Girl, I had to pause.. how much. I just wanted to hug you through the phone. You're so much stronger than you realize. I am praying for you hun. I've watched all of your videos, and so many of them touched my heart, but this one. You deserve so much more than what you got growing up.
This is infuriating not in a I'm kinda mad way she antagonized you by getting into the details the details are not fucking necessary when I child is molested or worse and needs the fucking predator to go to prison. They say there and ate you feeding off of your angst and your anger your sadness and then this bitch ass man threw your fucking diary at you after violating your privacy KNOWING HE WAS FLIRTING WITH YOU being inappropriate with you asking about you dating boys being invasive asking about your period etc. We are grown now and know damn well that nobody after having their privacy violated would want a random MAN to talk to them about their sexual abuse I think the Peaches didn't trust themselves not to do what they did be angry and misogynistic towards you body shaming you and asking you to go into great detail about your abuse gaslighting you calling you crazy after actually Finding out why you were wary of them
I’m usually a silent watcher, but Alexis, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your story with us. Not only are you reopening wounds that I’m sure anyone would rather keep closed, but you are putting yourself in a very vulnerable position by allowing us to be a apart of your healing process. Never hesitate to take a break, or even stop the nanny series altogether if you feel like certain things are too heavy on your heart. Sometimes I cringe when I read comments of ppl saying to upload faster, or that this series is like a “TV show” to them. Y’all need to understand that this isn’t just some story- this is her LIFE. I know a lot of you guys mean well, but please let’s be a little bit more sensitive with the approach with take with some of our comments.
I agree with everything you said her life isn’t a tv show and her opening wounds from her trauma isn’t meant to entertain people it’s to work through the trauma and grief of her suffering.
“SAM & THE PEACHES” if you guys read this I hope and pray that justice found you guys! You guys are the scum of the earth for ever making a child feel the way the way you guys did! Man if they were infront of me I would kick their a**** for little lex! I went through similar events and I can just feel the grotesque feeling I felt to be told details of what happened and all the shame …..just know Lex we love you so much and thank you for not only healing baby lex but healing each one of our inner child in us and that’s all from your vulnerability. It takes guts to do it God bless you & your family ❤❤❤
I can't wait to hear the update on future Sam & the Peaches...I hope karma handled them swiftly! I have some words for that demon....May he be in constant hell. You are a strong, loving, powerful person Alexis!!! You deserve the world and all amazing things only!!!
I know it’s a simple gesture to some but seeing Ruddy walk in with a drink for you and talk to you with sm love in his voice really made me smile. You deserve genuine love and kindness. Thank you for trusting us with your story times, love you🥹💗
I hear you say in your stories a lot thst you are a people pleaser, so if nobody told you.. you really don’t owe us shit. If these story times are like pouring alcohol on an open wound then don’t do them.. we are going to support you regardless and watching you break down like that is hard. Also, I think the reason you were so quick to forgive the peaches is bc you just wanted to belong. There were so many times where they went to events and you weren’t invited or you were only invited to babysit.. for once it felt like they wanted you to come as one of the family members and the hopeful child in you believed you would finally be accepted.. of course you’re going to struggle with setting boundaries when your abuser is constantly being paraded in your face and the person that’s keeping him around is the person that’s supposed to keep you safe.. I wish you had more people in your life who held your mom and step dad accountable.. imagine if tommy stood up to your mom about your step dad the way she was quick to stand up to the peaches..
Yes this .. I was going to post about accepting apologies too fast is crying for a need for boundaries .. before anyone does anything like that, if you put boundaries, they won't cross them to get where they did.. but you were a kid ... So can't blame you.... At all .. but from now on learn about them so nobody can hurt you again... I'm barely learning this in my 40s..
I thought the same thing. Alexis you have a beautiful soul inside and out. Be proud of all the work and healing you have done for yourself. You are a great, daughter, wife, sister and Mom!!! I wish I could give you a BIG hug. ❤❤❤❤
This story time broke my heart. The pain in your voice brought me to tears. I just want to give you a hug. I’m so proud of who you became despite what you endured as a child
I’m literally 30 minutes in and my heart hurts for you. I went through the same thing with my step dad and as the years have past I’ve learned to bury those memories and feelings. For anyone who’s gone through this, you are not alone. ❤ Lex, I’m with you sis.
I can now see why Sam was so worried about how us as viewers would react to her. She had her own troubled life and to make her life better would take it on you or have her family take it out on you. Damn I hope she watches this and apologizes to you for what she put you through or hope she has previously sincerely apologized to you for all of this
Sam was never a true friend, always cussing drama on others to deflect from the trouble she was doing herself…. I hope Alexis never stayed around her. Negative vibes
@@onicestorres1578 last I remember, Alexis and Sam are cool now. I’m honestly just waiting for Sam to grow into a better person in the stories because if she remains how she is RN, I would seriously question why Alexis forgave her because Sam has done one too many things to hurt little Lex
Girl, I’ve been watching you for years! I still remember one of your very first videos where you filmed a makeup video in the basement & Rudee came out wearing a Chucky mask. You’ve come such a long way with feeling comfortable on camera & showing your personality & sharing your life w/ us. Out of all the RUclips creators I started off watching 7 yrs ago, you’re the only one whose videos I still watch faithfully in 2023.
For those of us affected by abuse, the damage is done and the scars, especially mentally, can last a lifetime. All ppl can do is assure us it was NOT our fault. Tommy, Sugar & Spice really looked out for you.💝 What a difference supportive ppl make, it’s like they helped u carry a way too heavy load for little Lex.🤗
Oh my gosh Alexis.. I can literally physically feel the heaviness in your chest when your crying. I can feel your heartache, anxiety and sadness 😢 my heart hurts so deeply for you Lex.... I am immensely sorry for all you lived through 🥺 I can't stop crying, because like I have shared before ... we grew up and sadly experienced such similarities, it's often unreal to me 😔 I just ended up pregnant and had my son at 11 as a result. I still struggle with talking about it. The strength I feel through your videos helps me on a level I can't put into words ❤ I love you so much Alexis
11……that shit makes me cry 😭… I don’t even know what to say, I just hope now your Able to feel some sanity controlling your own life with nobody taking advantage of you anymore, I hope you have many days we’re u forget this shit happened, I’m so sorry. I know we are strangers but I’m giving u a Virtual hug 🫂 u just focus on putting one foot infront of the other 🥀…. 🌹✨✨
@viviangonzalez2520 Oh, Vivian.. bless your heart, your words have me in a waterfall of tears. I think it was meant for me to read your message tonight, although you wrote this a few months ago I strongly feel there is a reason I am reading it tonight. It is my son's 29th birthday and it's a day I have so many mixed emotions about. I love my son with all my heart, no matter how much I try to fight away the feelings surrounding the devastation I still feel from my innocence being stolen from me, those nightmares surface and they surface on days that should be happy. My son is the most amazing human being, and although this is 28 years ago. It's inevitable, I always end up reliving that horrendous time in my life. The monster that violated me died in prison after being there for 13 years of his 22 year sentence. On a positive note, I needed your words more than you know... thank you, sincerely thank you...ten times over for taking the time to write to me. I needed your hug, and your encouragement. I am sending you the biggest hug back 🤗 Thank you for being the friend I needed tonight 😘✨️💛💫
@OurAdventure Thank you so much. Yes, he was sentenced to 22 years for what he did to me, but he passed away 13 years into his sentence. My son is 29 years old today, and is my best friend! I appreciate your support... if only I could had someone like you behind me back then. Thank you so much for your love.
I’m going to school for early childhood development, and we learn about the adolescent age, and how much a child is affected emotionally when they are in a constant state of fight or flight mode and it breaks my heart listening you tell your stories because I can only imagine what you go thru right now as an adult because of all your trauma 🥺🥺🥺
Girl thank you for being so vulnerable with us. It takes a lifetime to heal from these things but you are going to be okay you’re strong and your babies are looking up to you🫶🏼
Right now my heart is just aching for Alexis. It sends me to tears when I hear the intense pain in her voice. Trying her best to hold back her tears while reliving those emotions. I just wish I could hug her because she really has been through so much and knowing she had suffered so much all alone and knowing that she was just a babe, it’s just the worst thing to hear but she is such a strong and amazing women. I send all my love and prayers to you Alexis. And, thank you for bringing so much love to us, thank you 🩷💘🦋
My moms husband also abused me as an 8 year old CHILD and after I built the guts to tell her she told me it was up to me if I wanted to tell the police and that everyone would find out. All that I wanted was for her to leave him. 21 years later she is still with him and even after all the therapy I still get nightmares . I’m sorry for everything you went through, thank you for sharing your story ❤
You had a lot of self love the little girl in you saved you from so many things even being a kid. You knew you wanted more from life and eventually you were going to get it! I am proud of the woman you became with the litttle guidance and you raised yourself.
The audacity to read your diary and then have you explain the details and to go through all those feelings again....... praying for your healing 💐 sending you strength 💪 🙏
I seriously want to hug you. I’m over here crying right along with you. I hope you know you’re loved and you’re helping ppl out here by telling your story.
I just want to say this community loves you, you didn't deserve everything bad that happened to you, I just wish I could take all that pain away and fill that space with so much love and happiness you deserved.
That was definitely a stupid move on their part, they act like you didn’t show signs of sexual abuse in the first place? Like you being uncomfortable around men by yourself? That whole family pisses me off
My heart is broken for you. The fact that judgement came from people that claim they wanted to help you. Hurts me. I am so happy you are here. I am happy I found you on the RUclips today. I love you sis. ❤
You are healing through these stories and releasing the pain you endured as a child. You deserve to be set free of the pain caused by your past, forgive so that you can truly be free of it all…not for them but for yourself. Lastly know you are truly an amazing person and loved more than you know ❤
This was brutal omg. I’m so sorry you went through this. I’m so relieved to know that you have a family of your own that loves and cares for you. You are a beautiful soul.
I cried so hard right with you!!! My heart just breaks with you, I want to say thank you for being so nice and sharing your story and bringing awareness. Sending you sooo much love Alexis. I appreciate you more than you could ever know
Alexis, you not losing yourself and being able to feel and vocalize what you’ve gone through… simply thank you. I’ve gone through so many similar things with my ex POS step dad and my mom who was also hurting, and I feel like I can’t even vocalize or remember the pain I just feel numb. THANK YOU for not giving up. THANK YOU for speaking about it. THANK YOU for being a light that kept going through all of this. Thank you for being so real, raw, and uncut and letting us see you and heal with you. When you’re in the nanny series videos telling us your stories, just know there’s a pack of women standing beside and behind you being empowered by you, your heart, and your bravery. Giving all of my love a big hug to little Lex, and also to big Lex for being a damn good example to all of the little Lex’s out in the world, and the ones healing from experiences like little Lex’s. Thank you for being who you are mama, te quiero mucho!💜
You became who you needed to be to survive. And little Lex navigated all this crazy shit so well. I love watching your family come in and talk to you cause as a viewer it's reassuring that you have so many people in your house that love you 💛
Alexis I feel your pain bcuz I kind of went through some of the same things as you & I was also a teen momma🙏🏼& was on my own. I just had chemotherapy yesterday as I’m battling stage 4 cervical cancer,this is the 4th time I battle cancer & watching you also makes me remember my old traumas💔🥺I send you lots of hugs & prayers with positive vibes just like you spread joy to us💕remember you’re such a special soul & we all love you so much🥰
Seeing you in such raw, visible pain, really got to me. Alexis as much as i enjoy watching your videos, if it is causing you this kind of pain and reopening old wounds, then please dont feel like you have to do them anymore ❤ we would all definitely understand
I am having to rewatch this video because I literally cried so hard the first time ( I even woke my husband up. It's literally 4 am where I'm at ). Your videos are helping you fambam heal with you. So many of us have been through what you have and can relate. I really hope you know we love and have the upmost respect for you for sharing what we never could. Much love to you ❤❤❤
catching up, a few months late because i had a baby! every story you share, little me feels so seen. My mom is bipolar, i was assaulted by my stepdad and my mom chose him over me, to this day. My stepdad went through my journal around the same age you were in this storytime. I feel your feelings, i see you, i see little lex. I hope you see this, im so grateful to see you living your life now with your own big happy family, it gives me so much hope.
Best believe I cried the entire time and had to stop the video and continue it after an hour or so. My older brother had told me once that the devil always sends evil people in your life to ruin you but that God always sends his angels to fight for you. This story reminded me of that. Little Lex, we love you so damn much. And Lex, you gorgeous mama thank you for baring your soul to us, just know that this is YOUR story and you share however much or little with us and we will support you and give you love. Thank you because when I see you cry, I cry with you, and it's truly healing my inner child and healing my own pain. So, thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. Te quiero y mucho besos! 💖💋💕
I typically don’t comment on RUclipsrs videos but this one right here… WOW.. I know you don’t like being pitied but damn girl my heart goes out to you, you have me bawling!
Please don’t hurt your self or kids because you feel obligated to post videos that are too hurtful to you . We love all your videos and will continue to support your channel regardless . It hurts to see you hurt as if you were living in the past . Take care of yourself 💕
Every time you drop one of these stories, I just question more and more how the Peaches can live with themselves. They are terrible people. I hope their kids are doing well today, they don’t seem to know how to handle anything.
The Peaches thought or acted like they knew what they were doing, like they were doing the right thing. But would they have done it that way if it were their kid? That’s why I don’t like these people the peaches. Their approach was so insensitive and Mrs Peach is a whole another level of evil. I couldn’t believe her comments. She had a rotted soul because she couldn’t see the beautiful soul of Little Lex.
Thank you for sharing this story, and every story you share with us. Your vulnerability is truly admirable. You help me heal so much. I hope to one day have even an ounce of your strength, resilience, vulnerability, & transparency. Love you so much.
My heart breaks for you, hearing and seeing you relive the these disgusting moments brings out little Lex and all of the hurt and pain she suffered. This is a perfect example of never judge a book by its cover because as someone who discovered you yeeears ago smiling and laughing doing beauty videos, I would’ve never guessed you suffered so much. Baby lex deserved soooooo much better, this cruel world and selfish adults failed her too many times. A beautiful title to carry is a strong woman, but a lot of people fail to realize in order to carry that title you would’ve had to endure so much pain and conquer so many things. I’m sorry lex but you in fact are a strong woman and we all know younger you is so proud of how far you’ve come. You eventually got and are living the life you deserve. You are inspiring others all across the world. You gained battle wounds but regardless of how you see it , you won that fight. Keep Going Love!! 💗💗💗
I think Mr Peach just wanted to p3rv over all the gory details. I think he was trying to gr00m you through Voltimort. What a house of horrors 🫣 You are so brave❣️
Girl, I empathize with you and wish to be there to hug you. It is so embarrassing that adults act this way to children. They (Peaches) were victim blaming you and gas lighted you when you would get triggered by making those comments when you had your boundaries. If that was a therapist there are so many unethical issues that I noticed and that is so hurtful and unprofessional. When someone cares, they respect your boundaries and let you share ONLY when you are ready. It hurts knowing there are humans like this harming vulnerable children. Cuídate mucho 💕 Thanks for the edits “Knuck if you buck”, I still jam to that song. Gets you in the moment😂 and the Fairly Odd Parents wand was cute.
You were easy to forgive because you wanted to feel loved and belonged. So you looked past what has happened. I'm the same way. I'm so easy to forgive because we were neglected as kids. When you are neglected you try to look for love in all the wrong places.
people pleasing ^ i still am like that it’s from the childhood trauma love and looking for that love and aproval from others no matter who it is and what they have done
The makeup came out so cute!! But girl thank you for being so open with us to tell us these stories. It’s difficult to be vulnerable especially to an internet full of strangers but I’m proud of you girl❤ we’re always here for you ❤❤❤❤
My heart breaks for you in those moments of you hurting 💔 you’re a lot stronger than what you may feel at times , to show us such raw emotions and to show us your pain is courage . Sending you virtual hugs love ♥️
BIG HUGS! LOTS OF LOVE! Thank you for sharing your story. 😞❤ This takes lots of courage and I hope somebody who is struggling with these similar situations to seek help and find the courage and strength to come out. Keep finding that safe place and the right people to talk to. Ugh Alexis I just want to huge you an take away the pain! I’m so proud of how far you have came keep on going homegirl!
You may have already said this and I missed it but how did they get your diary and did you not have it hidden or have a lock on it? Doesn’t matter, they should’ve respected your privacy!
Lex I can’t even be describe how much I feel for you. I feel like you’re my internet big sister so it feels extra raw and painful. I cry when you cry and I just want to hug you so bad and tell you that it’s gonna be ok. I feel you when it comes to moving on so quickly after someone hurts you. Sometimes you want everything to be ok so bad that you’re willing to forget what they’ve done to just feel good. I constantly have to remind myself to not cave in because when I do, I’m quickly reminded of why I stayed away. Love you Lex and thank you for sharing 💜 You help so many of us more than you know 💜💜💜
I wish I would of known you growing up & lived in the same state. You could of lived with me & my dad would of treated you like his own & you wouldn’t of needed for nothing! I promise you that. My friend had parents that weren’t shit. Roaches everywhere in their house. Their power got cut off & my friend got pregnant in 9th grade so her & her baby needed to stay somewhere & not stay there with no power or water bc they used their government money for other stuff if you follow me. & sold their food stamps. They had so many relatives staying with them that they should of never been without food. But they did. He let her stay with us for a while & she was like his daughter & her daughter was like his granddaughter. He told her while she stayed with us she & her daughter would be taken care of. My dad was a truck driver. & he’s not creepy. & usually wouldn’t let girls stay the night with me bc of the fact he was the only adult. He and my “mom” was divorced. But he had full custody of me & my 2 older brothers. He was the best. & he would never do anything to anyone. You wouldn’t be uncomfortable either. I’m so sorry Alexis! It’s unfortunate that any kid has to go through this. I’m so sorry my heart aches for you! I have a son & a daughter & it makes me so paranoid that they’ll never stay the night anywhere.
I do the same thing. I think it's low self worth and fear of abandonment. Like even if a person is really crappy to us, it's ok because it's better to have crappy people than no people at all and we don't deserve better treatment anyway. This is a struggle I'm still working on.
Sending many hugs and love Alexis! I’m so sorry for everything your went through. Idk how can you still be friends with Sam 🫤 I hope the peaches are watching your videos and I hope it make them feel the piece of shit they’re were and all the wrong doing they did and probably continue to do so, gente así nunca cambia.! But you are a Queen! ❤❤
This was a hard one to get thru at the beginning. I relate so so much with the worrying about other people's feelings. I hate it sometimes. Love you Jade! 🩵
Thx girl for the upload! Wooohooo! Yayyy! 🎁💐💝 we want you here tooo!!! I’m doing inner child work right now too and completely get where you’re coming from! You’re in protective mode!
I won’t lie you got me at the “we ride at dawn” 😂 thanks for continuing to share with us! I started watching you probably 3 years ago. Your story times have gotten me through rehab, my dad getting sick. you inspire me so much to heal my inner child. Thanks for being such a queen! ❤
💕🙏 take your time love never feel like you have to rush we will always be here i know its not easy to talk about you are loved you are important you matter never put yourself down keep pushing thank you for being vulnerable with us💜💜 you help me through the pain i love u girl sending hugs 🥰
Brown was there to cover there asses Lex…. Bc if something ever came up or anything they didn’t want the finger pointed at them… they wanted to be able to say we told Mr brown and she wouldn’t talk to him
Thank you for sharing your story with us ❤ i haven't even started it (it's a lil late for me haha) but again truly appreciate you. You're helping us heal as we hope you heal.
I was r@ped and my response was to go be really $exually active. So many people said how it wasn't a normal reaction. I'm supposed to not want to be touched etc. So I'm either lying or I asked for it. Now it's understood it's a normal reaction. It's a way to take control over a situation I had no control over.
It’s so hard watching you re-live all of this trauma 😢💔 I hope it brings you some peace. Thank you for sharing. Sending you hugs, lots of love, and good vibes.💛🥰🤗
I didn't think it was possible to hate The Peaches more!!! They are like vampires, and bullies and disgusting people. I felt so hard for little Lex I can't believe that happened to you, and you are still the sweetest human ever! How girl?? I would have been a monster I think lol
I'm listening while I'm getting ready for work. Summer camp is in full affect so the babies are on 10 at work 😂 but I love it❤ I pray everyone is having a wonderful, safe summer ❤
I want so badly to turn back time and prevent you from every going thru any of this! I’ve been crying with you this whole time. Remembering my mom did nothing about my grandfather doing what he did to me. From 5-12. I didn’t even cry when he died! He stole me childhood and innocence!
Perfect timing💕 Just as I’m laying in bed looking for someone to watch 🤝🏾 PS. I waited DAYS to watch your last video because it always feels like forever between nanny series story times😂 I finally watched yesterday and was hoping that I wouldn’t have to wait too long for another and you came through ‼️
Yay 🤗🤗🤗🤗 one of my favorite RUclipsrs posted 🥰🥰🥰 time to clean this bathroom && listen to the cheese ❤ This summer is going to beat my ass lol I started college & boy ooh boy this shit is no joke 😅😅 pero si se puede!!! Love you hermosa ❤
Everytime I go the marshalls/ross/TJ, Im hoping to manifest running into you. ❤️ I always listen while doing stay at home mom stuff so it doesn’t feel so lonely, thank you. 🥰🥰
Also, I do not understand any of the adults in your life. To not listen to a child, to ridicule a child for actions they had no control over is just, mind blowingly disgusting. You deserved better, and still deserve better for having to remember these moments.
Heyy Lex ❤️❤️ we love you !! I’ve been a little far from god so I haven’t been feeling like myself but seeing you always make my day, night, anytime I see you and I appreciate you for being here with us and continuing to do what you do bc a lot of us need you and appreciate someone so open and honest with us ! It let’s us know you care for us just as much as we care and love you 🥹🥹🥰
this is a very heavy storytime please watch with caution!
Thank you girl I needed this finally have time to wind down and relax 💜
Thank you for always sharing with us we appreciate you girl I’m ready for this story time .
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Girl, I had to pause.. how much. I just wanted to hug you through the phone. You're so much stronger than you realize. I am praying for you hun. I've watched all of your videos, and so many of them touched my heart, but this one. You deserve so much more than what you got growing up.
This is infuriating not in a I'm kinda mad way she antagonized you by getting into the details the details are not fucking necessary when I child is molested or worse and needs the fucking predator to go to prison. They say there and ate you feeding off of your angst and your anger your sadness and then this bitch ass man threw your fucking diary at you after violating your privacy KNOWING HE WAS FLIRTING WITH YOU being inappropriate with you asking about you dating boys being invasive asking about your period etc. We are grown now and know damn well that nobody after having their privacy violated would want a random MAN to talk to them about their sexual abuse I think the Peaches didn't trust themselves not to do what they did be angry and misogynistic towards you body shaming you and asking you to go into great detail about your abuse gaslighting you calling you crazy after actually Finding out why you were wary of them
I’m usually a silent watcher, but Alexis, I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your story with us. Not only are you reopening wounds that I’m sure anyone would rather keep closed, but you are putting yourself in a very vulnerable position by allowing us to be a apart of your healing process. Never hesitate to take a break, or even stop the nanny series altogether if you feel like certain things are too heavy on your heart. Sometimes I cringe when I read comments of ppl saying to upload faster, or that this series is like a “TV show” to them. Y’all need to understand that this isn’t just some story- this is her LIFE. I know a lot of you guys mean well, but please let’s be a little bit more sensitive with the approach with take with some of our comments.
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I agree with everything you said her life isn’t a tv show and her opening wounds from her trauma isn’t meant to entertain people it’s to work through the trauma and grief of her suffering.
“SAM & THE PEACHES” if you guys read this I hope and pray that justice found you guys! You guys are the scum of the earth for ever making a child feel the way the way you guys did! Man if they were infront of me I would kick their a**** for little lex! I went through similar events and I can just feel the grotesque feeling I felt to be told details of what happened and all the shame …..just know Lex we love you so much and thank you for not only healing baby lex but healing each one of our inner child in us and that’s all from your vulnerability. It takes guts to do it God bless you & your family ❤❤❤
Amen sis! Co-signed!
ILL WHOOP SAM & PEACH ASS 🤣
I think she and Sam are cool now. Might be misremembering tho.
@@LexiAngel91 she shouldn't be though honestly. Some horrible evil behavior is beyond forgiveness.
God bless! 🙏❤️
I can't wait to hear the update on future Sam & the Peaches...I hope karma handled them swiftly! I have some words for that demon....May he be in constant hell. You are a strong, loving, powerful person Alexis!!! You deserve the world and all amazing things only!!!
I know it’s a simple gesture to some but seeing Ruddy walk in with a drink for you and talk to you with sm love in his voice really made me smile. You deserve genuine love and kindness. Thank you for trusting us with your story times, love you🥹💗
I hear you say in your stories a lot thst you are a people pleaser, so if nobody told you.. you really don’t owe us shit. If these story times are like pouring alcohol on an open wound then don’t do them.. we are going to support you regardless and watching you break down like that is hard. Also, I think the reason you were so quick to forgive the peaches is bc you just wanted to belong. There were so many times where they went to events and you weren’t invited or you were only invited to babysit.. for once it felt like they wanted you to come as one of the family members and the hopeful child in you believed you would finally be accepted.. of course you’re going to struggle with setting boundaries when your abuser is constantly being paraded in your face and the person that’s keeping him around is the person that’s supposed to keep you safe.. I wish you had more people in your life who held your mom and step dad accountable.. imagine if tommy stood up to your mom about your step dad the way she was quick to stand up to the peaches..
Yes yes yeessssss to everything you said I wish I could like your comment 1000 times ‼️‼️
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Yes this .. I was going to post about accepting apologies too fast is crying for a need for boundaries .. before anyone does anything like that, if you put boundaries, they won't cross them to get where they did.. but you were a kid ... So can't blame you.... At all .. but from now on learn about them so nobody can hurt you again... I'm barely learning this in my 40s..
beautifully said ❤
Absolutely!!!!
So many people failed you but you look you didn’t fail yourself! Please be proud of YOU for that!💞
I thought the same thing. Alexis you have a beautiful soul inside and out. Be proud of all the work and healing you have done for yourself. You are a great, daughter, wife, sister and Mom!!! I wish I could give you a BIG hug. ❤❤❤❤
I’m so sorry these “adults” failed you. Especially your own mom. You have grown into such a strong woman n an awesome mom.
This story time broke my heart. The pain in your voice brought me to tears. I just want to give you a hug. I’m so proud of who you became despite what you endured as a child
I’m literally 30 minutes in and my heart hurts for you. I went through the same thing with my step dad and as the years have past I’ve learned to bury those memories and feelings. For anyone who’s gone through this, you are not alone. ❤ Lex, I’m with you sis.
I can now see why Sam was so worried about how us as viewers would react to her. She had her own troubled life and to make her life better would take it on you or have her family take it out on you. Damn I hope she watches this and apologizes to you for what she put you through or hope she has previously sincerely apologized to you for all of this
Sam was never a true friend, always cussing drama on others to deflect from the trouble she was doing herself…. I hope Alexis never stayed around her. Negative vibes
@@onicestorres1578 last I remember, Alexis and Sam are cool now. I’m honestly just waiting for Sam to grow into a better person in the stories because if she remains how she is RN, I would seriously question why Alexis forgave her because Sam has done one too many things to hurt little Lex
Right idk how she is still friends with her
Girl, I’ve been watching you for years! I still remember one of your very first videos where you filmed a makeup video in the basement & Rudee came out wearing a Chucky mask. You’ve come such a long way with feeling comfortable on camera & showing your personality & sharing your life w/ us. Out of all the RUclips creators I started off watching 7 yrs ago, you’re the only one whose videos I still watch faithfully in 2023.
For those of us affected by abuse, the damage is done and the scars, especially mentally, can last a lifetime. All ppl can do is assure us it was NOT our fault. Tommy, Sugar & Spice really looked out for you.💝 What a difference supportive ppl make, it’s like they helped u carry a way too heavy load for little Lex.🤗
Oh my gosh Alexis.. I can literally physically feel the heaviness in your chest when your crying. I can feel your heartache, anxiety and sadness 😢 my heart hurts so deeply for you Lex.... I am immensely sorry for all you lived through 🥺 I can't stop crying, because like I have shared before ... we grew up and sadly experienced such similarities, it's often unreal to me 😔 I just ended up pregnant and had my son at 11 as a result. I still struggle with talking about it. The strength I feel through your videos helps me on a level I can't put into words ❤ I love you so much Alexis
11……that shit makes me cry 😭… I don’t even know what to say, I just hope now your Able to feel some sanity controlling your own life with nobody taking advantage of you anymore, I hope you have many days we’re u forget this shit happened, I’m so sorry. I know we are strangers but I’m giving u a Virtual hug 🫂 u just focus on putting one foot infront of the other 🥀…. 🌹✨✨
That mf better have served the consequences 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬
@viviangonzalez2520 Oh, Vivian.. bless your heart, your words have me in a waterfall of tears. I think it was meant for me to read your message tonight, although you wrote this a few months ago I strongly feel there is a reason I am reading it tonight. It is my son's 29th birthday and it's a day I have so many mixed emotions about. I love my son with all my heart, no matter how much I try to fight away the feelings surrounding the devastation I still feel from my innocence being stolen from me, those nightmares surface and they surface on days that should be happy. My son is the most amazing human being, and although this is 28 years ago. It's inevitable, I always end up reliving that horrendous time in my life. The monster that violated me died in prison after being there for 13 years of his 22 year sentence.
On a positive note, I needed your words more than you know... thank you, sincerely thank you...ten times over for taking the time to write to me. I needed your hug, and your encouragement. I am sending you the biggest hug back 🤗 Thank you for being the friend I needed tonight 😘✨️💛💫
@OurAdventure Thank you so much. Yes, he was sentenced to 22 years for what he did to me, but he passed away 13 years into his sentence. My son is 29 years old today, and is my best friend! I appreciate your support... if only I could had someone like you behind me back then. Thank you so much for your love.
I’m going to school for early childhood development, and we learn about the adolescent age, and how much a child is affected emotionally when they are in a constant state of fight or flight mode and it breaks my heart listening you tell your stories because I can only imagine what you go thru right now as an adult because of all your trauma 🥺🥺🥺
Girl thank you for being so vulnerable with us. It takes a lifetime to heal from these things but you are going to be okay you’re strong and your babies are looking up to you🫶🏼
You healing yourself through the story times heals us as well more than you’ll ever know thank you thank you xo ❤️
Right now my heart is just aching for Alexis. It sends me to tears when I hear the intense pain in her voice. Trying her best to hold back her tears while reliving those emotions. I just wish I could hug her because she really has been through so much and knowing she had suffered so much all alone and knowing that she was just a babe, it’s just the worst thing to hear but she is such a strong and amazing women. I send all my love and prayers to you Alexis. And, thank you for bringing so much love to us, thank you 🩷💘🦋
My moms husband also abused me as an 8 year old CHILD and after I built the guts to tell her she told me it was up to me if I wanted to tell the police and that everyone would find out. All that I wanted was for her to leave him. 21 years later she is still with him and even after all the therapy I still get nightmares . I’m sorry for everything you went through, thank you for sharing your story ❤
So sorry she didn’t give you the support you needed. I hope you’re in a better place now despite those recurring thoughts and memories. ❤❤
Breaks my heart that happened to you beautiful 💔❤️🩹❤️
You had a lot of self love the little girl in you saved you from so many things even being a kid. You knew you wanted more from life and eventually you were going to get it! I am proud of the woman you became with the litttle guidance and you raised yourself.
I’m glad that Tommy & your cousins were able to make you smile during that time 😊
The audacity to read your diary and then have you explain the details and to go through all those feelings again....... praying for your healing 💐 sending you strength 💪 🙏
I seriously want to hug you.
I’m over here crying right along with you. I hope you know you’re loved and you’re helping ppl out here by telling your story.
I just want to say this community loves you, you didn't deserve everything bad that happened to you, I just wish I could take all that pain away and fill that space with so much love and happiness you deserved.
That was definitely a stupid move on their part, they act like you didn’t show signs of sexual abuse in the first place? Like you being uncomfortable around men by yourself? That whole family pisses me off
My heart is broken for you. The fact that judgement came from people that claim they wanted to help you. Hurts me. I am so happy you are here. I am happy I found you on the RUclips today. I love you sis. ❤
Me screaming call bubbles!! I feel you though i had a diary growing up and if anyone had gotten a hold of it i would’ve felt how you felt
my heart hurts so much for little lex, i cried with you. you deserve the world 💖💖
You are healing through these stories and releasing the pain you endured as a child. You deserve to be set free of the pain caused by your past, forgive so that you can truly be free of it all…not for them but for yourself. Lastly know you are truly an amazing person and loved more than you know ❤
This was brutal omg. I’m so sorry you went through this. I’m so relieved to know that you have a family of your own that loves and cares for you. You are a beautiful soul.
I'm barely 29 minutes in and man its crazy to see that little girl in that story all grown up saying her story. There are no words Alexis
The fact that she cries on cue and starts hyperventilating everytime she starts talking about it is how you know the feelings are real
I cried so hard right with you!!! My heart just breaks with you, I want to say thank you for being so nice and sharing your story and bringing awareness. Sending you sooo much love Alexis. I appreciate you more than you could ever know
Alexis, you not losing yourself and being able to feel and vocalize what you’ve gone through… simply thank you. I’ve gone through so many similar things with my ex POS step dad and my mom who was also hurting, and I feel like I can’t even vocalize or remember the pain I just feel numb. THANK YOU for not giving up. THANK YOU for speaking about it. THANK YOU for being a light that kept going through all of this. Thank you for being so real, raw, and uncut and letting us see you and heal with you. When you’re in the nanny series videos telling us your stories, just know there’s a pack of women standing beside and behind you being empowered by you, your heart, and your bravery. Giving all of my love a big hug to little Lex, and also to big Lex for being a damn good example to all of the little Lex’s out in the world, and the ones healing from experiences like little Lex’s. Thank you for being who you are mama, te quiero mucho!💜
11 minutes in & im crying with you… thank you for your vulnerability & honesty! sending all my love always 💕
You became who you needed to be to survive. And little Lex navigated all this crazy shit so well. I love watching your family come in and talk to you cause as a viewer it's reassuring that you have so many people in your house that love you 💛
Alexis I feel your pain bcuz I kind of went through some of the same things as you & I was also a teen momma🙏🏼& was on my own. I just had chemotherapy yesterday as I’m battling stage 4 cervical cancer,this is the 4th time I battle cancer & watching you also makes me remember my old traumas💔🥺I send you lots of hugs & prayers with positive vibes just like you spread joy to us💕remember you’re such a special soul & we all love you so much🥰
🙏I’m praying for you. Stay strong 💪 you will get thru this!🙏💕
Seeing you in such raw, visible pain, really got to me. Alexis as much as i enjoy watching your videos, if it is causing you this kind of pain and reopening old wounds, then please dont feel like you have to do them anymore ❤ we would all definitely understand
I am having to rewatch this video because I literally cried so hard the first time ( I even woke my husband up. It's literally 4 am where I'm at ). Your videos are helping you fambam heal with you. So many of us have been through what you have and can relate. I really hope you know we love and have the upmost respect for you for sharing what we never could. Much love to you ❤❤❤
Hope you find a little more strength every day🤍
catching up, a few months late because i had a baby! every story you share, little me feels so seen. My mom is bipolar, i was assaulted by my stepdad and my mom chose him over me, to this day. My stepdad went through my journal around the same age you were in this storytime. I feel your feelings, i see you, i see little lex. I hope you see this, im so grateful to see you living your life now with your own big happy family, it gives me so much hope.
Best believe I cried the entire time and had to stop the video and continue it after an hour or so. My older brother had told me once that the devil always sends evil people in your life to ruin you but that God always sends his angels to fight for you. This story reminded me of that. Little Lex, we love you so damn much. And Lex, you gorgeous mama thank you for baring your soul to us, just know that this is YOUR story and you share however much or little with us and we will support you and give you love. Thank you because when I see you cry, I cry with you, and it's truly healing my inner child and healing my own pain. So, thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. Te quiero y mucho besos! 💖💋💕
I love the way your babe cares for you. He had to make sure that you really, really didn't want the coffee.
I typically don’t comment on RUclipsrs videos but this one right here… WOW.. I know you don’t like being pitied but damn girl my heart goes out to you, you have me bawling!
Please don’t hurt your self or kids because you feel obligated to post videos that are too hurtful to you . We love all your videos and will continue to support your channel regardless . It hurts to see you hurt as if you were living in the past . Take care of yourself 💕
Every time you drop one of these stories, I just question more and more how the Peaches can live with themselves. They are terrible people. I hope their kids are doing well today, they don’t seem to know how to handle anything.
The Peaches thought or acted like they knew what they were doing, like they were doing the right thing. But would they have done it that way if it were their kid? That’s why I don’t like these people the peaches. Their approach was so insensitive and Mrs Peach is a whole another level of evil. I couldn’t believe her comments. She had a rotted soul because she couldn’t see the beautiful soul of Little Lex.
Thank you for sharing this story, and every story you share with us. Your vulnerability is truly admirable. You help me heal so much. I hope to one day have even an ounce of your strength, resilience, vulnerability, & transparency. Love you so much.
Dear Alexis, I have no words for these people. I just wish this kind of evil got their karma
My heart breaks for you, hearing and seeing you relive the these disgusting moments brings out little Lex and all of the hurt and pain she suffered. This is a perfect example of never judge a book by its cover because as someone who discovered you yeeears ago smiling and laughing doing beauty videos, I would’ve never guessed you suffered so much. Baby lex deserved soooooo much better, this cruel world and selfish adults failed her too many times. A beautiful title to carry is a strong woman, but a lot of people fail to realize in order to carry that title you would’ve had to endure so much pain and conquer so many things. I’m sorry lex but you in fact are a strong woman and we all know younger you is so proud of how far you’ve come. You eventually got and are living the life you deserve. You are inspiring others all
across the world. You gained battle wounds but regardless of how you see it , you won that fight. Keep
Going Love!! 💗💗💗
You are so brave and strong for sharing your story. Please don’t ever feel like you have to share too much for us. Just share enough to let you heal ❤
I think Mr Peach just wanted to p3rv over all the gory details. I think he was trying to gr00m you through Voltimort. What a house of horrors 🫣 You are so brave❣️
Girl, I empathize with you and wish to be there to hug you. It is so embarrassing that adults act this way to children. They (Peaches) were victim blaming you and gas lighted you when you would get triggered by making those comments when you had your boundaries.
If that was a therapist there are so many unethical issues that I noticed and that is so hurtful and unprofessional. When someone cares, they respect your boundaries and let you share ONLY when you are ready. It hurts knowing there are humans like this harming vulnerable children. Cuídate mucho 💕
Thanks for the edits “Knuck if you buck”, I still jam to that song. Gets you in the moment😂 and the Fairly Odd Parents wand was cute.
The system failed little Lex I’m so sorry mama 😢
You were easy to forgive because you wanted to feel loved and belonged. So you looked past what has happened. I'm the same way. I'm so easy to forgive because we were neglected as kids. When you are neglected you try to look for love in all the wrong places.
people pleasing ^ i still am like that it’s from the childhood trauma love and looking for that love and aproval from others no matter who it is and what they have done
The makeup came out so cute!! But girl thank you for being so open with us to tell us these stories. It’s difficult to be vulnerable especially to an internet full of strangers but I’m proud of you girl❤ we’re always here for you ❤❤❤❤
I wish I could hug you ❤❤❤
My heart breaks for you in those moments of you hurting 💔 you’re a lot stronger than what you may feel at times , to show us such raw emotions and to show us your pain is courage . Sending you virtual hugs love ♥️
My Girl❤ love you beautiful
I literally watch your videos everyday at work i have gone thru the nanny series like 4 diffeent times. Luv your energy and so happy for a new video!!
Oh Alexis… I’m so sorry baby girl 😕
BIG HUGS! LOTS OF LOVE! Thank you for sharing your story. 😞❤ This takes lots of courage and I hope somebody who is struggling with these similar situations to seek help and find the courage and strength to come out. Keep finding that safe place and the right people to talk to.
Ugh Alexis I just want to huge you an take away the pain! I’m so proud of how far you have came keep on going homegirl!
You may have already said this and I missed it but how did they get your diary and did you not have it hidden or have a lock on it? Doesn’t matter, they should’ve respected your privacy!
Lex I can’t even be describe how much I feel for you. I feel like you’re my internet big sister so it feels extra raw and painful. I cry when you cry and I just want to hug you so bad and tell you that it’s gonna be ok. I feel you when it comes to moving on so quickly after someone hurts you. Sometimes you want everything to be ok so bad that you’re willing to forget what they’ve done to just feel good. I constantly have to remind myself to not cave in because when I do, I’m quickly reminded of why I stayed away. Love you Lex and thank you for sharing 💜 You help so many of us more than you know 💜💜💜
I wish I would of known you growing up & lived in the same state. You could of lived with me & my dad would of treated you like his own & you wouldn’t of needed for nothing! I promise you that. My friend had parents that weren’t shit. Roaches everywhere in their house. Their power got cut off & my friend got pregnant in 9th grade so her & her baby needed to stay somewhere & not stay there with no power or water bc they used their government money for other stuff if you follow me. & sold their food stamps. They had so many relatives staying with them that they should of never been without food. But they did. He let her stay with us for a while & she was like his daughter & her daughter was like his granddaughter. He told her while she stayed with us she & her daughter would be taken care of. My dad was a truck driver. & he’s not creepy. & usually wouldn’t let girls stay the night with me bc of the fact he was the only adult. He and my “mom” was divorced. But he had full custody of me & my 2 older brothers. He was the best. & he would never do anything to anyone. You wouldn’t be uncomfortable either. I’m so sorry Alexis! It’s unfortunate that any kid has to go through this. I’m so sorry my heart aches for you! I have a son & a daughter & it makes me so paranoid that they’ll never stay the night anywhere.
I do the same thing. I think it's low self worth and fear of abandonment. Like even if a person is really crappy to us, it's ok because it's better to have crappy people than no people at all and we don't deserve better treatment anyway. This is a struggle I'm still working on.
Sending many hugs and love Alexis! I’m so sorry for everything your went through. Idk how can you still be friends with Sam 🫤 I hope the peaches are watching your videos and I hope it make them feel the piece of shit they’re were and all the wrong doing they did and probably continue to do so, gente así nunca cambia.! But you are a Queen! ❤❤
This was a hard one to get thru at the beginning. I relate so so much with the worrying about other people's feelings. I hate it sometimes.
Love you Jade! 🩵
I’m 12 min in, and already I want to just stop and embrace you 🥺😞
Thx girl for the upload! Wooohooo! Yayyy! 🎁💐💝 we want you here tooo!!!
I’m doing inner child work right now too and completely get where you’re coming from! You’re in protective mode!
Love you Alexis sending you prayers of healing and strength you are truly amazing sending you love and hugs and thank you ❤
I won’t lie you got me at the “we ride at dawn” 😂 thanks for continuing to share with us! I started watching you probably 3 years ago. Your story times have gotten me through rehab, my dad getting sick. you inspire me so much to heal my inner child. Thanks for being such a queen! ❤
Omggggg Yas I was waiting so patiently for video 😢😂🙈
When she said she was not going to let u go I felt tears behind my eyes ❤️🙏🏽
Been watching you for years! Your such a good person with a huge heart! I’m so happy I found your channel ❤
💕🙏 take your time love never feel like you have to rush we will always be here i know its not easy to talk about you are loved you are important you matter never put yourself down keep pushing thank you for being vulnerable with us💜💜 you help me through the pain i love u girl sending hugs 🥰
Brown was there to cover there asses Lex…. Bc if something ever came up or anything they didn’t want the finger pointed at them… they wanted to be able to say we told Mr brown and she wouldn’t talk to him
Thank you for sharing your story with us ❤ i haven't even started it (it's a lil late for me haha) but again truly appreciate you. You're helping us heal as we hope you heal.
I was r@ped and my response was to go be really $exually active. So many people said how it wasn't a normal reaction. I'm supposed to not want to be touched etc. So I'm either lying or I asked for it. Now it's understood it's a normal reaction. It's a way to take control over a situation I had no control over.
i love u lex🤍 everytime u post a story time it’s always a good day 💗💗
so sad that most of us b her comments know and experienced erything alexis is talking about 😢
Thank you for being so vulnerable with us we love you 💜
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It’s so hard watching you re-live all of this trauma 😢💔 I hope it brings you some peace. Thank you for sharing. Sending you hugs, lots of love, and good vibes.💛🥰🤗
love you so so much lex💕
the fact ik the exact feeling and frustrations tgat u r feeling i’m so sorry we love you we hear u and we are here for you
I didn't think it was possible to hate The Peaches more!!! They are like vampires, and bullies and disgusting people. I felt so hard for little Lex I can't believe that happened to you, and you are still the sweetest human ever! How girl?? I would have been a monster I think lol
I’m so sorry Lex. This is just so messed up. I wish I could just give baby Lex a hug 🥺🫶
I'm listening while I'm getting ready for work. Summer camp is in full affect so the babies are on 10 at work 😂 but I love it❤
I pray everyone is having a wonderful, safe summer ❤
I want so badly to turn back time and prevent you from every going thru any of this! I’ve been crying with you this whole time. Remembering my mom did nothing about my grandfather doing what he did to me. From 5-12. I didn’t even cry when he died! He stole me childhood and innocence!
We love you too Lex❤️ Can’t wait for the story time. We appreciate you ❤️
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😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 ‘Im waiting for Joe’ omg thank you 😂😂😂 if you didn’t slap her at least that hurt her a little 😂
I'm with you girl I understand when people hurt you they don't say sorry . I was hurt constantly and I have never been apologized to
Perfect timing💕 Just as I’m laying in bed looking for someone to watch 🤝🏾
PS. I waited DAYS to watch your last video because it always feels like forever between nanny series story times😂 I finally watched yesterday and was hoping that I wouldn’t have to wait too long for another and you came through ‼️
Yay 🤗🤗🤗🤗 one of my favorite RUclipsrs posted 🥰🥰🥰 time to clean this bathroom && listen to the cheese ❤ This summer is going to beat my ass lol I started college & boy ooh boy this shit is no joke 😅😅 pero si se puede!!! Love you hermosa ❤
Everytime I go the marshalls/ross/TJ, Im hoping to manifest running into you. ❤️ I always listen while doing stay at home mom stuff so it doesn’t feel so lonely, thank you. 🥰🥰
Also, I do not understand any of the adults in your life. To not listen to a child, to ridicule a child for actions they had no control over is just, mind blowingly disgusting. You deserved better, and still deserve better for having to remember these moments.
I wish I could grab you and hug you and hug little lex...omg...not in a stalkers way...in a I want to take even a little bit if the hurt away
You have no idea how your videos just brighten up my day! ❤
Driving to work 🥰
Heyy Lex ❤️❤️ we love you !! I’ve been a little far from god so I haven’t been feeling like myself but seeing you always make my day, night, anytime I see you and I appreciate you for being here with us and continuing to do what you do bc a lot of us need you and appreciate someone so open and honest with us ! It let’s us know you care for us just as much as we care and love you 🥹🥹🥰