Believe it or not, How to Be Me is an equally captivating collaboration they did together. Chinchilla is awe inspiring on her own as well. Little Girl Gone, and Fingers are definitely worth hearing! Great reaction Aileen (as always) and thank you for all your hard work and dedication in bringing all of us with you on this incredible journey!! 😊
How to be me is a MUST WATCH! It's about his friend who he was minutes away from saving before he jumped off a bridge. Makes the last lines he sings so gut wrenching knowing this.
For me I relate it to my drug addiction and depression. That’s why this is such a powerful song. Anyone struggling can relate it to what they are facing. I just found them today and I’m in the rabbit hole lol my 2 new favorite artists
8:32 You explained the chalk outlines yourself, Aileen. When you talked about your own experience taking medication and you not feeling yourself, looking from the outside, feeling like a zombie of some sort... you walked inside your own floating chalk outline. You felt absent, almost dead, not in touch with the world. Truly touching reaction, thank you for your emotions. You're an angel.
When Ren and Chinchilla duet it's so much more than 2 people singing. It is 2 souls connecting and dancing around so beautifully in song. It feels like an honor to witness.
The "I'm scarred of being ok, cause all things change" line is rough. You get comfortable with your depression and then the thought of being ok scares the crap out of you because you know it won't last.
I've heard someone who is also a performer saying he was afraid of the rehab and therapy, because he feared that his depresion was what made him funny on stage.
I'm living in the south of Germany, 2 hours to Austria, Switzerland, Italy and the Netherlands, 1 hour to France and every day surrounded by people from all over the world. I know that has nothing to do with music reactions, but you're one of the most beautiful women i've ever seen... and the fact that you're smart adds tons to it. Very impressive! Thx for your reactions! 😘🔥❤️
Such a heartfelt reaction Aileen. This one hits hard. The fantastic chemistry and harmonies between Ren and Chinchilla really lift this one to another level. "How to be me" (Live) is another fantastic collaboration between the two of them.
For me the chalk outline reference means living as a zombie, a living dead when on antidepressants since they take away most feelings and energy one has. "Still here in this bed that I crawled in." "Take this one, wash it down and you'll be fine. The feeling goes and you draw a chalk outline." That's how I understand it anyway, don't know if that's how Ren meant it. And as always, thanks for the reaction.
As someone with mental health issues, this song is lifesaving. Ren's ability to resonate with us really helps to dry up the feeling of being completely alone in the universe. And Chinchilla's voice?? DAMN. It hurts in all the right places. How is this song not absolutely everywhere yet?? Oh, that's right, because Ren has integrity on top of everything else.
I can't remember hearing such a powerful duet ever, simply love their chemistry. "How to be Me" by them is as emotional , if not more due to the subject. Chinchilla's Fingers Live is Stunning as well. Love your reactions so much.
Beautiful reaction Hun. If this makes you emotional, you have to watch & listen to "Crutch" I warn you though, have tissues nearby 😢 it's heartbreaking and Beautiful. His ex-girlfriend is in it with him. It was made 7years ago when he was at his worst health wise. He was in so much physical and mental pain. 😢 So the fact that he could still create such a stunning piece of art is testament to his resilience and genius. I look forward to seeing you react. You are obviously a beautiful soul yourself. Take care. Sending love from the UK 💕
You said exactly what chalk outlines were. You stated the lines marked a body of the dead. You had said when you took the pills you felt as if you were floating above your own body as if you were a guardian angel looking down on your body going through life. You raised yourself in these floating chalk outline.
Beautiful reaction Aileen. This song always gives me goosebumps and it throws my emotions all over the place. Incredible duet, they both have phenomenal voices.
Lovely and relatable reaction, Aileen. It's hauntingly beautiful. As a happy timeline cleanse and a chance to admire Ren's brilliant guitaring, his busking I shot the Sheriff/Road to Zion/Hip Hop with his former band, the Big Push. He does busking with Chinchilla too but an absolute masterpiece is their live How to Be Me. That'll be a box of tissues number!
Oh, and I can't speak to anyone else's interpretation, but for me the "floating chalk outlines" refer to the feeling of deading ones emotions and concealing how one feels all in order to function in the daily life happening around oneself..
When you talked about the feeling of being an NPC in life while on meds I felt that. It's the reason I struggle with taking meds for my issues. I battle with wanting to be okay and wanting to feel my emotions full force. It's my own personal bugbear.
It's so very healing. I think many of us has felt that way & he gave us words for it. So many times I have felt like that. The frustration of just being so confused with everything. You're sick & they give you meds. Then they quit giving you meds but the problem hasn't been solved so you end up turning towards the wrong kind of meds. cause that's all you can get & you think the street meds are helping but they're not. Then they tell you your wrong for taking meds. Nothing helps & you just get caught in a viscous cycle. Some don't come out of it. My son didn't. I found out REN has Lyme disease & was misdiagnosed for years. Looking through everything I remembered when my son was around 5 we had to take him to the ER to have a tic dug out of him. He got really sick & was sick & suffering for so long & we not once thought he could have had Lyme disease. It has helped me though because I know he's not suffering anymore. He'd been in & out of jail but had started to turn his life around when a neighbor called the police on him & they took him in on a warrant that was 61/2 yrs. old. Off paper at 7. In his cell within 61/2 hrs. in June. He would have loved REN & I feel a closeness to him through REN. I feel like I taught my children well & now I don't have either one of them. If it wasn't for The Good Lord I would have joined them but He has me here for something & I know I'll be with them again. They suffer no more. I think you're a beautiful young lady. I love people's reactions & I think REN does watch people's reactions. I find it so freeing to know that I'm not alone in those feelings. So many of us suffer them & can relate. Music is so healing.
love seeing Ren and Chinchilla bring the emotion out in people. Thanks for the great heartfelt reaction! Its super relatable for me personally, I have PTSD, and drowning it out with pills and substances sometimes makes life bearable, but in the end you just end up feeling like a chalkoutline. Avoid, avoid, avoid....
Perfect reaction and you are right, Ren is a gift to us all, he unapologetically shares is health and mental issues in a raw but relatable way for the benefit of others to share hope and not beg sympathy, a rare talent that touches all that have found him.
Both have an extreme amount of talent , Chinchilla's voice is very angelic and when she sings with Ren its quite something, i hope they do more collabs in the future
The way your Heartbeat went down in the beginning of the Song... i felt that.. because it slowed me down physically. The lyrics and sound kick deep... almost ripping open forgotten scars to heal properly this time, than being hastily patched.
How To Be Me LIVE is another haunting but fantastic duo by these 2. Deep to say the least but it's amazingly raw and heartfelt. ❤ Love your honesty on your reactions. Hugs from Scotland
What a powerful reaction, Aileen! I'm so glad you got to this song. It's one of my all-time favourites. As a few others have said, the 'Chalk Outlines' is generally taken to mean that exact feeling you described of not feeling like yourself when you were on medication. "Walk around in a floating chalk outline"... the meds stop you feeling almost anything, you're just a shell, an outline of yourself, walking around like a zombie. There's also a hint of self-medicating with other things.. "push it back down with an new habit", but that can also mean just trying a second med to counteract the side effects of the first one, then a third and so on and so on, chasing something - anything - to make you feel ok. And yet being scared of feeling ok, because you know it doesn't last and you'll just get hurt again if you allow yourself to be happy for a moment. Or at least, that's my take on it. I loved when you pointed upwards and waved your finger in the air a few times when Chinchilla hit the high notes during the bridge! I do exactly the same every time - it's exhilarating listening to her voice dance around up there. I'd highly recommend their other duet "How to be me" (the live version). They take the harmonies and emotion up to a whole new level in that. It's honestly breathtakingly good. But again, it's desperately sad, so have the tissues handy. I'd also encourage you to have a peek into the Chinchilla rabbit hole - Fingers (Live for Hunger TV) is an astonishing live performance. Seriously, Chinchilla is a powerhouse and deserves all the love she has been getting lately.
I've seen this 20 times...? 50 times? I don't know but it still chokes me up. And although I don't have experience with it, I think you summed up exactly what the song is referring to when they talk about "Chalk Outlines". One of the main points is walking around in a chalk outline - not being present - not really living, just a walking dead shadow of yourself because of the medication they put people on. My wife deals with depression and she has told me about medications that they had put her on that made her empty, running red lights without a care about the consequences or what could happen. "Walking around in a floating chalk outline..."
The chalk outline analogy is exactly that out of body experience you talked about when being medicated. You feel like you are already dead. A walking corpse, hence the floating chalk outline around you. Like a reverse halo. Or that is how I perceive it.
200 Views of Chalk Outlines and the Emotion still Brings Goosebumps and tears Ren And Chinchoilla Kick you in the chest every time . You really Need to Watch the Live version of How to be me. now
I connected the phrase "chalk outline" to the place where the body used to be. When there's nothing left of you but a fading outline of who you were. Great reaction, looking forward to more!
The beautiful waves coming out of there voices sounds so so magnificent I’m adding this to my playlist I love it 100% and all the messages and meanings I resonate with it aswell
I'm not sure if they have expounded on the chalk outline thing however I read is as you live in the "floating" chalk outline. As in: it's drawn around you from the moment you're effectively made numb from the pills. They turn you from a human into just a husk that knows how to walk. Well worth Exploring Chinchilla too, she is phenomenal. My personal favourite of the biggies that get a lot of reacts is Elements, that's got a bass sound to die for and some gorgeous vocal layers, all done by her. They're all good though, I love the video for Fingers, the song has moments of quite intense brutality and the pulsing music in the studio version just adds so much depth, and menace, to the horrific descriptions. The live version is good but it's just sung over piano so you lose the music but gain Chinchilla's goosebump raising performance. She is incredible.
❤❤ I loved your reaction. So heart-felt. You explained chaulk outlines without realizing. When you recalled feeling of being out of body thats it. Taking the medication and making you feel not like yourself. The real you is like the walking dead. Or a floating chaulk outline going through the motions but it's not you it what the medication made you feel - most times nothing, dead. And by taking the medication you draw your chaulk outline. And what the medication does to you erases you in the chaulk outline. So you had it. Keep up the amazing work.
This song never fails to make me cry, I'm glad you hit this one next. This one hits so hard in the gut but it's also so catchy and perfect that you find yourself singing it. Walking around in a floating chalk outline is such a hard line.
100% do a reaction to How To Be Me by these, live version again 👌 the Ren rabbit hole is truly a blessing and Chinchilla has an equally powerful voice, both physically and metaphorically
Ren gets you right in the feelz. He is such an amazing lyricist, drawing from his own experiences. He speaks for so many people going through their own struggles. Great reaction!
What I enjoyed is that this was an actual reaction video. No cut every 30' to tell me what I have seen. loved it. I watch videos like these to feel like I'm not the only one to feel.
So glad you finally made it to this amazing masterpiece! To me when they say "chalk outlines" it's that feeling you were describing when you're on the medication, we don't feel like yourself you don't quite feel alive, colors and flavors are muted, you don't have any real drive or passion. Basically it makes them feel like they're half in the grave already.
This is one of my favourites! Thankyou for reaching to this one, but its crazy i love watching your reactions you seem to feel every word & take them in fully ❤... i do the same! 🤦♂️ lol So keep reacting & ill keep warching x
Chinchilla held NOTHING back in the last parts.. their harmony was beautiful.. the message was/is so important. Aileen, I am SO VERY GLAD you got to this side of your struggle. PLEASE keep up the great work... I have no shame saying my eyes weren't dry either. Peace, Love and Amazing music to all.
I love your reactions. You can see that you're absolutely feeling every second, it's a joy to watch. You have many layers of beauty, not just the way you look - you're also so real and so emotive and in tune with the world around you. Get it! Wishing you all the best.
LOVE this reaction. Chinchilla and Ren are both such blessed musical discoveries. The reactions to Ren have been astounding and its always funny when people hear lil Chinchilla for the first time! Together they are a perfect musical match :)
Now I'm crying at work, Damn This one just absolutely crushes me, the lyricism here is untouchable!! Related all too well, beautiful reaction!! Would love to see you do Ren- Diazepam
thank you for your honest feed back and opening up to us all really appreciate it Ren back catalogue will continue to amaze you sending big love from the UK ❤❤❤
This one hit me so hard the first time I heard it - and still does to this day. The Chalk Outlines refer to feeling like you are just a hollow shell, dead inside - a walking or floating Chalk Outline while on the Meds. Such an incredible track on so many levels. As others have mentioned "How to be me [Live]" is another wonderful Ren X Chinchilla collaboration, and is full of such powerful emotion... I have to make sure I have a box of tissues with me whenever I watch the video - and I'm a 58 year old bloke who can usually hold it together during an emotional song. Not so with Ren - his artistry hits different.
You are looking so awesome today amazing video love your reaction to this video thank you so much for sharing this video with us love it Aileen.🌹🌹🌹❤️❤️👍
Aileen, you will relate to their live duet version of How To Be Me even more, trust me! ♥️ It literally broke me, and continues to do so, but it's so hauntingly beautiful at the same time. They definitely know how to convey some deep and vulnerable emotions through their voices and music.
watching your reaction was so beautiful and affirming.. when that song ends i'm never ready. I'm always so caught up in the desperation and intensity that I can't believe it's over. Thank you for sharing that with me @Aileensenpai ..
I knew it was going to resonate with you :) They're a force of nature on their own but man, together they are so in tune with eachother. They call themselves musical siblings and you can really see that. I'm looking forward to more of them together (Ren said he was defo going to work more with her in the future)
I really do not think Ren has made a bad song and somehow every live version seems to be even better than the recorded versions. But I think this has to be my favourite so far and can not get enough of it. So glad the You tube algorithm pushed Hi Ren to me on Xmas day last year. It spoke to me deeply and hit like a sledgehammer. I was lucky enough to hear him before the reaction boom hit for him and I do not think there have been many independent artists, if any, that has both been pushed soo well by and for the reaction community. And he is humble enough to realise and appreciate that fact. There have been very few days since hearing Hi Ren that I have not listened to one of his songs. A once in a generation talent IMO.
Since discovering him (thanks for reacting to Hi Ren, that's where it started for me) i fell down a massive Ren rabbithole...love his music - your reaction to this song was pretty much the same as mine, and no matter how many times i've heard it i still tear up by the end... Chalk Outlines is about, imho, the medical system just pushing pills at you for everything instead of figuring out what's actually wrong and fixing it - to the point that you're on so many pills you're pretty much dead inside and are a "walking chalk outline", as well as how it affects your mental health - "such a perfect day, take it just in case, scared of being ok cos all things change..." And as fantastic as the harmonies are here, they're even better on "How To Be Me (live)" - stunningly heartbreaking. Other Ren tunes to check out are Fire, Money Game 1+2 (3 is on the way soon), Crutch, The Hunger, Blind Eyed (The Live version is great and kinda amusing too), the Love Music trilogy, Diazepam, Ocean, 1990's and Freckled Angels. Then there's his busking video's which are fantastic to watch and listen to... Also loving Chinchilla as well, i recommend Fingers (Live) and Little Girl Gone (Which a couple wks ago was #1 in the US streaming charts ;) )
Aaaaand holy crap i've just got home from work and listened to the new tune he dropped tonight...punched squarely in the feels and then some...emotional and powerful aren't words to do it justice, and it's a touchy topic as well but so well written and performed.
I LOVE this song, but wait until you here the other track they do together, "How To Be Me" make sure you do the live version, it's one of most technically skilled harmonizing I've heard in a quite some time, but the content of the lyrics will tear your heart out. Great reaction!!
Their other collaboration “How to Be Me” is an absolute must. Especially the live version. It’s even more haunting than this one in my mind and this is already one of the best duets I’ve ever heard. Cheers
Aileen, your reactions are always so amazing to watch because of your empathy with the singers. Even though I know empathy can be a blessing, it can also be a curse. Take care and thank you so much for sharing you. :)
I think the chalk outline represents walking around feeling dead or zombie like from the medication side effects or even just from the symptoms of different mental illnesses. Like the mental fog, etc It's such a beautiful song filled with so many truths around taking these medicines that are supposed to help us but sometimes they make us worse or create new problems for us. It can be interpreted so many different ways, that's just the beauty of music & art! ❤
Thanks for sharing , the line I’m ´I’m scared of being ok ‘ resonates so strongly, in HI Ren the line y’´you gotta kill you if you wanna kill me ‘ lines up with that . That said it’s not surprising we hold onto our pain and suffering we do it with physical injuries as well .
Great content in this upload. The emotion of both of these gifted artists is remarkable. These are artists that are changing the face of music, of communication and becoming a voice of several generations. What I really like about your content is your truly take the journey with the viewer, rarely cut off the content and that I respect.
Watching your expressions works magic on me . Keep up the good work . And take care of your mental health . Life is soooo mutch more . One step at a time . You can do it . You are a gem inside and out for sure hope you know this too . Depression hits so many of us . For differant reasons . I went trough abuse and a hard life after this . But i live a good life now . So can you and i think you are on the good path .
Chinchilla is a great rabbit hole to go down. Her live performance of fingers is freaking amazing, she is a powerhouse
I second this recommendation. Make sure to watch the live version. It's incredible!
yep
Yeah Fingers is a SPECIAL song, especially the live version
Totally agree she’s amazing fingers live
Do it ASAP! Lol
Believe it or not, How to Be Me is an equally captivating collaboration they did together. Chinchilla is awe inspiring on her own as well. Little Girl Gone, and Fingers are definitely worth hearing! Great reaction Aileen (as always) and thank you for all your hard work and dedication in bringing all of us with you on this incredible journey!! 😊
Would go for the live versions of How to be me, and Fingers.
I think how to be me is even better if that's possible. They're both such great artists
You have to add Elements in for Chinchilla... Amazing on quality audio!!!
How to be me is a MUST WATCH! It's about his friend who he was minutes away from saving before he jumped off a bridge. Makes the last lines he sings so gut wrenching knowing this.
Agreed, How To Be Me is a must listen. Just make sure to do the live version. It's amazing.
For me chalk outline refers to dead inside feeling you get after depression and anxiety meds. Like a zombie. A floating chalk outline. ❤
That’s such a great explanation.
Yeah.. feeling like the walking dead.. is how it kind of hit me.. the pills numbing you.. killing the ‘you’.. erasing the ‘you’
For me I relate it to my drug addiction and depression. That’s why this is such a powerful song. Anyone struggling can relate it to what they are facing. I just found them today and I’m in the rabbit hole lol my 2 new favorite artists
For all escapism, and drugs in general, for me it was E, speed, cannabis, etc... anything you use to numb the pain.
not the fragility of life and how we can die at any moment becoming a chalk outline like the ones the police draw around a body?
8:32 You explained the chalk outlines yourself, Aileen. When you talked about your own experience taking medication and you not feeling yourself, looking from the outside, feeling like a zombie of some sort... you walked inside your own floating chalk outline. You felt absent, almost dead, not in touch with the world.
Truly touching reaction, thank you for your emotions. You're an angel.
I'm a 49yr old man an this one broke me down. Such a beautiful song, these two are amazing. Great reaction ❤
EVERY TIME
45 here and this one gets me every time too
I appreciate the timing of Ren in my world. He's sent me to some amazing humans 🫶🫡💜
When Ren and Chinchilla duet it's so much more than 2 people singing. It is 2 souls connecting and dancing around so beautifully in song. It feels like an honor to witness.
The "I'm scarred of being ok, cause all things change" line is rough. You get comfortable with your depression and then the thought of being ok scares the crap out of you because you know it won't last.
I've heard someone who is also a performer saying he was afraid of the rehab and therapy, because he feared that his depresion was what made him funny on stage.
I'm living in the south of Germany, 2 hours to Austria, Switzerland, Italy and the Netherlands, 1 hour to France and every day surrounded by people from all over the world. I know that has nothing to do with music reactions, but you're one of the most beautiful women i've ever seen... and the fact that you're smart adds tons to it. Very impressive! Thx for your reactions! 😘🔥❤️
Hi Aileen, another great reaction👏 . They also perform How To Be Me live, which I think is even better
Such a heartfelt reaction Aileen. This one hits hard. The fantastic chemistry and harmonies between Ren and Chinchilla really lift this one to another level. "How to be me" (Live) is another fantastic collaboration between the two of them.
For me the chalk outline reference means living as a zombie, a living dead when on antidepressants since they take away most feelings and energy one has. "Still here in this bed that I crawled in." "Take this one, wash it down and you'll be fine. The feeling goes and you draw a chalk outline." That's how I understand it anyway, don't know if that's how Ren meant it.
And as always, thanks for the reaction.
It really is an masterpiece I love REN✨& chinchilla 💫there magic 🥰
music is life ! 🎶
Music heals the soul ❤️🩹
As someone with mental health issues, this song is lifesaving. Ren's ability to resonate with us really helps to dry up the feeling of being completely alone in the universe.
And Chinchilla's voice?? DAMN. It hurts in all the right places.
How is this song not absolutely everywhere yet??
Oh, that's right, because Ren has integrity on top of everything else.
I can't remember hearing such a powerful duet ever, simply love their chemistry. "How to be Me" by them is as emotional , if not more due to the subject. Chinchilla's Fingers Live is Stunning as well. Love your reactions so much.
Beautiful reaction Hun.
If this makes you emotional, you have to watch & listen to "Crutch"
I warn you though, have tissues nearby 😢 it's heartbreaking and Beautiful. His ex-girlfriend is in it with him. It was made 7years ago when he was at his worst health wise. He was in so much physical and mental pain. 😢 So the fact that he could still create such a stunning piece of art is testament to his resilience and genius. I look forward to seeing you react.
You are obviously a beautiful soul yourself.
Take care. Sending love from the UK 💕
This was shot live and in 1 take
How to be me live....but prepare yourself, its emotional and magnificent
You said exactly what chalk outlines were. You stated the lines marked a body of the dead. You had said when you took the pills you felt as if you were floating above your own body as if you were a guardian angel looking down on your body going through life. You raised yourself in these floating chalk outline.
If you want to see another side of Ren, I recommend The Big Push - I Shot the Sheriff/Road to Zion/Hip Hop. What a great performance!
I concur - Make sure it’s the version from The Big Push’s website as opposed to the one on REN’s own channel.
Beautiful reaction Aileen. This song always gives me goosebumps and it throws my emotions all over the place. Incredible duet, they both have phenomenal voices.
Lovely and relatable reaction, Aileen. It's hauntingly beautiful. As a happy timeline cleanse and a chance to admire Ren's brilliant guitaring, his busking I shot the Sheriff/Road to Zion/Hip Hop with his former band, the Big Push. He does busking with Chinchilla too but an absolute masterpiece is their live How to Be Me. That'll be a box of tissues number!
Oh, and I can't speak to anyone else's interpretation, but for me the "floating chalk outlines" refer to the feeling of deading ones emotions and concealing how one feels all in order to function in the daily life happening around oneself..
Have you done the live version of “how to be me” yet by these two?
Always Love your Reactions Aileen, another Song of them together, How to be me Live is just as Epic
When you talked about the feeling of being an NPC in life while on meds I felt that. It's the reason I struggle with taking meds for my issues. I battle with wanting to be okay and wanting to feel my emotions full force. It's my own personal bugbear.
It's so very healing. I think many of us has felt that way & he gave us words for it. So many times I have felt like that. The frustration of just being so confused with everything. You're sick & they give you meds. Then they quit giving you meds but the problem hasn't been solved so you end up turning towards the wrong kind of meds. cause that's all you can get & you think the street meds are helping but they're not. Then they tell you your wrong for taking meds. Nothing helps & you just get caught in a viscous cycle. Some don't come out of it. My son didn't.
I found out REN has Lyme disease & was misdiagnosed for years. Looking through everything I remembered when my son was around 5 we had to take him to the ER to have a tic dug out of him. He got really sick & was sick & suffering for so long & we not once thought he could have had Lyme disease. It has helped me though because I know he's not suffering anymore. He'd been in & out of jail but had started to turn his life around when a neighbor called the police on him & they took him in on a warrant that was 61/2 yrs. old. Off paper at 7. In his cell within 61/2 hrs. in June. He would have loved REN & I feel a closeness to him through REN.
I feel like I taught my children well & now I don't have either one of them. If it wasn't for The Good Lord I would have joined them but He has me here for something & I know I'll be with them again. They suffer no more.
I think you're a beautiful young lady. I love people's reactions & I think REN does watch people's reactions. I find it so freeing to know that I'm not alone in those feelings. So many of us suffer them & can relate. Music is so healing.
Great reaction! Ren and Chinchilla in this song are both so incredible and this song hits me in the heart every single time!
Couldn't have said it better myself. 👋
love seeing Ren and Chinchilla bring the emotion out in people. Thanks for the great heartfelt reaction! Its super relatable for me personally, I have PTSD, and drowning it out with pills and substances sometimes makes life bearable, but in the end you just end up feeling like a chalkoutline. Avoid, avoid, avoid....
Perfect reaction and you are right, Ren is a gift to us all, he unapologetically shares is health and mental issues in a raw but relatable way for the benefit of others to share hope and not beg sympathy, a rare talent that touches all that have found him.
Such a beautiful song and reaction. This songs means so much to so many people.
Both have an extreme amount of talent , Chinchilla's voice is very angelic and when she sings with Ren its quite something, i hope they do more collabs in the future
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The way your Heartbeat went down in the beginning of the Song... i felt that.. because it slowed me down physically.
The lyrics and sound kick deep... almost ripping open forgotten scars to heal properly this time, than being hastily patched.
How To Be Me LIVE is another haunting but fantastic duo by these 2. Deep to say the least but it's amazingly raw and heartfelt. ❤ Love your honesty on your reactions. Hugs from Scotland
What a powerful reaction, Aileen! I'm so glad you got to this song. It's one of my all-time favourites.
As a few others have said, the 'Chalk Outlines' is generally taken to mean that exact feeling you described of not feeling like yourself when you were on medication.
"Walk around in a floating chalk outline"... the meds stop you feeling almost anything, you're just a shell, an outline of yourself, walking around like a zombie.
There's also a hint of self-medicating with other things.. "push it back down with an new habit", but that can also mean just trying a second med to counteract the side effects of the first one, then a third and so on and so on, chasing something - anything - to make you feel ok.
And yet being scared of feeling ok, because you know it doesn't last and you'll just get hurt again if you allow yourself to be happy for a moment.
Or at least, that's my take on it.
I loved when you pointed upwards and waved your finger in the air a few times when Chinchilla hit the high notes during the bridge!
I do exactly the same every time - it's exhilarating listening to her voice dance around up there.
I'd highly recommend their other duet "How to be me" (the live version).
They take the harmonies and emotion up to a whole new level in that. It's honestly breathtakingly good. But again, it's desperately sad, so have the tissues handy.
I'd also encourage you to have a peek into the Chinchilla rabbit hole - Fingers (Live for Hunger TV) is an astonishing live performance.
Seriously, Chinchilla is a powerhouse and deserves all the love she has been getting lately.
I've seen this 20 times...? 50 times? I don't know but it still chokes me up. And although I don't have experience with it, I think you summed up exactly what the song is referring to when they talk about "Chalk Outlines". One of the main points is walking around in a chalk outline - not being present - not really living, just a walking dead shadow of yourself because of the medication they put people on. My wife deals with depression and she has told me about medications that they had put her on that made her empty, running red lights without a care about the consequences or what could happen. "Walking around in a floating chalk outline..."
The chalk outline analogy is exactly that out of body experience you talked about when being medicated. You feel like you are already dead. A walking corpse, hence the floating chalk outline around you. Like a reverse halo. Or that is how I perceive it.
Lovely, passionate reaction. Another good song to react to is Ren - Humble
200 Views of Chalk Outlines and the Emotion still Brings Goosebumps and tears Ren And Chinchoilla Kick you in the chest every time
. You really Need to Watch the Live version of How to be me. now
You need to watch How to be me by Ren. X Chinchilla and Sick Boi by Ren
I got just as much from your reactions as I did from the music..Your expressions, tone and body language were very authentic, real and appreciated 👍🙂
I connected the phrase "chalk outline" to the place where the body used to be. When there's nothing left of you but a fading outline of who you were.
Great reaction, looking forward to more!
The beautiful waves coming out of there voices sounds so so magnificent I’m adding this to my playlist I love it 100% and all the messages and meanings I resonate with it aswell
I'm not sure if they have expounded on the chalk outline thing however I read is as you live in the "floating" chalk outline. As in: it's drawn around you from the moment you're effectively made numb from the pills. They turn you from a human into just a husk that knows how to walk.
Well worth Exploring Chinchilla too, she is phenomenal. My personal favourite of the biggies that get a lot of reacts is Elements, that's got a bass sound to die for and some gorgeous vocal layers, all done by her.
They're all good though, I love the video for Fingers, the song has moments of quite intense brutality and the pulsing music in the studio version just adds so much depth, and menace, to the horrific descriptions. The live version is good but it's just sung over piano so you lose the music but gain Chinchilla's goosebump raising performance. She is incredible.
❤❤ I loved your reaction. So heart-felt. You explained chaulk outlines without realizing. When you recalled feeling of being out of body thats it. Taking the medication and making you feel not like yourself. The real you is like the walking dead. Or a floating chaulk outline going through the motions but it's not you it what the medication made you feel - most times nothing, dead. And by taking the medication you draw your chaulk outline. And what the medication does to you erases you in the chaulk outline. So you had it. Keep up the amazing work.
The next one has to be How to be me. With Chinchilla. Great job
You have such a beautiful soul! Your reactions are so heartfelt.
This song never fails to make me cry, I'm glad you hit this one next. This one hits so hard in the gut but it's also so catchy and perfect that you find yourself singing it.
Walking around in a floating chalk outline is such a hard line.
As soon as those 3 notes started, your heart rate dropped, shows you a lot about what key notes calms you.
100% do a reaction to How To Be Me by these, live version again 👌
the Ren rabbit hole is truly a blessing and Chinchilla has an equally powerful voice, both physically and metaphorically
Ren X Chinchilla How to Be Me (live version), very emotional, beautiful. Loving your reactions. Peace.
Chinchilla - Fingers (Live for HungerTV) would be a great reaction.
This song grips your soul, "How to be me" by them breaks your heart
Ren gets you right in the feelz. He is such an amazing lyricist, drawing from his own experiences. He speaks for so many people going through their own struggles. Great reaction!
I'm so late. But this was a beautiful reaction!! I felt everything also. Ren is a savior and doesn't even know it. 💜🎶🕊🎵. Much love and respect.
Your reaction was exactly how I felt instantly subscribed I see how truly moved you are thankyou ❤
What I enjoyed is that this was an actual reaction video. No cut every 30' to tell me what I have seen. loved it. I watch videos like these to feel like I'm not the only one to feel.
This song gets me every time… it’s so real. Thank you Aileen, have a great day!
So glad you finally made it to this amazing masterpiece!
To me when they say "chalk outlines" it's that feeling you were describing when you're on the medication, we don't feel like yourself you don't quite feel alive, colors and flavors are muted, you don't have any real drive or passion. Basically it makes them feel like they're half in the grave already.
Beautiful reaction! Your face said more than words ever could. Thank you
This is one of my favourites!
Thankyou for reaching to this one, but its crazy i love watching your reactions you seem to feel every word & take them in fully ❤... i do the same! 🤦♂️ lol
So keep reacting & ill keep warching x
Fantastic reaction love and respect from the UK 👍👍👍👍👍👍🌟😀😀 amazing channel 👍
Rens colabs are great. How to be me with Chinchilla and Crutch with Bibi are both amazing.
Chinchilla held NOTHING back in the last parts.. their harmony was beautiful.. the message was/is so important.
Aileen, I am SO VERY GLAD you got to this side of your struggle. PLEASE keep up the great work... I have no shame saying my eyes weren't dry either. Peace, Love and Amazing music to all.
I love your reactions. You can see that you're absolutely feeling every second, it's a joy to watch. You have many layers of beauty, not just the way you look - you're also so real and so emotive and in tune with the world around you. Get it! Wishing you all the best.
LOVE this reaction. Chinchilla and Ren are both such blessed musical discoveries. The reactions to Ren have been astounding and its always funny when people hear lil Chinchilla for the first time! Together they are a perfect musical match :)
They are so beautiful together, forever in tune xx they have so much love and respect for each other xx
Awesome, and genuine reaction. It's easy for us to see how deeply you felt this. Thank you, for sharing your vulnerability with us!
Loved writing this with them! Can’t wait to play this with them in July if they can make it to Minnesota!
Now I'm crying at work, Damn This one just absolutely crushes me, the lyricism here is untouchable!! Related all too well, beautiful reaction!! Would love to see you do Ren- Diazepam
I love this reaction. I can tell , our host gets it. It isn't just about how great the song is. She is one of us, host. You get it❤
thank you for your honest feed back and opening up to us all really appreciate it Ren back catalogue will continue to amaze you sending big love from the UK ❤❤❤
This one hit me so hard the first time I heard it - and still does to this day. The Chalk Outlines refer to feeling like you are just a hollow shell, dead inside - a walking or floating Chalk Outline while on the Meds. Such an incredible track on so many levels.
As others have mentioned "How to be me [Live]" is another wonderful Ren X Chinchilla collaboration, and is full of such powerful emotion... I have to make sure I have a box of tissues with me whenever I watch the video - and I'm a 58 year old bloke who can usually hold it together during an emotional song. Not so with Ren - his artistry hits different.
You are looking so awesome today amazing video love your reaction to this video thank you so much for sharing this video with us love it Aileen.🌹🌹🌹❤️❤️👍
Aileen, you will relate to their live duet version of How To Be Me even more, trust me! ♥️
It literally broke me, and continues to do so, but it's so hauntingly beautiful at the same time. They definitely know how to convey some deep and vulnerable emotions through their voices and music.
The harmonies knock the air out of you. Great reaction. Thanks
If that hit you then listen to them do How To Be Me (live) absolutely fantastic
watching your reaction was so beautiful and affirming.. when that song ends i'm never ready. I'm always so caught up in the desperation and intensity that I can't believe it's over. Thank you for sharing that with me @Aileensenpai ..
You explained your experience exquisitely. I liked your explanation as much as I love their song.
Thanks Aileen..Have you thought about reaching out to interview some of these artists? Bet it would go well for all parties. All the best x
You are going to be ok. You have an amazing heart and spirit to you that has a huge bright future ahead. Just glad to be a part of it and watch a long
I knew it was going to resonate with you :) They're a force of nature on their own but man, together they are so in tune with eachother. They call themselves musical siblings and you can really see that. I'm looking forward to more of them together (Ren said he was defo going to work more with her in the future)
I really do not think Ren has made a bad song and somehow every live version seems to be even better than the recorded versions. But I think this has to be my favourite so far and can not get enough of it. So glad the You tube algorithm pushed Hi Ren to me on Xmas day last year. It spoke to me deeply and hit like a sledgehammer. I was lucky enough to hear him before the reaction boom hit for him and I do not think there have been many independent artists, if any, that has both been pushed soo well by and for the reaction community. And he is humble enough to realise and appreciate that fact. There have been very few days since hearing Hi Ren that I have not listened to one of his songs. A once in a generation talent IMO.
I love your facial emotions. Reminds me of my own.
I absolutely love the musical chemistry and energy they share in their performances.
Entertainment is entertaining. Art is felt. This has all the feels.
Since discovering him (thanks for reacting to Hi Ren, that's where it started for me) i fell down a massive Ren rabbithole...love his music - your reaction to this song was pretty much the same as mine, and no matter how many times i've heard it i still tear up by the end...
Chalk Outlines is about, imho, the medical system just pushing pills at you for everything instead of figuring out what's actually wrong and fixing it - to the point that you're on so many pills you're pretty much dead inside and are a "walking chalk outline", as well as how it affects your mental health - "such a perfect day, take it just in case, scared of being ok cos all things change..."
And as fantastic as the harmonies are here, they're even better on "How To Be Me (live)" - stunningly heartbreaking. Other Ren tunes to check out are Fire, Money Game 1+2 (3 is on the way soon), Crutch, The Hunger, Blind Eyed (The Live version is great and kinda amusing too), the Love Music trilogy, Diazepam, Ocean, 1990's and Freckled Angels. Then there's his busking video's which are fantastic to watch and listen to...
Also loving Chinchilla as well, i recommend Fingers (Live) and Little Girl Gone (Which a couple wks ago was #1 in the US streaming charts ;) )
Aaaaand holy crap i've just got home from work and listened to the new tune he dropped tonight...punched squarely in the feels and then some...emotional and powerful aren't words to do it justice, and it's a touchy topic as well but so well written and performed.
I LOVE this song, but wait until you here the other track they do together, "How To Be Me" make sure you do the live version, it's one of most technically skilled harmonizing I've heard in a quite some time, but the content of the lyrics will tear your heart out. Great reaction!!
Their other collaboration “How to Be Me” is an absolute must. Especially the live version. It’s even more haunting than this one in my mind and this is already one of the best duets I’ve ever heard.
Cheers
This (you) is the reason I watch reaction videos. ❤your soul.
Aileen, your reactions are always so amazing to watch because of your empathy with the singers. Even though I know empathy can be a blessing, it can also be a curse. Take care and thank you so much for sharing you. :)
I think the chalk outline represents walking around feeling dead or zombie like from the medication side effects or even just from the symptoms of different mental illnesses. Like the mental fog, etc
It's such a beautiful song filled with so many truths around taking these medicines that are supposed to help us but sometimes they make us worse or create new problems for us. It can be interpreted so many different ways, that's just the beauty of music & art! ❤
I've been waiting for this reaction!!!!! Woohoo 🙌🙌🙌🙌
Thanks for sharing , the line I’m ´I’m scared of being ok ‘ resonates so strongly, in HI Ren the line y’´you gotta kill you if you wanna kill me ‘ lines up with that . That said it’s not surprising we hold onto our pain and suffering we do it with physical injuries as well .
Great content in this upload. The emotion of both of these gifted artists is remarkable. These are artists that are changing the face of music, of communication and becoming a voice of several generations. What I really like about your content is your truly take the journey with the viewer, rarely cut off the content and that I respect.
Such a beautiful song and their voices.... Wow!!!
Don't worry. I cried the first time I watched dit and reflected on my own life too! Glad you enjoyed it!
REN and CHINCHILLA are perfect together .
Aileen, make sure you check out How To Be Me(live). It’s a song Ren wrote when a friend of his took his own life. Very powerful duet.
Watching your expressions works magic on me . Keep up the good work . And take care of your mental health . Life is soooo mutch more . One step at a time . You can do it . You are a gem inside and out for sure hope you know this too . Depression hits so many of us . For differant reasons . I went trough abuse and a hard life after this . But i live a good life now . So can you and i think you are on the good path .
Believe it or not, How to Be Me is an equally captivating collaboration they did together.