Thanks for sharing. There's a bunch of people out there that goes through similar things, and hearing it spoken out loud by someone else actually helps many of them.
Man, I feel you. I've also struggled with depression myself, and hearing you speak about your experience made me tear up. Very glad to know that you're still grinding. Keep on keeping on, brother. I also really enjoy your content. Keep going, keep grinding.
I feel you man. I have a lifelong injury for my time playing hockey in college. Fell into depression, broke up w/ my gf of four years. The Souls series has always been a safe place for me. Glad you're still w/ us bro.
I don’t usually comment on videos but I just wanted to say that I recently found your videos on RUclips and I’ve been binge watching them and the lore on Elden ring and I just got to this video and it just broke me down and made me cry at the fact that I felt very similar to you in a lot of ways and our lives had completely different courses but it really just hit me about your childhood and what video games were like back then and trying to be a content creator was treated like, especially the fact that I am just now in life feeling OK to start doing that for myself and I also just turn 27 so thank you for this video it was something that I didn’t know I needed to hear.
And you gotta keep pushing king, I literally felt the same exact way you expressed your comment, but take it day by day, keep moving forward, we all gotta get thru difficult times together, shit why don’t people get others social media on here like that, we can all connect even if we’re far, stay strong fellow tarnished 🤞🏼
AgtJake it was great to hear your story. I've struggled with depression and have visited the dark corners of my mind where life just doesn't seem worth it. I have also spent many long hikes here in Arizona, they are great for clearing your head when it's not a thousand degrees out. I am so glad you found something you love, video games have done that for me. Hang in there and keep making content. I am always excited to see your next lore video!
As somebody who lived in Hollywood, Florida and grew up in Miami, Florida I can definitely relate to your story of getting attacked right in the driveway. Glad they only took a few things and you got out of there safely!
Thank you for your honesty man, it's never easy to bear your soul like that. I struggle with depression too and can definitely relate, especially with finding solace in extraordinary game worlds like From Softwares. Elden Ring's been incredible, and so is your content, so keep on keeping on!
I've been suicidal and depressed myself. Knowing what it's like to be in that place, I have a huge amount of respect for you. Both for still being around and also talking about it. Hugs
As someone who just lost his dog of 18 years this video was extremely nice for my overall mental health, shits just always gunna be sad but people like you genuinely make me feel like everything's going to be ok 👍 thank you.
Sorry for your loss dude, that’s the equivalent of losing a close family member when they are that old. The only thing that helps me personally when people I love / pets I love pass from old age is just know they aren’t in pain anymore.
im going trough a difficult phase at the moment, my leg decided to stop working and i feel dizzy whenever i move, doctors cant figure out what is the cause and im being evicted soon, elden ring is literally what keeps my sanity in check lmao
I become a Tarnished after this video because I really appreciated learning about the person behind my favourite Elden Ring Lore Videos. You're one of my new favourite content creators. Thanks for sharing your story, it's super relatable, I've just been diagnosed with ADHD, Aspergers and Complex PTSD 😀 (it's a relief tbh) Its pretty much been me, my dog, fish and a few stray cats along the way for the last 7 years. I make friends easily but don't get on with my family. I'm just really glad your parents have been there for you when you needed them the most, I wish I had a mum like yours ❤️ I wish you all the best on the future. I'm really good at Square Enix games but haven't had the guts to try the Dark Souls series but the lore of fromsoft games give me life. You have been keeping me company when I've felt alone so thank you. You content probably helps people more than you will ever really know. Take care Sorry for the essay 🖤
Hey man, Happy to hear you are doing better. I found you on this content and I’m excited to see what you do in the future, eldin ring or not. Don’t let stuff knock you down. you’ve been through a lot and that strength to get back up after falling is a trait you should be more than proud of. Keep up the great work and take care of yourself! - a huge fan
Good on you sir, I also have horrid bouts of depression so it's wonderful to know someone who's content I enjoy is being happy and enjoying life. I truly hope you keep thriving. Never give up.
Your story was heartbreaking to hear, but also inspiring. Thank you for sharing Jake, I wish you all the best in your life, never stop fighting! I'm glad you chose to, quite literally, touch some grass and realized life is a beautiful precious thing :) edit: literally made me cry like a baby jfc
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I can't tell you just how much I relate to the whole "packing my belongings and moving them neatly into a corner to make it easier after I'm gone" admission. Wanting to end your life is one of the scariest things anyone can go through. I still get those thoughts from time to time but I just want to see so much in life that there's always something to keep me going. Best of luck with the future of the channel, I just know you're going to make it big someday. Looking forward to the journey!
I feel you, man. I went through some things very similar to what you experienced and I would like to reinforce what you said: Guys, if you're going through some dark times now, please know that it really can get better. Please don't give up. Please try to do what's best for yourselves. You can do it!
KCMO here. I know exactly what you're going through, brother. Very similar feelings over here and feel stuck not knowing how to change it. I'm happy for you dude. Hearing your story gives me hope. Sorry for how cheesy I sound but it's straight from the heart
We’re very glad you didn’t go through with it. It’s very helpful you shared this because I’ve been going through the same thing and you’ve helped with your videos.
Respect big man. Plus, your Radahn lore video got me into Elden Ring. I never played any Souls game and you helped me get into one through lore alone. So thank you
So glad I found this channel! DS3 was my first souls game and it changed my life. And now I listen to your lore videos every night because they bring me comfort. Thanks for sharing your story ❤️
I'm 40 with BPD, manic depression and some really awful chronic anxiety. I was diagnosed at a fairly young age (early teens) and have struggled ever since. The constant combinations of meds long term, manic highs and lows, absolute shit show. I don't like comparing notes to those who share, but sharing is one of the best things you can do. Honestly, the past few years have been pretty brutal and Elden Ring was one of the things that kept me going. Sounds weird to a lot of people, but I really don't think it is. Finding things to keep you going, whatever they may be, that's so fucking important. Glad you are still around and making cool stuff. Cheers from Portland. 🖤🤘🏻
your content is not only consistent, but it really gets the elden ring community engaged with the lore that fromsoft so often leaves up to interpretation. your channel is up there with some of the best, if not the best lore content creators ive seen on this site. keep it up man, it only gets better from here
Going through depression my self, I can totally understand how the smallest words or reactions of others can effect you. I really enjoyed the vedio, it reached something in my heart. Glad you are in a better place now, I too liked elden ring very much, but I'm still struggling, I hope we all get better and more excited for life.
You too tho brother, you gotta stay up and strong just like our boy, life is hard af and I’m going thru it too, but man this video made my day and life teaches you so much, but it’s hard going thru depression, we gotta tell ourselves that we are not gonna be in this position forever, elden ring saved my life too, I didn’t know my direction, I’m sorry for anything your going thru, I hate being in dark places and so does everyone else, we gotta turn our mindsets around, even when it’s hard, Ik bro, but look I have love for all the people who came down to watch this video and express themselves, much love bro, please stay strong, keep playing games that make you feel the world, if you need to talk we definitely can bro, be safe and stay strong fellow tarnished
We all play Elden ring and you help us understand the game and its ins-and-outs. This video truly gave hope to me and I believe many others. Thank you.
Thanks for sharing man. Video games can definitely have that effect on people. I have a similar story to yours, and without giving too much details, I too got to a point where I wanted to end it all. At the time, I was playing World of Warcraft and told myself I want to at least have the super rare dropped mount, Invincible, before I go, as that was the mount I really wanted the most. At this point, that raid tier was already soloable, and with my four max level and geared toons, I started farming the boss on a weekly basis. This took years and multiple expansions, and became something to look forward to every week, and without realizing it, I actually continued living and stopped thinking about that dark thought. And by the time I -finally- got the mount, I was beyond ecstatic that I didn't even remember why I started farming it, until I had to share this exact story to another friend who was also going through a dark place. Up to now, video games, along with therapy, have helped me keep my mental health positive. I am by no means a popular RUclipsr, not even close, but doing my video game recreations of my favorite video games have the same effect as farming that Invincible mount, and keeps me happy and going. 😁 Glad to know you're out of your dark place and now enjoy life! I've been seeing your content and enjoy watching it, but this story just made me a full fledged follower of yours. 🙏
People think I'm exaggerating when I tell them about DkS1's effect on how I view life, specifically it's challenges, and how it's responsible for my success today. I won't bore everyone with the details but I'm summation; I learned that you only go hollow when you stop trying. That everytime you bang your head against that wall that seems impossible to break through... each attempt makes the goal seem a little less impossible. Until you inevitably succeed. It might take 100 tries, but failure is baked into the experience.. not a set back.
Hey dude. From one 27 year old Jake to another, you’re not alone man. Our end goals may be different, our paths may not the same, but we ultimately want the same thing. Personal happiness and growth. I’m glad I came across your channel the past few weeks. I’m also working my way out of tough situations, but this will be the definition of our character. These terrible thoughts are not what defines us. They are the hurdles we must pass to continue to grow. How you’ve handled this situation so far has kept you alive. Kept your ambitions alive (foul tarnished). It’s all good to feel defeated and like a failure. Without that lesson of failure, you won’t ever reach your full potential. Keep it up dude. Loving the content.
I'm glad you are still with us, I've watched your videos for Elden ring since I bought it and you've helped me understand the world we're experiencing. I'm currently at 176 hours in and the only main boss left is radagon but I find my self retracing lore footprints to one of your videos or another content creators work for large swaths of time because the game is so interesting. You have something valuable in the way of lore crafting and I for one am glad that you're around
Thank you for your story I lost my brother he was alone in his apartment as well and did the same thing pack his things as if he was leaving I don't like talking about it but I miss him so much but I'm happy your still here the journey is not over my friend despite all the roadblocks we go through and I love elden ring also best game ever helped me as well I love to see the messages other players leave makes me laugh a little and to see I'm not the only one playing the game 💙 keep your head up keep pushing bud👍
The last 10+ years have been rough for me, constantly sick and frail. This year got even worse. January I started having a really bad time, couldn't go out hardly at all, couldn't drive, couldn't play games. It was miserable. I found out that I had been having very bad seizures and while having answers it was still very difficult to understand and accept it. Still couldn't play my favorite games because those were what were triggering a lot of the seizures. I know having elden ring has literally saved me too. It got so bad right before it came out that I just wanted to give up. I've absolutely hyper fixated on this game, watching multiple play throughs, every lore video I can get my hands on and of course finally playing it myself. It's been a big help. I hope things continue to get better for you dude ♥️ life is very hard but you've got this!
I'm 29 years old now and i Suffer from Depression i think 10 years now... cant find a way out... would love to stream and play games with people all over the World but im from germany and its Hard to Do so here... keep your Heads up guys! Better times will come... eventuallly
this game did the same for me. it came out just in time and i really needed it. i had a surgery in january and couldnt move for like 4 months and depression started sinking in hard until this game came out. it kept my mind busy until i recover enough to go back to work.
Thanks for sharing your story! We're roughly the same age (I'm 27), and I can relate to a lot of your experiences. The Souls games gave me so much joy during some of my darkest years, and now that I've successfully found the light at the end of the tunnel (excuse the cliche), I get to celebrate my newfound stability with Elden Ring 😊 These games are the best in the industry, and I'm glad that they helped you, too. Keep doing what you're doing, and best of luck!
Good for you man !!! You've done well for yourself . I love your lore videos well thought out and well articulated . I can relate in a way oct. 2020 my wife whom I genuinely loved told me marriage over get out ... No joke , I was devastated and depressed but was able to get through it with the help of some good people . Who I have come to consider friends , I met them playing dark souls 3 !!! So thanks Charlie and Denise love you guys and thank you from soft and thank you Jake for sharing your story . Stay strong brother and keep the awesome vids coming !!!
Hey you, yeah you with the face.... I found you through watching Elden Ring lore and I love your content and your story is great man I'm sure you'll help a lot of people who are down and out on their luck so keep up the good work you beautiful bastard! 💪🏽😁👍🏽
While I can't say I've experienced the same hardships as you have, I can fully relate and empathize with your struggles. I vehemently applaud you speaking out about these issues. We need more RUclipsrs like you being forthcoming with their audience. We need more legitimate humans behind the "screen". Monetization and commercialization has had the effect on RUclipsrs of projecting a fake personality and life. Thanks for your time making great lore videos and happy to be a sub of your channel.
Really appreciate this video. Mental health is a huge deal and nobody likes to talk about it. The honesty in this is amazing. I literally stumbled on your channel by accident and having loved elden ring just subscribed because I know it helps ppl and it costs me nothing. Also your dog is the shit and I also have a dog so I’m partial to dog people lol but I actually do watch your videos and I can’t say that for every channel I’ve subscribed to so keep your head up my man!!
Bro, thanks for sharing, people have a stupid habit of letting you down over and over again. Glad to see you didn't give it up and managed to turn things around! I found your channel 1-2 months ago bc i also dove head first on Elden Ring (almost a month late really, money things) and begun "lore hunting" on the internet while playing. My relationship with Souls games was "bumby", for lack of a better word. My first Souls game was Demon's Souls, i had no F-ing idea what i was doing and the game pretty much broke me, i gave it up and went on do other things, but as the years went by and more Souls and Souls-like games came out i began thinking that maybe it was finally time to try again, i was older and a bit better at videogames (and internet), so as practice i bought Bloodborne, and from there, there was no turning back anymore. I'll prolly go back and play the other Souls games i've missed along the way, but for now i still have more Elden Ring to play and wait for DLC. The future looks bright for FromSoft and the community.
Jake you’re killing it rn. i love all of your videos and am excited always excited for the next lore video to come out! thanks for trucking thru the dark times to find your dreams coming true.
I'm so glad you pushed through all the hard times! I know how it is, and fromsoft games are actually some of the best when it comes to helping ppl with depression! They give you challenge after challenge that you will always have everything you need to overcome them, and that's a powerful thing for those who feel hopeless and stuck. And the addictive lore is a great distraction, too! Keep up the excellent videos! I look forward to each one!
Thank you man! I had a similar experience and i can say that this game along with ds3 helped me a lot! I consider art that thing that gives meaning to life and explain some things that we couldn’t express and these games make just that. The beauty, tue horror, the hardness, the endless deaths and the joy of succeeding…all tools to help us understand what makes us tik.
Hearing your story made me emotional and for that you get a sub lol. Very too real and relatable. And it takes a lot to be able to talk about all of this stuff online. And you have the same tastes as me with Skyrim and souls game lmfao
I found out your channel today. I fall in love with your lore videos immediately. You seem like a good dude, I'm really glad you are feeling better. Good for you, mate.
Glad things are starting to work out for you jake! Ive been dealing with depression recently aswell, I just started getting some help. i know you dont like rl that much but if you never streamed it i probably would've never met you. Thankyou for doing what you do im happy for you
I could empathize with point after point of your experience, the specific ups and downs sounding so familiar. I love intimate storytelling, always having played games for immersion. At my lowest point I researched all dark souls lore I could find, despite never having played, only to find Elden Ring about to release. I'm someone who also found greater purpose/meaning through Fromsoft's worlds, so thank you for telling your story!
Hey Jake I’m glad that you are doing better. You’ve earned it my friend. Personally myself I’ve never been in such a dark place in my life but I truly believe on that saying of you fall, fall on your back, if you can look up, you can get up. Best wishes for you. Ps. Man I wish I would have ran into you in Phoenix you would have kicked it off with me and my friends.
I'm glad I know this. I shed a tear when you said that your mom took a plane just so she could drive home with you. that's incredible. I do have to say though that exercise and eating better will not cure all depression especially clinical. medication will always be the surest bet. exercise and diet help substantially in improving one's mood absolutely yes but a lot of us are still broken beyond that. I'm glad you were able to get out of your own head but again that's not the norm for most diagnosed cases. regardless, I'm always happy when people with audiences speak about their own mental health struggles. eventually it won't be stigmatized. I'm very happy that you're doing better now.
Thank you for being so honest and sharing your life's journey with the world. This is why i've played every from soft games since Demon Souls. It always gave me a sense of purpose in a world where you need centuries to figure yourself out and no one helps you besides some special people that cross your path from time to time. Souls Games resemble many painful aspects of life but helps you to cope with the outer circumstances and even connects you with a community of awesome people that also had to deal with hardships in their own life. I just subscribed and wanted to wish you all the best for your future :)
I feel this pretty hard. Super happy to hear your story. Personally, suicide hasn't seriously ever been on the table for me, but depression and anxiety are a bitch. Absoulutely hated my life for so long. It's really only becuase of my family that I have made it this far. Being the youngest of 4 who's a little on the slow side has usually put me in a co-dependant situation. FromSoft games teach a valuable lesson about the importance of struggle. Which is that we all have to experience it but we can choose how to process that struggle. We try to learn and grow from our anguish. So recently things have been on the upswing for me. I also have struggled with weight loss and inactivity. But I'm turning over a new leaf. After almost a decade or so I finally got an AA Degree, a Car, and I'm ready to get in shape and I've started blacksmithing to learn some skills and tap into my creative side, and hopefully start a buissness from it one day. Don't succum to the franzied flame, rejoice at life and let struggle propel us further.
Yeah, I found you because of Godwyn's Lore Hunting video and I found your way of discussing the game's lore quite interesting. This idea of gradually discovering more and more about the game was quite different from most videos on RUclips, which present everything at once to the viewer. I know this kind of video gets worn out quickly because so much of the game has already been discovered, but it would still be nice to have you back with the Lore Hunting series. I don't agree 100% with your theories, but overall I think your videos are pretty cool. Congratulations on the content and thanks for sharing your story.
Thank you for sharing and I’m glad that you’ve taken a turn, the world will always be a better place with people like you in it and I look forward to watching the channel grow
(sry for my bad englisch in first place!) i break out in tears cuz i feel kinda the same what you have done in life, it feels like im the only one who have did this what you said. you show some ppl there not alone with depressions or addictions.. thanks for sharing! dont look to the Grond and keep it up! i fell in love with your elden ring content! you did everything right with your channel! Thanks!
I don't usually write comments (my bad,cant help it as I usually don't think my thoughts are worth the time to read) but I had this time. Proud of you for making it through those times. And a good example for anyone in the same train of thought. I have been there, I know it takes a lot of str to get through it. wishing you all the best.
Thank you for being this honest about it. I've put off, and put off, even though I desperately want to be a content creator, but I'm always afraid I'm going to make the video, edit it, title it, upload it...and of course, nothing is going to happen, and nothing will continue to happen. I actually have gone through the process, downloaded everything, learned to edit, and got...nothing. 20 views? If that. So of course it can be soul crushing, and life is just depressing in general, take it from someone on 4 meds and in therapy now. This was super brave.
GOD DAMN I FELT THIS! As soon as you said you were 27 It it hit me like a train. BIG same on all this except golf, i went skateboarding. anyway im 26 and i felt alot of this. Except the college stuff...the beginning henny way Great vid, felt this.
FromSoftware’s games pulled me out of a hole I never thought I’d find my way out of. I’m glad there are people like you where they saved others as well. Thank you for sharing your story. Be safe friend. Don’t you dare go hollow. ❤️
Glad you shared this man it’s an important topic and takes a lot of courage to put yourself out there. Love your content, especially the lore videos. Thanks for what you do man!
Bravo! I clicked on this video based on the title and am so pleasantly surprised by what you had to say and the way you said it. Just another Elden Ring enthusiast hungry for good content; looking forward to checking out your backlog of videos and whatever is still to come! Courage.
I first got here bc i too wanted to get to know more about the lore of the game, and suddenly i found myself watching every single one of your videos man i found them really cool and very well explained which made me want to watch them all and it became my background sometimes as i played elden ring until the end of the game and for that i thank you , keep it up knowing you made it here
Thanks man i love hearing your story it hits so close to home for me I even tried playing it for my girlfriend to help her, I'm here no matter what content you bring man
Your contents in regards to the elden ring lore is fascinating because you go in depth into explaining them in which I believe most of your speculation is believable lol. Overall your content is fantastic man keep up the good work. Oh btw you have a really good voice to explain lore in general too, so keep going at it.
You are doing an amazing work! Your videos helped me realize what elden ring was really about. You sound like a great guy, dont ever stop doing what you are doing!
Even before this video I thought you deserved much more subscribers for the sheer quality of content you put out. I’m sorry you went through all this. Don’t you go hollow.
Good on you for sharing with us bud! I can definitely relate to a lot of what you said. Thanks for hanging on there, and for these videos! And thank you to Elden Ring and FromSoft for this amazing game lol Skyrim was also the last time I really felt like this over a game 👍
I just feel you. I'm not me anymore since years and it's even hard to remeber who I was. Gulty, sadness, bad thoughts in general are devastating me costantly but I'm not giving up on them. I suggest to you to seek psycholgic help from a professional because you don't know if you will fall again in that black hole called depression, and seeing someone might help you even if you are at the highest point in your life. Also: that Majula host hits hard ♥
Keep it up man, depression is a bitch and it hits all of us in different ways, elden ring has also helped me in the same aspect....it gives a sense of belonging and a sense of confidence when you succeed at something so challenging. Just keep that grind goin brotha, live your videos man.. souls games are a brotherhood and we're all here for ya, praise the erdtree!
I have over 240 hours still on the first playthrough, just beat Melenia, and am finally at the final boss but honestly trying to keep it rolling by going through as many questlines that are still available to me at this point. You might want to try ESO at some point if you liked Skyrim. Been playing it off and on for 7 years and is fun getting on with my friends running dungeons/PVP or even keeping it single player running quests. I thoroughly enjoy your content. Keep up the good work, take care of yourself, and congratulations!
New subscriber to your channel, but wanted to say, have really appreciated your approachable, thoughful, and thorough analysis of the lore, as well as how you've handled the setbacks from the reddit and youtube crowds. Really enjoy your elden ring content, hope to see more of it when the DLC comes out, or if you do other lore dives in other fandoms
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Thanks for sharing. There's a bunch of people out there that goes through similar things, and hearing it spoken out loud by someone else actually helps many of them.
Exactly this
Keep it up man. You've come a long way, with no where to go but higher.
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Elden ring is gonna die soon too, the hype is dying everyday lol
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Man, I feel you. I've also struggled with depression myself, and hearing you speak about your experience made me tear up. Very glad to know that you're still grinding. Keep on keeping on, brother. I also really enjoy your content. Keep going, keep grinding.
Currently experiencing some very similar down times in life atm, but this is giving me hope to stick it out. Thank you Jake
I feel you man. I have a lifelong injury for my time playing hockey in college. Fell into depression, broke up w/ my gf of four years. The Souls series has always been a safe place for me. Glad you're still w/ us bro.
I don’t usually comment on videos but I just wanted to say that I recently found your videos on RUclips and I’ve been binge watching them and the lore on Elden ring and I just got to this video and it just broke me down and made me cry at the fact that I felt very similar to you in a lot of ways and our lives had completely different courses but it really just hit me about your childhood and what video games were like back then and trying to be a content creator was treated like, especially the fact that I am just now in life feeling OK to start doing that for myself and I also just turn 27 so thank you for this video it was something that I didn’t know I needed to hear.
And you gotta keep pushing king, I literally felt the same exact way you expressed your comment, but take it day by day, keep moving forward, we all gotta get thru difficult times together, shit why don’t people get others social media on here like that, we can all connect even if we’re far, stay strong fellow tarnished 🤞🏼
AgtJake it was great to hear your story. I've struggled with depression and have visited the dark corners of my mind where life just doesn't seem worth it. I have also spent many long hikes here in Arizona, they are great for clearing your head when it's not a thousand degrees out. I am so glad you found something you love, video games have done that for me. Hang in there and keep making content. I am always excited to see your next lore video!
As somebody who lived in Hollywood, Florida and grew up in Miami, Florida I can definitely relate to your story of getting attacked right in the driveway. Glad they only took a few things and you got out of there safely!
Thank you for your honesty man, it's never easy to bear your soul like that. I struggle with depression too and can definitely relate, especially with finding solace in extraordinary game worlds like From Softwares. Elden Ring's been incredible, and so is your content, so keep on keeping on!
I've been suicidal and depressed myself. Knowing what it's like to be in that place, I have a huge amount of respect for you. Both for still being around and also talking about it. Hugs
As someone who just lost his dog of 18 years this video was extremely nice for my overall mental health, shits just always gunna be sad but people like you genuinely make me feel like everything's going to be ok 👍 thank you.
Stay strong, I hope you’re doing okay. I’ve got two of my own and they’re both getting up there, I can’t imagine how you must feel
Sorry for your loss dude, that’s the equivalent of losing a close family member when they are that old.
The only thing that helps me personally when people I love / pets I love pass from old age is just know they aren’t in pain anymore.
Sorry you lost your dog. Take care ❤️
Lololol
im going trough a difficult phase at the moment, my leg decided to stop working and i feel dizzy whenever i move, doctors cant figure out what is the cause and im being evicted soon, elden ring is literally what keeps my sanity in check lmao
I love seeing a creator like this be vulnerable in order to help their viewers. Cheers to you, keep the amazing content coming
I become a Tarnished after this video because I really appreciated learning about the person behind my favourite Elden Ring Lore Videos.
You're one of my new favourite content creators.
Thanks for sharing your story, it's super relatable, I've just been diagnosed with ADHD, Aspergers and Complex PTSD 😀 (it's a relief tbh)
Its pretty much been me, my dog, fish and a few stray cats along the way for the last 7 years. I make friends easily but don't get on with my family.
I'm just really glad your parents have been there for you when you needed them the most, I wish I had a mum like yours ❤️
I wish you all the best on the future.
I'm really good at Square Enix games but haven't had the guts to try the Dark Souls series but the lore of fromsoft games give me life.
You have been keeping me company when I've felt alone so thank you.
You content probably helps people more than you will ever really know.
Take care
Sorry for the essay 🖤
Bro I’m glad that you changed your life around, like genuinely glad man
Hey man,
Happy to hear you are doing better. I found you on this content and I’m excited to see what you do in the future, eldin ring or not. Don’t let stuff knock you down. you’ve been through a lot and that strength to get back up after falling is a trait you should be more than proud of. Keep up the great work and take care of yourself!
- a huge fan
Love you, buddy! I hope people realize mental health is just as important as physical health.
Your channel rocks and so do you!
This is inspiring dude, I've been struggling to finish and post my projects and this makes me feel not alone. Thank you for sharing.
Thanks for this story bro depression is scary but being strong enough to talk and admit it
Good on you sir, I also have horrid bouts of depression so it's wonderful to know someone who's content I enjoy is being happy and enjoying life. I truly hope you keep thriving. Never give up.
Your story was heartbreaking to hear, but also inspiring. Thank you for sharing Jake, I wish you all the best in your life, never stop fighting! I'm glad you chose to, quite literally, touch some grass and realized life is a beautiful precious thing :) edit: literally made me cry like a baby jfc
Lmao BETA
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I can't tell you just how much I relate to the whole "packing my belongings and moving them neatly into a corner to make it easier after I'm gone" admission. Wanting to end your life is one of the scariest things anyone can go through. I still get those thoughts from time to time but I just want to see so much in life that there's always something to keep me going. Best of luck with the future of the channel, I just know you're going to make it big someday. Looking forward to the journey!
I feel you, man. I went through some things very similar to what you experienced and I would like to reinforce what you said:
Guys, if you're going through some dark times now, please know that it really can get better. Please don't give up. Please try to do what's best for yourselves. You can do it!
KCMO here. I know exactly what you're going through, brother. Very similar feelings over here and feel stuck not knowing how to change it. I'm happy for you dude. Hearing your story gives me hope. Sorry for how cheesy I sound but it's straight from the heart
We’re very glad you didn’t go through with it. It’s very helpful you shared this because I’ve been going through the same thing and you’ve helped with your videos.
Respect big man. Plus, your Radahn lore video got me into Elden Ring. I never played any Souls game and you helped me get into one through lore alone. So thank you
I’ve been dealing with depression and your vids have helped so much, keep up the good work
I appreciate the transparency. You're not alone when feeling depressed my friend. Hope everything goes well
So glad I found this channel! DS3 was my first souls game and it changed my life. And now I listen to your lore videos every night because they bring me comfort. Thanks for sharing your story ❤️
I'm 40 with BPD, manic depression and some really awful chronic anxiety. I was diagnosed at a fairly young age (early teens) and have struggled ever since. The constant combinations of meds long term, manic highs and lows, absolute shit show. I don't like comparing notes to those who share, but sharing is one of the best things you can do. Honestly, the past few years have been pretty brutal and Elden Ring was one of the things that kept me going. Sounds weird to a lot of people, but I really don't think it is. Finding things to keep you going, whatever they may be, that's so fucking important. Glad you are still around and making cool stuff. Cheers from Portland. 🖤🤘🏻
your content is not only consistent, but it really gets the elden ring community engaged with the lore that fromsoft so often leaves up to interpretation. your channel is up there with some of the best, if not the best lore content creators ive seen on this site. keep it up man, it only gets better from here
Going through depression my self, I can totally understand how the smallest words or reactions of others can effect you.
I really enjoyed the vedio, it reached something in my heart.
Glad you are in a better place now, I too liked elden ring very much, but I'm still struggling, I hope we all get better and more excited for life.
You too tho brother, you gotta stay up and strong just like our boy, life is hard af and I’m going thru it too, but man this video made my day and life teaches you so much, but it’s hard going thru depression, we gotta tell ourselves that we are not gonna be in this position forever, elden ring saved my life too, I didn’t know my direction, I’m sorry for anything your going thru, I hate being in dark places and so does everyone else, we gotta turn our mindsets around, even when it’s hard, Ik bro, but look I have love for all the people who came down to watch this video and express themselves, much love bro, please stay strong, keep playing games that make you feel the world, if you need to talk we definitely can bro, be safe and stay strong fellow tarnished
Takes me back to my journey through DS2 the melancholic overtone somehow helps with healing
We all play Elden ring and you help us understand the game and its ins-and-outs. This video truly gave hope to me and I believe many others. Thank you.
Thanks for sharing man. Video games can definitely have that effect on people. I have a similar story to yours, and without giving too much details, I too got to a point where I wanted to end it all.
At the time, I was playing World of Warcraft and told myself I want to at least have the super rare dropped mount, Invincible, before I go, as that was the mount I really wanted the most.
At this point, that raid tier was already soloable, and with my four max level and geared toons, I started farming the boss on a weekly basis. This took years and multiple expansions, and became something to look forward to every week, and without realizing it, I actually continued living and stopped thinking about that dark thought.
And by the time I -finally- got the mount, I was beyond ecstatic that I didn't even remember why I started farming it, until I had to share this exact story to another friend who was also going through a dark place.
Up to now, video games, along with therapy, have helped me keep my mental health positive. I am by no means a popular RUclipsr, not even close, but doing my video game recreations of my favorite video games have the same effect as farming that Invincible mount, and keeps me happy and going. 😁
Glad to know you're out of your dark place and now enjoy life! I've been seeing your content and enjoy watching it, but this story just made me a full fledged follower of yours. 🙏
Glad you made it out of that darkness brother. Excited to continue watching you grow.
People think I'm exaggerating when I tell them about DkS1's effect on how I view life, specifically it's challenges, and how it's responsible for my success today. I won't bore everyone with the details but I'm summation; I learned that you only go hollow when you stop trying. That everytime you bang your head against that wall that seems impossible to break through... each attempt makes the goal seem a little less impossible. Until you inevitably succeed. It might take 100 tries, but failure is baked into the experience.. not a set back.
Hey dude. From one 27 year old Jake to another, you’re not alone man. Our end goals may be different, our paths may not the same, but we ultimately want the same thing. Personal happiness and growth. I’m glad I came across your channel the past few weeks. I’m also working my way out of tough situations, but this will be the definition of our character. These terrible thoughts are not what defines us. They are the hurdles we must pass to continue to grow. How you’ve handled this situation so far has kept you alive. Kept your ambitions alive (foul tarnished). It’s all good to feel defeated and like a failure. Without that lesson of failure, you won’t ever reach your full potential. Keep it up dude. Loving the content.
I'm glad you are still with us, I've watched your videos for Elden ring since I bought it and you've helped me understand the world we're experiencing. I'm currently at 176 hours in and the only main boss left is radagon but I find my self retracing lore footprints to one of your videos or another content creators work for large swaths of time because the game is so interesting. You have something valuable in the way of lore crafting and I for one am glad that you're around
Thank you for your story I lost my brother he was alone in his apartment as well and did the same thing pack his things as if he was leaving I don't like talking about it but I miss him so much but I'm happy your still here the journey is not over my friend despite all the roadblocks we go through and I love elden ring also best game ever helped me as well I love to see the messages other players leave makes me laugh a little and to see I'm not the only one playing the game 💙 keep your head up keep pushing bud👍
The last 10+ years have been rough for me, constantly sick and frail. This year got even worse. January I started having a really bad time, couldn't go out hardly at all, couldn't drive, couldn't play games. It was miserable. I found out that I had been having very bad seizures and while having answers it was still very difficult to understand and accept it. Still couldn't play my favorite games because those were what were triggering a lot of the seizures. I know having elden ring has literally saved me too. It got so bad right before it came out that I just wanted to give up. I've absolutely hyper fixated on this game, watching multiple play throughs, every lore video I can get my hands on and of course finally playing it myself. It's been a big help. I hope things continue to get better for you dude ♥️ life is very hard but you've got this!
I'm 29 years old now and i Suffer from Depression i think 10 years now... cant find a way out... would love to stream and play games with people all over the World but im from germany and its Hard to Do so here... keep your Heads up guys! Better times will come... eventuallly
this game did the same for me. it came out just in time and i really needed it. i had a surgery in january and couldnt move for like 4 months and depression started sinking in hard until this game came out. it kept my mind busy until i recover enough to go back to work.
Thanks for sharing your story! We're roughly the same age (I'm 27), and I can relate to a lot of your experiences. The Souls games gave me so much joy during some of my darkest years, and now that I've successfully found the light at the end of the tunnel (excuse the cliche), I get to celebrate my newfound stability with Elden Ring 😊 These games are the best in the industry, and I'm glad that they helped you, too. Keep doing what you're doing, and best of luck!
Good for you man !!! You've done well for yourself . I love your lore videos well thought out and well articulated . I can relate in a way oct. 2020 my wife whom I genuinely loved told me marriage over get out ... No joke , I was devastated and depressed but was able to get through it with the help of some good people . Who I have come to consider friends , I met them playing dark souls 3 !!! So thanks Charlie and Denise love you guys and thank you from soft and thank you Jake for sharing your story . Stay strong brother and keep the awesome vids coming !!!
Hey you, yeah you with the face.... I found you through watching Elden Ring lore and I love your content and your story is great man I'm sure you'll help a lot of people who are down and out on their luck so keep up the good work you beautiful bastard! 💪🏽😁👍🏽
love ya bud, struggling with some of the things you talked about, turned a friend who is struggling with depression onto dark soul. fingers crossed.
While I can't say I've experienced the same hardships as you have, I can fully relate and empathize with your struggles. I vehemently applaud you speaking out about these issues. We need more RUclipsrs like you being forthcoming with their audience. We need more legitimate humans behind the "screen". Monetization and commercialization has had the effect on RUclipsrs of projecting a fake personality and life. Thanks for your time making great lore videos and happy to be a sub of your channel.
Really appreciate this video. Mental health is a huge deal and nobody likes to talk about it. The honesty in this is amazing. I literally stumbled on your channel by accident and having loved elden ring just subscribed because I know it helps ppl and it costs me nothing. Also your dog is the shit and I also have a dog so I’m partial to dog people lol but I actually do watch your videos and I can’t say that for every channel I’ve subscribed to so keep your head up my man!!
I'm treating a depression right now. Its cool you talked about it. Love your lore videos, keep going mate
Bro, thanks for sharing, people have a stupid habit of letting you down over and over again. Glad to see you didn't give it up and managed to turn things around!
I found your channel 1-2 months ago bc i also dove head first on Elden Ring (almost a month late really, money things) and begun "lore hunting" on the internet while playing. My relationship with Souls games was "bumby", for lack of a better word. My first Souls game was Demon's Souls, i had no F-ing idea what i was doing and the game pretty much broke me, i gave it up and went on do other things, but as the years went by and more Souls and Souls-like games came out i began thinking that maybe it was finally time to try again, i was older and a bit better at videogames (and internet), so as practice i bought Bloodborne, and from there, there was no turning back anymore. I'll prolly go back and play the other Souls games i've missed along the way, but for now i still have more Elden Ring to play and wait for DLC. The future looks bright for FromSoft and the community.
Jake you’re killing it rn. i love all of your videos and am excited always excited for the next lore video to come out! thanks for trucking thru the dark times to find your dreams coming true.
I'm so glad you pushed through all the hard times! I know how it is, and fromsoft games are actually some of the best when it comes to helping ppl with depression! They give you challenge after challenge that you will always have everything you need to overcome them, and that's a powerful thing for those who feel hopeless and stuck. And the addictive lore is a great distraction, too!
Keep up the excellent videos! I look forward to each one!
Thank you man! I had a similar experience and i can say that this game along with ds3 helped me a lot! I consider art that thing that gives meaning to life and explain some things that we couldn’t express and these games make just that. The beauty, tue horror, the hardness, the endless deaths and the joy of succeeding…all tools to help us understand what makes us tik.
Hearing your story made me emotional and for that you get a sub lol. Very too real and relatable. And it takes a lot to be able to talk about all of this stuff online. And you have the same tastes as me with Skyrim and souls game lmfao
I'm glad you're still here and I'm glad I eventually found your channel 👍🏻
I found out your channel today. I fall in love with your lore videos immediately. You seem like a good dude, I'm really glad you are feeling better. Good for you, mate.
Glad things are starting to work out for you jake! Ive been dealing with depression recently aswell, I just started getting some help. i know you dont like rl that much but if you never streamed it i probably would've never met you. Thankyou for doing what you do im happy for you
You deserve the support you've gotten recently, keep up the great content!
listening to you feels like something i needed to hear because i swear, i felt the same way growing up
I could empathize with point after point of your experience, the specific ups and downs sounding so familiar. I love intimate storytelling, always having played games for immersion. At my lowest point I researched all dark souls lore I could find, despite never having played, only to find Elden Ring about to release. I'm someone who also found greater purpose/meaning through Fromsoft's worlds, so thank you for telling your story!
Hey Jake I’m glad that you are doing better. You’ve earned it my friend. Personally myself I’ve never been in such a dark place in my life but I truly believe on that saying of you fall, fall on your back, if you can look up, you can get up. Best wishes for you.
Ps. Man I wish I would have ran into you in Phoenix you would have kicked it off with me and my friends.
I'm glad I know this. I shed a tear when you said that your mom took a plane just so she could drive home with you. that's incredible.
I do have to say though that exercise and eating better will not cure all depression especially clinical. medication will always be the surest bet. exercise and diet help substantially in improving one's mood absolutely yes but a lot of us are still broken beyond that. I'm glad you were able to get out of your own head but again that's not the norm for most diagnosed cases.
regardless, I'm always happy when people with audiences speak about their own mental health struggles. eventually it won't be stigmatized. I'm very happy that you're doing better now.
Wooo nearly 50K subs!
I love your honesty, and also the passion that you had for all the years, and that Elden Ring reignated even stronger. You have my support!
Thank you for being so honest and sharing your life's journey with the world. This is why i've played every from soft games since Demon Souls. It always gave me a sense of purpose in a world where you need centuries to figure yourself out and no one helps you besides some special people that cross your path from time to time.
Souls Games resemble many painful aspects of life but helps you to cope with the outer circumstances and even connects you with a community of awesome people that also had to deal with hardships in their own life.
I just subscribed and wanted to wish you all the best for your future :)
I feel this pretty hard. Super happy to hear your story. Personally, suicide hasn't seriously ever been on the table for me, but depression and anxiety are a bitch. Absoulutely hated my life for so long. It's really only becuase of my family that I have made it this far. Being the youngest of 4 who's a little on the slow side has usually put me in a co-dependant situation. FromSoft games teach a valuable lesson about the importance of struggle. Which is that we all have to experience it but we can choose how to process that struggle. We try to learn and grow from our anguish. So recently things have been on the upswing for me. I also have struggled with weight loss and inactivity. But I'm turning over a new leaf. After almost a decade or so I finally got an AA Degree, a Car, and I'm ready to get in shape and I've started blacksmithing to learn some skills and tap into my creative side, and hopefully start a buissness from it one day. Don't succum to the franzied flame, rejoice at life and let struggle propel us further.
Yeah, I found you because of Godwyn's Lore Hunting video and I found your way of discussing the game's lore quite interesting. This idea of gradually discovering more and more about the game was quite different from most videos on RUclips, which present everything at once to the viewer. I know this kind of video gets worn out quickly because so much of the game has already been discovered, but it would still be nice to have you back with the Lore Hunting series. I don't agree 100% with your theories, but overall I think your videos are pretty cool. Congratulations on the content and thanks for sharing your story.
Thank you for sharing and I’m glad that you’ve taken a turn, the world will always be a better place with people like you in it and I look forward to watching the channel grow
You are a good guy Jake. I really wish you the best on your life and your content creator journey!
(sry for my bad englisch in first place!)
i break out in tears cuz i feel kinda the same what you have done in life,
it feels like im the only one who have did this what you said. you show some ppl there not alone with depressions or addictions..
thanks for sharing! dont look to the Grond and keep it up!
i fell in love with your elden ring content!
you did everything right with your channel!
Thanks!
I don't usually write comments (my bad,cant help it as I usually don't think my thoughts are worth the time to read) but I had this time.
Proud of you for making it through those times. And a good example for anyone in the same train of thought. I have been there, I know it takes a lot of str to get through it.
wishing you all the best.
Thank you for your content. I listen to your lore videos like books on tape while I’m driving🙏
I feel you, keep getting stronger man, we can do this!
As someone who lives in the Miami area sounds about right, glad you've been doing better man
Thank you for being this honest about it. I've put off, and put off, even though I desperately want to be a content creator, but I'm always afraid I'm going to make the video, edit it, title it, upload it...and of course, nothing is going to happen, and nothing will continue to happen. I actually have gone through the process, downloaded everything, learned to edit, and got...nothing. 20 views? If that. So of course it can be soul crushing, and life is just depressing in general, take it from someone on 4 meds and in therapy now. This was super brave.
I just teared up! Keep it up dude, your job is amazing and i am glad your life is somehow saved 💜
GOD DAMN I FELT THIS! As soon as you said you were 27 It it hit me like a train. BIG same on all this except golf, i went skateboarding. anyway im 26 and i felt alot of this. Except the college stuff...the beginning henny way Great vid, felt this.
FromSoftware’s games pulled me out of a hole I never thought I’d find my way out of. I’m glad there are people like you where they saved others as well. Thank you for sharing your story. Be safe friend. Don’t you dare go hollow. ❤️
Glad you made a comeback man. I've beat this game so many times that I'm on max difficulty. This game is awesome
Amen. Bloodborne did the same for me 🙏
Also a Missouri native, been here 40 years. Keep it up!!!
Sounds like that mountain hike deserves the title.
Love your content man, and its good that ur doing better now
Absolute fuckin W for you man. I can't wait to see how successful you become and here's to you and your health!!
Glad you shared this man it’s an important topic and takes a lot of courage to put yourself out there. Love your content, especially the lore videos. Thanks for what you do man!
Bravo! I clicked on this video based on the title and am so pleasantly surprised by what you had to say and the way you said it. Just another Elden Ring enthusiast hungry for good content; looking forward to checking out your backlog of videos and whatever is still to come! Courage.
I first got here bc i too wanted to get to know more about the lore of the game, and suddenly i found myself watching every single one of your videos man i found them really cool and very well explained which made me want to watch them all and it became my background sometimes as i played elden ring until the end of the game and for that i thank you , keep it up knowing you made it here
Thanks man i love hearing your story it hits so close to home for me I even tried playing it for my girlfriend to help her, I'm here no matter what content you bring man
Big ups to you bro! You made it out the dark hole and now look at life with such a open mind
Your contents in regards to the elden ring lore is fascinating because you go in depth into explaining them in which I believe most of your speculation is believable lol. Overall your content is fantastic man keep up the good work. Oh btw you have a really good voice to explain lore in general too, so keep going at it.
You are doing an amazing work! Your videos helped me realize what elden ring was really about. You sound like a great guy, dont ever stop doing what you are doing!
Even before this video I thought you deserved much more subscribers for the sheer quality of content you put out. I’m sorry you went through all this. Don’t you go hollow.
I am glad you kept going brother! Love your content and passion for this game and community!
Bless up!
Keep at it G. You're not alone.
Good on you for sharing with us bud! I can definitely relate to a lot of what you said. Thanks for hanging on there, and for these videos! And thank you to Elden Ring and FromSoft for this amazing game lol Skyrim was also the last time I really felt like this over a game 👍
I just feel you. I'm not me anymore since years and it's even hard to remeber who I was. Gulty, sadness, bad thoughts in general are devastating me costantly but I'm not giving up on them. I suggest to you to seek psycholgic help from a professional because you don't know if you will fall again in that black hole called depression, and seeing someone might help you even if you are at the highest point in your life.
Also: that Majula host hits hard ♥
One of the best videos i've seen in RUclips! Thanks for sharing your story.
Keep it up man, depression is a bitch and it hits all of us in different ways, elden ring has also helped me in the same aspect....it gives a sense of belonging and a sense of confidence when you succeed at something so challenging. Just keep that grind goin brotha, live your videos man.. souls games are a brotherhood and we're all here for ya, praise the erdtree!
I have over 240 hours still on the first playthrough, just beat Melenia, and am finally at the final boss but honestly trying to keep it rolling by going through as many questlines that are still available to me at this point. You might want to try ESO at some point if you liked Skyrim. Been playing it off and on for 7 years and is fun getting on with my friends running dungeons/PVP or even keeping it single player running quests. I thoroughly enjoy your content. Keep up the good work, take care of yourself, and congratulations!
New subscriber to your channel, but wanted to say, have really appreciated your approachable, thoughful, and thorough analysis of the lore, as well as how you've handled the setbacks from the reddit and youtube crowds. Really enjoy your elden ring content, hope to see more of it when the DLC comes out, or if you do other lore dives in other fandoms