Mad Boy's Love Song
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- Опубликовано: 13 май 2023
- A strange fear grips me when I release a poem like this. About losing a part of me precious and irreplaceable and at the same time it leaves me with an odd peace as if I decided to step away.
Rest assured, it's not my final verse but the embodiment of my fears, an echo in reverse.
Like an encore that deceives the artist momentarily, while he knows, a death mourned is the first step in the process of rebirth.
Special thanks to Konos for filming the shots that feature me and to the IACES LC Thessaloniki for the awesome motivational weekend I attended.
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🔰Mad Boy's Love Song by illneas
Nowadays, I barely sleep
Thinking about how things used to be
About what these streets meant to me
I worry constantly
Thinking about where I will breathe
And about what will it all mean to me
Sometimes, I roam these streets
Noticing the places my body used to be
Seeking fragments from a life I used to live
But time has changed, or is it me?
The world around me seems to grieve
About the friends who were left behind
And the people no one should ever forgive
These streets used to whisper poems about me
Stories of a kid with glass beneath and above his skin
The traveler's son watching everything through a screen
A person like you, unable to feel
A person like me, unable to heal
I pause in between
The chapters of my life as I revisit scenes in my memory
Pointless conversations,
silly arguments
faded pictures
I'm searching for the promises I was supposed to keep
And for you on my chair staring at me
Yet, in this stalemate, I dare to sing
With a voice so fragile as my dreams
The beauty of my anxiety reflected in my speech
A newfound peace, admitting defeat
A reminder of normality, as I forget who I wanted to be
Dreaming about the person I will wake up and my mirror will meet
Choosing a life unsymmetrical and incomplete
I will always remember one thing
These ever-changing streets still hold a grudge and a gift
For the tears I postponed and the stories I never wrote
The poems about a kid
That could be you
Or me
The poems about how I wanted to be a home for you
And you to be for me
On Spotify as well open.spotify.com/track/4KP7OCEQqpbDyctk99QMes?si=yTfKxPZpSPmTGDLpAOfyHA
A really good poem, i think the best one yet in therms of ryme and writing, but the really oustanding thing about this poem is that you really put in words how it feels losing something in time, because even if you come back at the same places, do the same things, its just gone. its equal parts sad and beautifull, maybe the things we lost are someway going the founded by us or maybe by others. Great job as always
Yayy I'm improving ❤
Seriously, all my childhood memories all came back to life while I watched this, and this brought tears to my eyes. Illneas ,you are such a fabulous poet!
With my childhood home being sold this year along with my grandma passing. This poem hits hard a little to hard.
its so beautiful yet so heartbreaking how many of us relate to this strange fear of losing ourself at this fast pace world,good job for creating this beautiful fine masterpiece
You were the one of the people who inspired me to become a writer. Thank you so much. ❤
I love reading poems and writing it as well. How come I just find this community ☹️ I won't get out from here ever. I'm so glad to find your videos, it's really nice and the poems you've written struck a core somewhere inside me. I'm really happy.
After reading this beautiful poem I subscribed to your channel ..
And then I cried .. for a long time ..
Please do not ever stop writing..
You have many special gifts .. and one of them is healing .. thank you ..
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Dear illy, your content is as beautiful as your soul. Many thanks always ♥️
Aww thank youuu
Something so deeply universal in this great poem.
It could be because we are of the same age or because I search for anything to relate with when it comes to art that I consume but every time, I find something that speaks what I feel or experience in your videos when you share them.
Either way, thank you illy for the amazing video 💗 And the narrator's voice is very comforting
I love the accompaniment
After Sylvia plath's mad girls love song, we really needed this one 🌸
Thank you so much dear ❤
'the poems about how i wanted to be a home for you, and you for me'
'Here is a poem about a humble kid
With glass underneath and above his skin.
Giving a piece of his self,
To receive thousands in return.
This is a poem about hopeful music, and a making peace.
With all the unborn tears and every letter in between.'
Your poem, and the video as a whole is a piece of you I'm happy to have seen.
Hope my words are a piece of me well received.
(I'm biased with my opinion about your vids. They're always amazing and new 🤍)
Thanks for the poem ❤❤❤❤
A newfound peace admitting defeat , a reminder of normality as i forget who i wanted to be 🍁
I can relate to these lines , thank you Yusuf for this and the kid with a camera to let it reach us, may God bless you both ❤️
thank you so much kid with a camera and guy with a voice
I’m 64 and going through some transformation’s now and I am so thankful for these little moments in time ❤
I remember when you released “Goodbye Beautiful Human”, having followed your work of videos for classics and greats and staying for the pieces of yourself you you put through. I heard Beautiful Human as I was starting life over for a third time, and felt seen. I’ve followed you quietly since, damn the algorithm for not showing me your videos recently but thankful I saw this at a time where I needed your words again. You’ve grown as a creator and a poet and a storyteller through your videos, and hope one day you make it among the greats and classics. Thank you for sharing
Damn that's an old one, thank you for sticking around
Your videos feel like a gift . I loved it💜👏
Thank youuuuu
Merci...!!!
I'm distracted by the adorable cats everywhere:)
I love this poem. It's so beautiful and touching. I understand that "strange fear" that you mentioned. It's so personal, your feelings are exposed to people and you feel like you're naked, vulnerable and a lots of emotions at the same time 'cause you don't want to keep this kind of thoughts for yourself that constantly are haunting you. I love it, i really do. ❤🥀
Thank you for your comment
The voice guyy! hahahah I really didn't expect this collab. I watched his tok a few days ago saying something about a song. Hahahah wow. 👏
Damn didn't know about that
you are so far away not even knowing you, you write a poem of feelings which built up to anxiety for me, a poem that captures all these moments. summer for me these humid cozy colder summer mornings with drinking tea with family and friends are making me feel content. Content I am now, with overcoming and dealing the thoughts and emotions you captured in this video. thank you!
The best... gosh Ilysm. Thanku for this man ❤
Beautiful.
Just beautiful.
thank u ❤
Wow
This is really beautiful my fren
May i suggest one?
The day after her death or my biggest reget (title)
I had fought with my mother
About the phone she had not bought me for my birthday
I was mad
I was stupid
I went to bed angry and sad
Next morning..dad was sad
Sister was crying
Why? What could it be?
Ambulances around our house
Could it be realated to me?
It was. Indirectly
She died
Mom died
Someone killed her.
The day after her death
Was spent in greif
Sorrow
And..guilt
I felt like the worst person
I felt guilty
I felt like i belonged in hell
Didnt have lunch
Didnt have dinner
Beat myself up about it
Spent 10 hours on my phone
All i did was sit
All i did was cry
All i did..
Was nothing
Nothing at all
I hated me
I loved her
I lost her
Why?
Why did i spend my last moments with her like that?
Why?
A question not even i can answer?
But we learn
We learn to forgive ourselves
We learn to accept what has happened
We learn..
Beautiful
As I pause between chapters of my life .........
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It's so beautiful, thank you ♡
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how beautiful 😭💕💕💕
Beautiful! ❤ Thank you.
Thank uuu
this is so beautiful, thank you ♥️
Thank you for watching ❤
Wow… yet another memorable great one👍…”The poems about how I wanted to be a
home for you
And you to be for me”
This lines hit particularly hard.
Thank you for sharing🤍
Thank you for watching it
I've known your work for about 3 years now, I've been an on and off follower, good stuff man
I'm okay to take breaks, I'm glad you are here
Seems like a child that bears the brunt of any fall. Well, finallyyy another altruistic content
Mourning the death before the rebirth
It's beautiful, the concept and how it resonates with anyone who has felt whatever pain. How the world changes when you feel sad. And how important it is to grief and move on to heal. How Important it is to acknowledge the pain, the loss and let go like a poem that once was yours but now it's mine. It's art.
Thank you for watching and live your profile picture, it's from my video right?
Yeah, it's been like that since that video you shot in Greece. Also Mad Boy's Love Song is in my diary now along with how to love on social media. One of a kind. Don't let go of the feelings if you didn't write about them. We love your poems.
Just loving it ❤
Awww I'm glad
I rarely comment on RUclips. Rarely. But I spent the day watching your videos, after finding a comment on another video. I ignored everything around and stayed in a dark room, till night. Your videos are surely talented and beautiful but they brought me very close to offing myself. I felt that they were all telling me that it's okay to give up. Instinct kicked in though.
I've been avoiding feelings and thoughts for so long, that I can't stand any of it. Your videos only showed me that everything is dark and not worth living and that giving up is fine. That dying is fine. They made me want to do it. Blackened my soul.
I am disabling RUclips, just another thing I have to shut off. Because if I stay, I won't survive a day longer. I wish I had never opened RUclips today. When I'm ready to give up, I'll come back to feel, again, that dying is fine. But only then.
Just...beautiful ❤
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Hello your channel really inspires me to create and be free ...it really comforts me in my darkest times thank you so much ❤
I'm glad you like my work ❤
Very nostalgic piece of art ❤
Thank you L
Very beautiful ❤❤❤
Thank you for watching
I love you and your work.
🌹🌙 completely
love u as well
Beautiful ❤❤❤
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tread as lightly as the mirror is dark
I'm getting better at it every day
Beautiful ❤❤❤👍
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Honestly, this is the only reason i check youtube notifications alert
Awww such a compliment
Sucha beautiful poem ❤
Just hits different
Thank you for watching so soon
Beautiful ❤
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god, I love you. Your channel is the best of its kind on RUclips 🥀✌🏽
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Beautiful poem, visuals and music.
Love it, man.
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Thank you so much mate
@@illneas You're welcome!
So relatable. ❤
I'm glad you relate ❤
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Truly in love
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Me to❤ Mrzim ovakvo vrjeme i u mladosti sam ga mrzijo..nije kiša nije sunce..a nije
Ako neko zna odgovor..molim u pisanoj formi❤️
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This reminds me of taminos indigo night!!!!
Hehe I mentioned his character as a small tribute
DARE TO SING!!! yes sir, sing your song for us, we are here listening!
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A poets heart beats to a drum made up of swirls of light
Longing for connection the colours taking flight
Somehow the yesterday we knew was never really real
Tomorrow never ever comes feeling what we feel
Wings flying eyes dancing
Hiding from the sun
Keep us from The Who we are and who we can become
Thank you as always bring the colours to our world! 💟☮️💟xxx
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I am at a tough place mentally right now and I found a home in this poem.
Aaaaaaaaa that's the point I'm glad
@@illneas
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I'll come back to watch this again but for now lemme leave a comment
Edit: Thank you illy ❤❤😢
It will be waiting for you
I wish I was in that chair staring at you ❤beautiful🛸💫❤️🔥
Best love for illy ❤❤❤
Love u
You see things so beautifully 🖤 thank for sharing this piece
Thank you for watching it
“the traveler's son watching everything through a screen” this reminded me of the song indigo night by tamino
“i'm searching for the promises i was supposed to keep, for the tears i postponed and the stories i never wrote”
ily
Ye I tributed indigo night ❤
Loved the work❤. But I really wanted to know what do you use for the audio to get bass voice.
Yusuf the narrator knows best
It's me😔
I Love the Cats.🤡👁️🦎
Yeeeee I love cats as well
*snaps* 💕
I should have loed a thunderbird, instead
3:00
She cheated on me
So that I can feel it
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midwest emo
aaaaaa i love midwest emo
It could be because we are of the same age or because I search for anything to relate with when it comes to art that I consume but every time, I find something that speaks what I feel or experience in your videos when you share them.
Either way, thank you illy for the amazing video 💗 And the narrator's voice is very comforting
You follow my work for so long we are the same person at this point and yes Yusuf is a great narrator and artist
@@illneas aaaaaaaah PLEASE I'M FANGIRLING AND STUFF!
Thank you! And yes I'll be checking his work!
Beautiful ❤
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It could be because we are of the same age or because I search for anything to relate with when it comes to art that I consume but every time, I find something that speaks what I feel or experience in your videos when you share them.
Either way, thank you illy for the amazing video 💗 And the narrator's voice is very comforting