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Actually what happened to me is that, back when I was going through mood swings so when I was with a friend and my mood felt better for a while and In that time I didn't notice much but later I got caught up with this thought and started questioning my sex orientation then I searched looked up on internet then I found one symptoms that every gay people have that "women's are more likey to be in stressed than man' and then it had me since I am anxious I thought I must be a women who like man ♂️ and I am keep ruminating about it since then.

I'm also suffering from this , it started with false attraction towards a bully guy whom i hate most in my life and want to chopped off his head because he always bully me whenever i saw him before ocd i always had thoughts of fighting with him and one day when we all boys were playing together and that bully guy behave good with me and from where i don't know some type of creepy feeling came and i remember i just said in my mind " am i attracted to this" then all the doubts of gay started after few days i felt loss of attraction and libido that almost convinced me of gay but when it came back my anxiety literally vanished but after few Days doubt shifted to bisexual because of the intrusive thoughts, i deep down know I'm straight but sometimes walking through streets the intrusive thought comes in mind as a voice "oh look at that guy, he must be hot" or sometimes passing through every guy my mind said "hot guy, hot guy" without even seeing the face of any of them, kinda funny but these statements fucked my mind also sometimes i start planning if even I'm bisexual i will go far away from human population to any countryside along with my beautiful wife and kids, where I'll never use phone, tv and just spend time in nature with my family this is how my ocd ruining my life hope I'll be able to manage it soon. pray for me guys

Hey,im happy for you! Can we connect?

Can you make an update video on how things are going? If you still deal with hocd thoughts and images etc?

i have gay intrusive thoughts and when the thoughts don’t bother me or i’m not thinking about being gay my mind tells me that i’m secret in the closet or in denial of being gay but i have no desire of being with a man and have always been attracted to women, is this normal?

I'm Straight, Engaged to my Mrs & Getting married to her & This HOCD is a nightmare! (I cant even say the G word by the way Cause every time I say it it triggers me) Everyday I have intrusive thoughts about my Male best friends trying to hit on me. & every time That happens I have to think about my time with my Mrs, Whether that is kissing her, & knowing what she looks like to make sure that that thought will stay with me. & lt also affects me when I'm putting on Clothes Like when I put a t shirt on If the Male best friends thought Image pops in my brain, I have to take it off & put it on again & Think of my Mrs & if the thought of her Stays in there I can keep my T Shirt on. Shopping's Worst as well, like when I pick out an item (Lets say a Pint of Milk) If the thought of my male friends pop up, then I have to Put the item back & Pick out another one while thinking of my Mrs then I can keep the Item. The Same thing can happen with buying Clothes as well. This has only just started happening for a weeks now, Like before It use to happen when it was like watching tv soaps like: EastEnders, Coronation street, Emmerdale, Hollyoaks you name it When 2 Men scene is happening I Cant watch That scene cause it will trigger me. If it was 2 Girls kissing it wouldn't bother me cause It felt like having to kiss 2 Girls with me there. What made me speak about this is because a Girl was going through this & a Black man who was going through the same thing on Tiktok & I was happy that I wasn't the only one suffering with this. If the Bisexual Word popped in my head then, That Means still Like Girls & I will only date Girls. But Being Bi isn't what I want & Only Heterosexual is all I want to me & will always Be Straight. But I just Want all these Homo (Also know as the G word) & My male best friends trying to hit on me thought images gone from my head, & Go back to Living my Life with My Mrs, Get Married to her & have a Family Together. I feel like when I become a Dad I Feel Like it will make it easier for me cause I want everyone to know that, Oh look at him spending time with his son/Daughter & His Wife Now that's a perfect Family. The amount of Times I've cried & anxiety I've had over these past few weeks Has not been easy for me. Another Thing as well is that I felt like I can only have female friends, I know anyone with HOCD is different About this but, Whenever I hanged out with Females including my Mrs. It made me feel like the guy who can get all the Girls & Is a Ladies man. Also I watched a lot of Lesbian Or Sexy Thick Girls Corn Hub (With a P instead of a C) And see a Downstairs Growing Response and I still did to The Thick Girls on there. Which I Still felt happy about it, But I didn't want Corn (With a P instead of a C) To be the recovery, So when I spend Quality Time with my Mrs, I feel like that helped me Cause I Can just look at her & See How Beautiful she is. I told my Mrs about The HOCD & She said They are just Thoughts & You Will always Be Straight & Your not gonna Become another Sexuality & She Will Spend as Much Time with me to help you get better. I hear a lot of people say the best Recovery is to Ignore the images & thoughts, which I tried that but it just kept coming back, The TV Actors one I learned to Ignore, But The Thoughts & Images about my best mates Is the one that kept triggering me & being stuck in my head. Another way People say is EPR Therapy, But I'm Scared that They will Judge me. I watched RUclips Videos About the People going through This, & I feel Like I can talk to them & They can talk to me, Because they will not Judge & and I will Not Judge them, cause they have been through this intense Battle. If Anyone has any Recovered Properly & Knows any Big Tips & Best ways to put a stop to This suffering Progress, Please Let me know & Reply to This. We will get Through This & You are not alone in all This. You are a Legend if you've read all this! Thank You!

I'm Straight, Engaged to my Mrs & Getting married to her & This HOCD is a nightmare! (I cant even say the G word by the way Cause every time I say it it triggers me) Everyday I have intrusive thoughts about my Male best friends trying to hit on me. & every time That happens I have to think about my time with my Mrs, Whether that is kissing her, & knowing what she looks like to make sure that that thought will stay with me. & lt also affects me when I'm putting on Clothes Like when I put a t shirt on If the Male best friends thought Image pops in my brain, I have to take it off & put it on again & Think of my Mrs & if the thought of her Stays in there I can keep my T Shirt on. Shopping's Worst as well, like when I pick out an item (Lets say a Pint of Milk) If the thought of my male friends pop up, then I have to Put the item back & Pick out another one while thinking of my Mrs then I can keep the Item. The Same thing can happen with buying Clothes as well. This has only just started happening for a weeks now, Like before It use to happen when it was like watching tv soaps like: EastEnders, Coronation street, Emmerdale, Hollyoaks you name it When 2 Men scene is happening I Cant watch That scene cause it will trigger me. If it was 2 Girls kissing it wouldn't bother me cause It felt like having to kiss 2 Girls with me there. What made me speak about this is because a Girl was going through this & a Black man who was going through the same thing on Tiktok & I was happy that I wasn't the only one suffering with this. I If the Bisexual Word popped in my head then, That Means still Like Girls & I will only date Girls. But Being Bi isn't what I want & Only Heterosexual is all I want to me & will always Be Straight. But I just Want all these Homo (Also know as the G word) & My male best friends trying to hit on me thought images gone from my head, & Go back to Living my Life with My Mrs, Get Married to her & have a Family Together. I feel like when I become a Dad I Feel Like it will make it easier for me cause I want everyone to know that, Oh look at him spending time with his son/Daughter & His Wife Now that's a perfect Family. The amount of Times I've cried & anxiety I've had over these past few weeks Has not been easy for me. Another Thing as well is that I felt like I can only have female friends, I know anyone with HOCD is different About this but, Whenever I hanged out with Females including my Mrs. It made me feel like the guy who can get all the Girls & Is a Ladies man. Also I watched a lot of Lesbian Or Sexy Thick Girls Corn Hub (With a P instead of a C) And see a Downstairs Growing Response and I still did to The Thick Girls on there. Which I Still felt happy about it, But I didn't want Corn (With a P instead of a C) To be the recovery, So when I spend Quality Time with my Mrs, I feel like that helped me Cause I Can just look at her & See How Beautiful she is. I told my Mrs about The HOCD & She said They are just Thoughts & You Will always Be Straight & Your not gonna Become another Sexuality & She Will Spend as Much Time with me to help you get better. I hear a lot of people say the best Recovery is to Ignore the images & thoughts, which I tried that but it just kept coming back, The TV Actors one I learned to Ignore, But The Thoughts & Images about my best mates Is the one that kept triggering me & being stuck in my head. Another way People say is EPR Therapy, But I'm Scared that They will Judge me. I watched RUclips Videos About the People going through This, & I feel Like I can talk to them & They can talk to me, Because they will not Judge & and I will Not Judge them, cause they have been through this intense Battle. If Anyone has any Recovered Properly & Knows any Big Tips & Best ways to put a stop to This suffering Progress, Please Let me know & Reply to This. We will get Through This & You are not alone in all This. You are a Legend if you've read all this! Thank You!

Now the thoughts are like infinity. You said "If you are gay , you lock them and think like it's normal but if not then you take stress" I'm taking too much stress about this thoughts But when you say this word I get stress free and again stress come because of this thoughts like "You are gay because you didn't take stress about it" And again and again stress is coming even I say I'm not gay.

Thanks for sharing!

Man.. a Colombian Aussie here, I had the same from 18 as well, I didn’t tell anyone for years. Had so much shame and thought there was no way turning back at times, then randomly would stop, then start again.

Can you get these thoughts due to childhood trauma

This isn't a thing. It most certainly isn't a diagnosis. It is denial. You can hold it in, for a very long time sometimes, even allow your life to pass by. But make no mistake... it most certainly is who you are. Why do you feel better after talking about it . . . It's why everyone who comes out feels better...

I suffered from HOCD... but the question is always, if you were gay would you be happy? Do gay sex thoughts excites you? If no... then its your mind playing ypu inside because of the extreme fear... you cant be happily somethin you dont agree with morally...

Hi, thanks for this video. I'm getting educated about something I didn't know existed. I am a confirmed gay guy for many years now, never any problem realizing this is what I am, even though the coming out process is hard for almost every gay person, mainly for what seems to be the same reason you have had. I've watched a number of videos on HOCD now, and the question I have never seems to come up or be discussed. Here it is: If the culture we live in did not bifurcate sexuality so rigidly into gay/straight, this way/that way, this is good/this is bad, then would there even be enough to trigger much of the anxiety that you describe? If it were considered by the culture that being attracted to the same sex was just as normal as being attracted to the opposite sex, would such conflict arise? It has seemed to me, as an outsider looking in, that the deeply embedded homophobia of our culture is what might be at the root of this dilemma. And related to that, why isn't it not considered to be okay to be bisexual. Such beings do exist. Might even be enjoyment of the best of both worlds if that were culturally accepted. Sometimes you're attracted to the same sex, sometimes to the opposite. Look, I definitely do understand the power of intrusive thoughts. I've had anxiety extreme around something else in my own past and had to learn how to work with it. But would your own type of suffering even exist if our cultural thinking did not insist that we think, and feel, in such binary sexual categories? Anyway, I am glad you are feeling better.

Its almost the same as me i was waking up and ask the question

if you think ur gay, your really. not if you were you would find it natural, which you dont.

I've had it this for just only 5 months and i sometimes get sooo convinced that i am but everyday i still get signs that i am not gay but the voices/intrusive thoughts have certainly gotten worse and I'm hanging on a thread dude 💔

Dude your videos ended this for me. To see someone else’s story presented in such a real and relatable way helped me realize that I wasn’t alone. Months have past and I’ve come back out of my shell, even able to talk to women or male friends without worrying that I’m deceiving or that I have secret feelings. Thank you🙏

thanks my relief rn it just started 5 days ago and im muslim it disgust me even thincking about it ive always never supportes lgbtq and ive always been straight and have dated multiple girls and liked it and my depression from this has been so bad and you made me feel so much better thancks for the support man

Can this type of stuff ocd happen without a trigger? I’m going through it and I’ve not had a trigger

Great video!

I have always been gay but now i can only compulsively masturbate to straight porn and i ruminate a lot, is it normal to masturbate to hocd thoughts?

My case is my mind was saying I had a crush on a guy friend. I freaked out and break cold sweat. Since then my life hasn't been the same anymore. I used to wank like 10x a day before. Now I'm trying no fap for 90 days I hope this works well for me. I also have GERD and have anxiety disorder before having unwanted gay thoughts. I also feel bad when I see sharp objects I feel like there's an urge inside me to pick it up and hurt people who are dear to me.

Now you know the suffering LGBT people go through when they ARE REALLY not heterosexual. Hopefully you and people like you who have gone through this are more aware of the negative affects homophobia has on everyone.

Hey moustache face, good video.

Hello everyone im just checking in people. Im doing better just little sensation. Keep moving forward guys

Embrace masculinity. It’s never easy being a MAN. 💯💪

For those of you who are so far into this that you’re at the point where the thoughts become feelings and urges that feel real, as someone who’s successfully recovered from this, here’s what you need to do: -Boycott all porn at all costs (soft core included) -Resist masturbation at all costs, especially any weird shit -practice clearing your mind -get regular exercise (helps you to be mentally present) It sounds ridiculous, but it’s worked wonders. Resisting porn and masturbation will slowly recalibrate your brain (took about 5 months for me). You will also stop comparing how you feel while watching different things if you simply stop watching porn entirely. Clearing your mind to be present will help you to ignore the thoughts while your brain is busy recalibrating.

Yous story made me fell realtà sad for the situation that was going im glad that you where able to recover On question did you got diagnoise with ocd befor getting diagnoise with hocd

I used to get horney for women just from hearing their voice. Now I feels like my feelings for women are non existent and like I suddenly have strong attraction for men it’s the complete opposite of before I struggled with this. I feel like I’m turning gay and losing my attraction to women.

Can I have a girlfriend , while dealing with this ? 🙄

How long did you suffer? I’m going on 10 years. I have 2 kids and been with the same man for 6 years. I smoked marijuana for 12 years and after I had my second child i was triggered by postpartum depression it flared My OCD, my clinical depression, and my anxiety. I can’t consume cannabis anymore because it just messes with my brain in a negative way rather than it used to help. The past 11 months have been torture

@Jake Anthony does it count if you think of coming out and have a panic attack cause that’s what happened to me. And then I had two night I kept waking up in the middle of the night and panicking.

Absolutely amazing listening to this….it is exactly what I’ve been through and are still going through.I’ve finally found an organisation that specify in OCD so looking forward to getting mentally well cause it’s ruined many years of my life and nearly made me take my own life numerous times. Thank you man ✊🏻

this gave me a-lot of peace. I've been struggling with this for a while and always thought that it was me just denying the truth, but it never seemed right. i felt like i couldn't escape, once it stopped i forgot about it and recently it projected in me again and it felt uncontrollable. I thank God for helping me realize that nothing is wrong with me but I'm just struggling with this and thats okay.

Great video, brother. To those of you struggling, trust me, it will get better and you will get through it

Bro thanks a lot

Bro thanks a lot this really helped me a lot

I’m 22 and being going through this for a almost a year any time I think about me being gay or get those thoughts it make me sick literally I don’t eat I don’t drink I have terrible diarrhea I have actually thrown up more than once and any time I see a man with another man my genital like retract but I been so stressed with hocd lately I haven’t even wanna have sex or play the game I just sit in bed all day scared out my mind I watched realizing I’m gay videos and I haven’t related to one story I been loving woman since I was young I have vivid memories of this and it’s just like I be thinking how can I just wake up gay one day after 20 years of being strain

What’s your instagram ?

Good video 👏🏽👏🏽

Thank you for sharing this felt some comfort listening to you I had this ocd for a month right now it is weird that you deny your all straight years from being attracted to girls

I don’t know who will see this but just know I’ve been through the worst of the worst with HOCD let’s fight we will be okay 🙏

THIS IS HELL

maybe accept you're gay and move on

What killed me is when I finally got a gf after suffering for 2 years ocd I still had the thoughts what if I’m lying and actually gay even though I just had sec with a girl

What if I acted on the urge and had same sex and regret it? Than had sex with a girl imagine how I feel. I was thinking like this for 2 years before I acted on it and now I’m 20 and had a gf for a lil bit and I’m like why did I suffer for so long and actually have gay sex to then realize I actually do like girls but if I wouldn’t have ever tried it I wouldn’t have known

Hi I want to know, can hocd/so-ocd can happen to bi people too? Also can it cause sudden loss of attraction in the opposite gender for god knows how long?

did you also have a loss of attraction to the opposite sex?

The toughest part of hocd is the constant thoughts but not related to arousal or attraction. I have struggled with this for a long time and not only an I not aroused or actually attracted to men but usually I just experience negative emotions yet still can't get them to cease