I grew up in foster care and went through 29 homes, saw and went through a lot of what you did but went through many more as well, yet my faith in God is what has brought me through being semi sane lol. I do have C-PTSD and have a service dog for when I am in public alone as I do not do well in large groups or when people are being loud and yelling. I am almost sixty and I still find things that will trigger me to this day, I still need to learn to give it all to Jesus on those harder days where the devil tries to attack me with those memories. I try to be a silly fun loving person as well and I am extremely insecure with myself as well. HOLD YOUR HEAD HIGH HUN GOD IS GREAT
I have watched your channel for a long time.First off you are a beautiful spirit.I watch your interaction with your kids You give them such a spirited experience of life.I think you for your age and a mom to a few kids has rebounded from your upbringing.Celebrate your success ,many would fall you have shown the strength of people who have lived longer than you.I as a child came through a tragedy that some would collapse.I am 74 and still standing.Give yourself a Gold Star you would get millions if people gave them away.My parents are both deceased,I have learned at my age they were human and if one lives in the past it will not give one the life they deserve.Smile beautiful Lady you have ran the race and have in my opinion won the race.Love your spirit and your hauls.🌹
A lot of this hits home for me. 💗 My dad was a very angry man, he could be good when he wanted, but, most of the time we feared him. I try to bury it, but, there are things that trigger and will bring it all back. I am so glad you have the courage to talk about it.
Stephanie what you are saying is true I have went through this with my mother and still going through it and it has been thirty years of stuff that I have kept hidden from anyone.
This is carol, I feel your pain,fear etc.i forgave my dad too. I lived in fear. I confronted him when I was in my thirties. I told dad I forgive him. I could forgive but can't forget.❤❤❤❤❤❤
I feel this so much. There is so much that you're saying I needed to hear. Love you friend 🧡 healing is the hardest thing I've ever done. I'm proud of you girl!!!
I love listening to your videos, you remind me so much of my grandma who passed away a few years back. You guys have a similar accent and even little phrases you say are things she did, too. I needed to hear this message today. Thank you for sharing your life with us. 💚
The Lord continually tells me to “trust and believe “. When I remind myself I feel comfort. At 56 years old I had never been alone, I always had someone to take care of, then I was alone and only had to take care of myself and I didn’t know how to do that. It feels so selfish to only think of myself. I’m still on my journey and learning maybe to love myself. May God bless you with peace and healing.
Thank you Stephanie May God bless you and keep you and your family safe 🙏 God used you today to cross those T's and dot the i's I've my abusive childhood and young adult mistakes I've been mulling over for weeks now. I can finally accept that I'm a person too and like you said as a child I did nothing wrong I just lacked the protective parents I so desperately needed ❤❤❤❤
Hi Stephanie!! Hon I totally feel your pain when you come for an abusive home as a child it follows you through your life! I promised myself my children would never ever go through what I went through but life has been hard! All the hurt you bottle up inside affects you in so many different ways it’s been hard for me to remember everything because my brain blocks everything!! My life has gotten way better since I’ve been sober for 2 years and I brought the lord into my life more!! You will make it through and healing your heart and soul will make you a stronger!! I hope you have a very blessed weekend!! ❤🙏🏻
🙏's for you cause I understand your message and thank you. I too have been on a healing journey, and it has lots of tears. Your videos make me happy and thank you for sharing a delicate piece of your life.❤
Thank you for sharing with us and I hope it facilitates healing for you. I grew up with addiction and family violence and it is very hard. It takes years to heal but healing will come, I promise. Your testimony will help others on their healing journey. You are like me, because I had such a hard childhood I made sure my children didn't want for anything and knew they were loved. I've been a single mom since 1987 to ensure that too. Now looking back, being a single mom was the biggest blessing and allowed me the space to grow and heal.
Stephanie, I hope that you read this comment. I have watched your channel for years. I also experienced as a child some of those things that you describe. I am now in my mid 70’s and I have lately been working hard to let go and stop allowing the memories to dictate my future that I have left. The reality is that no one can unsee or unhear or unfeel the things that someone else has abused to us. But we can work on healing as you are doing. Forgiveness is letting go because we truly have no control over what others choose to do or say. I have control only over what I say or do. I found this short video that has helped me so much, titled: “What is Forgiveness”. “Forgiveness is to release from all punishment. It doesn’t ignore what was done...it refuses to punish the one who did it….it was a big deal…it was wrong what they did. Forgiveness does not ignore the pain. It says that person did something horrible and I will not be your punisher for it….It gives them to Jesus....says you have your way with them.” I am glad that you are healing. Thank you for sharing your video. You are an inspiration to others.
I'm 57 still going thru healing I've had bad things as well but came up when I was 26 and went on till learned to accept at 52 but still hurting so sorry god bless you sweetie ❤❤
Im 75 years old and had a simular life. Your carrying a bunch of baggage that was not yours to carry in some aspects. Memories will always be with you but your going to be ok. Im alone also and miss people that are gone. Im here if you need to talk , i know its hard believe me and i know that scarey feeling. ❤
I have what i call me to me talks and trust me it helps and as you get older you understand better what your feeling and why. Dont be so hard on yourself and believe me i have been hard myself also. Everything takes time 😊
I am a person who has been through hell and back. My mom used to beat me as a kid for no reason because she was mentally ill. I watched my dad get sick and die from cancer when I was 15. I am 51 now and have my husband and kids, and of course Jesus-that is all I need. I do not let my childhood trauma affect me at all. I've moved past it because dwelling on it is not good for you mentally or physically. Let it go; both of your parents are gone, and that situation will never happen again. For your kids’ sake, let it go. And maybe try seeing a therapist who can help you talk through it; it will make a difference. Also my daughter in law her mom was a drug addict and her Ex boyfriend was the leader in a gang and he beat the crap out of her and made her do really bad things, Now she is with my son she moved on and is a very happy girl... Let it go and give it to God..You will forever miss your dead loved ones dont let anyone tell you differnt but Do not hold onto past traumas it will give you cancer. My pastor told me this.
You are not alone! I recently understood why my Grandma Wanda Barron didn't want me to come up to Oregon because I have been (bored). Boredom is from the devil and now I have to take my Mother to court over something that should've never started all the while I have no husband to support me. 🕊
You feel like a kindred spirit, sweet girl! My husband and I used to sing the song “He didn’t throw the clay away” , do you know it? ❤ Your testimony is beautiful and God is using you!!
Like you said, God is always working for us. He can use anything for His good. The enemy will try and bring things up to stop you, but nothing can keep you from God's purpose. The things you went through were terrible and no child should have to see or experience any of that. Yet God has protected you through so many situations that could have gone the wrong way. Forgiveness is a huge breakthrough and it's something that Jesus wants us to practice even when it's hard. Even forgiving yourself. You had people in your life who tried to protect you as much as they could. It sounds like your dad learned a lot of things from his own up bringing. Alcohol can also turn people into someone you don't recognize. I've dealt with family members with addiction issues and it's so hard. You love them and you know they aren't really that cruel when the drinking isn't in control. It changes people in a lot of ways. Continue to pray and seek The Father. You are such a strong person even if you don't always think so. Jesus can heal anything we experience in this life. He took on all sin and sickness on that cross for us. His sacrifice is why we can go to The Father and have eternal salvation and new life. I can't imagine how hard it is to not have your family with you. God knows your pain and He is working in your life to comfort you. The enemy will not keep you from your walk with God. Understanding is absolutely what we need. The word is the answer to everything we don't understand about this life and our Father. You already have a lot of wisdom from what you've shared, but the fact that you keep listening to the Lord shows the most wisdom. Your obedience is amazing.
😢do you have a good friend to lean on ..hope so and you have your church which is good Talking about it helps ❤ I don’t have too many people I’m lucky I have an awesome sister My mom is still here so it’s going to be hard when she’s not here anymore I feel for ya and we appreciate you and your videos Your beautiful and so kind You got people rooting for you ❤💐🤠
Hi Stephanie I think you are a very loving and caring person the events or things that occurred when you were younger were never you fault you were a child and didn't have a voice but now you have you and I are a very much alike even though you and myself have never meet I think you are very resilient and strong the things you have achieved is awesome it's ok to angry or sad just know that you when you look back from where you were to where you are now you have over come many things you will be ok hope you have a blessed day possum 🙏❤😊
I know this means nothing to you but as a Mother and Grandmother Iam very proud of you. There are not many young ladies at your age that stay close to God and willing to learn and let go. Girly, you sure pegged it...u should put it on a tshirt..When God starts Blessing the devil starts messing. lol I will say as a Mom, that your Mom would be very very proud of you! You go girl, well the devil doesn't like it cause you stood tall, straightened your crown and said Lets go God!
Hey Sweetie, you are truly blessed. You will overcome. Keep trusting in God. He's always there for you. I have been through a lot in the past too. I understand you. What is your Facebook page name? ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Can i ask you i have been out of the hospital for 6 months now and I am scared because i have been dealing with this stuff for so long do you think i am going to be ok
I grew up in foster care and went through 29 homes, saw and went through a lot of what you did but went through many more as well, yet my faith in God is what has brought me through being semi sane lol. I do have C-PTSD and have a service dog for when I am in public alone as I do not do well in large groups or when people are being loud and yelling. I am almost sixty and I still find things that will trigger me to this day, I still need to learn to give it all to Jesus on those harder days where the devil tries to attack me with those memories. I try to be a silly fun loving person as well and I am extremely insecure with myself as well. HOLD YOUR HEAD HIGH HUN GOD IS GREAT
I have watched your channel for a long time.First off you are a beautiful spirit.I watch your interaction with your kids You give them such a spirited experience of life.I think you for your age and a mom to a few kids has rebounded from your upbringing.Celebrate your success ,many would fall you have shown the strength of people who have lived longer than you.I as a child came through a tragedy that some would collapse.I am 74 and still standing.Give yourself a Gold Star you would get millions if people gave them away.My parents are both deceased,I have learned at my age they were human and if one lives in the past it will not give one the life they deserve.Smile beautiful Lady you have ran the race and have in my opinion won the race.Love your spirit and your hauls.🌹
A lot of this hits home for me. 💗 My dad was a very angry man, he could be good when he wanted, but, most of the time we feared him. I try to bury it, but, there are things that trigger and will bring it all back. I am so glad you have the courage to talk about it.
Beautiful chat Stephanie. I have so much respect for you! You keep walking with the Lord and you are on the right path, always. 🫂❤🙏
Stephanie what you are saying is true I have went through this with my mother and still going through it and it has been thirty years of stuff that I have kept hidden from anyone.
Hello Stephanie, Read Psalm 91 Every Day, I'm Praying For You And Your Family!!
Give the past to Jesus. Live for the present.🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙋♀️❤️❤️❤️
This is carol, I feel your pain,fear etc.i forgave my dad too. I lived in fear. I confronted him when I was in my thirties. I told dad I forgive him. I could forgive but can't forget.❤❤❤❤❤❤
You are beautiful inside and out. You have a beautiful heart. I love your blogs
I feel this so much. There is so much that you're saying I needed to hear. Love you friend 🧡 healing is the hardest thing I've ever done. I'm proud of you girl!!!
Amen ❤love is a blessing
Its hard 😪 but your a beautiful momma ❤
I love listening to your videos, you remind me so much of my grandma who passed away a few years back. You guys have a similar accent and even little phrases you say are things she did, too. I needed to hear this message today. Thank you for sharing your life with us. 💚
The Lord continually tells me to “trust and believe “. When I remind myself I feel comfort.
At 56 years old I had never been alone, I always had someone to take care of, then I was alone and only had to take care of myself and I didn’t know how to do that. It feels so selfish to only think of myself. I’m still on my journey and learning maybe to love myself.
May God bless you with peace and healing.
I'm a Christian as well I go to my church pretty much every Sunday ❤❤
Thank you Stephanie
May God bless you and keep you and your family safe 🙏
God used you today to cross those T's and dot the i's I've my abusive childhood and young adult mistakes I've been mulling over for weeks now. I can finally accept that I'm a person too and like you said as a child I did nothing wrong
I just lacked the protective parents I so desperately needed ❤❤❤❤
Hi Stephanie!! Hon I totally feel your pain when you come for an abusive home as a child it follows you through your life! I promised myself my children would never ever go through what I went through but life has been hard! All the hurt you bottle up inside affects you in so many different ways it’s been hard for me to remember everything because my brain blocks everything!! My life has gotten way better since I’ve been sober for 2 years and I brought the lord into my life more!! You will make it through and healing your heart and soul will make you a stronger!! I hope you have a very blessed weekend!! ❤🙏🏻
Beautiful testimony! Let God be our guide give it all to him and our healing will start. Prayers to you for healing and sending you lots of love! 🙏🕊✝️
I know exactly what you mean ❤ I've been trying to heal from my past as a child too and im fixing to be 63 and its very hard
I appreciate this talk so much. Sending you a hug and all the love I have in me. You are STRONG❤️
I can so relate, I believe God speaks to me through Stephanie. she is an awesome sister in Christ ❤️🙏
🙏's for you cause I understand your message and thank you. I too have been on a healing journey, and it has lots of tears. Your videos make me happy and thank you for sharing a delicate piece of your life.❤
Exactly money isn’t everything, as long as you have a roof over your head love food on the table
You are strong all of us go through hard times goddoes hesl the broken
Thank you for sharing with us and I hope it facilitates healing for you. I grew up with addiction and family violence and it is very hard. It takes years to heal but healing will come, I promise. Your testimony will help others on their healing journey. You are like me, because I had such a hard childhood I made sure my children didn't want for anything and knew they were loved. I've been a single mom since 1987 to ensure that too. Now looking back, being a single mom was the biggest blessing and allowed me the space to grow and heal.
& It's time to make New + Better Memories with your kids your a awesome person so strong.You got this GIRL !!!!
Thank you for your wise words and bless you and I find healing takes up so much energy even physical however it’s all worth it in the end
Your kids are a blessing ❤
You are a wonderful person! You are an inspiration ❤❤❤
Healing brings ❤change which is healthy ✨️
Stephanie,
I hope that you read this comment. I have watched your channel for years. I also experienced as a child some of those things that you describe. I am now in my mid 70’s and I have lately been working hard to let go and stop allowing the memories to dictate my future that I have left.
The reality is that no one can unsee or unhear or unfeel the things that someone else has abused to us. But we can work on healing as you are doing. Forgiveness is letting go because we truly have no control over what others choose to do or say. I have control only over what I say or do.
I found this short video that has helped me so much, titled: “What is Forgiveness”. “Forgiveness is to release from all punishment. It doesn’t ignore what was done...it refuses to punish the one who did it….it was a big deal…it was wrong what they did. Forgiveness does not ignore the pain. It says that person did something horrible and I will not be your punisher for it….It gives them to Jesus....says you have your way with them.”
I am glad that you are healing. Thank you for sharing your video. You are an inspiration to others.
You are the warrior in your family you are so strong and kind God has you in the palm of his hand ❤
I'm keeping you in my prayers. I love having coffee with you and Temu! You are a good person.
I'm 57 still going thru healing I've had bad things as well but came up when I was 26 and went on till learned to accept at 52 but still hurting so sorry god bless you sweetie ❤❤
Thank you for sharing; you have helped as you share.
Im 75 years old and had a simular life. Your carrying a bunch of baggage that was not yours to carry in some aspects. Memories will always be with you but your going to be ok. Im alone also and miss people that are gone. Im here if you need to talk , i know its hard believe me and i know that scarey feeling. ❤
Thank you for your story I have chronic manic bipolar from what happened to me and PTSD ❤
You are strong and you have overcome with Gods help he won’t leave you give it all to him and be happy 😀🙏❤️
we got you girl! ❤❤
Big hugs. You can do this. Just remember all things are possible with God. ❤❤❤
When you think about your childhood and think what a wonderful one you have given your kids 👧 am proud of you you can tell how much they love you
I have what i call me to me talks and trust me it helps and as you get older you understand better what your feeling and why. Dont be so hard on yourself and believe me i have been hard myself also. Everything takes time 😊
I am a person who has been through hell and back. My mom used to beat me as a kid for no reason because she was mentally ill. I watched my dad get sick and die from cancer when I was 15. I am 51 now and have my husband and kids, and of course Jesus-that is all I need. I do not let my childhood trauma affect me at all. I've moved past it because dwelling on it is not good for you mentally or physically. Let it go; both of your parents are gone, and that situation will never happen again. For your kids’ sake, let it go. And maybe try seeing a therapist who can help you talk through it; it will make a difference. Also my daughter in law her mom was a drug addict and her Ex boyfriend was the leader in a gang and he beat the crap out of her and made her do really bad things, Now she is with my son she moved on and is a very happy girl... Let it go and give it to God..You will forever miss your dead loved ones dont let anyone tell you differnt but Do not hold onto past traumas it will give you cancer. My pastor told me this.
You are not alone!
I recently understood why my Grandma Wanda Barron didn't want me to come up to Oregon because I have been (bored). Boredom is from the devil and now I have to take my Mother to court over something that should've never started all the while I have no husband to support me. 🕊
Great testimony ❤
God bless you he is always with you. You have such a sweet and great love for our lord..stay strong the lord loves you ❤😊
You feel like a kindred spirit, sweet girl! My husband and I used to sing the song “He didn’t throw the clay away” , do you know it? ❤ Your testimony is beautiful and God is using you!!
Like you said, God is always working for us. He can use anything for His good. The enemy will try and bring things up to stop you, but nothing can keep you from God's purpose. The things you went through were terrible and no child should have to see or experience any of that. Yet God has protected you through so many situations that could have gone the wrong way. Forgiveness is a huge breakthrough and it's something that Jesus wants us to practice even when it's hard. Even forgiving yourself. You had people in your life who tried to protect you as much as they could. It sounds like your dad learned a lot of things from his own up bringing. Alcohol can also turn people into someone you don't recognize. I've dealt with family members with addiction issues and it's so hard. You love them and you know they aren't really that cruel when the drinking isn't in control. It changes people in a lot of ways. Continue to pray and seek The Father. You are such a strong person even if you don't always think so. Jesus can heal anything we experience in this life. He took on all sin and sickness on that cross for us. His sacrifice is why we can go to The Father and have eternal salvation and new life. I can't imagine how hard it is to not have your family with you. God knows your pain and He is working in your life to comfort you. The enemy will not keep you from your walk with God. Understanding is absolutely what we need. The word is the answer to everything we don't understand about this life and our Father. You already have a lot of wisdom from what you've shared, but the fact that you keep listening to the Lord shows the most wisdom. Your obedience is amazing.
I'm new to watching you but I enjoy watching very much I live in west tn ❤ I am definitely relatable to alot of the things you talk about ❤
Sending you love, light, and healing❤❤❤❤
😢do you have a good friend to lean on ..hope so and you have your church which is good
Talking about it helps ❤ I don’t have too many people
I’m lucky I have an awesome sister
My mom is still here so it’s going to be hard when she’s not here anymore
I feel for ya and we appreciate you and your videos
Your beautiful and so kind
You got people rooting for you ❤💐🤠
You're amazing !!! ❤
Hi Stephanie I think you are a very loving and caring person the events or things that occurred when you were younger were never you fault you were a child and didn't have a voice but now you have you and I are a very much alike even though you and myself have never meet I think you are very resilient and strong the things you have achieved is awesome it's ok to angry or sad just know that you when you look back from where you were to where you are now you have over come many things you will be ok hope you have a blessed day possum 🙏❤😊
Just keep on giving it all to God dear
I totally understand❤❤❤
U are making me cry its so much
It really helps to get it out talk about it 🙏🏼💔🙏🏼💔
Our lives are so different but so blessed 🙌 😇 🙏 ☺️ 😊 ✨️ 🙌
I know this means nothing to you but as a Mother and Grandmother Iam very proud of you. There are not many young ladies at your age that stay close to God and willing to learn and let go. Girly, you sure pegged it...u should put it on a tshirt..When God starts Blessing the devil starts messing. lol I will say as a Mom, that your Mom would be very very proud of you! You go girl, well the devil doesn't like it cause you stood tall, straightened your crown and said Lets go God!
Me maw and mom proud of you and God has you girl bless you
Stephanie l pray God gives you Peace and Comfort.❤
Amen 🙏 🙏 🙏 🙏 🙏 🙏 God is our father
I agree with you god bless you
I agree dear i am so happy for u ❤️ i love you friend 🧡
Hugs Stephanie
tyfs
I miss my momma too 😪
The past can’t be fixed. Pray for the next part of your life to be good. Only you and Jesus can do it together.🙏🙏🙏
I am so sorry 😢😢😢😢😢 hugs Hun
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I shared with my mom few years before she passed ❤
Love to you . . . .
prayers,Stephani
It ok ❤🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉
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Hello beautiful ❤
Hugs 🫂
Hey Ms.Stephanie 🫶🙏✊🩷
I am here for you dear ❤
Its been hard for me too
Hey couponinggirl 😊👋
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Hey Sweetie, you are truly blessed. You will overcome. Keep trusting in God. He's always there for you. I have been through a lot in the past too. I understand you.
What is your Facebook page name? ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Can i ask you i have been out of the hospital for 6 months now and I am scared because i have been dealing with this stuff for so long do you think i am going to be ok
hi Stephani
You need a boyfriend write a journal sweet heart ❤