Thankfully, Lena is YEARS over these thoughts. It's been over 3 years since she composed this soundtrack. How much her mental state has improved, I cannot say... But. In the span of a few months, my mind recovered from its journey with depression, so wouldn't surprise me if that's what happened with Lena. All I know for sure is, Lena ain't at rock bottom anymore. Her recent works on Chicory show that. Celeste definitely helped Lena express and come to terms with herself. Chapter 5 (this track & one more) are perhaps the MOST expressive. And this is just another reason I adore this game so damn much. A truly hidden masterpiece.
@@nup5 This reminds me, not completely related. I follow this one artist and they spent so long working on a song thats meant to be sad, atmosphere of a lost land that was once so beautiful. They worked on that song for so long to the point where they actually got a little depressed from it. A thing he said about the track in his explanation was, " I think it's one of the darkest pieces I've ever written in, was actually kinda depressing after working on it after a while... Just because I had to listen to this, bleakness over and over..."
@@heybra1216 oh dang. I had not considered that working on sadder tracks may bring about depression, but from a psych view... that's perfectly logical. Although, in terms of Lena's tracks... there's subtle evidence that the songs were made because of her 'train of thought', and not the other way around. Regardless, that story is... interesting, to say the least.
"Sometimes, I... don't really know... what's going on anymore. I... I don't... know who I am. I just... look in the mirror, and... don't know who I'm looking at. Or... who's looking at me. I... think a lot... about... where... my train of thought is going... and it's not always a good place. And that scares me. I don't... like... scaring myself. I don't..."
I think some of the sound is reversed in the original as well, to make it nicer going backwards? edit: cross-referenced with the original, can confirm the piano here is played backwards in the original as well as a few other things
This track always gets me. Chapter 5 is perhaps the MOST expressive of Lena's real life struggles from several years ago. This track in particular is what got me hooked on this game. Everything before seemed to fade away as I ventured through the mirror... and the music was right on cue. From a composing standpoint, this track is really clever. From an emotional standpoint... this track is really clever... and spot on accurate...
@@rainbianca8625 mhm. That definitely played a part in the overall design. I think I recall Maddy talking about how those game elements subconsciously made it into the final product (not including the obvious references such as color palette and farewell ending flags)... but I'm not sure. It's been months
@@nup5 Maddy's story always cracks me up. Everyone was telling her "Maaaaybeee it's not a coincidence everything is pink and blue and maaaaybeee Madeline is trans" and she was like "Noooo I assure you she's not" and then they both were
It resonates with me at a *very* deep level, because I'm trans. The person you see in the mirror not feeling like _you_ is a feeling I know way too well
@SomeGalNamedEve I've already subconsciously begun to try to avoid mirrors whenever I can, it does just trigger so much dysphoria in me. I hope I'll be able to see my true self in the mirror soon, but being young and unsure of myself, it feels so out of reach to be able to transition and see myself as myself.
Deep down, she hides pain of the purest, as she travels through the snowy lands, heading for the top of a mountain that has covered the bodies of experienced climbers with snow and ice.
dude, the whispers were scary enough in the actual track, but this just makes me want to crawl up into a ball and cry… poor madeline… still, that’s such a damn interesting part of the song, and it really just contributes to the overall feeling of just utter dread i feel listening to this. it’s really relaxing and yet makes me feel like a pit’s opening in my stomach. all in all, totally a track i’d listen to in the middle of the night to just… think about everything.
"Sometimes, I don't really know what's going on anymore. I... I don't know who I am... I just look in the mirror and don't know who I'm looking at... or who's looking at me. I think a lot about where my train of thought is going, it's not always a good place... and it scares me. I don't like scaring myself... I don't..."
why is this video so underrated? this is amazing quality and the only video I could actually understand what Madeline is saying... well I guess Celeste is a pretty underrated game with almost no community so yeah
I love how quiet and falling plays later in the song while reversed since your in *the* mirror so everything is well reversed and thats why you can hear Madeline talking when you play the song reversed
the celeste ost is by far my favourite ost of any game, and in the mirror is my favourite track. such an amazing tune, lena raine is incredibly talented
“Sometimes I don’t really know what’s going on anymore I-….. I- don’t know who I’m I just look in a mirror and don’t know what I’m looking at are you looking at me I I go on about my head hurts my face my tredontuc (that’s all I can figure out)
"Sometimes I don't really know what's going on anymore. I don't know who I am. I just look in the mirror and don't know who I'm looking at or who's looking at me. I think a lot about where my train of thought is going and it's not always a good place and that scares me. I don't like scaring myself. I don't."
I feel like the high pitched notes happening occassionally in a way somewhat mimic the high pitched crying that Madeline emotes at the start of this part of the level. Very fitting piece for the subject matter at the time in the level.
![[Official] Celeste Original Soundtrack - 03 - Resurrections](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/1rwAvUvvQzQ/mqdefault.jpg)
4:54, that's where you start hearing her thoughts
Its so sad, I want to help but I cant
Thankfully, Lena is YEARS over these thoughts. It's been over 3 years since she composed this soundtrack. How much her mental state has improved, I cannot say... But. In the span of a few months, my mind recovered from its journey with depression, so wouldn't surprise me if that's what happened with Lena.
All I know for sure is, Lena ain't at rock bottom anymore. Her recent works on Chicory show that.
Celeste definitely helped Lena express and come to terms with herself. Chapter 5 (this track & one more) are perhaps the MOST expressive.
And this is just another reason I adore this game so damn much. A truly hidden masterpiece.
@@nup5 This reminds me, not completely related.
I follow this one artist and they spent so long working on a song thats meant to be sad, atmosphere of a lost land that was once so beautiful.
They worked on that song for so long to the point where they actually got a little depressed from it. A thing he said about the track in his explanation was,
" I think it's one of the darkest pieces I've ever written in, was actually kinda depressing after working on it after a while... Just because I had to listen to this, bleakness over and over..."
@@heybra1216 oh dang. I had not considered that working on sadder tracks may bring about depression, but from a psych view... that's perfectly logical.
Although, in terms of Lena's tracks... there's subtle evidence that the songs were made because of her 'train of thought', and not the other way around.
Regardless, that story is... interesting, to say the least.
I forgot about this comment
"Sometimes, I... don't really know... what's going on anymore.
I... I don't... know who I am.
I just... look in the mirror, and... don't know who I'm looking at.
Or... who's looking at me.
I... think a lot... about... where... my train of thought is going... and it's not always a good place.
And that scares me.
I don't... like... scaring myself.
I don't..."
the subtle crying after too...fuck man this hurts
Thank you so much for commenting the whole thing, I'm working on a video about it right now and my hearing is baaad
the incomprehensible chaos of feeling dysphoria put into words
2:31 hearing Quiet and Falling playing in the midst of all the chaos... sounds like it should be soothing, but is instead the most unnerving thing
It works backwards surprisingly well. I guess it makes hearing the voice lines easier
I think some of the sound is reversed in the original as well, to make it nicer going backwards?
edit: cross-referenced with the original, can confirm the piano here is played backwards in the original as well as a few other things
it's the rest of the mirror temple music in reverse, with some modifications
Hi Link
@@LinTheColin Hi Lin
Holy hell dude. This isn't even the actual song, but it's got me in tears, wtf
It is…… it‘s just in reverse
@@silask.1966 I know. But it sounds so good reversed
@@xurky3498 that is true
@@xurky3498 Part of in the mirror is the previous Track reversed thats why you get this
Yea, you can see this really well on piano. Like at least 50% of the previous song melody is reversed
This track always gets me. Chapter 5 is perhaps the MOST expressive of Lena's real life struggles from several years ago.
This track in particular is what got me hooked on this game. Everything before seemed to fade away as I ventured through the mirror... and the music was right on cue. From a composing standpoint, this track is really clever. From an emotional standpoint... this track is really clever... and spot on accurate...
Not only Lena, but Maddy's (head dev I think?) too. She came out as trans not long after releasing chapter 9.
@@rainbianca8625 mhm. That definitely played a part in the overall design.
I think I recall Maddy talking about how those game elements subconsciously made it into the final product (not including the obvious references such as color palette and farewell ending flags)... but I'm not sure. It's been months
@@nup5 Maddy's story always cracks me up. Everyone was telling her "Maaaaybeee it's not a coincidence everything is pink and blue and maaaaybeee Madeline is trans" and she was like "Noooo I assure you she's not" and then they both were
@@rainbianca8625 this is a certified Celeste moment
Yall Should play her hit game Dim from 2004 made along the side of DexCG (Chris Royer). Amazing puzzle platformer there!
The line "I just... look in the mirror, and... don't know who I'm looking at. Or... who's looking at me." just resonates with me for some reason
It resonates with me at a *very* deep level, because I'm trans. The person you see in the mirror not feeling like _you_ is a feeling I know way too well
@@SomeGalNamedEve feel you 🤝🫂🫂
You can’t outrun your own reflection…
@@SomeGalNamedEvesame 😭
@SomeGalNamedEve I've already subconsciously begun to try to avoid mirrors whenever I can, it does just trigger so much dysphoria in me. I hope I'll be able to see my true self in the mirror soon, but being young and unsure of myself, it feels so out of reach to be able to transition and see myself as myself.
Deep down, she hides pain of the purest, as she travels through the snowy lands, heading for the top of a mountain that has covered the bodies of experienced climbers with snow and ice.
dude, the whispers were scary enough in the actual track, but this just makes me want to crawl up into a ball and cry… poor madeline… still, that’s such a damn interesting part of the song, and it really just contributes to the overall feeling of just utter dread i feel listening to this. it’s really relaxing and yet makes me feel like a pit’s opening in my stomach. all in all, totally a track i’d listen to in the middle of the night to just… think about everything.
"Sometimes, I don't really know what's going on anymore. I... I don't know who I am... I just look in the mirror and don't know who I'm looking at... or who's looking at me. I think a lot about where my train of thought is going, it's not always a good place... and it scares me. I don't like scaring myself... I don't..."
why is this video so underrated? this is amazing quality and the only video I could actually understand what Madeline is saying... well I guess Celeste is a pretty underrated game with almost no community so yeah
It’s not Madeline who’s speaking.
It’s the creator of the song Lena Raine her self
@@Xelaria supposed to be Madeline anyway.
@@Xelaria yes but this is inside her head so it’s her eternal dialogue speaking which is basically her
uh it has a community wdym?
@@redfoxlightning They meant this video specifically, not the game
See also: ‘Dysphoric’ by Cavetown
but yeah geez this hits hard wow
so true 😭
Exactly my thoughts lol AND on topic since madeline is trans
i swear i’ve had those same thoughts that were whispered in this song before T-T
Wait I was here 6 months ago, well shit
@@PlayerOfCelesteare you still here 11 months later?
Listen to this alone at night and you get pure terror, try it
i tried and just get more deppresed than i was
That’s when I first heard it. And now I’m in tears.
00:06 here, I heard the normal track before, honestly, I feel something resonating, which give me shivers
I'm listening to this at about 4 p.m, but I can still feel the terror
OH SHOOOOOT ITS ALREADY 12:30
*I HURT*
then go hospital
@@aneekofaperson5218 it’s a pain no hospital can heal
@@Xelaria ask yo momma
7:22 not sure what shes saying in this part, but somehow got the feeling some thoughts might better stay hidden
Do you know now?
And I thought the forward version was unnerving
Interesting how much of the middle part is Quiet and Falling reversed
I love how quiet and falling plays later in the song while reversed since your in *the* mirror so everything is well reversed and thats why you can hear Madeline talking when you play the song reversed
the celeste ost is by far my favourite ost of any game, and in the mirror is my favourite track. such an amazing tune, lena raine is incredibly talented
“Sometimes I don’t really know what’s going on anymore I-….. I- don’t know who I’m I just look in a mirror and don’t know what I’m looking at are you looking at me I I go on about my head hurts my face my tredontuc (that’s all I can figure out)
* I doesn't understand that what she
* says. She's crying ?
"Sometimes I don't really know what's going on anymore. I don't know who I am. I just look in the mirror and don't know who I'm looking at or who's looking at me. I think a lot about where my train of thought is going and it's not always a good place and that scares me. I don't like scaring myself. I don't."
the fact that i relate a lot to this scares me
Thanks for this. I always did wonder what she was saying.
I feel like the high pitched notes happening occassionally in a way somewhat mimic the high pitched crying that Madeline emotes at the start of this part of the level. Very fitting piece for the subject matter at the time in the level.
In the song in the mirror from Celeste you can hear about the creator struggles with depression
The original track already made me feel extremely unsettled, but it's somehow so much worse backwards 😭
I actually prefer the unedited version of this music, it's pretty more climatic and disturbing
oh wow the voices are actually words like i thought...
Congratulations, you understand hurt…… 😢🥺
This made me depressed, awesome! 😭
Damn it sounds just as good as the original one. Although I’m not gonna lie this one sounds better. 😱
this track is so painful
This is my live
Has anyone deciphered what is being whispered at 1:11?
It is the same as what is whispered in 4:54
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10/10 gave me anxiety when I heard it