The video of his mother calling his phone and the medical examiner answering is probably the hardest thing I’ve ever watched and heard. No parent should have to bury their child. My mom walked in my brothers bedroom and found him passed away. And she was all alone. Me and my dad were on the other side of the country on a trip. 😢😢 So sorry for y’all’s loss.
I lost my mom when I was 14. I'm 30 years old now and I've been suicidal for over 15 years. This just brought me to tears. I am going to keep fighting for my children. They don't deserve to be momless like me
Please get some medical help and some Godly help you NEED BOTH. Thank you for sharing ima praying that the Lord deliver you from those demonic thoughts and from demonic strong holds/spirits. Because we don’t wrestle with flesh and blood, but spiritual, wickedness and high places. Cuz the enemy comes to steal kill and destroy. It is not a game not none of those things are great. Please know that the Devil is a liar!!!!
As a person who suffers from depression and has attempted suicide… PLEASE STAY AND KEEP FIGHTING. There are people here who love you so much and would devastated if you were gone. My condolences to this family 😔
That's the only thing that keep me goin 1,000% of the time . Is my family. I can't imagine leaving my mom crying even if I left a note she'd be so confused.
I know the feeling. I suffer myself and have attempted before. I am so thankful God kept me here to see the brighter days. I am so thankful. It is hard and it takes a lot of work and therapy to help me manage. But my family, friends, myself and most importantly my daughters deserve me to be here for them. I pray for all that are struggling.
Yes, to lose a child is the MOST horrific experience ever! My 2 youngest children were murdered in 2017, ages 7& 5. My heart is shattered, pieces all over the floor. Worst pain ever. Period. I buried my 2 children together, one casket. I am incredibly sorry Baxter's. Much so. This deep deep loss. Oh mama....to describe your son.....oh mama.....what strength, what courage, what bravery! I desire to connect with other grieving mothers, much so. It's been 4yrs for me....still feels like yesterday....I can't breathe some days....Heaven is real. It is. When you see your son again.....those scars...the body will be new! Grief is exhausting! It consumes SO much of my energy. I can't focus, eat, or think right. Oh dear beautiful lady....I am so sorry. This pain.....My oldest son has mental health illness....he killed my 2 children! The mental health community FAILED us, FAILED my son! You are SO heavy on my heart, family. Your family, heavy in my prayers. I pray we can meet one day, talk over the phone one day....one grieving mother to another! God bless you sincerely beautiful lady. I started a channel to share my experience in grief too. The mental health side of grief. 'Warriors Of Godly Grit'
@@marlenis2329 I read into the case a bit and it is probably either a subtype of antisocial personality disorder or he could be somewhere on the psychotic (schizophrenia/bipolar) spectrum. Or both. It kills me that the courts deemed him to be "completely sane" I'm sorry, sane people don't kill people. Being insane doesn't excuse that though, I hate "not guilty by reason of insanity" because it's bs. I'll say it again, sane people don't kill people!! We need to come up with something better than that. As someone who is on the psychotic spectrum. It's not our fault we are sick but I truly believe we are still human and should be responsible for our own actions, except for maybe brainwashing victims or people committing reactive violence towards their abuser. I'm sure there are other exceptions, but overall this is my opinion. And only that! I don't think it gets talked about enough though because it's a really difficult subject.
@marlenis2329 Hello, unfortunately, he wasn't properly diagnosed. Depression & social behavior shit, & that's about it besides his homicidal thoughts tendencies. Our son had never been violent ever. Not even one fist fight. He was/is a very mild-mannered/quiet person/kid. He is now 25yrs and extremely regretful for what he has done. He has a very hard time living within his own skin in prison. Life is hard, so deeply sad. He would confess to some counselors that he thought of homicide often. But it didn't seem to get anywhere seriously with the mental health help mostly cuz he didn't fit their textbook definition of a sociopath.
Lord Jesus...please wrap your loving arms around this family and give them the type of comfort that only You can give. Sending my deepest most heartfelt condolences and prayers to you and your family 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽❤❤❤❤
@@Sherri916 God never said that you should read the book of deuteronomy... the whole old testament is talking about black people and keeping God's commandments please don't believe in the lies of Paul and the prophets God did not send cause jesus also said worship God and serve him only Jesus never said worship him and he is just a Man
One of my coworkers nephew took his own life at 12 to due to bullying her niece which was his mother died two years later it was sudden no warning or anything they couldnt find the cause of death but I know she died due to a broken heart
my daughter is 12 and was bullied last year for being curvy. She attempted suicide 3 times. I've saved her so far but everyday I live wondering if I will find her dead. So we got her help. But everyday is a struggle to remind her how amazing she is.
This just made me cry. I struggle to stay alive every day because of my daughter. But sitting there dealing with that mind every day doing what it wants to do is a beast.
Suicidal is a strong word! I have two kids, and not being able to provide for them financially makes me think suicidal is the solution to my problems… You seem financially stable therefore, I know that I’m wrong, I can do better as long as I’m alive! My condolences 💐 God bless us All🙏
I’m glad you’re thinking it through because if you did it you’d never be able to provide for them at all then and they’d never be able to return the favor for you one day so continue to ask the lord for strengthen grace and mercy and love he will see you through I’m not sure if you’re saved or lost but I pray for you to get saved if you’re lost and if you’re saved already to keep going and growing in Christ God bless stay safe in Jesus name
The way she described her son hurts my soul no mother should go through this I promise you ..GOD Please heal this family 💙 they need all your praying 🙏🏽. Lord please wrap your arms around this grieving family . Amen 🙏🏽
My heart goes out to you. My son committed suicide in 2015 at the age of ten. There needs to be more help and more programs available for parents to get our kids help before it gets to this point. This is the worst pain.
I know you had to recognize him in the day of the accident... But no mother should see her baby in that horrible condition. So sorry for your loss. God bless you and your family. R.I.P Cyrus! 😭🙏🕊️
My aunt, who lost two of her children, said that losing a child is the end of the world. I wish you strength and peace as you navigate this unfathomable grief.
As I’m watching this, my heart is shattering. I relate to this as I have attempted suicide many times starting at the age of 12 years old. It is such a struggle to deal with these emotions. I’m so so sorry that he has felt this torture deep within that it gripped him to make him do this. God bless you as a family, as his mother it’s the worst thing to have to deal with. May God continue to comfort you and blessing you with all the strength you will always need to deal with the loss of your son. So sorry for this terrible loss
I'm glad you're still with us. Someone I'm sure this with me and I'd like to share them with you. These words help me through my struggles in life. I wish you I happy and humble life above ground. Much respect from katrinka, San Francisco Bay Area ▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪ "The loneliest people are the kindest, the saddest people smile the brightest, and the most damaged people are the wisest. All because they don't wish to see others suffer like they do" ~ anonymous ~
The strength you all have gives me chills. The fact that you both are still trying to tell his story and save the next life is so commendable. Praying for you all’s peace. ♥️
🥺🥺💔 This breaks my heart soooooo deeply 😭 This mama is so strong and so is the Dad. I’m so sorry this happened to Cyrus. I’m praying for you and your family. I send my condolences and pray for comfort and strength for the family and loved ones ❤️🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽❤️
As someone who has tried to take my own life many times from as young of an age as 9 due to bullying and for other reasons as an adult I know what Cyrus was going through. But having to deal with the suicide of the only Mother I knew made me never want to leave that kind of mental, emotional, or physical after effects for anyone. I started having those thoughts again about a week and half ago. I checked myself in to get the help I need. I am proud to say I am doing better, I have a ways to go, but I can see the hope of recovery at the end of this leg of the journey. Please remember: Suicide is a PERMANENT solution to a TEMPORARY problem, get HELP!
I didn’t know this happened. I’m so broken hearted. Before this happened, I started school and was busy working on assignments. I would watch Byron and his twin brother. I knew about the other kids too. I’m so sorry. Both my children have Autism and ADHD… I couldn’t imagine the pain of losing them. Again I’m so sorry. 😩😞😭💯
The composure and strength that you had speaking about this so put together and peacefully there is no other explanation but God! Your family is in my prayers 🙏🏼❤️
You sharing the graphic details really puts into perspective the devastation and pain that radiates on to the loved ones of those who took their own lives. The want their pain to end, but pain just leaves them and moves on to the ones they leave behind, it never truly ends. Bless you and your family.
PLEASE ACCEPT MY DEEPEST CONDOLENCES TO ALL WHO LOVE YOUR SON.. THE MOST IMPORTANT THING GOD LEFT YOU WITH WAS HIM ACCEPTING JESUS AS HIS LORD AND SAVIOR.. GOD TELLS US IN HIS WORD THAT AT OUR LAST BREATH IF WE CRY OUT TO HIM HE HEARS US AND SAVES US .. YOUR BEAUTIFUL SON YOUR MOST PRECIOUS GIFT IS LOOKING AT THE FACE OF HIS SAVIOR.. HE HAS ETERNAL LIFE.. SENDING GOD'S LOVE AND PEACE TO YOU ALL!!! 🌹 💚 ☝️
I am so saddened to hear of your loss. I pray that Cyrus is now at peace and no longer living in his hell. Mental illness is so hard to deal with and the system is so overcrowded, there are many that fall through the cracks. I have a son dealing with those issues and he always tells me he just wants to give up. I always know that is a cry for help. I immediately intervene and never leave him on his own in that state. It's so difficult to help when they refuse to take the medication to balance their moods. I pray for all families dealing with mental illness and say a special prayer for all of the individuals who feel they are living inside of their heads. May God bless you and your family and give you peace and comfort as the days, months and years come. Be well!
I find the lack of emotion kind of strange in this video and also the way she’s describing what her son looked like point blankly. And the fact that they are capitalizing on it. Very strange.
Mental health is affecting so many youths today and because there’s still stigma they don’t speak out , especially young boys and men , im so so sorry for your loss , I send my heartfelt condolences, love , prayers and hugs 💕💔
I didn't know much about your oldest son, honestly I didn't even know you had older kids. May God comfort your heart in this time. Your CNY family wraps their arms around you. ❤
I am so sorry for your loss. The Pain of losing a child is undescribable. I lost my daughter in 2016. I know what you are going through. Praying for you and your family.
Thank you for sharing! I deal with this with my oldest daughter. She is 27 years old and I worry about her every day. She is the only one of my three children that is still living at home. I am glad she is here so that I can keep her encouraged. The heart of a good mother will go through great lengths to protect and save their children. You are an amazing woman. Blessings and prayers to you and your family.
I left a ugly situation with a man recently that I was with since 19, I am now 23. I moved all the way across the country at 19, like East coast to West coast . Have only come to visit twice and didn’t stay pass 2 months. I had to get away and since the day I’ve been here my mom and sister tells me I’m not wanted here, Im not welcome. My mom sleeps I my room because she had no room bc my sisters are selfish. So the fact I just wanted to come home and be with them isn’t enough . I have no support . Dropped my “friends” that weren’t really friends. And I’m just trying to grasp enough confidence to find my way all by myself. It’s a struggle. My point is I respect you to the most high that you welcome your baby I your sight and arms no matter her age. I haven’t lived with my mom for 4 years yet she complains to me about how much she doesn’t want me or us in her life. Just remind her she is loved. My mother can’t as doesn’t say I love you to me or us . She did when our dad died but not before not after. The way I love my mother is like no other. She doesn’t realize it. She doesn’t realize that I still wed love and reassurance and not for my mother to tear me down daily about the choices she made and who I am not. I have struggled with depression forever mostly because of how poorly my parents raised us. We were fed and housed but they let their problems seep into me. Having to throw myself in between fights and yell at them to stop arguing just to get viewed as a lunatic by the very people I love so friggin much and yearn for approval from. I’d like to think my darkest days are behind me but everyday is a fight. Cyrus you are loved and people we must realize that we are going to die anyway. If we cry a billion tears before we die then that’s okay. Wipe them away and love yourself. Easier said than done Ik because I came from hating myself to the core to just trying to hold on because why not.
I understand what you are going through. My sister suffers from depression. Its a tough challenge, its a battle, serious & unfortunate disease that requires professional help. Prayers for u & your daughter that she will get the help she needs & for divine intervention! Prayer can move mountains. A praying mom is one of the most powerful things. Stay strong!
I know it seems like yesterday losing your son. thanks for sharing this heart touching video. So sorry for your loss. No matter what their age is he was still your baby. Depression is so real. I've been married for 24.5 years and we have 2 daughters together aged 24 and 23 that battle depression for many years as honor roll students all their life. With the help of continued Psychiatrists got them through.... we tried medications and no longer needed as their choice. Both Graduated from top Universities and they say the same thing as hell on earth especially now of what is going on in this cruel world. My daughters are now 24 and 23 . They are living on their own here in expensive California...They are vibing and thriving ... No matter what they think it's always a battle.. The continuation of pep talks and love is our job and you guys did try your best. May Cyrus rest in peace. 🌹
I’m so sorry u had to deal with all this 😔. That is so heartbreaking 💔 and traumatizing to see your son like that. R.I.P to your son. I wonder if his spirit still lives around that area. Maybe u can talk to him if u get a spirit box. I know u don’t deal with all that stuff but his spirit may linger there and u can come to find peace. Many families find peace with a spirit box. For example a grandma who has passed away sometimes her spirit will still linger around and then u come to find she didn’t go to heaven yet because she wanted u to know that she was still around. Then when she knows u know then they see the light and their with our lord 😌. So same with your son he can find peace and be with the lord. Sending prayers 🙏🏾 🕊 to u guys ! ❤️
My nephew passed the same way. We don't know if it was on purpose or if he was texting. He hit a tree at 92mph the cops said. The medical examiner said that the airbag snapped his neck so it brings me a little comfort that he didn't suffer. But watching this and seeing the car and the debris bright back so many memories. Im so sorry this happened to you. My nephew was only 22. 💙. God bless thier souls. And my prayers go out to you and your family.
My prayers for you and your family. I lost my 10 year old daughter on September 11, 2007 and losing a child is a whole new level of grief. I am here for you if you need to talk. Love you guys
Please reach out and seek Professional help from a grief counseling. It's available FREE 24/7 in your local community. I pray for your Peace, in Jesus Name 🙏
Im so sorry for your loss. I too lost a daughter so I know the pain and the nightmare of losing a child. God bless you dear from one broken hearted mom to another. May God comfort you as my faith is all that keeps me going as my daughters remains never found for 10 years . Hugs .
I am a suicide survivor and Depression is very real….a lot of the time our family and friends are unaware as we don’t show it on the outside. I am sorry for your loss and I thank you for being brave to share your story.
Hey I’m just a random stranger but just know you’re appreciated and even though life is tough , you can get through it. People love you and care about you :)
I lost my dad to suicide, a month after I turned 18 yrs old. The grief from suicide is complicated and unlike other types of grief. I also know what it’s like to lose a child. I lost my daughter at 12 yrs old, she was riding her bike home from school, she had her earbuds in and she unfortunately wasn’t wearing her helmet. She crossed the crosswalk on her bike, she wasn’t looking for traffic and she didn’t hear anything because of her earbuds. She suffered serious head trauma, as well as other injuries. She was life flighted to the hospital, where she remained for a week, we were enduring a waiting game, to see if her brain would stop swelling, and unfortunately her brain continued to swell. I sat and watched as the dr checked her pupils, and declared her brain dead. We took her off the ventilator. That day heaven gained an angel. I lost my daughter. I miss her dearly. She would have been a senior in high school this year. She would have been 18 yrs old. I miss her every single waking moment. My heart aches to see her again. I want to tell you, it never gets easier, but you learn to cope better. You learn to live with the grief. Don’t ever, ever let anyone dictate how you mourn your loss. You will process it in your own way. Sending so much love and prayers your way. I know I am late to this video, but I also know, it likely still feels like this just happened. I also want you to know, my father wrote in his suicide note that he accepted God as his savior as well. He asked for forgiveness. He is in heaven. His pain was too great for earth. Take your time. Process in your own way. Remember to allow yourself to feel the emotions. From my heart to yours. ❤️
I have been thinking of yall since seeing your wife's video. Dang I'm already crying. My heart goes out to you both and your families. I heard her say something about what he last said to her. I know you know but I'll say it anyways. We cant always ask for forgiveness for every sin because the amount of information we consume in one day is overwhelming. All sin is forgiven and nothing can separate us from the love of God. My grandpa shot himself in the heart after his then wife left. His heart was broken and he couldnt bare it any longer. This kept my moma up at night worried for his soul. So this is what I told her to ease some of the pain and guilt she felt. This last living act is not the sum of their life. Look at all the positive he brought everyday. Every smile or laugh and his contribution he has given over the years. That is what he would want yall to reflect on when you think of him. As you will because we cant help but blame ourselves at times thinking we couldve prevented it. I still "what if" myself because my moma died in a car accident her and a 18 wheeler hit head on. That was 4-7-17 and that was the day my heart went with her. It's hard and I think will always be hard but my life is still here and she wouldnt want mine to stop because hers did. So when you what if or blame yourself for missing something. Please remember that you did not make those decisions and you can not change what is done. Yall are already such a strong family. Doing one on ones with your babies and the love you give daily. Dont forget yourself. Take the time to also take care of yourself. Remind your wife of yall vows because theres going to come a day that she or you cant. Let her know that it's ok because you are there to be the strength needed so you and God will walk for her that day. Cry hard and cry loud its healing. Just dont let yourself get lost in it. I hope you found comfort in this or at the least helped remind you of something you may have already known just forgot. My heart goes out to yall and I'll leave you with what I come to know in my 36 yrs here in this life. "To love is to know pain." -Crystal
I'm so sorry for your loss mama 😢😭 my whole heart in prayer goes out to you and your family. I can't even imagine your pain. Lord in heaven I ask in my sincerest prayers to please bring this mother comfort to her soul 🙏🏽🙌🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽❤️👑
It could be therapeutic for them to document their healing journey. I'm sure they're hurting and the pain will never go away, but talking about this experience may make it a little more bearable. 🙏
Started watching your videos because I’ve watched your short clips with Byron and fell in love with his voice. I just learning about your son Cyrus. I’m sorry but I cried through your whole explanation of what happened to him. You were so strong for being able to talk about it. Thanks for sharing.
Even though this happened a couple of years ago, this still tugs at my heartstrings.😔 The fact that she can calmly explain how her son looked after the accident shows just how string she is...my prayers and condolences to the Baxter family.🙏🏾
I've had my suicidal moments on too many occasions..but a higher power always showed me the way every time..to any1 feeling this way, if u haven't heard it enough, U R LOVED!!!..U R SPECIAL!!!..U R WANTED!!!..U R NEEDED MORE THAN U KNOW OR REALIZE!!!!!.. sending my deepest and most heartfelt condolences to this family..the strength in her voice jus talking about it is EVERYTHING..💔💔😢🙏🏾🙏🏾
Life is a vapor and it’s so fragile we’re just passing through! My condolences to you and your family at this time so sorry to hear about your son passing!!!!
Sadly my home life and mental health wasn’t amazing at the time, but I now felt horrible for my mother and mother only after attempting. I overdosed and I just couldn’t do it anymore! Surprisingly life got so much better, I have a new family/chosen family! They have made me so much happier than anything! I am sorry for y’all’s lost! I wish nothing but peace and love to you.
I thank God for giving you the strength to beautifully share your story about your son. Mental illness is a great thief and Deceiver of your mind. May God continue to comfort you and your family always as you mourn the loss of your dear son Cyrus. Blessings 🙏🏽💜
talking about the details is necessary sometimes. really opens peoples eyes to what people and family get to see when you pass. you guys are so strong.
I pray everyday over my 26 year old and 18 year old as I don’t know if I’d have your strength god forbid….. Sis, keep breathing and be gentle with yourself and give thanks for the time with your beautiful baby.
I’m so sorry. From the bottom of my heart. I pray for your sons soul, and for his healing. I pray for you and your husband and children. That you may overcome this, that you may find happiness in little things again. No one should bury a child. I call upon god and all his grace to lead your family to healing. Love. Light. And for your beautiful sons soul and presence to be at peace and with you always. All my love🤍 rest in paradise
The devil wants to take out as many guys please fight the lies with the word of God and hang on . I’m telling you this for God has delivered me from those spirits of depression and suicidal thoughts and torment. No slepp for half a year I’m telling y’all Jesus Christ will be there for you ❤.
Mum Listen there is nothing like having the peace of God as your Comfort. It is obvious that your strength is because of your relationship with God and Byron feeds off of your relationship. He is priceless and again. Im so sorry for your loss.
Im so so sorry i lost one of my friends to suicide in 2020. Im so sorry this happened to yall. I understand what your going threw. Praying for you guys to heal and overcome this. May your life be filled with happiness and love and strength god bless. ❤
I’m sorry I can’t like this video because of the loss of your son, I felt the pain man. Seeing you walk around the car, seeing the blood. Then hearing mom describe what she saw when she saw her son omgggg my heart and I’m not even his mother😢😢😢my heart is with y’all. Take care and stay strong💔😘
No one knows what would make someone commit suicide there are signs we tend to miss and what I truly believe that every smile does mean that a person is happy . It has been said that when a person is to happy you need to pay closer attention because they're sending out signs to people around them . I was just watching a video of mom showing off her 4 boys and them all being in the house at the same time .How proud was this mom and now to loose a child in this manner is so devastating I'm sure my condolences to the family with heart felt blessings and love 💔🙏🏽🕊️
I’m so sorry. My heart absolutely breaks for you. My teenage son got his license today. I don’t think I’ll ever feel at ease again. Mam I can’t imagine. I just want to hug you and wrap your whole family in love and comfort. Praying for you all🙏😢
I’ve been battling depression for so many years. I lost everything after I almost died from Covid 3 years ago, I haven’t been able to find a job , due to my eviction while I was in the hospital my credit is terrible and I can’t get a place , I lost my car, I mean EVERYTHING, I have no way to take care of my son financially, no one wants to help, it gets to the point like why am I here ? I’m depressed, I’ve been struggling and fighting to get my life back and nope, nothing is happening, I keep praying to God every day to help me and be able to get a job at least so I can provide for my son but nothing is happening. Just a few days ago I just wanted to take my life, but I keep thinking of what’s gonna happen to my 15 year old son, and it hurts me even more. I know what it’s like to feel depressed and to feel like there’s no way out. Ppl don’t understand how hard depression is and ppl think it’s a joke , it’s not. Plz take care of those who are telling you that they are not ok and that they have depression. Help them! I’m so sorry for your loss. Amen
Oh my Gosh the pain was overwhelming for me… so I can only imagine the pain your family is in!!! I felt so guilty because I complained about minor silly things all week long.. I even cried about those Small things and to think that you all were there dealing with this!!! My heart is broken for you!! My prayers are all I have to offer you and I know with confidence that God Will he’s your hearts!
This is heartbreaking, just listening to you! I can't imagine the pain you feel! Sending prayers, love and hugs! Sleep well baby boy! Depression is real💜😔
This took a lot of courage to post, thank you. I go through a lot of depression and suicidal thoughts, and have felt the effects of suicide in my family. I know exactly what your talking about when you speak about the outbursts, and struggle with this myself. Just know your son fought hard, and did not mean for you to feel pain. You did nothing to cause this, he loved you more than himself.
So many people find suicide as a weakness and that you’re weak if you do such a thing. But as someone that has and still deals with depression and suicidal thoughts it a war worse than anything known to man. It’s a battle with yourself. You want nothing but to find happiness within yourself while the you that you are hates yourself.. It’s a hard feeling of disappointment.. It’s wanting nothing but freedom of this locked place of hell in your head.. It’s sad but some just don’t know until it’s too late.. You may always be loved but please Family, Friends, Strangers, let people know they are loved every day! Love is all we want, we want to be loved and appreciated by others aswell as ourselves.. please understand suicide and depression isn’t a joke and it’s a harsh reality we need to take into our hands and help solve.. I love you guys.. Keep your heads up. Youre going to do amazing things.. and You’re going to be okay!❤️
My heart goes out to your family. This video hit me in my soul because I myself suffer from depression and mental illness …2 years ago around the end of march it got so bad for me that at one point I had parked in a church parking lot and there was a mountain drop off on the other side of the road and my plan was to pray really hard and floor my gas pedal because I didn’t know what else to do ..because I was tired because I felt like I was fighting a never ending battle and I had more bad days then good… I’m crying praying and yelling and it’s raining so hard on this day and the heavy rain seemed to represent a picture of my soul and I asked God …if my life matters…If I need to hold on a little longer please give me a sign and when I lift my head up …in all this rain here comes this animal running right in the direct path towards my car and I’m like what animal is in this heavy storm and when it got close enough for me to tell what it was…I seen it was a groundhog…I felt God tell me hold on just a little bit longer and it may be raining and you may be weary but spring is about to come and you will bloom again…. Your story hit me in my soul because I was exactly where he was… I pray God lifts his soul and your families soul as well! Each day I will keep you all in prayer 🙏 and each day I make it through I will always think of your son..I will push through for everyone who ever thought the only way is out… I hug you all with love and prayer 🙏
It’s as if they are glorifying the scene of the accident & his car. And then she is livestream very gory details about what Cyrus’s body looked like….some thing’s should stay personal 🙄🙄
His face is right there? Are you serious why in the bell would someone be ok with posting something like that very bad to me such a personal situation very sad his face right there I don’t even see how you can talk and not sound sad or cry seriously you need to be evaluated
They said his PLATES. LICENSE PLATES. Everyone grieves differently and they were able to compose themselves to make this video and that is incredible. I lost my daughter and her father within six months of one another in 2021 and still pray for the strength these people have. Please pray for my daughter and I and appreciate the miracle of peace this grieving family has achieved.
Idk if any of y’all noticed it but she is recording all the details on two different phones while they were fishing. He committed suicide due to his parents neglect to get him the help he needed before it was to late
....even stopping mid sentence of horrific details to say "oooh...I got a bite!" and try to land a fish. I can't imagine how someone can sound so... indifferent. Poor Cyrus 💔
Baxter family you have my sincere condolences! I lost my baby boy at 21 years old twenty one years ago by the hands of the Serial Killer in Flint, Mi.My son was also suffering from depression before his life was taken away from him. I tried all I could to keep him close to me but I couldn’t, it still hurts but I know he’s in a better place with the Lord! He finally has his peace. God be with you and I’m praying for your peace !
This is absolutely heartbreaking. My son struggles with his mental health, as do I, and we've had a couple of scary moments. It's so hard to see your child like that. I wish I could hold you right now.💜
I’m so sorry about your son. I Got the worst call of my life 2 days ago from the medical examiner. I’m heartbroken 💔💍Sleep peacefully babe😢 let’s bring more mainstream light to mental health
I'm going through this with my 19 year old. God almighty my sister. I am praying with you and my deepest sympathy 🌹 🙏 You are a woman of strength. He will forever be with you in memories
Sending prayers love and positive energy to you and your beautiful family. I watch your videos and admire your strength. Thank you for sharing your story and your beautiful family with us.
Mother of Cyrus... I'm just hearing of this sad news and I sincerely cry for you my dear. I began watching your special needs Lil boy yrs ago. I since have taken your kids into my heart. So, you lost a son but your you tube family has lost a sweet nephew. We love you all as a family. Me myself family is everything.... Let the joy he was to you speak for his life. As troubled as he was...still remember he was your first love. It's not gonna be easy but just know it is well....even when it's not. #absentfromthebody#presantwiththelord.... Love you all AUNTY KEISHA IN VA
I’m so so sorry for your loss…praying for your family. I hope that this video helps kids understand what happens when they do this and how the pain they are feeling just gets past on to the ones that love them them most!
The story is not particularly about the suicide and the pain that is reflected on to those that are still here the story is about the mental health the lack of mental health help to keep young men like Cyrus from being depressed and feeling alone to commit suicide because mental illness in young people is on the rise and it is very real and those who have a somewhat sane mind do not understand
yo, i don't comment much but i GOTTA say this: as someone who has dealt w| suicidal ideations + suicide attempts myself for reasons related to physical + mental illness + disability, i gotta tell you what you may already know: this is not either of y'all's fault. the shoulda, coulda, wouldas will eat y'all alive if you let it. i pray it doesn't. 🖤❤ THIS. WAS NOT. Y'ALL'S. FAULT! i don't blv suicide is selfish b|c only the person dealing w| the pain can deal w| the pain, be it physical or mental. our loved ones cannot love away the pain + sometimes there is absolutely nothing that can be said if the pain + suffering is too great. if you loved him unconditionally + raised him well, you did your job. i truly hate he's gone. i can imagine how much pain he was in to make that decision + i can relate. his suffering is gone too. gotta stress again: this isn't y'all's fault. + i promise you, if you loved him unconditionally, he knew y'all loved him. i'm not one to say i'm gonna pray when i'm not + usually i will forget but i've already said a prayer for y'all + will keep him + your family in my thoughts + meditations. waheguruji ki khalsa waheguruji ki fateh! satnam.
hello I know im just a random person on the internet typing this to you but truly thank you for commenting this its so negative to see people lose focus on the details like this and instead go straight to bashing or swearing the dead wont rest peacefully. I wish you nothing but good things in life once again thank you for having good thoughts and a good heart.
I suffer with depression very bad and have had thoughts of suicide I just keep praying and believing God is going to heal me from this terrible disease🙏🙏🙏
SUICIDE AND DEPRESSION AND MENTAL ILLNESS OUR SON TOOK HIS LIFE THE OTHER DAY...
Deeply hurt to hear this!
My condolences😢💔
If it’s ok to ask which son was it
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@@Vlogzwitmaysa her oldest son Cyrus
The video of his mother calling his phone and the medical examiner answering is probably the hardest thing I’ve ever watched and heard. No parent should have to bury their child. My mom walked in my brothers bedroom and found him passed away. And she was all alone. Me and my dad were on the other side of the country on a trip. 😢😢 So sorry for y’all’s loss.
I've seen that video, but didn't know it was this family. How awful.
I lost my mom when I was 14. I'm 30 years old now and I've been suicidal for over 15 years. This just brought me to tears. I am going to keep fighting for my children. They don't deserve to be momless like me
Keep fighting those thoughts. You are necessary. You are loved.
Bro don't lose hope 😢 Keep fighting & stay strong 💪🏻 Better days coming , believe in yourself, you can do anything 🤝
Please get some medical help and some Godly help you NEED BOTH. Thank you for sharing ima praying that the Lord deliver you from those demonic thoughts and from demonic strong holds/spirits. Because we don’t wrestle with flesh and blood, but spiritual, wickedness and high places. Cuz the enemy comes to steal kill and destroy. It is not a game not none of those things are great. Please know that the Devil is a liar!!!!
I'm so sorry, you're gonna make it. Don't let go.
Hi I hope you are okay
As a person who suffers from depression and has attempted suicide… PLEASE STAY AND KEEP FIGHTING. There are people here who love you so much and would devastated if you were gone. My condolences to this family 😔
So sorry for your loss my prayers are with you and your family 🙏🙏
I did attempt and I am actually kind of happier now! I have a new family, a chosen family and they make me so much happier!
That's the only thing that keep me goin 1,000% of the time . Is my family. I can't imagine leaving my mom crying even if I left a note she'd be so confused.
Read Psalm 91 Out-loud daily
I know the feeling. I suffer myself and have attempted before. I am so thankful God kept me here to see the brighter days. I am so thankful. It is hard and it takes a lot of work and therapy to help me manage. But my family, friends, myself and most importantly my daughters deserve me to be here for them.
I pray for all that are struggling.
Yes, to lose a child is the MOST horrific experience ever! My 2 youngest children were murdered in 2017, ages 7& 5. My heart is shattered, pieces all over the floor. Worst pain ever. Period. I buried my 2 children together, one casket. I am incredibly sorry Baxter's. Much so. This deep deep loss. Oh mama....to describe your son.....oh mama.....what strength, what courage, what bravery! I desire to connect with other grieving mothers, much so. It's been 4yrs for me....still feels like yesterday....I can't breathe some days....Heaven is real. It is. When you see your son again.....those scars...the body will be new! Grief is exhausting! It consumes SO much of my energy. I can't focus, eat, or think right. Oh dear beautiful lady....I am so sorry. This pain.....My oldest son has mental health illness....he killed my 2 children! The mental health community FAILED us, FAILED my son!
You are SO heavy on my heart, family. Your family, heavy in my prayers. I pray we can meet one day, talk over the phone one day....one grieving mother to another! God bless you sincerely beautiful lady.
I started a channel to share my experience in grief too. The mental health side of grief. 'Warriors Of Godly Grit'
Omg, this is heartbreaking 😭😭😭😭 May I ask what is the name of the mental health illness of your oldest son?
My heart aches for you Melissa, and Vinnie too, and all of your family.
@@marlenis2329 I read into the case a bit and it is probably either a subtype of antisocial personality disorder or he could be somewhere on the psychotic (schizophrenia/bipolar) spectrum. Or both. It kills me that the courts deemed him to be "completely sane"
I'm sorry, sane people don't kill people. Being insane doesn't excuse that though, I hate "not guilty by reason of insanity" because it's bs. I'll say it again, sane people don't kill people!! We need to come up with something better than that. As someone who is on the psychotic spectrum. It's not our fault we are sick but I truly believe we are still human and should be responsible for our own actions, except for maybe brainwashing victims or people committing reactive violence towards their abuser. I'm sure there are other exceptions, but overall this is my opinion. And only that! I don't think it gets talked about enough though because it's a really difficult subject.
@marlenis2329 Hello, unfortunately, he wasn't properly diagnosed. Depression & social behavior shit, & that's about it besides his homicidal thoughts tendencies. Our son had never been violent ever. Not even one fist fight. He was/is a very mild-mannered/quiet person/kid. He is now 25yrs and extremely regretful for what he has done. He has a very hard time living within his own skin in prison. Life is hard, so deeply sad. He would confess to some counselors that he thought of homicide often. But it didn't seem to get anywhere seriously with the mental health help mostly cuz he didn't fit their textbook definition of a sociopath.
@@fioregiallo Hello, thank you. Do we know each other?
“I hope I can save somebody life. Anybody life, I failed to save my own child” those words broke me.
Lord Jesus...please wrap your loving arms around this family and give them the type of comfort that only You can give. Sending my deepest most heartfelt condolences and prayers to you and your family 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽❤❤❤❤
Amen
Amen in Jesus name
@@Sherri916 jesus cant save only God saves only God will be worshipped
@@jonDoe-ml3jq Jesus Christ is Lord and Savior
@@Sherri916 God never said that you should read the book of deuteronomy... the whole old testament is talking about black people and keeping God's commandments please don't believe in the lies of Paul and the prophets God did not send cause jesus also said worship God and serve him only Jesus never said worship him and he is just a Man
If you’ve never battled depression you can never understand the mindset one is in. You are free now! 🕊
Beyond brave to share this. So raw. I’m so so so sorry for your loss. I’m so sorry you’re feeling this pain.😓 Rest In Peace.
A 12yr old took her life yesterday due to bullying at my nephews school. Breaks my heart that people choose to do this. Prayers sent 🙏🏽
One of my coworkers nephew took his own life at 12 to due to bullying her niece which was his mother died two years later it was sudden no warning or anything they couldnt find the cause of death but I know she died due to a broken heart
Couple days ago a teenager took his life in Hungary because of bully,followed by depression.
I’m soo soo sorry!! 😞😞😞
@@sherrita80548 R I. P
my daughter is 12 and was bullied last year for being curvy. She attempted suicide 3 times. I've saved her so far but everyday I live wondering if I will find her dead. So we got her help. But everyday is a struggle to remind her how amazing she is.
This just made me cry. I struggle to stay alive every day because of my daughter. But sitting there dealing with that mind every day doing what it wants to do is a beast.
@Shan Smith keep your faith 🙏🏾
I'm praying for you stay encouraged 🙏🙏🙏
May Jesus Christ give you His strength and peace. May you walk in Gods fullness for your life.
Please don’t give up! Continue to fight and stay strong for your daughter! ❤️🙏🏿🙏🏿
Sending love to you.
Suicidal is a strong word! I have two kids, and not being able to provide for them financially makes me think suicidal is the solution to my problems… You seem financially stable therefore, I know that I’m wrong, I can do better as long as I’m alive! My condolences 💐 God bless us All🙏
I’m glad you’re thinking it through because if you did it you’d never be able to provide for them at all then and they’d never be able to return the favor for you one day so continue to ask the lord for strengthen grace and mercy and love he will see you through
I’m not sure if you’re saved or lost but I pray for you to get saved if you’re lost and if you’re saved already to keep going and growing in Christ
God bless stay safe in Jesus name
Mama you are all they want
The way she described her son hurts my soul no mother should go through this I promise you ..GOD Please heal this family 💙 they need all your praying 🙏🏽. Lord please wrap your arms around this grieving family . Amen 🙏🏽
My heart goes out to you. My son committed suicide in 2015 at the age of ten. There needs to be more help and more programs available for parents to get our kids help before it gets to this point. This is the worst pain.
Im so sorry my prayers are with you
I can't even imagine your pain. I pray for your healing.
My son commited suicide in 2014 january 10th imbedded in my brain forever
@@goldieclaar4850 Im so sorry for your loss
Prayers🙏
You may never know “why”, but know that Cyrus loved you and his siblings. The Love of God and the blood of Jesus is comforting him and your family. 🙏
I know you had to recognize him in the day of the accident... But no mother should see her baby in that horrible condition. So sorry for your loss. God bless you and your family. R.I.P Cyrus! 😭🙏🕊️
My aunt, who lost two of her children, said that losing a child is the end of the world. I wish you strength and peace as you navigate this unfathomable grief.
Damn, 1 child is already insane but 2? Jesus
I hope she can fully recover from that
I'm extremely sorry for your loss!!! May he rest in peace 🕊️ may you & ur husband and family find peace in time!!!💕
As I’m watching this, my heart is shattering. I relate to this as I have attempted suicide many times starting at the age of 12 years old. It is such a struggle to deal with these emotions. I’m so so sorry that he has felt this torture deep within that it gripped him to make him do this. God bless you as a family, as his mother it’s the worst thing to have to deal with. May God continue to comfort you and blessing you with all the strength you will always need to deal with the loss of your son. So sorry for this terrible loss
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I'm glad you're still with us.
Someone I'm sure this with me and I'd like to share them with you.
These words help me through my struggles in life.
I wish you I happy and humble life above ground.
Much respect from katrinka, San Francisco Bay Area
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"The loneliest people are the kindest,
the saddest people smile the brightest,
and the most damaged people are the wisest.
All because they don't wish to see others suffer like they do"
~ anonymous ~
@@katrinkasanfranciscobayare7364 you are loved thank you for sharing these words....they mean alot to me and im sure others
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The strength you all have gives me chills. The fact that you both are still trying to tell his story and save the next life is so commendable. Praying for you all’s peace. ♥️
🥺🥺💔 This breaks my heart soooooo deeply 😭 This mama is so strong and so is the Dad. I’m so sorry this happened to Cyrus. I’m praying for you and your family. I send my condolences and pray for comfort and strength for the family and loved ones ❤️🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽❤️
As someone who has tried to take my own life many times from as young of an age as 9 due to bullying and for other reasons as an adult I know what Cyrus was going through. But having to deal with the suicide of the only Mother I knew made me never want to leave that kind of mental, emotional, or physical after effects for anyone. I started having those thoughts again about a week and half ago. I checked myself in to get the help I need. I am proud to say I am doing better, I have a ways to go, but I can see the hope of recovery at the end of this leg of the journey. Please remember: Suicide is a PERMANENT solution to a TEMPORARY problem, get HELP!
Praying for u 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
So proud of you keep going ♥️
so proud of you for continuing to push through. God loves you dearly 🙏🏾
may god bless you
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Just hearing her talk about how she had to see her son😭 just makes me so sad😭 it breaks my heart prayers for you guys 💗
I didn’t know this happened. I’m so broken hearted. Before this happened, I started school and was busy working on assignments. I would watch Byron and his twin brother. I knew about the other kids too.
I’m so sorry. Both my children have Autism and ADHD… I couldn’t imagine the pain of losing them.
Again I’m so sorry. 😩😞😭💯
What amazing strength you have to speak about your son. Praying for your family ❤
The composure and strength that you had speaking about this so put together and peacefully there is no other explanation but God! Your family is in my prayers 🙏🏼❤️
My condolences to you and your family for the loss of your son. May he rest in peace and may God rest his soul 🙏🌹💖
LORD continue to HELP just like You done for me! In the Mighty and Matchless Name Of Jesus Christ.
STAY TOGETHER IN UNITY BAXTER FAMILY!
You sharing the graphic details really puts into perspective the devastation and pain that radiates on to the loved ones of those who took their own lives. The want their pain to end, but pain just leaves them and moves on to the ones they leave behind, it never truly ends. Bless you and your family.
PLEASE ACCEPT MY DEEPEST CONDOLENCES TO ALL WHO LOVE YOUR SON.. THE MOST IMPORTANT THING GOD LEFT YOU WITH WAS HIM ACCEPTING JESUS AS HIS LORD AND SAVIOR.. GOD TELLS US IN HIS WORD THAT AT OUR LAST BREATH IF WE CRY OUT TO HIM HE HEARS US AND SAVES US .. YOUR BEAUTIFUL SON YOUR MOST PRECIOUS GIFT IS LOOKING AT THE FACE OF HIS SAVIOR.. HE HAS ETERNAL LIFE.. SENDING GOD'S LOVE AND PEACE TO YOU ALL!!! 🌹 💚 ☝️
I am so saddened to hear of your loss. I pray that Cyrus is now at peace and no longer living in his hell. Mental illness is so hard to deal with and the system is so overcrowded, there are many that fall through the cracks. I have a son dealing with those issues and he always tells me he just wants to give up. I always know that is a cry for help. I immediately intervene and never leave him on his own in that state. It's so difficult to help when they refuse to take the medication to balance their moods. I pray for all families dealing with mental illness and say a special prayer for all of the individuals who feel they are living inside of their heads. May God bless you and your family and give you peace and comfort as the days, months and years come. Be well!
I find the lack of emotion kind of strange in this video and also the way she’s describing what her son looked like point blankly. And the fact that they are capitalizing on it. Very strange.
Yup
Mental health is affecting so many youths today and because there’s still stigma they don’t speak out , especially young boys and men , im so so sorry for your loss , I send my heartfelt condolences, love , prayers and hugs 💕💔
So true, I have 2 boys and I worry about them everyday. This survival in the world is a hardcore struggle for our young men.
I didn't know much about your oldest son, honestly I didn't even know you had older kids. May God comfort your heart in this time. Your CNY family wraps their arms around you. ❤
I am so sorry for your loss. The Pain of losing a child is undescribable. I lost my daughter in 2016. I know what you are going through. Praying for you and your family.
Thank you for sharing! I deal with this with my oldest daughter. She is 27 years old and I worry about her every day. She is the only one of my three children that is still living at home. I am glad she is here so that I can keep her encouraged. The heart of a good mother will go through great lengths to protect and save their children. You are an amazing woman. Blessings and prayers to you and your family.
I left a ugly situation with a man recently that I was with since 19, I am now 23. I moved all the way across the country at 19, like East coast to West coast . Have only come to visit twice and didn’t stay pass 2 months.
I had to get away and since the day I’ve been here my mom and sister tells me I’m not wanted here, Im not welcome. My mom sleeps I my room because she had no room bc my sisters are selfish. So the fact I just wanted to come home and be with them isn’t enough . I have no support . Dropped my “friends” that weren’t really friends. And I’m just trying to grasp enough confidence to find my way all by myself. It’s a struggle. My point is I respect you to the most high that you welcome your baby I your sight and arms no matter her age. I haven’t lived with my mom for 4 years yet she complains to me about how much she doesn’t want me or us in her life. Just remind her she is loved. My mother can’t as doesn’t say I love you to me or us . She did when our dad died but not before not after. The way I love my mother is like no other. She doesn’t realize it. She doesn’t realize that I still wed love and reassurance and not for my mother to tear me down daily about the choices she made and who I am not.
I have struggled with depression forever mostly because of how poorly my parents raised us. We were fed and housed but they let their problems seep into me. Having to throw myself in between fights and yell at them to stop arguing just to get viewed as a lunatic by the very people I love so friggin much and yearn for approval from. I’d like to think my darkest days are behind me but everyday is a fight. Cyrus you are loved and people we must realize that we are going to die anyway. If we cry a billion tears before we die then that’s okay. Wipe them away and love yourself. Easier said than done Ik because I came from hating myself to the core to just trying to hold on because why not.
@@fruitlove8842 sending you a hug ❤
@@fruitlove8842 im sorry and i love you.
You are a wonderful mom. Prayers to you and your baby girl!
I understand what you are going through. My sister suffers from depression. Its a tough challenge, its a battle, serious & unfortunate disease that requires professional help. Prayers for u & your daughter that she will get the help she needs & for divine intervention! Prayer can move mountains. A praying mom is one of the most powerful things. Stay strong!
I know it seems like yesterday losing your son. thanks for sharing this heart touching video. So sorry for your loss. No matter what their age is he was still your baby. Depression is so real. I've been married for 24.5 years and we have 2 daughters together aged 24 and 23 that battle depression for many years as honor roll students all their life. With the help of continued Psychiatrists got them through.... we tried medications and no longer needed as their choice. Both Graduated from top Universities and they say the same thing as hell on earth especially now of what is going on in this cruel world. My daughters are now 24 and 23 . They are living on their own here in expensive California...They are vibing and thriving ... No matter what they think it's always a battle.. The continuation of pep talks and love is our job and you guys did try your best. May Cyrus rest in peace. 🌹
I’m so sorry u had to deal with all this 😔. That is so heartbreaking 💔 and traumatizing to see your son like that. R.I.P to your son. I wonder if his spirit still lives around that area. Maybe u can talk to him if u get a spirit box. I know u don’t deal with all that stuff but his spirit may linger there and u can come to find peace. Many families find peace with a spirit box. For example a grandma who has passed away sometimes her spirit will still linger around and then u come to find she didn’t go to heaven yet because she wanted u to know that she was still around. Then when she knows u know then they see the light and their with our lord 😌. So same with your son he can find peace and be with the lord. Sending prayers 🙏🏾 🕊 to u guys ! ❤️
My nephew passed the same way. We don't know if it was on purpose or if he was texting. He hit a tree at 92mph the cops said. The medical examiner said that the airbag snapped his neck so it brings me a little comfort that he didn't suffer. But watching this and seeing the car and the debris bright back so many memories. Im so sorry this happened to you. My nephew was only 22. 💙. God bless thier souls. And my prayers go out to you and your family.
RIP Willy Bucio
My prayers for you and your family. I lost my 10 year old daughter on September 11, 2007 and losing a child is a whole new level of grief. I am here for you if you need to talk. Love you guys
Sorry for your loss 🙏
@@humblebee5319 thank you. I just wanted Ebony and Byron know they are not alone
How sweet of u to offer to be someone for them to talk too
Please reach out and seek Professional help from a grief counseling. It's available FREE 24/7 in your local community. I pray for your Peace, in Jesus Name 🙏
Im so sorry for your loss. I too lost a daughter so I know the pain and the nightmare of losing a child. God bless you dear from one broken hearted mom to another. May God comfort you as my faith is all that keeps me going as my daughters remains never found for 10 years . Hugs .
She's such a strong mother to speak, may God continue strengthening & comforting you
I am a suicide survivor and Depression is very real….a lot of the time our family and friends are unaware as we don’t show it on the outside. I am sorry for your loss and I thank you for being brave to share your story.
Hey I’m just a random stranger but just know you’re appreciated and even though life is tough , you can get through it. People love you and care about you :)
The pain of losing a child is like no other. My son was killed in November 2022. My heart is broken. I know your pain. Sending hugs. Love Jayz mom
God you are a healer. You will allow her to mourn and in your own way you will keep her in perfect peace. Thank You
I pray for peace in your heart as a parent of 5, you try everything in your power to keep them healthy and safe. Know you will be in my prayers 🙏🏾 💔
I lost my dad to suicide, a month after I turned 18 yrs old. The grief from suicide is complicated and unlike other types of grief. I also know what it’s like to lose a child. I lost my daughter at 12 yrs old, she was riding her bike home from school, she had her earbuds in and she unfortunately wasn’t wearing her helmet. She crossed the crosswalk on her bike, she wasn’t looking for traffic and she didn’t hear anything because of her earbuds. She suffered serious head trauma, as well as other injuries. She was life flighted to the hospital, where she remained for a week, we were enduring a waiting game, to see if her brain would stop swelling, and unfortunately her brain continued to swell. I sat and watched as the dr checked her pupils, and declared her brain dead. We took her off the ventilator. That day heaven gained an angel. I lost my daughter. I miss her dearly. She would have been a senior in high school this year. She would have been 18 yrs old. I miss her every single waking moment. My heart aches to see her again. I want to tell you, it never gets easier, but you learn to cope better. You learn to live with the grief. Don’t ever, ever let anyone dictate how you mourn your loss. You will process it in your own way. Sending so much love and prayers your way. I know I am late to this video, but I also know, it likely still feels like this just happened.
I also want you to know, my father wrote in his suicide note that he accepted God as his savior as well. He asked for forgiveness. He is in heaven. His pain was too great for earth.
Take your time. Process in your own way. Remember to allow yourself to feel the emotions. From my heart to yours. ❤️
Sending you lots of love ❤️
I’m wondering if losing someone to suicide hurts more than losing someone to murder
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I have been thinking of yall since seeing your wife's video. Dang I'm already crying. My heart goes out to you both and your families. I heard her say something about what he last said to her. I know you know but I'll say it anyways. We cant always ask for forgiveness for every sin because the amount of information we consume in one day is overwhelming. All sin is forgiven and nothing can separate us from the love of God. My grandpa shot himself in the heart after his then wife left. His heart was broken and he couldnt bare it any longer. This kept my moma up at night worried for his soul. So this is what I told her to ease some of the pain and guilt she felt. This last living act is not the sum of their life. Look at all the positive he brought everyday. Every smile or laugh and his contribution he has given over the years. That is what he would want yall to reflect on when you think of him. As you will because we cant help but blame ourselves at times thinking we couldve prevented it. I still "what if" myself because my moma died in a car accident her and a 18 wheeler hit head on. That was 4-7-17 and that was the day my heart went with her. It's hard and I think will always be hard but my life is still here and she wouldnt want mine to stop because hers did. So when you what if or blame yourself for missing something. Please remember that you did not make those decisions and you can not change what is done. Yall are already such a strong family. Doing one on ones with your babies and the love you give daily. Dont forget yourself. Take the time to also take care of yourself. Remind your wife of yall vows because theres going to come a day that she or you cant. Let her know that it's ok because you are there to be the strength needed so you and God will walk for her that day. Cry hard and cry loud its healing. Just dont let yourself get lost in it. I hope you found comfort in this or at the least helped remind you of something you may have already known just forgot. My heart goes out to yall and I'll leave you with what I come to know in my 36 yrs here in this life.
"To love is to know pain." -Crystal
I can’t imagine what you guys are going through. I’m so sorry for your loss.
I'm so sorry for your loss mama 😢😭 my whole heart in prayer goes out to you and your family. I can't even imagine your pain. Lord in heaven I ask in my sincerest prayers to please bring this mother comfort to her soul 🙏🏽🙌🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽❤️👑
As a mother I’ll never understand why she would post this so quick
It’s not for you to know, we all take the death of a child differently, so mind your business.
It could be therapeutic for them to document their healing journey. I'm sure they're hurting and the pain will never go away, but talking about this experience may make it a little more bearable. 🙏
Said what I said
Started watching your videos because I’ve watched your short clips with Byron and fell in love with his voice. I just learning about your son Cyrus. I’m sorry but I cried through your whole explanation of what happened to him. You were so strong for being able to talk about it. Thanks for sharing.
I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. Your family will be in my prayers 🙏 RIP Cyrus ❤️❤️
Even though this happened a couple of years ago, this still tugs at my heartstrings.😔
The fact that she can calmly explain how her son looked after the accident shows just how string she is...my prayers and condolences to the Baxter family.🙏🏾
I've had my suicidal moments on too many occasions..but a higher power always showed me the way every time..to any1 feeling this way, if u haven't heard it enough, U R LOVED!!!..U R SPECIAL!!!..U R WANTED!!!..U R NEEDED MORE THAN U KNOW OR REALIZE!!!!!.. sending my deepest and most heartfelt condolences to this family..the strength in her voice jus talking about it is EVERYTHING..💔💔😢🙏🏾🙏🏾
Stay strong..please for those that love you!!!!
Amen
Thanks be to God! Through Him you, I, and everyone who will see this comment will be saved. Amen Hallelujah!!
Life is a vapor and it’s so fragile we’re just passing through! My condolences to you and your family at this time so sorry to hear about your son passing!!!!
Just passing through...we are all walking each other home. 🕊
@@staceywilliams1863 so true beautifully said!!!
@@redbone8844 Thank you!
Sadly my home life and mental health wasn’t amazing at the time, but I now felt horrible for my mother and mother only after attempting. I overdosed and I just couldn’t do it anymore! Surprisingly life got so much better, I have a new family/chosen family! They have made me so much happier than anything! I am sorry for y’all’s lost! I wish nothing but peace and love to you.
My prayers go out to you and the family May God comfort and heal you all.
I thank God for giving you the strength to beautifully share your story about your son. Mental illness is a great thief and Deceiver of your mind. May God continue to comfort you and your family always as you mourn the loss of your dear son Cyrus. Blessings 🙏🏽💜
talking about the details is necessary sometimes. really opens peoples eyes to what people and family get to see when you pass. you guys are so strong.
I pray everyday over my 26 year old and 18 year old as I don’t know if I’d have your strength god forbid….. Sis, keep breathing and be gentle with yourself and give thanks for the time with your beautiful baby.
All I know to say is that God Jehovah is able and willing to see you through. My deepest and heartfelt condolences are with your entire family.
I’m so sorry. From the bottom of my heart. I pray for your sons soul, and for his healing. I pray for you and your husband and children. That you may overcome this, that you may find happiness in little things again. No one should bury a child. I call upon god and all his grace to lead your family to healing. Love. Light. And for your beautiful sons soul and presence to be at peace and with you always. All my love🤍 rest in paradise
The devil wants to take out as many guys please fight the lies with the word of God and hang on . I’m telling you this for God has delivered me from those spirits of depression and suicidal thoughts and torment. No slepp for half a year I’m telling y’all Jesus Christ will be there for you ❤.
Mum Listen there is nothing like having the peace of God as your Comfort. It is obvious that your strength is because of your relationship with God and Byron feeds off of your relationship. He is priceless and again. Im so sorry for your loss.
This is the worst feeling seeing my mother the way she reacted to hearing my brother died is so horrible I send my condolences
Im so so sorry i lost one of my friends to suicide in 2020. Im so sorry this happened to yall. I understand what your going threw. Praying for you guys to heal and overcome this. May your life be filled with happiness and love and strength god bless. ❤
I’m sorry I can’t like this video because of the loss of your son, I felt the pain man. Seeing you walk around the car, seeing the blood. Then hearing mom describe what she saw when she saw her son omgggg my heart and I’m not even his mother😢😢😢my heart is with y’all. Take care and stay strong💔😘
No one knows what would make someone commit suicide there are signs we tend to miss and what I truly believe that every smile does mean that a person is happy . It has been said that when a person is to happy you need to pay closer attention because they're sending out signs to people around them . I was just watching a video of mom showing off her 4 boys and them all being in the house at the same time .How proud was this mom and now to loose a child in this manner is so devastating I'm sure my condolences to the family with heart felt blessings and love 💔🙏🏽🕊️
He was a nice looking young man; I'm sorry that yall had to go thru this. I'm sorry that he felt like he had no way out. R.I.H 🙏
I’m so sorry. My heart absolutely breaks for you. My teenage son got his license today. I don’t think I’ll ever feel at ease again. Mam I can’t imagine. I just want to hug you and wrap your whole family in love and comfort.
Praying for you all🙏😢
I’ve been battling depression for so many years. I lost everything after I almost died from Covid 3 years ago, I haven’t been able to find a job , due to my eviction while I was in the hospital my credit is terrible and I can’t get a place , I lost my car, I mean EVERYTHING, I have no way to take care of my son financially, no one wants to help, it gets to the point like why am I here ? I’m depressed, I’ve been struggling and fighting to get my life back and nope, nothing is happening, I keep praying to God every day to help me and be able to get a job at least so I can provide for my son but nothing is happening. Just a few days ago I just wanted to take my life, but I keep thinking of what’s gonna happen to my 15 year old son, and it hurts me even more. I know what it’s like to feel depressed and to feel like there’s no way out. Ppl don’t understand how hard depression is and ppl think it’s a joke , it’s not. Plz take care of those who are telling you that they are not ok and that they have depression. Help them! I’m so sorry for your loss. Amen
Be strong
Let's keep fighting for our kids
Oh my Gosh the pain was overwhelming for me… so I can only imagine the pain your family is in!!! I felt so guilty because I complained about minor silly things all week long.. I even cried about those
Small things and to think that you all were there dealing with this!!! My heart is broken for you!! My prayers are all I have to offer you and I know with confidence that God
Will he’s your hearts!
This is heartbreaking, just listening to you! I can't imagine the pain you feel! Sending prayers, love and hugs! Sleep well baby boy! Depression is real💜😔
This took a lot of courage to post, thank you. I go through a lot of depression and suicidal thoughts, and have felt the effects of suicide in my family. I know exactly what your talking about when you speak about the outbursts, and struggle with this myself. Just know your son fought hard, and did not mean for you to feel pain. You did nothing to cause this, he loved you more than himself.
Dear Father, comfort the family in this difficult time. Amen, amen, amen. Rest on baby boy🕊🕊🕊
So many people find suicide as a weakness and that you’re weak if you do such a thing. But as someone that has and still deals with depression and suicidal thoughts it a war worse than anything known to man. It’s a battle with yourself. You want nothing but to find happiness within yourself while the you that you are hates yourself.. It’s a hard feeling of disappointment.. It’s wanting nothing but freedom of this locked place of hell in your head.. It’s sad but some just don’t know until it’s too late.. You may always be loved but please Family, Friends, Strangers, let people know they are loved every day! Love is all we want, we want to be loved and appreciated by others aswell as ourselves.. please understand suicide and depression isn’t a joke and it’s a harsh reality we need to take into our hands and help solve.. I love you guys.. Keep your heads up. Youre going to do amazing things.. and You’re going to be okay!❤️
My heart goes out to your family. This video hit me in my soul because I myself suffer from depression and mental illness …2 years ago around the end of march it got so bad for me that at one point I had parked in a church parking lot and there was a mountain drop off on the other side of the road and my plan was to pray really hard and floor my gas pedal because I didn’t know what else to do ..because I was tired because I felt like I was fighting a never ending battle and I had more bad days then good… I’m crying praying and yelling and it’s raining so hard on this day and the heavy rain seemed to represent a picture of my soul and I asked God …if my life matters…If I need to hold on a little longer please give me a sign and when I lift my head up …in all this rain here comes this animal running right in the direct path towards my car and I’m like what animal is in this heavy storm and when it got close enough for me to tell what it was…I seen it was a groundhog…I felt God tell me hold on just a little bit longer and it may be raining and you may be weary but spring is about to come and you will bloom again….
Your story hit me in my soul because I was exactly where he was… I pray God lifts his soul and your families soul as well! Each day I will keep you all in prayer 🙏 and each day I make it through I will always think of your son..I will push through for everyone who ever thought the only way is out… I hug you all with love and prayer 🙏
Sending you prayers and a big 🫂
Your son said he was suicidal and you told him if he accepts Jesus he won’t go to hell… (for committing suicide?) that sounds encouraging
It’s as if they are glorifying the scene of the accident & his car. And then she is livestream very gory details about what Cyrus’s body looked like….some thing’s should stay personal 🙄🙄
May his soul rest in peace🙏🙏
My condolences to you Queen and King, Family prayer's go out to you and your family from me and mines.🙏🙏🙏
His face is right there? Are you serious why in the bell would someone be ok with posting something like that very bad to me such a personal situation very sad his face right there I don’t even see how you can talk and not sound sad or cry seriously you need to be evaluated
They said his PLATES. LICENSE PLATES. Everyone grieves differently and they were able to compose themselves to make this video and that is incredible. I lost my daughter and her father within six months of one another in 2021 and still pray for the strength these people have. Please pray for my daughter and I and appreciate the miracle of peace this grieving family has achieved.
So no other parent will have go through this
OMG, SO SO SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS. I WILL KEEP YOUR FAMILY IN MY PRAYERS.🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
Idk if any of y’all noticed it but she is recording all the details on two different phones while they were fishing. He committed suicide due to his parents neglect to get him the help he needed before it was to late
I was thinking the same thing
....even stopping mid sentence of horrific details to say "oooh...I got a bite!" and try to land a fish.
I can't imagine how someone can sound so... indifferent.
Poor Cyrus 💔
Baxter Family you all are in my thoughts and prayers.
Baxter family you have my sincere condolences! I lost my baby boy at 21 years old twenty one years ago by the hands of the Serial Killer in Flint, Mi.My son was also suffering from depression before his life was taken away from him. I tried all I could to keep him close to me but I couldn’t, it still hurts but I know he’s in a better place with the Lord! He finally has his peace. God be with you and I’m praying for your peace !
I just can't even believe you all were even able to record this. 🥺
She love attention but don’t show that to her kids…..#Praying ForHisSiblings….
They want to help others....that is why they recorded it.
@@shiyacroft7545 how dare you.
@@izmarie7660 how dare you ,My opinion how I view her on social media so byeeeee.
My prayers are with you, my heart is breaking for you.🙏🏽📖
My heart sincerely breaks for you. It’s my biggest fear. My prayers are with you all xxx
This is absolutely heartbreaking. My son struggles with his mental health, as do I, and we've had a couple of scary moments. It's so hard to see your child like that. I wish I could hold you right now.💜
I’m so sorry about your son. I Got the worst call of my life 2 days ago from the medical examiner. I’m heartbroken 💔💍Sleep peacefully babe😢 let’s bring more mainstream light to mental health
I'm going through this with my 19 year old. God almighty my sister. I am praying with you and my deepest sympathy 🌹 🙏 You are a woman of strength. He will forever be with you in memories
Sending prayers love and positive energy to you and your beautiful family. I watch your videos and admire your strength. Thank you for sharing your story and your beautiful family with us.
She “tried” to hide the phone behind the reel of the fishing pole 🤦🏼♀️
Mother of Cyrus... I'm just hearing of this sad news and I sincerely cry for you my dear. I began watching your special needs Lil boy yrs ago. I since have taken your kids into my heart. So, you lost a son but your you tube family has lost a sweet nephew. We love you all as a family. Me myself family is everything.... Let the joy he was to you speak for his life. As troubled as he was...still remember he was your first love. It's not gonna be easy but just know it is well....even when it's not.
#absentfromthebody#presantwiththelord....
Love you all
AUNTY KEISHA IN VA
I’m so so sorry for your loss…praying for your family. I hope that this video helps kids understand what happens when they do this and how the pain they are feeling just gets past on to the ones that love them them most!
The story is not particularly about the suicide and the pain that is reflected on to those that are still here the story is about the mental health the lack of mental health help to keep young men like Cyrus from being depressed and feeling alone to commit suicide because mental illness in young people is on the rise and it is very real and those who have a somewhat sane mind do not understand
My Deepest Sympathy to you and your family praying 🙏🏾 🙏🏾🙏🏾
yo, i don't comment much but i GOTTA say this: as someone who has dealt w| suicidal ideations + suicide attempts myself for reasons related to physical + mental illness + disability, i gotta tell you what you may already know: this is not either of y'all's fault. the shoulda, coulda, wouldas will eat y'all alive if you let it. i pray it doesn't. 🖤❤
THIS. WAS NOT. Y'ALL'S. FAULT!
i don't blv suicide is selfish b|c only the person dealing w| the pain can deal w| the pain, be it physical or mental. our loved ones cannot love away the pain + sometimes there is absolutely nothing that can be said if the pain + suffering is too great. if you loved him unconditionally + raised him well, you did your job.
i truly hate he's gone. i can imagine how much pain he was in to make that decision + i can relate. his suffering is gone too. gotta stress again: this isn't y'all's fault. + i promise you, if you loved him unconditionally, he knew y'all loved him.
i'm not one to say i'm gonna pray when i'm not + usually i will forget but i've already said a prayer for y'all + will keep him + your family in my thoughts + meditations. waheguruji ki khalsa waheguruji ki fateh! satnam.
hello I know im just a random person on the internet typing this to you but truly thank you for commenting this its so negative to see people lose focus on the details like this and instead go straight to bashing or swearing the dead wont rest peacefully. I wish you nothing but good things in life once again thank you for having good thoughts and a good heart.
Something is really off about you all.
U never know others pain..
Yes Lord.I say this daily,you never know what a person is going through and this pandemic is not helping at all.🙏
I suffer with depression very bad and have had thoughts of suicide I just keep praying and believing God is going to heal me from this terrible disease🙏🙏🙏
I pray 🙏 for peace, strength, and healing Condolences.