KA$H'D UP PODCAST - S01E03 - GROWING UP (FATHER'S ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP)

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  • Опубликовано: 24 ноя 2024

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  • @yourummayscuz8521
    @yourummayscuz8521 3 года назад +330

    Takes a real one to open up like that on a public platform. Mad respect brother🙌🏽

    • @BornAHawkEye
      @BornAHawkEye 3 года назад +7

      Good for everyone.... 🖤

    • @mamaknowsbestxokthankxbye9606
      @mamaknowsbestxokthankxbye9606 3 года назад +1

      Facts ! Childhood trauma hits u different as when your older your coping mechanisms can either make u or break u an he still standing an tellin his story! The only way to stay sane is to look back an laugh at the pain an be greatful that you have come through it all alive ! Respect is a understatement! Straight OUT ! 💯🙏

    • @christiandaxton6285
      @christiandaxton6285 3 года назад

      i know I'm kinda randomly asking but do anybody know of a good site to stream newly released tv shows online?

    • @akuworks7375
      @akuworks7375 3 года назад

      facts

  • @desiredrapfilms
    @desiredrapfilms 3 года назад +248

    I can hear pain in kashs voice here real talk 👑

    • @kalebchase2916
      @kalebchase2916 3 года назад +4

      He’s talking shit haha do u really believe this

    • @desiredrapfilms
      @desiredrapfilms 3 года назад +7

      @@kalebchase2916 your a jealous hater go do something will your life that makes you happy

    • @kalebchase2916
      @kalebchase2916 3 года назад +1

      @@desiredrapfilms do u really think his dad knocked him out outside his school when he was 5 years old? Hahaha do u really think that’s true?

    • @desiredrapfilms
      @desiredrapfilms 3 года назад +9

      @@kalebchase2916 take some time off whatever your doing man and buy a dog or something and experience life a bit better than smoking crack eveyday

    • @kalebchase2916
      @kalebchase2916 3 года назад +1

      @@desiredrapfilms haha don’t take it overboard bro ur sitting here reply to me aswell your just as worse

  • @saifsaif5218
    @saifsaif5218 3 года назад +28

    My dad was the same.. it’s funny that they “change” when they’re old & frail & the son is big enough to check him.. tonne of respect to kash the man has a heart of gold.

  • @robertharris9894
    @robertharris9894 3 года назад +129

    Fuck that’s a heavy child hood
    Bro,good on you for speaking out now to help other kids bro 👍

  • @eetswa_leaks8902
    @eetswa_leaks8902 3 года назад +158

    Shows that most gangsters or criminals become who they are due to their childhood and experiences growing up.. Happy that you made it this far big kash 💯🙏

    • @aventidblechchlatechipfrap7465
      @aventidblechchlatechipfrap7465 3 года назад +8

      There are no gangsters in australia, only gansters that were exported from someplace else, some other country's. but there are none here.
      as long as you bathe in drinkable water daily, and your neighbor has a apple tree that they don't even cultivate. there will never be gangsters.
      that's why the crime-rate here is sustainable. in comparison with mexico or south america that has more murders than in warzones

    • @eetswa_leaks8902
      @eetswa_leaks8902 3 года назад +21

      @@aventidblechchlatechipfrap7465 Fmd anddd the fuck wit of the year award goes tooo.....🤦‍♂️😂.
      The definition of a gangster is here: A gangster is a member of a group full of criminals. It's that simple mate🥴

    • @aventidblechchlatechipfrap7465
      @aventidblechchlatechipfrap7465 3 года назад +3

      ​@@eetswa_leaks8902 Noone asked for the definition??? and it sure doesn't apply for any of these wanabees in australia (Lol), bruh you need to find better rolemodels, and not just some rando podcast on youtube to get emotional over i guess? 🙃kinda sad tbh

    • @eetswa_leaks8902
      @eetswa_leaks8902 3 года назад +12

      ​@@aventidblechchlatechipfrap7465 You literally tried to define "gangster in your paragraph u sent before, that's why I sent a proper definition you smart ass😴.
      "find better rolemodels...not rando yt" blah blah
      lol who said i look upto these guys? how am I getting emotional over this? fmd you're making yourself look like a clown lmao

    • @fogniksedaps259
      @fogniksedaps259 3 года назад +10

      @@aventidblechchlatechipfrap7465 you are insecure mate ya need to illchay...tryna define what a gangster is 😂😂 and then bringing up Mexico...no one gives a fk about Mexico lad

  • @rogerdavid6814
    @rogerdavid6814 3 года назад +12

    Props to the islander mums, they carry a heavy load. Very strong mothers!

  • @thelesson927
    @thelesson927 3 года назад +75

    Takes a lot to open up in the face of everyone, big respect Kash

  • @saifsaif5218
    @saifsaif5218 3 года назад +20

    Imagine the kids that where never shown any love from Mum or dad.. to all the mums out there with golden hearts what would this world be without you’s.. ❤️

  • @RomTheLegend
    @RomTheLegend 3 года назад +49

    Faaaaark this is bringing back so many memories from my past...fully agree with the whole “no voice” thing and then mental health issues coming later on in life... 😩

  • @Daniel26448
    @Daniel26448 3 года назад +72

    Poor bloke went through hell as a kid.

  • @theworthwhile
    @theworthwhile 3 года назад +8

    Showing your audience the importance of talking about these issues (be it public or private) is commendable Kash. This can literally save lives. Huge respect for having the strength to set this example.

  • @NexusVirtusMedia
    @NexusVirtusMedia 3 месяца назад +3

    It’s a tragedy this Podcast didn’t continue, would have been Australia’s best. Great chemistry

    • @BIGKashdr
      @BIGKashdr  3 месяца назад +1

      It’s back in 2 weeks

  • @shemevans5472
    @shemevans5472 3 года назад +23

    Too much of this in our Maori/Pacific society... in my 40's and it still impacts me now severely... Nga Mihi BK for the real talk...

  • @princemusky
    @princemusky 3 года назад +65

    Kash is a very intelligent dude. Imagine the life he could of had given a good upbringing and education. So much potential, way to smart to be a crook

    • @mintislad3900
      @mintislad3900 3 года назад +1

      Sadly bro most his smarts came from the streets I guess ay he had notin else it seems

    • @mintislad3900
      @mintislad3900 3 года назад +1

      He’s a real digger but got respect

  • @sportsbesthighlights3630
    @sportsbesthighlights3630 3 года назад +24

    Thanks for sharing this brother. Our people need to open up more about this stuff. So much respect for you after watching this

  • @MrAnderson3
    @MrAnderson3 3 года назад +14

    Love the chemistry from these 2😂not getting upset at each other and taking the piss, hope to see more boys

  • @WestAuccland
    @WestAuccland 3 года назад +34

    Sorry for what you went through bro , but what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger !! You’re a soldier brother !
    Ofa Atu 🙌🏽

  • @donskyhavana1807
    @donskyhavana1807 3 года назад +30

    This podcast is revolutionary, you should definitely make a career on talking on your shortcomings

  • @Jimbobz123
    @Jimbobz123 3 года назад +49

    Fucking hell shocking to hear about all this with Kash. Hope he finds peace. Makes me so angry hearing what his father did.

  • @BornAHawkEye
    @BornAHawkEye 3 года назад +39

    Ace is Cheeky but it's hilarious to see how Kash deals with it cuz Ace just violates sometimes😂

  • @teetiatia737
    @teetiatia737 3 года назад +7

    bro honestly all the best with the talk wit yo dad praying for ya both uso. only God can do the impossible ❤️

  • @drazendrazic4580
    @drazendrazic4580 3 года назад +4

    Big credit spreading awareness about mental health issues; anxiety, panic attacks etc.

  • @HalfKast1981
    @HalfKast1981 3 года назад +16

    Big props for speaking up publicly my man, you’re going to change a lot of lives (including your own) positively and start some serious healing for many people with this podcast - big respect my man 👍🏻👍🏻. Taking life from negative to positive and itzzzzz all gooood 🤜🏽🤛🏻. The man 👍🏻👍🏻

  • @tupou9303
    @tupou9303 3 года назад +6

    This is deffs a polynesian thing man. I remember my parents use to fight heaps when i was young. Same thing my dad use to be a alcoholic. I still remember when i was young my dad drove me and my siblings and my mum to the swimming pools. They was fighting about something and it got to the point where my dad chased my mum around the car trying to kill her. And this was in daylight so everyone saw we had to wait at the front while they called police and my dad took off. Good to hear u come out with this brother it will only make u feel better and happier its out

    • @mrfin02
      @mrfin02 3 года назад

      Same here man, but now that my dad's a church guy, it's all better hahaha

  • @Beee-wl4bu
    @Beee-wl4bu 3 года назад +7

    So much respect. We come from different paths but I can relate to your story! These experiences just means your going to be awesome Dad and husband one day!

  • @swaqqdeeze
    @swaqqdeeze 3 года назад +11

    Fuck this actually made me emotional aye how crazy big kash spoke about his mom. Went through this shit aswel

  • @Eli04664
    @Eli04664 3 года назад +9

    Fkn legend foe talking about this heaps of people go through this and it’s good to show they are not alone💯💯💯💯

  • @greetingsmate5740
    @greetingsmate5740 3 года назад +6

    The Impersonation Of Your Dad Was Spot On 😂 But For Real, I've Watched This Vid Twice And I Can't Help But Feel So Much Sorrow For You Bro. Your A Voice For Those You Have Suffered Enough In Silence 🙏 Thankyou For Sharing

  • @Irongaint
    @Irongaint 2 года назад

    This is a great lesson for us new fathers, accept love your children the way they are!!

  • @jimmytuipulotu191
    @jimmytuipulotu191 3 года назад +5

    Mad respect toko. 💯💚💛❤️. Your podcast will help others going through this traumatic ordeal. We need to break the mould/cycle.

  • @supasamoa1
    @supasamoa1 3 года назад +7

    Real toko Uso you got a lot of courage telling us your story thank you 🙏🏾.

  • @henevans1389
    @henevans1389 3 года назад +5

    Big kash your pod cast will blow up as a lot of people can relate. Great advise you give to the kids that are struggling in there lives or going through something similar. Mate much respect from me and most other people watching this. The story about your childhood life and you being so raw about you it, you deserve all the good things in life and god bless you my man. I’m a fan for life, I’d like to be a mate and have some drinks and party with you just don’t bash me. Lol

    • @BornAHawkEye
      @BornAHawkEye 3 года назад +1

      God bless the kids going through what I went through and whatk went through. You really feel like a prisoner I literally had to do chores before I could go hang out with friends and half the time I couldn't get done with my chores before I could hang out on top of getting abused.. it's great that people speak about this type of shit it made me a strong person but I believe there's other ways of making strong characters..

  • @johnworry4840
    @johnworry4840 3 года назад +2

    Big Kashs a real G. Hes actually helping the people with his story. Respect uce

  • @aaronbroadbent5578
    @aaronbroadbent5578 3 года назад +10

    Always look forward to whipping up a cup of coffee and listening to the big kash podcast 👌

  • @OrphaArchive
    @OrphaArchive 3 года назад +7

    I’m here for it all 💯💯💯 keep doing your thing BigKash

  • @Roronoa_Zoro_Official
    @Roronoa_Zoro_Official 3 года назад +3

    Biggest Respects to Big Kash’s Mother, even through everything she went through she still had a forgiving and loving heart, she’s a real soldier.

  • @jase084084
    @jase084084 Год назад +1

    Big Kash man.. What a real one. Takes a lot to share stuff like this. There's nothing harder than being a young child and watching your mother get beaten by your old man. The feeling of helplessness and uselessness, the feeling of not being able to do anything burns your soul. Shout out to all the mums out there who put their bodies on the line for their kids. Some women will never understand why some men can never let go of their mums and this is a major reason. Demostic violence

    • @BIGKashdr
      @BIGKashdr  Год назад +1

      Thank you my brother.
      There generation internalised a lot of there hurt and it and they never healed or dealt with it so it passed on to the next gen.
      It was not right but now as a grown man I understand it a lot better..I don’t resent my old man anymore I love him to death I e made peace and forgiven him..much love brother

  • @deadfarang
    @deadfarang 3 года назад +89

    Sounds like a real life version of the movie "Once Were Warriors". Keeping pumping the vids BK!

    • @brokaipz8254
      @brokaipz8254 3 года назад +5

      Nah bro once were warriors was based on a real person,
      #Facts IYKYK

    • @ExeZylh
      @ExeZylh 3 года назад +4

      Once were warriors is common as fuck bro. Especially in the Maori/ P.I community. So many mates have lived that exact life of that movie

    • @deadfarang
      @deadfarang 3 года назад +5

      Too much weights, not enough speed work!

    • @walterwhite2630
      @walterwhite2630 3 года назад +5

      Wasn't allowed to watch that movie in my house.
      Reminded my step dad of himself

    • @TurinTurumba
      @TurinTurumba 3 года назад

      Uncle *Fukn Bully*

  • @e.t7567
    @e.t7567 3 года назад

    Despite the trauma that you experienced as a kid I'm glad you're now spreading awareness for the kids who are going through this kind of thing. You're a real man for opening up. God bless you brother.

  • @griparian
    @griparian 2 года назад

    Thanks for sharing snapshots of your life, BIG Kash. You had it tough growing up and yet you are still here to talk about it. Congratulations. Violence in the home, is something you can't run away from. Children in that situation are usually trapped. You never deserved the beatings you got, or the disrespectful way that you were treated. Cudos for how you survived and how you tell it like it is.

  • @fobnvee
    @fobnvee 3 года назад +8

    I never liked this dude, when he dissed NZ rapper's! Lmfao! But now. I'm a fan!!! Much love doko!!! I can listen to this brada all day!!! One love USO!!! #DokoUso God bless!❤️💙

  • @KillaManZilla
    @KillaManZilla 3 года назад +2

    ...Man, I'm lost for word.. my heart goes out to this dude..

  • @vxndettr
    @vxndettr 3 года назад +5

    Those that need to be heard, speak up now its your time ✊🏾

  • @bayleeedmunds6546
    @bayleeedmunds6546 3 года назад +5

    So much respect for Kash bruh

  • @GodAboveAll777
    @GodAboveAll777 3 года назад +2

    Fuckin hell. Heard u speakin on ur father being violent, but never imagined that bad. True soldier to live through that. Hope life brings you peace from now on 🙏

  • @sol-ur9dx
    @sol-ur9dx 3 года назад +2

    Respect for this brother takes some guts real to open up about

  • @maalona4926
    @maalona4926 3 года назад +3

    Man seeing this side of Kash...broooo Keep Speaking your Truth DOX ...Loving the PODCAST...👌👌💯

  • @K4ZZ4-
    @K4ZZ4- 3 года назад +8

    Wish you nothing but peace doko🙏🏽

  • @joeyroz649
    @joeyroz649 3 года назад +5

    Realist poddy ive eva heard, well done kash, Warrior

  • @OP-rm3ex
    @OP-rm3ex 3 года назад +3

    I respect you for your honesty. Can relate ... unfortunately quite common in our Polynesian community

  • @lilnuggett4204
    @lilnuggett4204 3 года назад +2

    Man I thought he was just a gronk but listening to this I kinda understand why the guy is the way he is this was really interesting , respect ✊🏿

  • @ethanwilliams2638
    @ethanwilliams2638 3 года назад

    Massive respect to open up like this on a public forum brother. You would be helping so many other people take that step into getting help

  • @andrewkinchella1159
    @andrewkinchella1159 3 года назад +2

    First YT video i commented in on in 10 years, mad respect to you Kash brother

  • @jlemoto676
    @jlemoto676 3 года назад +2

    Toko thanks for sharing your past. This very similar in ways to my childhood. It’s very common in our culture and I can’t seem to figure out why some of our fathers were like this. They come from a line of womanisers and being abusive. It’s hit me since becoming married and a father how much childhood was. Im in the process of getting help because work, life, family, relationship stress all hit at once and have learnt a lot has come from my upbringing. God bless toko Ofa atu

  • @BornAHawkEye
    @BornAHawkEye 3 года назад +7

    Man he speaks facts sounds just like how I grew up the worst part is getting bullied at school and coming up the block to see your stepfather's car on the top of the hill at the house knowing you're going to get your ass beat the bullying never ends. It made me who I am I give it that but kids should not have to go to this shit..🚫🧢👿

  • @iamblacklux7326
    @iamblacklux7326 3 года назад

    Face your demons Kash. As hard as it is, it's the only way to heal and move forward. The hardest thing to do in life is to face the pain that broke you. No gaol time, no shootings could match any form of childhood trauma. I prey you find your peace 🙏

  • @nahorsman
    @nahorsman 3 года назад

    great respect to this gentleman. I had an angry violent father (not as bad as this, but bad enough). But it has impacted me and my brother. Its a hard thing and on some level you are fighting small battles for the rest of your life. But by talking to people, learning strategies of how to cope and being self reflective (honest) it becomes easier to deal with (but its always there).

  • @lexlev6220
    @lexlev6220 3 года назад +3

    Bigka$h . God bless you & I hope one day you are at ease after everything you’ve been through . 🙏🏼🥲💞

  • @thamove01
    @thamove01 3 года назад +14

    This is the realist shit here. Shows how allign Kash is with himself. Digging the podcast.

  • @treighvahnpaea8591
    @treighvahnpaea8591 3 года назад

    I judged you harshly toko, to witness how vulnerable you can be is a reminder that your only human. It shows theres more depth to the man behind the online persona. Enjoying the podcast, hope you keep it going toks🦾

  • @summa-rosekaraitiana7360
    @summa-rosekaraitiana7360 3 года назад +1

    I love this so much I cried due to the fact that your so open and theres so much in families who dont talk about it later lead to addiction and alcoholism

  • @cm5066
    @cm5066 3 года назад +5

    Mean bro thanks for being transparent ! It’s mean as bro wouldn’t have been easy :)

  • @mercedesngawaka8184
    @mercedesngawaka8184 3 года назад

    Love the honesty from the world you come from yet you still tell the kids to get help from authority’s shows your real and really do care about your youth and the kids of today x

  • @bipolarlife7405
    @bipolarlife7405 3 года назад +4

    You know John i looked after you in Juvie, i always found you quite and tall, a bit of a joker, after finding you on YT i thought you were just an X bikie and a Gangster Rapper .But watching the pods i begun to realize you are intelligent and at the same time a funny dude! Now my respect for you is huge ..i wish you well mate plz stay safe!!

  • @adlaybra7443
    @adlaybra7443 3 года назад +1

    Big Kash is Sydney’s realest. Real talk 💯

  • @Whichway1
    @Whichway1 3 года назад +1

    Big respect brother for opening up and sharing your life story. Wish only the best to you and the fam!

  • @robertwalters5994
    @robertwalters5994 3 года назад +1

    Respect big dog takes a lot of guts to open up about this type of upbringing I had very similar scars you for life me being a 80s kid that was a era of the life lot of domestic violence hated my father even the day I was rung to say he passed away me and my brothers told my dads family good luck carrying him to his hole cause we ain’t doing it 👎 he caused us a lot of grief and pain to my family he chose the gang life and and incarcerated most of his it is what it is

  • @Uso.slee685
    @Uso.slee685 3 года назад

    Good for you speaking up about the violence growing up 🙌🏽 Great advice for young ones who may be going through the same thing 🙏🏼

  • @phillippettime1149
    @phillippettime1149 3 года назад

    Kash spitting hard facts about domestic violence and how it can effect your later years in life!!
    As a Pacific Islander myself I agree with Kash and hope somewhere in life you can find peace. #OneLove ✊💪

  • @dantaitoko9006
    @dantaitoko9006 3 года назад +1

    Legit ep this one. Not easy to be vulnerable. Even harder to do it on SM. Respect brother.

  • @GR7O
    @GR7O 3 года назад +1

    Real dude. Stand up! Makes me like your music even more

  • @mrln.9064
    @mrln.9064 3 года назад +1

    Damn Bro
    Having a personality like yours having gone through that shows how strong you are big up big man

  • @ryanCODMAN
    @ryanCODMAN 3 года назад +1

    Good stuff sharing this for the youth bro, unbelievable respect bra, this some real shit

  • @sportydude9337
    @sportydude9337 3 года назад

    This is an educational video as much as it is a personal one.
    Thanks for sharing. Very important that that our Pasifika youth have access to help when needed.
    Losing too many of our kids because the gap between culture and ‘I’m OK, it’s normal’ is blurred.
    It’s not OK to be abused. It does affect you when you’re older.
    Break the cycle if you notice it.
    Don’t put you as a child into your child.
    Great podcast. Needs more viewers.
    PS - hope you and your old man mend it....

  • @D-Rizzle653
    @D-Rizzle653 3 года назад +2

    Respect brother good your getting it off ya chest man respect ✊

  • @risenwarfare
    @risenwarfare 3 года назад +6

    "My Dad almost got arrested"
    That right there is why you see shit like a mother and her children get set on fire in a car
    Government laws are trash

  • @alienboyuniverse
    @alienboyuniverse 3 года назад

    ❤❤❤ I'm sorry you had to go through this. It is insane that someone could do this to a child. Breaks my heart. Your courage is needed in this world. Keep shining and sharing your story!!! ❤❤❤

  • @lachlanstewart-tonkin2180
    @lachlanstewart-tonkin2180 3 года назад +3

    This is some deep.and relatable shit stay strong everyday

  • @ashrickard721
    @ashrickard721 3 года назад +1

    Ahhh the king. Funny but real and appreciate the brutal honesty brother. Helps a lot of ppl 🤙🏻💯

  • @mykesk3
    @mykesk3 3 года назад

    Wow man this is deep. Good on you for being real for your audience!

  • @grandsupremetoru558
    @grandsupremetoru558 3 года назад +1

    These Kash podcasts are gold!! Good shit 👌👌🤙

  • @limecat7996
    @limecat7996 3 года назад +1

    Great pod cast loving these so far you n your bud have good banter and what you talk about is intersting its like looking in on another world, was glued to the screen this one hanging on to every word of your tale. Much respect and keep going strong big kash. Cant wait to see what next weeks topic is.

  • @sarahclarke5585
    @sarahclarke5585 3 года назад +3

    Growing up all men in my life was violent, I thought it was normal x when I was 24 I met a real man who showed me how a woman is ment to be treated it was hard for me to get my head around it I expected to be abused

  • @jamesmorgan9282
    @jamesmorgan9282 3 года назад +2

    Much respect Bigg Kash.

  • @method2madness1
    @method2madness1 3 года назад +1

    Mask face is a good comedic relief, showing how humble big kash is.

  • @Wperspectives
    @Wperspectives 3 года назад +1

    I have a different way of seeing bigkash now mad respect

  • @luxurii7025
    @luxurii7025 3 года назад +3

    mad podcast bro keep it up 💖

  • @Abu7929
    @Abu7929 3 года назад

    You are showing that just because you were raised like that with all the trauma and abuse you don't have to be a victim, it can make you a strong leader who inspires others. I don't know much about you, vaguely I know you've spent a lot of time in jail etc but you grow, brains come with time and now you're still a young guy with a lifetime to do right and raise your kids the way all children deserve.

  • @joshuaedwards3684
    @joshuaedwards3684 3 года назад +4

    Just shows u every one goes through shit big ups to kash

  • @Scorp100k
    @Scorp100k 3 года назад +2

    yo these 2 are funny hahaha keep it up y'all good advice and entertaining

  • @joeydetox
    @joeydetox 3 года назад +5

    Needs to be told breka the cycle dox 🙌🙏💯

  • @C.one_676
    @C.one_676 3 года назад +1

    Props to the big toko for this 🤝💯 Real deep & he didn’t have too 💯All love Big Kash‼️

  • @incelgangofone4894
    @incelgangofone4894 3 года назад +1

    Big respect for kash for this 🙏🏽

  • @dairtazukay1331
    @dairtazukay1331 3 года назад +3

    Much Love bro ❤️

  • @Whaingaroa
    @Whaingaroa 3 года назад +1

    Just watched this. Awesome content brutha in terms of being open about your upbringing. I can relate to your story. Much love brutha. Keep doing your thing.

  • @A.IHelpCentre
    @A.IHelpCentre 3 года назад +1

    Loving the content bro ,relatable 🙌

  • @hangloosejanjuc
    @hangloosejanjuc 3 года назад

    Big ups to you. Powerful and raw. Its a real credit to you for becoming so wise as you've aged best wishes to you my brother

  • @ehmen93
    @ehmen93 3 года назад +4

    Fuck bro sorry I had to live ur childhood like that. Well done for getting this far.

  • @bartwilliams6035
    @bartwilliams6035 3 года назад

    Very Brave opening up like that. First time I have seen this guy. Seems like a great person.

  • @williambennett5571
    @williambennett5571 3 года назад +1

    Your strong brother wish I had your mana I try to talk bout people don’t understand the depression is deep I smile on the outside but broken on the inside I could end everything very quick not day goes by we’re I don’t think about taken my life but The love from my family keeps me going so I carry on