전 헤이미룩3 요 💛 헤어샵에서 일하는데 매일 화장도 그렇고 급하게 화장하고 머리도해야해서 전쟁일때가 많은데 거기다가 옷도 모입을지 정신이없는데 전문성있어보이면서도 깔끔하고 고급져서 너무 좋은것같아요 바빠도 그냥 후딱 티 입고 자켓도 너무 격식차려지는 느낌보다 휘뚜루마뚜루 너무 좋은것같아요 ,,, 요새 자켓을 사야하나 고민하고 있었는데 오늘도 덕분에 좋은 정보 알아가요 울 연수언니 하팅 💛🌽💛
👔 Look3, 혜이미! 평소 직장인룩(자켓이나 슬랙스)을 즐겨입는 사람으로서! 전체적인 톤이랑 옷핏+편한듯 하면서 멋있는 느낌 뿜뿜✨하게 코디를 잘하신 거 같아요! 특히나 연수웅니에게 잘 어울리게 코디를 하신..🩶🤍 코디 그대로 사서 세트로 입고 싶을 정도로 넘 예쁜 코디에요 🥺
💥헤이미 + 룩3 회사원룩 짜란~!💥 회사원룩은 회사원룩인 MZ 패션회사 직장인인 컨셉이어서 더 재밋어용 키키키💃🏻근데 팀장님이랑 이사님들도 MZ에 속할 수 있는건가용…? 제가 만난 팀장님들은 음 라떼…꼰대…..흡…🤭 아무튼! 해븐뷔스티에를 입은 것이 넘 팬시하궁 이쁩니다! 뷔스티에 직장에서 입엇다구 누가 뭐라 할 것도 아닌데다가 + 회사 밖에 나가도 그대로 불금룩 가능해서….💪🏻아 그리고 제일 맘에 드는 건 슬랙스에여!!!!! 제가 요즘 운동을 해서 그런가 몸매가 드러나는 슬랙스도 부담이 많이 없어졋는뎅 부츠컷 슬랙스여서 더 좋은것!🙆🏼♂️🙆🏼♂️🙆🏼♂️히히 그리고 입은 재킷이 단추도 재킷 소재랑 같은 것 같아서 더 멋져보여요🫡🫡🫡
수수언니가 코디한 혜미언니 4번 긱시크룩이요!! 벨트 가방 신발이 긱시크 포인트를 딱 주면서 코디 색감이 통일된게 이뻐보였어요🤍 코디가 하나같이 봄 여름에 찰떡 콩떡이라 보는 맛이 있었당.. 대학생이라 개강룩이랑 데이트룩에 눈이 더 갔던 것 같아요!! 유용하고 이쁜 영상 감사해요:)🫧
룩3 헤이미 언니룩 저는 키가 크지는 않고 상체가 좀 마른 어좁이라서 그런지 각잡힌 어깨 자켓에 반했어요! 트위드자켓 어깨 각잡힌거 찾기 힘든데 여기있었군요!!🫢🫢 이번 영상에서 옷 코디를 어떻게해야 예쁠지 까지 알려주시니까 저번 봄코디도 그렇고 이것저것 영업 당해서 돈 쓸 일만 가득해져요~오늘도 은혜로운 영상 감사합니다❤ 결혼식이 많아지는 봄!! 옷 고민이 많은데요😢😢 룩3 그레이 자켓은 갖춰입은 느낌을줘서 결혼식 하객룩으로 정말 좋은거같아요!!자켓을 활용했지만 너무 무겁지 않게 결혼식 하객룩 코디를 완성해보고싶었는데 헤이미님 따라서 저렇게 코디하면 클래식&트렌디함이 뚝뚝 떨어질듯!! 기장감도 엉덩이덮는 길이로 부담스럽지않고!! 블랙 슬랙스는 하나만 있어도 매일 다른 느낌을 줄 수있을 것 같아서 활용도 굿굿👍좋아보여요 전 가지고 있는 슬랙스가 밝은그레이 밖에 없었는데 헤이미님 코디를 보면서 블랙 슬랙스랑 같이 코디하니 정말 한끗차이로 코디가 더 세련되보이네요!❤
룩4 헤이미 긱시크룩이요 긱시크라는 단어가 여기저기서 들려오길래 이건 어떤 트렌드일까 궁금했는데🤔🤔 룩4의 헤이미님 착장보고 단번에 이해했어요!! 안경은 항상 시력때문에 렌즈 없을때 꼈는데 올해는 패션 안경도 하나 구매해서 코디해보려구요ㅋㅋㅋ 룩4 니트와 스커트를 센스있게 코디해서 가장 기억에 남아요! 올 봄에 꼭 도전해야지 하고 캡쳐해두었습니다🤭🤭유니크하면서도 많이 튀지 않아 일상에서도 활용할 수 있겠어요! 어떻게 니트아이템들을 이렇게나 사랑스럽고 ,러블리하고,소녀스럽게 입을수 있을까요????!!오늘 영상에서 여러가지 코디를 보여주셔서 룩에 대한 이해가 쉬워지는 것같았고, 헤이미,연수님 덕분에 봄 트렌드 빠싹하게 정복하고 가요!!
인스타에서 보구 기다럈다구욧!!❤ 진짜 언니 옷스타일 너무 좋아하는데 브랜드내서 너무좋고 🩵🩵사람들에게 많이 사랑받는 브랜드가된것같아서 다행이예요!! 사실 언니 브랜드라면 질좋은 거는 당근빠따로 기본적으로 깔리는 믿음…❤❤그리고 특유의 언니만의 스타일이 다 느껴져서 좋아요.. 오버롤 사고싶어서 돈모으는듕 ㅎㅎ 저는 그래서Look 1번코디 수수연수언니가 코디한 헤이미언니룩으로 할게요!! 딸영상틀자마자 너무 이뻐서 박혀버렸으요 …🙈🙈두분 룩북보고 옷많이 구매하는데 ㅎㅎ 한동안 안와서 서운했다구요 ㅜㅜ 앞으로 룩북자주자주 보여줘용!! 저는 언니 출근 하기전에 그날의 룩이나 메이크업 등등을 같이 골라(?)보는 느낌이 나는 브이로그 보고싶어요!! (예를 들면 언니는 그날의 악세서리나 옷을 날씨에따라고르는지 기분에 따라 고르는지..헷😛) 언니 주말 잘 보내용❤❤
Look3 수수언니 룩 너무 내 스타일!! 💗 사실 헤이미 언니 코디도 너무 예뿜..!! 고를 수가 없댜~) 흰색으로 위 아래 코디하기가 쉽지 않은데 언니는 진짜 ~ 분위기 찰떡이쟈너 그리구 안경 왤케 잘어울려용..? 긱이 아니라 이뿜 그 자체자나 ~ 각자 코디에서 언니들 스타일이 딱 뭍어난달까?? 그래서 코디 보는 재미가 있어용 ㅜ 담에도 이런 영상 많이 많이 올려주세용 !!! 🥰
아 너무 좋아하는 룩북영상에 연수님에 혜미님 한스푼이라니..이건 완벽하다!!!!!간만에 또 너무 편안한 느낌에서 나오는 룩북 매치여서 요즘 같은 계절에 딱인 매치라서 너무 이쁘다구요✨ 혜미님 코디도 포인트되고 이쁘지만..!!연수님 코디가 쬐끔더 이쁘고 스타일 잘잡아주는건 우리끼리만 아는 비밀🫸 서로를 잘알아서 찰떡으로 매치해주는게 뽀인트!!근데 이거는 모델들이 그냥 다 해버렷다~~~~🩵
Look2 ❤혜미언니가 코디 해주신 수수 언니가 입으신 점퍼에 더오유 그레이 니트 셋업 너무 이뻐요 ㅠㅠㅠ 완전 꾸안꾸 룩 느낌에다가 아우터 색 다르게 코디 해서 입어도 딱 포인트가 될것 같아요 네 코디 다 넘 이뻐서 고르기 힘들었어요 ,, 역시 둘 룩북 너무너무 볼때마다 항상 이쁜 옷 ••
Oink Oink.. I am waiting for the Moon to appear.. in my hands is a Letter I have written for YOU.. but I am waiting for an Angel.. Do you know that I believe in Angels and I would ask if the Angels could Come as I am asking for One to appear before my Eyes.. as I was sitting by the desk.. and I would write.. pulling the Piece of paper before me.. I would be looking at your Picture.. Only if YOU know my Heart.. trying to let YOU know How much I love YOU.. I been practicing writing on this Pieces of Papers.. I would even grab One Piece of paper.. walking to the Mirror in the rest Room.. I am Not a Person who can speak well in speech.. I may not be able to speak right with the Words when it comes face to face.. But I know that I needs to practice my Speech telling YOU and Letting YOU know How much I love YOU.. as I am in the rest Room.. I am Looking at myself the Mirror is in front of me.. I know that I can let YOU see the Letter.. but.. I am alone in this House.. so I would show UP.. looking at myself and trying to Picture YOU standing on the other side.. will I have the Boldness.. WILL I have the courage to Tell YOU what My Heart feels.. WILL you let me speak to YOU about How much I love YOU.. as I am looking at myself.. Looking at the Mirror.. Holding the Piece of paper.. and I would try to talk.. try to speak.. but my Words would Not come Out because I am Looking at Me instead.. but I know that I needs to practice.. practice more to speak to YOU.. to tell YOU.. to have the Guts and Courage.. but I am wondering will YOU even give me Your Ears to listen.. will YOU give me the attention that I need from YOU so that I am able to talk to YOU.. to get something Off my Chest.. letting YOU know what I am thinking.. to Let YOU know that I love YOU.. I would open my Mouth.. and I would start to read from the Letter.. and I would say to YOU.. even though YOU are not here.. But I am envisioning that YOU are here and able to listen to the Words I am telling YOU.. speaking to YOU.. I would say.. I can't get my Mind Off of YOU.. the More I try not to think of YOU.. it seems like it is getting More Harder.. I would take a Look.. and looking into the Picture.. that is the Only One thing I can do.. is to LOOK at you when I have your Picture in my hands.. it has been so hard lately.. because I been alone.. I been writing YOU Letters.. but How can this Letter ever reach YOU.. do YOU even know How much I love YOU.. will you let me tell YOU that I still do Love YOU.. WILL you open your Heart.. open your ears to let me talk.. to let me speak.. will I be nervous to tell YOU if I stand before YOU.. having the Courage to tell YOU.. then I would ask.. will you give me the time and the attention that I needs so that I can tell YOU from My Heart.. Lately.. I been walking to this Mirror.. and I know that One Day soon.. if I do Not practice Now speaking and sharing.. and talking while Looking at the Mirror.. I know that I will never get the chance to tell YOU or say to YOU because I know that WHEN I see YOU.. I want to be well prepared.. I want to be ready to Tell YOU that I have a Love story that Only YOU can hear.. that I can share to YOU.. would you give me Your Time and energy.. your attention is all I am asking for.. all I need so that I can tell YOU.. I been looking.. trying to speak.. because I am not well in speech.. but I do know how to write Many Letters now.. and the Best way.. fastest way for me to reach YOU is by giving YOU this Letter.. I can look at myself and holding UP the Piece of Paper in my hands.. and reading the Letters.. How long can I be doing this.. and I would ask.. How far can it go if only thing I do is read the Letters looking at myself at the Mirror in front of Me.. I would keep on trying.. after sitting down by the desk.. I would pull up the chair.. with the Pencil and write YOU a Letter.. letting YOU know there is so much going On my Mind.. burning inside of My Heart.. that I still Love YOU.. I would pick up the Picture.. taking a Look at YOU.. and always.. it brings me great Love and Joy and Inspires me to write and to tell YOU a Story that I love YOU.. the Only thing that I can do.. the Only thing I can bring out from My Heart.. and I go to face the Mirror.. and I look at myself.. I wish that It be YOU on the other side.. I want to tell YOU.. I want to read the Letter to YOU.. but I am only looking at myself and it breaks my Heart that I am only reading to myself.. But I want this Letter to reach YOU.. so that YOU know my Heart.. my longing has been growing.. missing YOU brings Hate in my Heart cause of the pain that comes with it.. I wish that YOU know that Loving YOU sometimes Hurts me the Most because I miss YOU.. I can't stop thinking of YOU.. going back and forth.. to Sitting by the desk.. writing a Letter.. getting UP from and walking to the rest room.. Holding UP the Letter.. looking at myself looking at the Mirror and reading the Letter Out Loud.. I would look at my self.. and it hurts Me because I miss YOU.. I been missing YOU for such a Long time.. going back to sit.. Looking at your Picture.. my Heart starts to burn inside.. I want this Burn to come across Your Heart.. I wish that YOU can deal with the same Burning and this Pain that is aching inside my Soul.. I feel like it is NO fair sometimes because.. WHY is it that I am the One who has to deal with this Pain of ache.. this Pain of missing YOU and It feels Like YOU do not feel anything on the Other side.. do YOU know that I am waiting for YOU still.. that I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I don't want to spend the time looking at the Mirror and Looking at myself and just reading the letters.. it is NOT for me but for YOU.. so I have decided to change a New Way.. I would wait.. waiting until the SUN goes Down and asking for the MOON to come UP.. I would walk Out side.. and stand alone as I see the Night has approached.. I am holding the Letter In front of Me.. and I have heard that there are Angels WHO is able to listen to an OUT CRY of the Heart when YOU LOVE.. I would stand.. Open the Piece of Paper.. the Letter is in front of Me.. and I started to LOOK UP at the Moon.. but I am Not asking the MOON anything.. but an Angel.. if the Angel can hear me on this very night.. can the Angel be the One to do me a Favor.. I have One wish.. and It is very simple Wish.. to Hear the Heart of Mine crying for YOU.. I know if the Angel can hear the sobbing of my Heart.. my Tears of pains that comes from inside.. if the Angel can hear me and can feel sorry for Me because I am asking for the Angel to Give this Letter to YOU.. I can sit on the ground and weep.. sob in tears for many hours if I have too.. but if an Angel.. who is passing by through My direction and catches me in tears.. I know that the Angel can stop and Looks DOWN from the Sky wondering what is wrong with me.. and I can say to that Angel.. I am man who loves to write Love Story.. but it is a story of YOU.. story of how much I love YOU.. and that I am asking that Angel.. if He can do me a favor.. to give this Letter I have written to YOU.. to send the Message that I been here.. all along waiting for YOU.. if the angel asks.. I would tell that Angel.. I have even tried.. I even went to the rest room.. after I sat on the chair by the desk.. and I would show the angel the Picture of YOU.. and tell the Angel.. who YOU are and I would say to that Angel.. I would write with the pencil on the Piece of paper.. and I would get UP and go to the rest room.. and I would stand looking at the Mirror of myself and I would read the letter that I wrote to YOU.. I been doing that for a while.. but It seems like it has no Hope.. because I am only reading it to myself.. I want YOU to hear me.. hear my voice.. hear my words that I do speak.. I do talk and say.. share what is in my Heart.. but what good is ALL that when YOU can't even hear me.. if YOU just don't know or understand.. and I started to LOOK at myself on that Mirror.. in Pain.. what good is it if I am the Only One who knows it for myself.. so I have decided to walk Out.. and WHEN I saw the Moon.. if I love to stare at the MOON in the Night.. I am sure an Angel can also Love the Moon just like Me and can spend the Night looking at the MOON.. if I can be loud and Clear and if the Angel who is staring at the same MOON I am.. I know for sure.. the Angel can hear me Out.. hear my misery of NOT able to get the Letters to YOU.. Hear this Heart of Mine crying in the Night as I am staring at the MOON.. if the Angel sees Me.. with a Broken Heart and the Longing.. waiting for YOU.. waiting for your answer.. I am sure the Angel can look.. as I would walk Out side.. Not just Once.. but each Night.. two days.. four days.. ten days I am out.. holding the Letter.. and I am looking UP at the MOON.. open my mouth so that YOU can hear me Out Loud.. I am sure after many times of walking with the Letters.. the Angel can see that I am very serious.. I am Not asking Much but it is so simple.. to let YOU know my Heart.. to Let YOU know that I love YOU.. to Let YOU see the Heart of Mine.. that I am falling for YOU.. I need YOU and I need you to know that I love YOU.. that I be missing YOU.. DO you even know that.. can YOU SEE that.. and I know that One night.. with your Picture in my Hand.. and I be looking.. on the Other Hand is the Letter.. after I look at you through the Picture.. My Heart breaks into tears.. and I am missing YOU.. I will say why do I keep on missing YOU.. why must you be so far that it is so Hard for me to reach YOU.. why leave me like this stranded.. why let me die here just to Love YOU.. why do I must crumble and be hurt.. why be so miserable but at the same TIME the Joy to Love.. with this ache that leaves me this Pain.. it Hurts a lot sometimes because YOU are so Far away.. but I want YOU so Near.. so Close that my arms can wrap around YOU.. and to let YOU see the letters
I open the back Door of the Work shop.. and the Garden is here.. I wish that YOU were here so that I can show you something.. something that I been wanting to show YOU.. started to rebuild this Garden just to tell YOU.. just to show YOU my Heart.. Do you remember how much YOU loved Flowers.. YOU are the One who gave me the Dream to work in this Flower Shop.. telling me that when we were Once Young.. back in the Orphan Home.. I came to YOU.. and it was after a time being.. and YOU showed me this Art Piece of paper.. and I remember.. your Both Parents as the Missionaries.. children would RUN.. they would hear from the Lady who owned the House.. with many Little Children who came from Broken Homes.. having NO parents.. having NO ONE who can Love them.. but It was both Your parents who came and spend the Time with these Children.. I would ask for YOU when YOU did Not come.. I heard from your Father says.. YOU have a Big Dreams.. and that YOU are so Busy with daily Life trying to Accomplish the many Big Dreams YOU had.. and One was painting.. How you love to draw and add colors to the Picture YOU drew.. and after a Long time of NOT showing UP.. I guess YOU finally showed UP.. many Months went By.. I do remember sitting by myself.. Out side.. and did Not want to talk to Any One.. I just did Not want to fit in with any one.. I heard the Foot steps walking towards Me.. and stops.. When I lifted UP my Head.. I see YOU.. but WHY did it take YOU so Long to come visit Me.. I would ask.. Your Father.. I would ask.. Your Mother.. why don't you ever Come.. is it because YOU did Not want to see Me.. your Parents be saying the same thing.. YOU are always Busy.. and Now YOU show UP.. when I am down and feel so alone.. WHY did you come to Hurt me.. I would LOOK at YOU with a Smile.. and YOU sat down next to me.. and YOU told me.. YOU been painting.. going into the Art Classes.. learning the Oil Painting.. and I am over here.. feel so Sad.. it must feel so Good to have great Parents who can Help you with Your Future.. but Look at me.. I have NO future.. a broken Heart.. NO family.. no parents who loves Me.. and YOU turn and tells me to Hush UP.. and YOU showed me something.. and told me to take a Look of your Piece of Art.. I am wondering.. and It is so beautiful.. Just Like YOU.. this Flower.. so Beautiful.. and YOU gave me this Piece of Art and you gave me a Smile.. NOW.. I am wondering.. WHY did you give me this Form of Art.. what is it that I do with this.. Just to look at this Piece of Paper with a Flower on it.. and YOU smiled.. and told me to be More Creative with it.. and to Open my Mind and Heart.. something will come Alive.. and as I watch YOU smile and YOU waved your hands at me.. both parents next to YOU as they wanted to go Home.. I stood UP.. and I waved back at YOU.. WHEN will I see YOU again.. is it going to be another year.. maybe even much Later HUH.. and I would look at YOU as YOU go in the back of the Car.. and I see Your parents goes into the car and the Car starts to drive away.. and I start to run.. chasing after the Car and I see you turn to LOOK back of the window and My tears were falling out of my Eyes.. what If I keep on missing YOU.. what if this Piece of Art does Not heal my Heart and I would see the Car NO more.. and I stop.. crying.. wiping my tears.. and I turn the Other way.. and I am Looking at this Piece of Art.. the Flower YOU painted.. and what is the name of this Flower.. and where can I find this Kind of Flower.. is it possible for me to get this Kind of Flower.. I mean.. what if I start to sell this Kind of Flower.. will you come.. will you show UP and see and I would lift UP the Piece of Art.. the Flower Painting.. and I would stand and think about what YOU said.. to Open my Mind.. and to Open my Heart.. to think and dreams.. and do WHAT.. I stood still.. do What.. and I would walk slowly to the Orphan Home.. just thinking about what I should do.. be Creative.. and I would walk into the House asking myself.. do what.. as I am on the Back of the Work Shop.. in my hand is the Piece of Art.. the Flower painting YOU gave me when I was YOUNG.. and I am looking at this Small bed.. and I see Flowers growing on this Bed of ground.. and I would lower my self.. LOOKING at the Piece of Art.. and the Flower Painting and I would look at these Live Flowers in the Bed of the Ground.. It has been a long ways of Coming.. and I am waiting for the Flowers to grow and mature to the Full Bloom.. adult Flowers.. and I would stare at these flowers.. and I see the Forms and I am seeing the Shape.. it is becoming More Like the Piece of Art.. the Flower Paintings I am holding in my hands.. YOU told Me.. When I was sitting Down Alone.. and I felt like NO ONE else cared about Me.. I heard the Foot steps walking.. and stopped in front of Me.. when I lifted UP my Head.. my eyes.. I was truly Amazed of HOW Beautiful.. so Lovely in form.. my eyes met Your eyes and I wanted to tell YOU.. which left me speechless to share at that Moment.. I wanted to tell YOU and say to YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful.. so Amazingly Beautiful.. My words.. my Lips.. my mouth just could Not speak the Language to tell YOU what My Heart was feeling at that Moment but I was truly Blown away.. like this Piece of Art.. so Beautiful.. like this Flower Painting.. YOU are so Beautiful.. what More Words can I say to YOU that Night when my eyes met YOURS.. it seemed like YOU were never going to show UP.. but when YOU did Come from Nowhere.. I couldn't be angry any more.. I couldn't tell YOU I been waiting for YOU all this time because it was like this Painting of the Flower.. AMUSE and AMAZING to me.. I never thought that YOU would share.. I only thought you were just going to tell me YOU were going to leave again.. But it was that Night.. when YOU stood and YOU sat next to me.. and YOU opened my eyes.. and Opened my heart telling me to be More creative with myself.. I never knew what that meant.. what does it means to be More creative.. but when YOU start to Love in your Heart.. when I started to Love YOU more.. just Out of nowhere things came into my Mind and into my Heart.. just Like that NIGHT.. YOU showed me.. the value what it means to be More Creative with YOURSELF.. YOU showed me a Piece of Art.. and the Flower Painting.. I sat down confused.. did Not know what I am suppose to do with this Piece of Art.. am I suppose to eat this Piece of Art.. it is a Piece of Paper but when YOUR MIND and HEART.. and YOU open it with being with creative and YOU showed me that It starts with the true Meaning of Love.. teaching Me how to love YOU.. AM I getting good.. am I getting better with It because I really Love YOU.. I remember when YOU told me that YOU had Big Dreams and it made me Sad because I started to feel sorry for myself.. because I could Not dream.. I was at the MOST lowest Place.. started to think about the Situation but YOU have made me believe again and it started with Loving YOU.. maybe YOU felt that Night.. that I been asking for YOU.. when Your Both parents came.. and I would Open the Door.. I see the Car outside.. and I am so excited they came because I knew if they Came.. you could also come TOO.. but I would watch through the Window.. there was NO sign of YOU there with them.. I would be at the Door.. and Opened for your Father to walk in.. I felt so Little and so Small because Your Father is such a Great MAN of God.. who loves Us the Children and came to serve and to teach.. and I would be always asking for YOU.. and I knew that I could Not dream when I saw your Father.. the way he looked at me.. but I would still ask.. where are YOU.. where is the Daughter.. but.. always saying YOU are so busy.. it broke my Heart.. I guess your parents notice that we were getting just too close.. when the Days you came with your parents.. YOU would always show me the Different Pictures YOU drew and painted.. all these Flowers YOU would come.. and told me How long it has taken YOU to drew on the sketch paper.. and had to paint with the Oils.. mixing the Colors and the Mind and Heart of creating something.. Your Eyes would Lid UP when I would look and say.. it is so Beautiful.. this Flower Painting.. can I have this One too.. it is because I believe One day I can sell it.. and I am sure a Buyer will Love it to hang on the Walls to show Off who is the Great Oil Painter.. and I would watch you smile as I would share that.. we would both smile a lot when YOU came.. a BOX.. when YOU open.. all the brushes uses for the Oil Painting.. mirrors and the Note Book.. art sketch paper you would bring to show Me.. and I would sit and stare.. My Heart.. and I guess Your Parents started to notice that we were just too close.. but that very Night.. when YOU came with the Final Piece of Art and YOU Showed Me.. it was your heart that was giving me something.. I know that YOU may think that it may not be Much.. but what matter to me the Most are these little things I cherish in the Memories.. YOUR presences means everything.. your Smile and the Gestures YOU give.. and even when YOU show UP with the Piece of Art.. the Flower Paintings and YOU would show it to me.. telling me to Open my Mind.. to Open my Heart.. to be More creative.. I did Not know what YOU were talking about.. but it is the Giving of Your Heart which finally got to Me.. I was blinded of receiving just too much that I just did NOT care about the behind of what is happening in those curtain moments but when YOU told me.. the last day.. I knew that It meant something More.. when I saw the real YOU of the giving of your Heart.. it got me by Nowhere because it was the Day.. I saw you in the back of the car and Your Father
It was YOU who I was loving all this TIME.. asking For YOU.. when YOU father stood tall.. looking at me.. I would be asking for YOU first.. I never knew then but when I think of it Now.. it is because I been loving YOU.. just did Not want to show it and say it was true.. but it was on that very night.. when YOU sat next to me.. showing me the Final Piece of Art.. the Flower painting.. even though I thought you would come back soon.. when YOU spoke of the words.. to be more Creative.. to Open my eyes.. My MIND and My Heart.. I would sit that very night in the room.. the children were sleeping in the Beds.. but I could Not sleep that very Night.. I would be sitting on the top of the bed.. just LOOKING at the Final Piece of Art work.. the Flower Painting YOU gave me.. just trying to think about be Open for What.. what Happens when YOU open Your Heart.. and your Mind.. Open your eyes.. what happens next.. what does It means to be more creative.. and that is when I knew.. when YOU start to Love.. it is when YOU can truly show HOW you can express something in your Heart.. In your Mind and Open your eyes and be more creative with It.. as I saw this as I was looking at the Final Piece of Art Work of Yours.. I could Not help it but cried looking at it.. because I knew it my Heart.. this means good BYE right.. it means YOU are Never going to come back to this Orphan Home.. and I would cry in the silent of the NIGHT on the bed.. looking at this Piece of Art work of Yours.. my Heart was touched.. it drove me crazy because NOW I know what it means to Love YOU.. then How can YOU stop.. because YOU can Only Love the One who can truly show YOU how to Love.. or who Knows How to love.. and I wanted to Love YOU more.. if YOU are able to show me something that YOU love the Most.. that Means YOU know How to Love.. I want to love YOU because I know that a person who gives can receives too.. so I want to be the One to give it all now to YOU.. so that YOU can feel how much I love YOU.. that It may Not be too Much.. It may be so Small and simple but I do Love YOU.. How can I let YOU know how much I love YOU since Now YOU showed me that YOU can Love.. let me Love YOU.. as I am Looking at the Garden.. my eyes are filled with Tears.. I ache inside because I want to show YOU.. Not just show YOU but tell YOU.. How can I tell you something if I can't even show it to YOU.. that Is why I have come back to this Work shop.. I am here in the back of the Garden.. there is the back DOOR.. and a bed of Ground.. I am here looking at the Flowers which are growing because YOU have given me something to Love and to dream.. TO BE more Creative.. to Open my Mind.. to Open my Heart.. it is YOU who showed me and taught me HOW to Love and I just want to give it ALL back to YOU by saying I love YOU..I am looking at the door.. as I open the Door.. walking into the Work shop.. the Smell of the Place.. I have missed this place so Much.. but there is One thing that is Missing.. It is YOU.. only if YOU were here with me.. the painting on the wall.. and How all the things have set in and Now ready to Open the shop once again.. but.. when YOU were here with Me.. and how you came.. YOU were going to school.. I remember YOU came to the Work Shop as a Part time.. and wanted to help me.. I remember YOU wanted to be a Doctor.. always had a Big Dream to help people and save many lives and go out on the Mission trips to help the Poor and needy people.. and telling me these things.. I was filled in awe of YOU.. and YOU asked me if I remembered You.. of course it was long ago when I saw YOU as a Young girl.. but it seemed like YOU have never forgotten me.. I remember I would ask of YOU to come and help me at this Work Shop and I was selling Flowers in this Work Shop.. never imagined that I would meet you.. you were grown and more matured going into the University.. to become a Doctor.. as I would hire YOU to work with Me.. YOU asked me.. do I remember this One Picture.. as I would stand on the Other side of the counter.. It was a drawing picture.. and YOU showed me.. and when I got hold.. my both hands grabbed the Art sketch paper and it was a drawing of a Flower.. It made me jump when I saw the drawing picture of the Sun Flower.. and I turn to look back.. and On the wall.. I would look at the same sketch paper and It was drawn by YOU.. and I remember YOU turn to look at the wall.. and I remember YOU would walk closer to the wall and YOU would look at the art sketch paper.. the same Flower.. the Sun Flower YOU drew for me.. and I see your hand touch over the paper and YOUR Head turns to look at me and I would tell you.. Yes.. I do remember this Paper.. the Art sketch paper.. YOU gave it to me when YOU were a lot younger.. do YOU NOT remember the time.. and as I would stand alone in this Work Shop.. I am standing and staring at the wall.. the Art Sketch Paper is on the wall still.. the Same Flower.. the Sun Flower YOU drew for me.. as I stood in the silent.. the two lines of tears would roll down my eyes.. my hand touch my chest.. It hurts right here.. I wish that YOU knew this Heart of Mine.. that it hurts when I stand here alone.. without YOU here.. it feels like even I can take a look at that Art sketch paper.. watching it here alone.. it Hurts me More because all I needed is YOU.. all I need is YOU to be here but I know that I stand alone right Now.. but I need you here with me right Now.. as I look at the Art sketch paper.. and I would walk closer to the wall.. my hand touch over the Art sketch paper.. I miss YOU.. without YOU I feel like My Heart hurts.. why couldn't YOU cut my chest Open.. why couldn't YOU get rid of My Heart.. Now I feel like I am sick again.. DO I needs to go as a Patient to visit YOU.. but this TIME.. I am Not going to leave alone.. I want to leave with My Heart with YOU.. so that I don't need to feel this Way.. it Hurts.. It hurts me so bad because I am missing YOU right Now.. why did YOU have to come at the Most hardest times of my Life.. why did YOU have to come and Now.. take my smiles away.. as I close both of my eyes.. I would go back as a Young Boy.. I am crying.. sitting on the ground.. receiving a Letter from a relative of Mine.. the Letter speaks about how my family Died in the burning of the fire House.. My family was very poor and they could not take care of me.. as a Relative holding my hand takes me away.. I am crying and crying walking away from the farm House.. My Heart keeps on breaking.. why.. why does My Life has to be so Sad.. why have to be so broken.. now.. I just received a Letter from the same relative who was holding my hand.. taking me away and telling me I am Now an Orphan Boy.. as I read the Letter.. I learned how to read from the Lady who owns this House.. as I was sitting.. I hear foot steps walking.. and it stops.. as I lifted UP to take a LOOK.. YOU are so Beautiful.. in a red dress.. in a red shoes.. I see YOU stand there.. and YOU would sit right next to Me.. why did YOU have to come at this Point.. I was reading a Letter.. which It broken me down into tears.. having NO more family.. being abandoned and Broke.. having NO future.. I see YOU coming Out of No where.. but Like an Angel YOU sat next to Me.. and I remember YOU would be asking why I be crying.. and I would give YOU the Letter.. if you could read.. I give you the permission for YOU to read what the relative wrote to me.. and I would be crying in silent.. as the MOON came Out.. and I can hear YOU breathe hard.. I know.. that is how I felt when I first read the Letter.. My Heart keeps on hurting Me.. It hurts me more because Now I have told YOU a secret that I just never told any one.. I am angry for being taken away.. and how I am abandoned by the family.. I am dirty and poor.. I have NO body to talk too.. and I would hear YOU trying to cheer me UP.. and I wanted to run away.. DID NOT be a part of this Orphan Boy.. but then where would I go if I leave here.. and I do remember at the Moment.. YOU pulled Out something and YOU showed me the Art Sketch Paper.. and YOU be sharing How you are taking an Art class.. and to see your drawing.. as I turn.. My hands grab hold unto and I would look at the Picture of the Art sketch paper.. I would look at the Sun Flower.. finger points WHY this Kind of flower you drew.. I remember you be sharing that is your Most Favorite Flower in the world.. that when YOU feel so sad.. YOU would go to the garden.. and YOU would go see this Flower.. and Hoping that I too can smile once again.. as I would look at this Picture.. I started to cry some More.. it hurts Me.. I have NO more family now.. NO ONE I can call Mother or Father any More.. this Picture.. How can it help me at this Point of my Life when I have lost every thing.. but YOU told me.. that NOW.. I may not see it or understand it.. but later On.. I will get it.. when time heals my Heart.. I will start to love this Flower and will Love once again.. and Yes.. YOU were right.. It did Not take me too long to get back on my feet once again.. I would be looking at this Picture.. wondering.. where can I find this Flower.. where can I go to see this Flower.. for a long time I been thinking about this Flower because I grew to Love it.. why.. because It came from YOU.. YOU remind me of SUN FLOWER so much.. the More YOU think about it.. the More you see it.. YOU grow more into it.. and I would find a Way.. to make a Mission to search about this Flower.. and I would start.. as I am standing alone.. this Work SHOP.. I would only think about YOU.. I wanted to share how much I love YOU.. and that is why I opened this Work Shop.. dedicating the Flower.. when YOU feel like YOU are dead inside.. the Hope to smile Once more.. Your Courage and How YOU helped me to bounce back.. I wanted
Time.. but when the Door opened and YOU came in.. the early years.. I saw YOU.. but of course I did Not recognize YOU at first.. I remember it is when YOU showed me the Drawing.. the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing of the Sun Flower.. I knew that It was YOU.. I did Not want YOU to come close to me at first.. because I knew what was in my Heart.. I did Not want you to work with me at first because what if I love YOU more.. I will get hurt because I knew what was in my Heart.. loving YOU is the Most beautiful thing but also it hurts me at the same time.. I have a Broken Heart already.. of losing my family on the Burning of the Farm House.. when YOU stopped visiting me.. I would think.. maybe YOU did Not want to get close to Me.. was it because I gave you the Letter.. was it because I shared you a Letter about the passing of the family.. wasn't it YOU who be asking to see what the Letter was written about.. I only wanted you to know a glimpse so that YOU can at least understand me where I am coming from.. I just did Not get it at first because I wanted you to be close.. that is why I opened UP to you and to show you the side where I would crumble at the Most.. but.. I think I made the mistake of revealing too much of the Downer side what I felt at that Point.. but.. I do remember.. watching YOU looking at the wall.. I would be holding the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of the Sun Flower.. I would freeze from the Inside as my eyes saw the Same drawing.. of course I dedicated all my Heart and energy because I loved YOU.. I loved YOU because YOU came at the most hardest and difficult times of my Life.. trying to cheer Me up.. it was so Beautiful.. and so moving at my Heart.. NO ONE has ever down.. to show the care and the tender side which NO ONE wanted to give.. crying alone.. I would be sitting on the bed.. looking at the Drawing.. the Art sketch paper.. the SUN FLOWER.. NO ONE has ever done this for me.. why was it YOU.. why did YOU even care.. and I wanted to give Back to share back.. to let someone who feels like me to smile Once more.. what you gave it something that NO MONEY can buy.. as ALL the Boys were sleeping in One room.. I sat alone.. leaning on the wall.. could NOT sleep that Night.. but kept on looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing of the SUN FLOWER.. I wanted to know.. what does IT means to love.. I want to love and choose to love instead.. I don't want to be hurt or be hurting Others any more.. and I wanted to have answers of the One Question that was in my Heart.. and It was with this ONE SIMPLE picture but it came from YOUR Heart that answered everything.. as I would look at the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing of the Sun Flower.. I knew that I had to do something.. that One day YOU will know that I love YOU.. maybe not at the Point but some day YOU will know how much I love YOU by sharing what YOU have given Me and what you have done to Me.. as I would look.. the Work Shop.. Looking at the Paper.. the Art sketch.. the drawing of the Sun Flower.. back is the Garden.. and Now.. there are More than Thousand Sun Flowers in the Back.. in the Garden.. ready to be given and ready to be sold.. when YOU came into the Work Shop.. I was blown into pieces because YOU looked a lot like someone who I loved.. but did NOT wanted to ask you if YOU were.. because YOU could of been someone else but NOT YOU.. when YOU shared the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing of the Sun Flower and I turn to face the Wall.. the same drawing YOU given me when I was a young Boy.. who was hurting.. who just read a Letter of the Lost and dead family.. YOU were like an Angel who gave me Life to live again.. I do remember when YOU asked me if YOU could work here.. I told YOU NO at first.. I did Not want you to come close because I know that something could happen.. I wanted you close deep in my Heart.. but.. I did not want you too close.. I am already Hurt.. I do not want to be hurt again but I did miss YOU so much that My Heart was crying inside.. I did Not want to tell YOU this at all.. because I did Not want to see you go.. I remember YOU told me that YOU will be back.. and I had to let YOU go that day you came.. YOU just do not know how heavy I felt inside.. It broke me down into tears again.. asking myself.. why did I let YOU go like this.. what if YOU will never show UP.. what if I will not see YOU again.. what if I end up dying like this instead.. and I just could not help myself and blamed myself for letting you walk away like this.. what if YOU never come back to me.. and I be dumb like this of letting YOU go when I know deep inside I love YOU.. I was just too afraid to let YOU IN because I loved YOU just too much.. I am looking at you.. I just could not believe that YOU are now a doctor.. a Heart surgeon.. of course I came here to get my Heart to be removed.. I wanted another Heart Surgeon because.. Can you handle doing the surgery.. planting into a different Heart.. a Heart from someone else.. What would you do if I don't recognize YOU any more.. what will you do if I start to love another whose Heart has been loving.. But.. I don't want to lose YOU.. How can I live without YOU.. How can I breathe if I can't love YOU any more.. but all this Time.. I have been only loving YOU.. YOU are the Only One who I been missing.. I been crying over looking at the empty wall.. walking into the Work Shop.. I been missing YOU.. missing your Presence.. just missing your smile.. can YOU handle me.. putting me into the deep sleep.. as YOU cut my chest wide open.. I know that YOU are more experience in this kind of work.. If you are the Doctor.. because I asked for a well experienced.. well established with multiple years of experience.. I don't want my Heart to be broken.. I don't want my Heart to be dropped on the floor.. It has been with me all of my life.. ever since I was born.. ever since I was a young Boy.. when I first saw YOU.. I cried.. I started to cry after YOU left.. YOU promised me that YOU will be back.. and I felt my Heart.. I did not know what it was at the first touch.. I just could not stop.. but I would kept on crying through the Night.. that is when I could Not sleep.. I kept on thinking of YOU.. over and over.. turning and tossing.. all of the children at the Orphan House.. they were all sleeping good.. I sat on top of the bed.. wondering.. why couldn't I sleep like the Other children.. I do remember you gave me your picture.. I saw both of your parents with YOU.. and I do remember.. being so Poor.. without any parents.. living with bunch of poor children.. who had No homes.. only could gather with each other.. I looked at YOU.. I would smile.. I could never smile living with bunch of these children.. they were all dirty like Me.. pushing and shoving.. kicking and screaming.. and there was No peace.. When I heard the Old Woman.. the Care taker says to the Children.. a Missionary family is coming.. to help Us.. to help educate and give Us books to read.. and toys to play with.. of course.. it was YOU and your Parents who came.. I knew that I should of stopped myself right when I met YOU.. I don't know why I asked for your picture that day.. before YOU were leaving.. and as I was crying.. I wanted to be a Part.. so I asked for YOUR picture.. when YOU told me that YOU are going to give me One.. and That smile.. you pulled out and told me that this is the Only One.. the best Picture you have taken.. I saw your Smile.. and YOU told me.. behind the Picture is your Address.. and If I wanted a friend to share my Heart.. to write YOU a Letter.. I do remember watching YOU leave.. Your Father and Mother holding your Hands as YOU leave.. I would be waving with tears in my eyes.. I felt so Alone.. I felt so cold.. I felt so Poor.. and I would fall both on my knees.. and Weeping as I take a Look at your Picture.. why do you have to leave so Soon.. Are you going to come to visit me and the children.. and both hands holding the side of the Picture.. YOU are so Beautiful.. and I be looking with tears.. wiping my tears with my hand.. I feel so Alone.. I feel so sad because My Heart.. is it going to break like this.. My Heart keeps on breaking because YOU know how much I love you right.. and I do remember that Night.. I just could not sleep.. and sitting on the top of the Bed.. I pulled out Your Picture.. and I would look.. and I do remember what YOU said.. to write YOU when I needed a friend.. and I would get Out of the Bed and I walked to the desk.. and I sat down to write.. as I am laying.. I am looking at YOU.. as a Doctor.. as the Heart Surgeon.. I should of Not come to this Hospital.. What are you going to do with My Heart.. I don't want you to take my Heart away.. if I can't love you any more.. I rather ask for another Doctor.. I guess the main reason is to forget YOU.. and Let my Heart be taken away and Let someone else have My Heart.. But when I saw YOU.. if YOU were another Doctor.. another Heart Surgeon.. then I think it would been so much easier to go with the proceed to do the surgery but.. I feel like My Heart Now just can't go.. it has been such a Long time since I saw YOU.. and for the longest Time.. I have been missing YOU.. but Now.. I just can't give My Heart away with YOU becoming the Doctor.. the Heart Surgeon.. I been to the Work Shop lately.. and started a Project.. to rebuild that Work Shop.. it has been broken and abandoned for a Long time.. I just could Not work there any more.. for some reason I would see YOU.. even though YOU were never there.. there would be a Lot of pictures I would put on the walls.. that is before YOU left.. taking many pictures of YOU.. a lots of laugh.. lots of crying but more smiles On my face when YOU were there with Me.. I wanted to go back.. I started to miss you ever since I left because I kept on thinking of YOU.. I would go
Few more times.. and I started to think about YOU at the Work Shop.. what If you would be back.. even though I knew that YOU would never come around.. but I kept on thinking.. YOU could just visit.. but if YOU walked into the Work Shop all Broken and Abandoned.. then I know that YOU will Not come around ever again.. because NO ONE knows what will happen next.. so I started to make a Plan.. to remodel.. and to re build that Building.. just in case One day.. some day soon you can come.. and YOU will know that it has never been broken down.. as I gathered some workers.. spend days.. spend weeks and into the months.. new paintings.. putting UP the fences.. and even started to go back into the garden.. planting new seeds to bring into the life.. after it was all completed.. and the work shop was back on business.. I went in to work again.. of course there was something missing as I started to work in that shop.. it was YOU.. it felt like I cannot never get YOU back.. since you left long ago.. How can I bring YOU back if YOU have already left.. I would look at the wall.. the Wall with Your Pictures.. many of the Pictures I would post to share.. as I would start to look at Your Pictures.. Just memories of YOU came flashing through my Mind.. I knew that if I wanted to continue to run this Business.. I needed to get Rid of My Heart.. I knew that only if My Heart goes.. I can work in this Work Shop without missing YOU so Much.. that is the Only way I knew that I can continue.. that is when I decided to go into the surgery.. that I wanted to let My Heart to go.. I asked for the Best Doctor.. the Heart Surgeon with the Best experience.. of course never thought that It would be YOU walking into this Room.. even though I want YOU to do the Surgery.. I just can't Lose YOU.. after I see YOU now.. and How well YOU are in Life.. I think I just can't let My Heart go.. and I am looking at YOU.. I do need My Heart to be replaced.. but what would happen if I don't love you any More.. I am sure Now you are doing good with another Man.. can YOU still do the Heart surgery.. Now the Person who is going to exchange with my Heart comes into the Room and sits on another Bed.. and I turn to look at the Person.. I just can't believe it.. the Man turns to look at me.. I am not sure if I know this Man but the Man looks at me.. He is the friend who has taken YOU away.. I am wondering.. why is this Man in the same bed.. He wants his Heart to be removed just Like me.. and I am wondering.. I don't want His Heart.. I rather keep My Heart.. He has a Broken Heart too.. and I look at YOU.. I am wondering.. what is going On and Now YOU are telling me.. the relationship has ended on Both.. and that YOU are single.. and I am thinking.. Am I suppose to be happy or suppose to be Sad.. are YOU sad.. is that WHY you have become a Heart Surgeon.. WHO has Not been loving YOU well.. YOU know that If YOU are removing all Kinds of Hearts.. is it because someone has broken YOUR HEART or are you breaking Hearts and switching Hearts to different People.. because I don't want Another Broken Heart.. can I have YOUR HEART instead.. How about YOU can do the surgery on Me and I want to Have YOUR HEART in me so that I can say to YOUR HEART.. I can Love you more than any.. I know that YOU have already Broken Me Heart Once.. I don't need another Broken Heart in Me.. that is why I want Your Heart.. I know that YOUR HEART does Not break because YOU fix Hearts.. that is why I loved YOU for a Long time.. as I would pull out the Picture.. and I am Looking at the Picture when YOU were YOUNG.. next to the Picture is the First Letter you wrote me.. and I would open the Letter and I would turn to YOU and I would read it Out loud.. this is what YOU wrote Me.. when I could Not sleep.. when I met YOU the first time.. and I asked for YOUR Picture.. YOU gave me this Picture.. with Your Address in the back asking me.. If I needed a Friend that I can write YOU any time.. so I wrote.. and This is what YOU wrote me and I cried.. as I am looking at YOU.. my tears are flowing down my eyes and I started to read to you with tears rolling down my eyes.. and I would say to YOU.. this was why I started to Love YOU.. you wrote when I was at the Most Lowest of the time of my Life and has fixed this Broken Heart by telling me all of this.. I been waiting for YOU.. but YOU never came.. the door was never locked because it is YOU who I been waiting for.. I would be working in the Flower Shop.. waiting if YOU would ever show UP.. but you would never come.. It broke my Heart because what If YOU would stop by.. even just for Once.. I was Not asking for a long time.. even just for few seconds.. it would been enough for Me.. but YOU never came.. working in the Flower Shop without YOU was the most difficult thing for Me because I would be waiting.. even though I knew deep in my Heart that YOU would never show UP.. just hoping that it would be you who would knock on the door.. asking for me to open that door in the Work Shop.. in that flower Work Shop.. I would cry many nights of thinking of YOU.. just remembering all of the memories we shared together in that Shop.. I would watch YOU with the camera.. lights flashes as YOU would take pictures of the Flowers.. asking me about how it grew.. the place where I would planted in the soil.. I would even take you to the spots.. back in the garden.. where YOU would see the flowers in full bloom.. matured and sprung UP for YOU to take a look.. YOU would smile.. I would watch YOU holding that camera in front.. as I would watch YOU looking through the camera Lens and taking pictures of the flowers back in the Garden.. I wanted to Hold YOU.. I wanted to Pull you closer to me.. around my arms I wanted to feel YOU inside.. but I would stop myself of getting closer to YOU.. I wanted to get close.. I wanted to walk and stand beside YOU.. just to feel for seconds.. How you would feel in my arms.. How would you breathe.. How about the sound of the beating of Your Heart.. can I hear it.. will my Heart also make the same sound of Your Heart.. I wanted to get close.. just to see how it would feel.. YOU in my arms.. I wanted you near.. I wanted you close.. I was so close because I would walk but I would stop to step back.. It hurts me because I wanted to feel YOU in my arms.. But I just could not get closer.. Because I knew that YOU would push me to say Back Off.. Just Now How it feels.. Just thinking about YOU.. brings so Much Joy and happiness.. I would smile a lot.. My Heart be moving in a way I just can't control.. my emotions just wants to pour Out to YOU.. I want to stop.. I can't control myself because It has been Hard lately.. Missing YOU is so Hard.. at the same Time.. it brings me a lot of tears.. that I can't stop myself crying.. I don't want to show YOU any more tears.. but It hurts to know that YOU don't want to come close.. so Far.. so Near.. so Close.. the distance between Us.. leaving me to Be hurt.. missing YOU all the time.. but I want to get close.. NO Matter How I feel.. as long as it is YOU.. I will always Love YOU.. don't ask me why do I keep on hurting myself but still loves YOU.. as I am sitting on the Chair.. I am looking at Your Picture.. it is YOU when YOU were with me at the Flower Shop.. holding a flower in Your Hand.. with such a Beautiful Smile.. I remember that it was the day I wanted to show YOU the New Flowers that has been reached the Full Bloom stage.. it was back in the Garden.. the Same camera you were using to take many pictures of the flowers.. I would ask YOU.. take one of the Flowers from the Bed in the back of this Garden.. I watched you lower yourself.. grabbed and pulled the Flower Out.. and telling me that it is this One.. that it is the Most Beautiful One.. Your Favorite and I do remember leading YOU back into the Flower Work Shop.. YOU were standing by the wall.. and Holding the flower in your Hand.. I would have the Camera in my hands.. My eye would look through the lens of the Camera.. I would see YOU.. my finger stopped at the Button.. because what if this be the last picture I could take from this Camera.. this Fear came all over me.. shaking and trembling from the Inside.. I stopped my finger to press.. YOU were wondering why I could not click the Button.. My Heart would skip.. trying to find if there is a Beat.. I would take a deep breathe and my finger presses the Button and the light switches and it takes the Picture of YOU.. when I put the Camera Down.. I am looking at the Wall.. in the Flower Work Shop.. I only see the wall.. I don't see YOU there.. and with me is the Same Picture.. it was the last time I took the picture of YOU because the Next day.. YOU told me that YOU are not going to work with me at the Flower Shop.. that YOU have find someone that YOU love.. and that YOU are going with Him.. and I felt my world turn upside down.. I felt that everything be crumbling.. I saw YOU leave as the Door closes behind me.. I would sit on the Floor.. I would cry Loud and wail More.. I just couldn't control these emotions when it is torn apart.. I would Beat with my hand on my Chest.. I would Hit it so Hard.. I just couldn't stop hitting my Chest.. wanting to Pull my Heart out.. It hurts me because all I see is YOU.. YOU leaving me behind and I am left alone at the Flower Work Shop.. everything began to fall apart.. I started to drink a lot.. heavy into drinking.. crash and burn.. falling apart and falling down.. I just don't wanted to get UP any more.. I just couldn't handle this Kind of Pain.. it was killing me from the Inside.. How can I erase this Pain that is eating me from the Inside.. How can I get rid of this Kind of Hellish Pain.. I just wanted to Die.. for years I felt this way.. I felt like I wanted to give UP.. but.. for some reason.. if I truly love YOU.. I know that I needs to get back UP and try to live.. try to live the best I can.. so that One day I am able to see YOU again and the Day I see YOU.. I will never
Shop.. as I walked inside the Work Shop.. I would stand there alone.. LOOKING at the Wall where YOU would stand.. I would look at the empty Wall.. looking at the picture of YOU holding.. the same spot.. you were standing with a smile holding the flower.. the Last time I saw YOU is when I took this Picture.. it hurts Me more.. I would.. the Flower Work Shop was dark and I would be standing alone.. crying looking at the Picture of YOU.. which it was the last time YOU stood by this Wall.. and I just can't let YOU go.. WHY is it me who has to let it Go.. why is it YOU who has to hurt Me.. why can't I ever hurt you and I would look at the Wall.. where YOU would stand the last time and I would scream because my Heart.. It wanted to shatter into pieces.. WHY did YOU have to leave me for someone else.. WHY can't YOU ever know how much I love YOU.. why don't you see me.. WHY can't you see me as the Person who loves you the Most.. and I would again cry.. looking at the wall.. after looking at the Picture of YOU where YOU once stood by this wall.. I would fall to the ground.. and I just can't.. why can't I just let YOU GO.. it is killing me so Bad.. why can't I let YOU GO.. what is it about YOU holding unto me.. like a stronghold.. and I would cry loud.. wailing.. hitting my hand against my chest.. It hurts me just too much because I want to be loved by YOU.. why can't YOU see me for once.. HOW ABOUT ME.. you know that I can love YOU better.. YOU know that I can love YOU more.. I can even love you stronger.. just please give me a chance.. just one chance.. as I am waiting in the Room in the clinic Office.. I know that I may not live for Long.. because My Heart is broken.. It has been shattered into many little pieces.. YOU have broken my Heart.. If I can't fix my Heart.. what am I going to do with this Shattered of pieces broken Heart that is in me.. If I can't fix it.. Maybe the Doctor can help me to fix IT.. what if the Doctor can't fix my Heart.. I am going to ask the Doctor to go me a Surgery.. because what am I going to do with this Broken Shattered Heart.. I can at least donate it to someone else.. give me a New Heart.. someone else can take my Place.. can Have this Heart.. that someone else can Love YOU instead because I know that I can't.. I don't even know where YOU at so how can I love YOU when YOU are NO where to be found.. and I am lost somewhere.. and I would be sitting on this Chair.. LOOKING at the Picture of YOU.. I sit in silence just thinking of the Flower Work Shop.. I want to go back with YOU.. can YOU please go back with me to this Flower work Shop.. I want to live again.. I want to feel that I am alive again.. I want to breathe again because without YOU.. just look at me at this Point in my Life without YOU.. and as I am looking at the picture.. waiting for the doctor to come into this room.. I am looking at your Picture and speaking to the Picture.. the door Opens but it stops.. I am thinking.. maybe it is another patient who just came into the wrong room and I would open my Mouth.. as I am looking at the picture of YOU.. can we please go back to the Flower Work Shop.. do YOU know that I am still there.. I just could Not move on because I would think about.. what If.. Just in case YOU show UP one day.. what If you come.. what if YOU change your Mind.. what if I come across Your Mind one night.. One Day.. what If you miss Me.. how about if YOU love me.. Not sure why I would think of it that Way but what if you show UP.. I had many chances to leave that Flower work shop.. My friends came.. trying to convince me.. telling me to leave it behind me.. let it be my History.. and I would try to leave that Flower Work Shop.. but always in the back of my Head.. I would be thinking of YOU.. if I do leave.. what if YOU show UP when I do really leave.. then I know that I can't never see YOU again.. I don't want that to ever happen because I miss YOU and I love YOU.. that is why I just can't let it go now.. because I love YOU just too much.. I have been there.. just waiting for the Door to be opened.. for YOU to knock on the door and when I open the door to that Flower Work shop and WHEN I open to see who it is.. I wanted to smile to see YOU there.. standing there.. just giving me even few seconds of your presences.. just to say I love YOU.. just to say I missed YOU.. or to say welcome back.. because I just can't let YOU GO.. Because I never stopped loving YOU.. even now I love you still.. I been waiting so that I can tell YOU how much I love YOU.. as I look up.. I hear the door closed.. and I am thinking.. this whole time the door was opened.. I wonder who it is who hear me speaking to Your Picture.. I wonder who it is.. and the door Opens.. my hand opens and the picture falls to the ground because it is YOU who is standing by the door.. That YOU are the Doctor.. My Doctor there.. I am waiting at the Doctor's office.. I am getting sick.. something has happened to my Heart.. I am wondering if My Heart is broken.. as I am sitting down.. waiting for the Doctor.. I am holding your Picture in my Hand.. I have been looking at this Picture for a Long time.. since I have lost you.. and it is the Picture of YOU.. you are standing by the Wall.. with a beautiful Smile.. I gave YOU a flowers and YOU are holding in your hand.. showing me in the picture of you.. I was so happy when I gave you those flowers in the work shop.. I surprised you that night.. it was before I wanted to ask YOU out.. I wanted to ask if we can be lovers.. and before the questions came about.. and I gave YOU the flowers.. I would watch you holding in your hand.. and I saw you smelling the flowers.. it touched my Heart.. Your nose so close and I saw both of your eyes closing when YOU brought the Flowers closer to your nose.. and right after.. you opened your eyes.. I be holding the camera.. zooming in to get a closer Picture.. I asked if YOU could just smile for me.. YOU are the Most Beautiful when I see you smile.. so I asked.. looking through the lens of the Camera.. I saw you holding the flowers closer and my finger presses and it clicked to take that Picture.. I would put the camera down and I came closer to YOU and I wanted to say but.. YOU told me Not to say it.. Because YOU knew what I was going to say and told me that YOU already have some one who you love.. and that I knew the person well.. I would just stand there.. No words to tell YOU because.. I have been holding this for a long time.. I wanted to tell YOU for a long time.. but I guess holding too long.. and I just could not hold it back.. I want to know.. DO you love Him.. do you think that man can love you more than Me.. if He can love you more than me.. I can back off and just pretend I never told you this.. I want to know what if I can love you More.. I know that I can love you where YOUR Heart can be truly touched.. I know that I can love you because I am already loving YOU.. but pushing me away is not going to solve anything.. but if you know that He can love you more and can make you more happier.. than I have nothing more to say.. But How about my Heart.. how about the Love I have for YOU.. will you please consider this before you can.. and it is the Picture before I wanted to ask.. but I do remember you be telling me that YOU love some one else.. I wanted to walk out of that work shop.. I wanted to leave at that moment because My Heart couldn't handle this kind of pain.. and to heal it takes a long time for me to get over it.. but.. I felt like I should stay.. that may be you would change your mind.. so I just stood and waited.. but I saw YOU looking at me.. giving me back the flowers and I saw YOU walking out of that work shop.. I heard the door behind me shutting down.. holding the flowers in my hands.. why am I holding these flowers for.. I am the one who gave you these flowers.. these are not for me and when I turned my head to look back.. I stood there.. the door was closed and YOU left.. I wanted to cry.. but I wanted to hold my own emotions in and I kept it inside for a while before I wanted to lead it out.. I stood there in the silence.. holding the flowers in my hands.. just did not know what to do any more.. as I am sitting on the chair.. just waiting for the doctor to call my name.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. holding the flowers and just smiling.. Now I am thinking.. and wondering.. what if I did Not say anything.. did Not mention and just stood there and smiled back.. I know that YOU would not left the work shop that night.. you could of still be there with me.. but would I ever be happy just watching you on the side line.. just loving YOU alone.. while YOU have someone who loves YOU and you be loving him back.. What am I suppose to do if I am just another shadow of passing through.. It would be breaking my heart into pieces.. I remember I open my hands and the Flowers all fell to the floor.. hitting the ground.. I dropped to my knees.. beating against my chest and started to cry loud.. wailing louder because of the pains of hitting me so Hard that night.. I did not even leave that work shop.. I would be crying for hours.. just feeling the pain deep within me.. sitting by the wall.. I would be leaning.. and I would sit until the Sun would rise Up.. I just could not work any more.. and wanted to take some time off.. but I could not get up.. sitting there.. looking at the flowers all over the floor of the ground.. I can't believe that this Hurts.. it hurts me much more.. why did I even mentioned if it going to end UP like this.. hurting me like this.. this ache.. this pain of just loving you.. why can't you love me back.. I would yell.. out loud.. why can't you love me back.. what must I do for YOU to notice HOW much I love YOU.. and I would sit still.. could not get up.. just did not want to move.. I did not want to eat anything.. even though I was hungry.. but I sat there.. leaning against the wall.. just thinking
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전 헤이미룩3 요 💛
헤어샵에서 일하는데 매일 화장도 그렇고 급하게 화장하고 머리도해야해서 전쟁일때가 많은데 거기다가 옷도 모입을지 정신이없는데 전문성있어보이면서도 깔끔하고 고급져서 너무 좋은것같아요 바빠도 그냥 후딱 티 입고 자켓도 너무 격식차려지는 느낌보다 휘뚜루마뚜루 너무 좋은것같아요 ,,, 요새 자켓을 사야하나 고민하고 있었는데 오늘도 덕분에 좋은 정보 알아가요 울 연수언니 하팅 💛🌽💛
수수 is 뭔들 ❤
🫵🏻💓🫵🏻
Look1 🖤🖤대학생이고 4학년인 …
저는 편하지만 옷 잘입고 다니고 싶어요ㅠㅠㅠ
꾸안꾸🫶🏻🖤 언니들처럼 입고싶다🫶🏻🖤
꾸안꾸 저도 좋아해요🩵🤍
네번째혜이미룩🩵 청바지랑 수수핏이 다했다….☀️
멋지십니다😻😻
Look 3
두분다 각자 매력으로 너무 잘 어울려요 ♥
참고로 저희 엄마가 40대인데 출근룩으로 자켓 입구 칭찬 받으셨다구 하셨어요 ㅎㅎ
블레이저 맛집 더오유 ❤❤❤
꺄아..🩵행복하네요 너무너무 감사합니다 앞으로 더 열심히할게요! 여름 시즌도 기대해주세요오☀️
👔 Look3, 혜이미!
평소 직장인룩(자켓이나 슬랙스)을 즐겨입는 사람으로서! 전체적인 톤이랑 옷핏+편한듯 하면서 멋있는 느낌 뿜뿜✨하게 코디를 잘하신 거 같아요! 특히나 연수웅니에게 잘 어울리게 코디를 하신..🩶🤍 코디 그대로 사서 세트로 입고 싶을 정도로 넘 예쁜 코디에요 🥺
그쵸그쵸!!!! 너무 예쁘죠🩶🩶
정성스러운 댓글 너무 고마워요>_
너무 이쁘고 코디대로 입고 싶은데 더오유가 가격대는 있어서 쉽게 접근하기는 어렵네요 … 아쉽다….
Look1🩵🩶 개강룩에 수수연수님이 착용하신 룩이여!! 진짜 꾸안꾸인데~~~? 시크를 좀 넣은!! 걍 진짜 보자마자 따라입어야게따라는생각을 해주게끔 만든 코디!!
Look3 연수언니 코디 pick🫶🏻
직장인으로써 입기 너무 적합 그자췌✨
담주에 참고해서 입을고양
오 아주굿!!!!🩵
저는 연수님이 입으신 Look1️⃣이 젤 이뽀요!!ㅎㅎ윗옷은 딱붙고 바지는 크게 입는 게 저는 제일 이쁘고 일단 편해보여서 좋아용❤❤
아주아주 보는 눈이 탁월하신걸요😳🩷ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 고마워요>_
💥헤이미 + 룩3 회사원룩 짜란~!💥
회사원룩은 회사원룩인 MZ 패션회사 직장인인 컨셉이어서 더 재밋어용 키키키💃🏻근데 팀장님이랑 이사님들도 MZ에 속할 수 있는건가용…? 제가 만난 팀장님들은 음 라떼…꼰대…..흡…🤭
아무튼! 해븐뷔스티에를 입은 것이 넘 팬시하궁 이쁩니다! 뷔스티에 직장에서 입엇다구 누가 뭐라 할 것도 아닌데다가 + 회사 밖에 나가도 그대로 불금룩 가능해서….💪🏻아 그리고 제일 맘에 드는 건 슬랙스에여!!!!! 제가 요즘 운동을 해서 그런가 몸매가 드러나는 슬랙스도 부담이 많이 없어졋는뎅 부츠컷 슬랙스여서 더 좋은것!🙆🏼♂️🙆🏼♂️🙆🏼♂️히히 그리고 입은 재킷이 단추도 재킷 소재랑 같은 것 같아서 더 멋져보여요🫡🫡🫡
Look3 투웨이슬림티 회색은 판매하고있지 않은걸로 알고있는데 맞나요?😢
Look3 수수언니가 입은 룩🤍회사원느낌 찰떡이에요!!힙하고 트렌디하면서 꾸안꾸 느낌도 들어요!!너무 예뻐요🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻
Look2!!🤍 수수연수언니께서 코디해주신 혜미언니 착장 pick하겠습니당😚🫶🏻
헤이미언니의 여리여리한 체형을 룩으로 표현을 잘해주신거같아요~! 여리여리해보이는 가디건에 러블리함과 섹시함의 꽃무늬 레이스 나시와 색감 이쁜 하늘색 트레이닝복을 매치하니까 편안해보이면서도 꾸안꾸 정석!! 그리고 러블리함+++
너무 사랑스러운룩이라고 생각해서 수수언니께서 말씀하신거처럼 남자분들이 좋아하실꺼같은 느낌이고 남자친구가 사랑스럽게 봐줄꺼같은 룩인거같아서 선택했습니다~!! 진짜 패션의 완성은 얼굴...!!
언니들 얼굴이 다했지만 언제봐도 이쁜 옷맛집 더오유와 헤이미🩵🤍 언젠가는 한번쯤 해주셨으면 하는 조합이였는데.. 기대이상으로 잘봤습니당~~최강조합💗💗
2人の笑ってる姿が可愛すぎる
수수‘s look2
다 코디가 예뻐서 하나만 고르기 어렵다,,, 그리고 이런 영상 너무나도 좋아요🩶
긱시크룩 혜미님 Look4 넘 예뻐요 ! 화이트러버인 저는 이런 깔끔하면서 트렌디한 옷을 애정하는데 보자마자 반했어요 🤍 퀄리티 좋은 니트에 더오유 스커트 조합이라니 ! 넘 잘 어울리고 멋스러워요 ,, 💟💟 벨트+미들워커+안경 조합이 힙하면서 러블리함을 한층 높여주는 것 같아요 🖤 그대로 따라입고 싶어지는 룩이에요 영상 잘 봤습니다 ~ 💖
나는 대학생이기 때문에 수수언니의 첫룩을 좋아해요! 트렌디하고 편안해 보여요!
수수언니가 코디한 혜미언니 4번 긱시크룩이요!! 벨트 가방 신발이 긱시크 포인트를 딱 주면서 코디 색감이 통일된게 이뻐보였어요🤍 코디가 하나같이 봄 여름에 찰떡 콩떡이라 보는 맛이 있었당.. 대학생이라 개강룩이랑 데이트룩에 눈이 더 갔던 것 같아요!! 유용하고 이쁜 영상 감사해요:)🫧
Look 1 혜미픽 개강룩에 찰떡.. 전투적인 삶에 모자만 써주면 찐 데일리룩 인정입니댜요
꾸안꾸를 즐겨입고 사랑하는 사람으로서 룩1 수수연수님 코디 갠적으로 너무 맘에 들어요 ,,🫶
오오오오~ 꾸안꾸를 좋아하시는군요❤❤
🤍룩 3번, 연수언니look 원픽🤍
요즘 유행하는 긱시크룩이랑 제일 잘어울리는 코디같아요! 저도 저렇게 입어야될거같네용 회사원으로서 제일 만족스럽고 옷잘입었다눈 소리 무조건 무조건 ㅠ들을거같아요:) 저는 살짝 변경해서 더오유 찢청 입을래요..😳
오~정말요? 와 기분좋다 진짜 직장인분들을 생각하면서 코디한건데 마음에 드신다니,, 완전 행복큐🩵
더오유 찢청 말해모해 출근룩 뿐 아니라 어디든 휘뚜루마뚜루 입니다🫵🏻😳🫵🏻
수수 Look 2
캐주얼하면서 꾸안꾸라서 수업 듣고 데이트 갈 때 입기 좋을 거 같아영!!! 남자친구랑 카페에서 데이트하고 공원 산책갈 때 입고 싶은 룩이에요!!
수수연수님이 코디 해주신 헤이미긱시크룩 제일예쁘유~
🩵혜미 언니가 입은 Look3🩵
취업하구 이쁜 옷은 입고싶고 노출은 없어야되고 고민이었는데 너무 이뻐요 ㅎㅎ 더오유는 롤업데님으로 영업당해서 못빠져 나오는듕..
꺄아아아아아 오버롤데님이요?!!!💙
진짜 귀엽지 않나여 헤헤헤
취업축하드려요..🌼좋은일만 가득하시길 바래요!💛
@@seoyeonsu 마쟈요오오 ㅎㅎㅎ
룩3 헤이미 언니룩
저는 키가 크지는 않고 상체가 좀 마른
어좁이라서 그런지 각잡힌 어깨 자켓에 반했어요!
트위드자켓 어깨 각잡힌거 찾기 힘든데 여기있었군요!!🫢🫢
이번 영상에서 옷 코디를 어떻게해야 예쁠지 까지 알려주시니까 저번 봄코디도 그렇고 이것저것 영업 당해서 돈 쓸 일만 가득해져요~오늘도 은혜로운 영상 감사합니다❤
결혼식이 많아지는 봄!! 옷 고민이 많은데요😢😢
룩3 그레이 자켓은 갖춰입은 느낌을줘서 결혼식 하객룩으로 정말 좋은거같아요!!자켓을 활용했지만 너무 무겁지 않게 결혼식 하객룩 코디를 완성해보고싶었는데 헤이미님 따라서 저렇게 코디하면 클래식&트렌디함이 뚝뚝 떨어질듯!!
기장감도 엉덩이덮는 길이로 부담스럽지않고!!
블랙 슬랙스는 하나만 있어도 매일 다른
느낌을 줄 수있을 것 같아서 활용도 굿굿👍좋아보여요
전 가지고 있는 슬랙스가 밝은그레이 밖에 없었는데 헤이미님 코디를 보면서 블랙 슬랙스랑 같이 코디하니 정말 한끗차이로 코디가 더 세련되보이네요!❤
Look3 susu룩이 지쨔 너무 예쁘구 찰떡!! 회사원느낌처럼 단정하고 고급스러우면서도 힙하고 스타일리쉬해서 보자마자 반햇어여ㅠㅠ 색감도 그레이와 블랙으로 포인트 뷔스티에와 핏이 미쳐버린 더오유 슬랙스🖤🩶 그냥 완벽✨ 저두 따라 입을래여어엉🫶🏻
꺄아아아 완전 따라입어주세요!!!!! 넘흐 좋아요 그런거🩶🖤
룩3 , 헤이미! 솔직히 둘다
이뿌지만 헤이미코디에 수수연수가 너무 잘어울렸음!!!!❤
오!!!!!!!! 역시 헤이미언니🌼
3번이 인기가 좋군요 ㅎㅎ
수수연수님 / LOOK 3
깔끔 단정하고 색상이 밝아서 딱 봄같고 예쁜 것 같아요 안경ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 쓰니까 진짜 일 잘하는 회사원같아욬ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
팬츠 디자인도 심심하지 않고 벨트까지 해주니까 더 예쁜 느낌! 거기에 자켓을 아이보리로 매치하니까 진짜 제스탈이에요ㅜ 😍
Look4 수수’s 코디 너무 예뻐요🤍
사실 어떤 코디든 정말 다~ 예뻤지만!!! 탑이 정말 여리여리한 핏에 스커트가 포인트 되고 시크해 보여서 몸매도 정말 좋아보여요!! 헤이미x수수언니 찰떡 코디💘
꾸안꾸개강룩의 혜미님룩🩵 일단 제가 더오유의 오버롤을 너무너무 좋아해요 ㅜㅜㅜㅜ 뒤에 바지택이랑 색감 너무 이쁜거 같아요! 거기에 노출이 부담스럽지 않게 가디건 슬쩍 걸쳐주면 이게 꾸안꾸 정석!!
언니 저 진짜 당장 담주에 출근이라 ,, 너무 막막했는데 언니랑 헤이머 언니 룩 둘다 참고해서 입어야겠어요 ㅎㅎ
아니!! 수수언니 오늘 코디영상 진짜 최고에요🩶 혬수조합 진짜 오랜만인데다가.. 코디들이 진짜 서로한테 잘 맞아요 너무 예뻐 온니들.. 처음 룩부터 마지막룩까지 다 짱 😭
꺄아아아~
헤이미와 수수연수가 만나면 이렇게 합이 잘맞아요..🩵
저희 좋아해주셔서 너무너무 고마워요!!
오늘 금요일인데, 항상 행복하세요🥰
혜미언니/LOOK2
완전 취향저격 .. 상황에 맞게 코디 너무 잘하는 연수언니🤍 저두 요즘 나시+가디건 조합 좋아하는데 너무너무 이쁘고 잘어울려요!
Look1 수수언니룩!!!!
4년째 대학생으로서 캠퍼스룩은 편한게 짱이죠...👍 편하지만 카키색으로 포인트주고 안경까지 더해서 멋찐룩으로 완성시킨게 너무 제스타일이에요..🤤
수수 언니의 룩 2 pick 🐰 제가 여고 여대를 졸업해가지고 캠퍼스룩, cc 요런것들에 아주 왠지 모를 환상을 아직 까지 가지고 있는데,, 딱 요 코디가 풋풋한 대학생룩+데이트 느낌이라 몽글몽글하고 예쁘네요. 페미닌한 상의에 밑에는 트레이닝복을 같이 코디해줘서 편안함과 힙함을 두방울 더 얹어주었달까,,, ✌️
옷들 전부다 이쁜데요…어떻게 고르나요♥️언니들이 언니들 했다!!!❤❤❤
Look3 혜미, 전체적인톤과 편해보이는 코디가 마음에 들어요
오오 완전 좋아요 감사해요❤
Look1에 혜미님,, 더오유 오버롤 그냥 폭룡적이게 예뻐요ㅜㅜ 저 옷 자체만으로 분위기를 만들어주고 옷잘알로 만들어주는 🥹💕 더오유 사랑할 수 밖에 🫨🫨🫨
Look1 대학생이어서 그런지 꾸안꾸 느낌이 끌려용..❤️
수수‘s Look 3이 젤 예뽀요♥️♥️
깔끔하니 예쁜데 또 포인트 있고
수수언니가 좋아하는 꾸안꾸 느낌이
젤 잘 살린듯한 코디에요
자켓이랑도 너무 예쁘고
특히 슬랙스 핏이 넘 녜뻐요😂
저도 따라 입고 싶네요!!❤❤❤
마지막코디 수수연수언니픽으로
깔끔하면서도 단정하고 발랄한느낌
3번코디 수수님 패션 가방 정보 알려주세요ㅠㅠ
긱시크룩 4!!!!! 둘다 너무 잘 어울리고 각자의 신체와 어울리는걸 입어서 더 ㅇㅖ뻐보여요❤
Look2 혜미언니룩2번이요 🩵
소라색 트레이닝팬츠랑 레이스 나시 넘 찰떡아닌가유 ..? 거기에 어두운컬러 가디건 걸쳐주니 튀지도 않으면서 꾸꾸🩶🩵 컬러조합 너무 이뻐요! 제가 너무 좋아하는 스타일이라서 골랐어요 ㅎㅎ소라색팬츠는 코디가 항상 고민이었는데 이렇게 입어보고싶네요! 꿀팁 감사해요 혜미언니한테 넘찰떡쿵ㅎㅎ
연수님 영상 연휴에 몰아보려구 뒤늦게 보는데 1번룩 넘 잘어울려용 ❤ 중단발 존예얌,,,
룩4 헤이미 긱시크룩이요
긱시크라는 단어가 여기저기서 들려오길래 이건 어떤 트렌드일까 궁금했는데🤔🤔
룩4의 헤이미님 착장보고 단번에 이해했어요!!
안경은 항상 시력때문에 렌즈 없을때 꼈는데 올해는 패션 안경도 하나 구매해서 코디해보려구요ㅋㅋㅋ
룩4 니트와 스커트를 센스있게 코디해서 가장 기억에 남아요! 올 봄에 꼭 도전해야지 하고 캡쳐해두었습니다🤭🤭유니크하면서도 많이 튀지 않아 일상에서도 활용할 수 있겠어요!
어떻게 니트아이템들을 이렇게나 사랑스럽고 ,러블리하고,소녀스럽게 입을수 있을까요????!!오늘 영상에서 여러가지 코디를 보여주셔서 룩에 대한 이해가 쉬워지는 것같았고, 헤이미,연수님 덕분에 봄 트렌드 빠싹하게 정복하고 가요!!
저는 연슈 언니가 혜미언니 코디해준 듀번째룩!!❤ 뭔가 여리여리 꾸안꾸룩 도전해보고싶었는데 어려워서 도전 못해보고있었는데!!!! 딱 부담스럽지도 않고 데일리하게 센스있게 여름에도 딱일고같아요🫶🏻🫶🏻
대학생인데 학교 입고가도 넘 좋을것같아요🩷🪽
헤이미 언니 얼굴은 고급진데 룩은 힙해서 더 반전매력 느낌❤️ 수수언니 이쁜옷 만들어 줘서 너무너무 고마워요❤
3번룩이
너무너무이뻐요❤출근할때도 힙하고 세련된 느낌
두분항상 행복하세요❤
Look2 연수언니룩 최고!!🖤🖤
진짜 제가 더오유에서 제일 탐냈던 니트 반바지 입어주시니까 완전 무드있게 완성된룩이 포인트였던 것 같아요!!🫶
이런 느낌을 안사랑할 수 없는데 혜이미 언니랑 콜라보로 코디영상을 보니까 괜히 다이어트 마렵고,,,옷 넘 예뻐!🥰
Look3 수수님의 슬랙스 코디가 넘 찰떡콩떡이네요 🥹❤️❤️ 당장 저 코디 그대로 손민수할래요
Look1 혜미님 / 꾸안꾸룩이지만 너어어어어어무 예뻐요오🩵 혜미님 오버롤 입은거 보고 방금 결제 했습니다...ㅎㅎㅎ 더오유 항상 애용하는데 예쁜옷 많이 만들어주세요!! 헤이미 가디건도 업데이트 되면 사러가야겠어요 총총,, 코디 쵝오에요ㅠㅠ!!!🩷
look2 헤이미님이 입은 옷 넘 예뽀요!! 꽃나시 요즘 유행이지만 내가 입을 수 없는 옷으로 분류했었는데 더오유트레이닝바지이랑 매치하니 넘흐 이쁜데욥??!🫢
수수연수님 룩북이 너무 예뻐요
🌼고마워요🌼
인스타에서 보구 기다럈다구욧!!❤ 진짜 언니 옷스타일 너무 좋아하는데 브랜드내서 너무좋고 🩵🩵사람들에게 많이 사랑받는 브랜드가된것같아서 다행이예요!! 사실 언니 브랜드라면 질좋은 거는 당근빠따로 기본적으로 깔리는 믿음…❤❤그리고 특유의 언니만의 스타일이 다 느껴져서 좋아요.. 오버롤 사고싶어서 돈모으는듕 ㅎㅎ
저는 그래서Look 1번코디 수수연수언니가 코디한 헤이미언니룩으로 할게요!! 딸영상틀자마자 너무 이뻐서 박혀버렸으요 …🙈🙈두분 룩북보고 옷많이 구매하는데 ㅎㅎ 한동안 안와서 서운했다구요 ㅜㅜ 앞으로 룩북자주자주 보여줘용!! 저는 언니 출근 하기전에 그날의 룩이나 메이크업 등등을 같이 골라(?)보는 느낌이 나는 브이로그 보고싶어요!! (예를 들면 언니는 그날의 악세서리나 옷을 날씨에따라고르는지 기분에 따라 고르는지..헷😛) 언니 주말 잘 보내용❤❤
수수연수님 봄 데일리 룩북이 너무 잘 어울리시네요.
고마워요 오랜만입니다🌼
Look3 수수언니 룩 너무 내 스타일!! 💗 사실 헤이미 언니 코디도 너무 예뿜..!! 고를 수가 없댜~) 흰색으로 위 아래 코디하기가 쉽지 않은데 언니는 진짜 ~ 분위기 찰떡이쟈너 그리구 안경 왤케 잘어울려용..? 긱이 아니라 이뿜 그 자체자나 ~ 각자 코디에서 언니들 스타일이 딱 뭍어난달까?? 그래서 코디 보는 재미가 있어용 ㅜ 담에도 이런 영상 많이 많이 올려주세용 !!! 🥰
연수님 봄 코디 룩북이 제일 잘 어울려요!!~
Look 3 수수연수 원픽 ♥️ 직장인이라서 그런지 제일 눈이 간 코디였어요 ✨옷도 너무 편해보이고 질도 좋아보여서 더 예뻐 보였답니다! 평소 옷입는거에 스트레스를 많이 받았는데 요렇게 입으면 너무 센스있게 옷 잘입는다는 이야기 들을 것 같아요 🫣
슬랙스 저주세요
아 너무 좋아하는 룩북영상에 연수님에 혜미님 한스푼이라니..이건 완벽하다!!!!!간만에 또 너무 편안한 느낌에서 나오는 룩북 매치여서 요즘 같은 계절에 딱인 매치라서 너무 이쁘다구요✨ 혜미님 코디도 포인트되고 이쁘지만..!!연수님 코디가 쬐끔더 이쁘고 스타일 잘잡아주는건 우리끼리만 아는 비밀🫸 서로를 잘알아서 찰떡으로 매치해주는게 뽀인트!!근데 이거는 모델들이 그냥 다 해버렷다~~~~🩵
Look2 ❤혜미언니가 코디 해주신 수수 언니가 입으신 점퍼에 더오유 그레이 니트 셋업 너무 이뻐요 ㅠㅠㅠ 완전 꾸안꾸 룩 느낌에다가 아우터 색 다르게 코디 해서 입어도 딱 포인트가 될것 같아요 네 코디 다 넘 이뻐서 고르기 힘들었어요 ,, 역시 둘 룩북 너무너무 볼때마다 항상 이쁜 옷 ••
혜미님이 입으신 look3 직장인룩, look4 긱시크룩 너무너무 예쁘고 제 스타일이에요오 ..🫶🏻🤍🤍🤍 look3는 이너로 뷔스티에 포인트랑 적당히 오버하면서 포멀한 자켓에 핏되는 슬랙스까지 짬에서 나오는 멋쁨과 여유가 넘치는 이사님 바이브가 정말 느껴져요 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ 투명 글래스도 잘어울려서 패션회사 다니는 스타일리쉬한 직장인 느낌이에욤!! Look4 긱시크룩도 정말 취향저격 ㅠㅠ 화사해서 데이트룩으로도 제격일 것 같구 여리여리한 니트에 더오유 스커트와 안경+벨트+부츠덕분에 힙하고 시크한 긱시크 느낌 낭낭해요🥺 사실 모든 착장이 끝장나고 모델인 수수님과 혜미님이 사기라는거 ^^.....예쁜 애 옆에 예쁜 애🖤🖤
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지민아 오랜만이야 잘지내지? 오늘도 고마워🌼
@@seoyeonsu 완죤 잘 지내여!!! 인스타로 일상 올려주셔서 저두 항상 감사해여☺️☺️ 주말 잘 보내세욤
Oink Oink.. I am waiting for the Moon to appear.. in my hands is a Letter I have written for YOU.. but I am waiting for an Angel.. Do you know that I believe in Angels and I would ask if the Angels could Come as I am asking for One to appear before my Eyes.. as I was sitting by the desk.. and I would write.. pulling the Piece of paper before me.. I would be looking at your Picture.. Only if YOU know my Heart.. trying to let YOU know How much I love YOU.. I been practicing writing on this Pieces of Papers.. I would even grab One Piece of paper.. walking to the Mirror in the rest Room.. I am Not a Person who can speak well in speech.. I may not be able to speak right with the Words when it comes face to face.. But I know that I needs to practice my Speech telling YOU and Letting YOU know How much I love YOU.. as I am in the rest Room.. I am Looking at myself the Mirror is in front of me.. I know that I can let YOU see the Letter.. but.. I am alone in this House.. so I would show UP.. looking at myself and trying to Picture YOU standing on the other side.. will I have the Boldness.. WILL I have the courage to Tell YOU what My Heart feels.. WILL you let me speak to YOU about How much I love YOU.. as I am looking at myself.. Looking at the Mirror.. Holding the Piece of paper.. and I would try to talk.. try to speak.. but my Words would Not come Out because I am Looking at Me instead.. but I know that I needs to practice.. practice more to speak to YOU.. to tell YOU.. to have the Guts and Courage.. but I am wondering will YOU even give me Your Ears to listen.. will YOU give me the attention that I need from YOU so that I am able to talk to YOU.. to get something Off my Chest.. letting YOU know what I am thinking.. to Let YOU know that I love YOU.. I would open my Mouth.. and I would start to read from the Letter.. and I would say to YOU.. even though YOU are not here.. But I am envisioning that YOU are here and able to listen to the Words I am telling YOU.. speaking to YOU.. I would say.. I can't get my Mind Off of YOU.. the More I try not to think of YOU.. it seems like it is getting More Harder.. I would take a Look.. and looking into the Picture.. that is the Only One thing I can do.. is to LOOK at you when I have your Picture in my hands.. it has been so hard lately.. because I been alone.. I been writing YOU Letters.. but How can this Letter ever reach YOU.. do YOU even know How much I love YOU.. will you let me tell YOU that I still do Love YOU.. WILL you open your Heart.. open your ears to let me talk.. to let me speak.. will I be nervous to tell YOU if I stand before YOU.. having the Courage to tell YOU.. then I would ask.. will you give me the time and the attention that I needs so that I can tell YOU from My Heart.. Lately.. I been walking to this Mirror.. and I know that One Day soon.. if I do Not practice Now speaking and sharing.. and talking while Looking at the Mirror.. I know that I will never get the chance to tell YOU or say to YOU because I know that WHEN I see YOU.. I want to be well prepared.. I want to be ready to Tell YOU that I have a Love story that Only YOU can hear.. that I can share to YOU.. would you give me Your Time and energy.. your attention is all I am asking for.. all I need so that I can tell YOU.. I been looking.. trying to speak.. because I am not well in speech.. but I do know how to write Many Letters now.. and the Best way.. fastest way for me to reach YOU is by giving YOU this Letter.. I can look at myself and holding UP the Piece of Paper in my hands.. and reading the Letters.. How long can I be doing this.. and I would ask.. How far can it go if only thing I do is read the Letters looking at myself at the Mirror in front of Me.. I would keep on trying.. after sitting down by the desk.. I would pull up the chair.. with the Pencil and write YOU a Letter.. letting YOU know there is so much going On my Mind.. burning inside of My Heart.. that I still Love YOU.. I would pick up the Picture.. taking a Look at YOU.. and always.. it brings me great Love and Joy and Inspires me to write and to tell YOU a Story that I love YOU.. the Only thing that I can do.. the Only thing I can bring out from My Heart.. and I go to face the Mirror.. and I look at myself.. I wish that It be YOU on the other side.. I want to tell YOU.. I want to read the Letter to YOU.. but I am only looking at myself and it breaks my Heart that I am only reading to myself.. But I want this Letter to reach YOU.. so that YOU know my Heart.. my longing has been growing.. missing YOU brings Hate in my Heart cause of the pain that comes with it.. I wish that YOU know that Loving YOU sometimes Hurts me the Most because I miss YOU.. I can't stop thinking of YOU.. going back and forth.. to Sitting by the desk.. writing a Letter.. getting UP from and walking to the rest room.. Holding UP the Letter.. looking at myself looking at the Mirror and reading the Letter Out Loud.. I would look at my self.. and it hurts Me because I miss YOU.. I been missing YOU for such a Long time.. going back to sit.. Looking at your Picture.. my Heart starts to burn inside.. I want this Burn to come across Your Heart.. I wish that YOU can deal with the same Burning and this Pain that is aching inside my Soul.. I feel like it is NO fair sometimes because.. WHY is it that I am the One who has to deal with this Pain of ache.. this Pain of missing YOU and It feels Like YOU do not feel anything on the Other side.. do YOU know that I am waiting for YOU still.. that I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I don't want to spend the time looking at the Mirror and Looking at myself and just reading the letters.. it is NOT for me but for YOU.. so I have decided to change a New Way.. I would wait.. waiting until the SUN goes Down and asking for the MOON to come UP.. I would walk Out side.. and stand alone as I see the Night has approached.. I am holding the Letter In front of Me.. and I have heard that there are Angels WHO is able to listen to an OUT CRY of the Heart when YOU LOVE.. I would stand.. Open the Piece of Paper.. the Letter is in front of Me.. and I started to LOOK UP at the Moon.. but I am Not asking the MOON anything.. but an Angel.. if the Angel can hear me on this very night.. can the Angel be the One to do me a Favor.. I have One wish.. and It is very simple Wish.. to Hear the Heart of Mine crying for YOU.. I know if the Angel can hear the sobbing of my Heart.. my Tears of pains that comes from inside.. if the Angel can hear me and can feel sorry for Me because I am asking for the Angel to Give this Letter to YOU.. I can sit on the ground and weep.. sob in tears for many hours if I have too.. but if an Angel.. who is passing by through My direction and catches me in tears.. I know that the Angel can stop and Looks DOWN from the Sky wondering what is wrong with me.. and I can say to that Angel.. I am man who loves to write Love Story.. but it is a story of YOU.. story of how much I love YOU.. and that I am asking that Angel.. if He can do me a favor.. to give this Letter I have written to YOU.. to send the Message that I been here.. all along waiting for YOU.. if the angel asks.. I would tell that Angel.. I have even tried.. I even went to the rest room.. after I sat on the chair by the desk.. and I would show the angel the Picture of YOU.. and tell the Angel.. who YOU are and I would say to that Angel.. I would write with the pencil on the Piece of paper.. and I would get UP and go to the rest room.. and I would stand looking at the Mirror of myself and I would read the letter that I wrote to YOU.. I been doing that for a while.. but It seems like it has no Hope.. because I am only reading it to myself.. I want YOU to hear me.. hear my voice.. hear my words that I do speak.. I do talk and say.. share what is in my Heart.. but what good is ALL that when YOU can't even hear me.. if YOU just don't know or understand.. and I started to LOOK at myself on that Mirror.. in Pain.. what good is it if I am the Only One who knows it for myself.. so I have decided to walk Out.. and WHEN I saw the Moon.. if I love to stare at the MOON in the Night.. I am sure an Angel can also Love the Moon just like Me and can spend the Night looking at the MOON.. if I can be loud and Clear and if the Angel who is staring at the same MOON I am.. I know for sure.. the Angel can hear me Out.. hear my misery of NOT able to get the Letters to YOU.. Hear this Heart of Mine crying in the Night as I am staring at the MOON.. if the Angel sees Me.. with a Broken Heart and the Longing.. waiting for YOU.. waiting for your answer.. I am sure the Angel can look.. as I would walk Out side.. Not just Once.. but each Night.. two days.. four days.. ten days I am out.. holding the Letter.. and I am looking UP at the MOON.. open my mouth so that YOU can hear me Out Loud.. I am sure after many times of walking with the Letters.. the Angel can see that I am very serious.. I am Not asking Much but it is so simple.. to let YOU know my Heart.. to Let YOU know that I love YOU.. to Let YOU see the Heart of Mine.. that I am falling for YOU.. I need YOU and I need you to know that I love YOU.. that I be missing YOU.. DO you even know that.. can YOU SEE that.. and I know that One night.. with your Picture in my Hand.. and I be looking.. on the Other Hand is the Letter.. after I look at you through the Picture.. My Heart breaks into tears.. and I am missing YOU.. I will say why do I keep on missing YOU.. why must you be so far that it is so Hard for me to reach YOU.. why leave me like this stranded.. why let me die here just to Love YOU.. why do I must crumble and be hurt.. why be so miserable but at the same TIME the Joy to Love.. with this ache that leaves me this Pain.. it Hurts a lot sometimes because YOU are so Far away.. but I want YOU so Near.. so Close that my arms can wrap around YOU.. and to let YOU see the letters
I open the back Door of the Work shop.. and the Garden is here.. I wish that YOU were here so that I can show you something.. something that I been wanting to show YOU.. started to rebuild this Garden just to tell YOU.. just to show YOU my Heart.. Do you remember how much YOU loved Flowers.. YOU are the One who gave me the Dream to work in this Flower Shop.. telling me that when we were Once Young.. back in the Orphan Home.. I came to YOU.. and it was after a time being.. and YOU showed me this Art Piece of paper.. and I remember.. your Both Parents as the Missionaries.. children would RUN.. they would hear from the Lady who owned the House.. with many Little Children who came from Broken Homes.. having NO parents.. having NO ONE who can Love them.. but It was both Your parents who came and spend the Time with these Children.. I would ask for YOU when YOU did Not come.. I heard from your Father says.. YOU have a Big Dreams.. and that YOU are so Busy with daily Life trying to Accomplish the many Big Dreams YOU had.. and One was painting.. How you love to draw and add colors to the Picture YOU drew.. and after a Long time of NOT showing UP.. I guess YOU finally showed UP.. many Months went By.. I do remember sitting by myself.. Out side.. and did Not want to talk to Any One.. I just did Not want to fit in with any one.. I heard the Foot steps walking towards Me.. and stops.. When I lifted UP my Head.. I see YOU.. but WHY did it take YOU so Long to come visit Me.. I would ask.. Your Father.. I would ask.. Your Mother.. why don't you ever Come.. is it because YOU did Not want to see Me.. your Parents be saying the same thing.. YOU are always Busy.. and Now YOU show UP.. when I am down and feel so alone.. WHY did you come to Hurt me.. I would LOOK at YOU with a Smile.. and YOU sat down next to me.. and YOU told me.. YOU been painting.. going into the Art Classes.. learning the Oil Painting.. and I am over here.. feel so Sad.. it must feel so Good to have great Parents who can Help you with Your Future.. but Look at me.. I have NO future.. a broken Heart.. NO family.. no parents who loves Me.. and YOU turn and tells me to Hush UP.. and YOU showed me something.. and told me to take a Look of your Piece of Art.. I am wondering.. and It is so beautiful.. Just Like YOU.. this Flower.. so Beautiful.. and YOU gave me this Piece of Art and you gave me a Smile.. NOW.. I am wondering.. WHY did you give me this Form of Art.. what is it that I do with this.. Just to look at this Piece of Paper with a Flower on it.. and YOU smiled.. and told me to be More Creative with it.. and to Open my Mind and Heart.. something will come Alive.. and as I watch YOU smile and YOU waved your hands at me.. both parents next to YOU as they wanted to go Home.. I stood UP.. and I waved back at YOU.. WHEN will I see YOU again.. is it going to be another year.. maybe even much Later HUH.. and I would look at YOU as YOU go in the back of the Car.. and I see Your parents goes into the car and the Car starts to drive away.. and I start to run.. chasing after the Car and I see you turn to LOOK back of the window and My tears were falling out of my Eyes.. what If I keep on missing YOU.. what if this Piece of Art does Not heal my Heart and I would see the Car NO more.. and I stop.. crying.. wiping my tears.. and I turn the Other way.. and I am Looking at this Piece of Art.. the Flower YOU painted.. and what is the name of this Flower.. and where can I find this Kind of Flower.. is it possible for me to get this Kind of Flower.. I mean.. what if I start to sell this Kind of Flower.. will you come.. will you show UP and see and I would lift UP the Piece of Art.. the Flower Painting.. and I would stand and think about what YOU said.. to Open my Mind.. and to Open my Heart.. to think and dreams.. and do WHAT.. I stood still.. do What.. and I would walk slowly to the Orphan Home.. just thinking about what I should do.. be Creative.. and I would walk into the House asking myself.. do what.. as I am on the Back of the Work Shop.. in my hand is the Piece of Art.. the Flower painting YOU gave me when I was YOUNG.. and I am looking at this Small bed.. and I see Flowers growing on this Bed of ground.. and I would lower my self.. LOOKING at the Piece of Art.. and the Flower Painting and I would look at these Live Flowers in the Bed of the Ground.. It has been a long ways of Coming.. and I am waiting for the Flowers to grow and mature to the Full Bloom.. adult Flowers.. and I would stare at these flowers.. and I see the Forms and I am seeing the Shape.. it is becoming More Like the Piece of Art.. the Flower Paintings I am holding in my hands.. YOU told Me.. When I was sitting Down Alone.. and I felt like NO ONE else cared about Me.. I heard the Foot steps walking.. and stopped in front of Me.. when I lifted UP my Head.. my eyes.. I was truly Amazed of HOW Beautiful.. so Lovely in form.. my eyes met Your eyes and I wanted to tell YOU.. which left me speechless to share at that Moment.. I wanted to tell YOU and say to YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful.. so Amazingly Beautiful.. My words.. my Lips.. my mouth just could Not speak the Language to tell YOU what My Heart was feeling at that Moment but I was truly Blown away.. like this Piece of Art.. so Beautiful.. like this Flower Painting.. YOU are so Beautiful.. what More Words can I say to YOU that Night when my eyes met YOURS.. it seemed like YOU were never going to show UP.. but when YOU did Come from Nowhere.. I couldn't be angry any more.. I couldn't tell YOU I been waiting for YOU all this time because it was like this Painting of the Flower.. AMUSE and AMAZING to me.. I never thought that YOU would share.. I only thought you were just going to tell me YOU were going to leave again.. But it was that Night.. when YOU stood and YOU sat next to me.. and YOU opened my eyes.. and Opened my heart telling me to be More creative with myself.. I never knew what that meant.. what does it means to be More creative.. but when YOU start to Love in your Heart.. when I started to Love YOU more.. just Out of nowhere things came into my Mind and into my Heart.. just Like that NIGHT.. YOU showed me.. the value what it means to be More Creative with YOURSELF.. YOU showed me a Piece of Art.. and the Flower Painting.. I sat down confused.. did Not know what I am suppose to do with this Piece of Art.. am I suppose to eat this Piece of Art.. it is a Piece of Paper but when YOUR MIND and HEART.. and YOU open it with being with creative and YOU showed me that It starts with the true Meaning of Love.. teaching Me how to love YOU.. AM I getting good.. am I getting better with It because I really Love YOU.. I remember when YOU told me that YOU had Big Dreams and it made me Sad because I started to feel sorry for myself.. because I could Not dream.. I was at the MOST lowest Place.. started to think about the Situation but YOU have made me believe again and it started with Loving YOU.. maybe YOU felt that Night.. that I been asking for YOU.. when Your Both parents came.. and I would Open the Door.. I see the Car outside.. and I am so excited they came because I knew if they Came.. you could also come TOO.. but I would watch through the Window.. there was NO sign of YOU there with them.. I would be at the Door.. and Opened for your Father to walk in.. I felt so Little and so Small because Your Father is such a Great MAN of God.. who loves Us the Children and came to serve and to teach.. and I would be always asking for YOU.. and I knew that I could Not dream when I saw your Father.. the way he looked at me.. but I would still ask.. where are YOU.. where is the Daughter.. but.. always saying YOU are so busy.. it broke my Heart.. I guess your parents notice that we were getting just too close.. when the Days you came with your parents.. YOU would always show me the Different Pictures YOU drew and painted.. all these Flowers YOU would come.. and told me How long it has taken YOU to drew on the sketch paper.. and had to paint with the Oils.. mixing the Colors and the Mind and Heart of creating something.. Your Eyes would Lid UP when I would look and say.. it is so Beautiful.. this Flower Painting.. can I have this One too.. it is because I believe One day I can sell it.. and I am sure a Buyer will Love it to hang on the Walls to show Off who is the Great Oil Painter.. and I would watch you smile as I would share that.. we would both smile a lot when YOU came.. a BOX.. when YOU open.. all the brushes uses for the Oil Painting.. mirrors and the Note Book.. art sketch paper you would bring to show Me.. and I would sit and stare.. My Heart.. and I guess Your Parents started to notice that we were just too close.. but that very Night.. when YOU came with the Final Piece of Art and YOU Showed Me.. it was your heart that was giving me something.. I know that YOU may think that it may not be Much.. but what matter to me the Most are these little things I cherish in the Memories.. YOUR presences means everything.. your Smile and the Gestures YOU give.. and even when YOU show UP with the Piece of Art.. the Flower Paintings and YOU would show it to me.. telling me to Open my Mind.. to Open my Heart.. to be More creative.. I did Not know what YOU were talking about.. but it is the Giving of Your Heart which finally got to Me.. I was blinded of receiving just too much that I just did NOT care about the behind of what is happening in those curtain moments but when YOU told me.. the last day.. I knew that It meant something More.. when I saw the real YOU of the giving of your Heart.. it got me by Nowhere because it was the Day.. I saw you in the back of the car and Your Father
It was YOU who I was loving all this TIME.. asking For YOU.. when YOU father stood tall.. looking at me.. I would be asking for YOU first.. I never knew then but when I think of it Now.. it is because I been loving YOU.. just did Not want to show it and say it was true.. but it was on that very night.. when YOU sat next to me.. showing me the Final Piece of Art.. the Flower painting.. even though I thought you would come back soon.. when YOU spoke of the words.. to be more Creative.. to Open my eyes.. My MIND and My Heart.. I would sit that very night in the room.. the children were sleeping in the Beds.. but I could Not sleep that very Night.. I would be sitting on the top of the bed.. just LOOKING at the Final Piece of Art work.. the Flower Painting YOU gave me.. just trying to think about be Open for What.. what Happens when YOU open Your Heart.. and your Mind.. Open your eyes.. what happens next.. what does It means to be more creative.. and that is when I knew.. when YOU start to Love.. it is when YOU can truly show HOW you can express something in your Heart.. In your Mind and Open your eyes and be more creative with It.. as I saw this as I was looking at the Final Piece of Art Work of Yours.. I could Not help it but cried looking at it.. because I knew it my Heart.. this means good BYE right.. it means YOU are Never going to come back to this Orphan Home.. and I would cry in the silent of the NIGHT on the bed.. looking at this Piece of Art work of Yours.. my Heart was touched.. it drove me crazy because NOW I know what it means to Love YOU.. then How can YOU stop.. because YOU can Only Love the One who can truly show YOU how to Love.. or who Knows How to love.. and I wanted to Love YOU more.. if YOU are able to show me something that YOU love the Most.. that Means YOU know How to Love.. I want to love YOU because I know that a person who gives can receives too.. so I want to be the One to give it all now to YOU.. so that YOU can feel how much I love YOU.. that It may Not be too Much.. It may be so Small and simple but I do Love YOU.. How can I let YOU know how much I love YOU since Now YOU showed me that YOU can Love.. let me Love YOU.. as I am Looking at the Garden.. my eyes are filled with Tears.. I ache inside because I want to show YOU.. Not just show YOU but tell YOU.. How can I tell you something if I can't even show it to YOU.. that Is why I have come back to this Work shop.. I am here in the back of the Garden.. there is the back DOOR.. and a bed of Ground.. I am here looking at the Flowers which are growing because YOU have given me something to Love and to dream.. TO BE more Creative.. to Open my Mind.. to Open my Heart.. it is YOU who showed me and taught me HOW to Love and I just want to give it ALL back to YOU by saying I love YOU..I am looking at the door.. as I open the Door.. walking into the Work shop.. the Smell of the Place.. I have missed this place so Much.. but there is One thing that is Missing.. It is YOU.. only if YOU were here with me.. the painting on the wall.. and How all the things have set in and Now ready to Open the shop once again.. but.. when YOU were here with Me.. and how you came.. YOU were going to school.. I remember YOU came to the Work Shop as a Part time.. and wanted to help me.. I remember YOU wanted to be a Doctor.. always had a Big Dream to help people and save many lives and go out on the Mission trips to help the Poor and needy people.. and telling me these things.. I was filled in awe of YOU.. and YOU asked me if I remembered You.. of course it was long ago when I saw YOU as a Young girl.. but it seemed like YOU have never forgotten me.. I remember I would ask of YOU to come and help me at this Work Shop and I was selling Flowers in this Work Shop.. never imagined that I would meet you.. you were grown and more matured going into the University.. to become a Doctor.. as I would hire YOU to work with Me.. YOU asked me.. do I remember this One Picture.. as I would stand on the Other side of the counter.. It was a drawing picture.. and YOU showed me.. and when I got hold.. my both hands grabbed the Art sketch paper and it was a drawing of a Flower.. It made me jump when I saw the drawing picture of the Sun Flower.. and I turn to look back.. and On the wall.. I would look at the same sketch paper and It was drawn by YOU.. and I remember YOU turn to look at the wall.. and I remember YOU would walk closer to the wall and YOU would look at the art sketch paper.. the same Flower.. the Sun Flower YOU drew for me.. and I see your hand touch over the paper and YOUR Head turns to look at me and I would tell you.. Yes.. I do remember this Paper.. the Art sketch paper.. YOU gave it to me when YOU were a lot younger.. do YOU NOT remember the time.. and as I would stand alone in this Work Shop.. I am standing and staring at the wall.. the Art Sketch Paper is on the wall still.. the Same Flower.. the Sun Flower YOU drew for me.. as I stood in the silent.. the two lines of tears would roll down my eyes.. my hand touch my chest.. It hurts right here.. I wish that YOU knew this Heart of Mine.. that it hurts when I stand here alone.. without YOU here.. it feels like even I can take a look at that Art sketch paper.. watching it here alone.. it Hurts me More because all I needed is YOU.. all I need is YOU to be here but I know that I stand alone right Now.. but I need you here with me right Now.. as I look at the Art sketch paper.. and I would walk closer to the wall.. my hand touch over the Art sketch paper.. I miss YOU.. without YOU I feel like My Heart hurts.. why couldn't YOU cut my chest Open.. why couldn't YOU get rid of My Heart.. Now I feel like I am sick again.. DO I needs to go as a Patient to visit YOU.. but this TIME.. I am Not going to leave alone.. I want to leave with My Heart with YOU.. so that I don't need to feel this Way.. it Hurts.. It hurts me so bad because I am missing YOU right Now.. why did YOU have to come at the Most hardest times of my Life.. why did YOU have to come and Now.. take my smiles away.. as I close both of my eyes.. I would go back as a Young Boy.. I am crying.. sitting on the ground.. receiving a Letter from a relative of Mine.. the Letter speaks about how my family Died in the burning of the fire House.. My family was very poor and they could not take care of me.. as a Relative holding my hand takes me away.. I am crying and crying walking away from the farm House.. My Heart keeps on breaking.. why.. why does My Life has to be so Sad.. why have to be so broken.. now.. I just received a Letter from the same relative who was holding my hand.. taking me away and telling me I am Now an Orphan Boy.. as I read the Letter.. I learned how to read from the Lady who owns this House.. as I was sitting.. I hear foot steps walking.. and it stops.. as I lifted UP to take a LOOK.. YOU are so Beautiful.. in a red dress.. in a red shoes.. I see YOU stand there.. and YOU would sit right next to Me.. why did YOU have to come at this Point.. I was reading a Letter.. which It broken me down into tears.. having NO more family.. being abandoned and Broke.. having NO future.. I see YOU coming Out of No where.. but Like an Angel YOU sat next to Me.. and I remember YOU would be asking why I be crying.. and I would give YOU the Letter.. if you could read.. I give you the permission for YOU to read what the relative wrote to me.. and I would be crying in silent.. as the MOON came Out.. and I can hear YOU breathe hard.. I know.. that is how I felt when I first read the Letter.. My Heart keeps on hurting Me.. It hurts me more because Now I have told YOU a secret that I just never told any one.. I am angry for being taken away.. and how I am abandoned by the family.. I am dirty and poor.. I have NO body to talk too.. and I would hear YOU trying to cheer me UP.. and I wanted to run away.. DID NOT be a part of this Orphan Boy.. but then where would I go if I leave here.. and I do remember at the Moment.. YOU pulled Out something and YOU showed me the Art Sketch Paper.. and YOU be sharing How you are taking an Art class.. and to see your drawing.. as I turn.. My hands grab hold unto and I would look at the Picture of the Art sketch paper.. I would look at the Sun Flower.. finger points WHY this Kind of flower you drew.. I remember you be sharing that is your Most Favorite Flower in the world.. that when YOU feel so sad.. YOU would go to the garden.. and YOU would go see this Flower.. and Hoping that I too can smile once again.. as I would look at this Picture.. I started to cry some More.. it hurts Me.. I have NO more family now.. NO ONE I can call Mother or Father any More.. this Picture.. How can it help me at this Point of my Life when I have lost every thing.. but YOU told me.. that NOW.. I may not see it or understand it.. but later On.. I will get it.. when time heals my Heart.. I will start to love this Flower and will Love once again.. and Yes.. YOU were right.. It did Not take me too long to get back on my feet once again.. I would be looking at this Picture.. wondering.. where can I find this Flower.. where can I go to see this Flower.. for a long time I been thinking about this Flower because I grew to Love it.. why.. because It came from YOU.. YOU remind me of SUN FLOWER so much.. the More YOU think about it.. the More you see it.. YOU grow more into it.. and I would find a Way.. to make a Mission to search about this Flower.. and I would start.. as I am standing alone.. this Work SHOP.. I would only think about YOU.. I wanted to share how much I love YOU.. and that is why I opened this Work Shop.. dedicating the Flower.. when YOU feel like YOU are dead inside.. the Hope to smile Once more.. Your Courage and How YOU helped me to bounce back.. I wanted
Time.. but when the Door opened and YOU came in.. the early years.. I saw YOU.. but of course I did Not recognize YOU at first.. I remember it is when YOU showed me the Drawing.. the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing of the Sun Flower.. I knew that It was YOU.. I did Not want YOU to come close to me at first.. because I knew what was in my Heart.. I did Not want you to work with me at first because what if I love YOU more.. I will get hurt because I knew what was in my Heart.. loving YOU is the Most beautiful thing but also it hurts me at the same time.. I have a Broken Heart already.. of losing my family on the Burning of the Farm House.. when YOU stopped visiting me.. I would think.. maybe YOU did Not want to get close to Me.. was it because I gave you the Letter.. was it because I shared you a Letter about the passing of the family.. wasn't it YOU who be asking to see what the Letter was written about.. I only wanted you to know a glimpse so that YOU can at least understand me where I am coming from.. I just did Not get it at first because I wanted you to be close.. that is why I opened UP to you and to show you the side where I would crumble at the Most.. but.. I think I made the mistake of revealing too much of the Downer side what I felt at that Point.. but.. I do remember.. watching YOU looking at the wall.. I would be holding the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of the Sun Flower.. I would freeze from the Inside as my eyes saw the Same drawing.. of course I dedicated all my Heart and energy because I loved YOU.. I loved YOU because YOU came at the most hardest and difficult times of my Life.. trying to cheer Me up.. it was so Beautiful.. and so moving at my Heart.. NO ONE has ever down.. to show the care and the tender side which NO ONE wanted to give.. crying alone.. I would be sitting on the bed.. looking at the Drawing.. the Art sketch paper.. the SUN FLOWER.. NO ONE has ever done this for me.. why was it YOU.. why did YOU even care.. and I wanted to give Back to share back.. to let someone who feels like me to smile Once more.. what you gave it something that NO MONEY can buy.. as ALL the Boys were sleeping in One room.. I sat alone.. leaning on the wall.. could NOT sleep that Night.. but kept on looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing of the SUN FLOWER.. I wanted to know.. what does IT means to love.. I want to love and choose to love instead.. I don't want to be hurt or be hurting Others any more.. and I wanted to have answers of the One Question that was in my Heart.. and It was with this ONE SIMPLE picture but it came from YOUR Heart that answered everything.. as I would look at the Art sketch Paper.. the Drawing of the Sun Flower.. I knew that I had to do something.. that One day YOU will know that I love YOU.. maybe not at the Point but some day YOU will know how much I love YOU by sharing what YOU have given Me and what you have done to Me.. as I would look.. the Work Shop.. Looking at the Paper.. the Art sketch.. the drawing of the Sun Flower.. back is the Garden.. and Now.. there are More than Thousand Sun Flowers in the Back.. in the Garden.. ready to be given and ready to be sold.. when YOU came into the Work Shop.. I was blown into pieces because YOU looked a lot like someone who I loved.. but did NOT wanted to ask you if YOU were.. because YOU could of been someone else but NOT YOU.. when YOU shared the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing of the Sun Flower and I turn to face the Wall.. the same drawing YOU given me when I was a young Boy.. who was hurting.. who just read a Letter of the Lost and dead family.. YOU were like an Angel who gave me Life to live again.. I do remember when YOU asked me if YOU could work here.. I told YOU NO at first.. I did Not want you to come close because I know that something could happen.. I wanted you close deep in my Heart.. but.. I did not want you too close.. I am already Hurt.. I do not want to be hurt again but I did miss YOU so much that My Heart was crying inside.. I did Not want to tell YOU this at all.. because I did Not want to see you go.. I remember YOU told me that YOU will be back.. and I had to let YOU go that day you came.. YOU just do not know how heavy I felt inside.. It broke me down into tears again.. asking myself.. why did I let YOU go like this.. what if YOU will never show UP.. what if I will not see YOU again.. what if I end up dying like this instead.. and I just could not help myself and blamed myself for letting you walk away like this.. what if YOU never come back to me.. and I be dumb like this of letting YOU go when I know deep inside I love YOU.. I was just too afraid to let YOU IN because I loved YOU just too much.. I am looking at you.. I just could not believe that YOU are now a doctor.. a Heart surgeon.. of course I came here to get my Heart to be removed.. I wanted another Heart Surgeon because.. Can you handle doing the surgery.. planting into a different Heart.. a Heart from someone else.. What would you do if I don't recognize YOU any more.. what will you do if I start to love another whose Heart has been loving.. But.. I don't want to lose YOU.. How can I live without YOU.. How can I breathe if I can't love YOU any more.. but all this Time.. I have been only loving YOU.. YOU are the Only One who I been missing.. I been crying over looking at the empty wall.. walking into the Work Shop.. I been missing YOU.. missing your Presence.. just missing your smile.. can YOU handle me.. putting me into the deep sleep.. as YOU cut my chest wide open.. I know that YOU are more experience in this kind of work.. If you are the Doctor.. because I asked for a well experienced.. well established with multiple years of experience.. I don't want my Heart to be broken.. I don't want my Heart to be dropped on the floor.. It has been with me all of my life.. ever since I was born.. ever since I was a young Boy.. when I first saw YOU.. I cried.. I started to cry after YOU left.. YOU promised me that YOU will be back.. and I felt my Heart.. I did not know what it was at the first touch.. I just could not stop.. but I would kept on crying through the Night.. that is when I could Not sleep.. I kept on thinking of YOU.. over and over.. turning and tossing.. all of the children at the Orphan House.. they were all sleeping good.. I sat on top of the bed.. wondering.. why couldn't I sleep like the Other children.. I do remember you gave me your picture.. I saw both of your parents with YOU.. and I do remember.. being so Poor.. without any parents.. living with bunch of poor children.. who had No homes.. only could gather with each other.. I looked at YOU.. I would smile.. I could never smile living with bunch of these children.. they were all dirty like Me.. pushing and shoving.. kicking and screaming.. and there was No peace.. When I heard the Old Woman.. the Care taker says to the Children.. a Missionary family is coming.. to help Us.. to help educate and give Us books to read.. and toys to play with.. of course.. it was YOU and your Parents who came.. I knew that I should of stopped myself right when I met YOU.. I don't know why I asked for your picture that day.. before YOU were leaving.. and as I was crying.. I wanted to be a Part.. so I asked for YOUR picture.. when YOU told me that YOU are going to give me One.. and That smile.. you pulled out and told me that this is the Only One.. the best Picture you have taken.. I saw your Smile.. and YOU told me.. behind the Picture is your Address.. and If I wanted a friend to share my Heart.. to write YOU a Letter.. I do remember watching YOU leave.. Your Father and Mother holding your Hands as YOU leave.. I would be waving with tears in my eyes.. I felt so Alone.. I felt so cold.. I felt so Poor.. and I would fall both on my knees.. and Weeping as I take a Look at your Picture.. why do you have to leave so Soon.. Are you going to come to visit me and the children.. and both hands holding the side of the Picture.. YOU are so Beautiful.. and I be looking with tears.. wiping my tears with my hand.. I feel so Alone.. I feel so sad because My Heart.. is it going to break like this.. My Heart keeps on breaking because YOU know how much I love you right.. and I do remember that Night.. I just could not sleep.. and sitting on the top of the Bed.. I pulled out Your Picture.. and I would look.. and I do remember what YOU said.. to write YOU when I needed a friend.. and I would get Out of the Bed and I walked to the desk.. and I sat down to write.. as I am laying.. I am looking at YOU.. as a Doctor.. as the Heart Surgeon.. I should of Not come to this Hospital.. What are you going to do with My Heart.. I don't want you to take my Heart away.. if I can't love you any more.. I rather ask for another Doctor.. I guess the main reason is to forget YOU.. and Let my Heart be taken away and Let someone else have My Heart.. But when I saw YOU.. if YOU were another Doctor.. another Heart Surgeon.. then I think it would been so much easier to go with the proceed to do the surgery but.. I feel like My Heart Now just can't go.. it has been such a Long time since I saw YOU.. and for the longest Time.. I have been missing YOU.. but Now.. I just can't give My Heart away with YOU becoming the Doctor.. the Heart Surgeon.. I been to the Work Shop lately.. and started a Project.. to rebuild that Work Shop.. it has been broken and abandoned for a Long time.. I just could Not work there any more.. for some reason I would see YOU.. even though YOU were never there.. there would be a Lot of pictures I would put on the walls.. that is before YOU left.. taking many pictures of YOU.. a lots of laugh.. lots of crying but more smiles On my face when YOU were there with Me.. I wanted to go back.. I started to miss you ever since I left because I kept on thinking of YOU.. I would go
Few more times.. and I started to think about YOU at the Work Shop.. what If you would be back.. even though I knew that YOU would never come around.. but I kept on thinking.. YOU could just visit.. but if YOU walked into the Work Shop all Broken and Abandoned.. then I know that YOU will Not come around ever again.. because NO ONE knows what will happen next.. so I started to make a Plan.. to remodel.. and to re build that Building.. just in case One day.. some day soon you can come.. and YOU will know that it has never been broken down.. as I gathered some workers.. spend days.. spend weeks and into the months.. new paintings.. putting UP the fences.. and even started to go back into the garden.. planting new seeds to bring into the life.. after it was all completed.. and the work shop was back on business.. I went in to work again.. of course there was something missing as I started to work in that shop.. it was YOU.. it felt like I cannot never get YOU back.. since you left long ago.. How can I bring YOU back if YOU have already left.. I would look at the wall.. the Wall with Your Pictures.. many of the Pictures I would post to share.. as I would start to look at Your Pictures.. Just memories of YOU came flashing through my Mind.. I knew that if I wanted to continue to run this Business.. I needed to get Rid of My Heart.. I knew that only if My Heart goes.. I can work in this Work Shop without missing YOU so Much.. that is the Only way I knew that I can continue.. that is when I decided to go into the surgery.. that I wanted to let My Heart to go.. I asked for the Best Doctor.. the Heart Surgeon with the Best experience.. of course never thought that It would be YOU walking into this Room.. even though I want YOU to do the Surgery.. I just can't Lose YOU.. after I see YOU now.. and How well YOU are in Life.. I think I just can't let My Heart go.. and I am looking at YOU.. I do need My Heart to be replaced.. but what would happen if I don't love you any More.. I am sure Now you are doing good with another Man.. can YOU still do the Heart surgery.. Now the Person who is going to exchange with my Heart comes into the Room and sits on another Bed.. and I turn to look at the Person.. I just can't believe it.. the Man turns to look at me.. I am not sure if I know this Man but the Man looks at me.. He is the friend who has taken YOU away.. I am wondering.. why is this Man in the same bed.. He wants his Heart to be removed just Like me.. and I am wondering.. I don't want His Heart.. I rather keep My Heart.. He has a Broken Heart too.. and I look at YOU.. I am wondering.. what is going On and Now YOU are telling me.. the relationship has ended on Both.. and that YOU are single.. and I am thinking.. Am I suppose to be happy or suppose to be Sad.. are YOU sad.. is that WHY you have become a Heart Surgeon.. WHO has Not been loving YOU well.. YOU know that If YOU are removing all Kinds of Hearts.. is it because someone has broken YOUR HEART or are you breaking Hearts and switching Hearts to different People.. because I don't want Another Broken Heart.. can I have YOUR HEART instead.. How about YOU can do the surgery on Me and I want to Have YOUR HEART in me so that I can say to YOUR HEART.. I can Love you more than any.. I know that YOU have already Broken Me Heart Once.. I don't need another Broken Heart in Me.. that is why I want Your Heart.. I know that YOUR HEART does Not break because YOU fix Hearts.. that is why I loved YOU for a Long time.. as I would pull out the Picture.. and I am Looking at the Picture when YOU were YOUNG.. next to the Picture is the First Letter you wrote me.. and I would open the Letter and I would turn to YOU and I would read it Out loud.. this is what YOU wrote Me.. when I could Not sleep.. when I met YOU the first time.. and I asked for YOUR Picture.. YOU gave me this Picture.. with Your Address in the back asking me.. If I needed a Friend that I can write YOU any time.. so I wrote.. and This is what YOU wrote me and I cried.. as I am looking at YOU.. my tears are flowing down my eyes and I started to read to you with tears rolling down my eyes.. and I would say to YOU.. this was why I started to Love YOU.. you wrote when I was at the Most Lowest of the time of my Life and has fixed this Broken Heart by telling me all of this.. I been waiting for YOU.. but YOU never came.. the door was never locked because it is YOU who I been waiting for.. I would be working in the Flower Shop.. waiting if YOU would ever show UP.. but you would never come.. It broke my Heart because what If YOU would stop by.. even just for Once.. I was Not asking for a long time.. even just for few seconds.. it would been enough for Me.. but YOU never came.. working in the Flower Shop without YOU was the most difficult thing for Me because I would be waiting.. even though I knew deep in my Heart that YOU would never show UP.. just hoping that it would be you who would knock on the door.. asking for me to open that door in the Work Shop.. in that flower Work Shop.. I would cry many nights of thinking of YOU.. just remembering all of the memories we shared together in that Shop.. I would watch YOU with the camera.. lights flashes as YOU would take pictures of the Flowers.. asking me about how it grew.. the place where I would planted in the soil.. I would even take you to the spots.. back in the garden.. where YOU would see the flowers in full bloom.. matured and sprung UP for YOU to take a look.. YOU would smile.. I would watch YOU holding that camera in front.. as I would watch YOU looking through the camera Lens and taking pictures of the flowers back in the Garden.. I wanted to Hold YOU.. I wanted to Pull you closer to me.. around my arms I wanted to feel YOU inside.. but I would stop myself of getting closer to YOU.. I wanted to get close.. I wanted to walk and stand beside YOU.. just to feel for seconds.. How you would feel in my arms.. How would you breathe.. How about the sound of the beating of Your Heart.. can I hear it.. will my Heart also make the same sound of Your Heart.. I wanted to get close.. just to see how it would feel.. YOU in my arms.. I wanted you near.. I wanted you close.. I was so close because I would walk but I would stop to step back.. It hurts me because I wanted to feel YOU in my arms.. But I just could not get closer.. Because I knew that YOU would push me to say Back Off.. Just Now How it feels.. Just thinking about YOU.. brings so Much Joy and happiness.. I would smile a lot.. My Heart be moving in a way I just can't control.. my emotions just wants to pour Out to YOU.. I want to stop.. I can't control myself because It has been Hard lately.. Missing YOU is so Hard.. at the same Time.. it brings me a lot of tears.. that I can't stop myself crying.. I don't want to show YOU any more tears.. but It hurts to know that YOU don't want to come close.. so Far.. so Near.. so Close.. the distance between Us.. leaving me to Be hurt.. missing YOU all the time.. but I want to get close.. NO Matter How I feel.. as long as it is YOU.. I will always Love YOU.. don't ask me why do I keep on hurting myself but still loves YOU.. as I am sitting on the Chair.. I am looking at Your Picture.. it is YOU when YOU were with me at the Flower Shop.. holding a flower in Your Hand.. with such a Beautiful Smile.. I remember that it was the day I wanted to show YOU the New Flowers that has been reached the Full Bloom stage.. it was back in the Garden.. the Same camera you were using to take many pictures of the flowers.. I would ask YOU.. take one of the Flowers from the Bed in the back of this Garden.. I watched you lower yourself.. grabbed and pulled the Flower Out.. and telling me that it is this One.. that it is the Most Beautiful One.. Your Favorite and I do remember leading YOU back into the Flower Work Shop.. YOU were standing by the wall.. and Holding the flower in your Hand.. I would have the Camera in my hands.. My eye would look through the lens of the Camera.. I would see YOU.. my finger stopped at the Button.. because what if this be the last picture I could take from this Camera.. this Fear came all over me.. shaking and trembling from the Inside.. I stopped my finger to press.. YOU were wondering why I could not click the Button.. My Heart would skip.. trying to find if there is a Beat.. I would take a deep breathe and my finger presses the Button and the light switches and it takes the Picture of YOU.. when I put the Camera Down.. I am looking at the Wall.. in the Flower Work Shop.. I only see the wall.. I don't see YOU there.. and with me is the Same Picture.. it was the last time I took the picture of YOU because the Next day.. YOU told me that YOU are not going to work with me at the Flower Shop.. that YOU have find someone that YOU love.. and that YOU are going with Him.. and I felt my world turn upside down.. I felt that everything be crumbling.. I saw YOU leave as the Door closes behind me.. I would sit on the Floor.. I would cry Loud and wail More.. I just couldn't control these emotions when it is torn apart.. I would Beat with my hand on my Chest.. I would Hit it so Hard.. I just couldn't stop hitting my Chest.. wanting to Pull my Heart out.. It hurts me because all I see is YOU.. YOU leaving me behind and I am left alone at the Flower Work Shop.. everything began to fall apart.. I started to drink a lot.. heavy into drinking.. crash and burn.. falling apart and falling down.. I just don't wanted to get UP any more.. I just couldn't handle this Kind of Pain.. it was killing me from the Inside.. How can I erase this Pain that is eating me from the Inside.. How can I get rid of this Kind of Hellish Pain.. I just wanted to Die.. for years I felt this way.. I felt like I wanted to give UP.. but.. for some reason.. if I truly love YOU.. I know that I needs to get back UP and try to live.. try to live the best I can.. so that One day I am able to see YOU again and the Day I see YOU.. I will never
Shop.. as I walked inside the Work Shop.. I would stand there alone.. LOOKING at the Wall where YOU would stand.. I would look at the empty Wall.. looking at the picture of YOU holding.. the same spot.. you were standing with a smile holding the flower.. the Last time I saw YOU is when I took this Picture.. it hurts Me more.. I would.. the Flower Work Shop was dark and I would be standing alone.. crying looking at the Picture of YOU.. which it was the last time YOU stood by this Wall.. and I just can't let YOU go.. WHY is it me who has to let it Go.. why is it YOU who has to hurt Me.. why can't I ever hurt you and I would look at the Wall.. where YOU would stand the last time and I would scream because my Heart.. It wanted to shatter into pieces.. WHY did YOU have to leave me for someone else.. WHY can't YOU ever know how much I love YOU.. why don't you see me.. WHY can't you see me as the Person who loves you the Most.. and I would again cry.. looking at the wall.. after looking at the Picture of YOU where YOU once stood by this wall.. I would fall to the ground.. and I just can't.. why can't I just let YOU GO.. it is killing me so Bad.. why can't I let YOU GO.. what is it about YOU holding unto me.. like a stronghold.. and I would cry loud.. wailing.. hitting my hand against my chest.. It hurts me just too much because I want to be loved by YOU.. why can't YOU see me for once.. HOW ABOUT ME.. you know that I can love YOU better.. YOU know that I can love YOU more.. I can even love you stronger.. just please give me a chance.. just one chance.. as I am waiting in the Room in the clinic Office.. I know that I may not live for Long.. because My Heart is broken.. It has been shattered into many little pieces.. YOU have broken my Heart.. If I can't fix my Heart.. what am I going to do with this Shattered of pieces broken Heart that is in me.. If I can't fix it.. Maybe the Doctor can help me to fix IT.. what if the Doctor can't fix my Heart.. I am going to ask the Doctor to go me a Surgery.. because what am I going to do with this Broken Shattered Heart.. I can at least donate it to someone else.. give me a New Heart.. someone else can take my Place.. can Have this Heart.. that someone else can Love YOU instead because I know that I can't.. I don't even know where YOU at so how can I love YOU when YOU are NO where to be found.. and I am lost somewhere.. and I would be sitting on this Chair.. LOOKING at the Picture of YOU.. I sit in silence just thinking of the Flower Work Shop.. I want to go back with YOU.. can YOU please go back with me to this Flower work Shop.. I want to live again.. I want to feel that I am alive again.. I want to breathe again because without YOU.. just look at me at this Point in my Life without YOU.. and as I am looking at the picture.. waiting for the doctor to come into this room.. I am looking at your Picture and speaking to the Picture.. the door Opens but it stops.. I am thinking.. maybe it is another patient who just came into the wrong room and I would open my Mouth.. as I am looking at the picture of YOU.. can we please go back to the Flower Work Shop.. do YOU know that I am still there.. I just could Not move on because I would think about.. what If.. Just in case YOU show UP one day.. what If you come.. what if YOU change your Mind.. what if I come across Your Mind one night.. One Day.. what If you miss Me.. how about if YOU love me.. Not sure why I would think of it that Way but what if you show UP.. I had many chances to leave that Flower work shop.. My friends came.. trying to convince me.. telling me to leave it behind me.. let it be my History.. and I would try to leave that Flower Work Shop.. but always in the back of my Head.. I would be thinking of YOU.. if I do leave.. what if YOU show UP when I do really leave.. then I know that I can't never see YOU again.. I don't want that to ever happen because I miss YOU and I love YOU.. that is why I just can't let it go now.. because I love YOU just too much.. I have been there.. just waiting for the Door to be opened.. for YOU to knock on the door and when I open the door to that Flower Work shop and WHEN I open to see who it is.. I wanted to smile to see YOU there.. standing there.. just giving me even few seconds of your presences.. just to say I love YOU.. just to say I missed YOU.. or to say welcome back.. because I just can't let YOU GO.. Because I never stopped loving YOU.. even now I love you still.. I been waiting so that I can tell YOU how much I love YOU.. as I look up.. I hear the door closed.. and I am thinking.. this whole time the door was opened.. I wonder who it is who hear me speaking to Your Picture.. I wonder who it is.. and the door Opens.. my hand opens and the picture falls to the ground because it is YOU who is standing by the door.. That YOU are the Doctor.. My Doctor there.. I am waiting at the Doctor's office.. I am getting sick.. something has happened to my Heart.. I am wondering if My Heart is broken.. as I am sitting down.. waiting for the Doctor.. I am holding your Picture in my Hand.. I have been looking at this Picture for a Long time.. since I have lost you.. and it is the Picture of YOU.. you are standing by the Wall.. with a beautiful Smile.. I gave YOU a flowers and YOU are holding in your hand.. showing me in the picture of you.. I was so happy when I gave you those flowers in the work shop.. I surprised you that night.. it was before I wanted to ask YOU out.. I wanted to ask if we can be lovers.. and before the questions came about.. and I gave YOU the flowers.. I would watch you holding in your hand.. and I saw you smelling the flowers.. it touched my Heart.. Your nose so close and I saw both of your eyes closing when YOU brought the Flowers closer to your nose.. and right after.. you opened your eyes.. I be holding the camera.. zooming in to get a closer Picture.. I asked if YOU could just smile for me.. YOU are the Most Beautiful when I see you smile.. so I asked.. looking through the lens of the Camera.. I saw you holding the flowers closer and my finger presses and it clicked to take that Picture.. I would put the camera down and I came closer to YOU and I wanted to say but.. YOU told me Not to say it.. Because YOU knew what I was going to say and told me that YOU already have some one who you love.. and that I knew the person well.. I would just stand there.. No words to tell YOU because.. I have been holding this for a long time.. I wanted to tell YOU for a long time.. but I guess holding too long.. and I just could not hold it back.. I want to know.. DO you love Him.. do you think that man can love you more than Me.. if He can love you more than me.. I can back off and just pretend I never told you this.. I want to know what if I can love you More.. I know that I can love you where YOUR Heart can be truly touched.. I know that I can love you because I am already loving YOU.. but pushing me away is not going to solve anything.. but if you know that He can love you more and can make you more happier.. than I have nothing more to say.. But How about my Heart.. how about the Love I have for YOU.. will you please consider this before you can.. and it is the Picture before I wanted to ask.. but I do remember you be telling me that YOU love some one else.. I wanted to walk out of that work shop.. I wanted to leave at that moment because My Heart couldn't handle this kind of pain.. and to heal it takes a long time for me to get over it.. but.. I felt like I should stay.. that may be you would change your mind.. so I just stood and waited.. but I saw YOU looking at me.. giving me back the flowers and I saw YOU walking out of that work shop.. I heard the door behind me shutting down.. holding the flowers in my hands.. why am I holding these flowers for.. I am the one who gave you these flowers.. these are not for me and when I turned my head to look back.. I stood there.. the door was closed and YOU left.. I wanted to cry.. but I wanted to hold my own emotions in and I kept it inside for a while before I wanted to lead it out.. I stood there in the silence.. holding the flowers in my hands.. just did not know what to do any more.. as I am sitting on the chair.. just waiting for the doctor to call my name.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. holding the flowers and just smiling.. Now I am thinking.. and wondering.. what if I did Not say anything.. did Not mention and just stood there and smiled back.. I know that YOU would not left the work shop that night.. you could of still be there with me.. but would I ever be happy just watching you on the side line.. just loving YOU alone.. while YOU have someone who loves YOU and you be loving him back.. What am I suppose to do if I am just another shadow of passing through.. It would be breaking my heart into pieces.. I remember I open my hands and the Flowers all fell to the floor.. hitting the ground.. I dropped to my knees.. beating against my chest and started to cry loud.. wailing louder because of the pains of hitting me so Hard that night.. I did not even leave that work shop.. I would be crying for hours.. just feeling the pain deep within me.. sitting by the wall.. I would be leaning.. and I would sit until the Sun would rise Up.. I just could not work any more.. and wanted to take some time off.. but I could not get up.. sitting there.. looking at the flowers all over the floor of the ground.. I can't believe that this Hurts.. it hurts me much more.. why did I even mentioned if it going to end UP like this.. hurting me like this.. this ache.. this pain of just loving you.. why can't you love me back.. I would yell.. out loud.. why can't you love me back.. what must I do for YOU to notice HOW much I love YOU.. and I would sit still.. could not get up.. just did not want to move.. I did not want to eat anything.. even though I was hungry.. but I sat there.. leaning against the wall.. just thinking