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agree with you that freeze is actually the most activated state!!!

I was diagnosed bipolar almost 8 years ago and I’m not lol. I’ve been off medications for 2 years, I don’t experience mania anymore and I’m currently getting an assessment for autism. Edit: I think my “mania” was either just high energy or me being excited. Also, thank you for sharing this.

It’s great to have these discussions about these topics and be open about this kind of stuff. That’s what I’m hoping to be able to do too with my channel, and normalize these kind of things. Much love and support to this community

I'm 57 and diagnosed bipolar first year uni. I only realized I was autistic at 41. It didnt occur to me that I wasnt bipolar until 2 years ago. I was on antipsychotics for 30 years. Do you know what that does to your body??? But, hey, better late than never.

I mean, technically, if you are taking a medication like adderall because it helps you function through the day, even if you don't have a prescription, that really isn't taking it "recreationally". I know it's really a fine line distinction there. Mental health services is largely out of reach for many people. It's extremely hard as an adult to get therapy or assessments for conditions. I've been trying myself for months to get into a behavioral health clinic, but one clinic lost my appointment three times in a row, and the only other clinic in my area refused to see me even with a referral. My GP is aware of all that and is overseeing my current prescription of adderall and has me down as likely to have ADHD (I definitely do have it but he cannot officially diagnose me, I'd have to have a proper behavioral health assessment). And my insurance will not cover any app based mental health services and I couldn't even afford the sliding scale fees anyway. So yeah, I'm definitely not going to judge anyone for doing what they got to do, especially in a country where healthcare is not guaranteed by right in a for-profit system.

I'm still in school and it's one of my favorite things in the world.🏫 Weekends and days off are wors than exams for me.😅 Both cause the stop in my routine and cause i can't go to school on those days. Just thank you to all my good teachers❤. Much love and support from Belgium 🇧🇪✌️

Oh, I thought the Alexy thing was "not being able to feel things" similar to being numb emotionally or in freeze mode in PSTD. Not that you can't identify the emotions. That explains why I can only process them when they overwhelm me, like when I cry or laugh or something like that. As I see that I'm crying I know I'm sad. I can look dramatic from the outside. It's different when I watch a sad movie or hear a sad emotional song because I know how I'm going to feel. And there's the problem of not distinguishing if the chest pain I'm feeling is hunger, thirst, anxiety, depression, food poisoning....

Wow. I'm sitting here with my mouth wide open. I had similar issues with college and I got a bipolar diagnosis in 2021 (at 42). I have the trauma responses too. I did get an ADHD diagnosis (at 44). I've been suspecting autism for a while. I might seek out someone to help figure that out. Thanks for sharing.

Story of my life.

I am just glad to see you, awesome lady. 👍🏻😎 Don't worry. People will be here for whenever the time is right for you. Unfortunately self-care seems to take more work and energy, than the conditions themselves, you know? It can be overwhelming. At least for me, that is what it is seeming to be like lately. Lol. I am sure everyone can relate. For real. And especially if you have kids! And you are a coach, running your own business. Any one of those things by THEMSELVES is a lot for anyone! Let alone us. :) Honestly I tried to start a business once and it was so I overwhelming I had to put it on pause because it took more time and energy than I had to give. And that is just the 1 thing. Not all the balls you are juggling. :) 🤹🏻‍♀️ People look at hyperfucus or other qualities of ADHD part of things as a super power, and in some ways you can turbo charge through things others maybe can't do as much. But the price!.. omg. The price you pay is not good. So hard to find the balance. I am just having a hard time heaing from my burnout, to come in here and make anything at all (content) like I really want to, and I don't even have kids! And I brought my workdays down to only one day a week. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️ It's like what? Are you kidding me? :'( How much rest does a person even need? So confusing. This doesn't make sense. So I can't imagine, dealing with burnout if you are(?), and having those additional responsibilities and pressure as well? That is so much. How to balance all that out and know when to pivot to care for you, and cut your responsibilities back, so you don't push yourself back or get sick. And the need to pivot priorities messes with my need to do things as I already decided I was going to do. 😂 Your body, heart, mind, and soul will tell you. What you need. 💗 And anyone who would get upset, maybe doesn't belong here, or want to be here? I don't know? Doesn't understand? Is probably not neurodivergent? Let those people go. You already know, sorry. :) People who do care and are meant to be here will stay. Love you, take care of you! 💗🫶🏻🙏🏻🩷😁💗🧘🏻‍♀️🪷🦋

Why don’t we have a four day work week? We work too much as Americans in my opinion lol. Edit: Also, I think I’m on the spectrum and am currently going through an assessment, and I’ve realized that on the weekends I’m just home because my partner is working Friday-Sunday so I feel like my routine is the same as during the week, however during the week I’m off because my partner is off from work lol if that makes sense. So I feel like my routine is pretty much the same unless my mom is visiting us on the weekend 😅😂❤

Thank you for sharing this, 🙏🏻 I do think though, at least in my case, there is such a huge sensitivity around this issue. Because of getting denied medication, because a place didn't want to give it to drug seekers, having worked in a pharmacy as a tech myself, and seeing how medical, pharmacy, and work staff have treated myself & or other people. The nonchalant behavior at a pharmacy when someone had a meltdown not being able to get their medication. And the "they'll be fine (eye roll), they just can't get their ADHD med". And coworkers in the past that joked about bumming some ADHD medication from friends to do better on tests, etc, or to get high... And meanwhile I can't get mine, the person they were made for. Lots of times I was looked at as possible drug seekers, for even trying to get them. The shame, embarrassment etc. And then stuck trying to manage my symptoms without the needed medication. These experiences span 25 years. I can't tell you all the times I have cried over this. And especially having previously worked as a tech, I asked the pharmacist what to look out for. We had to prepare ourselves for how to deal with the actual drug seekers, because they would do all those things to trick us. But I usually saw that with pain meds. Not stimulants. So I have talked also to pharmacists and pharmacy staff at other companies to ask about this issue, and to educate them on how some behaviors make real patients feel. I wanted to create a kind dialog about it to bridge the gap SOMEWHERE. They are woefully uneducated about the actual conditions of the people they prepare and sell the medication for. So there is a lot of abilism there. It isn't meant intentionally. But the drug seeking, because it's a part of the job, they are trained to think of everyone as a potential addict. I asked my pharmacist once a question. When I was working as a tech, I asked her (one of my bosses), how to tell which people are addicts or have addictive personalities that are at risk for addiction. What to look out for. And she said, everyone. No one doesn't get addicted.. fair to her she might have been discussing controlled pain opioids, which are a high risk. But the attitude, due to part of their job having to always watch out for this because you will deal with it eventually, if not regularly, is pretty much everyone.. And having gotten close to some medical professionals and pharmacy staff members of different places over the years, this isn't just a one off. Honesty, I understand the feelings. So for me there is a huge sensitivity there. It is not to look down addiction at all. But it is a periodically an experience of mine over the years, of being treated as a drug seeker, or not cared about, and not be able to get my medication (I had these experiences going back to 25 years ago). It's an almost trauma at this point. I get so upset about the persisting ignorance and lack of care for the customer and what they need and why. And drug seekers, although not looking down that is a separate issue, are mainly why I have been treated very badly by one medical establishment, and then the subtle stuff, to the years of having to go unmedicated because of the addiction issue. It has caused legitimate suffering in my life and made it so I couldn't work. Yeah... We need to do better pharmacy and medical staff personal. Please learn and have compassion for the diagnosed conditions you are providing medication for. 🙏🏻💖💗💖💗🫶🏻 We need to do better. :'(

For me if I'm learning something new or I need to correct something wrong, I need a vacation to let the change sink in. A weekend or 3 day weekend is not long enough if I've been working that way for months. When I was working customer service in 2020, that's what I told my employer who promptly disregarded it. When I got sick, they made me take a week and a half to recover but my immune system got over it quickly so I was able to vacation for a week. When I came back to work they said that I was like a entirely different employee. Yeah, it's almost like I told you exactly what would happen and when it happened, it happened exactly how I said it would.

Well said @TheNeurocuriosityClub! On my own ADHD journey I have found the common threads that link recreational and addict drug use and ADHDers (the Neurodivergent group to which I belong) using Adderall to help them to function more "normally" and I agree that it is likely related since they are ways to cope. I appreciate how you processed the feedback, realized what you had done and then called yourself (and others) out. As a fellow creator, I think it is important that we pivot and self correct when we make mistakes or learn new information and that is exactly what you did. This video only increases my trust in you and your authenticity in my eyes. 😍🥰🤩 You rock!

100% my 4 year old daughter loves to play with her Barbie dream house, with dolls using the various doors and slide etc! She’s diagnosed ASD 🤷‍♂️ god forbid I join in, parallel only 😂

Yes, agreed. I said I can't imagine amphetamines making people high. It makes us get our work done. 😂

You've just literally described my experience in the past couple of years. I always felt so guilty because I felt like I was doing nothing at all, yet I was so tired... gonna send this video to my psychologist

I'm kind of offended somebody even contacted this woman to complain about recreational Adderall. This is a prescription drug not Tylenol. That person who is trying to shame you is absolutely fucking disgusting. Is someone with ADHD your video hit spot on about answering emails. I'm sorry that people are accusing you of shaming drug addicts as they should be. Keep making your videos and fuck the haters

Stimulants make me sleepy. Coffee before bed is perfect

Gosh i loved it

Is this why I suddenly started looking for a job after 3 months at 3am while everyone was partying

😮i thought I was having bipolar rapid cycling… how do I convey this to my psychiatrist and therapist without an autism diagnosis? I do have ADHD

Idk what adderal does but damn I’ll keep it in mind

I wasn't the best teenager. I had a party phase. My boyfriend (now husband) was so amazed I could take so much Adderall and fall asleep. He wanted to see how many it took to keep me up all night. We got to 9. I don't remember the dose. But I did stay up until morning. But I was asleep before everyone else. It does give me energy in a way, but not in the way everyone else explains it. It helps me focus when cleaning. Edit to add: I'm not diagnosed with ADHD or ADD.

It also works again other mental illnesses. I have bipolar disorder, and my mom was CONVINCED that because my sister had adhd so i must too. Well needless to say Adderall is the LAST thing you should take as someone with BP cause I went into a week long manic episode and this thats with me still taking my regular meds. It was also one of those fast release ones that don't last long, a really small dose. Morall of the story, awful idea

I.feel.this a thousand times over!!

Great stuff to know about ourselves, observing our energy ups and downs (burnout) and how it's influenced by adhd/autism. I wonder how much this has caused clinicians to misdiagnose others as bipolar, etc.

I tend to fast from food until I have stopped crying over my impulsive and negative thoughts. Sometimes, it lasts all night and I cry on and off. Not sobbing, but tears pouring down my face. I struggle with thoughts of people wanting to leave me, or perhaps make up all of these hypothetical arguments in my mind. Fasting does help me calm down because for whatever reason, food makes it worse. I am autistic, of course.

Brilliant, thank you!

🍀 for you getting out of it without it getting worse

I like this response, but I saw the original as pointing out how these chemicals do completely different things when your brain chemistry is messed up

I agree. It def perplexes people when I tell them I take it to slow my brain down enough that I can focus and get shit done. there has been several times ive taken it so i can finally sleep.

ooff.. i pride myself on being addiction-positive, but that's smth i needed to unpack too. ty for holding yourself accountable so loudly !!

It’s crazy true! I just wish there wasn’t still a shortage of it. It works so much better.

I hope you're being sarcastic

I hate the stigma around this medication because for many people with ADHD it's necessary to be a fully functioning adult.

Cocaine and heroin gives the same effect. Adderall is meth Avoid the addiction

im the same way! i use mine AS needed!! i need to start again honestly haha

Me taking my Adderall to be able to function daily, not fall asleep driving, cleaning, walking, taking a shower, etc. I have narcalypsy and Adderall has literally saved my life and sanity.

I was diagnosed last spring. And it explained my entire childhood. I have told my family from time to time that “I’m sorry I’m cranky today. I swear I’m not mad. I don’t feel upset or angry, I don’t know where this anger is coming from”. I figured out with my diagnosis that in high stimulation environments I have so much trouble hearing the person talking to me that I started reading their lips to understand what they’re saying.

Wow. I am so deeply impressed and moved by your response. There should be more people like you in yhe world.

People don’t take it to get high and zoomy they take it because it gives them energy to stay out all night and party and be able to drink more alcohol because your on legal speed.

Okay... but consider this, forgetting your Adderall until it is too late in the day to take it so you tell yourself you'll take it tomorrow cause you actually want to sleep tonight. Repeat until the day of the deadline and cry. (Maybe thats just me 😅)

Wow, what an awesome response. You really took ownership of your content, and then reflected on what you said, and clarified. Btw, I didnt see it that way, though. Although, I can see how it could ge taken that way. But, yes, some of us do self-medicate without realizing why.

Hi, I’m Susie I am a neurodivergent mamma could we talk here? That’s my RUclips channel. I am a late diagnosed ASD and ADHD and raised 3 neurodivergent children 2 with ASD all with adhd and all are living happy productive lives. Im a life coach for for the neurodivergent community and their families. I just found your channel by accident I m so glad I did!❤🥰

Oh my goodness! I totally didn’t get that vibe at all. I even shared it with an autistic community I’m in.

Interesting. I didn't get that at all from your video. You didn't seem like you were shaming anyone. But it does bring up a good point that most of the time people use rec drugs or alcohol to self medicate various issues. I still disagree that you shamed anyone. And I have a long history of self medicating. Lol

Well damn, this is thoughtful and a great example of the outcomes of genuine self reflection ❤❤❤

What delightful nuance, thoughtfulness, and character. Love this.