewhat, and if you are going through this as well I am sorry to hear that. It's a confusing time.

  • @winglo8338
    @winglo8338 2 года назад +1

    I can really relate to your story after experiencing a miscarriage at 13wks. Although it happened a year ago, the memory is still raw and it felt like it just happened yesterday. It left a black hole in me, I'm still trying to cope with the emotional pain. Thank you for sharing your story, it's very comforting to know that someone out there understand that very painful feeling and I'm not alone

  • @abbymua2149
    @abbymua2149 4 года назад

    I was scrolling through my RUclips feed and I stumbled upon your video. I know that this was posted years ago, but I’m so sorry for your loss. I recently had a miscarriage on February 22 of this year. I was 7 weeks pregnant and I was so happy. My family was so happy. And everything your explaining is what my boyfriend and I went through. It’s the worst feeling ever and I would never wish this upon anyone. I appreciate you and your bravery for posting this! I wish nothing but the best for you and your family !

  • @missyjane1149
    @missyjane1149 4 года назад +1

    When you said that you are still a mom even if you never held your baby I LOST IT. I can’t stop crying. I never had a miscarriage (that I know of, I know sometimes they happen undetected) but my mom almost miscarried me at 16wk her OB said “yeah you’re probably going to lose this baby” and didn’t even try to help. He didn’t know she had a hormone deficiency. My mom went to a new OB that day and THAT DAY he started her on the hormones hat saved my life. I feel so lucky that she did everything she could to keep me. You are still a mommy to an angel and one day you will be a mommy to a beautiful earthly baby as well

  • @ashleymartinez7405
    @ashleymartinez7405 5 лет назад +49

    I just had a miscarriage at 15 weeks. No pain no blood no warning. Friday i seen baby bouncing and beautiful heartbeat. And sunday she was gone. My only option was a d&e. Its been a week and i hope i feel better soon. This is truly the hardest worst thing ive ever endured

    • @gracejunior5146
      @gracejunior5146 5 лет назад +2

      I'm sorry for your loss...my heart goes out to you.

    • @oceanzennfamxo833
      @oceanzennfamxo833 5 лет назад

      I no was pregnant but there was nothing like blood ,cramps ect 9 weeks it was so odd

    • @momobunny1234
      @momobunny1234 5 лет назад

      I'm so sorry for your loss. Never forget that you are still a mother just as much as any other, and that you are loved through this.

    • @laxmikamei
      @laxmikamei 4 года назад +1

      I am so sorry for your loss.may I know what caused the miscarriage? I am 12 weeks 3 days .and my baby s heart beat is 169 .everything looks good till now .

    • @tishaelauren
      @tishaelauren 4 года назад +1

      Thanks for sharing. I had a miscarriage and found out 2 days ago. I thought I was 19weeks and the baby stopped growing at 15 weeks. I’m still devastated and feel like my life is over. But hearing from other women and seeing videos make me feel comforted. I miss my angel baby and love her more than she’ll ever know. I’ll never forget her. Worst thing ever.

  • @KK-qy2my
    @KK-qy2my 4 года назад +1

    Thank you, this is very touching and real. I could relate so much on how your loss impacted you. My 4th miscarriage was 2 weeks ago and one of the most stressful thing I've been through. God loves and cares for us mums so much. We have so little control over pregnancy and that's scary. As much as I desire a baby to hold, I know my hope lies in surrendering and trusting in God's good will for me. This will ultimely bring the peace I need. You are helping so many of us feel not alone in our pain I pray that you have peace and many blessings.

  • @Scarleycat
    @Scarleycat 4 года назад +5

    I had a missed miscarriage at 8 weeks with twins. It’s so difficult, and I had a hard time not feeling jealous of people who had successful pregnancies for such a long time.

  • @malloryjohnson8589
    @malloryjohnson8589 4 года назад

    i’m so sorry, i know it’s been a while since you’ve posted this but that type of
    loss just doesn’t go away. I’m praying that you’ve found some sort of peace.. I’m pregnant right now only 8 weeks with some issues right now and i can’t imagine going through this.. you are such a strong woman.

  • @katherineguadalupe7792
    @katherineguadalupe7792 6 лет назад

    I am so sorry for your loss. I experienced the same thing you did in August of this year, a missed miscarriage but at 11 weeks pregnant. The baby only measured 8 weeks with no heart beat. I cried right along with you during this video. When you asked yourself “Am I still a mom?” I couldn’t help but say out loud “YOU ARE” , because I had to ask myself the same question. Thank you for sharing your story and encouraging me to possibly make a video one day on my experience as well. And I love how you have decided to go down a positive path as you said because I too feel the same exact way. God is still so great through all of our seasons! Thank you so much again and may God continue to bless you and your husband 💛

  • @bettieb01
    @bettieb01 3 года назад +1

    You are so strong. You are not alone, thank you for sharing this story. I’m 14 weeks pregnant and terrified each time I feel a cramp or anything that seems weird. This is our second pregnancy and what I hope will be our rainbow pregnancy.
    You WILL have your rainbow baby one day 💜

  • @HybridKaetlyn
    @HybridKaetlyn 5 лет назад +3

    Your story is my story, too. I miscarried at 14 weeks and my body hung on to that little baby too. This video helped me grieve. I feel you. Thank you so much.

  • @yolandideswardt1211
    @yolandideswardt1211 4 года назад +2

    I've been following you since April 2019, when I just found out I was pregnant, and couldn't get myself to watch this video as I felt too paranoid, just watched it now - I'm so sorry you went through this xxx you are an amazing mama

  • @brehannahhh4026
    @brehannahhh4026 5 лет назад +2

    Oh my goodness when you said you googled if you were still a mother I LOST IT. This is the first video I’ve ever watched that you’ve posted and my heart is with you girl. Wishing the best for you and your family! I know this video is a lil older but that still doesn’t make it easier per say. Wishing you comfort and love 💕

  • @alinesimon3330
    @alinesimon3330 6 лет назад +7

    I'm so sorry about your loss of your baby I lost my first twins at 8 weeks it's so hard but GOD has a plan he will give u another precious baby.....GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR HUSBAND!!!!!

  • @lindaallred7046
    @lindaallred7046 7 лет назад +1

    I announced my pregnancy on social media at 12 week pregnant, then went to my 16 weeks Dr. Appointment and they could not find a heart beat, they did a more indepth ultrasound and the baby measured 16 week. So they said that the baby could have passed just a few days or hours before my appointment. So being 16 weeks I had to go to labor and delivery and be induced to deliver my stillborn baby, a little boy. It turned out he wrapped his unbiblical cord around his neck and arm, he was an acrobat. Then two days later I announced on social media again that our baby returned to his Heavenly Father. It was so heartbreaking. An experience you could never dream of going though.

  • @satu-maarit
    @satu-maarit 6 лет назад +2

    I´m crying, just going through this on 12 weeks. your video and description box message touched me deeply x thank you 🙏🏻 time to heal now.

    • @KatKamalani
      @KatKamalani  6 лет назад +1

      i am praying for you as you heal satu!! loves to you and your family sweetie

    • @satu-maarit
      @satu-maarit 6 лет назад

      thank you

  • @laurfred2742
    @laurfred2742 6 лет назад +6

    6 days ago I went in for an appointment at 13 weeks pregnant. There was no heartbeat :( an ultrasound showed my baby stopped developing at 9 weeks 3 days. I took the medicine they gave me
    , and miscarried at home that night. I am so heartbroken. I hate that I feel embarrassed for not moving on quickly and feel like that's expected of me. Miscarriage is so hard for people to understand until they experience it themselves. This is my second miscarriage. I am so sorry for your loss, and wish you the best in the future! I believe we will get to be with our babies again someday.

    • @KatKamalani
      @KatKamalani  6 лет назад

      so sorry with your loss. sending love your way

  • @samanthastepnowski1094
    @samanthastepnowski1094 Год назад

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I just went through my own miscarriage at 8 weeks with our first pregnancy. It was natural, and equally as traumatic as you described. Thank you for bringing awareness to this horrible thing that so many of us go through. Not being able to have real conversations about it just makes it that much worse for those of us going through it. It’s already painful enough, it shouldn’t scare you on top of it, just because you don’t know what to expect. Sending love to you and yours 🖤

  • @fariraimazhawidza2238
    @fariraimazhawidza2238 4 года назад +4

    i know the feeling my dear... i had 4 miscarriages in a row in 2014 and 2015 ,it''s not an easy experience at all and the pain doesn`t go away .Thank you for the video am comforted

  • @aprilromeos4765
    @aprilromeos4765 6 лет назад +9

    Thank you so much for sharing this. A little less than a month ago, I experienced the same, and it's a devastation and heartbreak that's indescribable. I'm so sorry that you had to experience this. Again, I wanted to thank you because I found so much comfort in this video a few nights ago. Thanks to you and so many other brave moms out there who shared their stories publicly for me and the world to see, I found the courage to share my own story. I just want you to know that a piece of my healing is thanks to you. And congratulations on beautiful baby Luna!

    • @KatKamalani
      @KatKamalani  6 лет назад

      oh no, i am so so sorry! i hate that you are going through this.i am thinking of your family!! and i hope one day you get your rainbow baby sweetie!!!

  • @nicolepapalevich5298
    @nicolepapalevich5298 7 лет назад +5

    i have had 2 miscarriages :( i had 1 daughter before those m/s but just pray you have a miracle baby,i believe if you lose a baby through a miscarriage you reborn the baby when you do get pregnant!!! i might sound dumb but that's my believe!!:) hopefully you get pregnant soon

  • @carolinehancock3321
    @carolinehancock3321 2 года назад

    Thank you for this video. I know it was posted a while back but its helped me. I just had a miscarriage a few days ago at 12 weeks 5 days. I had started to get lower back pain and cramps, those turned into contractions and about 8 hours later in the ER I had passed the baby. Thank you for sharing your story

  • @kimberlyy___paris5688
    @kimberlyy___paris5688 3 года назад

    Thank you so much for sharing your story. I was crying with you. I felt your pain. This was my first pregnancy and I miscarried at 14 weeks. My water broke at home at 12:20am, I went to the ER and that’s where they told me there was nothing they could do and sent me home to see my OBGYN and to see a specialist to figure out why this happened to me. They couldn’t find a reason why. I had to sit there in a room while my husband had to sit in the car waiting for me because of COVID-19 he couldn’t go in and I had to hear all the news alone. Then having to repeat everything that was told to me to my loving husband and watch his heartbreak in front of me. Later that night I had to go to the hospital with my husband to deliver our baby then to leave with broken souls. I am here looking for answers and comfort because there is not a day goes by that I don’t remember this day. Oh what I would give to have my baby here with me....
    Thank you so much for this video, I am so sorry you went through this but just know this really helped to remember I am not alone. Sending love and positivity ❤️

  • @annadambrosi5924
    @annadambrosi5924 4 года назад +2

    It's definitely hard to see you so excited and happy talking about getting pregnant and kids knowing it won't end well

  • @MsAngelrocker
    @MsAngelrocker 5 лет назад +12

    This is my worst ever fear. I am 9 weeks pregnant and I don’t know what I would do if this ever happened to me. Stay strong ❤️

    • @naniijz2183
      @naniijz2183 5 лет назад +1

      This is ones of my biggest fears sadly today it happened to me. I was 8 weeks 😢 hope you have a healthy pregnancy ❣️

  • @gold5548
    @gold5548 5 лет назад +2

    I was just diagnosed with blighted ovum. 😢 I'm still in shock. I have had 5 beautiful healthy babies and for this to happen I'm just at a lost of words. Because I felt "this" would never happen to me and never thought of what if it happened to me. I'm still trying to find answers even though I have seen them online. I just feel alone like no one understands the pain I'm feeling having to go through spotting then getting that confirmation at an er visit. Now I'm sitting here waiting and everyone keeps telling me to find a bit more comfort in knowing there was no fetus just a sac. It doesn't matter to me is what I'm thinking because it was suppose to form and didn't for whatever reason so idk how to explain it. But I would like to thank you for sharing because the visit u had is exactly what they were telling me and hearing u tell ur story shows me I'm not alone and your words brought comfort in my time of need!

  • @lupitaalmousa3823
    @lupitaalmousa3823 7 лет назад +2

    I had a miscarriage on September of last year, I did not took the pill or the surgery, the doctor let it pass thru naturally. Sometimes I think of this baby to know if it was a girl or boy and how will the baby look like, what would of been the future for this baby, would he or she been a doctor, a teacher etc... but now I got pregnant again and it was a surprise, me and my husband did not expected and I am due next month on September 17 a year after my miscarriage... and don't be sad, know that good will bless you with your little bundle of joy soon... and I am sure it will bring you lots of joy and happiness 😊

  • @JulieLynn89
    @JulieLynn89 4 года назад +2

    Your video touched my heart so deeply. My husband and I just went through our first miscarriage about 6 weeks ago. We’re getting ready to try again and I’m scared. Everything you said completely describes how I’ve felt. We have a two year old son and he is our world. I can’t wait to experience pregnancy again, if I’m blessed enough to. Thank you so much for posting this video. Best wishes to you and your family. ❤️🌈

  • @thithajuan7331
    @thithajuan7331 4 года назад +1

    This helped me alot. More than you know, i had a miscarriage in feburary of this year. After being on birth control for 4 years we decided it was time to have another baby. As our daughter is 4 years old. We were broken for weeks. I thought the same, why me?
    We decided to just give up and let god take it from there. We let things happen on their own and 5 months later i got pregnant again.. im 14 weeks, with our rainbow baby due april 2020... thank god...but i still get scared. Not being able to hear babys heart beat gives me so much anxiety to where i just ball my eyes out. I dont wamt to stress myself, but it is traumatizing.
    Im so sorry for your loss, may god keep you & your husband in his arms.

  • @MissNatalie55555
    @MissNatalie55555 5 лет назад +1

    I just want to say thank you for being so honest and open with this chapter of your life. We just found out 2 days ago that we lost our little one. The family & friends have been great but I just needed to connect somewhere with other women who know this chapter x

  • @liliannavang
    @liliannavang 7 лет назад +2

    Five days ago, I found out I was pregnant with my first child. I had experienced some spotting so I took 4 tests, all of which came out positive! The feeling was so indescribable. The part you said "your life completely changes, you instantly love that child and want to become a better person" is exactly how I felt. Three days ago I went to the doctors and found out I was actually 4 weeks into my pregnancy... The doctors were a little worried since I was still spotting. I too was worried but I kept my head up, I kept positive to try to keep my baby healthy. As of yesterday, I began bleeding more and had blood clots, I too learned my hcg levels dropped drastically... resulting that I was experiencing a miscarriage. I have never ever felt so much and this type of pain before. All I could do was cry... I couldn't help but wonder, "what if I had known sooner... I could have helped my baby, I could have gotten the right help for my baby". I am so broken... My chest feels as though someone just stabbed me over and over. I will never get the chance to watch my baby grow in my tummy, I won't get to hear my baby's heart beat with mine, I won't get to see or feel my baby's little feet kick in my tummy.... Though my baby never got the chance to grow his/her eyes, little hands, little feet or even the chance to let their heart beat.... I loved my baby so much already.

  • @sarahwnyambura
    @sarahwnyambura 4 года назад +1

    Went through this 3 weeks ago, it's one of the most heartbreaking position to be in. You ask soooooo many questions, you cry, you go through emotional roller-coaster....still hoping to heal. I'm still a mom

  • @emilygirl89
    @emilygirl89 6 лет назад

    Thank you for this video. I had a miscarriage in march 2017 at 8.5 weeks and another in June at 7 weeks and now I'm currently 14 weeks pregnant and everything is going good so far- we bought an at home Doppler and I Doppler her everyday for peace. It still doesn't help the pain of the other miscarriages and I agree it's hard thinking I would be due right now or this many months pregnant. It's definitely the most pain emotionally and physically I've ever had. Took the pills with the first one and was throwing up bleeding and diarrhea it was awful, second was a d and c much easier but still hard emotionally especially when it was our second in a row. Thank you for being so raw and sharing this. I cried with you. Also thank you for saying we are still moms- so many people don't acknowledge that and it's heartbreaking. I'm so sorry for your loss and I'm praying for a rainbow baby for you

  • @cynthiamedina7236
    @cynthiamedina7236 4 года назад

    You’re video is very comforting, thank you for sharing. I had an ultrasound last Friday when I went to the ER for bleeding and I saw a heartbeat at 6w2d and was told everything was ok. I had my first OB appointment today and there was no heartbeat and the baby stopped growing. It’s so heartbreaking getting the ok and getting your hopes up to just get them shattered. Watching your video just helps with the grievance ❤️

  • @jmirandagonzalez95
    @jmirandagonzalez95 7 лет назад +22

    I lost my baby on mothers day at 15 weeks. & It was soo soo hard. while im here losing my bby ppl were calling me, tagging me, txtn me happy mothers day. little did they knw i was losing my angel. I was so hurt, i blamed myself. i told myself im useless for so many days. today i learned that it really did happen. & its ok. bc im not the only one. and i will have my bby and a family. now im focusing on staying healthy and happy. bc if im not ok with myself i cnt let that be put on my rainbow baby. Stay strong and do it for u and ur future babies. 💖

  • @ballerinaprincess09
    @ballerinaprincess09 6 лет назад +31

    The part when you said the night before you started getting a bad feeling from reading of others miscarriages... that is me right now. Im 12 weeks tomorrow but I have never even heard my babies heartbeat. We saw the flicker at 7 weeks but I have never heard it 😢 I just wish there was a way to tell.

  • @kittyycat3138
    @kittyycat3138 7 лет назад +77

    Time doesn't heal because u always remember...

    • @nyota7832
      @nyota7832 5 лет назад +4

      You can always remember but you can move on as well. You won't forget but you will heal.

  • @thecreativeyoke7928
    @thecreativeyoke7928 5 лет назад

    Hi Kat, I know this is couple of years old and I see you have had a baby since, massive congratulations to you both! My husband and I had a missed miscarriage and found out last week, I went down the pill route too, being given Cytotec and it was the worst thing I ever went through too. Thank you for posting this video as I feel that watching these miscarriage video's, it's helping me grieve. my friend sent me a link on Whatapp yesterday to show that when you've had a miscarriage (or carried the baby to term), their DNA and cells remain in your body and stay in your brain for the rest of your life, so you are always carrying a piece of them with you every day. It gave me some comfort anyway...
    Thanks again for sharing your experience, I feel I will never get over this but for now, I'm saying afloat.

  • @miriamhoyt9062
    @miriamhoyt9062 7 лет назад +3

    I'm so sorry for your loss. This was so incredibly moving. It's hard to find answers about miscarriage because people don't talk about it. Thank you for sharing.