I had liver cancer this time last year. They took out a third of my liver and I got better. Only surgery, no ‘therapies’. Then my 19 year relationship ended, not my decision. So I took off as soon as I could and have been in SE Asia travelling for the last 5 months. I’m 59 and from the UK. I’ve had some great experiences but grief and the big D travel with me. Wherever you go you take yourself with you. Found your humour on this trip, definitely made the world funnier and better. Thank you.
Sorry to hear that, man. Women start looking for exits when a man gets sick, injured, or layed off. Ive had 3 friends wives leave them kin the past 4 years cuz the guys got diagnosed with cancer. "In sickness and in health" really only works one way
Honestly these solo episodes are gems of the internet. You say things that I’ve never even been able to articulate about having ocd… the thought patterns. You are so fckn real. Thanks for sharing. 🖤
Dude you’re talking just like my teenage son entering adulthood right now. We talk about this all the time. I can’t wait to see how this episode ends, but everything you’re saying is what we talk about alllllll the time. Sorry to repeat myself and reply before finishing the video but dude just know you’re not alone. You’re not alone. Thank you for sharing all of your thoughts and being so honest and vulnerable. My husband says Phish says “surrender to the flow,” and I would add “and let yourself be silly.”
"Just" is a violent word when someone says "you just need to..." - people need to think carefully before throwing it around. Thanks for being so real JJ, you're ace.
@ I love this message ✨❤️✨ This has brought me instant comfort. Bipolar is a bitch and its dark as hell then magic as light. Hope you are well and life is good for you right this exact second ✨🌟✨
As a Mom and wife, enjoy your alone time and the puzzles. I just want alone time now and never get it. You’re doing great Jordan, there’s a reason we are all listening.
The hardest part about depression, at least personally, is accepting that it won't go away. You're spot on with the wave analogy; you just have to ride out the lows until the high hits again. Regarding David Foster Wallace, I think he just got worn down bit by bit. He was never good at connecting with others (his own words), and adding depression on top of that has to be the lönlöst deepest hole one can find oneself in. Sorry for the rambling, it's just that this episode hit close to home. Love the pod, you're crushing it!
I’ve always explained my depression to my sister as waves. It’s like you look up one day and all of a sudden there it is. Just have to ride it out until it changes into something else.
You have no idea how powerful it is to experience to this content, seriously... as someone who experiences this stuff too... you don't have to be funny all the time. I'm a therapist, I can't be a therapist all the time and that's not the only thing I offer as a human. I hope you keep sharing this, if you want to, of course.
I think it’s huge and awesome that you are embracing depressive moments and being able to experience them and even get something good out of it like discovering puzzling and a clean apartment! I think it would be really interesting to have a very old person on the show to ask them those questions. I myself definitely fear getting old, mostly because of the discomfort and lack of relevance in society. But I’ve never been upset by being forgotten or a lack of legacy. It’s just never occurred to me to give a shit about that for whatever reason? Interesting stuff to talk about! Thanks! You are rad.
Hi Jordan~ Im going thru this too. I was majorly depressed for over a decade (Im 33) and am just getting out of it. I think there can be a weird empty feeling when you've been depressed for so long, then its is "gone" (not really but...). Depression can be part of what builds your identity on some level and dictates the way you navigate the world. When it is gone or less present, it can feel weirdly empty or light/too spacious. Your mindset is good - I can tell you're on a positive track. Just keep going and have tons of grace for yourself - that part actually becomes enjoyable. Love the solo eps. I, too, have a stack of puzzles.
Thank you SO much for sharing these thoughts, Jordan. I see you, I feel you, I am you in many ways. We are all connected and feel a he'll of a lot less lonely with sharing with one another. 🤲🙏🧡
I feel like I always get pretty depressed near the end of the winter. I have been feeling it lately. Being trapped inside with my own thoughts can be a great as well as horrible situation depending on where my thoughts take me. Buuttttt, I did want to mention that I think you are awesome and your thoughts and jokes have brought a lot of light to my winter, thank you! You do make a difference.
25:39 i get this. It drives me nuts when people say something is "giving them anxiety" like there is a very big difference between being nervous about a situation in your life and having uncontrolable fight or flight responses to waking up in the morning....
The way I'd describe depression is emptiness without an outlet. That's why I don't like ppl saying they're depressed when they're just sad. It's like, you're crying. You have a release. There's some catharsis. I'd even say crying feels good when you haven't produced serotonin in decades. That's why some ppl off themselves. It feels like the only release when you're in the thick of the darkness. But anywho. That's just me
So much of this resonated with me, so it must with many others. I love laughing my ass off with your comedy (which I really need), but this flip side is truly therapeutic. I would never wish depression on anyone, but there’s some kind of comfort in knowing you’re not alone… that someone else gets it. Regardless of whether you’re talking about depression, OCD, anxiety, ADD or whatever, I hope you’ll continue doing solos. Thanks Jordan.
Jordan, I love what you do especially in a field of comedy, it was such a relief to me finally to see a person being comfortable with joking about the struggles in life - it made a lot of sense to me and helped to get easier on myself. watching this I realized that I possibly wanted to watch something “lighthearted”, but you talking about depression and stuff is still calming. Thank you for sharing and being there for me/us who appreciates your content
I get so weepy when I'm sick. This is super relatable. I love how authentic Jordan is, she is probably the only other human who I can truly relate to. We're like the same kind of crazy 😅
I will be 39 in August. I have never been able to articulate my feelings the way you can and I have never heard someone describe my entire being as accurately as you can describe your life and the waves that make up every measurement of the time we spend on earth. I do know that I have felt more confident and less incompetent every year after the age of 26 and I have been told it only gets better as long as you continue to acknowledge that this is a part of who you are and you will always have to be conscious about what you feed it
The part about mom says sleep it off is so real and awesome to be reminded of when mine passed and sometimes I needed that message again, like today particularly, perfect timing. And who doesn’t hate that I’m depressed by the state of the world *eye roll* gosh
Love these! I really dont want you to be depressed! Ive always had similar thoughts about ppl dieing on you but you just need to block it out and enjoy them today and also when you depressed go out and do something you enjoy maybe outdoorsie stuff? I hated the car ride but once youre there it clears the mind.. ever gone off roading like ride quads or a utv its clears the mind wonderfully
Jordan thank you for talking openly about this subject. I just went through this "wave" (and usually do this time of year like a lot of people). It did help me to just aggressively embrace it to the point where I was annoyingly telling everyone around me I was going thru seasonal depression. I was miserable to be around but the ones who love you will allow you to move through that feeling. It does come and go and it's something I think we all need to be more comfortable with rather than fight it. Sunshine and nature are slowly bringing me back to myself.
Love your solo pods! Everything comes in waves... everything is inconstant/impermanent. Witnessing it, like you said, has been the biggest game changer for my mental health (and tons of work with what I witness). Touching on Buddhist/mindfulness stuff there. Dissociative depression -- Great way of describing it. I've been dissociated (DPDRD) for 22 years and depression pushes me further and further away from everyone and every thing. I've always described it as an invisible fog that gets thicker and thicker. Everything feels "fake"
I worked in a jigsaw puzzle and board game store for fifteen years, so I know what you mean about the soothing vibe of those. I was actually much more of a movie person though. Classics, 80s, foreign, indie, all sorts. A movie in a great classic old school theater is my happy place. If you ever feel like talking movies with a complete stranger, hit me up. Bring it, y'all.
I just went to see the animated movie Flow and it's like the perfect depiction of the wave feeling you were talking about, highly recommend it. I was crying and feeling anxious and uncomfortable for most of the movie, might be the new meds, but after going through all of it, it really just felt like wow that was kind of way more awful than I thought, I thought it was gonna be like a pretty chill kids movie u know, but it was still really beautiful and I'm fine. Everything is fine, whatever you do is fine, it's great just as long as you feel good about it. Just be kind and take of your friends, that's all that matters. Just hang out, with your pets and people you care about who care for you too and it's all gonna be alright, you'll die anyway, there's no reason to worry about it right now, just chill, eat when you can, rest when you can, run around when you can. I'm just talking in circles now - you get it.
I used to do puzzles with my grandma back in the day. I'm glad that puzzles remind me of her. I miss her a lot. At 34 years old, I too think about the pointlessness of existence. Often. But details hold meaning. Memories hold meaning. We create meaning for ourselves. So simultaneously there is no meaning, yet people and how you interact with the world holds meaning. Its definitely a vicious cycle of thinking, but its reality. We need reality. Winter doesn't help the problem either. Maybe soup will?
Yes! The depression at the state of the world is so on point. Some Americans almost get off on the victimhood of how bad it is there. Also the line "generations are just lining up to forget you" 🙌 Love the solos and the lighting. Also literally an age spot removal commercial came on right after the pod.
Depression is brutal. I've been dealing with it since I was young. What kind of pup do you have and, I Just saw you Saturday in Raleigh. You were amazing and hilarious!!
When I’m feeling disgusting about life I always remind myself I’m a vacation, some good ****, and new experience away from feeling a lil differently about things. Ride the wave. Sending love.
People love these videos because they're relatable and are uncomfortable to try and relate to others in their own lives. You don't have to be just funny, and don't think you're value is just that. Kind of gives another point of repeatability and the world a bit less isolated through a screen. Been there rawdogging chronic depression after the house broke, my cope with it is just waiting and finding tidbits joy when I can as I go along. Finding a purpose will helps, but if it's not meaningful then it just end up digging me deeper while I'm chasing an empty goal. Hopefully I can get to the point where you're at unraveling the knots in logic and association that keep me down. Gives me hope that there's a light at the end of the tunnel. Thanks for the videos! Wishing you and Fartoc well! Live your dream and solve those puzzles. Also, *seriously* fucked up the symbol for autism is a series of puzzle pieces considering 'tistics don't fit into a larger puzzle except for a couple of other pieces isn't it?
I struggle with anxiety and panic attacks. The panic attacks are awful and, for me, come out of nowhere. Usually sitting with them is about the only way out. It's hard.
Good morning Jordan, I do not usually comment on YT vids. But I've got to say, A. Talking about it out loud helps with the feelings of loneliness and lowers you're anxiety, which is awesome. Idk if you've talked to therapist about this or not. To me and I'll speak about me, the constant anxiety is by far worse than the depression. But what I found is that maybe depression and anxiety aren't the "diagnosis" but the symptoms sound a great deal like complex-PTSD. Where being alone feels good and hurts at the same time. The manic behavior or what you've described to get away from the anxiety and or depression. I've been working with a trauma therapist for nearly a year. I was diagnosed with GAD and depression 15 years ago. I thought that I had sorted it all out with my counselor go the tools to cope etc. And it never even dawned on me that the life I grew up in was goddamn nightmare and it has never stopped. Narcassist mom most emotionally abusive person I've ever met. She would put the behavior of a Vietnam veteran father who was out of his mind on me and my sister when we were little little. This constant want to play puzzles whether a metaphor or not. Tons of hobbies to occupy the mind, could be seen as dissociation and the negative coping skill is taking up a hobby that you'd "stay in that moment with the puzzle." because these times when we are obsessing about our feelings or how others feel about us. I'm not DM going to sit here and tell you you've got something I'm not a doc, I do have a counseling degree but that means very little when it comes to juat being a good person to another who shares some of the same traits that I do. Exhaustion is a symptom of PTSD, catastrophising, the "I wish I could describe it or someone else could sit in it." Don't sit in it and deflecting trying to describe it as something else. I think you're effing hilarious I'm nearly 50 yeses old I've been though some shit I've Meade it through some shit and I'll be though some more shit eventually. But learning that I've got CPTSD I scored an 89 on the test. I would absolutley talk to your counselor maybe explore some of those trauma based behaviors. You're a great comic, You're really brave for saying this shit out loud. Keep on keeping on Homie. I'd put a heart emoji here but that's weird to do for a person whom I've not met in real life but I do empathize, give yourself some grace and when you're mean to yourself apologize to yourself and mean it.
The waves analogy is very accurate. It’s helped me cope w my bullshit brain. I’ve always equates depression to swimming and the more I wanna give up and drown somehow I snap out of it and remember that reality isn’t so bad when I can remover it’s actually pretty cool when I can function normally.
Jordan, have you ever travelled outside the US to do comedy? Ive personally never been overseas, but a few years back I was working for a company out of Chattanooga doing long haul trucking. Even though it was a scrappy job, it took me places I'd never been... & made me yearn for more travel. Places like Japan, Europe & S. America are still a pipe dream to me for now. When I see people like you & Ian, it makes me wonder why you're not taking advantage of the international stage. You're that good! Why not do it? Japan has always seemed like a healing space. Experiencing different cultures & places can be healing & put you in a totally different mindset. I dunno, but if I were in your shoes, I'd leave the depression behind in the "states" & try to get a few shows booked across the pond. You probably know other comedians who do that, right? I don't know your situation of course, but I see you talk about depression & think, this lady is in a position where she could act in comedy movies or take herself international. Get out of your comfort zone somehow. Depression is being stagnant in situations that just repeat the insanity of the version of yourself that you constantly live within... that bubble. The US is such a shit-show politically right now anyway. I get depressed just thinking about my tax dollars funneled to crap like genocide & Republican agendas. Blah!
The part about waves makes sense. DMT has also helped this way by pulling the veils back and seeing intense experiences from many angles. Sometimes with the right focus it can give a kick out of intense crushing actively offing yourself depression, which if self care behaviours can carry you can provide some forward momentum.
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This lighting and location is like I'm being held hostage in a dungeon while Jordan talks about her special interests.
Lmao
I had liver cancer this time last year. They took out a third of my liver and I got better. Only surgery, no ‘therapies’. Then my 19 year relationship ended, not my decision. So I took off as soon as I could and have been in SE Asia travelling for the last 5 months. I’m 59 and from the UK. I’ve had some great experiences but grief and the big D travel with me. Wherever you go you take yourself with you.
Found your humour on this trip, definitely made the world funnier and better. Thank you.
Good for you for recovering. People over the age of 40 can't be telling people they solo'ed around SE Asia.
Sorry to hear that, man. Women start looking for exits when a man gets sick, injured, or layed off. Ive had 3 friends wives leave them kin the past 4 years cuz the guys got diagnosed with cancer. "In sickness and in health" really only works one way
@@chengzhengjeongbecause it was my liver and cancer nowadays I don’t drink and can’t f*ck, so I’m Thailand’s most useless Farang :)
@@chengzhengjeongit does excite the imagination don’t it, but I’m choosing life
Wednesday is for the boys, but Mondays are for Miss Jenson being uncomfortable being alone talking about being uncomfortable.
Honestly these solo episodes are gems of the internet. You say things that I’ve never even been able to articulate about having ocd… the thought patterns. You are so fckn real. Thanks for sharing. 🖤
You are not talking to no one, I am listening and appreciate what you have to say.
You’re alright babe you will always be an amazing person. Enjoy listening to you ❤
This is my comfort show
Dude you’re talking just like my teenage son entering adulthood right now. We talk about this all the time.
I can’t wait to see how this episode ends, but everything you’re saying is what we talk about alllllll the time. Sorry to repeat myself and reply before finishing the video but dude just know you’re not alone.
You’re not alone.
Thank you for sharing all of your thoughts and being so honest and vulnerable.
My husband says Phish says “surrender to the flow,” and I would add “and let yourself be silly.”
I love the solo pods most
Massive fan of the solo pods.
I guess I'm just a Massive fan of Jordan, so I'll take what I can get.
"Just" is a violent word when someone says "you just need to..." - people need to think carefully before throwing it around. Thanks for being so real JJ, you're ace.
You're talking to everyone so much and no guest could ever be this dialed in. We all love you.
Well here's to you, Mrs. Robinson.
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Aye , Papi, you having a brain damage or something?
@@Laredo-c7gThis song just saved me, it explained to me I am in fight or flight. Can’t sleep which has tripped me into a manic episode.
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@ I love this message ✨❤️✨ This has brought me instant comfort. Bipolar is a bitch and its dark as hell then magic as light. Hope you are well and life is good for you right this exact second ✨🌟✨
you're my alan watts
Solo are my favourite, we like your brain ❤
indescribably endearing.if it ain't baroque don't fix it.
just saw the "thanks a bundle clip" man you slay me
As a Mom and wife, enjoy your alone time and the puzzles. I just want alone time now and never get it. You’re doing great Jordan, there’s a reason we are all listening.
The hardest part about depression, at least personally, is accepting that it won't go away. You're spot on with the wave analogy; you just have to ride out the lows until the high hits again.
Regarding David Foster Wallace, I think he just got worn down bit by bit. He was never good at connecting with others (his own words), and adding depression on top of that has to be the lönlöst deepest hole one can find oneself in.
Sorry for the rambling, it's just that this episode hit close to home. Love the pod, you're crushing it!
I’ve always explained my depression to my sister as waves. It’s like you look up one day and all of a sudden there it is. Just have to ride it out until it changes into something else.
You have no idea how powerful it is to experience to this content, seriously... as someone who experiences this stuff too... you don't have to be funny all the time. I'm a therapist, I can't be a therapist all the time and that's not the only thing I offer as a human. I hope you keep sharing this, if you want to, of course.
I like this ambiance. It's like you're giving a confession in a true crime doc. I appreciate the lighting.
I think it’s huge and awesome that you are embracing depressive moments and being able to experience them and even get something good out of it like discovering puzzling and a clean apartment!
I think it would be really interesting to have a very old person on the show to ask them those questions. I myself definitely fear getting old, mostly because of the discomfort and lack of relevance in society. But I’ve never been upset by being forgotten or a lack of legacy. It’s just never occurred to me to give a shit about that for whatever reason? Interesting stuff to talk about! Thanks! You are rad.
Also, there is nothing more depressing then when someone you once respected puts out a skincare line. 😂😂😂
Also severely depressed as a teen, also remember not much from highschool/college when others recall particular times/memories of things I did
Hi Jordan~ Im going thru this too. I was majorly depressed for over a decade (Im 33) and am just getting out of it. I think there can be a weird empty feeling when you've been depressed for so long, then its is "gone" (not really but...). Depression can be part of what builds your identity on some level and dictates the way you navigate the world. When it is gone or less present, it can feel weirdly empty or light/too spacious. Your mindset is good - I can tell you're on a positive track. Just keep going and have tons of grace for yourself - that part actually becomes enjoyable. Love the solo eps. I, too, have a stack of puzzles.
The screen grab for this episode is unintentionally a great album cover.
This arrived specifically when I needed it to, thank you! Wish you nothing but success, in all ways.
Thanks for the video. It's been a bad day with a lot of anxiety and other stuff. Listening to you helped.
Thank you SO much for sharing these thoughts, Jordan. I see you, I feel you, I am you in many ways. We are all connected and feel a he'll of a lot less lonely with sharing with one another. 🤲🙏🧡
I feel this so much, being a stay at home mom of 3. You learn to live in the depression and make the best out of it
I feel like I always get pretty depressed near the end of the winter. I have been feeling it lately. Being trapped inside with my own thoughts can be a great as well as horrible situation depending on where my thoughts take me. Buuttttt, I did want to mention that I think you are awesome and your thoughts and jokes have brought a lot of light to my winter, thank you! You do make a difference.
I didn't expect it but apparently I needed to hear a lot of this. Ty Jordan.
25:39 i get this. It drives me nuts when people say something is "giving them anxiety" like there is a very big difference between being nervous about a situation in your life and having uncontrolable fight or flight responses to waking up in the morning....
This was one of the most relatable podcasts I’ve ever listened to. Thank you.
Jordan thank you for being your messed up self. You are loved by us. ❤
These are my favorite
The way I'd describe depression is emptiness without an outlet.
That's why I don't like ppl saying they're depressed when they're just sad. It's like, you're crying. You have a release. There's some catharsis.
I'd even say crying feels good when you haven't produced serotonin in decades.
That's why some ppl off themselves. It feels like the only release when you're in the thick of the darkness.
But anywho. That's just me
So much of this resonated with me, so it must with many others. I love laughing my ass off with your comedy (which I really need), but this flip side is truly therapeutic. I would never wish depression on anyone, but there’s some kind of comfort in knowing you’re not alone… that someone else gets it. Regardless of whether you’re talking about depression, OCD, anxiety, ADD or whatever, I hope you’ll continue doing solos. Thanks Jordan.
Jordan, I love what you do especially in a field of comedy, it was such a relief to me finally to see a person being comfortable with joking about the struggles in life - it made a lot of sense to me and helped to get easier on myself. watching this I realized that I possibly wanted to watch something “lighthearted”, but you talking about depression and stuff is still calming. Thank you for sharing and being there for me/us who appreciates your content
I get so weepy when I'm sick. This is super relatable. I love how authentic Jordan is, she is probably the only other human who I can truly relate to. We're like the same kind of crazy 😅
I will be 39 in August. I have never been able to articulate my feelings the way you can and I have never heard someone describe my entire being as accurately as you can describe your life and the waves that make up every measurement of the time we spend on earth. I do know that I have felt more confident and less incompetent every year after the age of 26 and I have been told it only gets better as long as you continue to acknowledge that this is a part of who you are and you will always have to be conscious about what you feed it
I get weepy when I’m sick too! I think it’s because we feel vulnerable and childlike. It’s the only time i ever say i want my mom. And I’m 44
Luv U JJ!!!!
"Depressed funny girl talks to herself" is a pretty calming new show. Lets ride this wave.
The part about mom says sleep it off is so real and awesome to be reminded of when mine passed and sometimes I needed that message again, like today particularly, perfect timing.
And who doesn’t hate that I’m depressed by the state of the world *eye roll* gosh
Love these! I really dont want you to be depressed! Ive always had similar thoughts about ppl dieing on you but you just need to block it out and enjoy them today and also when you depressed go out and do something you enjoy maybe outdoorsie stuff? I hated the car ride but once youre there it clears the mind.. ever gone off roading like ride quads or a utv its clears the mind wonderfully
thank you so much jordan I love you
I think strong emotions are what really grounds your awareness in a moment which makes it stick in your memory stronger.
Jordan I bought tickets for your show in Berlin in march. I'll be there wearing a tuxedo and holding a single red rose in my hand
My other hand will be holding a punctured condom
Jordan thank you for talking openly about this subject. I just went through this "wave" (and usually do this time of year like a lot of people). It did help me to just aggressively embrace it to the point where I was annoyingly telling everyone around me I was going thru seasonal depression. I was miserable to be around but the ones who love you will allow you to move through that feeling. It does come and go and it's something I think we all need to be more comfortable with rather than fight it. Sunshine and nature are slowly bringing me back to myself.
No internal locus of control is why people get called weak. And rightfully so.
Not like, LOVE the solo pods.
Thanks Jordan, very relatable really needed this today
I love the solo episodes. Also, I totally relate to the idea of feeling like you’re in a play during social interactions.
Love your solo pods! Everything comes in waves... everything is inconstant/impermanent. Witnessing it, like you said, has been the biggest game changer for my mental health (and tons of work with what I witness). Touching on Buddhist/mindfulness stuff there.
Dissociative depression -- Great way of describing it. I've been dissociated (DPDRD) for 22 years and depression pushes me further and further away from everyone and every thing. I've always described it as an invisible fog that gets thicker and thicker. Everything feels "fake"
I worked in a jigsaw puzzle and board game store for fifteen years, so I know what you mean about the soothing vibe of those. I was actually much more of a movie person though. Classics, 80s, foreign, indie, all sorts. A movie in a great classic old school theater is my happy place. If you ever feel like talking movies with a complete stranger, hit me up. Bring it, y'all.
I very much like solo episodes but only when you feel it’s the right tone for the episode
I’ve remembered my low points easier than the good times . But I have looked up or tried to remember this moment . It’s worked a bunch of times
I just went to see the animated movie Flow and it's like the perfect depiction of the wave feeling you were talking about, highly recommend it. I was crying and feeling anxious and uncomfortable for most of the movie, might be the new meds, but after going through all of it, it really just felt like wow that was kind of way more awful than I thought, I thought it was gonna be like a pretty chill kids movie u know, but it was still really beautiful and I'm fine. Everything is fine, whatever you do is fine, it's great just as long as you feel good about it. Just be kind and take of your friends, that's all that matters. Just hang out, with your pets and people you care about who care for you too and it's all gonna be alright, you'll die anyway, there's no reason to worry about it right now, just chill, eat when you can, rest when you can, run around when you can. I'm just talking in circles now - you get it.
Love this ...needed this right now.❤
43:52 - Thank you, Jordan. ❤️🔥🫂
I just started the podcast, but I think the word you're looking for is melancholy.
Solo eps should be you and Ian but you lead the pod and Ian shuts tf up and answers your questions
39:10 - why does this monologue make me feel calm and at peace?
felt like i was watching a painting talk. great stuff.
I really appreciate these solo episodes ❤️🩹
so relatable and needed today. Jordan kicks ass
I used to do puzzles with my grandma back in the day. I'm glad that puzzles remind me of her. I miss her a lot.
At 34 years old, I too think about the pointlessness of existence. Often. But details hold meaning. Memories hold meaning. We create meaning for ourselves. So simultaneously there is no meaning, yet people and how you interact with the world holds meaning. Its definitely a vicious cycle of thinking, but its reality. We need reality.
Winter doesn't help the problem either. Maybe soup will?
Yay solo pod!!!!! ❤
Love solo pods. Relatable and helpful insights.
Yes! The depression at the state of the world is so on point. Some Americans almost get off on the victimhood of how bad it is there. Also the line "generations are just lining up to forget you" 🙌 Love the solos and the lighting. Also literally an age spot removal commercial came on right after the pod.
Depression is brutal. I've been dealing with it since I was young. What kind of pup do you have and, I Just saw you Saturday in Raleigh. You were amazing and hilarious!!
it took me a long time to accept that I was very happy alone. our society demands we be social, and it is not for all
Your solo pods are great !!!
I’m doing all the solo episodes and I love them. I feel like someone is okay with me being a freak
When I’m feeling disgusting about life I always remind myself I’m a vacation, some good ****, and new experience away from feeling a lil differently about things. Ride the wave. Sending love.
Needed this.
People love these videos because they're relatable and are uncomfortable to try and relate to others in their own lives. You don't have to be just funny, and don't think you're value is just that. Kind of gives another point of repeatability and the world a bit less isolated through a screen. Been there rawdogging chronic depression after the house broke, my cope with it is just waiting and finding tidbits joy when I can as I go along. Finding a purpose will helps, but if it's not meaningful then it just end up digging me deeper while I'm chasing an empty goal. Hopefully I can get to the point where you're at unraveling the knots in logic and association that keep me down. Gives me hope that there's a light at the end of the tunnel. Thanks for the videos!
Wishing you and Fartoc well! Live your dream and solve those puzzles. Also, *seriously* fucked up the symbol for autism is a series of puzzle pieces considering 'tistics don't fit into a larger puzzle except for a couple of other pieces isn't it?
I struggle with anxiety and panic attacks. The panic attacks are awful and, for me, come out of nowhere. Usually sitting with them is about the only way out. It's hard.
Love the solo pods ❤
I'll always simp for you my mentally ill queen, love these pods.
Unconditional love to you and Coyote from my three dogs and two cats!!
Sensational.
Only Jordan would think of "phyllo dough of time" ❤️❤️❤️ i love this ep so much
I get you on so many levels
I also like the solo pods!
I love our times together when it’s just us ❤
I do puzzles when I listen to podcasts. It’s the best meditation.
I actually really love and relate to these solo videos.
Girl I love you so much
"It made me think about depression...oh, you got a rope. Nice!" - accidental comedy?
Good morning Jordan,
I do not usually comment on YT vids. But I've got to say,
A. Talking about it out loud helps with the feelings of loneliness and lowers you're anxiety, which is awesome.
Idk if you've talked to therapist about this or not. To me and I'll speak about me, the constant anxiety is by far worse than the depression. But what I found is that maybe depression and anxiety aren't the "diagnosis" but the symptoms sound a great deal like complex-PTSD. Where being alone feels good and hurts at the same time. The manic behavior or what you've described to get away from the anxiety and or depression.
I've been working with a trauma therapist for nearly a year. I was diagnosed with GAD and depression 15 years ago. I thought that I had sorted it all out with my counselor go the tools to cope etc. And it never even dawned on me that the life I grew up in was goddamn nightmare and it has never stopped. Narcassist mom most emotionally abusive person I've ever met.
She would put the behavior of a Vietnam veteran father who was out of his mind on me and my sister when we were little little.
This constant want to play puzzles whether a metaphor or not.
Tons of hobbies to occupy the mind, could be seen as dissociation and the negative coping skill is taking up a hobby that you'd "stay in that moment with the puzzle." because these times when we are obsessing about our feelings or how others feel about us.
I'm not DM going to sit here and tell you you've got something I'm not a doc, I do have a counseling degree but that means very little when it comes to juat being a good person to another who shares some of the same traits that I do. Exhaustion is a symptom of PTSD, catastrophising, the
"I wish I could describe it or someone else could sit in it."
Don't sit in it and deflecting trying to describe it as something else.
I think you're effing hilarious I'm nearly 50 yeses old I've been though some shit I've Meade it through some shit and I'll be though some more shit eventually.
But learning that I've got CPTSD I scored an 89 on the test.
I would absolutley talk to your counselor maybe explore some of those trauma based behaviors.
You're a great comic,
You're really brave for saying this shit out loud.
Keep on keeping on Homie.
I'd put a heart emoji here but that's weird to do for a person whom I've not met in real life but I do empathize, give yourself some grace and when you're mean to yourself apologize to yourself and mean it.
The waves analogy is very accurate. It’s helped me cope w my bullshit brain. I’ve always equates depression to swimming and the more I wanna give up and drown somehow I snap out of it and remember that reality isn’t so bad when I can remover it’s actually pretty cool when I can function normally.
You rule Jordan ❤
Love the thumbnails of these solo pods. 😂 And of course I love the solo pod itself. Jordan, can you talk about PMDD on one of your eps?
Jordan, have you ever travelled outside the US to do comedy? Ive personally never been overseas, but a few years back I was working for a company out of Chattanooga doing long haul trucking. Even though it was a scrappy job, it took me places I'd never been... & made me yearn for more travel. Places like Japan, Europe & S. America are still a pipe dream to me for now. When I see people like you & Ian, it makes me wonder why you're not taking advantage of the international stage. You're that good! Why not do it? Japan has always seemed like a healing space. Experiencing different cultures & places can be healing & put you in a totally different mindset. I dunno, but if I were in your shoes, I'd leave the depression behind in the "states" & try to get a few shows booked across the pond. You probably know other comedians who do that, right? I don't know your situation of course, but I see you talk about depression & think, this lady is in a position where she could act in comedy movies or take herself international. Get out of your comfort zone somehow. Depression is being stagnant in situations that just repeat the insanity of the version of yourself that you constantly live within... that bubble. The US is such a shit-show politically right now anyway. I get depressed just thinking about my tax dollars funneled to crap like genocide & Republican agendas. Blah!
The part about waves makes sense. DMT has also helped this way by pulling the veils back and seeing intense experiences from many angles. Sometimes with the right focus it can give a kick out of intense crushing actively offing yourself depression, which if self care behaviours can carry you can provide some forward momentum.
Love you. ESP with the paint brush, ❤
Great show in Raleigh. Don't die plz
If you try to go to bed watching this, some of the thoughts, you hear will keep you up longer😂
I like the added urgency of the solo pods, because you might delete them at any moment!