the sample in case someone is wondering about the lyrics. It comes from station earth and roos denayer, cold green eyes: Everchanging The knowing feeling Could make you fall from the dreamy skies Suddenly the deepness can get true Where you live a life without a clue And you're looking into cold green eyes
I've fallen so far down the rabbit hole that I cannot see the light. My purpose also eludes me, not unlike a colorful leaf I used to collect. 4 a.m. introspection goes brrrr.
Undoubtedly, this is one of the most heart touching pieces of art I've ever stumbled upon. It's 1AM, I'm a few days away from turning 26. I found an old internet forum announcing they're closing due to bankruptcy. I look up my account and find my posts and comments from 10 years ago. The shocking realisation strikes like a thunder, time has passed so quickly that in the blink of an eye I've become an adult, but the frustrations and pain keep piling up. This beat brings a tear of bittersweet melancholy, in the blink of an eye I will be no more, all my hopes and delusions will be nothing but a drop in an ever raining sky of lost memories.
I hope you do well in the future, I pray for that also and if there anymore futher issues, or if those issues are umberable now (that is okay as life is hard, especially in the situation you at) to talk or help you in anyway trought the internet. Maybe listen you out to let you vent? I don't know how I could help other then fast for a day or so (and doing the previous statent things I do [praying and talking with you]), but if you wish sure I do it. Just say it
I feel an inner emptiness seeing people in their mid 20s and older missing their childhood, wishing they could turn back time, relive their glory days.. yet i'm still here in my youth, able to experience it all and live life to the fullest without a care in my world. The only problem being I physically cannot get my brain to compute, stuck in an endless cycle of small bursts of pain and joy only to be soon consumed by the empty feeling that resides in my head, eating up all my good and bad memories until i'm left with nothing but bitterness for the life I could very well be experiencing right now, only able to stare through the screen that is my eyes, watching as life passes me by while I stand there like a lemon letting all these opportunities slip from my grasp without even trying to keep ahold of them. Live your life while you still can, they say, but i'm just trying to figure out how. Is it even possible for me now? Or have I let myself rot for too long.
@DoseOfRandom137 this is the ultimate conundrum of life, to me. When you're young you are ignorant to a lot of the harsh things that can happen. You will know they exist, be aware of them being possible.. but the feelings that come when those things come.. are something that can never be explained in words. You deserve to enjoy youth, and I hope it has been something you can look back on, when you're my age (25) and smile. I'm only now, days before turning 26, just like OP, and I think I'm just now comprehending who I am, what I want, and despite the feeling of the world burning around me.. I can finally accept that it's okay, that I'm okay.. Time is a beautiful thing. The bliss of a lot of the things you will experience comes from the deep comprehension that they won't last forever. Everything has a cost and a limit to it, and that's what really makes the world as beautiful as it is. Oldheads always told me, when I was your age, to cherish every good moment I had. I thought I did that. Now I look back and realize I didn't really understand the weight behind that sentence, and probably still don't fully get it. But, I'm getting there. Enjoy your time in this place, mate. People will love you, people will hate you, but at the end of it all.. you matter the most. Love yourself. It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do, and if you knew me.. you'd know the gravity of that statement. You will never "rot for too long" the depths of your own mind can and will change you, though, yes.. and it may make it harder to find the happiness and bliss later, but that's okay. Life bends and ebbs, that's why we all call it a Rollercoaster. Some wisdom from a guy who really feels like he's seen both heaven and hell in his life.. The bad things. The feelings of that rot, the decaying of who you are, the fleeting escape of the desire and drive you have.. they don't last either.. and the really poetically beautiful thing about that? It makes the good things even better. Abstinence in a way. Dealing with the things you're struggling with right now, will make the sanctuary you find, later, all the more colorful and vibrant. You'll get through it, I believe. Just off of how you spoke those thoughts, I can tell you are smart enough, you just need to be shown, or find the art of this world, the art that makes you smile when you look up at the sky. Love yourself. Everything will be okay. Make the most of this time, however you want to do that. Don't let the worry and anxiety cloud it all.. I did for way too long. Have a good day
@@Psyrens (srry if this is a bit repetitive n such im tired) Thankyou for going out of your way to write this message. Just to clarify this isn't meant to be some 'oh I do everything for people and get nothing in return!!' kind of speech, I do the things I do because I want to not because I expect the same in return. But anyways, I often write messages, albeit not nearly as lengthy as this one, to try and reassure the person i'm sending it to or to just lighten the mood. You don't really encounter many people who will do the same, which is completely fair and i'm not complaining lol, but it makes me really appreciate it when somebody actually does the same for me. I'm stubborn and I could tell myself 'it will be okay, just need to do x y and z' a million times and i'd not listen, however when another person speaks to me I tend to have a better chance of listening. Hopefully your words may help to me getting out of this trench, even just for a little bit. In all honesty, I fear I might not make it to 25, that I may have given up by then or have changed so much I am unrecognisable even to my own eyes. Every time I think it couldn't get any worse, it just does. I know my pain is nothing compared to others, probably not even yours, but it hurts nonetheless. I'm terrified of the future, but.. you're nearly double my age, and you seem to have gone through a lot. If you can do it, there's a sliver of hope that I can to. So again, thankyou. Really. I hope you have a good day, no, a great day yourself. And take care, please.
i woke up in the middle of the night crying, thinking about how much time has passed, and this song was the first thing on my youtube recommended. If there is something out there, i will take this song as a gift from it. thank you
Your track feels so alive. Like a machine pondering about life and the passage of time, wandering in the neverlands of melancholy, crying for the meaning of life before shutting down for ever.
Yo! I clicked on this because that's easily a top 10 song title of all time, was not expecting a such a remarkably unique and just frankly awesome track in a genre that, though I love it, feels a little samey at times. This song really sticks out from the crowd and goes exceptionally hard for it.
usually i use music as background noise to not get bored while doing something, but this is the first track ive ever heard that just had me sitting, doing nothing but enjoying it
What a unique song! Masterfully done. Awesome, atmospheric stuff at 2:00. At times it's on the verge of chaos but somehow manages to stay musical, which is a sign of a great skill! Subbed!
I don't usually listen to this kind of music because I usually try and listen to music to lift myself up and boost my mood rather than dwell on stuff and this kind of genre tends to do the latter for me, but holy fuck this song is absolutely insane.
This really itches the same spot in my brain that some of the notes from stuff like Overthinker by Inzo do. Very ominous and almost depressive notes. Its like this song is capturing the feeling of the world burning around you, while you sit and smile, knowing everything will be okay What a beautiful piece of art, man. Wow
I just stumbled upon this song from listening to a random playlist in YT Music, but man it is a beautiful one! Reminds me of the old atmospheric dnb music and the Arcaea game music which many tracks are made in this style. The buildup was also insane in here, just completely filled with an ethereal and euphoric vibe to it! It’s a shame that this doesn’t have any more views than I imagined. Such an insanely beautiful track, fantastic work here! 🗿👍
This is one of the best songs I've ever heard... this is so underrated... you honestly deserve 50k-100k subs just from Lobotomy Noises and THIS MASTERPIECE
I normally don't click on smaller music artists in my yt recommended, but your unique title definitely caught my attention and I was pleasantly surprised by the track! Well done and keep up the fantastic work.
This song is different. This song just feels like it has a life of its own, and it's so infectious that it makes you want to live too. Fighting whatever is consuming you up And find your purpose It also gives the feeling of something/someone desperately fighting to survive, after realizing that they never really wanted to die.
Like others I came across this from a playlist. Once it played- it felt like the quote “Pain is the gatekeeper of destiny. It will ask you if your words are true or all talk.” Something clicked in me. You find out how bad you are until you do your very best to be good.
There’s a rather heartbreaking video circulating around the algorithm recently from 5 years ago, a young girl’s suicide note, this song perfectly captures the feeling I had when I watched it
PLEASE tell me what is this PIANO starting to play at 0:49??? I heard it somewhere and cannot remember where. it sounds super familiar... it goes note in note with what I remember up to 2:00 but I can't find out where I heard it...
Just stopped myself from a big mistake. I don’t know when but eventually I will appreciate that decision. I have to believe that eventually I will appreciate the choice to stay here. If I’m going to die it should be doing something fucking rad
Hey kurosa, this song is a masterpiece, the whole song was great to begin with and then you throw in these lyrics.. incredible. I know the original dnb song from which it came and it just made it even better
Man this shit is so beautiful, what the fuck. 😭 I love it here, shoutout to being born in 2000s listening to trance and electronic music growing up, had I not been into it back then I would never have made my way to this song
This is incredible !!!!!!!! I wanted to find this music for ages, Also can you tell me the original start music's name!! I have been looking for it for too long now!! The ending is great
i just wanted to say i know you are a new creator but i really like your music and i love your style too, i heavily identify with it too and i love the music, keep going
Your purpose is something only you can find Your purpose is yet defined by other’s view of it In this paradox is purpose, and in this paradox most souls are lost In this paradox we all die at some point or some way In this paradox we all have to break free so it can make sense
the sample in case someone is wondering about the lyrics. It comes from station earth and roos denayer, cold green eyes:
Everchanging
The knowing feeling
Could make you fall from the dreamy skies
Suddenly the deepness can get true
Where you live a life without a clue
And you're looking into cold green eyes
Chad, thanks!
Cold Green Eyes is such a beautiful piece tbf
I've fallen so far down the rabbit hole that I cannot see the light. My purpose also eludes me, not unlike a colorful leaf I used to collect. 4 a.m. introspection goes brrrr.
What is bro yapping about 🙄🙄🙄
4:41 am
@@ooger5777those who swim in blissful ignorance are the happiest, truth and knowledge is a curse upon humankind
5:32AM brother
look up the kybalion and the blueprint to our cosmic future
This track feels special
The smears and pitch bends make the buildups hit different
Undoubtedly, this is one of the most heart touching pieces of art I've ever stumbled upon. It's 1AM, I'm a few days away from turning 26. I found an old internet forum announcing they're closing due to bankruptcy. I look up my account and find my posts and comments from 10 years ago. The shocking realisation strikes like a thunder, time has passed so quickly that in the blink of an eye I've become an adult, but the frustrations and pain keep piling up. This beat brings a tear of bittersweet melancholy, in the blink of an eye I will be no more, all my hopes and delusions will be nothing but a drop in an ever raining sky of lost memories.
indo y?
I hope you do well in the future, I pray for that also and if there anymore futher issues, or if those issues are umberable now (that is okay as life is hard, especially in the situation you at) to talk or help you in anyway trought the internet. Maybe listen you out to let you vent? I don't know how I could help other then fast for a day or so (and doing the previous statent things I do [praying and talking with you]), but if you wish sure I do it. Just say it
I feel an inner emptiness seeing people in their mid 20s and older missing their childhood, wishing they could turn back time, relive their glory days.. yet i'm still here in my youth, able to experience it all and live life to the fullest without a care in my world. The only problem being I physically cannot get my brain to compute, stuck in an endless cycle of small bursts of pain and joy only to be soon consumed by the empty feeling that resides in my head, eating up all my good and bad memories until i'm left with nothing but bitterness for the life I could very well be experiencing right now, only able to stare through the screen that is my eyes, watching as life passes me by while I stand there like a lemon letting all these opportunities slip from my grasp without even trying to keep ahold of them. Live your life while you still can, they say, but i'm just trying to figure out how. Is it even possible for me now? Or have I let myself rot for too long.
@DoseOfRandom137 this is the ultimate conundrum of life, to me. When you're young you are ignorant to a lot of the harsh things that can happen. You will know they exist, be aware of them being possible.. but the feelings that come when those things come.. are something that can never be explained in words. You deserve to enjoy youth, and I hope it has been something you can look back on, when you're my age (25) and smile.
I'm only now, days before turning 26, just like OP, and I think I'm just now comprehending who I am, what I want, and despite the feeling of the world burning around me.. I can finally accept that it's okay, that I'm okay..
Time is a beautiful thing. The bliss of a lot of the things you will experience comes from the deep comprehension that they won't last forever. Everything has a cost and a limit to it, and that's what really makes the world as beautiful as it is.
Oldheads always told me, when I was your age, to cherish every good moment I had. I thought I did that. Now I look back and realize I didn't really understand the weight behind that sentence, and probably still don't fully get it. But, I'm getting there.
Enjoy your time in this place, mate. People will love you, people will hate you, but at the end of it all.. you matter the most. Love yourself. It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do, and if you knew me.. you'd know the gravity of that statement.
You will never "rot for too long" the depths of your own mind can and will change you, though, yes.. and it may make it harder to find the happiness and bliss later, but that's okay. Life bends and ebbs, that's why we all call it a Rollercoaster.
Some wisdom from a guy who really feels like he's seen both heaven and hell in his life..
The bad things. The feelings of that rot, the decaying of who you are, the fleeting escape of the desire and drive you have.. they don't last either.. and the really poetically beautiful thing about that? It makes the good things even better. Abstinence in a way. Dealing with the things you're struggling with right now, will make the sanctuary you find, later, all the more colorful and vibrant. You'll get through it, I believe. Just off of how you spoke those thoughts, I can tell you are smart enough, you just need to be shown, or find the art of this world, the art that makes you smile when you look up at the sky.
Love yourself. Everything will be okay. Make the most of this time, however you want to do that. Don't let the worry and anxiety cloud it all.. I did for way too long. Have a good day
@@Psyrens (srry if this is a bit repetitive n such im tired) Thankyou for going out of your way to write this message. Just to clarify this isn't meant to be some 'oh I do everything for people and get nothing in return!!' kind of speech, I do the things I do because I want to not because I expect the same in return. But anyways, I often write messages, albeit not nearly as lengthy as this one, to try and reassure the person i'm sending it to or to just lighten the mood. You don't really encounter many people who will do the same, which is completely fair and i'm not complaining lol, but it makes me really appreciate it when somebody actually does the same for me. I'm stubborn and I could tell myself 'it will be okay, just need to do x y and z' a million times and i'd not listen, however when another person speaks to me I tend to have a better chance of listening. Hopefully your words may help to me getting out of this trench, even just for a little bit.
In all honesty, I fear I might not make it to 25, that I may have given up by then or have changed so much I am unrecognisable even to my own eyes. Every time I think it couldn't get any worse, it just does. I know my pain is nothing compared to others, probably not even yours, but it hurts nonetheless. I'm terrified of the future, but.. you're nearly double my age, and you seem to have gone through a lot. If you can do it, there's a sliver of hope that I can to. So again, thankyou. Really. I hope you have a good day, no, a great day yourself. And take care, please.
We are getting out of depression with this one🔥🔥🔥 📢📢📢
*moans*
😱
nuh uh
we are not
Deeper into**
i woke up in the middle of the night crying, thinking about how much time has passed, and this song was the first thing on my youtube recommended. If there is something out there, i will take this song as a gift from it. thank you
never heard a song that sounded so ethereal, this work is nuts
Listen to deathbrain, no need to thank me
@@thecoldduvet7381 checked them out, already have a few of their songs, but their music is amazing
@@thecoldduvet7381based deathbrain enjoyer
Heh-heh, guess what was recommended I should watch after this..
Deathbrain's A Slice of Life (Full Album)
That album is 10/10
Your track feels so alive.
Like a machine pondering about life and the passage of time, wandering in the neverlands of melancholy, crying for the meaning of life before shutting down for ever.
Yo! I clicked on this because that's easily a top 10 song title of all time, was not expecting a such a remarkably unique and just frankly awesome track in a genre that, though I love it, feels a little samey at times. This song really sticks out from the crowd and goes exceptionally hard for it.
This song is so good. The sound that hits at 0:19 is magical.
usually i use music as background noise to not get bored while doing something, but this is the first track ive ever heard that just had me sitting, doing nothing but enjoying it
2:10 feels like I just got pulled out of a whirlpool sick af
What a unique song! Masterfully done. Awesome, atmospheric stuff at 2:00. At times it's on the verge of chaos but somehow manages to stay musical, which is a sign of a great skill! Subbed!
Bro this channel is way too underrated. You should have more recognition for this type of music. It's so good.
The Cold Green Eyes portion turned off every thought in my mind; incredible.
success awaits you in the future
Genius.
Genuinely one of the Best songs i've heard in quite a while.
Thanks to RUclips recommendations, i able to discover this gem . Only time before this blew up ( marks my word )
rip its been 8 days now and it still doesnt have enough attention its so good
@@archivedchaos00256Yeah
algo picked up again
the cold green eyes sample came out of nowhere, but it was very much an appreciated surprise
youtube recommend unpopular authors, i love it
the mix between chaos and despair is just in this track is just ...holy
I don't usually listen to this kind of music because I usually try and listen to music to lift myself up and boost my mood rather than dwell on stuff and this kind of genre tends to do the latter for me, but holy fuck this song is absolutely insane.
Please make more songs with this vibe so i can listen to them 24/7
ah cold green eyes, brings back memories :)
look forawrd to hear more from you!
I was actually stuck on how to finish this track for a while, I opened up osu for the first time in a while and it turned out to be the key :)
one of my fav farm maps
This really itches the same spot in my brain that some of the notes from stuff like Overthinker by Inzo do. Very ominous and almost depressive notes. Its like this song is capturing the feeling of the world burning around you, while you sit and smile, knowing everything will be okay
What a beautiful piece of art, man. Wow
this is one of the most beautiful songs I've ever heard
I just stumbled upon this song from listening to a random playlist in YT Music, but man it is a beautiful one! Reminds me of the old atmospheric dnb music and the Arcaea game music which many tracks are made in this style. The buildup was also insane in here, just completely filled with an ethereal and euphoric vibe to it! It’s a shame that this doesn’t have any more views than I imagined. Such an insanely beautiful track, fantastic work here! 🗿👍
This song makes me feel both nostalgic and sad at the same time. I'm glad I found this genre recently.
This is one of the best songs I've ever heard... this is so underrated... you honestly deserve 50k-100k subs just from Lobotomy Noises and THIS MASTERPIECE
The calm before the storm of losing your mind
How did you get that broken guitar sound? Im a beginner in making breakcore and this would help so much
I normally don't click on smaller music artists in my yt recommended, but your unique title definitely caught my attention and I was pleasantly surprised by the track! Well done and keep up the fantastic work.
That’s were you find all the gems. UG is always better than big artists because they care less about money and want to make the music more than others
Have a pleasant ten thousand years.
Bro this song hits the vibe check especially when that 2min mark hits sheeesh
This track perfectly reflects my inner state allowing me to experience it in the moment painlessly. Thank you
This song is for sure not from earth, it's so ethereal and beautiful
The world it makes me imagine is majestic
This song really encapsulates what it's like trying to build an identity
Holy this ive listened to this a hundred times over and over and over and over
For some reason i associate this with leaving reality
An amazing song. Emotional, chaotic, and powerful.
" THANK YOU, MY FRIEND...
NOW... YOU'RE *BIG BOSS* "
This song is different. This song just feels like it has a life of its own, and it's so infectious that it makes you want to live too. Fighting whatever is consuming you up And find your purpose
It also gives the feeling of something/someone desperately fighting to survive, after realizing that they never really wanted to die.
Like others I came across this from a playlist. Once it played- it felt like the quote “Pain is the gatekeeper of destiny. It will ask you if your words are true or all talk.” Something clicked in me. You find out how bad you are until you do your very best to be good.
I discovered this masterpiece on soundcloud I appreciate that this one on youtube also
This really touches me. This feels like what happens in my brain.
absolute banger
Awesome track, your spotify is a hidden gem.Thank you so much.
What an experience to listen to💕💕
this is the best breakcore song i ever seen
this has been in my playlists for a few months
everytime this comes on it makes me want to pick up fl again
thanks, hard to keep it off repeat
if only I knew how to make music like this, I'd do that too
glad i found this song again
This song conveys so much emotion and is so well made and clearly had effort put in. Its really good!!!
Happy I found this, I really like this song!! Excited to hear more from you!
omfg, cold green eyes sample ? I love you
Really love the song! I’ve been listening to it on loop while playing Elden Ring lmao
so much better than half the stuff out now this is heavenly
very surprised to hear cold green eyes in this but holy shit this slaps
There’s a rather heartbreaking video circulating around the algorithm recently from 5 years ago, a young girl’s suicide note, this song perfectly captures the feeling I had when I watched it
PLEASE tell me what is this PIANO starting to play at 0:49??? I heard it somewhere and cannot remember where. it sounds super familiar...
it goes note in note with what I remember up to 2:00 but I can't find out where I heard it...
i did the piano part myself but it was inspired by a song i once heard unfortunately i dont know the name likely a popular osu song
@@lovekurousa super sad 😭
I don't play osu so no chances for me getting the original
@@okzerus if i ever figure it out ill let you know
always love when the youtube algorithm recommends your channel
Beautiful Song
Such a great song.
This is kinda insane on how amazing this is. Its mesmerizing. Thank you.
Absolutely out of this world, Thank you so much, I absolutely love your musics ❤
i'd like to see a version with no drums some time
youtube recommendation at its finest i love this
Yo this fucking slaps holy shit
Idk why, but this song just touch my soul
this so good, yt is recommending some good music
This is wonderful, 4th time i reload the yt and first video recom is another random breakcore inspire emotion filled piece of musical art. I love it
cold green eyes drop part was fire
Thanks
Thanks
Sounds like terraria calamity post-moonlord great boss theme. And I love it! 🔥🔥🔥
Just stopped myself from a big mistake. I don’t know when but eventually I will appreciate that decision. I have to believe that eventually I will appreciate the choice to stay here. If I’m going to die it should be doing something fucking rad
listening to this kinda makes it hard to breathe but that's okay because this song is amazing
tomorrow I am going to wake up in the morning and think I can't wait to listen to this song
thank you for making this!
Damn that cold green eyes was a pleasant surprise, and it worked out pretty well towards the end. I can't wait to hear more from you :)
This is how they feel when there axiom fails them - anonyms non axiom failure
beautiful, a spark
there are 10 e's in the title
yamei sample in the beginning heyll yea
Even though things seem to be falling g apart, this song makes it all seem so beautiful.
The 54 dislikes are from people who has an eluding purpose, this song is fire 🔥
straight jammer
Hey kurosa, this song is a masterpiece, the whole song was great to begin with and then you throw in these lyrics.. incredible.
I know the original dnb song from which it came and it just made it even better
You're genius ❤
Man this shit is so beautiful, what the fuck. 😭
I love it here, shoutout to being born in 2000s listening to trance and electronic music growing up, had I not been into it back then I would never have made my way to this song
what a perfect song
MAKE MORE LIKE THIS PLEASE
This one, I feel this one
This is incredible !!!!!!!!
I wanted to find this music for ages,
Also can you tell me the original start music's name!!
I have been looking for it for too long now!!
The ending is great
🖤
best song i have ever listen
I love this
i just wanted to say i know you are a new creator but i really like your music and i love your style too, i heavily identify with it too and i love the music, keep going
thank you so much
Nice pfp!
Some gorgeous mad vibes
Your purpose is something only you can find
Your purpose is yet defined by other’s view of it
In this paradox is purpose, and in this paradox most souls are lost
In this paradox we all die at some point or some way
In this paradox we all have to break free so it can make sense
Holy Moly, it sounds unique
Beautiful track bro
Yo this is gold
You will be on my playlist, beautiful gem