As much as I can relate to the amazing positives you experienced on the MDMA, the sketchiness you started experiencing from the dog walk onwards, and the bad time your partner experienced towards the end, is completely off putting. I know how that feels it’s horrendous. Is it even worth it for that one evening of fun ? Perhaps you did over do it. Great content as always love your honesty on these subjects 👍
Thanks dude! All in all the positives definitely outweighed the negatives by some distance. Also, I don't think any of it was caused by the MDMA but rather by taking the psychedelics too late in the night and taking too much of them. Next time we'll deffo just stick with the MDMA. I kind of think tripping should be reserved for special occasions with a lot of preparation/thought going into it, rather than just being treated as a good time.
MDMA used responsibly is just unbelievably therapeutic. My experiences with it have created this compartmantalised corner in my mind that is just safe and uplifting and resilient and is always available for me regardless of what is happening in my life. As I get older I am learning to appreciate it more and more.
I totally agree. Tbh, looking back, I think it was the thing that taught me to empathise with others. Before that I really wasn't interested in how they felt unless it involved me in some way.
I understand what you mean about using too much for a period & the way it can create depression over weeks. At the same time it did make my relationship with my wife better. Describing the comedowns is where I'd say my ptsd is at. As far I'm concerned I don't think I'm ever taking it again despite knowing it does have positives. Recently took low dose 2cb which was pleasant and didn't have (noticeable) negative after effects
@@Happy_Spatula yeah, after doing it again twice, I'm not sure I'll ever take it again either. In my subjective experience, 5-MAPB is way less neurotoxic, and the comedowns are infinitely easier. Unfortunately it's going to be banned soon.
Love that quote. You cannot possess happiness, it flows through you! That's such an incredibly profound statement. Hold on to that one ;) At least you can possess the statement.
Yeah test kits are almost prohibitively expensive. I would be fine if you could buy it once and forget about it but they expire after about 3-6 months of using them. Thanks for sharing your experience though, lost the magic too but not even from abusing - I think my brain chemistry just decided to stop producing euphoria with stimulants. Not gonna lie this video is tempting me to try again 😂. Idk if it was because I started from presses but they gave me better experiences than weighed out crystals?
I think NAC works pretty well at healing the brain. Prior to supplementing with it, I was having fairly poor sleep quality from GHB/phenibut abuse. That's actually why I started taking it, although it served the dual purpose of resetting MDMA tolerance. Anyway, I think it's worth trying for a few weeks, there are people on Reddit that explain the protocol.
I have come to some conclusions lately about drugs partly due to your videos, some mephedrone abuse last year and an MDMA+mushrooms+2C-B trip last week that was good but ended with a degree of paranoia that could probably be called a psychotic break: recreational drugs should be fun and insightful, if it isn't fun, you're overdoing it or your head isn't in the right place to be doing it, if it isn't insightful, it isn't worth doing. When I say fun, I mean the overall experience should be positive and something to remember fondly.
I fully agree. I think that's a really good way to put it. When it just becomes a way of getting a buzz to pass the time, you're on a very bad path in my opinion. But when you treat it with respect it can be such an amazing thing to do.
Hey dude if you can get 2cb, next time you take mdma you should try taking 10mg of 2cb with the dose of mdma, then 2 or 3 hours into the mdma take another 20mg of 2cb, very good combo. The usual way to take them together is taking a dose of 2cb when the comedown of the mdma starts but I highly recommend taking the little bit of 2cb with the mdma at the beginning too, it amplifies the good parts of the mdma and doesn't make it trippy as you may expect. Having ketamine or ghb for the comedown helps a lot with the comedown too, and makes for a crazy but very chill trip, the ketamine at least
I've heard this is amazing, I'd really like to try it but the standard/purity of 2cb seems to have fallen off a cliff recently and it's really hard to find any.
such a good story teller man, could listen to you all day long
Agreed!
Thanks dude, it's always really great to have this feedback
You're by far my favorite youtuber dome! Love the consistent uploads
Thanks so much dude! That means a lot.
As much as I can relate to the amazing positives you experienced on the MDMA, the sketchiness you started experiencing from the dog walk onwards, and the bad time your partner experienced towards the end, is completely off putting. I know how that feels it’s horrendous. Is it even worth it for that one evening of fun ? Perhaps you did over do it. Great content as always love your honesty on these subjects 👍
Thanks dude! All in all the positives definitely outweighed the negatives by some distance. Also, I don't think any of it was caused by the MDMA but rather by taking the psychedelics too late in the night and taking too much of them. Next time we'll deffo just stick with the MDMA. I kind of think tripping should be reserved for special occasions with a lot of preparation/thought going into it, rather than just being treated as a good time.
so glad I found your channel
Me too! Thanks for watching
MDMA used responsibly is just unbelievably therapeutic. My experiences with it have created this compartmantalised corner in my mind that is just safe and uplifting and resilient and is always available for me regardless of what is happening in my life. As I get older I am learning to appreciate it more and more.
I totally agree. Tbh, looking back, I think it was the thing that taught me to empathise with others. Before that I really wasn't interested in how they felt unless it involved me in some way.
It was created during a golden age in pharmacology and it shows
I understand what you mean about using too much for a period & the way it can create depression over weeks. At the same time it did make my relationship with my wife better. Describing the comedowns is where I'd say my ptsd is at. As far I'm concerned I don't think I'm ever taking it again despite knowing it does have positives. Recently took low dose 2cb which was pleasant and didn't have (noticeable) negative after effects
@@Happy_Spatula yeah, after doing it again twice, I'm not sure I'll ever take it again either. In my subjective experience, 5-MAPB is way less neurotoxic, and the comedowns are infinitely easier. Unfortunately it's going to be banned soon.
great thanks for sharing
Love that quote. You cannot possess happiness, it flows through you! That's such an incredibly profound statement. Hold on to that one ;) At least you can possess the statement.
@@petersuvara true!
Yeah test kits are almost prohibitively expensive. I would be fine if you could buy it once and forget about it but they expire after about 3-6 months of using them. Thanks for sharing your experience though, lost the magic too but not even from abusing - I think my brain chemistry just decided to stop producing euphoria with stimulants. Not gonna lie this video is tempting me to try again 😂. Idk if it was because I started from presses but they gave me better experiences than weighed out crystals?
I think NAC works pretty well at healing the brain. Prior to supplementing with it, I was having fairly poor sleep quality from GHB/phenibut abuse. That's actually why I started taking it, although it served the dual purpose of resetting MDMA tolerance. Anyway, I think it's worth trying for a few weeks, there are people on Reddit that explain the protocol.
I have come to some conclusions lately about drugs partly due to your videos, some mephedrone abuse last year and an MDMA+mushrooms+2C-B trip last week that was good but ended with a degree of paranoia that could probably be called a psychotic break: recreational drugs should be fun and insightful, if it isn't fun, you're overdoing it or your head isn't in the right place to be doing it, if it isn't insightful, it isn't worth doing. When I say fun, I mean the overall experience should be positive and something to remember fondly.
I fully agree. I think that's a really good way to put it. When it just becomes a way of getting a buzz to pass the time, you're on a very bad path in my opinion. But when you treat it with respect it can be such an amazing thing to do.
Hey dude if you can get 2cb, next time you take mdma you should try taking 10mg of 2cb with the dose of mdma, then 2 or 3 hours into the mdma take another 20mg of 2cb, very good combo. The usual way to take them together is taking a dose of 2cb when the comedown of the mdma starts but I highly recommend taking the little bit of 2cb with the mdma at the beginning too, it amplifies the good parts of the mdma and doesn't make it trippy as you may expect. Having ketamine or ghb for the comedown helps a lot with the comedown too, and makes for a crazy but very chill trip, the ketamine at least
I've heard this is amazing, I'd really like to try it but the standard/purity of 2cb seems to have fallen off a cliff recently and it's really hard to find any.
6:40 potentially PMA or PMMA.
That's the one, yeah! It wasn't actually that in the end, but that was the one I thought it might be until I came up.