PLEASE watch this video on full, (don’t spoil the ending please!!) 😜 alll the way to the end…WHEN you’re ready! This video has been on my brain to do for 8 years, but I’ve never been brave enough to do it. But I’m doing it now, and I’m sooo nervous!! 😅 I’ve put a lot of thought into this, and my goal is to just make at least one person out there to know they’re not alone, and that they CAN STAY AND FIGHT! Please be respectful in the comments, and be sure you read the description of this video for more support. Please also leave ANY questions for a follow-up Q&A about the video! Thank you for your support! Love you allll! 💜💙💚💛🧡❤️
I'm crying at the part where you're crying. I'm so sorry you lost a friend this way. I know the pain far too well. I just want to ask how you're doing with that loss now? I'm so proud of you for reaching out when you needed to and I'm so proud of you for all you do to help others. Did you look in to allergy testing btw? You deserve to do all you can to be as well as you can be and you may end up having far fewer problems with digestion if you figure out a sensitivity or allergy. Not pressuring you, I just wanted to follow up on the live you did the other day! Michelle. Xx
You did such a great job showing what it is really like. The internal voices that cannot be quieted is so real. Thank you for spreading awareness and understanding. I love you, and I'm so happy you're in a better place now. Look at all the people you are helping. I've struggled with depression for so long, and this is soo real.
I’ve been watching you since I was a teenager, I’m now 24, you have helped me tremendously with eating disorders, depression & anxiety. I really cannot thank you enough! I’m so happy & grateful that you’re here ❤️
all I want to do is reach out to the girl at the end of the video and tell her she's not alone and that it's okay to ask for help so well done! If this was ten years ago and I found this video, it would hit me in the most encouraging ways. Seeing it now, I just want to hug everyone I know and tell them I'm never leaving them! thanks, Shanny!
i'm sobbing at the ending. It's beautiful. It's poignant. It's a little triggering but not in a bad way. In a way that feels real. I haven't been truly suicidal in a long time, but that suicidal ideation creeps up every so often.
Havent seen your videos on my feed for a while so I am here after a couple years away. Thank you for showing the reality of this mental illness, and for staying strong. Love ya Shanny ❤🎉
This is so great that you made this. It's nice seeing that I'm not alone. I'm happy I found your account a few years back. It's scary going through dark times and surviving through it makes me and everyone else strong.
It's such a relieving feeling to learn you aren't as alone as our brains want to convince us. You are loved. You are worth something. I believe in you.
It's so difficult to explain to people what it's like to experience depression. I know it couldn't have been easy for you to make this video, but it helps others to understand what it can be like. More importantly, it helps people who have depression to know they are not alone and that there are people who do understand. Thank you for your work and your courage.
Thanks for posting this video, Shanny! This is where I was a year ago. And it brought back a lot of emotions but I’ve been in counseling and getting help so I’m doing better now.
Shanny, your short film is an incredible statement on a serious situation to be in. It must have been very hard to face that time in your life and to make this film. I believe many will benefit from it. I hope it was cathartic for you. You are an amazing person to do this. You did a wonderful job on this film. Be proud of what you have done.
This was gutwrenching and fantastic. Depression can make us so stuck inside ourselves that we forget to live, we forget that extending our hand out and taking hold of the hand of others means something. I've had so many days like this. The internal battle, the whiplash of going back and forth, wrestling with the realization that I could go or stay, coming to a sure decision to leave and the pulling myself back over and over and over. I may not be where I want to be, but I am surely not where I used to be. I wouldn't have ever believed that I could conquer this deep ache to leave. It's been a journey, but these thoughts don't have the power over me that they once had. Sometimes, we just have to accept we are here, the good and the bad included, the pains and the joys. We are here for a reason, and there is so much more to life than may meet the eye. Isolation will surely destroy us. We have to trust that we are loved, even when we feel unlovable. We have to trust that there is more than pain, even when we feel there is not. We have to trust we are not alone, even when we feel we are. I am so proud of you, Shanny. You are beautiful inside and out. You are so gifted. You are so resilient. You are so loving and kind. You are so intelligent and creative. You are worth it. Thank you for all your work, authenticity, and passion.
It’s crazy how loud that voice inside your head can get sometimes. You’re so brave and strong even when you’re not feeling it. I’m proud of you for fighting everyday. Sending you big hugs!
I have been there myself though never acted on my thoughts either. I hope this video reaches people who need to see they are not alone and hopefully they will choose to reach out for help from family, friends, or a helpline. So glad you made this video Shanny. People need to see this that are in this terrible place right now. Love You! 💓💓💓
I'm so, so proud of you for still being here!! You captured perfectly how insidious and convincing our brains can be. You are an absolute warrior and you inspire me so much. I want to hug you 24/7. I love you lots❤🧡💛💚💙💜
Incredible job capturing these thoughts/feelings/actions Shanny! This undoubtedly will resonate with many, and will provide explict insight to those who who need to learn and understand more about it. Thank you for making this vulnerable video-we're grateful you're here!! Proud of you!! ❤❤❤❤
This was so eye-opening. God bless you Shanny. I know this couldn't have been easy but you are really spreading awareness. We just never know what someone is struggling with.
Shanny-this video hit me so hard-bc ive had exact days that have went like this-holy schmugles-im literally crying rn-thank you for this-thank you so much. ❤❤❤❤❤
Thank u for making this video. Some people really don't know what it really looks like to have depression and I feel like u represented it very well. Thank u
I just watched this with my wife. It was every bit as gripping as a horror film, but SO VERY REAL. I couldn't escape the realization that I was watching my wife's worst moments. THANK you for making this EXCELLENT short film. Really incredible, I am amazed. I am sharing this immediately. It should have millions of views. The awareness it could spread is invaluable
I couldn't help but cry my way through this video, because I can relate to it on so many levels! I'm so glad I'm still here, and I'm so glad you're still here! This is going to help so many people who suffer with depression, and help people who don't have it understand what it's like to have it. Love you, so proud of you! 💜💜💜
Wow, this is so powerful and you showed how the struggles are like really well with the inner voices in your head! I’m so sorry this happened to you in the past, I’m proud of you and glad you are living your purpose
I absolutely loved this video. I think you did such a wonderful job in showing how real depression is and what it can do to a person. Very well done! Thank you for making this video. I’m sure it will help many!! Hugs to you!!
I really needed this. I've been suffering from depression and anxiety for 10 years now. These last few days have been one of those periods where depression feels much stronger and more oppressive than usual. I was already thinking of reaching out to a hotline, and this video pushed me further to do so. :) To whoever is reading this - If there's one thing that these 10 years of struggle taught me, is that these feelings do not last forever; everything always shifts, and we are never truly alone. There's always someone out there willing to help us or listen to us. And there's always someone in our lives who loves us and cares about us. Even when it doesn't feel like it. Especially when it doesn't feel like it. Lots of love. xx
I love how the ending is a push for the viewer to reach out when in need. This whole video shows to fight back against those thoughts, if even for one moment at a time, and dont let them win. Thank you shanny for making this 💜 From Kentucky
Incredibly powerful and so so accurate. Well done on putting this out. My love to you Shanny and anyone who is going through emotions like this right now. There are people ready, willing and able to help you if you reach out. ❤ Xxx
Shanny, you are incredibly brave opening up and sharing this very difficult day for you. Using your platform in such a honest way will reach so many and help many struggling tonight. Thank you You matter Shanny and I love you 🩷
Thank you so much for being raw and valuable and sharing this. I know it must have been hard for you,but I am so proud of you. I have struggled for years with mental health and debilitating depression. I could relate to this video in so many ways. I have exactly one year today since my last attempt. I have a new diagnosis and am on the proper medication now. It gets better . Again thank you for sharing your story. I am so proud of you
Shanny i just want to thank you. Seven years ago i was 13 and in hospital for depression and severe anorexia. Your videos helped me sooo much and that is the reason i admitted myself in the hospital and again at 20 i'm in the hospital after a huuge relapse you made this and it's just a masterpiece
I'm so so so proud of you shanny! I'm super excited for this video. You did an amazing job. Allow yourself to be proud of your hard work. You did that sis!
Thank you for making this. People have no idea what it's like, to spend all day battling with thoughts in your head, and trying to keep going. To seem 'normal' and 'fine' to others. Because you don't want them to know, and don't want to be even more of a burden than you already feel. It's something I'm still struggling with every day. Sometimes those thoughts are screaming at me and I'm surprised I've made it through to another day. Sometimes I wish I hadn't. I would never ever want anyone to experience it or suffer this. But at the same time, I feel less alone.
Wow this is really brilliantly done (tremendous film-making and art!) and so important. Giving a real glimpse into the power of these moments, your video is going to help a lot of people. ❤❤ You (and everyone reading this) matter. Every day you're helping someone you don't even know about or you being in the world is important even if you don't think you have anyone close to you.
As a long time supporter (of you personally) that’s had to dip in and out due to how destructive this channel can be, please go inpatient. Get some proper help. Set the example,girl x
I’m really proud of you shanny for sharing your story about this and for reaching out to other people who have gone through this too and can relate and share their own stories and experiences with depression 🩷 love you shanny :) so proud of you!!!🫶🏻💖
I’m in tears! This was so powerful and I know so hard to post! But you did it beautifully! Thank you for doing what you do to spread the message. I’ve been here before many times in my life. Thank you for this! Love you Shanny! 🖤
Wow Shanny, this is really incredible thank you! ❤I’ve been going to quite the depressive episode the last several months, though I can mask it quite well. This video really depicts the numbness & task paralysis that can be felt with depression.
Thank you Shanny, ive been severly depressed on and off my whole life and this gives me so much strenght ❤together we are strong and we have to keep on fighting! Love you SO much!!
Shanny, this is such a heartbreakingly beautiful video❤️ thank you for posting it and thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing this part of your life and what you’ve been through. My heart aches for you that this is based on true events but also I’m so proud of how far you’ve come ❤ this hit really close to home for me as someone who has lost a person extremely close to me to suicide and also as a suicide attempt survivor. The night that he died I was planning to end my life myself but losing him in a really traumatic tragic way in a twisted way kept me here. I don’t think I will ever fully recover from that loss. 5 years later and I am now just over a month attempt free and feeling so grateful to be alive and that God saved me. I love you so much Shanny and I’m beyond proud of you and thankful that you are here ❤️❤️❤️
So proud of you, Shanny!! This is so important and sadly accurate 😔 I’m so sorry you went through this yourself and lost a friend 😭💔💔💔 heartbroken I’ve lived with Major Clinical Depression and Anxiety for many many years and feel the emotion here as if it were me 💔 You did a phenomenal job with this short film. God bless anyone going through this. Take one more deep breath and keep fighting, everyone!! ❤ God Bless you, Shanny 🙏🏼
18:01 you know what is really interesting about this is, it's like when you were going to go through with your plan you kept getting calls from those who love you and care for you. Even through out the day. You know they care but your mind was distorted to a point of you almost being blind to seeing their love. I relate to that alot when l was in my worst moments.
Shanny even just a minute into the video I thought it feels like the time-is-moving-through-sludge-but-also-way-too-fast hyper-reality that depression feels like. it felt like looking out my own eyes. by the end, i feel like i saw flashes of who you were as a child, what lives inside you-- at least some of it lives in me too.
I’m so so soooo proud of you Shanny!! I know this must have been incredibly hard to film, edit and post. So many scenes made me feel seen and heard. Thank you for sharing the most vulnerable parts of your life with us ❤️
Thank you so much Shanny, for making this video. This is exactly how it is for me. The depression is so hard to combat! You really make me feel less alone. You did an awesome job on this film. I appreciate you and all the wonderful things you do and have done to encourage and support everyone who sees your videos. You are an inspiration and an extraordinary person. I love you and admire you and your work so much. Sending you so much love and hugs!! 💜💜💜
After watching this video, I messaged my friend I worry about. I rarely hear back so I dont message often but its better to send reminders anyway. Thank you for sharing this
I’m so sorry Shannon. I had no idea that all happened on the same day. I was shocked when you got that phone call. I started bawling. Also… Small world this Diane 😘 I’m proud of you!! Love you!!
Oh my gosh! This means so much to me!! It’s actually a few stories mixed into one! I’ll be explaining it all in the next video, but let me know if you wanna know more in the meantime! Love and appreciate you, sweet sister!! Thank you, thank you, thank youuu ❤❤❤
You Did It!!!!❤❤❤❤❤❤❤Well Done Girl❤❤❤❤❤❤ all the love in the world,you a freaking amazing and i hope one day you will truly feel my words,blessings to you for doing this, i know it wouldn't of been easy. Please breath as you have done yourself justice and fingers crossed you have every success with this one as well as your others xx So Proud Of You xx❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
This is a real accurate depiction of severe depression. It’s so bad that we don’t know about it that when it is happening you just think that you’re a misfit, rather than basically just having an illness. 😢 thank you for making this video and I really do hope this reaches a large audience because it’s so accurate !!!!
Dear shanny, you are such an angel, please believe me when I say that, I think you have such a beautiful heart that sometimes you put yourself after other everyone else, but please remember you can feel all these emotions, you are super amazing and truly I love you, I can relate to everything you say I wish I can talk to you in person✨you are spreading awareness and that is such a wonderful thing ❤please take care and I love your videos xoxo💕💕💕
Thank you for sharing. This was hard to watch but so accurate for those who suffer. As a mom myself the guilt over having these thoughts makes me feel worse..but it does get easier. Im in my journey of healing, suffering from seizures now..but eventually we will find the answers. Its hard. Life is so so hard. Spiritually i have days sometimes where I miss the peace. I miss something I can’t even remember but I feel it..i miss the peace our spirits had. I long to be with those Ive lost. But we are all here for a reason. I hate that saying but its true. Our Heavenly parents love us, and our parents here love us. Also rando question..but would you consider doing a podcast?? Ive been considering it…but don’t think id have a good following. Id love to share my story but..i would be looked down on by certain people in my life for sharing the ugly bits of life and mental health.
I would actually LOVE to do a podcast! I did one before with Jeremy from Tik tok, but it didn’t last too long. 😜 But I’ll consider it even more now. Thank you for the love and support, sweet girl! ❤❤❤
Shanny, I think this is the first time that I've commented on one of your videos but, would you please send me the links to your other "A day in the life of..." videos? A lot of things about you and your channel resonate with me and, of course, there are things that are different about us, but I wanted to let you know that you are SEEN and HEARD. YOU ARE VALID! ❤
Of course! A day in the life of bulimia: ruclips.net/video/N5YAZQgRDYM/видео.htmlsi=fPrDUCAmkpTqNOuO A day in the life of overweight anorexic: ruclips.net/video/kpsX8VSJkoU/видео.htmlsi=pnKRtGyGs8HnOb6C Thank you for watching! ❤
@@EDucating_Shanny Thank YOU for being here and for being so open and trying so hard to help others who are trying to recover while you're in a similar situation 🥰 My heart goes out to you every time I watch one of your videos and I'm not quite sure if it's because I want for you to not have to struggle any longer or if it's because I recognize so much of MYSELF in what you're going through. Either way, I can see us being really good friends if we lived close to each other and we could possibly even be a shoulder for each other to lean on when things get sticky. But hey, I'll take my friendships, education, and support any way I can get it! And I'll do my absolute best to be that person for you as well 💞
Hi Shanny❤ I don't know if you will see this but I just wanted to tell you how much this video means to me. This is by far the closest video I have ever seen that describes how I feel. It's a nightmare to feel this way and on top of that feeling like you let others down or don't want their help. They just don't get it. It's exhausting. I'm so sorry for the loss you suffered.😢 Big hugs for you. Just know that this will help so many people who are feeling hopeless. I'm one of them. Thank you. Love you!❤
Dearest Shanny, you make this world so much better and brighter for soooo many people ! Keep it up sunshine, wish this world had more people like you in it !!! 🥰🥰🥰
Dude, I love you so much. I love your videos. This is going to help so many people. I hope this blows up you’re amazing and I’m happy you are still alive and living to this day. I’m happy you gotten over this. This will help me get over this too.❤
Shanny, this is outstanding. Thank you for having the courage to make such an important video. No doubt, this will touch many lives. I have been watching your videos since 2015, and it's a privilege to share in your journey. I doubt you remember me; my name is Bethanne... I survived two, very serious suicide attempts, and I thank God everyday that He saved me from myself. I know the literal hell that depression is; I continue to live it everyday. But, I will never attempt to take my life again. I understand what a gift life is, no matter one's state. We all have value, even if we ourselves can't see it. Every person has a purpose, and I am still trying to figure out what my purpose is in this life. I've survived suicide attempts, eating disorders, cancer, and most recently a heart attack (2023), requiring bypass surgery. So I know I am supposed to be here... Shanny again, a huge "thank you". Also, my deepest condolences on the loss of your cherished friend. Sending you lots of love.
From 2010-2017 I had so many attempts and this is so spot on….. 7 years of recovery from SH and SI and 4 years of recovery from AN. Life does get better……
Hi Shanny, as someone on the autism spectrum with a several comorbidities with depression being one of them from relentless bullying, harsh judgment and ostracism. This has made me believe that no one liked or cared about me because I’ve lost friends over my challenges but in reality those aren’t true friends. Your video was so raw and heartbreaking yet inspiring. I’ve been watching you since high school and you’ve come such a long way and this video has helped me realize that I’m NOT a burden or a nuisance.❤
Fantastic work! It’s an important video. It really shows the persistence of these thoughts and urges. It is not easy. I relate to this video because years ago (before I started my channel), I had a similar situation. I was dealing with suicidal depression, and my cat had just died. I told my dearest friend that I might not be as available because I was grieving and dealing with depression. Well, my friend called, and I did not check the message until a few days later. It was too late. I’d gotten a call from a random person where my friend lived, telling me she was gone. She’d overdosed. The worst part was when I checked the message. She was crying out for help. I still have that message on my phone. I will never erase it. I don’t think I ever processed it properly. I sort of just went into shock. Then, I went numb. I stayed numb. I miss my friend very much! Now, I will tell you a second story: a few weeks ago, I went for a nature walk. I rarely think about my friend on these walks. She died years ago. Well, while I was walking, I saw bunches of purple and white wildflowers side by side, and I thought, “Oh, white is me, and purple is my friend (my friend only ever wore purple nail polish),” and I went on my way. A bit further down the trail, a hawk started following me, hopping from tree to tree. I’d never seen anything like it! It was just intently watching me as a walked up the hill (this hill is where I tell my mother I love her). I reached the summit, and the hawk was still watching. As I started down the other side of the hill, dozens (and I mean, dozens) of red-breasted robins flew up from the bushes on the ground, like butterflies. They circled me and circled me. It was gentle and amazing! It went on for a substantial period of time. I had never seen nor experienced anything like this in my life. It was like the universe was staring right at me. My dearest friend’s name was Robbin. There are things that are here that we cannot see nor comprehend. I swear that hawk was my mom, and the whirl of robins was Robbin. 💜 Keep up the excellent work! You’ve done something special with this. Lots of love, my friend! 💜🤗🫶💜
Thank you Shanny, for making this film. The world needs to know how much suicide sucks and that there is help. I lost my best friend in the world to suicide. It will be 10 years this September.. I'm still not ok, I don't think you ever fully recover from losing someone like this. She was 18 months younger than me, and my cousin, we lived down the road from each other and acted as sisters. We would walk halfway to each other to hang out. I miss her everyday. Wonder what would have could have been with her in her life. She was so kind and funny and very smart. your words of encouragement go through my brain daily. Because we are all good enough, smart enough and worth it😘😘 #suicide sucks #Imnotcryingyourecrying
I can relate to this video way more than I'd like to admit 😢 Depression is evil!! Thanks for sharing and letting people know there's help out there! Great job on the video! God bless 🙏❤
Ooof 14:35 those words hit hard and sounds similar to what my brain has said. I've had self-harming tendencies since I was 10. Its gotten better but now and then I will slip up. I used to believe I was crazy because I would be upset one minute and then I would be okay the next. i learned I had dysthemia. I've definitely had my own suicide attempts but also I'm not sure it counts because what I had done is a small amount of medicines and or do one where if I wanted to back out I can. Im sure if that actually counts since it never resulted in an emergency. I've also had suicidal ideations. Thankfully those aren't often. It sucks when your brain is constantly fighting at you. Thank you Shanny for this video. This took alot of strength to share. I do wish people understood how hard it can be.
I left a comment on instagram, but I just wanted to stop here and say that you should be so freaking proud of yourself for posting this. I imagine it wasn’t easy, but it was so well done. Question- what was the hardest part of making this film, and also what finally inspired you to post it? Much love and rainbows to you!
This is amazing Shanny. I'm so proud of you for this, not least because I know how afraid you were of sharing this. I lost my best friend to suicide, I was the one who found them and let me tell you all; no matter how much you convince yourself that the world will be better off without you or that you're a burden or you aren't good enough and would be better off gone (all things I have felt myself), NONE of it is true. Losing my best friend in this way has left a huge hole in my life and filled it will trauma I can never escape. I already had C-PTSD and this is by far the single worst trauma I've been through and I've lived through domestic violence in childhood and abusive partners in adulthood, among other things. You are not better off dead. The world will not be a better place without you, people won't get over losing you because you're loved and your life is worth so so much, even if you don't have people, you are important, you mean something to me even if I don't know you. Your life is priceless. There were 150 people at my best friends funeral and more watched on a livestream. They were the most loved person, most incredible human I've ever known and they thought that people would just move on without them. We haven't and we never will, we just live with the grief and the empty space they left. I"m so so very glad you're here. I'm so sorry to know you lost someone too, Shanny.
@@EDucating_ShannyThank YOU for making such an impactful and moving video. You've always been such an inspiration to me and I'm proud of you for this. ❤
💔I relate to this experience. Thank you so much for sharing this with the world. I don’t know if living with depression and anxiety is something most people can understand since it’s not portrayed realistically in the media. This was very real 😢
I love how there's almost two stories in one here, showing two different experiences. I'm more the type of person that wears a mask and fakes it, then the darker thoughts come at night when I'm alone. I also think it's good to see how different people struggle with the same issue. I see myself in a lot of this video, but also some things I didn't realize other people may struggle with.
I know you probably get comments all the time and people wanting to message you. I don’t know if you’ll even see this. This is THE best of any video about depression/mental illness I have ever seen. I just wanted to say thank you for making it. Everything about it, from routine, to inner thoughts, to the expressive facial expressions where you said nothing but said it all. Hopefully I can share this with people in my life who don’t understand me, the actual illness of depression which most people don’t even believe it is real. TMI cause not important but I saw it an immediately sent it to my mother who has never understood. Instead she said “why won’t you try different meds or treatments.” As in, I am not doing enough to take care of myself and the apathy and all. Ofc it’s my fault cause I don’t get more help. Like woman, I did ECT for a year. What else do you want. Ok sorry this turned into something else, but seriously. Thank you for making this and sharing it out for people to see. ❤
I felt like the that was me, i feel useless that everyone else has it togethér but i can't do a thing for myself much less for others, i know others talk about me and say i'm lazy and my life is useless, i look at others how they have will power to live and i do not, you are great human being Shanny, i have never done anything worth while with my life, do it is constanly in my mind the reason i do not is becouse.Jesus Christ that gave his life for us all, you are so talented and i know this shórt story will help a lot of people, thank you, and i have to change the picture becouse that is my husbund i know i told you once before just wanted to remind you , may our father in heaven continue blessing you. I love you. With love and peace always. Oslavy Ps.that's my name.❤😊
I am so so sorry that you had to go through this 😦😦 As someone who has been dealing with depression and anxiety for 14 years now it feels so relatable. The worst thing personally for me about having depression and anxiety is that it goes hand in hand. just on the weekend i stayed in bed all day and got up late because i just didnt have the energy just to get up and thought theres no point. I have been in therapy about 4-5 years now and there has been this suspicion about having undiagnosed ADHD. Its so great that nowadays we have more awareness spread around and mental health help resources being shared online. For everyone to read, your life is very precious and each day you are alive, you do make a change and you do matter!! Never forget that.
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PLEASE watch this video on full, (don’t spoil the ending please!!) 😜 alll the way to the end…WHEN you’re ready! This video has been on my brain to do for 8 years, but I’ve never been brave enough to do it. But I’m doing it now, and I’m sooo nervous!! 😅
I’ve put a lot of thought into this, and my goal is to just make at least one person out there to know they’re not alone, and that they CAN STAY AND FIGHT!
Please be respectful in the comments, and be sure you read the description of this video for more support.
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Love you allll! 💜💙💚💛🧡❤️
I'm crying at the part where you're crying. I'm so sorry you lost a friend this way. I know the pain far too well. I just want to ask how you're doing with that loss now? I'm so proud of you for reaching out when you needed to and I'm so proud of you for all you do to help others.
Did you look in to allergy testing btw? You deserve to do all you can to be as well as you can be and you may end up having far fewer problems with digestion if you figure out a sensitivity or allergy. Not pressuring you, I just wanted to follow up on the live you did the other day! Michelle. Xx
You did such a great job showing what it is really like. The internal voices that cannot be quieted is so real. Thank you for spreading awareness and understanding. I love you, and I'm so happy you're in a better place now. Look at all the people you are helping. I've struggled with depression for so long, and this is soo real.
I’ve been watching you since I was a teenager, I’m now 24, you have helped me tremendously with eating disorders, depression & anxiety. I really cannot thank you enough! I’m so happy & grateful that you’re here ❤️
all I want to do is reach out to the girl at the end of the video and tell her she's not alone and that it's okay to ask for help
so well done! If this was ten years ago and I found this video, it would hit me in the most encouraging ways. Seeing it now, I just want to hug everyone I know and tell them I'm never leaving them!
thanks, Shanny!
i'm sobbing at the ending. It's beautiful. It's poignant. It's a little triggering but not in a bad way. In a way that feels real. I haven't been truly suicidal in a long time, but that suicidal ideation creeps up every so often.
Havent seen your videos on my feed for a while so I am here after a couple years away. Thank you for showing the reality of this mental illness, and for staying strong. Love ya Shanny ❤🎉
I’ve had days like this, more than I could count. This video explains it perfectly.
You did an awesome job on this short film!! I really feel for people who suffer from chronic depression. Love you..💜
This is so great that you made this. It's nice seeing that I'm not alone. I'm happy I found your account a few years back. It's scary going through dark times and surviving through it makes me and everyone else strong.
It's such a relieving feeling to learn you aren't as alone as our brains want to convince us. You are loved. You are worth something. I believe in you.
It's so difficult to explain to people what it's like to experience depression. I know it couldn't have been easy for you to make this video, but it helps others to understand what it can be like. More importantly, it helps people who have depression to know they are not alone and that there are people who do understand. Thank you for your work and your courage.
Thanks for posting this video, Shanny! This is where I was a year ago. And it brought back a lot of emotions but I’ve been in counseling and getting help so I’m doing better now.
Shanny, your short film is an incredible statement on a serious situation to be in. It must have been very hard to face that time in your life and to make this film. I believe many will benefit from it. I hope it was cathartic for you. You are an amazing person to do this. You did a wonderful job on this film. Be proud of what you have done.
Oh Shanny.. this breaks my heart just to watch. I love you so much. Keep fighting. I’m fighting with you. I love you so much.🩵
This was gutwrenching and fantastic. Depression can make us so stuck inside ourselves that we forget to live, we forget that extending our hand out and taking hold of the hand of others means something.
I've had so many days like this. The internal battle, the whiplash of going back and forth, wrestling with the realization that I could go or stay, coming to a sure decision to leave and the pulling myself back over and over and over.
I may not be where I want to be, but I am surely not where I used to be. I wouldn't have ever believed that I could conquer this deep ache to leave. It's been a journey, but these thoughts don't have the power over me that they once had. Sometimes, we just have to accept we are here, the good and the bad included, the pains and the joys. We are here for a reason, and there is so much more to life than may meet the eye. Isolation will surely destroy us. We have to trust that we are loved, even when we feel unlovable. We have to trust that there is more than pain, even when we feel there is not. We have to trust we are not alone, even when we feel we are.
I am so proud of you, Shanny. You are beautiful inside and out. You are so gifted. You are so resilient. You are so loving and kind. You are so intelligent and creative. You are worth it.
Thank you for all your work, authenticity, and passion.
It’s crazy how loud that voice inside your head can get sometimes. You’re so brave and strong even when you’re not feeling it. I’m proud of you for fighting everyday. Sending you big hugs!
I have been there myself though never acted on my thoughts either. I hope this video reaches people who need to see they are not alone and hopefully they will choose to reach out for help from family, friends, or a helpline. So glad you made this video Shanny. People need to see this that are in this terrible place right now. Love You! 💓💓💓
I'm so, so proud of you for still being here!! You captured perfectly how insidious and convincing our brains can be. You are an absolute warrior and you inspire me so much. I want to hug you 24/7. I love you lots❤🧡💛💚💙💜
Incredible job capturing these thoughts/feelings/actions Shanny! This undoubtedly will resonate with many, and will provide explict insight to those who who need to learn and understand more about it. Thank you for making this vulnerable video-we're grateful you're here!! Proud of you!! ❤❤❤❤
This was so eye-opening. God bless you Shanny. I know this couldn't have been easy but you are really spreading awareness. We just never know what someone is struggling with.
Shanny-this video hit me so hard-bc ive had exact days that have went like this-holy schmugles-im literally crying rn-thank you for this-thank you so much. ❤❤❤❤❤
Thank u for making this video. Some people really don't know what it really looks like to have depression and I feel like u represented it very well. Thank u
I just watched this with my wife. It was every bit as gripping as a horror film, but SO VERY REAL. I couldn't escape the realization that I was watching my wife's worst moments. THANK you for making this EXCELLENT short film. Really incredible, I am amazed. I am sharing this immediately. It should have millions of views. The awareness it could spread is invaluable
That means so much! Thank you, thank you! Give your wife my love! ❤❤❤❤❤
I cant say enough about this video. I love it. So much.
so proud of you ❤ what a beautiful video
I couldn't help but cry my way through this video, because I can relate to it on so many levels! I'm so glad I'm still here, and I'm so glad you're still here! This is going to help so many people who suffer with depression, and help people who don't have it understand what it's like to have it. Love you, so proud of you! 💜💜💜
Wow, this is so powerful and you showed how the struggles are like really well with the inner voices in your head! I’m so sorry this happened to you in the past, I’m proud of you and glad you are living your purpose
I absolutely loved this video. I think you did such a wonderful job in showing how real depression is and what it can do to a person. Very well done! Thank you for making this video. I’m sure it will help many!! Hugs to you!!
I really needed this. I've been suffering from depression and anxiety for 10 years now. These last few days have been one of those periods where depression feels much stronger and more oppressive than usual. I was already thinking of reaching out to a hotline, and this video pushed me further to do so. :) To whoever is reading this - If there's one thing that these 10 years of struggle taught me, is that these feelings do not last forever; everything always shifts, and we are never truly alone. There's always someone out there willing to help us or listen to us. And there's always someone in our lives who loves us and cares about us. Even when it doesn't feel like it. Especially when it doesn't feel like it. Lots of love. xx
Keep staying strong! Reaching out for help is incredibly hard, but worth it.
I love how the ending is a push for the viewer to reach out when in need.
This whole video shows to fight back against those thoughts, if even for one moment at a time, and dont let them win.
Thank you shanny for making this
💜 From Kentucky
Incredibly powerful and so so accurate. Well done on putting this out. My love to you Shanny and anyone who is going through emotions like this right now. There are people ready, willing and able to help you if you reach out. ❤ Xxx
😭😭😭😭😭😭this broke my heart 💔buy im glad you are still here
Shanny, you are incredibly brave opening up and sharing this very difficult day for you. Using your platform in such a honest way will reach so many and help many struggling tonight.
Thank you
You matter Shanny and I love you 🩷
Most triggered by that alarm noise 😂
I jumped 😭😭
Thank you for being so honest about this. It’s the most realistic depiction I’ve seen
Oh my gosh Shanny this was a great video that really hit home. Love to you
Your husband and family would be LOST without you, Shanny.
Thank you so much for being raw and valuable and sharing this. I know it must have been hard for you,but I am so proud of you. I have struggled for years with mental health and debilitating depression. I could relate to this video in so many ways. I have exactly one year today since my last attempt. I have a new diagnosis and am on the proper medication now. It gets better . Again thank you for sharing your story. I am so proud of you
Shanny i just want to thank you. Seven years ago i was 13 and in hospital for depression and severe anorexia. Your videos helped me sooo much and that is the reason i admitted myself in the hospital and again at 20 i'm in the hospital after a huuge relapse you made this and it's just a masterpiece
I'm so so so proud of you shanny! I'm super excited for this video. You did an amazing job. Allow yourself to be proud of your hard work. You did that sis!
Thank you for making this.
People have no idea what it's like, to spend all day battling with thoughts in your head, and trying to keep going. To seem 'normal' and 'fine' to others. Because you don't want them to know, and don't want to be even more of a burden than you already feel.
It's something I'm still struggling with every day. Sometimes those thoughts are screaming at me and I'm surprised I've made it through to another day.
Sometimes I wish I hadn't.
I would never ever want anyone to experience it or suffer this. But at the same time, I feel less alone.
Wow this is really brilliantly done (tremendous film-making and art!) and so important. Giving a real glimpse into the power of these moments, your video is going to help a lot of people. ❤❤ You (and everyone reading this) matter. Every day you're helping someone you don't even know about or you being in the world is important even if you don't think you have anyone close to you.
As a long time supporter (of you personally) that’s had to dip in and out due to how destructive this channel can be, please go inpatient. Get some proper help. Set the example,girl x
I agree with this wholeheartedly. The best ending would have been going inpatient.
Speechless. Love you so much. Thank you for making this. ❤
I’m really proud of you shanny for sharing your story about this and for reaching out to other people who have gone through this too and can relate and share their own stories and experiences with depression 🩷 love you shanny :) so proud of you!!!🫶🏻💖
So proud of u. I do not think u know the impact u have on so many people. U are beyond amazing. We all love u ❤️ 💗 💓
I’m in tears! This was so powerful and I know so hard to post! But you did it beautifully! Thank you for doing what you do to spread the message. I’ve been here before many times in my life. Thank you for this! Love you Shanny! 🖤
Wow Shanny, this is really incredible thank you! ❤I’ve been going to quite the depressive episode the last several months, though I can mask it quite well. This video really depicts the numbness & task paralysis that can be felt with depression.
Great job Shanny, this was raw, honest and relitibul. You are awesome lots of love and prayers from Sara💝🙏
This is so relatable
Thank you Shanny, ive been severly depressed on and off my whole life and this gives me so much strenght ❤together we are strong and we have to keep on fighting! Love you SO much!!
So proud of you. Powerful video. Lotsly love 💚💚💚
Very impactful. Thanks Shanny. I can relate on some levels. ❤ Love to you.
Shanny, this is such a heartbreakingly beautiful video❤️ thank you for posting it and thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing this part of your life and what you’ve been through. My heart aches for you that this is based on true events but also I’m so proud of how far you’ve come ❤ this hit really close to home for me as someone who has lost a person extremely close to me to suicide and also as a suicide attempt survivor. The night that he died I was planning to end my life myself but losing him in a really traumatic tragic way in a twisted way kept me here. I don’t think I will ever fully recover from that loss. 5 years later and I am now just over a month attempt free and feeling so grateful to be alive and that God saved me. I love you so much Shanny and I’m beyond proud of you and thankful that you are here ❤️❤️❤️
So proud of you, Shanny!! This is so important and sadly accurate 😔 I’m so sorry you went through this yourself and lost a friend 😭💔💔💔 heartbroken
I’ve lived with Major Clinical Depression and Anxiety for many many years and feel the emotion here as if it were me 💔 You did a phenomenal job with this short film. God bless anyone going through this. Take one more deep breath and keep fighting, everyone!! ❤ God Bless you, Shanny 🙏🏼
18:01 you know what is really interesting about this is, it's like when you were going to go through with your plan you kept getting calls from those who love you and care for you. Even through out the day.
You know they care but your mind was distorted to a point of you almost being blind to seeing their love.
I relate to that alot when l was in my worst moments.
Shanny even just a minute into the video I thought it feels like the time-is-moving-through-sludge-but-also-way-too-fast hyper-reality that depression feels like. it felt like looking out my own eyes. by the end, i feel like i saw flashes of who you were as a child, what lives inside you-- at least some of it lives in me too.
I’m so so soooo proud of you Shanny!! I know this must have been incredibly hard to film, edit and post.
So many scenes made me feel seen and heard. Thank you for sharing the most vulnerable parts of your life with us ❤️
That one got me good😢. Stunning Work!
AMAZING VIDEO Shanny!! Thank you!! ❤❤❤
This turned out so good! I'm so proud of you!
Thank you so much Shanny, for making this video. This is exactly how it is for me. The depression is so hard to combat! You really make me feel less alone. You did an awesome job on this film. I appreciate you and all the wonderful things you do and have done to encourage and support everyone who sees your videos. You are an inspiration and an extraordinary person. I love you and admire you and your work so much. Sending you so much love and hugs!! 💜💜💜
Thank you for making this! You are brave and inspiring.
After watching this video, I messaged my friend I worry about. I rarely hear back so I dont message often but its better to send reminders anyway. Thank you for sharing this
This is an eye opening video. I hope it educates those who havent had thus experience and helps them to understand this
Thank you so much for this. I love these videos so much. Makes me feel not alone.
Thank you for posting this video. I also suffer from depression, and have been in that dark place. Really can relate to this.
This video is art. Thank you so much for your bravery and to open up about this very important topic. So glad you are alive ❤
I’m so sorry Shannon. I had no idea that all happened on the same day. I was shocked when you got that phone call. I started bawling.
Also… Small world this Diane 😘
I’m proud of you!! Love you!!
Oh my gosh! This means so much to me!! It’s actually a few stories mixed into one! I’ll be explaining it all in the next video, but let me know if you wanna know more in the meantime! Love and appreciate you, sweet sister!! Thank you, thank you, thank youuu ❤❤❤
Wait…Who’s Diane?? 😂
@@EDucating_Shanny someone I know VERY well!
Its amazing how you can never kno wats really going on in someone's head 22:03
i got chills watching this because it’s so relatable. thank you for sharing this Shanny🫶🫶💙 i cried watching it too
You Did It!!!!❤❤❤❤❤❤❤Well Done Girl❤❤❤❤❤❤ all the love in the world,you a freaking amazing and i hope one day you will truly feel my words,blessings to you for doing this, i know it wouldn't of been easy. Please breath as you have done yourself justice and fingers crossed you have every success with this one as well as your others xx So Proud Of You xx❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
This is a real accurate depiction of severe depression. It’s so bad that we don’t know about it that when it is happening you just think that you’re a misfit, rather than basically just having an illness. 😢 thank you for making this video and I really do hope this reaches a large audience because it’s so accurate !!!!
Dear shanny, you are such an angel, please believe me when I say that, I think you have such a beautiful heart that sometimes you put yourself after other everyone else, but please remember you can feel all these emotions, you are super amazing and truly I love you, I can relate to everything you say I wish I can talk to you in person✨you are spreading awareness and that is such a wonderful thing ❤please take care and I love your videos xoxo💕💕💕
You did such a great job on this Shan! Depression is such a struggle and should be addressed like this more ❤
Thank you for sharing. This was hard to watch but so accurate for those who suffer. As a mom myself the guilt over having these thoughts makes me feel worse..but it does get easier. Im in my journey of healing, suffering from seizures now..but eventually we will find the answers. Its hard. Life is so so hard. Spiritually i have days sometimes where I miss the peace. I miss something I can’t even remember but I feel it..i miss the peace our spirits had. I long to be with those Ive lost. But we are all here for a reason. I hate that saying but its true. Our Heavenly parents love us, and our parents here love us.
Also rando question..but would you consider doing a podcast?? Ive been considering it…but don’t think id have a good following. Id love to share my story but..i would be looked down on by certain people in my life for sharing the ugly bits of life and mental health.
I would actually LOVE to do a podcast! I did one before with Jeremy from Tik tok, but it didn’t last too long. 😜 But I’ll consider it even more now. Thank you for the love and support, sweet girl! ❤❤❤
Shanny, I think this is the first time that I've commented on one of your videos but, would you please send me the links to your other "A day in the life of..." videos? A lot of things about you and your channel resonate with me and, of course, there are things that are different about us, but I wanted to let you know that you are SEEN and HEARD. YOU ARE VALID! ❤
Of course!
A day in the life of bulimia: ruclips.net/video/N5YAZQgRDYM/видео.htmlsi=fPrDUCAmkpTqNOuO
A day in the life of overweight anorexic: ruclips.net/video/kpsX8VSJkoU/видео.htmlsi=pnKRtGyGs8HnOb6C
Thank you for watching! ❤
@@EDucating_Shanny Thank YOU for being here and for being so open and trying so hard to help others who are trying to recover while you're in a similar situation 🥰 My heart goes out to you every time I watch one of your videos and I'm not quite sure if it's because I want for you to not have to struggle any longer or if it's because I recognize so much of MYSELF in what you're going through. Either way, I can see us being really good friends if we lived close to each other and we could possibly even be a shoulder for each other to lean on when things get sticky. But hey, I'll take my friendships, education, and support any way I can get it! And I'll do my absolute best to be that person for you as well 💞
Hi Shanny❤ I don't know if you will see this but I just wanted to tell you how much this video means to me.
This is by far the closest video I have ever seen that describes how I feel. It's a nightmare to feel this way and on top of that feeling like you let others down or don't want their help. They just don't get it. It's exhausting.
I'm so sorry for the loss you suffered.😢 Big hugs for you.
Just know that this will help so many people who are feeling hopeless. I'm one of them. Thank you. Love you!❤
Dearest Shanny, you make this world so much better and brighter for soooo many people ! Keep it up sunshine, wish this world had more people like you in it !!! 🥰🥰🥰
Dude, I love you so much. I love your videos. This is going to help so many people. I hope this blows up you’re amazing and I’m happy you are still alive and living to this day. I’m happy you gotten over this. This will help me get over this too.❤
Shanny, this is outstanding. Thank you for having the courage to make such an important video. No doubt, this will touch many lives. I have been watching your videos since 2015, and it's a privilege to share in your journey. I doubt you remember me; my name is Bethanne... I survived two, very serious suicide attempts, and I thank God everyday that He saved me from myself. I know the literal hell that depression is; I continue to live it everyday. But, I will never attempt to take my life again. I understand what a gift life is, no matter one's state. We all have value, even if we ourselves can't see it. Every person has a purpose, and I am still trying to figure out what my purpose is in this life. I've survived suicide attempts, eating disorders, cancer, and most recently a heart attack (2023), requiring bypass surgery. So I know I am supposed to be here... Shanny again, a huge "thank you". Also, my deepest condolences on the loss of your cherished friend. Sending you lots of love.
From 2010-2017 I had so many attempts and this is so spot on….. 7 years of recovery from SH and SI and 4 years of recovery from AN. Life does get better……
I haven’t had time to watch yet but wanted to show my support 💜
Hi Shanny, as someone on the autism spectrum with a several comorbidities with depression being one of them from relentless bullying, harsh judgment and ostracism. This has made me believe that no one liked or cared about me because I’ve lost friends over my challenges but in reality those aren’t true friends. Your video was so raw and heartbreaking yet inspiring. I’ve been watching you since high school and you’ve come such a long way and this video has helped me realize that I’m NOT a burden or a nuisance.❤
Fantastic work! It’s an important video. It really shows the persistence of these thoughts and urges. It is not easy.
I relate to this video because years ago (before I started my channel), I had a similar situation. I was dealing with suicidal depression, and my cat had just died. I told my dearest friend that I might not be as available because I was grieving and dealing with depression. Well, my friend called, and I did not check the message until a few days later. It was too late. I’d gotten a call from a random person where my friend lived, telling me she was gone. She’d overdosed. The worst part was when I checked the message. She was crying out for help.
I still have that message on my phone. I will never erase it. I don’t think I ever processed it properly. I sort of just went into shock. Then, I went numb. I stayed numb. I miss my friend very much!
Now, I will tell you a second story: a few weeks ago, I went for a nature walk. I rarely think about my friend on these walks. She died years ago. Well, while I was walking, I saw bunches of purple and white wildflowers side by side, and I thought, “Oh, white is me, and purple is my friend (my friend only ever wore purple nail polish),” and I went on my way. A bit further down the trail, a hawk started following me, hopping from tree to tree. I’d never seen anything like it! It was just intently watching me as a walked up the hill (this hill is where I tell my mother I love her).
I reached the summit, and the hawk was still watching. As I started down the other side of the hill, dozens (and I mean, dozens) of red-breasted robins flew up from the bushes on the ground, like butterflies. They circled me and circled me. It was gentle and amazing! It went on for a substantial period of time. I had never seen nor experienced anything like this in my life. It was like the universe was staring right at me.
My dearest friend’s name was Robbin.
There are things that are here that we cannot see nor comprehend. I swear that hawk was my mom, and the whirl of robins was Robbin. 💜
Keep up the excellent work! You’ve done something special with this. Lots of love, my friend! 💜🤗🫶💜
Thank you Shanny, for making this film. The world needs to know how much suicide sucks and that there is help. I lost my best friend in the world to suicide. It will be 10 years this September.. I'm still not ok, I don't think you ever fully recover from losing someone like this. She was 18 months younger than me, and my cousin, we lived down the road from each other and acted as sisters. We would walk halfway to each other to hang out. I miss her everyday. Wonder what would have could have been with her in her life. She was so kind and funny and very smart. your words of encouragement go through my brain daily. Because we are all good enough, smart enough and worth it😘😘 #suicide sucks #Imnotcryingyourecrying
I can relate to this video way more than I'd like to admit 😢 Depression is evil!! Thanks for sharing and letting people know there's help out there! Great job on the video! God bless 🙏❤
Ooof 14:35 those words hit hard and sounds similar to what my brain has said.
I've had self-harming tendencies since I was 10. Its gotten better but now and then I will slip up. I used to believe I was crazy because I would be upset one minute and then I would be okay the next. i learned I had dysthemia.
I've definitely had my own suicide attempts but also I'm not sure it counts because what I had done is a small amount of medicines and or do one where if I wanted to back out I can. Im sure if that actually counts since it never resulted in an emergency. I've also had suicidal ideations. Thankfully those aren't often. It sucks when your brain is constantly fighting at you.
Thank you Shanny for this video. This took alot of strength to share. I do wish people understood how hard it can be.
I left a comment on instagram, but I just wanted to stop here and say that you should be so freaking proud of yourself for posting this. I imagine it wasn’t easy, but it was so well done. Question- what was the hardest part of making this film, and also what finally inspired you to post it? Much love and rainbows to you!
This made me sad to watch as I care about you a lot but girl if your one thing in this world it’s that your a warrior.
I really thought this was going to be a “day in the life of a binge eater” one. Im so glad it’s not. You did a great job on this one. X
Should do more of these short videos
Thank you sooo much!! I've been there many times. ❤ this video hits home. Big hugs.
This is amazing Shanny. I'm so proud of you for this, not least because I know how afraid you were of sharing this.
I lost my best friend to suicide, I was the one who found them and let me tell you all; no matter how much you convince yourself that the world will be better off without you or that you're a burden or you aren't good enough and would be better off gone (all things I have felt myself), NONE of it is true. Losing my best friend in this way has left a huge hole in my life and filled it will trauma I can never escape. I already had C-PTSD and this is by far the single worst trauma I've been through and I've lived through domestic violence in childhood and abusive partners in adulthood, among other things.
You are not better off dead. The world will not be a better place without you, people won't get over losing you because you're loved and your life is worth so so much, even if you don't have people, you are important, you mean something to me even if I don't know you. Your life is priceless.
There were 150 people at my best friends funeral and more watched on a livestream. They were the most loved person, most incredible human I've ever known and they thought that people would just move on without them. We haven't and we never will, we just live with the grief and the empty space they left.
I"m so so very glad you're here. I'm so sorry to know you lost someone too, Shanny.
Wow. Powerful. Thank you for sharing this! Thank you. Thank you. ❤
@@EDucating_ShannyThank YOU for making such an impactful and moving video. You've always been such an inspiration to me and I'm proud of you for this. ❤
💔I relate to this experience. Thank you so much for sharing this with the world. I don’t know if living with depression and anxiety is something most people can understand since it’s not portrayed realistically in the media. This was very real 😢
I love how there's almost two stories in one here, showing two different experiences. I'm more the type of person that wears a mask and fakes it, then the darker thoughts come at night when I'm alone. I also think it's good to see how different people struggle with the same issue. I see myself in a lot of this video, but also some things I didn't realize other people may struggle with.
You did a wonderful job❤
well done video
I know you probably get comments all the time and people wanting to message you. I don’t know if you’ll even see this. This is THE best of any video about depression/mental illness I have ever seen. I just wanted to say thank you for making it. Everything about it, from routine, to inner thoughts, to the expressive facial expressions where you said nothing but said it all. Hopefully I can share this with people in my life who don’t understand me, the actual illness of depression which most people don’t even believe it is real. TMI cause not important but I saw it an immediately sent it to my mother who has never understood. Instead she said “why won’t you try different meds or treatments.” As in, I am not doing enough to take care of myself and the apathy and all. Ofc it’s my fault cause I don’t get more help. Like woman, I did ECT for a year. What else do you want. Ok sorry this turned into something else, but seriously. Thank you for making this and sharing it out for people to see. ❤
I AM
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I felt like the that was me, i feel useless that everyone else has it togethér but i can't do a thing for myself much less for others, i know others talk about me and say i'm lazy and my life is useless, i look at others how they have will power to live and i do not, you are great human being Shanny, i have never done anything worth while with my life, do it is constanly in my mind the reason i do not is becouse.Jesus Christ that gave his life for us all, you are so talented and i know this shórt story will help a lot of people, thank you, and i have to change the picture becouse that is my husbund i know i told you once before just wanted to remind you , may our father in heaven continue blessing you. I love you.
With love and peace always.
Oslavy
Ps.that's my name.❤😊
I am so so sorry that you had to go through this 😦😦
As someone who has been dealing with depression and anxiety for 14 years now it feels so relatable.
The worst thing personally for me about having depression and anxiety is that it goes hand in hand.
just on the weekend i stayed in bed all day and got up late because i just didnt have the energy just to get up and thought theres no point.
I have been in therapy about 4-5 years now and there has been this suspicion about having undiagnosed ADHD.
Its so great that nowadays we have more awareness spread around and mental health help resources being shared online.
For everyone to read, your life is very precious and each day you are alive, you do make a change and you do matter!!
Never forget that.