Real Stories it doesn’t work I had tried to talk to someone trough the web site and they told me that I was in line waiting that I was the 23 on the line it took at least 25 minutes and I was still waiting and I finally gave up . I’m just saying this as a example .... if someone needs help why do people have to wait for so long? The crisis hotline it when thing get very bad, not to just talk to someone. My point is,, people should not wait for so long if they really want to stop this evil from taking lives.
You need to do an video on this 18 year old girl named paige hunter who has saved 15 lifes so far by posting notes of hope onto a bridge that she was infact going to take her own life, i would love for people to see how insperational this girl is ❤
This Documentary should go Viral, because this Dude has Meaningful words that can potentially Help people through the struggles. This Documentary truly means a lot to me, and I watch these kind of Documentaries when I am Seriously sad. These Days, It's bloody Difficult to keep Emotions at Bay, because eventually as time goes on In our lives, our Medical Bodies Become drained, as well as our Minds do. I Believe the Main cause of Suicidal Depression, Is Bad Insomnia and Poverty, and worrying about where and when you are going to get your next bite to eat!!!! Insomnia and Poverty are the worst, because I suffer with It majority of the time.
It’s a really scary place to be and I’m always scared of when I’m going to get pulled back down into it because it’ll happen again. I now have ways to cope (like the guy he met) and you are right....if they’ve never been there they don’t understand
Depression is an illness. Just like any other illness. It needs to be treated. 100% agree with you that if you haven’t suffered from this cruel illness you’ll never know why or how someone could take their own life. Just like other illnesses unfortunately some loose their battle with major depression.
DutchGreen Gaming You make it sound so simple. It's not. I became chronically ill 12 years ago and after suffering from crippling depression all my life. I became suicidal and tried to take my life twice. My illness forced me to make gigantic changes in my life that I never would have if I hadn't gotten ill. The silver lining to my story is I am happier now than I have ever been in my life. The biggest change I made besides no longer being able to work was getting rid of my family because I could no longer handle their toxicity. It was making the symptoms of my illness much worse. Like I said. It's not that simple.
My husband walked in front of a train 3 years ago. 27 years of caring for him , 8 times of bad black depressions, i couldn’t save him this time. I’m haunted still. It’s a life sentence for the family too. He’s finally at peace. I think of him every day.
I would like to mention that train drivers suffer from being unable to stop. This type of suicide is very harmful to conductors so please don't copy others.
I feel for you love 😢 I’ve just recently lost my girlfriend. 8 weeks ago actually. I still don’t know how she passed. Her family wasn’t really fond of me due to issues with drugs in my past but I’ve been clean years and got my own roofing business. I gave her son a job after he’d been sacked from multiple others. I used to pay her other son to post leaflets for me. But due to my past I was ostracised!, wasn’t allowed to funeral and left in dark as to what happened. I’ve come to accept that their not worth it!, anyone who had anything about them would have put how they feel aside for sake of daughter cos I know 💯 she would have wanted me their! She was my world!💔 I can only imagine the hurt n pain your suffering
@@Eyewonder3210 I agree with you thankfully in my case the driver was interviewed and unscathed. But it must be horrific for them. Unfortunately when a suicidal person is in mania they lose all sense of reason, they aren’t thinking of anyone or anything. It’s so so sad how the brain can be so damaged this could ever happen.
Depression is a lot like being haunted by a ghost. Only you can see and feel the the immense pain it is causing and if you tell someone about it they will tell you it doesn’t exist. And for some not existing is the only way to be rid of it for good after fighting a losing battle alone. No one wakes up one day and decides to die, that decision only comes from years of suffering of every minute of every day and if you say someone who suicides is selfish or cowardly then you have not known what it is to have Depression come knocking.
Been dealing with depression as long as I can remember. Today I phoned a counselling center for help and the lady on the phone asked me if I was okay. I laughed and asked her what okay was. Last week I got everything set up to kill myself and slept instead. I just went to work the next day and trying to move forward as usual. I always try to make people understand how fatal depression can be and your explanation is more perfect than any explanation I have tried conjure up.
Eric Worthing you are speaking the total truth I have been there and depression is black and dark I have lived with depression for a long time and sometimes I feel no one knows what it’s like unless you have been there 💕🌈x
Jalle Ko dont be. we all gonna die anyway. so this thought should bring comfort to you.sooner or later.no mattet who you are. all of us. so whats the rush?
I lost 6 good friend in a ten year spanned and 4 ex boyfriend which one of the anniversary is next week death same like life and my father dead and he didn't tell his kids 😭 so I get it attempt suicide on February 13 2019
The most powerful thing I ever heard about someone who took their own life was "He didn't want to end his life, he wanted to end his pain." I think that gave me a lot of insight into something I really don't understand.
Do you really think there is any other way in our sick twisted 21st century left for someone feeling low to end his/her pain. The pain comes from the very physical existence and so the logical choice is to end it.
@@soummyadityabaral1640 Even Shakespeare had it "Whether it is nobler in the mind to accept the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, or to take arms against a sea of troubles, and, by opposing, end them" (Hamlet's soliloquy)
I hate when people say "suicide is the easy way out" and 'people that do it are cowards' cuz thats the furthest thing from the truth, its an uneducated thing too say!!!! So my thoughts & prayers are with the people struggling with depression and sadness!!!! YOU ARE NEVER ALONE……….
Suicide is not for cowards. Suicide is for losers. Anyone who takes their own life LOSES at game of life regardless of whether or not they are cowards. Jihadists do brave in the name of their religion but they are LOSERS in the game of survival.
In the case of the person I know - he was a coward and did want the easy way out. And he took it. To avoid prison. Leaving the rest of us to deal with what he has done. I have guilt, for driving him to it - but no sympathy whatsoever.
My husband committed suicide when he was 21 yrs old , we had a 1 yr old son and I was 19 , he never talked about how he was feeling so it was a shock when I found out he had taken his own life, my son is now 33 and married with 2 beautiful children
I'm sorry to hear that, I can't imagine what you went through. But you should be immensely proud of yourself for bringing up your son without his father all his life. I wish you and your family happiness!
I can be hard for us mento talk about our feelings as i know what it it like as i have attempted suicide at least 15 time and each time i have failed to take my own life it brings a tear to my eye telling you all on here this but it is true that if you survive you need to strive in life and make things better for everyone around you evan in you do feel all e at times
After two large single malts I hope I'm not going to regret sharing this tomorrow morning. I lost my brother to suicide in 2016. He too was a talented musician so when we didn't hear from him for several weeks we weren't too concerned; he often disappeared incommunicado on foreign tours for months at a time. The result was that he was only discovered in his flat three months after he'd taken his own life. It was truly heartbreaking. He and I had become estranged after a terrible argument and I was convinced that he hated my guts. On clearing his flat I discovered a box in which he'd kept every birthday card, Christmas card and letter I'd ever sent him since we were little kids. By then I was 55 and he was 49 - how wrong could I have been about his feelings ? He must have really loved me and I must really have hurt him without realising it. I wish I'd had the modesty and kindness of heart to have sought him out and tried harder to build bridges and discover the root of his pain before it was too late. I don't exactly feel guilty, but I do feel terrible regret that I allowed communications to collapse so completely between us. The two key elements which struck me in this video are that: 1) non-communication between loved-ones only ever ends badly and 2) knowing that you were in the right over some trivial disagreement is meagre consolation after the other person has taken their own life. However repeatedly a loved-one drives you away and however unkindly they treat you, always leave the door to return ajar; you may live to regret that you didn't. I certainly did.
The insidious thing about depression is how it completely distorts your perception, robbing you of the ability to feel joy, and robbing you of your self-worth. You are literally unable to see your own value. If others say something good about you, you don’t believe them. You end up feeling like a burden. So between that and the pain of feeling like a failure, suicide sometimes feels like a sensible option.
Antonio Tejada . Spot on. It's like someone has put a spell on you. Like someone took the ability to be happy out of your sole. You look at others and ask yourself how come I can't be like that. I'm soon turning 49 and I don't want to get old. I want to die but I won't take my own life. I had a bad car crash not long ago, it was not my doing but I knew we was going to hit each other and I didn't even put my foot on the brakes going at 110 ks I didn't care.....
BmoreBirds22 hi sweetie...been thinking about you...how are things on your end? You wasn't doing so well a month ago. If you still need someone to talk to who totally understands about depression I am free for you....hopefully your doing 👌. Sorry it took me so long to reply 💕
Bad way to think, very bad, they should have been helped, or been able to talk about things, they could have had a better happier more fulfilling life. To say we should be happy they are out of their suffering and we should accept that, is so very wrong.
I would not call it selfish. I would simply call it perpetuating the suffering. If you keep someone who’s hurting alive, they hurt but if they die, you hurt. Think of it as a balance deal.
Someone needs to intervene in your family so it doesn't continue. A family discussion about suicide and how to stop from continuing is an example. There are ramifications for taking your life prematurely. Your diseased relatives are regretting it.
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” ruclips.net/video/EXQGTInPpZU/видео.html
@@unicornprincess8896 "Yellow butterflies dancing in green fields a young boy jumping shouts of joy and exultation. A wooden playhouse a man, a mustache, and glasses words that threaten death if the secret is not kept. fear and terror become compliance the crushing weight the wooden floor pressing hard against the boy's ribs the silent cries of pain, anguish submission walking home defeated and bleeding wounded from battle lost no rescue no escape only a secret where was the rescuer? where was the father? where was God? Weeping she said Weeping for the little boy for the man for the evil Later wrapped in white towels sleeping atop the cold mountain beneath the large stone cross I love you she whispers I love you my son You are cradled in my arms comforted by mothers touch you are not alone she says I am with you I will never leave you I was there God was there Do not hate but forgive For it is in Mercy that you will find life and peace the anger will destroy you but forgiveness will set you free to live and laugh and love again." I am sorry. You've lived a very difficult life.
people will never ever understand what people with depression go trough, I think of suicide every single day feels like im on the very edge of a cliff all I need is that one excuse or that one time to really do it.
I promised my son I wouldn't take my own life. I regret that promise. It's like I promised to keep on holding him back from his potential. Not only that, but I drag everyone I know down. I'm useless and stupid. A total failure and waste of oxygen.
Donna jo catlady. Are you telling yourself you all those terrible things, or are there other people telling you these things? Your son must've asked you to promise that because he loves you - and a lot about you - and wants you to be with him. What is the best thing about you? No matter how obscure you think it might be. The last question applies to the other people who have commented here, if you see this comment.
As someone who is married to someone with treatment resistant depression, two brothers who have died of suicide and I have ptsd myself (and I've lost count how many friends now, sadly). It's like dying from cancer in a way. Our natural instinct to survive at all costs is totally out of our control, fight or flight, gets overridden by brain malfunctioning. It's a medical emergency that needs immediate attention. If the person fighting whichever mental health disorder dies from it, it's not because the healthy them wanted or decided to. It's because they lost the fight with a fatal illness. It's hard to understand, and deaths from suicide will always leave those left behind feeling guilt, at fault, blame, and a whole heap of emotions by not understanding, or feeling like they weren't 'good enough to live for.' Please, let me tell anyone reading this who has lost someone. I promise it wasn't you. And anyone reading this who feels at risk, please seek immediate medical help. We want you here.
Sorry Lana. Everything happens for a reason and i feel your pain. My sister took her life too yesterday. I feel what your going through as are so many others. Keep plugging along and treat people kindly even if your tired and cranky and don't wanna forgive them for something they did to you. That's the lesson I learnt I didn't forgive my sister
Im sorry for your loss Lana. My Girl friend was pregnant and she took her life on July 29th 2019. I'm broken n lost. I dont know what the point is anymore. I really miss her. But I guess I seen ur comment n the date n I thought I would just share and let u kno I know how ur feeling n ur not alone. Ur comment made me feel not so alone. I think ur brother is proud of you. Thank you for sharing and i hope ur having a beautiful day.
People need to understand that it is not a selfish act. In a depressed person's mind it is freeing everyone from worry and them feeling like they are a burden to those close to them. It is a lonely place and people feel like they truly are a burden to others
My brother, Ivan, took his life away on July 1, 2016. Time has stood still to me since then, no matter how much time moves forward, it’s still fresh. I miss him every moment of my life.
My beloved sis this world is test and trails it has begining (u born) and end u die and we will be rewarded according to our actions its designed to test us every imaginable way by our creator to see who will worship him regardless with the trail he is inflicted with my beloved sis i invite u to the worship of the creator of heavens and the earths the god of Ibrahim musa Jesus and Muhammed peace of Allah be upon them all sister i invite u to Islam and you will have peace in your life in this world and Jonah(heaven) in the hereafter god willing(inshalah)
Feeling suicidal is like the worst pain that you cant take in your heart. You can feel pain from your emotions. Sometimes not wanting to face something or someone, or just not likeing this place and how it operates. Sometimes you can just want it to end and you feel ready. But lots of pain.
Well said I feel this pain everyday 😔 I hope anyone else suffering seeks help I know you might be thinking why seek help they won't care but point is you need to talk to someone I will try too
It is VERY unusual to take ones own life. Why has it been on the rise for the last 50 years? I believe these people have suffered a brain injury that affects the chemical balance in the brain. Bipolar, autism, ADHD, asbergers, depression etc. ... are the result of this. This neurological injury is a side affect of the mercury and aluminium adjuvants in vaccines. There is a brilliant RUclips channel titled, *'The Truth About Vaccines'* where you get to see the first of a 7 episode documentary series for free (2 hours of ESSENTIAL knowledge). In this 2 hour episode, many general practitioners, pediatricians, researchers and scientists are interviewed.
My sister died in 1993 from suicide when she was 39. It devastated all of us. She was my best friend. My poor mother... her daughter was 18yrs old when it happened. You have to be very bad off to take your ..own life. She was depressed... We took her in and she was hospitalized for 2 weeks. She was with us 4 more years. I'm pretty sure if she would if tried different medications and stuck with it... she'd still be here. But we don't know what they are going through. I surely miss her. 🥺
So sorry for your lost 💔🥺 back in 2021 I was very depressed thanks to my mom's nieces they care about her more than me all the time 😖😭 and I ended up so depressed and almost ended my own. Life so I decided to block them all on Facebook and I am starting to heal now
As a funeral director of forty years I have been involved in over one thousand suicide funerals, e wether it being involved in arranging funerals, conducting funerals, chapel viewing, pall bearing or chauffeuring etc it is always the same old story that mourners and families always says ‘we never saw it coming’ every day in the U.K. alone 16 people sadly take their own lives every day. This is an epidemic that needs urgent attention.
I have so much admiration for this guy, came from a council estate and made something of himself despite a difficult childhood. A very sensitive presentation of a difficult subject.
Suicide is not the problem. We need to focus on the issues that are driving people to commit suicide. Those who take their own lives deserve our respect for them and their decision
ChannelMath Exactly That is Why it will most probably continue to increase because we live or merely survive in a growing sick sick sick world with lack of Compassion , True Empathy & people willing to Love selflessly and Help Others 😥😔
You’re absolutely right. Society needs to be accepting of ANYONE who needs to cry. We need to stop telling our children not to cry; it could save lives
It's the only true cure to what is usually a prolonged personal and often hidden suffering. The problem will not get any better with just a phone number. We need massive physical and mental health reform!
I agree with your last sentence Jon. There is always hope for cure and cause, to at least make life easier to cope not only with the devastating illness but also with the stigma still attached.
I have no idea who this guy even is, but I wish more men were like him and allow themselves to cry for the fathers who walked out on them and the way that made them feel. ♥️ We need to stop expecting people to bottle up and hide their emotions and "get over things". The world would be a better place if we allowed ourselves to grieve.
Majority of people who end their own lifes or try to, don't really want to die they want their pain/hurt/problems to end not their lives, speaking from experience myself
This made me feel less alone. My mum committed suicide two years ago. I was 25 and felt like none of my peers could relate. This shows, sadly, how common it is. Its really helpful amd healing to hear people speaking so openly about it
His poor Aunt losing three siblings, two to suicide and one to cancer. I can only imagine how hard it is to know he fought with his father and that was it. He was gone. 💔
I’ve been suicidal since I was 7 years old. Over the years I’ve attempted suicide, lately it’s gotten decent, like I know how it feels to be in the planning and process that goes into ending it. It’s torture to lose someone to suicide, if you’re out there and struggling you’re not alone. I know it’s cheesey, but please people care, people will notice, people will be even more alone then before..I send love and prayers to everyone that read this and who needs help.🦋
Life gets better with time, and becomes less confusing , honestly. Love and peace are found and the appreciation of being able to experience the beauty of life will find you. seek help, people do care, care about yourself, you are important and do make a difference on this earth. Peace and love to you
ciaran perry Not true. It takes courage to live, not to end it. Living is brave. It takes guts to face your suffering and pain. It takes guts to face adversity To Live is an Act of Courage “I saw not my own courage in dying, but his courage broken by the loss of me. So I said to myself, ‘You must live’. Sometimes even to live is an act of courage” Seneca (4BC-65AD)
Social Rejectz How so? Enduring the adversity is what makes you courageous. Youre looking at everything backwards. All suicide is is someone who is set on doing a certain action and then doing it. Thats all they need. Its not courage that gets them to do it, its almost a defiant stubbornness. ‘Im going to do this and nothing is going to stop me’. Nothing else matters or comes into it. To truly appreciate why living takes courage you have to consider two scenarios: One scenario is where somebody doesnt talk to anyone and they go ahead with suicide (no coming back) Vs Another scenario where that same person is thinking of doing it and perhaps even gets close to doing it but stops and goes and talks to somebody and tells them they are feeling suicidal. Without a doubt the second scenario is the braver choice. It is the choice for the strong
This program made me go and see someone about the depression I was feeling thank you professor green it wasn't a waste of time you helped at least one person
I lost my brother in law to suicide in March 2020 he was only 29! He was such a wonderful human being. Miss him everyday and still don't believe he is gone
My friend put a plastic bag on his head and tighened a zip tie in his office bathroom. I heard later they found related searches on his phone going as far back as 6 months. Everyone thought of him as the life of the party, the dude who'd do anything for a friend, who could always cheer you up. We were about 2 years out of uni, life gets busy and you stop seeing each other as often. He called me about a month before he did it to meet up, and life just got in the way, I didn't go see him. I know now he wanted to say goodbye. I envied him, he was older. He had the cool flat, all the latest stuff, the hot girlfriend. You can never tell how someone is doing from the outside. I was a mess and he straighened me out when even my family couldn't. Forever in his debt.
I found my way out of depression, many suicide attempts since 10 years old. My father left us, I watched my mother try to kill herself. My steo father beat and sexually abused us. My dear mother was afraid to be helpless raising 5 children. She stayed believing she was helping by putting a roof over our heada and feeding us. I was lucky enough to have a complete stranger give me hope
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” ruclips.net/video/EXQGTInPpZU/видео.html Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
My mother died by self-inflicted gunshot wound at the age of 29. She had mental health problems, and she also had substance abuse issues. I believe that the combination of those two things clouded her judgment. I was 5 years old when she died. It's been 51 years since her death, and it has affected me in many different ways. I have managed my grief, dealing with it with the help of a good therapist, but I struggle with being the adult that I am supposed to be. I feel like I am still a child, and maybe it's because of being so young when I lost her.
The amount of times I've stopped myself from ending it because I thought I would be selfish for leaving my kids alone. Thankfully I feel less like ending it the older I get. I'll just wait for my expiry date to come when it comes. My best before date has long gone lol. I can at least laugh about these things now.
Take my hat off to professor green as an artist and as a bloke to openly show his raw emotions, mad respect. I love how close he is to nanny pat aka nana green.
My best friend OD’d when I was 20 and he was 2 weeks past his 21st birthday, I know he struggled with depression and anxiety as do I. I don’t believe it was intentional but the amounts of substances he used makes me wonder. I was with him when this happened, and this is an issue in America as well. People want to help when you’re younger but after a certain age you’re just expected to deal with it.
I saw this guy in another documentary about the homeless and he only introduced himself as Professor Green, so the whole time I was thinking 'I wonder what this guy with the big scar on his face and tattoos on his neck teaches'....
The way they hide the depression really gets to me. I've been diagnosed bipolar wit major depression. So when I'm dwn i am dwn. No partying,smiling,work even showers come few and far between, there's no hiding how I'm feeling..
This is so true and I feel like its such a stupid approach, like if someone has a plan and are suicidal/wanting to end their life they are not going to call a helpline because they know that they’ll try and stop them! Also if uve ever tried ringing the helplines its so formal and they ask you whats going on/if u want to speak to a counsellor and when ur in that state you cant answer that its too general and so hard to put into words!!!
I agree. The stigma alone is challenging. To me having someone say to me....heres a hotline to call, mine as well speed up.the process. I knew people , friends of mine who did commit suicide. I tried 4 half assed times.. I'm still here right?! I get it.
I was 14 when I took 20 sleeping pills in a desperate bid to end my life. Since then I've had multiple thoughts of suicide. I don't know what I have if anything. I feel empty a lot of the time. Happy rarely. But it was whatever. Felt like no one cared anyway. I'm now turning 16 in 5 days. I won't lie, I'm still struggling now, but I'll be good.
Suicide is not the solution. How often do you have a nightmare, but so happy when you wake up? The other side isn't so pretty as you think. Our complex body, solar system didn't come by chance. We were created for a reason to worship God. May I invite you to Islam?
Six years ago today I got the call that my husband died in a logging accident on the Job. He was 35 and our daughter was three. I'm not doing well today, this made me want to stay😔
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” ruclips.net/video/EXQGTInPpZU/видео.html "I am the way the truth and the life"
It IS okay to feel suicidal. We have to be able to say that to others. It can prevent it from actually happening. Love the Portishead in this. That’s EXACTLY what I listen to when I’m depressed.
I met him once, when he was just up and coming. Didn't have a clue who he was (at the time), he was so down to earth and humbling. I asked who he was and he goes, "just call me Steve" 😝😂❤️
I too experience suicidal thoughts and depression from time to time.. but thoughts pass..dont believe them.. if it gets too much i go to sleep.. usually feel better in the morning. However you also need company and friends.. who won't judge you...also. In my worst despair I prayed for help and Always got it
I’m a suicide attempt survivor I tried to kill my self at the age of 17 due to the fact that I was suffering from depression without even knowing it and plus the stress school was causing me. The worst part about this is that I had all my mum support yet like I said “I felt like a lost girl in a big city” sometimes I still think what would have happened if I decided to end my life that rainy afternoon.
When i attempted suicide at 15 i explain the feeling as drowning in despair. Black thoughts were crashing down on me like waves, telling me I was worthless, no one loved me. I started to believe I would never feel happiness and it just wasn't in the cards for me. Everyone I would reach out to wasn't noticing or brushed me off and I started to feel like I was the biggest burden in the world. A final straw was my dad offering me money to disappear from their lives forever. I swallowed about 30 pills and drank half a bottle of whiskey. I passed out and vomited while unconscious, but one of my friends found me and got me to hospital. My mum didn't even visit me while there. We are close now and moved on but I have never gotten over the abandonment of that time and we never talk about it. I have 3 kids now I will always live for, that alone will keep me alive on this earth.
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” ruclips.net/video/EXQGTInPpZU/видео.html
Sufferd from depression for years comes and goes its hard to explain what it feels like it's like the world has moved on and left u behind and u feel tired and just want to be on ur own and cry
Such pain. Inheriting the devastating actions of our parents is emotionally haunting. It is so important to talk and be understood. Well done for your bravery.
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I lost my brother to suicide the same month of my birthday, only time eases the pain . It never goes away. You just learn to cope more easily with how you feel about it. But for some reason you never stop blaming yourself.
I lost my Mum in 2015, to old age and natural causes. So I can understand that time doesnt really heal anythig. But, there is always a But, if you fill your life with positive things which suit your way of life, there is always a way forward. Don't sit on a fence as it is twiddling your shoe laces, get off it and go and do something positive, even if it is having a Big Mac.
I suffered from depression and anxiety all my life , some times are better then others . Tonight was laying here in bad way had the feelings the professor described Been going through worst time in my life at my very lowest. I have two sons and one daughter but watching the affect it’s had on professor green not sure of real name through his life the feelings he is going through and affect of losing his dad. It’s changed my thought tonight and made me see things differently. 80% was a shock it shows your not alone and more common there we all realise. Important video and message
@@TheFracturedfuture REALLY!?!? This is your response to such un uplifting message? Not very productive, as far as consoling someone who has experienced such tremendous grief and trauma!?!
His Dad looks like a gentle soul, an empath, add that to intelligence and pain and depression and ... - thank you for your honesty, suicidal depression is so so painful to live with and docs like this mean alot - thank you
His dad was actually a selfish individual just like his mother who left. If he had any empathy he would have been there for his son not moving in with countless girlfriends in favour of his own child. Maybe the guilt got to him in the end who knows.
@@danielwhooley3723 maybe someday you’ll learn the pain is so debilitating it becomes unbearable. Selfishness is not it! If you’ve never felt that kind of pain - be grateful and don’t judge.
I can totally relate to this as my father committed suicide when I was just 1 years old and I've been battling deep depression my entire life but I do have great days being happy!
Listening to your story is powerful it's encouraging to see someone talk about male suicide, you lost your father I lost my 15 year old son 5 years ago to suicide
i have seen deprivation all my life living in inner city Birmingham and have worked with incarcerated youths who had no hope of a better future and prison was somewhere for them to have a bed and food. Our prisons are warehouses human zoos housing poorly educated kids from deprived backgrounds and were houses of pain for too many of our youths
Word!! Also an easy option to house those with mental health issues and learning difficulties! We need a massive reform of the prison system in this country! ☹️
When i was 18 years old i want to end my life but i realized i have given 3 lives so i stopped thinking about it. it wasnt easy i was depressed that time. now im 26. Not all of us are strong enough to overcome it especially in emotional aspect.
This documentary helped me to understand why my brother committed suicide so many years ago. Thank you for your bravery talking about your innermost feelings
We should be able to go out when we whant suffering with anxiety and depression for years it a cruel life in the head of us who suffer day in day out and its not fair to be pushed to carry on with what we struggle to do is coupe with ower own heads, cruel. Should be happy he got peace in his life he must of struggled for a long time rest in peace
I went through a 2-3 years of dark depression a few years back. I was obsessed with planning my death and it became kinda euphoric when I stopped thinking about how it would effect the people that cared about me. It was the worst few years of my life and although I still have those feelings, probably more than most people, I remember watching this documentary and it snapped me out of that determination. I’m still working on how I handle things and sometimes it gets too much knowing I have chronic depression but I’m thankful that I watched this around that time.
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” ruclips.net/video/EXQGTInPpZU/видео.html
The annoying thing I find, is people think if something "helped" them with "depression" that it works the same for everybody. It's really frustrating and annoying, and leads me to question a lot about their "solutions" and whether or not they truly "understand".
My god this is absolutely beautiful and poignant. THANK YOU. I feel truly blessed that I’ve never been suicidal, but I’m a single mom raising an amazing young man and desperately want to be there in ways that maybe a dad might be, but unfortunately isn’t. So far (at 21) we’ve never endured deep emotional problems, but he isn’t the most forthcoming in that area. This is giving me an excellent topic of conversation to bring up!
This opened up so much in me as my mother who didn’t raise me and was in and out of my life killed herself and was fighting many mental battles and now as an adult and mother there are Times I have breakdowns and have so many questions I wish I would of asked her. I to suffer with mental illness but I fight everyday because I know my child needs me because I needed and still need my mother this was a beautiful documentary thank you
I feel about on the same boat as your mother, rest her soul. I have 2 children and i havent been able to be there for my children as a mother because of my depression taking such a toll on me. And me knowing that im failing them constantly makes the fight that much harder, knowing they deserve better and i cant give that to them..
I can relate. I don’t remember my mother as well. She was missing for years. They found her remains on a grassy landfield in Huntington Township. It was the worst day of my life when I finally was told that it was her. That was in 2016. I’m still suffering the loss and all the unanswered questions. Wondering why I had to go through this. My father married a woman that I hated because we didn’t get along and I was the red headed step child. As a child, I would cry myself to sleep. I’m trying everyday to simply stay alive. And I don’t want no sympathy. Just a solution to get my mind out of this train wreck.
I am sorry for your loss, Chickadee Dee. My brother might as well be dead, as his evil wife won't let him be in my life & he won't stand up for himself. My brother is all I have left & I sometimes feel suicidal because I can't talk to him.
My brother took his life at age 46. One and half years later I became suicidal with sever pain in my head like a sword stuck in my brain. I started talking by myself. My fingers started to curl like am disabled. I started shaking easily. My head wobbled uncontrollably. I felt like I was possessed by demon. Figuring out little things became extremely hard. Changing close taking shower was challenging. My attention disorder was of the roof. I distant myself from a lot of people. I started saying less. I was searching actively how to end my life successfully. But some part of me wanted to beat it. So i started say no to anything and everything that triggered my illness. I prayed every night, I started walking a lot. Changed my diet. Cut alchohol and weed consumption by 99% started doing things that I enjoyed only. Got lucky with a good friend that kept me company. Now 9 years later am still here with less symptoms. I still have issues but comparing it to 9yrs ago its day and night. God is Great!
Depression when it's bad robs one from experiencing a normal life. Unless you've walked in those shoes you can't really understand it. I know what it's like because I have it. I'm tired, please pray for me.
4 attempts on ending my own life, couldn’t even succeed at that. I’m hoping no more desperate attempts to end the pain inside, but it’s not easy when you are so alone.
I can't think of a better thing to fail at. You're here now and that's great. Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of your life. Keep going forward. Good luck.
thank you so much for this film. i operate the national suicide hotline in the US and far too often I hear "I'll just be dead and those who care will just get over it." ..."...get over it"... people don't "just get over it." it's a death unlike any other. you said it best when you said you first felt ANGER.. and the sadness.. and then confusion.... and that never quite goes away does it. you can understand a car crash death you can come to terms with it etc. a suicide? never.
Have you had a word with his new wife and step family? Perhaps something to be found there too. A top documentary, fella! Be as strong as you have been! And remember, it's good to talk!
From the documentary it sounds like the new girlfriend was a catalyst in his alienation from his son. I'm not insinuating she was the cause because ultimately it was the dad's responsibility to prioritize his son. He should have told the girlfriend to KICK ROCKS after she gave him an ultimatum!
Are they really ? What about Prince Harry who lives in California in a magnificient castle. Does he really care ? He only causes despair and chaos in the Royal family. I think he is a misfit, just like Meghan Marke. I have far more respect for Prince William who has his head on his shoulders and seems genuine. The same for Kate Middleton. It is about time that something was done to prevent the highy suicidal rate in Britain.
@@marieboutin9054 RELAX, as for the MENTAL HEALTH of the British Royal Family, this Sunday I'm having a Bake Sale in West Chester Pennsylvania 😀 to help them all COPE.
This was a great video. My dad committed suicide but he was in his 70’s & dying of cancer. It’s a hard pill to swallow & very damaging to survivors. Plus my dad’s mother also killed herself. He needs to be careful as it makes us high risk
I really appreciate this. Men need to know it's OK to have feelings. We have mental illness in our family. Death of my brother's mom and dad in law, affected him really bad. He is very quiet person. He struggled to work, but luckily found the right medication and I pray that he will be OK.
I was 11...almost...my dear sweet 18 yr old brother took his life with a shotgun right in front of me.. Didnt know where my parents were. I cried. hid, prayed, covered him with a sheet and watched him die and people wondered wtf was wrong with me in earlier days.....Im 54 now and I still cry, visit his grave, speak his name in vain, in love and in forgiveness. Is there really any forgiveness to be had other than the forgiveness of the ignorant who speak blasphemy of what they can never grasp. I don't know why but so much has played out over time. many have learned about suffering and thwarted death in dark times ourselves. Suicide is contagious. It really is. It almost speaks of permission to go ahead and follow thru but ya know...thats the darkness speaking if you are lucky.enough to climb out. That bullet almost went right through our father's heart. He pretty much drank himself to death from that day on.. Nanny Pat is right....He must have been suffering. I hope he found his peace .
I really feel for you. My father took his own life 3 weeks ago, and its something I’d never wish on anybody. Hope you found some peace as well, all the best to you!
When the background music is so loud that the people's voices are inaudible is really annoying. Why bother with that? We want to hear what people are expressing.
@@cleanyourroom1237 Yo. Why would you say something so evil as this? This is a very serious topic. How does this make someone a loser. Once again. Its people like you who are the real losers. Smh.
Every day suicide crosses my mind .i have journals filled with suicide notes that either my plan didn’t work or I just couldn’t do it at the time. I’ve came close to death many times and have had many spiritual experiences along with that but all that did was set me into a deeper depression cause I felt abandoned by high powers . I have been fighting this for thirty five yrs . My life is a struggle always and it’s me I do it to myself I wish I would listen to myself at the sametime tho and just shake the depression for good but it’s so hard to even get up to take a shower sometimes it’s a mission I feel so heavy and I have zero motivation .im on another antidepressant and mood stabilizer ..I’ve had some success with them but I always end up having adverse side effects so have to switch every few yrs . I have accepted depression will always be a part of my life and trying to work around that is almost impossible .i never knew what “one day at a time “ meant until recently and Everyday is so hard but I finish it even if I don’t get out of bed .
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES! “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest” ruclips.net/video/EXQGTInPpZU/видео.html
Watching the hurt and pain of friends and family, their struggle to understand why, will remind me to stop and think when I’m having thoughts. I’m so sorry for everyone who has a close relationship with suicide and suicidal thoughts. Even when you feel like you have no hope or reason, you’re not alone. No matter how desperate I feel, I have to remember there are reasons for my life, people who care and deep down a will to keep going.
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A list of international suicide hotlines is available here: ibpf.org/resource/list-international-suicide-hotlines
Real Stories it doesn’t work I had tried to talk to someone trough the web site and they told me that I was in line waiting that I was the 23 on the line it took at least 25 minutes and I was still waiting and I finally gave up . I’m just saying this as a example .... if someone needs help why do people have to wait for so long? The crisis hotline it when thing get very bad, not to just talk to someone.
My point is,, people should not wait for so long if they really want to stop this evil from taking lives.
You need to do an video on this 18 year old girl named paige hunter who has saved 15 lifes so far by posting notes of hope onto a bridge that she was infact going to take her own life, i would love for people to see how insperational this girl is ❤
A hotline for eternal, unredeemable losers.
A hotline for incompetent social rejects.
This Documentary should go Viral, because this Dude has Meaningful words that can potentially Help people through the struggles.
This Documentary truly means a lot to me, and I watch these kind of Documentaries when I am Seriously sad.
These Days, It's bloody Difficult to keep Emotions at Bay, because eventually as time goes on In our lives, our Medical Bodies Become drained, as well as our Minds do.
I Believe the Main cause of Suicidal Depression, Is Bad Insomnia and Poverty, and worrying about where and when you are going to get your next bite to eat!!!!
Insomnia and Poverty are the worst, because I suffer with It majority of the time.
Unless you Actually suffer from Depression you will NEVER Understand why.
Even if you do, depression is different for every individual.
It’s a really scary place to be and I’m always scared of when I’m going to get pulled back down into it because it’ll happen again. I now have ways to cope (like the guy he met) and you are right....if they’ve never been there they don’t understand
Depression is an illness. Just like any other illness. It needs to be treated. 100% agree with you that if you haven’t suffered from this cruel illness you’ll never know why or how someone could take their own life. Just like other illnesses unfortunately some loose their battle with major depression.
DutchGreen Gaming
You make it sound so simple. It's not.
I became chronically ill 12 years ago and after suffering from crippling depression all my life. I became suicidal and tried to take my life twice. My illness forced me to make gigantic changes in my life that I never would have if I hadn't gotten ill.
The silver lining to my story is I am happier now than I have ever been in my life. The biggest change I made besides no longer being able to work was getting rid of my family because I could no longer handle their toxicity. It was making the symptoms of my illness much worse.
Like I said. It's not that simple.
DutchGreen Gaming I don’t think you actually grasp what real depression is and I hope you never do
My husband walked in front of a train 3 years ago. 27 years of caring for him , 8 times of bad black depressions, i couldn’t save him this time. I’m haunted still. It’s a life sentence for the family too. He’s finally at peace. I think of him every day.
Please accept my condolences! You are brave for continuing to put one foot in front of the other each day!
This is the only thing that stops me.
I would like to mention that train drivers suffer from being unable to stop. This type of suicide is very harmful to conductors so please don't copy others.
I feel for you love 😢 I’ve just recently lost my girlfriend. 8 weeks ago actually. I still don’t know how she passed. Her family wasn’t really fond of me due to issues with drugs in my past but I’ve been clean years and got my own roofing business. I gave her son a job after he’d been sacked from multiple others. I used to pay her other son to post leaflets for me. But due to my past I was ostracised!, wasn’t allowed to funeral and left in dark as to what happened. I’ve come to accept that their not worth it!, anyone who had anything about them would have put how they feel aside for sake of daughter cos I know 💯 she would have wanted me their! She was my world!💔 I can only imagine the hurt n pain your suffering
@@Eyewonder3210 I agree with you thankfully in my case the driver was interviewed and unscathed. But it must be horrific for them. Unfortunately when a suicidal person is in mania they lose all sense of reason, they aren’t thinking of anyone or anything. It’s so so sad how the brain can be so damaged this could ever happen.
Depression is a lot like being haunted by a ghost. Only you can see and feel the the immense pain it is causing and if you tell someone about it they will tell you it doesn’t exist. And for some not existing is the only way to be rid of it for good after fighting a losing battle alone. No one wakes up one day and decides to die, that decision only comes from years of suffering of every minute of every day and if you say someone who suicides is selfish or cowardly then you have not known what it is to have Depression come knocking.
Eric Worthing: Perfectly said - just perfect.
Been dealing with depression as long as I can remember. Today I phoned a counselling center for help and the lady on the phone asked me if I was okay. I laughed and asked her what okay was. Last week I got everything set up to kill myself and slept instead. I just went to work the next day and trying to move forward as usual. I always try to make people understand how fatal depression can be and your explanation is more perfect than any explanation I have tried conjure up.
Your right it is years of suffering you just wake up and think im away to kill myself
Well said my friend, well said!
Eric Worthing you are speaking the total truth I have been there and depression is black and dark I have lived with depression for a long time and sometimes I feel no one knows what it’s like unless you have been there 💕🌈x
Every time I see a documentary about someone who committed suicide I feel envy. A little weird maybe, but if you've been there you know why.
People say only cowards commit suicide but I think it takes tremendous courage to kill oneself
Only losers envy losers.
Jalle Ko dont be. we all gonna die anyway. so this thought should bring comfort to you.sooner or later.no mattet who you are. all of us. so whats the rush?
Austin Healey no.
I lost 6 good friend in a ten year spanned and 4 ex boyfriend which one of the anniversary is next week death same like life and my father dead and he didn't tell his kids 😭 so I get it attempt suicide on February 13 2019
The most powerful thing I ever heard about someone who took their own life was "He didn't want to end his life, he wanted to end his pain." I think that gave me a lot of insight into something I really don't understand.
Do you really think there is any other way in our sick twisted 21st century left for someone feeling low to end his/her pain. The pain comes from the very physical existence and so the logical choice is to end it.
@@soummyadityabaral1640 You are very much right...
That's so true. End the pain. Not the life. So accurate.
unless your there or been there you never will and I hope you never go there.
@@soummyadityabaral1640 Even Shakespeare had it "Whether it is nobler in the mind to accept the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, or to take arms against a sea of troubles, and, by opposing, end them" (Hamlet's soliloquy)
I don't get suicidal anymore. The very thought of my existence pissing other people off is enough to keep me going nowadays.
lol, can relate
Running on pure spite, I like it haha
hahahaha love that
BRILLIANT!!! HAHAH LOL
Haha great mindset
I hate when people say "suicide is the easy way out" and 'people that do it are cowards'
cuz thats the furthest thing from the truth, its an uneducated thing too say!!!!
So my thoughts & prayers are with the people struggling with depression and sadness!!!!
YOU ARE NEVER ALONE……….
Trust me the "you are not alone" crap doesn't save anyone...
I'm being depressed and the last thing I care is being all alone.
Exactly right
Suicide is not for cowards. Suicide is for losers. Anyone who takes their own life LOSES at game of life regardless of whether or not they are cowards. Jihadists do brave in the name of their religion but they are LOSERS in the game of survival.
In the case of the person I know - he was a coward and did want the easy way out. And he took it. To avoid prison. Leaving the rest of us to deal with what he has done. I have guilt, for driving him to it - but no sympathy whatsoever.
please stfu
Some people in the comments don't understand that having depression is different than having bouts of sadness.
My husband committed suicide when he was 21 yrs old , we had a 1 yr old son and I was 19 , he never talked about how he was feeling so it was a shock when I found out he had taken his own life, my son is now 33 and married with 2 beautiful children
Helen Wells wow that's really sad how are you now?
I'm sorry to hear that, I can't imagine what you went through. But you should be immensely proud of yourself for bringing up your son without his father all his life. I wish you and your family happiness!
I can be hard for us mento talk about our feelings as i know what it it like as i have attempted suicide at least 15 time and each time i have failed to take my own life it brings a tear to my eye telling you all on here this but it is true that if you survive you need to strive in life and make things better for everyone around you evan in you do feel all e at times
so sorry for you sweety ...lots of love
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After two large single malts I hope I'm not going to regret sharing this tomorrow morning. I lost my brother to suicide in 2016. He too was a talented musician so when we didn't hear from him for several weeks we weren't too concerned; he often disappeared incommunicado on foreign tours for months at a time. The result was that he was only discovered in his flat three months after he'd taken his own life. It was truly heartbreaking. He and I had become estranged after a terrible argument and I was convinced that he hated my guts. On clearing his flat I discovered a box in which he'd kept every birthday card, Christmas card and letter I'd ever sent him since we were little kids. By then I was 55 and he was 49 - how wrong could I have been about his feelings ? He must have really loved me and I must really have hurt him without realising it. I wish I'd had the modesty and kindness of heart to have sought him out and tried harder to build bridges and discover the root of his pain before it was too late. I don't exactly feel guilty, but I do feel terrible regret that I allowed communications to collapse so completely between us. The two key elements which struck me in this video are that: 1) non-communication between loved-ones only ever ends badly and 2) knowing that you were in the right over some trivial disagreement is meagre consolation after the other person has taken their own life. However repeatedly a loved-one drives you away and however unkindly they treat you, always leave the door to return ajar; you may live to regret that you didn't. I certainly did.
I understand.
The insidious thing about depression is how it completely distorts your perception, robbing you of the ability to feel joy, and robbing you of your self-worth. You are literally unable to see your own value. If others say something good about you, you don’t believe them. You end up feeling like a burden. So between that and the pain of feeling like a failure, suicide sometimes feels like a sensible option.
Exactly why i attempted a few weeks ago
Antonio Tejada . Spot on. It's like someone has put a spell on you. Like someone took the ability to be happy out of your sole. You look at others and ask yourself how come I can't be like that. I'm soon turning 49 and I don't want to get old. I want to die but I won't take my own life. I had a bad car crash not long ago, it was not my doing but I knew we was going to hit each other and I didn't even put my foot on the brakes going at 110 ks I didn't care.....
@@lyndeljames8647 can we talk , im suicidal too after being cheated on by the love of my life
BmoreBirds22 sorry sweet only just found your message. I know it was 6 days ago....hope you are ok..happy to talk 😉
BmoreBirds22 hi sweetie...been thinking about you...how are things on your end? You wasn't doing so well a month ago. If you still need someone to talk to who totally understands about depression I am free for you....hopefully your doing 👌. Sorry it took me so long to reply 💕
Its selfish for people to want someone that's suffering to continue to suffer.
Thank you.
Bad way to think, very bad, they should have been helped, or been able to talk about things, they could have had a better happier more fulfilling life. To say we should be happy they are out of their suffering and we should accept that, is so very wrong.
@@charlottebruce979 Sometimes there isn't more that can be done.
@Chime In Is it though? So you want people to suffer beyond imagination?
I would not call it selfish. I would simply call it perpetuating the suffering. If you keep someone who’s hurting alive, they hurt but if they die, you hurt. Think of it as a balance deal.
30 people have committed suicide in my family. When we hear about a new one, we aren't even shocked anymore, we just say "another one"?
Just sad!
You poor love 🧡🧡🧡
Someone needs to intervene in your family so it doesn't continue. A family discussion about suicide and how to stop from continuing is an example. There are ramifications for taking your life prematurely. Your diseased relatives are regretting it.
That's absolutely tragic and devastating 😥😥😥
Sounds like an insane family.
Sincere condolences 😔
I understand how people feel when they are suicidal. I have tried three times in the last year due to PTSD and anxiety. Thankfully I am still here.
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES!
“Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest”
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@@GhostMonkey772 I'm so sorry
I've been raped beaten and tortured my whole life and this last year was the worst
@@unicornprincess8896
"Yellow butterflies dancing in green fields a young boy jumping shouts of joy and exultation.
A wooden playhouse a man, a mustache, and glasses words that threaten death if the secret is not kept.
fear and terror become compliance the crushing weight the wooden floor pressing hard against the boy's ribs
the silent cries of pain, anguish submission
walking home defeated and bleeding wounded from battle lost
no rescue no escape only a secret
where was the rescuer?
where was the father?
where was God?
Weeping she said
Weeping
for the little boy
for the man
for the evil
Later wrapped in white towels sleeping
atop the cold mountain beneath the large stone cross
I love you she whispers
I love you my son
You are cradled in my arms comforted by mothers touch you are not alone she says
I am with you
I will never leave you
I was there
God was there
Do not hate
but forgive
For it is in Mercy that you will find life and peace
the anger will destroy you but forgiveness will set you free
to live
and laugh
and love
again."
I am sorry. You've lived a very difficult life.
@@unicornprincess8896 It is not your fault.
people will never ever understand what people with depression go trough, I think of suicide every single day feels like im on the very edge of a cliff all I need is that one excuse or that one time to really do it.
I promised my son I wouldn't take my own life. I regret that promise. It's like I promised to keep on holding him back from his potential. Not only that, but I drag everyone I know down. I'm useless and stupid. A total failure and waste of oxygen.
Me too...😭😭😭
how are you doing one year later?
My life exactly the same
Donna jo catlady.
Are you telling yourself you all those terrible things, or are there other people telling you these things? Your son must've asked you to promise that because he loves you - and a lot about you - and wants you to be with him.
What is the best thing about you? No matter how obscure you think it might be.
The last question applies to the other people who have commented here, if you see this comment.
As someone who is married to someone with treatment resistant depression, two brothers who have died of suicide and I have ptsd myself (and I've lost count how many friends now, sadly). It's like dying from cancer in a way. Our natural instinct to survive at all costs is totally out of our control, fight or flight, gets overridden by brain malfunctioning. It's a medical emergency that needs immediate attention. If the person fighting whichever mental health disorder dies from it, it's not because the healthy them wanted or decided to. It's because they lost the fight with a fatal illness. It's hard to understand, and deaths from suicide will always leave those left behind feeling guilt, at fault, blame, and a whole heap of emotions by not understanding, or feeling like they weren't 'good enough to live for.' Please, let me tell anyone reading this who has lost someone. I promise it wasn't you. And anyone reading this who feels at risk, please seek immediate medical help. We want you here.
My brother took his own life [25th July 2017} it’s hard to cope without him but I gotta keep making him proud❤️😞
Sorry Lana. Everything happens for a reason and i feel your pain. My sister took her life too yesterday. I feel what your going through as are so many others. Keep plugging along and treat people kindly even if your tired and cranky and don't wanna forgive them for something they did to you. That's the lesson I learnt I didn't forgive my sister
So sorry about the loss of your brother Lana. I'm proud of your bravery to carry on for him as well as yourself. 😉❤
Im sorry for your loss Lana. My Girl friend was pregnant and she took her life on July 29th 2019. I'm broken n lost. I dont know what the point is anymore. I really miss her. But I guess I seen ur comment n the date n I thought I would just share and let u kno I know how ur feeling n ur not alone. Ur comment made me feel not so alone. I think ur brother is proud of you. Thank you for sharing and i hope ur having a beautiful day.
My son took his life July 27th 2018. He would have been 20 in March but it was his 20th month death anniversary..the year 2020.
I'm so sorry ❤️
People need to understand that it is not a selfish act. In a depressed person's mind it is freeing everyone from worry and them feeling like they are a burden to those close to them. It is a lonely place and people feel like they truly are a burden to others
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He seems like a genuinely nice bloke .
Mm, wonder what he ever saw in that vacuous Millie bint?
@@teaspoonsofpeanutbutter6425 Why say that??
My brother, Ivan, took his life away on July 1, 2016. Time has stood still to me since then, no matter how much time moves forward, it’s still fresh. I miss him every moment of my life.
My beloved sis this world is test and trails it has begining (u born) and end u die and we will be rewarded according to our actions its designed to test us every imaginable way by our creator to see who will worship him regardless with the trail he is inflicted with my beloved sis i invite u to the worship of the creator of heavens and the earths the god of Ibrahim musa Jesus and Muhammed peace of Allah be upon them all sister i invite u to Islam and you will have peace in your life in this world and Jonah(heaven) in the hereafter god willing(inshalah)
So sorry for the loss of your brother Ivan, Maria. I know that's a tragedy you can never fully recover from. 😢
@O G agree. 666 is...well title says it all. Evil, lacks empathy.
My condolences
@@shadowintegrated8009 people these days are scarier than ever.
Feeling suicidal is like the worst pain that you cant take in your heart. You can feel pain from your emotions. Sometimes not wanting to face something or someone, or just not likeing this place and how it operates. Sometimes you can just want it to end and you feel ready. But lots of pain.
Well said I feel this pain everyday 😔 I hope anyone else suffering seeks help I know you might be thinking why seek help they won't care but point is you need to talk to someone I will try too
@Sigma Geranimo i do..i can not even sleep..its really bad :(
Same feeling 😞😞
Naomi Beery I can relate to that
It is VERY unusual to take ones own life. Why has it been on the rise for the last 50 years? I believe these people have suffered a brain injury that affects the chemical balance in the brain. Bipolar, autism, ADHD, asbergers, depression etc. ... are the result of this. This neurological injury is a side affect of the mercury and aluminium adjuvants in vaccines. There is a brilliant RUclips channel titled, *'The Truth About Vaccines'* where you get to see the first of a 7 episode documentary series for free (2 hours of ESSENTIAL knowledge). In this 2 hour episode, many general practitioners, pediatricians, researchers and scientists are interviewed.
My sister died in 1993 from suicide when she was 39. It devastated all of us. She was my best friend. My poor mother... her daughter was 18yrs old when it happened. You have to be very bad off to take your ..own life. She was depressed... We took her in and she was hospitalized for 2 weeks. She was with us 4 more years. I'm pretty sure if she would if tried different medications and stuck with it... she'd still be here. But we don't know what they are going through. I surely miss her. 🥺
So sorry for your lost 💔🥺 back in 2021 I was very depressed thanks to my mom's nieces they care about her more than me all the time 😖😭 and I ended up so depressed and almost ended my own. Life so I decided to block them all on Facebook and I am starting to heal now
As a funeral director of forty years I have been involved in over one thousand suicide funerals, e wether it being involved in arranging funerals, conducting funerals, chapel viewing, pall bearing or chauffeuring etc it is always the same old story that mourners and families always says ‘we never saw it coming’ every day in the U.K. alone 16 people sadly take their own lives every day. This is an epidemic that needs urgent attention.
What a sad childhood. Can't imagine all the abandonment issues Professor Green deals with. Heartbreaking.
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I have so much admiration for this guy, came from a council estate and made something of himself despite a difficult childhood. A very sensitive presentation of a difficult subject.
Suicide is not the problem. We need to focus on the issues that are driving people to commit suicide. Those who take their own lives deserve our respect for them and their decision
ChannelMath Exactly That is Why it will most probably continue to increase because we live or merely survive in a growing sick sick sick world with lack of Compassion , True Empathy & people willing to Love selflessly and Help Others 😥😔
Not all of them deserve respect. I cannot find an ounce of respect in my body for the one I know. I have no sympathy. He just caused more pain.
@@embira4256 what, why? did he kill other people?
No he killed himself. And therefore denied other people justice.
@@embira4256 oh...
To think he has the guts to cry that is true manlyness right there
You don't need to have 'the guts' to cry. Men are allowed to cry, and should.
@@Toffee146 I know but people would troll him for it so that is what I meant.
Fake tears. Makes the documentary better for mugs like u
@@ED-sb2rs wow. Do you really feel better for saying that? What an empty life you must lead! 🙄🖕🏻
You’re absolutely right. Society needs to be accepting of ANYONE who needs to cry. We need to stop telling our children not to cry; it could save lives
It's the only true cure to what is usually a prolonged personal and often hidden suffering. The problem will not get any better with just a phone number. We need massive physical and mental health reform!
I agree with your last sentence Jon. There is always hope for cure and cause, to at least make life easier to cope not only with the devastating illness but also with the stigma still attached.
I agree and that's true in America too if you are low income.
I have no idea who this guy even is, but I wish more men were like him and allow themselves to cry for the fathers who walked out on them and the way that made them feel. ♥️ We need to stop expecting people to bottle up and hide their emotions and "get over things". The world would be a better place if we allowed ourselves to grieve.
Majority of people who end their own lifes or try to, don't really want to die they want their pain/hurt/problems to end not their lives, speaking from experience myself
True 😭😭😭
This made me feel less alone. My mum committed suicide two years ago. I was 25 and felt like none of my peers could relate. This shows, sadly, how common it is. Its really helpful amd healing to hear people speaking so openly about it
His poor Aunt losing three siblings, two to suicide and one to cancer. I can only imagine how hard it is to know he fought with his father and that was it. He was gone. 💔
He is a spitting image of his beloved father. Incredible stamp.
I’ve been suicidal since I was 7 years old. Over the years I’ve attempted suicide, lately it’s gotten decent, like I know how it feels to be in the planning and process that goes into ending it. It’s torture to lose someone to suicide, if you’re out there and struggling you’re not alone. I know it’s cheesey, but please people care, people will notice, people will be even more alone then before..I send love and prayers to everyone that read this and who needs help.🦋
I'm not gone lie I'm suicidal myself it's like u wanna do it but at the same time were scared to
Life gets better with time, and becomes less confusing , honestly. Love and peace are found and the appreciation of being able to experience the beauty of life will find you. seek help, people do care, care about yourself, you are important and do make a difference on this earth. Peace and love to you
True
ciaran perry Not true. It takes courage to live, not to end it. Living is brave. It takes guts to face your suffering and pain. It takes guts to face adversity
To Live is an Act of Courage
“I saw not my own courage in dying, but his courage broken by the loss of me. So I said to myself, ‘You must live’. Sometimes even to live is an act of courage” Seneca (4BC-65AD)
ciaran perry that is completely true
Social Rejectz How so?
Enduring the adversity is what makes you courageous. Youre looking at everything backwards.
All suicide is is someone who is set on doing a certain action and then doing it. Thats all they need. Its not courage that gets them to do it, its almost a defiant stubbornness. ‘Im going to do this and nothing is going to stop me’. Nothing else matters or comes into it.
To truly appreciate why living takes courage you have to consider two scenarios:
One scenario is where somebody doesnt talk to anyone and they go ahead with suicide (no coming back)
Vs
Another scenario where that same person is thinking of doing it and perhaps even gets close to doing it but stops and goes and talks to somebody and tells them they are feeling suicidal.
Without a doubt the second scenario is the braver choice. It is the choice for the strong
This program made me go and see someone about the depression I was feeling thank you professor green it wasn't a waste of time you helped at least one person
I lost my brother in law to suicide in March 2020 he was only 29! He was such a wonderful human being. Miss him everyday and still don't believe he is gone
My friend put a plastic bag on his head and tighened a zip tie in his office bathroom. I heard later they found related searches on his phone going as far back as 6 months. Everyone thought of him as the life of the party, the dude who'd do anything for a friend, who could always cheer you up. We were about 2 years out of uni, life gets busy and you stop seeing each other as often. He called me about a month before he did it to meet up, and life just got in the way, I didn't go see him. I know now he wanted to say goodbye. I envied him, he was older. He had the cool flat, all the latest stuff, the hot girlfriend. You can never tell how someone is doing from the outside. I was a mess and he straighened me out when even my family couldn't. Forever in his debt.
I found my way out of depression, many suicide attempts since 10 years old. My father left us, I watched my mother try to kill herself. My steo father beat and sexually abused us. My dear mother was afraid to be helpless raising 5 children. She stayed believing she was helping by putting a roof over our heada and feeding us. I was lucky enough to have a complete stranger give me hope
Lost my dog to kidney failure last year he was my best friend iv not coped well since these thoughts are always there hate my life now
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES!
“Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest”
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Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
What a wonderful woman Nana Pat is.
I just kept on going one day at a time...six years later i'm back on track. God gave me more reason to live. Thanks to my four kids.
Beautiful. One day at a time. Keep on keeping on, Jackie. Sending you love and strength from Canada!
The funny thing is, showing vulnerability, really shows great strength. Showing vulnerability shows the beauty of a loving, human heart. ❤️
My father took his own life too. We had been estranged for quite a while also and because of a step mother.
My mother died by self-inflicted gunshot wound at the age of 29. She had mental health problems, and she also had substance abuse issues. I believe that the combination of those two things clouded her judgment. I was 5 years old when she died. It's been 51 years since her death, and it has affected me in many different ways. I have managed my grief, dealing with it with the help of a good therapist, but I struggle with being the adult that I am supposed to be. I feel like I am still a child, and maybe it's because of being so young when I lost her.
The amount of times I've stopped myself from ending it because I thought I would be selfish for leaving my kids alone. Thankfully I feel less like ending it the older I get. I'll just wait for my expiry date to come when it comes. My best before date has long gone lol. I can at least laugh about these things now.
I just wanted to say I LOVE YOU
I love what you said, Tracy. Best before date long gone, I can relate to that :) Sense of humour is such a powerful attitude.
Take my hat off to professor green as an artist and as a bloke to openly show his raw emotions, mad respect. I love how close he is to nanny pat aka nana green.
My best friend OD’d when I was 20 and he was 2 weeks past his 21st birthday, I know he struggled with depression and anxiety as do I. I don’t believe it was intentional but the amounts of substances he used makes me wonder. I was with him when this happened, and this is an issue in America as well. People want to help when you’re younger but after a certain age you’re just expected to deal with it.
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Sending you so much love ❤
I saw this guy in another documentary about the homeless and he only introduced himself as Professor Green, so the whole time I was thinking 'I wonder what this guy with the big scar on his face and tattoos on his neck teaches'....
Life can be hard, very hard. Depression can steal time from you with some out of work for years with it. It's hard to bounce back from
Covering up mental illness from an employer is so hard
The way they hide the depression really gets to me. I've been diagnosed bipolar wit major depression. So when I'm dwn i am dwn. No partying,smiling,work even showers come few and far between, there's no hiding how I'm feeling..
@Heartslove 3 awe thank you. He loves u and well
Sending you some strength!!
The biggest insult to a suicial person is to offer them a list of suicide hotlines... SMH. Makes me feel more alone and not want to be here anymore.
You are not alone. Nike is with you. Just do it.
I made a video on Suiside hotlines in California doesn’t do jack to help people,..
This is so true and I feel like its such a stupid approach, like if someone has a plan and are suicidal/wanting to end their life they are not going to call a helpline because they know that they’ll try and stop them! Also if uve ever tried ringing the helplines its so formal and they ask you whats going on/if u want to speak to a counsellor and when ur in that state you cant answer that its too general and so hard to put into words!!!
I agree. The stigma alone is challenging. To me having someone say to me....heres a hotline to call, mine as well speed up.the process. I knew people , friends of mine who did commit suicide. I tried 4 half assed times.. I'm still here right?!
I get it.
@@suzystone244 glad you are still here. 😇
I was 14 when I took 20 sleeping pills in a desperate bid to end my life.
Since then I've had multiple thoughts of suicide. I don't know what I have if anything.
I feel empty a lot of the time. Happy rarely. But it was whatever. Felt like no one cared anyway.
I'm now turning 16 in 5 days. I won't lie, I'm still struggling now, but I'll be good.
I hope you do get through it
Suicide is not the solution. How often do you have a nightmare, but so happy when you wake up? The other side isn't so pretty as you think. Our complex body, solar system didn't come by chance. We were created for a reason to worship God. May I invite you to Islam?
Six years ago today I got the call that my husband died in a logging accident on the Job. He was 35 and our daughter was three. I'm not doing well today, this made me want to stay😔
I have this feeling a lot ... it’s like a dark cloud following me ...
Suicide is not the solution. Life has a purpose that is to worship God. May I invite you to Islam?
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES!
“Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest”
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"I am the way the truth and the life"
It IS okay to feel suicidal. We have to be able to say that to others. It can prevent it from actually happening.
Love the Portishead in this. That’s EXACTLY what I listen to when I’m depressed.
I met him once, when he was just up and coming. Didn't have a clue who he was (at the time), he was so down to earth and humbling. I asked who he was and he goes, "just call me Steve" 😝😂❤️
I too experience suicidal thoughts and depression from time to time.. but thoughts pass..dont believe them.. if it gets too much i go to sleep.. usually feel better in the morning. However you also need company and friends.. who won't judge you...also. In my worst despair I prayed for help and Always got it
I’m a suicide attempt survivor I tried to kill my self at the age of 17 due to the fact that I was suffering from depression without even knowing it and plus the stress school was causing me. The worst part about this is that I had all my mum support yet like I said “I felt like a lost girl in a big city” sometimes I still think what would have happened if I decided to end my life that rainy afternoon.
When i attempted suicide at 15 i explain the feeling as drowning in despair. Black thoughts were crashing down on me like waves, telling me I was worthless, no one loved me. I started to believe I would never feel happiness and it just wasn't in the cards for me. Everyone I would reach out to wasn't noticing or brushed me off and I started to feel like I was the biggest burden in the world. A final straw was my dad offering me money to disappear from their lives forever. I swallowed about 30 pills and drank half a bottle of whiskey. I passed out and vomited while unconscious, but one of my friends found me and got me to hospital. My mum didn't even visit me while there. We are close now and moved on but I have never gotten over the abandonment of that time and we never talk about it. I have 3 kids now I will always live for, that alone will keep me alive on this earth.
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES!
“Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest”
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Same
Sufferd from depression for years comes and goes its hard to explain what it feels like it's like the world has moved on and left u behind and u feel tired and just want to be on ur own and cry
A great book on amazon which will help you greatly for recovery www.amazon.co.uk/dp/B08MDK65QG
Such pain. Inheriting the devastating actions of our parents is emotionally haunting. It is so important to talk and be understood. Well done for your bravery.
Suicide leaves people with unanswered questions 💔
That's why I'm still here because I can't do it to my children.
@@melaniewalker5226 its not easy living for others is it... wishing you all the best
@@melaniewalker5226 I hope you are doing well.... I had bio energy treatments and boy has it changed my life,it's helped in releasing all the grief and buried emotions,over the course of sessions I could feel it being pulled from my body,it was amazing and I felt like a ballerina emerging from the closed musical box🕯️❣️🕯️you should research it (Bio-energy)energy healing).... You deserve it for been such a thoughtful mother🌸
I lost my mom to suicide mothers day 2015. Time doesn't heal everything. 💛
Jaycee 1200 my condolences.
I lost my brother to suicide the same month of my birthday, only time eases the pain . It never goes away. You just learn to cope more easily with how you feel about it. But for some reason you never stop blaming yourself.
the Lord God Jesus heals give your self to him
I lost my Mum in 2015, to old age and natural causes. So I can understand that time doesnt really heal anythig. But, there is always a But, if you fill your life with positive things which suit your way of life, there is always a way forward. Don't sit on a fence as it is twiddling your shoe laces, get off it and go and do something positive, even if it is having a Big Mac.
BELIEVE IN THE ONE WHO MADE YOU AND CAN SAVE YOU HIS NAME IS THE LORD GOD JESUS THE ONLY SAVIOR FOR MAN = THATS POSITIVE
I suffered from depression and anxiety all my life , some times are better then others .
Tonight was laying here in bad way had the feelings the professor described Been going through worst time in my life at my very lowest.
I have two sons and one daughter but watching the affect it’s had on professor green not sure of real name through his life the feelings he is going through and affect of losing his dad.
It’s changed my thought tonight and made me see things differently.
80% was a shock it shows your not alone and more common there we all realise.
Important video and message
you,re such a lovely guy and managed to overcome all of this. your dad just had demons as a lot of people do, sadly
Calling it demons is very disrespectful.
@@TheFracturedfuture REALLY!?!? This is your response to such un uplifting message? Not very productive, as far as consoling someone who has experienced such tremendous grief and trauma!?!
His Dad looks like a gentle soul, an empath, add that to intelligence and pain and depression and ... - thank you for your honesty, suicidal depression is so so painful to live with and docs like this mean alot - thank you
His dad was actually a selfish individual just like his mother who left. If he had any empathy he would have been there for his son not moving in with countless girlfriends in favour of his own child. Maybe the guilt got to him in the end who knows.
@@charlottebruce979, his father wasn't selfish. He was clearly seriously mentally ill. Educate yourself.
@@Toffee146 He was selfish
@@danielwhooley3723 maybe someday you’ll learn the pain is so debilitating it becomes unbearable. Selfishness is not it! If you’ve never felt that kind of pain - be grateful and don’t judge.
@@todaystomorrow2545 was talking about cutting his first child out of his life because he found another woman
We are all going to die someday, these people just didn't want to suffer anymore so they left earlier.
I can totally relate to this as my father committed suicide when I was just 1 years old and I've been battling deep depression my entire life but I do have great days being happy!
I remember this. It came out in 2015. I'm not a fan of his music but I'm glad he did this documentary.
jbaby007 Indeed. I don’t like rap, nor rap culture in general, yet he seems like someone I’d want as a friend.
Listening to your story is powerful it's encouraging to see someone talk about male suicide, you lost your father I lost my 15 year old son 5 years ago to suicide
Oh man, I experienced this myself, my dad ditching me and my bro for some woman. There is really nothing you can do about it.
i have seen deprivation all my life living in inner city Birmingham and have worked with incarcerated youths who had no hope of a better future and prison was somewhere for them to have a bed and food. Our prisons are warehouses human zoos housing poorly educated kids from deprived backgrounds and were houses of pain for too many of our youths
Word!! Also an easy option to house those with mental health issues and learning difficulties! We need a massive reform of the prison system in this country! ☹️
I totally get it. When ur so low it's hard to see a way out. This documentary is so helpful
When i was 18 years old i want to end my life but i realized i have given 3 lives so i stopped thinking about it. it wasnt easy i was depressed that time. now im 26. Not all of us are strong enough to overcome it especially in emotional aspect.
Keep your head up and just do the best you can.
Prayer is all that helps me when i feel suicidal
I feel so guilty for feeling this way :( I don't know what to do
i think of dying everyday
This documentary helped me to understand why my brother committed suicide so many years ago. Thank you for your bravery talking about your innermost feelings
We should be able to go out when we whant suffering with anxiety and depression for years it a cruel life in the head of us who suffer day in day out and its not fair to be pushed to carry on with what we struggle to do is coupe with ower own heads, cruel. Should be happy he got peace in his life he must of struggled for a long time rest in peace
I agree
I went through a 2-3 years of dark depression a few years back. I was obsessed with planning my death and it became kinda euphoric when I stopped thinking about how it would effect the people that cared about me. It was the worst few years of my life and although I still have those feelings, probably more than most people, I remember watching this documentary and it snapped me out of that determination. I’m still working on how I handle things and sometimes it gets too much knowing I have chronic depression but I’m thankful that I watched this around that time.
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES!
“Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest”
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@@GhostMonkey772 u again?
He is great. He is right, he does have the right to cry. I salute him for being real.
I hope he's ok Millie and him broke up, she's married to the guy who she was with before professor green.
The annoying thing I find, is people think if something "helped" them with "depression" that it works the same for everybody. It's really frustrating and annoying, and leads me to question a lot about their "solutions" and whether or not they truly "understand".
My god this is absolutely beautiful and poignant. THANK YOU. I feel truly blessed that I’ve never been suicidal, but I’m a single mom raising an amazing young man and desperately want to be there in ways that maybe a dad might be, but unfortunately isn’t. So far (at 21) we’ve never endured deep emotional problems, but he isn’t the most forthcoming in that area. This is giving me an excellent topic of conversation to bring up!
You sound like an amazing Mum!! 🙌🏻🥰
This opened up so much in me as my mother who didn’t raise me and was in and out of my life killed herself and was fighting many mental battles and now as an adult and mother there are
Times I have breakdowns and have so many questions I wish I would of asked her. I to suffer with mental illness but I fight everyday because I know my child needs me because I needed and still need my mother this was a beautiful documentary thank you
what a touching story. Many blessings on you & your family!
+Zinedin Zidane Keep your fake god to yourself.
I feel about on the same boat as your mother, rest her soul. I have 2 children and i havent been able to be there for my children as a mother because of my depression taking such a toll on me. And me knowing that im failing them constantly makes the fight that much harder, knowing they deserve better and i cant give that to them..
I can relate. I don’t remember my mother as well. She was missing for years. They found her remains on a grassy landfield in Huntington Township. It was the worst day of my life when I finally was told that it was her. That was in 2016. I’m still suffering the loss and all the unanswered questions. Wondering why I had to go through this. My father married a woman that I hated because we didn’t get along and I was the red headed step child. As a child, I would cry myself to sleep. I’m trying everyday to simply stay alive. And I don’t want no sympathy. Just a solution to get my mind out of this train wreck.
You and your body are two diffrent things.
You can't be burn, drown , hurt etc.. you are immortal but not ur body.
My brother took his life on 23rd April 2015 aged 45 years.
I am sorry for your loss, Chickadee Dee. My brother might as well be dead, as his evil wife won't let him be in my life & he won't stand up for himself. My brother is all I have left & I sometimes feel suicidal because I can't talk to him.
My brother took his life at age 46. One and half years later I became suicidal with sever pain in my head like a sword stuck in my brain. I started talking by myself. My fingers started to curl like am disabled. I started shaking easily. My head wobbled uncontrollably. I felt like I was possessed by demon. Figuring out little things became extremely hard. Changing close taking shower was challenging. My attention disorder was of the roof. I distant myself from a lot of people. I started saying less. I was searching actively how to end my life successfully. But some part of me wanted to beat it. So i started say no to anything and everything that triggered my illness. I prayed every night, I started walking a lot. Changed my diet. Cut alchohol and weed consumption by 99% started doing things that I enjoyed only. Got lucky with a good friend that kept me company. Now 9 years later am still here with less symptoms. I still have issues but comparing it to 9yrs ago its day and night. God is Great!
Depression when it's bad robs one from experiencing a normal life. Unless you've walked in those shoes you can't really understand it. I know what it's like because I have it.
I'm tired, please pray for me.
4 attempts on ending my own life, couldn’t even succeed at that. I’m hoping no more desperate attempts to end the pain inside, but it’s not easy when you are so alone.
I can't think of a better thing to fail at. You're here now and that's great. Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of your life. Keep going forward. Good luck.
Tom D thank you. Feeling positive for the present & future now. 😊
I wish I could help you in some way.
My father killed himself 9 days ago and I relate to your story very much now😢
thank you so much for this film. i operate the national suicide hotline in the US and far too often I hear "I'll just be dead and those who care will just get over it." ..."...get over it"... people don't "just get over it." it's a death unlike any other. you said it best when you said you first felt ANGER.. and the sadness.. and then confusion.... and that never quite goes away does it. you can understand a car crash death you can come to terms with it etc. a suicide? never.
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Nanny pat is amazing!
Have you had a word with his new wife and step family? Perhaps something to be found there too. A top documentary, fella! Be as strong as you have been! And remember, it's good to talk!
From the documentary it sounds like the new girlfriend was a catalyst in his alienation from his son. I'm not insinuating she was the cause because ultimately it was the dad's responsibility to prioritize his son. He should have told the girlfriend to KICK ROCKS after she gave him an ultimatum!
I think what Prince William and Harry are doing in regards to mental health in the UNITED KINGDOM is extremely admirable!
I'm with you 100%.
Are they really ? What about Prince Harry who lives in California in a magnificient castle. Does he really care ? He only causes despair and chaos in the Royal family. I think he is a misfit, just like Meghan Marke. I have far more respect for Prince William who has his head on his shoulders and seems genuine. The same for Kate Middleton. It is about time that something was done to prevent the highy suicidal rate in Britain.
@@marieboutin9054 RELAX, as for the MENTAL HEALTH of the British Royal Family, this Sunday I'm having a Bake Sale in West Chester Pennsylvania 😀 to help them all COPE.
This was a great video. My dad committed suicide but he was in his 70’s & dying of cancer. It’s a hard pill to swallow & very damaging to survivors. Plus my dad’s mother also killed herself. He needs to be careful as it makes us high risk
I really appreciate this. Men need to know it's OK to have feelings. We have mental illness in our family. Death of my brother's mom and dad in law, affected him really bad. He is very quiet person. He struggled to work, but luckily found the right medication and I pray that he will be OK.
I was 11...almost...my dear sweet 18 yr old brother took his life with a shotgun right in front of me.. Didnt know where my parents were. I cried. hid, prayed, covered him with a sheet and watched him die and people wondered wtf was wrong with me in earlier days.....Im 54 now and I still cry, visit his grave, speak his name in vain, in love and in forgiveness. Is there really any forgiveness to be had other than the forgiveness of the ignorant who speak blasphemy of what they can never grasp. I don't know why but so much has played out over time. many have learned about suffering and thwarted death in dark times ourselves. Suicide is contagious. It really is. It almost speaks of permission to go ahead and follow thru but ya know...thats the darkness speaking if you are lucky.enough to climb out. That bullet almost went right through our father's heart. He pretty much drank himself to death from that day on.. Nanny Pat is right....He must have been suffering. I hope he found his peace .
Sincerely I hope you may find your own ☮️
I really feel for you. My father took his own life 3 weeks ago, and its something I’d never wish on anybody. Hope you found some peace as well, all the best to you!
Grown children of suicides are more likely than others to commit suicide.
When the background music is so loud that the people's voices are inaudible is really annoying. Why bother with that? We want to hear what people are expressing.
WarmFuzzy Zen YES!!! Thank you, I thought it was me! Lol!
Yeah the audio mixing was terrible.
The annoying background music has more worth than the losers in the video.
@@cleanyourroom1237 Yo. Why would you say something so evil as this? This is a very serious topic. How does this make someone a loser. Once again. Its people like you who are the real losers. Smh.
Ebony Johnson has to do
Every day suicide crosses my mind .i have journals filled with suicide notes that either my plan didn’t work or I just couldn’t do it at the time. I’ve came close to death many times and have had many spiritual experiences along with that but all that did was set me into a deeper depression cause I felt abandoned by high powers . I have been fighting this for thirty five yrs . My life is a struggle always and it’s me I do it to myself I wish I would listen to myself at the sametime tho and just shake the depression for good but it’s so hard to even get up to take a shower sometimes it’s a mission I feel so heavy and I have zero motivation .im on another antidepressant and mood stabilizer ..I’ve had some success with them but I always end up having adverse side effects so have to switch every few yrs . I have accepted depression will always be a part of my life and trying to work around that is almost impossible .i never knew what “one day at a time “ meant until recently and Everyday is so hard but I finish it even if I don’t get out of bed .
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES!
“Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest”
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It does feel sometimes like we've been abandoned by a higher power. One day at a time indeed. Prayers and love to you from Canada!
It crosses mine all the time
This was very cathartic for me. Although its just been 22 years, I cried most of the way through your doc. RIP Michael...
Watching the hurt and pain of friends and family, their struggle to understand why, will remind me to stop and think when I’m having thoughts. I’m so sorry for everyone who has a close relationship with suicide and suicidal thoughts. Even when you feel like you have no hope or reason, you’re not alone. No matter how desperate I feel, I have to remember there are reasons for my life, people who care and deep down a will to keep going.
An your main reason is to worship God almighty. May I invite you to Islam
I am so depressed that I can't even take out the garbage