Man I have listened to many types of beats for rap and hip hop... this one is just incredible. This producer needs to be famous asap because he really got the flow
0:23 I was born into the struggle, Life started gettin harder I'd never guess when I was 3 that I would lose my father But there's always a purpose, Cuz he was bein abusive We decided to leave the next time that he knocked her tooth in, We ended up in california, with another dude He was pretty cool ya everything was goin smooth But I was probably 9 when I started to notice signs I was gettin lost couldn't find my way through the vines 0:46 But he never helped, he just went and he grabbed the belt Never asked me how I felt, he just have me welts Edit: Tired of being on my own for so fuckin long Had to go and realize that I was not alone My mom was by my side, and she was so damn strong If I could see him one more time I'd put one in his dome Wish I could tell you this a prank but it aint home alone This hits so deep I had to put it all into a song My grandpa died today and it really hurt Stressing so much with work that imma go bezerk But we made the come up, shout out polo g I know he's the realest rapper that I've ever seen I miss my uncle Ken he's also deceased If I could hear him one more time he'd tell me imma beast Why did they have to leave why couldn't they have stayed stayed If they were here I wouldn't have to shed these years today Come back grandpa for I drink all these beers away I'm not an alchoholic don't make me face all my fears today Come back Kenny for I drink all these beers away I'm not an alcoholic don't make me face all my fears today LONG PAUSE------- 1:56
You're welcoming me to come in at the same time as the other than that it was not the case please let me know when I should get the group chat with me and
To think that even an "Instrumental" beat like this, made for Hip Hop/Rap.Would have such an emotional power behind it. It feels like I can feel the emotions the creator went through. Its crazy, yet amazing!
I know I made some mistakes but that was all in my past/Now I'm out here tryna regain my ground real fast/And I don't understand the struggle, and I don't understand the pain/I don't understand why all of this is running through my brain/And it's running through my veins/And I feel I can't escape/And even when I try to overcome all of the hate/It feels like I just get locked tighter in this gate/And my heart begins to Shake/And my heart begins to frail/No matter what I do, I know I can't prevail/Before I even started, I already knew failed/And in case you couldn't tell/My life is on a Sail/And it just stared sinkin/Do I revert drinking/Or do I revert to prayer/Cuz even though I pray, my life's still in despair/Man this life really ain't fair/But you don't really care/Nah, You don't care that my life is in a drought/Where is all my life flowing, cuz I think I'm out/I don't feel nothing, we call that feeling lifeless/I don't feel nothing, when I used to feel righteous/I just keep feeling more empty at heart/My heart keeps on crumbling and falling apart/Yea, Do you know that feeling?/When you know you need some healing/But even though you know that, that pain still keeps on killin/And you know you can't escape it/And you know you can't erase it/So you hide from yo problems cuz it's just to hard to face it/You know you can't erase all of the things you've said/And just that in itself creates a whirlwind in your head/And you laying in yo bed/Create a list of your regrets/Make a list of all the thing and challenges you've met/And you feel like life is set/Yea, you can't get past the struggle/So you lock up In this bubble/Don't got nobody to cuddle/Cuz you can't even trust yo self to not get into trouble/So how she post to trust you, when love is on the line/When she don't even know if she's just wasting time/Ten toes...
This one of them fire ass beats that everybody sit back smoke a blunt and write the deepest realest lyrics your mind could think of any subject any of life obstacles. Keep doing what you doing lil bruh keep making these fire beats for the world to hear and learn from.
@@EfremCCTV You ever smoked? It just helps people feel shit a lot more and get more in tune with their emotions. Not saying you have to smoke, but I am saying that you shouldn't judge if you haven't tried it because you really don't understand.
Ten toes, ten fingers, a silver spoon. I had everything I ever needed coming out the womb. But I couldn't be a man and took that shit for granted, now the ones that were there for me are disenchanted. Now I'm in my early twenties with a bad back, 'cause I started picking up boxes, dropped my backpack. But I'm try'na get my ass back on the fast track, before the final curtain falls on my last act. And my grandpa got diagnosed with leukemia, I was hoping maybe one day, he would see me up on stage behind a podium, in a cap and gown, but raging was my opium, I was acting a clown. I hope he leaves this earth being proud of me but I don't believe I'm worth sticking around to see.
I was just a lil boy when I seen my mom cry, Tears fallen heart froze seen the pain in momma eyes, God called for his angel That's the day my sista died, I was 7 but it hurt me Hoping she come back alive, Fam told me keep ma head high it'll be ok, Even tho we want her back She living in a better place, So I pray for better days When I grew up I felt da same, I was smokin every night When I'm high I feela change Now it got me sitting here Rappn bout the past like, I remember growing up I Use to live a fast life, Little brother locked up Sisters running wild to, Mommy work her ass off I'm doing what I gotta do, Just to hear ma mamma say Damn son I'm proud of u, Growing up without a dad Made a man out of you, Fuck was I suppose to do Sit around & cry about it, Living with no happiness But I still smile without it,
+Bubba GotBeatz do you mind checking out my verse to your beat. It's on my artist page. The description say can you feel his pain. facebook.com/DiverZityVang/
yo who else freestyles, writes raps or songs, and attempts to freestyle to this amazing beat...I listen to it every morning on the way to school thinking I will be something.
0:22 -I wondered everyday why my smile went away, but then I remembered it was cuz you never stayed, I used to cry because to my face you always lied, saying you're with your friends when you're really with your side, but then it hit me you just played me, saying that you love me when it's not even a maybe, you think you broke me by hurting all my feelings, you think that I'm laying in bed staring at the ceiling, 0:46-but no you thought wrong, you thought you hurt me? by taking all my feelings and doing me dirty? that's actually pretty funny you thought you did the damage, but you actually did nothing you just created a bandage, to all my old scars you made them fresh, making me realize that you wasn't the best, so I knew this couldn't go on any longer, I knew what I had to do in order to feel stronger, cuz you only made me weak, making me fail, making me fall to my knees, making it feel like hell, so I put an end to it I told you I was done, but then you started laughing saying that it never begun..
My mama really strong that's why I love her so much, she would always pull through when life had got tough,I saw people bring her down,but she always got up, she used to whoop me cuz I was bad,but she did it with love,that's my queen. My mama really love me she said I'm the golden child, I just say I love you,and I scream it loud, imma shine like a light,imma make my mama proud, Cuz I keep my head up and my TEN TOES DOWN.
i know right now times be getting hard for us, Bt all we gotta do is pray to the man above for this, Nd I know I ain't helping with this attitude or foolishness Bt I wantchu to know that i truly do appreciate all that you do Cause when I be feeling my lowest Nd the tears keep rolling You be right by my side helping me to keep going Nd when I fuck up you pick me back up On some real shit aint never had nobody keep real the way you do Taught me how to hustle for myself but most importantly, showed me how to never depend on any kinda man Nd you is right momma I seen it with my eyes The way you work hard for my siblings Nd I Now the love nd bond you share with us you can't find tht shit nowhere else I ain't tryna throw no shade on my father, Cause he was there at times Bt full credit to you cause you been ten toes down for us
I don't know if this is still relevant at all but I wrote this, it's called Happy Father's Day. This has always been my least favorite day of the year, I can't deal with it now that you're not here. Whenever someone asks "Hey where is your Father?" My eyes immediately start to fill up with water. I try to choke out a single word to say, But I always end up crying and running away. I hide in the bathroom and I lock the door, Then I just start sobbing and I fall down to the floor. I look up to the sky and I start to pray, "Dear God, why'd you let them take him away?" I'm reminiscing and thinking about all the fun times that we had, Back to the days when I could say "I love you dad" I was so young and happy, running and playing at the park Now I'm sitting here alone, crying and falling apart. All these words are just an attempt to try to explain what I'm feeling inside, to release the pain. Everyday I wish that I could just give you a call, But they just erased you from my life, yeah they built up a wall I don't deserve this at all, no it's just not fair No one else understands or they don't even care But I'm promising you dad, even though you're far away, that someday I'll be there to say, Happy Father's Day. (Thanks for reading ❤️) Also, just in case anyone's wondering, My dad was involved in my life until I was about 10, and around then I wasn't allowed to see him anymore because my parents hate each other. After a few years I couldn't talk to him on the phone anymore. I think he's still alive but I'm not sure. Edit: If anyone wants to rap this, I'm actually really flattered and I'd love for it to be shared. It'd be appreciated if you could give me credit though ❤️
@XCubbyBeachX My dad's still alive, but my parents were never married so I don't get to see or talk to him anymore. I'm really sorry for your loss though
I was talking to this girl and things just started changing Maybe it was my fault, sorry that I'm impatient But you're the girl of my dreams straight out my imagination Left me high and dry making it hard to be complacent So what we're not the same? There's beauty when things contrast I wanted to be more than friends and things were different when I asked About what me and you could be And how I was ready for something real And then you dropped me like it's nothing and sent me right into my feels You could've had the world and anything that you wanted You would've been my trophy that I couldn't help but flaunt it I would've given you my all and made sure to see it through But you threw it all away left me sicker than any flu Things might be different if you had my point of view You're just like any other girl, giving me deja vu You claim you want a good guy, you know, a true gentleman And I took the challenge, tried to give you something genuine Maybe a bit feminine, show off my sentiment Give you everything you want, blow a few benjamins But all that you could see was that you wasn't feelin it
This is something I wanna be I really really hope that my Grandfather is proud of me. He died from before I could even tell him I love him. Shxt was sad so I kept grinding over the summer. It was rough only got two of em left. Imma be the one who help if nobody was there. Grand dad I love you I hope you looking at this. Imma be up in Heaven with you and family and shxt. I'm ten toes for my family gotta stay strong. Cuzz if AIN'T nobody with ME shxt imma stand ALONE. Seen my friend get jumped by homies and shxt. I found out he was battling and took his last breathe and shxt. This worlds tough. More than tough shxt it's rough. It's not a movie this is a real life matter. You better listen while you climbing up the ladder.
Don't want no pity nor no sorrow been through a lot of shit but was always looking forward to tomorrow when my grandma passed away I knew that was the day it was it it was over cuz I knew my whole world was Underground always said Taysha walk with your head held high but the day she died I give up on life every time I felt alone I wish I had you with me daily you taught me how to be a lady since you've been gone I've been going crazy but you know when is bad I know it's going to get better cuz I'll always have you in my heart forever and ever .....I love you nana ❤🙏
Im 13 basically a kid I understand I actually made my own song to this beat i cry real tears when i sing it tho cause it comes from the heart and i wish my life was different
You see everybody got a story to tell Well here's mine My pain's deep, I have been through hell I managed to survive so I got a story to tell Listen, I stand victorious Make the sign of the cross Look I'm here to be the voice for every friend I ever lost Let me pray as I put together my hands I've never been ashamed to tell you the person I am When it comes to doing drugs, I have never been a rookie But hold up, let me tell you about the places that they took me I haven't showered, it's been possibly a week And I'm so deep in a psychosis, impossible to speak The coke is in my arm, now it's impossible sleep My throat's numb, closed shut, so it's impossible to eat Losing weight's a part of my daily routine I always use against my will, just praying I was clean So nod your head if you understand what I mean When I was growing up I never thought that I would be a fiend, ever My life's tumultuous, it's never getting better Another abscess from my arm is getting severed My exquisite vision, depiction of dereliction Livid living conditions, malicious on a mission All these Green-tree cops, look they all know me by my first name Paramedics had to revive me this ain't a game I worn the same clothes for like the last ten days And look I want to do better but I don't know a different way Completely all alone, I'm sitting in this room I empty out the bags, brown liquid in the spoon I have to do a lot, can no longer do a little The water's been added, I place the cotton in the middle I'm sucking every drop up into this plastic device As I'm tying off, I'm trying to find a decent vein to strike I shove it ever so gently up underneath my skin As I'm pulling back the plunger till there's blood in the syringe I push it in and try to drift away to heaven But criminals like me that's never the place that we're headed The guilt, shame, remorse and regret I never address And I'm a mess from all this pain and this anguish I'm filled with stress, overdoses, I'm emotionally broken, this ain't a joke I'm smoking on a Newport, I never have any hope This is me, I'm feeling like I don't deserve more I feel disgusted as I'm pushing on this burnt chore Someone stole the vinegar in the midst of a black out Another shooting gallery, another crack house On the porch ''Welcome To Hell'' is on the floor mat I'm glancing at my arms and all I ever see is sore tracks I'm feeling filthy dirty needles with the orange cap Peaking out the window, someone whispers ''Lock the door latch'' We're blasting off, departing from this mothership I look around as others search the carpet for another hit Crest whitening strips and Mach 3's I'm on a suicidal mission till these cops try to stop me We boosted everyday selling steaks for half price Any dream I ever had was shattered by glass pipes Glass rose, devil got my in his lasso Entered the gates of hell and I didn't even have a pass-code I'm hard headed, I will never learn my lesson You know the drill, commit a crime, and get arrested The misery never ends, I spend another week in jail I don't have friends, family never paid my bail So I would withdrawal and kick on that concrete floor I feel like I've had enough but my body is screaming ''MORE'' The food is horrible, but I haven't eaten in days No reason to call home cause I got nothing left to say I'm tired of this jail, I don't ever want to see prison Look I'm tired and exhausted from this life that I'm living I would get a couple days clean, and say that I was done But every time I got released I was back on the run It's back to thieving, lying, robbing, and ripping, and running These problems I don't solve them, I'm crippled and sick to my stomach I hang with prostitutes and these deadly degenerates I'm homeless for the moment, but that's really quite irrelevant The only thing that matters in life is my next high I got to be willing to change and give it my best try I'm a servant and this heroin's my king I'm feeling like a slave, as I dangle from these puppet strings I'm just a marionette, I'm staring at death As I am carrying regrets that are just tearing through my flesh We're dealing with a topic we're so careless to neglect We're dealing with a dilemma leaving every parent stressed I'm so sick and tired though of being sick and tired But then it finally happened, motivated by desire I hit this point, I wanted to change, enough is enough My efforts been exhausted and I'm tired of being stuck My faith is never blind and my future I barely see But overnight, was open minded I had this moment of clarity So it begins and it's essential I believe Cause if it worked for you, then it just has to work for me Through all this pain, there's got to be a positive message I talked about the past, now let's talk about the present I'm no longer living that way, for me it's a blessing But with one bad decision I am back in that obsession In 03 was diagnosed with hepatitis C I utilize the bad, it's always been the fuel for driving me And then u ask me ''Why do I give this my all?'' I'm not trying to see ''Rest In peace'' on my Facebook wall I got clean in 05 and started rapping I started touching lives, I never thought that this would happen This shit today, trust me it isn't heroin It's killing everybody and the comments are disparaging No one cares or gives a fuck that I'm clean For them another deadly overdose is just something to see Look, I pay attention to every post that I read As you are sitting there judging in front of your iPhone screen Talking about these dying addicts and how they are worthless And if they put a needle in their arm then they deserve it But that's someone's Mother, someone's Uncle, someone's Daughter And that's someone's Aunt, someone's Son and someone's Father As I rap, this shit is giving me chills And I am speaking off experience, that's how I know it's real These ignorant motherfuckers will say it's not a disease And look I really don't care, you can believe what you believe I don't care to argue, I don't got to give you proof Listen, I was taught you don't got to defend the truth Incurable, progressive and fatal unless arrested I'm expressing aggression with every sentiment confession Once a junkie always a junkie, you're boring me The last time I checked, there's one ultimate authority I'm sick of these remarks and opinions from all these critics Cause if you never lived it, then trust me you'll never get it Be quite, you're not allowed to speak about it If you've never lived it, then you're not allowed to speak about it How often you forget, the only time that you should ever open your mouth is to eat a dick Everybody is dying it makes me sick This isn't a epidemic, this is more like an apocalypse So when I struggle, it's only right that I fight And my experience recites on how that diamond saved my life Look, you don't got a clue what I've been through When I was at my worst you couldn't walk a mile in my shoes I survived a lot, so it's only right that I smile And I'm aware of my surroundings, I'm no longer in denial I'm blown away by every message that I get It gives me motivation, it's the only reason I never quit We got to do this together, we must trust There's no you, there's no me, there's just us I'm doing this with courage, I'm doing this with pride I'm doing this for every single friend that's ever died I dedicate this song to anyone that's lost a loved one So live your life cause tomorrow may never come Be grateful for your past, embrace it, don't get embarrassed Everyday there is more children growing up without their parents I felt pain, look I'm not afraid to cry My life changed once I was willing to try I've been giving many chances now it's truly do or die
My Ten Toes Down Challenge (: 0:22 - Do you remember what you did? Of course not. But you see I remember it clear as day 0:28 - Do you remember the way I cried? How about the way I lied? Do you remember the way I tried to fight it with all my strength? You see I was so young, I had no fucking defences. Does all of this haunt you just as it does to me? Do you remember how young I was and how I couldn’t speak? How the way you forced it all down on me? what about the way you held me down with your cold hands? You had no pity and you owned no fucking mercy. you had no care for the life I could have lived. Do you see the damage you did, because of your own self-love? News got around of the things you did. But no one ever could ever do a goddamn thing. Do you remember the way you forced it all down my throat? What about the way you taught me all of this shit? 1:09 - I heard you’re having a daughter soon, news gets around. Because of you I learnt not even blood can be trusted. I hope to god you see the daughter as just a daughter. I hope you treat her the way a princess would be treated. I hope to the lord you don’t hurt her the way you hurt me. I pray to the clouds she won’t suffer like me. Because I swear to god if you hurt her the way you hurt me. Does your girlfriend know? About the way you made me bleed? Does she know about the things you did, or did you just go and flee like you always do? You see the damage you did, it can’t be reversed. Does this ring a bell? Do you remember at all? The family took your side, and left us behind. We had no one, it was just us and the sky. They believed every fucking lie you told, you were always the favourite child. 1:56 - You tore every fucking piece of hope I had as a child. I was no longer a princess and I couldn’t find my crown. My innocence was destroyed and the blame was rested just on you. But don’t you worry because nearly 11 years later, I finally found my crown. But this crown is different. This crown is a crown for princes and so a prince I will fucking be. The shit you did and the things you taught me will be forever in my mind. But your actions can not define a prince. 2:19 - I dread the day I meet you, the day I see your eyes again. One word cannot reverse the damage, but there is one thing I ask of you. I want you to admit it all, tell me what you did, even with a fucking smile spread across your cheeks. I want to hear you say it, explain it all to me. Charges won’t be a fucking thing and forgiveness will surround you. Though you have destroyed me, I truly hope you’ve learned from this. Though you may have broken me, I will surround this with forgiveness. I can forgive but forgetting is a harder fight. I hope one day you can see the damage you truly caused. Though you may not open your eyes, and though you may not even try. I don’t need an apology, not even a stare. I hope you do realize that I no longer care. You had damaged me in a way words can’t spare, but like they always say. Time Heals all. So, keep praying that it all goes away. 3:05 - I will stand in this fight with nothing but a smile. So, bring on your army, nothing can compare. I have found my crown, so a prince I am. Don’t ever try to hide, as a smile defies all. Show the world you’re sorry, show me that you can. Though I have fallen in almost every single way, the crown I have is here to stay. And I truly, truly hope you find yours too.
🔥STRAIGHT BARS HUMMIES🔥 Yea i may be young but ik how love feels When he says ur his forever and u thought that it was real When u sat and cried at night and wiped away plenty of tears When having a broken heart was one of ur many fears With no one to talk to, wishin the pain would go away When u haven't left ur room in somewhere around 2 days I should've known that he was fake and she was faker And he wonder why all his exes call him a "heart breaker" I swear that bitch shady as fuck U aint my fkin friend Real friends wouldnt do that So its time for this to end U played me like a game, aint even gon say no names U know who tf u is Thats all i need to say Gotta stay away from fakes, gotta stay away from love Go to school, gotta learn and get my bread up Ima make it far in this world, u gon see And when i make it there, dont try to come talk to me Gotta keep my head up or my crown might fall Gotta stay strong and stand tall To the haters: fuck em all Head high, 2 feet on the ground, and my 10 toes down 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 IF U READ ALL THIS, GOD BLESS UR SOUL. im only 13 so yea...i tried
yeah i might be 11 but ik how love feels He told me that i was his forever and thought that it was real i sat n cried at night wiping away plenty of tears When having a broken heart was one of many of my fears Damn B I see ur really fucking smart u told me dat u were worried i was gonna leave and break ur heart yeah u got me feelin bad n made me do things by hiting me with the lines "if u really cared" see u got me playin victim from the start I didnt know this was a game, if i did, i wouldnt have let my guard down U ruined my life for good I had no one to talk to wish the pain would go away Wish i got back the love,care, n trust that i once used to have Damn the agony it really hurt knowing that my bestfriend was one of his hoes i should've know that he was a fake n she was a faker And he wondered y all his ex's called him a "heart breaker" That bitch was shady asf U aint my friend Real friends wouldn't do that I hope u feel accomplished u made me cry n depressed Ive became a cutter lifes throwing bullets N ive got holes in my heart im trynna heal I hope u feel this pain one day i hope karma gets u bc that bitch really owes me one I tried tellin all the gurls ur a hit n run but these chicks r blind they call u cute n fly. well i aint lettin dis put me down ive set goals to achieve ima make it far n when i make it there dont try to come talk to me gotta keep my head up or my crown might fall gotta stay strong and stand tall to the haters: fuck em all head high, 2 feet down,and my ten toes on the ground ❤️️❤️️❤️️
*Starts at 0:22 There comes a time where you gotta stop believing what all the haters say Just pick up yo head and get going on your way Its not their words you believe, its how you feel inside See, my greatest hater is the guy writing all of these rhymes Constantly in self doubt Trying to find a way out Crying out for help In the most silent way possible It almost seems impossible Tryin to fix my problems And tryin to to stay on top of em All these dark thoughts, its hard trying not to get lost in them Life gets hard and it feels like hell Knowing everyday your biggest enemy is yourself But trust me, things will get better Just gotta ride the waves and push thru the weather You survived the pain and not once did you let up Outside it rains but inside your all together You just gotta holding on Keep staying strong And if you ever feel weak remember the words of this song Remember youre the bomb Now its time to blow up Have all em haters saying 'Damn, he sure showed us!' You are strong and forever I will believe in you Just call me up and I will be there when you need me to I love you my fams You made me who I am So now I will ride for you forever and I hope you understand I will alwayd have your back as long as you have mine We were born with that Native Pride And thats a beautiful design My bars, never give up
Lied to, let down, got fucked up Told I wasn't worth it, I should just give up Flipped my hair turned like, "If thats how you feel" Walked away chin up keeping it real Said my confidence was goals and im stronger than the rest But inside my hearts broken and my mind is a mess Tell me wait for tomorrow cuz it'll be better But the only thing that will change will end up bein the weather Look people act like they always gonna care But then they up and leave and you got nobody there Act like you're not phased, broken, and bruised But that's fine i guess its something im used to Walk the halls in tears cover it up with a smile Cuz once depression takes its toll its stuck for a while Parents still married yea thats fine But its hard to be happy with nobody by your side Friends talked shit so I left them in the past Its as if lifes a race and im coming in last Ya I get it, some people got it worse But you cant say its not bad I put myself in a hearse 20 cuts up and down my right wrist "What's with all the sad songs in your playlist" I denied all the scars "no I dont know what happened to my arm" I told you I was fine it was just a false alarm And they believed me, now im alone again Yeah I guess its my fault, shoulda let them in But it was too late. Already looking up if suicide was a sin Yea I did it Attempted it a few times Hard to admit it but I overdosed 5 times Lied on the floor crying out the Lord's name Take me back lord jesus life's playin me like a game Ended up in the hospital, 3 weeks I layed Wondering why they wouldn't let me go. Let me fade away. Wanted to die, someone pull my plug Tears rolled down my face as my mom cried as she gave me a hug I breathed, thought for a bit, maybe I'll do better if I act like I don't give shit. Decided to try again. Give life another shot Holding on to my hope cuz its all I got Smiled more gained friends. Found a small purpose in life But in all honesty man suicide crossed my mind Up at 2 am eyes red as hell Told myself itd get better But if I think I should let go, fuck I probably will Yea I gave up. Quite alot lets be true But eventually got happier and better too. Got my baby with me now, wrapped in my arms Havent moved alot yet but im finna go pretty far Bae got my back and he keeps me in line Momma raised a queen . My crown and I gonna shine Definition of life is still yet to be unknown But I promise whoever listens to this you're never alone, lets go Aye keep on praying, smilin, dont quit Cuz one day i swear to god life will get lit You're worth more than you think now just hear me out Keep your head up baby and your ten toes down Wassup!!
start @0:24 i'm sorry Gmama for everything I put you threw now u gone and I'm sitting up here missing you out of no where u disappeared out the blue I aint say my goodbyes or give my last kiss to you 2x I'm sitting in my room, yea I'm all alone/Thinking about you gmama and listening to sad songs/Why you have to leave Why did god call you home/I try calling him but he don't never pick up the phone/Now that you gone I gotta step up my grind/Focus up in school, books on my mind/Fuck these lul girls cause I ain't really got time/When I found out u was gone I couldn't do nun but start crying/GMama please, Why u have to leave/Finding out god called u home stung me like a bee/ u left me with two lul brothers that I gotta feed/ gmama I'm not ready for that I'm only 17/ Still up in school and I'm working to/ Man this shit hard coming home not seeing u/ With having dinner ready, a table full of food/ I appreciate that gmama and the things u used to do Now I gotta grow up/Grow up real fast/Cause I'm finna put my childish days in the past/ Now I'm a successful man because you stayed on my ass/ Told me to stop playing and pay attention up in class/ And that's wat I did, Yea mama I graduated / But it's sad because you not here to congratulate me/ I'm going to the national guards/ Yea I'm living my dream/ You was my #1 supporter, You was the realest on my team/ Now that u gone/ Ion know wat to do/ I'll sell my soul to the devil to bring u back if I had to/ It could of been anybody Why he had to choose u/ jaylon and tay yea they doing good up in school/ mama come back, please we miss you/ we been crying all day so we ran out of tissue/ We use to walk to the store/ You had yo gun in yo purse/ I feel like I'm in hell now/ that he took you off this earth/I was acting a fool up in school/ yea a fucking clown/ u was my mama and my daddy/ u deserve a crown/ Now I'm walking round mad/ At the whole fucking town/ But ima keep u in my heart/ Standing ten toes down.
She said her farewell She said her goodbyes She smiled to cover up how dead she was inside Even though she did this Her smiles didn’t meet her eyes If you looked into them closely You would’ve seen she’d already died Her life was hard Just wanted it all to end So she turned to the blade Felt it was the only one who’d understand And over the years They became best friends When she needed to relieve stress It was the blade that’d attend And she tried to tell somebody That she wasn’t feeling well But they just brushed it off So she learned to never tell She bottled up her feelings Kept it all to herself Trying to stay positive Going round on this carousel But soon it all poured out She couldn’t contain it Blood dripping from her cuts She was going crazy She used to be “normal” Used to have friends But they soon left her Saying how it was all pretend So she told herself never to trust again Never learn to love Never to fuck with them Because in the end she would have to deal with pain And considering the circumstances She didn’t know how much more she could take So she was all alone Can’t even call her house a home Cuz mama and papa Be fighting all crazy No control Screaming and crying filled the restless nights So she learned to never speak Felt like what she said wasn’t right And when she went to school She put on a mask Never let anyone get close enough to pass The wall that she built Over time Because if they found out what she was doing to herself They’d probably leave her crying Cuts on her arms And cuts on her legs Wore long sleeves and jackets Saying how it was a trend But really her wrists were stained with the color red Said she was okay When she wanted to be dead When she wanted to hide And not face her fears Because her monsters and demons Would’ve brought more the just tears Just wanted it to end There was nothing for her here So she took the blade again Cut down her arms Knew death was near Inside she was screaming for help Being dragged down to something worse than hell Some tried to save her Didn’t know that she had already fell And when she went home she would look at that blade Bottles filled with pills Just wanting to end the pain And there she lay in bed Her knees to her chest Hoping things in life would turn for the best And now looking back on it I still can’t believe That the girl who was broken Was and still is me. -A little something something....
this just broke my heart. and its kinda odd cause I wrote a poem exactly like this 2 years ago in 6th grade. some of the lines in yours are similar to mine... sorry though. good luck😘😘😘 don't let anyone get u down💯
This is beautifully written and some straight fire woman. You should seriously consider writing more and more every day. To either submit your lyrics to the platforms that be to sell them or what would be even better is if you recorded this materpiece with your own vocal emotion you presented so nicely in your writing. You seriously have some talent woman. This is near perfect in my opinion. Would love to read more lyrics of yours anytime as I write myself and think it's neat to critique one anothers work. Keep it up boss lady.
Lyrics Clariyah song suicidal: I am a person of survival But growing up, that was not really my title A dead soul who was screaming for revival A young girl who became suicidal I felt the hits and the kicks of society Probably the reason why I suffer from anxiety I was never in the form of perfection So I became the best example of neglection They called me names from fat bitch to white trash To other shit I won't say, it's that bad They called me up and would always need back up Call me a slut and say my family was jacked up Death threats every time I logged in Always on some other shit, damn here we go again I was already alone, now I am looking for a friend Got no friends so here I am wishing it would end And it didn't, it never did, was always something Every time I felt good, they would remind me I was nothing Every time that I was down they couldn't help themselves but kick me It tore me a fucking part, took all the fight I had left in me I had enough, I was so fucking done I couldn't face all the drama so I decided to run But you can't run forever, eventually you'll get tired So I just stared at the rope, wishing my life would expire I mean fuck it, if I am really nothing Then nobody would stop me from taking that rope and jumping So I took it, tied it around my little throat and proceeded to jump When my mom bust in the door, I didn't know what to do, I didn't know what to say I saw the tears in her eyes, I felt the pain go away How could I be so selfish, how could I think I am nothing? When the person who gave me life obviously thought I was something Now I pray, pray for the people who never saw the light Pray for the people who still cry at night And those people will think of my words like protection Think of them as the light when you fight depression Cos I know what it's like, I been there before But for every close room, I'm here to open a door, I'm here to open a door
Honestly mate, you’ve just really hit my heart with this, I’ve been unhappy for an unusually long ammount of time which is abnormal for me, this has no lies. Snapped me out and made me happy, thank you brother. May I write a quick freestyle before I go🫡❤️
I'm your oldest little daughter and I'm growin every day. But you aren't here to see things I do and say. I know that you love me and I know that you care,but without you around I get emotionally scared. That when I get older the same thing happened to me. That I will have a broken family. But come on Sunday is Father's Day. What am I supposed to do what am I supposed to say to you that day. I'm not sure and it shouldn't have to be this way. Me as a teen tryin to think of the sad Father's Day. It's supposed to be a happy day but for kids like me it's not. It's a hard reminder of the battle I've fought. Trying to wrap my head around it. Trying to fight the sad thoughts but this battle has to stop being fought. I need to forgive you even if I don't wanna. So I love you dad. And I miss not sharing all the fun we COULD of had
We may have lost a legend But his legacy will never die Pray up to his family Because all they can do is cry But just let him fly high They can't play god They cant bring him back Crying on my knees This news is so whack Unable to talk Time is running out on the shot clock Number twenty-four Life is swinging like a tomahawk La Lakers is where it all started Departed Broken hearted I think my heart just hardend Losts are never easy And i understand that La lakers will forever be his to-go hat We been on this ride What seemed like a long time Just know "Kobe" Im forever on your side.
*0:22* *Dad I'm sorry that I don't really remember you, When you overdosed I was like 9* Now look what you got into* *All I really need in life is a father figure* *And I need you dad I don't want another nigga* *Only if you can walk and remember so we can do things* *Imagine if you didn't overdose you could experience new things* *Without you in my life I'm out here having mood swings* *And me and my brothers are just experiencing pain* *We miss having you in our lives dad without you we been living plain* *Look what happened to the family now we falling apart* *Mom broke bad job we wish you could just be a part* *Help me in life show me how to be a* *man* *I have faith in you dad, even though u never can damn* *Broke most my life* *We starved and we struggled but we survived* *I'm sorry I sound bogus but I hate the way I'm livin life* *But if you just never overdosed we'd all livin right...*
(Lyrics) You supposed to be my father but you were never there for me , you swore up and down you love me but you never cared for me . you were never there not a day in my life now you got another girl you're trying to call your wife as I can do up I always wondered where you were my mom had to cover up just to hide the hurt I can't believe you did that just left me in the dirt and know that you're my father but I hope for you the worse as I grew up everybody asked "where's your father" as I told them my story my eyes filled up with water You effed up my life so freaking bad I really wish you weren't even my dad (Verse 2) Don't even try to call me I won't call you you wonder why I don't like you it's a stupid things you do I know this sounds harsh but I don't care if it sounds rude I'm thinking about you it just messes up my mood why you using all these drugs like Dad you really tripping' I bet you don't realize our relationship is slippin' I'm staring at my ceiling I don't know what I am feeling is anger is sadness or is it just love you get no motivation to love me not even with a shove you need a third party and that really hurts me badly but you can't see all I ever really want it from you... Was a family (Verse 3) Look I'm 12 years old now Bet you didn't know this you had a chance to come back nah it's just a mess letting you back in my life is a big risk you left my heart broken like an old CD discs now as I wrote the song I really started crying I'm tired of your BS and I'm tired of your lying I'll just place you at the bottom of my heart cuz it's really too late to start off on a fresh start you know what I don't care you have these issues and you know what eff this big box of tissues I'm tired of crying and I'm tired of the pain because me being born isnt unerasable pain I cry alone in my room so just so I can maintain don't even talk about you saying my name in vain (Verse 4) For 4 years I thought it was my fault you left me and my mom but now I realized man I was wrong you never cared about anybody but yourself you don't care about your kids you don't care about their health if I could keep Track you really stabbed me in the back and you try to get away from it with talking all this smack well guess what I don't miss or need you I can make it by myself and succeed without you and when I be famous you'll be there like a statue when I grow up I really hope I don't match you now i think about it and I'm really dissin' you any other kid would be really missin' you but I'm Different I learned from my mistakes a lot of people in this world are just fakes (Final Verse ) what really angers me is when I see your face it makes me want to cry and that's a big disgrace I feel stupid thinking that you're going to come home but now I know you're not and I feel so alone I'm done with it all I'm just going to end it god paid me with life and I'm here to spend it drop off my problems that are involving you if only you could see life from my point of view I'll for real cut you off real fast like that but when I shut you out don't ever come back it's coming to an end I'm all done you can live your life always next to a gun yeah I'm done you don't deserve me or my love I hate you
My dad left me and my little sisters and my brother with my mom and my grandmother has been the one helping us out and I'm also 12 and he never calls me to wish me a happy birthday and that's what hurts me inside,my siblings don't get it cause they are young and I'm older but I just wish my dad can be here for me and I hope your dad can just be there for you. By the way love your rap 💖💖
Sooo this is mine. Its really long but oh well. Lied to, let down, got fucked up Told I wasn't worth it that I should just give up Flipped my hair turned like “if that's how you feel” Walked away chin up keepin it real Said my confidence was goals and i'm stronger than the rest But inside my hearts broken and my mind is a mess Tell me to wait for tomorrow cuz it'll be better But the only thing that’ll change will end up being the weather. Look people act like they’re always gonna care But then they up and leave and you got nobody there Act like you're not phased, broken, and bruised But that's fine i guess it's something i'm used to Walk the halls in tears cover it up with a smile Cuz once depression takes its toll you're stuck for a while Parents still married and yea that's fine But it’s hard to stay happy with no one by your side Friends talked shit so I left them in the past Its as if life is a race and I'm always coming in last Ya I get it, some people got it worse But you cant say its not bad that I tried to put myself in a hearse 20 cuts up and down my right wrist “Whats with all them sad songs playing up on your playlist?” I denied all the scars “No i don't know what happened to my arm” I told you i was fine it's was just a false alarm And they believed me. Left alone again. Yea I guess it's my fault. Shoulda let them in. But it was too late. Already looking up if suicide was a sin Yea I did it. Attempted it a few times Hard to admit but I overdosed 5 times Lied on the floor crying out the lord's name Take me back lord jesus lives playing me like a game Ended up in the hospital 3 weeks i layed Wondering why they wouldn't let me go. Let me fade away. Wanted to die someone pull my plug Tears rolled down my face when my my cried as she gave me a hug. I breathed. Thought for a bit. Maybe i'll do better if i act like i don't give a shit Decided to try again. Give life another shot Holding onto my hope cuz it's all that I got Smiled more gained friends found a small purpose in life But in all honesty man suicide started to cross my mind Up at 3am eyes red as hell Told myself itd get better But if i think i should let go fuck i probably will Yea I gave up. Quite a lot let's be true But I eventually got better and happier too. Got my baby with me now and i'm wrapped up in his arms Haven't moved a lot yet but Im gonna go pretty far Bae got my back and he keeps me in line Momma raised a queen. My crown and I gonna shine Definition of life is still yet to be known But i promise whoever listens to this you're never alone let's go Aye keep on praying, smiling, dont quit. Cuz one day i swear to god life will get lit You're worth more than you think now just hear me out Keep your head up baby and your ten toes down Wassup
Im here. I love this beat bcs i have lots of things to rap abt from my past and im only 14. And my mama say kids dont stress. Tuh back in yall days kids didnt stress
It's crazy I was just 8 years when you left us Woke up to my dad sayin get ready don't miss that bus Driving drunk you think faster could be a gain, I was just a kid how'd you not know it'd cause so much pain? Screaming, crying, say "no mom it can't be true!" Before there were four kids but you see now there's only two You had children, a girlfriend, and yes a wife, I know things weren't perfect hey man sometimes that's just life Now how do you expect the family to just move on? Drugs, bail, liquor, 2 young men just dead and gone They say any hurt can heal over time but I've got older and I think this is where they would draw the line Age 11 I was scared to go to school, my own best friend had turned on me, how could one kid be so cruel? Told me I was stupid and worthless and go to hell, now I'm bisexual I guess that turned out pretty fucking well High School came and so did the inner battle I found, little did I know it would leave me crying alone on the ground Drinking to escape the reality that I called home, fighting, hitting, punching, how could no one else have known? Ya depression it got the best of me, cutting just to feel something, why is nobody helping me? Prayed to God please give me strength, yea it did take a lot from me, just to put that knife down and say that my future's worth the see. Stay Strong Everyone, God Bless.
I swear some people never want to see you succeed they would rather see you crumble and fall and when you do they keep bringing it up and tell you your never gonna make it so show them haters wrong and keep grinding and keep it pushing if you need to cut them out your life because they toxic go ahead and do that and don't care what a hater is gonna say because all they wanna do is drag you down so be a king and pick up your crown
I gave you my heart hoping you wouldn't break it You broke it anyways, and you knew I couldn't take it I have you my heart, mind, love and you would shake it It was like going thru hell I knew I couldn't make it. I was a great person but that's something you didn't see. You always laughed at me when I would fail and never succeed. I was starting to get somewhere, but you still slept on me. That's okay, but when I get to the top don't clap for me.
I keep it ten toes even in the casket, They put me 6 feet under & put flowers on my basket.. When your sad, just remember when we was laughin. Keep a picture of me close & try forget about what happened. Like im, sorry it had to be this way although im restin up above i think about you every day & I know you feel the same when you close your eyes & pray cause every night I hear my name before you say Amen & then you kiss the picture in the frame after the prayer end Never been one for goodbyes but its been fun my friend Beautiful brown eyes with a smile you can never dim Strong, independent woman that deserves to fall in love again Yeah So I'm watchin over you like a clock is on the time But when I see that pretty face it just makes me cry cause when you look up to me now you just see the sky yeah heaven is so lonely without you by my side..💔
When I was young I had all of these hopes and dreams , All these happy memories that I failed to see, Thinking about all those times when I had them plans, Wondering why I couldn't make them ever last. Now I'm here reminiscing about my past, Feeling so alone in the world at long last. And all those people that I thought I could trust, All they did was hurt me and use me over again. And now I feel so alone, I just want someone to hold me Tell me it'll be okay, And that I'll feel safe again. But these cuts on my wrists tell me a different story, Now I'm thinking that no one will ever really know me. 15 years old and I want to die, Have nothing to live for anymore, trust me I have tried. So please God if you're up there and if you can hear me, Tell my family and friends that I love them all dearly. ♡
Man there's this thing called love and it kinda sucks Once you fall for somebody, there's no getting up Never thought that person would really be me Until I talked to this girl, let's call her Jenny Now Jenny had me caught up, I ain't gon lie She had me thinking all day, man she *that* fly Had me talking all day, it was nonstop
till I was broken down, man, what tough luck I had to rethink what went down, where'd it go wrong so that's why I am trying to put it all into this song See jenny was good at acting, saying she really loved me and I believed her, so blind i couldn't see, I believed her and she hurt me shattering the dream of what I use to see, completely broke the image of what true love seem to be Now I am on the ground picking up the broken me, Dusting of the shards of the broken sh*t, man can you believe Jenny played me from the start saying she the real deal, she was a victim, but she was aimin to kill thinking straight up man, Imma protect her, protect our love, didnt protect me now Im shot down, and Im left with how I feel I was a fool easy to push around, cause even if I hurt I would'nt make a single sound to this day I am still dust on a rug off the dirty ground.........
(This for my dad) Where were you, when i was scared Do you know the feeling of having your daddy not there The feeling can break you, even make you scared Having your mom on her own, trying to take good care While my daddy was out, playing affairs I thought it was me, but now i just see I can't blame myself How would you feel,seeing your daddy 3 times a year (not even) It’ll make you feel lost, but he dont care After he said you can come But then he’s no where For the past couple years I thought he loved me But now i see he actin real funny Yeah he pay the child support But that don't add up To My fragile heart That's already broken, like a glass jar (like a glass jar) Ohhhh Now how you think my momma feel Cant get 1 second for herself Gotta teach us right, right from wrong All alone But she gotta stay strong Even if she wanna cry all night long
Khi tao lớn, không có ai ở cạnh bên, Tao nghĩ nó khiến cho tao yếu đuối, nhưng không nó làm tao mạnh lên, Quen núp mình vào trong bóng tối, trầm cảm với mọi người xung quanh, Và tao gắn liền tuổi thơ của tao với điện tử thẻ và truyện tranh, See, tụi nó nói như tụi nó biết tao là ai, Như tụi nó đã từng ở đó và thấy những chuyện mà tao đã trải, Tụi nó biết gì về từ bé, đã từng sống trong trại mồ côi, Cùng những bà sơ mang danh chúa để biện hộ cho những đòn roi, Nhưng tụi nó có bao giờ thấy 1 lần nào mà tao khóc? Tụi nó có bao giờ nhìn thấy ba nó mang bộ áo sọc? Tụi nó có bao giờ nhìn thấy, đứa bạn học nó qua đời, Mẹ nó có duy nhất mình nó, bả không nói được ra lời, Nên, tao viết ra những bài nhạc, mong mày lắng nghe, Bỏ đời thật và nhiều cảm xúc của tao vào thật cặn kẻ, Vì đời này nhiều cay đắng, buông ra nhiều lời nặng nhẹ, Nhưng phải nhớ là ngẩng đầu và sống thật là mạnh mẽ, ‘Cause they always tryna take you, break you down, Sometimes you wonder what the fuck you gon’ do now, Hãy yêu bản thân, những việc khác đừng đếm xỉa, Bãi cỏ luôn xanh mượt khi nhìn từ bờ bên kia
0:22 (kinda a fast rap) suffer from depression viewer discretion lost in my collection of imperfection i need a blessing tired of aggression tired of this lesson look at my reflection obsession, deflection, abjection, infection 0:35 i need a resurrection i’m trapped at an intersection with hundreds of different directions causes self-inspection really makes you question is my own projection a true confession? or am i messin with my facial expressions are my emotions under suppression? feel like i’m under possession get me out and then take me to the heavens 0:51
I had to hustle get on out that struggle and I still remained humble cause them streets was like a jungle growing up in my neighborhood I had to stay off the streets cause I remember times I barely had anything to eat yeah i remember times I ain't had nowhere to sleep it was time to start grinding cause I had goals I wanted to reach yeah . I couldn't depend on nobody , I had to hold it down cause when I needed a favor , there was no one around except for my brother , my cousin, my aunt , and my mother we was all struggling we had to help each other . dinner on a plate , we ain't see that everyday those nights I had to pray pray for better days . better days , better days , in a better place those days were soon to come in just had to wait .
Bare shit I did that I regret Mummy’s tears I’ll never forget Did dirty just hope I can repent Shit shouldn’t of put myself in this mess But it’s all bless Coz life’s about living and learning Tears used to drop had me burning Bro locked up on the wing like sterling So I keep making them pound sterling
TEN TOES RAP CHALLENGE:: this is the life of a brave girl like me who now she's damn tough but used to feel so fuckin weak was born adopted, so different, but prompted by the birth mom & dad who told me im not wanted the second im born i see just the face of my new mom who offered to give me a place a kind hearted soul who made me feel glad another story for the man who im supposed to call my dad no vision in my right eye, disease and im half blind i wish i could move on but can't stop the rewinds the memories of mom and dad screaming at eachother remembering my dad hitting my poor fucking mother they split when i was 3, mom got near-full custody but i still had to visit him regardless of my plea wednesday's and weekends were the worst hell days when i spent time with daddy i was never fuckin' praised just raped, beaten, punched, kicked, thrown down the stairs getting called names, touched, slapped, pullin on my hair you're supposed to be my role model, what is your excuse for 8 years of physical verbal and sexual abuse i blamed it on me- it was my fault i was raped had nobody to talk to-my sister moved and escaped leaving me all alone, fending for my fuckin self hiding under the bed and climbing under the shelves to get away from this monster who i had to call a dad made me cry and scream and raised me to be dishonest and mad after 8 years of his abuse i told mom all the shit i finally reached my breaking point and snitched the man to bits. got him sent to jail and had to move across the coast yet you still give me a reason to hate myself the most you hurt me, and threw me and tortured me before but all i ever did was try to fuckin run out your door. mommy was heartbroken that her precious little baby got sucked up in abuse and felt like the world hates me mom got remarried, were happier now but im still scarred today- wanna know how? all i do is let the past get to me i can never move on, can't fuckin accept a me where everything is ok and nothing ever came and i could be that little girl wanting for wealth and hannah montana fame i have a new dad, same mom now i'm perfectly fine but something in my mind just keeps me always cryin knowing i'm a victim and im truly went through strife but sometimes you gotta dust it off and say "hey, that's life" twelve years old diagnosed with some shit called anxiety and depression because i got hit scars on my wrist, blood flowing down the drain crying, trying to distract from all this pain i can't talk to nobody, i ain't going to school i stayed in bed all day, but i was such a fool grades got lower and so did my esteem but i faked a happy smile just so i could seem fighting through this bullshit getting through the day i wanted to end my life but all i did was pray wishing for that happiness that i never fuckin got constantly bullied, but i'm not even a thot why can't my life be filled with joy instead i cry over my ex dad and a cute boy never feeling loved but i had so many friends who wanted me to get better and stick through till the end i tried my best and i'm still tryin it's hard breathing, i'm not lyin but after all my hard work i'm high and im just flyin at the end of the tunnel there's always a bit of light ask me if i'm a victim and ill say yeah that's fuckin right but im proud of it, bitch do you see how i'm doing now getting straight a's, partyin till the moon goes down letting loose and goin crazy, doin what i want i wished for happiness and that's exactly what i got
Leah Laufe I'm fucken sorry! bruh this had me crying. stay strong babygirl. i cant believe u went through all that! 😪 my lord. Jesus is w u. 💙 my prayers out to u and ur family ma! 😫 omg I just can't believe this. this broke my heart in so many bits and pieces 😭💔
Leah Laufe I went through the same thing but only that it was my mom that abused me instead of my dad but hope you feel safe and if you want to check my channel
it feels like it happened yesterday , seeing my mom cry over some nigga tears rolling down my eyes because I can't help her, it hurt me in self .my mom always keeps a smile on her face when she knows it really hurts in side told me that she wants me to make it out for her🙏🏾🙌🏾😭😭
we went through our ups and downs seeing my mom crying in the car because I was doing some dumb shit I don't cry that day but I wanted to stay strong for her and get my shit together love your mom😍😭
Music to my ear you my melody Late nights feeling sick you my remedy I remember every moment, every memory Sipping on you, fuck sipping on the Hennessy Have you living in the Hills, out in Beverly Yeah we coulda been forever been a legacy But you tryna fight claiming that we enemies Thinking 'bout the jealousy forgetting all the chemistry, yeah Whatever happened to together 'til we 70 We moved apart girl now we living separately I remember you, can't you remember me Loving you my specialty, you my secret recipe You helped me find my self, a part of my identity My love, my oxygen to me you a necessity I hope this reaches you if not its my serenity Bars on my mind like I'm convicted for a felony And ah, that was a hard time Its been a while since we talked its been a long time I been on my phone, checking if you online Stalking up your page, wonder if you're on mine Been a couple years, thought that I'd be over you Still hold the tears, when I think of holding you You left and disappeared, I can't get a hold of you I can't believe you'd me wrong, was someone else controlling you? 'Cause after all the times, everything we been through Every time you lie, I'd always defend you And when I saw you cry, I'd just hold you gentle For you I prayed to God, to me you like a temple So tell me did you love me? Or did you pretend to? Every time you touched me, was it even special? Was I a priority? Or squeezed into schedule Baby you angel same time you the devil After all the times, everything we been through Every time you lie, I'd always defend you When every time you cry, i'd just hold you gentle For you I prayed to God, to me you like a temple, yeah Music to my ear you my melody Late nights feeling sick you my remedy I remember every moment, every memory Sipping on you, fuck sipping on the Hennessy Have you living in the Hills, out in Beverly Yeah we coulda been forever been a legacy But you tryna fight claiming that we enemies Thinking 'bout the jealousy forgetting all chemistry, yeah Music to my ear you my melody Late nights feeling sick you my remedy I remember every moment, every memory Sipping on you, fuck sipping on the Hennessy Have you living in the Hills, out in Beverly Yeah we coulda been forever been a legacy But you tryna fight claiming that we enemies Thinking 'bout the jealousy forgetting all chemistry, yeah yeah
There’s this thing in this world, Love. It can really suck And once you fall in it you ain’t ever getting up After I fell for this girl, I always look into the dark And now I’m gonna tell you how she went and broke my heart We’d talk to each other. Like all day and all night And ask questions like ‘who’s your first kiss?’ Or ‘who you like?’ While always thinking that it’s bound to end Like somehow I’d screw it up and then only be a friend But I was determined, never gave up hope And told myself that if it happened, I could always cope But that was false information. So far from the truth Bc everyday I sit back thinking about you I met you for the first time at relay for life That was the day I wish I could go back and rewrite Back when it wasn’t awkward between me and you When we could laugh and joke til we didn’t know what to do You had asked me for my snap, I gave it to you that’s the start That’s the day my whole life started to fall apart I look back on that day again and again Now I’m wishing somehow i had only stayed a friend I started ‘talking’ to that girl and thing just started changing Maybe it was my fault sorry I’m impatient You say ‘we’re not the same’ and ‘we only contrast’ And I guess that’s why In the end we never could last Then somehow in July this other guy interferes He broke your friends heart, left her sad, dripping tears Then you went and left her, and stayed by his side And by the time it’s over you were with another guy You could’ve had the world and anything that you wanted You could’ve been my trophy that I couldn’t help but flaunt it You had to go and go with him to the movies And within 2 weeks you were coming back to me On this day we went to your mothers grave You looked up at the lord hoping that she’s okay But you were content knowing she was peaceful down where she lay Then we got in the car and then we drove away At this point, things started going downhill Our future laid on my heart, heavy, like an anvil Especially since I didn’t know what we could entail But one thing I knew, was that it wouldn’t end well And it’s sad to say, but i was correct I ended it all with that really really long text One that said ‘I love you’ and that ‘I still care’ But I drew the line and knew I had to end it there
Oh man the amount of freestyles I heard at house parties with this beat back in the day 😅 good times man
get unc ouuta here 😭😭😭
I can't take this beat seriously 😭😭😭😭😭
i felt the part where he said "mhmmmehm" 😔😔😔😔
😭😭🔥
😂😂😂
Damn, I was over here in my feels, gang, and now I feel like y’all are laughing at me. 😔
@@TonTon.2142ong
Best beat I have ever heard
Thanks ❗
Comments like these keep me going 💪
sammeee,i dont even know why it is, but it just is
Nadyas Channel
jacob bull fnn
I am so thankful for this beat. I’ve done wrote two full songs with it. No other beat seems to hit like this one still to this day 💯
No cap
Lame ahh songs too I bet
@@ssgtsorethumb203 dream crusher 😂😂
@@ssgtsorethumb203LMAO
damn yo comment pregnant now
Man I have listened to many types of beats for rap and hip hop... this one is just incredible. This producer needs to be famous asap because he really got the flow
Thanks fam! I'll continue to put my passion in this. Hopefully that'll come true.
is there an actual song to this beat
+Kayla Johnson look up 'praying for help' b
+Kayla Johnson Yes there is Trevion Alexender got a song on it
Breiner Zarate
whenever i hear the beat i think of some guy sitting in his car at the night and rapping 😂😂
yyoohowlongisthisusernameyiumaybeaskingmetoo life you mean this one?
ruclips.net/video/46UH-mYOB7k/видео.html
That’s what I do
Alek Vi
Me too I love that one
I feel u
why is this so funny to me 😭
this beat is hilarious
😂
😂
0:23
I was born into the struggle,
Life started gettin harder
I'd never guess when I was 3 that I would lose my father
But there's always a purpose,
Cuz he was bein abusive
We decided to leave the next time that he knocked her tooth in,
We ended up in california, with another dude
He was pretty cool ya everything was goin smooth
But I was probably 9 when I started to notice signs
I was gettin lost couldn't find my way through the vines
0:46
But he never helped, he just went and he grabbed the belt
Never asked me how I felt, he just have me welts
Edit:
Tired of being on my own for so fuckin long
Had to go and realize that I was not alone
My mom was by my side, and she was so damn strong
If I could see him one more time I'd put one in his dome
Wish I could tell you this a prank but it aint home alone
This hits so deep I had to put it all into a song
My grandpa died today and it really hurt
Stressing so much with work that imma go bezerk
But we made the come up, shout out polo g
I know he's the realest rapper that I've ever seen
I miss my uncle Ken he's also deceased
If I could hear him one more time he'd tell me imma beast
Why did they have to leave why couldn't they have stayed stayed
If they were here I wouldn't have to shed these years today
Come back grandpa for I drink all these beers away
I'm not an alchoholic don't make me face all my fears today
Come back Kenny for I drink all these beers away
I'm not an alcoholic don't make me face all my fears today
LONG PAUSE-------
1:56
I hope your ok
@@herb2real I'm 👍 thanks
Pls pls pls continue it it really says a lot
@@braelynelashae ok I will continue it, you know what's crazy bro, I'm only 14. I really appreciate all of the support
@@braelynelashae i also subbed btw
am I the only one who just sits in the dark listens to this song and raps there heart out and ends up in tears...... no only me. ok
100,000 Subs with out one Video nah its me too
100,000 Subs with out one Video that's me
100,000 Subs with out one Video me too
Nah, we here with you.
No I'm with you my girl friend was cheating on me and I'm in the dark
Who still listen to this beat in 2019 i still am
Me
You're welcoming me to come in at the same time as the other than that it was not the case please let me know when I should get the group chat with me and
Me
Me and I rap to it
Im writing a song wit it
Those freestyles made this beat funny to listen to now 😂
Ong😂😂
😂😂😂😂
To think that even an "Instrumental" beat like this, made for Hip Hop/Rap.Would have such an emotional power behind it. It feels like I can feel the emotions the creator went through. Its crazy, yet amazing!
Thanks fam!
ItsIvaan I love your mind 😍
somer burtsell Tbh, even im surprised that i could even make such a comment like that. Maybe the beats just got me :) But thank you!
ItsIvaan I herd this beat and felt it go through my soul
7 years later and I still feel the same emotion every time I hear it. It just hits different. Speaks to my soul every time!!
I can’t be the only one who rapped with their own lyrics to this song+ these 3 am raps be hitting different
Lay in bed at 5am just rapping bout my life
SkyZ VxgaZ same
nahh u not
SUPER _CAM I did to do u know how to get copyright for none profit
i did
I know I made some mistakes but that was all in my past/Now I'm out here tryna regain my ground real fast/And I don't understand the struggle, and I don't understand the pain/I don't understand why all of this is running through my brain/And it's running through my veins/And I feel I can't escape/And even when I try to overcome all of the hate/It feels like I just get locked tighter in this gate/And my heart begins to Shake/And my heart begins to frail/No matter what I do, I know I can't prevail/Before I even started, I already knew failed/And in case you couldn't tell/My life is on a Sail/And it just stared sinkin/Do I revert drinking/Or do I revert to prayer/Cuz even though I pray, my life's still in despair/Man this life really ain't fair/But you don't really care/Nah, You don't care that my life is in a drought/Where is all my life flowing, cuz I think I'm out/I don't feel nothing, we call that feeling lifeless/I don't feel nothing, when I used to feel righteous/I just keep feeling more empty at heart/My heart keeps on crumbling and falling apart/Yea, Do you know that feeling?/When you know you need some healing/But even though you know that, that pain still keeps on killin/And you know you can't escape it/And you know you can't erase it/So you hide from yo problems cuz it's just to hard to face it/You know you can't erase all of the things you've said/And just that in itself creates a whirlwind in your head/And you laying in yo bed/Create a list of your regrets/Make a list of all the thing and challenges you've met/And you feel like life is set/Yea, you can't get past the struggle/So you lock up In this bubble/Don't got nobody to cuddle/Cuz you can't even trust yo self to not get into trouble/So how she post to trust you, when love is on the line/When she don't even know if she's just wasting time/Ten toes...
Lol. Sorry, so long. Just was feeling this beat
Jonathon Martinez that's deep much respect it hard out here💯
Fire
Jonathon Martinez 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
Bro that was lit I rapped what u writ and man I like ur rapping u should make a video man ur good
This one of them fire ass beats that everybody sit back smoke a blunt and write the deepest realest lyrics your mind could think of any subject any of life obstacles. Keep doing what you doing lil bruh keep making these fire beats for the world to hear and learn from.
why smoke. you could do it sober
@@EfremCCTV You ever smoked? It just helps people feel shit a lot more and get more in tune with their emotions. Not saying you have to smoke, but I am saying that you shouldn't judge if you haven't tried it because you really don't understand.
@@RealShaggy nah i prefer liquor. it does for me what weed does for this guy
@@EfremCCTV why drink. you could do it sober
@@RealShaggy cause im an addict
2020 anybody ? 😔
B.T.R.N Chris Me
I'm in the studio rn with this beat
Me
Yuh
Me
Ten toes, ten fingers, a silver spoon.
I had everything I ever needed coming out the womb.
But I couldn't be a man and
took that shit for granted,
now the ones that were there for me are disenchanted.
Now I'm in my early twenties with a bad back,
'cause I started picking up boxes, dropped my backpack.
But I'm try'na get my ass back on the fast track,
before the final curtain falls on my last act.
And my grandpa got diagnosed with leukemia,
I was hoping maybe one day, he would see me up
on stage behind a podium, in a cap and gown,
but raging was my opium, I was acting a clown.
I hope he leaves this earth being proud of me
but I don't believe I'm worth sticking around to see.
MrPlasmaNuke
MrPlasmaNuke nice man 👌🏼✊🏼
Yeah I diggin dat doe fr💪💯
MrPlasmaNuke oh shii 👀💦
MrPlasmaNuke are these your lyrics? or the original?
Who here 2020 🌊🌊🔥🔥🔥
Yessir
Mo Money me lol
Me
Present
Ragein Gagein tf?
Whose here in 2024
Me
I just farted
Bout to make a song now for this shit😂📌
Me
@@luhicyyy3086 3 days is crazy, what's the chances, just stubbled across this beat now, shi crazy.
I could see J Cole pourin his heart out into this beat
I am KingKaze Same man.
I am KingKaze yea me too
I am KingKaze yeah I see j cole too
yes dude 😩👌
I am KingKaze lmao idk why this made me laugh💀💀
I was just a lil boy when I seen my mom cry,
Tears fallen heart froze
seen the pain in momma eyes,
God called for his angel
That's the day my sista died,
I was 7 but it hurt me
Hoping she come back alive,
Fam told me keep ma head high it'll be ok,
Even tho we want her back
She living in a better place,
So I pray for better days
When I grew up I felt da same,
I was smokin every night
When I'm high I feela change
Now it got me sitting here
Rappn bout the past like,
I remember growing up
I Use to live a fast life,
Little brother locked up
Sisters running wild to,
Mommy work her ass off
I'm doing what I gotta do,
Just to hear ma mamma say
Damn son I'm proud of u,
Growing up without a dad
Made a man out of you,
Fuck was I suppose to do
Sit around & cry about it,
Living with no happiness
But I still smile without it,
subscribe to my channel I got more bars
KidSmilezMusic yo god damn this shit STRAIGHT FYEE🔥🔥🔥🔥👌respect for what ever happend in ur life
KidSmilezMusic 🤘🏼
KidSmilezMusic Respect brotha FIRE!!!
I usually don't cry but I did after listening to some of people's raps 😭 respect to all of u
I love how everyone in the comments is making up their own rap but I'm just here scrolling through the comments and I can't even say three words
Dyamond Trevino you said over 10 words
Just let come to
You
Hahhaha
Dyamond Trevino lol me
One of the most relatable instrumentals on here!!!!! So calming
Wtf you talking about this beat shit af😭 go take another listen
Y'all don't know how long I've been looking for this BEAT THO!!
jailene corpes you bouta spit something on it?
Eway Jay lmaooo maybe!
jailene corpes Rip, I just heard about this and I found it in seconds
QuickBarz lmao and...
ChuxVersace wym?
Who else trying to rap this beat
I’madonut8 Totally diva me lol
I’madonut8 Totally diva right! Even me as a producer lol
I’madonut8 Totally diva me
I’madonut8 Totally diva right here it was a fail😂😂
Me lmfao
this song just says pain. like somehow the beat is a sound of pain and it's beautiful.
Thanks!
Cristian Rod
You described it perfectly
Gaara Kazekage :)
BubbaGotBeatz thank you for the amazing beat :)
mhmmehn 🦟 🎹 mhmmehn 🦟 mhme 🦟 mhemeh 🦟
Someone please like this so I can listen to this again
come listen
listen again nga
It’s time
mhmmehn 🦟 🎹 mhmmehn 🦟 mhme 🦟 mhemeh 🦟
*_2019 anyone?? I love this beat it’s so chill_*
2k19 still here
Please make more beats like this. This one really touch the soul
thanks fam!
+Bubba GotBeatz do you mind checking out my verse to your beat. It's on my artist page. The description say can you feel his pain. facebook.com/DiverZityVang/
DiverZity Vang truee
Back in 2016 when 🥷s was heartbroken & shxttt😹😹
yo who else freestyles, writes raps or songs, and attempts to freestyle to this amazing beat...I listen to it every morning on the way to school thinking I will be something.
Ethan Perrin same man. keep ya head up and keep trying. you'll make it big one day
Thanks yo.
please bring tegdvdvdvwfwfg
we will keep your eyes and me mouth see meoy keonte
Ò😅😅😊o😅po😅ollo😅
ME AND MY FRIENDS REALLY THOUGHT WE COULD RAP WHEN THIS CHALLENGE CAME OUT😂😂😂😂😂 im so glad them days are overrrrrr
Hearing this song reminds of my troubles I put up with and wishing I didn't do and my pain that won't go away,and just has me in tears
0:22 -I wondered everyday why my smile went away,
but then I remembered it was cuz you never stayed,
I used to cry because to my face you always lied, saying you're with your friends when you're really with your side,
but then it hit me you just played me, saying that you love me when it's not even a maybe,
you think you broke me by hurting all my feelings, you think that I'm laying in bed staring at the ceiling,
0:46-but no you thought wrong, you thought you hurt me? by taking all my feelings and doing me dirty?
that's actually pretty funny you thought you did the damage, but you actually did nothing you just created a bandage,
to all my old scars you made them fresh, making me realize that you wasn't the best,
so I knew this couldn't go on any longer, I knew what I had to do in order to feel stronger,
cuz you only made me weak, making me fail, making me fall to my knees, making it feel like hell,
so I put an end to it I told you I was done, but then you started laughing saying that it never begun..
koko kassandra u killed this
koko kassandra good rap
Fire bro
koko kassandra oml that's good. Also so sorry
koko kassandra can I use the end for my song
My mama really strong that's why I love her so much,
she would always pull through when life had got tough,I saw people bring her down,but she always got up,
she used to whoop me cuz I was bad,but she did it with love,that's my queen.
My mama really love me she said I'm the golden child,
I just say I love you,and I scream it loud,
imma shine like a light,imma make my mama proud,
Cuz I keep my head up and my TEN TOES DOWN.
Treven Mcfee emotional 😔😵
Ninja Gaming I appreciate you for looking at my lyrics💯💯
Treven Mcfee
Treven Mcfee
Treven Mcfee
Could listen to this beat ALL day
💪
same
Ari Aleigha same
i know right now times be getting hard for us,
Bt all we gotta do is pray to the man above for this,
Nd I know I ain't helping with this attitude or foolishness
Bt I wantchu to know that i truly do appreciate all that you do
Cause when I be feeling my lowest Nd the tears keep rolling
You be right by my side helping me to keep going
Nd when I fuck up you pick me back up
On some real shit
aint never had nobody keep real the way you do
Taught me how to hustle for myself but most importantly, showed me how to never depend on any kinda man
Nd you is right momma
I seen it with my eyes
The way you work hard for my siblings Nd I
Now the love nd bond you share with us
you can't find tht shit nowhere else
I ain't tryna throw no shade on my father,
Cause he was there at times
Bt full credit to you cause you been ten toes down for us
I don't know if this is still relevant at all but I wrote this, it's called Happy Father's Day.
This has always been my least favorite day of the year,
I can't deal with it now that you're not here.
Whenever someone asks "Hey where is your Father?"
My eyes immediately start to fill up with water.
I try to choke out a single word to say,
But I always end up crying and running away.
I hide in the bathroom and I lock the door,
Then I just start sobbing and I fall down to the floor.
I look up to the sky and I start to pray,
"Dear God, why'd you let them take him away?"
I'm reminiscing and thinking about all the fun times that we had,
Back to the days when I could say "I love you dad"
I was so young and happy, running and playing at the park
Now I'm sitting here alone, crying and falling apart.
All these words are just an attempt to try to explain
what I'm feeling inside, to release the pain.
Everyday I wish that I could just give you a call,
But they just erased you from my life, yeah they built up a wall
I don't deserve this at all, no it's just not fair
No one else understands or they don't even care
But I'm promising you dad, even though you're far away, that someday I'll be there to say,
Happy Father's Day.
(Thanks for reading ❤️)
Also, just in case anyone's wondering, My dad was involved in my life until I was about 10, and around then I wasn't allowed to see him anymore because my parents hate each other. After a few years I couldn't talk to him on the phone anymore. I think he's still alive but I'm not sure.
Edit: If anyone wants to rap this, I'm actually really flattered and I'd love for it to be shared. It'd be appreciated if you could give me credit though ❤️
💯🔥🔥
@XCubbyBeachX My dad's still alive, but my parents were never married so I don't get to see or talk to him anymore. I'm really sorry for your loss though
@XCubbyBeachX Thanks!
Best lyrics so far
@@z12weed Aw thank you so much ❤️
I was talking to this girl and things just started changing
Maybe it was my fault, sorry that I'm impatient
But you're the girl of my dreams straight out my imagination
Left me high and dry making it hard to be complacent
So what we're not the same? There's beauty when things contrast
I wanted to be more than friends and things were different when I asked
About what me and you could be
And how I was ready for something real
And then you dropped me like it's nothing and sent me right into my feels
You could've had the world and anything that you wanted
You would've been my trophy that I couldn't help but flaunt it
I would've given you my all and made sure to see it through
But you threw it all away left me sicker than any flu
Things might be different if you had my point of view
You're just like any other girl, giving me deja vu
You claim you want a good guy, you know, a true gentleman
And I took the challenge, tried to give you something genuine
Maybe a bit feminine, show off my sentiment
Give you everything you want, blow a few benjamins
But all that you could see was that you wasn't feelin it
fireeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Chandler Smith who
Aye thanks man, I might be posting a video soon, watch out for it.
Chandler Smith fire🖒🖒🔥🔥
wow
Back in these days man, summer 2016❤️😭😭
mm ya
Ong
2021
Mannnn fr tho
This beat went all around the world. Dudes in Nigeria in huts bumping this. Praise Jesus.
This is something I wanna be I really really hope that my Grandfather is proud of me. He died from before I could even tell him I love him. Shxt was sad so I kept grinding over the summer. It was rough only got two of em left. Imma be the one who help if nobody was there. Grand dad I love you I hope you looking at this. Imma be up in Heaven with you and family and shxt. I'm ten toes for my family gotta stay strong. Cuzz if AIN'T nobody with ME shxt imma stand ALONE. Seen my friend get jumped by homies and shxt. I found out he was battling and took his last breathe and shxt. This worlds tough. More than tough shxt it's rough. It's not a movie this is a real life matter. You better listen while you climbing up the ladder.
Clamp God Jay Real Shit
+trilla k Thanks Bro
Clamp God Jay 💯
Banana Clips love it
+Miriam Libokmeto Thanks
Don't want no pity nor no sorrow been through a lot of shit but was always looking forward to tomorrow when my grandma passed away I knew that was the day it was it it was over cuz I knew my whole world was Underground always said Taysha walk with your head held high but the day she died I give up on life every time I felt alone I wish I had you with me daily you taught me how to be a lady since you've been gone I've been going crazy but you know when is bad I know it's going to get better cuz I'll always have you in my heart forever and ever .....I love you nana ❤🙏
These days, kids will never know how much pain was on this beat😔🧡
Miss the old days
Im 13 basically a kid I understand I actually made my own song to this beat i cry real tears when i sing it tho cause it comes from the heart and i wish my life was different
Stfu pussy
@@AmbitionAlign stfu your name is Connor💀😭😭😭
nah fr they will never understand the stories that came with this beat...
I love this comment fr. Cuz they absolutley have no idea these days the raw emotion that was into this beat by so many ppl. #tentoeschallenge
You see everybody got a story to tell
Well here's mine
My pain's deep, I have been through hell
I managed to survive so I got a story to tell
Listen, I stand victorious
Make the sign of the cross
Look I'm here to be the voice for every friend I ever lost
Let me pray as I put together my hands
I've never been ashamed to tell you the person I am
When it comes to doing drugs, I have never been a rookie
But hold up, let me tell you about the places that they took me
I haven't showered, it's been possibly a week
And I'm so deep in a psychosis, impossible to speak
The coke is in my arm, now it's impossible sleep
My throat's numb, closed shut, so it's impossible to eat
Losing weight's a part of my daily routine
I always use against my will, just praying I was clean
So nod your head if you understand what I mean
When I was growing up I never thought that I would be a fiend, ever
My life's tumultuous, it's never getting better
Another abscess from my arm is getting severed
My exquisite vision, depiction of dereliction
Livid living conditions, malicious on a mission
All these Green-tree cops, look they all know me by my first name
Paramedics had to revive me this ain't a game
I worn the same clothes for like the last ten days
And look I want to do better but I don't know a different way
Completely all alone, I'm sitting in this room
I empty out the bags, brown liquid in the spoon
I have to do a lot, can no longer do a little
The water's been added, I place the cotton in the middle
I'm sucking every drop up into this plastic device
As I'm tying off, I'm trying to find a decent vein to strike
I shove it ever so gently up underneath my skin
As I'm pulling back the plunger till there's blood in the syringe
I push it in and try to drift away to heaven
But criminals like me that's never the place that we're headed
The guilt, shame, remorse and regret I never address
And I'm a mess from all this pain and this anguish
I'm filled with stress, overdoses, I'm emotionally broken, this ain't a joke
I'm smoking on a Newport, I never have any hope
This is me, I'm feeling like I don't deserve more
I feel disgusted as I'm pushing on this burnt chore
Someone stole the vinegar in the midst of a black out
Another shooting gallery, another crack house
On the porch ''Welcome To Hell'' is on the floor mat
I'm glancing at my arms and all I ever see is sore tracks
I'm feeling filthy dirty needles with the orange cap
Peaking out the window, someone whispers ''Lock the door latch''
We're blasting off, departing from this mothership
I look around as others search the carpet for another hit
Crest whitening strips and Mach 3's
I'm on a suicidal mission till these cops try to stop me
We boosted everyday selling steaks for half price
Any dream I ever had was shattered by glass pipes
Glass rose, devil got my in his lasso
Entered the gates of hell and I didn't even have a pass-code
I'm hard headed, I will never learn my lesson
You know the drill, commit a crime, and get arrested
The misery never ends, I spend another week in jail
I don't have friends, family never paid my bail
So I would withdrawal and kick on that concrete floor
I feel like I've had enough but my body is screaming ''MORE''
The food is horrible, but I haven't eaten in days
No reason to call home cause I got nothing left to say
I'm tired of this jail, I don't ever want to see prison
Look I'm tired and exhausted from this life that I'm living
I would get a couple days clean, and say that I was done
But every time I got released I was back on the run
It's back to thieving, lying, robbing, and ripping, and running
These problems I don't solve them, I'm crippled and sick to my stomach
I hang with prostitutes and these deadly degenerates
I'm homeless for the moment, but that's really quite irrelevant
The only thing that matters in life is my next high
I got to be willing to change and give it my best try
I'm a servant and this heroin's my king
I'm feeling like a slave, as I dangle from these puppet strings
I'm just a marionette, I'm staring at death
As I am carrying regrets that are just tearing through my flesh
We're dealing with a topic we're so careless to neglect
We're dealing with a dilemma leaving every parent stressed
I'm so sick and tired though of being sick and tired
But then it finally happened, motivated by desire
I hit this point, I wanted to change, enough is enough
My efforts been exhausted and I'm tired of being stuck
My faith is never blind and my future I barely see
But overnight, was open minded I had this moment of clarity
So it begins and it's essential I believe
Cause if it worked for you, then it just has to work for me
Through all this pain, there's got to be a positive message
I talked about the past, now let's talk about the present
I'm no longer living that way, for me it's a blessing
But with one bad decision I am back in that obsession
In 03 was diagnosed with hepatitis C
I utilize the bad, it's always been the fuel for driving me
And then u ask me ''Why do I give this my all?''
I'm not trying to see ''Rest In peace'' on my Facebook wall
I got clean in 05 and started rapping
I started touching lives, I never thought that this would happen
This shit today, trust me it isn't heroin
It's killing everybody and the comments are disparaging
No one cares or gives a fuck that I'm clean
For them another deadly overdose is just something to see
Look, I pay attention to every post that I read
As you are sitting there judging in front of your iPhone screen
Talking about these dying addicts and how they are worthless
And if they put a needle in their arm then they deserve it
But that's someone's Mother, someone's Uncle, someone's Daughter
And that's someone's Aunt, someone's Son and someone's Father
As I rap, this shit is giving me chills
And I am speaking off experience, that's how I know it's real
These ignorant motherfuckers will say it's not a disease
And look I really don't care, you can believe what you believe
I don't care to argue, I don't got to give you proof
Listen, I was taught you don't got to defend the truth
Incurable, progressive and fatal unless arrested
I'm expressing aggression with every sentiment confession
Once a junkie always a junkie, you're boring me
The last time I checked, there's one ultimate authority
I'm sick of these remarks and opinions from all these critics
Cause if you never lived it, then trust me you'll never get it
Be quite, you're not allowed to speak about it
If you've never lived it, then you're not allowed to speak about it
How often you forget, the only time that you should ever open your mouth is to eat a dick
Everybody is dying it makes me sick
This isn't a epidemic, this is more like an apocalypse
So when I struggle, it's only right that I fight
And my experience recites on how that diamond saved my life
Look, you don't got a clue what I've been through
When I was at my worst you couldn't walk a mile in my shoes
I survived a lot, so it's only right that I smile
And I'm aware of my surroundings, I'm no longer in denial
I'm blown away by every message that I get
It gives me motivation, it's the only reason I never quit
We got to do this together, we must trust
There's no you, there's no me, there's just us
I'm doing this with courage, I'm doing this with pride
I'm doing this for every single friend that's ever died
I dedicate this song to anyone that's lost a loved one
So live your life cause tomorrow may never come
Be grateful for your past, embrace it, don't get embarrassed
Everyday there is more children growing up without their parents
I felt pain, look I'm not afraid to cry
My life changed once I was willing to try
I've been giving many chances now it's truly do or die
Tell me y im finna have tears comin out ma eyes and down to ma cheeks?
Damn that's a whole life line
Copy right if Drug Addiction on Soundcloud
This go crzy
Music Infection That's too long.
My Ten Toes Down Challenge (:
0:22 - Do you remember what you did? Of course not. But you see I remember it clear as day
0:28 - Do you remember the way I cried? How about the way I lied? Do you remember the way I tried to fight it with all my strength? You see I was so young, I had no fucking defences. Does all of this haunt you just as it does to me? Do you remember how young I was and how I couldn’t speak? How the way you forced it all down on me? what about the way you held me down with your cold hands? You had no pity and you owned no fucking mercy. you had no care for the life I could have lived. Do you see the damage you did, because of your own self-love? News got around of the things you did. But no one ever could ever do a goddamn thing. Do you remember the way you forced it all down my throat? What about the way you taught me all of this shit?
1:09 - I heard you’re having a daughter soon, news gets around. Because of you I learnt not even blood can be trusted. I hope to god you see the daughter as just a daughter. I hope you treat her the way a princess would be treated. I hope to the lord you don’t hurt her the way you hurt me. I pray to the clouds she won’t suffer like me. Because I swear to god if you hurt her the way you hurt me. Does your girlfriend know? About the way you made me bleed? Does she know about the things you did, or did you just go and flee like you always do? You see the damage you did, it can’t be reversed. Does this ring a bell? Do you remember at all? The family took your side, and left us behind. We had no one, it was just us and the sky. They believed every fucking lie you told, you were always the favourite child.
1:56 - You tore every fucking piece of hope I had as a child. I was no longer a princess and I couldn’t find my crown. My innocence was destroyed and the blame was rested just on you. But don’t you worry because nearly 11 years later, I finally found my crown. But this crown is different. This crown is a crown for princes and so a prince I will fucking be. The shit you did and the things you taught me will be forever in my mind. But your actions can not define a prince.
2:19 - I dread the day I meet you, the day I see your eyes again. One word cannot reverse the damage, but there is one thing I ask of you. I want you to admit it all, tell me what you did, even with a fucking smile spread across your cheeks. I want to hear you say it, explain it all to me. Charges won’t be a fucking thing and forgiveness will surround you. Though you have destroyed me, I truly hope you’ve learned from this. Though you may have broken me, I will surround this with forgiveness. I can forgive but forgetting is a harder fight. I hope one day you can see the damage you truly caused. Though you may not open your eyes, and though you may not even try. I don’t need an apology, not even a stare. I hope you do realize that I no longer care. You had damaged me in a way words can’t spare, but like they always say. Time Heals all. So, keep praying that it all goes away.
3:05 - I will stand in this fight with nothing but a smile. So, bring on your army, nothing can compare. I have found my crown, so a prince I am. Don’t ever try to hide, as a smile defies all. Show the world you’re sorry, show me that you can. Though I have fallen in almost every single way, the crown I have is here to stay. And I truly, truly hope you find yours too.
I'm in LOOOOOVE with this💕 Make a video❤
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Emo Fanboy #749 amazing😍😍😍
Emo Fanboy #749 💓
Emo Fanboy #749 same shit happened to me, keep yuh head up.❤❤
i rap off this beat for thanksgiving but forgot to put it on RUclips,my family was like i need an contract.ten toe the best
i need an like'
ngl this is probably the most legendary beat ever😂😂 the amount of car videos and house parties this beat was played in!!!
I just sitting here scrolling down the comments tryna rap using other people's lyrics😂
Lol
🤣same
same
Lmao I was doing the same😂
It worked damn
🔥STRAIGHT BARS HUMMIES🔥
Yea i may be young but ik how love feels
When he says ur his forever and u thought that it was real
When u sat and cried at night and wiped away plenty of tears
When having a broken heart was one of ur many fears
With no one to talk to, wishin the pain would go away
When u haven't left ur room in somewhere around 2 days
I should've known that he was fake and she was faker
And he wonder why all his exes call him a "heart breaker"
I swear that bitch shady as fuck
U aint my fkin friend
Real friends wouldnt do that
So its time for this to end
U played me like a game, aint even gon say no names
U know who tf u is
Thats all i need to say
Gotta stay away from fakes, gotta stay away from love
Go to school, gotta learn and get my bread up
Ima make it far in this world, u gon see
And when i make it there, dont try to come talk to me
Gotta keep my head up or my crown might fall
Gotta stay strong and stand tall
To the haters: fuck em all
Head high, 2 feet on the ground, and my 10 toes down
🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
IF U READ ALL THIS, GOD BLESS UR SOUL. im only 13 so yea...i tried
Keke Simon oml killed that
Tayanna Patrick thanks 💙
hellory thanks💓
yeah i might be 11 but ik how love feels
He told me that i was his forever and thought that it was real
i sat n cried at night wiping away plenty of tears
When having a broken heart was one of many of my fears
Damn B I see ur really fucking smart
u told me dat u were worried i was gonna leave and break ur heart
yeah u got me feelin bad
n made me do things by hiting me with the lines "if u really cared"
see u got me playin victim from the start
I didnt know this was a game, if i did, i wouldnt have let my guard down
U ruined my life for good
I had no one to talk to
wish the pain would go away
Wish i got back the love,care, n trust that i once used to have
Damn the agony
it really hurt knowing that my bestfriend was one of his hoes
i should've know that he was a fake n she was a faker
And he wondered y all his ex's called him a "heart breaker"
That bitch was shady asf
U aint my friend
Real friends wouldn't do that
I hope u feel accomplished
u made me cry n depressed
Ive became a cutter
lifes throwing bullets
N ive got holes in my heart
im trynna heal
I hope u feel this pain one day
i hope karma gets u bc that bitch really owes me one
I tried tellin all the gurls ur a hit n run
but these chicks r blind they call u cute n fly.
well i aint lettin dis put me down
ive set goals to achieve
ima make it far
n when i make it there dont try to come talk to me
gotta keep my head up or my crown might fall
gotta stay strong and stand tall
to the haters: fuck em all
head high, 2 feet down,and my ten toes on the ground ❤️️❤️️❤️️
Skylar Chimbay awesome😁👌
*Starts at 0:22
There comes a time where you gotta stop believing what all the haters say
Just pick up yo head and get going on your way
Its not their words you believe, its how you feel inside
See, my greatest hater is the guy writing all of these rhymes
Constantly in self doubt
Trying to find a way out
Crying out for help
In the most silent way possible
It almost seems impossible
Tryin to fix my problems
And tryin to to stay on top of em
All these dark thoughts, its hard trying not to get lost in them
Life gets hard and it feels like hell
Knowing everyday your biggest enemy is yourself
But trust me, things will get better
Just gotta ride the waves and push thru the weather
You survived the pain and not once did you let up
Outside it rains but inside your all together
You just gotta holding on
Keep staying strong
And if you ever feel weak remember the words of this song
Remember youre the bomb
Now its time to blow up
Have all em haters saying 'Damn, he sure showed us!'
You are strong and forever I will believe in you
Just call me up and I will be there when you need me to
I love you my fams
You made me who I am
So now I will ride for you forever and I hope you understand
I will alwayd have your back as long as you have mine
We were born with that Native Pride
And thats a beautiful design
My bars, never give up
Mexican Person amen bro 😭
Kids today : “It’s just a beat”
People in 2016 : 🎤🎤🎤🔥🔥🔥🔥
Who ever made this beat is the worlds best at making beats✔💯💎
😄
I did
This beat fucking blows it’s literally an off key piano and a weird moan mixed terribly. This is what I have nightmares about
LIL DOLLAZ 77777
BubbaGotBeats !!
this beat makes me think a lot, gets me into my feelings and gives me chills sometimes. best beat ever 💯👌
Thanks fam!
Jansuel Cedeno me
Jansuel Cedeno your comment made me think of orgasms lmao
Jansuel Cedeno same
Have you got more beats like this? I'll sub anyway but I want to know if it's worth scrolling through the channel
Lied to, let down, got fucked up
Told I wasn't worth it, I should just give up
Flipped my hair turned like, "If thats how you feel"
Walked away chin up keeping it real
Said my confidence was goals and im stronger than the rest
But inside my hearts broken and my mind is a mess
Tell me wait for tomorrow cuz it'll be better
But the only thing that will change will end up bein the weather
Look people act like they always gonna care
But then they up and leave and you got nobody there
Act like you're not phased, broken, and bruised
But that's fine i guess its something im used to
Walk the halls in tears cover it up with a smile
Cuz once depression takes its toll its stuck for a while
Parents still married yea thats fine
But its hard to be happy with nobody by your side
Friends talked shit so I left them in the past
Its as if lifes a race and im coming in last
Ya I get it, some people got it worse
But you cant say its not bad I put myself in a hearse
20 cuts up and down my right wrist
"What's with all the sad songs in your playlist"
I denied all the scars
"no I dont know what happened to my arm"
I told you I was fine it was just a false alarm
And they believed me, now im alone again
Yeah I guess its my fault, shoulda let them in
But it was too late. Already looking up if suicide was a sin
Yea I did it
Attempted it a few times
Hard to admit it but I overdosed 5 times
Lied on the floor crying out the Lord's name
Take me back lord jesus life's playin me like a game
Ended up in the hospital, 3 weeks I layed
Wondering why they wouldn't let me go. Let me fade away.
Wanted to die, someone pull my plug
Tears rolled down my face as my mom cried as she gave me a hug
I breathed, thought for a bit, maybe I'll do better if I act like I don't give shit.
Decided to try again. Give life another shot
Holding on to my hope cuz its all I got
Smiled more gained friends. Found a small purpose in life
But in all honesty man suicide crossed my mind
Up at 2 am eyes red as hell
Told myself itd get better
But if I think I should let go, fuck I probably will
Yea I gave up. Quite alot lets be true
But eventually got happier and better too.
Got my baby with me now, wrapped in my arms
Havent moved alot yet but im finna go pretty far
Bae got my back and he keeps me in line
Momma raised a queen .
My crown and I gonna shine
Definition of life is still yet to be unknown
But I promise whoever listens to this you're never alone, lets go
Aye keep on praying, smilin, dont quit
Cuz one day i swear to god life will get lit
You're worth more than you think now just hear me out
Keep your head up baby and your ten toes down
Wassup!!
Bro thats amazing you should post that 🤘 check mine out tell me what you think
What’s ur ig ??
🔥
EmilyWoozProductions TM feel this on so so so many levels u saved my life xo 😘. My Snapchat is jamizlemanizle if u ever need a friend xoxo
Congratulations that's lit
I’ve been looking for this song for YEARSSSSS I MEAN YEARS I FINALLY FOUND IT
“Uhh listen”
“Ayy look”
Yea, aye, ok, bitch
@@HopeFpsYT ight, yuh
Uh, yeah. What. Let's go
Yea.. lets go.. lets get it.. ima show you right here.. aye listen..
Uh, yuh.. skrrt prrt yuh ayy
start @0:24
i'm sorry Gmama for everything I put you threw
now u gone and I'm sitting up here missing you
out of no where u disappeared out the blue
I aint say my goodbyes or give my last kiss to you 2x
I'm sitting in my room, yea I'm all alone/Thinking about you gmama and listening to sad songs/Why you have to leave Why did god call you home/I try calling him but he don't never pick up the phone/Now that you gone I gotta step up my grind/Focus up in school, books on my mind/Fuck these lul girls cause I ain't really got time/When I found out u was gone I couldn't do nun but start crying/GMama please, Why u have to leave/Finding out god called u home stung me like a bee/ u left me with two lul brothers that I gotta feed/ gmama I'm not ready for that I'm only 17/ Still up in school and I'm working to/ Man this shit hard coming home not seeing u/ With having dinner ready, a table full of food/ I appreciate that gmama and the things u used to do
Now I gotta grow up/Grow up real fast/Cause I'm finna put my childish days in the past/ Now I'm a successful man because you stayed on my ass/ Told me to stop playing and pay attention up in class/ And that's wat I did, Yea mama I graduated / But it's sad because you not here to congratulate me/ I'm going to the national guards/ Yea I'm living my dream/ You was my #1 supporter, You was the realest on my team/ Now that u gone/ Ion know wat to do/ I'll sell my soul to the devil to bring u back if I had to/ It could of been anybody Why he had to choose u/ jaylon and tay yea they doing good up in school/ mama come back, please we miss you/ we been crying all day so we ran out of tissue/ We use to walk to the store/ You had yo gun in yo purse/ I feel like I'm in hell now/ that he took you off this earth/I was acting a fool up in school/ yea a fucking clown/ u was my mama and my daddy/ u deserve a crown/ Now I'm walking round mad/ At the whole fucking town/ But ima keep u in my heart/ Standing ten toes down.
🔥💯
this hit my heart i fuck with this 💯👌
Javaugn Leslie thx
TeAira Allen thx
reading this made me cry ): keep your head high
She said her farewell
She said her goodbyes
She smiled to cover up how dead she was inside
Even though she did this
Her smiles didn’t meet her eyes
If you looked into them closely
You would’ve seen she’d already died
Her life was hard
Just wanted it all to end
So she turned to the blade
Felt it was the only one who’d understand
And over the years
They became best friends
When she needed to relieve stress
It was the blade that’d attend
And she tried to tell somebody
That she wasn’t feeling well
But they just brushed it off
So she learned to never tell
She bottled up her feelings
Kept it all to herself
Trying to stay positive
Going round on this carousel
But soon it all poured out
She couldn’t contain it
Blood dripping from her cuts
She was going crazy
She used to be “normal”
Used to have friends
But they soon left her
Saying how it was all pretend
So she told herself never to trust again
Never learn to love
Never to fuck with them
Because in the end she would have to deal with pain
And considering the circumstances
She didn’t know how much more she could take
So she was all alone
Can’t even call her house a home
Cuz mama and papa
Be fighting all crazy
No control
Screaming and crying filled the restless nights
So she learned to never speak
Felt like what she said wasn’t right
And when she went to school
She put on a mask
Never let anyone get close enough to pass
The wall that she built
Over time
Because if they found out what she was doing to herself
They’d probably leave her crying
Cuts on her arms
And cuts on her legs
Wore long sleeves and jackets
Saying how it was a trend
But really her wrists were stained with the color red
Said she was okay
When she wanted to be dead
When she wanted to hide
And not face her fears
Because her monsters and demons
Would’ve brought more the just tears
Just wanted it to end
There was nothing for her here
So she took the blade again
Cut down her arms
Knew death was near
Inside she was screaming for help
Being dragged down to something worse than hell
Some tried to save her
Didn’t know that she had already fell
And when she went home she would look at that blade
Bottles filled with pills
Just wanting to end the pain
And there she lay in bed
Her knees to her chest
Hoping things in life would turn for the best
And now looking back on it
I still can’t believe
That the girl who was broken
Was and still is me.
-A little something something....
lazy_filipino I am really sorry💖💕
this just broke my heart. and its kinda odd cause I wrote a poem exactly like this 2 years ago in 6th grade. some of the lines in yours are similar to mine... sorry though. good luck😘😘😘 don't let anyone get u down💯
lazy_filipino girl you made me cry 😔❤️
This is beautifully written and some straight fire woman. You should seriously consider writing more and more every day. To either submit your lyrics to the platforms that be to sell them or what would be even better is if you recorded this materpiece with your own vocal emotion you presented so nicely in your writing.
You seriously have some talent woman. This is near perfect in my opinion. Would love to read more lyrics of yours anytime as I write myself and think it's neat to critique one anothers work. Keep it up boss lady.
lazy_filipino o
Man life been so hard imma start freestyling to this again 😂😭
Do it bro
Sameee
i love how you put in there , "why didn't you pay for this beat tho"
Lyrics Clariyah song suicidal:
I am a person of survival
But growing up, that was not really my title
A dead soul who was screaming for revival
A young girl who became suicidal
I felt the hits and the kicks of society
Probably the reason why I suffer from anxiety
I was never in the form of perfection
So I became the best example of neglection
They called me names from fat bitch to white trash
To other shit I won't say, it's that bad
They called me up and would always need back up
Call me a slut and say my family was jacked up
Death threats every time I logged in
Always on some other shit, damn here we go again
I was already alone, now I am looking for a friend
Got no friends so here I am wishing it would end
And it didn't, it never did, was always something
Every time I felt good, they would remind me I was nothing
Every time that I was down they couldn't help themselves but kick me
It tore me a fucking part, took all the fight I had left in me
I had enough, I was so fucking done
I couldn't face all the drama so I decided to run
But you can't run forever, eventually you'll get tired
So I just stared at the rope, wishing my life would expire
I mean fuck it, if I am really nothing
Then nobody would stop me from taking that rope and jumping
So I took it, tied it around my little throat and proceeded to jump
When my mom bust in the door, I didn't know what to do, I didn't know what to say
I saw the tears in her eyes, I felt the pain go away
How could I be so selfish, how could I think I am nothing?
When the person who gave me life obviously thought I was something
Now I pray, pray for the people who never saw the light
Pray for the people who still cry at night
And those people will think of my words like protection
Think of them as the light when you fight depression
Cos I know what it's like, I been there before
But for every close room, I'm here to open a door, I'm here to open a door
Nicr
Honestly mate, you’ve just really hit my heart with this, I’ve been unhappy for an unusually long ammount of time which is abnormal for me, this has no lies. Snapped me out and made me happy, thank you brother. May I write a quick freestyle before I go🫡❤️
Okay this one got me in tears
yooooo, oh my god.
I made this into a whole song thanks for the lyrics
Thank you
this beat makes u wanna cry if u get into it real deep
kenneth sanders it really does
Bringing out the 2016 vibes miss them days man
I'm your oldest little daughter and I'm growin every day. But you aren't here to see things I do and say. I know that you love me and I know that you care,but without you around I get emotionally scared. That when I get older the same thing happened to me. That I will have a broken family. But come on Sunday is Father's Day. What am I supposed to do what am I supposed to say to you that day. I'm not sure and it shouldn't have to be this way. Me as a teen tryin to think of the sad Father's Day. It's supposed to be a happy day but for kids like me it's not. It's a hard reminder of the battle I've fought. Trying to wrap my head around it. Trying to fight the sad thoughts but this battle has to stop being fought. I need to forgive you even if I don't wanna. So I love you dad. And I miss not sharing all the fun we COULD of had
Estoy comenzando en el Rap Hip hop Are una musica de lo que dices. Te inspiras genial
Jessie's World your cute😘❤
Jessie's World damn this hit me right in the feels.
We may have lost a legend
But his legacy will never die
Pray up to his family
Because all they can do is cry
But just let him fly high
They can't play god
They cant bring him back
Crying on my knees
This news is so whack
Unable to talk
Time is running out on the shot clock
Number twenty-four
Life is swinging like a tomahawk
La Lakers is where it all started
Departed
Broken hearted
I think my heart just hardend
Losts are never easy
And i understand that
La lakers will forever be his to-go hat
We been on this ride
What seemed like a long time
Just know "Kobe"
Im forever on your side.
Ezekiel Yang. Can I use this song and finish it? Asking you bc this is fire? I m only 13 with a passion for music
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Awww love u Kobe and Gianna
@@jamaryoung467 go ahead!
Ezekiel Yang aye can I use this I make music I’m only 11 with a passion for music I wanna get big maybe with some help most veiled Singh 555
Just casually scrolling through comments, rapping other people’s songs 🙃
yoooooo same
Evie :p same
Evie :p SAME!!!
SAME 😭
Evie :p me
When life is getting so hard you gotta freestyle on this beat
Its a joke
*0:22*
*Dad I'm sorry that I don't really remember you, When you overdosed I was like 9*
Now look what you got into*
*All I really need in life is a father figure*
*And I need you dad I don't want another nigga*
*Only if you can walk and remember so we can do things*
*Imagine if you didn't overdose you could experience new things*
*Without you in my life I'm out here having mood swings*
*And me and my brothers are just experiencing pain*
*We miss having you in our lives dad without you we been living plain*
*Look what happened to the family now we falling apart*
*Mom broke bad job we wish you could just be a part*
*Help me in life show me how to be a* *man*
*I have faith in you dad, even though u never can damn*
*Broke most my life*
*We starved and we struggled but we survived*
*I'm sorry I sound bogus but I hate the way I'm livin life*
*But if you just never overdosed we'd all livin right...*
This is deep sorry for your loss 😞
ME 2 IM SOSO SORRY U LOST UR DAD
Highlight Kingdom to
Thanks y'all, that's wassup 🙏
I jus need to get a mic
(Lyrics)
You supposed to be my father but you were never there for me ,
you swore up and down you love me but you never cared for me .
you were never there not a day in my life
now you got another girl you're trying to call your wife
as I can do up I always wondered where you were
my mom had to cover up just to hide the hurt
I can't believe you did that just left me in the dirt
and know that you're my father but I hope for you the worse
as I grew up everybody asked "where's your father"
as I told them my story my eyes filled up with water
You effed up my life so freaking bad
I really wish you weren't even my dad
(Verse 2)
Don't even try to call me
I won't call you
you wonder why I don't like you
it's a stupid things you do
I know this sounds harsh
but I don't care if it sounds rude I'm thinking about you it just messes up my mood
why you using all these drugs like Dad you really tripping'
I bet you don't realize our relationship is slippin'
I'm staring at my ceiling
I don't know what I am feeling
is anger is sadness or is it just love
you get no motivation to love me not even with a shove
you need a third party and that really hurts me badly
but you can't see all I ever really want it from you... Was a family
(Verse 3)
Look I'm 12 years old now
Bet you didn't know this
you had a chance to come back nah it's just a mess
letting you back in my life is a big risk you
left my heart broken like an old CD discs
now as I wrote the song I really started crying
I'm tired of your BS and I'm tired of your lying
I'll just place you at the bottom of my heart cuz it's really too late to start off on a fresh start
you know what I don't care you have these issues
and you know what eff this big box of tissues
I'm tired of crying and I'm tired of the pain
because me being born isnt unerasable pain
I cry alone in my room so just so I can maintain
don't even talk about you saying my name in vain
(Verse 4)
For 4 years I thought it was my fault you left me and my mom
but now I realized man I was wrong
you never cared about anybody but yourself
you don't care about your kids you don't care about their health
if I could keep Track you really stabbed me in the back
and you try to get away from it with talking all this smack
well guess what I don't miss or need
you I can make it by myself and succeed without you
and when I be famous you'll be there like a statue
when I grow up I really hope I don't match you
now i think about it and I'm really dissin' you
any other kid would be really missin' you
but I'm Different I learned from my mistakes a lot of people in this world are just fakes
(Final Verse )
what really angers me is when I see your face
it makes me want to cry and that's a big disgrace
I feel stupid thinking that you're going to come home
but now I know you're not and I feel so alone
I'm done with it all I'm just going to end it
god paid me with life and I'm here to spend it
drop off my problems that are involving you
if only you could see life from my point of view
I'll for real cut you off real fast like that
but when I shut you out don't ever come back
it's coming to an end I'm all done
you can live your life always next to a gun
yeah I'm done you don't deserve me or my love I hate you
Asshole By Nature yes it’s about my dad
Asshole By Nature the video of me singing it is on my channel
Asshole By Nature thank youuu🙏🏽
My dad left me and my little sisters and my brother with my mom and my grandmother has been the one helping us out and I'm also 12 and he never calls me to wish me a happy birthday and that's what hurts me inside,my siblings don't get it cause they are young and I'm older but I just wish my dad can be here for me and I hope your dad can just be there for you. By the way love your rap 💖💖
edye smith thank you and I'm sorry 😭💔💔
Sooo this is mine. Its really long but oh well.
Lied to, let down, got fucked up
Told I wasn't worth it that I should just give up
Flipped my hair turned like “if that's how you feel”
Walked away chin up keepin it real
Said my confidence was goals and i'm stronger than the rest
But inside my hearts broken and my mind is a mess
Tell me to wait for tomorrow cuz it'll be better
But the only thing that’ll change will end up being the weather.
Look people act like they’re always gonna care
But then they up and leave and you got nobody there
Act like you're not phased, broken, and bruised
But that's fine i guess it's something i'm used to
Walk the halls in tears cover it up with a smile
Cuz once depression takes its toll you're stuck for a while
Parents still married and yea that's fine
But it’s hard to stay happy with no one by your side
Friends talked shit so I left them in the past
Its as if life is a race and I'm always coming in last
Ya I get it, some people got it worse
But you cant say its not bad that I tried to put myself in a hearse
20 cuts up and down my right wrist
“Whats with all them sad songs playing up on your playlist?”
I denied all the scars
“No i don't know what happened to my arm”
I told you i was fine it's was just a false alarm
And they believed me. Left alone again.
Yea I guess it's my fault. Shoulda let them in.
But it was too late. Already looking up if suicide was a sin
Yea I did it.
Attempted it a few times
Hard to admit but I overdosed 5 times
Lied on the floor crying out the lord's name
Take me back lord jesus lives playing me like a game
Ended up in the hospital 3 weeks i layed
Wondering why they wouldn't let me go. Let me fade away.
Wanted to die someone pull my plug
Tears rolled down my face when my my cried as she gave me a hug.
I breathed. Thought for a bit. Maybe i'll do better if i act like i don't give a shit
Decided to try again. Give life another shot
Holding onto my hope cuz it's all that I got
Smiled more gained friends found a small purpose in life
But in all honesty man suicide started to cross my mind
Up at 3am eyes red as hell
Told myself itd get better
But if i think i should let go fuck i probably will
Yea I gave up. Quite a lot let's be true
But I eventually got better and happier too.
Got my baby with me now and i'm wrapped up in his arms
Haven't moved a lot yet but Im gonna go pretty far
Bae got my back and he keeps me in line
Momma raised a queen.
My crown and I gonna shine
Definition of life is still yet to be known
But i promise whoever listens to this you're never alone let's go
Aye keep on praying, smiling, dont quit.
Cuz one day i swear to god life will get lit
You're worth more than you think now just hear me out
Keep your head up baby and your ten toes down
Wassup
Hailey Budach, I really enjoy your Ten Toes it's really good. thank you
Hailey Budach good job
lol
loved it, really deep but amazing
Hailey Budach love it
Thankyou for this instrumental bubba :) ur my bubs now :)
2k20 still here 🤘🏽😭 this is fr a vibe 🥺
Im here. I love this beat bcs i have lots of things to rap abt from my past and im only 14. And my mama say kids dont stress. Tuh back in yall days kids didnt stress
@Janiyah Sanders-Jones yess i swearrr
Fuck 2k
Ye
This is fire Asf nd deep Asf no words to needed the beat it self explains it all Man U a legend for this one
Thank you ❗
It's crazy I was just 8 years when you left us
Woke up to my dad sayin get ready don't miss that bus
Driving drunk you think faster could be a gain, I was just a kid how'd you not know it'd cause so much pain?
Screaming, crying, say "no mom it can't be true!" Before there were four kids but you see now there's only two
You had children, a girlfriend, and yes a wife,
I know things weren't perfect hey man sometimes that's just life
Now how do you expect the family to just move on?
Drugs, bail, liquor, 2 young men just dead and gone
They say any hurt can heal over time but I've got older and I think this is where they would draw the line
Age 11 I was scared to go to school, my own best friend had turned on me, how could one kid be so cruel?
Told me I was stupid and worthless and go to hell, now I'm bisexual I guess that turned out pretty fucking well
High School came and so did the inner battle I found, little did I know it would leave me crying alone on the ground
Drinking to escape the reality that I called home, fighting, hitting, punching, how could no one else have known?
Ya depression it got the best of me, cutting just to feel something, why is nobody helping me?
Prayed to God please give me strength, yea it did take a lot from me, just to put that knife down and say that my future's worth the see.
Stay Strong Everyone, God Bless.
I love you.
Bridget O'Leary damn
Bridget O'Leary is this real
yes, i would never make it up
why did you turn bisexual all of a sudden
I swear some people never want to see you succeed they would rather see you crumble and fall and when you do they keep bringing it up and tell you your never gonna make it so show them haters wrong and keep grinding and keep it pushing if you need to cut them out your life because they toxic go ahead and do that and don't care what a hater is gonna say because all they wanna do is drag you down so be a king and pick up your crown
I gave you my heart hoping you wouldn't break it
You broke it anyways, and you knew I couldn't take it
I have you my heart, mind, love and you would shake it
It was like going thru hell I knew I couldn't make it.
I was a great person but that's something you didn't see.
You always laughed at me when I would fail and never succeed.
I was starting to get somewhere, but you still slept on me.
That's okay, but when I get to the top don't clap for me.
H
Domi Tv welcome❤❤❤
FILTHY FRANK SAYS NO! I MUST SAVE YOU BEFORE YOU BECOME SOMEONE WHO THINK THEY ARE GONNA "MAKE IT" BY RAPPING ON THE INTERNET
Domi Tv 😍😍
❤️❤️❤️❤️
I keep it ten toes even in the casket,
They put me 6 feet under & put flowers on my basket..
When your sad, just remember when we was laughin.
Keep a picture of me close & try forget about what happened.
Like im,
sorry it had to be this way
although im restin up above i think about you every day
& I know you feel the same when you close your eyes & pray
cause every night I hear my name before you say Amen
& then you kiss the picture in the frame after the prayer end
Never been one for goodbyes but its been fun my friend
Beautiful brown eyes with a smile you can never dim
Strong, independent woman that deserves to fall in love again
Yeah
So I'm watchin over you like a clock is on the time
But when I see that pretty face it just makes me cry
cause when you look up to me now you just see the sky
yeah heaven is so lonely without you by my side..💔
fire
God bless you man💔🙌
That's deep
Cody 😇😇🙏🙏🤧💕❤️❤️😭😩this is beautiful
😭😭😢😢😢😭😭😭😥
Bro I love this 😩💘
❤
they are is going hot on that
Allyssa Woods ?
Never ever ever get tired of listening to this beat 🙏🏼💖🙏🏼
When I was young I had all of these hopes and dreams ,
All these happy memories that I failed to see,
Thinking about all those times when I had them plans,
Wondering why I couldn't make them ever last.
Now I'm here reminiscing about my past,
Feeling so alone in the world at long last.
And all those people that I thought I could trust,
All they did was hurt me and use me over again.
And now I feel so alone,
I just want someone to hold me
Tell me it'll be okay,
And that I'll feel safe again.
But these cuts on my wrists tell me a different story,
Now I'm thinking that no one will ever really know me.
15 years old and I want to die,
Have nothing to live for anymore, trust me I have tried.
So please God if you're up there and if you can hear me,
Tell my family and friends that I love them all dearly. ♡
Kyla Taylor can I steal your song
This shit hit hard
I love this
Kyla Taylor thanks bro if I become famous I will remember u
Kyla Taylor come to my dads studio in Hollywood
Man there's this thing called love and it kinda sucks
Once you fall for somebody, there's no getting up
Never thought that person would really be me
Until I talked to this girl, let's call her Jenny
Now Jenny had me caught up, I ain't gon lie
She had me thinking all day, man she *that* fly
Had me talking all day, it was nonstop
till I was broken down, man, what tough luck
I had to rethink what went down, where'd it go wrong
so that's why I am trying to put it all into this song
See jenny was good at acting, saying she really loved me
and I believed her, so blind i couldn't see, I believed her and she hurt me
shattering the dream of what I use to see, completely broke the image of what true love seem to be
Now I am on the ground picking up the broken me, Dusting of the shards of the broken sh*t, man can you believe
Jenny played me from the start saying she the real deal, she was a victim, but she was aimin to kill
thinking straight up man, Imma protect her, protect our love, didnt protect me
now Im shot down, and Im left with how I feel
I was a fool easy to push around, cause even if I hurt I would'nt make a single sound
to this day I am still dust on a rug off the dirty ground.........
I love the I thought I would not good but I read it and it was so good I love you and God will bless you
Dylan M. Thomas you complete me 😊😂
K Litty
I really like this it's unique
Wow bravo you two lol for completing it
(This for my dad)
Where were you, when i was scared
Do you know the feeling of having your daddy not there
The feeling can break you, even make you scared
Having your mom on her own, trying to take good care
While my daddy was out, playing affairs
I thought it was me, but now i just see
I can't blame myself
How would you feel,seeing your daddy 3 times a year
(not even)
It’ll make you feel lost, but he dont care
After he said you can come
But then he’s no where
For the past couple years
I thought he loved me
But now i see he actin real funny
Yeah he pay the child support
But that don't add up
To
My fragile heart
That's already broken, like a glass jar
(like a glass jar)
Ohhhh
Now how you think my momma feel
Cant get 1 second for herself
Gotta teach us right, right from wrong
All alone
But she gotta stay strong
Even if she wanna cry all night long
Yes I know that feeling because my dad's in jail
@@pamelamiles3258 Im sorry about that
I know how you feel
Nigeria Gamble sorry that we you have to feel that way..
I know I felt like he didn't care about me anymore
Khi tao lớn, không có ai ở cạnh bên,
Tao nghĩ nó khiến cho tao yếu đuối, nhưng không nó làm tao mạnh lên,
Quen núp mình vào trong bóng tối, trầm cảm với mọi người xung quanh,
Và tao gắn liền tuổi thơ của tao với điện tử thẻ và truyện tranh,
See, tụi nó nói như tụi nó biết tao là ai,
Như tụi nó đã từng ở đó và thấy những chuyện mà tao đã trải,
Tụi nó biết gì về từ bé, đã từng sống trong trại mồ côi,
Cùng những bà sơ mang danh chúa để biện hộ cho những đòn roi,
Nhưng tụi nó có bao giờ thấy 1 lần nào mà tao khóc?
Tụi nó có bao giờ nhìn thấy ba nó mang bộ áo sọc?
Tụi nó có bao giờ nhìn thấy, đứa bạn học nó qua đời,
Mẹ nó có duy nhất mình nó, bả không nói được ra lời,
Nên, tao viết ra những bài nhạc, mong mày lắng nghe,
Bỏ đời thật và nhiều cảm xúc của tao vào thật cặn kẻ,
Vì đời này nhiều cay đắng, buông ra nhiều lời nặng nhẹ,
Nhưng phải nhớ là ngẩng đầu và sống thật là mạnh mẽ,
‘Cause they always tryna take you, break you down,
Sometimes you wonder what the fuck you gon’ do now,
Hãy yêu bản thân, những việc khác đừng đếm xỉa,
Bãi cỏ luôn xanh mượt khi nhìn từ bờ bên kia
0:22 (kinda a fast rap)
suffer from depression
viewer discretion
lost in my collection
of imperfection
i need a blessing
tired of aggression
tired of this lesson
look at my reflection
obsession, deflection, abjection, infection
0:35 i need a resurrection
i’m trapped at an intersection
with hundreds of different directions
causes self-inspection
really makes you question
is my own projection
a true confession?
or am i messin
with my facial expressions
are my emotions under suppression?
feel like i’m under possession
get me out and then take me to the heavens 0:51
That's absolutely amazing
@@crustylips7573 agreed the hardest part is the intersection part just rap this sound freaking amazing bro 💯💯💯❤
@@daily.reminders2361 exactly, couldn't explain it better
this flows so hard , you can make it faster than the times you put
Jason Vera lit
It has been years since I listened to this 2017-2018-2019-2020!!!
I had to hustle
get on out that struggle
and I still remained humble
cause them streets was like a jungle
growing up in my neighborhood
I had to stay off the streets
cause I remember times I barely had anything to eat
yeah i remember times I ain't had nowhere to sleep
it was time to start grinding cause I had goals I wanted to reach
yeah .
I couldn't depend on nobody ,
I had to hold it down
cause when I needed a favor ,
there was no one around
except for my brother ,
my cousin, my aunt , and my mother
we was all struggling we had to help each other .
dinner on a plate ,
we ain't see that everyday
those nights I had to pray
pray for better days .
better days , better days , in a better place
those days were soon to come in just had to wait .
fire
Omg this is fire 🔥🔥🔥
This so real
You're talented at writing lyrics.
Bare shit I did that I regret
Mummy’s tears I’ll never forget
Did dirty just hope I can repent
Shit shouldn’t of put myself in this mess
But it’s all bless
Coz life’s about living and learning
Tears used to drop had me burning
Bro locked up on the wing like sterling
So I keep making them pound sterling
“how you telling me you love me but don’t know what love is man fuck this”💀💀💀
Wasted all my time on this dumb chick that I'm done with
I got you bro. #BRINGBACKTENTOES
Nobody:
Him: why didn’t u pay for this beat tho
Woxg 🤣🤣
too many tags 😭😭
Woxg I understood that reference
Satavion
Liuxy lmao lls
I wish I knew how to rap😂😭 this beat is fire🔥
Stephanie Torres you should go check out my raps lil alex mr wrong and make sure to subscribe to my channel
funny cuz I wish I knew how to rap
Stephanie Torres i know how to sing but i can't rap that's why I like so gone better
Did you check my channel and ahh its pretty easy
Stephanie Torres i can I just need to get bats
TEN TOES RAP CHALLENGE::
this is the life of a brave girl like me
who now she's damn tough but used to feel so fuckin weak
was born adopted, so different, but prompted
by the birth mom & dad who told me im not wanted
the second im born i see just the face
of my new mom who offered to give me a place
a kind hearted soul who made me feel glad
another story for the man who im supposed to call my dad
no vision in my right eye, disease and im half blind
i wish i could move on but can't stop the rewinds
the memories of mom and dad screaming at eachother
remembering my dad hitting my poor fucking mother
they split when i was 3, mom got near-full custody
but i still had to visit him regardless of my plea
wednesday's and weekends were the worst hell days
when i spent time with daddy i was never fuckin' praised
just raped, beaten, punched, kicked, thrown down the stairs
getting called names, touched, slapped, pullin on my hair
you're supposed to be my role model, what is your excuse
for 8 years of physical verbal and sexual abuse
i blamed it on me- it was my fault i was raped
had nobody to talk to-my sister moved and escaped
leaving me all alone, fending for my fuckin self
hiding under the bed and climbing under the shelves
to get away from this monster who i had to call a dad
made me cry and scream and raised me to be dishonest and mad
after 8 years of his abuse i told mom all the shit
i finally reached my breaking point and snitched the man to bits.
got him sent to jail and had to move across the coast
yet you still give me a reason to hate myself the most
you hurt me, and threw me and tortured me before
but all i ever did was try to fuckin run out your door.
mommy was heartbroken that her precious little baby
got sucked up in abuse and felt like the world hates me
mom got remarried, were happier now
but im still scarred today- wanna know how?
all i do is let the past get to me
i can never move on, can't fuckin accept a me
where everything is ok and nothing ever came
and i could be that little girl wanting for wealth and hannah montana fame
i have a new dad, same mom now i'm perfectly fine
but something in my mind just keeps me always cryin
knowing i'm a victim and im truly went through strife
but sometimes you gotta dust it off and say "hey, that's life"
twelve years old diagnosed with some shit
called anxiety and depression because i got hit
scars on my wrist, blood flowing down the drain
crying, trying to distract from all this pain
i can't talk to nobody, i ain't going to school
i stayed in bed all day, but i was such a fool
grades got lower and so did my esteem
but i faked a happy smile just so i could seem
fighting through this bullshit getting through the day
i wanted to end my life but all i did was pray
wishing for that happiness that i never fuckin got
constantly bullied, but i'm not even a thot
why can't my life be filled with joy
instead i cry over my ex dad and a cute boy
never feeling loved but i had so many friends
who wanted me to get better and stick through till the end
i tried my best and i'm still tryin
it's hard breathing, i'm not lyin
but after all my hard work i'm high and im just flyin
at the end of the tunnel there's always a bit of light
ask me if i'm a victim and ill say yeah that's fuckin right
but im proud of it, bitch do you see how i'm doing now
getting straight a's, partyin till the moon goes down
letting loose and goin crazy, doin what i want
i wished for happiness and that's exactly what i got
Leah Laufe I'm fucken sorry! bruh this had me crying. stay strong babygirl. i cant believe u went through all that! 😪 my lord. Jesus is w u. 💙 my prayers out to u and ur family ma! 😫 omg I just can't believe this. this broke my heart in so many bits and pieces 😭💔
Leah Laufe that's fire
Leah Laufe I went through the same thing but only that it was my mom that abused me instead of my dad but hope you feel safe and if you want to check my channel
I know how you feel 😞
Leah L
it feels like it happened yesterday , seeing my mom cry over some nigga tears rolling down my eyes because I can't help her, it hurt me in self .my mom always keeps a smile on her face when she knows it really hurts in side told me that she wants me to make it out for her🙏🏾🙌🏾😭😭
we went through our ups and downs seeing my mom crying in the car because I was doing some dumb shit I don't cry that day but I wanted to stay strong for her and get my shit together love your mom😍😭
Chanyia Carter I feel it .. 😏
Chanyia Carter 🙌🏻🙌🏻 preach brother
😭i love this song😭(R.I.P)bre🙏
Aliyah Merchant smh I feel u RiP sorry for your loss
Aliyah Merchant you're pretty
Aliyah Merchant u live in DC to
🏀😕NOOOO😕🏀
I don't know her but people be talking about her
Music to my ear you my melody
Late nights feeling sick you my remedy
I remember every moment, every memory
Sipping on you, fuck sipping on the Hennessy
Have you living in the Hills, out in Beverly
Yeah we coulda been forever been a legacy
But you tryna fight claiming that we enemies
Thinking 'bout the jealousy forgetting all the chemistry, yeah
Whatever happened to together 'til we 70
We moved apart girl now we living separately
I remember you, can't you remember me
Loving you my specialty, you my secret recipe
You helped me find my self, a part of my identity
My love, my oxygen to me you a necessity
I hope this reaches you if not its my serenity
Bars on my mind like I'm convicted for a felony
And ah, that was a hard time
Its been a while since we talked its been a long time
I been on my phone, checking if you online
Stalking up your page, wonder if you're on mine
Been a couple years, thought that I'd be over you
Still hold the tears, when I think of holding you
You left and disappeared, I can't get a hold of you
I can't believe you'd me wrong, was someone else controlling you?
'Cause after all the times, everything we been through
Every time you lie, I'd always defend you
And when I saw you cry, I'd just hold you gentle
For you I prayed to God, to me you like a temple
So tell me did you love me? Or did you pretend to?
Every time you touched me, was it even special?
Was I a priority? Or squeezed into schedule
Baby you angel same time you the devil
After all the times, everything we been through
Every time you lie, I'd always defend you
When every time you cry, i'd just hold you gentle
For you I prayed to God, to me you like a temple, yeah
Music to my ear you my melody
Late nights feeling sick you my remedy
I remember every moment, every memory
Sipping on you, fuck sipping on the Hennessy
Have you living in the Hills, out in Beverly
Yeah we coulda been forever been a legacy
But you tryna fight claiming that we enemies
Thinking 'bout the jealousy forgetting all chemistry, yeah
Music to my ear you my melody
Late nights feeling sick you my remedy
I remember every moment, every memory
Sipping on you, fuck sipping on the Hennessy
Have you living in the Hills, out in Beverly
Yeah we coulda been forever been a legacy
But you tryna fight claiming that we enemies
Thinking 'bout the jealousy forgetting all chemistry, yeah yeah
Love it!!❤
Bro this goes hardddd
Situation this goes hard
To go hard asl bro 😷
This is already a song.
😢😢😢 Everytime i play this instrumental i cry my heart and soul out to god 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 i love this beat is the greatest beat for eternity
Selling replay buttons :)
0:21
0:21
0:21
😭😭
That's low xD
Hahahaha
I love you right now 😂
Write me on Instagram @amyonzepeto
I like how it says "why didn't you pay for this beat tho" 😂😂😂
Colin Blue 💀💀💀💀💀
There’s this thing in this world, Love. It can really suck
And once you fall in it you ain’t ever getting up
After I fell for this girl, I always look into the dark
And now I’m gonna tell you how she went and broke my heart
We’d talk to each other. Like all day and all night
And ask questions like ‘who’s your first kiss?’ Or ‘who you like?’
While always thinking that it’s bound to end
Like somehow I’d screw it up and then only be a friend
But I was determined, never gave up hope
And told myself that if it happened, I could always cope
But that was false information. So far from the truth
Bc everyday I sit back thinking about you
I met you for the first time at relay for life
That was the day I wish I could go back and rewrite
Back when it wasn’t awkward between me and you
When we could laugh and joke til we didn’t know what to do
You had asked me for my snap, I gave it to you that’s the start
That’s the day my whole life started to fall apart
I look back on that day again and again
Now I’m wishing somehow i had only stayed a friend
I started ‘talking’ to that girl and thing just started changing
Maybe it was my fault sorry I’m impatient
You say ‘we’re not the same’ and ‘we only contrast’
And I guess that’s why In the end we never could last
Then somehow in July this other guy interferes
He broke your friends heart, left her sad, dripping tears
Then you went and left her, and stayed by his side
And by the time it’s over you were with another guy
You could’ve had the world and anything that you wanted
You could’ve been my trophy that I couldn’t help but flaunt it
You had to go and go with him to the movies
And within 2 weeks you were coming back to me
On this day we went to your mothers grave
You looked up at the lord hoping that she’s okay
But you were content knowing she was peaceful down where she lay
Then we got in the car and then we drove away
At this point, things started going downhill
Our future laid on my heart, heavy, like an anvil
Especially since I didn’t know what we could entail
But one thing I knew, was that it wouldn’t end well
And it’s sad to say, but i was correct
I ended it all with that really really long text
One that said ‘I love you’ and that ‘I still care’
But I drew the line and knew I had to end it there
Noah Chase props to u my man ❤️
Cemmyy thanks bro🙏
bruh this cuts so damn deep
major props tho
these bars are fire
Lance Velasquez thanks bro 🙏
this is fuckin dope. im late asf ik. keep grinding man💯
It’s crazy in 2 years , it will become a decade old since this popped out