@@avorioner104 one day you will look back and see how strong you were for all these years… I don’t know if it means anything or if it helps but some people are destined to be strong even when we feel weak at times, the reason we survive is the power within ourselfs. I’m not saying that some people have it easy, no but some just have it extra hard. Every great Mountain has more snow on it than smaller ones and we get just the amount of snow that in some way we can handle. It’s been some days but happy birthday 💕
my memory has been getting worse and its scaring me. I used to forget entire days, and have no recollection of the day before -- now school started so that hasn't happened again, and I'm glad. It's scary.
this song is hitting hard, reminds me of my childhood and my friend who passed away two months ago after his birth day, we are both from a country in bad conditions but i got to escaped with my mom and brothers, the last time we talked he told me he was coming to the country i was living and then we would go to a arcade and eat pizza for my birthday but he died a month later and i couldn't say good bye to him
This is the feeling you get leaving a hangout with your friends, knowing that at a point it won’t feel the same or that you may not even remember how hard they make you laugh, how happy they make you feel, and how much they cared.
holy shit. This was my favourite song about a year ago and i forgot all about it, tried every way to find it and now i come across it, i couldn't be happier.
@@adrienneczerni6516 i know it hurts but therapy is a safe space, here you have the opportunity to learn how to deal with yourself, you have to be present and vulnerable even when you feel like you don’t wanna do that or anything anymore because you need you to take care of you and believe on yourself and your capacity to heal and that’s on you. so be strong for yourself i am proud of you
Childhood Trauma. Some of us had it, some of us didn't. It's important we are there for everyone regardless. Be safe out there everybody. Don't let your past get to you. Be strong.
just going to write out my recovery process :) it's still hard. been about three months out of the psych ward. nightmares don't come around that much anymore, but i'm not sitting well with going back to class. i hate being touched in any kind of way, being brushed against, my personal space being invaded, but its kind of impossible in a cramped little school hallway. there are nights when it isn't easy, and i cry until i can't breathe anymore, but there are also days where i take a deep breath and realize how far i've come, and how i could've missed all the things i enjoy. drawing the butterflies that visit me by the pond, or kisses from my lover. it's hard, but i'm trying, and there are things i really wanna live for now. i hope things get better if they aren't doing well on your end. it might sound overused, but really, there are so, so many reasons to keep going. the feel of warm sun on your skin, or cold air on a fall morning, or the crunch of leaves under your feet while you walk through the woods. it's the little things. the world was made for you. smile for us, you lovely thing, and don't give up just yet. you're doing so great, and we're all so proud. we love you!
i don't remember much from december-march of this year. i had blocked most of it out but today as i was going through my old google docs i found my suicide letter. i remembered my attempt and a ton of memories came back. and i realized i hadn't gotten better, but school had stopped. school starts again tommorow and im scared that my depression will become much worse again. i dont want to fall back down that hole i tried so hard to get out of.
@@whoknows6226 honestly it was during online school, i was really cutting it close tbh and then we switched to half online/ half in real life. i made a few friends and honestly it really helped me a lot. plus the teachers started assigning less work. its hard to explain in words lol. there was also a lot of other little things that happened but I’m pretty sure it was the switch from online to real school that helped me the most because school was the original cause of my bad feelings. im doing completely fine now though :))
man i miss my friends, i thought school would be better now that it’s in person but they assign so much fucking work every day it’s really taking a toll on me. for me it’s my 3rd week of school. as dumb as this sounds i just want to be happy
For a good amount of time, I lost my sense of time. I couldn't remember when something happened, why it happened, and if it happened for real or was it just my imagination. I felt numb and faded from reality, almost like floating in space but choking on my blood because there isn't any oxygen left for me to breathe. Timeless, endless, confusing, and no direction to go rather than floating. Thankfully, this condition no longer affects me, but it felt horrible and terrifying when it did.
Idk what happened but, since the day my friend moved away I’ve been feeling sad every day. And the worst part was that he was also my neighbour. And I would always look at a specific item that was sitting in the window. Because then I would know if they moved away
I'm such a disappointment to my parents. I wish one day I'll make it up to them. I'm so sorry :( All i want is a hug and be told that ill be okay :( I want to feel happy and feel free. I wanna be happy. Therapy doesn't help :(
Makes me remember school. Today i was looking through my youtube likes on my school account, it hit me like a freight train that this is my last year of school. I was so sad as i remembered all those happy times. My time at school is coming to an end, i can barely comprehend that. My parents look much older from 4 years ago. I miss my old self when i wasn't worried about life. All those teachers i had known who had left and the ones who stayed, they all seem so older now. It's sad and it scares me
I just wanted to say this. I'm going to play the game OMORI. I just wanted to know how it's represented. I've gone through most of the horrible emotions and feelings. I wanna feel okay and I feel like its going to help.
i dreamt of him all the time, we lost contact and i didn’t have photos;; when the dreams stopped id never felt more alone, to this day i still don’t dream as vividly as i did whenever i dreamt about him
TW derealization I think. Depression, lots of no. Sorry if this upsets you- I think I’ve lost my sense of reality I stay in the headset more than I do in real life All my friends are in a screen I can’t trust anyone anymore I can trust everyone, they love me! Their going to use me like __ did Why can’t I be happy? It’s her fault It’s his fault It’s their fault No it’s not They did nothing wrong It’s my fault No No No No No No NO NO NO not again. I can’t spiral into this again. I’m gonna end up like before. Not again. Never. Again.
@@vaskehus2078 thank you. also trigger warning: homophobia, suicidal thoughts and self harm ⚠️ anyways. this song reminds me of all the happy times I had with an old friend when I was 12. I had a huge crush on her, which I knew was against the rules of my school. They probably would have brushed it off if I was a boy though. I remember she loved animals, especially goats, and got me gifts a lot. One time she got me an avocado shaped enamel pin, and I wore it to school every day until it broke. I still remember, almost 3 years later, how much I loved her. I hated myself for it, too. It physically pained me and made me sick to my stomach to know that she didn’t love me back. We were just friends. One day, being the stupid lovesick girl I was back then, I passed a note to her during math class. It said “Date me?” With 2 boxes, one that said “Yes” and one that said “No.” …yes I know I was an idiot. She didn’t write back until I asked her to, and she wrote “Bff” underneath the boxes. Things only went downhill from there. Apparently she told the teacher, and her mom. They told my mom, and the principal. I promise I’ll write a bit more tomorrow. I’m tired
also if anyone has a moment pls check out my band !!
we’re called beachtown :)
Okay
Did you write home, runaway because I love that song
@@kutsyni yea we did🥲
I listen to your song damn y'all are really underrated 😫home , runaway that shi slaps i hope you become big one day keep up the good work mate
this feels like being sad on your birthday
my whole birthmonth is filled with bad memories
I was.... I was 18 yesterday. I cried whole night .. because no one remembered
@@avorioner104 one day you will look back and see how strong you were for all these years… I don’t know if it means anything or if it helps but some people are destined to be strong even when we feel weak at times, the reason we survive is the power within ourselfs. I’m not saying that some people have it easy, no but some just have it extra hard. Every great Mountain has more snow on it than smaller ones and we get just the amount of snow that in some way we can handle. It’s been some days but happy birthday 💕
@@alexruss3004 thank you dude i really appreciate it
That's a whole mood..-
I was only 8. This Song reminds me of my childhood before everything got horrible.
hope ur ok :/
Me getting horrible now im 32 i wanna die
Damn I'm Honestly So Sorry
@@tselmegsaruul life will get better, trust :)
@@tselmegsaruul keep going brother, keep going, you're not the only who's suffering rn. hope your life will get better
this song is so addictive. sad and comforting at the same time
my memory has been getting worse and its scaring me. I used to forget entire days, and have no recollection of the day before -- now school started so that hasn't happened again, and I'm glad. It's scary.
@@whoknows6226 thank you, that honestly puts me at ease a little more, knowing I'm not going crazy-
@@whoknows6226 Possibly, yeah :)
@@whoknows6226 Sadly not anymore-
My memory is getting bad as well.
@@whoknows6226 Very solid advice that I will definitely try to take. It’s a struggle with solid mental health issues.
Music isn’t just for fun anymore- it’s an escape
this feels nostalgic for some reason.
reminds me of a room that looks like home, but doesn’t feel like it
Are you ok?
Are you okay..? :(
This song is the audio version of what being numb feels like. I love it.
"I think growing up is fun"
this song is hitting hard, reminds me of my childhood and my friend who passed away two months ago after his birth day, we are both from a country in bad conditions but i got to escaped with my mom and brothers, the last time we talked he told me he was coming to the country i was living and then we would go to a arcade and eat pizza for my birthday but he died a month later and i couldn't say good bye to him
@Mythical Moonlight thanks bro it means a lot
I'm Honestly So Sorry 🙏🙏
I'm so sorry I hope you heal
This is the feeling you get leaving a hangout with your friends, knowing that at a point it won’t feel the same or that you may not even remember how hard they make you laugh, how happy they make you feel, and how much they cared.
some songs help me let out all the stress and emotions i hold inside bc i dont know how to express them, this is one of them
holy shit. This was my favourite song about a year ago and i forgot all about it, tried every way to find it and now i come across it, i couldn't be happier.
Now a days sadness has become kind of a drug for me, i feel comfortable and calm when sad, idk how to explain but sadness brings calmness for me.
it feels like there's nothing left to do anymore
this sounds like floating in an endless void and I love it pls lng
You never know what’s somebody is truly going through.
i kinda feel bad for my youngerself
I was thinking the same way
same
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Facts dude. I can only be proud of being sober and growing today can't stay wrapped up in trauma.
this feels like trying to comfort yourself during a thunderstorm
This song feels like the morning after an attempt
That moment of the movie makes me cry,i don't know why :(
@@whoknows6226 My Neighbor Totoro
It’s a pretty sweet and lighthearted movie :]
Driving back from failed conversion therapy type beat
that’s exactly how it sounds
+ it’s raining while you’re driving
@@LilNeenerMcWomanRaypist I mean it's kinda never supposed to work it's just all fake
wish you the best bro
@@adrienneczerni6516 i know it hurts but therapy is a safe space, here you have the opportunity to learn how to deal with yourself, you have to be present and vulnerable even when you feel like you don’t wanna do that or anything anymore because you need you to take care of you and believe on yourself and your capacity to heal and that’s on you. so be strong for yourself i am proud of you
I'm Honestly So Sorry
Childhood Trauma. Some of us had it, some of us didn't. It's important we are there for everyone regardless. Be safe out there everybody. Don't let your past get to you. Be strong.
just going to write out my recovery process :)
it's still hard. been about three months out of the psych ward. nightmares don't come around that much anymore, but i'm not sitting well with going back to class. i hate being touched in any kind of way, being brushed against, my personal space being invaded, but its kind of impossible in a cramped little school hallway. there are nights when it isn't easy, and i cry until i can't breathe anymore, but there are also days where i take a deep breath and realize how far i've come, and how i could've missed all the things i enjoy. drawing the butterflies that visit me by the pond, or kisses from my lover. it's hard, but i'm trying, and there are things i really wanna live for now.
i hope things get better if they aren't doing well on your end. it might sound overused, but really, there are so, so many reasons to keep going. the feel of warm sun on your skin, or cold air on a fall morning, or the crunch of leaves under your feet while you walk through the woods. it's the little things. the world was made for you. smile for us, you lovely thing, and don't give up just yet. you're doing so great, and we're all so proud. we love you!
I’m so proud of you.
i don't remember much from december-march of this year. i had blocked most of it out but today as i was going through my old google docs i found my suicide letter. i remembered my attempt and a ton of memories came back. and i realized i hadn't gotten better, but school had stopped. school starts again tommorow and im scared that my depression will become much worse again. i dont want to fall back down that hole i tried so hard to get out of.
i was literally going to kill myself at that exact same time period..
@@whoknows6226 honestly it was during online school, i was really cutting it close tbh and then we switched to half online/ half in real life. i made a few friends and honestly it really helped me a lot. plus the teachers started assigning less work. its hard to explain in words lol. there was also a lot of other little things that happened but I’m pretty sure it was the switch from online to real school that helped me the most because school was the original cause of my bad feelings. im doing completely fine now though :))
I felt exactly like this up until I attempted, haven’t been back to school since for I think it’s been 4 weeks
@@whoknows6226 I can actually truthfully say nothing, but I’m making a bit of progress
Sometimes it feels like nothings changed
"I wish I was older!"
now I wish I was younger 🙁
This song make my chest hurt, this song makes me think of all the things I need to fix and try to make right, knowing that I’m to cowardly to do so..
I miss my younger self. I want to meet her again.
this song reminds me of the beautiful times ive had, its funny to me how horrible those people are now who were my comfort people back then.
man i miss my friends, i thought school would be better now that it’s in person but they assign so much fucking work every day it’s really taking a toll on me. for me it’s my 3rd week of school. as dumb as this sounds i just want to be happy
When you having the best day but one thing ruins it all...
this song gives me hella chills man🧎♂️
Close your eyes and think about your child hood those lost family and friends made wow
For a good amount of time, I lost my sense of time. I couldn't remember when something happened, why it happened, and if it happened for real or was it just my imagination. I felt numb and faded from reality, almost like floating in space but choking on my blood because there isn't any oxygen left for me to breathe. Timeless, endless, confusing, and no direction to go rather than floating. Thankfully, this condition no longer affects me, but it felt horrible and terrifying when it did.
This song is what it feels like to relapse and realize what you just did.
Real (every day is the same 😂 😂)
3 yrs without her. 3 yrs down forever to go 😞
nostalgia is a different kind of pain
How do I do this anymore
I feel dead upon the floor
I don't know what mourne for anymore
Just feel rotten to the core
How can I care anymore
Hold on...Hold on! It will come!
feels like when everything is wrong but you can't do anything about it
the thumbnail for this is so fucking funny to me why am I like this
little kids falling is hilarious
it really is
This song made me talk shit abt me
Idk what happened but, since the day my friend moved away I’ve been feeling sad every day. And the worst part was that he was also my neighbour. And I would always look at a specific item that was sitting in the window. Because then I would know if they moved away
I'm such a disappointment to my parents. I wish one day I'll make it up to them. I'm so sorry :(
All i want is a hug and be told that ill be okay :( I want to feel happy and feel free. I wanna be happy. Therapy doesn't help :(
Makes me remember school. Today i was looking through my youtube likes on my school account, it hit me like a freight train that this is my last year of school. I was so sad as i remembered all those happy times. My time at school is coming to an end, i can barely comprehend that. My parents look much older from 4 years ago. I miss my old self when i wasn't worried about life. All those teachers i had known who had left and the ones who stayed, they all seem so older now. It's sad and it scares me
How.. Relaxing...
I can't be depressed because I have no point to, people have it worse off than I ever will and I still hate myself.
But for what reason?
@@whoknows6226 thanks
i was 5 years old. it's not fair.
I was 6, you're not alone :/
I was 13, she didn't have to do it
I was 4, love you.
I just wanted to say this.
I'm going to play the game OMORI. I just wanted to know how it's represented. I've gone through most of the horrible emotions and feelings. I wanna feel okay and I feel like its going to help.
When this song plays, it makes me realize that I at least once existed in my actual but distant old friends’ lives.
Me when the ptsd comes back
Ow that kinda hurt
i dreamt of him all the time, we lost contact and i didn’t have photos;; when the dreams stopped id never felt more alone, to this day i still don’t dream as vividly as i did whenever i dreamt about him
Why can't i cry?
Smthng is wrong with my brain
Cry, just cry pls the song is sad 🥲
I don't think I'm gonna make it to 2025 guys.
aaawww poor may☹️☹️
Walking home,
But we’re not walking,
I’m just walking alone.
That character is from my neighbor totoro produced from studio ghibli of
You haven’t watched it it can touch your heart I really reccomend watching it
what songs do u want me to slow down?
space song?
yeah i dont really want help anymore. its already messed up enough.
I didn’t get a childhood or no loving parents
I just wanted to be all grown up but all I want is to be a kid again.
TW derealization I think. Depression, lots of no. Sorry if this upsets you-
I think I’ve lost my sense of reality
I stay in the headset more than I do in real life
All my friends are in a screen
I can’t trust anyone anymore
I can trust everyone, they love me!
Their going to use me like __ did
Why can’t I be happy?
It’s her fault
It’s his fault
It’s their fault
No it’s not
They did nothing wrong
It’s my fault
No
No
No
No
No
No
NO
NO
NO
not again. I can’t spiral into this again. I’m gonna end up like before. Not again. Never. Again.
i was only 7 I just wanna escape from this world like disappear from this world
we used to laugh at emos and what they listened to and now we are emos
Is it okay if I vent a little bit.?
I think so.
ofc!!
@@vaskehus2078 thank you. also trigger warning: homophobia, suicidal thoughts and self harm ⚠️ anyways. this song reminds me of all the happy times I had with an old friend when I was 12. I had a huge crush on her, which I knew was against the rules of my school. They probably would have brushed it off if I was a boy though. I remember she loved animals, especially goats, and got me gifts a lot. One time she got me an avocado shaped enamel pin, and I wore it to school every day until it broke. I still remember, almost 3 years later, how much I loved her. I hated myself for it, too. It physically pained me and made me sick to my stomach to know that she didn’t love me back. We were just friends.
One day, being the stupid lovesick girl I was back then, I passed a note to her during math class. It said “Date me?” With 2 boxes, one that said “Yes” and one that said “No.” …yes I know I was an idiot. She didn’t write back until I asked her to, and she wrote “Bff” underneath the boxes.
Things only went downhill from there. Apparently she told the teacher, and her mom. They told my mom, and the principal.
I promise I’ll write a bit more tomorrow. I’m tired
@@gonebatty7708 you ok there bro?
@@Mau_rice_0 yeah I just forgot abt the comment, aha.
i dont want to be alive.
This makes me hate growing up
Tf is Luffy doing
86
..
exactly
This song smells like hand sanitizer or spray paint
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