As Morpheus is explaining to Neo what the matrix is he makes a statement that really gets my attention because of a the word he uses called inured. He’s telling Neo that many people don’t want to wake up and that those are the ones that are considered a threat, he says “ many of them are so inured and so hopelessly dependent on the system that they will fight to protect it. Some people love the lie so much they will kill you to protect it.
I love that you caught the word” inured!” I didn’t, and seeing your explanation of it adds an even greater significance to that particular conversation. Right on!
"A really efficient totalitarian state would be one in which the all-powerful executive of political bosses and their army of managers control a population of slaves who do not have to be coerced because they love their servitude"--Julian Huxley.
Absolutely. That statement in the movie instantly made me think of quite a few people in my life at the time who rather continue suffering from what they are inured to than facing the unknown freedom. Almost like animals that won´t leave their fenced in area even though the fence has been removed.
I’ve been listening to your channel for quite some time now, and I just had an epiphany. All my life I’ve been asking God to show me the way. I knew I couldn’t find it just in the Bible or other books that are written. The reason I couldn’t find it in them is because the answers live within me. I choose my own happiness. Thank you so much Aaron for helping me to learn this truth
well, technically.... imho, religious books, like the Bible, are just guide posts. And most messages have inner meaning that can only be gleamed with a higher perspective. The real experience is looking within one's self. PeaceV
I think when we are going through a spiritual awakening we are able to experience life differently, it's like living in slow motion, we get to feel more deeply... I think our level of consciousness is higher and we also feel that we can't fit in, people might not be able to understand us, but we are detaching from our ego and we are able to understand everyone, have compassion...
I think when we fully stabilize in that higher self, we will again be back in the world fully involved with everyone and everything but this time with total love, realising everything is God.
I as well was very confused for a while earlier this year but remember, this idea of when God becomes lucid in another form can really happen at any point in your spiritual journey/work. If you’re still alive the whole universe is dependent on every function your body is interacting and sharing with that eternal energy and to completely allow and calmly observe whatever appears and happens within your awareness is conscious experience, and your body will do as it does before, during, and after your awakening.
yes you feel like an alien in a land that doesn't get you, I awakened after my mothers death in 2015 and did a 360 religion wise but 2 years later kinda went through the depression phase and it still lingers off and on as my whole life changed and the people i hang with.
I don't even talk to people anymore, everyone around me would just think I was crazy, just like I would have thought if I where in their shoes. Only about two years since it happened to me, I don't know what to do, or what it even means. Why is this happening to people?
Yes Daniel. There is a basic human need to relate to others, share experiences and receive affirmation. Once you have an awakening you have advanced to a place from which you cannot return. Not unlike going through puberty, interests, desires, perceptions, and emotions change. “When I was a child,, I behaved as a child, I reasoned as a child, I spoke as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things.” My family accepts me in a polite condescending way but there is no genuine attempt to understand.me. The frustration is in part the inability to share this wonderful awareness with people who cannot appreciate it. The gift/truth/awareness was given to YOU.
I learned how to say NO!! I used to try and help everyone that asked for help even if I didn't really feel like it. I'm so liberated now and have zero guilt.
I went through a rollercoaster of a ride this year.. have been depressed the whole year due to personal issues.. I'm still fighting demons and trying to be a better self and trying to stop letting ego take care control of my actions.. I really thank the Universe for making me go through the heart break for me to venture into seeking for the peace within... And search for happiness not in a relationship but within.
You're awakening is exactly what I experienced. Those 2 weeks were blissful. I couldnt even swear. I would apologize if I accidentally swore. I've never heard anyone else describe this. My singing voice was off the charts too! I was happy to meet everybody and anybody and hear their stories.
2016-17 My dark night lasted 6 months. Awakening can be intense. As we realize most was all a lie. Rebuilding your own self, finding that inner love has been vital for me now. Thank you Aaron.
I felt that love, the infinite, all encompassing love of God, the Source, my Creator, and it was the most amazing experience of my life! Then my shaman told me that the love I felt was ME. I cried with such joy. When I feel sad, scared, anxious, I remind myself that I am loved beyond comprehension, and that I am a child of the most high. Thank you Aaron, for everything. You are a gift to humanity. I hope that you always Remember that. 🙏💛😊 and yes, my dad is suffering and is lashing out at the world. But it is up to me to see him with compassion, not anger. Thank you for the reminder Aaron! 😄
Your story is exactly what happened to me during September 2019. Coincidentally I just found your channel after me and my ex stopped talking. I felt as if our separation was required for me to grow into who I really am.
I think you're probably right MCMXC 90 - don't know if I'm quoting Aaron, Teal Swan or someone else; "the only things that will be taken away from you are those things that MUST go in order to create space for something infinitely more precious".
@@rahawa774 real talk, i met her and saw something in her i wanted. I actually saw her years ago without ever having seen her physically. I knew she was the one that was going to shift me in another direction but i didn't know how. I really do love her and am grateful for our time together. I believe things happened the way they did to destroy my ego-driven mentality and it worked. Now that my precious self was destroyed I am able to rebuild my being on a new foundation. Everything is bueno
@@nathanrodriguez8038 The exact same thing happened to me 3 years ago... I can see now that losing him and gaining my awakened state was a really good deal, even though for about 30 months it seemed the loss had killed me. Aren't we both lucky :)
I was going through a rough time after my initial awakening experiences last winter and my girlfriend dumped me because I started to depress her too, lmao
This is a big point you make. I figured out, after repetitive positive affirmation self hypnosis sessions (months), that I needed to forgive myself for being imperfect. Having imperfect feelings, making mistakes, screwing up, I mean, whatever it was, I would beat myself up over it. And this script we play in our minds is so automatic, so subconscious, we don't even hear it or identify it and we let it just screw everything up... even our perspectives of ourselves. I knew God forgave me, but God forgives easily. God loves everyone, that's easy. But, the key is forgiving ourselves. Accepting ourselves. Loving ourselves. Letting go of resentment, guilt, blame, and doubt. Becoming our own best friend. Self care. And when we do this, we open ourselves up to the real love that's right in front of us and all around us. It was my awakening out of a severe depression.
It took Eckhart Tolle speaking on dark night of the soul in an interview for me to understand that is what I'm fighting through right now. It's hard emotionally when the veil is lifted yet, you are fighting your shadow self to keep that veil suppressed.
This made me cry and break down. It feels good to be validated, to know that others have gone through the same pain and the same mind patterns and stepped out of this long hard period victorious. Thank you for giving us hope Aaron, thank you for this journey and the effort you put into putting this message out. You are truly helping others and I hope you are rewarded by the universe accordingly.
WOW man! i did that with my X wife. i looked for acceptance and happiness from her before i could be happy. i still do that with her even thou we haven't been together in 3 years .
In solitude is where you lose the person you thought you were and find out who and what you really are. God bless to all who are on this journey of self discovery
wow I've spent many many hours hours listening to various people who are undoubtedly very spiritual and enlightened but I've listened to a couple of your videos and the way you explain things is very eye opening you have a very strong gift I thank you for sheding light on what seems like a dim path and I thank my higher self for guiding me to you love to all peace be with all thank you 😎
I think this single interview changed my whole life. So many epiphanies. I woke up in 2020 and have been depressed for 2 years off and on. I could never say thank you enough, Aaron.
Oh man. Spiritual awakening is like drinking Smooth Move tea...there is nothing smooth about it. I am literally just coming out of a Dark Night and am grateful to be guided to this channel. I have been studying this stuff for the past 2 years (literally all day long) trying to figure all this out, not sure how I'm just finding this channel now. In spring 2015 I apparently initiated my awakening (I hadn't ever heard the concept of awakening at that point in my life) by stating to "whatever was out there" that there must be True Love in the world and I admitted I wanted to experience it (in relationship). My life experience caused me to have no trust in men or relationships (father and childhood issues) so I chose a career that was uninspiring to me but would ensure my security and wouldn't have to rely on anyone, ever, and played in bands to puff up my ego. It was lonely and a facade which I didn't even realize until my awakening. I didn't know what I didn't know. Wow, what a freaking wake up call. Since then I have been broken down, broken open, lost all my identities, lost my family connection. You can't go back. Ever. And I have been blessed with the truth that True Love is the love of our Universe which permeates everything infinitely. I'm learning to love myself (reprogramming old negative beliefs), my authenticity and my truth, unconditionally and extend that out. I just recently have been coming out of my shell as the new me. Aaron, much gratitude for finding you and this channel. Blessings and light. xo
I’ve been listening to AA for a while now. It’s great to watch his growth and hear some personal testimony about his experience. His story is a huge motivation for me to continue on my journey of self-discovery through the trials of its path.
When everything just comes to you is a great feeling you have to laugh it off and see how silly everything is that kept you held back. Many blessings to everyone on their journey it’s definitely worth it!
I had 2 mystical experiences last fall - I felt blissed out for a few days each time - then I moved on to deep contentment and empowerment for a few weeks, then slip back into hell for a few weeks, then slip back into contentment. Listening to Eckhart Tolle got me to the awakening, and you are getting me through the dark night of the soul. Thank you Aaron - so very much - for sharing your story, your knowledge. Thank you for remembering how horrible this can be & sharing the path you found out of this nightmare. Thank you 🙏🏻
I had the Bliss out that you have described when i was 14 years old after my first meditation. And yes, it also last for 2 weeks too. But, It took me decades to fully understand and deepen these kind of experiences and insights. There are actually NOT one awakening experience but multiple ones. And yes, there are more 'dark night and suffering' than bliss.
Dude! (Brother). I love hearing about your journey to finding your Truth! I have found mine as well after emergence from profound trauma. I resonate strongly with your truth. You inspire me so much and appreciate your light. Much LOVE ❤️
oh my god, I found out that i had completely the same situation, even the relationship was ending in almost the same way, and it's like 6 months that i feel guilty about everything. you gave me a big key to bring up and heal a lot of stuff. it has been a really hard year, and i'm still in need to heal more, it seems that i was at the same point of crying for help cause i maybe know things at the conscious level, but it is really hard to bring them into a practical way. You don't even imagine how grateful I am to have the possibility of resonating so much with everything you say. thank you so much Aaron. I appreciate you a lot. Much love.
I'm sending this to my 20something daughters to hear. His process and explaination is exactly what I have been trying to explain to them so they cqn find themselves again and kmow they don't always have to have a boyfriend to b3 loved and to love themselves. Bless you Aaron
This is why I love watching you...this is what I went through. From bliss and aaahhaa moments to complete depression and healing. I know you're genuine and real and not just talking hogwash !
Aaron thank you for being the first teacher who has clarified this. I feel like death lol and it's comforting to know this is a normal feeling and all these things are now coming up to be healed. A lot kind of make out that once you know it it's all plain sailing which made me feel worse because this is probably the hardest thing I have ever done. I feel anxiety like never before to the point that my whole body aches and I feel terrible. I know it is worth it in the end tho and I can't keep these things suppressed any longer
I am dealing with depression, loneliness and self love problem, and this is really helpfull insight this guilt problem. This is a big problem in doing work with ourself, knowing what is the real cause, so much time lost searching and trying things, not really lost because it's the process of learning to "see" better inside, but you know... "Where is the fuc***g manual of myself" lol.
Wow I just went through that bad depression about 2 months now. And I follow lots of your movies and am truly seeing and experiencing that contrast in my life. Thank you for your time and sharing you put out. As I believe - the teacher will come when the student is ready. And I can truly relate to your videos, it reflexes what I know to be right.
The universe ALWAYS give us what we need! This is ABSOLUTELY what I desperately need to hear now. I've been asking the same questions of why and what u said about the mirror is EXACTLY what I need so thanking the universe for sending ur words to me!!
I thought this interview would' t be very interesting for me since the title is "depression after awakening" and I am not awakened yet(!). I am so glad I watched it because no matter what you talk about, wisdom flows..
thank you Aaron, this my experience right now. When i look at my self I don't see the same person at all. So I avoid mirrors. Feel so ashame, full of guilt, hate and anger. Everyday is living with pain and trying to understand what's happening to me. And the constant thinking of the mistakes of the past keeps digging me Into a deeper depression
I just got hit with childhood trauma issues 40 years later, I had no idea They were buried! Been a rough couple weeks- super depressed & fearful, lots of things hitting me at once, brought me to my knees & I need prayers & help! ❤️🙏
Your explanation is so wonderfully specific. I have heard these things before, but they didn't make sense until now. Thanks for making these concepts relatable. I have had similar feelings to what you are describing here with depression and self sabotaging and suicidal thoughts (in the past), and haven't known how to move forward, so these things are extremely helpful.
In my experience- after getting past the codependency issues in ref to romantic relationships.... it can come out in other areas of life also. Example - job loss or loss of money 💴, home 🏡, car 🚗, external material type things . The ego reers it’s ugly head once again. Then the process starts once again. Not basing self worth or acceptance on these external type things. Whether it’s relationship, any other external things also ( material things ), status - job titles etc. such a process to learn not to attach self love or self worth based on anything external or outside of ourselves is key. It does remind me of addiction process. Lol 😂 You detach from unhealthy attachments in ref to relationship . Then the ego def tries to fill void with the next external attachment ( money, material things, status , title , physical body image , etc etc ). This has been my personal experience at least. 😇
your channel makes me feel like i could unsubscribe to the thousand other spiritual thought-leaders on RUclips, which sometimes leaves me feeling overwhelmed, overloaded and robbed of my own unique divine intuition. You're the real deal.
@ 14:01 You are describing what I feel often, I just haven't had the realization that you had yet. Yes,, I can understand it intellectually just like you described but it hasn't sink in yet. I hear over and over again that the true self is whole and complete but I haven't been able to fully feel this.
One of the most important things I ever realized was that the mind has alot to say, but that doesn't mean all of it's useful or worth listening to. It's always running a tape in the background, especially if you never meditated, you tend to have your own background track for life that's often very harmful - that whole subconsciously programmed litany of 'not good enough' etc. But you don't have to listen to what it has to say, in fact you can shut it up at any time, or cut it off mid-sentence and direct it to focus on something else. The true you is behind the mental chatter and able to direct it's attention if you practice. And it's such a relief when you stop the background track or reprogram it to say good things. If you carry around your own worst enemy in your head and believe everything it says, you're really going to struggle. Make the voice your friend and teach it to be still, then you can move forward with more freedom. At least, that has been part of my own journey. :)
You talked about the blissed out state after your spiritual awakening. I also had that and as Jim Carrey once said, I’ve been trying to get back to that every single day. My bliss went away and now I feel as if I have taken all my understandings from it and folded them into myself, like mixing some ingredients to make dough, then kneading the dough over and over and mixing my new beliefs into my life. I hope my bread comes out of the oven OK!
I went through the healing co-dependency in ref to relationships in my 20s for the most part ( intellectually ) at least. Took practice through experience ( was a process ). I too realized it’s more than just knowing it all intellectually. It’s a practice of Self Love / Self Care consistently that truly helps heal. It’s lack of self love, self care, self worth ( not feeling enough - good enough just merely for “ being “) that causes or is root cause of void inside that manifests or acts out as codependency personality . At least this is my personal viewpoint from my own personal experience. 🤗
Blissed out! Thank you I had no word to discribe it. And I also felt I had lost it and searched to figure out what I had done wrong. I dove once again trying to figure out the head knowledge instead of the inner knowledge.
The mirroring metaphor you used for codependency explains it all for me, you triggered a HUGE shift in my self-worth perception. I’m amazed, out of words to express my gratitude 🤯 🙏🏼
Every time I watch one of your videos, I not only get inspired, but am in total Awe and expand my awareness. Thank you so much for explaining stuff in your way, it's pure gold dust. Blessings.
Wow a mirror to my experience. Ended a marriage no family understanding on my own with myself and seeing the reflection of love through others in myself
Thank you both for this beautiful interview ! Arron you are so very helpful to so many . God heard you and has given you a gift of shareing love and compassion to all thru him and thru you. I keep finding gems of your conversations like this one and again thank you both . Great questions here Soul Collective!
I had an awakening experience exactly like Aaron's. I was listening to eckhart tolle and I had a shift then bliss came pouring in. That day I broke it off with my girlfriend at the time and she lost it. She attempted suicide then I ended up getting back with her out of guilt. I got even more depressed. one night I packed my bags in the middle of the night and left town never to return. That was 11 years ago this week. I Never quite got back to the bliss experience.
The guilt games played by the ego are the biggest obstacle to our learning to love ourselves. In my case the more I tried to please others by working to do all the "right" things the more guilty I became, the more of a loser I perceived myself to be. Self-love is an inside job. Trying to find it in others is essentially an impossible task. Choosing to love and show compassion to ourselves is our job. For this is the only genuine or authentic love we can project. All else is co-dependency. You are looking for yourself in the other. More than likely, at this stage, the one you see as the other is you. The perception that there is someone other than you is the greatest of illusions and the most difficult to overcome. In reality there is always just the ONE!
I want to share this with you and anybody else who reads it. The first time after my spiritual Awakening it not sure if it was a lucid dream or astral projection but I didn't want to leave because I love me so much I couldn't leave my body and all I felt was unconditional love for me...
I removed fear from my life and sought truth and understanding in spirit. I love completely service of others and service of self in balance of my masculine and feminine qualities. I take the higher path in love and I lost my ego long ago. My life is about showing others the way to loving yourself and replying on yourself so you can then love and help others. We must be free of guilt and shame and live and love automatically and perceive ourselves as the everyone else.
Thank you again for ‘simple’ explanations of the ego and how it fundamentally works! You have an innate ability for sharing this information that is so practical and easy to understand without any load of confusing spirituality. I have been a seeker for many years and your videos help prevent my ego from taking the back door ‘in’ which has been a huge issue.
That was just a m a z i n g! Somehow when you talked about the part of picturing the child that was us, hugging them and telling them “ nothing is wrong with you” I instantly broke into tears... I am not sure why. If somebody could give me a hunt please... Thanks for this pure love. Edit: 🤣 not a “hunt” but a “hint”
Could be your own inner child that heard that message and thus felt the need to cry. Did you feel relieved or lighter afterward, or was it more a feeling of grief and sorrow?
Thank you very much for sharing your experiences, for some of your subscribers they are really valuable. A thousand blessings and may the infinite consciousness continue to illuminate this world.
Aaron, this is one of your most touching videos. Your description of your initial awakening and then the ensuing stages you went through is a more accurate version than that which we‘re commonly led to believe. The “pink cloud” as they call it in AA, is the euphoria everyone desires but the true journey of discovery is a huge part of it and often extremely painful and confusing. We rarely ever get a peek into both sides of the coin..Thank you for your truthfulness and vulnerability. Namasté, my friend. 🙏🏾❤️
This is True. It can be especially hard for those who may have been heavily medicated since childhood. In personal experience, It has made waking up quite painful, not that it isn't painful already. Freedom from these Medications has been a volatile chain breaking, but still was able to break the chains. Those who sting the most need the most soothing sometimes. Aaron is a wise beautiful soul for sure .This guy knows what's up.
realization of being guilty for everything make me even more guilty because I'm guilty of everything in my life...its like a never ending circle. I'm guilty because I did not amount to my parents expectations and I need help in freeing myself from that. I feel like a liability. I had a drug problem in the best and depression that I masked with drugs and then became an addict. After ending up in an ER and relapses on drugs I decided to quit every drug and became sober. I'm guilty and shameful of the wasted time and my drug use that made me who I am today. I relate so much from this video. Thank you for putting out content like this. I'm not alone.
I love you so much bro. Thank you for this amazing channel in whole. Honestly, Thank you Aaron. I have so so much to learn. I’ll never stop. I am grateful and eager.
Had similar awakening. I thought that was gonna be my life from now on too.. but I soon realized that life went on too and everything came up.. oh it hurtttt. I’m a year and half in from mine.. I’m almost debt free.. and starting to form the life I want not what others wanted for me.. I worried for almost a year I was crazy yet I got so much done and fixed things I felt needed fixed immediately.. biggest thing I learned I was too hard on myself. Deep down I knew it. I came off adhd meds and antidepressants too. It was beautiful in the beginning.. then really hard. But I’m balancing out slowly but surely. Still wouldn’t trade that love and connection I felt tho at all. I still have visions and see auras.
Your story is identical to mine Aaron. It’s like we are living parallel lives. I used to climb out the window at night and get on the roof of my rental house in the city and hang out by myself and be totally pissed at the process... after Narcissistic abuse. No friends, no family. I worked hard during the day at my Executive job and did IBFF training in the evening. I never felt good enough. No matter how good my body looked, it wasn’t good enough. I did petite modeling. Weight lifting is still my touch stone, but that’s an Aries essential...gotta burn the excess energy we were blessed with :). Being gutted from the inside out with an abusive relationship was like handing someone the keys to my soul. Abusive people have a way of fracturing the soul. It takes time to heal from a core wound like that. I then went into hermit mode for a long time with my suffering...and the gifts came when I learned to embrace the pain and brokenness, then I learned to lean into it, instead of running from it. Love hearing your story....
Yes. Shadow season. My gosh. Right on time. I really nees this light to my many questions. More self awareness and acceptance. Allow. And love. Healing work within.
Thank you so much!!! I feel every steps of your wisdom talk so much beauty reflected from simplicity and directness! The principle of our existence=love. Magnetic truth! I started to find those my hidden guilts through my body conditions, where I feel ache and stiff and so I started to work on it. Finding myself journey is quite amazing and yet super thin ice I feel I am walking on. I feel so lucky i manifested you in my life so I will take this as a guidance system. So thank you thank you for doing this! Keep express yourself. Your creative energy toward this matter is absolutely a fine art! I love it!!
Perfect timing thank you so much, BPD thanks for mentioning that going through something similar plus shadow work inner child healing now, want it to go faster ☺
Hey Aaron, I've been following your channel for a bit and i love your content. it's helped me in many parts of my life. So firstly, thank you for making these videos and putting them out there because they reach and help a lot of people. your videos generally talk a lot about concepts and i love that, but i loved how you opened up about your life and it helped me relate and understand the concepts more and how they actually look like when they're happening to real people in in real life. you seem very confident and self assured and you seem like you have it all figured out. i loved how you shared the thing about your previous relationship and the codependency ( i'm currently in a similar situation and i'm very hard on myself for not being able to let go yet) because it helped me see that, through out the spiritual awakening process, things aren't perfect and you have ups and downs and good and bad. even though i knew that in theory, it was nice that you talked about it. And also how you talked about your family and how sharing your system of belief and what that experience was like for you. I have a very religious family and i don't in that aspect with them but i keep up a pretense that i'm like them and share in their beliefs because i'm so afraid of being shunned or cut off or whatever else may happen if i let them see me for who i truly am. And i am a big family person too, but because of this facade i always put up, i don't truly get to connect with the people i love so much. i love the way you make your videos though. they're always well explained and easy to understand. I just wanted to say that i hope you'll continue to share your personal experiences as you keep making more content in the future because it makes your content a bit easier to understand and make use of.
As Morpheus is explaining to Neo what the matrix is he makes a statement that really gets my attention because of a the word he uses called inured. He’s telling Neo that many people don’t want to wake up and that those are the ones that are considered a threat, he says “ many of them are so inured and so hopelessly dependent on the system that they will fight to protect it. Some people love the lie so much they will kill you to protect it.
Yessss !!!
I love that you caught the word” inured!” I didn’t, and seeing your explanation of it adds an even greater significance to that particular conversation. Right on!
"A really efficient totalitarian state would be one in which the all-powerful executive of political bosses and their army of managers control a population of slaves who do not have to be coerced because they love their servitude"--Julian Huxley.
Absolutely. That statement in the movie instantly made me think of quite a few people in my life at the time who rather continue suffering from what they are inured to than facing the unknown freedom. Almost like animals that won´t leave their fenced in area even though the fence has been removed.
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I’ve been listening to your channel for quite some time now, and I just had an epiphany. All my life I’ve been asking God to show me the way. I knew I couldn’t find it just in the Bible or other books that are written. The reason I couldn’t find it in them is because the answers live within me. I choose my own happiness. Thank you so much Aaron for helping me to learn this truth
well, technically.... imho, religious books, like the Bible, are just guide posts. And most messages have inner meaning that can only be gleamed with a higher perspective. The real experience is looking within one's self. PeaceV
I think when we are going through a spiritual awakening we are able to experience life differently, it's like living in slow motion, we get to feel more deeply... I think our level of consciousness is higher and we also feel that we can't fit in, people might not be able to understand us, but we are detaching from our ego and we are able to understand everyone, have compassion...
Yep, absolutely...well put. 😀😇 love that comment.
I can totally relate.
I think when we fully stabilize in that higher self, we will again be back in the world fully involved with everyone and everything but this time with total love, realising everything is God.
this is exactly what ive been experiencing lately..
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So this is normal. Thank you I needed to hear this
I as well was very confused for a while earlier this year but remember, this idea of when God becomes lucid in another form can really happen at any point in your spiritual journey/work. If you’re still alive the whole universe is dependent on every function your body is interacting and sharing with that eternal energy and to completely allow and calmly observe whatever appears and happens within your awareness is conscious experience, and your body will do as it does before, during, and after your awakening.
It's really hard when you have a spiritual awakening because we all have been so brainwashed from birth!
yes you feel like an alien in a land that doesn't get you, I awakened after my mothers death in 2015 and did a 360 religion wise but 2 years later kinda went through the depression phase and it still lingers off and on as my whole life changed and the people i hang with.
@@angelgirldebbiejo You are not alone!💗
It's pretty hard... People start focusing on the things u did before and keep asking what happened :)
I don't even talk to people anymore, everyone around me would just think I was crazy, just like I would have thought if I where in their shoes. Only about two years since it happened to me, I don't know what to do, or what it even means. Why is this happening to people?
Yes Daniel. There is a basic human need to relate to others, share experiences and receive affirmation. Once you have an awakening you have advanced to a place from which you cannot return. Not unlike going through puberty, interests, desires, perceptions, and emotions change. “When I was a child,, I behaved as a child, I reasoned as a child, I spoke as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things.” My family accepts me in a polite condescending way but there is no genuine attempt to understand.me. The frustration is in part the inability to share this wonderful awareness with people who cannot appreciate it. The gift/truth/awareness was given to YOU.
I learned how to say NO!! I used to try and help everyone that asked for help even if I didn't really feel like it. I'm so liberated now and have zero guilt.
Even though we have walked down different Paths, we have found our way out of the same forest.
Very nicely said
Dayummmmm that was sooo good, 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽 Well said !😁
Keep peeling of the layers until there is nothing left to peel.
There's a diamond at the center of us all xo
I went through a rollercoaster of a ride this year.. have been depressed the whole year due to personal issues.. I'm still fighting demons and trying to be a better self and trying to stop letting ego take care control of my actions.. I really thank the Universe for making me go through the heart break for me to venture into seeking for the peace within... And search for happiness not in a relationship but within.
You're awakening is exactly what I experienced. Those 2 weeks were blissful. I couldnt even swear. I would apologize if I accidentally swore. I've never heard anyone else describe this. My singing voice was off the charts too! I was happy to meet everybody and anybody and hear their stories.
" I don't love myself enough to be comfortably good with myself alone". Wow. That really resonated with me.
I was so sad when IT went away. It was the most beautiful experience of my life ,everything and everyone was Love ,peace, connection
Me too but there must be a reason we dont get to hold onto it.
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My dark night lasted 6 months. Awakening can be intense. As we realize most was all a lie. Rebuilding your own self, finding that inner love has been vital for me now. Thank you Aaron.
I feel you bro .All the way . I spent many many yrs in a self induced hell.
I felt that love, the infinite, all encompassing love of God, the Source, my Creator, and it was the most amazing experience of my life! Then my shaman told me that the love I felt was ME. I cried with such joy. When I feel sad, scared, anxious, I remind myself that I am loved beyond comprehension, and that I am a child of the most high. Thank you Aaron, for everything. You are a gift to humanity. I hope that you always Remember that. 🙏💛😊 and yes, my dad is suffering and is lashing out at the world. But it is up to me to see him with compassion, not anger. Thank you for the reminder Aaron! 😄
Was that ayahuasca?
Your story is exactly what happened to me during September 2019. Coincidentally I just found your channel after me and my ex stopped talking. I felt as if our separation was required for me to grow into who I really am.
I think you're probably right MCMXC 90 - don't know if I'm quoting Aaron, Teal Swan or someone else; "the only things that will be taken away from you are those things that MUST go in order to create space for something infinitely more precious".
@@rahawa774 real talk, i met her and saw something in her i wanted. I actually saw her years ago without ever having seen her physically. I knew she was the one that was going to shift me in another direction but i didn't know how. I really do love her and am grateful for our time together. I believe things happened the way they did to destroy my ego-driven mentality and it worked. Now that my precious self was destroyed I am able to rebuild my being on a new foundation. Everything is bueno
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@@nathanrodriguez8038 The exact same thing happened to me 3 years ago... I can see now that losing him and gaining my awakened state was a really good deal, even though for about 30 months it seemed the loss had killed me.
Aren't we both lucky :)
I was going through a rough time after my initial awakening experiences last winter and my girlfriend dumped me because I started to depress her too, lmao
This is a big point you make. I figured out, after repetitive positive affirmation self hypnosis sessions (months), that I needed to forgive myself for being imperfect. Having imperfect feelings, making mistakes, screwing up, I mean, whatever it was, I would beat myself up over it. And this script we play in our minds is so automatic, so subconscious, we don't even hear it or identify it and we let it just screw everything up... even our perspectives of ourselves. I knew God forgave me, but God forgives easily. God loves everyone, that's easy. But, the key is forgiving ourselves. Accepting ourselves. Loving ourselves. Letting go of resentment, guilt, blame, and doubt. Becoming our own best friend. Self care. And when we do this, we open ourselves up to the real love that's right in front of us and all around us. It was my awakening out of a severe depression.
It took Eckhart Tolle speaking on dark night of the soul in an interview for me to understand that is what I'm fighting through right now. It's hard emotionally when the veil is lifted yet, you are fighting your shadow self to keep that veil suppressed.
This made me cry and break down. It feels good to be validated, to know that others have gone through the same pain and the same mind patterns and stepped out of this long hard period victorious. Thank you for giving us hope Aaron, thank you for this journey and the effort you put into putting this message out. You are truly helping others and I hope you are rewarded by the universe accordingly.
WOW man! i did that with my X wife. i looked for acceptance and happiness from her before i could be happy. i still do that with her even thou we haven't been together in 3 years .
In solitude is where you lose the person you thought you were and find out who and what you really are. God bless to all who are on this journey of self discovery
wow I've spent many many hours hours listening to various people who are undoubtedly very spiritual and enlightened but I've listened to a couple of your videos and the way you explain things is very eye opening you have a very strong gift I thank you for sheding light on what seems like a dim path and I thank my higher self for guiding me to you love to all peace be with all thank you 😎
I’ve listened to this twice and it has exponentially increased my understanding of the laws of this universe. My mind is continuously blown.
I think this single interview changed my whole life. So many epiphanies. I woke up in 2020 and have been depressed for 2 years off and on. I could never say thank you enough, Aaron.
👏🏻☺️ thank you for being a light Aaron
Oh man. Spiritual awakening is like drinking Smooth Move tea...there is nothing smooth about it. I am literally just coming out of a Dark Night and am grateful to be guided to this channel. I have been studying this stuff for the past 2 years (literally all day long) trying to figure all this out, not sure how I'm just finding this channel now. In spring 2015 I apparently initiated my awakening (I hadn't ever heard the concept of awakening at that point in my life) by stating to "whatever was out there" that there must be True Love in the world and I admitted I wanted to experience it (in relationship). My life experience caused me to have no trust in men or relationships (father and childhood issues) so I chose a career that was uninspiring to me but would ensure my security and wouldn't have to rely on anyone, ever, and played in bands to puff up my ego. It was lonely and a facade which I didn't even realize until my awakening. I didn't know what I didn't know. Wow, what a freaking wake up call. Since then I have been broken down, broken open, lost all my identities, lost my family connection. You can't go back. Ever. And I have been blessed with the truth that True Love is the love of our Universe which permeates everything infinitely. I'm learning to love myself (reprogramming old negative beliefs), my authenticity and my truth, unconditionally and extend that out. I just recently have been coming out of my shell as the new me. Aaron, much gratitude for finding you and this channel. Blessings and light. xo
I’ve been listening to AA for a while now. It’s great to watch his growth and hear some personal testimony about his experience. His story is a huge motivation for me to continue on my journey of self-discovery through the trials of its path.
I so needed to hear this right now. I'm experiencing the "dark night of the soul" and this gave me hope that I will get through it eventually
How are you now?
I’m in the pit of hell now. I really needed this video. Blessings brother
This video kind of blew me away. Everything you spoke about resonated with me. Thank you!
When everything just comes to you is a great feeling you have to laugh it off and see how silly everything is that kept you held back. Many blessings to everyone on their journey it’s definitely worth it!
I had 2 mystical experiences last fall - I felt blissed out for a few days each time - then I moved on to deep contentment and empowerment for a few weeks, then slip back into hell for a few weeks, then slip back into contentment. Listening to Eckhart Tolle got me to the awakening, and you are getting me through the dark night of the soul. Thank you Aaron - so very much - for sharing your story, your knowledge. Thank you for remembering how horrible this can be & sharing the path you found out of this nightmare. Thank you 🙏🏻
I had the Bliss out that you have described when i was 14 years old after my first meditation. And yes, it also last for 2 weeks too. But, It took me decades to fully understand and deepen these kind of experiences and insights. There are actually NOT one awakening experience but multiple ones. And yes, there are more 'dark night and suffering' than bliss.
That is not funny
Everything is here to be loved. Thank you for that simple powerful statement
Dude! (Brother). I love hearing about your journey to finding your Truth! I have found mine as well after emergence from profound trauma. I resonate strongly with your truth. You inspire me so much and appreciate your light. Much LOVE ❤️
oh my god, I found out that i had completely the same situation, even the relationship was ending in almost the same way, and it's like 6 months that i feel guilty about everything. you gave me a big key to bring up and heal a lot of stuff. it has been a really hard year, and i'm still in need to heal more, it seems that i was at the same point of crying for help cause i maybe know things at the conscious level, but it is really hard to bring them into a practical way. You don't even imagine how grateful I am to have the possibility of resonating so much with everything you say. thank you so much Aaron. I appreciate you a lot. Much love.
The dark night of the soul was extremely tough for me personally though ultimately it was very rewarding and as a result I wouldn't change a thing
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I'm sending this to my 20something daughters to hear. His process and explaination is exactly what I have been trying to explain to them so they cqn find themselves again and kmow they don't always have to have a boyfriend to b3 loved and to love themselves. Bless you Aaron
This is why I love watching you...this is what I went through. From bliss and aaahhaa moments to complete depression and healing. I know you're genuine and real and not just talking hogwash !
Aaron thank you for being the first teacher who has clarified this. I feel like death lol and it's comforting to know this is a normal feeling and all these things are now coming up to be healed. A lot kind of make out that once you know it it's all plain sailing which made me feel worse because this is probably the hardest thing I have ever done. I feel anxiety like never before to the point that my whole body aches and I feel terrible. I know it is worth it in the end tho and I can't keep these things suppressed any longer
It like I'm in a desert somewhere between the subjective and objective world. But hey, I've swallowed the pill so gotta be neo 😂
Amy X how do you feel now?
I am dealing with depression, loneliness and self love problem, and this is really helpfull insight this guilt problem. This is a big problem in doing work with ourself, knowing what is the real cause, so much time lost searching and trying things, not really lost because it's the process of learning to "see" better inside, but you know... "Where is the fuc***g manual of myself" lol.
Hope you realize how much you are helping people. Thank you 🙏.
Your ability to put these ideas into words is profound!
Wow I just went through that bad depression about 2 months now. And I follow lots of your movies and am truly seeing and experiencing that contrast in my life. Thank you for your time and sharing you put out. As I believe - the teacher will come when the student is ready. And I can truly relate to your videos, it reflexes what I know to be right.
The universe ALWAYS give us what we need! This is ABSOLUTELY what I desperately need to hear now. I've been asking the same questions of why and what u said about the mirror is EXACTLY what I need so thanking the universe for sending ur words to me!!
I thought this interview would' t be very interesting for me since the title is "depression after awakening" and I am not awakened yet(!). I am so glad I watched it because no matter what you talk about, wisdom flows..
katerina Tonia nobody is fully ever awake. It’s not something to achieve. It never ends.
How do we know if we are awakened? & what does that mean?
This couldn't have came at a better time for me!
thank you Aaron, this my experience right now. When i look at my self I don't see the same person at all. So I avoid mirrors. Feel so ashame, full of guilt, hate and anger. Everyday is living with pain and trying to understand what's happening to me. And the constant thinking of the mistakes of the past keeps digging me Into a deeper depression
Same
I just got hit with childhood trauma issues 40 years later, I had no idea They were buried! Been a rough couple weeks- super depressed & fearful, lots of things hitting me at once, brought me to my knees & I need prayers & help! ❤️🙏
Me too at 44 years old
the exact thing just happen to me .. i thought i was healed
@@cliffkonkle3467 42 years old here
Your explanation is so wonderfully specific. I have heard these things before, but they didn't make sense until now. Thanks for making these concepts relatable. I have had similar feelings to what you are describing here with depression and self sabotaging and suicidal thoughts (in the past), and haven't known how to move forward, so these things are extremely helpful.
In my experience- after getting past the codependency issues in ref to romantic relationships.... it can come out in other areas of life also. Example - job loss or loss of money 💴, home 🏡, car 🚗, external material type things .
The ego reers it’s ugly head once again.
Then the process starts once again. Not basing self worth or acceptance on these external type things.
Whether it’s relationship, any other external things also ( material things ), status - job titles etc. such a process to learn not to attach self love or self worth based on anything external or outside of ourselves is key.
It does remind me of addiction process. Lol 😂
You detach from unhealthy attachments in ref to relationship .
Then the ego def tries to fill void with the next external attachment ( money, material things, status , title , physical body image , etc etc ). This has been my personal experience at least. 😇
Thank you soo much for this video Aaron, how important is to live with authenticity and heal your inner child !
your channel makes me feel like i could unsubscribe to the thousand other spiritual thought-leaders on RUclips, which sometimes leaves me feeling overwhelmed, overloaded and robbed of my own unique divine intuition. You're the real deal.
It’s not easy finding love in ourselves but it’s impossible to find it elsewhere
@ 14:01 You are describing what I feel often, I just haven't had the realization that you had yet. Yes,, I can understand it intellectually just like you described but it hasn't sink in yet. I hear over and over again that the true self is whole and complete but I haven't been able to fully feel this.
@@AaronAbke when it happens, I will share it with you🙏💜🙏
I am waking up up up...JUST WOW ‼️💥‼️
going through break up and experience the suffering really deeply...definitely a gate to all of my spiritual journey.
Awesome insight! "The ego is not your amigo". Advice my own guidance counselor gives me. Thank you Aaron!
One of the most important things I ever realized was that the mind has alot to say, but that doesn't mean all of it's useful or worth listening to. It's always running a tape in the background, especially if you never meditated, you tend to have your own background track for life that's often very harmful - that whole subconsciously programmed litany of 'not good enough' etc. But you don't have to listen to what it has to say, in fact you can shut it up at any time, or cut it off mid-sentence and direct it to focus on something else. The true you is behind the mental chatter and able to direct it's attention if you practice. And it's such a relief when you stop the background track or reprogram it to say good things. If you carry around your own worst enemy in your head and believe everything it says, you're really going to struggle. Make the voice your friend and teach it to be still, then you can move forward with more freedom. At least, that has been part of my own journey. :)
You talked about the blissed out state after your spiritual awakening. I also had that and as Jim Carrey once said, I’ve been trying to get back to that every single day. My bliss went away and now I feel as if I have taken all my understandings from it and folded them into myself, like mixing some ingredients to make dough, then kneading the dough over and over and mixing my new beliefs into my life. I hope my bread comes out of the oven OK!
I went through the healing
co-dependency in ref to relationships in my 20s for the most part ( intellectually ) at least. Took practice through experience ( was a process ).
I too realized it’s more than just knowing it all intellectually. It’s a practice of Self Love / Self Care consistently that truly helps heal.
It’s lack of self love, self care, self worth ( not feeling enough - good enough just merely for “ being “) that causes or is root cause of void inside that manifests or acts out as codependency personality . At least this is my personal viewpoint from my own personal experience. 🤗
This video showed up for me ..putting in practice is so freaking hard. The mirror is sending love ❤️ ty
This is probably the most relatable way I've ever heard for what it takes to heal the shadow self. I can totally do that. Starting now.
Love this conversation, his presence and stay of being ❤❤❤
Blissed out! Thank you I had no word to discribe it. And I also felt I had lost it and searched to figure out what I had done wrong. I dove once again trying to figure out the head knowledge instead of the inner knowledge.
The mirroring metaphor you used for codependency explains it all for me, you triggered a HUGE shift in my self-worth perception. I’m amazed, out of words to express my gratitude 🤯 🙏🏼
Wow! Thank you Aaron. This was so heartfelt and just perfect for me to hear today. 🙏
This female is so naturally beautiful her beautiful skin, smile and a great energy about her 😍
Every time I watch one of your videos, I not only get inspired, but am in total Awe and expand my awareness. Thank you so much for explaining stuff in your way, it's pure gold dust. Blessings.
Thank you much!!!! What a great video and messages. Just what I needed to hear this morning. How miraculous when it happens that way! (ACIM student)
Wow a mirror to my experience. Ended a marriage no family understanding on my own with myself and seeing the reflection of love through others in myself
Susan Crews love that
Thank you both for this beautiful interview ! Arron you are so very helpful to so many . God heard you and has given you a gift of shareing love and compassion to all thru him and thru you. I keep finding gems of your conversations like this one and again thank you both . Great questions here Soul Collective!
The amount of love I feel for everyone and everything is just overwhelming right now. Thanks so much for your content :)
I had an awakening experience exactly like Aaron's. I was listening to eckhart tolle and I had a shift then bliss came pouring in. That day I broke it off with my girlfriend at the time and she lost it. She attempted suicide then I ended up getting back with her out of guilt. I got even more depressed. one night I packed my bags in the middle of the night and left town never to return. That was 11 years ago this week. I Never quite got back to the bliss experience.
Have you been doing consistent inner work?
That analogy of waking up with awareness of all your anchor points was spot on. 💯
Aaron, Thank you for your videos. They are valuable in every way possible. Spreading the path to see the Inner Light in yourself! I needed this. 💯🥰💟
The guilt games played by the ego are the biggest obstacle to our learning to love ourselves. In my case the more I tried to please others by working to do all the "right" things the more guilty I became, the more of a loser I perceived myself to be. Self-love is an inside job. Trying to find it in others is essentially an impossible task. Choosing to love and show compassion to ourselves is our job. For this is the only genuine or authentic love we can project. All else is co-dependency. You are looking for yourself in the other. More than likely, at this stage, the one you see as the other is you. The perception that there is someone other than you is the greatest of illusions and the most difficult to overcome. In reality there is always just the ONE!
I want to share this with you and anybody else who reads it. The first time after my spiritual Awakening it not sure if it was a lucid dream or astral projection but I didn't want to leave because I love me so much I couldn't leave my body and all I felt was unconditional love for me...
I love listening to you speak. I truly feel your teachings have saved me. My spiritual awakening was far from bliss, extreme contrary. ❤️
I removed fear from my life and sought truth and understanding in spirit. I love completely service of others and service of self in balance of my masculine and feminine qualities. I take the higher path in love and I lost my ego long ago. My life is about showing others the way to loving yourself and replying on yourself so you can then love and help others. We must be free of guilt and shame and live and love automatically and perceive ourselves as the everyone else.
Thank you again for ‘simple’ explanations of the ego and how it fundamentally works! You have an innate ability for sharing this information that is so practical and easy to understand without any load of confusing spirituality. I have been a seeker for many years and your videos help prevent my ego from taking the back door ‘in’ which has been a huge issue.
That was just a m a z i n g! Somehow when you talked about the part of picturing the child that was us, hugging them and telling them “ nothing is wrong with you” I instantly broke into tears... I am not sure why. If somebody could give me a hunt please... Thanks for this pure love.
Edit: 🤣 not a “hunt” but a “hint”
Could be your own inner child that heard that message and thus felt the need to cry. Did you feel relieved or lighter afterward, or was it more a feeling of grief and sorrow?
Thank you very much for sharing your experiences, for some of your subscribers they are really valuable. A thousand blessings and may the infinite consciousness continue to illuminate this world.
Wow! Seeing your self love through someone's else eyes! Amazing 🙏❤
This just helped me so much I broke down crying at the end! Amazing conversation and great questions!! 🙏🏼✨
Aaron, this is one of your most touching videos. Your description of your initial awakening and then the ensuing stages you went through is a more accurate version than that which we‘re commonly led to believe. The “pink cloud” as they call it in AA, is the euphoria everyone desires but the true journey of discovery is a huge part of it and often extremely painful and confusing. We rarely ever get a peek into both sides of the coin..Thank you for your truthfulness and vulnerability. Namasté, my friend. 🙏🏾❤️
This is True. It can be especially hard for those who may have been heavily medicated since childhood. In personal experience, It has made waking up quite painful, not that it isn't painful already. Freedom from these Medications has been a volatile chain breaking, but still was able to break the chains. Those who sting the most need the most soothing sometimes. Aaron is a wise beautiful soul for sure .This guy knows what's up.
Loved when you said you were seeing your own self love in your ex-girlfriends eyes. Empowering! Thank you!
You just saved me Aaron, thank you eternally.
realization of being guilty for everything make me even more guilty because I'm guilty of everything in my life...its like a never ending circle. I'm guilty because I did not amount to my parents expectations and I need help in freeing myself from that. I feel like a liability. I had a drug problem in the best and depression that I masked with drugs and then became an addict. After ending up in an ER and relapses on drugs I decided to quit every drug and became sober. I'm guilty and shameful of the wasted time and my drug use that made me who I am today.
I relate so much from this video. Thank you for putting out content like this. I'm not alone.
I love you so much bro. Thank you for this amazing channel in whole. Honestly, Thank you Aaron. I have so so much to learn. I’ll never stop. I am grateful and eager.
Thank you for sharing Aaron. You are a beautiful soul.
Love you and you message.
Had similar awakening. I thought that was gonna be my life from now on too.. but I soon realized that life went on too and everything came up.. oh it hurtttt. I’m a year and half in from mine.. I’m almost debt free.. and starting to form the life I want not what others wanted for me.. I worried for almost a year I was crazy yet I got so much done and fixed things I felt needed fixed immediately.. biggest thing I learned I was too hard on myself. Deep down I knew it. I came off adhd meds and antidepressants too. It was beautiful in the beginning.. then really hard. But I’m balancing out slowly but surely. Still wouldn’t trade that love and connection I felt tho at all. I still have visions and see auras.
Your story is identical to mine Aaron. It’s like we are living parallel lives. I used to climb out the window at night and get on the roof of my rental house in the city and hang out by myself and be totally pissed at the process... after Narcissistic abuse. No friends, no family. I worked hard during the day at my Executive job and did IBFF training in the evening. I never felt good enough. No matter how good my body looked, it wasn’t good enough. I did petite modeling. Weight lifting is still my touch stone, but that’s an Aries essential...gotta burn the excess energy we were blessed with :). Being gutted from the inside out with an abusive relationship was like handing someone the keys to my soul. Abusive people have a way of fracturing the soul. It takes time to heal from a core wound like that. I then went into hermit mode for a long time with my suffering...and the gifts came when I learned to embrace the pain and brokenness, then I learned to lean into it, instead of running from it. Love hearing your story....
Yes. Shadow season. My gosh. Right on time. I really nees this light to my many questions. More self awareness and acceptance. Allow. And love. Healing work within.
Thank you so much!!! I feel every steps of your wisdom talk so much beauty reflected from simplicity and directness! The principle of our existence=love. Magnetic truth! I started to find those my hidden guilts through my body conditions, where I feel ache and stiff and so I started to work on it. Finding myself journey is quite amazing and yet super thin ice I feel I am walking on. I feel so lucky i manifested you in my life so I will take this as a guidance system. So thank you thank you for doing this! Keep express yourself. Your creative energy toward this matter is absolutely a fine art! I love it!!
Perfect timing thank you so much, BPD thanks for mentioning that going through something similar plus shadow work inner child healing now, want it to go faster ☺
Aaron is a gift to humanity ❤❤❤
Aloha. Nice video and great reminders. Who here is spiritually awakened?
Hey Aaron,
I've been following your channel for a bit and i love your content. it's helped me in many parts of my life. So firstly, thank you for making these videos and putting them out there because they reach and help a lot of people.
your videos generally talk a lot about concepts and i love that, but i loved how you opened up about your life and it helped me relate and understand the concepts more and how they actually look like when they're happening to real people in in real life.
you seem very confident and self assured and you seem like you have it all figured out. i loved how you shared the thing about your previous relationship and the codependency ( i'm currently in a similar situation and i'm very hard on myself for not being able to let go yet) because it helped me see that, through out the spiritual awakening process, things aren't perfect and you have ups and downs and good and bad. even though i knew that in theory, it was nice that you talked about it.
And also how you talked about your family and how sharing your system of belief and what that experience was like for you. I have a very religious family and i don't in that aspect with them but i keep up a pretense that i'm like them and share in their beliefs because i'm so afraid of being shunned or cut off or whatever else may happen if i let them see me for who i truly am. And i am a big family person too, but because of this facade i always put up, i don't truly get to connect with the people i love so much.
i love the way you make your videos though. they're always well explained and easy to understand. I just wanted to say that i hope you'll continue to share your personal experiences as you keep making more content in the future because it makes your content a bit easier to understand and make use of.