4. Rock Bottom Moment: A spiritual awakening and clarity that changed everything

In this video I explain the event that changed my life, finally. Spiritual clarity. Getting arrested and finally seeing things for what they were - a cumulative effect of my choices in life. How I handled things up to that point that got me to where it did. Then I chose to pivot and turn to God and sobriety and recovery. That turned into an entirely new life. It started with sobriety but then evolved into recovery. I thrive in recovery.
One of my biggest things with sobriety is the question of, "now what?" Once the pain subsides, once the detox has run its course and we're feeling back to normal, what is the incentive to change my course? The answer is, EVERYTHING ELSE. Facing and dealing with what I was running from and why I chose to numb feelings and pain in the first place. There is a saying "the cave which you are afraid to enter holds the treasure you seek." So, I spent a lifetime avoiding feelings I didn't want to address, when in actuality, addressing those feelings would have solved my problems and not required me to want to escape and avoid them.
Also, there's math and common sense. I got to a point in my drinking "career" where 100% of the time when I started, I could not stop on my own. Things would be fine for a few days or a few weeks or a few months. But, when alcohol is in my system, all it wants is more, to the point of death. It took an intervening event like the hospital or jail or something else to stop. And then 0% of the time, could I stop on my own. I tried to prove that theory wrong, time after time after time, and I always lost. So, it is proven with 100% probability that 100% of the time I cannot stop, 0% of the time I can. So why would I try? And why would I risk losing every single thing that is good? That's rhetorical. I wouldn't. My life is fantastic and it's because of the choice to end my relationship with alcohol.
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