1- A recognition of suffering 11:25 2- Recognizing the nature of thought and doubt 15:18 3- A curiosity that arises, What am i really ? 18:27 4- Recognizing the unknown 20:35 5- Simply instinct 22:25 6- Surrender to the process 23:20
There is so much innocence here. There are thoughts that protection of this vulnerability might be good, but those thoughts are like a pebble in a pond- they drop and land nowhere. It’s intense, and so new. Thanks for everything you do Angelo. It is so appreciated and beautiful
43 - “fought” depression and anxiety my whole life. I am finally beginning to realize what a beautiful gift it is - to be in touch with the “unsatisfactoriness.” Right now I believe my journey is to look at those feelings deeply, to acknowledge them, to feel them, not fight them. Am I those feelings? Who or what is feeling this? It seems that many people have experienced depression as a catalyst for awakening. If so, what a beautiful gift! And, the more I do this, the less “depressed” I feel. But, the point is not to reduce depression…that is just a bonus. I have a profound sense of standing on the edge of so with amazing - I’m not there yet but it’s close and I can feel it. Your videos and meditations have come at the right time - 5 years ago I wouldn’t have been ready.
@@danielgriebling6123 I’m also 43 and found lots of ways to distract from my depression over the years.. mainly a military career in special operations that gave me a lot of worldly purpose. When I retired 2 years ago the depression came back and the crazy thing is the more I wake up the more existential fear and dread arise. I think we’re on the right track though
And you've done a lot of videos on this subject, but I love all the pointers. It's like you're saying "what about this pointer?.... what about this one? And this one?...." You provide a wonderful service. Thank you Angelo.
Small suggestion: the video is very successful at guiding you into the meditative/inquiring 'state' (so to speak) that is hinted at, so it might be nice to leave a bit of time at the end with just the ambience and visuals to let the viewer bask in that space of the present. Also as a side note: I'm glad that you're sharing this with people. This channel wasn't my introduction to awakening, but this honed, simple, and fundamental approach to it is what resonates the most and I imagine there's lots of other people who won't really develop an interest unless exposed to it in this more secular and direct form.
So profound & truth. There’s nowhere really to look any more, but right here, this just is & is the only way. The letting go will take me & not sure where I will end up, but in my heart I know it’s worth the plunge. You have changed my life, whatever that means now, as my life as I believed it to be dosent exist anymore, as everything I was & took myself to be is leaving me. Thank you you are a light to the lost Angelo. Because of you, I’m losing myself..This is what I always wanted to find, I forever have sought for the truth of reality, now that I’m experiencing it, a part of me holds my VR goggles, just for some comfort, because the peace I feel with presence, the world I envisioned & tried so hard to change could never give me. Wish I had of known sooner. I’m 48 yrs old (it’s just a fleeting thought), I’m not moving. But I am scared of flying 😉
That happens to me, too. I seem to see the light, then move back into the worldly state. I think it does take ongoing practice. Being Awake is not like "learning a new fact" and then you know it forever.
I realized over the past couple of days that my method of inquiry was and always has been, an inquiry of the nature of the ego . A Course in Miracles says not to fall into the trap of analyzing the Ego because IT loves when you do that. Even though I’ve said that so many times over the past almost 2 years, I didn’t really understand inquiry WITHOUT doing this. I am discovering through these videos what true inquiry is! Thank you so much👍. I was blown away by the time exercises and the question “Do you really need beliefs?”. 🤯
listened early this morning...every word...described my experience of living...wandering & identified almost completely w the reflections of consciousness...missing, not seeing the obvious... here now❤...am being let go
And maybe the best and final advice is to STOP seeking. I’m feeling that it’s time to say so long to the teachers and gurus. I’m reaching the shore. Thank you Angelo for being a lighthouse.
Thanks for the sharing the love of truth, to help guide us. Love and courage to all to come here. Gratitude, Peace and Love to you and Violet for your selfless very helpful sharing of experiences of life, for the good of ALL.
Could you give advice on surrender vs following your passion - If you feel stuck or like you’re in a slump, how do you know if it’s life telling you you need to change certain exterior aspects of your life around such as your career path and pursue a passion in order to start feeling better again. Or if it’s life telling you to simply surrender and embrace and feel what is appearing. How do you navigate between the two
Last Sunday when I watched your video, I was brought to tears. Was awesome. Keep doing videos. I'm in Parker, Colorado. Wouldn't mind bumping into you.
I'm so thankful for your clear articulation of this process. I've been going through this process the last several years and it's been amplifying in the last several months. Thinks are clicking into place in a deep felt sense that is ineffable. Thank you for your videos. Much appreciated !
Wow, thank you so much for this video. Love the directness of this one. At the end when you talk about letting go, it almost "defeated" my mind, I feel like I caught a glimpse of The Edge.
These are very good pointers❤, the thinking system is so used to see the world through its own system, that it was not imaginable for this system that the "world" is not only subject object reality, yes, it asks how can I see behind objects, behind imagination, behind the world I have created as real... it is totally blind behind in this. It asks how can the world be seen without the tools I have to see it? , behind the thinking or imagination, ...? And the answer comes by itself.. There is actually something else behind this system behind the thoughts, feelings, stories. it can be seen but can't be explained since the only tool we have to explaine it have to go through the system that do not see it 😅.
Thank you so much for sharing your wisdom. I have experience all the pointers you are speaking about, how does remembering take a part? The stronger your memory more understanding? 🙏❤
Re being in a group. I joined the Headless Way group & soon felt BAD about being there, even tho I had several "realizations". Not saying the group was good or bad, just that I was NOT comfortable there, so I STOPPED attending meetings. I'm not good in or at groups & tend to BOTHER others! 😮
Thank you!! ❤ I have a hard time getting my head around the kind of suffering I go through which is based in OCD. I almost feel like it’s outside the suffering that spiritual teachers talk about which is more inherent in life itself. Mine just seems like there’s no purpose to it and it just reeks havoc on my life without serving this spiritual path. Just wondering what your take is on mental issues based on say, brain chemistry. 🙏
@@rhondamurphy4494 Thank you for your response! I suppose Angelo didn’t have an answer:-) I don’t do shadow work but I’ve done a lot of ERP and it didn’t work well enough. Who or what would you recommend for showdown work? 🙏
Hello! I have suffered from both what could be diagnosed as OCD as well as Genaralized anxiety disorder. Much less so these days. Should add that Im a licenced clinical psychologist. There are a couple of key insights that I found very helpful on my own healing journey. 1. There may not seem to be a purpose with the e.g. intrusive thoughts, and there may well not be. However. At some point, whatever started the chain of "karma" or just mind patterns, came from a place of trying to help. This may have been at some point in childhood or in our adolescence or even in adulthood as a response to a situation where peace and happiness was not possible. Often, there has been some form of trauma or overwhelm involved. An example of this innocent response can be found in my grandfathers story of his childhood. His mother died when he was just 8 or 9 and his father was extremely abusive. His mental system, in order to create some form of experience of control and meaning, created thoughts in his mind, which convinced him that if he did not collect at least 8 blueberries from the forest where he lived, his brother would die also. He did this for some time. When my mother asked when he stopped, he said he didnt remember stopping. This can happen to any of us in situations where a sense of control is involontarily removed from us. Since as sense of control is what is necessary for any ego-identified individual for survival, our mind does what it can in order to create a sense of it. Even if it is only to provide this experience of control alone, with no bearing on external reality. Can you see how deeply we need compassion for such a predicament? Such suffering is completely innocent. Founded in a need for safety and feeling taken care of. Every single one of your thoughts, as well as your reactions to those thoughts have been attempts at peace, love and happiness. They are deserving of respect, love and care and so are you
I tried to understand this video but I couldn't, I'm trying to understand what being conscious of consciousness means. I just can"t if finding contentment in thoughts doesn't work then I just need to find that in my experience of existing right? how am I supposed to do that when I have thoughts about how I should have an experience, when it only keeps me from experiencing things without thinking. I cant make it happen but that only is understood from having gotten there from the sense that I was engaging this process so I guess I just need to give in to the illusion that I'm the one doing this to see when I'm not. Was thinking about how old my mom looked while watching this, what's worse is that I have had these repeating thoughts of "what will you do when people start to get older at thirty you better learn how to spend time with them before it's too late, all the while playing video games because I could not stand to be bored since twelve, my family loves me I know that and I couldn't have asked for a better mom, yet I never got any help for these thoughts when they started to appear at six and seven but not till twelve would it start to happen more than once couple a months and haunt me weekly or every other day for maybe several points of the day. By fifteen it be all day everyday and started to get worse up till eighteen till it plateaued, yet this has all been before! i've turned forty five all before the shittiestparts of life that ive spent my entire life worrying about even happened. What will I do thoughts like you said won't help it will only make me suffer more. I had a change half a year ago where I re-had an experience that occurred at seven where I was just in the presence of being, where self knowledge existed ontologically, with an understanding of what I was without any knowledge or thoughts. Unlike at seven this was much more subtle and tame I didn't dissolve like at seven thought my sense of who I am was looser not so much in my thoughts. Yet I cant make that happen, ugghhhhh, suppose I must treat it like sleep where sleeping is not an action but rather something that you can modify the likelihood of occuring by dimming the lights laying in bed and turning the volume down. So I have to influence this process rather than direct it, like with my attention to my attention, softly with a loose concentration that can be sustained through its discontinuity while having it involuntarily return. It feels like theres this awkward spot where its sometimes something I don't regulate whatsoever and other times it feels like I'm doing it all. I just am tired of being in despair, have wondered sometimes if most of the valence from thinking comes from my visual imagination, if maybe I were to be an aphasic then maybe my thoughts wouldnt feel so bad. The more detailed my thoughts are visually the more they sting, and that is unfortunate since my imagination is very vivid it's why I have a gift for painting, although I probably could paint with aphasia if I had it so that's probably not true. Although the part on suffering from thoughts by visual imagination I'm not sure on, wonder if there are any studies on, that's besides the point. I understand this video but only when I'm not the one doing this, which is so frustrating. Maybe I just need to feel everything rather than evaluating my feelings in order to have this first shift. I think as long as I can break out of the habit of thinking about my feelings then ill be ok. That may be eighty percent of what I need to do, oh boy shame here I come!!!
Re "GROUP EGO". i found that ego in 12 step Recovery groups, every Religion & nondual group, club, communitee, gang, school, family, band, friendship, etc. that i was ever near or part of!!! Group Ego = "We vs them!" ...We are BETTER THAN you!!! IT'S SICK!!!! 😢😢😢
I don't have that feeling of being generally unsatisfied, so I'm not suffering. Is there something wrong with me perusing Awakening when I don't consider that I suffer? I have searched, there is not this type of suffering within me at all. How do I make myself suffer?
Just my experience, but the greatest value of meditation (i.e., a regular time of stable attention spent in relative seclusion) comes from experiencing suffering (and joy) right there on the cushion (or chair or mattress). If one meditates to get a reprieve from suffering, a real opportunity is missed to investigate the (empty and fluid) nature of suffering--(gently) turning towards physical and mental pain can be a real game changer. And this approach then needs to be taken off the cushion into daily life--there's no real separation between these settings (or anything at all).
Okay it happened and I can explain Elon’s problem with V12 FSD and clearing out all the responses I could possibly have in all situations put there by me and my ego. Elon must have named That blue line, our possible intended paths in FSD. As I solved the problem with my large library of responses (they all marched out together the other night in another of your videos); and in today’s video I realized (because I have been using FSD) having all of Ego’s responses gone, I can see reality as it is, I have a new identity. The solution for V12 is essentially the reverse of this! I would love to take my new self and work on Elon’s team solving FSD, I really think I can see some of what needs to be done.
Hey Angelo - not sure if you've had other people ask this but practicing both mediation and inquiry has released energy through my body that causes intense body shaking and physical pain. The phenomenon is directly related to mindfulness. It feels "blocked" at my throat. I've had this energy blockage issue for 3-4 years now and I don't know what to do with it. Can you shed any light on how to navigate this as I have no idea what - if anything - I have to do about it.
I used to be a Christian. I am pretty much convinced that the awareness of being "Saved" is similar to becoming Awake. I think the story of Jesus is the pointer, or vehicle that people use to become awake. So the question is, is it ok to use a somewhat fictitious story to achieve the state of being Awake? Can truth come from something that is not true?
One thing I struggle with is letting go of western Christian beliefs, one thing that helps me is to think of Christ as an Enlightened being and when you compare Christianity to Buddhism is this: in Christianity maybe only a handful of of saints including Christ have become Enlightened, in Buddhism thousands of people have become Enlightened and have directly experienced reaching heaven(Nirvana) here and now in their current life while on earth. Sadly some Enlightened people have taken ucult(unknown) beliefs to start religious movements that people get trapped into because they want guidance in their life. This is why there is so many different religions and cults in the world today. Unfortunately the more people who prescribe to certain belief systems the more real they can become, paradoxically.
@@BandiGetOffTheRoof I feel exactly the same way and came to a similar conclusion about Jesus. I think his saving is pointing to awakening but he was limited in the language of the time to communicate his message and then the church polluted it further and cherry picked what to put in the Bible. As you start to look at many Bible stories (Job) and Jesus’ life they’re pointing to the same thing as the eastern traditions… surrender… which is actually f’ng terrifying for the ego
@@Rockell479 I appreciate your comment, Rockell. Bart Ehrman is a wonderful scholar who explains how even the four Gospels tell the basic same story, however the tale grows taller down the line, so to speak...by the time you get to John, Jesus is not only God, but has existed as long as God! The first Gospels written decades earlier don't paint that same image.
@@Rockell479 You're very welcome. He has a home spun personality and interesting back story, but one of the leading historical scholars of Christianity.
have you heard the song from drake called "gods plan"? Its music video is soo good. It encompasses exactly what you were saying. Great music video about life and identity. Truly profound
I wonder if this is why I have never been able to assimilate to groups (I’ve tried many different times many different groups) because there was always the feeling that there was little authenticity to the group dynamic and noticed I was acting a type of way depending on the group. This really doesn’t end does it 🫠😂🙏🏾
Finally i came to my right sens; I can’t do it, I surrender. Then I said to the core; I’m fine, not perfect, but okay - so now you can use me, I’m yours ❤ That changed everything 🕳🫧💫🌬️✨🌈👁
Thought and doubt, one and the same. Ouch! That hit!
1- A recognition of suffering 11:25
2- Recognizing the nature of thought and doubt 15:18
3- A curiosity that arises, What am i really ? 18:27
4- Recognizing the unknown 20:35
5- Simply instinct 22:25
6- Surrender to the process 23:20
Do they actually sound like the Four Noble Truths ?
Great summary-
There is so much innocence here. There are thoughts that protection of this vulnerability might be good, but those thoughts are like a pebble in a pond- they drop and land nowhere. It’s intense, and so new. Thanks for everything you do Angelo. It is so appreciated and beautiful
43 - “fought” depression and anxiety my whole life. I am finally beginning to realize what a beautiful gift it is - to be in touch with the “unsatisfactoriness.” Right now I believe my journey is to look at those feelings deeply, to acknowledge them, to feel them, not fight them. Am I those feelings? Who or what is feeling this? It seems that many people have experienced depression as a catalyst for awakening. If so, what a beautiful gift! And, the more I do this, the less “depressed” I feel. But, the point is not to reduce depression…that is just a bonus. I have a profound sense of standing on the edge of so with amazing - I’m not there yet but it’s close and I can feel it. Your videos and meditations have come at the right time - 5 years ago I wouldn’t have been ready.
@@danielgriebling6123 I’m also 43 and found lots of ways to distract from my depression over the years.. mainly a military career in special operations that gave me a lot of worldly purpose. When I retired 2 years ago the depression came back and the crazy thing is the more I wake up the more existential fear and dread arise. I think we’re on the right track though
And you've done a lot of videos on this subject, but I love all the pointers. It's like you're saying "what about this pointer?.... what about this one? And this one?...." You provide a wonderful service. Thank you Angelo.
Welcome
you are right, formal meditation is not enough, the inquiry has to be there the whole day, and it has to be deep, like an obsesion
Small suggestion: the video is very successful at guiding you into the meditative/inquiring 'state' (so to speak) that is hinted at, so it might be nice to leave a bit of time at the end with just the ambience and visuals to let the viewer bask in that space of the present.
Also as a side note: I'm glad that you're sharing this with people. This channel wasn't my introduction to awakening, but this honed, simple, and fundamental approach to it is what resonates the most and I imagine there's lots of other people who won't really develop an interest unless exposed to it in this more secular and direct form.
So profound & truth. There’s nowhere really to look any more, but right here, this just is & is the only way. The letting go will take me & not sure where I will end up, but in my heart I know it’s worth the plunge. You have changed my life, whatever that means now, as my life as I believed it to be dosent exist anymore, as everything I was & took myself to be is leaving me. Thank you you are a light to the lost Angelo. Because of you, I’m losing myself..This is what I always wanted to find, I forever have sought for the truth of reality, now that I’m experiencing it, a part of me holds my VR goggles, just for some comfort, because the peace I feel with presence, the world I envisioned & tried so hard to change could never give me. Wish I had of known sooner. I’m 48 yrs old (it’s just a fleeting thought), I’m not moving. But I am scared of flying 😉
Just lost for words after this. Reminded me of the song Killing me softly ❤️
Sometimes I get lost in all this if I’m honest. Wow thank you resetting me this video I’ll keep coming back to ❤️
That happens to me, too. I seem to see the light, then move back into the worldly state. I think it does take ongoing practice. Being Awake is not like "learning a new fact" and then you know it forever.
I realized over the past couple of days that my method of inquiry was and always has been, an inquiry of the nature of the ego . A Course in Miracles says not to fall into the trap of analyzing the Ego because IT loves when you do that. Even though I’ve said that so many times over the past almost 2 years, I didn’t really understand inquiry WITHOUT doing this. I am discovering through these videos what true inquiry is! Thank you so much👍. I was blown away by the time exercises and the question “Do you really need beliefs?”. 🤯
LORD, keep me with out this me HERE.
I just love DeAngelos face! God bless everyone amazingly and abundantly! 😁🙏❤️🙌😊
stop „here“❣️“This it is“
Thank you Angelo! You deeply cleared it all. Brilliant masterclass❣️
geez, this is potent
Focusing on videos like this one is a good way... Believing this can happen.
It's like, very much so, you are speaking to me personally...You are so wise Doc.
This was incredibly clear and well structured. Very helpful.
Thank you. 🙏❤
There's a lack of confidence, but I don't know what self-doubt could possibly mean. I'm here. I showed up. I can't doubt that.
Thank you . Paul.
listened early this morning...every word...described my experience of living...wandering & identified almost completely w the reflections of consciousness...missing, not seeing the obvious... here now❤...am being let go
So grateful for these pointers 🙏🏻☀️🌈❤️
His words gave me chills
This was beautiful beyond words ❤❤
With all love ❤️ Thanks for all you do Mr Angelo. 😊
Any time!
This was powerful
Thank you, Angelo. I don't think there's another video out there like this one.
Very helpful 💫
Glad it was helpful!
And maybe the best and final advice is to STOP seeking. I’m feeling that it’s time to say so long to the teachers and gurus. I’m reaching the shore. Thank you Angelo for being a lighthouse.
Thanks for the sharing the love of truth, to help guide us. Love and courage to all to come here. Gratitude, Peace and Love to you and Violet for your selfless very helpful sharing of experiences of life, for the good of ALL.
I totally resonate with everything you said... Thank you for the sharing ;) Love&Light
Could you give advice on surrender vs following your passion - If you feel stuck or like you’re in a slump, how do you know if it’s life telling you you need to change certain exterior aspects of your life around such as your career path and pursue a passion in order to start feeling better again. Or if it’s life telling you to simply surrender and embrace and feel what is appearing. How do you navigate between the two
Last Sunday when I watched your video, I was brought to tears. Was awesome. Keep doing videos. I'm in Parker, Colorado. Wouldn't mind bumping into you.
Thank you! Wonderful🙏💕
Thank you
I'm so thankful for your clear articulation of this process. I've been going through this process the last several years and it's been amplifying in the last several months. Thinks are clicking into place in a deep felt sense that is ineffable. Thank you for your videos. Much appreciated !
Speaking from the place of truth and wisdom. Thank you!
Beautiful ❤ thank you🙏
Welcome!
Wow, thank you so much for this video. Love the directness of this one. At the end when you talk about letting go, it almost "defeated" my mind, I feel like I caught a glimpse of The Edge.
These are very good pointers❤, the thinking system is so used to see the world through its own system, that it was not imaginable for this system that the "world" is not only subject object reality, yes, it asks how can I see behind objects, behind imagination, behind the world I have created as real... it is totally blind behind in this. It asks how can the world be seen without the tools I have to see it? , behind the thinking or imagination, ...? And the answer comes by itself.. There is actually something else behind this system behind the thoughts, feelings, stories. it can be seen but can't be explained since the only tool we have to explaine it have to go through the system that do not see it 😅.
Nice delivery 🙏
Very clear and helpful, thank you.
You are welcome!
Really helpful, thank you, Angelo.
4:04
Thank you ❤
So good video gives many answers and makes thing more simple.
How does being on the other side feel?
This must be your best video ever.
Since your last best video ever.
😂
thanks
Welcome
Thank you so much for sharing your wisdom. I have experience all the pointers you are speaking about, how does remembering take a part? The stronger your memory more understanding? 🙏❤
All there is is awareness
WOULD YOU CONSIDER INTERVIEWING ALAN STIENFELD ON HIS BOOK TITLED , " MAKING CONTACT " ?
Beautiful explanation Angelo! Great video!
Glad you liked it!
Re being in a group. I joined the Headless Way group & soon felt BAD about being there, even tho I had several "realizations". Not saying the group was good or bad, just that I was NOT comfortable there, so I STOPPED attending meetings. I'm not good in or at groups & tend to BOTHER others! 😮
The mind must undo what the mind has created [Nisargadatta Maharaj]
I'm very grateful for your videos.
Beautiful, thank you…truly only vigilance to the razors edge of just This. Do you still have talks in the Boulder area?
Thank you!! ❤ I have a hard time getting my head around the kind of suffering I go through which is based in OCD. I almost feel like it’s outside the suffering that spiritual teachers talk about which is more inherent in life itself. Mine just seems like there’s no purpose to it and it just reeks havoc on my life without serving this spiritual path. Just wondering what your take is on mental issues based on say, brain chemistry. 🙏
@renakmans3521-bless you for being vulnerable and sharing your experience. Has shadow work helped you to explore your ocd and why carry it ?
@@rhondamurphy4494 Thank you for your response! I suppose Angelo didn’t have an answer:-)
I don’t do shadow work but I’ve done a lot of ERP and it didn’t work well enough. Who or what would you recommend for showdown work? 🙏
Hello!
I have suffered from both what could be diagnosed as OCD as well as Genaralized anxiety disorder. Much less so these days. Should add that Im a licenced clinical psychologist.
There are a couple of key insights that I found very helpful on my own healing journey.
1. There may not seem to be a purpose with the e.g. intrusive thoughts, and there may well not be. However. At some point, whatever started the chain of "karma" or just mind patterns, came from a place of trying to help. This may have been at some point in childhood or in our adolescence or even in adulthood as a response to a situation where peace and happiness was not possible. Often, there has been some form of trauma or overwhelm involved. An example of this innocent response can be found in my grandfathers story of his childhood. His mother died when he was just 8 or 9 and his father was extremely abusive. His mental system, in order to create some form of experience of control and meaning, created thoughts in his mind, which convinced him that if he did not collect at least 8 blueberries from the forest where he lived, his brother would die also. He did this for some time. When my mother asked when he stopped, he said he didnt remember stopping.
This can happen to any of us in situations where a sense of control is involontarily removed from us. Since as sense of control is what is necessary for any ego-identified individual for survival, our mind does what it can in order to create a sense of it. Even if it is only to provide this experience of control alone, with no bearing on external reality.
Can you see how deeply we need compassion for such a predicament? Such suffering is completely innocent. Founded in a need for safety and feeling taken care of.
Every single one of your thoughts, as well as your reactions to those thoughts have been attempts at peace, love and happiness.
They are deserving of respect, love and care and so are you
@@vaenskapelsen Wow, I’m going to read it in detail tonight but you are an incredible person for shedding so much light on this in a post! 🙏❤️❤️❤️
@@renakmans3521 no problem. If you have any questions, feel free to let me know.
I tried to understand this video but I couldn't, I'm trying to understand what being conscious of consciousness means. I just can"t if finding contentment in thoughts doesn't work then I just need to find that in my experience of existing right? how am I supposed to do that when I have thoughts about how I should have an experience, when it only keeps me from experiencing things without thinking. I cant make it happen but that only is understood from having gotten there from the sense that I was engaging this process so I guess I just need to give in to the illusion that I'm the one doing this to see when I'm not. Was thinking about how old my mom looked while watching this, what's worse is that I have had these repeating thoughts of "what will you do when people start to get older at thirty you better learn how to spend time with them before it's too late, all the while playing video games because I could not stand to be bored since twelve, my family loves me I know that and I couldn't have asked for a better mom, yet I never got any help for these thoughts when they started to appear at six and seven but not till twelve would it start to happen more than once couple a months and haunt me weekly or every other day for maybe several points of the day. By fifteen it be all day everyday and started to get worse up till eighteen till it plateaued, yet this has all been before! i've turned forty five all before the shittiestparts of life that ive spent my entire life worrying about even happened. What will I do thoughts like you said won't help it will only make me suffer more. I had a change half a year ago where I re-had an experience that occurred at seven where I was just in the presence of being, where self knowledge existed ontologically, with an understanding of what I was without any knowledge or thoughts. Unlike at seven this was much more subtle and tame I didn't dissolve like at seven thought my sense of who I am was looser not so much in my thoughts. Yet I cant make that happen, ugghhhhh, suppose I must treat it like sleep where sleeping is not an action but rather something that you can modify the likelihood of occuring by dimming the lights laying in bed and turning the volume down. So I have to influence this process rather than direct it, like with my attention to my attention, softly with a loose concentration that can be sustained through its discontinuity while having it involuntarily return. It feels like theres this awkward spot where its sometimes something I don't regulate whatsoever and other times it feels like I'm doing it all. I just am tired of being in despair, have wondered sometimes if most of the valence from thinking comes from my visual imagination, if maybe I were to be an aphasic then maybe my thoughts wouldnt feel so bad. The more detailed my thoughts are visually the more they sting, and that is unfortunate since my imagination is very vivid it's why I have a gift for painting, although I probably could paint with aphasia if I had it so that's probably not true. Although the part on suffering from thoughts by visual imagination I'm not sure on, wonder if there are any studies on, that's besides the point. I understand this video but only when I'm not the one doing this, which is so frustrating. Maybe I just need to feel everything rather than evaluating my feelings in order to have this first shift. I think as long as I can break out of the habit of thinking about my feelings then ill be ok. That may be eighty percent of what I need to do, oh boy shame here I come!!!
Wtf
How do we reconcile the idea that we must not seek with the dopamine system that awards us for seeking?
Class video ❤ x
The power of Now?
Re "GROUP EGO". i found that ego in 12 step Recovery groups, every Religion & nondual group, club, communitee, gang, school, family, band, friendship, etc. that i was ever near or part of!!! Group Ego = "We vs them!" ...We are BETTER THAN you!!!
IT'S SICK!!!! 😢😢😢
Where did you get the t-shirt you're wearing in this video?
I don't have that feeling of being generally unsatisfied, so I'm not suffering. Is there something wrong with me perusing Awakening when I don't consider that I suffer? I have searched, there is not this type of suffering within me at all. How do I make myself suffer?
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Just my experience, but the greatest value of meditation (i.e., a regular time of stable attention spent in relative seclusion) comes from experiencing suffering (and joy) right there on the cushion (or chair or mattress). If one meditates to get a reprieve from suffering, a real opportunity is missed to investigate the (empty and fluid) nature of suffering--(gently) turning towards physical and mental pain can be a real game changer. And this approach then needs to be taken off the cushion into daily life--there's no real separation between these settings (or anything at all).
Okay it happened and I can explain Elon’s problem with V12 FSD and clearing out all the responses I could possibly have in all situations put there by me and my ego. Elon must have named That blue line, our possible intended paths in FSD. As I solved the problem with my large library of responses (they all marched out together the other night in another of your videos); and in today’s video I realized (because I have been using FSD) having all of Ego’s responses gone, I can see reality as it is, I have a new identity. The solution for V12 is essentially the reverse of this! I would love to take my new self and work on Elon’s team solving FSD, I really think I can see some of what needs to be done.
Hey Angelo - not sure if you've had other people ask this but practicing both mediation and inquiry has released energy through my body that causes intense body shaking and physical pain. The phenomenon is directly related to mindfulness.
It feels "blocked" at my throat. I've had this energy blockage issue for 3-4 years now and I don't know what to do with it.
Can you shed any light on how to navigate this as I have no idea what - if anything - I have to do about it.
I used to be a Christian. I am pretty much convinced that the awareness of being "Saved" is similar to becoming Awake. I think the story of Jesus is the pointer, or vehicle that people use to become awake. So the question is, is it ok to use a somewhat fictitious story to achieve the state of being Awake? Can truth come from something that is not true?
One thing I struggle with is letting go of western Christian beliefs, one thing that helps me is to think of Christ as an Enlightened being and when you compare Christianity to Buddhism is this: in Christianity maybe only a handful of of saints including Christ have become Enlightened, in Buddhism thousands of people have become Enlightened and have directly experienced reaching heaven(Nirvana) here and now in their current life while on earth. Sadly some Enlightened people have taken ucult(unknown) beliefs to start religious movements that people get trapped into because they want guidance in their life. This is why there is so many different religions and cults in the world today. Unfortunately the more people who prescribe to certain belief systems the more real they can become, paradoxically.
@@BandiGetOffTheRoof I feel exactly the same way and came to a similar conclusion about Jesus. I think his saving is pointing to awakening but he was limited in the language of the time to communicate his message and then the church polluted it further and cherry picked what to put in the Bible. As you start to look at many Bible stories (Job) and Jesus’ life they’re pointing to the same thing as the eastern traditions… surrender… which is actually f’ng terrifying for the ego
@@Rockell479 I appreciate your comment, Rockell. Bart Ehrman is a wonderful scholar who explains how even the four Gospels tell the basic same story, however the tale grows taller down the line, so to speak...by the time you get to John, Jesus is not only God, but has existed as long as God! The first Gospels written decades earlier don't paint that same image.
@@BandiGetOffTheRoof thanks for the recommend I’ll have to check out some of Bart E’s stuff
@@Rockell479 You're very welcome. He has a home spun personality and interesting back story, but one of the leading historical scholars of Christianity.
I am alone and afraid… why….. how to get rid of me…why won’t it go
Because you have not yet seen that the one that wants “it” gone is the same one that needs to go ❤
How you stay there where you found yourself to be?
My feeling is that consciousness has been "attached" and ignited onto this happening, and I don't know how it happened.....
So what is the best technique?
"Enlightenment is an accident. Meditation just makes you accident prone."
Traditions can easily be taken for a belief, a lot of hindrance I would say, too many fixed concepts too.
I want to awaken so much that I feel like the wanting is getting in the way. Is this true? Help?
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have you heard the song from drake called "gods plan"? Its music video is soo good. It encompasses exactly what you were saying. Great music video about life and identity. Truly profound
I’ll check it out thanks
Wow it’s like you’re describing me to a T.
I feel like I’m super close. Random noises can’t be helpful right?
No Technique ... 🙏🏽
Super beautiful poignant, I wish I could hire a “closer” someone to just nudge me over. Specks of fear❤
I’m joking of course❤
Going to sleep😊
Is the best technique for awakening.
As long as you BELIEVE in god, you are not awake. Simple.
explain
@@bkbk1184this is not about believing, it's beyond belief
I wish you had included psychedelic drugs on your short list of things which are merely experiences however profound they are.
watch MOOJI
I wonder if this is why I have never been able to assimilate to groups (I’ve tried many different times many different groups) because there was always the feeling that there was little authenticity to the group dynamic and noticed I was acting a type of way depending on the group. This really doesn’t end does it 🫠😂🙏🏾
I can relate
The last place you’d ever think to look is where it is! Ahhhh 😅🎁💎🪷
Finally i came to my right sens; I can’t do it, I surrender. Then I said to the core; I’m fine, not perfect, but okay - so now you can use me, I’m yours ❤
That changed everything 🕳🫧💫🌬️✨🌈👁