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Video Log 140: TCP, UDP, and Web Development Shenanigans
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Video Log 140: TCP, UDP, and Web Development Shenanigans
Video Log 138: Just Chatting About Some Technical Books and My Current Progress in Go
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Chatting about my books on ordinary and partial differential equations, linear algebra, real analysis, GR, and Bertrand Russell's famous book on western philosophy. Also, some spattered babbling around Go and its syntax and more "advanced" primitives.
Video Log 137: Just Chatting About Life, Physics, and Computer Stuff
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Video Log 137: Just Chatting About Life, Physics, and Computer Stuff
Video Log 136: Life, Future Project Using Golang, Pauli Exclusion Principle, and Scattered Thoughts
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Video Log 136: Life, Future Project Using Golang, Pauli Exclusion Principle, and Scattered Thoughts
Video Log 135: Refining Mind Map Around QM and GR and What Concepts I'm Focusing On
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Video Log 135: Refining Mind Map Around QM and GR and What Concepts I'm Focusing On
Video Log 134: Just a Quick Update on Life and My Studies
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Minor mood dip is causing a lot of trouble with how effectively I'm communicating so bear with me.
Video Log 133(Part 2): Blabbering About Random Math Concepts Centered Around Manifolds
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Video Log 133(Part 2): Blabbering About Random Math Concepts Centered Around Manifolds
Video Log 133(Part 1): Non-Terminal Perspective of Fields/Manifolds
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Mainly just talking about fields again and how they can be seen as a "computer" through a series of input/output nodes with the number of inputs and outputs being equal to 2n 1 where n is equal to the number of dimensions of the field. Each input/output node is linked to a "dx"(no, not the dx that we think of in Calculus), which can potentially solve the unnecessary complications of re-normaliz...
Video Log 132(Part 2): Gaussian Elimination and Sensors
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Video Log 132(Part 2): Gaussian Elimination and Sensors
Video Log 132(Part 1): Special Relativity, Tensors, Manifolds, and Linear Algebra
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Video Log 132(Part 1): Special Relativity, Tensors, Manifolds, and Linear Algebra
Video Log 131: Just Chatting About Re-Prioritizing and Updating Progress On My Research
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This video is everywhere and I'm having a little trouble enunciating from inundating my mind with why's. Had to double-back from QFT to re-familiarize myself with bra-ket notation, Lagrangian mechanics, some linear algebra on top of going down unnecessary rabbit-holes.
Video Log 130: Chatting About Path Integrals, Effective Field Theory, Relativistic Dirac Equation
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Just chatting about where I'm currently directing my thoughts pertaining to the two paths of QFT(canonical quantization and the path integrals) and my gaps of knowledge around the relativistic Dirac equation. I also went on a couple of tangents surrounding Effective Field Theory.
Video Log 129: Larmor Precession and Why Waves Seem to Exhibit Angular Momentum
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Video Log 129: Larmor Precession and Why Waves Seem to Exhibit Angular Momentum
Video Log 128(Part 2): Wrapping Up Thoughts
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Video Log 128(Part 2): Wrapping Up Thoughts
Video Log 128(Part 1): Spin, Stern-Gerlach Experiment, Schrodinger Waves, and Spattered Venting
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Video Log 128(Part 1): Spin, Stern-Gerlach Experiment, Schrodinger Waves, and Spattered Venting
Video Log 127: Just Looking Into Some Books
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Video Log 127: Just Looking Into Some Books
Video Log 126: Just More Thoughts on Fields
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Video Log 126: Just More Thoughts on Fields
Video Log 125: Continued Thoughts From Yesterday From a Field Theory Perspective
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Video Log 125: Continued Thoughts From Yesterday From a Field Theory Perspective
Video Log 124: Just a Lot of Thoughts
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Video Log 124: Just a Lot of Thoughts
Video Log 123: Just Chatting About Life and Non-Duality
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Video Log 123: Just Chatting About Life and Non-Duality
Video Log 121(Part 2): Past "Psychotic" Tendencies and Becoming More Team-Oriented
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Video Log 121(Part 2): Past "Psychotic" Tendencies and Becoming More Team-Oriented
Video Log 121(Part 1): Update on CPD, Job Search, and my Frustrating Mood Swings
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Video Log 121(Part 1): Update on CPD, Job Search, and my Frustrating Mood Swings
Video Log 120: New Lead On Potential Job
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Video Log 120: New Lead On Potential Job
Video Log 119: Stream of Consciousness
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Video Log 119: Stream of Consciousness
Video Log 117: Thoughts on Human Behavior and My Current Status on Improving My Life
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Video Log 117: Thoughts on Human Behavior and My Current Status on Improving My Life
Interesting brother
Just commenting on entropy and the "log" in mathematics pertains to the natural logarithm also commonly known as "ln". A mathematician must've edited the wiki page on Boltzmann because the logarithmic function without a specification on what base it is is commonly known as the natural logarithm in their world. Although they use ln, any logarithm would suffice, but the nice property of taking the derivative of "disorder" or entropy in a system comes out more nicely than a log with a base that's not equal to Euler's number.
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Send a reply brother lets talk lets connect
Ur thinking brother
What do you think of 163
I don’t know how 163 really ties into reality to any extent, but are you talking about something to deal with number theory? I’m also not formally educated in pure math so I don’t think I’d be able to even postulate what 163 means from that standpoint. What are your thoughts on it?
@brooceree read about it u like numbers but let's connect in any other medium to talk
@brooceree let's have fun
Even I don't understand it, just trying like a kid to understand it,ur views
@@Itsmethinkingwell I’m not good at artificial interactions and this feels pretty clunky to me and you’ve only asked me about a random number. Is there anything else that you’d like to talk about outside of number theory my friend?
Something I forgot to mention is that Bell's inequality can be explained through the conservation of information just because of the "tunnel vision" effect I was talking about. Carl Jung's synchronicities also apply to this because nature's focal point has shifted due to the fact that the observer/being has chosen to change its truth vector that's aligned with those patterns easily achievable due to the macrocosm that it lives in. Again, all of this falls under nature's need to harmonize with itself and go down the path of least action as long as there is disharmony within the being or microcosm. You can look at it from the perspective of the macrocosm as well and forcing the microcosm to adapt to its new state to reach equilibrium again which leads to many side-effects for the being or microcosm is in severe misalignment with its resultant truth vector(psychological and physiological disorders). Side-note: disharmony shouldn't have a negative connotation to it because becoming a Buddhist monk is not the end-all be-all in life.
I guess what I’m trying to say in most of this is that being aligned with truth, god, or whatever you’d like to call it makes life significantly easier. Obviously, taking action is a part of the recipe because the universe can only do so much to present these opportunities that are compatible with your current state of being, but action becomes effortless to some degree when you choose to integrate it into your psyche. From my experience, molding the being and all of its parametric components requires a lot of initial energy, but once it has been cultivated enough, it’ll launch you into a “canon event”(coined by Allison Rose on RUclips if I’m not mistaken) where you are in fluid motion with everything around you. I guess you can think of it as the “activation energy” that you see in chemical reactions or the initial conditions required for a particular trajectory to occur in both linear and non-linear differential equations.
I don't know how different we are in temperament
Hello
bro ur like my hero i watch ur vids everyday
Awh shucks, I really appreciate the compliment. It's nice to know that others can see this as inspiration. Hope you have a wonderful day!
clean shaven god🔥
I recently started to accept the “universe” as God. I found meditation and praying to God as a moment of reflection and appreciation fulfilling. Always identified as agnostic, but have started trying to discover and find place in a religion. Have found Hinduism the most engaging / interesting!
I like that idea. :) I’ve been reading into a lot of Rudolf Steiner’s works recently and it seems to fit cozily with my mind at least. I’d recommend checking him out. I think he coined the word “anthroposophy” which is Greek for human wisdom. I haven’t studied Hinduism or Buddhism much, but I’ll see if I can beat you at finding something suitable first. xP
hope you had a good day!!
Thank you, I hope you had a stuuuuupendous day as well.
you can keep your talents to yourself all you want, but it feels incredible when you start forming connections with people through sharing your talent with the world, you should give it a shot
good luck on the interview!!
Danke
I loved Steins Gate! I’ve been struggling to watch anything fictional recently and I’m not sure why. I’ve actually been watching a bunch of storm chasing videos lately.
Yeah, I don’t have a phenomenal memory, but I remember liking it a lot. Of course, it’s every basement dweller’s wet dream to have a love affair with Christina… I’ve been feeling the same way about fiction recently as well. Seems like most of my time seems to be directed towards more practical forms of media consumption since I’ve been directing a lot of my thoughts towards self-improvement. Also, didn’t Storm Chasers air in the early 2000’s? I remember that nullifying some of my phobias of tornadoes. You’d think it would be the other way around… lol
for sun care the easiest thing for a guy to use I would think are stick sunscreens, you just rub it on your face like a deodorant and you're good to go
For taxes, you could distribute the task over many consecutive days (if sufficient time remains), with each day being absurdly easy. E.g. Day 1: write list of all required data (income, receipts); Day 2: collect data into single location; Day 3: identify and merely login to tax prep site (if online)....etc.
people that don't require you to respond make amazing friends
pereira or hill who you got
Is that UFC? I don't really watch sports so I avoid talking about them at all costs. Haha
Seems like sleep was an issue several times over the past week, apparently from different causes. Hopefully the coming week brings more solid rest!
Yeah, just my head being silly and me being careless, but things are slowing down so I think I'll be re-stabilizing in the next couple of weeks.
Greetings friend. Interesting entry into the series today. I enjoy listening to you talk about your plans, you seem like a genuine guy. I hope you enjoy your day man.
Greetings fellow earthling. Thank you, and I hope you enjoy your day as well!
maybe you could try selling small games on itch? it's not a business-business but it could keep you motivated to practice programming?
That's my first time hearing of that, but I'll look into it. I've been meaning to fill my time in more so that sounds like a pretty great idea. :D Hope you enjoy your weekend.
Good to hear the episode abated promptly, and interesting discussion on conserving energy, allowing thoughts/emotions to flow by rather than fighting/resisting!
Thank you, I'm starting to realize the depths of my emotions a lot more whether it's despair or a sudden feeling of hopelessness, but I'm also feeling bliss and joy at times, too. Finally starting to return back to normalcy after so long.
Treat it like a mild injury, do easy tasks while the mood recovers 👍
fuck trivia, but gotta admit it's a nice way for a midwit to feel smart
i think probiotics is what you get from kefir and yogurt and stuff like that
Ah, good to know! I'll have to keep an eye out for that next time I'm at the grocery store.
I definitely agree with you on the merits of having kids when you’re a little older and have had a little more time to grow and mature as a person. Everyone makes mistakes when raising their children, but I do think everyone has a choice to try to avoid perpetuating the generational cycles of dysfunction. I don’t have any particular interest in having kids myself, but if I did, I would do my best to emulate the things I admired about my parents and not repeat the things that I feel caused me more harm than good. Being cognitive of those things if you decide to have kids counts for a lot, I think.
Very well said. I think the issue with parenthood most times is that people fall into this feeling and "urge" to raise kids for their own self satisfaction not being completely aware of the repercussions and strict duties they must employ with devout effort. From what I can see, it's not something people take as seriously as they should or they try to and get bogged down filling another role like bringing in the right amount of income to support their family. My dad was the quintessential absent father that would flick on the TV and be left to his own devices for the most part when he got home. At times, he tried but his other responsibilities were too overwhelming for him so he had to trust the public school system and my mom to fill in the needs that I had then. Clearly, they weren't satisfied, but I had enough awareness to weed out those "traumas" to help progress through the next phase of my life. All I know is that I want to give as much attention as I can to my kids if I ever have them while finding the right balance between guiding them and letting them find ways to explore who they actually are without depicting everything as black and white.
why do you record rather talk to yourself. virtually noone is listening
Dude chill, man can put out what he wants
Publicizing it does no harm to anybody. Yes, this is ultimately for my own benefit, but cosmic bystanders have already commented on some of the other videos which already dismantles your proposition, so, yes, quite literally "virtually" something is listening.
I watch most videos but just dont comment, xd, @@brooceree
off-topic from the video but i was wondering how u pronounce ur username? i can't figure it out lol
It’s just supposed to be a facetious way of pronouncing and spelling “Bruce Lee”. It was one of my online pseudonyms in an MMORPG I used to play. lol
@@brooceree and here I was thinking it was a bro variant of "no siree Bob"
@@timhsvwalkinsha Ah, I've gotten that a couple of times. I would change it to "Brewce" but I would be violating the integrity of my past experiences in that game. haha
@@brooceree ohhh gotcha lmao, thanks man i was struggling with it haha
"everything feels like it's meant to be" that's nice
cover letters are such a scam. everyone says they're important, and everyone knows no one ever reads them. chatgpt wrote most of my cover letter base, to which I attach a personalized first paragraph. it's important to pat yourself on the head a lot in them
I wish, we were friends dude.
funny after you said "i need to speak with my diaphragm" your voice changed tone and became clearer (almost like you started talking with your diaphragm)
Yeah, guess that's my cue to start speaking more clearly. I need somebody to yell "Quick! Diaphragm!" to remind me to get out of my shell more before I implode. A straight posture helps too which is why I'm further away from the camera. My neighbor is also a night owl so that's why it may seem like I'm refraining from being too loud since I tend to record these really early in the morning. Hope you have a wonderful Monday. :D
You’re awesome
You’re awesomer
you're such a smart guy, you should monetize your technical mind!
Danke. I’ve been trying to not think about it too much and let time do its work. I’m sure I’ll have an epiphany sooner or later.
i do the same thing. putting stream on and doing stufff with them lol
Yeah, it’s therapeutic :D
I love this new thing youtube is doing when every day I get something with little views, it always feels like opening a present cause you have no idea what's inside
After finishing this video i'd like to let you know that it takes balls to do what youre doing, so i applaud you for that. Not every introverted person who struggles with socializing such as myself can just get on youtube and tell everyone about their struggles and the mental warfare theyve been through like you are. Thats really commendable, and something you should be proud of. And i think 13:34 sums this up perfectly. Thats all it is man, you live and you learn, you become better everyday. You seem like someone id want to be friends with, i wish you nothing but the best in your future and am anticipating your next video log to see how youre doing. Also, how did you cook the steak?
Yeah, it’s been tough, but I happened to have forcefully broken through my shell repeatedly through work. Funny thing is, I was always confused about why some people were so energetic being in social environments and I just assumed something was wrong with me or I had some kind of cognitive disability. This was before I knew of introversion and extroversion which I learned about way later than I’d like to admit. I really appreciate you taking the time to comment on here and I wish you luck on your life adventure as well. I like my steak rare as it should be! I didn’t salt and pepper it though so I just had it with some sauce so it won’t be too bland. :P
If you’re offended by the link in the description you probably have too much shit.
not having a lot of shit is the most freeing feeling. i live outta my small suv with only the necessities never been happier :)
I have tons of thoughts and stuff but you should totally try getting a little tipsy and talking to a camera and then watch it when you sober. It’ll be fun and introspective in a sense. Also pro tip: most people are just as skittish about other people and social interaction. Everyone is scared of everyone. Fuck em Keep doing these vids man I like em
even just communicating the way you do on this platform is a step to introducing urself again into the world again. I understand how you feel, I think you are much braver for being able to upload urself for the world to see despite everything.
Tbh i wouldn't stay away from book clubs etc because they're 'nerdy', if you want to join a book club I'd say to do so, maybe you'll meet people you can practice socialising with. I'd also try the gym tho, it's a good way to meet people and can help you keep active. Phishing sucks man but hopefully it won't happen again, just look out for signs in the emails you get and be careful with your info. Keep up the videos it seems like you're starting to get more open on these videos and that should help you be open with others. Hope stuff gets better soon
Hey man, you have a really nice voice, and i've seen others comment that on a different video of yours. I see you're on twitch too, you should start streaming regulary. If you're open to it, you should look into making ASMR videos. If you're trying to find somewhere to socialize i would recomend going to your local gym, there will definitely be people there willing to help, plus exercise is great for mental health. You are NOT invisible. Good luck :)
You have a really nice speaking voice, also nice listening to someone speak who doesn't seem to have a big agenda or cause
I don’t think it’s a bad thing at all to imagine ways you’d redo an interaction in your head. It can almost be a form of exposure therapy in a way for social anxiety. It’s essentially practicing your small talk. I always feel conflicted about how much alcohol helps me with socialization. I don’t like to think that I rely on it, but it does help me function much more “naturally” in overstimulating situations. It is what it is, I guess. I’m not sure how I came across your channel, but I’m rooting for you. :) I think journaling/vlogging can be pretty cathartic and is a good way to crystallize your thoughts and objectives.
Hello, I agree with you, but I have tendencies to ruminate too much so I have to pull myself out of those mental landscapes to something a little more forward-thinking if that makes sense. As for social drinking, it’s a balancing act like anything else but it serves as a good catalyst for initiating conversations with strangers for the time being. I was thinking if I get myself into situations in which I can socialize with others while being somewhat intoxicated maybe I can slowly alleviate that tool out of the picture with enough practice and calibration, but this is all very new to me so I’m not sure how to do that yet. I really appreciate you taking some time out of your day to respond to this. These logs don’t only serve as an echo chamber for myself, but I also want to hear from others and what they think about my thinking if they’re interested in pointing me in the right direction. Hope you have a wonderful Monday.
Depression management is another angle for the exercise thing (see PMID 38355154)
Good for you! Remember to be kind to yourself. Breaking things down into manageable steps and working at it steadily piece by piece is excellent! Listening to your brain, your mind, the way it flows and working with it to make a life path that fits that is so great. Tap into your own strengths and use them to your advantage! Good luck with your job hunt! Don't forget they're interviewing you, but you're also interviewing them to find a good fit. I hope you find something soon that will provide you what you need, including satisfaction and fulfillment! You are so wise to not get caught dwelling on worries you cannot currently do anything about. Enjoy your walk and wishing you much success and happiness in your journey! ❤
Your voice is very soothing, I don't know if that's something you've been told before. Hope you find something good soon, something stable.
Thanks :D