Unwise Motivations in Art
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- Опубликовано: 26 авг 2024
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I'm usually drawing on Strathmore 400 Series Bristol Paper Smooth with some sort of HB lead and Palomino Blackwing pencils.
This dude is so underrated, his art is on another level!
Really enjoying seeing Steven's channel grow. He has created some of the most important videos I've seen that go beyond art itself.
You are very kind, thank you.
Best channel on RUclips
Perception and objective reality is what I constantly face as an obstacle in any truly heartfelt decision that embodies who I am. I dropped making art over a decade ago because I wanted to make a secure future for myself; My security in physical labor as it was tangible, immediately recognized as valuable for its practical nature.
My wife had a talk with me nearly a year ago now. It was along the lines of why am I working where I am, hoarding these days and dollars as if my future existence was sure. She brought up my doodles. For the life of me I don’t know why she likes them and when pressed she doesn’t know the words to form to explain. She could only mention that I’m most raw when I sit and perform and she loved those moments afterward when I was completely exposed.
So, I make 1/7 of what I did. Working part time as a handyman (can’t give up that prestigious blue collar 😜) and come home to ‘get good’ at art. It’s rough starting out. It sucks. But as you said, if there wasn’t that person inside secretly reveling over it, I wouldn’t, couldn’t do it.
Thanks again for another talk bro.
Sounds like you have a great wife! Sounds like she's really helping you understand yourself. May your inner reveler make friends with your outer struggler.
Simillar thing man. I kept having ideas for short stories and comic books but stopped acting on them towards the end of highschool. Now it has gotten to the point that I have this big story in my head and I see it everywhere. I find nearly everthing I read and witness to have some impact on the narrative and character / worldbuilding and I feel ill equipped to realize my vision. It probably didn't help that I had the stupid teenage "drawing from reference (even for practice) is cheating" mentality and didn't look for someone to properly educate me. But now I have RUclips videos of Steven, David Finch, Proko, Aaron Blaise and many others and have already made leaps in progress.
I wish us both many great moments on our journey, and a lot of fun too. I don't even feel pressure to accomplish anything at this point. It is just nice to be able to feel genuine joy again when my pencil touches the paper. Cheers!
You NEED to narrate audio-books... I need a 100 hour philosophical book narrated by you to just draw to.
You have no idea how much I needed to hear this today. Thank you!
Everyday I launch the Drawing Companion playlist by a random episode, I stop thinking, grap a paper, a pencil and a random reference and I start drawing. Sometimes I found myself "lost" for 15, 30mn or more than an hour. To be honest, I'm aware of what you're talking about only 20% of the time at most, but the fact is that everyday I finish a sketch, or a more careful drawing, which, for the professional procrastinator that I am is really something, so thank you for your work!
I ve been rolling my eyes every time i was seeing a motivational video speech never liked them, but theres a month now that i discovered your videos, and they really helped me out, in my drawing routine, how i precieve failures, and finding joy in those failures. You are true and thats what makes your videos talk to so many people! Its really nice to see that even artists such as your self struggle with those things, it makes me feel less alone.
P.C. though id like to see some videos of design process like the videos on Dantes inferno
You're really an amazing and a humble artist, God bless you and to your family.
Thank you for your blessings, happy drawing.
Thank you so much, I needed this
My joy comes from the realization, discovery, and dissemination of the truth, especially in a way that is beautifully articulated or portrayed.
What if I already find myself with my actions already aligned with this motivation?
If the truth is that corporate modernity is a poison to the soul, I have no desire to continue acting as though it provides me value. If the only value it provides me is money, then it truly provides me personally no value. The only thing I value in that sense is my own autonomy, for without which, I could not be free to seek and pursue the truth.
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I hope the judges can't enter, because this is one of those paintings whose quality makes me wonder what I'm doing with my life.
i guess i just found my mentor, your art looks incredibly good and its so relaxing watching your videos while drawing. i hope you get more attention, you really deserve it
Really interesting. I had this conversation last week with my roommate. I am still not drawing. At this point I think the artblock will be with me for-e-ver. Kind of sad, but if I die tomorrow I did what I could to enjoy this brief existence on Earth.
On the other hand: materialism, things we buy, time we spend from the American point of view is so much different... I dare you to move for like 3 years to France, even Germany, Portugal!. So different.
Cool video, great art, conversation that could be extended for weeks. Thanks again!
Hmm indeed I'm very conditioned by the American point of view...
Giving the most socially acceptable answer possible is more important than the truth, and this applies to everyone, and to most things, because that's just how people are. Partly because of the inevitable judgment by others.
I feel like endless desire is a part of the human condition. We can try our best but the hunger never ends. It’s the only reason we continue to grow and evolve versus decay in contentment as a species. So great job in being a human lol.
I really love your work there! It’s incredible! Thank you for sharing your thoughts about this. I hope you’re having a great day.
that's an amazing piece of work you made - i appreciate your thoughts even though it makes me feel deeply guilty. I reflect on this quite a bit lately, as I have felt insanely pressured and 'busy' then people do not respect what is 'busy' to me, and interrupt me as though i have nothing 'real' to do. but I am totally driven by money - but it is quite literally to survive. I HAVE to do this stuff, and it is... sort of a terrible thing to have to do the thing you love, most likely not exactly how you would love to do it. my daughter likes to draw and she said - to my back, of course :/ that she wants to be just like me. and my heart sank like - oh no baby.... i try to support her but to be honest - i would not try to encourage her to be an artist. Lately i have been working on other art related personal projects and investments, and my normal art suffered for it to the extent that i was burning out and really struggling to stay afloat. So i would say - it's not just about letting your less becoming feelings motivate you - but the nature of scarcity and uncertainty (especially now) even if you are doing well - this year has taught many people that it doesnt take long to get into a dire situation
You remind me of an Art version of the channel called Exurbia.
the “existential crisis, depression turtle” guy.
And I love it.
Oh boi, hitting us with the explosive Exurbia
Thank you Steven!
Your art would make great Magic cards Steven
Steven literally says "show me your motivation"
Steven Zapata is the perfect teacher
Thank you so much, Steven!
It made me face lots of uncomfortable truths about myself. I realized I avoided even thinking about this stuff.
I feel like your videos are the reason for no less than 80% of my personal growth :D
I also catch myself packing my schedule with as many jobs and projects as possible (even when I feel like I'm about to lose my mind from working too much lol). I think part of it is this belief that my career as an artist could vanish overnight, like who knows if there will be work in the future, so I had better do all this work now and hoard as much as possible for leaner times ahead. Deep down I know that its a silly fear, but especially during this pandemic that fear has been amplified, even as the work keeps coming and I stay busy there's always this feeling that the walls could crumble around me. Luckily I'm self-aware enough to realize this, so I'm always trying to balance that out and make time for my personal creative projects, to strike a balance between working for a living and working for the love and joy of art. I find when I am getting enough time to work on the personal projects that bring me joy, my overall mental health is so much better for it! Great video thank you!! :)
Thank you, Steven. This is the exact topic I was looking for. I can Look at things through a different lens now.
I so love your channel man. It is quite unique.
Thank you for these great videos. We artists need more like this.
Such a wise person. Always a great inspiration :)
When you asked the question what brings me most joy in life, I stopped the video to think and found 3 things as for an answer. I don't know if they are good or bad, if I should strive to change that or accept as it is, or if I'm right or wrong, but anyway, what brings me most joy in life I think is: *Validation, New Experiences and Sense of Acomplishment.*
You just made me realise how unhappy I am with my choices. I'm rarely ever doing what I want / set out to do, but end up watching from the sidelines, because that's the easy thing to do, and 20's too old anyway, so starting art isn't worth it, etc. ... So I mean... thanks! Now I've got another chance to live carefully, stick to the things I want to look back on happily as time spent well in a decade or so.
I also wanted to say that your channel & art have been a source of joy & inspiration, ever since I've discovered them. Thanks for creating. Take care!
20 is too old? I want to start now (35). Imagine what that's like :) You probably don't wanna waste your time like me.
My joy is from looking at pretty sunsets and hearing the best part of a nice song. I feel like I should quit art by now. It feels like a vestige that's no longer serving me, as I don't have any sense of meaning in it at all. I don't get ideas for pictures, not unless I'm trying to force them to the point where everything feels completely artificial. Forget about having any personal voice or whatever, either. For the past few years I've just wished I could've made the art that my role models already did, but obviously that's impossible because they made it first. If I can't create the exact things that they made, I don't see why I should make anything at all. I can't justify trying to make myself care enough to come up with valuable ideas and actually make anything out of them... I've only stuck with it for this long out of desire for external approval in response to skill. That's my only motivation left. Art just isn't for me lol, I should probably just go on a hike or something.
This is a great thing to wake up to!
stil working towards my source of joy, money for infact a gaming pc, airsoft equipment and delicious food. best of all, reaching the point where i inspire new people to do comic books
The fact that you seem to be insecure about your work or career is just mind blowing to me Steve, like,really?
Really. Enjoy the journey! Skill and success change nothing. Security comes from within not without.
@@StevenZapataArt fair enough, although if I ever produced a piece of original art of this quality I'd be over the moon..it just doesn't get any better I don't think..
My name says it all
What I realized is that my source of my joy is god..pleasing the Lord through my art and the children of him as well. I'm not a religious person but a Bible believer. Thanks for the video. Reminds me to stay grateful for what the Lord has been doing in my life. Amen brother🙏
My biggest unwise motivation right now is "to get better". I really had to think this through before putting it into words. It's just so fucking stupid to think of "improvement" as my driving force. All it does is guilt myself into drawing, constantly compare my work, judging myself WHILE actually drawing, and ultimately to be miserable doing the one thing that helped me get out of my head. Now it feels like drawing puts me back into my head with all those shitty thoughts.
The alternative mindset I take is that of escapism, kinda like I mentioned above. It still feels "wrong" to draw only to escape what I don't want to deal with, but it's better than being miserable. Ideally I want to be in a place where creating is fun again.
I think that all of this started when I quit my job, almost a year ago (still haven't found a new one to this day).
Suddenly, my family was pressuring me to sell my drawings, automatically assuming that I want/need to do this as a job. All of this made me realise that being an artist is not something I can do professionaly. There's no way I can enjoy something while being concerned about people's opinions, since they paid me for it.
Amen brother. I think you'll figure this out, you're thinking it through critically.
You are so wise
In answer to your question about joy in my life, my answer honestly is - simply living. The world is amazing wherever you look.
I've done so many things... from being a qualified personal trainer, soldier to being an elected politician. In my second year of law school I felt there was no joy, in anything. My wife convinced me to stop law and start studying art. 37 years old, 2 kids and now I'm finally trying to make that shift. Every job I've had has paid well... but I've avoided art for financial security.
Buzz kill end of the party question? That's the only kind of question I am interested in. Am I that unfun?
I like your verbiage 🎨
Its nice for me to hear this somewhat spiritual philosophy about art, thank you.
These talks along with painting demos always leave my mind and PP feeling expanded, thanks Steven.
Is this what happens when you do third-eye meditation after watch sci-fi?
I had to take a second look to see if you were using Zbrush. The way you painted the alien faces was like watching a Zbrush sculpt tool. I love these videos. It gives my brain something to chew on during warmup.
New upload 😍😍
Huzzah!
I always feel like I´m the only one who can´t translate traditional skills into digital skills. I watched some of the shading tutorials and I can absolutely follow everything with pencil, but digitally it´s sooo frustrating. It just doesn´t work the same, I wish there was an actual blending/shading tutorial or a course for this. Literally going through the photoshop tools and showing how to shade realistically. But not the the typical 2 minute timelapse videos on yt though
Ctrl Paint+ is exactly this. He goes from traditional to digital in his free video series and has premium videos that go into more detail for digital art. Basically (I know this comment is a year old) you have to train your coordination digitally too.
@@Rebe8d89AH hey I‘m actually very happy with my shading skill Progress within the last year. Now I have the same whiny attitude about colours though. On a rational level I understand that its just about studying and practicing but my emotions and body dont reflect that
We have already encountered many intelligent species here on Earth. So far we regard them as disposable. That you don’t acknowledge this speaks more to how little you know about life on Earth, regardless of what exists beyond.
Great video. I always find that hearing you talk puts me in a very comfortable space, but listening to you is slightly uncomfortable and makes me confront myself in ways that I don't want to. I feel as though I'm slowly making the transition to the view of art that you, Mr Aldoori and many others preach of, but the part of me that's grown up on the idea that 'my art must have value to others in order to have any value at all' is fighting against it and telling me not to listen to you.
I'm eagerly awaiting your every upload.
What a good honest comment! Love that part of you that's fighting. Everyone needs to go through an arc with these things, I know few artists who haven't. It's natural to find these ideas confrontational and weird, especially early on in the journey when the competitiveness and "something-to-provey-ness" is a valuable source of energy. I don't think I would have agreed with myself ten years ago. Change is wild.
This is what I think. The material of materialism is ideas. The idea of Joy is projected onto external objects/events and is conflated with the objects themselves. It falsely sets Joy in stone. People chase Joy endlessly because it's a pure thing which can't be understood, and humans live to understand and reproduce, or to put things into a closed system.
thanks for the vid
Hi Steven, I am a beginner trying to improve my drawing skills. I feel like I'm stuck on the basics and would like to know if you know of any books or resources that can help me progress by following a simple progression. I notice that many books do not put enough emphasis on how to improve issues such as shading among others, but give simple instructions but do not help progress in my opinion. On the other hand it would be great if you could create a course with many simple exercises that will help beginners like me to improve.
If you feel like you're stuck on the basics, start tackling some new things and let them show you what to refine. Sketch wildly, freely. Check out "Drawing Lessons from the Great Masters" by Robert Beverly Hale if you want pointers on how to think on a more advanced level.
3:45 intimate moments with kids 😳
nice
Do you mind if we start calling you Steven Zapapa?
We don't have much say in what people call us in this life, our titles flow with the natural oscillations of praise and blame. Call me as you will, friend.
Luke 18:9-14 New International Version (NIV)
The Parable of the Pharisee and the Tax Collector
9 To some who were confident of their own righteousness and looked down on everyone else, Jesus told this parable: 10 “Two men went up to the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. 11 The Pharisee stood by himself and prayed: ‘God, I thank you that I am not like other people-robbers, evildoers, adulterers-or even like this tax collector. 12 I fast twice a week and give a tenth of all I get.’
13 “But the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, ‘God, have mercy on me, a sinner.’
14 “I tell you that this man, rather than the other, went home justified before God. For all those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted.”
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Do we first possess values and then, *because* of those values, act in accordance with them? Or, rather, are values determinable only in retrospect, when taking the measure of the priorities and choices made along the way? Can I be mistaken about what I value? Can you fake values until you "make" them? If I could latch onto some set of values well and firm, like something tangible not wont to sublimate in my quivering clutch, needing not even gaps between fingers to assert its ephemeral potential, might I then find more than bitter desperation by means of which to drive my eager yet inexorably pessimistic efforts? Oh my... do I even have values? What am I doing here? Why am I here at all? I didn't consent to this!
If existential dread were the chemical X of powerpuff artistry the likes of which got me started drawing as a child, I'd be a goddamn household name in this industry and beyond by now. Get enough of this biz from my own loathing-addicted brain already. However, I'm evidently an incorrigible masochist and so enjoyed this immensely. Thank you. Good evening Sir.
Thanks for watching!
My anti-depressant medication?
Boring corny discussion. Must be a first world thing. Cool painting though.
I encourage you to see what you have said here through a Marxist lens.