I'm only 17 but when I was 9 I met this girl, let's say her name is Katie. Katie was this beautiful neighbor girl of mine and when I met her I knew I wanted her. I hate when people think that "love at first sight" is bullshit because I seen her and I felt my body jump and my heart flutter. Fast forward 2 years and we're best friends. I grew up in the slums and ghetto and being white made it worse I was also very out of shape and over all a "nerd". I would tell her how I felt all the time but it wasn't until I was 16 when she realized I was serious. It was her 18th Birthday and I spent $300 on her and got her whatever she wanted. This started a trend where she'd tell me she thinks she'd love me and I'd buy her something or take her somewhere. I decided that maybe if I lost weight and changed everything about me she'd love me. Maybe if I weren't me she'd see me as more. I began to work out but the only driving power was self hate. Every change I made to myself made me realize I was less of a person. I stopped watching superhero movies and sold my book collection. I changed my sense of style, I changed everything. Finally my family seen this depression I was going in and thought that it was best if we moved. We moved to an amazing house that was closer to my Dad's work and had great school's but I didn't get to see Katie. I got to see her on weekends because we attended the same church but that was it. After a while I grew content and was happy with my life I still got to see her but she wasn't around me enough to use me so everything was great. Until a few months ago my Dad was injured at work. My family was forced to leave this amazing place, we moved into a half way house trailer and tried our best to rebuild it but with no income it was hard. I was so far away I didn't get to go to the church and I never got to see Katie. This drove me to a dark, dark place in my life. It was my senior year, I had spent so much time on Katie I realized I was still a virgin who'd never even been with a girl in any way. My parents started to worry more, I remember when my step-dad found out I was a virgin he walked into my bedroom and told me I wasn't a man I was a disappointment. This was just digging me a hole deeper and deeper today is Dec 31st of 2018 and a week ago my Biological Father called me and asked for money (I haven't seen him since I was 6) I told him I didn't have anything for him. He told me I'll end up a fuckup like him and never be worth shit. That's all led up to me being right here. I had to tell someone. I had to..
I hope everything is going your way, and that dark time of your life has blown over and found a new form of self worth over anything else. It's hard to keep stuff like this all bottled up and it has to come out to someone, I hope life gave you the best it can offer. You are cared about and better than what people call you. Self love and worth is a great feeling to have i wish it had found its way to you. Sure i'm some stranger on the internet giving their two sense into it. But i want you to know I at least care about your being and how you are doing.
When he said "Please let me go" and "I've seen enough"....
*I F E L T T H A T*
I think that refers to something too
IKKK I WAS GONNA COMMENT ABT THAT
Feelings are weird
Shirts are weird too, you put your body in one hole and come out of three
smarmy Omega what have you done to my mind
Bro, I'm like, sad or smth.
I finally know this on keyboard and I’m so proud
like, the piano?
@@belledelphine9692 y
God this hit me so f&@%#£g hard....memories I didn’t want to remember
Man... I wasn't really into Joji's music when I first heard it, but now I like really fuck with it
habe u seen a alien?
I HABE CANCER. EY B0SS
It had to be done
*Goofy voice* tHe DeMoNs ToLd Me To
Please just let filthy frank stay in the past
i
Me when I found out that my girl friend abandoned me for another man but this is how I explain it to her
listening to this while showering. hits kinda different for me ngl.
*that sounds good*
I'm suprised that no one has mentioned that this video in particular has 666k views
cause it wont stay 666k views?
@@auriabo3541 shit u right
I’ve seen enough...
Heartbreak vibes
Very addictive beat, what are the down pitched samples in the back saying?
"Yuh, got 'em
Sex, running
Fuck, got 'em
Look, spotted
Yuh, got 'em
Sex, running
Fuck, got 'em
Look, spotted"
#حق_دكتور_سبيدي🔥
joji better not die
This is so good he deserves more subs and ppl listening
you know this song doesn't belong to fmaarton
@@WT02 ye at the time I didn't know XDDD
does anybody know that joji was the famous youtuber FilthyFrank and he was pink guy which was a huge meme???
pls stfu and let filthy frank be in the past
Sftu
why you guys mad at this dude
Does anyone think of "Goofy's Trial" when he says "The demons told me everything?"
yeah
yep
He'll fuckin do it again
Live and lofi anyone? I hope someone make some.
i am the 1000100 viewer
رجع قناة دكتور سبيدي
Dr Spedy
رجعو حساب دكتور سبيدي
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I'm only 17 but when I was 9 I met this girl, let's say her name is Katie. Katie was this beautiful neighbor girl of mine and when I met her I knew I wanted her. I hate when people think that "love at first sight" is bullshit because I seen her and I felt my body jump and my heart flutter. Fast forward 2 years and we're best friends. I grew up in the slums and ghetto and being white made it worse I was also very out of shape and over all a "nerd". I would tell her how I felt all the time but it wasn't until I was 16 when she realized I was serious. It was her 18th Birthday and I spent $300 on her and got her whatever she wanted. This started a trend where she'd tell me she thinks she'd love me and I'd buy her something or take her somewhere. I decided that maybe if I lost weight and changed everything about me she'd love me. Maybe if I weren't me she'd see me as more. I began to work out but the only driving power was self hate. Every change I made to myself made me realize I was less of a person. I stopped watching superhero movies and sold my book collection. I changed my sense of style, I changed everything. Finally my family seen this depression I was going in and thought that it was best if we moved. We moved to an amazing house that was closer to my Dad's work and had great school's but I didn't get to see Katie. I got to see her on weekends because we attended the same church but that was it. After a while I grew content and was happy with my life I still got to see her but she wasn't around me enough to use me so everything was great. Until a few months ago my Dad was injured at work. My family was forced to leave this amazing place, we moved into a half way house trailer and tried our best to rebuild it but with no income it was hard. I was so far away I didn't get to go to the church and I never got to see Katie. This drove me to a dark, dark place in my life. It was my senior year, I had spent so much time on Katie I realized I was still a virgin who'd never even been with a girl in any way. My parents started to worry more, I remember when my step-dad found out I was a virgin he walked into my bedroom and told me I wasn't a man I was a disappointment. This was just digging me a hole deeper and deeper today is Dec 31st of 2018 and a week ago my Biological Father called me and asked for money (I haven't seen him since I was 6) I told him I didn't have anything for him. He told me I'll end up a fuckup like him and never be worth shit. That's all led up to me being right here. I had to tell someone. I had to..
I hope everything is going your way, and that dark time of your life has blown over and found a new form of self worth over anything else. It's hard to keep stuff like this all bottled up and it has to come out to someone, I hope life gave you the best it can offer. You are cared about and better than what people call you. Self love and worth is a great feeling to have i wish it had found its way to you. Sure i'm some stranger on the internet giving their two sense into it. But i want you to know I at least care about your being and how you are doing.
Can you give me your contacts, I want to talk with you..
why did you copy and paste this bruh
this is copy pasted.
@@costqrica 😂
اصحبي اترجع ديك القناة ن دكتور سبيدي اولا انحمرلك اسفل ظهرك
hello
hi
@@johndipperthesipper1399 hi
Hey
Hi
Schlump Gaming hello
#dr spydy
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make me more hate society
iii
some kinda lil peep?
wtf?
Excuse me?