I hope your doing well. I go through the same thing. Cancer my feelings depressed going through alot. It's not easy who is going through this. It's hard for me to find peace happiness or being happy.. dealing with my cancer alone. No support.. prayers to everyone. 🙏🙏🙏
I've have changed since I have cancer in my body and mentally! I feel like giving up sometimes.. 2015 I found out I got cancer. Carcinoid tumors In my liver 30 tumors I've done different treatments. It's always something with me. I've have thyroid cancer had it taken out. I'm from Michigan.. I talk to a therapist every week. She helps me I have no man in my life and I don't want one.. I try so hard making changes getting on the path again. Praying trying to stay strong but it's hard. I'm living with a room mate and I get abused everyday mentally. It's got worse! I'm trying to find housing it's hard. Everything has gone up in price. So it's hard.. I've done all my resources and nothing yet!
From Ontario Canada 🇨🇦 Amanda, my Warrior Friend, Your video confirmed so much that I am now experiencing in my life. Thank you for putting your thoughts into voice. Not only going through uterine/omentum/lymph node cancer but just having had a major episode of a “Saddle Pulmonary Embolism “ (2 weeks in hospital) has caused my mind & state of being to rethink. I have been wondering what my life is all about & the worth I have in living this life of my lacking control. As far as joy goes, I fear I lack it because of having to go through all the meds., doctor appts., exercises, trying to keep my life on track to stay alive etc. . I ask myself, “what is it all for”? If I can’t live a normal life & it’s a struggle then why? Depression hits me predominantly when I go to bed & I ‘m left with my own thoughts. I pray for everything, everyone & to be given strength to carry on if I’m to be here. I do however pray to be taken ,in my sleep, should I not recover from either of my illnesses. I only wish you all the best Amanda to get through your illness, you have a very positive outlook. Sending you my 🙏&❤️&🤗.
Hi, Amanda Life is moments of Joy and Sadness Memories are everything I enjoy seeing and reading people’s experiences on Social Media but do realize that they are just ordinary beings experiencing problems and happiness In other words,we are all connected in our “Being “ Hugs 🤗
I went on antidepressants, few year's back and within 2 weeks I felt so much better but I felt after 2 years they stopped working, so stopped taking them. Your looking really good and like the scarf.
Great vlog, Amanda. Reflects a lot of the random thoughts that are ping ponging through my head as I make my way through radiation therapy for my cancer. So much has changed just over the last 3 months I need to allow myself to feel the spectrum of emotions. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and helping me and others with these important perspectives. 💞 Btw, love the look - love the color of your do-rag! And, one of my favorite joys is listening to the birds and watching the squirrels chase each other all over the place now that spring has come out in full force where I live. 🌞🐦
Wow. "Learn to honor ALL of your Feelings". Thank you, I so needed this today, and this is a video that will be on my replay list. Not too long ago you also shared that yes! Grief AND Joy can coexist! That acknowledgement touched my soul. Working to embrace all of me, all of my feelings left me overwhelmed and questioning. Your words, written in your blog and spoken here have helped me tremendously. Thank you so so much.
You are now my favorite. I am going to quote you. “…and then six months down the road you have $300 dollars.” Made me laugh. You and I both know that $300 ain’t goin’ to get us a house baby girl. When one is not working and trying your hardest to not be sick $300 could be helpful. I loved this vid. Gave me a good bump up that I needed. Please keep doing the video’s ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ I love the bandana! Makes your eyes pop!
It's all a lot to take on, i went to hospital for palliative radiation recently n stayed awhile, I'm back home and drained honestly, hoping to get some strength back especially on weekdays, we have to take small victoires, i, wish I could organize or clean a room right now
Love your dew rag…I used them last summer when I was in treatment….cancer certainly changes your perspective of happiness and joy….I remember I cried when I finally was able to put on mascara again….😂😂😂.
You are so amazing, Amanda! Your channel gives me tremendous joy. Thank you for your profound insights on this journey. You are in my prayers everyday.
Hey Amanda I’ve been watching you on your journey to find someone to relate to. I’m 9 days out post neoadjuvant chemo. Felt good at first but now have like no energy & the body pains..haven’t heard from you in a bit hope you’re ok.. do the symptoms get worse with each chemo treatment? Ps: named the port “Port St. Lucie”😂
And Jesus came and said to them, *“All Power in Heaven and on earth has been given to Me..."* (Matthew 28:18) Someone has made the observation that the only portrait there is of Jesus in the Bible is in Revelation Chapter 1 where the writer who encountered Jesus said this... 1. His Eyes were like a flame of fire. 2. His Voice was like the roar of many waters. 3. From his mouth came a two-edged sword. 4. His face was shining like the sun in full strength. Of course there is also a fair amount of various descriptions from people who have had NDE experiences where they left their bodies and visited Heavenly realms... "He looked like a shaft of Light, He was so glorious. His clothes looked like solid diamond sparkling... Beautiful!... When He looks at you the Glory of God is emanating from Him... He looks like *LOVE.* He can look at millions of people and yet you are the only one He sees..." "He doesn't look meek or mild. He looks like A King who is ready to Rule..." "Rays of GLORY RAYS OF AWESOMENESS Rays of purity RAYS OF MAJESTY Rays of Holiness were booming of this PERSON..." "His Eyes are P I E R C I N G... but they pierced you with LOVE.. So much love that I felt like I was going to explode. ...Love beyond what words can even explain." "He is the kindest, most Beautiful, most Loving, the most amazing human being anywhere in a billion Universes..." "I was face to face with Jesus... looking eye to eye with Him. Those are the most Alive eyes I have ever seen In my life... There is fire in those eyes. I look at those eyes and they are so full of Love. There is no other Love like that. I was feeling THE BIGGEST DOSE OF LOVE EVER!!! being poured through me..." ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Well........ I in the side bar I saw your "I felt beautiful for the first time in a while" video so I clicked on it and the after watching it I clicked on this one. The idea is to embrace the above info and respond it (Respond to the Love that God has for you) and then work it out with Him that you are going to be enjoying the below quote in a "better then ever" way down the road: *"Love is the great Beautifier."* --Louisa May Alcott *Here comes the absolute best invitation that you could ever possibly be given...* "I stand at the door and I knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door I will come in and eat with that person and they with Me..." (Revelation 3:20) It's the invitation that also includes with it the offer to "go in peace and laugh on Glory's side" when a person's time of death comes about (which it inevitably does for every human.) Embracing that offer means that after our last breath on earth happens... next comes being more Alive then ever in a Place of *Amazing Wonderfulness* where we will be Blissfully astounded at the Love of God and the Majesty of God in ways that cannot be done on earth. ...
🌬🤍 I lost my hair and I too been playing with different scarf 's .but I can never figure out how to ware them. So thanks so much for sharing your way of wareing a scarf. I'm gonna try. Walgreens has a cute one with different colors. So far that's been my favorite one. I too been struggling with Joy. Also I have Anxiety and depression. Mybe it comes from CANCER? But I had these feelings before! CANCER and not having hair dosen't help. But then again it's Freeing! Your such a good story teller. I find my best joy so far just snuggling with my dog taking her for walks. Your Beautiful/STRONG. We are all stronger together 💪🤍💙💗💪
Thank you so much. Life does not need to be easy to be joyful.
Strength, grace, humor, and artistic talent. You're fantastic!
I hope your doing well. I go through the same thing. Cancer my feelings depressed going through alot. It's not easy who is going through this. It's hard for me to find peace happiness or being happy.. dealing with my cancer alone. No support.. prayers to everyone. 🙏🙏🙏
That dew rag looks so cute on you.💙And I love that you're talking about joy during treatment- that there is space, need, and ability for it.
I've have changed since I have cancer in my body and mentally! I feel like giving up sometimes.. 2015 I found out I got cancer. Carcinoid tumors In my liver 30 tumors I've done different treatments. It's always something with me. I've have thyroid cancer had it taken out. I'm from Michigan.. I talk to a therapist every week. She helps me I have no man in my life and I don't want one.. I try so hard making changes getting on the path again. Praying trying to stay strong but it's hard. I'm living with a room mate and I get abused everyday mentally. It's got worse! I'm trying to find housing it's hard. Everything has gone up in price. So it's hard.. I've done all my resources and nothing yet!
Please don’t stay in an abusive home..
I have to say you are an amazing young woman.I pray for you everyday
Sending you lots of support and love my sister.
You are beaitiful soul inside out. Thank you for sharing your light.
Thank you for sharing your feelings and experience. Your lessons about depression and joy are really valuable.❤
From Ontario Canada 🇨🇦
Amanda, my Warrior Friend,
Your video confirmed so much that I am now experiencing in my life. Thank you for putting your thoughts into voice. Not only going through uterine/omentum/lymph node cancer but just having had a major episode of a “Saddle Pulmonary Embolism “ (2 weeks in hospital) has caused my mind & state of being to rethink. I have been wondering what my life is all about & the worth I have in living this life of my lacking control. As far as joy goes, I fear I lack it because of having to go through all the meds., doctor appts., exercises, trying to keep my life on track to stay alive etc. . I ask myself, “what is it all for”? If I can’t live a normal life & it’s a struggle then why? Depression hits me predominantly when I go to bed & I ‘m left with my own thoughts. I pray for everything, everyone & to be given strength to carry on if I’m to be here. I do however pray to be taken ,in my sleep, should I not recover from either of my illnesses. I only wish you all the best Amanda to get through your illness, you have a very positive outlook. Sending you my 🙏&❤️&🤗.
Hi, Amanda
Life is moments of Joy and Sadness
Memories are everything
I enjoy seeing and reading people’s experiences on Social Media but do realize that they are just ordinary beings experiencing problems and happiness
In other words,we are all connected in our “Being “
Hugs 🤗
I went on antidepressants, few year's back and within 2 weeks I felt so much better but I felt after 2 years they stopped working, so stopped taking them. Your looking really good and like the scarf.
Great vlog, Amanda. Reflects a lot of the random thoughts that are ping ponging through my head as I make my way through radiation therapy for my cancer. So much has changed just over the last 3 months I need to allow myself to feel the spectrum of emotions. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and helping me and others with these important perspectives. 💞
Btw, love the look - love the color of your do-rag! And, one of my favorite joys is listening to the birds and watching the squirrels chase each other all over the place now that spring has come out in full force where I live. 🌞🐦
Wow. "Learn to honor ALL of your Feelings". Thank you, I so needed this today, and this is a video that will be on my replay list. Not too long ago you also shared that yes! Grief AND Joy can coexist! That acknowledgement touched my soul. Working to embrace all of me, all of my feelings left me overwhelmed and questioning. Your words, written in your blog and spoken here have helped me tremendously. Thank you so so much.
You are now my favorite. I am going to quote you. “…and then six months down the road you have $300 dollars.” Made me laugh. You and I both know that $300 ain’t goin’ to get us a house baby girl. When one is not working and trying your hardest to not be sick $300 could be helpful. I loved this vid. Gave me a good bump up that I needed. Please keep doing the video’s ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ I love the bandana! Makes your eyes pop!
I am on long term antidepressants, and I just feel like they are the missing part of the puzzle.
Great video, very interesting.
So glad you’re feeling better.
It's all a lot to take on, i went to hospital for palliative radiation recently n stayed awhile, I'm back home and drained honestly, hoping to get some strength back especially on weekdays, we have to take small victoires, i, wish I could organize or clean a room right now
Love your dew rag…I used them last summer when I was in treatment….cancer certainly changes your perspective of happiness and joy….I remember I cried when I finally was able to put on mascara again….😂😂😂.
I just got on antidepressants to mgd got me overwhelmed dry eyes debilitating thanks for your video ❤
I love humming and singing Christmas songs all year round 😂
You are so amazing, Amanda! Your channel gives me tremendous joy. Thank you for your profound insights on this journey. You are in my prayers everyday.
Amen!! Christmas songs 🎵 💕
You are very strong girl
Thank you for sharing that. Very helpful 😊
Beautiful, so so amazing 🙏💛✨💯
Awsome xx
Hey Amanda I’ve been watching you on your journey to find someone to relate to. I’m 9 days out post neoadjuvant chemo. Felt good at first but now have like no energy & the body pains..haven’t heard from you in a bit hope you’re ok.. do the symptoms get worse with each chemo treatment? Ps: named the port “Port St. Lucie”😂
❤❤❤❤❤
Hope you're okay.
Praying for a healing for everyone try cannabis oil and thc for cancer and worm medicine for pigs or dogs to kill cancer amen
I love watching bees
❤💐🙏
🌷☺️🤗
Like the scarf on your head- looks very 1940's
And Jesus came and said to them,
*“All Power in Heaven and on earth has been given to Me..."*
(Matthew 28:18)
Someone has made the observation that the only portrait there
is of Jesus in the Bible is in Revelation Chapter 1 where the writer
who encountered Jesus said this...
1. His Eyes were like a flame of fire.
2. His Voice was like the roar of many waters.
3. From his mouth came a two-edged sword.
4. His face was shining like the sun in full strength.
Of course there is also a fair amount of various descriptions from people who have had
NDE experiences where they left their bodies and visited Heavenly realms...
"He looked like a shaft of Light, He was so glorious. His clothes looked like solid diamond sparkling...
Beautiful!... When He looks at you the Glory of God is emanating from Him... He looks like *LOVE.*
He can look at millions of people and yet you are the only one He sees..."
"He doesn't look meek or mild. He looks like A King who is ready to Rule..."
"Rays of GLORY
RAYS OF AWESOMENESS
Rays of purity
RAYS OF MAJESTY
Rays of Holiness
were booming of this PERSON..."
"His Eyes are P I E R C I N G...
but they pierced you with LOVE.. So much love that I felt like I was
going to explode. ...Love beyond what words can even explain."
"He is the kindest, most Beautiful, most Loving, the most amazing human being
anywhere in a billion Universes..."
"I was face to face with Jesus... looking eye to eye with Him. Those are the most Alive eyes
I have ever seen In my life... There is fire in those eyes. I look at those eyes and they are so
full of Love. There is no other Love like that. I was feeling THE BIGGEST DOSE OF LOVE EVER!!!
being poured through me..."
------------------------------------------------------------------------
Well........ I in the side bar I saw your "I felt beautiful for the first time in a while" video so I clicked on it and the after watching
it I clicked on this one. The idea is to embrace the above info and respond it (Respond to the Love that God has for you)
and then work it out with Him that you are going to be enjoying the below quote in a "better then ever" way down the road:
*"Love is the great Beautifier."*
--Louisa May Alcott
*Here comes the absolute best invitation that you could ever possibly be given...*
"I stand at the door and I knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door
I will come in and eat with that person and they with Me..."
(Revelation 3:20)
It's the invitation that also includes with it the offer to "go in peace and laugh on Glory's side" when
a person's time of death comes about (which it inevitably does for every human.) Embracing that offer means
that after our last breath on earth happens... next comes being more Alive then ever in
a Place of *Amazing Wonderfulness*
where we will be Blissfully astounded at the Love of God and the Majesty of God
in ways that cannot be done
on earth.
...
🌬🤍 I lost my hair and I too been playing with different scarf 's .but I can never figure out how to ware them. So thanks so much for sharing your way of wareing a scarf.
I'm gonna try. Walgreens has a cute one with different colors. So far that's been my favorite one. I too been struggling with Joy.
Also I have Anxiety and depression. Mybe it comes from CANCER? But I had these feelings before!
CANCER and not having hair dosen't help.
But then again it's Freeing!
Your such a good story teller.
I find my best joy so far just snuggling with my dog taking her for walks.
Your Beautiful/STRONG.
We are all stronger together
💪🤍💙💗💪