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I need time for myself guys. I'm sorry I let all of you down. I will be back soon
hope you feel better man
She got an OF NOW
Just do you brotha... you didn't let anyone down just keep on pushing 💯 💪
You didn’t let anyone down man
Don't worry about
After 2 years of not watching Doug:
“hey I wonder what’s he been up to 🤔”
Doug: “WE BROKE UP”
That is literally me 🤣 but 😔 sad to find out. I hope he moves on.
Me today - caught off guard af
Same😂
Lol
Lol same. I was shocked seeing the title.
Doug you’re an OG, you’ve inspired so many people including myself. Your ambition is something out of this world that I have not seen in anyone but you! Keep your head up champ, take your time to heal and continue to grind.
Damn I’ve been watching this channel here and there for years and the pain this video portrays really pops out :( whoever hates you on for decisions YOU think are right are just straight up bullies who have never had to make a hard decision in their lives . I got out of a really long term relationship at the beginning of this year and as much as it hurt at first it really made me grow as a person being independent after always having someone by my side. You’ll get through this Doug , it’ll be tough but you got this . Keep ignoring the haters and focus on yourself
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Tough times don’t last, Tough people do and Doug is literally the human form of persistency… Love the positivity you’ve had no matter what is thrown your way @Censor you will literally achieve everything you’ve said you will do.. God is by your side
Well said🙏🏻
💯
tuff time neva last only tuff ppl last
💯
“Though time neva last, only tough peopl last. Blughvluggv”
One thing you’re absolutely goated in Doug is getting right back up after being knocked down, you don’t realize how much has impacted the people who follow you. We have no doubt that you’ll come back better and even stronger. Progress is never linear.
😂😂😂 then goes completely back to shit
I can't believe people roast this guy. Such a good dude. Stay strong, man
he's such a tool man,Its the same story over and over all the time
@@garibay711cod ok Mr perfect we get it.
@@garibay711cod true
@@DCLOVESGOD365 its not about that,This dude just does these things to himself.
Trips over the same rock 1000 times
@@garibay711cod Yea and he will until he achieves his goals. Getting what we want is about repetition, and if you're not willing to do what you gotta do to get your goals, then good luck cause you're gonna regret it later in life when you should have used your time wisely and went for a goal or ambition you have. Gotta change that mindset my dude before it's too late
She made a only fans as soon as they broke up. That should tell you guys enough. Keep your head up king your crown is falling off
Wtfff
He made a good choice breaking up with her then
Did she really???
Fr wtf are u fe bro noway
Yes I saw that! And the first post she did on their she captioned it “feeling #uncensored 😉” like come on , clearly she tried to be “clever” by adding “censor” into that
You didn’t let anyone down. I’m sorry that your going through but definitely take your time. Your going to continue to grow and be the best Doug you can be. We all got your back no matter what, most of all God got your back. Much love man
Doug my guy. I’ve been a fan since 2015. It’s been a great ride being a fan of yours. Your like a big brother to me without meeting you. If it’s something that you feel you need to do. Then you don’t need to justify yourself. Visualise your goals, reach out and grab them. Your a great role model. Sending love from the UK brother.
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Also been here since 2015 and it sucks to see him like this but you'll come back stronger Doug!
I been watching Doug since freshman year of HS back in 2013 and never ever ever have I seen him cry, I never seen him open up this much and I’m glad he did this time.
I hope you feel better Censor and remember you still inspire us to do better and be better bro! Much love brother! Keep yah head up!!
The fact that homeboy over here is pouring his heart out on camera and wishing his ex the best while she’s over there making an only fans and feeling “uncensored” says a lot man.
It says he's controlling and doesn't want his women making their own money.
@@davidbahena5120 how’d you figure that? She was working full time. Only thing it shows is her mentality at 30
@@davidbahena5120 you have no idea what tf your talking ab kid😂
@@xsgtxbigboy1655 facts man!
@@davidbahena5120 Yeah he looks those kind of insecure kind of kids with a 15 year old mentality as well.
I feel you on the age thing Doug. Im literally one day older than you and I understand how it doesnt feel like you're 27. I cant imagine the kind the pressure you feel but keep your head high. You're doing great Doug!
I'm feel the same too
Feeling for you Doug. My girlfriend of almost three years broke up with me two weeks ago and I haven't been the same sense. To think that I was mentally prepared to get down on one knee for her and to found out that she cheated on me is really messing with me mentally. We both will power through and hope to find true love again.
You see,Your story is very understandable.And im sorry to hear that man,It sounds traumatizing.BUT our friend doug here is a little child.The dude gets into relationships for the sake of keeping his channel alive 💀 The guy does these things to himself.He rushes into things knowing its the wrong thing to do.
You got this brother 💯💯
I know times is tough rn bro but I promise things will get better. You might not see it rn but things will get better big dawg🙏🏼 god bless brotha🙏🏼🙏🏼
She cheated on you, and she had the audacity to break up with you? You deserve way way better man
Its bn 1 year. Wats the update? How is life?
this guy broke up twice and i am still single lmao
Lmao facts
Lmap fr 2 fine women too damn
He only gets girls based on his look and money. He has very beta mannerisms and behaviors, that’s why they all disrespect him
@@701delbronx8 what do you mean by beta? Lol
@@808BAMFasian He bought her a car when they barely started dating. He acts like a total nerd too
You didn’t let anyone down bro. You’re just trying to bring yourself back up, nothing wrong with that.
You’d be a great friend to have, Doug. You’re very likeable and seem like a really nice, cool person to be around.
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You got this Doug, you know exactly what you need to do. Seeing the evolution of Censor is crazy and admirable. Do you thang! Love yourself!
I’ve been watching Doug since I was 15. I am 21 now and I will say, without question, has been the most influential RUclipsr and watched. Not joke. There is so so much I can relate to him and after watching this, I am even more motivated to do better in school, sports and inspiring others. He is the big bro I never had.
Bro this mans fucking drive and determination is on another level. He has never given up after years all while dealing with such hate against him and its so damn admirable and its infectious. You are a god damn animal censor! Your drive and ambition is so damn insane and it inspires me and I'm sure it inspires others. Keep your head up and keep killing in man 💪
I completely relate to this. Sometimes we have to be alone to become the best version of ourselves. It’s a journey my friend 🤗
I have faith that someday you’ll be content with where you’re at in life Doug. I’m sorry you feel so lost right now but you’ll get where you want to be in time. This video is very raw and admiring, your self-motivation makes me want to push myself as well.
Honestly dude i admire you so much , ive been watching your channel over the years and you always fall but always have the energy to stand back up and keep going, it takes courage not to give up in life and keep going. You are a super strong person and thats very admirable given all the things you’ve gone through. Keep your head up champ you got through it before you definitely can run through this.
I’m only 21 but I relate to so many things in this video. I feel like I through away so many years in relationships that didn’t workout, and it’s draining. And I also still feel like a kid, not the adult I’m becoming. I met you at a Jets game a couple years back with Papa Censor and have been a fan ever since. You’re a good guy Doug and I think all the work you’ve been putting in will pay dividends eventually 🙏🏽
Ngl bro I thought you taking all these L's over these past few years has been comical. The fact you still continue to chase your goals even through all of this is very admirable and you have my respect. Hopefully you reach what you seek to accomplish brother. 💯
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You’re a goof for praying on someone’s downfall
You're gonna end up a sad and pathetic person if you don't grow up and get a grip
You're weird lmfao
@@doublearr16 how can u think these l’s are or were comical it’s like me saying ur nan hot cancer (which is an l) and saying it’s comical. It’s not
You don’t need to explain anything to anyone, like the Mexican saying “mejor sólo que mal acompañado” keep your head up man !
That’s not a “ Mexican saying “ that’s a whole Spanish saying lol
Exactly bro
@@mattm7266 it literally is, it comes from a song by Banda el recodo- se me canso el corazon
Lol this guy plays 24:7
Tf do you expect
@@mattm7266 also in Italian. It's just a saying
As a viewer seeing these things happen alot through the years I'm still holding on to the hope that things are gonna come together for you Doug. Keep pushing through
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Wholeheartedly agree Doug, dont get too down on yourself its LIFE. Easy for us to speak havent not gone through half of the distress you have, but please keep the faith we all will always support you.
Yoo Fr 💯
This man is probably the most ambitious person I've ever had the pleasure to watch grow on RUclips. I strive to be like this man.
The comeback is always greater than the setback. We’re right here big Doug
Facts 👌👌👌❤️❤️❤️ bars
Real talk people always clowning doug but he’s a great guy and this video is so relatable as far as anxiety and you a real one for posting it! I hope you find your happiness Doug!! You deserve it brotha ✊🏻
Doug, I’ve watched your channel since 2016 and you’ve been nothing but an inspiration for me man. Never change man. I have nothing but respect for you. You’ve done things by the book and kept your head down and WORKED! Your mindset is truly a blessing. I’m rooting for you man! Keep your head up! You’ll get through this! You always have! Much love ✊🏾✊🏻
Mans cant keep a girl Or keep his COD carrier going 🤣
Juandingo clapping more cheeks again
As a long time fan. It’s really heart breaking too see someone like dough go through it. Nothing but support
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I'm getting ready to hit my mid 20's and I can say without a doubt that focusing on yourself will lead to success. Let others chase you and keep your head up.
Facts !
You should be proud of yourself, Doug. Accomplishing so much out of pure determination isn't easy. Continue being a great role model and good luck on you future endeavors! 👊🏻
Seems like poor communication or not being truly in love, or she didn’t understand your ambitions and wasn’t easy going with your life goals and the fact that there would be sacrifices like time spent in your relationship. But there definitely needs to be a balance. If 2 people love each other and are understanding they would understand if you communicate with each other clearly and support you, as long as you still give some effort in the relationship and are thoughtful when you can be. There was a lack of something relating to this in your relationship. You also need to enjoy life Doug. Life is short. You can pursue everything you said while still being in a relationship if you actually loved each other and are understanding while still giving your partner love.
Why even speculate? You don’t know what happened
Both people gotta compromise .. Both of them seem too needy
@M U no I’m just able for read between the lines. There’s a constant forming with all of his relationships. Sorry you’re too dumb to be able to see things from other peoples perspective and give genuine advice.
Keep your head up King, I’m going into my 22’s and I grew up watching you as a teen. Best lesson I got from you Chief is just to chase my dream against all odds 🚀, much love censor - you’ll reach your dream soon 👊🏼
I feel for you brother, I was in a relationship from 16-22 then it ended, took half my heart with it but God healed me. Don’t forget that He loves you and has a perfect plan for your life
Feels bruh
I grew up watching you and tbh I’ve learnt a great deal through your life experience. Hope everything’s goes well for you, and thanks for the advice you give us.
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Doug, it's been refreshing seeing someone that has always kept their heads straight during a break up, even though you have legit reasons to not be. You got this, my guy.
I remember the old days when that time teeqo slammed some cream on Censors face 💀
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😂😂😂😂😂😂 faxxx yo they need get back to that shit. Now he just simping and tryna go pro 💀💀💀
@@TheRolly11 'Simping'
You do realise that saying that makes you sound like a neckbeard right? If you're fine with that, you do you, but it's not a good look.
@UCQb3goNo7GdPiv6NF0aGp-Q bruh shut up
That's sounds gay
Hugs Doug. Hugs 😿 Although the house is little quieter, feels a little empty and your heart is a little sore, you will look back at these moments and be proud of your courage.
Walking away from someone you love is one of the hardest things you can do. But putting yourself first is brave and something that everyone should look up to. Gotta fill your cup first before you can fill others 🤍
I've been watching you for years. You have accomplished so much. You have so much left to do. Thanks for always being 100% transparent. Stay tough and keep fighting man.
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Being out of a relationship is the hardest and most fresh feeling at the same time. Sure you’re alone but you don’t have to worry about another person for once. Not that caring for another person is bad but it’s a relief.
Way more harder things in life bro lol.
@@pompeythegreat297 obviously it’s not literally the #1 hardest thing but it can be up there if you had a strong enough bond with a past lover
@@RozzyJosiah Some people are emotionally stronger........ Mentally stronger and or.
Doug. DO WHAT YOU GOTTA DO. YOU’VE BEEN THE MOTIVATION TO ALOT OF PEOPLE. YOU WILL FIND SUCCESS. MUCH LOVE MAN❤️
Just turned 25 and I feel how you’ve feel Doug. Been in relationships most my 20s then Covid hit. Showed me a new perspective of how I thought I wanted things compared to how they were. Take the time to be by yourself, with family, friends and enjoy doing things that make you whole brother. Been a fan and watching your content before YG, saw the breakup video and still a fan now. I may not be in your shoes but I can still feel the path we both step on. Always going to want the best for you my guy. Always trying to have a positive attitude, always being just a straight good dude to us OG fans. Much love Doug, I hope people don’t roast you, you don’t deserve that. 🙏🏼
The OF gave it away, but it’s okay King. Keep killin the content we love you.
She has an OF? Omg
Bs
@@DamionRose that’s what I was bout to say
Does she have onlyfans?
didn't take long💀💀
This man stay taking L’s. Marilyn already made an OF with a post in Doug’s washroom and her caption says “feeling uncensored” 😭
Goddamn
Bruh these girls ain’t shit
@@anthonygulic9586 it’s true
What's the name of it I'm gonna leak it
@@doomthagoon8512 already is
I’ll tell you this, the top is a lot nicer when you can share it w someone BUT the ride to the top together is the best part of the journey.
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It can also be the loneliest
Nah
@@doublearr16 this is trash gtfoh
"I don't feel like anything's changed besides my age" man I felt that
Doug is such a nice guy, I truly hope that you can find a girl that truly appreciates you and never leaves you until death.
I feel like Censor just has the worst luck. Other than being a famous millionare ofc.
I love you Censor, you are the Goat, stay positive my guy, the sun will always rise again
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Everyone’s journey is different Doug! The worst thing you can do is compare your journey to others especially when it comes to “success”. Everyone has their own version of success. I believe you are on your way!
You didn’t let any of us down Doug! Keep grinding and can’t wait to continue to see you grow!! Hope you enjoy this period of individuality!
If you really cared then offer yourself to him.
@@jarislamecc lmao what?
@@jarislamecc wtf
Is it true that Marilyn created a OF than good for Doug ti break up with her.
@@jarislamecc Yo?
Don't be so hard on yourself. You are a good role model. I wish my kids had an ounce of the drive and determination that you do.
Bro it’s like drake said “I used to save hoes with a mask and a cape.” I mean you got her a car that sucks if you cared about her and she still driving it but head up man break ups are tuff and you have a drive that’s second to none. I’ve watched you since Strictly Business when you debuted on the cod scene. Keep pushing mate.
Lol he got her a car lol. And she probably kept it.
Do that for a wife. This dudes trying to keep women with gifts. That’s risky. Lol
You’ve got a career, you’ve got a house, you’ve got loads of people who are inspired by you, myself included. Sometimes it sucks real bad, but you just gotta pick yourself up and keep at it. Remember, you’ll never be criticized by anyone doing more than you.
Full commit on life Censor. Recently got out of a 6 year relationship, I’m 22. just like you that’s all I knew. Just got to focus on you and enjoy life. You only got one.
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Dam lucky I'm 20 and never had one be graceful
facts bro
Honestly you expressed what I couldn’t this whole year.. I appreciate that. I understand where you’re coming from completely. Best of luck to you
Stop giving girls clout bruh. How do you not learn from this.😂
Bro second girl that makes an onlyfans after they break up
@@edgar-_-5419
Did they really make one? 😯
And spending a lot of money too lol, first girlfriend he bought mini cooper and 2nd girlfriend a jeep
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@@majingamer6109 yup both of them check they’re IGs
Been watching you since 2014 Doug and I’m glad I have. You are a role model I’m proud of you. People will talk. That’s all they can do. Your resilience. Patience. Persistence is honestly legendary and a lot of people can learn from it. Respect man.
Bro legit make these every other year😂
Fr 😭💯
Ong😂😭
Rinse and repeat
He was with her for 3 years.
Fr let’s see ho he get in 2022
I'm sorry to hear that. Hopefully everything goes well
ever since the beginning, you’ve been a huge inspiration for me bro. many of the things i want to accomplish in my life are similar to what you have done/want to do,, and it’s always amazing to see you continuing to push forward and pave the way. keep being you and best of luck w/ everything
I'm so sorry, I hope everything works out for you man. I've been a fan of you for a long time and I wish nothing but the best for you now and the future!!
"i have 2 dogs that need me, it's me my 2 dogs and my life"
next video : "I left my dogs for call of duty"
She belongs to the streets with her onlyfans
Exactly...I can't believe it
Bro don’t give another women your platform for free, I know it sounds pessimistic but fame changes people and they profit of you. Don’t let anybody take advantage of you, you have a good heart.
From a total stranger, Doug, I've grown up watching you, and Nade, and Scump, and C6; basically the entire CDL. You've ALWAYS done things the right way and for what it's worth, i'm proud of you. Impact is hard to measure, but easy to see. Something we all posses. We have influence - whether we realize and accept it or not. You choose to use your influence to put good into the world and I wish people would stop clowning on you for the meme. Wishing you all the best
Censor I just want to say, Thank you! Been watching you for a while now and I did stop after awhile but I come back here and there to check up on you… just thank you for making great content for us 🤞🏽 God bless you always… stay strong
I almost cried watching this video, keep your head up bro. Everything happens for a reason and believe me you’ll crush all your goals and achieve everything you ever wanted. About Marilyn don’t feel bad about it, from what you’ve said it seems it was a mutual understanding to break up and believe me if she’s met to be yours then someday you’ll work it out despite her working full time. Keep your head up Bro! 🙌🏽
It was bound to happen, you always looked so genuine and she….. well she better give that car back to say the least 😂😅
What about the ex girlfriend car🤔
Miss you censor, miss your consistent content. Every month I find myself checking in on your channel to see how you’ve been as I’ve been following u for like 5+ years now.
You’ve impacted so many people me including me I know u don’t know but love ya bro stay up king!
Your story is so inspirational and you’ve inspired so many people.
So sorry to hear this Doug. Take this time to reflect, heal and learn. These situations happen for a reason and you will end up being stronger as a result. Stay strong.
Just hang in there and keep your head up bro. Long time supporter here always rooted for u cause u always chasing your goal no matter what ur situation is. If there is something I have learned although I am younger than you (about to be 24) is that during your 20’s in terms of relationships with someone. 99.9% of the time the person your with will more than likely not be the one. I have seen it countless of times from friends to strangers who think they have met the ideal person and some have even had kids already or gotten married they end up separating down the line. Why? Because they rush into things imo your 20’s is the time to have fun explore don’t settle to quick with only one person because more than likely you guys will sooner than later not work whether its months from now or a decade later. A lot of people don’t have their shit together during their 20’s and they already want to settle down. That’s where they fuck up and hopefully this situation will teach you a thing or two. You live and you learn
TL:DR - He broke up with his girl to pursue his call of duty athletic career
😂
Again
100 time?
😂
He don’t need a girlfriend when call of duty is his wife lol
We're all here for the you Doug, I'm 25 and it feels so werid, I've had my ups and downs and I felt the pain that you're currently going through, on a positive, every day will be an improvement from your last with your mind set and your goals. You've always inspired me and you still do to this day. We all love ya bro
Same age same problems, to think other people are going through similar difficulties eases my mind.
Much love bro things dont end up how you want them to! You got this man stay strong focus on your grind and remember that everything will be fine
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If you’re going to try, go all the way.
Otherwise, don’t even start.
If you're going to try, go all the way.
This could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives, jobs and maybe even your mind.
It could mean not eating for three or four days.
It could mean freezing on a park bench.
It could mean jail.
It could mean derision, mockery, isolation.
Isolation is the gift.
All the others are a test of your endurance, of how much you really want to do it.
And, you’ll do it, despite rejection and the worst odds.
And it will be better than anything else you can imagine.
- Charles Bukowski
You and David should make more workout videos those were my favorites and entertaining
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This guy is humble asf all those people who clown on Doug don’t even have their shit together lol
Why you always catching Ls 😭
This channel is straight comedy
It's ok bro life moves on
Respect Doug, I really felt this energy was from the heart! You didnt let anyone of us down but yourself by portraying someone you werent. I feel big things coming now!
So thats why she started an OF💀💀😂😂
Ive watched you since i was 14. I remember thinking about how cool your life was and I was a little envious. A couple knock downs and 5 relationships later. I realized that women are not the answer but the ignition that fires you to keep pursuing our purpose on this earth. Through every tribulation comes out stronger men. Doug, thanks for putting this out here. I thought about you and how i used to watch your vids when i was really into videogames. Now your 27. Time flies. You have accomplished alot bro. Respect this is a minor hiccup to the road of greatness. Keep your head up
Damn I really thought you guys were really the ones for each other...sorry to hear that Doug. Keep your head up, you'll find the one eventually
I remember 3 years ago coming out of high school censor inspired me to go out and get what I wanted. I had social anxiety didn’t know how to talk to people but he inspired me to approach people through what he stood for. For some reason I just remembered again how censor had a huge impact coming out of high school that lead to many new experiences for me. Hope you find your true self censor
I’m proud of you doug, that’s a really hard decision to make. sending love 🤟🏻
I honestly want to say to you Doug, human to human. That you got this ! From past few years of not watching you, I wonder just now, how is censor doing...is he ok? Checked your content and saw you guys broke up. whatever your dealing with, I hope for the best, give my blessings and wish you the best.
My girl made an Only Fans after our breakup too man. Don’t let it get to you they’re just looking for attention of other men. They wanna feel sexy again.
L
@@YeooJohn come back when you actually get a gf simp
@@Wolf-re3eq the one that you weren’t able to catch
Doug making a "WE BROKE UP" video like this is still 2016 lmao. Ngl kinda feel bad with how many L's he has taken over the years but at least he still has positive mindset
The reason I respect this man so much is because we’re so similar. I also grew up in highschool without a girlfriend despite being a somewhat attractive man like Doug. I also played a lot of video games like him as well and was pretty much all I knew. It sucks to see that the relationships haven’t worked out and he’s right. We shouldn’t be clowning him for it and making it seem like he’s doing it for call of duty. At the end of the day, some things just don’t work out and his relationships are an example of that.
Watching Doug break down felt really bad 😔. Yo Doug you didn't let us down man, actually you are a great role model who taught us not to give up inspite of the whole world hating on you. I'm sure you'll be back on top. Just STAY STRONG!! like always you got this 👍.
If she’s on onlyfans, she’s not the one. Keep your head up Kings. Dont let the crown fall off. There’s plenty of fish in the sea!
Sorry Doug, been following you for a long time and you seem like such an honest and genuine man. You just can’t seem to catch a break with these girls you date and I have a feeling that you treat them like queens and give them the world. In return, it seems like they just use you and leave you. I hope you heal your wounds quickly and may you come out stronger and wiser in the end. 👏🏼
this video came from the heart ❤️ Stay up Censor
I'm sorry to hear that Doug. I really know the pain of breakups. All I can say is things do get better. Take some time to look after yourself and be with your loved ones. Find things you love doing and concentrate on them for a while.
I'll also say I've been following you since you started, and I've never seen anything to say you're a bad person. Please ignore all the idiots online that want to bring you down. It has nothing to do with you. They have their own issues and their way of dealing with it is to try and drag others down. Rise above it bro. You're so much better than them in every way.
Take care man.