"Tumhari Aukaat Kya Hai ... Piyush Mishra" | The Slow Interview with Neelesh Misra | Part 2

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  • Опубликовано: 26 дек 2024

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  • @PavanKManav
    @PavanKManav 5 лет назад +533

    Priya mam - this comment is for you. Thank you for saving a soul.

    • @gurvindrasingh1281
      @gurvindrasingh1281 5 лет назад +3

      Satyavachan 🙏

    • @gangasinghrathore4709
      @gangasinghrathore4709 5 лет назад +15

      Yes Priya maam thank you for loving our hero and giving us this gem, it's your character which has made a man out of him may every struggler believer and lost soul would eventually find someone like you

    • @utkarsh4167
      @utkarsh4167 5 лет назад +4

      Priya ma'am much respect and regards! _/\_

    • @hina191987
      @hina191987 4 года назад +2

      I came to comments section to ask for the pranic healer who cured Piyush mishra and surprisingly i saw ur first comment mentioning Priya mam.I am suffering from an illness for which docs have no cure. Could you please give me the full name and address of Priya mam(assuming she is the one who helped Piyush Mishra recover). I will be very grateful to you. Thanks a lot

    • @gangasinghrathore4709
      @gangasinghrathore4709 4 года назад +4

      @@hina191987 Priya Is the mae of Piyush Mishra Wife actually

  • @shivamarora6582
    @shivamarora6582 5 лет назад +392

    anyone coming to the second part of this video has a great sense and deep understanding of how the life of a person evolves ...kudos to u guys

    • @Lalit_Gaur
      @Lalit_Gaur 5 лет назад +4

      you too Shivam!

    • @aashna824
      @aashna824 4 года назад +3

      Shivam Arora : you too !

    • @navjyothora4034
      @navjyothora4034 4 года назад +3

      Wish we could be friends

    • @rohitk9859
      @rohitk9859 4 года назад +4

      @@navjyothora4034 Yess if possible we should make a Watsapp group because it is very difficult to find people of our mindset in day today life
      I do want to listen and share
      I am from Chandigarh

    • @deep1551
      @deep1551 4 года назад +4

      @@rohitk9859 eventually you will get irritated by them too cuz this is just one side of a person. You may dislike what others bring to the table

  • @ayushijha3340
    @ayushijha3340 5 лет назад +201

    These are the real interviews. Thank you so much Neelesh Misra and team.

  • @bankeronwheels5866
    @bankeronwheels5866 4 года назад +22

    Big appreciation for Priya Mam , she didn't let this pearl drown in the sea ..

  • @upama12
    @upama12 5 лет назад +81

    He taught me redemption. After our parents demise, we have this regret that we should have treated them better. But what happened is already done. Most important thing is we should learn to forgive most of all ourselves. Felt so light after a long time. This guy is something else. Itni bebaki se aapne burai aur achai dono ko sweekar karna. 🙌🏼

    • @rittiktyagi885
      @rittiktyagi885 5 лет назад +5

      Soo true!!!....i will try to implement this in my life. Being an introvert its just very difficult to forgive people. Not everyone can relate to this interview.

    • @upama12
      @upama12 5 лет назад +1

      @@rittiktyagi885 I know we tend to be super sensitive to energy around us. Hope you find good and healing ones. In the process of forgiving mostly yourself. All things will fall into their places.

    • @spacebar9476
      @spacebar9476 2 года назад

      On point observation.

  • @amitdadhwal2606
    @amitdadhwal2606 5 лет назад +54

    art of listening is something which Neelesh Misra tops that... from asking genuine questions to listening to answers calmly makes these interviews awesome... !!!!

  • @gururajhattimattur8131
    @gururajhattimattur8131 Год назад +3

    34:29 1st time piyush ji ko emotional hote dekha. Piyush sir an inspiration. "karmat bano" will always remember this❤

  • @kites993
    @kites993 3 года назад +35

    39:43 Whenever he talks about Sardar Ji Bhagat Singh..it gives me goosebumps..like he says he has been involved so much into his character that he talks as if Sardar Ji was his friend. Love it.

  • @RajDeepLive
    @RajDeepLive 5 лет назад +63

    Kamal ki interview!
    Bhagat singh portion was amazing!

  • @MANOJTIWARI-sh1dr
    @MANOJTIWARI-sh1dr 4 года назад +118

    Piyush Mishra and Tigmanshu Dhulia's interview to me was like reading a book.

  • @bipulkumar111
    @bipulkumar111 4 года назад +10

    A great actor, lyricist.....
    आरंभ है प्रचंड .... अद्वितीय...❣️

  • @nadeemakhtar7782
    @nadeemakhtar7782 5 лет назад +146

    Outstanding interview..
    Pls interview KK Menon and Dibakar Banerjee

  • @anjalimishra8991
    @anjalimishra8991 4 года назад +22

    Piyush Mishra is like a book so knowledgeable, I wish this interview never ended 🙏 lots of love to slow team. I was spellbound by Sanjay Mishra, Pankaj Tripathi interviews too..

  • @sumeetdiddee
    @sumeetdiddee 5 лет назад +20

    Another gem! Neelesh can get interviewees to share their deepest regrets, joys and fears! Piyush Mishra is heap of talent in so many art forms. Thanks Neelesh and Gaon Connection for this

  • @tusharbhardwaj6067
    @tusharbhardwaj6067 5 лет назад +602

    is show me aane wala insan halka hokr jata h andr se bilkul...

    • @ashfaaqrayhaan
      @ashfaaqrayhaan 5 лет назад +30

      Ye show dekhne wale bhi halke hote hai

    • @meenakshiyadav1850
      @meenakshiyadav1850 4 года назад +6

      So true

    • @excelsior7747
      @excelsior7747 4 года назад +2

      @Allah Randi Madarchod Suar Se Chudke Goo Khata Hai bhai aap kya karna chahte h aisa nam lik kr apna hate krte h aap musalmano kuch had mai bhi krta hu pr kya aapko lgta h aisa nam likhkr aap sahi kr rhe h ??

    • @Himanshukumar-hz9ly
      @Himanshukumar-hz9ly 4 года назад +1

      @Allah Randi Madarchod Suar Se Chudke Goo Khata Hai seriously ALLAH ye sb hai toh BHAGWAAN b yahi sb h

    • @deep1551
      @deep1551 4 года назад +1

      @@Himanshukumar-hz9ly qki bhgwan ek h hai na ?

  • @premmurti
    @premmurti 5 лет назад +44

    Kudos to the video team...
    the evening/night part has been captured so beautifully...
    and always amazing Neelesh sir, Charu mam

  • @abhiglad
    @abhiglad 4 года назад +26

    Hats off for such a brave format of guftagu. This is akin to therapy and so poetic is terms of bringing face to face with nuanced truths of life, realities that we escape from, and are sometimes afraid to confront. Hats off again to Piyush and Neelesh!

  • @ankitaadwivedii
    @ankitaadwivedii 5 лет назад +154

    I never miss watching any of your videos. Please keep posting them. Also, it was beautiful to hear "Thank you, beta" from Piyush Sir for that girl who brought tea and stuff.(in part one)

    • @manishchauhan4068
      @manishchauhan4068 5 лет назад +5

      correct Ankita ji , that moment won my heart..it shows the depth of artist.

    • @aashna824
      @aashna824 4 года назад +2

      @@manishchauhan4068 Ji

  • @missphoenix842
    @missphoenix842 5 лет назад +20

    Thank you to the devine energy for saving this soul, this interview shows making mistakes does not make you any less of a person.. it does indeed brings out the best in you if you admit and surrender to the master of creation.. you finally become the best version of you!! I am glad i got an opportunity to meet him in person. I knew very less about sir Piyush ji but the moment i saw him entering the studio room i wept. His aura gives goosebumps. Now i realised why

  • @GreatMan_from_East
    @GreatMan_from_East 5 лет назад +53

    5:30 Karn
    Everyone must read Mrutunjay
    7:57 Mukti
    10:00 vipyashyana
    13:40
    15:00 prarabhdh or destiny
    17:00 afsoas
    22:00 brain Stokes
    26:00
    30:00 disorder
    49:59

    • @heisenbergwhite9310
      @heisenbergwhite9310 5 лет назад +1

      Thanks brother 💓

    • @PranavKumar-dd2xo
      @PranavKumar-dd2xo 4 года назад

      Dono sinha ka bhi time aad kar dete btw Kudos

    • @lionbasko8516
      @lionbasko8516 4 года назад

      Osho ko sayed aapne padha ya suna nahi hai.

    • @philosophyofgentleman
      @philosophyofgentleman 4 года назад

      You are amazing

    • @nirajker90
      @nirajker90 4 года назад +1

      At 26:54 _______ What's the name of the therapy Piyush Mishra ji speaks about? That was referred by Vishal Bharadwaj ji

  • @himansuganguli3175
    @himansuganguli3175 5 лет назад +55

    - agar ab pitaji se milte,
    - iss baar gale lagata,
    this one hit me hard, the replay was so sudden and natural that i can feel him...

  • @tamalbhattacharya1434
    @tamalbhattacharya1434 4 года назад +1

    Dono behtareen log... Sukoon k saath saare sawaal, kadwe, achhe aur utni hi imaandari se aur sahajta se Piyush sir k jawaab. "Acceptance" ye nikal k aaya is interview k dono parts se.

  • @sunilk.8419
    @sunilk.8419 4 года назад +16

    This is not mere an interview, this is a pure therapy session...some kind of meditation, some cure to all ailments, some divine form of art...for interviewer, interviewee and also the audience.

  • @manishchauhan4068
    @manishchauhan4068 5 лет назад +2

    mere hindustan ko pyar karne ki ek aur vajah ban gaye Nileshji aur piyush ji ki depthwali bate...wahhh..kisiko puchhne ke liye sunna jaruri he...what a nice way to listen and orate. god bless you neeleshji. you live literature.

  • @piyushtiwari8628
    @piyushtiwari8628 3 года назад +1

    जाने कितनी बार ये interview देख चुका हूँ मैं लेकिन हर बार देखने पर कुछ नया ही सीखने को मिलता है देख कर। अद्भुत। ।

    • @SabThikHeeHai
      @SabThikHeeHai 2 месяца назад

      Fir to bahut gyaani ban gya hoga bhai.. life me ukhaad bhi liya hoga iske baad

  • @PranavKumar-dd2xo
    @PranavKumar-dd2xo 4 года назад +1

    *Aansu hi nikal gaye inke baate sunke* ...itne mahan hote hai kuch log par unnki kahaniyan aap jese log aur aapki team hi nikaal k hamare liye lati hai *a treat to watch him sing and talk*

  • @AmanSharma-tt7in
    @AmanSharma-tt7in 5 лет назад +35

    being a vipassana student i can relate to Piyush Mishra ji's POV on a different level. Vipassana is a beautiful gift one can give and one can get.

    • @Lalit_Gaur
      @Lalit_Gaur 5 лет назад +2

      can you tell more about vipassan Aman?

    • @AmanSharma-tt7in
      @AmanSharma-tt7in 5 лет назад +8

      @@Lalit_Gaur Day 1
      We were woken up by 4 am. An old school/antique brass metal bell 🔔 was rung every day with a hammer 🔨 to signify that group meditation was about to start and the vibrations of the bell were strong enough to wake up even the hibernating polar bear out of his deep slumber. As if this wasn't enough there was a team of sewaks (servers) who would ring the bell every 10 minutes outside your room until you switched on the light of your room and confirmed that you are up & raring to go. During our first morning session, we were asked to observe our breath, just our breath. It felt like Such a simple task just to observe the process of Inhalation and exhalation but that's when you realise that your mind, which is equipped to handle all the complex issues of worldly matters, is a complete idiot box 📦 because it just can't focus on the breath for more than 2-3 seconds. I followed the regular time table. Although it was difficult to sit and observe the breath, utter verve just kept me going.
      Day 2
      4:00 a.m alarm bell was like a devil's voice to my 👂 for someone who is not used to waking up before 7 joining the zero dark thirty club felt like an uphill task. However, I dragged myself out of the bed and just went out for the meditation. The entire day we practised aana pana (observation of breath) Though the mind was getting better at the job in hand, it still wasn't fine-tuned enough to observe breath with a 50% success rate. Day 2 was coming to an end & I reminded myself when the going gets tough, the tough get going. Having a roommate provided some psychological strength as I always felt there was someone along with me on this journey. It also helped me sleep peacefully knowing that if anytime I have an issue, a conversation is just a bed away.
      Day 3
      I woke up with a heavy head. I really had to push myself out of the bed. Motivated myself with Gordon's advice to take one day at a time. A small board in a clock's shape was hung outside the kitchen which displayed the day of the course. While taking stairs to the Dhamma Hall, where all of us would meditate, I would always look at the board hung outside the kitchen to keep myself motivated. I would always tell myself, very soon I would see day 5 and then half the journey would be over & just like a see-saw or a pendulum it would slowly start moving towards the other end of the spectrum, eventually leading me to glory. For me, most of the Morning sessions went like a breeze. I held my ground, found that sweet spot where I would continue to observe breath for minutes together before my mind would get lost in infinite thoughts and then again I would pull my mind from its ears back to focusing on my breath. One thing was very clear now, while observing, I actually realised that the habit pattern of my mind was such that it would continuously roll back into past memories pleasant or unpleasant or it would roll into the plans or worries of the future but never liked to stay in present, henceforth, attracting misery in terms of pain, pleasure, stress, anxiety, longing for the sensations I was familiar with due to pleasant experiences or basking in the glory of the past. Observing breath helped me stay grounded to the present moment/ reality as it is/ the ultimate truth. I was getting better at it, just focussing on my breath made me immensely calm. It felt like a drug, releasing dopamine and serotonin, that gave me such pleasant sensations. I walked out of the hall for lunch, completely elated & exuberant. Post lunch hours were extremely relaxing I would go back to the garden, take my shirt off, rub some body lotion, comfort myself with a massage and take sunbath while observing the breath. Centre was perfectly surrounded with Deodar trees, a mesmerising backdrop of Dharamkot village & two snow-capped peaks from the Dhauladhar range. Every day, I would just get lost in the picturesque landscape. Oh! The silence in hills felt beautiful, conversations between the cool breeze and tree leaves sounded magical and the weather was perfect. Sun ☀️ and the coldness worked like a perfect muscle relaxant, combination of fire and ice. As the rest session progressed, for some reason my anxiety level was off the roof before I could do anything about it- Devil's bell 🔔 rung to signify that it was time to get back to meditation hall as the rest-hours were over. I walked into my room only to find my roommate had left. I was 😳 shocked, complete disbelief and whirlpool of thoughts or insecurities just popped up out of nowhere. It felt everyone was leaving and I started thinking on a different line as to how life had changed and how everyone who was so important to me had moved on and disappeared. I saw my roomie walking out. It was depressing I wanted to ask him to stay. I wanted to know why he was leaving but I couldn't. I was observing the noble silence even though I didn't know him at all, there was an unsaid bond. Anyhow, he left and I was depressed. My afternoon session was really tricky. Soon, I realised many people had left the camp, in fact, some of them had left on day 2 itself but I was oblivious to this fact until NOW. There was one guy who started crying while observing the breath and soon, he too left the camp. At this juncture, I was wondering why was he crying 😭 how can someone start crying? By 15:00 hours, I again started focusing on my breath. Suddenly, in the middle of the session, I felt an incredible amount of heat coming out and I mean INCREDIBLE as if an electric heater was generating that heat inside my body, I felt nauseated, my throat dried up, felt suffocated and choked, I opened up my eyes thinking maybe the AC was not working only to find out that everyone inside the hall was wearing double layers of woollens and I was the only one feeling this sensation. I had to walk out & as soon as I walked out there were tears rolling down my eyes but I had no idea why? After wiping them, I had a glass of water and went back to the basics. I asked the teacher and he said it was normal and a very good sign of progress in the meditation. In the following days, I found many people having the same experiences, in fact, many women walked outside the hall howling, crying, furious etc. By evening I was completely shaken; it was really hard for me to go back to an empty room. I thought I might not even be able to sleep. However, the easiest and the most pleasant part of the day I.e the video discourses by SN Goenka Ji were quite refreshing and motivating esp. His sense of humour, opening phrase that day 2,3,4 etc is over now you have just 8,7,6 more to go,rational approach and expression of speech really kept me motivated; the entire course was so well structured and in sync with the video discourse that his discourses would answer most of my questions related to the matters that cropped up during my meditation sessions on that particular day.
      After another round of 45 minutes meditation session, my mind and eyes were burning. I just felt like retiring to my room. I slept that night with a heavy heart.

    • @AmanSharma-tt7in
      @AmanSharma-tt7in 5 лет назад +7

      @@Lalit_Gaur Day 4

      I woke up, looked at the board and thought I might just give up as I can't go through another 7 days. Carried on with the schedule but now things seemed really jittery as Goenka Ji mentioned on the first day of the course that this was a hospital to treat your mind's functioning but not a mental hospital. However, I started feeling otherwise by this time. Looking at my mates from the west, I just wondered how people from the east were running towards west & people from the west were running towards the east, just to figure out their inner peace, their true selves, their capabilities, just to prove themselves and sort out their mess. How everyone was running towards this perfect illusion but no one seemed to catch hold of it. Indeed, we are living in total chaos and madness. Everyone at the centre was in their zone. Some were walking, some were sitting, some were just lost. The only thing that was common among them was that they were completely deep into themselves. In fact, on the first three days itself, I heard many extreme emotional experiences, some of the students walked outside the meditation hall sobbing, angry and whole lot bursts of other emotions. Now, it started looking like a mental asylum. Every day, many random thoughts would flip into my mind but today was different, I felt like giving up after attending morning's session. I walked out of my room, gave myself a motivational talk and looked at the Board outside which said day 4. I just told myself that from next day onwards the pendulum would start shifting towards the other side and things would slide down from there. I had a good morning Meditation Session. Also, I figured out another hack, which helped me meditate in the best way possible. Always, eat really small portions or small amount of food. It really helped me meditate better plus it keeps your calories in check in case you are health conscious. It was on this day we were supposed to learn the technique of Vipassana meditation during our afternoon session. And the moment Goenka ji said that now I am about to teach you the technique of vipassana, I told myself get ready to experience the magic, the fun ride and the exploration of the purely new game field. The point of focus now changed to a different dimension i.e sensations. I jumped, in fact, pulled off a somersault deep into myself, experiencing the inexplicable, magic but not exactly magic. A reality which was there within me all the time but I never had enough time to sense it. All this while I kept looking & accepted things from outside, but never ever managed to feel & examine what was happening inside. It felt nice that I eventually told myself, I belong here & I will pull this off. I guess, the excitement to learn something new and get better at it with every meditation session just got me all charged up. Now, I was looking forward to the rest of the sessions.
      Day 5
      Finally, I was halfway down there. I was proud of myself and thought now, it's a smooth ride from here but it wasn't. The morning session went just fine, followed by breakfast and another session. However, I wasn't keeping up with the pace of the course as in the instructions, which were being given to experience certain things I could not and my peers could sense all of them. This got me into the trap of the same rat race 🏁 which we follow outside in the world. Just competing, comparing, competing and comparing. I couldn't comprehend my reality ( an absolute truth). The fact of the matter, my reality at that particular moment was that I could not experience anything and I should have accepted that instead, I started drawing comparisons, which makes our life miserable on day to day basis. Our teacher just asked me to accept reality as it is and not compare it with anyone and asked me not to compare even different meditation sessions. I kept telling myself, just anchor the reality of this moment and accept it as it is. However, I am just a mortal human being, wired to malfunction and not to act on wise things. Consciously, I was trying not to feel bad but subconsciously I kept searching for that feeling. The more I compared, the more disoriented and out of the zone, I found myself. After attending video discourse session, just like every day all of us would walk outside. Some would just walk into the darkness, some would just listen to the chaos outside, some would stretch out their legs and back, some would simply sit and some would listen to the music 🎶 like incredible music, which was being played at a cafe. There was a karaoke 🎤 night on a weekend and then on the next day, there was a dance party. I think this whole scene just added to our misery. The look, most of us had at this moment screamed out loud that how we wished we could just go out there and Live the party, enjoy the music, dance the night away and relish sumptuous meal but alas! It wouldn't happen. In fact, following nights this place played awesome music and mocked us right in our face. The look on everyone face reminded me of EUROPE's, a Swedish rock band's, famous number,
      "Prisoners in Paradise" and it's lyrics aptly described our apathy.
      "Just like prisoners in paradise
      Still far from heavens door
      We had it all but still, we wanted more
      Now I realize that I can't turn back,
      the future is here to stay
      But hey we're just children of tomorrow
      Hangin' on to yesterday "
      During this time I would just look outside at the hills, look at the well-lit world outside and think very soon I'll be out there and as a part of my motivational talk, I would tell myself that the day I'll walk out, I'll treat myself by visiting this place. Day 5 ended. However, there were 5 more to go.
      Day 6
      The routine was pretty much the same, day 6 on the board just made me feel like I was very near to the goal but as they say, the goal is important but more important is the journey how you reach or in what style you reach @ your end goal. I had to enjoy the process but I wasn't doing that and day 6 made me realise every bit of it. I started aiming for perfection, started comparing, in fact, I jeopardised the main aim of the meditation itself. I fell into a deep pit of craving and aversion. The core of the course was to get enlightened enough not to fall into the dubious trap of craving and aversion but I fell for it. In fact, so lost I was that I started doubting myself to an extent that I thought I can't focus, I am not even focusing properly and all this led me to ask my teacher a very stupid but an intense question how do you focus? And he looked perplexed and confused, His reply made me introspect, he asked me the same question, how do you focus? In hindsight, it seems funny to me but I had no clue and then he told me the obvious which I knew but being a stubborn head I wasn't acknowledging that I was craving for what others had or what others were experiencing. He asked me not to crave and just observe and do the basics what I was doing for the first three days. So, I started doing it. Initially, it pissed me off, I thought I should quit because I wasn't able to feel or do what others were doing but then I told myself what's the point getting frustrated with meditation as well. If I end up walking with such a frame of mind even with meditation nothing could help me. So I just followed what he said and even though I hated it. People were progressing with the vipassana technique and On the other end, I was regressing to basic things. However, on a positive note, I practised with all my heart and eventually, it led me to a beautiful state of being. Extremely light and poised. I felt in complete balance and control. More of a trance state, a zero state of mind with no thoughts; just pure bliss. I actually observed my breath how it goes from point a to b and it felt incredible but the greedy mind wanted more so again I went back to finding those sensations or the free flow of energy which people by now started experiencing and I hated every bit of it. Throughout the day I was falling in and out of love with craving and aversion. By the end of the day, I don't know but my legs were paining as if I had run a marathon. I just went off to bed, crying in pain.
      Day 7
      Experiencing free flow was the only thing on my mind and that's all I wanted to do. So I woke up all charged up, not realising, I was again feeding to my insatiable hunger for experiencing what others were feeling or what others had and I didn't. My efforts to experience free flow went till afternoon session after that I developed a severe headache and heavy eyes. I realised this was madness and I had completely screwed up and failed to learn the basic ideology of the camp. Accepting and observing the reality as is, not craving or having an aversion for things. Finally, I accepted that this was my reality that I can't feel sensations and I should do the basic things that I was doing on the first three days and I happily started observing things. I felt more at peace with myself. Finally, the teacher asked me if I was feeling any sensation and I smiled, I told him I am doing the basics since I can't feel any sensations and he asked if I was still craving for it and I replied "No", the craving is all gone. I am happy doing basic things. I was happy that I had crossed 7 days and 6 the day as mentioned by Goenka Ji was the day when most of the people leave as they find it really hard and uncomfortable to continue with the camp. I thought I had survived the camp. With this thought, I just slept.

    • @AmanSharma-tt7in
      @AmanSharma-tt7in 5 лет назад +12

      @@Lalit_Gaur Day 8
      This is the day when we got to know that we'll be allowed to speak among ourselves on day 10 after 11:30 am and I told myself I have just one day to go but two bad meditation sessions just got me to an all-time low and I thought I might just run away because suddenly the two days felt really long and I could see people in distress by now even crossing the hurdle of two days looked impossible. There was a sense of depression around me and I saw few people started talking to each other by now and they were finding it extremely hard to cope up with stress. Finally, my gift of meditating in the Himalayas became my curse. Silent hills and 🌲 trees were now echoing back our inner thoughts "PLEASE LISTEN", funny how silent and listen have the same set of letters but when shuffled have completely opposite meaning and this was exactly our scenario. We wanted to communicate after all that's all we have learnt all our lives that a man is a social animal and this 10-day experiment proved it. I was just thinking how I thought every day that I have finally arrived home and now I will make it but every day- every day I felt I would leave the camp midway and won't be able to finish it off and day 8 and day 9 were no different. Meditation went, as usual, early morning sessions were a breeze, thanks to sleep deprivation and dizzy mind. Following sessions were again like a wave with highs and lows. Day 8's dusk made way for the night, another sun was setting on me and I felt extremely, extremely, extremely depressed. Just felt like rushing back home. Saw a couple of people freaking out as if they could not last another minute inside there. They were talking among each other. I remembered what Gordon told me on day 0 and I realised the noble silence was definitely over for few. Although I felt like giving in, the temptation to talk was too much, still, I wanted to be honest to myself and give my 100%. The last group session of day 8 was here. At this moment, nothing new was being taught and I was doing my basics with no pressure, no craving, no expectations and then the unfathomable happened. I finally felt the free flow, it was my eureka moment. I felt like dancing, screaming I was finally observing the free flow in my body. I was so ecstatic that it had been only 3-5 seconds when I lost the balance of my mind and I never realised when I stopped observing it & when happiness and craving creeped in. As I exhilarated at the moment, the free flow evanesced, Just like that, it disappeared. All the magic, the epic moment just vanished into thin air. My eureka moment just perished in front of my eyes 👀 and all I could do was sit in disbelief and that's when I aptly surmised the gravity of the divine law of Dhamma as soon as you fall in love with the magic or happiness you just lose the balance of your mind & you're left with just words to express that brief time frame when you experienced something beyond horizon, in fact, you lived something that took you to a place where words lose their weight and meaning & nothing could summarise the entrancing, mojo effect you just witnessed. It's like you saw something but you cannot tell, you understood everything but you can't make anyone else understand. just like that it was over. Now, I understood the crux of it and got back to basics. Simply accepting the reality of the given moment and moving on. It helped me understand so many things and with that learning the epic day 8 got over. I had my been there done that moment. I accepted that. I did not have the energy to put in that effort again to feel it the same way. During the video discourse, Goenka Ji mentioned that day 9 was the last day of serious meditation because on day 10 as soon as we are done with our morning group meditation we'll be allowed to speak during lunch hours I.e 11 am onwards.
      Day 9
      The 🔔 bell rung. I forced myself out of the bed. I really wished to sleep more but just woke up thinking that now since We have subscribed to this, these guys have every right to treat this way. Grabbed my joggers, brushed my teeth, washed my face and ran towards the meditation hall. Oh! wait I forgot to mention the sight of seeing day 9 on the board just infused a new life in my body and I happily rushed into the meditation hall. However, now I was frankly getting bored there was nothing new to be learnt and I was obviously 🙄 not getting to that zone of free flow. I was done with it, I had lost all my patience. But, that's when Goenka Ji reiterated the gravity of the course that while observing these sensations make sure that you don't start playing the game of sensations, start craving for free flow or sensations that make you happy and develop aversions for the ones that don't feel good because sensations are just means not the parameter to gauge how far you have improved in vipassana, the key is to observe without craving or having aversion towards anything and accepting reality as it is and just in case if you are experiencing the free flow and if you feel like being there you have lost the balance of your mind and hence failed in the technique. This made me pull up my socks and start focusing again. By evening, the place outside started playing some amazing trance 🎶 it just created a perfect environment for deep meditation and music got louder soon they started playing Pink Floyd and Nirvana now my mind was actually running outside. I guess everyone wanted to chill at the party, which was pulling us like a magnet. But, prisoners in paradise were cursing the music as it was too loud. we couldn't sleep finally the weather god listened to our pain and one thunderstorm ⛈ stopped everything in a fraction of second. We slept peacefully.
      Day 10
      Everyone's face was beaming with an unusual glow. Words can't describe how looking at day 10 on the board made me feel. A funny little secret on day 3 I had gone down to drink a glass of water and tried to change the no. today 10 just to see how it would actually look and finally, that day had arrived. Everything looked easy this day. Finally, after morning session we were taught another meditation technique and I was just thinking when will it get over, when will it get over and before I realised, I went into deep meditation myself so deep that everyone else had left after the session and I was the only one inside the Dhamma hall. I was the last one to walk out the Dhamma hall and the moment I stepped out; oh! There was a completely different aura as if the air was singing and the sun was brighter. I actually sensed happiness in the air and from a distance of 100 feet, I could see all my group mates smiling, talking, and laughing. It was a splendid sight. The pain of the last 10 days was forgotten in a second. Everything felt like a cakewalk. 10 day Camp felt like a bed of roses and then I made friends with everyone. All these faces, which I used to see, I wanted to know their story, I wanted to know what brought them here, I wanted to know so much more so, I talked, talked, talked and asked everyone the same thing- did they ever think they would leave the camp midway or did they ever feel that they were going insane and most of the time I got 'yes' as an answer to both my questions . In fact, I felt I might even leave on day 9. Everyone was super happy while having lunch and then tea in the dining area, which earlier seemed nothing less than a graveyard. We kept talking till 12:15 am though we were supposed to be in our bed by 9, Hell NO! - No one listened. There was so much to talk about with so many people but then the manager just gave us his peace of mind and asked us to move. Eventually, We did move our butts. I slept around 1 woke up @ 3:30-4 and attended morning session half asleep 😴 and half awake. Finally, after a morning session, we were dispersed and were free to leave for our respective destinations.
      So this was my 10-day vipassana experience
      So will I attend this course again?
      Definitely YES, maybe in another 3 months, that's the minimum time duration one needs to have between two 10 days courses. I want to explore the unexplored, improve myself on meditation front and of course, experiencing the state of free flow 😈again.
      Giveaways and my tips!
      Take one day at a time
      Eat less
      Sleep more
      Take sunbath (I really enjoyed sunbathing sessions -it helped me relax and the body moisturiser/massage 💆 is super fun)
      Just hang in there
      Don't expect anything from the course
      Take back roller, you'll bless me. Continuously sitting for 10 hours a day can be brutal.
      Peace out ✌️!

    • @rahulwa
      @rahulwa 5 лет назад +2

      @@AmanSharma-tt7in Thank you

  • @jatendrai
    @jatendrai 4 года назад +3

    Piyush bhai....What a man... I have always cried after listening to Husna

  • @shrutirajpoot6310
    @shrutirajpoot6310 4 года назад +7

    Stories to sunti hi thi somehow stumbled to tapsee pannu's slow interview ,phir ayushman ,phir manoj bajpayee aur ye interview , i don't know how but these interviews have affected me beautifully

  • @ankitasharma2882
    @ankitasharma2882 4 года назад +2

    Isse jada enlightening interview nhi dekha kbi..Intresting n sooo much to know about life along with knowing The Piyush Mishra himself 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

  • @RavinderSingh-jz9gw
    @RavinderSingh-jz9gw 4 года назад +14

    Happy to see someone is remembering Bhagat Singh on this platform... 🥰

  • @suruchirajesh4972
    @suruchirajesh4972 4 года назад +1

    Hats off Piyushji... so transparent.. so clear .. yet want to hide yourself.. one has to be very truthful with himself to show his venerability.. gr8 personality.. Thanks Neelesh Mishra

  • @pratibhashastri6797
    @pratibhashastri6797 2 года назад

    बहुत ख़ास था यह slow.
    इतनी ईमानदारी के लिए बहुत हिम्मत चाहिए।
    Salute to Piyush ji.
    नीलेश जी शुक्रिया आपका ।🙏

  • @ruchijharbade4193
    @ruchijharbade4193 4 года назад +5

    32:20 This magic can only be felt by the voice of this legend.

  • @sujitt6
    @sujitt6 5 лет назад +7

    Not to exert or anything but I think this is Neeleshs' best slow interview episode. Piyush Mishra has bared open his soul so articulately and candidly, no doubt he is a wordsmith that he is. Have always been in awe of this man. People who have watched his other episodes, don't know is it me or even others have felt, observe how Neelesh is so absorbed this time, exuding almost a trance like reception to Piyushs' stories. He is generally more interactive.

  • @gauravmishra1375
    @gauravmishra1375 4 года назад +4

    I have completed my 10, 12, Graduation, Post Graduation and Phd this year haven't learn to live a life, but this interview had changed my Perspective and perception to see life in different manner.🙏🙏🙏
    Life lessons......

  • @ruchibharadwaj2456
    @ruchibharadwaj2456 5 лет назад +42

    So much learning from this interview, Bhagat singh k lia or ijjajt badh gaye🙏🏻

  • @RajneeshBisht
    @RajneeshBisht 4 года назад +9

    I always wanted to read someone's story of failure, regrets, mistakes, etc. I never found one as mostly all of the people just say only good things about their struggle life. They never tell u what will not be delight to hear... By listening piyush sir, He seems to look very genuine and authentic.. In this fake world, an idol which I can look upto.. 🙌

  • @urmilasankhla8615
    @urmilasankhla8615 5 лет назад +14

    सच्चिदानन्द एकाग्रचित अभय
    मेरे प्यारे बहुत अच्छी बातें
    जय ही जय हो

  • @muktirdhaak
    @muktirdhaak 5 лет назад +1

    kiya bat aj pehle bar dekhra ho ki kisika video main koi dislike nahi hain.bada accha laga … gerat guy piyush mishra sir.love you from Bangladesh.
    may god bless you…

  • @deepamadaiyashaikh
    @deepamadaiyashaikh 5 лет назад +13

    I truly admire this interview this is the most authentic interview ever...

  • @poonamkumari-jy4bu
    @poonamkumari-jy4bu 4 года назад +1

    पहला ऐसा इन्सान जिसने अपनी लाइफ की real story इतना बहादुर होकर स्वीकार किया।पब्लिक के सामने खुद को canfuss करना its a big deel...

  • @lellete
    @lellete 3 года назад +1

    Great admirer of Piyush Mishra. I had an opportunity to meet him once when he was living in Delhi back in 2000. Priya was my work colleague, another gem of a person and Piyush used to come to our office to pick her up. Down to memory lanes......

  • @shifagoyal8221
    @shifagoyal8221 3 года назад +1

    Fast interview with Piyush Mishra.He is Candid, enigmatic and eccentric personality. Gifted genius.

  • @Abhishekkksinghh
    @Abhishekkksinghh 5 лет назад +27

    Neelesh Sir, you are doing a great work through this series.

    • @bharatikarnik1793
      @bharatikarnik1793 4 года назад

      Nice watching this interview shared this with daughter of your teacher Mrs Katju

  • @ibadathusain3913
    @ibadathusain3913 5 лет назад +2

    Want to salute both of you..aapke bato ki bat itni badi hai ki..uspe koi bat nahi ki ja skti..aap ne jo bete ki hai aisi bate aaj kal bat krne ko nahi milti....Deep

  • @desaimonil
    @desaimonil 5 лет назад +11

    Such a nice interview. I am in the USA and I have never missed a slow interview. Please continue the slow interview series forever.

    • @mb-hb1fr
      @mb-hb1fr 4 года назад

      Who wants to know that you are in US or Uganda 🤣

  • @amiteshpurwar1
    @amiteshpurwar1 5 лет назад +1

    What a man he is! I can't imagine anyone else in this era who is so so true in front of his audience. What a man! Piyush sahab ko naman...HT fest mein apko suna aur rom rom jag utha tha...Jis tarah se apne husna ki farmaish ko mana karke bhi ... Concert khatam hone ke baad phir se stage par aakae ek dusra roop husna ka pesh kiya...Aabhar!

  • @The.healing.traveller
    @The.healing.traveller 3 года назад +4

    26:54 loved his testimonial. I am a proud Pranic Healer and Arhatic Yoga Practitioner 💗 Thank you Master

  • @radhe-radhe8895
    @radhe-radhe8895 4 года назад +12

    One day I was listening to Big fm I heard Nilesh sir's voice. After that I found his channels and continuously listning him.
    The way he says नमस्कार मैं हूँ नीलेश मिश्रा कहानियां सुनता हूँ। he actually attract you towards his beautiful voice.

  • @ankiitjain52
    @ankiitjain52 5 лет назад +5

    मेरी एक दोस्त है,सामान्यता: मै भी बड़ा व्यक्तिगत हूं लेकिन उसके साथ जब होता हूं बहता चला जाता हूं, slow interview me भी ऐसा ही है, सब बाहर निकलता है। क्या संगत है आपकी नीलेश जी!!!!🙏🙏

  • @siddheshadhatrao5866
    @siddheshadhatrao5866 4 года назад +1

    Neelesh Misra and Team.......what a fabulous show u all have come up....
    रुह ko shaanti milti hai aise Interviewe aur baatein sunke. Thank you so much Neelesh ji ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @akbarhusain5594
    @akbarhusain5594 5 лет назад +1

    ‘Isliye bol raha hun aapke saamne kyun ki achcha lag raha hai, har kisi ke saamne nhin bolta..’
    That’s what makes this show special..
    Neeleshji, you have a gift!

  • @RJKK83
    @RJKK83 4 года назад +2

    Kudos to the person himself ... and to the brilliant lady and friends who were behind the curtain but saved n nurtured a life by simply being compassionate. 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻 truly inspiring

  • @mynameismyname8608
    @mynameismyname8608 3 года назад +2

    Both intellectuals in a same frame. Soothing to listen.
    Enlightening MILLIONS.
    Thankyou so much for sharing the WISDOM.

  • @hanzalamusheerkhan8277
    @hanzalamusheerkhan8277 5 лет назад +6

    Rota hai Raton mein bhi Pakistan bhi kya waise hi, jaise ki hindustannn😢😢
    Adbhut,Atulya Mishra ji...

  • @milancbhatt
    @milancbhatt 5 лет назад +2

    Beautiful beautiful interview. Husna ne rula diya . Good to hear from pure soul and my favourite Piyush Mishra

  • @AmaaraSethi
    @AmaaraSethi Год назад +2

    @NeeleshMisra Thank you sir for giving these gems of interviews - Piyush sir, Pankaj Sir, Sanjay Mishra - they are legends but you are the unsung hero to make them show their real self... Kudos to you...anytime, anything for you sir

  • @adeshnigamnigam6360
    @adeshnigamnigam6360 3 года назад

    नीलेश जी बस ज़िन्दगी की दास्तान जो हैं जैसी है हम लोगो तक सही अर्थ में मिल रही हैं आपको साधुवाद

  • @avii23
    @avii23 3 года назад +24

    I think he’s the one arts student who explained E=MC^2 pretty spiritually 😇

  • @dwarikasahani9614
    @dwarikasahani9614 4 года назад +1

    Dhanaybad vyakt krta hu Nilesh ji aur aapke kam ko jo aapne Piyush sahab ka ye rup dikhaye
    In sabhi chijo se bahut sikh milti h
    Piyush ji aapke jivan k badlav se hame prerna milti h

  • @satsini1
    @satsini1 4 года назад +5

    IT WAS" PIYUSH MISHRA" EPISODE I FELT THE PEACE IN THIS HOLLOW AND DOUBLE STANDERED WORLD.AND NILESH JI YOU ARE DAM LUCKY THAT YOU COULD MATCH THE FREQUENCY AT SUCH A MICRON LEVELS ,REALLY MY ENVEY.GOD BLESS SUCH A NICE HERITAGE YOU ENGULFED DURING YOUR LOOKING SIMPLE EPISODES.THKS

  • @stockgyanbyrishi
    @stockgyanbyrishi 4 года назад

    Dono episodes dekhe Piyush Mishra ke:
    First, time ka pata nahi laga kab nikal gaya, apni thoughts and baaton se bandhe rakha inhone, gem of a person, ruk ruk kar bol rahe the but ye imperfection mein hi perfection dikhti hai.
    Secondly, bade bade kaam sub consious mind se hi kar die, and end mein kehte ki pata hi nahi chala kaise ho gaya ye.
    Truly, Gem of a person Piyush Mishra is!

  • @wildchild8965
    @wildchild8965 3 месяца назад

    Kya hi to माहौल bna diya... M iske pass baitha tha jaise....aisi aatma ke jeewan darpan ko dikha diya neelesh sir... Koti koti naman🥺🙏👌

  • @vinodkmurari1867
    @vinodkmurari1867 5 лет назад +49

    Bahut hi kamaal ki batchit. ..
    *****
    Tigmanshu dhulia, Vijay raj, ashutosh rada, ..smbhav ho to bulaye inko...

  • @priyamvadakatiyar7493
    @priyamvadakatiyar7493 4 года назад

    Slow interview is a wonderful creation...... हर बार जब मैं किसी का interview देखती हूँ मुझे लगता हैं ये बेस्ट हैं उसके बाद फिर किसी और का देखती हूँ तो लगता हैं again wow.
    इन सभी interviews मे एक nostalgia है ,गांव का nostalgia जो हमनें बचपन मे देखा था ,वो पुलिया जिस बैठ कर आपने तापसी जी और विश्वास जी और बहूतो का interview लिया है अपनी बचपन की सड़क की लगती है। ये interviews ऐसे है की लगता है हम भी वही कहीं हैं। Wonderfull ! All the best !

  • @Survivorsunny
    @Survivorsunny 5 лет назад +3

    so beautifully captured....piyush mishra never fails to amaze....great personality...truly a gem for Indian cinema.

  • @forkedtongue7
    @forkedtongue7 5 лет назад +2

    Thanks for opening up piyush sahab, i too have been through a small phase of substance abuse. it takes you places where you don't want to go, it makes you think of thoughts that you don't want to think. you go to these dark places in your head and comeback somehow. You can't express to anyone, where you have been and how lonely you were there. I understand where you are coming from, happy to see things are better now. Thanks again.

  • @Whosthat2024
    @Whosthat2024 3 года назад +2

    watched both the parts of interview .......feeling blessed to know about such a great legend and his deep insight for life
    love you Piyush Mishra sir

  • @failed_comic
    @failed_comic 5 лет назад +13

    Confessions with nilesh mishra❤️

  • @vijaya.choudhary
    @vijaya.choudhary 5 лет назад +6

    Husna❤️❤️ He's a Legend. He deserves much more recognition...

  • @jeeban_does
    @jeeban_does 2 года назад +1

    I wish myself as piyush mishra as my future..Acceptance- स्वीकारोक्ति is the key..🙏
    Listening to this man is Love..vipasana is next area of interest

  • @hrishikeshshelar6862
    @hrishikeshshelar6862 5 лет назад +6

    These interviews are like a meditation. Lovely.

  • @pritiparmar1002
    @pritiparmar1002 4 года назад +2

    Piyush misra a brilliant man a troubled soul ! Truly a Wonderful interview .

  • @bhatiumedbhatiumed8451
    @bhatiumedbhatiumed8451 Год назад +1

    Vipasana ke karan mene bhi bahut se relation khoye h , mera relate n kr pana , disconnect ho jana...OMG. Thnk u Piyushji..vrna m kbhi samjh hi nhi pata.

  • @manojdhanamehra
    @manojdhanamehra 4 года назад

    मैंने सच मे बहुत खुश हूं इस इंटरव्यू को देखकर। आप दोनों में बहुत फेवरेट हैं। शुक्रिया

  • @namandevda8586
    @namandevda8586 5 лет назад +13

    Neelesh Sir, please call Raghuveer Yadav next. Loved this interview ❤️

  • @vikrantshukla4939
    @vikrantshukla4939 4 года назад

    Piyush Mishra jee ko sunane ke liye mujhe RUclips ki playback speed kam karni padi. Ye ek maatra aisa show hai jahan aapka mann karta hai ki ye khatam hi na ho..bus chalta rahe. Sanjay Mishra jee wala episode kitna abdhut tha.. jeevan ke har rang se mila diya unhone. Neelesh Sir aapko koti koti pranaam.

  • @mohitsaindane1318
    @mohitsaindane1318 2 года назад

    “Iss baar Gale lagata" at the end brings a smile at the end❤️😊

  • @JAYKISHAN091
    @JAYKISHAN091 4 года назад

    सर आप यकीन नहीं करेंगे, आपके ये जो Interviews है वो देख को बहोत सुकून मीलता है।
    दिन भर की कई उलजनो का अगर कहीं जवाब है तो यहाँ है।

  • @GoyankaParth
    @GoyankaParth 3 года назад +2

    This seems like the one and only best platform for self interrogation and self reflection for the guest. Brilliant work Neelesh :)

  • @gauravaggarwal7079
    @gauravaggarwal7079 4 года назад

    These are the interviews there person apne apko bahar nikal kr ke rkh deta h aur sikhane ko bahut kuch milta h aj ke zamane mein aise btein sunna aur aisa experience milna bahut h mushkil h thank you dil se Nilesh ji🙏

  • @Sagar-wn1po
    @Sagar-wn1po 5 лет назад +18

    I don't want this interview to end. Watching it at slower speed 😂😂

    • @Amitpandey-kp3ub
      @Amitpandey-kp3ub 4 года назад +2

      Ksm se dil ki baat krdi bhai 😍 mi v saare vdos 1.25 ya 1.5 pe dekhta hu pr ye nrml speed pe dekha

  • @kumargaurav6361
    @kumargaurav6361 3 года назад +3

    We are one of the best generations of humankind...who has all these technologies & mediums available at finger tips...and thank you so much Neelesh jee for conceptualising such content and bringing inspiring real-life stories to listen to and learn from ...our one of the literature of this era..Naman hai aapko Neelesh jee aur Piyush jee ko🙏🏻🙏🏻..keep inspiring and keep smiling 🙏🏻

  • @Aashutoshhtiwari09
    @Aashutoshhtiwari09 2 года назад +1

    there are so many things to learn from piyush mishra. how a communist and arrogant turned into spiritual.from bad phase of alcoholism to restrained personality. and the listener like neelesh mishra just wow both the part of interview.🙏😊

  • @ManeeshSolankiYT
    @ManeeshSolankiYT 2 года назад

    The legend of Piyush Mishra 👌
    Aapka dhanyawad sabhi mahan kalakaron ko yahan laane k liye

  • @Krishna-sv6zx
    @Krishna-sv6zx 5 лет назад +4

    Never seen an interview so pure as this.

  • @radwi69
    @radwi69 3 года назад

    I’m speechless and at awe at the both, Piyush and Neelesh ji ……. SALUTE!

  • @Krishnatalks1
    @Krishnatalks1 4 года назад +1

    आपके ऊपर कुछ किया गया तो आपका फर्ज बनता है कि आप भी उसके लिए कुछ करें
    That's line was amazing by mishra sir 😊🙏

  • @jashanpreetsinghdeol1414
    @jashanpreetsinghdeol1414 4 года назад +1

    Husnaa ....geourgious..... beautiful,, great

  • @PrashantSingh-gk2wu
    @PrashantSingh-gk2wu Год назад

    One of the best interview. Piyush's experiences with theater and films is just amazing and listening to this is never enough.

  • @ghanshyamverma2335
    @ghanshyamverma2335 4 года назад

    Aap dono ki aawaz or jo bolne ka lehza tha use sunkar aise lg rha tha maano me bhi khin na khin ye baatein aap logo k saath he beth kar sun rha hoon .Aisa lg rha tha maano ye baat or ye raat yoon he chalti rhe . The interview was full of liveliness .Thank you very much sir for this beautiful journey .

  • @divs2109
    @divs2109 4 года назад +4

    I think if someone had to act as Piyush Mishra in a biography it would be Md. Zeeshan. They have quite a resemblance in terms of eyes and depth.

  • @rabishathakur1293
    @rabishathakur1293 5 лет назад +4

    I have met him and he is indeed a great human 💕

  • @mangalvishal007
    @mangalvishal007 Год назад

    Waah!!!! Neelesh sir, Jitna aap apnay gehrey sawalon se baandhtey hain usi tarah piyush misra sir jaise true/versatile artist apnay deep thoughts se. Aisa lagta hai k hum khud soch main doob jaatay hain is sawal jawab main. Kaash kabhi irfaan khan, om puri sahab ko dekh paatay hum apkay show main. Masterpiece sir 🎉

  • @shresthasharma1093
    @shresthasharma1093 5 лет назад +2

    My god. What are these interviews. Goodness. Superb. Brilliance!

  • @aradhanayadav2927
    @aradhanayadav2927 5 лет назад

    The best thing that I loved about this interview is BHAGAT SINGH. Ye ekdam Naya tha Jo jaanne ko mile. Inka bhi Jeevan Sangharsh se bhara pada hai ek aam Insan ki tarah.

  • @someshpanda3561
    @someshpanda3561 5 лет назад +31

    Sir, please have an interview with Imtiaz Ali. Eagerly waiting for it.

  • @AmanSharma-tt7in
    @AmanSharma-tt7in 5 лет назад +3

    Waah! so much to learn ... what a man it takes strength and courage to speak the truth nothing but the truth Salute to you Piyush ji for being so brutally honest and coming to terms with reality ...
    @ Neelesh Mishra ji wish all the anchors/host can learn something from you... the art of hosting interview you just let the person speak and listen to what they have to say instead of winding up the list of questions
    it really shows the most under rated communicating tool these days i.e to listen ...thank you so much to learn from you guys...

  • @napsterdvl7530
    @napsterdvl7530 4 года назад +1

    The biggest irony of this interview is he said "Yaar muje nai pata kaise hua/kya hota hai" many times and still he has deepest understanding of life!