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"How can she login to Gmail if she isn't aware of herself" It might be related to the procedural/episodic memory thing. She isn't aware of her identity, but her body typed in the login credentials she has always used, like how muscle memory are
Yes! I agree with this, I find that I (and probably most everyone) can open my phone's PIN without looking, or occasionally automatically type passwords when presented with a text entry field without even thinking about it. It was probably so natural for her to just type it out, no extra thought needed!
@@Greenteabook yup, it's the same thing with Alien Hand Syndrome. The left and right hemispheres of the brain control the opposite side of the body but one hemisphere is responsible for speech where the other is not. It's kind of scary to think that there are 2 very real personalities that only work together thanks to the superhighway of nerves called the corpus callosum.
I think that the disappearances corresponding with when she started new jobs is super important. That can be a super stressful change, and for people who dissociate due to trauma, stress can result in dissociating and going on "autopilot" to protect themselves. Her tendency to appear close to bodies of water could indicate that she found water comforting or safe. Maybe had good memories associated with it. Regardless, I hope she's safe.
As someone who does dissociate due to PTSD, mine gets worse the more stress I'm under, especially if it's due to a new change in my life. That pattern of her disappearancing when she starts a new job definitely felt familiar
We're a multiple system and although we don't have DID/OSDD or amnesia, we do experience dissociation mostly adjacent to DP/DR. We were actually actively able to see how stress from working affected our system, we were all stressed and no one wanted to use the body because of how working affected our body and mind. I could honestly see someone prone to amnesia-related dissociation could get that triggered. I could also understand someone not realizing that's a trigger, we only realized it because we don't have amnesia and a few of us spoke up about how this was hurting us.
This is terrifying. She should’ve agreed to the ankle bracelet. I’m sure they could’ve found a way to make it discreet if that’s what she was worried about…
@@NanoGamingGamer i dont think most people would be comfortable being tracked constantly and having a visible reminder of that. especially for someone that had such a large span of time between occurences. and if she wanted attention you think shed have showed up by now
she was one of the primary teachers at my school the year she went missing. she was honestly one of the most caring and kind people and this seeing her in this context is so disturbing but I'm glad it being covered because more attention needs to be brought to this case and others like her
@@yeontantheman2333 Why does more attention need to be brought to this case? It seems like an extremely rare condition...and if anyone could've prevented this it was her family..
8:42 you can’t convince me she is still alive. she literally walked outside during a intense storm that killed thousands of people. it’s safe to say that she’s long gone
Yeah that’s true since Hurricane Irma is a powerful storm and if she was in a state then it’s likely that she is long gone and if she is gone then I hope her body can be found.
we can hope maybe she got to a last-ship off the island, but thats the ONLY way i see her being alive....because otherwise, would a body not have been found? i mean maybe it could've been tossed into the ocean....
This might be a bit insensitive, but considering that both of her fugue states ended with her waking up in bodies of water, it's likely that she's dead and is in a river or lake. However, it can't be said for certain that she's dead, she could still be out there.
refusing the ankle brace was a dumb move imo. “Yeah I know I might lose awareness and disappear at any time but I’m not gonna wear this mildly inconvenient ankle brace that would find me within a day”
@@beautifulbeaner on second thought she might’ve had more than just the condition in the video that made her refuse help. I’m sure she downplayed what happened to her friends as well, so no one knew how serious it was. But her mother was pretty involved in the search so I’m not sure why she wasn’t concerned beforehand either
Honestly, these stories are scarier than any kind of murder or freak accident stories - the ones that remind you that our intelligence, our personality and our memories are all performed by a vulnerable piece of meat that can malfunction at any moment and the person that we think we are can just cease to exist.
As someone with severe mental health issues, yes, it's scary. Not in a "mentally ill people are dangerous" way, but in that it's hard to live in a mind less reliable than most
My father disappeared in 1965. It was a relatively normal day. He left the gas station that he owned to pick up lunch for his employees. He never returned. He remained missing for one year, eventually being found in California....thousands of miles away from our home in South Louisiana. He swore until his death that he had no recollection of what had transpired in the year that he was missing. Could this story provide an answer??? Some understanding??? Perhaps...thank you for sharing.
@@XiomaraThaGoddessMeowThe fact he owned a business and apparently didn't repent from his belief about having amnesia until he died suggests that this isn't just a case of "man flees family".
She goes into fugue states twice, both ending with her in water and then decides not to get an ankle bracelet and move to an island LITERALLY SURROUNDED BY WATER.
If I found out I had this disorder I would DEMAND I have multiple tracking devices and whatnot on me lol. I think rejecting the ankle bracelet was incredibly dumb.
Why does everyone ignore the fact that both her and the mother were drawn to the water. It’s right there in our faces. Both of her fugue states brought her to the water and the 3rd time she was on an island- completely surrounded by water. And if you pause and read her mother’s story her mother was strangely drawn to the water to in her fugue state and questioned why she went to the water and why she felt so calm when she was near the waters. Not to mention Hannah often go to the beach when she wasn’t in her fugue state.
The mother is telling a story, we can't really rely on it for evidence. Not to mention it just seems like hannah is doing drugs. If I had any money I'd bet her entire fugue thing is a result of drug usage.
Hanna Upp was my little sister teacher and i would conistantly go to her class simply to talk to my sister but she was so sweet and i really hope that one day they at least find her body or find out what happen to her. This was so sad for the entire island that she lived on bc she was so sweet and such a good teacher. I miss her
"Why did she disappear when starting a new job?" Perhaps, instead of stress, it was her mind being unable to adapt to the new jobs. After all, a new job is a pretty big thing for most people - new routines, people, locations, _procedures_ . Perhaps these changes were enough to cause a confusion deep within her mind, and in turn, enough to trigger a fugue state. I'm no psychologist but that doesn't sound so far fetched to me.
@@Danflave thank you :) always thought I had a decent mind for psychology, at least an open mind, being someone who's dealt with their own issues. Maybe I'll do some looking into courses and whatnot.
NO! NO! NO! Many people say I am sick in the head. NOOOO!!!! I don't believe them. But there are so many people commenting this stuff on my videos, that I have 1% doubt. So I have to ask you right now: Do you think I am sick in the head? Thanks for helping, my dear x
How sad, she was so young and had so much life ahead of her. Mental health is unbelievably fragile it's terrifying. I hope she's at peace wherever that may be.
I experienced a fugue state when I was 21. It was a horrifying experience - total black out. I had some childhood trauma buried deep. It's been almost ten years and I've done lots of therapy to help me build skills to stay out of a dissociative state. So thankful to be here and grounded.
@@blackice000 you’ve commented this everywhere and i can’t help but feel that it is extremely disrespectful and distasteful on a video about someone’s disappearance and likely death.
Honestly, I feel like she maybe went swimming at the beach. If they found her dress, sandals, and purse at the beach, it would lead me to believe that she had a swimsuit on underneath her dress, which she took off, and then left her belongings in the sand to go swimming, maybe when the hurricane hit. If she got caught up in it, she wouldn’t be anywhere near St Thomas since she’d probably move with it. Forgive me if the dates don’t quite add up though, I’m a little fuzzy on when hurricanes hit. I am also partially leaning towards her committing suicide by drowning herself or something else involving water, but maybe she didn’t realize what she was doing if she was in a fugue state. Or she decided that she didn’t want to live with this disorder anymore. But I feel like, somehow, she ended up in that water.
I agree. I feel like if it weren’t for her history, this would be a closed case drowning. It was right before a hurricane (if I remember) which causes some crazy waves… she could have easily drowned either accidentally or purposely and the hurricane moved her body to a place it’ll never be found. Or she may have gone into a fugue state again… but I doubt she’s still on the island, it’s to small and 50k ppl is really not a lot.
Wait….It just seems so strange that if Hannah keeps disappearing that her family would let her leave the country and move to a remote island. Wouldn’t they be terrified that she’d get lost in the forest with her condition?
You can’t control grown adults…… what do you mean they “let” her go? She’s an independent adult… you can’t hold her against her will. I work In mental health and I see people literally insane and still can’t “make” them do anything unless they are homicidal or suicidal.
If everyone knew she had a condition like that, why would she ever be left unattended? The police tracking device sounded like a good idea. If it were me, I'm pretty sure my mum would move in and watch me like a hawk.
It's mostly a case of wanting to live a normal life, I'm sure her friends and family did their best to convince her to take appropriate repercussions but I guess she didn't like living like that. Often times people with severe mental illnesses are dismissive of their own disabilities so they try their best to live their life ignoring it.
no way I'm letting the cops track me, but I would definitely make sure a trusted person or persons had a way to track my whereabouts if i was susceptible to this. it almost sounds like she wanted to go missing.
She went to a beach during a hurricane, and we're throwing around things like "committed suicide" "got lost," "*joined a native tribe*." Isn't the simplest answer that she was killed by one of the two hurricanes and washed out to sea?
Still technically the same one? She knew it was dangerous and still went? I want to assume common sense doesn't go out of the window but considering the other times she was found in water... Brains are very strange. All we can do is hope she's OK.
I kid you not ... My girlfriend of 5 years suffered from something just like this. Her family blamed me and said I was abusing her. Unfortunately I left the situation because her family kept blaming me. Since our breakup I've heard it's gotten significantly worse. This is a real life issue and should not be looked past.
Hope they said sorry to you, seeing how it’s clearly still going on without you around. I know no one wants to accept that their kid isn’t “the greatest” human ever, but some parents really need to get a grip and realize their kids aren’t above having issues and stop blaming everyone but their kid for things. Sorry that this family treated you that way.
Tbh at this point she is most likely dead. I noticed she was always found near water, so it’s possible she could’ve wandered off into the ocean since St Thomas is surrounded by water.
Yeah, it should be, but unless you're ruled as mentally unfit by the court, they can't force you to accept that. Hannah was quite mentally fit outside of these episodes, so that was never gonna happen.
As someone this has happened to, and as an adult, u can’t be by yourself always. My family does check on me, but I have to work. Feel very bad for her people. Not even knowing where she is
Thats absurd. Ppl cant afford to stop their entire existence to babysit a mentally ill friend nor are they qualified to do so... its not feasible in any way for the vast majority of ppl ESPECIALLY during a hurricane. If my dumbass friend wants to stay in danger and not evacuate during a major natural disaster, im not risking my own life to babysit them... and i wouldn't expect my friends and family to do it for me either.
Wow, this is something I've never seen before. It's crazy what the human brain can do to things that seem so core to a person, like their identity. Nice video.
Everyones acting like its weird she didnt get the tracker like thats not the most normal thing ever. Who tf wants a government tracking device strapped to their leg 24/7
I should have never sorted these comments by “New”. You people have to be the most self-assuming, insensitive, heartless armchair psychologists that I have seen in a very long time. Instead of pouring sympathy and helping piece this mystery together in order to find her, you begin to feel the need to criticize her. Why…? Why are people with mental illness treated like idiots…………?
I agree with you. I’m always curious on the videos (6 months or older) what newer people have to say. This broke my heart. She obviously didn’t want it to happen again, she’s not a nut case.
She claimed not to have any trauma that would cause her brain to fugue to I guess protect her from that trauma … but religious/spiritual trauma is very real and can be very brutal.
@ahk This is mostly not true. This is a myth that was made up during the Satanic Panic because therapists implanted false memories of "Satanic ritual abuse" in people. When in reality it's actually quite easy to implant a false memory in someone, even an extreme one. If your therapist causes you to "remember" things you didn't remember before, you should be very concerned.
@akh agreed I’m not diagnosed with any dissociative disorder but I’ve suffered from trauma since childhood until recently and I have large chunks of my life that I can’t remember. PTSD and other mental illnesses can cause you to block out the memories/not remember too as it’s the brains response when something traumatic happens.
I once had a friend who had past trauma that caused dissociative episodes and they never knew what the traumatic experience was that caused it and their doctors had said it was likely repressed since it happened in early childhood, so that could be why Hannah couldn’t think of any past trauma. Or it could be from something very normalized in her religious household. (I realize I’ve been speaking about this friend in the past tense but don’t worry they aren’t dead as far as I know they just weren’t very kind to me as a friend and would constantly excuse mental diagnosis to get out of facing consequences when they would act extremely toxic and would never make an effort to treat people like human beings)
Even tho it seems like pseudoscience, hypnosis is actually very effective in reviving old memories, even very early in childhood. Tho whether or not reviving those memories is beneficial is up for debate.
Considering how she was ALWAYS found in water, it's hard to believe she didn't just enter the fugue state, go for a swim, and never return. I'll bet darn near anything whatever happened the first time happened again, but no boat was there to find her.
14:56 so these fugues not only can make you wonder off and forget who you are, they can make you know so little about yourself that you can change your whole personality. Thats wild
i feel like there has to be something related to her starting new jobs at new schools that's making her go into fugue states. i wonder if something traumatic happened to her in or around school when she was young that she's been able to successfully repress her whole life but once she was introduced to a new school environment as an adult teacher her fugue states were triggered by the repressed trauma being remembered, then once successfully repressed again she would come out of the fugue state. in other severe dissociative disorders like DID, a similar thing happens where someone encounters a trigger that takes them back to traumatic experiences, and the part of the brain that remembers that trauma will "take over" and cause a dissociative amnesia to prevent the person from remembering that experience. but while she was in this fugue state for the 3rd time there was an accident/misadventure resulting in her death or she was taken advantage of by someone who recognized she was vulnerable and that person caused her death.
I get dissociative amnesia from being an alter and I'm pretty sure you're correct. It might have been a new traumatic event or a flashback trigger that didn't turn off fast enough, either way, it must have been something truly horrible for such strong loss of memory.
I don’t know if this is really relevant but I felt like I had to share it. I had my first ever (and hopefully last) episode of psychosis a few days ago and within it I was sharing a body with my own characters. I wasn’t fully or possibly not at all in control of my emotions and actions. I remember it and it was just crazy.
"man with amnesia found insisting his name was a swedish name and could only speak swedish despite having been american before" maybe you guys had the wrong guy ?????????
It's hard to word this at three in the morning but basically put, it's likely she had trauma involving water. Thematically, water is used in a lot of preaching - I mean, the flood story, baptisms, Revelation heavily features water, and many preaching styles involve things like water featured as a renewal or vitality symbol - and it's not a stretch to assume that her trauma around events she likely didn't talk about, compounded with big life changes and pressure to perform a certain role, caused her brain to go into survival mode. Fugue is a part of CPTSD and was poorly understood in 2008. A natural disaster such as that hurricane would have caused apocalyptic levels of destruction - she was likely feeling stressed! When I have traumatic episodes - I have ones where I'd literally forget I was who I was now, and think I was still in the situation - I will remember things that are automatic like logins or to feed my cats. But I would more heavily be involved in the trauma and reality would seem like a lucid dream, flowing in and out. I'd automatically know to turn the news on at 5 for my dad to watch, but I wouldn't remember what year it was and I'd be constantly swamped in the event that happened to me. I would forget to shower, to change clothing, to take care of myself and my surroundings beyond the "automatic" - it's likely her Gmail was a daily routine and her mind went "where can I find a computer..." and saw an Apple store as she was walking along. I have no hope in her survival this long, but stranger things have happened.
@@aduckofsomesort its not really about a disability. Its about preventing her from going missing again. I wouldn't blame her family for wanting to put her in a good company/group home. If it were me (as in her family) I would go for it fpr her own safety. She obviously can't rely on just herself. Counting on others would help if she went missing and could be found more quickly. Its more for her safety not her disability. She can't control it, like anything else
@@maddyinthemaking I’d much rather risk going missing/even potentially getting myself into danger than going into an assisted living facility. What kind of life is that when you’re completely competent and able bodied.
disappearances that happened for less then a month, and then again for less than 3 days? I don't think that deserves a life time sentence to an assisted living facility... especially for someone so young It's nobody's fault, no point in speculating the 'if the parents did this is would do X'. You're pretty much advocating for someone to be locked up for short incidents of fugue states... I disagree with this approach to take a young persons life away for something like this, it would be akin to locking up people who have attempted suicide 'for their own good'. It's reminiscent of how they used to treat mental conditions or odd behavior back then
@@PoptartParasol its not miniscule. Its a full person loosing their memory and going missing without any knowledge of who they are. What would happen if she surprisingly came home one day but went missing even more frequently and for longer time. If it was your family? Wouldn't that worry you?
Good video n all like I loved it but why did he pronounce “awry” like “ar-ee”. I’ve never heard it pronounced like that. I’ve always heard it pronounced “uh-rye”. Not saying he’s wrong or anything but I just found it interesting how he pronounced it like that😂💕
I don't mind speculating but I'm hesitant to assign trauma to someone but the statement at 12:40 got me thinking about religious trauma. To start off, I'm not trying to bash any religion. I'm just sharing what I've seen in my life. A lot of "extreme" religions tend to travel and proselytize; Evangelicals, Mormons, Jehovah's Witnesses, etc. They also tend to have very intense and, according to many people who were born into said religions but no longer practice, traumatizing rites and practices. I don't think it's too far-fetched to say that while traveling with her father at a young age, she could have witnessed something. My mind automatically goes to a baptism. Think about it, the first time she went missing they found her face down in New York Harbor and the second time she found herself sitting in a creek. The third time, friends found her possessions at a beach, indicating that she most likely entered the water at some point. Now, back to the baptism. Many religions baptize new converts and lack of swimming skills aren't uncommon in developing countries. Again, I don't think it's out of line to say it's possible that a young Hannah witnessed a baptism where one of the initiates began to struggle (perhaps due to a loss of footing or lack of air) and whoever was in charge at the time saw the struggle as "resistance to the Holy" and continued the baptism potentially causing the person to die. Young Hannah could have wanted to save them but was unable to for some reason and it caused some type of trauma. But once again, this is just speculation.
Dosent seem like a kidnapping , i think she just wandered off and died of exposure , reminds of the lars mittanks case , after suffering a head injury in a fight he seemed alright , but while alone in a hotel he snapped and became paranoid and whandered into the wilderness never to be found , both very sad and tragic cases.
I am surprised how someone with such a horrible illness is left alone to live, atleast her mother should have told her to be with her. She should not have been without someone to watch her.
Dissociative symptoms may not be hereditary, but trauma can be generational, especially if later generations give the same upbringing (including doctrine) that they themselves had. Dissociative conditions are most often signs of severe childhood trauma, and there are still a lot of causes of trauma that hide in plain sight because people are so used to downplaying the severity of certain parenting practices that inflict lasting psychological damage.
plus doesnr the brain sometimes suppress memories in order to "wall off" trauma? traumatic events can also cause memory problems or cause gaps in memory specifically revolving around the traumatic event in question.
@@elleofhearts8471 That's what dissociation is. In its most basic form, it distances you from being mentally present during traumatic moments, sometimes becoming your main response to stress from then on. Some forms can happen consciously, others more often are involuntary reflexes. The more basic, the more likely it can happen voluntarily to cope. In its simplest case, you respond to stressful or trauma-related stimuli by suppressing your sense of emotion-- in my case, it's also caused a few rare periods where instead of emotion, the language center of my brain shut off for a while. Then there's dissociative amnesia. You block out the traumatic memory. You literally cannot handle the ordeal of this trauma, even if it's physically survivable. So, it never happened. There's just a blind spot in your memory. A missing day, week, month, year of your life, like it never happened. Even if someone else tells you what happened, all you can recall is being told about it. Sometimes, the catch is that you're still triggered by things associated with the blocked memory, and you may not realize it's a trigger. You might just think you have an irrational phobia. Some people even lose the memory of being triggered, so you don't even know what the trigger was and therefore can't try avoiding it. Sometimes, if the blocked trauma was a chronic situation, it can pretty much cause your memory to have rolling blackouts on and off for the rest of your life. A more self-destructive form of dissociation is depersonalization, which is often coupled by a depressive or manic spike if you're not feeling numbed out. These often happen for shorter spells, but you convince yourself that it doesn't matter how awfully you're suffering if [You] isn't a real person, just someone you made up for escape. In extreme cases, especially common with experiencing physical or sexual violence, the self-detachment becomes so intense that you become your own third-party observer. It's been described as like watching a movie about someone else with no relevance to You The Viewer. Depersonalization can go a few ways. As a trauma symptom, it's rarely alone. More often, it can pair with derealization. It's just as it sounds. Everything feels distant, muffled, like it's all actors and stage sets, or like you're just imagining the world around you, like you're in a dream or a VR. Gaslighting can especially cause this one. The next extreme case would be episodic delusions and/or hallucinations where the brain fills in its own reasoning for that sense of unreality, like it really is a dream, and it can be very hard to break out of without the right antipsychotic even if you're aware that it's happening. Another way it can go is dissociative identity. Even if it's not YOU that this is happening to, you're not equipped for processing this stimulus that aggravates your trauma, so YOU are compartmentalized into different personalities and the memories are divided up according to which facet was fronting (piloting) at the time. YOU can't remember this because that was [You] fronting at the time, therefore that was [You]'s memory, someone other than YOU, and [You] is just one of several cognitive constructs. Not all of them are aware of each other, some one them have internal dialogue with each other, some of their memories are shared, some announce that they'll switch soon while others don't, some are involuntary switched by a trigger. Some of them are manifestations of specific personal aspects or moods like conscience, survival, internalized abuse, childhood innocence, the self YOU aspire to become, the self that family expects YOU to become, etc., and because they're Different People, they're not bound to look like the "system" (YOU as a whole). They can present themselves with different names, genders, appearances, mannerisms and preferences. And they may reintegrate over time, or they may further fracture. The mind is complex and will go through a lot of loopholes if necessary to keep itself running. Sometimes those loopholes are bugs, and sometimes they're features. Sometimes therapy and recovery can rehabilitate a person so the dissociative X or Y isn't so debilitating, but it never goes completely away. You just learn how to manage it and its impact on your life.
Dissociation is often a symptom of having felt powerless against a threat, and it's especially common in people who've been in environments where openly breaking down could've escalated that threat.
@DeeJay1210 I was complimenting you for a witty response, and you had to downplay it with proving me wrong, with the fact that the earlier comment was as much wit as you could muster.
Honestly if someone asked me "you're the [insert name] everyone's looking for?" I wouldn't known what to answer either. "Her and her father travelled a lot overseas"/"her belongings were usually found near water" maybe water was a catalyst in her dissapearances? "There's no traumatic events in her life" I bet something happened in those travels (i live in a heavily religious country.. i know the extent those assholes can reach with their actions) but was so normalized in her family/upbringing she honestly couldn't pinpoint it.
the last line are my thoughts exactly. I was raised strict Christian and I know first hand how abusive those households can be, and how "normal" it is in that kind of life.
i’m surprised more people aren’t talking about this. i can’t imagine the pain of living a double life, knowing your own father doesn’t respect you or your identity. i know she’s most likely dead, but i like to think she’s out there somewhere, alive and well, able to live authentically with people who accept her for who she is.
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as someone who goes through fugue states, though not as severe as this case, i can confirm it is terrifying. i have Dissociative Identity Disorder so dissociation is to be expected, but when i "wake up" somewhere and don't remember how i got there, or suddenly not remembering the past few weeks? it's the scariest thing to know that you can't always control your own actions.
@@inendlesspain4724 Agatha Christie didn’t recognise herself in the newspaper when she went missing, she did recognise someone who looked very similar but it didn’t occur to her that person actually was her..
I think she does this to avoid work. Teachers have no identity other than work and "salt life" vacations so she has dramatic episodes to escape city life and was probably just dumb enough to get killed in a hurricane in the end.
@@kristenwhitworth7991 I feel like you didn't watch the video, they stated she had dissasociative fugue, any mental issues like that can trigger from stress alone. Starting new jobs can be a stress trigger or maybe she got overwhelmed and it triggered. The fact that she's missing and her stuff was found (phone, keys, sandals and car) I doubt this is just "dramatics".
it really seems like suicide. maybe she got stressed with her love life, constantly switching jobs, this new diagnosis… these things can really push someone to the edge. perhaps she moved to an island so she could be surrounded by what she loved before she would commit. and maybe she intentionally went out in the hurricane to off herself. or maybe she went in a fugue state and went out in the hurricane and died. that would probably make more sense
she shows a patterns of losing her memory and somehow finding herself to bodies of water. she could have fell into one of her episodes, went to a body of water, and drowned... this is such a tragic story.
I don't understand the fact that after she was diagnosed with such a scary + unpredictable disorder + disappearing TWICE she went to live on an Island without family near. People have to live on medication, with the help of a cane, with an oxygen tank etc to keep them healthy + safe every day without "liking" it. For her not to accept the ankle bracelet was irresponsible. Not to leave the Island during hurricanes was her choice. I don't mean to sound insensitive, I truly hope she is alive + well somewhere. After disappearing in NY for 3wks then again for 2 days + being found was not only a blessing but huge red flags that you should have a safety plan in action for yourself.
I remember reading an article about her a couple of years ago and something about how they talked about her family in that made me think she likely has/had some serious trauma with her dad, and so it's possible she moved far away from her parents on purpose.
I’m sorry but that is insensitive. People with mental disorders can’t always be clear about their choices. Some of us just can’t think in a typical way and it’s not good to act like we could be as responsible as you. I called the police on my dad once because of what started as him trying to put a shock collar on the dog. It wasn’t really my choice even though from the outside it seems like it is. I felt in complete danger and like I needed to get help urgently.
So twice, Hannah was drawn to water while in her fugue state. Then we learn that Hannah's mother went into a possible fugue state and also found herself at water. Why does this fugue state seem to make people want to enter the water? That's so creepy. I have a bad feeling that Hannah may have gone to water a third time. Possibly entering the sea during that hurricane. My thoughts and prayers are with her mother and all of her loved ones.
Entering in passwords could also be an example of procedural memory. There are passwords for accounts I remember how to type out because I've done it thousands of times but I couldn't actually tell you what I'm typing out before I did it.
I hope I’m not disrespectfully speaking out of turn, but I’m fairly convinced she probably died. the hurricane that came right after Irma was Hurricane Maria, which was so strong it would have been placed higher than a category 5 if it was possible. It absolutely devastated so many islands in the Caribbean and thinking that she may have been wandering out at around the time that Maria happened… I just don’t see how she could’ve survived that if she wasn’t sheltered.
How is it when you know someone has a medical issue that causes them to lose all their sense of self and get lost that you let them be alone with no company at any time? Such a shame that proper precautions could have easily prevented this.
I hope Hannah's ok. There might be a connection between her and the ocean idk what it could be but there might be something there. Hoping to God she's alive even if she is under a state of unknowing somewhere
@@scapegoatmiller9110 for sure. for the longest time i didn't realize exactly how screwed my mental health was until i reached early adulthood and realized, "oh, these thoughts aren't normal." lots of repressed anger and many toxic defense mechanisms to unlearn here. i seem like a super bright and energetic person but there's a lot going on that i don't tell anyone about. the same should go for anyone, and especially for hannah.
I agree with forgetting, I don't call my entire stressful school life trauma. I'm sure the other kids that were bullying me had worse lives at home. Me getting bullied by teachers and students for being disabled? Pffft nah there's worse going on in the world. My best friend has been through worse unfortunately. That was actual trauma.
Not to make light of the condition or Hannah's disappearance, but funnily enough, thinking about it, 'Dissociative Fugue' somewhat lines up with the nonsensical behavior a video game protagonist in an open-world game might exhibit. Stuff like New Vegas, or any of the more open-ended RPGs of the last couple decades. The complete disregard or lack of memory of the details of their lives, combined with the 'strange desire to wander' fits a little too well. Doesn't make the concept of it any less terrifying, though.
My heart goes out for the poor mother , the stress and hurt that loosing her daughter like this THREE times , having found her before I think it made it worst for her when she couldn't find her again a third time ,I do hope that atleast her body is found to give closure to her family and friends.
Dissociative fugue? Never heard of it... I hope that she's found safe and sound again, but... after this third time, it's sad to say that I'm not optimistic. However she's found, I hope she is found so her loved ones can get some closure.
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Almost exactly 5 years difference, and almost always in September.. Adding to that, the water stuff people are talking about As for logging in to her Gmail account, procedural memory
I have a disassociation disorder. I just have a strong feeling that she is just. Existing. Maybe went for a swim. Came back. And just, is alive somewhere. You never really do things you don’t wanna do when you disassociate. Easiest way to describe it is you cognitive mind is down. You’re functional. You’re alive. Just not aware. She loved to swim. No surprise her things are left at the water. She’s swimming. She wouldn’t need to carry that stuff. Then she either forgot. Or didn’t recognize that as her stuff. And carried on. She was missing during a hurricane? That’s so high stressed. Anytime I get yelled at I begin to disassociate. That kind of stress is on a different level and probably broke her. The world around her was in chaos. She could just be a new person now. And believe to lost everything in the hurricane. Hannah Upp is probably dead. Either literally, or metaphorically. She either died sometime during the episode or lost her identity and hasn’t found it.
as someone who used to dissociate from cptsd, i hope that if she is alive, she is at least doing okay, it's really a scary thing when you think about it
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"How can she login to Gmail if she isn't aware of herself"
It might be related to the procedural/episodic memory thing. She isn't aware of her identity, but her body typed in the login credentials she has always used, like how muscle memory are
Yes! I agree with this, I find that I (and probably most everyone) can open my phone's PIN without looking, or occasionally automatically type passwords when presented with a text entry field without even thinking about it. It was probably so natural for her to just type it out, no extra thought needed!
Dude, is your name really Bagus?
That's the best name, I love it!
Your fingers "remember" your password or friends old phone number, but your brain can't say the combo with speech.
@@Greenteabook yup, it's the same thing with Alien Hand Syndrome. The left and right hemispheres of the brain control the opposite side of the body but one hemisphere is responsible for speech where the other is not. It's kind of scary to think that there are 2 very real personalities that only work together thanks to the superhighway of nerves called the corpus callosum.
yeah honestly, i remember most of my passwords based off my muscle memory typing off my keyboards
I think that the disappearances corresponding with when she started new jobs is super important. That can be a super stressful change, and for people who dissociate due to trauma, stress can result in dissociating and going on "autopilot" to protect themselves.
Her tendency to appear close to bodies of water could indicate that she found water comforting or safe. Maybe had good memories associated with it.
Regardless, I hope she's safe.
@@talkgoodenglish7500 more than decent theory, no explanation for the submersion however
As someone who does dissociate due to PTSD, mine gets worse the more stress I'm under, especially if it's due to a new change in my life. That pattern of her disappearancing when she starts a new job definitely felt familiar
@@randomtinypotatocried similar experience here, I agree
The more stressuful a situation, the bigger the chance dissociative disorder symptoms will worsen.
- A DID system
We're a multiple system and although we don't have DID/OSDD or amnesia, we do experience dissociation mostly adjacent to DP/DR. We were actually actively able to see how stress from working affected our system, we were all stressed and no one wanted to use the body because of how working affected our body and mind.
I could honestly see someone prone to amnesia-related dissociation could get that triggered. I could also understand someone not realizing that's a trigger, we only realized it because we don't have amnesia and a few of us spoke up about how this was hurting us.
This is terrifying. She should’ve agreed to the ankle bracelet. I’m sure they could’ve found a way to make it discreet if that’s what she was worried about…
She is faking it. She didn't agree to the ankle bracelet because she wants attention.
@@NanoGamingGamer if i was found in a river face down id agree to get it for my own safety
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@@NanoGamingGamer i dont think most people would be comfortable being tracked constantly and having a visible reminder of that. especially for someone that had such a large span of time between occurences. and if she wanted attention you think shed have showed up by now
@@NanoGamingGamer That's a fucked up assumption to make about someone who's currently missing, and presumably dead.
she was one of the primary teachers at my school the year she went missing. she was honestly one of the most caring and kind people and this seeing her in this context is so disturbing but I'm glad it being covered because more attention needs to be brought to this case and others like her
Why..
@@howtoliveonearthYT why what ?
She seems really seeet :(
okay.
@@yeontantheman2333 Why does more attention need to be brought to this case? It seems like an extremely rare condition...and if anyone could've prevented this it was her family..
8:42 you can’t convince me she is still alive. she literally walked outside during a intense storm that killed thousands of people. it’s safe to say that she’s long gone
Yeah that’s true since Hurricane Irma is a powerful storm and if she was in a state then it’s likely that she is long gone and if she is gone then I hope her body can be found.
She didn’t walk out during the storm, she walked out between the storms and drowned in the ocean.
@Lawnmower737 well if she stayed in the fugue state long enough she would've been in the second hurricane, and likely would've died
we can hope maybe she got to a last-ship off the island, but thats the ONLY way i see her being alive....because otherwise, would a body not have been found? i mean maybe it could've been tossed into the ocean....
This might be a bit insensitive, but considering that both of her fugue states ended with her waking up in bodies of water, it's likely that she's dead and is in a river or lake. However, it can't be said for certain that she's dead, she could still be out there.
@@blackice000 - Hannah Upp
yeah in the first disappearance she was found face down, i think she's dead
I mean, her clothes were found on a Caribbean beach. She went into the ocean.
Maybe a shark ate her or somn. That'd explain why she hasn't been seen since 4 years.
I hope she's alive, but it really doesn't look good. (Unfortunately, this was my first thought too.)
Imagine finding someone you care about after they go missing for a long time, only for them to disappear again, and then AGAIN.
I don't have to, my fiancee had a similar condition where she would become someone else, go to bad places, and return in a panic.
Sounds like a very frustrating situation.
refusing the ankle brace was a dumb move imo.
“Yeah I know I might lose awareness and disappear at any time but I’m not gonna wear this mildly inconvenient ankle brace that would find me within a day”
@@classicpinball9873 yeah that was really dumb she really should’ve thought it through instead of pushing it off
@@beautifulbeaner on second thought she might’ve had more than just the condition in the video that made her refuse help. I’m sure she downplayed what happened to her friends as well, so no one knew how serious it was.
But her mother was pretty involved in the search so I’m not sure why she wasn’t concerned beforehand either
There's a lot that I'd blame on Jorge, but I'd never blame him for this.
And i would this time
This is probably the best comment ever.
I love this comment so much
@@adonaiyah2196 *N O* ~
I hope this gets pinned😂
Honestly, these stories are scarier than any kind of murder or freak accident stories - the ones that remind you that our intelligence, our personality and our memories are all performed by a vulnerable piece of meat that can malfunction at any moment and the person that we think we are can just cease to exist.
As someone with severe mental health issues, yes, it's scary. Not in a "mentally ill people are dangerous" way, but in that it's hard to live in a mind less reliable than most
This was terrifying, thank you
My father disappeared in 1965. It was a relatively normal day. He left the gas station that he owned to pick up lunch for his employees. He never returned. He remained missing for one year, eventually being found in California....thousands of miles away from our home in South Louisiana. He swore until his death that he had no recollection of what had transpired in the year that he was missing. Could this story provide an answer??? Some understanding??? Perhaps...thank you for sharing.
Wow. Glad he was found.
Missing for a year? Not harmed? Lol.... Erm, I think he may have pulled a fast one...
Your dad was a liar
@@XiomaraThaGoddessMeowThe fact he owned a business and apparently didn't repent from his belief about having amnesia until he died suggests that this isn't just a case of "man flees family".
He was with his second wife
She goes into fugue states twice, both ending with her in water and then decides not to get an ankle bracelet and move to an island LITERALLY SURROUNDED BY WATER.
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One with sharks, her habit if dropping her things, and entering the water, is very worrying.
@@FroddyWho_ ...baka
Lmao I was thinking the same thing, I thought it was really dumb to reject the ankle bracelet because it’s literally for her own sake
If I found out I had this disorder I would DEMAND I have multiple tracking devices and whatnot on me lol. I think rejecting the ankle bracelet was incredibly dumb.
The human brain is very complex and I was never even aware of the existence of fugue states until now, it's actually frightening.
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I'm starting to expect you in the comments section of everything I watch.
You, me, and Justin Y. We all seem to watch the same content.
This dude
Why does everyone ignore the fact that both her and the mother were drawn to the water. It’s right there in our faces. Both of her fugue states brought her to the water and the 3rd time she was on an island- completely surrounded by water. And if you pause and read her mother’s story her mother was strangely drawn to the water to in her fugue state and questioned why she went to the water and why she felt so calm when she was near the waters. Not to mention Hannah often go to the beach when she wasn’t in her fugue state.
Moana but with amnesia
@@CrankyBoots "What can I say except... Wait, what was it again?"
The mother is telling a story, we can't really rely on it for evidence. Not to mention it just seems like hannah is doing drugs. If I had any money I'd bet her entire fugue thing is a result of drug usage.
@@blackice000 awful song
She’s secretly a mermaid
Hanna Upp was my little sister teacher and i would conistantly go to her class simply to talk to my sister but she was so sweet and i really hope that one day they at least find her body or find out what happen to her. This was so sad for the entire island that she lived on bc she was so sweet and such a good teacher. I miss her
Having the dissociative fugue state happen each time at the same general time of year is interesting, Aug. 29, Sept. 3rd, and Sept. 14th
Might have something to do with when her teaching jobs started.
"Why did she disappear when starting a new job?"
Perhaps, instead of stress, it was her mind being unable to adapt to the new jobs. After all, a new job is a pretty big thing for most people - new routines, people, locations, _procedures_ . Perhaps these changes were enough to cause a confusion deep within her mind, and in turn, enough to trigger a fugue state. I'm no psychologist but that doesn't sound so far fetched to me.
I am a psychologist, and what you're saying sounds very plausible!
@@Danflave thank you :) always thought I had a decent mind for psychology, at least an open mind, being someone who's dealt with their own issues. Maybe I'll do some looking into courses and whatnot.
Honestly yeah, people really underestimate how stressful that is.
I wondered why new teaching jobs are linked to her disappearances.
Also, everytime she dissappeared, it always happened at a start of a school year. Around August and September. It makes sense.
If she's found again, safe to say she probably shouldn't be starting up any new teaching jobs...
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@@AxxLAfriku get help
And get an ankle bracelet tracker
How sad, she was so young and had so much life ahead of her. Mental health is unbelievably fragile it's terrifying. I hope she's at peace wherever that may be.
We do not care
If she only had a ankle bracelet.. kinda dumb she denied it.
@@YeooJohn Dude, why did you said something like this?.
@@toumabyakuya because he doesn’t care I suppose 🤦♂️
@@bananaphone5346 Then he could have saved that for himself.
It was foolish of her not to accept the ankle monitor, if only to make her easier to find when it came to a medical condition she had no control over.
I do feel for her in that regard though, she just wanted to feel normal.
Because she was faking it
@@nineteenfortyeight6762how do you know it?
@@nineteenfortyeight6762 Why would she do that? Also I don't think this is something that get easily diagnosed.
I experienced a fugue state when I was 21. It was a horrifying experience - total black out. I had some childhood trauma buried deep. It's been almost ten years and I've done lots of therapy to help me build skills to stay out of a dissociative state. So thankful to be here and grounded.
Did something trigger it? I'm curious. Thanks for sharing, anyway ❤
Reminds me of the time that one dude was in the search party that was looking for him after he was missing for a few hours!
@@satisacro my god. I was expecting an Onion article but wow. Sometimes life is strange.
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@@blackice000 you’ve commented this everywhere and i can’t help but feel that it is extremely disrespectful and distasteful on a video about someone’s disappearance and likely death.
@@saltyduckie thank you
Weird that it has so many likes too.. wth?
@@saltyduckie BRRRrrrooorrrrp
Honestly, I feel like she maybe went swimming at the beach. If they found her dress, sandals, and purse at the beach, it would lead me to believe that she had a swimsuit on underneath her dress, which she took off, and then left her belongings in the sand to go swimming, maybe when the hurricane hit. If she got caught up in it, she wouldn’t be anywhere near St Thomas since she’d probably move with it. Forgive me if the dates don’t quite add up though, I’m a little fuzzy on when hurricanes hit.
I am also partially leaning towards her committing suicide by drowning herself or something else involving water, but maybe she didn’t realize what she was doing if she was in a fugue state. Or she decided that she didn’t want to live with this disorder anymore. But I feel like, somehow, she ended up in that water.
I feel like that’s the case too. If not,sadly she most likely would’ve come to an end another way.
She might not have even knew there was a hurricane coming in that state
If there was a hurricane inbound, it's highly unlikely that beaches would be open to the public.
I agree. I feel like if it weren’t for her history, this would be a closed case drowning. It was right before a hurricane (if I remember) which causes some crazy waves… she could have easily drowned either accidentally or purposely and the hurricane moved her body to a place it’ll never be found. Or she may have gone into a fugue state again… but I doubt she’s still on the island, it’s to small and 50k ppl is really not a lot.
She seems to consistently end up in water in her fugue states, so I agree that she probably went swimming and sadly drown. What a horrible disease.
Wait….It just seems so strange that if Hannah keeps disappearing that her family would let her leave the country and move to a remote island. Wouldn’t they be terrified that she’d get lost in the forest with her condition?
Crazy religious dad I'm sure disowned her for being a "sinner"
@@OffendingTheOffendable source?
You can’t control grown adults…… what do you mean they “let” her go? She’s an independent adult… you can’t hold her against her will. I work In mental health and I see people literally insane and still can’t “make” them do anything unless they are homicidal or suicidal.
Maybe since it was an island, they assumed if she did get lost again, they might be able to find her easily, which unfortunately was not the case.
@@dark_antiheroit’s mentioned in the video that her dad was homophobic and she was in a few relationships with women
makes us remember the fact that our memories is the only thing that makes us, us.
Agreed. Which is why the Mandela Effect is so disturbing.
If everyone knew she had a condition like that, why would she ever be left unattended? The police tracking device sounded like a good idea. If it were me, I'm pretty sure my mum would move in and watch me like a hawk.
I know, its sad!
It's mostly a case of wanting to live a normal life, I'm sure her friends and family did their best to convince her to take appropriate repercussions but I guess she didn't like living like that. Often times people with severe mental illnesses are dismissive of their own disabilities so they try their best to live their life ignoring it.
@@TheJFKExperience1963 I am so sorry to hear that but you deserve to live. Wish you the best
Yeah, honestly it was strange that she rejected it
no way I'm letting the cops track me, but I would definitely make sure a trusted person or persons had a way to track my whereabouts if i was susceptible to this. it almost sounds like she wanted to go missing.
She went to a beach during a hurricane, and we're throwing around things like "committed suicide" "got lost," "*joined a native tribe*." Isn't the simplest answer that she was killed by one of the two hurricanes and washed out to sea?
Still technically the same one? She knew it was dangerous and still went? I want to assume common sense doesn't go out of the window but considering the other times she was found in water... Brains are very strange.
All we can do is hope she's OK.
@@Roadent1241 it could still be an intentional suicide of some sort
@@Power11112 I'm not disagreeing with that.
Though technically aren't they ALL intentional, even if they don't manage?
No, she likely just got lost, joined a native tribe and then committed suicide.
An even worse theory: she was washed out to sea and is stranded on an island. Imagine if her memory came back while stranded; it’s terrifying.
I kid you not ... My girlfriend of 5 years suffered from something just like this. Her family blamed me and said I was abusing her. Unfortunately I left the situation because her family kept blaming me. Since our breakup I've heard it's gotten significantly worse. This is a real life issue and should not be looked past.
I assume they ignored it beforehand then. I hope she's OK. And you with your new chapter.
@ThewhiteRavenx and maybe religion I'm sorry to say.
It happened to me too. I’m sorry you lost her because of this. And I’m scared it has continued to happen to her
Hope they said sorry to you, seeing how it’s clearly still going on without you around. I know no one wants to accept that their kid isn’t “the greatest” human ever, but some parents really need to get a grip and realize their kids aren’t above having issues and stop blaming everyone but their kid for things. Sorry that this family treated you that way.
@@wolfsta90 whats it got to do with religion?
Tbh at this point she is most likely dead. I noticed she was always found near water, so it’s possible she could’ve wandered off into the ocean since St Thomas is surrounded by water.
And it’s been since 2017. It’s 2023, she would’ve been located by now if she’s truly alive.
That was a really interesting topic actually.
Imagine being Hannah Upp with new personality and memories and stubling upon this video on RUclips
it'd honestly be great if she did, so she could reach out to her family again & so her loved ones know she's still alive
That would be an interesting premise for a book
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if she did, she probably would wondering wheres this Hannah Upp went
What if you're Hannah Upp with a new personality watching this video on youtube
It's odd how nobody recommended her to be watched by a family member/ friend. Even if she declined it should be within reason.
Yeah, it should be, but unless you're ruled as mentally unfit by the court, they can't force you to accept that. Hannah was quite mentally fit outside of these episodes, so that was never gonna happen.
As someone this has happened to, and as an adult, u can’t be by yourself always. My family does check on me, but I have to work. Feel very bad for her people. Not even knowing where she is
Thats absurd. Ppl cant afford to stop their entire existence to babysit a mentally ill friend nor are they qualified to do so... its not feasible in any way for the vast majority of ppl ESPECIALLY during a hurricane. If my dumbass friend wants to stay in danger and not evacuate during a major natural disaster, im not risking my own life to babysit them... and i wouldn't expect my friends and family to do it for me either.
@@nomdeplume2213 You're not wrong in what you're saying but at the same time I wouldn't like to be your friend, sorry
@@nomdeplume2213 what they’re saying is a real thing and many people do do that actually. It’s called a conservatorship
Wow, this is something I've never seen before. It's crazy what the human brain can do to things that seem so core to a person, like their identity. Nice video.
8 hours ago?!
What’s happening?
@@StickmanComix he’s probably friends with Jorge or some kind of donor
@@StickmanComix probably a patreon member, cool
@@StickmanComix looks like i'm not the only one who noticed that lol
@@FriedIce3 Yep, I’m a patron.
Everyones acting like its weird she didnt get the tracker like thats not the most normal thing ever. Who tf wants a government tracking device strapped to their leg 24/7
I should have never sorted these comments by “New”.
You people have to be the most self-assuming, insensitive, heartless armchair psychologists that I have seen in a very long time. Instead of pouring sympathy and helping piece this mystery together in order to find her, you begin to feel the need to criticize her. Why…? Why are people with mental illness treated like idiots…………?
I agree with you. I’m always curious on the videos (6 months or older) what newer people have to say. This broke my heart. She obviously didn’t want it to happen again, she’s not a nut case.
I regret doing the same as well, they are so insensitive
@@pokemonyugiohmettaton she didn’t want it to happen again but was given an option to help prevent it and she declined that, kind of odd
Why should we enable a pathological liar, just because she wanted some BBC?
She claimed not to have any trauma that would cause her brain to fugue to I guess protect her from that trauma … but religious/spiritual trauma is very real and can be very brutal.
Exactly.
@ahk This is mostly not true. This is a myth that was made up during the Satanic Panic because therapists implanted false memories of "Satanic ritual abuse" in people. When in reality it's actually quite easy to implant a false memory in someone, even an extreme one. If your therapist causes you to "remember" things you didn't remember before, you should be very concerned.
@@Iudicatio why would a therapist plant a false memory? Like what do they gain?
@@nessax6366 Acclaim.
@akh agreed I’m not diagnosed with any dissociative disorder but I’ve suffered from trauma since childhood until recently and I have large chunks of my life that I can’t remember. PTSD and other mental illnesses can cause you to block out the memories/not remember too as it’s the brains response when something traumatic happens.
Just a heads up, “awry” is pronounced “a-rye” like a rye bread. Great video though
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@@blameitonjorge it’s okay
@@blameitonjorge 😂 same
I've been pronouncing it wrong my whole life
@@oldmanglitch66 lmao
I once had a friend who had past trauma that caused dissociative episodes and they never knew what the traumatic experience was that caused it and their doctors had said it was likely repressed since it happened in early childhood, so that could be why Hannah couldn’t think of any past trauma. Or it could be from something very normalized in her religious household. (I realize I’ve been speaking about this friend in the past tense but don’t worry they aren’t dead as far as I know they just weren’t very kind to me as a friend and would constantly excuse mental diagnosis to get out of facing consequences when they would act extremely toxic and would never make an effort to treat people like human beings)
Even tho it seems like pseudoscience, hypnosis is actually very effective in reviving old memories, even very early in childhood. Tho whether or not reviving those memories is beneficial is up for debate.
Considering how she was ALWAYS found in water, it's hard to believe she didn't just enter the fugue state, go for a swim, and never return. I'll bet darn near anything whatever happened the first time happened again, but no boat was there to find her.
14:56 so these fugues not only can make you wonder off and forget who you are, they can make you know so little about yourself that you can change your whole personality. Thats wild
@@blackice000 Why are you spamming this trash?
@@SG-bp4lg wow didn’t know they’re spamming lol
Damn, maybe she's out there with a different identity and she totally forgot her past life experiences
@@miriamgazelle9339 that’s both really interesting and sad
i feel like there has to be something related to her starting new jobs at new schools that's making her go into fugue states. i wonder if something traumatic happened to her in or around school when she was young that she's been able to successfully repress her whole life but once she was introduced to a new school environment as an adult teacher her fugue states were triggered by the repressed trauma being remembered, then once successfully repressed again she would come out of the fugue state. in other severe dissociative disorders like DID, a similar thing happens where someone encounters a trigger that takes them back to traumatic experiences, and the part of the brain that remembers that trauma will "take over" and cause a dissociative amnesia to prevent the person from remembering that experience. but while she was in this fugue state for the 3rd time there was an accident/misadventure resulting in her death or she was taken advantage of by someone who recognized she was vulnerable and that person caused her death.
I get dissociative amnesia from being an alter and I'm pretty sure you're correct. It might have been a new traumatic event or a flashback trigger that didn't turn off fast enough, either way, it must have been something truly horrible for such strong loss of memory.
I don’t know if this is really relevant but I felt like I had to share it. I had my first ever (and hopefully last) episode of psychosis a few days ago and within it I was sharing a body with my own characters. I wasn’t fully or possibly not at all in control of my emotions and actions. I remember it and it was just crazy.
Sounds like an episode of Dr housd.
"man with amnesia found insisting his name was a swedish name and could only speak swedish despite having been american before"
maybe you guys had the wrong guy
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Maybe they DNA tested
I’m sure this isn’t a common medical condition, but I wonder how many missing persons cases are the result of this happening
Also weird that she gravitated towards water the 2 previous times
It's hard to word this at three in the morning but basically put, it's likely she had trauma involving water. Thematically, water is used in a lot of preaching - I mean, the flood story, baptisms, Revelation heavily features water, and many preaching styles involve things like water featured as a renewal or vitality symbol - and it's not a stretch to assume that her trauma around events she likely didn't talk about, compounded with big life changes and pressure to perform a certain role, caused her brain to go into survival mode. Fugue is a part of CPTSD and was poorly understood in 2008. A natural disaster such as that hurricane would have caused apocalyptic levels of destruction - she was likely feeling stressed! When I have traumatic episodes - I have ones where I'd literally forget I was who I was now, and think I was still in the situation - I will remember things that are automatic like logins or to feed my cats. But I would more heavily be involved in the trauma and reality would seem like a lucid dream, flowing in and out. I'd automatically know to turn the news on at 5 for my dad to watch, but I wouldn't remember what year it was and I'd be constantly swamped in the event that happened to me. I would forget to shower, to change clothing, to take care of myself and my surroundings beyond the "automatic" - it's likely her Gmail was a daily routine and her mind went "where can I find a computer..." and saw an Apple store as she was walking along. I have no hope in her survival this long, but stranger things have happened.
This is so scary. It goes to show we as humans cant begin to percieve what we are, and thats humbling
@@blackice000 very funny I totally died of laughter
This says a lot about first world capitalism.
@@duetopersonalreasonsaaaaaa Oh, are people an economic system now?
I bet you thought that was deep
Posting some garbage like that
@@homer5103 it doesn't even make sense
Why Do We Always Blame It On Jorge
There’s no one else to put the blame on.
@@CrankyBoots Dang straight
He's guilty.
*GUILTY I say*
Of dropping fire content.
Shoot the messenger. He knows too much...
Let’s blame it on George for once
One would think Hannah's family would put her into an assisted living program with this going on, especially after the 1st disappearance.
A good case for GPS tracking
@@aduckofsomesort its not really about a disability. Its about preventing her from going missing again. I wouldn't blame her family for wanting to put her in a good company/group home. If it were me (as in her family) I would go for it fpr her own safety. She obviously can't rely on just herself. Counting on others would help if she went missing and could be found more quickly. Its more for her safety not her disability. She can't control it, like anything else
@@maddyinthemaking I’d much rather risk going missing/even potentially getting myself into danger than going into an assisted living facility. What kind of life is that when you’re completely competent and able bodied.
disappearances that happened for less then a month, and then again for less than 3 days? I don't think that deserves a life time sentence to an assisted living facility... especially for someone so young
It's nobody's fault, no point in speculating the 'if the parents did this is would do X'. You're pretty much advocating for someone to be locked up for short incidents of fugue states... I disagree with this approach to take a young persons life away for something like this, it would be akin to locking up people who have attempted suicide 'for their own good'.
It's reminiscent of how they used to treat mental conditions or odd behavior back then
@@PoptartParasol its not miniscule. Its a full person loosing their memory and going missing without any knowledge of who they are. What would happen if she surprisingly came home one day but went missing even more frequently and for longer time. If it was your family? Wouldn't that worry you?
Good video n all like I loved it but why did he pronounce “awry” like “ar-ee”. I’ve never heard it pronounced like that. I’ve always heard it pronounced “uh-rye”. Not saying he’s wrong or anything but I just found it interesting how he pronounced it like that😂💕
I don't mind speculating but I'm hesitant to assign trauma to someone but the statement at 12:40 got me thinking about religious trauma.
To start off, I'm not trying to bash any religion. I'm just sharing what I've seen in my life.
A lot of "extreme" religions tend to travel and proselytize; Evangelicals, Mormons, Jehovah's Witnesses, etc. They also tend to have very intense and, according to many people who were born into said religions but no longer practice, traumatizing rites and practices.
I don't think it's too far-fetched to say that while traveling with her father at a young age, she could have witnessed something. My mind automatically goes to a baptism.
Think about it, the first time she went missing they found her face down in New York Harbor and the second time she found herself sitting in a creek. The third time, friends found her possessions at a beach, indicating that she most likely entered the water at some point.
Now, back to the baptism. Many religions baptize new converts and lack of swimming skills aren't uncommon in developing countries. Again, I don't think it's out of line to say it's possible that a young Hannah witnessed a baptism where one of the initiates began to struggle (perhaps due to a loss of footing or lack of air) and whoever was in charge at the time saw the struggle as "resistance to the Holy" and continued the baptism potentially causing the person to die. Young Hannah could have wanted to save them but was unable to for some reason and it caused some type of trauma.
But once again, this is just speculation.
if she is still alive, i hope she's out there living her best life. if not, then i hope that she rests peacefully.
Dosent seem like a kidnapping , i think she just wandered off and died of exposure , reminds of the lars mittanks case , after suffering a head injury in a fight he seemed alright , but while alone in a hotel he snapped and became paranoid and whandered into the wilderness never to be found , both very sad and tragic cases.
Hey man, you here again?
I am surprised how someone with such a horrible illness is left alone to live, atleast her mother should have told her to be with her. She should not have been without someone to watch her.
Bro your ability to pronounce "awry" has gone missing 😆
Man
I can’t imagine what her mom was feeling, Cause imagine loosing your daughter three times and you don’t know where she went the third time
Maybe she does know
Dissociative symptoms may not be hereditary, but trauma can be generational, especially if later generations give the same upbringing (including doctrine) that they themselves had. Dissociative conditions are most often signs of severe childhood trauma, and there are still a lot of causes of trauma that hide in plain sight because people are so used to downplaying the severity of certain parenting practices that inflict lasting psychological damage.
plus doesnr the brain sometimes suppress memories in order to "wall off" trauma? traumatic events can also cause memory problems or cause gaps in memory specifically revolving around the traumatic event in question.
@@elleofhearts8471 That's what dissociation is. In its most basic form, it distances you from being mentally present during traumatic moments, sometimes becoming your main response to stress from then on. Some forms can happen consciously, others more often are involuntary reflexes. The more basic, the more likely it can happen voluntarily to cope.
In its simplest case, you respond to stressful or trauma-related stimuli by suppressing your sense of emotion-- in my case, it's also caused a few rare periods where instead of emotion, the language center of my brain shut off for a while.
Then there's dissociative amnesia. You block out the traumatic memory. You literally cannot handle the ordeal of this trauma, even if it's physically survivable. So, it never happened. There's just a blind spot in your memory. A missing day, week, month, year of your life, like it never happened. Even if someone else tells you what happened, all you can recall is being told about it. Sometimes, the catch is that you're still triggered by things associated with the blocked memory, and you may not realize it's a trigger. You might just think you have an irrational phobia. Some people even lose the memory of being triggered, so you don't even know what the trigger was and therefore can't try avoiding it. Sometimes, if the blocked trauma was a chronic situation, it can pretty much cause your memory to have rolling blackouts on and off for the rest of your life.
A more self-destructive form of dissociation is depersonalization, which is often coupled by a depressive or manic spike if you're not feeling numbed out. These often happen for shorter spells, but you convince yourself that it doesn't matter how awfully you're suffering if [You] isn't a real person, just someone you made up for escape. In extreme cases, especially common with experiencing physical or sexual violence, the self-detachment becomes so intense that you become your own third-party observer. It's been described as like watching a movie about someone else with no relevance to You The Viewer.
Depersonalization can go a few ways. As a trauma symptom, it's rarely alone. More often, it can pair with derealization. It's just as it sounds. Everything feels distant, muffled, like it's all actors and stage sets, or like you're just imagining the world around you, like you're in a dream or a VR. Gaslighting can especially cause this one. The next extreme case would be episodic delusions and/or hallucinations where the brain fills in its own reasoning for that sense of unreality, like it really is a dream, and it can be very hard to break out of without the right antipsychotic even if you're aware that it's happening.
Another way it can go is dissociative identity. Even if it's not YOU that this is happening to, you're not equipped for processing this stimulus that aggravates your trauma, so YOU are compartmentalized into different personalities and the memories are divided up according to which facet was fronting (piloting) at the time. YOU can't remember this because that was [You] fronting at the time, therefore that was [You]'s memory, someone other than YOU, and [You] is just one of several cognitive constructs.
Not all of them are aware of each other, some one them have internal dialogue with each other, some of their memories are shared, some announce that they'll switch soon while others don't, some are involuntary switched by a trigger. Some of them are manifestations of specific personal aspects or moods like conscience, survival, internalized abuse, childhood innocence, the self YOU aspire to become, the self that family expects YOU to become, etc., and because they're Different People, they're not bound to look like the "system" (YOU as a whole). They can present themselves with different names, genders, appearances, mannerisms and preferences. And they may reintegrate over time, or they may further fracture.
The mind is complex and will go through a lot of loopholes if necessary to keep itself running. Sometimes those loopholes are bugs, and sometimes they're features. Sometimes therapy and recovery can rehabilitate a person so the dissociative X or Y isn't so debilitating, but it never goes completely away. You just learn how to manage it and its impact on your life.
Dissociation is often a symptom of having felt powerless against a threat, and it's especially common in people who've been in environments where openly breaking down could've escalated that threat.
@@verdantViridity as someone who experiences dissociation, you explained this very very well. thank you
*getting ready to sleep*
*sees new BlameItOnJorge video*
"Yeah, I've got time"
@DeeJay1210 one of my favorite responses to a bot comment that I’ve found.
@DeeJay1210 I was complimenting you for a witty response, and you had to downplay it with proving me wrong, with the fact that the earlier comment was as much wit as you could muster.
Jorge, I’m begging you, it’s “ah-rye” not “aw-ree”
Hahaha I scrolled through the comments looking for someone else who spotted it!
This is the 3rd time this month Hanna!
Honestly if someone asked me "you're the [insert name] everyone's looking for?" I wouldn't known what to answer either.
"Her and her father travelled a lot overseas"/"her belongings were usually found near water" maybe water was a catalyst in her dissapearances?
"There's no traumatic events in her life" I bet something happened in those travels (i live in a heavily religious country.. i know the extent those assholes can reach with their actions) but was so normalized in her family/upbringing she honestly couldn't pinpoint it.
Awww poor you :{
the last line are my thoughts exactly. I was raised strict Christian and I know first hand how abusive those households can be, and how "normal" it is in that kind of life.
i’m surprised more people aren’t talking about this. i can’t imagine the pain of living a double life, knowing your own father doesn’t respect you or your identity. i know she’s most likely dead, but i like to think she’s out there somewhere, alive and well, able to live authentically with people who accept her for who she is.
she should have never been left alone
@@blackice000 UM HELLO??
@@qxtjzz its on every comment
I dont get it
@@blackice000 Brain damage is a serious issue, i like how i see bright examples in every comment section
I can’t express how happy I felt when I just finished the new barelysociable video ft you just to open up my subscription feed to see a new video from you as well!!!
Same!!! I was so excited. We really got spoiled today lol
Thank you for letting me find a new channel to binge lol
as someone who goes through fugue states, though not as severe as this case, i can confirm it is terrifying. i have Dissociative Identity Disorder so dissociation is to be expected, but when i "wake up" somewhere and don't remember how i got there, or suddenly not remembering the past few weeks? it's the scariest thing to know that you can't always control your own actions.
dissociative identity disorder isn't real :P
@@tabbykat8564what do you mean by that?..
there has to be more to the story.. something had to have happened to her to cause mental health to go hay-wire
so many questions
More than likely something in her youth or personal life as she got older that none of us will ever know.
It’s kinda crazy that she could be watching this video right now and not even know that the women in the video is her
I mean, she could still recognize herself in a photo, and this video shows many of them.
@@inendlesspain4724 true
@@inendlesspain4724 Agatha Christie didn’t recognise herself in the newspaper when she went missing, she did recognise someone who looked very similar but it didn’t occur to her that person actually was her..
I think if she is found she shouldn’t be working because this happens every time she works
I think she does this to avoid work. Teachers have no identity other than work and "salt life" vacations so she has dramatic episodes to escape city life and was probably just dumb enough to get killed in a hurricane in the end.
@@kristenwhitworth7991 I feel like you didn't watch the video, they stated she had dissasociative fugue, any mental issues like that can trigger from stress alone. Starting new jobs can be a stress trigger or maybe she got overwhelmed and it triggered. The fact that she's missing and her stuff was found (phone, keys, sandals and car) I doubt this is just "dramatics".
@@kristenwhitworth7991girl what?
Bro. "Awry" is pronounced like "uh-rye", not "ah-ree"
it really seems like suicide. maybe she got stressed with her love life, constantly switching jobs, this new diagnosis… these things can really push someone to the edge. perhaps she moved to an island so she could be surrounded by what she loved before she would commit. and maybe she intentionally went out in the hurricane to off herself.
or maybe she went in a fugue state and went out in the hurricane and died. that would probably make more sense
I never heard of a case like this before.
I would've never knew about it without you.
she shows a patterns of losing her memory and somehow finding herself to bodies of water. she could have fell into one of her episodes, went to a body of water, and drowned... this is such a tragic story.
If my mom found out I went in disassociative fugue states she would definitely put me either in a straight jacket or a hamster ball
Well you’re lucky. Not all people have that privilege. You should be grateful.
@@tabaskosweet7866
What privilege, a loving family?
@@aldiascholarofthefirstsin1051 The privilege of everyone believing you when you go out to find a new man.
@@aldiascholarofthefirstsin1051exactly.
I don't understand the fact that after she was diagnosed with such a scary + unpredictable disorder + disappearing TWICE she went to live on an Island without family near. People have to live on medication, with the help of a cane, with an oxygen tank etc to keep them healthy + safe every day without "liking" it. For her not to accept the ankle bracelet was irresponsible. Not to leave the Island during hurricanes was her choice. I don't mean to sound insensitive, I truly hope she is alive + well somewhere. After disappearing in NY for 3wks then again for 2 days + being found was not only a blessing but huge red flags that you should have a safety plan in action for yourself.
I remember reading an article about her a couple of years ago and something about how they talked about her family in that made me think she likely has/had some serious trauma with her dad, and so it's possible she moved far away from her parents on purpose.
I’m sorry but that is insensitive. People with mental disorders can’t always be clear about their choices. Some of us just can’t think in a typical way and it’s not good to act like we could be as responsible as you. I called the police on my dad once because of what started as him trying to put a shock collar on the dog. It wasn’t really my choice even though from the outside it seems like it is. I felt in complete danger and like I needed to get help urgently.
How is it irresponsible? It's her choice...
@@matthewrease2376 uh what? It was irresponsible for her own health they meant
@@ArtisanAsteroid
Crazy people often don't admit to being crazy.
So twice, Hannah was drawn to water while in her fugue state. Then we learn that Hannah's mother went into a possible fugue state and also found herself at water. Why does this fugue state seem to make people want to enter the water? That's so creepy. I have a bad feeling that Hannah may have gone to water a third time. Possibly entering the sea during that hurricane. My thoughts and prayers are with her mother and all of her loved ones.
I can't imagine religion causing someone to lose memory for days.
Could you imagine being the police who had to file her dissapearences?
"How many time do i have to teach you a lesson old man"
@@blackice000 shut up
@DeeJay1210 Report and move on, it's probably just a bot anyway.
*young woman
Love the reference lol
I really hope she’s okay. I wish she had taken the ankle bracelet, that was a really good idea.
she’s my aunt
I hope she’s okay too.
@@melcailey9984 prayers ❤️
I will forever associate fugue states with 'Breaking Bad'.
Same tho😳
SECOND CELLPHONE?!?!
Jesus Christ Marie, they're minerals
Jesse let's blame it on jorge
Entering in passwords could also be an example of procedural memory. There are passwords for accounts I remember how to type out because I've done it thousands of times but I couldn't actually tell you what I'm typing out before I did it.
17:06 maybe she went autopilot when opening her gmail account. She typed her credentials without being conscious about it.
And even more strangely, each time she went missing, it seemed to occur sometime during or near September. Nice informative vid.
I wonder if it could be a trauma anniversary
Makes me think it’s stress related from starting a new teaching job.
@@fizzy9880 yeah, I noticed that theme in her first two disappearances...
As a teacher, the start of the new school year is triggering maybe?
@@BizVlogs I mean I was a student and found it triggering, so idk how teachers feel about it
well i hope she turns Upp soon
Welp, the simplest explanation although sad is that she was swept by the hurricane. I pray that it is not the case.
While that could be it the simplest answer to me is that she got in the water and died there.
I hope I’m not disrespectfully speaking out of turn, but I’m fairly convinced she probably died. the hurricane that came right after Irma was Hurricane Maria, which was so strong it would have been placed higher than a category 5 if it was possible. It absolutely devastated so many islands in the Caribbean and thinking that she may have been wandering out at around the time that Maria happened… I just don’t see how she could’ve survived that if she wasn’t sheltered.
Damn
Hannah Upp and went away
How is it when you know someone has a medical issue that causes them to lose all their sense of self and get lost that you let them be alone with no company at any time? Such a shame that proper precautions could have easily prevented this.
Probably because a court wouldn't have been able to rule her mentally unfit enough to be supervised like that.
It is difficult if u are an adult that has to work. With yrs between the occurrences it would be difficult to watch someone always
its a psychological disorder
Always love to see that you've uploaded.
- Sincerely,
Another Jorge
Do you pronounce it "Hor-hey" or "George"?
I hope Hannah's ok. There might be a connection between her and the ocean idk what it could be but there might be something there. Hoping to God she's alive even if she is under a state of unknowing somewhere
Yeah her tattoo is of a wave
I've watched other videos of Hannah's story, but they didn't give _nearly_ as much information as you did. Thank you for a great video Jorge!
Yeah this one was able to put me to sleep in 14 minutes
If you are suffering with this type of disorder, please have some sort of tracking device on you that can't be taken off so easily.
Everytime she starts a new teaching job, she gets lost.
@@blackice000 you really like to say this in nearly every comment
i'm def not a psycologist, but i wonder if the stress of starting a new job has something to do with triggering the fugue state
@@lindseydejesus1877 Thanks for paraphrasing my comment.
Yeah that’s kinda weird
>no trauma
>grew up struggling with religion and homophobia
i think people often forget what trauma really is.
@J R
>"i got beaten for something entirely out of my control"
>no trauma
>calls me a slur
you should see a therapist
@@aldenbobalden I agree with what you’re saying but idiot isn’t a slur
@@wheelspiel they sent me a youtube link leading to a video containing a slur that is intended specifically for the viewer
@@scapegoatmiller9110 for sure. for the longest time i didn't realize exactly how screwed my mental health was until i reached early adulthood and realized, "oh, these thoughts aren't normal."
lots of repressed anger and many toxic defense mechanisms to unlearn here. i seem like a super bright and energetic person but there's a lot going on that i don't tell anyone about.
the same should go for anyone, and especially for hannah.
I agree with forgetting, I don't call my entire stressful school life trauma. I'm sure the other kids that were bullying me had worse lives at home. Me getting bullied by teachers and students for being disabled? Pffft nah there's worse going on in the world. My best friend has been through worse unfortunately. That was actual trauma.
Not to make light of the condition or Hannah's disappearance, but funnily enough, thinking about it, 'Dissociative Fugue' somewhat lines up with the nonsensical behavior a video game protagonist in an open-world game might exhibit. Stuff like New Vegas, or any of the more open-ended RPGs of the last couple decades. The complete disregard or lack of memory of the details of their lives, combined with the 'strange desire to wander' fits a little too well. Doesn't make the concept of it any less terrifying, though.
this kinda blew my mind
"How could she have logged into her gmail in a fugue state?" 20 seconds after describing procedural memory 🙄
Yeah. We don't actually need to think about our passwords to input them if we've done it frequently enough.
My heart goes out for the poor mother , the stress and hurt that loosing her daughter like this THREE times , having found her before I think it made it worst for her when she couldn't find her again a third time ,I do hope that atleast her body is found to give closure to her family and friends.
Dissociative fugue? Never heard of it... I hope that she's found safe and sound again, but... after this third time, it's sad to say that I'm not optimistic. However she's found, I hope she is found so her loved ones can get some closure.
It’s always a good day when Jorge uploads
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no its not
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Almost exactly 5 years difference, and almost always in September.. Adding to that, the water stuff people are talking about
As for logging in to her Gmail account, procedural memory
Like you said always found in September so maybe she’ll be found this September 2021 or next? (2022) I mean it’s all too eerily connected
@@Marrythenightgaga101 Hopefully she's found as soon as possible, so we'll see this month
They offered her to get an ankle monitor and she refused, most logical people would get it.
Just a suggestion for you. "Awry" is pronounced "ah-rye"
I have a disassociation disorder. I just have a strong feeling that she is just. Existing. Maybe went for a swim. Came back. And just, is alive somewhere.
You never really do things you don’t wanna do when you disassociate. Easiest way to describe it is you cognitive mind is down. You’re functional. You’re alive. Just not aware.
She loved to swim. No surprise her things are left at the water. She’s swimming. She wouldn’t need to carry that stuff.
Then she either forgot. Or didn’t recognize that as her stuff. And carried on.
She was missing during a hurricane? That’s so high stressed. Anytime I get yelled at I begin to disassociate. That kind of stress is on a different level and probably broke her. The world around her was in chaos. She could just be a new person now. And believe to lost everything in the hurricane.
Hannah Upp is probably dead. Either literally, or metaphorically. She either died sometime during the episode or lost her identity and hasn’t found it.
as someone who used to dissociate from cptsd, i hope that if she is alive, she is at least doing okay, it's really a scary thing when you think about it
Nah
What an interesting story. I hope this gets solved
4 days ago??
4 DAYS ago what….
He is probably a supporter on patreon
@@unluckystranger9718 I’m a time traveller
4 days ago?