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  • Опубликовано: 6 июн 2018
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Комментарии • 11 тыс.

  • @alex.charles2
    @alex.charles2 3 года назад +2424

    "The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked" . That fucking hit man

    • @zachw4480
      @zachw4480 3 года назад +13

      Deep, my friend

    • @chanihahner615
      @chanihahner615 3 года назад +6

      @Brannon Williams OMG 😢How are you now? Definitely a hard hit to your soul.

    • @evalove1994
      @evalove1994 3 года назад +12

      @Brannon Williams I’m hoping everything is going good for you now. It’s not easy to be brave to stay alive, but you were given a second chance and one can only hope you have the strength now to keep fighting ❤️

    • @Anonymous_Music
      @Anonymous_Music 3 года назад +27

      Dude
      The whole fucking song hit. especially when its relatable, listening to the lyrics hit like a truck.

    • @ifupmpubrokepmp3574
      @ifupmpubrokepmp3574 3 года назад +1

      FACTS

  • @aestheticaudios
    @aestheticaudios 4 года назад +1494

    “maybe I’m alive cause I didn’t really wanna’ die..” it’s been almost two years since my battle and I still relate to this...

    • @TheZacdes
      @TheZacdes 3 года назад +14

      No matter how dark the night, the sun always comes up. Dont waste your short time here:)

    • @hippyjade867
      @hippyjade867 3 года назад +5

      ❤️so glad you’re still here

    • @cainholcomb7035
      @cainholcomb7035 3 года назад +9

      Keep fighting, you’re important ❤️

    • @tjboylan20
      @tjboylan20 3 года назад +5

      shane brady that reminds me of the Shinedown quote from The Sound of Madness “ the darkest hours never come in the night “

    • @cadunkus
      @cadunkus 3 года назад +4

      "You may say you don't want to live, but when tossed in the ocean, you struggle for the surface."

  • @pjweb3n
    @pjweb3n 2 года назад +1151

    "I am afraid that all the blood escaping me won't end the pain and I'll be haunting all the lives that care for me" is basically what keeps me around.

    • @Lovejoyrat2
      @Lovejoyrat2 Год назад +10

      Same.

    • @donaldhitman6724
      @donaldhitman6724 Год назад +15

      In the old days we were taught to cope with trauma and knew life wasn't fair. I believe it's the idea that bad wasn't ment to happen and is only bad. Some things nobody should experience but the rest are how we become our best selves. If I'd been born these days I'd have green hair and cut my thing off for sure cause I pushed the limits back than but in time I learned to handle things and to not ever expect anyone to care more about me than me. Hope you feel better cause feelings can't be controlled really. Those without are so lucky but also the problem the rest of us struggle with. Your worthy and someone's favorite person no matter who you are.

    • @onlyonejupiter
      @onlyonejupiter Год назад

      @@donaldhitman6724 exactly!! Please watch What is a Woman! and also watch anything about Mind control.... we are under a group of evil people who want us sick and hurting!

    • @Kai83105
      @Kai83105 Год назад +10

      I'm glad your still around🤘

    • @carlaseals2368
      @carlaseals2368 Год назад +3

      I feel this completely!

  • @chloemcclain8900
    @chloemcclain8900 2 года назад +321

    The lyric, "This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one", hits me so hard

  • @witchybizz
    @witchybizz 4 года назад +1211

    Waited there forever and no one even looked up. This line hits a nerve with me.

    • @heygirl6386
      @heygirl6386 4 года назад +2

      me tio

    • @THE_starwalk
      @THE_starwalk 4 года назад +7

      We see you brother.

    • @rnk0716
      @rnk0716 4 года назад +1

      Your comment sounds like you are an attention hound he is just sing a song I doubt he actually tried to kill himself he is just trying to make a statement about the way the world is going

    • @adriantheambulance591
      @adriantheambulance591 4 года назад +48

      @@rnk0716 Shut the fuck up. You probably don't understand what it's like to feel the pain of suicide, and how hard those couple of words hit you when you hear them. They are fucking soul-crushing. They hurt. Now get the fuck off of the internet. We don't need people like you making everybody's lives harder and more painful. Go fuck yourself while you're at it.

    • @stephaniesmith970
      @stephaniesmith970 4 года назад +2

      Yes. Bc so sad but true.

  • @sharkyclawfang7837
    @sharkyclawfang7837 4 года назад +9048

    Some people say that lyrics about suicide encourage those feelings. For me, it made me feel like I wasn't alone and the struggle I was going through was valid. This song honestly helped me a lot. Suicide is a huge problem that needs to be talked about. It's only a problem when shows like the one that lists 13 reasons why suicide is a good idea capitalize off of glorifying the act for drama. To whoever's reading this, you're not alone, people care about you and there is a light at the end of the tunnel; depression is just a cloth over your eyes that keeps you from seeing it.

    • @berrygyrl4134
      @berrygyrl4134 4 года назад +75

      Friend i could not agree more!!

    • @SunDiegoRockStar
      @SunDiegoRockStar 4 года назад +102

      Exactly, people that say that probably aren't depressed.Fight fire with fire, a sad song is a great way for the artist to vent or help others and for the audience to relate.

    • @ronaldhagadorn5512
      @ronaldhagadorn5512 4 года назад +29

      That's the problem! Avoid stuff! My father beat me, suicide looked good. I supported him to the age of 38! What a weak geek! He said he would kill my mother an sister if I left! He died 17 years ago! Terrible thing it is that u are glad your fathers dead! But I have been free for the past 17 years! My point is don't give up! That's why I am still alive!

    • @mindfullofficial2525
      @mindfullofficial2525 4 года назад +95

      When he sang "I had nothing to write about" I knew I wasn't alone. Someone else understands what it's like having everything on your mind but nothing to say. Please pull through. Maybe you don't believe this but I want you to know Jesus loves you. You're not alone and I hope everything turns out good for you.

    • @barbaramcmillan2275
      @barbaramcmillan2275 4 года назад +43

      Ghost helps with coping..they saved many a people...

  • @jaimep3170
    @jaimep3170 Год назад +162

    My son took his life 3/29/21. He wrote out 4 lines from this song to me 10 months before that. This is "his song" when I hear it.
    "I should have told my mom, mom I love you like a good son, but this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one"

    • @rayge
      @rayge 10 месяцев назад +12

      Unfortunately, I've felt that way since I was 7 and I've tried more times than I can count. I'll be 51 this year. I'm so sorry for your loss.

    • @whereiskoonkoonnow5888
      @whereiskoonkoonnow5888 9 месяцев назад +3

      I am so sorry for you loss. I instantly started crying after I read your comment. I cannot imagine what you are going through and I will pray that you find peace, or some facsimile

    • @Elliott2632
      @Elliott2632 7 месяцев назад +3

      I'm sorry for your loss! Can't imagine losing a child. That same line hits me hard. My mother was dying from cancer in Michigan and my dad who lived near me in Florida passed suddenly of liver failure. Wish I could have been there for my mom. She was 61 and my dad was 60. If it wasn't for my brother I would have taken my life by now. I was 26 when my parents passed and almost lost my brother to fentanyl 6 weeks later. Truly I'm sorry for the loss of your son!

    • @darkwitchhecate1347
      @darkwitchhecate1347 4 месяца назад +1

      I'm so so sorry for your loss, my heart aches for you, I too have a son with the Angels ❤

    • @SloshJomba698
      @SloshJomba698 3 месяца назад

      sorry to hear that. it's tough, some times things just happen so fast and its been hard enough to just live on your own, it becomes easy to overlook subtle hints. only after when things fully set in do the signs become clearer sadly

  • @royalxjade6064
    @royalxjade6064 Год назад +166

    Knew him back in kindergarten/early elementary. So excited to see him and his band are having such success!!

    • @beezybeez4207
      @beezybeez4207 Год назад +3

      this is so good but you must hear “Whispering Wolf” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🐺 🎹

    • @campblood
      @campblood 9 месяцев назад +3

      quit lying!

  • @Fitjazpooh
    @Fitjazpooh 3 года назад +1709

    "Nothing very special ever happens in my life" and "This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one". I feel both those lyrics with every fiber of my being

  • @kennydemartini2169
    @kennydemartini2169 2 года назад +1069

    I lost my beautiful teenage son to suicide. I was driving to the cemetery this morning to visit him, something I do a few times a day, when this song came on the radio. I have never heard this song before, but it hit home with me... I didn't get a letter, all I got was unanswered questions, a broken heart, and a shattered life that will never be the same. I will never heal or understand why this happened. I had no hints, I had no clue. I woke up to find that my son had decided he was ready for his next life. A day I will never forget... If anybody ever needs to reach out, do it. You do matter to several people. Please reach out!

    • @angiechaney6240
      @angiechaney6240 2 года назад +28

      I'm so sorry for your loss and pain. 😞

    • @nikkistowell1679
      @nikkistowell1679 2 года назад +37

      fuck, i’m so sorry. so very sorry. i hope you can find some semblance of peace and healing.
      so much love to you.

    • @joeelder4385
      @joeelder4385 2 года назад +23

      That has to be the worst thing possible 😢. I pray that God will touch you deep inside and ease your pain. And give you some answers that will help you deal with it and a deep wisdom that will rise from inside you.

    • @kennydemartini2169
      @kennydemartini2169 2 года назад +24

      @@joeelder4385 Thank you. It is the worst. No parent should have to bury their child.

    • @Kris-yi6fm
      @Kris-yi6fm 2 года назад +6

      I really feel for you.

  • @JBeeship
    @JBeeship 2 года назад +339

    "I should have told my mother that I loved her, I'm a bad son."
    It just hits like lightning into my soul.

    • @durn7dp
      @durn7dp 2 года назад +7

      I know what you mean

    • @Lilmgksavage
      @Lilmgksavage 2 года назад +3

      Never past decisions don’t make u. Regrets are just learning experiences to show us to love harder and more truer. Love from MGK

    • @Zudvryxh_
      @Zudvryxh_ 2 года назад +4

      i could say it, but i know they dont think it back

    • @unsub5047
      @unsub5047 Год назад +5

      The only reason I'm still here.

    • @Thegingerbreadm4n
      @Thegingerbreadm4n Год назад +2

      "I should've loved you like a good son

  • @PaulKMF1
    @PaulKMF1 Месяц назад +7

    Every line of this song is genius.

  • @jasmin2847
    @jasmin2847 5 лет назад +541

    The last line... makes me cry.
    “This life is overwhelming and I’m ready for the next one”

    • @memillionthdoot4436
      @memillionthdoot4436 5 лет назад +14

      Imagining there is a next life with different possibilities is what kept me from ending it. Takes the pressure off of yourself, because so many believe they only have one shot at being happy. I guess the imagined idea of there being other worlds just keeps my mind in wonder more than angst. Of course, others will have different reasons to live, but mine is just weird, and I can accept that.

    • @atlasorion
      @atlasorion 5 лет назад +14

      There's a line from an A Perfect Circle that you should connote with this song as well, then. "What's your rush now, everyone will have his day to die"

    • @relandmcclure1038
      @relandmcclure1038 5 лет назад +1

      jasmin2847 yeah.......I so relate to it!

    • @relandmcclure1038
      @relandmcclure1038 5 лет назад

      memillionthdoot interesting reason! You’re right that everyone has different reasons whether it’s longing for death & surviving this life & healing from past traumas. I used to think I was too chicken to kill myself......the love for my boys kept me here. Then two years later I lost one of them. It’s been a rough journey though the pain.

    • @relandmcclure1038
      @relandmcclure1038 5 лет назад

      Johnny Bobcat excellent band!

  • @cdguitar
    @cdguitar 5 лет назад +2017

    Wow, I am an older rock guy who doesn't really like new music (get off my lawn) but I heard this on the radio and I was blown away. Fucking incredible song.

  • @julia.carr1129
    @julia.carr1129 Год назад +165

    this song explains exactly how i felt when i attempted. my dad cut me down and sat with me in the hospital asking me to explain when i couldnt speak yet. thats when i wrote my letter. first time i ever saw him cry and those tears are the only reason i stayed long enough to have my daughter. i wish i knew this song then

    • @aleenamarie9274
      @aleenamarie9274 Год назад +4

      This one made me cry in class.

    • @julia.carr1129
      @julia.carr1129 Год назад +18

      @@aleenamarie9274 good news though. it got so much better for me. now im getting married in April to a man who sits with me in the dark when i cant find the light even when he doesnt understand, im pregnant with another little girl due in 3 weeks,my first is about to start school, i graduated with valedictory honors, i just bought a new car, and i moved away from the place that destroyed me as a child. it does get better and im more thankful than ive ever been that i was found in time. it took years of hard work but living was the bravest thing i ever did. so if you relate to this song, just know that it wont get better all at once. the biggest likelyhood is that you wont even notice it getting better as its happening. but a day will come where you wake up and look back and feel a sense of "its going to be ok". life has a way of working itself out, even when you think it wont or you dont see a path. keep breathing and the life that youll be living one day will make the hyperventilating you do now absolutely worth it. ❤

    • @lynnmartiens5754
      @lynnmartiens5754 Год назад +2

      @@julia.carr1129 I never struggled with this thought. I did lose 2 good friends tho. I must say you are the bravest person! Your words are coming from the heart. I admire you

    • @julia.carr1129
      @julia.carr1129 Год назад +1

      @@lynnmartiens5754 im so sorry for your loss. and thank you!

    • @cleobinx
      @cleobinx Год назад +4

      I don’t know you, but I’m so glad you here

  • @screamingdawg1437
    @screamingdawg1437 2 года назад +48

    "This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one" , "the cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked" - these fucking hit home

  • @timothydaly8161
    @timothydaly8161 4 года назад +3102

    I remember when I first heard this song I had to pull over because I burst into tears. If you struggle with depression like I do just know that you are not alone. It gets better I promise.

    • @stephaniecardenas1096
      @stephaniecardenas1096 4 года назад +32

      Timothy Daly happens to me all the time this song hits a piece of my core I can’t explain

    • @joaquinbaca7963
      @joaquinbaca7963 4 года назад +24

      I've struggled with suicidal thoughts and tendencies for years and even now I'm in a good place I have a beautiful pregnant girlfriend who loves me and an amazing mom and sister and her boyfriend is amazing too so are his kids just don't want them to find me dead in the bathroom

    • @Spartan_Kounty
      @Spartan_Kounty 4 года назад +13

      When??

    • @shawnaldrich7868
      @shawnaldrich7868 4 года назад +10

      it gets better ive had that gun to my head many times it wasnt until i sobered up till i recognized how precious and short this life really is i have severe panic attacks whenever i pass a cemetary or funeral today i am scared to die im not ready to meet my maker

    • @joolzprovost2057
      @joolzprovost2057 4 года назад +1

      Sure it does...

  • @krystalmarracco1514
    @krystalmarracco1514 4 месяца назад +21

    This song helped me through a hard ass time..... I'm forever a fan. You saved me.... Michigan

    • @beezybeez4207
      @beezybeez4207 4 месяца назад

      This is so good but you must hear “The Wave” or “Whispering Wolf” by SLT 🤘🤘🤘

    • @suecouture9237
      @suecouture9237 4 месяца назад

      I’m in Michigan too. We should meet up for a meal sometime. New friends are always good and I’m not a weirdo just saying

  • @jessicajanssen4957
    @jessicajanssen4957 Год назад +25

    To my younger self,
    I'm glad you were strong. I know things were so hard. You are so strong now and so happy. Thank you for hanging on. The pain goes away, I promise. Keep going. Keep going! ❤

    • @beezybeez7231
      @beezybeez7231 11 месяцев назад

      This is so good but you must hear “ The Wave Acoustic” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎹🎧🔥🎸

    • @dalan3563
      @dalan3563 9 месяцев назад

      This is the comment I never knew I needed to read❤

    • @McSwiggleGigger9711_6
      @McSwiggleGigger9711_6 5 месяцев назад

      there is no 20 years for me, only hate.

  • @rhondaharrison2764
    @rhondaharrison2764 3 года назад +821

    I lost my son to suicide 7 years ago. He was almost 29 years old. I didnt know he was so depressed. It still hurts so much. I just heard this song today and thought I would cry. But I didnt. For some reason it makes me understand more that he just didnt want to be here anymore. I love and miss you Brandon. SO MUCH.

    • @musaa.7973
      @musaa.7973 3 года назад +17

      ur gonna meet him again, stay strong

    • @rhondaharrison2764
      @rhondaharrison2764 3 года назад +32

      Its today that I lost him, now 8 years ago. Thank you so much. I needed this comment.

    • @musaa.7973
      @musaa.7973 3 года назад +14

      @@rhondaharrison2764 Wow im speechless. I found this song suddenly and just got a urge to scroll the comments and reply to you.
      It being the same time as your sons day of passing is crazy. I truely believe it is a sign from your son. This life we live, has its share of joy, sadness, frustration and every possible range of emotion a human can feel. It is easy to get overwhelmed with pain. But I know once its our time to move on, we will be reunited with our loved ones.
      Your son is watching down on you with pride, keep living and make the most of the time we have left. One day its all going to make sense for all of us.

    • @rhondaharrison2764
      @rhondaharrison2764 3 года назад +8

      I thought the same thing, I also heard this song on my way to work that day. Thank you for your comforting words..

    • @marypruitt444
      @marypruitt444 3 года назад +6

      I'm so sorry for your loss. 😞

  • @marcohavokkhaos
    @marcohavokkhaos 5 лет назад +4605

    Now the band Ghost needs to release a song called Badflower.

    • @beachgirl4583
      @beachgirl4583 5 лет назад +133

      Marco Havok,
      Lol, I heard this on the radio today for the first time. The text thing said “Ghost” and “Badflower” and I thought it was a new Ghost song (with a better singer). This song rocks, though. Ghost is pretty lame.

    • @philemonpersona5226
      @philemonpersona5226 5 лет назад +35

      I thought the same thing @Beach Girl. Ghost is lame tho

    • @Thecheems6883
      @Thecheems6883 5 лет назад +1

      Lol

    • @corinnathompson6121
      @corinnathompson6121 5 лет назад +3

      Yes!!!

    • @toeboyable
      @toeboyable 5 лет назад +11

      (Cutting) gives me perspective on how close I was!! 6yrs down? Fucken have to forgive yourself! I love myself, do you?

  • @samanthadechand1689
    @samanthadechand1689 11 месяцев назад +8

    "the cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked". Felt that

    • @FAFO1983
      @FAFO1983 10 месяцев назад

      There are a few lines from this song they're too Heavy Hitters. That's definitely one of them.

  • @brandybruce6780
    @brandybruce6780 Год назад +35

    My son is the reason I breathe every day. He is now 21. Thank you for this song. It has kept me alive. 💜

    • @marychapman7295
      @marychapman7295 Год назад +1

      My son will be 5 in April and I 100% agree. No matter the pain I’m here for him to make sure he never feels that pain. He is my angel

    • @beezybeez5971
      @beezybeez5971 Год назад +1

      So good but you must hear “Live Not Survive” or “Whispering Wolf” by SLT 🤘🔥🐺

    • @justanaveragejess86
      @justanaveragejess86 9 месяцев назад

      ​@marychapman7295 Coming from a woman who can't have kids its very nice to hear a mother talk like that about their child. I become enraged when I hear people complain or they lose their kids to CPS and dont even try to get them back..because people don't know how lucky they are to have children. Good on you mom ❤

    • @Dragox-mh8fb
      @Dragox-mh8fb 8 месяцев назад

      Could u buy me a phone for gaming...I'm really sad without one

    • @justanaveragejess86
      @justanaveragejess86 8 месяцев назад

      @@Dragox-mh8fb Wtf?

  • @kristif5063
    @kristif5063 6 лет назад +6024

    This song has really hit home for me. My husband and I lost or daughter to suicide 7 months ago. Everyday I sit and think about my baby girl. I think about the last month of her life. What did I miss? Was she trying to tell me something and I just didn't listen. Did something happen and I didn't pay attention. Did I not talk to her enough...hug her enough? Laugh with her enough? Question get aboutwhat was happening I her life enough? Show her I care enough...love her enough?!!! I go crazy thinking about what I did to make her want to leave. She said good night and I love you too...went up to bed and was gone the next morning. No note no words of the pain my baby was obviously feeling.
    This song is the closest thing to What I imagine my daughter was feeling.
    It acc scares the shit out of me to think about how many kids and adults feel like they have no hope. That ending that beautiful life is the only way to make the pain go away. Most mornings I can barely get out of bed. I have no more tears left. My husband children and I hurt so bad and miss Krystine so much but we go on. For her and each other. I know I'm going on when everyone is just trying to listen to a song. Most won't careabout my story but I beg that if one person is reading this and thinking about taking their life just know that it does get better and there are people who love and care for you and can't imagine life without you in it. You can get help even if you have to scream at the top of your lungs to get someoneto listen. I'm a mother who lost her child. I would trade my life for hers in a second but I can't. I'm left here with the pain and questions. Please don't leave your mom or dad or family with that pain. Ask for help.

    • @camhoward5147
      @camhoward5147 6 лет назад +264

      My brother committed suicide 7 years ago and there's literally not a single day that goes by without hearing about him or thinking about him. My heart goes out to you and your husband. The process of recovery is long and hard, and you're likely to be without anwsers for the rest of your life wondering what could have been done to stop this. Sometimes you don't get answers. I'm incredibly sorry for your loss. Having been to the point of self-harm myself when I was much younger, ive only come to realize that suicide is the most devastating way to lose someone. You're not alone in this. You've got my heart right now and I know you'll make it through this.

    • @alfaivre2990
      @alfaivre2990 5 лет назад +137

      I'm so sorry for y'alls loss, from the bottom of my heart

    • @mattrider822
      @mattrider822 5 лет назад +69

      God Bless Your Daughter! My prayers and heart are with you and your husband and family during this very rough period! God Bless All of You!

    • @johnathantietz9470
      @johnathantietz9470 5 лет назад +83

      Im sorry for your loss i cant imagine the real pain you feel but i felt the emotion in your words

    • @jamesskates19911
      @jamesskates19911 5 лет назад +84

      Kristi Fy my sister committed suicide in 2011 and its haunted every part of me every memory of her that I've ever had has been replaced by seeing her there lifeless and gone I'd trade with her in an instant I think about taking my life almost every single day the only reason I'm still here now are my two daughters if not for them I would've self destructed long ago

  • @queerrobin9931
    @queerrobin9931 3 года назад +432

    "Maybe i'm alive cause i didn't really wanna die" gives me goosebumps every single time...

    • @gkmankowal2542
      @gkmankowal2542 3 года назад +7

      Thought about my friends and the way I didn’t give enough gets me

    • @queerrobin9931
      @queerrobin9931 2 года назад +5

      @@lordhelmit1499 my guyyyy I don't even know you and I care. I know that probably doesn't mean anything to you (and honestly i'd understand that) but i really hope you'll get better and find something worth staying alive for idk also if somehow possible pls get help and if you already got a therapist or something and they don't help try getting a new one if possible (talking from experience there, getting kicked out by your therapist ain't fun yikes xD)

    • @RutabegaNG
      @RutabegaNG 2 года назад +1

      Yep. I've said those words to myself too many times.

    • @alih7541
      @alih7541 2 года назад

      FRRR

    • @josephlafolette
      @josephlafolette 2 года назад +1

      Its how it is at least for me. And I'd like to think that its that way for most others too. Its not that you want to die, you just want the pressure to stop. The expectations, the disappointment, the pain no matter how large or small. Its just the desire to escape the pressure, but not knowing how to accomplish that. Everyone has their escapes but unfortunately some times your escapes end up losing their intended effect. But to those of you that stay and push through, I'm proud of each and every one of you.

  • @DreyNova
    @DreyNova 2 года назад +167

    Your music helped save my life, Badflower. I'm only 13 and I'm glad I lived to be a teenager. I'm going to your concert on Wednesday 4/27/22
    Thank you so much

    • @DreyNova
      @DreyNova 2 года назад +8

      It was awesome

    • @jacobmaslin5481
      @jacobmaslin5481 2 года назад +7

      13? Listen kid I'm 40. I've been dealing with the bummers since I was like 8! So what? Move forward dude. You should check out the song just wait by blues traveler

    • @alexisalvarez9629
      @alexisalvarez9629 2 года назад +7

      Hey that's awesome keep holding on to the music it's what makes life life worth it in some cases. Hope you have fun

    • @nikkistowell1679
      @nikkistowell1679 2 года назад +6

      hang in there, kiddo. it gets better. you’re gonna be okay. stick around for us, please. you’re important.

    • @avrplayer69
      @avrplayer69 2 года назад +3

      @@jacobmaslin5481 I feel bad for you I go through it to bro

  • @dejaiddings2443
    @dejaiddings2443 Год назад +46

    Songs like these are proof that EVERYONE struggles, gets depressed, etc. Depression isn't picky, it'll catch anyone it can. Musicians that write songs, such as this amazing song, are beyond brave and honest for writing lyrics about their struggles, suicidal thoughts, etc. This song truly does hit home for me. In a way it's nice to know that even some of my favorite musicians relate to how I feel, but sad at the same time because they're struggling with depression as well.

  • @jenniferdean493
    @jenniferdean493 2 года назад +906

    My brother sent me this song last month, 2 weeks before he died! This song is his life, exactly what he felt. RIP Christopher Neel, I love u brother!

    • @ivanrayanguiano3217
      @ivanrayanguiano3217 2 года назад +18

      🙏🏽 May he RIP, something similar happened to my brother in law his ex wife had a daughter that wasn’t his own but she looked at him as her Daddy, little did we know she took the divorce real hard and this was a song she listened too a lot.

    • @paulavanmeter7196
      @paulavanmeter7196 2 года назад +12

      Rest in peace. I lost my brother 8y ago

    • @proxyreign2195
      @proxyreign2195 2 года назад +11

      R.I.P I lost my father to suicide a few years ago

    • @aprilgienger7425
      @aprilgienger7425 2 года назад +9

      WOW. I just lost my brother Feb 18. When you say this is how he felt, I can understand what you think/feel. " This life is overwhelming but I'm ready for the next one" no more pain. R.I.P Josh G.

    • @gregdavis7204
      @gregdavis7204 2 года назад +11

      My brother also named Christopher told me this song reminded him of himself and 2 months later we lost him. I will always remember this song! I miss my lil bro so much, i dream about him alot. Life just isn't the same and i dont feel it ever will be. Its been 2 1/2 years and i still struggle every day. Damn i miss him and wish he was here! He didn't go by suicide directly but substance abuse, depression and just lifes bullshit took him from us . He had a cardiac arrest at 35 years old which is 19 years younger than me so i practically raised him! My best friend! I love and miss him every single day and always will! Fuck!

  • @justinatkins1668
    @justinatkins1668 2 года назад +62

    I listen to this song both when I'm truly considering it...And when I know I don't have the strength to follow through. Omg are the lyrics ever accurate to many who have attempted before. But life gets better. I love badflower for the true emotional honesty in this song. You've helped more than you will every know

    • @pleasehireme25
      @pleasehireme25 Год назад +3

      Right there.... been on repeat for the last hour, crying and singing feeling ridiculous but it's what I need rn

  • @AlabamaForKennedyCEO
    @AlabamaForKennedyCEO 9 месяцев назад +12

    My best friend Jordan passed recently. We met in rehab and he showed me this incredible song. It's very emotional to listen to now since after his overdose it has a whole new meaning to me. RIP JORDAN ROBERTS 08/03/2023.

    • @iiimaxiii1
      @iiimaxiii1 8 месяцев назад

      I’m so sorry that happened to him and you, loosing someone is always a hard thing to cope with, I hope your feeling okay! ❤️❤️

  • @kayred5526
    @kayred5526 5 лет назад +285

    I don't think the band realized exactly what they created with this song. This is probably one of the most raw songs I've ever heard in my life.
    Damn.

  • @mikecicciari845
    @mikecicciari845 3 года назад +1014

    man that face when he 1st gets in the car is brutal. Its not "sad", its like this calculated cold - but somewhat content look and it depicts depression painfully accurately. Its fucked.

    • @roosvooijs8360
      @roosvooijs8360 3 года назад +56

      It's the kind of exhausted I wouldn't wish on anyone. It's the face of being done.

    • @jimjones7272
      @jimjones7272 3 года назад +11

      @@dylanleger8863 Don't give up. Been there off and on for about 16 years but you have to take the little glimpses of happiness to get you through it. It can get better.

    • @jimjones7272
      @jimjones7272 3 года назад +8

      Just that cold feeling of acceptance and relief.

    • @roosvooijs8360
      @roosvooijs8360 3 года назад +1

      @@dylanleger8863 you ok bud?

    • @nothuman3083
      @nothuman3083 3 года назад +3

      @@jimjones7272 it's why I picked the most dangerous job I could. It was accepting that this will pay me enough to get away from everything one way or another. But there's nothing like accepting your death is probable but knowing someone else is in danger that wants to live motivates you to stay alive.

  • @lisa-km4ck
    @lisa-km4ck Год назад +19

    This Band is in a category of their own. As I see them, real talent from real souls. Eventually, most good bands will die out. I feel fortunate to have lived in the era of Badflower. Thank you for sharing your emotional song with us.

    • @beezybeez7231
      @beezybeez7231 11 месяцев назад

      This is so good but you must hear “ The Wave Acoustic” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎹

  • @NativeDrummer_
    @NativeDrummer_ Год назад +8

    This song literally saved my life

    • @beezybeez7231
      @beezybeez7231 11 месяцев назад +1

      This is so good but you must hear “ The Wave Acoustic” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎹

    • @NativeDrummer_
      @NativeDrummer_ 12 дней назад

      @@beezybeez7231I’ll check it out! Thanks!

  • @teresaayers8880
    @teresaayers8880 5 лет назад +810

    where the hell did this band come from with pieces of my soul

  • @meytarhagay26
    @meytarhagay26 5 лет назад +309

    At first I didn’t notice the lyrics, just liked the song. Then I saw this video and listened a few more times. Chills. Just chills.

    • @InTheLifeOf
      @InTheLifeOf 5 лет назад

      Same

    • @july4bigtommyfaget55
      @july4bigtommyfaget55 5 лет назад

      Just got them again man heard this over last summer and it feels like im hearing it for the first time all over!

    • @ginjiguts
      @ginjiguts 5 лет назад

      Same for me

    • @ShawnTufford
      @ShawnTufford 5 лет назад

      For real though.

    • @joanncook520
      @joanncook520 5 лет назад

      Same here I heard this song maybe the first couple of times I didn't even hear what he was saying
      Sad but great song

  • @slydew4393
    @slydew4393 13 дней назад +1

    5yrs later and this song still makes me want to cry.

  • @johnbuciuman9208
    @johnbuciuman9208 Год назад +12

    Bands like this, Evanescence, Iprevail don't glorify our feelings of suicide, they make us feel like we're not alone, that maybe someone understands what we are going through

    • @beezybeez7231
      @beezybeez7231 11 месяцев назад

      This is so good but you must hear “ The Wave Acoustic” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎹🎧

  • @thedukeofdorks6001
    @thedukeofdorks6001 5 лет назад +396

    Whoever directed this should be immensly proud. Such a good music video.

  • @kennethgarrison4822
    @kennethgarrison4822 3 года назад +324

    I lost my brother last night. Heroin overdose. This song will always be apart of me

    • @theharvestangel2290
      @theharvestangel2290 3 года назад +4

      I'm sorry Kenneth.
      You tried.
      Adam
      The Harvest Angel
      ruclips.net/video/SN5GjLnW2SY/видео.html

    • @TruckerLuci
      @TruckerLuci 3 года назад

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    • @kellyfitch364
      @kellyfitch364 3 года назад +3

      So sorry

    • @amandadunn1238
      @amandadunn1238 3 года назад +3

      Sorry man ...may he find peace

    • @blakeward7517
      @blakeward7517 3 года назад +2

      I had same thing happen to my brother at 26 years old i feel all your pain

  • @austinhall8012
    @austinhall8012 2 года назад +31

    I come back to this song around the same time of year RIP fallen brothers. This song has a very powerful message and reminds me why i have to fight the fight everyday.

    • @UndergroundSmoke
      @UndergroundSmoke 2 года назад

      Is this Austin hall from Harrisburg? If so I know you homie, respect

    • @austinhall8012
      @austinhall8012 2 года назад

      @@UndergroundSmoke no im from mo

    • @ErikStehlar
      @ErikStehlar 2 года назад +1

      Never ever give up. I don't care if you read this comment within the next week or within the next 20 years. We are one human family and we need to have each other's backs.

    • @austinhall8012
      @austinhall8012 2 года назад

      @@ErikStehlar i appreciate that man

  • @endebtedone
    @endebtedone 9 месяцев назад +5

    what a message at the beginning. "suicide doesn't end the chances of life getting worse, it eliminates the possibility of it ever getting any better."
    I heard recently from someone battling addiction and how they made 10+ years was that all they tried to do was survive one more day and not worry about the rest. just survive one more day fighting for that goal and keep doing it. eventually you'll find another reason to fight for happiness.

  • @brandonbutler4986
    @brandonbutler4986 4 года назад +1594

    Lost my brother jeremy 10 years to suicide ....all I know he's in a better place now....thanks to who cares

    • @daddylyndon4144
      @daddylyndon4144 4 года назад +25

      Brandon Butler Hope you’re doing well man, so sorry to hear that.

    • @triplescorpio
      @triplescorpio 4 года назад +16

      I care! I hear you!

    • @chaseevans4124
      @chaseevans4124 4 года назад +14

      Sorry to see that man. I care and hope you and your loved ones eventually found some sort of peace and happiness again.

    • @rebeccamorningstar4512
      @rebeccamorningstar4512 4 года назад +6

      I'm so sorry for you loss.... I lost my brother the same

    • @kodyhunt6077
      @kodyhunt6077 4 года назад +4

      I feel you man, lost my best friend as well. Sorry for your lose man.

  • @conorhamptonmusic
    @conorhamptonmusic 4 года назад +2138

    In high school, music like this made me feel less alone, in quarentine music like this is getting me through again

    • @jonathansellers8570
      @jonathansellers8570 4 года назад +15

      Hold your head up, brother!

    • @wulfkin7351
      @wulfkin7351 4 года назад +4

      Yep

    • @sircharles2228
      @sircharles2228 4 года назад +26

      I miss music like this. The crap that's playing now is sad. 15-20 years ago was the best time for rock fans. But, really people complaining about social distancing and being lonely are kinda lil bitches.

    • @jaylinjones2623
      @jaylinjones2623 4 года назад +4

      Same

    • @Bramon83
      @Bramon83 4 года назад +1

      *pets face*

  • @Rewiindz
    @Rewiindz Год назад +13

    My friend showed me this song in rehab awhile ago and ever since he overdosed this song has such a special meaning to me

    • @beezybeez7231
      @beezybeez7231 11 месяцев назад

      This is so good but you must hear “ The Wave Acoustic” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎹

  • @danazzimmerman5534
    @danazzimmerman5534 Год назад +8

    I cried the first time I heard this.
    This is how I feel today. This life is overwhelming and I’m ready for the next one

    • @beezybeez7231
      @beezybeez7231 11 месяцев назад

      you must hear “ The Wave Acoustic” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎹🎧🔥🎸 life saving !!!

  • @MrDavidmauck
    @MrDavidmauck 4 года назад +214

    He should be an actor. His expressions are on point. Drives the lyrics home.
    I wonder if there is any personal experience behind this song.

    • @angelav3386
      @angelav3386 4 года назад +59

      I really think there is. You don't write a song like this just because.

    • @mxrx1628
      @mxrx1628 4 года назад +26

      If i remember it right he said in an article that he had panic attacks every night after the shows whilst touring and was thinking about self harm. He played out the whole scenario in his head and wrote it down. So yes, I'd say it is from personal experience!
      Link: loudwire.com/badflower-interview-ghost/

    • @mikecicciari845
      @mikecicciari845 3 года назад +6

      @@angelav3386 you can't*

    • @abby-yk1st
      @abby-yk1st 3 года назад +1

      i’m pretty sure there is personal experience

    • @lyvsix
      @lyvsix 3 года назад

      I'm sure theres personal experience. Only those who've been through this coul be able to express ot that well.

  • @sebastiancortes9512
    @sebastiancortes9512 4 года назад +2323

    “Suicide doesn’t end the possibility of life getting worse. It eliminates the possibility of it ever getting any better.”
    -Unknown

    • @paulgarner4719
      @paulgarner4719 4 года назад +45

      Sebastian Cortes I was always told that (when pointing my fingers at my chin and pretending to blow my brains out) “its a permanent solution to a temporary problem”. I’ve been lucky to have numerous mentors in my 46 years, and their guidance always came when i needed a push in the right direction of thinking. Now I return the favor when I have a coworker or family member that needs to be educated.

    • @mike550
      @mike550 4 года назад +11

      That’s deep and well....very true

    • @MusicDork0016
      @MusicDork0016 4 года назад +14

      Thank you. I needed this so much.

    • @clownindan
      @clownindan 4 года назад +5

      Goodnight randoms

    • @weregretohio7728
      @weregretohio7728 4 года назад +50

      But who really cares about the "possibility" of getting better when you can just have eternal peace? Life is suffering. Birth is a gateway to torture.
      Yeah, we've all heard about the suicide is a permanent solution yada yada platitude, but no - life is a permanent problem, in at least as far as it can be permanent. Permanent problems would require permanent solutions. Medication, therapy, food, drugs, games, etc -those are pretty temporary, if they work at all. The last thing I want to see is another damn medical health professional and all their bullshit. Or another of those callous-ass hotlines flung out as quickly as pills.

  • @chetsavage2536
    @chetsavage2536 Год назад +6

    "This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one."
    Truer words have never been sung! And yet, they're also the most inspiring to live the best, most authentic, life I can live.

    • @beezybeez7231
      @beezybeez7231 11 месяцев назад

      This is so good but you must hear “ The Wave Acoustic” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎹🎧

  • @LoveLeigh313
    @LoveLeigh313 2 года назад +8

    Music like this is exactly what keeps people alive. Thank you for your vulnerability 💙

  • @rangers1203
    @rangers1203 3 года назад +146

    This life is overwhelming and im ready for the next one. Ooof preach.

  • @numetalkitty
    @numetalkitty 5 лет назад +864

    The sheer amount of loving people who are reaching out to those in need in this comment section restores my faith in humanity. It is struggles such as these that seem to be bringing us together. It brings tears to my eyes hearing about other peoples struggles and just seeing how many people, despite not knowing them personally, care enough to let them know that they ARE worth it and they should survive. Seeing people just being loving and caring for each other to this extent is part of the reason I love the rock community so much. It just makes me so so happy to see that people care. People do care. You are all lovely people and deserve the world.

    • @jaboi1108
      @jaboi1108 5 лет назад +1

      Just Boosterz I may deserve it but I won’t get shit

    • @numetalkitty
      @numetalkitty 5 лет назад +1

      Ja Boi why?

    • @jaboi1108
      @jaboi1108 5 лет назад

      Just Boosterz I won’t be sane for long enough

    • @SGTGGeorge
      @SGTGGeorge 5 лет назад +1

      Ja Boi not with that attitude you won't my friend... Change your attitude, and change your life... Your the only one who can. No one else will do it for you! Get off your ass and on your feet!!

    • @jaboi1108
      @jaboi1108 5 лет назад

      glenn george changing my attitude won’t get rid of a fucking brain disorder

  • @jh9740
    @jh9740 Год назад +18

    Best new band I have listened to for years! Epic and quickly becoming one of my favorites. Seems to have honest energy and passion in their music !

    • @beezybeez4207
      @beezybeez4207 Год назад

      this is so good but you must hear “Whispering Wolf” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🐺 🎹

  • @dudemanaric
    @dudemanaric 2 года назад +8

    This band is so great and underrated. That drum fill at 2:35 is so amazingly simple but sounds sooo good

  • @ChuckSupernaturalist
    @ChuckSupernaturalist 4 года назад +42

    " But this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one. "
    I know exactly how this feels.

  • @SovereignOneGaming
    @SovereignOneGaming 4 года назад +548

    I think it's so refreshing to have a sonf about suicide that doesn't use cutesie words and metaphors for suicide. This song spells it out straight up. It seems from personal experience, that when you are depressed for a great deal of time (more often than not), people, even those closest to you will become desensitized to it and eventually, as the song says, "no one even looked up." My family barely cares, if at all anymore because they've seen me so depressed for so long (including hospitalizations and plenty of scars on my wrists and marks on my face) that it has become normal for them. They've no idea the level of seriousness of how I feel right now. Maybe if anyone gave a shit they would take notice? Suicidal ideation is beyond difficult. Most people think it's a "cry for help" and all this other bullshit, but there are people in such deep pain out there...it overrides their natural instinct for self-precervation...Keeping yourself alive is one of the strongest instincts we have...can you imagine the pain someone must be feeling to be able to ignore that genetic imperative? I am so sorry to all of you that go through this because I do too. You are CARED ABOUT, at least by this stranger. Love to you all. You're better than you think...

    • @iSoldat
      @iSoldat 4 года назад +10

      With all of the scars on your arms, it's certain that self-preservation did prevail. We've all been through horrible pain, you are not the first and you won't be the last. It may feel like no one knows, but there are a lot out there who have been through much worse and not only survived but thrived. The pain you feel will only be amplified by those who still care if you succeed. They can't help you until you are willing to help yourself. Pick yourself up and ask for help.

    • @michaelcunningham9313
      @michaelcunningham9313 4 года назад +4

      I'm sorry I'm going through something extremely similar. You are not alone

    • @kevinmacklin7466
      @kevinmacklin7466 3 года назад +8

      As a school counselor I sometimes tell my students that a depressed student once said, "It's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel when all around you is darkness". Sometimes I tell them that student was me. This is the one time I believe it is right to say All lives matter. Hang in there. People do care.

    • @themathissquadjourneythrou1275
      @themathissquadjourneythrou1275 3 года назад +5

      Wish all of you had someone like my mom. She went through everything with me and even though she’s gone now she never let anyone struggling down. We are not alone! Someone out there will care!

    • @craigmcleod5216
      @craigmcleod5216 3 года назад +3

      Thx for that... Care about u too ♥️

  • @chikowashere
    @chikowashere 2 года назад +17

    Every time I listen, I hear something different:
    Take the BLAME away from me.
    Take the BLADE away from me.
    Take the SHAME away from me.
    Take the PAIN away from me.
    The sad thing is that they all can apply to the song. No one should ever feel like that.

    • @Shou_Crit
      @Shou_Crit 2 месяца назад +1

      I am the same, and it always seems to come directly to the mindset I am in that causes the corresponding words to come thru for it.

  • @Orcaspeaks
    @Orcaspeaks 7 месяцев назад +3

    Hey if you're reading this and hurting, know I am too. You arnt alone. We got this.

  • @GilDice
    @GilDice 4 года назад +338

    "I couldn't tell my mother that I love her, I'm a bad son."
    When i was planning to overdose i remember visiting my mom at work. I smiled, hugged her, told her i loved her and left feeling like a horrible son for the way i lied to her. This lyric hits me really deep.

    • @mikka_4496
      @mikka_4496 4 года назад +2

      Oh

    • @RiotAllnite
      @RiotAllnite 4 года назад +18

      Don't know you. But glad you're still here.

    • @lavenbug
      @lavenbug 4 года назад +6

      I'm so happy that you're still alive to tell the story. Please keep fighting, I know it's not easy.

    • @sarahtrees1
      @sarahtrees1 4 года назад +12

      I love my son more than the air I breathe and I know your mother loves you the same. I’m so glad you’re here!

    • @drugsommelier9477
      @drugsommelier9477 4 года назад

      It makes sense for averyone who has a mom

  • @coolcoconuts4453
    @coolcoconuts4453 4 года назад +267

    I'm so glad these guys are just so unapologetically raw with their music. If anything I think this is the perfect "suicide song" for lack of a better term because it's so rare to come across a song that tackles the subject of suicide this well. It gives such a hauntingly accurate depiction of the thoughts you have going through this shit I'm sure anyone who's been in this position can agree, but at the same time it really exemplifies just how pointless suicide is and in my opinion it's almost acts as a warning to those who know people living with depression etc that this is the shit that goes through your head everyday at a million miles a second.

    • @xelanoxin
      @xelanoxin 3 года назад

    • @kellyball4051
      @kellyball4051 3 года назад +6

      Yeah, they are great with their music! For me, this song is a reminder of what is lost through successful suicide...Seether has a great one as well...very accurate indeed!
      Is it pointless though? I mean, it DOES provide the outcome that is desired...yes, there are other side effects...such as being dead, but for someone who can not cope with their life, it's not at all pointless...it has a point, it's just fruitless...nothing good comes of it here, on this plane of existence...and who knows what repercussions there may be beyond our awareness. I want to clarify that his situation is not depression so much as guilt --he killed his girlfriend...his suicidal thoughts are not unwarranted--I mean to say that he has a clear REASON to feel this way about himself and his life...but he has no help to cope with the situation and his feelings and such. We must never ignore, or downplay any person's reasons for wanting to kill themselves! Even if they are irrational, those reasons hold the solutions to the problems leading them towards suicide. We have to LISTEN to the suicidal person--we MUST stop trying to help them, and just listen for the solutions to come!
      Thanks for sharing your views, they gave me something to really think about this afternoon!

    • @pleasehireme25
      @pleasehireme25 Год назад

      This is why at these points in my life I listen to this song on repeat for hours on end.... I struggle and I cry but I don't do what needs to be done? Sounds terrible, I used to be a cutter, I briefly stepped back into it. This song reminds me that people rely on me, I can't do this because what of I do cut tooo deep?
      I've got a child, family, someone who loves me? They can't deal with the pain I deal with on a daily, I can't and won't put them through this!

  • @mistylammert666
    @mistylammert666 11 месяцев назад +9

    The part that says ( I waited there forever but nobody ever looked up) is my life with the ones I keep around me. The ones I had that understood me are gone they have passed away. I put this song on repeat so I can feel like I at least have one person there, and no judgement casted.

    • @beezybeez7231
      @beezybeez7231 11 месяцев назад

      This is so good but you must hear “ The Wave Acoustic” or “Whispering Wolf” by SLT 🤘

  • @Julia-yj9qk
    @Julia-yj9qk Год назад +9

    This song spoke to me on such a deep level when I was at the darkest, lowest point in my life. It described how I was feeling so perfectly that it felt like it was written for me. I was stuck in this all consuming pit of depression and despair, I didn’t really want to die but I couldn’t see an end to the pain I was in. And this song still resonates with me now, after surviving and pulling myself out of that hole, but in a different way. When I listen to it now it reminds me of the darkness I was able to overcome and the strength it took to do that. “Maybe I’m alive cause I didn’t really wanna die”

    • @beezybeez7231
      @beezybeez7231 11 месяцев назад

      This is so good but you must hear “ The Wave Acoustic” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎹🎧🔥🎸

  • @amandagroves1470
    @amandagroves1470 3 года назад +47

    So many comments about being suicidal, knowing someone who has committed suicide, etc. It is truly sad how normal it has become. It is truly sad how many people really struggle with depression and other mental illnesses. I want all of you other survivors to know, i am happy you are still here and that you are never truly alone!

  • @Darthsikk
    @Darthsikk 5 лет назад +162

    As a suicide survivor, I do not think I have ever heard a song that so accurately encapsulates what goes through your head and heart during those most overpowering and dark moments where you feel compelled on to act on your pain.

    • @relandmcclure1038
      @relandmcclure1038 5 лет назад

      Darthsikk true that!

    • @grantbriggs2684
      @grantbriggs2684 5 лет назад +5

      I love how towards the end when it starts to layer the lyrics, really shows how negative thoughts compound and end up consuming your entire mind in these moments. Screaming at yourself to just stop. Very powerful use of the medium, really hits me hard.

    • @flowermaidennn
      @flowermaidennn 5 лет назад

      I agree...

    • @ktb22green
      @ktb22green 4 года назад

      me to.

    • @ethanroberts6838
      @ethanroberts6838 4 года назад +3

      Same man, can tell it is written with insight. He has already attempted suicide or knows someone.

  • @jenniferdean493
    @jenniferdean493 Год назад +2

    RIP brother. you were loved and maybe u didn't know that. I miss you so damn much it hurts. RiP Christopher

  • @tomgilbert3959
    @tomgilbert3959 5 месяцев назад +4

    I saw these guys live in 2017 and the energy and fun was out of this world. This song is a extreme stark reminder to me that life is to damn short. As a 2 time survivor myself, this is always at the top of my playlist.

    • @beezybeez4207
      @beezybeez4207 4 месяца назад

      This is so good but you must hear “The Wave” or “Whispering Wolf” by SLT 🤘🎸🤘🎸🤘

  • @samuelkhardian613
    @samuelkhardian613 5 лет назад +56

    I wanna hug that guy. He seems to have been through some shit irl 😭😭😭

    • @carolyncooper3149
      @carolyncooper3149 4 года назад

      Great music. But you seem so depressed 😟🙃🙃

  • @v10011011
    @v10011011 2 года назад +161

    Not many songs bring me to tears but this one always does. Such a powerful song and such an amazing insight into the mind of the suicidal. I know Bad Flower got a lot of shit for this song, but for the wrong reasons; it doesn’t glorify suicide it epitomizes the pain too many people feel everyday

    • @truthedministry
      @truthedministry Год назад +11

      I don't see how anyone can think this promotes suicide. "I died to be the white ghost of the man that I was meant to be". I heard that for the first time a less than 10 minutes ago and my eyes can't stop leaking. I am reading these comments through the tears and seeing all these other people that found their hope and purpose. I found my hope over 10 years ago, but I am still struggling to be the man that I was meant to be.

    • @williambray7784
      @williambray7784 Год назад +3

      I'm struggling..older I get the harder. Tears falling as I write this.

    • @brandisworld81
      @brandisworld81 10 месяцев назад

      This song hits home. It's amazing how our mind can convince us that nobody cares - and even if there are a couple of people who do care, theyd be better off without us.

    • @brandisworld81
      @brandisworld81 10 месяцев назад

      ​@@williambray7784I understand exactly what you mean. Im going thru the same thing right now.

    • @jabinsavosik6448
      @jabinsavosik6448 8 месяцев назад +4

      I think anyone that would criticize music like this has never been suicidal before.

  • @Merf420
    @Merf420 15 дней назад +1

    This song speaks to me in ways I cannot begin to explain.

  • @GoatedExile
    @GoatedExile Год назад +28

    If this song had been around 10 years ago it might have changed a few things I did. For those still struggling, it DOES get better. I'm living proof. Happily engaged with our 2nd child on the way. Stay strong, fight. Happiness does find its way to everyone eventually.

  • @danielgibeault8060
    @danielgibeault8060 4 года назад +70

    "I couldn't tell my mother that I loved her like a good son"
    😢😢😢

  • @mikisan5945
    @mikisan5945 Год назад +5

    me coming back to this song whenever my mental health is on an all time low. In a weird way this song just gives me so much comfort in my darkest times.

    • @beezybeez4207
      @beezybeez4207 Год назад

      this is so good but you must hear “Whispering Wolf” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎹🐺

  • @brandonkeele8950
    @brandonkeele8950 2 года назад +25

    If you've never been there staring into the void, you just wouldn't understand. Songs like this are sparking conversation on depression and suicide, and it is very badly needed. I have looked over the edge, but I am on a better path now. It's hard, but we can all make it if we both seek help and seek to help those that we see hurting.

    • @Dragox-mh8fb
      @Dragox-mh8fb 8 месяцев назад

      Could u buy me a phone bro??? I need it for gaming and I'm sad I don't have one

  • @fitnessavarice8065
    @fitnessavarice8065 5 лет назад +55

    "Maybe i'm alive cause didn't really want to die." Some massively deep lyrics that make me think of a line that Brent Smith once delivered: "the will to live will always be stronger than the ability to die"

    • @ALP-nr8kx
      @ALP-nr8kx 4 года назад

      Is that from a Shinedown song or literally a Brent Smith quote?

    • @elipage342
      @elipage342 4 года назад

      @@ALP-nr8kx quote

  • @tiny3678
    @tiny3678 5 лет назад +2616

    i tried to OD when i was 14 just to get away from my parents, the neighbor found me, i woke up in the hospital
    5 months later my father nearly beat me to death, broken jaw, factured skull, black eye, concussion, dislocated shoulder, broken arm, multiple broken ribs, internal bleeding, i spent a few months in a medically induced coma because i was too small to give enough painkillers to keep me from screaming.
    but i survived, and met a man, a US Army soldier, who could never get a date because He had scars all over
    and now we're married, He's the kindest person in the world, He doesnt care if people are afraid of Him, because im there next to Him, clinging to Him because Hes my teddy bear
    never give up, the universe has a plan for everyone, but sometimes you need to go through hell to find where you belong

    • @freddiewannerton6198
      @freddiewannerton6198 5 лет назад +52

      Ok....

    • @shonnas5802
      @shonnas5802 5 лет назад +41

      Omg! I am so very sorry for all your pain & suffering! I cant imagine the the damage in faith ,trust, you must of went through.no child should ever have to go through those type of injuries.. im so glad the neighbors found you,bless her hesrt!

    • @lunamoon6989
      @lunamoon6989 5 лет назад +11

      tiny so sorry to hear that

    • @elfeiin
      @elfeiin 5 лет назад +24

      It's odd, but having gone through hell is one of those things we would never want to part with.
      Edit: not saying that some of us wouldn't want to forget a traumatic experience, just that we wouldn't want to forget why it's wrong, to simplify things.

    • @ungab500
      @ungab500 5 лет назад +17

      I'm so sorry you had to go through that but I'm glad you found someone to spend your life with😊

  • @XionTheSylveon
    @XionTheSylveon 5 месяцев назад +4

    This is maybe one of three songs in my entire life that's brought me to tears. The entire message has been a state of being and emotion I've been contending with for so many years and ever since the first listen, it's remained one of the most powerful songs I've experienced at a time in my life where I needed it. I'm still here because I don't want to hurt the ones I love. The ones I know who'd be just as hurt if not, more than the pain I'd try to leave behind in this world that feels so overwhelming. I don't feel like I'm living for myself yet. And that's alright. Maybe in the future, that'll change if I stick around.

    • @beezybeez4207
      @beezybeez4207 4 месяца назад

      This is so good but you must hear “The Wave” or “Whispering Wolf” by SLT 🤘🎸🤘

  • @erickkreger3193
    @erickkreger3193 Год назад +10

    As a person with suicidal ideations this is a great song that has helped me through some times where my mind was telling me it's over. The line about him being a bad son hits me and reminds me no matter how hard I feel it will hurt my parents even more.

  • @jamesnordstrom5252
    @jamesnordstrom5252 5 лет назад +107

    Makes me feel at home. Suicidal thoughts cross my mind alot. PTSD is no joke.

    • @revengesweetness2520
      @revengesweetness2520 5 лет назад +1

      Embrace the suck

    • @jamesnordstrom5252
      @jamesnordstrom5252 5 лет назад +5

      @@revengesweetness2520 i have. It is the fact i have a wife and 3 amazing kids that show me life is worth holding on to

    • @KSIAngel89
      @KSIAngel89 5 лет назад

      Facts

  • @tahlato3394
    @tahlato3394 5 лет назад +349

    So, I wasn't the one to discover this song, it was my boyfriend. I had recently attempted, but he stopped me and I was put in the hospital for a while and after I got out, this song came on his playlist. And we both just sat there listening to the lyrics and he started crying and I asked why and he responded with "I don't know how you must have felt to try to do what you did, but this song gives me a good idea" and that just kinda hit me.

    • @Mamda07
      @Mamda07 5 лет назад +25

      Tahlato brings tears to my eyes. You have a wonderful boyfriend there. So many people turn away or are afraid when someone is suicidal. They don’t try to understand. Seems like he does and that’s so special. Sending love your way.

    • @MusicDork0016
      @MusicDork0016 4 года назад +6

      Yes.....that sounds about right. Sort of the best rationale I have for anyone that doesn't get it. Good luck to you, I hope your days since being admitted have been better, full of happiness, and less stressful. Sometimes people don't realize how hard it is to get out of bed and keep trying; but I do. You have a brave soul. Thank you for sharing.

    • @inkvessels
      @inkvessels 4 года назад +7

      I am so glad that music was capable of bringing him to that understanding. It's so powerful.

    • @lisahenderson8442
      @lisahenderson8442 4 года назад +1

      Tahlato you teared me up!

    • @djhero1999
      @djhero1999 4 года назад +2

      Why am I crying in the club rn

  • @princessaleiyahrenee
    @princessaleiyahrenee 3 месяца назад +5

    Who's listening to this banger in 2024?!
    Can't believe it's been 5 years this month since this dropped ❤❤

    • @dr150
      @dr150 Месяц назад

      One of the best bands in the world. Without a doubt!

  • @lilmerc007
    @lilmerc007 Год назад +1

    Brings this hardened Marine to tears to see the Love posted on this page. Reach out and help each other. Some of the strongest people I've known in my life, needed help and didn't get it. 20 years and Marine Corps Ambulance Division taught me that everyone needs a little help sometime in their lives!! People who swear they don't? Look out for them the most, because they DO need help. They just have a little trouble seeing it. Never any shame in needing help. Be that person, to step up and help! Take that step to make this world just a little better. It's simple and it's just as easy as showing up! That's a great first step! Be there, and listen.

    • @beezybeez4207
      @beezybeez4207 Год назад

      this is so good but you must hear “Whispering Wolf” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎹🐺

  • @monicacarson1698
    @monicacarson1698 5 лет назад +94

    I think of my son...
    RIP my Angel Jon 1/19/2017

  • @sinisterminds1355
    @sinisterminds1355 4 года назад +290

    I just lost a close friend of mine to suicide a few days ago. I was the one to call the police at 2 in the morning, unable to get to him because I live an hour away. I spent hours with my best friend sobbing, throwing up, trembling, waiting for the officer to call me back to tell me he was okay.
    He was found alive but did not make it out of surgery. When listening to this song... I just wonder. I knew he was struggling, I did everything in my power to help. But some things..
    I try to take comfort in knowing that he saved seven people donating his organs. That somewhere on the same time zone, his heart is still beating.
    I miss you. There isn't a minute that goes by that I don't think about you, about what could've changed.
    'Til we meet again.

    • @aligracesherbalplace6159
      @aligracesherbalplace6159 4 года назад +7

      I lost someone a year ago. No one new it was coming. I relate.

    • @sinisterminds1355
      @sinisterminds1355 4 года назад +4

      The Doom Slayer thank you. Peace and love ❤️

    • @sinisterminds1355
      @sinisterminds1355 4 года назад +1

      Ali Grace and that pain will be with us for the rest of our lives man.

    • @aligracesherbalplace6159
      @aligracesherbalplace6159 4 года назад +6

      And i honestly don't care what anyone says. When there's something that takes you back the pain is still the same no matter how long its been. If you need someone to talk to ill listen. I watch this page because i have one i lost but i have one who survived as well. And this is a trigger song but also a comfort song for her. So i watch it to try and help other people.

    • @lynnehealy6884
      @lynnehealy6884 4 года назад +2

      Your story is heartbreaking...sorry for your loss!!!

  • @hazel1467
    @hazel1467 11 месяцев назад +4

    One of my favorites songs I've ever listened to in 28 years of constant song listening.

    • @beezybeez7231
      @beezybeez7231 10 месяцев назад

      This is so good but you must hear “Whispering Wolf” or “The Wave Acoustic” by SLT 🤘🐺🔥

    • @LGBFJB46
      @LGBFJB46 10 месяцев назад +1

      @@beezybeez7231bot

  • @nicolegagne9508
    @nicolegagne9508 8 месяцев назад +1

    a few years ago they played together with the same concert shinedown did. Had a rain out so bad flower lost a song, but shinedown gave them his time so he could come Back out to play this song! Us bad flower fans was so Happy! Shinedown rocks! My first concert and it was Amazing! Seeing shinedown and Papa Roach in a few days in Bangor Maine can't wait!

  • @LoneWolf-wu6yn
    @LoneWolf-wu6yn 3 года назад +243

    This is by far the best song for what is going through someone's head after a failed a suicide attempt. (Mine was the safety was still on) Even years later, and not being suicidal anymore. The feels are too fucking real.

    • @aliensource884
      @aliensource884 3 года назад +4

      Damn...... You're here bro.

    • @LoneWolf-wu6yn
      @LoneWolf-wu6yn 3 года назад +11

      @@aliensource884 yeah. But I shouldn't be and don't want to.

    • @radioriot2154
      @radioriot2154 2 года назад +3

      @@LoneWolf-wu6yn you should be here. I know how you feel, honestly I do. But please, you've got every reason to be here. Please don't leave.

    • @ericsullivan9116
      @ericsullivan9116 2 года назад +7

      Tried it myself with 2 different guns. Right gun trigger pull to head (click). Point to ground, pull, boom. Left gun to head, pull, click. Left gun to ground, pull, boom. Never once did I rack either. Happened 3-4x each gun. I’m here to stand for my family and help others who suffer inside like I do. Individually weak, but together strong.

    • @markofthedevil845
      @markofthedevil845 2 года назад +2

      Just got out of crisis treatment #16 I can't stand this place

  • @grey8211
    @grey8211 4 года назад +138

    Lyrics
    I tried it once before but I didn't get too far
    I felt a lot of pain but it didn't stop my heart
    And all I really wanted was someone to give a little fuck
    But I waited there forever and nobody even looked up
    I tried it once before and I think I might have messed up
    I struggled with the veins and I guess I didn't bleed enough
    But maybe I'm alive because I didn't really wanna die
    But nothing very special ever happens in my life
    Take the blade away from me
    I am a freak, I am afraid that
    All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
    And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
    I died to be the white ghost
    Of the man that I was meant to be
    I tried it like before and this time I made a deep cut
    I thought about my friends and the way I didn't give enough
    And I should have told my mother, "Mom, I love you" like a good son
    But this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one
    Take the blade away from me
    I am a freak, I am afraid that
    All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
    And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
    I died to be the white ghost
    Of the man that I was meant to be, yeah
    I tried it once again and I think I might black out
    I should've left a letter but I had nothing to write about
    My blood is all around me, I get dizzy if I stand up
    The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked
    Take the blade away from me
    I am a freak, I am afraid that
    All the blood escaping me won't end the pain
    And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
    I died to be the white ghost
    Of the man that I was meant to be
    I tried it once again and I think I went too far
    The man that I was meant to be
    I cut a little deeper and the pressure stopped my heart
    The man that I was meant to be
    I couldn't tell my mother, "Mom, I love you", I'm a bad son
    This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one

  • @brittneylynn9920
    @brittneylynn9920 Год назад +4

    This song is such a amazing expression of some bottled up feelings

    • @beezybeez4207
      @beezybeez4207 Год назад

      this is so good but you must hear “Whispering Wolf” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🐺 🎹

    • @brittneylynn9920
      @brittneylynn9920 Год назад

      I liked not feeling alone as well

  • @tjplaya1156
    @tjplaya1156 2 года назад +18

    This song is gonna be great forever! The way I see it- lyrics about suicide do NOT cause suicide, period. Listening to this unbelievably great song, can help people who are really down on life, people who think they have no reason to go on💪💪😢🙏! I feel these lyrics straight through my heart, it speaks to my feelings 😭😭...I have never actually tried to commit suicide, but have wished I was no longer alive- hundreds of thousands times.. to me, this song and other similar songs are therapeutic. Badflower is a terrific group, and their song writing is brilliant- thank you guys!

    • @chriss1683
      @chriss1683 Год назад

      If you listened from beginning to end and you're feeling suicidal, the song very well could have added a few minutes to your life, or covered the few minutes you would have spent taking it. Keep listening, get it all off your chest.

  • @hanimustafa7049
    @hanimustafa7049 3 года назад +118

    His face reactions are so fuckin accurate that I don't even care if he's acting! I can literally feel the fuckin lyrics and they fuckin hurt my soul because of how relatable it is...

  • @theginger1187
    @theginger1187 3 года назад +44

    "But I waited there forever and nobody ever looked up"
    Imagine standing on a ledge a couple hundred feet above the concrete. All you want is someone to look up and acknowledge your existence, for someone other than yourself telling you "itll be ok"
    To anyone that has that feeling in their heart I can say,
    Calm down,
    Come down,
    Itll be ok.

  • @brianmarrow77
    @brianmarrow77 Год назад +1

    Shit hits different when you're a survivor and so is your child.

  • @xamyvaglab7967
    @xamyvaglab7967 Год назад +6

    the first time i heard the song I didn't pay attention to the lyrics, and thought it was a nice energetic song, but now listening to it again. Goddamnit, I'm speechless

  • @robertboswell812
    @robertboswell812 4 года назад +45

    Being a veteran i just came across this song and i can relate in the struggle... now it inspires me great job Badflower!!!!

    • @rachelle1312
      @rachelle1312 3 года назад

      Thank you for your service sir :)

  • @pheebiejeebies
    @pheebiejeebies 5 лет назад +273

    I miss you, the love of my life, my husband, my lover, my best friend, Jonah. 8/7/67-9/19/11. 😢❤️

    • @MusicDork0016
      @MusicDork0016 4 года назад +6

      God bless you in your journey; so sorry for your loss my dear.

    • @KareenBurgosPappas
      @KareenBurgosPappas 4 года назад +3

      My condolences🌹

    • @mayhem659
      @mayhem659 4 года назад

      Phoebe Rhoades I’m sorry for your loss

    • @HouseOfElectro
      @HouseOfElectro 4 года назад +2

      i hope you found solace in the fact that your husband loved you as much as you loved him. find the happiness he left you.

  • @erikdavis2945
    @erikdavis2945 Год назад +3

    As someone who has felt this personally, this is the last cry for help before the hope fades.

    • @beezybeez7231
      @beezybeez7231 11 месяцев назад

      This is so good but you must hear “ The Wave Acoustic” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎹🎧

    • @erikdavis2945
      @erikdavis2945 11 месяцев назад

      @@beezybeez7231 I’ll check those out , thank you!

  • @maryatkinson7453
    @maryatkinson7453 Год назад +4

    After the sudden death of my husband, I was totally devastated, depressed and withdrawn from everyone. But this song helped me slowly regain my strength to move forward.

  • @rebeccaquick8828
    @rebeccaquick8828 3 года назад +26

    I overdosed September 14th 2014 and God gave me another chance so this song really helps me remember why I'm so greatful to still be alive.

  • @lee-do7nj
    @lee-do7nj 3 года назад +302

    googled suicidal songs cause i wanted to destroy myself so much then i bumped into this. it's just good to be understood. i am not alone, we are not alone. if you are like me i just want you to know my heart is with you

    • @katjackson5777
      @katjackson5777 3 года назад +5

      You are not alone❤

    • @jaderock00
      @jaderock00 3 года назад +1

      I'm in the same situation

    • @christinakalbaugh9409
      @christinakalbaugh9409 3 года назад +2

      Been on meds for over 26 years for depression and other shit .....it sucks tried suicide 3 times ...got a nice scar on my wrist from cutting ....guess Im suppose 2 be here...

    • @mariadaniela223
      @mariadaniela223 3 года назад +1

      @@christinakalbaugh9409 stay strong💖

    • @raphiam3739
      @raphiam3739 3 года назад

      Theres a tattoo on my chest to remind me every day that we are not alone. You are not alone. Im beside you.

  • @michaelh7931
    @michaelh7931 2 года назад +8

    My wife recently died in a car accident we were in. This song just hits in such a different way now... It gives me pure goosebumps and I cant help but burst in tears.
    But its a good feeling in a way.. To know you're not alone in these feelings.

    • @69misskatluvr
      @69misskatluvr 2 года назад +1

      I hope u can find some comfort my friend. My heart is with you and I'm so sorry for your loss. God bless

    • @2strokeFORever
      @2strokeFORever 2 года назад +1

      Hope all is well with you my friend

    • @josephmccarthy2119
      @josephmccarthy2119 2 года назад +1

      Stay strong my friend. We stand with you.