Are you ever gonna think about the stuff that you have done wrong as well? have you even ever thought about it before? do you know how badly you have fucked me up and how many times you have neglected me? I made a decision that is good for the both of us and you ARE happier and now you gonna call me a piece of shit even after everything that we had going on including us having LOVE for each other. I have finally matured in a way and I am still growing and learning. All I really wanna do is resolve things with you but you are gonna keep on putting all the blame on me even after I have apologized for my mistakes but I know you won't accept it because it is too late but you also need to understand people make mistakes and learn and can be a better person from their mistakes. I don't want any fucking beef with you and I don't want you back either I just want us to be at peace. Talk to me when you actually understand.
@@larathelara i already thought about it, and left it as it was. i don’t want to redeem it, nor alter our conclusion. you still fret on things that happened 2-3 years ago, i fucked up when i was 13-14, you fucked up when you were 16-17. after you left, my love for you quickly faded and i realized the type of person that you became, lacking empathy and sympathy for everyone around you, regressing into an angry racist and homophobe, full of hate and anguish. i didn’t want to be around you anymore, and took your rushed break-up as a blessing. i developed a disliking towards you. you may have not realized it, even in that self centered apology, (“i” = ♾️) you failed to mention the crucial harming parts of what you did. i almost fell prey to that apology as i was doing the dishes one day, then i realized who you are is a detriment to my being. you see that i’m happier, yet you come back still. you proclaim yourself as “matured”, yet you live in the past“everything we HAD going on” you’re still the same person who won’t accept what happened and who you are. if you matured then you would’ve left me in your past. grow without me and learn without me, i don’t want to resolve with you, i don’t want to reconcile. i want you to stay AWAY from me forever . everything you write to me after these 4 months is a reminder of your unfortunate involvement in my mental’s downbringing that has arisen. if you wanted me to accept your apology, you should’ve done it earlier instead of letting everything happen and try to excuse yourself by getting validation from all of my former friends. they saw through what you did too, they just didn’t want to deal with your antagonizing nature. don’t try talking down on me with that outdated condescending method at the end either. i understand people make mistakes, but you couldn’t even understand your own mistakes. speaks for itself
@@khafayah I am not the type of person you think I was when I was at a low mental state. The apology was never meant to be self centered and you should know already that when it comes to things I am not specific that is why the word "everything" was mentioned. Harming you is not something that was attentional and I greatly apology for the damage that I have cause to you and I do regret the stuff that I have done and I never meant to harm you in the first place and I know that I have and you did not deserve any of it at all. As said I am still learning so I haven't matured fully because there is still stuff for me to see in this world, I can't leave you in the past because I still have something for you in me and I just cannot accept loosing people like that and I am sorry, I hate that I keep on bothering you I really do and everyone is telling me to move on from you but you always come back on my mind even when I am sleeping and I am not even joking about that. I was letting everything happen and letting everything go because I was literally losing myself in everything that was happening and I didn't know what to do anymore and I know I should of tried to corporate with you but again I don't know what was going on in my mind, I was NOT in a good mental state and that's why things could never get better, you weren't in a good state either and it was because of me not being able to understand you properly. I AM FUCKING SORRY. I will let you be now.
Are you ever gonna think about the stuff that you have done wrong as well?
have you even ever thought about it before?
do you know how badly you have fucked me up and how many times you have neglected me?
I made a decision that is good for the both of us and you ARE happier and now you gonna call me a piece of shit even after everything that we had going on including us having LOVE for each other.
I have finally matured in a way and I am still growing and learning.
All I really wanna do is resolve things with you but you are gonna keep on putting all the blame on me even after I have apologized for my mistakes but I know you won't accept it because it is too late but you also need to understand people make mistakes and learn and can be a better person from their mistakes.
I don't want any fucking beef with you and I don't want you back either I just want us to be at peace.
Talk to me when you actually understand.
@@larathelara i already thought about it, and left it as it was. i don’t want to redeem it, nor alter our conclusion. you still fret on things that happened 2-3 years ago, i fucked up when i was 13-14, you fucked up when you were 16-17.
after you left, my love for you quickly faded and i realized the type of person that you became, lacking empathy and sympathy for everyone around you, regressing into an angry racist and homophobe, full of hate and anguish. i didn’t want to be around you anymore, and took your rushed break-up as a blessing. i developed a disliking towards you. you may have not realized it, even in that self centered apology, (“i” = ♾️) you failed to mention the crucial harming parts of what you did. i almost fell prey to that apology as i was doing the dishes one day, then i realized who you are is a detriment to my being. you see that i’m happier, yet you come back still. you proclaim yourself as “matured”, yet you live in the past“everything we HAD going on” you’re still the same person who won’t accept what happened and who you are. if you matured then you would’ve left me in your past. grow without me and learn without me, i don’t want to resolve with you, i don’t want to reconcile. i want you to stay AWAY from me forever . everything you write to me after these 4 months is a reminder of your unfortunate involvement in my mental’s downbringing that has arisen. if you wanted me to accept your apology, you should’ve done it earlier instead of letting everything happen and try to excuse yourself by getting validation from all of my former friends. they saw through what you did too, they just didn’t want to deal with your antagonizing nature. don’t try talking down on me with that outdated condescending method at the end either. i understand people make mistakes, but you couldn’t even understand your own mistakes. speaks for itself
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@@khafayah I am not the type of person you think I was when I was at a low mental state. The apology was never meant to be self centered and you should know already that when it comes to things I am not specific that is why the word "everything" was mentioned. Harming you is not something that was attentional and I greatly apology for the damage that I have cause to you and I do regret the stuff that I have done and I never meant to harm you in the first place and I know that I have and you did not deserve any of it at all. As said I am still learning so I haven't matured fully because there is still stuff for me to see in this world, I can't leave you in the past because I still have something for you in me and I just cannot accept loosing people like that and I am sorry, I hate that I keep on bothering you I really do and everyone is telling me to move on from you but you always come back on my mind even when I am sleeping and I am not even joking about that. I was letting everything happen and letting everything go because I was literally losing myself in everything that was happening and I didn't know what to do anymore and I know I should of tried to corporate with you but again I don't know what was going on in my mind, I was NOT in a good mental state and that's why things could never get better, you weren't in a good state either and it was because of me not being able to understand you properly.
I AM FUCKING SORRY.
I will let you be now.