I can not believe the NERVE of him to call after he murdered your family, and act as if you guys were gonna be buddies!? He's insane, and you don't deserve that.
@@kristinholcomb5817 you really do have the strength oh Jesus!! God bless you and your beautiful family. His voice is beyond creepy and evil. I can’t stand him! I’m so very sorry you lost your siblings and that this happened!!!
What I found questionable with Chad, which should have been flags to Lori is all her minor children were zombies yet non of Chads were. They were adults and did not stand in the way of the Chad Lori life. RIP JJ Tylee, Charles and Tammy 🙏
Frankly, how dead Chad sounds, he reminds me of a lot of the men in Mormon leadership - you don't see a lot of life there, and certainly not love in their approach to people who don't fit into their narrow views. But Chad is as creepy as they get.
@ I wouldn’t judge or compare Mormon men to Chad. He has the voice of the devil. I’m not Mormon but I’ve heard a few Mormon men and non of them sound like Chad
I'm sorry. it was probably one of the wisest decisions you've ever made not answering unknown numbers nor returning that call. who knows what more evil that Dumbell could have, maybe would have done to you. very frightening.
I know part of your ‘I’m sorry’ when you cry is an instinctive response but you truly owe zero apologies for your tears. Those tears represent the loss of four valuable, important and real human beings. Your tears are a beautiful tribute to the depth of your love & the breadth of your loss.
AMEN!!! Lord God, please take away the pain this man inflicted on his life!! Please bless Colby richly and give him back what the locusts have eaten. In Jesus’ name I pray. 🙏 ❤
Chad’s voice has that stereotyped "prophet-speak" quality. Most, if not all, of the mainstream LDS/Mormon and offshoot Mormon "prophets" share that same flat, nasal intonation. It’s unsettling.
Right? Even the “good guys “ have this unsettling flat, overly soft voice that lacks the normal peaks and valleys of speech with emotion. There’s really something about it.
Further proof that Chad is detached from reality and remains unaccountable for his revolting behaviours and beliefs. The world is lucky to still have you Colby 💛
Your vulnerability touches me. I was separated from my mother at 7 years old. I’ve yearned for her my entire life. I’m 48 years old now and after much professional therapy and self work, my heart is mended. However, there are days that i long for her and wish that she would have been a healthier and whole person for herself and for me. She’ll never be that person. I’ve come to believe that my longing for my mother and my acceptance of what will never be can both be real and true. It has brought me deep comfort. Our stories are different, but I see many resemblances. I know that you hurt and your sorrow is deep. I am sorry for this, because I realize the sadness that comes with it. I also see a resilient and long suffering soul, and although that comes with wounds, one day those wounds will heal and they will be scars. we are strangers, but I am proud of you. Continue doing the work, showing up for yourself and your family. The love that your siblings have for you is still real. I have no doubt you are making them proud also. Much love!
@MichelleDias What a sweet message. Thank you for sharing. ❤ It’s inspiring and hopeful to hear you have healed, yet still have those normal human emotions. I’m also trying to heal deep wounds, traumas, etc. and rise above. It is taking allot of therapy, work and time. Gives me hope to keep going, that one day I’ll get there too 😊
The nerve of Chad is quite astonishing! It’s such a comfort to see you Colby grounded, living through the grief in a such a mature and open way. Wishing you and family a beautiful life x
😢I'm so sad you lost your family and at the same time, I'm glad you somehow were not sucked into the cult nor brainwashed. You are a true survivor. Your experience that you share here, being clear minded through all of this, is very unique and valuable.
Colby, let your emotions out! It's okay to get angry, upset, cry, cuss like a sailor, etc! You were very kind to say Peter Griffin was "creepy"... I had a few other words in mind. No way in H-E-double hockey sticks would I EVER be interested or even had a thought of dating a man with voice like his. I use the word "man" lightly. YOU are a strong man! Little does your Mom know how truly loved you are. You have a bigger family than you could ever imagined! I'm so glad you are sharing YOUR story!
52.52~ Is what I still can’t wrap my head around, the way Chads son in law spoke on the stand regarding the police officer going back to check on the house. He was so cold hearted about the officer and people who found them and where they were found. To me it was chilling and cold how he and Chads daughter reacted to that part of the case.
Colby, you have the strength of the Lord in you to endure what you've gone through, dear sweet boy. Thank God Chad never got his hooks in you. Keep up the good work!
I have a severely autistic family member , and it sounds as though when AJ was getting proper care, he had so much to offer! Thank you for letting people who aren’t aware that autism has many spectrums and differ greatly from one person to another. some people may not know, they’ve never been effected, and it’s so important that you pointed this out, Thank you Colby ❤️❤️❤️
@@wendysolem2372 Yes! And support needs are also fluctuating depending on so many factors. Even normally Level 1 autistics may have days or weeks or months or even years where they are functioning on Level 2 or Level 3 support needs. People don’t always understand these things. The spectrum is complex
My daughter is 7 and autistic. I happened to be cuddling with her and listening on my phone when the jury came back with the death penalty verdict for Chad. I held her so tight and just cried hard for JJ. 😢😢
Colby, I'm so sorry for the continued retramatization you're having to endure. I honestly don't know how you handle everything with such grace. I remember HOPING the kids were just hidden out in some Waco-esque compound, but feeling in my heart that they were no longer here. When everything unfolded, I was speechless. I have closely followed both trials so far and have to say that you have publicly handled yourself better than I think anyone could imagine. I can imagine, in private, it's a lot harder to keep yourself composed. I pray for you continued strength and healing as this next chapter unfolds. RIP Tylee and JJ and justice for Charles and Brandon. I sincerely hope your mom doesn't try dragging you in to the circus that will be this next trial.
I related so hard when you said "I forgot this voicemail even happened". In 2022, after I lost my mom, I turned to my husband and said: "Wow, isn't it weird how trauma always comes in three's for me? Like you getting diagnosed with cancer in 2020, mom dying and...." but I couldn't finish my sentence, because I was just blanking. So my husband said: "...and then your dad got diagnose with cancer 3 weeks after your mom. Did you really forget about that?" I think that when the trauma hits you so hard you just forget the smaller traumas. It's a pretty weird feeling. But it's so real. I guess, in my mind, because my dad's cancer was treatable and he survived while I watched my mom slowly fade away, it was like it was nothing to my brain. I guess I was just at capacity 😅
@glennabartlett562 Thank you ❤️ Thankfully, now that it's not as raw and recent, I'm already feeling much better but it was pretty rough there for a while. My husband and father are also both in remission, thank God 🙏
Hi Colby.. You are so very strong. It’s a good thing you never were in touch with him. Once he saw how you feel and he couldn’t sway you, You would have been unsafe. stay strong. love your family.
You are so brave to speak about this experience because I think it helps so many people. As a hospice social worker I often deal with adult children who never actually see their parents as fallible. Sometimes its too late. I think the only way to break the trauma is facing it head on and accepting that you have surpassed your parents in emotional and spiritual maturity. Everyone has their own search to find the truth because everything i have gone through makes me question the reality of any organization of religion. For me, I had to move away from organized religion because I researched the Bible and its manipulation by men over thousand of years for their own purposes. I will never judge you for your decision to turn towards scripture to find strength but after my own research, I saw the inconsistency and innate misogyny and strive for power. The true teaching of Christ is love , charity and the strength to do what is right for you and your fellow neighbors. I believe we all have a purpose to fulfill on this earth set by a creator and your teaching and kind nature shows you as someone blessed with integrity and intellect. Stay strong . All my love.
Thank you! Organized religion was created and written by men who wanted control. Here is a beautiful soul, Colby - honest, loving, authentic as the day is long. His wisdom blows me away. And organized religion wants us to forfeit that in ourselves and follow what they teach instead. Young Colby is an amazing example of how to hold to what you know to be true, not what a crowd of manipulators is out to impose on you. Bless his heart.
I’m so thankful you are sharing your story. You make your siblings “real” and show how incredibly important your reality is to us that love you. Colby, you are helping so many more people than you can imagine.
Colby I just can’t even imagine what you have been through. That hug you felt how incredible. Good to think it was Tylee giving you strength telling you she’s ok and is there for you
I’m so glad you have discovered that your channel is helpful to you in processing your grief. You are an incredible young man, and I feel honored to be part of your support group. Merry Christmas!
It sucks that they edited you and the things that were really important to you. In spite of that, speaking as a complete stranger, your character shines through that documentary. Whatever they did or didn’t show, I really believe that it shows what kind of person you are and the love you have for you family. That’s a credit to you not Netflix. You were strong enough that you shined through their editing.
Honey I’m afraid Chad may have wanted to use you for a purpose then get rid of you. I’m so sorry to say that but I wouldn’t have considered you safe near him after knowing what he did to your other family members. My Mama Bear instincts kick in when it comes to you. When I see you I see a genuine, honest, caring young man with love in his heart. I hope you can feel the love sent your way and all the prayers made. God bless you and your lil family. 🙏🥰💕
Colby please don't apologize for your emotions. I'm sure that hug was Tylee and JJ letting you know they were with you. I can only imagine dealing with the media felt like they were picking you apart when you are already raw. I can't fathom how you even begin to process all of this.
When you described a situation where there was a before and after of your life, that resonated for me. I realized I have had a moment like that too. It changes you.
I’m left so proud of you for reflecting back on all this and seeing your mom for who she IS and not who she portrayed herself to be. Much love to you and Kelsee ❤
I started watching the true crime shows before knowing anything about how it all ended. It’s a trip that the trials hadn’t happened yet, so it was like watching it in real time. Hearing about Tylee and JJ being missing and then finding their remains was so disturbing, it broke me. How a mother can do or even let someone else do what was done to those beautiful souls is beyond comprehension. You are so strong to be able to put yourself out there and talking about it all is very inspiring. The autism talk was so crazy, my daughter is on the spectrum, it was tagged as Asperger’s syndrome before they created the larger umbrella of ASD, since there are so many different types plus different levels. My daughter is high-functioning, but as she has grown it has morphed. Thank you for being your authentic self and not trying to sugar coat any of it.
Hi Colby, I'm so sorry for everything you have to go through, but you have to stand strong and remember, the WONDER of all this is, we know WHO'S in control, and that is to me the biggest MIRACLE of life and I'm 75 yrs old. The calmness is the devil's snare for those around them.....a lie!! Stand strong for your small family❤
Colby, you are more supported than what you may realize. I don’t think you should ever apologize for loving your siblings so deeply and being disappointed in you egg-donor. You are a shining example of owning how you feel and allow yourself to grieve your way. I just hope that talking through this and sharing your story helps you. When it doesn’t, we also support you.
i really hope sharing your story is helping bring you some peace. you’ve been through so much you deserve it. i’m so sorry for your loss and the things you’re forced to continue to endure. all of us internet strangers are here to support you. i can’t imagine stumbling on this voicemails years later knowing what you know now
Hello Colby. As someone who, as a child, was manipulated to believe certain things happened, only to find out 30+ years later they didn't, it was all smoke and mirrors, (I know this isn't the case for everyone) I was just wondering if you've explored your very younger years with your therapist, and if you haven't, I very much advise it. Bless you and your family, may you always be surrounded by love, truth and happiness.
The documentary was helpful to have your heart in it rather than only what we got from the news. So sorry for your losses! God bless you and your family!!!
Colby, Kelsie, and kiddos, we have you wrapped in our virtual hugs. Every painful step leads you to freedom of knowing the truth and letting others help carry this hurden with you. I am deeply touched by your honesty. Heartfelt strength to you and yours.❤❤
P.S. My youngest is 20yrs old, autistic, with SPD, and learning disabilities. He is one of a kind. I feel you deeply, when people think they can explain who he is. Tell them to buy a vowel and get a clue. 🤣 ❤️
I am so blown away at how strong you are. I’m so glad to see you are healing and slowly being able to sort all of these things out. It’s really cool that you can talk about it. Sending so much love and prayers.
I’m glad you can talk about these things and explain your version in of the story. The part where you felt a physical hug from behind… That’s the tangible love of Jesus! He is with you through all of this. In the hardest moments of life is when you feel Him the most real. Never lose faith in the Lord! He loves you so much.
Oh Cody, I hope this is helping you to talk through it. We are here to listen. Been following this horrific event for years and I pray for peace in your heart. I’m so sorry you had to go through this.
Oh Colby I feel the Lord is using you to show the real truth. Please PLEASE don’t apologize for getting emotional. I truly appreciate your transparency. ❤
I'm a mom of three grown sons and it breaks my heart to watch you go through all that you have experienced. The media has proved once again, they can't be trusted. I am grateful that you have a platform to tell the truth. To portray JJ so disrespectfully is unforgivable. Thank you for being strong enough to tell the truth. I know it wasn't easy. God bless you and your wife and children. When you got the news about your brother and sister being found, those were Jesus's arms around you. He will always be there for you. Blessings ❤
I can’t get over that low life calling you Colby!! God bless you, you have been through so much. You’re in my prayers every day, you Kelsey and your beautiful family!! We appreciate you ❤!!
Love you, Colby. You never need to apologize for not reading the chats. We are here to hear your story. This was a big one. I’m glad you stayed focused on what you needed to share. There will be plenty of opportunities for us to share here but for now, it’s your turn. Sending hugs to you and your amazing wife.
OMG, my heart hurts for you. Get it out were here and never be ashamed or sorry for your feelings. It's horrific what happened to you, especially. Holding back does nothing but delay. ❤🙏Merry Christmas to you and the family.
Hi Colby, I’ve been following this story for the last two and a half years because of my son attending school in Idaho. I can’t imagine the pain and suffering and utter sorrow you’re going through. Thank you so much for sharing your authentic self and setting straight the media misinformation. I’m glad to have found your channel and walk through this journey with you. I unfortunately have not seen the documentary because I was afraid to. I may go back and watch it now that I’ve heard your real story and see what you went through. Although watching your reactions and hearing your depictions of the situation is very helpful to know how television (media) can detract from the emotion, the reality and make it fit their narrative which may not be exactly what you experienced. Thank you for sharing and for the clarification. You are brave, strong and loved. I love you and watching your videos.
For Chad to call as if he was a friend. This call was after Lori had been arrested talking about personal things that he had no right to know. Before Tylee and JJ had been found at his property. The audacity is unmatched.
For real. Chad had this gross formula of watching someone and trying to hone in on what he’d think they’d want to hear? It might have worked on vacant women. He was surrounded by yes men. His wife really was wonderful and had him thinking he’s a much better human than he was.
Grief has many stages. Someone once told me it was like having a sharp rock in your pocket. Some day’s that rock pierces your skin with that horrible pain. Believe me I know. The good thing is we all have each other to get us through grief and pain.
I’m very glad you had 8th grade through high school as normal. I truly mean it. I had grades 10 and 11 in my life, but my life was nothing like yours. I had a different kind of hard. Yet I know how meaningful those years are and how God knew to give us a grace period. Love, your north Texas momma❤
Man Colby I give you credit because the way your mom was talking to you in those few conversations I think as her child I would’ve fallen for what she was saying. You have a strong resolve and with the strength of your family you will get through life and are already showing your strength in being an awesome husband and father. Much blessings to you and your family.
You are so amazing. Your strength and perspective are so admirable. I couldn't even imagine being in your shoes. Wishing you and your beautiful family all the healing in the world.❤
I’m glad you have RUclips to talk through these things. It helps to talk about trauma with other people if you can ignore any haters or weird people. And it helps other people esp those who have experienced trauma share in your journey.
You are unbelievably beautiful and strong. I hope you know how much you help people by sharing your thoughts and feelings about your life. I can’t imagine what you’ve been through and that you’re out here working through unimaginable pain while trying to help all of us deal with the feelings that a person truly exists out there that can do the unimaginable. Did the unimaginable to you and your siblings, her blood, the people you’re supposed to protect with your very life. You have amazing grace in life and the world is truly blessed with you in it. Thank you so much for just being you, sharing your life story and feelings with us.
20 years from now all this will still feel like yesterday the anger does subsides but the question why still remains. I was a victim of crime 1999. Ive grown so much. Bless you colby keep talking
I'm so glad that you could make something so horrible turned to good for you and your family. Immediate family. The losses in your life have been horrendous. Sending love and hugs.
I just wanted to tell you how proud I am of you for rising above all of this processing this in such an honest and open manner and sharing your truth. I can see it definitely made you the amazing man and father you are today. So proud of you Colby. I know it can’t be easy and even speaking with your mother. It’s must be so emotionally conflicting. I wanted to say I saw how manipulative your mother was in that former conversation trying to constantly act like you were her favorite and she had this unbreakable bond but she was in her manipulation to the soft side of your heart and I find that cruel to a young man. I want you to know I adopt you Colby as a mom and if you ever need to talk I’m here for you
I can not believe the NERVE of him to call after he murdered your family, and act as if you guys were gonna be buddies!? He's insane, and you don't deserve that.
@@kristinholcomb5817 you really do have the strength oh Jesus!! God bless you and your beautiful family. His voice is beyond creepy and evil. I can’t stand him! I’m so very sorry you lost your siblings and that this happened!!!
I thought he meant ruby's son😢
If anyone is a zombie, it’s Chad. His voice has no life or soul.
What I found questionable with Chad, which should have been flags to Lori is all her minor children were zombies yet non of Chads were. They were adults and did not stand in the way of the Chad Lori life. RIP JJ Tylee, Charles and Tammy 🙏
@@Violetta683 amen 🙏🏽. What a psychopath
@@Violetta683 very manipulative. He thought it would work, but Colby’s too smart for that bs.
Frankly, how dead Chad sounds, he reminds me of a lot of the men in Mormon leadership - you don't see a lot of life there, and certainly not love in their approach to people who don't fit into their narrow views. But Chad is as creepy as they get.
@ I wouldn’t judge or compare Mormon men to Chad. He has the voice of the devil. I’m not Mormon but I’ve heard a few Mormon men and non of them sound like Chad
Chad called you!! The man has no soul or conscience! Oh Colby so sorry sweetie!
Yes, seriously! I have tears in my eyes with just the thought of it all. Colby you deserve so much more than this drama. My heart hurts right for you
I'm sorry. it was probably one of the wisest decisions you've ever made not answering unknown numbers nor returning that call. who knows what more evil that Dumbell could have, maybe would have done to you. very frightening.
I know part of your ‘I’m sorry’ when you cry is an instinctive response but you truly owe zero apologies for your tears. Those tears represent the loss of four valuable, important and real human beings. Your tears are a beautiful tribute to the depth of your love & the breadth of your loss.
Narcissism at its finest. Colby your strength is beyond measure.
Just his tone of voice sends chills up my spine. I am so sorry this man touched any part of your life, let alone those most precious to you.
AMEN!!! Lord God, please take away the pain this man inflicted on his life!! Please bless Colby richly and give him back what the locusts have eaten. In Jesus’ name I pray. 🙏 ❤
I bet J J was extremely special I bet Tylee was awesome to be around.. The world lost great people
Unfortunately, this world is stuck with Chad still in it instead of JJ and Tylee. Heartbreaking
Chad’s voice has that stereotyped "prophet-speak" quality. Most, if not all, of the mainstream LDS/Mormon and offshoot Mormon "prophets" share that same flat, nasal intonation. It’s unsettling.
Right?
Even the “good guys “ have this unsettling flat, overly soft voice that lacks the normal peaks and valleys of speech with emotion. There’s really something about it.
Yes! The Warren Jeffs tone! It’s almost a singsong trance inducing hypnotism! Yechhhhh. 🤢
@@RobbieJayOne how much do you think he practiced to sound like this ??
@@RobbieJayOne not true!
Colby please take care of yourself. I hope sharing this is helping you heal. Just know we support you. Sending you and your family love and care
Further proof that Chad is detached from reality and remains unaccountable for his revolting behaviours and beliefs.
The world is lucky to still have you Colby 💛
Your vulnerability touches me. I was separated from my mother at 7 years old. I’ve yearned for her my entire life. I’m 48 years old now and after much professional therapy and self work, my heart is mended. However, there are days that i long for her and wish that she would have been a healthier and whole person for herself and for me. She’ll never be that person. I’ve come to believe that my longing for my mother and my acceptance of what will never be can both be real and true. It has brought me deep comfort.
Our stories are different, but I see many resemblances. I know that you hurt and your sorrow is deep. I am sorry for this, because I realize the sadness that comes with it. I also see a resilient and long suffering soul, and although that comes with wounds, one day those wounds will heal and they will be scars. we are strangers, but I am proud of you. Continue doing the work, showing up for yourself and your family. The love that your siblings have for you is still real. I have no doubt you are making them proud also. Much love!
Yeah most people don't go see a game with child killing psychos. That's a hard no Chad.
@MichelleDias
What a sweet message. Thank you for sharing. ❤
It’s inspiring and hopeful to hear you have healed, yet still have those normal human emotions.
I’m also trying to heal deep wounds, traumas, etc. and rise above. It is taking allot of therapy, work and time.
Gives me hope to keep going, that one day I’ll get there too 😊
The nerve of Chad is quite astonishing! It’s such a comfort to see you Colby grounded, living through the grief in a such a mature and open way. Wishing you and family a beautiful life x
Colby. Thank you for being so forthcoming. My heart feels for you, buddy.
What a creep he is
Sending hugs from Scotland 🏴 uk
😢I'm so sad you lost your family and at the same time, I'm glad you somehow were not sucked into the cult nor brainwashed. You are a true survivor. Your experience that you share here, being clear minded through all of this, is very unique and valuable.
Yes!!
Colby, let your emotions out! It's okay to get angry, upset, cry, cuss like a sailor, etc! You were very kind to say Peter Griffin was "creepy"... I had a few other words in mind. No way in H-E-double hockey sticks would I EVER be interested or even had a thought of dating a man with voice like his. I use the word "man" lightly.
YOU are a strong man! Little does your Mom know how truly loved you are. You have a bigger family than you could ever imagined! I'm so glad you are sharing YOUR story!
In total agreement, from another momma of Colby’s!! Love you, son!! And so PROUD OF you and pleased. PS You’re very handsome 😊
❤ sending love and prayers to Colby, wife, and kids.
52.52~ Is what I still can’t wrap my head around, the way Chads son in law spoke on the stand regarding the police officer going back to check on the house. He was so cold hearted about the officer and people who found them and where they were found. To me it was chilling and cold how he and Chads daughter reacted to that part of the case.
Colby, you have the strength of the Lord in you to endure what you've gone through, dear sweet boy. Thank God Chad never got his hooks in you. Keep up the good work!
All of us are happy that you feel comfortable venting to your new RUclips family.
I have a severely autistic family member , and it sounds as though when AJ was getting proper care, he had so much to offer! Thank you for letting people who aren’t aware that autism has many spectrums and differ greatly from one person to another. some people may not know, they’ve never been effected, and it’s so important that you pointed this out, Thank you Colby ❤️❤️❤️
JJ 🙏
@@wendysolem2372 Yes! And support needs are also fluctuating depending on so many factors. Even normally Level 1 autistics may have days or weeks or months or even years where they are functioning on Level 2 or Level 3 support needs. People don’t always understand these things. The spectrum is complex
My daughter is 7 and autistic. I happened to be cuddling with her and listening on my phone when the jury came back with the death penalty verdict for Chad. I held her so tight and just cried hard for JJ. 😢😢
I can't imagine rediscovering that forgotten voicemail. Take care of yourself and your family. We care about you.
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33:23 I just have such a bleeding heart for you. I hope you can feel the community of mamas loving you and wanting to ease your pain
Hugs!!! ❤💜🩷❤️💜🩷
Colby, I'm so sorry for the continued retramatization you're having to endure. I honestly don't know how you handle everything with such grace. I remember HOPING the kids were just hidden out in some Waco-esque compound, but feeling in my heart that they were no longer here. When everything unfolded, I was speechless. I have closely followed both trials so far and have to say that you have publicly handled yourself better than I think anyone could imagine. I can imagine, in private, it's a lot harder to keep yourself composed. I pray for you continued strength and healing as this next chapter unfolds. RIP Tylee and JJ and justice for Charles and Brandon. I sincerely hope your mom doesn't try dragging you in to the circus that will be this next trial.
I related so hard when you said "I forgot this voicemail even happened". In 2022, after I lost my mom, I turned to my husband and said: "Wow, isn't it weird how trauma always comes in three's for me? Like you getting diagnosed with cancer in 2020, mom dying and...." but I couldn't finish my sentence, because I was just blanking. So my husband said: "...and then your dad got diagnose with cancer 3 weeks after your mom. Did you really forget about that?"
I think that when the trauma hits you so hard you just forget the smaller traumas. It's a pretty weird feeling. But it's so real. I guess, in my mind, because my dad's cancer was treatable and he survived while I watched my mom slowly fade away, it was like it was nothing to my brain. I guess I was just at capacity 😅
Oh I am so sorry for your loss and your trauma 😢💔🇨🇦🇨🇦
@glennabartlett562 Thank you ❤️ Thankfully, now that it's not as raw and recent, I'm already feeling much better but it was pretty rough there for a while. My husband and father are also both in remission, thank God 🙏
Hi Colby.. You are so very strong. It’s a good thing you never were in touch with him. Once he saw how you feel and he couldn’t sway you, You would have been unsafe. stay strong. love your family.
You are so brave to speak about this experience because I think it helps so many people. As a hospice social worker I often deal with adult children who never actually see their parents as fallible. Sometimes its too late. I think the only way to break the trauma is facing it head on and accepting that you have surpassed your parents in emotional and spiritual maturity. Everyone has their own search to find the truth because everything i have gone through makes me question the reality of any organization of religion. For me, I had to move away from organized religion because I researched the Bible and its manipulation by men over thousand of years for their own purposes. I will never judge you for your decision to turn towards scripture to find strength but after my own research, I saw the inconsistency and innate misogyny and strive for power. The true teaching of Christ is love , charity and the strength to do what is right for you and your fellow neighbors. I believe we all have a purpose to fulfill on this earth set by a creator and your teaching and kind nature shows you as someone blessed with integrity and intellect. Stay strong . All my love.
Thank you! Organized religion was created and written by men who wanted control. Here is a beautiful soul, Colby - honest, loving, authentic as the day is long. His wisdom blows me away. And organized religion wants us to forfeit that in ourselves and follow what they teach instead. Young Colby is an amazing example of how to hold to what you know to be true, not what a crowd of manipulators is out to impose on you. Bless his heart.
Thanks for letting me share this part of your healing with you, blessings, 🌈💜🦜
I’m so thankful you are sharing your story. You make your siblings “real” and show how incredibly important your reality is to us that love you.
Colby, you are helping so many more people than you can imagine.
And the way you describe the moment you realized what really happened is pivotal. Thank you
Kolby, this is heartbreaking. You are so very brave. I hope you feel our support.
I hope you, Kelsie and your little family, have a lovely Christmas together. Cling on to that happiness xxx
Colby I just can’t even imagine what you have been through. That hug you felt how incredible. Good to think it was Tylee giving you strength telling you she’s ok and is there for you
I’m so glad you have discovered that your channel is helpful to you in processing your grief. You are an incredible young man, and I feel honored to be part of your support group. Merry Christmas!
Every new thing I learn about those two, I think, "this is beyond the pale." And then the next thing comes up.
Hold strong, Colby!
It sucks that they edited you and the things that were really important to you. In spite of that, speaking as a complete stranger, your character shines through that documentary. Whatever they did or didn’t show, I really believe that it shows what kind of person you are and the love you have for you family. That’s a credit to you not Netflix. You were strong enough that you shined through their editing.
This was creepy. I can't even😥
Yo that's wild. God bless you and your family Colby!
Also, I don't know how you have the good head on your shoulders that you do.
Honey I’m afraid Chad may have wanted to use you for a purpose then get rid of you. I’m so sorry to say that but I wouldn’t have considered you safe near him after knowing what he did to your other family members. My Mama Bear instincts kick in when it comes to you. When I see you I see a genuine, honest, caring young man with love in his heart. I hope you can feel the love sent your way and all the prayers made. God bless you and your lil family. 🙏🥰💕
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Colby please don't apologize for your emotions. I'm sure that hug was Tylee and JJ letting you know they were with you. I can only imagine dealing with the media felt like they were picking you apart when you are already raw. I can't fathom how you even begin to process all of this.
When you described a situation where there was a before and after of your life, that resonated for me. I realized I have had a moment like that too. It changes you.
I’m left so proud of you for reflecting back on all this and seeing your mom for who she IS and not who she portrayed herself to be. Much love to you and Kelsee ❤
Sending a mama virtual hug.I hope you feel lots of love and support.
From me, too!!
Colby.....
You don't deserve this devastation, and neither did your siblings.
So much love your way. Have a good Christmas with your family.
❤💚❤💚❤ Yes, Merry Christmas to you and your beloved family. ✝️💚🌲
I started watching the true crime shows before knowing anything about how it all ended. It’s a trip that the trials hadn’t happened yet, so it was like watching it in real time.
Hearing about Tylee and JJ being missing and then finding their remains was so disturbing, it broke me. How a mother can do or even let someone else do what was done to those beautiful souls is beyond comprehension.
You are so strong to be able to put yourself out there and talking about it all is very inspiring.
The autism talk was so crazy, my daughter is on the spectrum, it was tagged as Asperger’s syndrome before they created the larger umbrella of ASD, since there are so many different types plus different levels. My daughter is high-functioning, but as she has grown it has morphed.
Thank you for being your authentic self and not trying to sugar coat any of it.
Hi Colby, I'm so sorry for everything you have to go through, but you have to stand strong and remember, the WONDER of all this is, we know WHO'S in control, and that is to me the biggest MIRACLE of life and I'm 75 yrs old. The calmness is the devil's snare for those around them.....a lie!! Stand strong for your small family❤
Colby it's like you lived the weight of thousands lifes and at such a young age.Thank God for the family you have created ❤
What a creep. I am so sorry that you have been going thru all of this mess that Chad & your Mom created. God bless you and your family.
Colby, you are more supported than what you may realize. I don’t think you should ever apologize for loving your siblings so deeply and being disappointed in you egg-donor. You are a shining example of owning how you feel and allow yourself to grieve your way. I just hope that talking through this and sharing your story helps you. When it doesn’t, we also support you.
i really hope sharing your story is helping bring you some peace. you’ve been through so much you deserve it. i’m so sorry for your loss and the things you’re forced to continue to endure. all of us internet strangers are here to support you. i can’t imagine stumbling on this voicemails years later knowing what you know now
Making your life a success means you win over them. Don’t give up don’t give in otherwise they win. Keep strong Colby
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Hello Colby.
As someone who, as a child, was manipulated to believe certain things happened, only to find out 30+ years later they didn't, it was all smoke and mirrors, (I know this isn't the case for everyone) I was just wondering if you've explored your very younger years with your therapist, and if you haven't, I very much advise it. Bless you and your family, may you always be surrounded by love, truth and happiness.
Unbelievable! Your strength is very admirable 💔
The documentary was helpful to have your heart in it rather than only what we got from the news. So sorry for your losses! God bless you and your family!!!
Colby, Kelsie, and kiddos, we have you wrapped in our virtual hugs. Every painful step leads you to freedom of knowing the truth and letting others help carry this hurden with you. I am deeply touched by your honesty. Heartfelt strength to you and yours.❤❤
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P.S. My youngest is 20yrs old, autistic, with SPD, and learning disabilities. He is one of a kind. I feel you deeply, when people think they can explain who he is. Tell them to buy a vowel and get a clue. 🤣 ❤️
Colby I wish healing for you ❤
I am so blown away at how strong you are. I’m so glad to see you are healing and slowly being able to sort all of these things out. It’s really cool that you can talk about it. Sending so much love and prayers.
My prayers are always with you & yours. 🫶🏼🙏🏽
I’m so glad you found out you’re Texan!!! Hold your head up high,son! We are good people!! I’ll claim you any day and all day. ❤ 🤗 Proud of you! ❤
I’m glad you can talk about these things and explain your version in of the story. The part where you felt a physical hug from behind… That’s the tangible love of Jesus! He is with you through all of this. In the hardest moments of life is when you feel Him the most real. Never lose faith in the Lord! He loves you so much.
Oh Cody, I hope this is helping you to talk through it. We are here to listen. Been following this horrific event for years and I pray for peace in your heart. I’m so sorry you had to go through this.
So much compassion for you. I'm so sorry this happened.
Oh Colby I feel the Lord is using you to show the real truth. Please PLEASE don’t apologize for getting emotional. I truly appreciate your transparency. ❤
Thank you for sharing ❤
Thank you for sharing your heart with us Colby. We hold it dearly. ❤
I'm a mom of three grown sons and it breaks my heart to watch you go through all that you have experienced. The media has proved once again, they can't be trusted. I am grateful that you have a platform to tell the truth. To portray JJ so disrespectfully is unforgivable. Thank you for being strong enough to tell the truth. I know it wasn't easy. God bless you and your wife and children. When you got the news about your brother and sister being found, those were Jesus's arms around you. He will always be there for you. Blessings ❤
Explaining your journey through all of this nightmare to us is exceptional. God Bless you so much with all the pain you carry 🙏❤️🙏🇳🇿🇳🇿
It is honestly unbelievable. You are in my prayers.
I can’t get over that low life calling you Colby!! God bless you, you have been through so much. You’re in my prayers every day, you Kelsey and your beautiful family!! We appreciate you ❤!!
Betrayal at its finest. I'm so sorry for all of your losses😔
Love you, Colby. You never need to apologize for not reading the chats. We are here to hear your story. This was a big one. I’m glad you stayed focused on what you needed to share. There will be plenty of opportunities for us to share here but for now, it’s your turn. Sending hugs to you and your amazing wife.
So sorry Colby it's horrible. Stay strong. Good to see you ❤️
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Be strong keep it on being strong 💪 we love you all around the world!❤
Colby just know how loved you and your sweet family are! 🙏🏼❤️
I don’t even know how you are dealing with everything that has happened to you and your family 💔 you are in our thoughts 🙏🏻
Chad wanting to talk Chiefs after your mom arrested? So beyond unhindged!! You came out the other side Colby! Not something anyone can go through.
Thank you for giving us a part of your heart. Your true love for Jesus is a blessing.
OMG, my heart hurts for you. Get it out were here and never be ashamed or sorry for your feelings. It's horrific what happened to you, especially. Holding back does nothing but delay. ❤🙏Merry Christmas to you and the family.
Thank you. Watching from Alaska. 🤔
Finally catching up to your presentation.
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Hi Colby, I’ve been following this story for the last two and a half years because of my son attending school in Idaho. I can’t imagine the pain and suffering and utter sorrow you’re going through. Thank you so much for sharing your authentic self and setting straight the
media misinformation. I’m glad to have found your channel and walk through this journey with you. I unfortunately have not seen the documentary because I was afraid to. I may go back and watch it now that I’ve heard your real story and see what you went through. Although watching your reactions and hearing your depictions of the situation is very helpful to know how television (media) can detract from the emotion, the reality and make it fit their narrative which may not be exactly what you experienced. Thank you for sharing and for the clarification. You are brave, strong and loved. I love you and watching your videos.
For Chad to call as if he was a friend. This call was after Lori had been arrested talking about personal things that he had no right to know. Before Tylee and JJ had been found at his property. The audacity is unmatched.
For real. Chad had this gross formula of watching someone and trying to hone in on what he’d think they’d want to hear? It might have worked on vacant women. He was surrounded by yes men. His wife really was wonderful and had him thinking he’s a much better human than he was.
God Bless you…you should write a book!
Grief has many stages. Someone once told me it was like having a sharp rock in your pocket. Some day’s that rock pierces your skin with that horrible pain. Believe me I know. The good thing is we all have each other to get us through grief and pain.
I’m very glad you had 8th grade through high school as normal. I truly mean it. I had grades 10 and 11 in my life, but my life was nothing like yours. I had a different kind of hard. Yet I know how meaningful those years are and how God knew to give us a grace period.
Love, your north Texas momma❤
Woah…..that is inSANE
It’s so hard for me to comprehend that something like this has happened
You've been through so much and survived! I am so inspired and proud of you!
Man Colby I give you credit because the way your mom was talking to you in those few conversations I think as her child I would’ve fallen for what she was saying. You have a strong resolve and with the strength of your family you will get through life and are already showing your strength in being an awesome husband and father. Much blessings to you and your family.
You are so amazing. Your strength and perspective are so admirable. I couldn't even imagine being in your shoes. Wishing you and your beautiful family all the healing in the world.❤
Oh my goodness 😮
It's a nightmare.
I feel you @Colby!! He is gross! It’s amazing how you have grown through all of this. 💙❤️
I hope talking through this nightmare helps you work through it. I admire your strength and pray for your continued healing.
I’m glad you have RUclips to talk through these things. It helps to talk about trauma with other people if you can ignore any haters or weird people. And it helps other people esp those who have experienced trauma share in your journey.
You are unbelievably beautiful and strong. I hope you know how much you help people by sharing your thoughts and feelings about your life. I can’t imagine what you’ve been through and that you’re out here working through unimaginable pain while trying to help all of us deal with the feelings that a person truly exists out there that can do the unimaginable. Did the unimaginable to you and your siblings, her blood, the people you’re supposed to protect with your very life. You have amazing grace in life and the world is truly blessed with you in it. Thank you so much for just being you, sharing your life story and feelings with us.
You are so amazing the way you manage all this. Credit to you Coby. Stay strong and know you will never be alone.
20 years from now all this will still feel like yesterday the anger does subsides but the question why still remains. I was a victim of crime 1999. Ive grown so much. Bless you colby keep talking
Just looking at him creeps me out, and the way he sounds makes my skin crawl. You’ve grown so much since all this, stay strong and healthy ❤
I'm so glad that you could make something so horrible turned to good for you and your family. Immediate family. The losses in your life have been horrendous. Sending love and hugs.
I just wanted to tell you how proud I am of you for rising above all of this processing this in such an honest and open manner and sharing your truth. I can see it definitely made you the amazing man and father you are today. So proud of you Colby. I know it can’t be easy and even speaking with your mother. It’s must be so emotionally conflicting. I wanted to say I saw how manipulative your mother was in that former conversation trying to constantly act like you were her favorite and she had this unbreakable bond but she was in her manipulation to the soft side of your heart and I find that cruel to a young man. I want you to know I adopt you Colby as a mom and if you ever need to talk I’m here for you