This girls story is just like mine. She looks like she could be my little sister too. But I grew up with both parents, middle class family, catholic school my whole life, even took piano lessons too. I also used fentanyl and opiates in general for 11years and started around the age she did. I also suffer from anxiety and depression. Pills were my first experience too. I was homeless with my bf for a few years and towards the end, we were just getting well. Weren't really getting high. I remember the running around all day, constantly getting money, go see the dope man, use, then go back out and make money. But we were both sick and tired of being sick and tired. I unexpectedly got pregnant and it completely changed my life. We both got clean, had a beautiful boy, and are still clean- 16 months this month. Life is great on the other side! You were clean before, you can do it again. Its crazy when I was using, I couldn't even picture myself living a different life. I thought I was too far gone, and just settled being miserable. Now when I think about it, it's the opposite. I can't believe I even lived that way for as long as I did. Its mindblowing. Stay strong hunny, you can beat this. Just gotta put as much energy as you did using & staying well, into your sobriety. It's not easy but does get easier over time. You're in my prayers.💜💜
It’s totally the getting well part that ruins your progress. I do consider myself an addict although I’m lucky enough to have a home and my family, getting sober and getting over that hump is so hard. I can’t even count all the mental breakdowns I’ve had from coming down and not having anything for a day or two. I know now though that being under the influence is not worth it at all!!! I do relapse occasionally unfortunately but in my opinion that’s all part of getting sober and staying clean. No road is perfectly paved 💛
Can I ask you how they or you treated the fetynal wd? Bc of the tranq it’s like there’s nothing they will do in detox for it and I know so many ppl won’t go to detox bc they don’t know if they will get help for the fetty wd
@@christinacasapulla3770 See I'm not too sure because when I got clean, it was just fentanyl and no tranq. Not sure if it was because it was 18months ago and it didn't come around yet or just my area doesn't have tranq in the shit. Idk🤷🏻♀️ But this time when I got clean for real, I just joined the methadone clinic and didnt go to detox. I have been to detox and rehab several times for fentanyl before that though. And one place I'd always go to, they gave everyone methadone for opiate wd. It was a 5 day fast taper where it went 40mgs, 30mgs, 20mgs, 10mgs, 5mgs then jump off. And theyd give you comfort meds (clonidine, vistiril, trazadone, ect) in between your methadone doses too. Some places will do a suboxone detox, others will do methadone, and some will do cold Turkey. Honestly I'd call in advance and ask questions to find out what exactly they give you there to detox. The methadone helped immensely. And I wouldnt advise going somewhere where they use suboxone or subutex. Because then you'd have to wait at least 24hrs to take your first sub to avoid precipitated wds. And with the different types of fent around nowadays, people have to wait 36-48+ hrs because some of them have a long halflife. Where with methadone, you don't have to wait at all. And you can take it the second you start to feel sick. Best of luck to you!💜
I never thought I’d use after having my son but I did relapse 8 years later. Please remember that you must work a program, work with a therapist, look for a mommy and me group for early socialization for baby and meet other moms. Waterbabies is a swimming class for moms and babies. Most YMCA’s offer them. You can get a discount family membership if you make under a certain amount. Just some suggestions for new moms.
That makes her so vulnerable. Belpa, keep your innocence hun. If you're not doing dates now, he's paving the way. Just wait he'll be in "too much pain" to pull his weight, no more, hotel,shower or somewhere to take a shit. Pack ur bag when u go out the day before u have no more money and run home. If the worst thing u ever did was steal from ur Mom, keep it that way baby girl
@@loriannrichardson7644 she hasn't hit bottom, yet. She's been lucky in her addiction. If she doesn't get help in the next year or two you'll see her out in Kensington. Kensington is hell on Earth. 🤷
She is a little off track. The drugs are not totally in control yet. Her skin and eyes are clear. Get her some help before it's too late. A lot of potential to pursue her medical dream.
Agreed!! She is young, she has a chance. She sticks out like a sore thumb in Kensington😥. That boy that brought her there needs to get her back home where she can get clean 😡. I am REALLY trying not to judge him BUT.... if he TRULY cares about her, he would get her out of there PRONTO😥😥. #WEOUTTHERE
Her eyes told the truth even when she lied... I’m feeling like she definitely does “dates” BUT I can see why she wouldn’t be comfortable enough to share... Princess Bride is her favorite movie??! Go home sweetie, get clean. You can do it.
When she said that (about the movie), it was so heart breaking and that's exactly what I thought. Go home sweetie, before those streets consume your whole soul. You have a lifetime in front of you.
I think she was just uncomfortable with the question. I used to be an addict on the streets, I know many girls who didn’t trick. And if they didn’t trick they panhandled. It was either or. If a girl starts tricking she most likley will only do that for money because it’s such easy money. If girls are attractive however they can make the same if not more panhandling. So based of my experience, I believe her.
Hello Mal and all, it's Aldo reporting back to you and proud to say I reached my 1 year sobriety on December 1st last week, unbelievable it's your Birthday so that's my present to you my guy... I feel I got lucky in many ways but I used that luck to make the dream come true with appreciation with friends and family that never gave up on me. The way I know I'm getting better is I cry myself to sleep from guilt less and less every month.
@@aldocarlotto1306 CONGRATULATION!! BELLA was the first video I watched. I just started watching King Frank Rodriquez video's Faces of Kensington. Getting to know some of the stories of addiction & being able to put a face with the story. I pray Miss Bella will find her way before she ends up at K & A. God Bless you & keep up the good work.
Hi Mal. I’m a funeral director and have the beautiful honor of serving families who are suffering loss. Unfortunately, as you can imagine, far too many of the people I care for were addicts here in the physical world. I love what you do and I’m so intrigued by your videos. Obviously, I never get a chance to talk to the people I take care of that went through this, so it really puts things in perspective for me. Thank you!
Don't get me wrong, I know it's harder to go home than anyone. But I wish someone had given me that advice when I was her age. Yes I burnt a lot of bridges and hurt a lot of people in my family but she seems like she has a good family behind her. I just wish her happiness and some sort of stability. If that means going home then do it. I'm almost 40 now and I know hindsight is 20 20 but I wish I had just gone home.
@Adrian De Nava Stop being a jerk and stop up voting your own comment. If anyone is blind to Mal's talent, it's just you dude. He's making a continuous progress making videos, he's getting better at editing so your ungrateful ass can watch it all for free from the warmth of your mom's basement.
Ugh, it sucks that she got clean and then met a new boyfriend who not only got her back on dope but took her from her family in New York to panhandle in Philly.
Seeing her in the streets i would NEVER ever tell she's an addict living on the streets..please someone help this sweetie... Wishing her all the best from Germany
I can tell you right now literally about 99% of homeless people are addicts/alcoholics. At least the long-term homeless people. Either that or they’re mentally ill. Being homeless for a very long period of time is not normal and doesn’t happen without some underlying issue. It just doesn’t. I’m speaking from personal experience.
I live in philly...I wanna find this girl and help her 💔 I’ve lost so many friends to heroin since high school. I wish her the strength for sobriety ❤️
It’s nice to see people in Philly wanting to help. I’m homeless in Philly and most people just walk by me when I’m panhandling. Everyone says that girls do so well panhandling, but that’s all relative. It’s so hard panhandling as a girl in Philly cuz guys are always trying to take advantage of me. I always truly appreciate it when a kind woman comes up to offer help. So I know others appreciate you as well 💜 Keep being amazing! Be safe 🥰
Girlfriend ain’t no way in hell you’re making $200 for y’all’s habits AND enough to stay in a hotel every night just from panhandling alone. My boyfriend & I have over 15 years of combined experience being homeless on the streets of Philly and all we really did was panhandle. Idk what it is with everyone claiming to make $300-$500+ daily by panhandling alone. It’s extremely, extremely rare to make that daily just from panhandling. Now I do understand not wanting to admit that you’re tricking. It’s fucked up that your “boyfriend” brought you out here and has you making the money. I noticed you said YOU get up in the morning to go panhandle, you did not say WE. So typical. That’s how it usually goes. Guys mooch off a naïve, trusting, caring girl & take complete advantage of her. What a shame. I hope you can get your life together sooner rather than later, before it’s too late, and I hope you realize how much easier it’ll be if you get rid of that 200lbs of dead weight you’re carrying around.
I just came up on this video...and that's what I thought too. Notice how her eyes shift all over the place when she says she doesn't do dates...but she's i-s panhandling in what looks like a nice neighborhood. I know by watching AML Films interviews that a "bundle" of Fentanyl, which is around 15 to 18, which is what she said she did in a day, cost about $75-$80 in Kensington so would be around $100 in a nicer neighborhood, times 2 for her boyfriend. I'm think she really d-o-e-s panhandle for most of the money, but does a trick every once in a while. It doesn't matter, does it? She looks like she's the girl next door...I never would have pegged her as a drug addict living in a motel room and the streets. Sounds like her family is fairly wealthy...horses, private school, piano lessons, expensive vacations, as a kid...I wonder why they don't just come and get her, and put her in rehab, take her home afterwards, etc.?
Im a couple months shy of 26 we are close to the same age and used about the same amount of years. I started getting high at 17 im clean today after many relapses there is hope
She’s still beautiful. But people are terrible when they introduce these dame drugs to young people. These people don’t care about u, sweetie. Please get help.
This Girl is the same age as me.. And for her to be on the streets with a drug addiction I can't imagine how hard it is for her. I know some ppl will look at this comment and say "She's an addict it's self inflicted".. In a way yes and no. I believe that until you are in this position you have no idea what it's like and sometimes they don't have a choice.. I pray this young beautiful woman's finds peace with herself as well as a happy home/life with safety and comfort.. What a fantastic interview, THUMBS UP!
She still has light in her. I pray that she gets clean and ready for the life she can have and live!!! I know it’s a process that is scary but it’s definitely worth it.
This sweet child makes my heart hurt. She's still so pretty. That's so irrelevant but what I mean is, she's beautiful to have been on the needle for 8 years. I wish her well. I pray she soon makes the choice to be clean. God bless her!! God bless you, Mal!!!! #WE OUT THERE!!!!!!
Am i the only one who doesnt believe that these people had normal childhoods like they say? I remember when i was listening to one therapist, who said, based on his experince with clients, that many people arent even aware that they were traumatised, and that way they were treated isnt normal, and many of them also used to say to him "oooh i had a great childhood". Even Gabor Mate, addiction expert, who helps addicts in Canada for many years said: that every addict was in some way traumatised, and that root of all addictions is in fact trauma.
Super easy for good family childhood to become an addict in school u want to fit in with the cool group to not end up bullied depending on your location school neighborhood ext and it takes one time to try a drug to fit in and the rest is history
Shiny LittleStar, I tend to agree.. Sometimes the traumas happen so early on, that the memories are suppressed so far back, that you can't even remember what happened. I was 35, 10 years into my addiction and went into treatment and as soon as I started getting clean, those horrid childhood traumas came flooding out... I had 30year old memories that suppressed so far back, but that is the great thing about the brain, it is a survival mechanism that helps us deal and function with daily life without going insane... and maybe a lot of addicts are ashamed of what people did actually do to them, but they're just not ready to discuss it openly.... and that's what still keeps them stuck in their addiction! Until I could fully understand and face my demons, I wasn't capable of maintaining any length of sobriety.. But by God's grace and mercy I was able to face them, work on them and I have been clean over 7 years🙌🏼🙌🏼🙏
I got addicted to opiates from being on pain management for migraines and hip problems starting at 22 years old. I had a great childhood. My trauma came from using and kept me using for a while, but I can say I'm over a year clean now. It does happen.
It's like this everywhere.. I lived in Seattle for 5 years and it was just as rough, if not worse.. downtown was absolutely full of heroin, meth, and profound sadness.. Portland, San Fran, Denver, Chi Town, Detroit, it just keeps on fucking going.. but, the Sackler family gets to go on vacation.. scumbag family and they will receive theirs in the next life..
There is no stereotype drug addiction doesn’t discriminate. Addicts may all end up looking similar but the all start out as individuals from ALL walks of life looking very different from one another.
Aww sweet Bella another lost beautiful soul lost too addiction!!! I'm a MoM who have children struggle out there too with addiction... I don't sleep worry so much for my kids .. prayers prayers for Bella go home baby girl . God bless...
I am a mom and I can see the HOPE in your eyes, go home before it’s too late. You don’t belong out there and it does not define you. Draw strength from the love and support of your family and don’t look back. You have nothing to be ashamed, of only life to fight for. You+ determination = success and nothing worth it is easy. I’m sure your mother is so proud to have a wonderful daughter, and she loves you to the moon and back! believe it and go home. 💗❤️🙏🏼💪🏼
She said she is in fact concerned with what drugs she's putting in her body, then you asked her if she's afraid to die and she casually admits "no".. that hopeless feeling but at the same time, she has to be scared of dying. The idea of not knowing what you're 'medicating' with but that not being enough to make an addict stop. She's so young still! She still has a glimmer of hope in her pretty eyes, she's still coherent and doesn't appear to be nearly as bad off as a lot of the people you interview Mal.. i hope she can gain the strength to go after a better life. Addiction is a beast and nobody is exempt from falling into that lifestyle. She said it's hard because nobody supports her or wants to help her.. they don't trust her enough... and that has to be one of the worst feelings for an addicted soul.. you know you've hurt people due to your problem but there's nothing you can do to make that go away. Sometimes not even getting clean is enough. They will love you but no longer trust you.. People will unfortunately still look at you like "once an addict, always an addict" and that's another point that keeps people feeling alone, keeping them 'stuck' 😔 she's so beautiful and still has the chance to reclaim her life. I hope she does.
Bella find the fight and will to beat your addiction you are so worth it mad love & RESPECT to Mal for all the time and work he puts forth to help the less fortunate. #We Out There
So wild to me how everyone addicted to drugs can come from totally different backgrounds. She said she came from a middle class household, went to outer banks every summer. I wish the best for her and everyone else. Please give them help and rehab
I really like Bella. She seems so sweet, I really hope she can get out and get sober. She’s still so young and has so much potential still. It’s not too late Bella. What you’re doing is great Mal. I’ve watched your videos from the beginning. Your interview style and questions have come a long way. Also the intros and throwbacks are very well done and a nice addition. Keep it up Mal. Wishing Bella all the best. Hope to see an update from her. ♡
Bella, please make a change now, before the inevitable happens & you experience something horrible that changes you forever! Run, don't walk away from this life & do the right thing! Sending you hope & prayers ❤🙏❤🙏❤🙏Bella. You are worth so much more...believe in yourself!!
I feel it wrapped around my soul , and my soul calls out for you , please see your worth ! Bella , your beautiful, inside and out , I believe in you ! Rise !
Wow, Bella really reminds me of myself at that age, down to her background, the age she started and her answers and beliefs. Bella you are such a beautiful young lady and I really hope you see this and get clean. I continued and am now 43 and still suffering the effects, if I could turn back time to that age I would but it’s so hard to know that at the time. I hope and pray that you can get clean because I know you have so much to offer the world. Great interview Mal, love as always 💕 💜
Mal. You are so amazing. Such a blessing for these people to feel important!!! Bella is so sweet. She certainly doesn’t belong where she is. I wish she would embrace her family seems like she had a decent upbringing? I wish her sobriety
Gosh she reminds me of my story. Catholic school some college , NY hip ( Fanny bag on the shoulder made me smile ), I want to be a doctor, used to go to Kenzo . She’ll be out just like me ! Good luck girly
You can hear the pain in her and I hope she knows god is always by her side thru the good and bad. I hope she realizes she is here for another reason and can get clean to help other women who are struggling out there, greatest gift is doing gods work, god bless 🙏🏼
Damn she makes, in about a day panhandling, that I do working 8 hours a day. That makes me very sad. She could have a beautiful life. I hope she thinks about things after this interview and gets some help. Please don’t give up Bella. You are so young and beautiful and strong!
Diagnos Depression and get the right help,before it ends up with using Drugs ,, look into early signs ,, so.much pain could be avoided. ❤ love always,🙏🏼she can find the help she needs. ❤ 🐺🐾
That boyfriend is bad news. I'm sure he's the person who told her he "loves" her today. He probably knows people are more likely to give her money than him. So sad to see people my age lost in the grips of addiction. I'm glad other people picked up on the "dates" lie. I saw it in her eyes. I don't blame her, she must be ashamed because she probably just started doing it. Gross people in this world to take advantage of her. The boyfriend being the first one.
So young please make the choice not to use life gets better I started at 18 I'm 48 now n 3 year clean but wish i had done it years ago good luck to u bella from the uk xx
Please please please Belle go home, you don't need to be there. Take a look at the wasted life that others are leading you don't want that for yourself. Please go now before it's too late for you. Your beautiful and you've got your family behind you. Best wishes darling. X
Mal, thank you for introducing us to another beautiful soul just like every other beautiful soul in each video. I'm trying to think how to word this so I don't sound negative. I read people's comments about what the addicted person physically looks like alot. That's why there's the stigma. People assume that an addict should look a certain way. And, people are surprised when someone looks healthy to them and is an addict. I'm 40 & have been addicted to opiates/heroin/fetanyl since I was 17. I went to my first & only rehab in 2018. I thank God everyday for every single person I met there. However, most of them judged me on how I looked. My counselor said, "So, what's a suburban housewife doing in rehab?" I said, "No, ma'am, I'm just a girl from Southwest Philly who wants to get her life back." I was spending almost $300/day on drugs. Thankfully, I was working all of the time. I felt like no one believed me in rehab & that the counselors felt I would be the one out of 18 patients to survive. I also felt that they didn't set aside time for me when I asked if I could talk about some issues of mine. I wound up relapsing 7 times since 2018. I overdosed & the medics seriously cannot believe I came back. I've been clean since Aug 24, 2019. My bf of 14 yrs passed away from heroin on Mother's Day of 2019. We have an 8 year old son together. He is the strongest boy in the world. I'm sorry this is so long. I just wish the stigma of how an addict should look could disappear, but we are all human. Thank you so much for your time in reading this. Stay safe, everyone💜💞💖
I pray for you Bella. I can tell by the way you explain life and I know in my heart that you would so much love to get rid of this life and be clean and be free again. I live with a heroin addict...and she's been on it and meth for about 9 years. It's torn our family apart...Mom left me and 2 daughters cause of it. I can never leave her. She lives with me cause I can be ther... and the love I have for her, can't be weighed, and I know she has somewhere and someone who loves her and knows she's kinda safe. I pray that you have people who love you just as much...(as do Mal and the others), that will help you. All you have to do is ask. The hard drugs are so hard to kick...just so you can feel. I pray you can get off the streets and someone will take you and love you and be with you...just like we do. We love you so so much ! I pray that you will take Jesus in your heart, for you will be saved, and that He died for your sins, and to believe in God who made EVERYTHING in 6 days 6000 years ago. We still will sin cause we all were born sinners, just so we can be in Heaven someday with the Lord for eternity and with our book, free of sin. God said, He doesn't want anyone to be cast into the lake of fire and that He loves us all. I pray Bella someday soon you will be able to read this cause your worth EVERY ounce of you !❤❤
I'm praying for Bella for her would be yes to go into treatment and feel better! She so young, OMG she should be with people who can because guy she is only needs for drugs not her. Mal you are so sweet and caring, thanks!
She's not totally lost. My 2 daughter's are her age. I can't imagine. She sound extremely intelligent. This breaks my heart. Bella I hope you accept treatment soon. You are so much more..& I am sure your family just wants the best for you. I'm sure that they haven't given up completely. God Bless you sweetheart. I will pray for you.
She seems like she’s lost but there’s always an out Bella❤️I love her name . I have a special person in my life named Bell’s!!!!💕I’m praying for you🙏🏻 Working out in my gym with my #we out there sweatshirt on. I hear someone else yell #we out there😊 You have fans and a positive movement out there Mal❤️🙏🏻. Your my hero
This girls story is just like mine. She looks like she could be my little sister too. But I grew up with both parents, middle class family, catholic school my whole life, even took piano lessons too. I also used fentanyl and opiates in general for 11years and started around the age she did. I also suffer from anxiety and depression. Pills were my first experience too. I was homeless with my bf for a few years and towards the end, we were just getting well. Weren't really getting high. I remember the running around all day, constantly getting money, go see the dope man, use, then go back out and make money.
But we were both sick and tired of being sick and tired. I unexpectedly got pregnant and it completely changed my life. We both got clean, had a beautiful boy, and are still clean- 16 months this month.
Life is great on the other side! You were clean before, you can do it again. Its crazy when I was using, I couldn't even picture myself living a different life. I thought I was too far gone, and just settled being miserable. Now when I think about it, it's the opposite. I can't believe I even lived that way for as long as I did. Its mindblowing. Stay strong hunny, you can beat this. Just gotta put as much energy as you did using & staying well, into your sobriety. It's not easy but does get easier over time. You're in my prayers.💜💜
It’s totally the getting well part that ruins your progress. I do consider myself an addict although I’m lucky enough to have a home and my family, getting sober and getting over that hump is so hard. I can’t even count all the mental breakdowns I’ve had from coming down and not having anything for a day or two. I know now though that being under the influence is not worth it at all!!! I do relapse occasionally unfortunately but in my opinion that’s all part of getting sober and staying clean. No road is perfectly paved 💛
Can I ask you how they or you treated the fetynal wd? Bc of the tranq it’s like there’s nothing they will do in detox for it and I know so many ppl won’t go to detox bc they don’t know if they will get help for the fetty wd
@@christinacasapulla3770 See I'm not too sure because when I got clean, it was just fentanyl and no tranq. Not sure if it was because it was 18months ago and it didn't come around yet or just my area doesn't have tranq in the shit. Idk🤷🏻♀️
But this time when I got clean for real, I just joined the methadone clinic and didnt go to detox. I have been to detox and rehab several times for fentanyl before that though. And one place I'd always go to, they gave everyone methadone for opiate wd. It was a 5 day fast taper where it went 40mgs, 30mgs, 20mgs, 10mgs, 5mgs then jump off. And theyd give you comfort meds (clonidine, vistiril, trazadone, ect) in between your methadone doses too.
Some places will do a suboxone detox, others will do methadone, and some will do cold Turkey. Honestly I'd call in advance and ask questions to find out what exactly they give you there to detox. The methadone helped immensely. And I wouldnt advise going somewhere where they use suboxone or subutex. Because then you'd have to wait at least 24hrs to take your first sub to avoid precipitated wds. And with the different types of fent around nowadays, people have to wait 36-48+ hrs because some of them have a long halflife. Where with methadone, you don't have to wait at all. And you can take it the second you start to feel sick. Best of luck to you!💜
I never thought I’d use after having my son but I did relapse 8 years later. Please remember that you must work a program, work with a therapist, look for a mommy and me group for early socialization for baby and meet other moms. Waterbabies is a swimming class for moms and babies. Most YMCA’s offer them. You can get a discount family membership if you make under a certain amount. Just some suggestions for new moms.
F.....in big pharma
She’s beautiful, looking at her you would never think she’s on drugs. I’m praying for her and rooting for her safe and healthy recovery.
I thought the same thing.
Bella is probably the most innocent appearing addict featured on this channel yet
Yes, appearances are deceiving -- no one who's used hard drugs that long is innocent.
That makes her so vulnerable. Belpa, keep your innocence hun. If you're not doing dates now, he's paving the way. Just wait he'll be in "too much pain" to pull his weight, no more, hotel,shower or somewhere to take a shit. Pack ur bag when u go out the day before u have no more money and run home. If the worst thing u ever did was steal from ur Mom, keep it that way baby girl
@@loriannrichardson7644 she hasn't hit bottom, yet. She's been lucky in her addiction. If she doesn't get help in the next year or two you'll see her out in Kensington. Kensington is hell on Earth. 🤷
@@troybennick2014 Is Center City close to Kensington? I am in Little Rock, Arkansas so I wasn't sure.
@@JennAyBaybAyy It is not that close. Like 5 miles. You could walk or take a bus. Center city is policed a lot better than Kensington.
She is a little off track. The drugs are not totally in control yet. Her skin and eyes are clear. Get her some help before it's too late. A lot of potential to pursue her medical dream.
Right??! I would love if she was my nurse she seems very kind and gentle
Agreed!! She is young, she has a chance. She sticks out like a sore thumb in Kensington😥. That boy that brought her there needs to get her back home where she can get clean 😡. I am REALLY trying not to judge him BUT.... if he TRULY cares about her, he would get her out of there PRONTO😥😥. #WEOUTTHERE
@@Scratchync totally agree with you 💯💯💯❤🙏
@@JennAyBaybAyy ❤🙏🏽❤
@@Scratchync she’s not In Kensington…yet?
Her eyes told the truth even when she lied... I’m feeling like she definitely does “dates” BUT I can see why she wouldn’t be comfortable enough to share... Princess Bride is her favorite movie??! Go home sweetie, get clean. You can do it.
I noticed that to.
When she said that (about the movie), it was so heart breaking and that's exactly what I thought. Go home sweetie, before those streets consume your whole soul. You have a lifetime in front of you.
She dates
aint no going back from that
I think she was just uncomfortable with the question. I used to be an addict on the streets, I know many girls who didn’t trick. And if they didn’t trick they panhandled. It was either or. If a girl starts tricking she most likley will only do that for money because it’s such easy money. If girls are attractive however they can make the same if not more panhandling. So based of my experience, I believe her.
Hello Mal and all, it's Aldo reporting back to you and proud to say I reached my 1 year sobriety on December 1st last week, unbelievable it's your Birthday so that's my present to you my guy... I feel I got lucky in many ways but I used that luck to make the dream come true with appreciation with friends and family that never gave up on me. The way I know I'm getting better is I cry myself to sleep from guilt less and less every month.
Congratulations i am so happy hearing that❤❤ you got this Aldo.
Thanks bud, ever time I feel like I'm getting complaicent
I watch your videos that I still always said saved my life I love you man , tears are flowing
@@aldocarlotto1306 CONGRATULATION!!
BELLA was the first video I watched. I just started watching King Frank Rodriquez video's Faces of Kensington.
Getting to know some of the stories of addiction & being able to put a face with the story.
I pray Miss Bella will find her way before she ends up at K & A.
God Bless you & keep up the good work.
congratulations!!! keep yo head up buddy
Philly is gonna eat this girl alive if she doesn’t go home and get clean 😞
Hi Mal. I’m a funeral director and have the beautiful honor of serving families who are suffering loss. Unfortunately, as you can imagine, far too many of the people I care for were addicts here in the physical world. I love what you do and I’m so intrigued by your videos. Obviously, I never get a chance to talk to the people I take care of that went through this, so it really puts things in perspective for me. Thank you!
She's just a baby. Go home sweetie.
Unfortunately sometimes it's not an option
Could be worse at home 💔
It’s better said than done! We never know 🤷🏽♀️just pray for her ❤️
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Don't get me wrong, I know it's harder to go home than anyone. But I wish someone had given me that advice when I was her age. Yes I burnt a lot of bridges and hurt a lot of people in my family but she seems like she has a good family behind her. I just wish her happiness and some sort of stability. If that means going home then do it. I'm almost 40 now and I know hindsight is 20 20 but I wish I had just gone home.
Poor baby...go home, this life ain't for nobody ....Mal Yu are so talented
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Stop being a jerk and stop up voting your own comment. If anyone is blind to Mal's talent, it's just you dude. He's making a continuous progress making videos, he's getting better at editing so your ungrateful ass can watch it all for free from the warmth of your mom's basement.
@@ZoeF.O you tell em😉! Mal is a legend in the making......so talented and self taught!
@Adrian De Nava you just jealous!1 #team AML💯
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Girl, leave that boy and get sober, you have so much life to live. YOU are worth it! Prayers that you get out of there🙏🏼
I can scholarship her in New Jersey. Detox and aftercare. Housing also if you can find her.
👏wow
That would be awesome if she's willing 😁😁🥰
holy cow
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Ugh, it sucks that she got clean and then met a new boyfriend who not only got her back on dope but took her from her family in New York to panhandle in Philly.
Them not boyfriends they pray on girls like this as their Meal tickets.. excuses for mankind
Yes I did the same thing it’s all clear 20/20. I was basically my mans employee And responsible for getting us money
The wolves are already circling.. I guarantee that.. humans are scum
She wouldn't give a nice guy the time of the day, but she'll go to the depth of hell for her bad boy boyfriend
@@thomasjefferson7147 Yeah, cuz those types of guys are abusive
Seeing her in the streets i would NEVER ever tell she's an addict living on the streets..please someone help this sweetie...
Wishing her all the best from Germany
I can tell you right now literally about 99% of homeless people are addicts/alcoholics. At least the long-term homeless people. Either that or they’re mentally ill. Being homeless for a very long period of time is not normal and doesn’t happen without some underlying issue. It just doesn’t. I’m speaking from personal experience.
She’s beautiful inside and out. That smile is contagious ❤️ Thanks Mal for doing all u do!
Seems so innocent , nice girl , wishing her sobriety . Mal , this is excellent interviewing . Can hear compassion in your voice .
I live in philly...I wanna find this girl and help her 💔 I’ve lost so many friends to heroin since high school. I wish her the strength for sobriety ❤️
It’s nice to see people in Philly wanting to help. I’m homeless in Philly and most people just walk by me when I’m panhandling.
Everyone says that girls do so well panhandling, but that’s all relative. It’s so hard panhandling as a girl in Philly cuz guys are always trying to take advantage of me. I always truly appreciate it when a kind woman comes up to offer help. So I know others appreciate you as well 💜
Keep being amazing! Be safe 🥰
@@wwew2457689 hello are you a user as well??
Girlfriend ain’t no way in hell you’re making $200 for y’all’s habits AND enough to stay in a hotel every night just from panhandling alone. My boyfriend & I have over 15 years of combined experience being homeless on the streets of Philly and all we really did was panhandle.
Idk what it is with everyone claiming to make $300-$500+ daily by panhandling alone. It’s extremely, extremely rare to make that daily just from panhandling.
Now I do understand not wanting to admit that you’re tricking. It’s fucked up that your “boyfriend” brought you out here and has you making the money. I noticed you said YOU get up in the morning to go panhandle, you did not say WE.
So typical. That’s how it usually goes. Guys mooch off a naïve, trusting, caring girl & take complete advantage of her. What a shame. I hope you can get your life together sooner rather than later, before it’s too late, and I hope you realize how much easier it’ll be if you get rid of that 200lbs of dead weight you’re carrying around.
I just came up on this video...and that's what I thought too. Notice how her eyes shift all over the place when she says she doesn't do dates...but she's i-s panhandling in what looks like a nice neighborhood. I know by watching AML Films interviews that a "bundle" of Fentanyl, which is around 15 to 18, which is what she said she did in a day, cost about $75-$80 in Kensington so would be around $100 in a nicer neighborhood, times 2 for her boyfriend. I'm think she really d-o-e-s panhandle for most of the money, but does a trick every once in a while. It doesn't matter, does it? She looks like she's the girl next door...I never would have pegged her as a drug addict living in a motel room and the streets. Sounds like her family is fairly wealthy...horses, private school, piano lessons, expensive vacations, as a kid...I wonder why they don't just come and get her, and put her in rehab, take her home afterwards, etc.?
Her eyes speak volumes they look so sad, bless her heart ❤
Bella, you’re so likeable and interesting, I hope you can ditch your current lifestyle and overcome your addiction, you’re so worth it🧡.
Im a couple months shy of 26 we are close to the same age and used about the same amount of years. I started getting high at 17 im clean today after many relapses there is hope
She seems like such a nice person, I hope she get in the road to recovery, she seems like she would do well with it. Xx
She is a strong character to still look so good and have that sparkle in her eyes still, I hope she finds the strength to get sober 🙏 ❤
She’s still beautiful. But people are terrible when they introduce these dame drugs to young people. These people don’t care about u, sweetie. Please get help.
This Girl is the same age as me.. And for her to be on the streets with a drug addiction I can't imagine how hard it is for her. I know some ppl will look at this comment and say "She's an addict it's self inflicted".. In a way yes and no. I believe that until you are in this position you have no idea what it's like and sometimes they don't have a choice.. I pray this young beautiful woman's finds peace with herself as well as a happy home/life with safety and comfort.. What a fantastic interview, THUMBS UP!
She still has light in her. I pray that she gets clean and ready for the life she can have and live!!! I know it’s a process that is scary but it’s definitely worth it.
This sweet child makes my heart hurt. She's still so pretty. That's so irrelevant but what I mean is, she's beautiful to have been on the needle for 8 years. I wish her well. I pray she soon makes the choice to be clean. God bless her!! God bless you, Mal!!!! #WE OUT THERE!!!!!!
Am i the only one who doesnt believe that these people had normal childhoods like they say? I remember when i was listening to one therapist, who said, based on his experince with clients, that many people arent even aware that they were traumatised, and that way they were treated isnt normal, and many of them also used to say to him "oooh i had a great childhood".
Even Gabor Mate, addiction expert, who helps addicts in Canada for many years said: that every addict was in some way traumatised, and that root of all addictions is in fact trauma.
Super easy for good family childhood to become an addict in school u want to fit in with the cool group to not end up bullied depending on your location school neighborhood ext and it takes one time to try a drug to fit in and the rest is history
Shiny LittleStar, I tend to agree.. Sometimes the traumas happen so early on, that the memories are suppressed so far back, that you can't even remember what happened. I was 35, 10 years into my addiction and went into treatment and as soon as I started getting clean, those horrid childhood traumas came flooding out... I had 30year old memories that suppressed so far back, but that is the great thing about the brain, it is a survival mechanism that helps us deal and function with daily life without going insane... and maybe a lot of addicts are ashamed of what people did actually do to them, but they're just not ready to discuss it openly.... and that's what still keeps them stuck in their addiction! Until I could fully understand and face my demons, I wasn't capable of maintaining any length of sobriety.. But by God's grace and mercy I was able to face them, work on them and I have been clean over 7 years🙌🏼🙌🏼🙏
I got addicted to opiates from being on pain management for migraines and hip problems starting at 22 years old. I had a great childhood. My trauma came from using and kept me using for a while, but I can say I'm over a year clean now. It does happen.
Nice to see a setting other than Kensington.
I agree
@@AMLFilms Why can't we donate money fool
@@cameronszn9 because they are drug addicts
@@AMLFilms Were you on Market St.?
It's like this everywhere.. I lived in Seattle for 5 years and it was just as rough, if not worse.. downtown was absolutely full of heroin, meth, and profound sadness.. Portland, San Fran, Denver, Chi Town, Detroit, it just keeps on fucking going.. but, the Sackler family gets to go on vacation.. scumbag family and they will receive theirs in the next life..
Being stuck in addiction sucks, We as a society need to address this with some urgency!
Lovely young lady! She looks and acts so innocent. She’s not the stereotypical drug user.
There is no stereotype drug addiction doesn’t discriminate. Addicts may all end up looking similar but the all start out as individuals from ALL walks of life looking very different from one another.
I hope you find your way. You are so young pretty and have your whole life ahead of you! Its never to late to be the Dr. or Vet you wanted to be!
She is so beautiful and seems SO kind. I truly hope the best for her.
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I love these interviews it really humanizes people yiu know.. sad we just walk by these people and they have names.. awesome job Mel
Thanks for seeing that Yolanda .. You definitely think outside the box.
Aww sweet Bella another lost beautiful soul lost too addiction!!! I'm a MoM who have children struggle out there too with addiction... I don't sleep worry so much for my kids .. prayers prayers for Bella go home baby girl . God bless...
I am a mom and I can see the HOPE in your eyes, go home before it’s too late. You don’t belong out there and it does not define you. Draw strength from the love and support of your family and don’t look back. You have nothing to be ashamed, of only life to fight for. You+ determination = success and nothing worth it is easy. I’m sure your mother is so proud to have a wonderful daughter, and she loves you to the moon and back! believe it and go home. 💗❤️🙏🏼💪🏼
She is so sweet!!!! ❤️ Praying for her!! 🙏🏼🙏🏼
She said she is in fact concerned with what drugs she's putting in her body, then you asked her if she's afraid to die and she casually admits "no".. that hopeless feeling but at the same time, she has to be scared of dying. The idea of not knowing what you're 'medicating' with but that not being enough to make an addict stop. She's so young still! She still has a glimmer of hope in her pretty eyes, she's still coherent and doesn't appear to be nearly as bad off as a lot of the people you interview Mal.. i hope she can gain the strength to go after a better life. Addiction is a beast and nobody is exempt from falling into that lifestyle. She said it's hard because nobody supports her or wants to help her.. they don't trust her enough... and that has to be one of the worst feelings for an addicted soul.. you know you've hurt people due to your problem but there's nothing you can do to make that go away. Sometimes not even getting clean is enough. They will love you but no longer trust you.. People will unfortunately still look at you like "once an addict, always an addict" and that's another point that keeps people feeling alone, keeping them 'stuck' 😔 she's so beautiful and still has the chance to reclaim her life. I hope she does.
The best advice I can give you is #RUN BACK HOME God bless take care and good luck Bella. 💜
Bella you deserve better, you are beautiful inside and out !! Heaven bless you 🤗💕 hugs and blessings to you from Utah
Bella find the fight and will to beat your addiction you are so worth it mad love & RESPECT to Mal for all the time and work he puts forth to help the less fortunate. #We Out There
So wild to me how everyone addicted to drugs can come from totally different backgrounds. She said she came from a middle class household, went to outer banks every summer. I wish the best for her and everyone else. Please give them help and rehab
I really like Bella. She seems so sweet, I really hope she can get out and get sober. She’s still so young and has so much potential still. It’s not too late Bella.
What you’re doing is great Mal. I’ve watched your videos from the beginning. Your interview style and questions have come a long way. Also the intros and throwbacks are very well done and a nice addition. Keep it up Mal.
Wishing Bella all the best. Hope to see an update from her. ♡
Thanks for all your support Jessie ❤
you're still young you can recover go on and have a good life
Such a sweet and innocent looking kid. I pray nothing bad happens to her out there......
Go home Bella, RUN!
Going home is not easy, people you don't know addiction of you say " just go home"
Bella, please make a change now, before the inevitable happens & you experience something horrible that changes you forever! Run, don't walk away from this life & do the right thing! Sending you hope & prayers ❤🙏❤🙏❤🙏Bella. You are worth so much more...believe in yourself!!
What a young beautiful girl! Hope she turns her life around, shes so young and has so much to look forward to! Prayers to you Bella ❤🙏
I feel it wrapped around my soul , and my soul calls out for you , please see your worth ! Bella , your beautiful, inside and out , I believe in you ! Rise !
Thank God I get out of bed and go to work every day I wish everyone had the same strength stay safe
Bella your absolutely beautiful and my prayers are with you for a speedy recovery
She so precious. God bless her! 💓
Wow, Bella really reminds me of myself at that age, down to her background, the age she started and her answers and beliefs. Bella you are such a beautiful young lady and I really hope you see this and get clean. I continued and am now 43 and still suffering the effects, if I could turn back time to that age I would but it’s so hard to know that at the time. I hope and pray that you can get clean because I know you have so much to offer the world. Great interview Mal, love as always 💕 💜
Run for your life!! Never look back! New Beginnings can start now! 💓
She has such a genuine, sweet smile.
She sounds very hopeful that she WILL turn the page on this gross chapter. Hopefully she will live to do that.
It was refreshing to see a new face outside of Kensington👍
She seems so sweet and innocent !! Go home !
This makes me realize how much I miss CC 😓 have not been down there since the pandemic. Great you are branching out !
I hope this interview makes her think and really dig down and get clean. The streets will prey on her if she doesn't.
Mal. You are so amazing. Such a blessing for these people to feel important!!! Bella is so sweet. She certainly doesn’t belong where she is. I wish she would embrace her family seems like she had a decent upbringing? I wish her sobriety
Thank you so much Adrienne ❤
Gosh she reminds me of my story. Catholic school some college , NY hip ( Fanny bag on the shoulder made me smile ), I want to be a doctor, used to go to Kenzo . She’ll be out just like me ! Good luck girly
I pray for this girl 🙏✨💖she is so young.
Like most, so young... so sad. She’s a baby. Hope she makes it out :(
how pretty and innocent she is ... I hope she recovers from her addiction te veo desde México 🇲🇽🇲🇽🇲🇽
You can hear the pain in her and I hope she knows god is always by her side thru the good and bad. I hope she realizes she is here for another reason and can get clean to help other women who are struggling out there, greatest gift is doing gods work, god bless 🙏🏼
Damn she makes, in about a day panhandling, that I do working 8 hours a day. That makes me very sad. She could have a beautiful life. I hope she thinks about things after this interview and gets some help. Please don’t give up Bella. You are so young and beautiful and strong!
I'm pretty sure she dates to support her habits
Omg, please go home girl. You are young...you still can have a great life. Please.🙏🙏🙏🙏
Diagnos Depression and get the right help,before it ends up with using Drugs ,, look into early signs ,, so.much pain could be avoided.
❤ love always,🙏🏼she can find the help she needs. ❤
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I knew it when I heard both of you spoke! ❤️ from Brooklyn
My favorite RUclipsr Mal I could watch your videos all day long.
Awe thank you. That means a lot ❤
Спасибо Мэл за вашу работу!очень милая девушка,желаю ей добра,пусть в ее жизни все будет хорошо ,счатья ей 😊☀️
Love you AML films great cinematography and i love that you truly cear about these people
Thanks Matthews❤love you more.
nice to see you filming in a new area.. awesome video as always..
Thanks for the support always Murda. We Out There.
Awe Mal I love this video... We Out There!
We Out There
Sweet beautiful Bella, please go home and seek long term help. That boyfriend, no significant other is worth going down the path you're on.
That boyfriend is bad news. I'm sure he's the person who told her he "loves" her today. He probably knows people are more likely to give her money than him. So sad to see people my age lost in the grips of addiction. I'm glad other people picked up on the "dates" lie. I saw it in her eyes. I don't blame her, she must be ashamed because she probably just started doing it. Gross people in this world to take advantage of her. The boyfriend being the first one.
Your comment is so true
Go. Home Bella. Run as fast as you can 💖
So young please make the choice not to use life gets better I started at 18 I'm 48 now n 3 year clean but wish i had done it years ago good luck to u bella from the uk xx
Please please please Belle go home, you don't need to be there. Take a look at the wasted life that others are leading you don't want that for yourself. Please go now before it's too late for you. Your beautiful and you've got your family behind you. Best wishes darling. X
I wanna hug her and tell her that it’s not too late for her to go to vet or med school or whatever her dreams are now
Mal your compassion and interviewing skills are 💯. May God bless you #weoutthere
Mal, thank you for introducing us to another beautiful soul just like every other beautiful soul in each video. I'm trying to think how to word this so I don't sound negative. I read people's comments about what the addicted person physically looks like alot. That's why there's the stigma. People assume that an addict should look a certain way. And, people are surprised when someone looks healthy to them and is an addict. I'm 40 & have been addicted to opiates/heroin/fetanyl since I was 17. I went to my first & only rehab in 2018. I thank God everyday for every single person I met there. However, most of them judged me on how I looked. My counselor said, "So, what's a suburban housewife doing in rehab?" I said, "No, ma'am, I'm just a girl from Southwest Philly who wants to get her life back." I was spending almost $300/day on drugs. Thankfully, I was working all of the time. I felt like no one believed me in rehab & that the counselors felt I would be the one out of 18 patients to survive. I also felt that they didn't set aside time for me when I asked if I could talk about some issues of mine. I wound up relapsing 7 times since 2018. I overdosed & the medics seriously cannot believe I came back. I've been clean since Aug 24, 2019. My bf of 14 yrs passed away from heroin on Mother's Day of 2019. We have an 8 year old son together. He is the strongest boy in the world. I'm sorry this is so long. I just wish the stigma of how an addict should look could disappear, but we are all human. Thank you so much for your time in reading this. Stay safe, everyone💜💞💖
God Bless you 🤍
Mal you get better and better 💋
Manhattan, horse back riding, outer banks? Yea def not typical. Upper middle class just goes to show drugs don’t discriminate
I fell in love with fentanyl but she took everything from me and wanted my life next and I refused to give it to her so we had to go are separate ways
Congratulations 👏
She’s still in the beginning of her journey, it would best to get clean now.
Belle, I am praying for you! 🙏🏽💪🏽❤️
Good luck to you Bella! Stay strong! I hope you get through this and have your own place and becoming sober and staying that way!
Great interview. All the right questions.
Thanks Sunny ❤
I pray for you Bella. I can tell by the way you explain life and I know in my heart that you would so much love to get rid of this life and be clean and be free again. I live with a heroin addict...and she's been on it and meth for about 9 years. It's torn our family apart...Mom left me and 2 daughters cause of it. I can never leave her. She lives with me cause I can be ther... and the love I have for her, can't be weighed, and I know she has somewhere and someone who loves her and knows she's kinda safe. I pray that you have people who love you just as much...(as do Mal and the others), that will help you. All you have to do is ask. The hard drugs are so hard to kick...just so you can feel. I pray you can get off the streets and someone will take you and love you and be with you...just like we do. We love you so so much ! I pray that you will take Jesus in your heart, for you will be saved, and that He died for your sins, and to believe in God who made EVERYTHING in 6 days 6000 years ago. We still will sin cause we all were born sinners, just so we can be in Heaven someday with the Lord for eternity and with our book, free of sin. God said, He doesn't want anyone to be cast into the lake of fire and that He loves us all. I pray Bella someday soon you will be able to read this cause your worth EVERY ounce of you !❤❤
I wish her all the best. ♡
Bella know that you are worthy to get clean.
God Bless her Amen 🙏
I'm praying for Bella for her would be yes to go into treatment and feel better! She so young, OMG she should be with people who can because guy she is only needs for drugs not her. Mal you are so sweet and caring, thanks!
Thanks love ❤❤❤sending hugs😊
She is sweet! Please get help and go home!
She's not totally lost. My 2 daughter's are her age. I can't imagine. She sound extremely intelligent. This breaks my heart. Bella I hope you accept treatment soon. You are so much more..& I am sure your family just wants the best for you. I'm sure that they haven't given up completely. God Bless you sweetheart. I will pray for you.
So beautiful and young I hope she can get clean has so much ahead of her
She seems like she’s lost but there’s always an out Bella❤️I love her name . I have a special person in my life named Bell’s!!!!💕I’m praying for you🙏🏻
Working out in my gym with my #we out there sweatshirt on. I hear someone else yell #we out there😊
You have fans and a positive movement out there Mal❤️🙏🏻. Your my hero
I love that ❤ team fit