IDK if this will be helpful to you, but a while ago I decided that if the person I'm interacting with (like your chiropractor) isn't trying to keep up a conversation with me, it is not my sole responsibility to fill the silence.
To a degree, I totally vibe with this. I think I’m just far too aware of my inability to carry casual conversation and I get in my head. Most of the time the other person is participating just fine but I second guess what I should say and if I’m “doing it right:” 😅
That is so true. I'm an extrovert , so I talk a lot and I don't know I've ever worried about what to talk about to keep a service person entertained. However, when people don't seem to want to talk, I am good with it and don't try to keep a conversation going.
I loved several things: -when you cut to you eating the cookies like we caught you. -when you typed out the reason you don’t go into the basement like you can’t say it out loud 😅 -still in aw that you drive with an open coffee cup -Your January 10th entry is the reason I’m back in therapy bc you can’t run from yourself. I want to believe in myself again 💜
Your hair......is stunning. It's so pretty it's actually mildly distracting, in the best possible way. It encourages me to keep on with my curly hair journey. Outside of that random fact, your videos consistently remind me that all brains are different and it's ok. I identify with so many things you do and say. It makes me feel less like I am the only one out here like this. I am not saying "like this" is bad or good at all. I am saying it's a way to be and I am glad I am not alone. :). I really enjoy all of your content Elyse. Take good care and stay true to yourself girl!
Thank you so much 🥹 the internet isn’t known for kindness like this. From the bottom of my heart, thank you so much for taking the time to share your encouragement with me!
Other than how genuine and relatable the content on this channel is, I think part of the reason I love it so much is because of how kind the comment section is. Like who ever would have thunk that you could be yourself on the internet and have people respond with sincere kindness, empathy, and acceptance...shheeessshhhhh. Elyse really pulled in a good crowd of people with her fanbase and I couldn't think of anyone that deserve it more to be honest.
Also for the chiropractor just ask if they have any pets and then when you go back “how’s (insert pets name) doing?” They’ll be touched you remembered the name and then you can just move on to if your pain is better, worse, or the same.
I do this with all my neighbors!!! I want to be "neighborly" but I know I'm not that neighbor. But I wanna be!! I live in a neighborhood with, Barley, Pierre, Sydney, Lucy, Little Lucy, Harley, Ruby, Handsome, Heath and their owners.
Elyse. First of all, this is the first comment I have ever left on a video ever in my life. 2nd I saw one of your TikTok videos a few years ago, but I am not really on social media so it was like a one time thing. I don’t know how I recently came across you again on RUclips as I was looking for some thing and I have been binging your episodes like it’s Bridgerton!! the relatability I have with you is insane. I have NEVER felt less alone in my life! I know how creepy that sounds and I’m sorry, but I just want to say I see you and I appreciate your authenticity and making me feel less alone in the world because you know that we all need that! so thank you for what you’re doing. Your LITERAL biggest fan. ❤❤❤
First of all, SO GLAD YOU ARE HERE!!! Second of all (I know that’s not grammatically correct but I enjoy saying it anyways) that doesn’t sound creepy at all! I have so many people I follow on RUclips who feel like my very own comfort channel!! I’m so grateful my videos can be that space for other people!
I obsessively read a *lot* of comments, including replies to comments (it feels like being involved in colleague chitchats I used to have at work before I retired). I’d say the majority of comments to Elyse’s videos sound like yours. Her issues are so relatable because so many of us are overwhelmed by all the signals and stimuli we’re bombarded with every minute. The human brain has somehow become expected (by society) to evolve exponentially in the past 25 or so years, vs. previous generations’ brains which had a much slower pace of change in which theirs were expected to adapt. No wonder we’re so crazed and stressed and anxious and depressed these days. I’m thinking that pressure manifests in different ways different people, but what Elyse experiences seems to be quite common now. So it’s not creepy at all right relate. It’s perfectly (but unfortunately) just normal. (That’s why Elyse has so many Followers!).
Hank and John Green have a newsletter I subscribe to, and last week they asked us who we really liked to watch on RUclips. YOU MADE THE LIST!!!!! I admit is squealed like a little girl. I think the bookshelf background is a great idea. Thank you for sharing your journal, thank you for sharing yourself with us.
@@elyse_myers That is excellent news! I have so many stashed in my google docs that I cannot bring myself to submit because even very polite rejection makes me not write for months.
@@cynhanrahan4012 super happy for you that you’re writing! That’s 90% of the battle, it is honestly hard for me to get through this comment without getting distracted 😅 hopefully one day the rejections will become water off a ducks back, but in the meantime writing for yourself is a beautiful thing. (And I know you’ve probably heard this before, but someone else’s response whether it be negative or positive could never determine your worth nor the quality of your writing 💜) Anyway, I’m rooting for you and I think you’ve got it in you🫰hope to see your book out, maybe in an Elyse review ;)
Hi, I work at a chiropractic office (in kearney!), and I’m here to tell you… you can always drop down to an “as needed” basis. Go as often as you feel necessary. But don’t stress if you can commit! Just communicate with your chiropractor, and when you feel better, just say you’ll come back as needed! It happens ALL THE TIME. You’re doing a wonderful job at adulting. I’m proud of you!
I love how philosophical you are in your journal entries. My own are like "Took the dogs for a walk... came home and showered; may go get McDonald's for dinner" (3 days later) " Did end up getting McDonald's" 😂
I don’t think you’ll ever see this but in case you do, you inspire me so much. I struggle a lot with anxiety and for a long time I felt completely helpless and like I would just always feel this way. When I started watching your videos and saw you actively trying to face your anxiety and talk about how much you struggle with it I started to realize I don’t just have to be stuck dealing with it for the rest of my life. You inspire me to face my anxiety and try to better myself at my own pace. Thank you so much for being so open about how anxiety affects you, it reminds me that I’m not alone and that I’m not crazy. I love all your videos so much and I’m always so excited to see a new one come out. Thank you so much for everything.
I love reading my old journals, but also have to mentally brace myself for them because they're such an emotional roller-coaster lol. One minute I'm smiling and laughing at a memory and almost feeling the same joy and excitement I did back then. The next...I'm reliving trauma and dispair that I described way too vividly, the raw emotion is overwhelming, and I have to try *really* hard not to get wrapped back up in it and spiral.
The next line is “put some music on that’s soft and slow” and until last night I literally thought the line was “let me give it to you soft and slow” and I didn’t even question it. Jonas had to tell me that it absolutely was not that. 😂
HIGHLY recommend trying out a physical therapist. They go through way more schooling and they can help you long term unlike short term relief from chiropractors. They can actually help you in a similar way but its much safer. A lot of people can actually get hurt and become paralyzed from bad experiences. Its not worth the risk go to the physical therapist who has a doctorate. Your spinal cord is so import ! Love your videos girl wishing u the best. Hopefully some more crochet content soon ❤ you inspired me to start
Elyse, in my humble opinion, you are absolutley awesome. You are authentic, scattered, witty, intelligent, and for some reason, the phrase "organized chaos" comes to mind. I just wanted to let you know how much I appreciate your content, as it is a rare thing to find such candor amongst influencers (or among people, in general). I hope the future brings you more ups than downs, more joy than sorrow, and more light than darkness. Keep up the good work!
I can't with this note from your friend. It so beautiful 😭!! Even I needed those words.. I try to remember similar ones from time to time because I often forget that life isn't a race and that there is no purpose, no particular goal to reach... we just try to *be* and live the best we can and that's hard enough ❤
I laughed, I cried, I felt seen (esp. “I make a great first impression”, the charcoochie song to the melody of Bring It On, and “the next entry is 9 days later after daily entries so I feel like a spiral is coming… yep.” I love rereading my journals it’s like a little celebration of how far I’ve come. Elyse, you are indeed a gift. in case you forgot
Oh my god thank you so much??? I am really self conscious because I remember the way my grandpa sounded and I just sound so…white. And every time I learn a new word I can just hear him laughing a little. 😂
Listening to you reading your journal and your love for Jonas and the part about being taken care of made me actually cry. I’m so happy you found that 💕💕 that’s so freaking beautiful.
I loved the journal entries so much thank you for sharing them 🥹 I unexpectedly cried when you shared the part @19:40 where you say “…my independence could potentially really get in the way of letting jonas love me…I forget to let people in” so relatable omg. Thank you for being vulnerable
that entry you read about moving and feeling like everywhere you aren’t currently is better and that ultimately you are just trying to run away from yourself… that was incredibly powerful and moving. i have been feeling that way for a while now. i feel like anywhere but where i am would be better and then i go to that place but nothing changes. thank you for sharing that ❤ ik it probably took a lot of courage to share that vulnerability even if it was from years ago… thank you ❤
I'm crying. The last bit at the end just made me understand my Mama's dad. He constantly amd irregularly moved the family between New Mexico and Colorado her whole lifetime. Sometimes he'd randomly xome home during a day to tell my Granny that they're moving again. Never did understand and he died when I was so young that I never got to ask him. My Uncle was the same in bouncing around the country at least my whole life. He got Alzheimer's when I was too young to ask him either. You just provided me with the start of closure. Thank you.
So beautiful. The way I can laugh or cry in the span of seconds when watching your videos. I felt a lump in my throat when you read your friend’s note. Thank you for sharing the small and big moments with us.
ELYSE! PICKLES! Whenever you find yourself in NYC, there's a pickle bookstore in the Lower East Side and you can donate books in exchange for pickles!!! Or just buy pickles and secondhand books like a normal person. I'm not a pickle person but I hope you find some joy in that store!
Me crying over how I imagine you felt reading that letter at that time and how overwhelmingly powerful it must have been but then also laughing about that top notch role call
I, too, crochet when I'm depressed and/or anxious. There's something calming about it. Now... I'm sure you probably have heard this but I once heard charcuterie pronounced like "Shark's Cochie" and I can never unhear it. Thanks Elyse for being so relatable.
I've been acknowledging the last few days how much i've been glued to any mindless stimulation to cope with the burnout I've been in for the last month. I also hadn't been acknowledging or realizing that it was burnout. It's a really hard week (you know the one) (ftm, he/him btw) and my hormones are off the charts. The general burnout is real, the autistic burnout is real. The random bursts of a short sob when I've had six dozen moments of trying to let myself cry for weeks is disheartening. It ends as soon as it begins, whether by my brain shutting down, or intentionally doing so with mindless media consumption because I *can't* actually handle feeling the emotions when they come up. I know so well the feeling of finding/creating a new life for yourself and living in the joy and peace and revelations it brings- until you settle into it. Until your "new" life is just *life* now. It comes with all the same parts the first one did. All the pain, all the grief, all the memories, yourself as a whole. There's the new problems, the new challenges, the new stresses, the new responsibilities that are no longer new. They are simply yours. I'm really, really struggling right now. But I knew if I was going to consume media to cope, it'd be mindful, not less. It'd be something worth caring about, or someone. It'd give me a reason to cry, maybe. I needed something, and it really was just your humanity. Your genuine, soulful, lovely self, who reminds me so much of my sister it warms my heart. (demeanor wise, as well as also having OCD, autism, adhd, etc) thank you, Elyse. you are such a f'ing gift.
Don't get discouraged about the blanket! The first half was the hardest for me because of all the decreases. Once the increase side is bigger than the decrease side it goes much faster. Can't wait to see how yours turns out!
There’s something so reinvigorating and also devastating about reading old diaries and journal entries… Its like, seeing my old goals and wishes and knowing the ways it went well, but also knowing the ways it didn’t. Its strange. ❤
Went looking through the comments to find someone else feeling the same as me and I'm glad to find a few more - loving the last statements from the journal! Having it describe just what I need to understand, accept and remember. That I cannot run from myself. And that anxiety can, and will, always be created in my head. And be a part of me. No matter where I live. This insight beeing particularly important these days as I am currently packing up a house I've had a lot of anxiety in - to move to a new home - with some part of me hoping I can run before more anxiety comes rolling in... Thinking that this place is where it all started, often forgetting that I have experienced versions of it my whole life. Only this place becoming the symbol of my worst experience with anxiety...yet I guess 🙂🙂🙂 Then overthinking why I would even post this comment. Who cares what I think and is rambling about? Oh well. I'll just post it anyway. Hopefully it reaches you Elyse. Sending a huge Thank you! for charing! Both this and other tough things happening to you. It may sound strange - but I often find it easier to cope with my struggles when I hear someone else going through similar things. Not feeling unique seems to make it...hurt less. Love from a burnt out woman since a few years back - who finally got the privilege to become a mom this year - and therefore is a whole new level of vulnerable 😅❤️
Physiotherapist here - you should not need once weekly appointments (from a chiropractor or otherwise) for back pain for an extended period of time. If you have a good rehab plan with exercises that you do at home, you shouldn't really need weekly 'adjustments' for weeks and weeks on end (obviously I don't know your problem or what was going on, please insert all relevant disclaimers here!) but just letting you know!
This is very vague and can unnecessarily scare people. I was unable to walk for months and spent 6 weeks seeing my chiropractor 2-3 times a week and then an additional 8 weeks with a PT my chiropractor worked with to rebuild the muscles. Working with both saved me.
Elyse, you fill my soul with so much joy and comfort and validation. I know we are two different people, but I deeply understand so much of what you say, do, and share with us. I have never found someone who I am so similar to, and you make me feel seen just by being yourself and sharing your humanness. Thank you for being here. Thank you for being you ❤
Wow, your journal entries hit me right in the feels. I have tried journaling, but after a few days I always stop because I feel like I'm not doing it right. I am my own worst critic. I love watching your videos!
I would watch a full reading (of what you feel comfortable sharing) of your journals. Your writing is so honest and well written. I love your excitement and want more! 😊
Thanks for another relatable video, so many things! I've lived in an allegedly haunted house for 6 years now. I just treat the haunting presence as a roommate that wants to be acknowledged but not physically seen. The anxiety, depression and the wherever you go, there you are, as well as growing, maturing and accepting yourself more and more is a journey I feel honored to have shared with me. I feel so much less alone to see when you describe or experience things that I also see in my life. Good luck in all your endeavours. Kind regards from this ADHD/Autistic man in Iceland
I've watched lots of your videos and I think you're so good at telling stories. You're hilarious!! I identify with a lot of things you've talked about too. So I just wanted to say thank you for sharing your life. There have been times when your words have helped me. Also, I think it's cool you're learning Spanish. I'm English but have been living in Spain for a long time so I've learnt the language as an adult too!!
Elyse, Girl, I see you!! Your journals were very profound. I wasn't that mature at that age, not real sure I am at 38. LOL - You are so right about being strong and independent. I was those things for many reasons. Which did cause problems in my marriage. Once I figured out, I wanted him to want to help me/do things for me, it helped significantly. It took me 7 years (together and 3 years married)..I never said I was a fast learner. LOL - I can still do things for myself, but I express that his acts of service make me feel cared for and I let him do things. I stopped saying "I can do it all by myself" (then get mad when he didn't do things for me). It made total sense. I love the start of the book background. Here is to all the books I have coming in the mail myself. And I already added 4 books last weekend that I purchased locally.
Casually crying in my car in starbucks parking lot listening to Elyse Myers share her personal journal entries. That last one got me 😭 thank you for sharing
i ALWAYS have a song in my head. sometimes its loud and sometimes its just like light background music. but i genuinely constantly have as song in my head. the first 15 seconds of this video are my entire life and i am absolutely living for elyse' josh turner impression.
I'm sure you get these comments a lot. But I've been feelin pretty low today, rather down in the dumps, ya know? And laying in bed while kinda feelin like I'm hangin out with a friend and laughing about normal little things made me feel a lot more comfortable and a little happier. Thanks for that. Appreciate you a lot 🤍 P.S. that final journal entry nearly made me choke, it just hit so close to home. It sounds like something I would've written about myself in college.. "There is no amount of running I can do where I can run from myself. Wherever I go, there I am..." and "A girl on the move, looking for home in all the wrong places." Damn. I was truly running from myself, my traumas and my toxic family for so many years of my life. The grass never failed to seem greener elsewhere. And with every new place came another reason to be dissatisfied and somehow even more lost or hurt. I'm glad we both made it out of that, Elyse. Thank you so much for sharing that entry 🤍
Ironically, I got the paper airplane tattoo I have on my arm roughly 24 hours after I wrote that journal entry to remind myself that I can’t run from myself when I move to a new place. I was living in Texas at the time and was about to finish my semester at college and move to Omaha to be in the same place as Jonas. And I kept thinking “Omaha is going to be the place I officially start over and thrive.” But I felt like I was wasting my short season in Texas because I was looking forward to Omaha so much that I was barely present in Texas. I was showing a friend around the Fort Worth stockyards (she was visiting from out of town) and we saw a tattoo parlor, and I ran inside and asked them to tattoo a paper airplane on me. I didn’t know at the time that my upcoming move to Omaha would be as impactful as it was, but I decided that whatever came of my impending move would be important because I decided it would be. Because that would be the move that I stopped assuming would cure me. That I might move a million more times before I found a place I felt I belonged in. (Omaha just so happened to be the place I got engaged, married, and became a mom.) Even if it wasn’t the place I changed my identity two times over, my paper airplane and I would have made it special because it would have been the place where I finally accepted myself. I didn’t realize when I started reading this journal that I’d find that journal entry (or all those other journal entries I found that didn’t feel significant when I was writing them, but absolutely were as I read them back.) but I’m so grateful I kept a log of those thoughts. If I take anything away from this week, it’s that I need to get back into the practice of writing my thoughts down every day!! Finding them years later is life changing!
@@elyse_myers Ah oh my goodness, thank you for sharing such a sweet and impactful story with me! Who would’ve thought that cute little paper airplane tattoo on your arm had such a significant, transformative and beautiful story behind it. Now even I have some new symbolism connected to a this paper airplane. You’ve really inspired me. Feels like just a little sprinkle of destiny that you flipped open to that page in your journal. I may still have some struggles with mental health and get frustrated with my own brain, but I’m happy with myself, I’m blessed to be a mother, I’ve found my person in life, and I’m comfortable where I am for the first time in my ever. I’ve got one more stop to make, I’m moving from MA to NH in pursuit of buying an A frame cabin home in the woods. A dream I’ve had forever and a day. But I’ve finally reached a place where I don’t feel like I want to run from myself or my life. I want to pick it up, all of it, and place it in this final destination. So I’m gonna send out my last little paper airplane a few years from now, and that’ll be that. 🤍
I bought the blanket pattern because of your video and i call them my pile of "noodles" until it starts to look like a blanket 😭😂 Thank you so much for bringing me some peace and relatability in my anxious times!❤
I saved this video to watch it when I needed some peace and I’m so glad I did. I’m so encouraged by you, specially the way you approach new experiences, even when they’re scary. It’s really made me try to change the way I face my own challenges-thank you so much 💜
Elyse, you just are such a light. Your humor and thought process is amazing and reminds me of my daily moments. Right down to the crumbl cookies! . I've given up on my curls (way too lazy) and you're inspiring me to the again! I started crocheting (again) because of you and forgot how much it gives me joy. Thanks for being you. So glad I found your channel. I missed seeing you!
I cut out a large portion of footage where I was basically campaigning for Nebraska, specially directed and people who do the booking for tour venues. And then upon further inspection as I began editing, I realized how niche that request (5 minute begging) actually was. Hahahha
You're a very gifted writer. I enjoyed listening to you read your journal entries. I would read a book with you as the author, because I like the way you describe the every day. I loved the details about packing up your life, and the way you write in meaningful metaphor. 10/10 no notes.
I showed my husband what you said about the chiropractor because he has been telling me to go so much and I finally had to ask him to stop suggesting the chiropractor. Today you put my feelings, as to why i cant go back, into words 😂😂😂
HAHAHHA I have to say it was incredibly helpful on the “pain radiating within my back” front. But in terms of the “I have no idea how to socialize myself” front, it was my nightmare.
“I don’t even put gas in my own car anymore!” Man can I relate to that! My husband treats me like a princess too! I am SO happy you found your knight in shining armor too! You deserve the absolute best!!!❤❤❤
thank you for making this video. you make me feel so much more normal especially with my anxieties! i’ve never related to someone more and i felt very hopeful while watching this. so, truly, thank you!
I'm looking forward to reading your book when it's finally published, you write so well :) Though if I'm being realistic, I'll probably listen to you read it as an audio book while I also keep my hands busy crocheting things. I don't even know what my current project is, just making squares to use up my current stash instead of buying even more yarn. My mental health is not so great at the moment. It's very easy for me to get into this rut where I'm stressed, overwhelmed and not making good choices in my physical health (emotional eating, avoiding leaving the house and exercising, insomnia). Which then affects my mental health, and keeps me in this vicious cycle. Today was meant to be a day where I did things, including yoga in the makeshift studio I've set up in the spare room (i.e. I've put a mat on the floor and put a wax melt thing in there). But the sleeping did not go so well, so I've sat around in my pyjamas feeling like a zombie and snacking. I don't ask anybody for help or support, because my brain has convinced me there is nobody who wants to listen and help me in the way I need to be supported. It's created this reality by spending a lot of time avoiding, isolating, dissociating, or being so clingy/needy that I annoy myself, moving from town to town on temporary teacher contracts, so I haven't had a good chance to establish a strong support base. Writing my thoughts into the comment abyss helps me process my feelings and what steps I need to take now.
Wow. It continues to amaze me hearing someone recount their experiences and realizing I feel the same way and experience the same things. For a world so vast and full of many different people, in some ways we’re all the same. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and experiences Elyse. I feel less alone. ❤
So true!! I once was too scared to call my dentist to cancel my appointment so I asked my mom to do it, but as an adult I felt like it was embarrassing to have my mom calling for me so I told my mom to tell them I died and then I had to find a new dentist 😭😭
🥹 Wow!! I think this may be one of my favorite videos of yours! The connection between the letter you found from your friend and then the time period in which you found it...then finding the journals with your deepest thoughts and feelings...🥹 I would pay to buy those books and read them maybe over and over like a novel. Your life story..in chapter books!! I know what you're thinking...what??? Who would care about my thoughts and life? But Elyse, we all have those thoughts and feelings at some point. We are all in this walk together. You are not alone. 💖 you really are so loved! It really touched me what your friend wrote you. Such love, encouragement, and support.....Priceless! Your friend is right on! One day at a time...one moment at a time...together with the ones you love and love you. ❤️ Thank you so much for sharing! May the Lord Jesus bless you with His peace that passes all understanding. 💖 with love and high fives from Oklahoma
every time I find out something new about you (i.e., lived in Australia, moving from CA to TX, taught yourself how to code in 4 months, owned your own business, etc.) I am always amazed at how much life you have lived for someone so young
Wow Elise that blanket is epic and the top is lovely! I am so happy to see you are continuing to crochet. Thank you for sharing your makes and the journal entries. Sending well wishes xo 🧶🤗
Oh my days❤!! I am not on threads, and this morning as tired of bs being presented on usual roll/scroll I've seen a interesting thread and thought of reading it....Long story short: found Elyse again!! I missed hearing your stories, about anything, especially everyday life...Also, another fellow curly who is powering through being encourraged to stay on the curly journey. Love ya for being so real, and cannot even express how huge that is: BREATH OF FRESH AIR that never stopped❤❤❤! Thank you for being here, and sharing content with us!
I had to watch this a second time as it has so many good nuggets. • Nebraska definitely needs more tours to come through • The note from your friend is beautiful • I ghosted my last chiropractor because I could not handle him asking how work was every week • Rereading your journal can be a beautiful and crazy thing • "I was depressed. I made it. It made me feel better" I appreciate you sharing so much, and I feel like I have found a kindred spirit. Thank you for being you!
I would read your journal like a novel, you are SUCH a beautiful writer. Makes me so excited that you are writing a book!! Already decided I’m buying it the second it comes out
I love your vids!! You know those vids where other people are like “act like I’m on FaceTime with you” and it is TOTALLY not that vibe. Yours is! I feel like I’m on FT with you 🥰 the warmth (energy) I feel through the screen is comforting.
There are so many things I could say from this video but the one I really want to say is i cried listening to your journal entries. You are a beautiful writer Elyse! 🤍
OMG this January 10th entry had me IN TEARS! This is so raw and well-written. I’ve also been in that place at one point in my life and your description of the feeling is SPOT ON!
IDK if this will be helpful to you, but a while ago I decided that if the person I'm interacting with (like your chiropractor) isn't trying to keep up a conversation with me, it is not my sole responsibility to fill the silence.
To a degree, I totally vibe with this. I think I’m just far too aware of my inability to carry casual conversation and I get in my head. Most of the time the other person is participating just fine but I second guess what I should say and if I’m “doing it right:” 😅
That is so true. I'm an extrovert , so I talk a lot and I don't know I've ever worried about what to talk about to keep a service person entertained. However, when people don't seem to want to talk, I am good with it and don't try to keep a conversation going.
@@GaryRoseCO- Relatable and ditto.
@@elyse_myers me too!
I decided that if they're not trying to talk to me it is my responsibility to sit in silence as idk what to talk about with strangers.
I loved several things:
-when you cut to you eating the cookies like we caught you.
-when you typed out the reason you don’t go into the basement like you can’t say it out loud 😅
-still in aw that you drive with an open coffee cup
-Your January 10th entry is the reason I’m back in therapy bc you can’t run from yourself. I want to believe in myself again 💜
I agree with all of it, but I especially appreciate the last one 🤎 you've got this
Your hair......is stunning. It's so pretty it's actually mildly distracting, in the best possible way. It encourages me to keep on with my curly hair journey. Outside of that random fact, your videos consistently remind me that all brains are different and it's ok. I identify with so many things you do and say. It makes me feel less like I am the only one out here like this. I am not saying "like this" is bad or good at all. I am saying it's a way to be and I am glad I am not alone. :). I really enjoy all of your content Elyse. Take good care and stay true to yourself girl!
Thank you so much 🥹 the internet isn’t known for kindness like this. From the bottom of my heart, thank you so much for taking the time to share your encouragement with me!
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😂you can be Elyse’s #1 fan, that’s fine 😂
Hi friend!!
Love this 🫶🏻
"I was depressed. I made it. It made me feel better" -- aka me anytime I have the urge to crochet or knit something
Everything I have ever crocheted has been a result of being depressed and needing to do something with my hands. MISSION ACCOMPLISHED I FEEL BETTER. 😂
@elyse_myers so in a way, it's a good thing the blanket isn't completed 😄
Other than how genuine and relatable the content on this channel is, I think part of the reason I love it so much is because of how kind the comment section is. Like who ever would have thunk that you could be yourself on the internet and have people respond with sincere kindness, empathy, and acceptance...shheeessshhhhh. Elyse really pulled in a good crowd of people with her fanbase and I couldn't think of anyone that deserve it more to be honest.
Seriously!! ❤
Also for the chiropractor just ask if they have any pets and then when you go back “how’s (insert pets name) doing?” They’ll be touched you remembered the name and then you can just move on to if your pain is better, worse, or the same.
THIS IS A GREAT PIECE OF ADVICE THANK YOU
@elyse_myers that tip is huge! Life altering hack. Bravo OP 🇬🇧
Good tip! I try to comment on tattoos if they have them. They love that.
I do this with all my neighbors!!! I want to be "neighborly" but I know I'm not that neighbor. But I wanna be!! I live in a neighborhood with, Barley, Pierre, Sydney, Lucy, Little Lucy, Harley, Ruby, Handsome, Heath and their owners.
@@miss.dubbieHandsom Heath 😂 love this
Elyse. First of all, this is the first comment I have ever left on a video ever in my life. 2nd I saw one of your TikTok videos a few years ago, but I am not really on social media so it was like a one time thing. I don’t know how I recently came across you again on RUclips as I was looking for some thing and I have been binging your episodes like it’s Bridgerton!! the relatability I have with you is insane. I have NEVER felt less alone in my life! I know how creepy that sounds and I’m sorry, but I just want to say I see you and I appreciate your authenticity and making me feel less alone in the world because you know that we all need that! so thank you for what you’re doing. Your LITERAL biggest fan. ❤❤❤
If this is creepy then I am creepy too! Lol.
... I hope it isn't creepy.
First of all, SO GLAD YOU ARE HERE!!! Second of all (I know that’s not grammatically correct but I enjoy saying it anyways) that doesn’t sound creepy at all! I have so many people I follow on RUclips who feel like my very own comfort channel!! I’m so grateful my videos can be that space for other people!
THIS IS SO PURE (i think i said this on another of your videos, like, a day ago??? You’re just such a sweet person!!!)
I literally had to double check your comment to make sure it wasn't me who posted it, because it sounded just like what I was thinking😄
I obsessively read a *lot* of comments, including replies to comments (it feels like being involved in colleague chitchats I used to have at work before I retired). I’d say the majority of comments to Elyse’s videos sound like yours. Her issues are so relatable because so many of us are overwhelmed by all the signals and stimuli we’re bombarded with every minute. The human brain has somehow become expected (by society) to evolve exponentially in the past 25 or so years, vs. previous generations’ brains which had a much slower pace of change in which theirs were expected to adapt. No wonder we’re so crazed and stressed and anxious and depressed these days. I’m thinking that pressure manifests in different ways different people, but what Elyse experiences seems to be quite common now. So it’s not creepy at all right relate. It’s perfectly (but unfortunately) just normal. (That’s why Elyse has so many Followers!).
Hank and John Green have a newsletter I subscribe to, and last week they asked us who we really liked to watch on RUclips. YOU MADE THE LIST!!!!! I admit is squealed like a little girl. I think the bookshelf background is a great idea. Thank you for sharing your journal, thank you for sharing yourself with us.
WAIT WHAT?!?!?! I AM GOING TO CRY. MESSAGING THEM RIGHT NOW THANK YOU FOR SHARING THIS WITH ME 😭😭😭😭
@@elyse_myers Yes!
Two fantastic worlds colliding here, and it makes me so happy.
Oh my gosh please write a book about your life and narrate it. Those journal entries felt so relatable and beautiful
I’m actually finishing up my first manuscript!!
@@elyse_myers That is excellent news! I have so many stashed in my google docs that I cannot bring myself to submit because even very polite rejection makes me not write for months.
@@cynhanrahan4012 super happy for you that you’re writing! That’s 90% of the battle, it is honestly hard for me to get through this comment without getting distracted 😅 hopefully one day the rejections will become water off a ducks back, but in the meantime writing for yourself is a beautiful thing. (And I know you’ve probably heard this before, but someone else’s response whether it be negative or positive could never determine your worth nor the quality of your writing 💜) Anyway, I’m rooting for you and I think you’ve got it in you🫰hope to see your book out, maybe in an Elyse review ;)
That letter from your friend was beautiful and i think we all need to hear similar things often.
The police “ I know that you know that” was so funny to me lmaoooo
You know what you did 😂
elyse at the end going, “ i feel like a mental breakdown is coming….. yep i was right.” is so relatable
Thats not what she said
Hi, I work at a chiropractic office (in kearney!), and I’m here to tell you… you can always drop down to an “as needed” basis. Go as often as you feel necessary. But don’t stress if you can commit! Just communicate with your chiropractor, and when you feel better, just say you’ll come back as needed! It happens ALL THE TIME.
You’re doing a wonderful job at adulting. I’m proud of you!
your videos feel like home 🥰
also “i was depressed. i made it, it made me feel better” is smth i feel to my core lolll
“I feel like Jonas is my husband” 😭💗
Thank you for giving us a glimpse into your journal and your heart, I loved this!
Fun fact, the song from the beginning was the first song I ever danced to with a boy. He was 87 and I was volunteering at a very festive nursing home
ohhhh my gosh I have never wanted to read an entire essay from a single sentence more in my entire life
I love how philosophical you are in your journal entries. My own are like "Took the dogs for a walk... came home and showered; may go get McDonald's for dinner" (3 days later) " Did end up getting McDonald's" 😂
I don’t think you’ll ever see this but in case you do, you inspire me so much. I struggle a lot with anxiety and for a long time I felt completely helpless and like I would just always feel this way. When I started watching your videos and saw you actively trying to face your anxiety and talk about how much you struggle with it I started to realize I don’t just have to be stuck dealing with it for the rest of my life. You inspire me to face my anxiety and try to better myself at my own pace. Thank you so much for being so open about how anxiety affects you, it reminds me that I’m not alone and that I’m not crazy. I love all your videos so much and I’m always so excited to see a new one come out. Thank you so much for everything.
“I make a great first impression”. Felt so deeply. ❤
Saaaame
I love reading my old journals, but also have to mentally brace myself for them because they're such an emotional roller-coaster lol. One minute I'm smiling and laughing at a memory and almost feeling the same joy and excitement I did back then. The next...I'm reliving trauma and dispair that I described way too vividly, the raw emotion is overwhelming, and I have to try *really* hard not to get wrapped back up in it and spiral.
This is TOO RELATABLE. In fact for me, the second experience wins out and so I just usually avoid it out of fear. 😂
Tysm Elyse ..now I've got..." baby lock them doors and keep those lights down low" stuck in me dome😅
The next line is “put some music on that’s soft and slow” and until last night I literally thought the line was “let me give it to you soft and slow” and I didn’t even question it. Jonas had to tell me that it absolutely was not that. 😂
@elyse_myers i think yours is a much better version! 😂❤
@@elyse_myers
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@@elyse_myersHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I just snorted
HIGHLY recommend trying out a physical therapist. They go through way more schooling and they can help you long term unlike short term relief from chiropractors. They can actually help you in a similar way but its much safer. A lot of people can actually get hurt and become paralyzed from bad experiences. Its not worth the risk go to the physical therapist who has a doctorate. Your spinal cord is so import ! Love your videos girl wishing u the best. Hopefully some more crochet content soon ❤ you inspired me to start
There are chiropractors with doctorate degrees.
Wholeheartedly agree!
Elyse, in my humble opinion, you are absolutley awesome. You are authentic, scattered, witty, intelligent, and for some reason, the phrase "organized chaos" comes to mind. I just wanted to let you know how much I appreciate your content, as it is a rare thing to find such candor amongst influencers (or among people, in general).
I hope the future brings you more ups than downs, more joy than sorrow, and more light than darkness.
Keep up the good work!
Thank you so much!!! 🥹🫶🏼
The last journal entry you shared was so touching. I can't tell you how many times I've felt that very same way. Thank you for sharing.
I can't with this note from your friend. It so beautiful 😭!! Even I needed those words.. I try to remember similar ones from time to time because I often forget that life isn't a race and that there is no purpose, no particular goal to reach... we just try to *be* and live the best we can and that's hard enough ❤
I laughed, I cried, I felt seen (esp. “I make a great first impression”, the charcoochie song to the melody of Bring It On, and “the next entry is 9 days later after daily entries so I feel like a spiral is coming… yep.”
I love rereading my journals it’s like a little celebration of how far I’ve come.
Elyse, you are indeed a gift.
in case you forgot
Girl, your spanish is SO GOOD! Pretty much perfect pronunciation already!
Oh my god thank you so much??? I am really self conscious because I remember the way my grandpa sounded and I just sound so…white. And every time I learn a new word I can just hear him laughing a little. 😂
@@elyse_myersyou've got this! Open for practice whenever, being spanish first language here!
Listening to you reading your journal and your love for Jonas and the part about being taken care of made me actually cry. I’m so happy you found that 💕💕 that’s so freaking beautiful.
I loved the journal entries so much thank you for sharing them 🥹 I unexpectedly cried when you shared the part @19:40 where you say “…my independence could potentially really get in the way of letting jonas love me…I forget to let people in” so relatable omg. Thank you for being vulnerable
that entry you read about moving and feeling like everywhere you aren’t currently is better and that ultimately you are just trying to run away from yourself… that was incredibly powerful and moving. i have been feeling that way for a while now. i feel like anywhere but where i am would be better and then i go to that place but nothing changes. thank you for sharing that ❤ ik it probably took a lot of courage to share that vulnerability even if it was from years ago… thank you ❤
I'm crying. The last bit at the end just made me understand my Mama's dad. He constantly amd irregularly moved the family between New Mexico and Colorado her whole lifetime. Sometimes he'd randomly xome home during a day to tell my Granny that they're moving again. Never did understand and he died when I was so young that I never got to ask him. My Uncle was the same in bouncing around the country at least my whole life. He got Alzheimer's when I was too young to ask him either. You just provided me with the start of closure. Thank you.
So beautiful. The way I can laugh or cry in the span of seconds when watching your videos. I felt a lump in my throat when you read your friend’s note. Thank you for sharing the small and big moments with us.
ELYSE! PICKLES! Whenever you find yourself in NYC, there's a pickle bookstore in the Lower East Side and you can donate books in exchange for pickles!!! Or just buy pickles and secondhand books like a normal person. I'm not a pickle person but I hope you find some joy in that store!
I’m going to be there next week for work!!! YOU JUST MADE ME SO EXCITED!!!
@@elyse_myers it's called "Sweet Pickle Books, located at 47 Orchard St, New York, NY 10002!
@@elyse_myers it’s called Sweet Pickle Books. It’s at 47 Orchard St, New York, NY 10002 🫶
@jacquelynchin5513 I thought this said second hand pickles and I was like aren't all pickles second hand?
@@meg.please- I vote for Elyse to write a song, called “Second-Hand Pickles.”
Me crying over how I imagine you felt reading that letter at that time and how overwhelmingly powerful it must have been but then also laughing about that top notch role call
I, too, crochet when I'm depressed and/or anxious. There's something calming about it. Now... I'm sure you probably have heard this but I once heard charcuterie pronounced like "Shark's Cochie" and I can never unhear it. Thanks Elyse for being so relatable.
I loved absolutely everything about this vlog. You're a walking safe space, Elyse! Keep shining you sweet soul 💜You're doing a great job!
I've been acknowledging the last few days how much i've been glued to any mindless stimulation to cope with the burnout I've been in for the last month.
I also hadn't been acknowledging or realizing that it was burnout.
It's a really hard week (you know the one) (ftm, he/him btw)
and my hormones are off the charts. The general burnout is real, the autistic burnout is real.
The random bursts of a short sob when I've had six dozen moments of trying to let myself cry for weeks is disheartening.
It ends as soon as it begins, whether by my brain shutting down, or intentionally doing so with mindless media consumption because I *can't* actually handle feeling the emotions when they come up.
I know so well the feeling of finding/creating a new life for yourself and living in the joy and peace and revelations it brings- until you settle into it.
Until your "new" life is just *life* now. It comes with all the same parts the first one did. All the pain, all the grief, all the memories, yourself as a whole.
There's the new problems, the new challenges, the new stresses, the new responsibilities that are no longer new. They are simply yours.
I'm really, really struggling right now. But I knew if I was going to consume media to cope, it'd be mindful, not less.
It'd be something worth caring about, or someone. It'd give me a reason to cry, maybe.
I needed something, and it really was just your humanity. Your genuine, soulful, lovely self, who reminds me so much of my sister it warms my heart. (demeanor wise, as well as also having OCD, autism, adhd, etc)
thank you, Elyse. you are such a f'ing gift.
You reading about all the memories you and Jonas had together had me in tears. It’s just so sweet and pure and so glad you guys found each other.
OMG you pronounce Gouda the proper way! That makes me so happy :P
Also your journal entries are really well written.
Don't get discouraged about the blanket! The first half was the hardest for me because of all the decreases. Once the increase side is bigger than the decrease side it goes much faster. Can't wait to see how yours turns out!
There’s something so reinvigorating and also devastating about reading old diaries and journal entries…
Its like, seeing my old goals and wishes and knowing the ways it went well, but also knowing the ways it didn’t. Its strange. ❤
My biggest takeaways from this video is that I really underestimate pickles and I have that song stuck in my head now. 😂
Pickles are everythinnnggggg. Ironically I don’t like them on things, just alone hahhaha
Went looking through the comments to find someone else feeling the same as me and I'm glad to find a few more - loving the last statements from the journal! Having it describe just what I need to understand, accept and remember. That I cannot run from myself. And that anxiety can, and will, always be created in my head. And be a part of me. No matter where I live.
This insight beeing particularly important these days as I am currently packing up a house I've had a lot of anxiety in - to move to a new home - with some part of me hoping I can run before more anxiety comes rolling in... Thinking that this place is where it all started, often forgetting that I have experienced versions of it my whole life. Only this place becoming the symbol of my worst experience with anxiety...yet I guess 🙂🙂🙂
Then overthinking why I would even post this comment. Who cares what I think and is rambling about? Oh well. I'll just post it anyway. Hopefully it reaches you Elyse. Sending a huge Thank you! for charing! Both this and other tough things happening to you. It may sound strange - but I often find it easier to cope with my struggles when I hear someone else going through similar things. Not feeling unique seems to make it...hurt less. Love from a burnt out woman since a few years back - who finally got the privilege to become a mom this year - and therefore is a whole new level of vulnerable 😅❤️
Physiotherapist here - you should not need once weekly appointments (from a chiropractor or otherwise) for back pain for an extended period of time. If you have a good rehab plan with exercises that you do at home, you shouldn't really need weekly 'adjustments' for weeks and weeks on end (obviously I don't know your problem or what was going on, please insert all relevant disclaimers here!) but just letting you know!
I am a PT also. Please please go to a PT instead of a chiropractor.
This is very vague and can unnecessarily scare people. I was unable to walk for months and spent 6 weeks seeing my chiropractor 2-3 times a week and then an additional 8 weeks with a PT my chiropractor worked with to rebuild the muscles. Working with both saved me.
Love the library wall background idea!!!
Yessss!! So excited!
Elyse, you fill my soul with so much joy and comfort and validation. I know we are two different people, but I deeply understand so much of what you say, do, and share with us. I have never found someone who I am so similar to, and you make me feel seen just by being yourself and sharing your humanness. Thank you for being here. Thank you for being you ❤
Wow, your journal entries hit me right in the feels. I have tried journaling, but after a few days I always stop because I feel like I'm not doing it right. I am my own worst critic.
I love watching your videos!
I would watch a full reading (of what you feel comfortable sharing) of your journals. Your writing is so honest and well written. I love your excitement and want more! 😊
Thanks for another relatable video, so many things!
I've lived in an allegedly haunted house for 6 years now. I just treat the haunting presence as a roommate that wants to be acknowledged but not physically seen.
The anxiety, depression and the wherever you go, there you are, as well as growing, maturing and accepting yourself more and more is a journey I feel honored to have shared with me. I feel so much less alone to see when you describe or experience things that I also see in my life.
Good luck in all your endeavours.
Kind regards from this ADHD/Autistic man in Iceland
I've watched lots of your videos and I think you're so good at telling stories. You're hilarious!! I identify with a lot of things you've talked about too. So I just wanted to say thank you for sharing your life. There have been times when your words have helped me.
Also, I think it's cool you're learning Spanish. I'm English but have been living in Spain for a long time so I've learnt the language as an adult too!!
those shelves are PERFECT. what a perfect idea!
THANK YOU!
Does anyone else really wanna hear Elyse finish singing the song? I mean, she sings that part so well. 😊
Elyse, Girl, I see you!! Your journals were very profound. I wasn't that mature at that age, not real sure I am at 38. LOL - You are so right about being strong and independent. I was those things for many reasons. Which did cause problems in my marriage. Once I figured out, I wanted him to want to help me/do things for me, it helped significantly. It took me 7 years (together and 3 years married)..I never said I was a fast learner. LOL - I can still do things for myself, but I express that his acts of service make me feel cared for and I let him do things. I stopped saying "I can do it all by myself" (then get mad when he didn't do things for me). It made total sense.
I love the start of the book background. Here is to all the books I have coming in the mail myself. And I already added 4 books last weekend that I purchased locally.
Casually crying in my car in starbucks parking lot listening to Elyse Myers share her personal journal entries. That last one got me 😭 thank you for sharing
The incredibly neat notes in your composition books… 😌😌😌
I’m so glad those made your eyeballs happy! Me and my notes are good friends
i ALWAYS have a song in my head. sometimes its loud and sometimes its just like light background music. but i genuinely constantly have as song in my head. the first 15 seconds of this video are my entire life and i am absolutely living for elyse' josh turner impression.
I'm sure you get these comments a lot. But I've been feelin pretty low today, rather down in the dumps, ya know? And laying in bed while kinda feelin like I'm hangin out with a friend and laughing about normal little things made me feel a lot more comfortable and a little happier. Thanks for that. Appreciate you a lot 🤍
P.S. that final journal entry nearly made me choke, it just hit so close to home. It sounds like something I would've written about myself in college..
"There is no amount of running I can do where I can run from myself. Wherever I go, there I am..." and "A girl on the move, looking for home in all the wrong places." Damn. I was truly running from myself, my traumas and my toxic family for so many years of my life. The grass never failed to seem greener elsewhere. And with every new place came another reason to be dissatisfied and somehow even more lost or hurt. I'm glad we both made it out of that, Elyse. Thank you so much for sharing that entry 🤍
Ironically, I got the paper airplane tattoo I have on my arm roughly 24 hours after I wrote that journal entry to remind myself that I can’t run from myself when I move to a new place. I was living in Texas at the time and was about to finish my semester at college and move to Omaha to be in the same place as Jonas. And I kept thinking “Omaha is going to be the place I officially start over and thrive.” But I felt like I was wasting my short season in Texas because I was looking forward to Omaha so much that I was barely present in Texas. I was showing a friend around the Fort Worth stockyards (she was visiting from out of town) and we saw a tattoo parlor, and I ran inside and asked them to tattoo a paper airplane on me. I didn’t know at the time that my upcoming move to Omaha would be as impactful as it was, but I decided that whatever came of my impending move would be important because I decided it would be. Because that would be the move that I stopped assuming would cure me. That I might move a million more times before I found a place I felt I belonged in.
(Omaha just so happened to be the place I got engaged, married, and became a mom.) Even if it wasn’t the place I changed my identity two times over, my paper airplane and I would have made it special because it would have been the place where I finally accepted myself.
I didn’t realize when I started reading this journal that I’d find that journal entry (or all those other journal entries I found that didn’t feel significant when I was writing them, but absolutely were as I read them back.) but I’m so grateful I kept a log of those thoughts. If I take anything away from this week, it’s that I need to get back into the practice of writing my thoughts down every day!! Finding them years later is life changing!
@elyse_myers your writing is inspiring ne, friend!!
@@elyse_myers Ah oh my goodness, thank you for sharing such a sweet and impactful story with me! Who would’ve thought that cute little paper airplane tattoo on your arm had such a significant, transformative and beautiful story behind it. Now even I have some new symbolism connected to a this paper airplane. You’ve really inspired me. Feels like just a little sprinkle of destiny that you flipped open to that page in your journal.
I may still have some struggles with mental health and get frustrated with my own brain, but I’m happy with myself, I’m blessed to be a mother, I’ve found my person in life, and I’m comfortable where I am for the first time in my ever. I’ve got one more stop to make, I’m moving from MA to NH in pursuit of buying an A frame cabin home in the woods. A dream I’ve had forever and a day. But I’ve finally reached a place where I don’t feel like I want to run from myself or my life. I want to pick it up, all of it, and place it in this final destination. So I’m gonna send out my last little paper airplane a few years from now, and that’ll be that. 🤍
These videos truly feel like spending quality time with a good friend 🤍
Ah man write a book! I’d read the shit out that. The perfect mix of humour and seriousness, vulnerability and confidence x
I bought the blanket pattern because of your video and i call them my pile of "noodles" until it starts to look like a blanket 😭😂 Thank you so much for bringing me some peace and relatability in my anxious times!❤
Noodles! I love it! 😂
I saved this video to watch it when I needed some peace and I’m so glad I did. I’m so encouraged by you, specially the way you approach new experiences, even when they’re scary. It’s really made me try to change the way I face my own challenges-thank you so much 💜
Your journal entries sound beautiful, the way you write is amazing
Elyse, you just are such a light. Your humor and thought process is amazing and reminds me of my daily moments. Right down to the crumbl cookies! . I've given up on my curls (way too lazy) and you're inspiring me to the again! I started crocheting (again) because of you and forgot how much it gives me joy. Thanks for being you. So glad I found your channel. I missed seeing you!
The "why doesn't anyone go to Nebraska" is so relatable 😭
I cut out a large portion of footage where I was basically campaigning for Nebraska, specially directed and people who do the booking for tour venues. And then upon further inspection as I began editing, I realized how niche that request (5 minute begging) actually was. Hahahha
Your videos literally always make me feel better, no matter if I was feeling down or if I was already feeling good.
You're a very gifted writer. I enjoyed listening to you read your journal entries. I would read a book with you as the author, because I like the way you describe the every day. I loved the details about packing up your life, and the way you write in meaningful metaphor. 10/10 no notes.
the singing in the start was beautiful lol
I showed my husband what you said about the chiropractor because he has been telling me to go so much and I finally had to ask him to stop suggesting the chiropractor. Today you put my feelings, as to why i cant go back, into words 😂😂😂
HAHAHHA I have to say it was incredibly helpful on the “pain radiating within my back” front. But in terms of the “I have no idea how to socialize myself” front, it was my nightmare.
“I don’t even put gas in my own car anymore!” Man can I relate to that! My husband treats me like a princess too! I am SO happy you found your knight in shining armor too! You deserve the absolute best!!!❤❤❤
I’ve never ordered cookies in the middle of the night but I’ve definitely ordered yarn.
Absolutely got goosebumps when you read that last journal entry
thank you for making this video. you make me feel so much more normal especially with my anxieties! i’ve never related to someone more and i felt very hopeful while watching this. so, truly, thank you!
When she said "I'm really bad at mail, really bad a mail, I need to get better at mail." I felt that.
I always watch your videos when my baby sleeps on me. It’s such a comfort and a time of rest for me as well.
Cabot's Seriously Sharp is my favorite cheddar cheese!! Bar none!
I WAS UNPREPARED! IT WAS SO GOOD
I'm looking forward to reading your book when it's finally published, you write so well :)
Though if I'm being realistic, I'll probably listen to you read it as an audio book while I also keep my hands busy crocheting things. I don't even know what my current project is, just making squares to use up my current stash instead of buying even more yarn.
My mental health is not so great at the moment. It's very easy for me to get into this rut where I'm stressed, overwhelmed and not making good choices in my physical health (emotional eating, avoiding leaving the house and exercising, insomnia). Which then affects my mental health, and keeps me in this vicious cycle. Today was meant to be a day where I did things, including yoga in the makeshift studio I've set up in the spare room (i.e. I've put a mat on the floor and put a wax melt thing in there). But the sleeping did not go so well, so I've sat around in my pyjamas feeling like a zombie and snacking. I don't ask anybody for help or support, because my brain has convinced me there is nobody who wants to listen and help me in the way I need to be supported. It's created this reality by spending a lot of time avoiding, isolating, dissociating, or being so clingy/needy that I annoy myself, moving from town to town on temporary teacher contracts, so I haven't had a good chance to establish a strong support base.
Writing my thoughts into the comment abyss helps me process my feelings and what steps I need to take now.
This entire video brings me so much joy. I’m laughing. I’m crying. I’m smiling so big my face hurts. I love you! ❤
Wow. It continues to amaze me hearing someone recount their experiences and realizing I feel the same way and experience the same things. For a world so vast and full of many different people, in some ways we’re all the same. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and experiences Elyse. I feel less alone. ❤
the phone call anxiety is very relatable
It really is, some days I would just rather die.
So true!! I once was too scared to call my dentist to cancel my appointment so I asked my mom to do it, but as an adult I felt like it was embarrassing to have my mom calling for me so I told my mom to tell them I died and then I had to find a new dentist 😭😭
Man, I’ve never been so early to anyone’s video! I’m going to need to comment to commemorate the occasion!😂
🥹 Wow!! I think this may be one of my favorite videos of yours! The connection between the letter you found from your friend and then the time period in which you found it...then finding the journals with your deepest thoughts and feelings...🥹 I would pay to buy those books and read them maybe over and over like a novel. Your life story..in chapter books!! I know what you're thinking...what??? Who would care about my thoughts and life?
But Elyse, we all have those thoughts and feelings at some point. We are all in this walk together. You are not alone. 💖 you really are so loved! It really touched me what your friend wrote you. Such love, encouragement, and support.....Priceless! Your friend is right on! One day at a time...one moment at a time...together with the ones you love and love you. ❤️ Thank you so much for sharing! May the Lord Jesus bless you with His peace that passes all understanding. 💖 with love and high fives from Oklahoma
Those bookshelves are wonderful! It is great you have so many old journals to look back on! The letter from your friend was so sweet!
Your journal entries truly moved me, Elyse. ❤
Thank you so much!
every time I find out something new about you (i.e., lived in Australia, moving from CA to TX, taught yourself how to code in 4 months, owned your own business, etc.) I am always amazed at how much life you have lived for someone so young
Wow Elise that blanket is epic and the top is lovely! I am so happy to see you are continuing to crochet. Thank you for sharing your makes and the journal entries. Sending well wishes xo 🧶🤗
Oh my days❤!! I am not on threads, and this morning as tired of bs being presented on usual roll/scroll I've seen a interesting thread and thought of reading it....Long story short: found Elyse again!! I missed hearing your stories, about anything, especially everyday life...Also, another fellow curly who is powering through being encourraged to stay on the curly journey. Love ya for being so real, and cannot even express how huge that is: BREATH OF FRESH AIR that never stopped❤❤❤! Thank you for being here, and sharing content with us!
Why does her journal sound like an actual book. It sounds so good I would stay up all night reading it 😂
Wow, those journals are written so well, straight up a book on their own.
I had to watch this a second time as it has so many good nuggets.
• Nebraska definitely needs more tours to come through
• The note from your friend is beautiful
• I ghosted my last chiropractor because I could not handle him asking how work was every week
• Rereading your journal can be a beautiful and crazy thing
• "I was depressed. I made it. It made me feel better"
I appreciate you sharing so much, and I feel like I have found a kindred spirit. Thank you for being you!
Your journal entries are so well written, it was like listening to an audio book! ❤
Thank you for sharing that last part of your journal. ❤ It was, it is... beautiful.
I would read your journal like a novel, you are SUCH a beautiful writer. Makes me so excited that you are writing a book!! Already decided I’m buying it the second it comes out
Elyse: "I'm, like, gonna cry"
*while i'm actively sobbing lmao, i'm so fucking happy for you*
hormones have me in a chokehold rn
Thank you for doing these videos, it’s always calming because I relate to a lot of your content
I love your vids!! You know those vids where other people are like “act like I’m on FaceTime with you” and it is TOTALLY not that vibe. Yours is! I feel like I’m on FT with you 🥰 the warmth (energy) I feel through the screen is comforting.
There are so many things I could say from this video but the one I really want to say is i cried listening to your journal entries. You are a beautiful writer Elyse! 🤍
I love your diary entries. The funny and the serious. I love your writing, about being on the move alot. That resonated with me. 💖💖💖
Thank you so much! ♥️♥️
I’m sure the ghosts appreciate the company and the decorative bookshelves! 😂 those bookshelves are amazing!!
OMG this January 10th entry had me IN TEARS! This is so raw and well-written. I’ve also been in that place at one point in my life and your description of the feeling is SPOT ON!