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I can't believe it. U have my exact symptoms and ailments. U r so brave. Smile u r awesome.

Just found this video. I've had this for over 3 years now. How do I get out?

Honestly, thank you so much for this! I felt so validated when you brought up certain points, i cannot explain the feeling when you feel like you're losing your mind and going insane but someone else describes some of the exact symptoms that you experience in exactly the same way. And especially when you said at the end that you're no longer in permanent dissociation - it gave me hope!❤

I love this video but I do believe that it is also helpful to push yourself to go to the mall or do the things that aren’t particularly fun for you, the more you push yourself the more you become desensitized & can function in every day life

I’m revisiting your video after watching it 5 years ago. I was sixteen when I scoured the internet for anyone who understood what I was going through. The last time I vividly engaged with the world was when I was 14. I’m 22 now and working to understand what healing means/looks like for me. Thank you for sharing your experience - it came when the scientific landscape for dissociative disorders was so underdeveloped. I appreciate you so much.

you’re gorgeous 😊❤

Did you recover being on medicine ?

You were so open about your experiences, and that takes strength. I am finally practicing self love when I may be dissociating, because it helps bring me back to feeling grounded. I will be doing some EMDR sessions around childhood trauma memories. When things feel unreal, the part of me that knows it’s my body and mind’s way of keeping me safe and that I am not going crazy, is so comforting. It took me YEARS to heal daily panic attacks. I appreciate your openness. I hope anyone who is suffering can know that healing is possible. It takes hard work, time, and loving yourself fully. Forgiveness helps, too. Of those who hurt you, but most important - letting go of hurting yourself. And self forgiveness. Great video! Thanks for sharing.

I remember the day when I first disassociated really well. My mom took pictures that day and I can always point out the pictures she took that day. I was around 7 or so. It was very confusing at first, and gradually it happened more and more. At around 12 it got to the point where I had it constantly. It was always there, and it'd sometimes change in intensity through triggers. (The triggers for it are flash animations with really high frame rates, flashing lights, any changes is air pressure, when I'd enter and exit a building with air conditioning and sunny days) I'm 17 now, and hope that one day there's a day where anything feels real. I don't know if it's related but normal things like emotions, sympathy etc... are basically nothing and I just pretend to have real connection to other people bit I just can't because there's nothing there at all. Heck, I might be just asexual aromantic but I haven't ever had any crushes and just consciously made them up to feel normal. I even cried once recently and it felt my body had a reaction and in my mind I was not feeling any emotion and was just thinking "I'm not sure why this is happening haha but I'll let it pass" It probably all has something to do with the fact that I have not a lot of brain to body connection, because since I was born I've been homeschooled and isolated my entire life and the only time I'd ever go outside was to accompany my mom for buying groceries. I'm in college now and a few months ago was the first time I've been outside in a place on my own and going somewhere not just to accompany someone else. It was really strange and I also started getting depersonalization. I've never had memory problems or anxiety luckily.

What if you somehow just straight up walked thru a spiritual door you had no idea existed?? 🤔 you were still in this universe but just on a different plane..we are physical temporal and spiritual beings.

i'm going through that now. and in fact it has been happening on and off since 2010....i have anxiety disorder and it has destroyed my life. the pain of existence is just so much...

Groundhog Day territory makes me feel like I’m going insane…

I always feel like I'm just watching myself from my own eyes, and that I can't actually control myself. I am kind of just on autopilot, and while I'm typing this is the only time I have felt in control.

I haven’t been able to sleep cuz of depersonalization

Beautiful lady 46 you seem pretty aware and intouch.... It was very helpful thanks.

I literally cried through the whole video 😭😭

I’ve been experiencing this the past two years and these videos have really helped me feel valid 💜

I am so greatful for you sharing this. I really never heard anyone describe what I have been living for so many years of my life. Thank you so much for sharing.

Goodness, I had the same thing with shades of pink which I just couldn't stand! I would rather die than see that colour.

its still there, after 2 years its not gonna end for me :(

Well.... It's all so relatable. Its been 6 months. After suffering a trauma , more like a panic attack I'm still stucked in that Temporal dissociation , dpdr...and haven't found anyway to get out of that feelings 🙂

The way you describe it is spot on! I know this was recorded 3 years ago so hope you’re doing better 💗

Thank you so much!!!!!!!

Okay, you are 100% normal and I know its hard to believe but this is a symptom of anxiety. Theres great videos on dp/dr recovery it’s literally a breath of fresh air. I resonated with what you mentioned when it comes to like the blended aspect you mentioned of movies, dreams, thoughts, disassociation and trust me so much more.

Hi I just want to know is this dpdr when you forget for 2 mins who eveyone is and forget where you are and why your there.

I don’t have short term memory, when I’m alone I don’t feel real, I struggle with keeping tv and real life separate, I wonder if this is real all the time. I don’t have any of the sound or physical numbness. My hearing is bad but I doubt it’s connected. I do un attach myself from my emotions when I’m alone and reattach when my husband comes home. Sometimes I don’t reattach for a few hours and I have to mimic him.

For any of you had it gone away? Have the episodes stopped or is it a lifelong thing? I’m living with the hope that it would stop at some point. Also does anyone wake up in the middle of the night with depersonalization and compete loss of memory? Grateful for your responses. Also, thank you for the video. I couldn’t put it in words half as well.

Too much complaining.

It constantly feels like you are only in your head. And the reality is you can't control any of it. Dissociation with grandiose feels like being high all the time, like you have superpowers, on other days you are just sitting without any ideas of what's happening.

lol just checking when you said voice felt 2d ext you put effects on right?

I think the worst part is the loss of time and memory loss/confusion but I had it as a very young age, so I learned to warp it to my liking, which made it harder to stop doing it.

I started crying when you began to explain it because I immediately understood. Its been like this for months and months and Im not even sure where it started. Nothing feels like anything. Kind of feeling like one big long day where I keep waking up from a nap at different times. but I still remember things that happened during the nap but I didnt do those things. my feelings are not my own. and the feelings arent ever in the right place or are "watered down" versions of what should be happening. I feel no tired and no sad and no anger and no happy just this "pressure" and then less pressure. But its not stress just like im feeling emotions wrong. everything feels odd. I feel really focused in what should be stressful situations like completely zen. and im known to not do this. people have been commenting on it a lot. Idk what to tell them. Ive been faking emotions nowadays because people react negatively to the zen. I feel completely and totally not myself. Idk what that even means anymore lol

May I ask you what it was like the day you came back completely to your normal life? I've been going through this for 4 weeks already and I feel like I can't take it anymore. 3 years is just... Jesus! I was wondering what it was like for you the day when you recovered, what did you do first? 'Cause sometimes I think about what it would be like to wake up one morning and feel exactly like before this hell started in my life.. P.S. Sorry for my english :)

i thought i was the only one.

Doesnt anyone have symptoms where things seem too small or too big, colors are more bright, and people look toooo robotic. Floaters evrywhere. cant believe this is real. Nah.

How do you write "lutionic relationship"? :)))

I lived in the realm of dp/dr without a break for about 4 years. I lost hope and really thought I could never come home. When in that state, it's difficult to find the complex source of the problem and it feels impossible but OH MY GOD I DID IT. I'm 19 now and when I first went into dissociation I was such a child. I really could have done with people taking me more seriously back then. This whole bloody thing was preventable and young people today are seriously let down by schools and parents and the health care system. So much needless suffering. To the people currently lost in dp/Dr, it probably needs to feel worse before it gets better. Confronting your trauma (no matter how seemingly mild) can feel dreadful but you have to get stronger to release yourself from this. I feel like I can take on the world now. For the first time in years, I'm myself again.

Do you can work normally while this ?

I need more info on the HD comment because I’m Experiencing that

i have psychosis so i do often dissociate a lot its weird but since im use to it im comfortable with it

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out of the Matrix , could be that we got born that way . After conditioning some can become junkies of the Matrix illusion

thankyou so much

I RELATE TO THIS SO HARD. Especially the vision stuff. For me it's kinda combined with an existential crisis, which FUCKIN SUCKS. anyways to anyone else watching this, no this isn't the matrix, that's a movie. No this isn't a dream, dreams happen when you sleep in THIS reality. You're gonna be okay, and we're gonna make it through this.

This is so accurate !!! What helps me is to just enjoy it . Dbt sounds interesting. Ive been on Prozac for 6 weeks and Its been a rough experience. Are you from Montreal??? I know that’s random lol but your French and English are really good.

I woke up with severe dp a little over five years ago. I have no idea the cause nor why I still experience this all day every day. Thank you for talking about this. Also the fucking deja vù omg. And yes like a bad drug trip LOL exactly

Tbh I was really scared to look into this because then I have to face the fact that it isn’t all a dream. Like at the end of the day I’m still trapped somewhere I can’t reach for help. Becoming aware and knowing there isn’t much I can do as scary but I mine as well talk abt it. Time distortion is a big one but I also get they sharp lag iykwim. Like everything needs a second to catch up with my eyes. When I’m really sad or going through a traumatizing event or triggering event the world becomes a shade of beige and I just hold on knowing Jesus has my hand. (Not to get spiritual everyone is totally valid to believe what is in their heart but for me it’s god.) I live w my narcissist mom (not to hate it’s just so you know why) and my step dad who uhm...is part of my traumas. My sister (who moved out) said the reason I might be like this is because every time I see them or something familiar to it it triggers ptsd and this is my brain keeping me from breaking. Emotionally I’ve been to the grave and back and now I’m stuck in this sink hole of derealization. Things feel so fake sometimes I hear quiet words. Never a sentence or voicing recognizable but small things that aren’t real. Sometimes when I take care of my chickens I see people standing in the same spot. Every time I see them they are there. It’s really scary to be so fatigued when your brain sees the world in such a terrifying way. I can’t leave here for another two years so I’m really just afraid even if I do escape these invisible chains that I would be forever stunted.

It's such a relief to finally find a term that perfectly describe my current experience. Thank you.

Anyone besides me feels like it is in another world? Asking myself if people are real or fake? If they are robots? What if I died and I am in my own world and I control people? Please tell me people are real and this is only in my head..

thanks for the beginning, that intro made me laugh for some reason