God this is f-ing sad, so I’m living with a corpse! A corpse that is a big pain in my ass and I can’t reach him, so I get it now! Time to leave the graveyard. Ugh 🙄🙄🙄 It is 20 yrs of pain he has caused me and I think this piece of garbage knows enough to realize he’s hurting me…I’ve told him so. He doesn’t have an answer why he came after me with a heavy table that missed my head, thank the Lord. It’s not worth ruminating over him, I look at him and feel nauseous.
After finally learning to trust myself, what I find most disturbing/upsetting are the hidden agendas and manipulation I can detect in SO many people. It's _everywhere_ now.
I see the same thing! Seems like these kinds of people are all around us. I don't invest too much in people who don't listen to me, but they demand my full attention. I can't wait to get home and be alone.
It’s a demonic spirit that is why. We’re living in the last days, and the Bible says these things will and must happen! 😢😢😢 My ex was a narc sociopath, not just a narcissist and he even claimed to be Christian and he was highly demonic infested individual. The week before we broke up I started having very bad nightmares starring him. I know God showed me this to help me detach because we were going to break up and I wasn’t seeing the whole picture of who he was. Anyways, there is definitively a spiritual side to this we need to become aware of. ♥️
@@KatErina-ii6ru I had the same exact experience! Very strange demonic events happened in both narc relationships. One would get stoned and say he was the devil while rolling his eyes back, the other told me the only way he'd give me a divorce is if I said I didn't believe in the benevolence of God or I was cheating. I never cheated, but I wouldn't denounce my God either. He was a preacher's son. Blow flies in church while I was in the alter praying for my marriage while he sat in the pew starring at me with an evil look. I had nightmares of being attacked and Jesus rescuing me. Both narcs said one night, when they were little, they just started shaking in their bed. 2 Timothy chapt.3. Come LORD JESUS! 🙌🏼
@KatErina I fully agree w you there KatErina. The spiritual realm is real, and it's powerful. These are truly the last days and no one knows how long or short that is.
I searched for the answer why he doesn't care? How can it be? I see three reasons why my narcissistic husband "didn't care" about my feelings. Lack of self awareness is if you are not aware how your behavior influences people around you. It's reason number one. He doesn't really get it. Not to 100 percent. They have real problems with causation. The awareness muscle is atrophied, because it was no longer used. Reason number two. Lack of empathy. He understands that you are sad, because of him being mean. He doesn't feel it. He has no feeling tool. He understands, because he observed people or red in the book, that they can get sad. But there is no emotional resonance with your sadness at all. The third thing. Emotional disregulation. Compulsive meanness. They do care, not about your feelings, but how they look to the people, behaving horrible, mostly if someone is present and sees their abuse or if they know that you will tell other meaningful people about their behavior. Very often they simply cannot control themselves, reacting very meanly or raging about neutral things.
@@RFokus Well said, you've put alot of thought into it all, thanks for sharing! 💞 They're like addicts, they feel better about themselves when they put another down it raises them up temporarily so they repeat it, looking for a fix of pleasure in another's pain and they lie about it to maintain their facade. If you tell them they hurt you they know it's working. It's best to act indifferent and get away from them to reduce it. Big hugs xx 💕🤗✌️
Oh mine told me I don’t care over and over. I would say if a normal heart head heard this conversation you did xyz which would rip any relationship apart! I don’t care!
The damage is unimaginable. It’s complete mind fuckery. The hardest part is honestly having children with someone like this as there is no limit to what they will do for control.
It’s like living in hell and you must fight everyday and hope to get through to your child after all the damage their narcissist parent has caused, be strong 💪
24 years in an emotional abusive marriage has done its damage. Your content is really helping me, I am finally learning to forgive myself and love me for me. Warts and all.
Took me almost three years of consistent EMDR and somatic therapy to unlearn the programming from both a narcissistic mother and ex-husband. Shit is grueling. But you get satisfaction knowing the narcs could NEVER do what you’re doing. My self-confidence now is around 70% - 80% when it was -5437% for most of my life. RICHARD’S COURSE IS WORTH EVERY PENNY!!
I've never heard annyone else talk about their brain screaming before. Towards the end of my 25 year marriage people wondered why I had started drinking, and I would say it was to stop the screaming in my brain. And yes I managed to leave before too long. But I was a total mess. And then spent nine years with someone who was very disturbed who lied constantly. And yes I ended up on a psych ward. I don't think I'll ever be quite right - I feel shaky just listening to you - but I'm now learning to love myself after being alone for many years.
Sounds like you are a fighter for yourself and you have been moving towards a safe place for yourself ...its so good to have people out there like Richard whom remind us we are human and trying to manage and at times we dont ...but when we do understand more perceptively that we are ok to not be perfect ...then we can be safer ....you are being there for your wellbeing and thats being well regardless of others opinions.... all the very very best to you ...
My brain was shouting at me wouldn't stop I would wake at 2am with my brain shouting,then I took diazepam and it was quiet, 20 year narcissistic marriage.
Delusional loyalty to the gaslighting person is crazy making… I did it: again! I stopped it and now I’m back here for support: again! Richard tells the truth so well.
There are ALOT of absolute gold chunks (not nuggets!) in here. Its really helped me. I think some of this is amongst the best you have explained. Purely due to the relatable way its said. Espec the emptiness inside of them. There is no point in trying or explaining to them. Nobody home, they moved out a long time ago . Thank you 🙏🏼🦋🙏🏼
I found out with my doctor that quetiapin really stops that repetitive thoughts and flashbacks from overwhelming me with feelings. Was like a spell, my mind changed into a more quiet and healthy enviroment. I wouldn´t be able to do therapy without this, because my emotions are absolute caos. I´m saying this because I believe some people really really need extra help like me. Moving on a day at a time. Best wishes to everybody 🥰
So accurate as always, thank you for this superb insight of the narcissist reality. "They are already dead" wow!! So true, and so difficult to understand from our point of view, but now that you have eloquently explained it, now it's very easy to understand. I've never heard someone telling they are already dead and this concept is really helpful for the victims to finally stop wasting their energy with those dead corpses.
I did my own type of emersion therapy to get out of my Pollyanna thinking by watching 10 seasons of Criminal Minds to get me into the reality of the fact that evil really exists in this world. Also, I loved A Cult Of One. Bought it on audio. And if you ever need to get out of this crazy world of helping us (not suggesting you do) you would be great at voice over. 😂😂😂 Thanks for all you do.
In 2018 I was at job where my ex boss destroyed me. She used many manipulation tactics. When my intuition screamed that something was off, I started to search for things about manipulation online and I then learned what Narcissism was. Of course I had a burnout, my doctor put me on antidepressants and got fired in 2021. In that same year, I started a relationship with a possible narc. It's been a week I went no contact with him. I'm devastated, I feel lonely, I don't trust anyone, that "self-isolation" thing is real. I'm in darkness emotionally speaking. Thank you so much for your videos, Richard. Greetings from Brazil.
I have been there 💕 I’m sorry you are in that place. It passes with time and with choosing yourself again and again into it becomes habit. Sending hugs …it doesn’t last forever
Apropos Jesus. He trusted nobody. He didn't have to. Because he knew people through observation. I find solution for myself. I don't have to trust people any more. I observe their behavior. I study all this stuff and observe. And see, with whom I interact and in which way, and whom I put at a big distance. If you study people enough, you don't have to trust, you know exactly, what to expect from them. This devastation and loneliness, if they last long, then the chances that one can be hovered back get higher and higher. My ex hovered - a very malignant type - hovered me back 2 times!!!! Better find your solution to come out of this loneliness as soon as possible.
I hope you can get to the root of this and see where in your childhood you were forced to put up with this abuse. I've learned that there is a reason why this pattern keeps coming back - we need to wipe it out from the root. I wish you the very best!
I really needed to see this video. I’m 34 and I’ve had a narcissist husband 12 years narcissist boyfriend 2 years and my mum since birth. I laughed so much at your good sense of humour. Thank you ! Your content is helping me, I appreciate your work.
O've overcome narcistic abuse by forgiving them. I find my peace. I no longer whant hurt them for destroing my inner happines for 4 decades. I have forgive them in my coure and i found my peace. I still whant to find myself. I believe i've lost peaces of me in the process but i found that i recontruted myself in a strong way. But i miss being naive, for awkord as it seems. Thank you for yor work it helped me imensly. 🙏🙏❤ Love for all of you
Richard Grannon, you are helping me at what feels like a very emotionally very difficult and pain time. Thank you soooo much !!! * The NPDs I have experienced do not want to change, they do not think they need to change. The vulnerable malignant kind in my experience said they did so much work on themselves for 4 years, but they did not work on themselves. This particular person is mad at mommy.
I need to go to the ER for all the bullying and fawning I've been getting from him. These videos are helping, I don't know what I'd do without them. 🙏🏻
Loving yourself with all flaws and acceptance of who you are, you find peace and true power. Live in the now...enjoy your life...the narcs won't resonate with your vibe. ❤
Thank you so much for creating these videos. I’ve left my husband of 28 years and have lots of work to do. Your videos are brilliant in explaining the complexity of the gaslighting and mental manipulation. I was mentally hotboxed and gaslit by my high iq husband to a level that baffles my mind. Layers upon layers of fuzzy subtlety, not straight out lies but selective information, passive aggressive and “humor”. It was important to see my own denial, and doubling down on my belief in marriage contributing to my own gaslighting. By the end reality truly broke and had such cognitive dissonance that I couldn’t function as a human. I had a realization of my situation after a Buddhist retreat and left him when I returned. It feel like I escaped from a mental hostage situation and the light has been turned back on and life is beautifully ordinary. What the hell was I thinking? That being said, I’m dealing with health issues, my nerves are a mess, I have more triggers than I can name, and I must force socializing as to not become a hermit. But, the happiest I’ve felt emotionally in my entire life., and look forward to a life of making decisions for myself (for once). Your a Saint, thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Mine was so covert and so incredibly good at hiding he seemed so perfect. I thought he was a better person than me. But then smiled at me when he made me cry at the end. It’s so hard, i tried to look for red flags really I did. Maybe he was more of a sociopath who knows
My husband (abuser) passed away this past August. I was with him on and off for 10 years. I tried SO hard to love this man but he HATED me for it. What I went thru was torture. And now, nearly 7 months after he’s gone, my best friend whom is also single is thinking I’m needing to move forward and maybe get back out there. I’ve absolutely self isolated and I’m just fine in doing so. Just fine. I don’t trust ANYONE and I’m not willing to bring anyone into my space that could or would take away from my peace and safety. In my mind, EVERYONE is a narcissist
Same here - after relationship with psychopath I am Single by choice. I don't trust anyone out there. My peace, sanity, safety, mental health and well-being are my top priorities that I'm not willing to compromise anymore!
I've done several of Richards courses and found them all to be invaluable 🙏 I, too, appear the same on the outside to most other people, but my internal world is completely different. I'm much more sane and calm. Thanks Richy 😊
I found the most difficult part was learning to not only trust new people but to like new people. One small thing I found helpful in the end was starting to smile (rather inanely at first) at people. This got a different response and produced better feelings.
I am still working through my 6 year abuse. Another great video. Really always arrives right when I need a nudge to keep working through all this. Your good at this Richard!!! Really helps. And your course as well. Thanks as always!!
When I started doing research on what was going on. I would listen to your videos. And others as well. . He would become very disturbing with me. I was was in it 20 years. Ended up in court with a restraining order against him. I questioned am I am narcissist. I still listen to your videos 4 years later now. And you really open up the truth. Thank you. Hope is what I hang on to hope is a life saver. I think I am ok . I have to be I actually love being Alive. So God bless you Richard.
Am I the narcissist? It was my question all the time, while fighting the war of my life. And I think I was a transient one. Because after more as 20 years marriage with a malignant creature, I adopted lot of his trades. My values were so shifted. Good or bad didn't existed any more. Brainwashing level 100. A lot of work need still to be done to reconstruct myself. But it's a good work.
The whole point of the gaslighting ( narcissistic projection, DARVO). Is to make the victim doubt their reality, and make the victim think that they are a narcissist. All the trash talk, gossip, character assasination they have about us and others. Is the only time we get a clear picture of who they are.
A real narcissist doesn't spend years in research mode to try and sort out why they're so broken. The victims do. Entrainment is a real phenomenon. Your real self is shattered and all that's left is a cacophony of echoes from the past. The narcissistic tendencies you observe in yourself are from the abuser. It's not you. You got lost in their hall of mirrors and have forgotten who you are. I think this is why total and permanent separation from the narcissist is such a crucial element. You have to find yourself and start all over again. Never second guess yourself about how long or how much work it takes to get yourself sorted back out. It took many years to grow and develop the first time too. I've come to think of it as an opportunity to rebuild and become who I always really wanted to be in the first place. The real you is still in there. Godspeed.
Yes they know that they are hurting you. Pay close atention to they're micro expression. When you say that whatch a litle smile forming in they're face. They know and enjoy hurting. It's power for them
Thank you Richard. Really enjoyed this. Your video gave me a new perspective on the narc's messed up behavior. It is mind blowing how one can be so disrespectful toward someone whom they supposedly love. This explains it very well. It was very helpful.
Yes, always so helpful! So glad you shared the experience recently with a narcissist explaining their fight and fawn back-and-forth-ness with you in texting. The 4 months after leaving my ex, he wrote frequent 5-10 thousand word emails, letters that did exactly that: cycling within the same letter of adoring me then analyzing and degrading me. It helps that you shared that - to know that it is a mechanism built in the narcissist.
Thinking I heard Sam Vaknin describe the narcissist as a hall of fun house mirrors. Like the true self was in a prison locked and hidden behind mirrors, and therefore never truly visible to the outside world. This is also why they despise those who accept the false self, because they recognize that those near them cannot truly love them, as they will never expose the true self or accept the true self themselves.
My ex couldn’t help themselves with their narcissistic behavior. It was clearly an addiction. Feeding the ego and being admired was all that mattered and I will be replaced by the next victim. I still don’t think of them as evil or malicious, but they just couldn’t stop their bad behavior even after being confronted several times. They were completely powerless over the desperate need to fill some void. It was like breathing air to them.
Most realistic teaching I ever listened to. But why do many keep gaslighting us with their teaching methods - Making it seem like we are actually supposed to stay so long in the trauma when they're the ones not talking about the issue as what it is. Thanks for being so genuine in your teaching.🎉
It took months of grief,but so worth it.I seen how empty my ex is.I am moving on,trusting myself and others until they show me different.I feel great and safe in my skin..❤ Thank you for being a part of my journey of healing and understanding the narcissist.
I am so stuck in sadness. I finally left after 41 years of narcissistic abuse. I was told, you are too sensitive, you’re not smart enough, you care too much. One of my most hated things he said, No one else loves you but, I love you. I don’t know how I left. It wasn’t even a conscious decision. My feet took me away. I am still a shell of a person even after 6 years. I don’t know how to live again.
I am finally figuring out that trust is the last thing you should give…..knowledge is important! The quick decision to allow someone into my intimate life has ended. Check check and double check from now on if I plan to let myself vulnerable to someone.
The course works. It really does. So much so that Richard’s voice now annoys me. Like a son disliking his own mother. I enjoyed this one. The love is returning. Emotional literacy course is a must anyway and I need to do more of this in a constant basis. Good luck out there x
I was in long term narcissistic relationships from age 22 until 45. I wasted the best years of my life. I never got married and experienced having children. Now I finally understand the toxic cycle I was caught in, but I'm left with chronic severe pelvic pain that won't go away and a severely dysregulated nervous system. I feel like I am dealing with severe PTSD and I feel overwhelmed. I feel everyone and everything is a threat. I isolate myself. I try to spend time with friends but I just feel so uncomfortable around others now. And now with chronic pelvic pain I just feel weird and even more different from everyone. I've tried seeing therapists, either they just don't understand narcissism, or they end up trying to turn everything around and making me think that although what happened wasn't right, my narcissist ex didnt really do any of it "intentionally" to me. That is just his "personality". I walk out feeling like I've been gaslit all over again.I feel so overwhelmed and don't even know where to begin. I have so many things to fix and heal. And I have to figure it out somehow or the pelvic pain won't end. The sad thing is narcissistic abuse took away all the best years of my life, and in the aftermath of that now living with pelvic pain may realistically take away the rest of it. I've had pain for 4 years now. I left my ex 2 years ago, the physical pain has lessened gradually but its still really bad.
I’d be interested in trust building after recovery from Narc abuse. Also wanted to tell you how great your info is and the way you present it. I’m probably somewhat hyper-vigilante, however I see narcissist traits in single men right off the bat now, well in men and women. You put the information boldly, no sugar coating, directly and clear. I see 2 therapists and it’s been impossible to find anyone in my area with experience with EMDR, brain spotting and somatic therapy. You’ve helped understand what my mind and body were going through more than any Therapist. I’ve been learning from your videos for about a year now, and it has helped tremendously!! Im a nurse and a nurse educator, I’ve discussed you at length with coworkers and my counselor, and had one of my counselors review some of your info prior to sessions. Thank you for all you do.
2 2/12 years into trauma therapy … wow it’s been quite a ride. I was single for 6 yrs .. 18 months into therapy I started to date with a list of red flags / needs. Happy - dating someone for over 6 months now … I sold my house to pay for trauma therapy. That’s how important it was for me to enjoy the rest of my life fully . Richard .. your just fab x
As I've begun to educate myself after a 28 year relationship. I'm devastated at all the time I devoted to him. It was a very traumatic separation. Authorities had to get involved. 😢
Separation from narcissist is a big topic for itself. I wish, Richard will tell more about it, about things, that definitely happen, if you go no contact. After 22 years of marriage with a malignant narcissist, I break up. I could not imagine the horror, I will experience. Stalking, porn revenge, all social media accounts crashed and highjacked, he turned my daughter and my parents, who live on another continent against me. Authorities didn't believe me, nobody believed... I have to struggle with myself and with the whole world alone. Nobody helps. You have to be so present, so concentrated and self aware, no place for confusion and fear. I listen a lot, do exercises, do yoga, meditation, sleep enough. It's like a real war. It's hard.
@@RFokustotally get it. It is creepy and weird that what we thought was a normal life (in reality it was hell on earth) we all were preconditioned from childhood to have these screamers around us. The fall out is catastrophic, especially if you have children with them. A big chance some of the children are going to end up like this. I hope you are doing better now. All the best.
Thanks Richard. I personally think that if one doesn’t do the emotional flashback work then one will always have a tendency to hyper vigilance and see ‘narcissists’ around every corner. I think the key is working on our own emotional intelligence. Dr Nicole Lepera seems to stress the importance of focusing on ourselves not the supposed or suspected narcissist. Only then can we, I think, clearly begin to see red flags in our interactions and relationships with other people. From experience, I agree that the emotional regulation work is very hard in recovering from narcissistic abuse but there is no other short cut to lasting healing. No shaming intended here but it’s not an intellectual exercise. 🙏🏻
His "Fortress Mental Health Protection" work has helped me no end in dealing with an alcoholic mother and abusive step-father. I am only in week 2 of doing "the work" and I already feel like a completely different more stable mature man. You MUST allow your CPTSD emotional flashbacks to come out and be acknowledged, but in what I've termed the "affirmations", you must also inform your subconscious mind that things are no longer going to work how they have done up to now... 1. I am not my emotional flashbacks. 2. My goal is to remain calm, present in the moment and capable of expressing love in a healthy manner. 3. I will not supress my emotions, they are there for a reason. 4. I am engaged in my self interested actions and I will put myself first whenever necessary. 5. I am my own self with God given free agency. I didn't even realise I had CPTSD from those early childhood traumas, until the narc that tried to ruin my life drew it out of me in their hasty discard (I saw her mask slip and she knew I saw, so she had to leave as quick as she could). This guy is a saint, I thank him from the bottom of my heart for his dedication to helping people to recover from such a heinous type of abuse and CPTSD.
@@AndrewFosterSheff69 Thank you so much for your explanation. I'm working with my emotional flashbacks through the guidance of Pete Walker - but I think Richard is using that technique as well. I find that it all comes down to providing a safe environment for yourself to be yourself. Something we lacked during our childhood. All the best to you, man, and someday you'll meet a truly loving and caring woman, I'm sure!
At seven 7 minuets 30 seconds the video feed is getting corrupted. Somehow, I managed to view entire video as it can be partly corrected sometimes if you fiddle with it. Very unfortunate because this video has some of the best content that Richard has ever put out. I have been following Richard for a very long time. I have more admirations for this man than any one person that I have ever been in contact with. He has literally saved my life and probably the lives of many others, with his get to the problem and sort out the bull shit mentality. I am looking for a cleaned-up version of this broadcast.
Thank you. We are in a serious and dangerous traumatic period and your videos are helping us while we sit frightened in our home. We have a restraining order against my son and my daughter’s brother, and a security system has been installed. But, when the night comes, we are scared. Thanks so much.
Good morning, thank you for speaking raw, real and actualities about this. I too am coming outta the pit, it has been a beautiful, turmulturous experience. These words dont even touch how to express the feelings that go along with this experience. I honestly thought i was alone, crazy and afraid to say a thing that was real. I now find myself unable to say anything that isnt raw and real. I have found myself very alone and able to hear, understannd and lesrn how to feel again. Theres not a whole lotta people who cannot articulate the healing, its so weird and intense and aloof, but im finding that we are forming and coming to realize this very deep crevice within our beings. Thank you 😊
You're beating yourself in front of the rest of us and you need to stop 😂😂😂 Reminds me of Bob Newharts classic scene where he tells his patient to remember two words, forever: "STOP IT!!" So much intelligence, relief, and self-love when we indulge our humor. Great video!
Thank you Richard. What a wake up call this podcast was. Worked with someone for 11 years, put my all into a close friendship with said person. Only when I left the job did I realize the friendship meant nothing to the other person. I was used. Your words have made me realize it wasn't me that was the problem. 2 years of searching for an answer.......you have given me one. Bless you, keep up the good work. 🤗🤗🤗
I watch you All the time Richard. I feel after 50 years of narc abuse that I fall back always. I want to take your course, I want to get past All that. I thank you from my 💜 for your time and help!
So true! I can’t find anyone that quite understands to like help mentally just let it go. I can’t seem to find a therapist that gets it. so I just gave up and just trying to not care about anything.
23 years before exit. It is hard to live with having given my prime years to a failure. 2+ years getting equilibrium back, and yes, I see traits all around me. In dealing with parent relationships that shaped me / normalized me to tolerating this dynamic is currently a deep grief. Realizing parent is the root is like a death.
Too late. I spent 23 years with the same one discarded 3 times. Lol. Nice to know I’m not along. But I’m truly sorry for anyone that has been through this.
I certainly question my own giving up of my own values. My values on education for children, hygiene, honesty, commitment, etc. I let them fall when they were just never met or seen or valued. I really can see how I didn’t leave when I should have. I packed the car twice over the years and I finally found the tinder account and the emails and sexts that I needed for the leverage to leave. Leaving without that seemed too difficult. The love bombing was real but fucknim so much better now. I have bad days (like the past two) but today I’m so much better. It’s up and down. Thank you Richard you’re the oracle in the whole abusive narcissistic concept and the healing afterwards. It’s really helped me very much. Thank you 🙏
This is incredibly helpful. I’ve been self employed for the last few years because I can’t be around others as much as I once was able to. My emotions and thoughts are running me whenever around others. Trying to fix this…
Your awareness is key. It’s much worse to be regularly shutting down or dysregulating in various interactions and be so dissociated that you don’t care that it’s happening to you.
Richard, thank you so much for the work that you do! You are truly helping so many people to more clarity and healing, which is such a wonderful and meaningful use of a life:) 🙏namaste
Trust ourselves, strong boundaries, educate ourselves, understand every human has a hidden agenda for their actions even us, but not everyone is a narc..
You can see why clients fall in love with their therapists… 😮 finally hearing someone make sense and offer a solid analysis is the equivalent of an emotional life raft in an desperate situation…. I can see how there would be an emotional transference
I did self-isolate, but i didn't see everyone as toxic. Once, i figured him out after 6 hoovers. I knew he was who he was. I spent some time being very angry with myself for falling for it. I did claim my own part in the enmeshment he did appeal to my darker sexual side and my insecure feelings about getting older. But I'm not insecure now. I know my value, and i also know not to fish in the shallow waters again. Sure. I see red flags real quick, and I'm not trying to fix anyone ever again.
I enjoyed this live very much and protecting your peace as a 'surviver' of childhood and adult abuse is a 24hr mission. I did Richie's course a few years ago and ended a toxic codependant relationship 3 years ago. I go out of my way to protect the peace I've found. But.. Every now and then.. I wander. Yesterday, I meandered into a WhatsApp convo from 2018 with this person. I'd downloaded it and filed it in a Google mail folder. I read a year's worth and 😂 believe me when I tell you I emailed this peace wrecker and said sorry for every text argument I felt I was responsible for, facts. I woke up this morning full of regret. Watching this video to get back on track. Peace is restored and file is deleted. ❤😂😊
It is a painful pill to swallow. It's such a shame that this isn't taught in school. Experiencing it is life changing. Use the lesson to your advantage and live life to it's fullest. WE can learn from it; they cannot.
Thank you, sharing your experience, wisdom, really appreciated, am sheltering, trying to heal, I pitied him, he suffered and died 2020, I was devastated, I know, weird, but I need to recover, so I do thank you, guidance 🤫
yes i am in this situation now... 3 years after being left by an abuser i feel like i can't believe that any new man could actually be a good person once we get past the honeymoon phase and because i can't believe that.a man could be a good person deep down i think i'll stay single forever. definitely went into isolated mode after splitting and i think i will stay here for quite some time to come. definitely is ptsd.
Richard thank you for the videos! Right now are the "best of times and worst of times" for my family and I since my narcissistic ex husband went to prison for abusing and raping our daughter. I never realized what kind of crazy world we lived in until he was gone. Now we are picking up the pieces and my eyes have finally been open and I appreciate all of the insight and education you have provided. I am a Christian woman and really have relied alot on my faith and God has been providing strength and direction and He uses you so much to help others so again, thank you for using your gift for healing...
Trust can be betrayed, but knowledge not. I will never trust again, it is unnecessary. The only person I trust on this planet is myself. After my trust was abused bei many people but mainly by my still husband, a very malignant narcissist, whom I married at the age of 19 and witnessed all my life over 22 years, trust doesn't exist for me. I bring people in my life because I observed them, listened to them carefully, I watched, and judged them harshly. And after I judged them and they are good natured, I let them in my life. Because I know them. I trusted people and got betrayed. I trusted people because I didn't know them. Trust is what can be betrayed. Now I do the job of observing and knowing people. Knowledge can not get betrayed. It's my solution. Because I don't want to isolate myself and don't want to be hurt and betrayed any more. I don't want to trust any more either.
Thank you I need you, I am having a really hard time. He has hurt me really bad. I am a good person. He has treated me like an enemy. He now thinks he is better and has found someone into money like he is money saved, power, beauty.
Richard, could you speak on the psychology of Limerance?, I just learned this term recently. I think it's so relevant to this topic. Anyone who has experienced childhood trauma and is having a difficult time trusting their choices in picking and trusting their instincts when it comes to healthy relationships should read up on this this psychology term. Richard, you're giving Braveheart with that blue shadow on your face, I like it!
I love the work you do Richard but frankly in the majoruty of cases 3-4 months on recovery is not enough. At least for deeply wounded person, co- dependent, full of shame and low self estime, people pleaser and agreeable to everything. Went trough it personally. Good luck for all !
20:32 and I burst out into laughter, go figure! And I thought I could one day start to do comedy. Much to learn I still have. And more healing work to do, that, too. I like to believe these "pattern breaks" are really helpful with that. In some folks, NLP is a "godsent"!!! Richard, the algorithm saved my life when it started recommending this stuff to me, having come from the "Mr. Lizard" videos angle...
Ive discovered you.....I also reconize in listening to you, I'm getting educated on The narcissistic person wow I believe after year and a 1/2 with this person you nailed it. His tendencies / can folks just have narcissistic tendencies and not be full-blown narcissistic? I recognize the dumb question I just have asked...I apologize? I'm smarter than this.😊
Love Love Love your videos!!! from the 'OMG are you catholic?!? to 'you'll go blind!' much needed, humor-infused, educational videos. I cant recommend Richard enough.
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God this is f-ing sad, so I’m living with a corpse! A corpse that is a big pain in my ass and I can’t reach him, so I get it now! Time to leave the graveyard. Ugh 🙄🙄🙄 It is 20 yrs of pain he has caused me and I think this piece of garbage knows enough to realize he’s hurting me…I’ve told him so. He doesn’t have an answer why he came after me with a heavy table that missed my head, thank the Lord. It’s not worth ruminating over him, I look at him and feel nauseous.
After finally learning to trust myself, what I find most disturbing/upsetting are the hidden agendas and manipulation I can detect in SO many people. It's _everywhere_ now.
I see the same thing! Seems like these kinds of people are all around us. I don't invest too much in people who don't listen to me, but they demand my full attention. I can't wait to get home and be alone.
It’s a demonic spirit that is why. We’re living in the last days, and the Bible says these things will and must happen! 😢😢😢
My ex was a narc sociopath, not just a narcissist and he even claimed to be Christian and he was highly demonic infested individual. The week before we broke up I started having very bad nightmares starring him. I know God showed me this to help me detach because we were going to break up and I wasn’t seeing the whole picture of who he was. Anyways, there is definitively a spiritual side to this we need to become aware of. ♥️
@@KatErina-ii6ru I had the same exact experience! Very strange demonic events happened in both narc relationships. One would get stoned and say he was the devil while rolling his eyes back, the other told me the only way he'd give me a divorce is if I said I didn't believe in the benevolence of God or I was cheating. I never cheated, but I wouldn't denounce my God either. He was a preacher's son. Blow flies in church while I was in the alter praying for my marriage while he sat in the pew starring at me with an evil look. I had nightmares of being attacked and Jesus rescuing me. Both narcs said one night, when they were little, they just started shaking in their bed. 2 Timothy chapt.3. Come LORD JESUS! 🙌🏼
Yup, it's like we see what many others do not.
@KatErina I fully agree w you there KatErina. The spiritual realm is real, and it's powerful. These are truly the last days and no one knows how long or short that is.
"You cannot reach that person because there is no person." I finally get it. I am letting go now.
I told him he was being mean. He said "Yes I know, and I didn't care!" They absolutely know what they're doing.
Same, it's their sadistic side they're super attached to.😏👈
I searched for the answer why he doesn't care? How can it be? I see three reasons why my narcissistic husband "didn't care" about my feelings.
Lack of self awareness is if you are not aware how your behavior influences people around you. It's reason number one. He doesn't really get it. Not to 100 percent. They have real problems with causation. The awareness muscle is atrophied, because it was no longer used.
Reason number two. Lack of empathy. He understands that you are sad, because of him being mean. He doesn't feel it. He has no feeling tool. He understands, because he observed people or red in the book, that they can get sad. But there is no emotional resonance with your sadness at all.
The third thing. Emotional disregulation. Compulsive meanness. They do care, not about your feelings, but how they look to the people, behaving horrible, mostly if someone is present and sees their abuse or if they know that you will tell other meaningful people about their behavior. Very often they simply cannot control themselves, reacting very meanly or raging about neutral things.
@@RFokus Well said, you've put alot of thought into it all, thanks for sharing! 💞 They're like addicts, they feel better about themselves when they put another down it raises them up temporarily so they repeat it, looking for a fix of pleasure in another's pain and they lie about it to maintain their facade. If you tell them they hurt you they know it's working. It's best to act indifferent and get away from them to reduce it. Big hugs xx 💕🤗✌️
Oh mine told me I don’t care over and over. I would say if a normal heart head heard this conversation you did xyz which would rip any relationship apart! I don’t care!
No growth none at all.
The damage is unimaginable. It’s complete mind fuckery. The hardest part is honestly having children with someone like this as there is no limit to what they will do for control.
Grey rock the Ex
"complete mind fuckery". Yep. Nuanced perspective there!
When you have kids they are monsters among all monsters
@@karinajones1121 Sometimes it aint that simple
It’s like living in hell and you must fight everyday and hope to get through to your child after all the damage their narcissist parent has caused, be strong 💪
I foolishly stayed for 22 years, not knowing any better (so that's ok), but it made me physically ill in the end. Get out as soon as you can 🙏
22 years here too. Just starting the process and currently in the blackest pit imaginable.
27 years
24 years in an emotional abusive marriage has done its damage. Your content is really helping me, I am finally learning to forgive myself and love me for me. Warts and all.
I’m willing to guess your self-proclaimed warts are far smaller than you think
Took me almost three years of consistent EMDR and somatic therapy to unlearn the programming from both a narcissistic mother and ex-husband. Shit is grueling. But you get satisfaction knowing the narcs could NEVER do what you’re doing. My self-confidence now is around 70% - 80% when it was -5437% for most of my life. RICHARD’S COURSE IS WORTH EVERY PENNY!!
I've never heard annyone else talk about their brain screaming before. Towards the end of my 25 year marriage people wondered why I had started drinking, and I would say it was to stop the screaming in my brain. And yes I managed to leave before too long. But I was a total mess. And then spent nine years with someone who was very disturbed who lied constantly. And yes I ended up on a psych ward. I don't think I'll ever be quite right - I feel shaky just listening to you - but I'm now learning to love myself after being alone for many years.
Sounds like you are a fighter for yourself and you have been moving towards a safe place for yourself ...its so good to have people out there like Richard whom remind us we are human and trying to manage and at times we dont ...but when we do understand more perceptively that we are ok to not be perfect ...then we can be safer ....you are being there for your wellbeing and thats being well regardless of others opinions.... all the very very best to you ...
I hope you are doing better now.
My brain was shouting at me wouldn't stop I would wake at 2am with my brain shouting,then I took diazepam and it was quiet, 20 year narcissistic marriage.
Delusional loyalty to the gaslighting person is crazy making… I did it: again!
I stopped it and now I’m back here for support: again!
Richard tells the truth so well.
There are ALOT of absolute gold chunks (not nuggets!) in here. Its really helped me. I think some of this is amongst the best you have explained. Purely due to the relatable way its said. Espec the emptiness inside of them. There is no point in trying or explaining to them. Nobody home, they moved out a long time ago . Thank you 🙏🏼🦋🙏🏼
I love it, “nobody home.”
I found out with my doctor that quetiapin really stops that repetitive thoughts and flashbacks from overwhelming me with feelings. Was like a spell, my mind changed into a more quiet and healthy enviroment. I wouldn´t be able to do therapy without this, because my emotions are absolute caos. I´m saying this because I believe some people really really need extra help like me. Moving on a day at a time. Best wishes to everybody 🥰
So accurate as always, thank you for this superb insight of the narcissist reality. "They are already dead" wow!! So true, and so difficult to understand from our point of view, but now that you have eloquently explained it, now it's very easy to understand. I've never heard someone telling they are already dead and this concept is really helpful for the victims to finally stop wasting their energy with those dead corpses.
I first heard they are dead from a self-professed Narcissist who, strangely, is a lecturer on the subject. He's from Israel.
@@annestrada1724Wow probably prof. Sam Vaknin🤷🏻♀️yep an eminence but narcisistic.
Jesus said Let the dead bury the dead
He's been gone for 6 months & I've never been happier but I am healing myself & truly want to live a great life full of actual Love 😊from here on out
I did my own type of emersion therapy to get out of my Pollyanna thinking by watching 10 seasons of Criminal Minds to get me into the reality of the fact that evil really exists in this world. Also, I loved A Cult Of One. Bought it on audio. And if you ever need to get out of this crazy world of helping us (not suggesting you do) you would be great at voice over. 😂😂😂 Thanks for all you do.
Then there is jealousy they create when they choose someone over their wife. So painful when they triangulate. I have never been to a deeper hell!
Me either. Hopeless
In 2018 I was at job where my ex boss destroyed me. She used many manipulation tactics. When my intuition screamed that something was off, I started to search for things about manipulation online and I then learned what Narcissism was. Of course I had a burnout, my doctor put me on antidepressants and got fired in 2021. In that same year, I started a relationship with a possible narc. It's been a week I went no contact with him. I'm devastated, I feel lonely, I don't trust anyone, that "self-isolation" thing is real. I'm in darkness emotionally speaking.
Thank you so much for your videos, Richard. Greetings from Brazil.
I have been there 💕 I’m sorry you are in that place. It passes with time and with choosing yourself again and again into it becomes habit. Sending hugs …it doesn’t last forever
Apropos Jesus. He trusted nobody. He didn't have to. Because he knew people through observation. I find solution for myself. I don't have to trust people any more. I observe their behavior. I study all this stuff and observe. And see, with whom I interact and in which way, and whom I put at a big distance. If you study people enough, you don't have to trust, you know exactly, what to expect from them. This devastation and loneliness, if they last long, then the chances that one can be hovered back get higher and higher. My ex hovered - a very malignant type - hovered me back 2 times!!!! Better find your solution to come out of this loneliness as soon as possible.
I hope you can get to the root of this and see where in your childhood you were forced to put up with this abuse. I've learned that there is a reason why this pattern keeps coming back - we need to wipe it out from the root. I wish you the very best!
I really needed to see this video. I’m 34 and I’ve had a narcissist husband 12 years narcissist boyfriend 2 years and my mum since birth. I laughed so much at your good sense of humour. Thank you ! Your content is helping me, I appreciate your work.
O've overcome narcistic abuse by forgiving them. I find my peace. I no longer whant hurt them for destroing my inner happines for 4 decades. I have forgive them in my coure and i found my peace. I still whant to find myself. I believe i've lost peaces of me in the process but i found that i recontruted myself in a strong way. But i miss being naive, for awkord as it seems.
Thank you for yor work it helped me imensly. 🙏🙏❤
Love for all of you
Richard Grannon, you are helping me at what feels like a very emotionally very difficult and pain time. Thank you soooo much !!!
* The NPDs I have experienced do not want to change, they do not think they need to change. The vulnerable malignant kind in my experience said they did so much work on themselves for 4 years, but they did not work on themselves. This particular person is mad at mommy.
The self forgiveness part was soooo healing. Thank you for that Richard ❤️
I need to go to the ER for all the bullying and fawning I've been getting from him. These videos are helping, I don't know what I'd do without them. 🙏🏻
Loving yourself with all flaws and acceptance of who you are, you find peace and true power. Live in the now...enjoy your life...the narcs won't resonate with your vibe. ❤
“She will find your values and subvert them”. Exactly!
Thank you so much for creating these videos. I’ve left my husband of 28 years and have lots of work to do. Your videos are brilliant in explaining the complexity of the gaslighting and mental manipulation. I was mentally hotboxed and gaslit by my high iq husband to a level that baffles my mind. Layers upon layers of fuzzy subtlety, not straight out lies but selective information, passive aggressive and “humor”. It was important to see my own denial, and doubling down on my belief in marriage contributing to my own gaslighting. By the end reality truly broke and had such cognitive dissonance that I couldn’t function as a human. I had a realization of my situation after a Buddhist retreat and left him when I returned. It feel like I escaped from a mental hostage situation and the light has been turned back on and life is beautifully ordinary. What the hell was I thinking? That being said, I’m dealing with health issues, my nerves are a mess, I have more triggers than I can name, and I must force socializing as to not become a hermit. But, the happiest I’ve felt emotionally in my entire life., and look forward to a life of making decisions for myself (for once). Your a Saint, thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Mine was so covert and so incredibly good at hiding he seemed so perfect. I thought he was a better person than me. But then smiled at me when he made me cry at the end. It’s so hard, i tried to look for red flags really I did. Maybe he was more of a sociopath who knows
My husband (abuser) passed away this past August. I was with him on and off for 10 years. I tried SO hard to love this man but he HATED me for it. What I went thru was torture. And now, nearly 7 months after he’s gone, my best friend whom is also single is thinking I’m needing to move forward and maybe get back out there. I’ve absolutely self isolated and I’m just fine in doing so. Just fine. I don’t trust ANYONE and I’m not willing to bring anyone into my space that could or would take away from my peace and safety. In my mind, EVERYONE is a narcissist
Same here - after relationship with psychopath I am Single by choice. I don't trust anyone out there. My peace, sanity, safety, mental health and well-being are my top priorities that I'm not willing to compromise anymore!
I've done several of Richards courses and found them all to be invaluable 🙏
I, too, appear the same on the outside to most other people, but my internal world is completely different. I'm much more sane and calm. Thanks Richy 😊
I found the most difficult part was learning to not only trust new people but to like new people. One small thing I found helpful in the end was starting to smile (rather inanely at first) at people. This got a different response and produced better feelings.
I am still working through my 6 year abuse. Another great video. Really always arrives right when I need a nudge to keep working through all this. Your good at this Richard!!! Really helps. And your course as well. Thanks as always!!
Richard I am so glad you are on this planet at the same time I am. Eureka. You give me hope. You’ve made me laugh. And you’ve helped me move on.
When I started doing research on what was going on. I would listen to your videos. And others as well. . He would become very disturbing with me. I was was in it 20 years. Ended up in court with a restraining order against him. I questioned am I am narcissist. I still listen to your videos 4 years later now. And you really open up the truth. Thank you. Hope is what I hang on to hope is a life saver. I think I am ok . I have to be I actually love being Alive. So God bless you Richard.
Am I the narcissist? It was my question all the time, while fighting the war of my life. And I think I was a transient one. Because after more as 20 years marriage with a malignant creature, I adopted lot of his trades. My values were so shifted. Good or bad didn't existed any more. Brainwashing level 100. A lot of work need still to be done to reconstruct myself. But it's a good work.
The whole point of the gaslighting ( narcissistic projection, DARVO). Is to make the victim doubt their reality, and make the victim think that they are a narcissist.
All the trash talk, gossip, character assasination they have about us and others. Is the only time we get a clear picture of who they are.
A real narcissist doesn't spend years in research mode to try and sort out why they're so broken. The victims do. Entrainment is a real phenomenon. Your real self is shattered and all that's left is a cacophony of echoes from the past. The narcissistic tendencies you observe in yourself are from the abuser. It's not you. You got lost in their hall of mirrors and have forgotten who you are. I think this is why total and permanent separation from the narcissist is such a crucial element. You have to find yourself and start all over again. Never second guess yourself about how long or how much work it takes to get yourself sorted back out. It took many years to grow and develop the first time too. I've come to think of it as an opportunity to rebuild and become who I always really wanted to be in the first place. The real you is still in there. Godspeed.
Yes they know that they are hurting you. Pay close atention to they're micro expression. When you say that whatch a litle smile forming in they're face. They know and enjoy hurting. It's power for them
Mine got sexually aroused after putting me into a panic attack. Sick f ck
Thank you Richard. Really enjoyed this. Your video gave me a new perspective on the narc's messed up behavior. It is mind blowing how one can be so disrespectful toward someone whom they supposedly love. This explains it very well. It was very helpful.
Yes, always so helpful! So glad you shared the experience recently with a narcissist explaining their fight and fawn back-and-forth-ness with you in texting.
The 4 months after leaving my ex, he wrote frequent 5-10 thousand word emails, letters that did exactly that: cycling within the same letter of adoring me then analyzing and degrading me. It helps that you shared that - to know that it is a mechanism built in the narcissist.
Thinking I heard Sam Vaknin describe the narcissist as a hall of fun house mirrors. Like the true self was in a prison locked and hidden behind mirrors, and therefore never truly visible to the outside world. This is also why they despise those who accept the false self, because they recognize that those near them cannot truly love them, as they will never expose the true self or accept the true self themselves.
My ex couldn’t help themselves with their narcissistic behavior. It was clearly an addiction. Feeding the ego and being admired was all that mattered and I will be replaced by the next victim. I still don’t think of them as evil or malicious, but they just couldn’t stop their bad behavior even after being confronted several times. They were completely powerless over the desperate need to fill some void. It was like breathing air to them.
Couldn't control themselves because they have no integrity
It’s not called “pattern interrupts”
It’s called
“breaking pattern”
I love you, you crazy bastard
Thank you, Richard. Validation is the silver bullet to re-empower victims of narcissistic abuse.
Most realistic teaching I ever listened to. But why do many keep gaslighting us with their teaching methods - Making it seem like we are actually supposed to stay so long in the trauma when they're the ones not talking about the issue as what it is. Thanks for being so genuine in your teaching.🎉
It took months of grief,but so worth it.I seen how empty my ex is.I am moving on,trusting myself and others until they show me different.I feel great and safe in my skin..❤ Thank you for being a part of my journey of healing and understanding the narcissist.
I am so stuck in sadness. I finally left after 41 years of narcissistic abuse. I was told, you are too sensitive, you’re not smart enough, you care too much. One of my most hated things he said, No one else loves you but, I love you. I don’t know how I left. It wasn’t even a conscious decision. My feet took me away. I am still a shell of a person even after 6 years. I don’t know how to live again.
Fortress Mental Health course
I hope that God heals you. I’m so sorry.
I am finally figuring out that trust is the last thing you should give…..knowledge is important! The quick decision to allow someone into my intimate life has ended. Check check and double check from now on if I plan to let myself vulnerable to someone.
The course works. It really does. So much so that Richard’s voice now annoys me. Like a son disliking his own mother. I enjoyed this one. The love is returning. Emotional literacy course is a must anyway and I need to do more of this in a constant basis. Good luck out there x
You’re brilliant.
Thank you for you
I was in long term narcissistic relationships from age 22 until 45. I wasted the best years of my life. I never got married and experienced having children. Now I finally understand the toxic cycle I was caught in, but I'm left with chronic severe pelvic pain that won't go away and a severely dysregulated nervous system. I feel like I am dealing with severe PTSD and I feel overwhelmed. I feel everyone and everything is a threat. I isolate myself. I try to spend time with friends but I just feel so uncomfortable around others now. And now with chronic pelvic pain I just feel weird and even more different from everyone. I've tried seeing therapists, either they just don't understand narcissism, or they end up trying to turn everything around and making me think that although what happened wasn't right, my narcissist ex didnt really do any of it "intentionally" to me. That is just his "personality". I walk out feeling like I've been gaslit all over again.I feel so overwhelmed and don't even know where to begin. I have so many things to fix and heal. And I have to figure it out somehow or the pelvic pain won't end. The sad thing is narcissistic abuse took away all the best years of my life, and in the aftermath of that now living with pelvic pain may realistically take away the rest of it. I've had pain for 4 years now. I left my ex 2 years ago, the physical pain has lessened gradually but its still really bad.
Think this is the hardest part, for lots are in the false self’s waiting for validation from someone anyone however way they can !!!
I admire your courage Richard and compassion to help pull others out of the hole. God bless ❤
Your compassion with difficult truth is so helpful. Thank you.
I’d be interested in trust building after recovery from Narc abuse. Also wanted to tell you how great your info is and the way you present it. I’m probably somewhat hyper-vigilante, however I see narcissist traits in single men right off the bat now, well in men and women. You put the information boldly, no sugar coating, directly and clear. I see 2 therapists and it’s been impossible to find anyone in my area with experience with EMDR, brain spotting and somatic therapy. You’ve helped understand what my mind and body were going through more than any Therapist. I’ve been learning from your videos for about a year now, and it has helped tremendously!! Im a nurse and a nurse educator, I’ve discussed you at length with coworkers and my counselor, and had one of my counselors review some of your info prior to sessions. Thank you for all you do.
Thank you for your wisdom 👏that's what i needed to hear.. After 5 years with narc.. Finally im free.. Healing in progress ❤️
2 2/12 years into trauma therapy … wow it’s been quite a ride. I was single for 6 yrs .. 18 months into therapy I started to date with a list of red flags / needs.
Happy - dating someone for over 6 months now … I sold my house to pay for trauma therapy.
That’s how important it was for me to enjoy the rest of my life fully .
Richard .. your just fab x
I am a Christian who loves Jesus and find Buddha unimportant.
Love you Richard, brilliant and beautiful man.
As I've begun to educate myself after a 28 year relationship. I'm devastated at all the time I devoted to him. It was a very traumatic separation. Authorities had to get involved. 😢
Separation from narcissist is a big topic for itself. I wish, Richard will tell more about it, about things, that definitely happen, if you go no contact. After 22 years of marriage with a malignant narcissist, I break up. I could not imagine the horror, I will experience. Stalking, porn revenge, all social media accounts crashed and highjacked, he turned my daughter and my parents, who live on another continent against me. Authorities didn't believe me, nobody believed... I have to struggle with myself and with the whole world alone. Nobody helps. You have to be so present, so concentrated and self aware, no place for confusion and fear. I listen a lot, do exercises, do yoga, meditation, sleep enough. It's like a real war. It's hard.
@@RFokus me too almost same.Horror is huge i didnt get custody i share with him and i suffer so much couse he abuse me all the time
@@lauraantic1384 We have to be so corageous! To say: Go no contact ist easy. But what one has to face in reality has to be more discussed.
@@RFokustotally get it. It is creepy and weird that what we thought was a normal life (in reality it was hell on earth) we all were preconditioned from childhood to have these screamers around us. The fall out is catastrophic, especially if you have children with them. A big chance some of the children are going to end up like this. I hope you are doing better now. All the best.
Thanks Richard. I personally think that if one doesn’t do the emotional flashback work then one will always have a tendency to hyper vigilance and see ‘narcissists’ around every corner. I think the key is working on our own emotional intelligence. Dr Nicole Lepera seems to stress the importance of focusing on ourselves not the supposed or suspected narcissist. Only then can we, I think, clearly begin to see red flags in our interactions and relationships with other people. From experience, I agree that the emotional regulation work is very hard in recovering from narcissistic abuse but there is no other short cut to lasting healing. No shaming intended here but it’s not an intellectual exercise. 🙏🏻
His "Fortress Mental Health Protection" work has helped me no end in dealing with an alcoholic mother and abusive step-father.
I am only in week 2 of doing "the work" and I already feel like a completely different more stable mature man.
You MUST allow your CPTSD emotional flashbacks to come out and be acknowledged, but in what I've termed the "affirmations", you must also inform your subconscious mind that things are no longer going to work how they have done up to now...
1. I am not my emotional flashbacks.
2. My goal is to remain calm, present in the moment and capable of expressing love in a healthy manner.
3. I will not supress my emotions, they are there for a reason.
4. I am engaged in my self interested actions and I will put myself first whenever necessary.
5. I am my own self with God given free agency.
I didn't even realise I had CPTSD from those early childhood traumas, until the narc that tried to ruin my life drew it out of me in their hasty discard (I saw her mask slip and she knew I saw, so she had to leave as quick as she could).
This guy is a saint, I thank him from the bottom of my heart for his dedication to helping people to recover from such a heinous type of abuse and CPTSD.
@@AndrewFosterSheff69 Thank you so much for your explanation. I'm working with my emotional flashbacks through the guidance of Pete Walker - but I think Richard is using that technique as well.
I find that it all comes down to providing a safe environment for yourself to be yourself. Something we lacked during our childhood. All the best to you, man, and someday you'll meet a truly loving and caring woman, I'm sure!
I'm now happier on my own. 15 years single.
At seven 7 minuets 30 seconds the video feed is getting corrupted. Somehow, I managed to view entire video as it can be partly corrected sometimes if you fiddle with it. Very unfortunate because this video has some of the best content that Richard has ever put out. I have been following Richard for a very long time. I have more admirations for this man than any one person that I have ever been in contact with. He has literally saved my life and probably the lives of many others, with his get to the problem and sort out the bull shit mentality. I am looking for a cleaned-up version of this broadcast.
Thank you. We are in a serious and dangerous traumatic period and your videos are helping us while we sit frightened in our home. We have a restraining order against my son and my daughter’s brother, and a security system has been installed. But, when the night comes, we are scared. Thanks so much.
Good morning, thank you for speaking raw, real and actualities about this. I too am coming outta the pit, it has been a beautiful, turmulturous experience. These words dont even touch how to express the feelings that go along with this experience. I honestly thought i was alone, crazy and afraid to say a thing that was real. I now find myself unable to say anything that isnt raw and real. I have found myself very alone and able to hear, understannd and lesrn how to feel again. Theres not a whole lotta people who cannot articulate the healing, its so weird and intense and aloof, but im finding that we are forming and coming to realize this very deep crevice within our beings. Thank you 😊
You're beating yourself in front of the rest of us and you need to stop 😂😂😂
Reminds me of Bob Newharts classic scene where he tells his patient to remember two words, forever:
"STOP IT!!"
So much intelligence, relief, and self-love when we indulge our humor. Great video!
Thank you, Richard. So many insights here and I'm only mid-way... wow. You're a gift to us.
Thank you Richard. What a wake up call this podcast was. Worked with someone for 11 years, put my all into a close friendship with said person. Only when I left the job did I realize the friendship meant nothing to the other person. I was used. Your words have made me realize it wasn't me that was the problem. 2 years of searching for an answer.......you have given me one. Bless you, keep up the good work. 🤗🤗🤗
I watch you All the time Richard. I feel after 50 years of narc abuse that I fall back always. I want to take your course, I want to get past All that. I thank you from my 💜 for your time and help!
Great shout out to Dr Abdel Saad.
What a gem !
No point in wasting time...these days when people break up they try and find a new partner before sunset.
Narcs do that.
So many of us alone….in different part of the world..fighting same battles
The self-reproach! I gave the best years of my knees and my hair!
So true! I can’t find anyone that quite understands to like help mentally just let it go. I can’t seem to find a therapist that gets it. so I just gave up and just trying to not care about anything.
23 years before exit. It is hard to live with having given my prime years to a failure. 2+ years getting equilibrium back, and yes, I see traits all around me. In dealing with parent relationships that shaped me / normalized me to tolerating this dynamic is currently a deep grief. Realizing parent is the root is like a death.
Too late. I spent 23 years with the same one discarded 3 times. Lol. Nice to know I’m not along. But I’m truly sorry for anyone that has been through this.
I certainly question my own giving up of my own values. My values on education for children, hygiene, honesty, commitment, etc. I let them fall when they were just never met or seen or valued. I really can see how I didn’t leave when I should have. I packed the car twice over the years and I finally found the tinder account and the emails and sexts that I needed for the leverage to leave. Leaving without that seemed too difficult. The love bombing was real but fucknim so much better now. I have bad days (like the past two) but today I’m so much better. It’s up and down. Thank you Richard you’re the oracle in the whole abusive narcissistic concept and the healing afterwards. It’s really helped me very much. Thank you 🙏
This is incredibly helpful. I’ve been self employed for the last few years because I can’t be around others as much as I once was able to. My emotions and thoughts are running me whenever around others. Trying to fix this…
Your awareness is key. It’s much worse to be regularly shutting down or dysregulating in various interactions and be so dissociated that you don’t care that it’s happening to you.
Richard, thank you so much for the work that you do! You are truly helping so many people to more clarity and healing,
which is such a wonderful and meaningful use of a life:) 🙏namaste
Trust ourselves, strong boundaries, educate ourselves, understand every human has a hidden agenda for their actions even us, but not everyone is a narc..
No time now to lisen. In 4.17 mon I heard what I need. Thank you. So clear. Simple . Wise. Thank You.
You can see why clients fall in love with their therapists… 😮 finally hearing someone make sense and offer a solid analysis is the equivalent of an emotional life raft in an desperate situation…. I can see how there would be an emotional transference
Powerful . I appreciate you don't mix your words .
I did self-isolate, but i didn't see everyone as toxic. Once, i figured him out after 6 hoovers. I knew he was who he was. I spent some time being very angry with myself for falling for it. I did claim my own part in the enmeshment he did appeal to my darker sexual side and my insecure feelings about getting older. But I'm not insecure now. I know my value, and i also know not to fish in the shallow waters again. Sure. I see red flags real quick, and I'm not trying to fix anyone ever again.
I enjoyed this live very much and protecting your peace as a 'surviver' of childhood and adult abuse is a 24hr mission.
I did Richie's course a few years ago and ended a toxic codependant relationship 3 years ago. I go out of my way to protect the peace I've found. But..
Every now and then.. I wander. Yesterday, I meandered into a WhatsApp convo from 2018 with this person. I'd downloaded it and filed it in a Google mail folder. I read a year's worth and 😂 believe me when I tell you I emailed this peace wrecker and said sorry for every text argument I felt I was responsible for, facts.
I woke up this morning full of regret. Watching this video to get back on track. Peace is restored and file is deleted. ❤😂😊
It is a painful pill to swallow. It's such a shame that this isn't taught in school. Experiencing it is life changing. Use the lesson to your advantage and live life to it's fullest. WE can learn from it; they cannot.
Thank you, sharing your experience, wisdom, really appreciated, am sheltering, trying to heal, I pitied him, he suffered and died 2020, I was devastated, I know, weird, but I need to recover, so I do thank you, guidance 🤫
Yup yup yup, this is good!
Can feel my neurons firing again! Thanks Richard..
yes i am in this situation now... 3 years after being left by an abuser i feel like i can't believe that any new man could actually be a good person once we get past the honeymoon phase and because i can't believe that.a man could be a good person deep down i think i'll stay single forever. definitely went into isolated mode after splitting and i think i will stay here for quite some time to come. definitely is ptsd.
Thank you for answering my question. Much appreciated. I have a long term Zen background. 🕉️
We are old Zen compatriots then 🙏
@@RICHARDGRANNON That's why I listen to you. 😃
Richard thank you for the videos! Right now are the "best of times and worst of times" for my family and I since my narcissistic ex husband went to prison for abusing and raping our daughter. I never realized what kind of crazy world we lived in until he was gone. Now we are picking up the pieces and my eyes have finally been open and I appreciate all of the insight and education you have provided. I am a Christian woman and really have relied alot on my faith and God has been providing strength and direction and He uses you so much to help others so again, thank you for using your gift for healing...
Trust can be betrayed, but knowledge not. I will never trust again, it is unnecessary. The only person I trust on this planet is myself. After my trust was abused bei many people but mainly by my still husband, a very malignant narcissist, whom I married at the age of 19 and witnessed all my life over 22 years, trust doesn't exist for me. I bring people in my life because I observed them, listened to them carefully, I watched, and judged them harshly. And after I judged them and they are good natured, I let them in my life. Because I know them. I trusted people and got betrayed. I trusted people because I didn't know them. Trust is what can be betrayed. Now I do the job of observing and knowing people. Knowledge can not get betrayed. It's my solution. Because I don't want to isolate myself and don't want to be hurt and betrayed any more. I don't want to trust any more either.
12 years later n RG still filling my lonely nights hehe I'm in a codependent feed for narcissist vids. 😂
Thank you I need you, I am having a really hard time. He has hurt me really bad. I am a good person. He has treated me like an enemy. He now thinks he is better and has found someone into money like he is money saved, power, beauty.
I hate I missed the live the other day 😢, but I'm glad I'm seeing this one!
I would love ASMR videos with you.
Richard, could you speak on the psychology of Limerance?, I just learned this term recently. I think it's so relevant to this topic. Anyone who has experienced childhood trauma and is having a difficult time trusting their choices in picking and trusting their instincts when it comes to healthy relationships should read up on this this psychology term. Richard, you're giving Braveheart with that blue shadow on your face, I like it!
Yesss ! I have been in limerence for over 10 years and it’s hell.
I am slowly starting to get out of it now.
O haven't got any questions because answer never change l belive. Good night l am leaving. THANK YOU RICHARD.
I love the work you do Richard but frankly in the majoruty of cases 3-4 months on recovery is not enough. At least for deeply wounded person, co- dependent, full of shame and low self estime, people pleaser and agreeable to everything. Went trough it personally. Good luck for all !
Thank you for the video and the laughter😂You are so appreciated, Richard 💜
39:00 Great breakdown-love it. Actually love the entire video breakdown.
20:32 and I burst out into laughter, go figure!
And I thought I could one day start to do comedy. Much to learn I still have.
And more healing work to do, that, too.
I like to believe these "pattern breaks" are really helpful with that. In some folks, NLP is a "godsent"!!!
Richard, the algorithm saved my life when it started recommending this stuff to me, having come from the "Mr. Lizard" videos angle...
Such an unbelievably great movie to reference ❤❤❤ it’s so so disturbing but so great ❤🙏🏼
Ive discovered you.....I also reconize in listening to you, I'm getting educated on The narcissistic person wow I believe after year and a 1/2 with this person you nailed it.
His tendencies / can folks just have narcissistic tendencies and not be full-blown narcissistic? I recognize the dumb question I just have asked...I apologize?
I'm smarter than this.😊
Love Love Love your videos!!! from the 'OMG are you catholic?!? to 'you'll go blind!' much needed, humor-infused, educational videos. I cant recommend Richard enough.
Richard you make so much sence mate
100 per cent there disorded for life they cant get better thanks for your truth.
Thanks for the great video, watching this was very useful to me!