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Alright mate im from durham, newcastle area and i am absolutely terrified of stopping because i dont know whats going to happen when i do. Slowly weening off is not really working either. Wish me luck

I'm so sorry that is brutal!! It's been 5 years I hope you're okay. I'm going through this but not as severe as you. I'm shaking, I'm seeing demons too, crying, my liver is shutting down, in so much pain, so much guilt, cannot sleep. I'm back in AA and need and want to be free of this vicious cycle. I hear you it's absolutely terrifying! I went to celebrate Canada day and was violently shaking the entire time barely able to focus on conversation. I never felt so hopeless.

Sleeping with a guy would be 1000x scarier i reckon... that would turn me into a pisshead

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Are you ok?

I had a gallon of hard liquor daily habit before i went to my first detox. Had to be wheelchaired in couldn't even hold a pen or cup of water. Within a week my central nervous system regulated with meds, nutrition and hydration. I was 57 so no spring chicken and I was a hard drinker for 30 years. But honestly for me the detox was the easiest part of recovery. Total care and relaxation getting off my personal battlefield of hell. It did end up taking me three detoxes and a full year in patient. Even then i had a mild relapse. Sober 4 years now by persistence and grace and help from others. But detox got me through it. Just my experience.

Seeing demons and horrific images when you close your eyes, is exactly what I experienced as well. It’s an awful prison. Inescapable except through time. Sucks.

One of the key points that comes out when you’re speaking with other people who consider themselves to be alcoholics is rigorous honesty, and I’ll just leave it there. That’s the way that you can get better.

Mate this is one of the most hardcore stories I've ever heard - the fact you kept having seizures then got back up and kept hallucinating and then seizured again. I have no idea how you're still alive. My wife had an alcohol withdrawal seizure and it was like something from The Exorcist...she groaned and her face contorted into a different person and she fell to the ground and I had to call an ambulance. She was a zombie for days after, didn't remember anything, kept thinking she was in a TV show, it was so scary. She also hallucinated one night in bed, spiders, chanting outside, shadow people...I thought she was going to be stuck that way forever. I also had mild withdrawals every week after drinking for 2 days straight every weekend for 20 years straight...I'd sweat in bed, shaking non stop, I'd hear music on loop as if it was being played in my room, I'd shut my eyes and see demonic pictures as real as if I were watching a screen. And the depression and anxiety was crushing. My wife and I are now 1 year 7 months sober and absolutely thriving. We love being sober. I'm so glad you're ok...are you still sober? I see this was 5 years ago.

Alcohol is fun in the beginning but once you lose control of it goodbye happiness. I'm glad you are ok Owen.

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Yeah, this isn't fun. I just finished a week long bender 3 days ago. Shorter than you, but I drank far, far more, think a fifth of whisky plus a looot of beers. Finally dawned on me that I'm gonna die if I keep this up, so decided to take drastic measures. Thankfully, I had some diazepam on hand. I honestly think it saved my life. Used the loading dose protocol, after 60mgs I was no longer going insane. The demons did make an appearance the second day, saw and heard them trying to reach out to me from beyond the veil. Some more valium sent them away. It's day three now, and I feel ok-ish. No more valium, I really don't want to get addicted to that shit as well. I'm using some propranolol to make sure I don't stroke out or get a heart attack from increased blood pressure. Still feeling shaky, but getting better. Moral of the story is, without benzos, detoxing is just an absolute nightmare. It's best to do it under medical supervision, of course, don't try to self- medicate like I did. It's not my first rodeo, and I know what I'm doing by now. I honestly think that if I didn't have access to those pills, I'd be either hospitalised or dead. Saw my doctor today, got some IV's for liver support, as well as an Antabuse implant, so I dont get tempted to drink again for the next year. You;'ve got this, kid. Remember, you just have to not drink today.

I had a mental health assessment in Oxford with an NHS doctor, he identified complex ptsd in my case etc - when I received the assessment on paper all it said was "has anxiety when trying to cross roads". None of my reality was mentioned.

are you still alive

Alcohol detox is awful going through it😮

This is helping me so much. God bless you❤ I weaned for 3 days and today is my first day with out alcohol in about 2 years. Did you feel like your body was in physical agony and feel tingly?

Don't worry my friend been there 8 times lol. I know not funny but I love to party but hate to pay after

Thank you for posting this. I can really relate. The panic and fear is something i wouldnt wish on anyone in the world. You have powerful energy friend....keep on keepin on! 💛💛💛💛

Thank you for sharing. I have been there. They are always the same experience... But different. Alcohol is demonic. I suppose addictions in general are... We all need to keep being good, it's the only way. ❤

I saw those demons during my worst relapse.

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Yep! Spot on. Feels like you want to rip out of your body. I thank God never got DT like that, I would probably die. I ended up cleaning my whole house as well, helps a lot to move around and get your mind off of it. This was after an 11 day binge drinking wine/ vodka through 24 hours a day. (would sleep and wake up hungover so take swigs from bottle)

Well hope you're still doing okay. Isn't it pretty shocking that a drug like alcohol is so part of our culture when it can cause such horrific withdrawals?

Friend, I really hope you are well today. You are not alone. There are people who understand you. There might be a lot of people who do not understand and are not helpful but don’t get hung up on those types. I can see your will to live a fulfilling life. You’re in my prayers no matter what. 💚🧡💛

The assessments done on behalf of the dwp are from private companies they're not real doctors it's a contract given to private companies and behind the closed doors you'll find some tories have shares in these companies. It's simple to figure out. Why would a qualified GP Doctor evaluation need to be assessed by a person appointed by the government? It's basically saying they don't trust a medical doctor so need it checked by someone from there own tax funded companies. It's unbelievably sickening.

Half a liter of Vodka a day for 3 weeks doesn't lead to such horrific withdrawals. For the symptoms you re describing one needs to drink a 750ml bottle of vodka for 2 months strait. No sober time. You wake up, you drink again. Then if you stop abruptly, you get to the point of seeing stuff, and hearing noises, and when you eventually fall asleep you get brain zapps, precursors to seizures.

They call alcohol "spirit's" for a reason. It lowers your frequency and allows lower vibrational entities (demons/evil "spirit's") to take over your body. You're VERY brave. I hope you are still doing well. You are very bright and have a lot of life in your eyes. Protect that soul of yours with all you got.

i'm 2 years sober. How are you doing now owen?

I totally get this man, I’m coming off a minor DT that’s lasting 3 days so far. And omg the evil spirit monsters when you close your eyes are so horrible. I don’t think they’d allow it in theatres. And the worst part is through it all is the sweating and being cold and hot at the same time

How much drinks you drink per day/week? And for how much time?

Did you talk to some sort of "counsellor" who didn't keep these things confidential?

Yep the demonic voices and shadow people. Scary ass shit. Especially if you never heard of this before. I had my first DT last week. Its an absolute terrifying experience.

AA definitely works for about 10% but, sometimes it's a major turnoff and a cause to just want more. Give Steffon Barkload's homepagw an opportunity, after only 1 hour, you'll be able to hypnotize yourself to possibly quit permanently or be in control.

Alcohol withdrawal is no joke

The most detailed story I've watched online! I've been there too! Thank you for sharing.

I can tell your just such a sweet person. Congrats on your sobriety. I’m glad your better. Love your accent❤️

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I've been there. It's absolutely hellish. I hope you're clean and sober now. God Bless you xx

Congratulations on your sobriety. You should be very proud! I see the light in your eyes.

I truly feel for this young man I hope he's doing well seems like a very gentle soul

I did a handle 1.75 a day for two years. Hospital told me they had never seen a liver function so low for my at. my liver enzymes are x33 times higher than health range and I'm 19 years old. I've had it all. I used to close my eyes and see strange evil bugs / monsters that were just not even explainable. You just wonder how it's even possible for your mind to make that up

Alcohol is evil they call it spirits for a reason , I’ve been in rehab and had a 200/120 blood pressure my hearth rate was 140 standing couldn’t breathe right chest chalking and twitching sweating like crazy felt like I was going to seazure up luckily I went to the Er pumped me with Ativan and Librium doctor said I was in a hypertension crisis luckily I managed to get clean for 90 days relapsed but sober again it’s a ongoing fight wish everyone the best in sobriety

Thank you. I am in this mess. Trying to detox. Terrified of dreams/hallucinations. Yes, interesting. Take care

I ever had a good time there.