Currently 12:05am , 24th September 2024, hey I’m Kris and i hope i’ll have a fulfilling life. I’m 18 years old and want to be a psychologist when I’m older. Next week i’ll be going to my first day of University. All I ever want is to be of importance in other’s people’s life, not just a side character. Hopefully I’ll be lucky enough to reply to this comment when I’m older as this will be my little capsule to catch up with myself. Life is fast and I intend to find peace and as I die think to myself that it was worth living. Wish me luck.
Hi Kris. Don't let the search for importance in other people's lives turn you into a side character of your own life, okay? One has to live in order to be a positive part of someone's life, and to live is to experience and enjoy your life, not just merely survive and tick all the boxes you're supposed to tick every day. Easier said than done, and heavily dependent on one's circumstances, but trying to do it is what matters most. So try to always make some time for yourself and take care of yourself - those who love you truly will support you doing this, and those who don't will demand you give that time to them instead. Once or twice, maybe it's a mistake; regularly, it's a red flag. Even if you know this already, take this as a reminder that there's nothing wrong with giving yourself that time. Stuff like sitting here and listening to this, time of your own and on your own. Hobbies, relaxation, personal projects, artistic expression, meditation, introspection, a walk outside. Whatever clicks for you. It'll do you more good than you know, and certainly much more than putting that time into the 'grind' of exploitation, ladder-climbing and over-exertion most of us are stuck in. Best of luck with uni. Psychology is incredibly interesting - one of my partners is studying it as well, and I've done my fair share of diving into it but purely of my own interest rather than guided by a curriculum. If you have time, look not just at the works that serve as key points of reference for psychology, but also the works that surround them & their cultural moment. Or the works and ideas they study or borrow from, like pagan customs, religious practices of all kinds, Tarot & other "divinatory" introspection tools, tribal/shamanic healing practices, etc. The theory we're used to always feels so detached, like it popped out of thin air, but it's rooted in our interactions as a species over thousands of years and a myriad of different cultures. Taking notice of those elements and starting to examine them through a new lens is what led us here - and we still got plenty of work left. Anyways, sorry for the impromptu wall of unsolicited advice, I see familiar patterns in what you express and I offer what I think may be helpful or interesting to you based on that. Cheers, and have a good week.
@@ahmedaudi5050 The chances of it happening again and again in the future are high, but think if you knew it would even happen once more. Know one day at some point it's going to happen and you'll feel as good as you felt.
To me this struggle just makes things worse. When I‘m at peace and have accepted the world, I know that in just a few minutes or hours I will feel pain until I think I’ll break for good now. A neverending cycle.
I come by every now and then to read what people are leaving here. This place gives me a sense of strong connection with all of you sharing personal stories. I feel your energy, we're in this together.
I’m lying down next to a girl that I think I’m falling in love with. She’s asleep and I’m listening on my headphones. Life is good and also weird and also confusing and I’m also unsure. What a trip
I love this, brother. Those days pass so quickly, but they shape who you are forever. Enjoy the utter bewilderment of it all, and how utterly insignificant it makes you feel. As we say here in Scotland... 'Lang may yer lum reek'.
@@merlindogs9703 and that's okay brother. Love just like life is fleeting, enjoy the times that were (even if they were only 3 weeks ago) because the most beautiful moments in life are often followed by the hardest.
Currently recovering from two emergency brain surgery's. Sitting in my garden with a coffee on a beautiful sunny morning, sun on my face, breeze gentle blowing the trees, birds chirping and singing, the distant sound of cars going by all add more beauty to this track. Happy to still be here 🙏🏻
I‘m 24 years old. A couple weeks ago my girlfriend broke up with me afte nearly 4 years. One week later my Grandpa died. He was like a Dad for me. Taught me so much things, made me the man i am today. One week later my grandma died. She always believed in me and my brother. Twi weeks later my other grandpa almost died too, but he got it and is in relative good condition now. I‘m proud of you and thank god for it. I learned a lot about myself so far, but the Journey isnt over yet. So much happened. I miss my girlfriend and my grandparents every day. Lost my Motivation for life, but i have to fight to get it back. Be kind, always, you never know what people are going trough.
@@yahyaibragimov2296 thank you too!! Damn whats happenig here. Never felt so great to know there are so many people you dont know care about you! Hope you guys are allright!
I remember a blizzard in CO in 2007. I was driving home from work in my dad's truck, the sun was dipping, the wipers going. I had this track playing on a CD I'd burned, and it hit perfectly in that moment. It was just a flash of time in the grand scheme of things, but this song can always pull me back right to it: I can see the purple-gray sky through the frame of snow on the windshield; I can hear the wipers going back and forth; I can feel the heater warming my face even as my feet are cold; but most of all, I can feel myself being happy to go home and have dinner, to watch a show with mom, to hear dad buzzing around in the background doing whatever. Life is very different now, halfway across the country in a place with no snow. Dad passed away in January. Mom seems much older, tired, worn out. I'm no longer the kid driving home under a blizzard after 8 hours at a not-so-great job. But for 10 minutes tonight I could be that kid again, and I was happy to be home.
She’s my first thought in the morning when I open my eyes, and my last thought when I close them. I hope one day our paths converge again, for good this time. Forever and always.
I've read through a lot of what this comment section has to say and this is very accurate. There's beauty, sadness, love, loss, confusion, pain, and everything in between. Hundreds of different stories in here about every deep human emotion all brought up by this one song, amazing.
This is so well put. I think that most good art whether a piece of music or a painting has this quality where it gives us a means of reflection and can bring stuff out of us that gets buried.
I’m currently 17, I just finished my first trimester of junior year. Hopefully i’ll come back to this song later on in my life and realize how good my life was during this time. To the future me, thank you for sticking around, be yourself. Enjoy the people you have around you. I know it’ll get hard. You need to help yourself before you help others.
we are in this together man. its hell but i can tell this is the last time i have before i lose the child in me, which is probably already gone. 17 feels so young yet so grown, why do i feel this way at such a young age 😭
I'm 23 and was told by doctors yesterday I have a tumour growing in my foot for the past 3 years and has eroded away a good chunk of my heel bone. Waiting to get a biopsy and listening to this really helps me ground myself and process what's ahead for me.
“If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present.” -Lao Tzu.
@@westarrr you are correct, I tried to research where this quote came from but i wasn’t able to find anything. I did find that a lot of very old quotes are often credited incorrectly though. Very surprising because this has been one of my favorite quotes for years. Much love man
I like to imagine that, here, at the comment section, we just gather around this music and share bits of ourselves. Total strangers, who happened to cross each other's ways by bumping into this random, yet special, piece of art.
The internet turned out to be so messy but comment sections like these take me back to the early days of the internet. Just a bunch of totally unrelated people doing their thing and connecting without a hidden agenda. This is what I love so much about the internet.
I’m a 36 year old orphan. I lost my Mom to lung cancer in April of 2020 and I lost Dad to lung cancer in March of 2022. In between that, I lost my younger brother to chronic alcoholism in 2021 when he was only 29. It’s depressing to think the people you spend the most time with throughout your life will eventually just disappear.
No one is given an immense pain like that without the possibility of being able to conquer it. I believe the strongest people get tested the most. I wish you the best man keep your head up❤️
I'm sitting outside right now and smoking a cigarette. This week I finally dared to write to an ex who has been haunting me for 6 years. I don't know what will come of it and this song describes the ignorance, fear and emptiness that I feel. I have been feeling this emptiness for a while now, but it has never been as present as it is now.
Listening to this song for the first Time and accidentaly watched the latest comments. Never felt so close to a stranger as i saw you wrote this a minute ago, maybe your cigarette isn’t even finished. Just wanted to wish you good luck, cause its sometimes everything we need. I think the emptyness you talked about is a truly human feeling, Even of you’re stressed never forget that you’re alive. Everything will be alright.
@@Mr_Karre I met with her and we talked for 6 hours. It felt like everything was back to normal. I don't know if it was a one time thing or if she wants to see me more often and since I don't want to pressure her, I'm waiting for the right time to write to her again or a message from her
This song makes me appreciate what it is to be human. In a world full of deception and false glory, going through core emotions with yourself is still so real. Especially while listening to this song… take care.
Today I was found not guilty for a crime I didn't commit, it's been a brutal 6 months and this song came in my feed. With that and reading the comments, it made me tear up and value my life more
I am currently fighting a case of robbery, aggravated assault as a juvenile, a crime I did commit, I have court coming up in June, any advice? I'm currently on house arrest.
two days ago i had one of the worst days of my life and cried for more than an hour straight while watching videos of my dad who comitted suicide a few months ago and now im sitting at my dining table studying classical mythology with the sun shining off and on through my window thinking 'oh what a wonderful world we live in. it is going to be okay' and it is. it will. i am speaking to you, someone who is also having a tough time, you will find moments where you'll think this exact same thing, you will find peace and light and safety again. and i believe in you and i love you and i still miss my dad and wish he was here but i also still love him very much. and time will heal all wounds i promise
You are the kind of person I look up to and aspire to be. I'm certain what you feel is more than you can ever put into words, and I hope the moments where you can think that come to you as often as they ever possibly can.
When I was in utero my dad would play aphex twin and place headphones on my mums stomach. He used to wake me at dawn and bundle me in his arms as we strolled to the crisp Cornish beach to catch the sunrise listening to ambient works. When I was older he’d wake me up on nights where his insomnia was particularly bad and we’d stroll to the beach arm in arm watching the stars. I came across this as I’m sat in a daze alone in my bedroom. I’m 24 now, just under four years ago I woke to find my dads body after he took his own life. He requested #3 Ambient works as one of the songs for his funeral. I can’t listen to that album anymore without feeling deep turmoil, but this song gives me some will to fight. I feel as if my silhouette is a lightbulb and I could shatter at any moment but even still, there’s something in me willing to find the light.
You had an amazing dad.. treat your future child with similar childhood without negatives. I find your story beautiful. Its very sad but you wrote it beautifully
After my sister died, my dad gave up. I was twenty at the time. He didn’t end his life in one tragic event, but after he died we learned he was having heart problems and instead of seeking treatment that would have absolutely prolonged his life for decades, he chose to embrace death. He even asked days before he died if I would be able to take care of myself if something were to happen to him. It’s crazy to think I knew he needed peace in that moment, without knowing the consequences, and I told him I would be ok. My younger sister held onto anger for him for a long time, but I never did. I knew his soul was in pain and thus couldn’t see how much pain he would leave behind. My sister always runs through her head why we weren’t enough to keep him going, even ten years later. Would he have been able to hold onto his will to live if it was one of us and not the sister who died before him? I never thought that way, though. I know he couldn’t see the burden he would place on our shoulders or all the things that took place in the wake of his death. He didn’t know. And I’ve never felt a thing but forgiveness for that, for we are all human.
I don’t got any trauma to share or amazing story to tell, just feeling happy rn. Going into grade 12 next year and worried about what uni’s I might go to or what I’ll actually get accepted into. Who knows. Guess we just gotta wait and see. What a strange place this is If anyone is reading this have a great rest of ur life
@@jackassir6060yeah I miss my cat. Had him for 15 years as I grew up and had such a bond with him unlike any other. This music makes me reflect on past times good and bad. As much as we want them back, it’s apart of life to live, love, grieve and appreciate the family, friends or companions we lost. Thankfully we had the memories and that never goes away.
My 8 year relationship fell apart last January, it’s transitioning from fall to winter now, for the entirety of 2023 I was stuck in limbo, not knowing what to do with myself everyday felt like a repeat. Listening to this while waiting to clock into work, I can feel 2024 will start a completely new and foreign chapter in my life. I am at peace now.
Hey, keep going, i totally got that, i think im falling down the same path with my gf and feel i cant do anything about it… 2024 will be a better year hopefully.
So recently I’ve been seeing this girl and she’s everything I could’ve asked for but it’s weird cause I remember at the end of last year I sat down with a good mate of mine and we were talking about if we had the perfect girl, what would she look like, how would she act and starting listing all there traits and fast forward 8 months later, I’m literally looking at her every time I see her. It still doesn’t feel real to me but man she’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me, I gave up on looking for anything and haven’t talked to anyone real in years but man after crossing paths with her, it’s all been worth the wait. Good things happen when you least expect it and take it from me, I wasn’t even looking at all and remember seeing her and she lit up the room and can still picture it from the night we met. Every time I’m with her, it’s like the whole universe goes quiet and it’s just me and her. I love you Ruby forever and always ❤
I’m a 22 year old single father. I lost my job a couple days before thanksgiving and have just finally gotten a new one. I’m falling in love for the first time since the mother of child left us for alcohol over a year ago. I’m healthier than I’ve ever been. I’ve regained my love for reading. I have picked up new hobbies. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been even though I’m in the most stressful position I’ve ever been in. Things get better. Life has a billion small joys that must be sought out. Keep going and you can find them.
Listening to this while I‘m zoned out in my bed and suffer because I lost my Dad who was my hero, my idol and my best friend through all these times. I still can’t get over it and have to think about him everyday. Today would‘ve been his birthday… Happy Birthday Dad, I love you and I always will
I wish the best for you in life mate, rest in peace to your father. I lost mine at 6 months old, I am now nearly 24 and not a day goes by that I do not think about him. Push yourself and be the best person you can be.
I'm so sorry for your lost. Just would like to remind you, you are not alone. You are strong enough to keep going. I lost mine last year, two months after I lost mine grandma, and he told me after that day, "the carrousel of life stop for a sec, she goes down, and the carrousel started again, life goes on" Wish u good luck
Ive instructed my friends and family for years that this song is to be played at my funeral. There should be no eulogy, no talking, just this song and silence. Played one time, and then its over. Everyone is to go home, and get on with their lives. Over the years much has changed, but not this. Never this.
Right now its 3:58 am Im a 16 year old from south africa. I really hope i live a good and fulfilling life. I wanna travel, see and experience new things i started talking to a girl named alexandra and shes the sweetest person ive ever met. Her smile lights me up inside, im gonna come back to this comment in 10 years
I'm listening to this knowing it is time for me to take action and chase my goals because nobody is going to save me, to all of you out there i wish you the best guys we can do it. I Belive in you🙌
i think most of us don’t realize how technology has changed us and how intertwined and connected we became. the total opposite is being said, we are being told that we are losing connections bonds with people but here we are millions of total strangers gathering in a comment section offering a look from a small window to our lives. we come together to tell our story, share our pain and cherish our good memories. we are human and we are connected. it is incredibly hard for me to live a life where i dont stop and think about the others who walked on the same streets as me or drank from the same cafe as me. it is exhausting at most times but sometimes it can be comforting. i go through the comments read bits and pieces of you guys’s lives and i smile, i get sad with you or i relate to your struggles. then when its time i like your comments and wish you the best. to all the strangers out there reading mine comment, have a wonderful day❤
not an realistic view brother, local communities are being destructed by social media, for example in the west no stranger ever talks to each other with good virtue like we used to do before the internet
dude i'm just tired of feeling so lost. i don't even know where life is taking me, it's just like i'm always on autopilot waiting for something to happen
make sure you make the best of these moments. i totally understand man, its torture. you want your life to be yours. but it still can, even if thats on a smaller scale. you can pursue passions and creative hobbies. attempt to make fun out of the mundane. uproot routine and do something completely spontaneous. be consumed by time as you meander somewhere on a walk or in your mind. take control from the bottom up. that isn't professional advice or anything, but it's what I've picked up in my experience from feeling very disconnected and not understanding what im meant to be doing or where im going in life. much love.
Fascinating how he managed to make 3 chords remain interesting for over 10 minutes. I suppose minimalism is one of the driving factors in a good ambient track.
It's extremely subtle, but there are elements being added and taken away throughout the entirety of the track. The rhythmic length of the 3 chord sequence also changes and extends/contracts. So there is change, but it's incredibly subtle.
idk. it's okay when you're falling asleep but it's not intented for active listening imo. Autechre's Vletrmx which basically has just like 5 different notes over 4 bars repeated for seven minutes sounds much more interesting and alive than this.
Currently laying in bed, listening to this masterpiece, overthinking everything that’s happened, thinking about what I could’ve done better or changed in my life to get to where I am. I feel like every time I’m at my lowest point in life I notice everything that’s happening around me, who’s really there for you and who’s not, the pain and struggle just hanging from my shoulders, the thought of giving up, always fatigued, no motivation or drive to do anything fun anymore, distancing myself from my loved ones, just mentally drained at this point. Whenever I come back to this sound it just keeps me at peace, and for anyone going thru the struggles right now, just know that this shit is temporary, we’ll be out the gutter soon! The people who were there for you when you had nothing keep them close, I know it’s tough but you gotta thug it out for your loved ones, Stay strong Kings! don’t let the struggle tear you apart. ❤️👑
With this song as a witness, today will be the day I revert back to the good man I once was. I promise myself to no longer procrastinate. To not waste the life that millions would kill to have. I will realize my true potential. I was given a back to bear weights, not to turn it towards the people I love. I promise to be good, help others, and die great.
I played this for my father today who is 94 he can't see very well and couldn't see this beauty being in the water but he sat with his eyes closed listening meditating on it and every two or three minutes saying 'wow'.
I can't imagine what listening to this at age 94 would be like. All those years to reflect on while listening to this would be incredibly poignant yet comforting. like the ending credits to a powerful movie. thanks for sharing :)
J’ai les larmes aux yeux en regardant certains commentaires les gens sont bienveillants parfois et c’est beau, Cet musique je l’ai découvert il n’y a pas si longtemps et elle dégage une telle émotions c’est fou, J’ai 18 ans et je suis marin j’écouterai cet musique quand je prendrais le larges,
It’s 6:48 in the morning I’ve been lost in my own thoughts and couldn’t sleep, I listen to this amazing song and can’t help but feeling some kind of peace, im going to sleep now, stay safe out there and have a nice life to whoever reads it.
I'm at the lowest point in my life while listening to this. I have a tumor in my knee and am unable to jump, run, or stand properly without pain. About a month ago I was driving home when someone turned out in front of me, resulting in a tbone wreck that totaled my car and injured me mentally and physically. Although I have recovered from the physical injuries, the wreck has caused me to become depressed again and demotivated to push toward my goals or even do the things I usually enjoy. I've spent the last couple years alone and in pain, wishing for at the very least a friend who can understand me. I turn 17 soon and I am in the same place I was years ago, but now I discovered this music. I hope that sometime in the future I can look back at this comment and see how my life has improved and changed for me.
You got this bro, the dark times will pass you, ik it feels like it won't but take it day by day, and in no time you will be where you wanna be. I believe in you
Hey, you are not alone mate! We hear you, i feel you! Everything happens for a reason, there is only upside from here ! When times are good be grateful, when times are bad be graceful. NEVER GIVE UP!
Im 20 and I feel like I have gone through a crucial moment in my life. I cleaned everything within my reach, whether virtual or personal. I've been trying to get it out of my way, out of my heart, all of my past and who I am no longer. It's hard to watch time pass and not be able to do anything. sometimes I just wish I could stop all the pressure and pressure that life imposes on me and be able to breathe, be free. I feel like one day I'll make it. If anyone is reading this, know that everything will be ok. If u feel like u need to, clean up everything in ur life like I did... people u follow, channels u subscribe to, content u follow, people who are in your life and don't add anything, they are no longer on the same vibe. It's not like before, u know? sometimes clearin the path in whatever way we can is the first step towards change. I don't say all this based only on the virtual, but on life. If u are reading this whatever time and day it is... clear your way, cleaning is the first step. Im clean now.
Listening to this before I go into surgery for a brain tumor. I just found out about this two days ago, and it feels like everything has been put into perspective much faster than I’d like. This song is a safe space for me. Thank you aphex and everyone else for sharing your various stories in the comments ❤
Comment #6 Even though i'm repeating this proccess over and over again, i believe one day i'll become what i really want to be, and i feel happy that i'm here to experience all this. I love being able to experience this song over and over again, to see this video, to read the comments, i just love this video, i'll come back here once in a while so this comment section keeps being alive. I love you all! Wish you all the best
How weird, I started doing that like a month ago! I also tried with other songs from "Selected Ambient Works Volume 2", usually just "Rhubarb". And it's truly a great feeling, so soothing. Glad to see I'm not the only one!
I remember when my parents divorced and I was barely able to see my dad. All of the friends I grew up with at my dad's place, I never got to see them that much. I was stuck at my mom's in a small apartment, in a school where I was bullied every day and had no friends. Everything was torn apart and gone. For 4 years, it went like that. Finally I got the chance to get a custody change and finally went back to my dad's. I'm back with all my old friends but everyone's grown up, all the old stuff we used to play with like the swings at the park are old and rusty now. My mom moved to Europe and now I just have my dad and stepmother. I'm happy now, and I just discovered this song and I feel some connection. Just remembering the few vague happy and bad memories from my mom's. Time has flown by so fast. Everything's changed, and I'm growing up now. Good luck to you all.
Glad you moved on. Some people don't get a chance to. Concentrate on happiness now and don't waste time regretting what might have been. Good luck to you!
The escence of life is change… which is tamed by time, our worst enemy. The flow of itself is painful to live through, everything we knew eventually begins to fade away and all we are left with are pieces of something beautiful that used to be. I understand exactly how you feel. Something was snapped away from our hands and not even time can make it better, all we can do to cope with the loss is to win new memories👣
A friend just recommended this track, I've been listening to it for close to an hour. It is such a roller coaster of emotions, am I happy, am I sad? I don't know.. but it sounds like peace
Hey I’m Lucas, 23, I haven’t done anything big or extraordinary in my life, never had a girlfriend, my best friend lives a country away from me, my mom left my dad 2 years ago and since then he isn’t the same, living with him is hard, a few months ago I met a wonderful woman on a dating app, she is 17, lives in Brazil, and I am the happiest I’ve been in years, I laugh almost everyday thanks to her, she brought peace to my heart and mind, in 2 months I’m leaving my dad’s house to go to Brazil, I’m heartbroken of leaving my 18 year old cat, but she is too old to take a airplane and she is a bit senile, she couldn’t live in a new environment. Writing this tears appeared in my eyes. I hope life is gonna be better and easier, for me, and for you.
I’ve been fighting the urges to harm myself these past few days. I’ve felt like this is my lowest point. I’ve been suffering from drug addiction for the last 6 months and I can’t get sober. The other day I crashed my car and then I found out the only person I cared about never gave two shits about me. Thank you aphex twin for this masterpiece, it’s made me realize that there’s light at the end of the tunnel Edit : thank you guys for a the comments they mean alot
hey man im just about to hit 6 months sober and if a 16 year old kid like myself can do it then i know damn well you can too. there’s people in your life that will help you regardless of what happens, they are just waiting for you to be willing to accept the help you need
Currently 02:05 in the cold night of oktober, my window slightly opend. This song feels like the cold breeze blowing to the side of my face, thinking about if i said something at that exact moment, that she would not left me. That if i did not said those few words, it would have changed the whole thing. Love yourself, before giving love to another
Damn bro i hope u will find the right one. Just imagine : this song, outside its like cold but not to cold just u and her at a beautuful quiet place and your just there and talking and having a good time. Damn i wish i can expirience something like that one day and i hope that for you too buddy. Keep it up.
Life is a gift from god I feel like this song makes me wanna share about life no matter how complex or hard it gets it has it’s beautiful moments where it makes you think damn what a gift and even in the moments of darkness you know there will eventually be light and go back to those moments knowing you helped yourself where god helped you get through those moments and live a life no matter how it’s goes at the end of it you always have to say thank you to a wonderful journey
As I’m listening to this, it made me realise just how truly blessed I am to be alive. For the longest time I’ve felt lost, as if my life is heading in no direction and it has no substance whatsoever. Everyday I wake up and it feels like my life is on repeat, as if it is an unbreakable cycle. But coming here and reflecting on everything has made me realise something: I should cherish each and every moment I have, even when times are tough. As long as I’m here, I still have a chance. So if you see this and you’re at rock bottom know this: you’re still breathing, so make it count.
Lying on my bed, four minutes in and I am pushing on my eyes forcefully with my sweater so the tears don’t run down my face. Nostalgia is the worst feeling ever, no matter who you are and how good life’s been to you, you can’t escape the wanting of what once was. I can never get it back, and you probably can’t either, the question is are you strong enough to live with it? 4:38
Damn fr you just gave me a existential crisis at 12:32 am .. bruh I shouldn’t have ate that Burger King liek I shoulda just stayed home ya know :/ hungry
I feel Aphex Twin will be one of those "classical" artists still listened to and studied in 100 years from now as a genius of his time, like we do now with classical composers from the 18th and 19th centuries.
Man, I almost just fell asleep listening to this, so peaceful. If anyone ever reads this comment, idk ur cool, life is life and I really feel like a nice hot chocolate rn. Peace to the world
@@ohkalos lol I wasn't even smoking anything, just a mixture of sadness, realisation and contentment, but hell yeah if it was a drug I'd be taking that shit twice a day
@@RetrO_4412 thank you bro, i wish you all the same, I'm happy to know that despite being on opposite ends of a globe so vast and distant your life would be completely unknown to mine and mine to yours, we can converse and talk, I think about that sometimes. On the topic of that, what country are you from?
This is my favorite song of all time. I haven't heard it in 10 years, or more. It just played by mistake as i was peeing and had youtube shuffle on. I didn't skip this time, as the first Millie-second absolutely destroys me, Here we go... what I'm about to write is long, long overdue: I miss you, Ahmad. My bestest friend of all time. My brother I lost almost 10 years ago now... you introduced me to Aphex Twin. To my career, to my vision, to everything. I've done a lot of things I wish I hadn't since you've left. I've exaggerated, I've done everything to escape poverty. To escape the hell that we grew up in. And even though, it started working, I feel this deep emptiness inside of me. This emptiness that nothing can fill, no amount of money. Nothing. I make music all the time now. I'm famous for my voice, my music, my story, the car accident that you died in and I survived from. I cannot begin to tell you how sad I feel, and the massive ego I've developed that you would of slapped right out of me. You were always real, humble, genuine. Everything in between. I absolutely love you from the core of my soul, and will never stop anchoring your name. Remember the silly standup comedy I used to enjoy doing? well guess what buddy... I have my very own standup special coming out on starzplay, filled with the shitty, dark and disgusting jokes you always loved about me. I am dedicating it to you. You will see your name in the credits. I love you brother. I am sorry I held from hearing this for 10 years... I've been going through so much and it's so lonely. You were right. It is not a just world... it's madness, it's insanity. It's even worse than that... It's humanity. You knew it. You were 15 years old and said things that I now see come into reality and fruition. You are nothing short of the best thing that's ever happened in my life. I cannot tell you how good it feels to finally cry. I haven't cried in years. It took STN to get to me... the video with space in the back is gone, now there's a lovely monkey just monking about but it's ok. It's still STN. It's still our favorite piece of all time. I will never forget the first time I heard this, and why you told me ''this is unlike any music ever made, if anything, it's the sole piece of art that has nothing to do with planet earth, nothing to do with us here... this is the beyond '' still echoes in my ears. Wow. I forgot how good this sounds. Fuck, I miss my life! I miss my freedom! I miss everything!
Reading all these stories made me wanna share mine. My two year marriage ended a couple months ago. I honestly just wanna forget that she ever existed. At times I feel hatred towards her, at others pity and at some even compassion. The way everything hurt me back then and haunts me now is miserable. I am now in a relationship that makes everything feel different and yet I'm a prisoner of the past. I hope I can forget
Hi everyone. After spending half an hour simply reading comments while listening to this track i discovered yesterday, i thought i'd tell a little about me too. I'm not having a depression, i haven't lost any important people like some of you have. I just wanted to say that i'm 22, i've been producing music for four years now, i'm studying music in college, and my main goal is to make all of you feel things as deep as this song can make us all feel. I still haven't found the way with which i'll make you all be able to listen to things i compose, maybe through tiktok, instagram. I know that the path i've chosen is far from being the easiest one to make a living out of, but i know that i'll eventually make it, because i'm passionate. I'm still trying to find my style, but someday, you will know about me.
Lately, being alone, has gotten really calming. I’m currently healing and trying to express myself the best way I can understand and it’s so uncomfortable, but part of me likes the uncomfortable parts because it’s new and different and a little bit comforting. I like crying and feeling my feelings and feeling anxious because it makes me feel alive. I like the atonement parts and cringing at my past because I know that’s apart of growing. I mostly like being aware that I’m a human as everyone else who is allowed to experience the bad, good, and the ugly. Makes me feel important in a way. Makes me feel like I’m finally doing something that matters to me.
This song always leaved me overwhelmed with nostalgia, wondering if i made the right choices, wondering if some other version of me is living out a better life somewhere.
You are only 'you' because of your history, which is deeply and inalterable connected to everything and everyone else. And there's only one world, one universe that matters as much to you as you matter to it, a universe that would be utterly incomplete and unable to exist without you exactly being you.
This song feels like the end of all music to me. Like if the term music had an end scene. This artwork makes me think about the past, the future and the present all at once. What went wrong, what went good and what there is to come in my life. This piece makes me feel emotions i have never felt before that i also can't describe. It feels peaceful yet so chaotic. Like a sunset after a heavy storm. This is art. Thank you aphex twin.
Its wonderfully contemplative. And I agree it does feel like a credit roll song, not that it would be in a movie or anything like that, but it has that same moment of thought as you relive through the thing youve just watched and process it. Thank you for sharing friend.
This is not just music. It's an experience. A piece of art that makes you escape reality and dive into unknown memories. A piece of 3 chords which can represent a lot of things. A spark of hope, relief, and confusion. Happiness, neutrality and sadness. Earth, water and sky.
‘Melancholic’ is the only word I could think of to describe it that feels anywhere close to accurate. I think there’s just something innately human about it that connects differently to different people. Regardless, it’s an incredibly emotive piece.
It’s not the first, neither the last time I’m relistening to this masterpiece. I’ve been miserable for a great period of my life. Bullied for being fat and mute. Barely spoke to anyone because I felt no one would care and I do not matter. I hated myself more than I hated my abusive dad. I was at the edge of breakdown. Considered suicide multiple times. It was that night I discovered this song. I was 15 years old then. My mom aporached me in my room with tears in her eyes. She has found my farewell letter I’ve written a day before when my dad scolded me to the point I’ve succumbed into extreme sadness. She hugged me and sobbed. I burst into tears too. Explained that I do not want to live like this, that I’m weak and empty. She sat down with me on the bed and said words I will never forget -„What do you think I’ll do when you’re gone. What will your brother do? We’ll be devasted, without will to live” It hit hard and opened my eyes from then on. My dad’s too when he got to know about the letter. My parents didn’t broke up. Together they’ve put heart and soul to help and give me hope. This song resembles their hard work, the pursuit of saving a child from death. Words can’t explain how I adore my parents for what they did. They showed me what true love really is. If I had not written that letter, I would be gone, my parents divorced, this comment would not exist. Now I see, I do matter - I saved my family. I’ve learned to love myself and become confident and strong. Thankful for what I have and for all the bad things that happened to me.
Currently just missing the person I loved so deeply even after they left me again. I’ve never felt this way about someone before and it’s a feeling I’ve never had with anyone else. Even after everything I’ve been through, I’ve watched from a far hoping things change in the future. This song just feels like all those emotions again of feeling safe with them and also realizing it’s okay to be alone sometimes.
Hi guys, just wanted to tell you that everything is going so well im my life. That's the song I listen to when I'm sad and when I'm happy, I am grateful for this.
17, high functioning autistic, recovering drug addict for 2 years, living life on antidepressants and counseling, yet im still doing everything in my power and will to continue striving and pushing myself to be happier and more safe than i ever have every day, the arts have saved me and i feel my life and world repairing every day. 💜🖤
Hey man Im 17 too, I just wanted to say that your a hero for just trying to become better, the rest is in Gods hands. Just stay hard and focus. I know you will make it one day...
i feel safe listening to this and reading everyone’s comments. it’s good to know there are people contemplating the same things i am atm. we are not so different. we all want to feel loved. we want to be seen. idk why i’m writing this comment ig it’s just good to put your feelings out in the world in some form or another. maybe i need to do this more often in order to feel seen. hope you’re doing ok. i truly hope you feel better.
It's very good! Sometimes you just gotta start without having thought out why you're writing or what you want to say, having no expectations/plans can be the best way to get your intuition and subconscious to speak :)) I love this comment section too. Makes you feel more human, I hope you're doing great and if you don't then trust, after rain there's always sunshine
I find it fascinating how one song can resonate so deeply with such a diverse audience, each listener bringing their own unique interpretation of life, its moments, and emotions. It’s incredible to see how we’re all united by this one track, yet it sparks such a wide array of personal reflections and insights that are being shared here.
last week was the first time in my life i cried infront of People. And even tho i never wanted to get catched offguard while crying I am thankful for those friends for staying by my side and listening to my problems even tho I told them to piss of and go away. I cry not that often but i can tell it was the best cry of my life. Putting ur Head on someones shoulder and get told u are enough. Never think u are not worth it or not enough. You are.
man I cry by myself all of the time and in front of family sometimes. I truly love crying as I think it’s the only way to maneuver thru those feelings, at least to get the best outcome for yourself as I believe crying heals you. we can cry for a reason, it has meaning to it otherwise it wouldn’t be there for us to do. great job, brother. never be scared of your emotions 💪
Even though this song has no lyrics it is one of the most powerful songs ever made, It sounds as if it could move mountains if it was played loud enough. I don't get how people do not like electronic music when songs like this are in the genre. beautiful, utterly beautiful.
Musical tastes are so varried and genres/styles are labels that are so limiting that we often find our self sticking to something we know because its safe and easy. But every now and then we'll find something outside our boundary and discover something amazing!
Lyrics are not enough to describe what I feel and see in my mind when I'm listening to this. It's a simple track but it just makes you question yourself isn't our world beautiful?
Sitting in bed wondering if a new start will even help what I’m going through, new friends and faces have been refreshing but someone’s always off in life. I’m not sure if it’s me or the world around me but I feel ‘different’ no matter when I go or who I’m with. My life as I see it outside of my own head is great and I’m happy I have all I need but inside I feel wrong and undeserving I just hope a new start brings a meaning to my longing experience of life
Look at where you are Look at where you started The fact that you're alive is a miracle Just stay alive, that would be enough Look around, look around at how lucky we are to be alive right now I am not throwin' away my shot
Every few months I come back to this. Last time I listened I was at my worst and reading the comments gave me hope. Now I am back after a year or so and feel much better within myself. If you are reading this, keep going, I know its so unbelievably hard but damn its worth it.
i think i will never forget my ex, i know it’s been almost 3 years that we broke up and now she is in couple with someone for like 1year but idk man she really make me happy for a while. She was really the only thing i waked up for and she was my reason to believe in love but now it’s not the same anymore. I can’t find someone who makes me feel like when i was with her maybe i loved her too much and now i can’t let her go forever, or maybe im just weird i wish all of people here found their soulmate and live an happy life, tought night but it’s ok i think 🫤
this song feels likes being in love with someone you can’t have, watching them fall for everyone but you. that’s what’s going on for me atm at least, it’s hard and painful but at least they’re happy
This track came on when I had my first psychedelic trip. I cried for quite some time and released what felt like years of pain and suffering. This track is truly beautiful and really gets you contemplating on your life experiences
Don't worry. You'r not the only one who cried during this song, quite a few probably did but wont admit it. Means you still have feelings and that you are human as we all.
I've listened to this song dozens of times and almost each time its a different feeling. Usually peaceful but often it becomes more depressing after looking at others struggles in the comments. And if any of the people making those comments read this I wish you the best. For me right now im facing many struggles but its easier for me to overcome anxieties because im a christian and truly believe that in the end there will be peace. So once again best of wishes to all of you who are anxious depressed or in general having a hard time.
for you who are reading this message, I want you to swear that you will never give up, no matter what happens in life, always believe that something beautiful will happen.
@@candycouldntbesosweet it's bad to lose someone that you have strong feelings towards them, like you mentioned. but please remember that sad happenings can lead out into better opportunities. so even if you lose someone like her, please do remember that someday you'll find someone that can be just like her, or even better, just trust me.
It’s a Monday night/ Tuesday morning, it’s 2am and I was just about to head to bed and went to the kitchen to grab a drink then seen light shining through the window and went outside and seen it was a full moon. I don’t know why but I decided to get my headphones and listen to this song while watching the moon and stars. It’s a warm night and the sky is clear and for the first time in years I feel as if I’m at peace. I never really sit down to enjoy the little things in life cause life has been passing through so fast recently and it feels as if everything has sorta stopped and it’s just me and only me in this moment but while I was reading through the comments I was touched by the amount of people in here sharing a story so thought I’d add my own little one in here. The world is so beautiful but also so cruel at the same time, I need to appreciate things more in the sense as nothing lasts forever. I see why sunsets are so pretty, they may happen most days but only for a certain amount of time. It’s very quiet as i sit here at night time just looking up at the sky. The air feels clear, my mind feels free and the universe seems to stop for a minutes while I just lay here watching the stars in the distance and the full moon shining down. Appreciate little things like this.
It’s a Sunday morning and I’m typing this while laying down next to the girl I’m falling in love with, life doesn’t feel real rn but man I’m enjoying every second of it, she’s sound asleep and I’m just playing this in the background, life is good.
Listening to this as I’m heading into the last month and a half of being with my girlfriend. She’s moving to Australia at the start of the new year. We broke up early this year but found eachother again, I never stopped loving her. Unfortunately it was in those months we weren’t together she took the decision to move. Even though I knew this would end in pain I took the decision to be with her and make the most of what time I have left with her, she truly is the most amazing person I know and I’ve never felt this depth of love before. It breaks my heart to let her go but I know she wants to do this, I know she wants to experience life outside of the UK and grow as a person. I figure if we are meant to be, this won’t be the end, but I’m also afraid she’ll find someone else out there. I know I won’t find anyone else here, she is the love of my life.
I've been in the same situation a few years back. I hope you can find a way to follow her, or that you can find someone else you'll love as much as you love her
Go with her, you can always move back home if the relationship doesn’t work but you can never go back in time. Trust me, go with her, find a way, if not for yourself then for all of those that don’t have the option
I remember being 14 and crying to this song while reading the comments, I’m 17 now and I’m still crying because this is legit my safe space. Love u all
Today, I've been in a relationship for 6 months and 3 days, and if I'm being honest, I never expected to experience teenage love. It all happened so quickly and beautifully that I could never comprehend losing all this. I'm so happy, and I hope that you guys will be as happy as I am, or even more. Whether it's money, a partner, or maybe health, I hope you all get what you want because I got what I wanted.
It feels like being cleansed, both the external and internal part of my body feels like it’s being washed away in a stream of the purest and clearest of waters I have ever seen.
18 tired a long day and I find myself listening to this trying to sleep, life has become hard and I can't wait what it will be like when I grow up without much desire but with that young spirit of wanting to go everywhere, perhaps in love with someone girl and wanting to take on the world, quite stupid even for turning almost 19 years old. Good luck brothers, stay strong, I know you are, we have been through enough to stop overnight.
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Currently 12:05am , 24th September 2024, hey I’m Kris and i hope i’ll have a fulfilling life. I’m 18 years old and want to be a psychologist when I’m older. Next week i’ll be going to my first day of University. All I ever want is to be of importance in other’s people’s life, not just a side character. Hopefully I’ll be lucky enough to reply to this comment when I’m older as this will be my little capsule to catch up with myself. Life is fast and I intend to find peace and as I die think to myself that it was worth living. Wish me luck.
Hi Kris.
Don't let the search for importance in other people's lives turn you into a side character of your own life, okay? One has to live in order to be a positive part of someone's life, and to live is to experience and enjoy your life, not just merely survive and tick all the boxes you're supposed to tick every day. Easier said than done, and heavily dependent on one's circumstances, but trying to do it is what matters most. So try to always make some time for yourself and take care of yourself - those who love you truly will support you doing this, and those who don't will demand you give that time to them instead. Once or twice, maybe it's a mistake; regularly, it's a red flag.
Even if you know this already, take this as a reminder that there's nothing wrong with giving yourself that time. Stuff like sitting here and listening to this, time of your own and on your own. Hobbies, relaxation, personal projects, artistic expression, meditation, introspection, a walk outside. Whatever clicks for you. It'll do you more good than you know, and certainly much more than putting that time into the 'grind' of exploitation, ladder-climbing and over-exertion most of us are stuck in.
Best of luck with uni. Psychology is incredibly interesting - one of my partners is studying it as well, and I've done my fair share of diving into it but purely of my own interest rather than guided by a curriculum. If you have time, look not just at the works that serve as key points of reference for psychology, but also the works that surround them & their cultural moment. Or the works and ideas they study or borrow from, like pagan customs, religious practices of all kinds, Tarot & other "divinatory" introspection tools, tribal/shamanic healing practices, etc. The theory we're used to always feels so detached, like it popped out of thin air, but it's rooted in our interactions as a species over thousands of years and a myriad of different cultures. Taking notice of those elements and starting to examine them through a new lens is what led us here - and we still got plenty of work left.
Anyways, sorry for the impromptu wall of unsolicited advice, I see familiar patterns in what you express and I offer what I think may be helpful or interesting to you based on that.
Cheers, and have a good week.
@@BalthorYTyou are a good guy
Good luck Kris.
Also 18, last year of HS. I hope we all can achieve this.
God speed kris.
This is how it feels when a good day ends and you know you will remember this day often in the future.
Real
And you'd be kinda sad cause it's maybe not gonna happen again
Fr
yea man, yea
@@ahmedaudi5050 The chances of it happening again and again in the future are high, but think if you knew it would even happen once more. Know one day at some point it's going to happen and you'll feel as good as you felt.
This is how it feels to not know if you’re getting better or worse and you’re stuck between wanting to keep fighting or just let go
Never give up! Never surrender!
although as obvious as the answer may seem looking back in the moment you can never find the right one.
To me this struggle just makes things worse. When I‘m at peace and have accepted the world, I know that in just a few minutes or hours I will feel pain until I think I’ll break for good now. A neverending cycle.
❤
Real
I come by every now and then to read what people are leaving here. This place gives me a sense of strong connection with all of you sharing personal stories. I feel your energy, we're in this together.
We're in this together 🙏🧡
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I’m lying down next to a girl that I think I’m falling in love with. She’s asleep and I’m listening on my headphones. Life is good and also weird and also confusing and I’m also unsure. What a trip
Enjoy life, brother. That's what makes it something to write about.
I love this, brother. Those days pass so quickly, but they shape who you are forever. Enjoy the utter bewilderment of it all, and how utterly insignificant it makes you feel.
As we say here in Scotland...
'Lang may yer lum reek'.
Well, Merlin Dogs? 3 weeks has passed? How do you feel now about this girl now?
Wolf Child❤
@@wolfchild9755 if the truth be told mate I think we’re about to break up, life goes on hey 🤷♂️
@@merlindogs9703 and that's okay brother. Love just like life is fleeting, enjoy the times that were (even if they were only 3 weeks ago) because the most beautiful moments in life are often followed by the hardest.
Currently recovering from two emergency brain surgery's. Sitting in my garden with a coffee on a beautiful sunny morning, sun on my face, breeze gentle blowing the trees, birds chirping and singing, the distant sound of cars going by all add more beauty to this track. Happy to still be here 🙏🏻
Good!
💙💙💙💙
wish you all the best for your recovery
Good job!
I hope that is the last of your medical problems for a very long time!
I‘m 24 years old. A couple weeks ago my girlfriend broke up with me afte nearly 4 years. One week later my Grandpa died. He was like a Dad for me. Taught me so much things, made me the man i am today. One week later my grandma died. She always believed in me and my brother. Twi weeks later my other grandpa almost died too, but he got it and is in relative good condition now. I‘m proud of you and thank god for it. I learned a lot about myself so far, but the Journey isnt over yet. So much happened. I miss my girlfriend and my grandparents every day. Lost my Motivation for life, but i have to fight to get it back. Be kind, always, you never know what people are going trough.
Sorry for your loss Brother. I wish you nothing but power and strength. God Bless you
Im so sorry for your loss i hope everything will be ok
@@a.....8958 Thank yoooouu!
@@yahyaibragimov2296 thank you too!! Damn whats happenig here. Never felt so great to know there are so many people you dont know care about you! Hope you guys are allright!
Don't give up stay strong
I remember a blizzard in CO in 2007. I was driving home from work in my dad's truck, the sun was dipping, the wipers going. I had this track playing on a CD I'd burned, and it hit perfectly in that moment. It was just a flash of time in the grand scheme of things, but this song can always pull me back right to it: I can see the purple-gray sky through the frame of snow on the windshield; I can hear the wipers going back and forth; I can feel the heater warming my face even as my feet are cold; but most of all, I can feel myself being happy to go home and have dinner, to watch a show with mom, to hear dad buzzing around in the background doing whatever.
Life is very different now, halfway across the country in a place with no snow. Dad passed away in January. Mom seems much older, tired, worn out. I'm no longer the kid driving home under a blizzard after 8 hours at a not-so-great job.
But for 10 minutes tonight I could be that kid again, and I was happy to be home.
bro that made me tear up, I'm glad you had those good times
Hope u still feeling home these next days... Love your words, thx for what u've wrote here ❤
beautiful
just want you to know that reading this with the song in the background drove me to tears. thank you for sharing your story
She’s my first thought in the morning when I open my eyes, and my last thought when I close them. I hope one day our paths converge again, for good this time. Forever and always.
Man this is accurate
I hope so too...
Man that's real
Thank you
dude tell her not us this is beautiful
This is not just music. It’s like a blank canvas, upon which we can paint our emotions, thoughts and stories.
Beautiful
I've read through a lot of what this comment section has to say and this is very accurate. There's beauty, sadness, love, loss, confusion, pain, and everything in between. Hundreds of different stories in here about every deep human emotion all brought up by this one song, amazing.
You are so right
Well said
This is so well put. I think that most good art whether a piece of music or a painting has this quality where it gives us a means of reflection and can bring stuff out of us that gets buried.
I’m currently 17, I just finished my first trimester of junior year. Hopefully i’ll come back to this song later on in my life and realize how good my life was during this time. To the future me, thank you for sticking around, be yourself. Enjoy the people you have around you. I know it’ll get hard. You need to help yourself before you help others.
Damn bro i hope your doing good so far. Hows live been?
we are in this together man. its hell but i can tell this is the last time i have before i lose the child in me, which is probably already gone. 17 feels so young yet so grown, why do i feel this way at such a young age 😭
@@type2406 i’m also 17 and i feel the same way man. i felt like a little kid last year and i’m gonna be an adult in 3 months. wtf 😭
You will look back and realize, trust me.
Enjoy every moment you have left as a child. You’ll look back eventually and you need to make it worth your while
I'm 23 and was told by doctors yesterday I have a tumour growing in my foot for the past 3 years and has eroded away a good chunk of my heel bone. Waiting to get a biopsy and listening to this really helps me ground myself and process what's ahead for me.
Sorry to hear that. I hope you make the best of this rough situation.
I hope the world wouldn't lose a person with such a cool human . I dony know you but I hope I do
How’s it going man?
“If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present.”
-Lao Tzu.
👏
2023 version ending: If you are at peace, you should check your pulse, you are probably dead.
"I didn't say that" - Laozi
Still a nice phrase though, but.. Not written down in the Daodejing
thank you,this reminded me to not sorrow over lost past
@@westarrr you are correct, I tried to research where this quote came from but i wasn’t able to find anything. I did find that a lot of very old quotes are often credited incorrectly though. Very surprising because this has been one of my favorite quotes for years. Much love man
I like to imagine that, here, at the comment section, we just gather around this music and share bits of ourselves. Total strangers, who happened to cross each other's ways by bumping into this random, yet special, piece of art.
stories are how we connect. even if its only the briefest glimpse.
This comment section is like bros round a camp fire telling stories and thinking about the past
Yeah RUclips comments on music centric videos is always this basically
Telling and sharing stories is a very special and human thing, like ancient peoples gathering around a fire…
The internet turned out to be so messy but comment sections like these take me back to the early days of the internet. Just a bunch of totally unrelated people doing their thing and connecting without a hidden agenda. This is what I love so much about the internet.
I’m a 36 year old orphan. I lost my Mom to lung cancer in April of 2020 and I lost Dad to lung cancer in March of 2022. In between that, I lost my younger brother to chronic alcoholism in 2021 when he was only 29. It’s depressing to think the people you spend the most time with throughout your life will eventually just disappear.
I hope you are fine man
No one is given an immense pain like that without the possibility of being able to conquer it. I believe the strongest people get tested the most. I wish you the best man keep your head up❤️
im sorry
I'm sitting outside right now and smoking a cigarette. This week I finally dared to write to an ex who has been haunting me for 6 years. I don't know what will come of it and this song describes the ignorance, fear and emptiness that I feel. I have been feeling this emptiness for a while now, but it has never been as present as it is now.
Sorry if it is not written correctly English is not my native language
Listening to this song for the first Time and accidentaly watched the latest comments. Never felt so close to a stranger as i saw you wrote this a minute ago, maybe your cigarette isn’t even finished. Just wanted to wish you good luck, cause its sometimes everything we need. I think the emptyness you talked about is a truly human feeling, Even of you’re stressed never forget that you’re alive. Everything will be alright.
How it went? if it went wrong, I just wanted to say to you that stop chasing someone who doesn’t chase you ❤
@@Mr_Karre I met with her and we talked for 6 hours. It felt like everything was back to normal. I don't know if it was a one time thing or if she wants to see me more often and since I don't want to pressure her, I'm waiting for the right time to write to her again or a message from her
This song makes me appreciate what it is to be human. In a world full of deception and false glory, going through core emotions with yourself is still so real. Especially while listening to this song… take care.
Today I was found not guilty for a crime I didn't commit, it's been a brutal 6 months and this song came in my feed. With that and reading the comments, it made me tear up and value my life more
Gang I'm here for you, don't you forget that. One is all you get charish and nurture the moment of which you have.
@@User-_-Invalid thanks 😊
You got this brother, stay strong and enjoy every day of your life because as you may know, you never know when things might change
I am currently fighting a case of robbery, aggravated assault as a juvenile, a crime I did commit, I have court coming up in June, any advice? I'm currently on house arrest.
@@initial2593 no advice but you’re not alone..
Hopefully, someday, I come back again to this song, and feel better than I feel right now.
same
Sending Love and good wishes my friend
One Earth
One Family 💙
How are you doing today
@@AMH793 I second this. Hope you're doing well and are at peace.
you will man.
I like the way how we are all together in this space atleast for this brief moment❤.
Не могу подобрать слов. Со слезами обнимаю тебя и всех;)
Желаю всем нести отсюда этот заряд долго, а потом возвращаться за новым!
@@Los_.- 🫂🥹
This comment section is gold. I love how everyone talks about life, feelings, meanings etc. This shows how much music affects us people.
Hm, I'd argue that it's especcially this particular song, if you ask me, I'd probably the best song I've ever heard, for a few reasons
Only me, I talk about the monkey
@@DESIGNLIKEART About the monkey, too, I guess
TRUE
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two days ago i had one of the worst days of my life and cried for more than an hour straight while watching videos of my dad who comitted suicide a few months ago and now im sitting at my dining table studying classical mythology with the sun shining off and on through my window thinking 'oh what a wonderful world we live in. it is going to be okay' and it is. it will. i am speaking to you, someone who is also having a tough time, you will find moments where you'll think this exact same thing, you will find peace and light and safety again. and i believe in you and i love you and i still miss my dad and wish he was here but i also still love him very much. and time will heal all wounds i promise
I’m so proud of you
you're so strong. Bless you
You are the kind of person I look up to and aspire to be. I'm certain what you feel is more than you can ever put into words, and I hope the moments where you can think that come to you as often as they ever possibly can.
When I was in utero my dad would play aphex twin and place headphones on my mums stomach. He used to wake me at dawn and bundle me in his arms as we strolled to the crisp Cornish beach to catch the sunrise listening to ambient works. When I was older he’d wake me up on nights where his insomnia was particularly bad and we’d stroll to the beach arm in arm watching the stars. I came across this as I’m sat in a daze alone in my bedroom. I’m 24 now, just under four years ago I woke to find my dads body after he took his own life. He requested #3 Ambient works as one of the songs for his funeral. I can’t listen to that album anymore without feeling deep turmoil, but this song gives me some will to fight. I feel as if my silhouette is a lightbulb and I could shatter at any moment but even still, there’s something in me willing to find the light.
💔
You had an amazing dad.. treat your future child with similar childhood without negatives. I find your story beautiful. Its very sad but you wrote it beautifully
I am so sorry for your loss. I did the same for my children when they were in utero and since. Your dad sounds like a good man.
After my sister died, my dad gave up. I was twenty at the time. He didn’t end his life in one tragic event, but after he died we learned he was having heart problems and instead of seeking treatment that would have absolutely prolonged his life for decades, he chose to embrace death. He even asked days before he died if I would be able to take care of myself if something were to happen to him. It’s crazy to think I knew he needed peace in that moment, without knowing the consequences, and I told him I would be ok.
My younger sister held onto anger for him for a long time, but I never did. I knew his soul was in pain and thus couldn’t see how much pain he would leave behind. My sister always runs through her head why we weren’t enough to keep him going, even ten years later. Would he have been able to hold onto his will to live if it was one of us and not the sister who died before him? I never thought that way, though. I know he couldn’t see the burden he would place on our shoulders or all the things that took place in the wake of his death. He didn’t know. And I’ve never felt a thing but forgiveness for that, for we are all human.
Your father was a great man. An angel in a cruel world. You're an angel too. Be strong king!!!
I don’t got any trauma to share or amazing story to tell, just feeling happy rn. Going into grade 12 next year and worried about what uni’s I might go to or what I’ll actually get accepted into. Who knows. Guess we just gotta wait and see. What a strange place this is
If anyone is reading this have a great rest of ur life
You too man i wish you the best
enjoy grade 12 bro. I had a hell of a time my last year in highschool and tons of memories were made.
11 seconds it took for 10 minutes of tears.
Rewind, swollen eyes, endless gaze, soul empty, mind paralyzed.
Rest in piece my best friend.
I miss my cat, my rabbit, my cockatiel and my parrot.
@@jackassir6060 I truly trust with all my heart you’ll see your friends again. They flourish now with you in their heart.
@@jackassir6060yeah I miss my cat. Had him for 15 years as I grew up and had such a bond with him unlike any other. This music makes me reflect on past times good and bad. As much as we want them back, it’s apart of life to live, love, grieve and appreciate the family, friends or companions we lost. Thankfully we had the memories and that never goes away.
If life was a videogame, this would be its main menu theme.
Life is a video game
*Afraid of Monsters*
а главное меню - это земной шар крутящийся такой, как в spore каком-нибудь
@@guerrace3210 no te entiendo
@@OJIO3000 in the main menu there would be our planet, slowly spinning, something like in Spore
My 8 year relationship fell apart last January, it’s transitioning from fall to winter now, for the entirety of 2023 I was stuck in limbo, not knowing what to do with myself everyday felt like a repeat. Listening to this while waiting to clock into work, I can feel 2024 will start a completely new and foreign chapter in my life. I am at peace now.
glad to hear how you're dealing with that, you got this bro
Congrats man! On to better things
Never Trust women they let you fall if your not enough for them anymore
Hey bro, I can’t imagine what that would have felt like but I’m glad you have found peace, I wish you all the luck with moving on with your life ❤
Hey, keep going, i totally got that, i think im falling down the same path with my gf and feel i cant do anything about it… 2024 will be a better year hopefully.
So recently I’ve been seeing this girl and she’s everything I could’ve asked for but it’s weird cause I remember at the end of last year I sat down with a good mate of mine and we were talking about if we had the perfect girl, what would she look like, how would she act and starting listing all there traits and fast forward 8 months later, I’m literally looking at her every time I see her. It still doesn’t feel real to me but man she’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me, I gave up on looking for anything and haven’t talked to anyone real in years but man after crossing paths with her, it’s all been worth the wait. Good things happen when you least expect it and take it from me, I wasn’t even looking at all and remember seeing her and she lit up the room and can still picture it from the night we met. Every time I’m with her, it’s like the whole universe goes quiet and it’s just me and her. I love you Ruby forever and always ❤
seen your other comment. I hope it goes well with her :)
good luck
I’m a 22 year old single father. I lost my job a couple days before thanksgiving and have just finally gotten a new one. I’m falling in love for the first time since the mother of child left us for alcohol over a year ago. I’m healthier than I’ve ever been. I’ve regained my love for reading. I have picked up new hobbies. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been even though I’m in the most stressful position I’ve ever been in. Things get better. Life has a billion small joys that must be sought out. Keep going and you can find them.
god bless you man.
Real!
22 and a father? I bet you'll have a great connection with your child when they grow up a bit..that's awesome.
Don’t ever give up ❤️🩹
That’s so good to hear keep at it king 👑
Listening to this while I‘m zoned out in my bed and suffer because I lost my Dad who was my hero, my idol and my best friend through all these times. I still can’t get over it and have to think about him everyday.
Today would‘ve been his birthday… Happy Birthday Dad, I love you and I always will
Im sorry your dad has passed on, rest in peace to him and a happy continuous life journey to you stranger
@@Natetive Thank you man, means alot to me. Best of luck for you too
He will always be by your side. Stay positive and make him proud. But I am sure he already is. 😊
I wish the best for you in life mate, rest in peace to your father. I lost mine at 6 months old, I am now nearly 24 and not a day goes by that I do not think about him. Push yourself and be the best person you can be.
I'm so sorry for your lost. Just would like to remind you, you are not alone. You are strong enough to keep going.
I lost mine last year, two months after I lost mine grandma, and he told me after that day, "the carrousel of life stop for a sec, she goes down, and the carrousel started again, life goes on"
Wish u good luck
Ive instructed my friends and family for years that this song is to be played at my funeral. There should be no eulogy, no talking, just this song and silence. Played one time, and then its over. Everyone is to go home, and get on with their lives.
Over the years much has changed, but not this. Never this.
damn thats cool
Nice writing sir, endurance is key to life. In all aspects
They mean it when they say funerals are for the living
Right now its 3:58 am
Im a 16 year old from south africa. I really hope i live a good and fulfilling life. I wanna travel, see and experience new things i started talking to a girl named alexandra and shes the sweetest person ive ever met. Her smile lights me up inside, im gonna come back to this comment in 10 years
I'm listening to this knowing it is time for me to take action and chase my goals because nobody is going to save me, to all of you out there i wish you the best guys we can do it. I Belive in you🙌
I've been struggling alot lately and thinking of giving up. Thank you stranger, I needed this
I'm so glad I see these kinds of comments from time to time.
Everyone, let us not lose hope. One day, the sun will shine for us.
i think most of us don’t realize how technology has changed us and how intertwined and connected we became. the total opposite is being said, we are being told that we are losing connections bonds with people but here we are millions of total strangers gathering in a comment section offering a look from a small window to our lives. we come together to tell our story, share our pain and cherish our good memories. we are human and we are connected. it is incredibly hard for me to live a life where i dont stop and think about the others who walked on the same streets as me or drank from the same cafe as me. it is exhausting at most times but sometimes it can be comforting. i go through the comments read bits and pieces of you guys’s lives and i smile, i get sad with you or i relate to your struggles. then when its time i like your comments and wish you the best. to all the strangers out there reading mine comment, have a wonderful day❤
♥♥♥♥♥
I hope u have a great week man
have a wonderful day too
not an realistic view brother, local communities are being destructed by social media, for example in the west no stranger ever talks to each other with good virtue like we used to do before the internet
Intertwined sure... connected? No
In my opinion, this is the greatest song ever made, it feels like the finale to all music, the ending of everything, a good ending
The true ending.
Yeah now i suggest "windowlicker" and "come to daddy" from the same artist 😳
@@P.G.ABD99 I’ve heard both, I’m a huge aphex twin fan but this is definitely his best song imo
@@EthanG2214 i was just suggesting man.... my favorite is actually alberto balsalm
agreed
dude i'm just tired of feeling so lost. i don't even know where life is taking me, it's just like i'm always on autopilot waiting for something to happen
make sure you make the best of these moments. i totally understand man, its torture. you want your life to be yours. but it still can, even if thats on a smaller scale. you can pursue passions and creative hobbies. attempt to make fun out of the mundane. uproot routine and do something completely spontaneous. be consumed by time as you meander somewhere on a walk or in your mind. take control from the bottom up.
that isn't professional advice or anything, but it's what I've picked up in my experience from feeling very disconnected and not understanding what im meant to be doing or where im going in life.
much love.
you’ll look back on these days and realize you were stressing for nothing, enjoy it now
Fascinating how he managed to make 3 chords remain interesting for over 10 minutes. I suppose minimalism is one of the driving factors in a good ambient track.
Richard or the monkey ?? Lol
It's extremely subtle, but there are elements being added and taken away throughout the entirety of the track. The rhythmic length of the 3 chord sequence also changes and extends/contracts. So there is change, but it's incredibly subtle.
Excuse me, this is Aphex Twin we're talking about. That level of quality is to be expected.
Nairam Diam yeah but it is just three chords tho
idk. it's okay when you're falling asleep but it's not intented for active listening imo.
Autechre's Vletrmx which basically has just like 5 different notes over 4 bars repeated for seven minutes sounds much more interesting and alive than this.
Currently laying in bed, listening to this masterpiece, overthinking everything that’s happened, thinking about what I could’ve done better or changed in my life to get to where I am. I feel like every time I’m at my lowest point in life I notice everything that’s happening around me, who’s really there for you and who’s not, the pain and struggle just hanging from my shoulders, the thought of giving up, always fatigued, no motivation or drive to do anything fun anymore, distancing myself from my loved ones, just mentally drained at this point. Whenever I come back to this sound it just keeps me at peace, and for anyone going thru the struggles right now, just know that this shit is temporary, we’ll be out the gutter soon! The people who were there for you when you had nothing keep them close, I know it’s tough but you gotta thug it out for your loved ones, Stay strong Kings! don’t let the struggle tear you apart. ❤️👑
yo we ain’t perfect, but we’ll all make it
Thank you for this.
Thank you
Thank you for this. Needed that! 🩵
Same brother
With this song as a witness, today will be the day I revert back to the good man I once was. I promise myself to no longer procrastinate. To not waste the life that millions would kill to have. I will realize my true potential. I was given a back to bear weights, not to turn it towards the people I love. I promise to be good, help others, and die great.
i love you for this you will make it ❤
you don’t wish to be anything, you are a good man, a great one.
We are your witness brother do it for him her and us
this is such a 3am lifeshaping comment😹
Amen
I played this for my father today who is 94 he can't see very well and couldn't see this beauty being in the water but he sat with his eyes closed listening meditating on it and every two or three minutes saying 'wow'.
Wow
Amazing !
Bless your dads heart ♥️ I don’t even know him and I love him, and you.
I can't imagine what listening to this at age 94 would be like. All those years to reflect on while listening to this would be incredibly poignant yet comforting. like the ending credits to a powerful movie. thanks for sharing :)
Honey Mayhem I love you too
this is a certified hood classic
Damn son
I read that in that dudes voice
dog with headphones
@@-thesignpainter9486 YES.
@Андрей Славиков This guy has to be the most enjoyable person to pass the time
J’ai les larmes aux yeux en regardant certains commentaires les gens sont bienveillants parfois et c’est beau,
Cet musique je l’ai découvert il n’y a pas si longtemps et elle dégage une telle émotions c’est fou,
J’ai 18 ans et je suis marin j’écouterai cet musique quand je prendrais le larges,
It’s 6:48 in the morning I’ve been lost in my own thoughts and couldn’t sleep, I listen to this amazing song and can’t help but feeling some kind of peace, im going to sleep now, stay safe out there and have a nice life to whoever reads it.
6.29 here enjoy what time u have left bro
3:22 rn here bro, just happened something bad and i wish u the best
И тебе мира, человек!🖐️
I'm at the lowest point in my life while listening to this. I have a tumor in my knee and am unable to jump, run, or stand properly without pain. About a month ago I was driving home when someone turned out in front of me, resulting in a tbone wreck that totaled my car and injured me mentally and physically. Although I have recovered from the physical injuries, the wreck has caused me to become depressed again and demotivated to push toward my goals or even do the things I usually enjoy. I've spent the last couple years alone and in pain, wishing for at the very least a friend who can understand me. I turn 17 soon and I am in the same place I was years ago, but now I discovered this music. I hope that sometime in the future I can look back at this comment and see how my life has improved and changed for me.
Didn't I just see u in a meme asylum post comment section
Yeah, I also hope that after some years you will be able to proudly say that your life is improved. Rooting for you, bro, so never give up
Mucha fuerza para ti
You got this bro, the dark times will pass you, ik it feels like it won't but take it day by day, and in no time you will be where you wanna be. I believe in you
Hey, you are not alone mate! We hear you, i feel you! Everything happens for a reason, there is only upside from here ! When times are good be grateful, when times are bad be graceful. NEVER GIVE UP!
Im 20 and I feel like I have gone through a crucial moment in my life. I cleaned everything within my reach, whether virtual or personal. I've been trying to get it out of my way, out of my heart, all of my past and who I am no longer. It's hard to watch time pass and not be able to do anything. sometimes I just wish I could stop all the pressure and pressure that life imposes on me and be able to breathe, be free. I feel like one day I'll make it. If anyone is reading this, know that everything will be ok. If u feel like u need to, clean up everything in ur life like I did... people u follow, channels u subscribe to, content u follow, people who are in your life and don't add anything, they are no longer on the same vibe. It's not like before, u know? sometimes clearin the path in whatever way we can is the first step towards change. I don't say all this based only on the virtual, but on life.
If u are reading this whatever time and day it is... clear your way, cleaning is the first step. Im clean now.
Listening to this before I go into surgery for a brain tumor. I just found out about this two days ago, and it feels like everything has been put into perspective much faster than I’d like. This song is a safe space for me. Thank you aphex and everyone else for sharing your various stories in the comments ❤
How did the surgery go? Are you alright?
I've never hoped more to see a reply from a "complete stranger" in my life, but you aren't a stranger, you're here and we're all for you!
😢
how are you bro??
...
"It's gonna be f***ing cold when I stand up outta this water. I'll just sit here a little longer....."
Like me in my bath until the bath gets cold too..
Same with humans clinging on to life.
Me every morning under the shower
Hahaha
@@ruthking5994 Dumb person.
Comment #6
Even though i'm repeating this proccess over and over again, i believe one day i'll become what i really want to be, and i feel happy that i'm here to experience all this. I love being able to experience this song over and over again, to see this video, to read the comments, i just love this video, i'll come back here once in a while so this comment section keeps being alive. I love you all! Wish you all the best
I go to sleep to this song almost every night. It makes me feel like I’m truly drifting away into the universe.
How weird, I started doing that like a month ago! I also tried with other songs from "Selected Ambient Works Volume 2", usually just "Rhubarb".
And it's truly a great feeling, so soothing. Glad to see I'm not the only one!
Aren't we all tho?
@@Agostoic you are so true!
are we all living the same life
@@Damian-nk1mwin our own unique and special ways
I remember when my parents divorced and I was barely able to see my dad. All of the friends I grew up with at my dad's place, I never got to see them that much. I was stuck at my mom's in a small apartment, in a school where I was bullied every day and had no friends. Everything was torn apart and gone. For 4 years, it went like that. Finally I got the chance to get a custody change and finally went back to my dad's. I'm back with all my old friends but everyone's grown up, all the old stuff we used to play with like the swings at the park are old and rusty now. My mom moved to Europe and now I just have my dad and stepmother. I'm happy now, and I just discovered this song and I feel some connection. Just remembering the few vague happy and bad memories from my mom's. Time has flown by so fast. Everything's changed, and I'm growing up now. Good luck to you all.
Good luck to you too!
This was amazing, I wish you well. Thanks for sharing.
Good luck, I wish you the best
Glad you moved on. Some people don't get a chance to. Concentrate on happiness now and don't waste time regretting what might have been. Good luck to you!
The escence of life is change… which is tamed by time, our worst enemy. The flow of itself is painful to live through, everything we knew eventually begins to fade away and all we are left with are pieces of something beautiful that used to be. I understand exactly how you feel. Something was snapped away from our hands and not even time can make it better, all we can do to cope with the loss is to win new memories👣
A friend just recommended this track, I've been listening to it for close to an hour. It is such a roller coaster of emotions, am I happy, am I sad? I don't know.. but it sounds like peace
Came here from tiktok video talking about how beautiful thr comments are under this video 😅
@@soomro2002same xd
Its a ride huh! So much comes across from such a simple movement of notes. Embrace it!
@@soomro2002 I came here from really stupid Markiplier memes
Hey I’m Lucas, 23, I haven’t done anything big or extraordinary in my life, never had a girlfriend, my best friend lives a country away from me, my mom left my dad 2 years ago and since then he isn’t the same, living with him is hard, a few months ago I met a wonderful woman on a dating app, she is 17, lives in Brazil, and I am the happiest I’ve been in years, I laugh almost everyday thanks to her, she brought peace to my heart and mind, in 2 months I’m leaving my dad’s house to go to Brazil, I’m heartbroken of leaving my 18 year old cat, but she is too old to take a airplane and she is a bit senile, she couldn’t live in a new environment. Writing this tears appeared in my eyes. I hope life is gonna be better and easier, for me, and for you.
This makes me feel that everything is as it should be
"The world doesn't need saving. The world is perfect the way it is."
- Harry D'amour (Everville; Clive Barker, 1994) -
@@robertcanuti750 😊
Exactly what I think when I arrive home 5 o'clock in the morning. Everything is ok. I just need some sleep.
And you will be right because it is.
@@dpachannel2052 watch Matthew Walker's TED Talk on sleep 🙂
I’ve been fighting the urges to harm myself these past few days. I’ve felt like this is my lowest point. I’ve been suffering from drug addiction for the last 6 months and I can’t get sober. The other day I crashed my car and then I found out the only person I cared about never gave two shits about me. Thank you aphex twin for this masterpiece, it’s made me realize that there’s light at the end of the tunnel
Edit : thank you guys for a the comments they mean alot
You got this buddy, shit will work out in the end🩷
Keep going brother
buddy u got this. please keep the strength to take care of yourself. you are important.
keep pushing man ❤
hey man im just about to hit 6 months sober and if a 16 year old kid like myself can do it then i know damn well you can too. there’s people in your life that will help you regardless of what happens, they are just waiting for you to be willing to accept the help you need
Currently 02:05 in the cold night of oktober, my window slightly opend. This song feels like the cold breeze blowing to the side of my face, thinking about if i said something at that exact moment, that she would not left me. That if i did not said those few words, it would have changed the whole thing. Love yourself, before giving love to another
Damn bro i hope u will find the right one.
Just imagine : this song, outside its like cold but not to cold just u and her at a beautuful quiet place and your just there and talking and having a good time.
Damn i wish i can expirience something like that one day and i hope that for you too buddy.
Keep it up.
@@mattis_1909 Bro much love man. I hope that you will have that experience too one day💪❤️
@@Faze_bearXD ty bro 😁❤️
Life is a gift from god I feel like this song makes me wanna share about life no matter how complex or hard it gets it has it’s beautiful moments where it makes you think damn what a gift and even in the moments of darkness you know there will eventually be light and go back to those moments knowing you helped yourself where god helped you get through those moments and live a life no matter how it’s goes at the end of it you always have to say thank you to a wonderful journey
As I’m listening to this, it made me realise just how truly blessed I am to be alive. For the longest time I’ve felt lost, as if my life is heading in no direction and it has no substance whatsoever. Everyday I wake up and it feels like my life is on repeat, as if it is an unbreakable cycle. But coming here and reflecting on everything has made me realise something: I should cherish each and every moment I have, even when times are tough. As long as I’m here, I still have a chance. So if you see this and you’re at rock bottom know this: you’re still breathing, so make it count.
Thank you
Genuinely, thank you.
Lying on my bed, four minutes in and I am pushing on my eyes forcefully with my sweater so the tears don’t run down my face. Nostalgia is the worst feeling ever, no matter who you are and how good life’s been to you, you can’t escape the wanting of what once was. I can never get it back, and you probably can’t either, the question is are you strong enough to live with it? 4:38
We're in a middle of a big war in here and this song gives me a moment of silence
Stay safe man❤
Where u from?
Jerusalem
@@orehod476 oh man stay save alr?
Godspeed my friend, stay safe and healthy. Hope to see you back in this comment section!
I wish I could have a conversation with myself from ten years ago, little man didn’t deserve to go through what he did.
you are doing that exact thing you're describing, healing your past self and realizing the strength you have
Reading the comments about the people that grew up with this song is really touching, knowing that I’m going to grow up with it, too.
We must return to monke
Damn fr you just gave me a existential crisis at 12:32 am .. bruh I shouldn’t have ate that Burger King liek I shoulda just stayed home ya know :/ hungry
@@deafgordon2187 Reject fast food. Return to vegetables and meats
ape together stronk
You all may think it’s a joke but I fr changed since then lol
Based
I still miss her. A lot.
I feel Aphex Twin will be one of those "classical" artists still listened to and studied in 100 years from now as a genius of his time, like we do now with classical composers from the 18th and 19th centuries.
nah
@@user-bf6gz8ej4o yah
@@xcvii7110 nah
@Mwmwmwm Msmwmw buddy he made his music 3 decades ago. As if
Same with William basinski
Man, I almost just fell asleep listening to this, so peaceful. If anyone ever reads this comment, idk ur cool, life is life and I really feel like a nice hot chocolate rn. Peace to the world
I want what you're smoking. peace brother
@@ohkalos lol I wasn't even smoking anything, just a mixture of sadness, realisation and contentment, but hell yeah if it was a drug I'd be taking that shit twice a day
Have a good life man i really think that
@@RetrO_4412 thank you bro, i wish you all the same, I'm happy to know that despite being on opposite ends of a globe so vast and distant your life would be completely unknown to mine and mine to yours, we can converse and talk, I think about that sometimes. On the topic of that, what country are you from?
@@RetrO_4412 It's been about 3 weeks and I wanted to thank you. Life has been good. How has yours been?
This is my favorite song of all time. I haven't heard it in 10 years, or more. It just played by mistake as i was peeing and had youtube shuffle on. I didn't skip this time, as the first Millie-second absolutely destroys me,
Here we go... what I'm about to write is long, long overdue:
I miss you, Ahmad. My bestest friend of all time. My brother I lost almost 10 years ago now... you introduced me to Aphex Twin. To my career, to my vision, to everything. I've done a lot of things I wish I hadn't since you've left. I've exaggerated, I've done everything to escape poverty. To escape the hell that we grew up in. And even though, it started working, I feel this deep emptiness inside of me. This emptiness that nothing can fill, no amount of money. Nothing. I make music all the time now. I'm famous for my voice, my music, my story, the car accident that you died in and I survived from. I cannot begin to tell you how sad I feel, and the massive ego I've developed that you would of slapped right out of me. You were always real, humble, genuine. Everything in between. I absolutely love you from the core of my soul, and will never stop anchoring your name. Remember the silly standup comedy I used to enjoy doing? well guess what buddy... I have my very own standup special coming out on starzplay, filled with the shitty, dark and disgusting jokes you always loved about me. I am dedicating it to you. You will see your name in the credits. I love you brother. I am sorry I held from hearing this for 10 years... I've been going through so much and it's so lonely. You were right. It is not a just world... it's madness, it's insanity. It's even worse than that... It's humanity. You knew it. You were 15 years old and said things that I now see come into reality and fruition. You are nothing short of the best thing that's ever happened in my life. I cannot tell you how good it feels to finally cry. I haven't cried in years. It took STN to get to me... the video with space in the back is gone, now there's a lovely monkey just monking about but it's ok. It's still STN. It's still our favorite piece of all time. I will never forget the first time I heard this, and why you told me ''this is unlike any music ever made, if anything, it's the sole piece of art that has nothing to do with planet earth, nothing to do with us here... this is the beyond '' still echoes in my ears. Wow. I forgot how good this sounds. Fuck, I miss my life! I miss my freedom! I miss everything!
I saw your comment about Ahmad on the heliosphan video too. Hold these memories close mate - life is both beautiful and painful
🖤
❤️❤️❤️
You're an excellent writer. Hope all is going well
That was an amazing read
Reading all these stories made me wanna share mine. My two year marriage ended a couple months ago. I honestly just wanna forget that she ever existed. At times I feel hatred towards her, at others pity and at some even compassion. The way everything hurt me back then and haunts me now is miserable. I am now in a relationship that makes everything feel different and yet I'm a prisoner of the past. I hope I can forget
You feel like you lost a piece of yourself?
I'm sure you can. And I'm sure you will just give yourself time don't be to hard on yourself. Hope this help. I wish you the best.
Hi everyone. After spending half an hour simply reading comments while listening to this track i discovered yesterday, i thought i'd tell a little about me too. I'm not having a depression, i haven't lost any important people like some of you have. I just wanted to say that i'm 22, i've been producing music for four years now, i'm studying music in college, and my main goal is to make all of you feel things as deep as this song can make us all feel. I still haven't found the way with which i'll make you all be able to listen to things i compose, maybe through tiktok, instagram. I know that the path i've chosen is far from being the easiest one to make a living out of, but i know that i'll eventually make it, because i'm passionate. I'm still trying to find my style, but someday, you will know about me.
Lately, being alone, has gotten really calming. I’m currently healing and trying to express myself the best way I can understand and it’s so uncomfortable, but part of me likes the uncomfortable parts because it’s new and different and a little bit comforting. I like crying and feeling my feelings and feeling anxious because it makes me feel alive. I like the atonement parts and cringing at my past because I know that’s apart of growing. I mostly like being aware that I’m a human as everyone else who is allowed to experience the bad, good, and the ugly. Makes me feel important in a way. Makes me feel like I’m finally doing something that matters to me.
This song always leaved me overwhelmed with nostalgia, wondering if i made the right choices, wondering if some other version of me is living out a better life somewhere.
😪
I recoment to you Mr. Nobody movie
You are only 'you' because of your history, which is deeply and inalterable connected to everything and everyone else. And there's only one world, one universe that matters as much to you as you matter to it, a universe that would be utterly incomplete and unable to exist without you exactly being you.
Stone in focus makes me feel like things could have turned out differently.
This song feels like the end of all music to me. Like if the term music had an end scene. This artwork makes me think about the past, the future and the present all at once. What went wrong, what went good and what there is to come in my life. This piece makes me feel emotions i have never felt before that i also can't describe. It feels peaceful yet so chaotic. Like a sunset after a heavy storm. This is art. Thank you aphex twin.
Its wonderfully contemplative. And I agree it does feel like a credit roll song, not that it would be in a movie or anything like that, but it has that same moment of thought as you relive through the thing youve just watched and process it. Thank you for sharing friend.
This is not just music. It's an experience. A piece of art that makes you escape reality and dive into unknown memories. A piece of 3 chords which can represent a lot of things. A spark of hope, relief, and confusion. Happiness, neutrality and sadness. Earth, water and sky.
‘Melancholic’ is the only word I could think of to describe it that feels anywhere close to accurate. I think there’s just something innately human about it that connects differently to different people. Regardless, it’s an incredibly emotive piece.
It’s not the first, neither the last time I’m relistening to this masterpiece. I’ve been miserable for a great period of my life. Bullied for being fat and mute. Barely spoke to anyone because I felt no one would care and I do not matter. I hated myself more than I hated my abusive dad. I was at the edge of breakdown. Considered suicide multiple times.
It was that night I discovered this song. I was 15 years old then. My mom aporached me in my room with tears in her eyes. She has found my farewell letter I’ve written a day before when my dad scolded me to the point I’ve succumbed into extreme sadness. She hugged me and sobbed. I burst into tears too. Explained that I do not want to live like this, that I’m weak and empty. She sat down with me on the bed and said words I will never forget -„What do you think I’ll do when you’re gone. What will your brother do? We’ll be devasted, without will to live” It hit hard and opened my eyes from then on. My dad’s too when he got to know about the letter. My parents didn’t broke up. Together they’ve put heart and soul to help and give me hope. This song resembles their hard work, the pursuit of saving a child from death. Words can’t explain how I adore my parents for what they did. They showed me what true love really is. If I had not written that letter, I would be gone, my parents divorced, this comment would not exist.
Now I see, I do matter - I saved my family. I’ve learned to love myself and become confident and strong. Thankful for what I have and for all the bad things that happened to me.
Yes, you DO matter. And so does your story.
Much love.
omg that is so nice to read these days were all hope for humanity is so low, im so gratefull for you, take care!
I hope good things come your way
Damn this made me cry. Thank you so much for sharing. Glad you're here, dude.
You have a real talent with words. A beautiful story.
Currently just missing the person I loved so deeply even after they left me again. I’ve never felt this way about someone before and it’s a feeling I’ve never had with anyone else. Even after everything I’ve been through, I’ve watched from a far hoping things change in the future. This song just feels like all those emotions again of feeling safe with them and also realizing it’s okay to be alone sometimes.
Hi guys, just wanted to tell you that everything is going so well im my life. That's the song I listen to when I'm sad and when I'm happy, I am grateful for this.
Happy for you :)
@@XPak0tiE
Whoever made this is a person with an exceptional understanding of sound and music.
Richard D. James. Greatest electronic musician of his scene
Monkey did.
Aphex Twin aka Richard D James aka AFX. I agree with the other commentor, he is simply the best electronic musician.
suddenly everyone turns into a philosopher in the comments when they hear this
Antidote: ruclips.net/video/Xt2IcK78NOw/видео.html
Let people be Introspective. When do they get a chance to do that. They found 10 min in there day
@@kidsundays They get a chance every moment of their lives you dingus donkus
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@space space I do, doopy woopy
17, high functioning autistic, recovering drug addict for 2 years, living life on antidepressants and counseling, yet im still doing everything in my power and will to continue striving and pushing myself to be happier and more safe than i ever have every day, the arts have saved me and i feel my life and world repairing every day. 💜🖤
Hey man Im 17 too, I just wanted to say that your a hero for just trying to become better, the rest is in Gods hands. Just stay hard and focus. I know you will make it one day...
The perfect song to reject humanity and return to monke
it’s just a monkey
@@drakeward7904 it is NEVER just a monke...
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@@RyanSmith-wo2pi .
yes my bradda
i feel safe listening to this and reading everyone’s comments. it’s good to know there are people contemplating the same things i am atm. we are not so different. we all want to feel loved. we want to be seen. idk why i’m writing this comment ig it’s just good to put your feelings out in the world in some form or another. maybe i need to do this more often in order to feel seen. hope you’re doing ok. i truly hope you feel better.
It's very good! Sometimes you just gotta start without having thought out why you're writing or what you want to say, having no expectations/plans can be the best way to get your intuition and subconscious to speak :)) I love this comment section too. Makes you feel more human, I hope you're doing great and if you don't then trust, after rain there's always sunshine
I find it fascinating how one song can resonate so deeply with such a diverse audience, each listener bringing their own unique interpretation of life, its moments, and emotions. It’s incredible to see how we’re all united by this one track, yet it sparks such a wide array of personal reflections and insights that are being shared here.
last week was the first time in my life i cried infront of People. And even tho i never wanted to get catched offguard while crying I am thankful for those friends for staying by my side and listening to my problems even tho I told them to piss of and go away. I cry not that often but i can tell it was the best cry of my life. Putting ur Head on someones shoulder and get told u are enough. Never think u are not worth it or not enough. You are.
Beautiful. It's OK to cry. It's OK to feel. Pretty sure that's how you know you're human.
man I cry by myself all of the time and in front of family sometimes. I truly love crying as I think it’s the only way to maneuver thru those feelings, at least to get the best outcome for yourself as I believe crying heals you. we can cry for a reason, it has meaning to it otherwise it wouldn’t be there for us to do. great job, brother. never be scared of your emotions 💪
Even though this song has no lyrics it is one of the most powerful songs ever made, It sounds as if it could move mountains if it was played loud enough. I don't get how people do not like electronic music when songs like this are in the genre. beautiful, utterly beautiful.
Musical tastes are so varried and genres/styles are labels that are so limiting that we often find our self sticking to something we know because its safe and easy. But every now and then we'll find something outside our boundary and discover something amazing!
Lyrics are not enough to describe what I feel and see in my mind when I'm listening to this. It's a simple track but it just makes you question yourself isn't our world beautiful?
Sitting in bed wondering if a new start will even help what I’m going through, new friends and faces have been refreshing but someone’s always off in life. I’m not sure if it’s me or the world around me but I feel ‘different’ no matter when I go or who I’m with. My life as I see it outside of my own head is great and I’m happy I have all I need but inside I feel wrong and undeserving I just hope a new start brings a meaning to my longing experience of life
chill out newgen
@@00ooo000oall u do is comment the same shit but hard aria of sorrow pfp
@@sahzukaa not aria of sorrow! are you a newgen as well?
Look at where you are
Look at where you started
The fact that you're alive is a miracle
Just stay alive, that would be enough
Look around, look around at how lucky we are to be alive right now
I am not throwin' away my shot
Thanks friend
Thank you for this :)
this is a fucking hamilton reference
beautiful my friend
what the heeell dude these hamilton lyrics were so on point /gen /pos
Every few months I come back to this. Last time I listened I was at my worst and reading the comments gave me hope. Now I am back after a year or so and feel much better within myself. If you are reading this, keep going, I know its so unbelievably hard but damn its worth it.
this songs comments really are a therapy in a way..
i think i will never forget my ex, i know it’s been almost 3 years that we broke up and now she is in couple with someone for like 1year but idk man she really make me happy for a while. She was really the only thing i waked up for and she was my reason to believe in love but now it’s not the same anymore. I can’t find someone who makes me feel like when i was with her maybe i loved her too much and now i can’t let her go forever, or maybe im just weird
i wish all of people here found their soulmate and live an happy life, tought night but it’s ok i think 🫤
this song feels likes being in love with someone you can’t have, watching them fall for everyone but you. that’s what’s going on for me atm at least, it’s hard and painful but at least they’re happy
I listened to this song a lot when I was in love with a guy who couldn't care less about me, I agree
This track came on when I had my first psychedelic trip. I cried for quite some time and released what felt like years of pain and suffering. This track is truly beautiful and really gets you contemplating on your life experiences
-"released what felt like years of pain and suffering"
what I need most these days
@@sk7w4tch3r tap into your heart chakra through meditation :) this is bound to help release trapped emotions if you are to have any blockages
Don't worry. You'r not the only one who cried during this song, quite a few probably did but wont admit it. Means you still have feelings and that you are human as we all.
I was about to cry when I first heard this too but my mom was watching me
This song calms anxiety like a drug. Feels so peaceful, but kind of sad too. I think that's a life well lived. Put the past to rest, everyone
I've listened to this song dozens of times and almost each time its a different feeling. Usually peaceful but often it becomes more depressing after looking at others struggles in the comments. And if any of the people making those comments read this I wish you the best. For me right now im facing many struggles but its easier for me to overcome anxieties because im a christian and truly believe that in the end there will be peace. So once again best of wishes to all of you who are anxious depressed or in general having a hard time.
for you who are reading this message, I want you to swear that you will never give up, no matter what happens in life, always believe that something beautiful will happen.
I swear bro I'll never give up
@@kys_003 take care :))
thank you
thank you, I just lost the girl of my dreams ❤️🩹
@@candycouldntbesosweet it's bad to lose someone that you have strong feelings towards them, like you mentioned.
but please remember that sad happenings can lead out into better opportunities.
so even if you lose someone like her, please do remember that someday you'll find someone that can be just like her, or even better, just trust me.
Guys, He finally put it on Spotify!!
thank you RDJ
It’s a Monday night/ Tuesday morning, it’s 2am and I was just about to head to bed and went to the kitchen to grab a drink then seen light shining through the window and went outside and seen it was a full moon. I don’t know why but I decided to get my headphones and listen to this song while watching the moon and stars. It’s a warm night and the sky is clear and for the first time in years I feel as if I’m at peace. I never really sit down to enjoy the little things in life cause life has been passing through so fast recently and it feels as if everything has sorta stopped and it’s just me and only me in this moment but while I was reading through the comments I was touched by the amount of people in here sharing a story so thought I’d add my own little one in here. The world is so beautiful but also so cruel at the same time, I need to appreciate things more in the sense as nothing lasts forever. I see why sunsets are so pretty, they may happen most days but only for a certain amount of time. It’s very quiet as i sit here at night time just looking up at the sky. The air feels clear, my mind feels free and the universe seems to stop for a minutes while I just lay here watching the stars in the distance and the full moon shining down. Appreciate little things like this.
It’s a Sunday morning and I’m typing this while laying down next to the girl I’m falling in love with, life doesn’t feel real rn but man I’m enjoying every second of it, she’s sound asleep and I’m just playing this in the background, life is good.
Listening to this as I’m heading into the last month and a half of being with my girlfriend. She’s moving to Australia at the start of the new year. We broke up early this year but found eachother again, I never stopped loving her. Unfortunately it was in those months we weren’t together she took the decision to move. Even though I knew this would end in pain I took the decision to be with her and make the most of what time I have left with her, she truly is the most amazing person I know and I’ve never felt this depth of love before. It breaks my heart to let her go but I know she wants to do this, I know she wants to experience life outside of the UK and grow as a person. I figure if we are meant to be, this won’t be the end, but I’m also afraid she’ll find someone else out there. I know I won’t find anyone else here, she is the love of my life.
I’m sorry man. I really am. I hope in the end you see it was all worth it
@@Mr.Nobody2077-u1u thank you ❤️
I've been in the same situation a few years back. I hope you can find a way to follow her, or that you can find someone else you'll love as much as you love her
Go with her, you can always move back home if the relationship doesn’t work but you can never go back in time. Trust me, go with her, find a way, if not for yourself then for all of those that don’t have the option
go with her homie
I remember being 14 and crying to this song while reading the comments, I’m 17 now and I’m still crying because this is legit my safe space.
Love u all
You've been crying for 3 years straight? Hope you're alright...
@@brett_kendrick82 Better than you I'm sure 🙄
@@brett_kendrick82 lol
Run forth young whippersnapper. Live, love, learn.
I was like 15 first listening to aphex and now Im 26
time flies mane
Today, I've been in a relationship for 6 months and 3 days, and if I'm being honest, I never expected to experience teenage love. It all happened so quickly and beautifully that I could never comprehend losing all this. I'm so happy, and I hope that you guys will be as happy as I am, or even more. Whether it's money, a partner, or maybe health, I hope you all get what you want because I got what I wanted.
words cannot describe the way this song makes me feel.
and yet, in some way; they just did.
They can, bliss.
It feels like being cleansed, both the external and internal part of my body feels like it’s being washed away in a stream of the purest and clearest of waters I have ever seen.
It's called awareness, consciousness, existential
@@PlayingGamesRN GOT EM’
18 tired a long day and I find myself listening to this trying to sleep, life has become hard and I can't wait what it will be like when I grow up without much desire but with that young spirit of wanting to go everywhere, perhaps in love with someone girl and wanting to take on the world, quite stupid even for turning almost 19 years old.
Good luck brothers, stay strong, I know you are, we have been through enough to stop overnight.
I can’t tell if this song is happy or sad, but I feel both.
it’s like when a smell gives you a faint memory and feeling, but you don’t know from where when or why or what feeling it is
melancholic
I like to think this song is just…right. Yknow?