Koko's Journal of Imperfect People
Koko's Journal of Imperfect People
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How I Really Feel About Turning 29 Years Old | Finding Silver Linings in Getting Older
Turning 29 was a uniquely overwhelming experience as a woman approaching 30.
Seeing people around my age building up their careers, getting married, having kids and seemingly "having it all together", I felt helplessly behind in life and became terrified of the idea of getting older as I reached 29.
But as I sat down to reflect, share and explore a little, I slowly began to see the beauty in getting older. I felt quite vulnerable sharing this, but I thought I would document it to honour exactly how I felt, what I thought and what I learned at 29, because I will soon forget about all these feelings.
This video was made as a part of the Casey Neistat Monthly Course.
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i lost my mom | story of grief
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I've recently lost my mom and this is a story about finding beauty in seeing her in little random things that I encounter in everyday life. It's been somewhat of an isolating experience, but watching videos about people around my age going through and sharing their experiences of grief all over the world on RUclips helped me tremendously. They made me feel like I wasn't alone and feel hopeful. ...

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  • @SuraDoes
    @SuraDoes День назад

    This is beautiful. I am 29 today. Thank you for making this. I can relate very much. 😙🎂

  • @AbdurRahimOpurba
    @AbdurRahimOpurba 15 дней назад

    Me turned 17 today and watching your video

  • @restlesswildhorse
    @restlesswildhorse 3 месяца назад

    Thank you for this!

  • @oliviajeanette1065
    @oliviajeanette1065 3 месяца назад

    Halfway through being 29....I really needed this video. I feel so lost and I am so so tired. I don't want to live the way I've been living but I don't know what to change.

  • @3S.shafiqueshuvo
    @3S.shafiqueshuvo 4 месяца назад

    Hello dear❤ I am From Bangladesh .. now I am 29;years old

  • @SsjGssjGogeta
    @SsjGssjGogeta 5 месяцев назад

    Same thing happened on my 29th just a few weeks ago haha I thought it was no big deal.. and evryone came thru and msgd me.and reached out and showed love! And i actually celebrated it haha with my fam! Was a pretty good birthday and i got a bunch of cash haha!

  • @languagetraveladoptee
    @languagetraveladoptee 8 месяцев назад

    Your video is beautifully filmed and thank you for sharing your vulnerability with us! I resonate with it so much.

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal 8 месяцев назад

      Thank you so much for your kind word, @languagetraveladoptee <3 Happy to hear that it resonated with you.

  • @CallMeLexis
    @CallMeLexis Год назад

    turned 29 this year, and this was such a great video

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal Год назад

      Aw thank you so much, Lexis! Happy to hear that and that means a lot to me!

  • @karthikm1847
    @karthikm1847 Год назад

    Nice advice for all the 29yrs old.

  • @sunnysideup94
    @sunnysideup94 Год назад

    Thank you for sharing. I just turned 29 last week, also went thru a breakup the week before, and have felt the similar pressures as I’ve reached this age. Thank you for sharing. A beautiful message that resonated and grounded me.

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal Год назад

      Thank you for taking the time to leave a comment <3 Means the world to hear that this resonated with you. We're in the same boat and we've got this!

  • @karthikm1847
    @karthikm1847 Год назад

    Useful information because I recently turned 29yrs old.

  • @miragehidden8910
    @miragehidden8910 Год назад

    I get alot benifet from this video thank you sister

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal Год назад

      Thank you, Mirage. Means a lot!

  • @mikmiklabastera5296
    @mikmiklabastera5296 Год назад

    awww i need this😍😍😍 thank u po ❤❤❤

  • @Msharma30
    @Msharma30 Год назад

    We miss you dear 💕 come back to RUclips.. Again I'm also turning 29 on 10th March.

  • @gailainsley6939
    @gailainsley6939 Год назад

    The only way that you will have a problem is if you allow society to determine what your value is placed in. You’ve got to have a plan B for if you don’t find that man. Luckily for us women now, we aren’t pressured as much anymore and there are other options for having children etc.

  • @jess36393
    @jess36393 Год назад

    Your video made me cry! I recently turned 29 too and feeling lost about my career and trying to recover from a relationship that didn't work out. When you said you felt as if you were running out of time in every aspect of your life, I really resonated with that. How am I 29 already? But your video really helped me with realising that there's actually a lot of amazing things we've gained and achieved from all the years. Thank you for sharing your thoughts!

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal Год назад

      Hi Jessamyn! Thank you for taking time to leave a comment and sharing your story. :) I totally feel you! I hope you know that you're not alone and as I turned 30 recently I'm also starting to learn that we're still very young and have so much to look forward to! Sending you love!

  • @Slim5845
    @Slim5845 Год назад

    Everything is relatable to how I’m feeling in life. Thank you for this video and keep pushing!

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal Год назад

      Thank you so much, sigereal! This means a lot. Sending you love! We've got this. :)

  • @minyoung0423
    @minyoung0423 2 года назад

    Hey Koko, this may be my first-ever comment on RUclips but I wanted to leave it with you to let you know that your video was such an immense help for someone going through a really similar stage in their life. I couldn't find you anywhere else online but I hope you're still creating, learning, growing out there. Hope to see more content from you someday!

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal 2 года назад

      Hi Minyoung! Aw thank you so so much for the kind words and taking time to leave this comment. You have no idea how much it means to me❤️ You’re amazing and we’ve got this! We have so much time and so much to look forward to in our life✨Sending you lots of love!

    • @Msharma30
      @Msharma30 Год назад

      I'm also turning 29 on 10th March. I can't focus on anything right now. It's been v tough for me. I'm in a very bad phase of my life. I have been an introvert all my life and recently I'm Heartbroken here's my story. How to overcome it. Please tell me? Is it normal. Because recently a guy cheated on me we were together for 1 year thn I came to know that he already had a gf with whom he was in a relationship for 5 years. So basically he was cheating both of us. I reached out to her showed her all the proofs. And the guy too confessed that he did cheat but I'm shocked to know that the girl accepted him again. And they are together now.. This is most disgusting they both played with my emotions I had suicidal tendencies heartbreak 💔 panic attacks anxiety. And they don't even regret of doing this. Everyone is so fake the world is full of fake people. Sach m kisiko etna blindly trust krna nhi chahiye tha 1yr + 8 months sb khatam krdia mental health and I even attempted suicide. Depression mental health is not a joke. People should talk about it more often.

  • @isaacmijangos
    @isaacmijangos 2 года назад

    When’s the next video :D

  • @gremlinontheroad
    @gremlinontheroad 2 года назад

    Please make another video soon!

  • @feab9714
    @feab9714 2 года назад

    日本語の字幕をありがとう。美しい。

  • @GilbertHaosway
    @GilbertHaosway 2 года назад

    A topic I relate to strongly! and a well put together video. Love the positive energy.

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal 2 года назад

      Thank you! Happy to hear it resonated with you! :)

  • @technic23
    @technic23 2 года назад

    You brought me to tears. I lost my dad 2 months ago and I could really identify with what you said. Keep on making films!

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal 2 года назад

      Oh I'm so sorry about your dad. We're in this together, sending you lots of love<3

    • @technic23
      @technic23 2 года назад

      @@kokojournal♥️

  • @notostudios7931
    @notostudios7931 2 года назад

    What a great film. I really enjoyed it.

  • @jostalking
    @jostalking 2 года назад

    That was absolutely beautiful and you’re beautiful inside and out, Happy Birthday

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal 2 года назад

      Ah that means a lot! thank you so much <3

  • @GauravDhwajKhadka
    @GauravDhwajKhadka 2 года назад

    Awesome and happy birthday :)

  • @GauravDhwajKhadka
    @GauravDhwajKhadka 2 года назад

    Amazing 🙏

  • @VeroLaos_lahausse
    @VeroLaos_lahausse 2 года назад

    nice story Koko! you are able to express your vulnerability!! press on & Courage!

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal 2 года назад

      Aw thank you so much, Vero! <3 Means a lot.

  • @sachinraut914
    @sachinraut914 2 года назад

    heyy thats way too good !!! nice storytelling

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal 2 года назад

      Ah thank you so much, Sachin! Appreciate it!

  • @WinstonAlcantara
    @WinstonAlcantara 2 года назад

    This is a beauty..

  • @cre8r61
    @cre8r61 2 года назад

    I just watched your video and found it from Casey's course on Monthly. This story was just beautiful. Thanks for sharing - I've subscribed so I can see your youtube journey 😃

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal 2 года назад

      Ah sweet! Thank you so much, Darren! that means a lot :)

  • @jarrettroby2830
    @jarrettroby2830 2 года назад

    Wow. Incredibly moving

  • @BruceLeroyUK
    @BruceLeroyUK 2 года назад

    Sad and beautiful. So sorry for your loss.

  • @wheretoliveinaustin-alexrevard
    @wheretoliveinaustin-alexrevard 2 года назад

    What a beautiful story. Love this video

  • @TesLatino
    @TesLatino 2 года назад

    I am sorry for your loss and hope that you are doing well. Good job with the video. I shed a tear. 💗

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal 2 года назад

      Aw thank you so much for your kind words! Means a lot <3

  • @Rado.M
    @Rado.M 2 года назад

    As I wrote in the class already, I loved your video. Well done!

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal 2 года назад

      Thank you, Rado! Love your aesthetics as well! :) Well done on your video!

  • @TrainingwithJack
    @TrainingwithJack 2 года назад

    Very nice video! I can feel how much you love your mom.

  • @northernoff-gridaviation9534
    @northernoff-gridaviation9534 2 года назад

    Thank you for sharing your story so sincerely. The video is light and kind. Life goes on! Good luck with your video production.

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal 2 года назад

      Thank you <3

    • @northernoff-gridaviation9534
      @northernoff-gridaviation9534 2 года назад

      @@kokojournal We also released a new video yesterday. Will appreciate your review and subscribe to our channel! 🙂

  • @chaseyourdream8264
    @chaseyourdream8264 2 года назад

    you are a strong women. keep on the good work

  • @Ab-pj8hh
    @Ab-pj8hh 2 года назад

    Love this - it's kind of the peak of what we want from personal film making, that self expression. I am really close with my mum too, its so hard to imagine her not there. She lost her mum to cancer when she was 16. It sounds like your mum had a beautiful and rare relationship with her own death, we could learn from that as a society. For me the music you chose and (it felt like?) subtle raising of the volume towards the end was really on point - complimented but didn't dominate the story you were telling. Great mix of shots in there too, and good pace - not too fast but not needlessly longing points out either. The only shot that felt to me personally it didn't quite work was when you were speaking to camera - felt like the mouthing was not quite lined up properly with the sound, or could be that it was the filter you were using on your voice was throwing it slightly out of synch. Have subbed so look forward to more when/if you are ready to share!

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal 2 года назад

      Hi Ab, thank you so much for your kind comment! I'm glad to hear that you enjoyed it. Makes me happy that I decided to share this once again. She sure did have a very rare relationship with her own death and that's what has helped me process things a lot more peacefully than I would have otherwise. I'm forever grateful for her for that. And thank you for your feedback! You're totally right about the out of sync shot! One of my classmates pointed out as well and didn't realize that initially, so thank you :) I'm assuming you took the monthly course as well, so well done for both of us for finishing!

  • @FemiSmiles
    @FemiSmiles 2 года назад

    This was amazing. Your mum sounds like such a beautiful soul and you made such a brilliant tribute. She will always be a part of you.

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal 2 года назад

      Thank you so much for taking the time to watch and leaving a kind comment. Means a lot. She was indeed <3

  • @oliverexperiments4443
    @oliverexperiments4443 2 года назад

    This is a beautiful video - really ^^ Thanks for sharing (& well done on finishing the course!)

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal 2 года назад

      Thank you for watching and leaving a comment, Oliver! Right back at you :) Well done for both of us!

  • @MortadellaHead
    @MortadellaHead 2 года назад

    This is such a nice tribute to your mother.

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal 2 года назад

      Aw thank you so much. Means a lot <3

  • @queerfoto
    @queerfoto 2 года назад

    Wow. Amazing film. ❤️

  • @CraigPringle
    @CraigPringle 2 года назад

    Sorry for your loss. Beautifully done video though.

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal 2 года назад

      Thank you so much, Craig!

  • @MichaelSuperbacker
    @MichaelSuperbacker 2 года назад

    Sorry for your loss <3

  • @q4short
    @q4short 2 года назад

    Beautifully done and you struck a nerve in my heart. Your mother would be proud of the love you put into this creation. I wish you well and look forward to seeing you create more videos because you're great

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal 2 года назад

      Aw thank you so much to taking the time to leave such a kind comment. That means a lot <3

  • @8Geid
    @8Geid 2 года назад

    Love the video! I know you are doing great and thank you for sharing your story

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal 2 года назад

      Thank you for the kind comment <3

  • @chachacha4
    @chachacha4 2 года назад

    I lost my mom in 2016 when I was 57 and she was in her 80's. I think of her every day. Your beautiful video is a stunning tribute to your mom and the wonderful relationship you shared. Wishing you the very best as you travel through life.

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal 2 года назад

      Aw I'm sorry for your loss, Phil. And thank you so much for taking time to leave such a heartwarming message. Means the world. Sending you love!

  • @emersonmahoney3904
    @emersonmahoney3904 2 года назад

    Thank you for sharing! Beautiful

    • @kokojournal
      @kokojournal 2 года назад

      Thank you so much, Emerson! :)