I don’t want to be this character anymore

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  • Опубликовано: 4 ноя 2024

Комментарии • 14

  • @KurtD0gTTV
    @KurtD0gTTV 6 месяцев назад

    I always enjoy your content.

  • @dayreadsmanga
    @dayreadsmanga 8 месяцев назад

    I love this! you're camera angles are everything. Such a great video and message. Keep doing what you're doing!

    • @ellasaea
      @ellasaea  8 месяцев назад

      Thank you 🌸💜 I really appreciate it :)

  • @ashwinnarayan5275
    @ashwinnarayan5275 8 месяцев назад +1

    Amazing video! Love to see more content like this. Thanks for that. No buts or ifs, the journey starts when we are willing to little steps to try no matter what obstacles or hurdles lie in front. Let's do this together❤

    • @ellasaea
      @ellasaea  8 месяцев назад

      Thank you 🌸💜 yes let’s keep at it

  • @TravellerZasha
    @TravellerZasha 8 месяцев назад

    This has been my current struggle/stressor since COVID. For me, it's these expected age milestones and missing out on life experiences that trigger my daily mental breakdowns.
    I graduated from high school during COVID without having a ceremony or prom or even saying goodbye to my classmates. I basically missed out on my high school/teen experiences which has made my mind currently permanently stuck with the mind of an 18-year-old when I'm older than that. I'm also planning to go to Post Secondary in a few years but at an older age than most people, which makes me insecure about the age gap compared to my peers and how I'll be viewed and seen differently in a class of 18-year-olds, making me miss out on the typical social aspects of Post Secondary.
    To say my age is a trigger for me is an understatement and hearing others say how young I am/look when I feel like I'm very old does hurt me. To be honest I absolutely loathe my past self to a murderous level and honestly, I don't think I could ever love or forgive my past self's mistake or my past self not realizing sooner all this knowledge that other teens was obvious.
    I think I also hold onto these feelings because I have a memory issue, specifically with events because from trauma and depression, my mind can't remember the past events only the traumatic ones and maybe subconsciously if I let go of the past I have nothing. No memory or identity and only have the pressures of what the youth of my age is expected to do and have in a very hard world where no one knows what to do. The last advice my mentor actually said to me was "As you get older you realize no one actually knows what they're doing and you become more okay with that as you get older".
    This year I'm slowly working on improving my mental health and life and hopefully, the future is good enough that it can replace my past.

    • @ellasaea
      @ellasaea  8 месяцев назад

      I’m sorry that it has been difficult, but it’s good to hear that you are working on things. I find that worrying about the past, or perception of others, or the future.. all of that starts to feel like a waste. We don’t have to stress about all of that, and instead enjoy the moment. The present because that’s what we can truly control. I’m not giving any formal advice because I know everyone’s experience is different, but I wish you a lot of luck and good days in your post secondary school. No matter what you can make those days great for you, in your own unique experience.

  • @pridemuramasa1820
    @pridemuramasa1820 8 месяцев назад

    Damn, is it a Visual Artist thing coz saaame😭💔

    • @ellasaea
      @ellasaea  8 месяцев назад

      It definitely, most likely, adds to it! We already have such a vivid imagination. Adds to the over thinking and overanalyzing. Plus, I think that maybe a lot of us end up in non-creative careers which is going against everything that makes sense for ourselves. Ahh we just gotta find ways to lean into our creativity regardless :)

  • @AleksdeArt
    @AleksdeArt 8 месяцев назад +6

    The windshield is bigger than the rearview mirror for a reason, because what's coming is more important than what's gone. Little support from fellow artist I subscribe.🤍

    • @ellasaea
      @ellasaea  8 месяцев назад +1

      That’s a great analogy, love it 🌸💜 and thank you!

    • @GoranSelovic
      @GoranSelovic 8 месяцев назад

      @aleks70deart WOW!

  • @theshapeshiftingartist
    @theshapeshiftingartist 8 месяцев назад

    This is probably the most meaningful video I've seen all day🫴🏼❤️

    • @ellasaea
      @ellasaea  8 месяцев назад

      Thank you, I'm happy you enjoyed it :)