I really love this: "Go straight to the chocolate!". I've also experienced this extreme hunger when you can't stop eating till you can't breath and feel like a big balloon and you still want more even if you already feel sick. And in my case I didn't decieve myself with safe food first but still it was a feeling like I'll always be eating only all varieties of junk food till the sick of my stomach. Cos I wanted them all at once or in a queue kind of keep them coming. What helped me - I literally told myself that there's nothing to worry about, I assured myself that I would eat that very snack/bar of chocolate/cupcake just right after I felt I had a space in my stomach. It helped me to deal with my mental hunger during my extreme hunger period. Also from my experience - I am a year in recovery - this phase will pass, your stomach will adjust, your mind will adjust. But only if you keep eating and doing brain rewiring.
THIS WAS SO HELPFUL! I'm in recovery, and I've been struggling a lot with extreme mental hunger, eating way past fullness, and extreme guilt after eating so much (especially if it is junk food). I now sort of realize the mistakes I'm making, mostly regarding the "going straight for the chocolate cake" example. My mom has been telling me that it's ok if I just want to eat junk food because my body needs it right now to restore my weight and my relationship with food and hunger, but I never really listened to her. I still wanted to eat my "no sugar" safe foods and fill up on broccoli before deciding I would have some chips, but now I realize that I need to and it's ok to just go straight for the chips. I was worried that I would feel awful after just eating dessert and fatty foods, as by everyone else that would be seen as so unhealthy and really bad for your health, but I think I understand now that my body needs it right now, at least until I repair my relationship with food and my stomach and hunger and everything. Tomorrow I am going to start to eat what I want, and then I'm sure my stomach will start trusting me and my body wont feel the need to eat and eat all of this dessert anymore if it knows that it can any time it wants. I will try to look at it differently since I have been deprived from this food freedom for so long; I'll think of it as making up for all of the time my body went through having to adhere to stupid food rules. I know it will still be hard to get over the guilt of eating so much sugar and fat and whatever, but I will try my best and enjoy it. Who knows? Maybe I really WILL find myself starting to get satisfied quicker since I am not restricting those foods anymore. I'm excited to try again. TOMORROW'S MENU, (a fear food of mine) OREO COOKIES!
THIS IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO True! Thank you for this! I did that this morning, i ate extra fruit to feel 'safe' then I listened to what I really wanted and spread peanut butter all over toast with a banana and syrup! Then i felt soooooooooooo satisfied! It wasn't even too much volume but i felt sooooooooo satisfied, but all morning i was trying to resist having it! ~so silly~ why do we do this to ourselves! Thanks Tabitha!
Today’s my first day of ‘all in’ recovery - finally ‘giving in’ to my extreme hunger. For lunch - I’ve just eaten a cheese panini, a full pick n’ mix, and a full syrup loaf cake w/ ice cream. Belly feels ready to burst & guilty thoughts have arisen - but I cannot express how much this video has helped. Thanks Tabitha!
You're videos help me so much! They calm me down or my anorexic thoughts Eating lots of food always makes me feel so insecure but when I see you talking I realize it's alright and important to do this
so true! it's so much easier if you go for density, both physically and mentally. plus those foods taste better! chocolate and chips are the best for that, I always have some dense foods nearby for when I feel physical discomfort and don't feel like sitting up to eat, I'm actually a sloth asdgjgj
I'm really struggling with this! I had a gastric bypass 20 years ago so I've got a very small stomach so I've got a mechanical restriction going on. As I've hit extreme hunger in my recovery, I'm just having to learn to eat more often and as you are saying, go straight for what I'm really craving.
I just woke up for the first time im recovery..NOT hungry .. first time i can say i am in recovery.. i only had a couple of feasts but my meals are huge and anything..from healthy meals to pizza pasta take away .. i have a chocolate bar, ice cream or anything else at least once a day.. only problem is i cant stop filling myself up with drinks .. i trained my body to be that thirsty over months and months .. i gotta cut this down..next step!
I am in food restriction recovery for 1 month and the extreme hunger lasts EVERYDAY (all the recovery) and i always crave sweets and pastries because I restricted them the most... I was underweight but now i gained quite a lot of fat and weight of cource. I am 14 y.o. athlete and im really scared to gain more fat because of the hunger..Is this normal or should I stop honoring the extreme/mental hunger? + I restricted for only 8 months and i was kinda overtraining, I had to start recovery because I lost my period (still dont have it) and I was feeling really horrible physically and mentally. I dont want to gain more fat because im also scared that it will affect my fitness
What if it's all I ever want to eat? Chocolate, I am satisfied with no less than a 100g block of chocolate, or a cup of chocolate peanuts etc. I also eat peanut butter toast at night, every day. Some days I "restrict" the chocolate and tell myself that peanut butter is enough because it's got that creamy chocolate texture. If it's not enough I eat biscuits. Every few damn day. This is on top of not enough "real" food, but I can't eat real food, it fills my stomach up. Advice?
@梦媛 I mostly do. I eat it until I feel sick. It's not helping. And I think it's causing the deficiencies I have. Every time I eat salad, like a sandwich or something, I get this RUSH that scares the crap out of me. a good rush, the rush youre supposed to get it you're hungry and eat good good/adequate amounts.
@梦媛 These sandwiches where I've noticed the rush are like, egg salad sandwiches. they're a good amount, but obvs I can't take it all it. I'm so sick of it. I know the nutrient dense shit is important. I just want to eat what makes me. feel good and I dont
Tabitha I think you are great but have maybe forgotten just how uncomfortable the feeling is in the moment!!! Attitude is a bit harsh in this video tbh. People are generally emailing you because they feel desperate and panicked. A little more understanding could be helpful. I agree with what you're saying in this video, but sometimes it's just the way that you say it!!!! The feeling of being so full where you can only lie down before you're sick isn't always great, especially if you're trying to carry on with normal life, work, study etc... You can't just lie down all the time, so it is scary!!!
@@katieb5707 yeah I know but I think she's forgotten the discomfort or could be more compassionate as she obviously knows how awful it is!! If I were helping someone deal with it I would just go about it in a more compassionate way than this!!!!
I'm always hungry but I have no appetite so I find it hard to eat since I don't want to but I know I need to eat more to fully recover. I don't really know what to do
What about when mental hunger stops, and you dont feel hungry anymore and dont know what to eat anymore and the thought of food makes you feel sick??? Im at a weird stage Ive had extreme hunger and mental hunger but i filled the deficit so now my body trusts me or something???? But now i just cant be bothered making food or even getting it and i keep forgetting to eat because im not mentally hungry anymore Its scary and weird and i dont want to create another energy deficit
Jenna, Tabitha once said in a previous video that not eating is never ever an option for someone who's had an ed, ever again. Three meals, 3 snacks, or more! Every day and always. It's so so easy for anorexia to sneak back in. Have you seen the channel Hat Will Beat This? She has some great explanations of this too.
Mel L i know that thats why I still eat my 3 meals but for some reason i keep getting full Wheres before I was extremely hunger and i made sure i got every snack and meal available cause I wanted it and mental hunger is so strong Its so weird how the body just suddenly changes, i think maybe my body is trusting to give me physical hunger now instead of mental and extreme So weird, hopefully I feel normal soon and set myself on the next stages of recovery which is intuitvey eating and overcoming fear foods Thanks ❤️
I have bulimia and I restrict a lot by fasting and restricting and purging and binge bcs il starving and even when I have a cheat day I can’t stop eating and. Eating and think about food during eating before eating and after eating even if I ate already. It’s is extrem hunger or just a binge ? It’s a binge in a ways I let myself eat without control like I don’t restrict anything if I want I it I eat it. I don’t want eat fruit or veggie or my safe food during those cheat days. And I feel guilty and sadly purge even during this free day of eating.
I was in the same position a few months ago before i finally decided to take the plunge and eat unrestricted, not just on "cheat days", but all the time. The reason we binge is because we are restricting, because we normally only allow ourselves "safe foods" etc. It can be particularly scary/ hard to believe we could ever eat unrestricted when we have bulimia because we feel so out of control when we binge and we might not be at as low a body weight as someone with anorexia, for example. At first i ate a lot of "junk food" etc., the type of things i normally restricted, and i let myself binge but forced myself to resist purging as that's just another form of restriction and your body and brain aren't going to heal if you let yourself purge. Once my body started trusting that i could have those foods whenever i wanted they lost their elevated status and i started craving a range of different foods, "healthy" and "unhealthy". One of the most important things is removing the judgement we place on food that puts them in these "good" and "bad" categories. I'm by no means completely recovered yet, but i can honestly say I've never had a more normal relationship with food since i just started letting myself eat. I haven't binged in months and i haven't purged in even longer. My weight hasn't changed much as far as i can tell (I've stopped weighing myself) and I've got so much more space in my brain and life for more interesting things than food. Just because our eating disorder has a bingeing component doesn't mean we can't and shouldn't eat unrestricted. Removing restricting will eventually remove bingeing when your body no longer has a reason to do it. I never believed i could eat normally and not be obsessed with food but realising that the restriction was the problem and bingeing the symptom and tackling the restriction has honestly been the only way I've successfully tackled the bingeing. Start being kind to your body, and it will be kind to you! Let yourself eat unconditionally, it's so freeing i promise!
Laura Griffin Thanks you for your answer really everyone talk about anorexia and let bulimia and BED behind. I tried to eat without restriction 4 times already and I couldn’t stop gaining weight and eat and eat and eat I couldn’t stop and I’m obsess with weight loss . I’m almost out of the healthy range like I’m at 24.5 25 of BMI and get down to 19.5 and tried to eat and recover and gain almost all the weight back. How you dealt with bloating inconfortable feeling if fullness the sweating and the fact that even when you eat without restricting you can’t stop think about food is even worse than when I’m restricting. How you did to stop weights yourself ? Even when I wasn’t hungry I couldn’t stop eating like food was I don’t know the lost important thing when I tried to recover the first time I did it for 2 weeks and gain 6kg and after 5 more and lost some and gain 5 more again . I’m sacred to became obese and overweight like I was before my Ed and my first diet and being the fat one again even if I’m still the fat one. I was at 26 of BMI before
@@sarahmartinez322 it takes time for your body to adjust. You're coming from a past of restriction so your body is initially going to want to hold on to every calorie it can because it doesn't know when it's going to get more. I think i did gain some weight at first as well but it seems to have stabilised over time. The binges didn't stop overnight, i had to truly commit to not purging no matter how strong the compulsion was because if i did i would have effectively been restricting, and my body wasn't going to start trusting me again and the bingeing cycle would have continued. The bloating/ sweating are horrible and uncomfortable and i just had to lie down and distrsct myself with tv/ a film or something on some occasions, but it did pass once the bingeing compulsions started to fade. I'm probably at the higher end of the "normal" bmi range as well but one of the biggest challenges I'm working on in recovery is learning to give up that dream of being in a small body, which, when you think about it, is kind of a lame dream. BMI charts and our fat-phobic culture have us believing that there's only one acceptable body type, but we're really not all supposed to look the same. Body diversity is real and healthy. I honestly think that the cultural message that to be healthy you must be in a slim body is one the most insidious forms of female oppression. Learning to accept our bodies and give up on trying to be skinny is so hard because we're bombarded with messages telling us that it should be our primary goal in life. But I'm choosing to opt out of that bullshit. When you're in the depths of an eating disorder it can seem impossible to imagine being okay with your imperfect body, but honestly feeding myself in a sustained way and stopping beating myself up over what i ate really cleared space in my mind for things thay were truly important to me which eventually pushed my obsession with weight loss into the background somewhat. When you commit to recovery you're also committing to giving up on commitment to weight loss if that makes sense. That active choice is really empowering and has helped me develop an identity that i can respect much more than the self-deprecating person i was when i was trying to lose weight/ control my food. I've only been doing this for 6 months or so so i may gain more weight still, but i can honestly say I'd never go back to restriction, i just don't ever want to be that self-hating sad person again. Weight gain can seem like the scariest thing in the world when you're sick, but recovery really puts it into perspective. I've still got a lot of work to do on body image and self-acceptance, but i can accept who i am inside a lot more happily now. I'm just speaking from experience ofc, but i would honestly recommend persevering through the initial weight gain in recovery, and committing to never purging. It sounds terrifying when we've come to rely on it, but you really can't recover if you purge. Not only are you telling your body to hold onto calories, you're also telling your brain thay weight gain is something to be feared which just keeps you trapped in the cycle. Wishing you the best of luck.
It’s definitely NOT worth it now I’m not hungry overweight and still eating this way sure the fuck didn’t work for me can I have a time machine please and go back to being an anorexic with exercise addiction now I’m overweight depressed and never leave the house I’m sloth thank you
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She's always glowing because she eats chocolate cake and ect.. and doesn't stress over it lol stress is awful on the skin.
And enjoy's being with her horses in the fresh air 🤔 ❤️
I really love this: "Go straight to the chocolate!". I've also experienced this extreme hunger when you can't stop eating till you can't breath and feel like a big balloon and you still want more even if you already feel sick. And in my case I didn't decieve myself with safe food first but still it was a feeling like I'll always be eating only all varieties of junk food till the sick of my stomach. Cos I wanted them all at once or in a queue kind of keep them coming. What helped me - I literally told myself that there's nothing to worry about, I assured myself that I would eat that very snack/bar of chocolate/cupcake just right after I felt I had a space in my stomach. It helped me to deal with my mental hunger during my extreme hunger period. Also from my experience - I am a year in recovery - this phase will pass, your stomach will adjust, your mind will adjust. But only if you keep eating and doing brain rewiring.
THIS WAS SO HELPFUL! I'm in recovery, and I've been struggling a lot with extreme mental hunger, eating way past fullness, and extreme guilt after eating so much (especially if it is junk food). I now sort of realize the mistakes I'm making, mostly regarding the "going straight for the chocolate cake" example. My mom has been telling me that it's ok if I just want to eat junk food because my body needs it right now to restore my weight and my relationship with food and hunger, but I never really listened to her. I still wanted to eat my "no sugar" safe foods and fill up on broccoli before deciding I would have some chips, but now I realize that I need to and it's ok to just go straight for the chips. I was worried that I would feel awful after just eating dessert and fatty foods, as by everyone else that would be seen as so unhealthy and really bad for your health, but I think I understand now that my body needs it right now, at least until I repair my relationship with food and my stomach and hunger and everything. Tomorrow I am going to start to eat what I want, and then I'm sure my stomach will start trusting me and my body wont feel the need to eat and eat all of this dessert anymore if it knows that it can any time it wants. I will try to look at it differently since I have been deprived from this food freedom for so long; I'll think of it as making up for all of the time my body went through having to adhere to stupid food rules. I know it will still be hard to get over the guilt of eating so much sugar and fat and whatever, but I will try my best and enjoy it. Who knows? Maybe I really WILL find myself starting to get satisfied quicker since I am not restricting those foods anymore. I'm excited to try again. TOMORROW'S MENU, (a fear food of mine) OREO COOKIES!
THIS IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO True! Thank you for this!
I did that this morning, i ate extra fruit to feel 'safe' then I listened to what I really wanted and spread peanut butter all over toast with a banana and syrup! Then i felt soooooooooooo satisfied! It wasn't even too much volume but i felt sooooooooo satisfied, but all morning i was trying to resist having it! ~so silly~ why do we do this to ourselves!
Thanks Tabitha!
Today’s my first day of ‘all in’ recovery - finally ‘giving in’ to my extreme hunger.
For lunch - I’ve just eaten a cheese panini, a full pick n’ mix, and a full syrup loaf cake w/ ice cream.
Belly feels ready to burst & guilty thoughts have arisen - but I cannot express how much this video has helped. Thanks Tabitha!
Hey Joshua ! How are you doing today ?
hope you're doing well now, Joshua 💗
You're videos help me so much! They calm me down or my anorexic thoughts
Eating lots of food always makes me feel so insecure but when I see you talking I realize it's alright and important to do this
so true! it's so much easier if you go for density, both physically and mentally. plus those foods taste better! chocolate and chips are the best for that, I always have some dense foods nearby for when I feel physical discomfort and don't feel like sitting up to eat, I'm actually a sloth asdgjgj
wow was just looking for this exact answer. i thought it would be this... recovery is scary! but i guess i have to keep going, ive come so far already
I'm really struggling with this! I had a gastric bypass 20 years ago so I've got a very small stomach so I've got a mechanical restriction going on. As I've hit extreme hunger in my recovery, I'm just having to learn to eat more often and as you are saying, go straight for what I'm really craving.
So very true!! Love this. And love the sloth. 🥰
I just woke up for the first time im recovery..NOT hungry .. first time i can say i am in recovery.. i only had a couple of feasts but my meals are huge and anything..from healthy meals to pizza pasta take away .. i have a chocolate bar, ice cream or anything else at least once a day.. only problem is i cant stop filling myself up with drinks .. i trained my body to be that thirsty over months and months .. i gotta cut this down..next step!
I needed this video, thank you!
Thank you sooo much for this video this is literally my situation!!
This has been amazing ! This has helped me so much x
I adore the Sloth mascot! What's his name?
I am in food restriction recovery for 1 month and the extreme hunger lasts EVERYDAY (all the recovery) and i always crave sweets and pastries because I restricted them the most... I was underweight but now i gained quite a lot of fat and weight of cource. I am 14 y.o. athlete and im really scared to gain more fat because of the hunger..Is this normal or should I stop honoring the extreme/mental hunger? + I restricted for only 8 months and i was kinda overtraining, I had to start recovery because I lost my period (still dont have it) and I was feeling really horrible physically and mentally. I dont want to gain more fat because im also scared that it will affect my fitness
This is me everyday. I am terrified
Me too Sara, you aren't alone.
What if it's all I ever want to eat? Chocolate, I am satisfied with no less than a 100g block of chocolate, or a cup of chocolate peanuts etc. I also eat peanut butter toast at night, every day. Some days I "restrict" the chocolate and tell myself that peanut butter is enough because it's got that creamy chocolate texture. If it's not enough I eat biscuits. Every few damn day.
This is on top of not enough "real" food, but I can't eat real food, it fills my stomach up. Advice?
@梦媛 I mostly do. I eat it until I feel sick. It's not helping. And I think it's causing the deficiencies I have.
Every time I eat salad, like a sandwich or something, I get this RUSH that scares the crap out of me. a good rush, the rush youre supposed to get it you're hungry and eat good good/adequate amounts.
@梦媛 These sandwiches where I've noticed the rush are like, egg salad sandwiches. they're a good amount, but obvs I can't take it all it. I'm so sick of it. I know the nutrient dense shit is important. I just want to eat what makes me. feel good and I dont
How are you now???
*goes to the kitchen to bake chocolate cake*
The sloth is so cute?😍
What's his name?
I recommend the name paddy😂
Tabitha I think you are great but have maybe forgotten just how uncomfortable the feeling is in the moment!!! Attitude is a bit harsh in this video tbh. People are generally emailing you because they feel desperate and panicked. A little more understanding could be helpful. I agree with what you're saying in this video, but sometimes it's just the way that you say it!!!! The feeling of being so full where you can only lie down before you're sick isn't always great, especially if you're trying to carry on with normal life, work, study etc... You can't just lie down all the time, so it is scary!!!
Harmonyhope She experienced it too that's why she vám seems so harsh, she knows ED lies and excuses.
@@katieb5707 yeah I know but I think she's forgotten the discomfort or could be more compassionate as she obviously knows how awful it is!! If I were helping someone deal with it I would just go about it in a more compassionate way than this!!!!
I'm always hungry but I have no appetite so I find it hard to eat since I don't want to but I know I need to eat more to fully recover. I don't really know what to do
What to do is eat anyways. Anorexia is a demented liar and convinces us we have no appetite. Eat everything and your appetite will awaken.
EAT!
What about when mental hunger stops, and you dont feel hungry anymore and dont know what to eat anymore and the thought of food makes you feel sick??? Im at a weird stage
Ive had extreme hunger and mental hunger but i filled the deficit so now my body trusts me or something???? But now i just cant be bothered making food or even getting it and i keep forgetting to eat because im not mentally hungry anymore
Its scary and weird and i dont want to create another energy deficit
Jenna, Tabitha once said in a previous video that not eating is never ever an option for someone who's had an ed, ever again. Three meals, 3 snacks, or more! Every day and always. It's so so easy for anorexia to sneak back in. Have you seen the channel Hat Will Beat This? She has some great explanations of this too.
Mel L i know that thats why I still eat my 3 meals but for some reason i keep getting full
Wheres before I was extremely hunger and i made sure i got every snack and meal available cause I wanted it and mental hunger is so strong
Its so weird how the body just suddenly changes, i think maybe my body is trusting to give me physical hunger now instead of mental and extreme
So weird, hopefully I feel normal soon and set myself on the next stages of recovery which is intuitvey eating and overcoming fear foods
Thanks ❤️
I love Hat!!!
@@Jenna-hr5inhow are you now
I have bulimia and I restrict a lot by fasting and restricting and purging and binge bcs il starving and even when I have a cheat day I can’t stop eating and. Eating and think about food during eating before eating and after eating even if I ate already. It’s is extrem hunger or just a binge ? It’s a binge in a ways I let myself eat without control like I don’t restrict anything if I want I it I eat it. I don’t want eat fruit or veggie or my safe food during those cheat days. And I feel guilty and sadly purge even during this free day of eating.
I was in the same position a few months ago before i finally decided to take the plunge and eat unrestricted, not just on "cheat days", but all the time. The reason we binge is because we are restricting, because we normally only allow ourselves "safe foods" etc. It can be particularly scary/ hard to believe we could ever eat unrestricted when we have bulimia because we feel so out of control when we binge and we might not be at as low a body weight as someone with anorexia, for example. At first i ate a lot of "junk food" etc., the type of things i normally restricted, and i let myself binge but forced myself to resist purging as that's just another form of restriction and your body and brain aren't going to heal if you let yourself purge. Once my body started trusting that i could have those foods whenever i wanted they lost their elevated status and i started craving a range of different foods, "healthy" and "unhealthy". One of the most important things is removing the judgement we place on food that puts them in these "good" and "bad" categories. I'm by no means completely recovered yet, but i can honestly say I've never had a more normal relationship with food since i just started letting myself eat. I haven't binged in months and i haven't purged in even longer. My weight hasn't changed much as far as i can tell (I've stopped weighing myself) and I've got so much more space in my brain and life for more interesting things than food. Just because our eating disorder has a bingeing component doesn't mean we can't and shouldn't eat unrestricted. Removing restricting will eventually remove bingeing when your body no longer has a reason to do it. I never believed i could eat normally and not be obsessed with food but realising that the restriction was the problem and bingeing the symptom and tackling the restriction has honestly been the only way I've successfully tackled the bingeing. Start being kind to your body, and it will be kind to you! Let yourself eat unconditionally, it's so freeing i promise!
Laura Griffin Thanks you for your answer really everyone talk about anorexia and let bulimia and BED behind.
I tried to eat without restriction 4 times already and I couldn’t stop gaining weight and eat and eat and eat I couldn’t stop and I’m obsess with weight loss . I’m almost out of the healthy range like I’m at 24.5 25 of BMI and get down to 19.5 and tried to eat and recover and gain almost all the weight back.
How you dealt with bloating inconfortable feeling if fullness the sweating and the fact that even when you eat without restricting you can’t stop think about food is even worse than when I’m restricting. How you did to stop weights yourself ? Even when I wasn’t hungry I couldn’t stop eating like food was I don’t know the lost important thing when I tried to recover the first time I did it for 2 weeks and gain 6kg and after 5 more and lost some and gain 5 more again . I’m sacred to became obese and overweight like I was before my Ed and my first diet and being the fat one again even if I’m still the fat one. I was at 26 of BMI before
@@sarahmartinez322 it takes time for your body to adjust. You're coming from a past of restriction so your body is initially going to want to hold on to every calorie it can because it doesn't know when it's going to get more. I think i did gain some weight at first as well but it seems to have stabilised over time. The binges didn't stop overnight, i had to truly commit to not purging no matter how strong the compulsion was because if i did i would have effectively been restricting, and my body wasn't going to start trusting me again and the bingeing cycle would have continued. The bloating/ sweating are horrible and uncomfortable and i just had to lie down and distrsct myself with tv/ a film or something on some occasions, but it did pass once the bingeing compulsions started to fade. I'm probably at the higher end of the "normal" bmi range as well but one of the biggest challenges I'm working on in recovery is learning to give up that dream of being in a small body, which, when you think about it, is kind of a lame dream. BMI charts and our fat-phobic culture have us believing that there's only one acceptable body type, but we're really not all supposed to look the same. Body diversity is real and healthy. I honestly think that the cultural message that to be healthy you must be in a slim body is one the most insidious forms of female oppression. Learning to accept our bodies and give up on trying to be skinny is so hard because we're bombarded with messages telling us that it should be our primary goal in life. But I'm choosing to opt out of that bullshit. When you're in the depths of an eating disorder it can seem impossible to imagine being okay with your imperfect body, but honestly feeding myself in a sustained way and stopping beating myself up over what i ate really cleared space in my mind for things thay were truly important to me which eventually pushed my obsession with weight loss into the background somewhat. When you commit to recovery you're also committing to giving up on commitment to weight loss if that makes sense. That active choice is really empowering and has helped me develop an identity that i can respect much more than the self-deprecating person i was when i was trying to lose weight/ control my food. I've only been doing this for 6 months or so so i may gain more weight still, but i can honestly say I'd never go back to restriction, i just don't ever want to be that self-hating sad person again. Weight gain can seem like the scariest thing in the world when you're sick, but recovery really puts it into perspective. I've still got a lot of work to do on body image and self-acceptance, but i can accept who i am inside a lot more happily now. I'm just speaking from experience ofc, but i would honestly recommend persevering through the initial weight gain in recovery, and committing to never purging. It sounds terrifying when we've come to rely on it, but you really can't recover if you purge. Not only are you telling your body to hold onto calories, you're also telling your brain thay weight gain is something to be feared which just keeps you trapped in the cycle. Wishing you the best of luck.
It’s definitely NOT worth it now I’m not hungry overweight and still eating this way sure the fuck didn’t work for me can I have a time machine please and go back to being an anorexic with exercise addiction now I’m overweight depressed and never leave the house I’m sloth thank you
That was always my concern how is it now for you
Wait what.
How are u now?