Rachel, you're beautiful. I understand that sometimes things get hard, and you just feel like giving up, but don't. Like you said, everyone is here for a reason. You may not know what it is yet, but you'll know. I'm not even sure. Feel strong, be strong, stay strong. ~♡Ava♡
Listening to your story made me realise... You're very brave Rachel. I look a lot up to you. Your story is much similar to mine therefore You gave me hope to not try and give up. I'm really sorry for what happened to you or everything you've been through but Like you said You're never alone! I send lots of luck and love and I hope your doing well. I also am proud of you for sharing your story. Thank you❤
Just read through posts and it's disgusting how some people but hope you're doing well and being strong. Don't let a tragic time define your life. Rise above it x
I'm sorry about what happened. I might be a guy and not understand in a girls way but I make myself be put in those shoes and try and figure it out. You are amazingly beautiful and if I was your boyfriend I'd give the world to make you happy
Glory to God for helping you. God is great. He will always be there when we need Him. I'm so glad you are better. You went through so much, God bless you, your son, and your future 💜💜
Wow....I can relate to most of what has happened to you (my ex doesn't let me see my son cause the only way she could hurt me..I have become strong willed and my mind as screwed up it got due to foster home and a friend of my real family, emotionally she could not break me until he was born in 1992). Staying strong is all we can do. I try to help those who have been in same situations that are still struggling. My wife and I have become stronger because of what has happened in our past. They say don't let the negative past govern your future but, your past good or bad, is what shapes us when we get older. Hopefully taking the bad and turning it somehow good when older like helping those less fortunate. We have always been around poverty line and my diaability makes it difficult to get any higher (in dictionary, my picture is beside bad luck cause it's always been that way with us). She is my world, literally. Health come to the point of hate going outside, hate being around people. My home, internet radio show and my wife is all I need. I know what it is like to be alone, struggling every day as a child just to be loved instead of physical and emotional abuse. I know though when I do go out, if I can help someone in any way, I feel happy inside. I was living my dream of working for a famous rock band (known since teenager which is another story for another day), tides finally turned..but, accidents in past came back to haunt me...yes ever day I wake up telling myself, crap I woke up..now another day to struggle through. I do struggle through. I will not commit suicide but, do welcome when it's my time. Due to accidents and health nearly died 5 times, once right in my doctor's office. That strong will, to look death in rhe eyes and say, you want me you will have to fight to get me. 5 to 0 so far and I have death with his scythe (big blade he has) on my speaker due to being my nemesis. I welcome when it's time but, still go down fighting. No matter what you do or try not to do, your inner self, way down deep that helped you survive this long, will not let anything happen without a fight. One more point...you aren't responsible for your ex's actions. He took his own life cause he wasn't strong enough. Took a long time to stop blaming myself from when I was 8yrs old and a friend rode his bike right into train. Thought only of I could have ran faster or been there a few seconds sooner. Nightmare never goes away but, blaming for not being able to stop him has become non existent, the death doesn't. Everything we have been through is what saves us from ourselves!!! Hope each day gets better for you..life has setbacks but, getting pass them is what makes the next day better...I am one to talk but, present situation aside for me is irrelevant cause i caused these excruciating pains that are from conditions from accidents I could have avoided. So please don't be like me, no quality of life always in your house. For me just too painful and exhausting to do anything especially outside!!!!
@@Starfirefox._.Productions she knows that its killing me inside. He means more to me then life itself. She knows that she can hurt me just because I told her that I will always love her cause of our son but, I am not in love with her. We were not together anymore but, I wanted to have a relationship of friendship. She asked me and I am always honest. Wasn't going to lie to her. I know it wad stupid but, not going to lead her on or lie to her. Even though made my life a living hell, still would say the truth.
ignore the bad causes and get to make the good ones you're beautiful inside and out you be you and don't let the bad things infect you. I believe in you. You are so worth it. Enjoy the rest of your life cause someday we won't have it anymore.ily stay strong.
Mackenzie Martin except that shit in her lip. That shit in her lip ruins it for me. Looks like she tripped and landed face first into a tackle box. She is very pretty other than the shit in her lip
@@BigSimpin420 what the heck??? Is that all u got from watching that??? I hope she sees this and finds out what a horrible person u r... If she wanted to do that, then let her, who in the heck do u think u r saying that??? Seriously!!!! If u had all that halpened to u and u posted ur story and people ur face, would u want them to say that about you??? U r a horrible person.... Hope u no that!! 😲😤😡😠
I feel the same way and I TRIED to commit suicide but then I remind myself GOD PUT YOU ON THIS EARTH FOR A REASON IF THERE WASN’T A REASON THEN HE WOULD HAVE TOOK ME.HE WILL TAKE ME WHEN HES READY! Thanks this video actually helped me alot
I also wanted to commit suicide too. Look at the world. Do you think a completely sane person want to live in a world full of insane people? It would turn any sane person insane.
That story was very emotional and I'm sorry that your parents are not the greatest. But congrats on your ADORABLE SON! I hope that he will grow up to be a great person because he is raised by such a wonderful mom. And thank you for telling me that all of us are here for a reason. I do need that and thank you.
I hope you find the perfect father for your son and you you are sooo beautiful don't forget that committing suicide is not the way to go, your son will need a great mother, who's always there for him
God bless you🙏🏼 hope you and your son have a great life together and can get three everything! You are sooo right that god put you here for a reason and everyone should be so thankful for the great lord that we should all love he does everything for a reason🙏🏼🙏🏼❤️❤️
I cryed after watching this video I have been beat and bullied I was packing my things to run away while watching this but when I was done packing the video was over And I was crying so I threw my stuff on the floor and and thanked u for making this video or I would not be on this earth!💜💛💜💛
I'm really sorry you had to endure that. You're a beautiful girl and nobody should have to go through that. You seem much stronger now and should look towards a better future. You deserve it x
I dealt with the same thing with my grandma. all the emotional abuse. I had suicidal thoughts run through my head every so often. thank god i live with my dad now!
People really suck. Sorry you had to deal with such a messed up child hood. Your so Beautiful. You are going to make a difference in this screwed up world i can tell.
Hi Rachel, my name is Rachel as well. You have a very inspiring story. I'm glad your life has improved. I'm really struggling with life and negative thoughts.
I am very proud of you Rachel. You’ve been through alot. Now look at you working a good job and being a good mom. You took your pain and allowed it to fuel you for everything possible and positive congratulations 🎊🎉🎈
I feel your pain but mine was not as bad as yours. I am here for you if you need anything. And what you have said about us being here for a reason has really brought me out of my shell. Thank you so much. And don't forget that we are all here for you and that you are here for a reason too.
This is an amazing story. I may not know u either, but I love u. Yr important and God love’s u. This story really spoke to me. It’s really what I needed. 🙂❤️🤙
Rachel, thank you. I loved your video, and I love you. Thank you for letting me know that I have a reason to be here - not everybody has. May God bless you abundantly. ❤
Rachel I'm glad your still here ur very pretty and this is abig reason you are here first your son and to tell ur story I'm here too if u ever want to talk ok my prayers are for you and urs .you've come along ways don't ever give up stay positive your new friend cindy
Post Tramatic Stess disorder..I'm sorry you had to go through all of this...I know how you feel, I have PTSD, Anxiety, Trauma, Depression and syncope.I have a service dog and i'm so greatful. Enough about me, I'm so sorry for you, Rachel...Feel better and stay strong!
You are beautiful. I'm so sorry that you've dealt with such horrible things and I wish I could hug you and tell you how special you are. If you ever need someone to talk to just know that I'm here for you. I love you and God loves you so much and it kills me to see you suffering like this. Please don't self harm. Don't do this to yourself. You just are so beautiful. 💕
Im so sorry that you had to go through that and that your parents never cared. That broke my heart. But you are brave to be sharing your story and I hope things get better for you and your son!
I'm crying at 2:55 pm 😭❤️ omg you're so strong to keep fighting and no matter what happens!, Stay strong , I love you and i'm not the only one who loves you❤️😭
i love this video i am the same i have had some bad exsperiences in life but you have given me new hope thank you so much for this video you have saved my life :)
Oh wow! I’m so sorry that happened to you & those other people, you are super strong and beautiful girl when I read that they was calling you those things I was like what !! Don’t let no one bring you down beautiful, let you on a little secret I don’t bully people I just beat up the bullies I see bullying others ❤️
Namaste Rachel, if you are not familiar with the word I invite you to look it up. I watched your video and see the light in you, very profound, very bright, very loving, and filled with compassion. It takes a master spirit to walk your path and find God and yet that is what you have done. I am humbled by you!!!!! Paul Thomas Vitaletti
Rachel u r awesome and u r worth more then u think and also know u r not alone I feel the same way and also I am a parent of two my son also to was cutting himself as so was i. It is very difficult for me to communicate with him to be there for him also very hard with what I have been through but I try my hardest n feel like I can't reach him. I also didn't have my parents to be there emotionally there for me. I want to say thank u for sharing your story with us all to know we r not alone it helps stay strong n if u ever need anyone to talk to I am here for u even though I am stranger. ☺️
to those that suffer with depression. anxiety. im with u i feel this way day after day. i am doing ok though as i live in a state were i can get medical marijuana and its been helping me with not having so many episodes. and having a panic attack sucks bad. i suffer from depression. social anxiety. and its not fun.
You are not alone. God loves you, you deserve to be loved and you are worth more than you can ever imagine. I have a similar story. It is a journey. None of this is your fault. God bless you protect you and provide all your needs in Jesus name Amen.
I felt all those things but i wouldn't let it get to me, I always thought it would get better in life and that I'm needed. I would never give up but i did feel like giving up at the hardest times... I stopped myself and didnt give up. I'm still going through the hard things in life but it's only getting better and it gives me strength in myself and what I can do. NEVER GIVE UP #staystrong
It is ok you WILL get through this I KNOW it I KNOW I will to.😪 Its bad to go through this but it makes everything worse if you do that to your self.But remember we are all with you and remember is going to be OK,And smile😃
You are so brave and strong my daughter Karen used to cut herself I didn't find out for a while but I helped her sorry about you're parents not giving you surport parents are surposted to be there for they're kids I'm glad you found love and you had a son and found happiness be strong cause you are strong may God watch over you and you're son
Oh hon I wish I could've been there to give you the much needed emotional support all those years ago. I'm glad you now have someone in your life who makes you happy, and hopefully distance of time from the past will help to lessen some of the emotional scarring. I know you know this already, but those emotional scars are not just going to disappear and you will still slip up from time to time and fall back into feelings of uselessness loss and confusion please do not be hard on yourself for any slip ups this is normal in progression towards healing (coming from another who's been suffering MDD for 22 years and GAD with panic attacks for 5 years). Just know I and many others care about you and with your happy healthy relationship and awesome 3 year old you have so much to live for we all just want to see you continue to progress in your happiness and are here for you when you need someone to vent to. Don't hate on sympathy though sympathy does not make you weak it is a show of human kindness so just remember its people showing they care. Despite my own mental health issues, prior abusive relationships, and not being a professionally licensed therapist I've found my purpose in life (being an empath) as a listener and a I guess you could call it spirit lifter I like to help fix people. Believe it or not just by posting this story you've helped fix people too and you should be proud.
Ms.Rachel, thank you *SO MUCH* for telling your story. I am nearly 49 years old. I can truly relate. I, too, am hard of hearing. I was adopted as a tiny baby. The abuse started when I was a baby. I was often sick. I was called stupid, worthless, would never amount to a hill of beans, etc...It was like this at school and at home. The bullying and abuse was relentless. I told teachers and was sent to counseling. I told the counselor the same thing every week for two (2) years. My counselor confronted my mother and she denied it all. She told him that he was a quack and that he was crazy and that I was lying to make her look bad. She gaslighted me for years. . A kid never lies about abuse. When I was 14, I was punched in the stomach by my mother. When I was 17, my mother punched me in the stomach again. My grandparents tried to adopt me to get me away from my mother. At 19 I joined the Army. Sadly, I became very ill and it ended my military career. I had to go back home. The abuse from my mother started up again immediately. I got a job and moved into my own apartment. I loved it! I eventually met and married my husband. He saw my mother emotionally abuse me and he told her off. She said our marriage wouldn't last 6 months. We just celebrated our 26th wedding anniversary on September 17th. In 2014 my beloved grandfather passed away. After his funeral, I was disowned by my family. I have not spoken or heard from my parents in over 4 years. Not once were they there to emotionally support me. Since that time I've gone on with my life. I am an ordained non-denominational minister. :-D God truly has given us life and a purpose. Please know that you are not alone and I do so wish you continued love and success in your life. We are strong and we will survive. God Bless You young lady. (((((((((((((WARM HUGS))))))))). :-)
Rachel, I feel very sorry in what you have gone through. You are very strong and I love what have done. Keep you young happy and safe. One or two things, you have a lovely face and I like your piercing plus the finger nail polish. I am not deaf but love you to be happy, I have worked with a deaf person and came up with our own signs to talk with each other across the floor. When it got complicated, we would write short notes to each other. This happened in a hotel at nights, we were night cleaner's, doing garbage/kitchen/dining room/lounge&bar/hallways. There was 3 of us, the 3rd was handicapped with brain issues and had a limp. I miss them both, hdcp one died to complications after his DR. told him to retire ( 50 ). The other moved onto a better job/pay/a nice boss. I still have his sister EMAIL address and she is a nice person. I think I will drop a line to her, soon. I love who you are and wish you all the best, plus your kid. Keep happy & Stay strong & CARRY ON 🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦🇬🇧⚘⚘⚘⚘⚘😁
I struggle with that as well u r not alone. I feel as though I need to look perfect for the world... make sure they can't see through... make sure they think I'm normal. I have been having suicidal thoughts but this is the first time I've opened up about my anxiety to anybody but my family. I was never sexually abused and I'm 12 and I understand. I'm so sorry I know how hard it is. Phillipians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength . Remember that. U. R. Loved. God loves u and he is there for u he knows your burden
I just thought of something, I hope your hearing is getting better. They have come up with ways to make a deaf person hear. I hope you are one that has this. God bless you and your kid. I hope he learns signing and makes a lot of friends. This is a story told by my father, when he was young and a group of friends played hockey against a group of deaf kids. The fun of both sides had a great time and the deaf kids did pretty good. 👋👋👋👍👍👍👌👌👌⚘⚘⚘🇨🇦🇬🇧🇨🇦
This video inspired me cuz in hard moments or times I would try to cut myself and I told friend's and they tired to help but it wasn't enough, I guess, but recently something bad has happened and my mom tired being there for me but she couldn't and still to this day I think or cutting myself or something bad happing to me until I saw this video she inspired me to not give up💖🙏🙌
Baby, we all have those break downs. You just keep believing in God and growing into the lord. And keep teaching that blessing of yours to always be strong in life and when he feels down just believe in God and everything will be okay.
Idk how long ago you uploaded this video but I just watched it I can admit I cried cause half of it is my life and the ending where you said that we are here for a reason and keep fights thank you for that😖🥺😭
OMG IM CRYING RIGHT NOW!!!!!!BLESS YOUR HEART ❤️ 😭
Chloe Myers god bless her
Are u actually crying because sad stuff my eyes just get watery
My heart is broken for you😢😢😢
Rachel, you're beautiful. I understand that sometimes things get hard, and you just feel like giving up, but don't. Like you said, everyone is here for a reason. You may not know what it is yet, but you'll know. I'm not even sure. Feel strong, be strong, stay strong.
~♡Ava♡
Im Late...Stay Strong Honey Bun !Im Here For You!
Awww I loved your story stay strong girl
Listening to your story made me realise...
You're very brave Rachel. I look a lot up to you. Your story is much similar to mine therefore You gave me hope to not try and give up. I'm really sorry for what happened to you or everything you've been through but Like you said You're never alone! I send lots of luck and love and I hope your doing well. I also am proud of you for sharing your story. Thank you❤
Just read through posts and it's disgusting how some people but hope you're doing well and being strong. Don't let a tragic time define your life. Rise above it x
I'm sorry about what happened. I might be a guy and not understand in a girls way but I make myself be put in those shoes and try and figure it out. You are amazingly beautiful and if I was your boyfriend I'd give the world to make you happy
That was really sweet of you
Glory to God for helping you. God is great. He will always be there when we need Him. I'm so glad you are better. You went through so much, God bless you, your son, and your future 💜💜
I agree with you
Wow....I can relate to most of what has happened to you (my ex doesn't let me see my son cause the only way she could hurt me..I have become strong willed and my mind as screwed up it got due to foster home and a friend of my real family, emotionally she could not break me until he was born in 1992). Staying strong is all we can do. I try to help those who have been in same situations that are still struggling. My wife and I have become stronger because of what has happened in our past. They say don't let the negative past govern your future but, your past good or bad, is what shapes us when we get older. Hopefully taking the bad and turning it somehow good when older like helping those less fortunate. We have always been around poverty line and my diaability makes it difficult to get any higher (in dictionary, my picture is beside bad luck cause it's always been that way with us). She is my world, literally. Health come to the point of hate going outside, hate being around people. My home, internet radio show and my wife is all I need. I know what it is like to be alone, struggling every day as a child just to be loved instead of physical and emotional abuse. I know though when I do go out, if I can help someone in any way, I feel happy inside. I was living my dream of working for a famous rock band (known since teenager which is another story for another day), tides finally turned..but, accidents in past came back to haunt me...yes ever day I wake up telling myself, crap I woke up..now another day to struggle through. I do struggle through. I will not commit suicide but, do welcome when it's my time. Due to accidents and health nearly died 5 times, once right in my doctor's office. That strong will, to look death in rhe eyes and say, you want me you will have to fight to get me. 5 to 0 so far and I have death with his scythe (big blade he has) on my speaker due to being my nemesis. I welcome when it's time but, still go down fighting. No matter what you do or try not to do, your inner self, way down deep that helped you survive this long, will not let anything happen without a fight. One more point...you aren't responsible for your ex's actions. He took his own life cause he wasn't strong enough. Took a long time to stop blaming myself from when I was 8yrs old and a friend rode his bike right into train. Thought only of I could have ran faster or been there a few seconds sooner. Nightmare never goes away but, blaming for not being able to stop him has become non existent, the death doesn't. Everything we have been through is what saves us from ourselves!!! Hope each day gets better for you..life has setbacks but, getting pass them is what makes the next day better...I am one to talk but, present situation aside for me is irrelevant cause i caused these excruciating pains that are from conditions from accidents I could have avoided. So please don't be like me, no quality of life always in your house. For me just too painful and exhausting to do anything especially outside!!!!
@Rizumu amamiya 31 not sure there is one!!!
@Gary Latendresse why is your Ex doesn’t let u to see you’re son?
@@Starfirefox._.Productions she knows that its killing me inside. He means more to me then life itself. She knows that she can hurt me just because I told her that I will always love her cause of our son but, I am not in love with her. We were not together anymore but, I wanted to have a relationship of friendship. She asked me and I am always honest. Wasn't going to lie to her. I know it wad stupid but, not going to lead her on or lie to her. Even though made my life a living hell, still would say the truth.
Gary Latendresse ok, so you and ur Ex broke up, you love someone Else
@Gary Latendresse maybe it’s turths
ignore the bad causes and get to make the good ones you're beautiful inside and out you be you and don't let the bad things infect you. I believe in you. You are so worth it. Enjoy the rest of your life cause someday we won't have it anymore.ily stay strong.
I loveeeee your nails and you are no joke gorgeous
Mackenzie Martin except that shit in her lip. That shit in her lip ruins it for me. Looks like she tripped and landed face first into a tackle box. She is very pretty other than the shit in her lip
WTF your talking about her looks when she has had a fucked up life have some decency cold hearted bastard
@@BigSimpin420 what the heck??? Is that all u got from watching that??? I hope she sees this and finds out what a horrible person u r... If she wanted to do that, then let her, who in the heck do u think u r saying that??? Seriously!!!! If u had all that halpened to u and u posted ur story and people ur face, would u want them to say that about you??? U r a horrible person.... Hope u no that!! 😲😤😡😠
@@AutumnFxlls i said the same thing
@@donnadumas2632 yea people are fucked up but I guess she/he was trying to make them feel better I guess?
Very strong, lots of respect
Keep fighting!!! This story shows how strong you really are. I cried after reading this.
I feel the same way I cried for a long time I feel so bad for you I hope you have a lovely life and never give up 😭😭😖🙁bless your heart 😖
I feel the same way and I TRIED to commit suicide but then I remind myself GOD PUT YOU ON THIS EARTH FOR A REASON IF THERE WASN’T A REASON THEN HE WOULD HAVE TOOK ME.HE WILL TAKE ME WHEN HES READY! Thanks this video actually helped me alot
DIY Times You only live once, catch your dream and fly with it
DIY Times God bless you
This Comment Made me cry
I also wanted to commit suicide too. Look at the world. Do you think a completely sane person want to live in a world full of insane people? It would turn any sane person insane.
DIY Times God bless u! Stay close to HIM:)
That story was very emotional and I'm sorry that your parents are not the greatest. But congrats on your ADORABLE SON! I hope that he will grow up to be a great person because he is raised by such a wonderful mom. And thank you for telling me that all of us are here for a reason. I do need that and thank you.
I’m sorry what you want through I hope it gets better
I love how you include us (the audience) into your story, you kind of gave some of us some motherly love and advice. ✌🏾
Oml...this made me cry. This video...your story...is relatable...and I feel the same way you do...thank you for the inspiration.
I hope you find the perfect father for your son and you you are sooo beautiful don't forget that committing suicide is not the way to go, your son will need a great mother, who's always there for him
Keep your head 💪🏾❤️I appreciate you sharing your story and keep giving god your all
The prettiest eyes have cried the most and the prettiest smiles go through more
stay up.. you are a special young Lady...this is my first time seeing you...but I love you... Godless and may all good come your way..
Good for you Rachel, sharing your story with us! Stay strong!
I wear hearing aids too well because when I was born I couldn’t hear anything at all both of my ears.
Amen and God is amazing and we are all here for a reason
Good luck with everything! Thanks for sharing your story! That was very brave.
A felt I was alone then I seen this story
Thank you for sharing your story. It really does help.
Oml I love youre Nails!! Im Sorry All this Happened to you. Im Here For you Whenever in Fact ima Subscribe 😊
I'm so so sorry that you have been through all of that!😭
Hope you feel great soon!
God bless you🙏🏼 hope you and your son have a great life together and can get three everything! You are sooo right that god put you here for a reason and everyone should be so thankful for the great lord that we should all love he does everything for a reason🙏🏼🙏🏼❤️❤️
Well done!!
your a soldier, and inspiration...
Thank you so much!! X
I cryed after watching this video I have been beat and bullied I was packing my things to run away while watching this but when I was done packing the video was over And I was crying so I threw my stuff on the floor and and thanked u for making this video or I would not be on this earth!💜💛💜💛
Thanks for sharing, know it's been some years and hope your still getting by, stay strong 🤞🙏❤️
I'm really sorry you had to endure that. You're a beautiful girl and nobody should have to go through that. You seem much stronger now and should look towards a better future. You deserve it x
That story made so many diffrent emotional feelings in me
Man, I am so sad for you😢😭 luckly even thiugh I felt like you I didn't drink or cut myself. Thanks for the support we love you! (As a friend)
I dealt with the same thing with my grandma. all the emotional abuse. I had suicidal thoughts run through my head every so often. thank god i live with my dad now!
Thank you we all are in this world for a reason. I am crying I hope it gets better thank you☺😭😭😭😭😭😭
Amen
This story broke my heart into a million peices
Don't cut yourself hun your worth it if you ever need someone to talk to we are all here for you love ya! ❤
You're so beautiful and sweet girl :)) never give up
Rachel, let me tell you one thing. YOUR SMILE IS BEAUTIFUL!! Keep that smile always on your face just like that!
hi, gorgeous, you such a strong girl. Thank you for inspiring me❤
People really suck. Sorry you had to deal with such a messed up child hood. Your so Beautiful. You are going to make a difference in this screwed up world i can tell.
I feel the same way I've been cutting myself hoping the pain would go away
Hi Rachel, my name is Rachel as well. You have a very inspiring story. I'm glad your life has improved. I'm really struggling with life and negative thoughts.
I am very proud of you Rachel. You’ve been through alot. Now look at you working a good job and being a good mom. You took your pain and allowed it to fuel you for everything possible and positive congratulations 🎊🎉🎈
such a touching message thank you xxxx
I feel your pain but mine was not as bad as yours. I am here for you if you need anything. And what you have said about us being here for a reason has really brought me out of my shell. Thank you so much. And don't forget that we are all here for you and that you are here for a reason too.
I thought my parents were bad enough until I hear your story. I am grateful for having such a good and thoughtful parents!
This is an amazing story. I may not know u either, but I love u. Yr important and God love’s u. This story really spoke to me. It’s really what I needed. 🙂❤️🤙
I'm sorry all that happened to you I can't believe you went through all that you deserve better ❤❤❤I'm gonna start praying for you everyday
Rachel, thank you.
I loved your video, and I love you. Thank you for letting me know that I have a reason to be here - not everybody has.
May God bless you abundantly. ❤
You are absolutely gorgeous. And I understand girl
Rachel I'm glad your still here ur very pretty and this is abig reason you are here first your son and to tell ur story I'm here too if u ever want to talk ok my prayers are for you and urs .you've come along ways don't ever give up stay positive your new friend cindy
You are so pretty, don’t listen to anyone else and don’t do what others tell you if it’s dangerous
your word make me feel more better thank you
Post Tramatic Stess disorder..I'm sorry you had to go through all of this...I know how you feel, I have PTSD, Anxiety, Trauma, Depression and syncope.I have a service dog and i'm so greatful. Enough about me, I'm so sorry for you, Rachel...Feel better and stay strong!
now i dont feel alone such a lovely girlllllll
Stay strong! We are all here for you! Good luck!
You are beautiful. I'm so sorry that you've dealt with such horrible things and I wish I could hug you and tell you how special you are. If you ever need someone to talk to just know that I'm here for you. I love you and God loves you so much and it kills me to see you suffering like this. Please don't self harm. Don't do this to yourself. You just are so beautiful. 💕
You don't deserve any of that crap! And your son is probably adorable, and I absolutely Love your nails😍😍
Bless yours heart 💗🥺👌🏽💔❤️
Im so sorry that you had to go through that and that your parents never cared. That broke my heart. But you are brave to be sharing your story and I hope things get better for you and your son!
I'm crying at 2:55 pm 😭❤️ omg you're so strong to keep fighting and no matter what happens!,
Stay strong , I love you and i'm not the only one who loves you❤️😭
i love this video i am the same i have had some bad exsperiences in life but you have given me new hope
thank you so much for this video
you have saved my life
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❣️ God bless!!!!!!!❣️
I'm so sorry what you been through I just want to give you a hug
you are truely a beautiful soul,breathtaking.
Im in love with ur nails! Keep believing!
I have gone through times where i feel unwannted and worthless and thought about u know but my friends have helped me and i feel stronger
Oh wow! I’m so sorry that happened to you & those other people, you are super strong and beautiful girl when I read that they was calling you those things I was like what !! Don’t let no one bring you down beautiful, let you on a little secret I don’t bully people I just beat up the bullies I see bullying others ❤️
Namaste Rachel, if you are not familiar with the word I invite you to look it up. I watched your video and see the light in you, very profound, very bright, very loving, and filled with compassion. It takes a master spirit to walk your path and find God and yet that is what you have done. I am humbled by you!!!!! Paul Thomas Vitaletti
You are loved! 😊💕💖
Rachel u r awesome and u r worth more then u think and also know u r not alone I feel the same way and also I am a parent of two my son also to was cutting himself as so was i. It is very difficult for me to communicate with him to be there for him also very hard with what I have been through but I try my hardest n feel like I can't reach him. I also didn't have my parents to be there emotionally there for me. I want to say thank u for sharing your story with us all to know we r not alone it helps stay strong n if u ever need anyone to talk to I am here for u even though I am stranger. ☺️
to those that suffer with depression. anxiety. im with u i feel this way day after day. i am doing ok though as i live in a state were i can get medical marijuana and its been helping me with not having so many episodes. and having a panic attack sucks bad. i suffer from depression. social anxiety. and its not fun.
Aww..I can’t help but cry
You are not alone. God loves you, you deserve to be loved and you are worth more than you can ever imagine. I have a similar story. It is a journey. None of this is your fault. God bless you protect you and provide all your needs in Jesus name Amen.
I felt all those things but i wouldn't let it get to me, I always thought it would get better in life and that I'm needed. I would never give up but i did feel like giving up at the hardest times... I stopped myself and didnt give up. I'm still going through the hard things in life but it's only getting better and it gives me strength in myself and what I can do. NEVER GIVE UP #staystrong
It is ok you WILL get through this I KNOW it I KNOW I will to.😪 Its bad to go through this but it makes everything worse if you do that to your self.But remember we are all with you and remember is going to be OK,And smile😃
We are all here for you Allways keep your head up ❤️
crap you went through a lot, hope it gets completely better😀😀😀
You are so brave and strong my daughter Karen used to cut herself I didn't find out for a while but I helped her sorry about you're parents not giving you surport parents are surposted to be there for they're kids I'm glad you found love and you had a son and found happiness be strong cause you are strong may God watch over you and you're son
I Amy not have a sole but this made me feel bad because I'm going through the same thing
Emma Gerke stay strong and sooner or later everything will turn out great just stay strong💪
Damn girl you are so pretty and your nails are on fleak !!!💅🏼
Oh hon I wish I could've been there to give you the much needed emotional support all those years ago. I'm glad you now have someone in your life who makes you happy, and hopefully distance of time from the past will help to lessen some of the emotional scarring. I know you know this already, but those emotional scars are not just going to disappear and you will still slip up from time to time and fall back into feelings of uselessness loss and confusion please do not be hard on yourself for any slip ups this is normal in progression towards healing (coming from another who's been suffering MDD for 22 years and GAD with panic attacks for 5 years). Just know I and many others care about you and with your happy healthy relationship and awesome 3 year old you have so much to live for we all just want to see you continue to progress in your happiness and are here for you when you need someone to vent to. Don't hate on sympathy though sympathy does not make you weak it is a show of human kindness so just remember its people showing they care. Despite my own mental health issues, prior abusive relationships, and not being a professionally licensed therapist I've found my purpose in life (being an empath) as a listener and a I guess you could call it spirit lifter I like to help fix people. Believe it or not just by posting this story you've helped fix people too and you should be proud.
You gaved me hope
Ms.Rachel, thank you *SO MUCH* for telling your story. I am nearly 49 years old. I can truly relate. I, too, am hard of hearing. I was adopted as a tiny baby. The abuse started when I was a baby. I was often sick. I was called stupid, worthless, would never amount to a hill of beans, etc...It was like this at school and at home. The bullying and abuse was relentless. I told teachers and was sent to counseling. I told the counselor the same thing every week for two (2) years. My counselor confronted my mother and she denied it all. She told him that he was a quack and that he was crazy and that I was lying to make her look bad. She gaslighted me for years. . A kid never lies about abuse. When I was 14, I was punched in the stomach by my mother. When I was 17, my mother punched me in the stomach again. My grandparents tried to adopt me to get me away from my mother. At 19 I joined the Army. Sadly, I became very ill and it ended my military career. I had to go back home. The abuse from my mother started up again immediately. I got a job and moved into my own apartment. I loved it! I eventually met and married my husband. He saw my mother emotionally abuse me and he told her off. She said our marriage wouldn't last 6 months. We just celebrated our 26th wedding anniversary on September 17th. In 2014 my beloved grandfather passed away. After his funeral, I was disowned by my family. I have not spoken or heard from my parents in over 4 years. Not once were they there to emotionally support me. Since that time I've gone on with my life. I am an ordained non-denominational minister. :-D God truly has given us life and a purpose. Please know that you are not alone and I do so wish you continued love and success in your life. We are strong and we will survive. God Bless You young lady. (((((((((((((WARM HUGS))))))))). :-)
Rachel, I feel very sorry in what you have gone through. You are very strong and I love what have done. Keep you young happy and safe. One or two things, you have a lovely face and I like your piercing plus the finger nail polish. I am not deaf but love you to be happy, I have worked with a deaf person and came up with our own signs to talk with each other across the floor. When it got complicated, we would write short notes to each other. This happened in a hotel at nights, we were night cleaner's, doing garbage/kitchen/dining room/lounge&bar/hallways. There was 3 of us, the 3rd was handicapped with brain issues and had a limp. I miss them both, hdcp one died to complications after his DR. told him to retire ( 50 ). The other moved onto a better job/pay/a nice boss. I still have his sister EMAIL address and she is a nice person. I think I will drop a line to her, soon. I love who you are and wish you all the best, plus your kid. Keep happy & Stay strong & CARRY ON 🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦🇨🇦🇬🇧⚘⚘⚘⚘⚘😁
Stay Strong beautiful! 💗💕
your not alone, I have quite the similar story. I hear you. promise.
I struggle with that as well u r not alone. I feel as though I need to look perfect for the world... make sure they can't see through... make sure they think I'm normal. I have been having suicidal thoughts but this is the first time I've opened up about my anxiety to anybody but my family. I was never sexually abused and I'm 12 and I understand. I'm so sorry I know how hard it is. Phillipians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength . Remember that. U. R. Loved. God loves u and he is there for u he knows your burden
I just thought of something, I hope your hearing is getting better. They have come up with ways to make a deaf person hear. I hope you are one that has this. God bless you and your kid. I hope he learns signing and makes a lot of friends. This is a story told by my father, when he was young and a group of friends played hockey against a group of deaf kids. The fun of both sides had a great time and the deaf kids did pretty good. 👋👋👋👍👍👍👌👌👌⚘⚘⚘🇨🇦🇬🇧🇨🇦
Hey Rachel, this was posted many years ago, but I hope you have reached the place you have hoped, and that you and your son are doing well. ❤
This video inspired me cuz in hard moments or times I would try to cut myself and I told friend's and they tired to help but it wasn't enough, I guess, but recently something bad has happened and my mom tired being there for me but she couldn't and still to this day I think or cutting myself or something bad happing to me until I saw this video she inspired me to not give up💖🙏🙌
Baby, we all have those break downs. You just keep believing in God and growing into the lord. And keep teaching that blessing of yours to always be strong in life and when he feels down just believe in God and everything will be okay.
I feel the same ways too
Idk how long ago you uploaded this video but I just watched it I can admit I cried cause half of it is my life and the ending where you said that we are here for a reason and keep fights thank you for that😖🥺😭