When you 1st introduced Kelvin and you talking about him I still was not able to get a sense of like, why your reaction to him like that. But now with your examples (albeit yes your perspective), logically wise idk what happened there but oh god I get what you mean now when you are saying Kelvin seems to keep making these questionable and this 'favoritism' like vibe specifically towards you. I wonder if he subconsciously or consciously felt your presence boosted his ego for some reason and acted like that towards you (assumption, and I am just taking from what you said pretty much)
I am also curious how you see New Age now (Waiting your podcast on that haha). I have seen my mum and have been influenced, or rather had been kept forced into seeing those perspectives and just a lot of woo woo without my consent. I still feel rather disorientated how, as you said it like being in this whirlpool of senses, morals, values and perception of life, and I just really didn't like that phrase you said that new age preaches of "Oh you are sensitive thats a gift, its a godly wholesome, pure thing" Like absolutely not. its absolutely not a gift, or a curse. It is a property that has pros and cons. There needs to have some level of critical thinking on when you use it, when not to use it, amount in indulge in the vibes of being 'sensitive', and when to see reality as it is. Sometimes for me, being so sensitive makes me insensitive. it is all too much, and have to dull other senses to keep afloat, which also can cause other issues.
I have three more episodes until I get to a big one that might help explain why I reacted to Kevin the way that I did when he first called me out. I almost didn’t make that episode, “She’s an idealist,” because it seemed like such a small thing on the outside, but it was the beginning, and it wasn’t small for me. And yeah, that relationship was just so messy. About the new age, I’ll get to that before the end, but the begging of the end is next time! (Resting today, even though I didn’t want to miss a day of making episodes!) I prefer a neutral way of thinking of being sensitive, too, not a gift, not a curse, just a sensitivity. I’m sorry you were pulled into a system beyond your consent, that’s so hard on a person. It takes a while to figure out what you believe in anymore, but I feel that beliefs that are comfortable begin to solidify if we are allowed the space and time for them. These days, I’m pretty critical of most new age things and will, in the long term, make commentary videos to that effect. But for now, that story is still unfolding, and thank you for your thoughts, you always have such thoughtful things to say.
When you 1st introduced Kelvin and you talking about him I still was not able to get a sense of like, why your reaction to him like that. But now with your examples (albeit yes your perspective), logically wise idk what happened there but oh god I get what you mean now when you are saying Kelvin seems to keep making these questionable and this 'favoritism' like vibe specifically towards you. I wonder if he subconsciously or consciously felt your presence boosted his ego for some reason and acted like that towards you (assumption, and I am just taking from what you said pretty much)
I am also curious how you see New Age now (Waiting your podcast on that haha). I have seen my mum and have been influenced, or rather had been kept forced into seeing those perspectives and just a lot of woo woo without my consent. I still feel rather disorientated how, as you said it like being in this whirlpool of senses, morals, values and perception of life, and I just really didn't like that phrase you said that new age preaches of "Oh you are sensitive thats a gift, its a godly wholesome, pure thing"
Like absolutely not. its absolutely not a gift, or a curse. It is a property that has pros and cons. There needs to have some level of critical thinking on when you use it, when not to use it, amount in indulge in the vibes of being 'sensitive', and when to see reality as it is. Sometimes for me, being so sensitive makes me insensitive. it is all too much, and have to dull other senses to keep afloat, which also can cause other issues.
I have three more episodes until I get to a big one that might help explain why I reacted to Kevin the way that I did when he first called me out. I almost didn’t make that episode, “She’s an idealist,” because it seemed like such a small thing on the outside, but it was the beginning, and it wasn’t small for me. And yeah, that relationship was just so messy.
About the new age, I’ll get to that before the end, but the begging of the end is next time! (Resting today, even though I didn’t want to miss a day of making episodes!) I prefer a neutral way of thinking of being sensitive, too, not a gift, not a curse, just a sensitivity.
I’m sorry you were pulled into a system beyond your consent, that’s so hard on a person. It takes a while to figure out what you believe in anymore, but I feel that beliefs that are comfortable begin to solidify if we are allowed the space and time for them.
These days, I’m pretty critical of most new age things and will, in the long term, make commentary videos to that effect. But for now, that story is still unfolding, and thank you for your thoughts, you always have such thoughtful things to say.