Nathan Wagner - Psychosis

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  • Опубликовано: 11 дек 2024

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  • @nathanwagner762
    @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +593

    I really didn’t want to release this song. It’s something I’ve maybe talked about to two or three people. Terrified of the reaction. Terrified of the assumptions that come along with this topic. But it’s something that’s never talked about. Really ever. So here it is. I spent three years studying music every moment of every day. I completely cut myself off from everyone and everything except my studies. I knew that if I gave it everything, my chances of “Making it” were still slim. So I held nothing back. About a year and a half into isolation, I started to really really disconnect. This song explains the state of mind almost perfectly. Just this feeling of “Nothing is real” was overwhelming and would haunt me day and night. Couldn’t find peace of mind. By the grace of God, love and human connection brought me out of it. We’re not meant to be alone. If you’re in that place, reach out. Talk to me. I'll be praying. You're not alone. So sorry about the obscure topic, but if it could help someone feel less alone/more understood, It’s worth it. I love you guys so much. Can’t even begin to explain how fortunate I am. Thank you so much for listening.

    • @aleex1239
      @aleex1239 2 года назад +21

      You are an example to follow, keep it up you're incredible❤️‍🩹

    • @kaylonadkins3059
      @kaylonadkins3059 2 года назад +22

      I suffer a few mental disorders. Let me just say that your emotional, impactful topics are always on point. You speak like the voices no one else can hear so I never feel alone as long as I listen to your music! Thank you so much for sharing your experiences and your effort with us. You have survived and accomplished so much! Just keep going!

    • @lorenzosha12
      @lorenzosha12 2 года назад +7

      I have been listening to you for some time now and I can tell that your songs, words and music came from the heart and hit the heart .. but this one has gone deeper, it reached for the soul .. I personally heard it with my whole being.
      I wish you have a good day and a nice life and that you never experience something that hard ever again .. you and anyone of course

    • @simonkennedy6116
      @simonkennedy6116 2 года назад +5

      I'm trying to find words but you've expressed your thoughts and meaning so well

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +7

      @@aleex1239 Thanks so much Alex 🙏

  • @Frenchfries2Diabetes
    @Frenchfries2Diabetes 2 года назад +46

    As a diagnosed schizophrenic it means a lot to hear songs that relate to exactly how I freakin feel. Well done man. Damn whenever i need a song like this, 9 times out of 10 it's you. Love your song. And I love the song don't forget me.

  • @Anx10203
    @Anx10203 2 года назад +104

    The fact that you are so brave, and release those songs with deep lyrics that show so much, is more inspirational to me than I can say in words. Love you and keep going❤

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +15

      Means the universe. Thank you so much for taking the time to listen ❤

  • @myiathealbino
    @myiathealbino 2 года назад +17

    saw this on my recommended feed this morning and decided to give it a click.
    best decision I've ever made.
    this song is a beautiful work of art. the words are so powerful and meaningful. I wish more songs were like this.
    I'm currently writing a story where the main character struggles with hallucinations and this is hugely inspirational.
    topics like this need to be talked about, but are rarely handled correctly. thank you so much for being brave enough to release this masterpiece.
    this is the kind of song I would *love* to animate a music video to after my course is over.
    you have my admiration for working up the courage to release such a brilliant piece of music.

  • @MEEverett
    @MEEverett 2 года назад +3

    I have schizophrenia. I often especially lately have been having days at a time where I feel like im a ghost simply wandering through a afterlife made of memories. Or somehow worse that I'm dreaming and that I'm going to wake up to a world I don't know. It can be a scary experience to be honest. It's unlike anything I've experienced.
    This song is beautiful, thank you for writing and singing it. Never be afraid to share your emotions.

  • @lee-annemcaleese7855
    @lee-annemcaleese7855 2 года назад +14

    I don't know what it is, but when I listen to this song I get like a rush of adrenaline, my heart literally starts racing, I am so glad your music has been your release. Thank you for the raw vulnerability you are always able to put into your music.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      Your kindness means the world to hear. Thank you for letting me share!

    • @forgivvvn
      @forgivvvn 2 года назад

      Wyd anne

  • @merumitsu6901
    @merumitsu6901 2 года назад +16

    You're one of the few people to create such beautiful songs that reflect allot about the singer. It's so poetic and great! (Cool thumbnail too btw)

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      Hey! Thank you so much 😊 So glad you liked it!

  • @Seven_Miseries
    @Seven_Miseries 2 года назад +3

    What I like is that in many of your songs I recognize myself. As a child, I grew up alone, without friends because everyone thought I was strange, so I started having imaginary friends, which grew over time. Still today I am alone, daydreams, imaginary friends, voices, I fight them for the peace and revenge of these wicked children. Courage to you Nathan, Courage to all those in the same case. If anyone needs to talk, i'm here :)

    • @Seven_Miseries
      @Seven_Miseries 2 года назад +1

      Paranoïa and psychosis 💔

    • @alonanomi5809
      @alonanomi5809 Год назад

      And if you need to talk, I'm here too !
      Nobody should be alone with your situation. That sadly to many lives.

    • @Seven_Miseries
      @Seven_Miseries Год назад

      @@alonanomi5809 Hi, this is very nice you know c: these day i have a hard time because of many problems but it's getting better and better i guess ;) i can't really explain that because i'm french and i don't use any translator haha but this is so nice to you part💕 tysm

    • @alonanomi5809
      @alonanomi5809 Год назад

      @@Seven_Miseries thank you ! I was not expecting such a nice reply. glad that it is getting better despite the hardships. Also , Le français n'est pas un problème pour moi. Je suis Canadienne française.

    • @Seven_Miseries
      @Seven_Miseries Год назад

      @@alonanomi5809 oh je voiss Cx , les choses vont mieux par rapport a avant, cependant de nouveaux problèmes surgissent 😅 je suis un peu seule c'est vrai et cette époque vint quand même à me manquer parfois, j'avais beau être bizarre, au moins j'avais des amis imaginaires. Toutefois sur le plan objectif ça va mieux :)

  • @batsylamancha3845
    @batsylamancha3845 2 года назад +39

    This song is so beyond cool. And really relatable tbh, especially when you get trapped in your mind and you just can't get out no matter how much you try. We love you too Nathan, and appreciate everything you do. Even if you didn't want to release this song because of the meaning of it. And I know it's just random people behind a screen and it might not seem like it could be real or heartfelt, but you're not alone ❤️ there's so many of us on the same boat and it's wonderful to help each other. Some that listen to this song could get a feeling that they're not alone either

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +6

      Means the freaking universe. Thank you so much for your time. Beyond grateful.

  • @reaper9990
    @reaper9990 2 года назад +4

    Sir, you have my respect. As someone who has dealt with issues since a very young age I know how hard it can be to recognize and come forth with mental struggles. This message isn't about me though it's about how amazing your songs are and how you are able to touch the lives of so many people. I don't know your struggles but I'm a open ear for anyone in need. Keep up the excellent work sir.

  • @nicolasstaquet8273
    @nicolasstaquet8273 2 года назад +3

    everything is beautiful: your voice, your music, your texts....
    youtube offered me your songs, when I was going through a difficult time in my life, and thanks to you, I faced it and I fought.
    a huge thank you to you and your work and above all do not change anything ❤‍🔥❤‍🔥❤‍🔥

  • @coffeecat7368
    @coffeecat7368 2 года назад +5

    Thank you for uploading this song. As a sufferer of some mental health stuff, I find your music calming so thank you again.

  • @mivabricks11
    @mivabricks11 2 года назад +4

    This song is a little terrifying, but also extremely beautiful in a haunting way. Thank you so much for releasing this

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      Ahhh im sorrry! But thanks so much for listening. Means more to me then you could ever know

  • @morangofofa4718
    @morangofofa4718 2 года назад +2

    Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.
    Matthew 11: 28-30

  • @Glorfindel_117
    @Glorfindel_117 2 года назад +2

    All these quarantines have shown people what my daily life is like. Except instead of "I cant go out" for them, it's "I dont want to go out" for me. I'm highly introverted, so seeing people at work every day is generally enough for me. Now and then I want to do something but not often, I do stuff with people online pretty often too. There's a difference between being alone and being able to entertain yourself on your own.

  • @reinstriver5432
    @reinstriver5432 2 года назад +5

    Man I'm having a hard time describing what this song feels like, I dunno if it's because I'm tired, we did quite a few chores today at home, or just because it's amazing to the point of leaving me silent. I love the song man, it's phenomenal! The rise, vocals, lyrics, especially the lyrics and the instrumentals are beyond incredible. There's not a thing I would change. It has that feel of a timeless classic. I love this song bro!
    The idea you gave it, about solitude, really encapsulates my character in my current novel a lot! I might have to delve deeper into your lyrics here for some inspiration 😌

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      Yooooo! Id be honored to inspire one of your characters at any capacity. Hope you know how grateful i am for you. Thank you. Looking forward to pitching my music to your anime !

    • @reinstriver5432
      @reinstriver5432 2 года назад

      @@nathanwagner762 Pfffff hahahaha I'll hook you up with the VoyceMe CEO when they start making anime XD He's chill, I'm sure he'd want you to do an opening or four

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      😍😍😍

  • @izmizcha955
    @izmizcha955 2 года назад +1

    I heard a doctor talking about Psychosis the other day and here you are making a song about it. So cool!

  • @pandoraedits_
    @pandoraedits_ 2 года назад +10

    Thank you so much for releasing this song, Nathan. I was missing your music so much (even if it hasn't been that long). You really speak to me on another level and bring what some of us feel but don't have the right words to say it with. This song is amazing and I love so much how honest and raw you were with it. This is why I love your music so much. I connect with it in another level and when it comes to not having the right words, there it is, one of your masterpieces pops in the notifications with the exact thing I might need in the moment.
    I was recently in a very dark spot these past few months and was disconnecting myself from everyone and everything, and it has recently gotten better thanks to God mercy and love. When I saw this I realized God never left me alone and through prayers I got much better. Now I see this song and it makes me immensely happy that even when you had an obscure moment you were -thanks to God, love and your friends, as you said-get out of that dark place and move on. Thank you so much for publishing it. Stay amazing. 🙏❤️ Blessings.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      Ahhhh thank you so much for still listening Claire! Youve been here so long. Thank you thank you thank you. Im so glad the songs mean something to you. So so so grateful

    • @pandoraedits_
      @pandoraedits_ 2 года назад

      @@nathanwagner762 Thank you so much, you got no idea how much I appreciate the music you make. You truly are a legend and I admire you greatly. Hoping to one day meet you and we get to spend some time to talk about music. Thank for being so amazing. 🙏🙏❤️❤️ God bless you.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      God bless you!

  • @ANCHOR511
    @ANCHOR511 2 года назад +1

    this song touch people soul. mental health/ the feelin of being lost delusional lonely the feeling that nothing is real that is all in your hea. people don't talk about it. Music is a universal language that connect people even when we want to isolate ourself just because reality is too tough. Overthinking overanalyzing feel too deep or not feeling at all. Fuck this song is amazing. i can tell everything is from experience and not just because. i feel every word evenif i had a diffferent experience of escaping reality and auto-isolation. love y'all

  • @RUN2DARKNESS
    @RUN2DARKNESS 2 года назад +2

    Really loved the music on this and the comment you put, I am so glad you got out of the dark hole of being isolated!! You have a kind soul and I am glad people get to see it and appreciate it !! Remember to keep hydrated

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      Ahhh thanks so much! So glad you liked it. Means the universe. Same to you!!

  • @iplet
    @iplet 2 года назад

    A lot of people are scared, a lot of people feel this way. Most people don't share these kind of feelings, most people don't know that others feel this way. Few talk about it, but there's one who has the strength to make a song about it; the legendary Nathan Wagner again blows the minds of his followers and subscribers with his incredible talent of mixing music, poetry, personal issues, and intellect into a masterpiece.
    Well done! A very epic piece that will reside with me for a while, and play on repeat. This music honestly helps me - and I'm sure I'm not the only one - to bring my emotions to the surface where I can view, sort, and unpack. Beautiful song Nathan!

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      Not even lying, this comment brought me to tears. Thank you. Thank you so much. Beyond grateful

    • @iplet
      @iplet 2 года назад

      @@nathanwagner762 I believe everybody should do their part. You've made my day, and I can try my best to make your just a little bit better. Thank you for the music 🙂

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      Too kind!

  • @altyraenevenstar7960
    @altyraenevenstar7960 2 года назад +1

    Oh my gosh......
    I needed this.....So much. I have been...wrestling so badly with exactly what you described....Maybe it is because I started cutting myself off from the world a few years ago, and now....I am terrified of the disconnected feeling, the feeling of unanchoring....I dont want to lose my mind. I dont want to give way to the dark....I've alrdy been struggling with panic attacks and anxiety, but this hits different....Thank you for this.

  • @angmarrob
    @angmarrob 2 года назад +1

    I'm so glad that you have decided to upload this. I relate to this song a ton because I have dissociated a lot in the past and it reminds me that I'm not going through this stuff alone. Keep making music and never doubt yourself!

  • @Gooogl007
    @Gooogl007 2 года назад +4

    Holy crap this is good. I am not a lyrics man and always after the music itself but this sends shivers down my spine, arms and legs. Ones mind slips when alone for very long, less talking and more thinking thus you start thinking about stuff you normally would not. Can relate.

    • @katzui_keen
      @katzui_keen 2 года назад +1

      the opposit of my own, in musical taste I see (^_^),🍷

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      Glad you enjoy it!

  • @jonghoverse
    @jonghoverse Год назад

    This song is beautiful and important beyond words. I deal with Alexithymia and Autism. I lack some emotions, while feeling others way too strongly, I can't sort through my thoughts and can easily forget important events and people to me. Everything feels like it blends like noise and before medication, I felt like I was in constant mental chaos. I felt so disconnected from the world, nothing felt real and I was constantly overwhelmed.
    I struggled to even put this into words now, but this song speaks for me. I feel less alone that I am not the only one that experiences similar thoughts and anxieties. The struggle continues and a sense of isolation remains as I try to achieve my own hopes and goals, but I am thankfully in a better place today, this song helps me process it better and feel understood.

  • @louevans1914
    @louevans1914 2 года назад +1

    Beautiful song. Truly inspiring.
    You should be so proud of yourself for overcoming your fears. Be proud of who you are because you are a truly good person.
    Thank you for releasing this song.
    My love to you and everyone you have around you that has made your life better. I wish you every happiness.

  • @AgionAgion
    @AgionAgion 2 года назад

    This song just resonated with me. I listened to it for weeks now. I usually get tired of a song after listening to it after 100+ times, but this song just makes me listen.
    The lyrics make me think. Think all the time.
    And I love this song. I wish it was longer. But that's the beauty of good things.
    They end.

  • @TwinsTeam
    @TwinsTeam 2 года назад +1

    Goosebumps. So many feelings. Falling in love with all your songs. Please never stop! Gosh, I love it so much, I can't put it in words.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      Means the freaking universe! Thank you so much!!

  • @abyssoftus
    @abyssoftus 2 года назад

    This level of brutal personal intimate truth is exactly what WE, as individuals and as a society, need to heal. WE need to get past toxic beliefs that hold us back from being who WE really are and more importantly who WE are meant to become. WE need to learn it is ok to be vulnerable and it's ok to have times when WE are weak, conversely, WE need to support others when they are vulnerable or weak instead of tearing them down. Imagine a world where WE all sought to help each other become the best possible WE that WE can be. Try each day to say something kind, uplifting, or encouraging to another person. Face any harm that you have caused regardless of intent and seek to make it right. Connectedness with your fellow humankind is an amazing tool against so many of the ills our society is facing. Let us seek unity and move away from the divide.

  • @awardlosingmovies
    @awardlosingmovies 2 года назад

    Your music helps all people with any form of mental illness, weather it follow us shortly or whole life. You are rare, so is your music, your way to touch, your way to put all your feelings, thoughts into lyric and in a music that also touch, you help so many, and you also help yourself, again i feel so much of me in so much of you, it's like you are a younger brother from another mother to me, your creativity, your words and who you are, i am still blessed i found innocence when i was hospitalized first time 2019, you save my life everytime you upload new music, and share your deep thoughts with us. Thank you for all, and for a new favourite song, this song fits with my life right now and i am also terrified to confess im lost but tryin find myself again. 🙏😇🌟

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      Glad your trying to find yourself! Stay strong! Much love!

  • @sharneehogan6828
    @sharneehogan6828 2 года назад

    We will always listen to you Nathan because you have something that I've never heard before in music it's something special in a good way I always click when you release a new song because it's like country mixed with emotion and it's so magical I love it so much I will never stop listening to you

  • @Tori_T_Artist
    @Tori_T_Artist 2 года назад +1

    "the one I love the one I hate" "mental pictures they became"
    Totally get this line. Had to socially isolate for 18 months to keep a loved one safe from covid, nobody around me cared enough to not spread it, so I stayed away until new treatments, vaccines, etc came out to protect the vulnerable. Yeah, I had people living with me, but it's not the same as real interaction, as I've found. When you're alone that long, your friends start to feel less and less real...and of course, when I came back, I discovered I have C-PTSD 🤷 Overall really connected to this line, thank you ❤️

  • @_iris1328
    @_iris1328 2 года назад

    Showed up randomly in my recommended. I'm not disappointed couldn't have come at a better time. Thank you for sharing 😊

  • @JustinGuitarTime
    @JustinGuitarTime 2 года назад

    I'm falling in my head, this winding road, it never ends.... absolutely gorgeous... yet so true. I love your music man, I'm so happy you do what you do!! You're better than the fame... You keep it REAL AS SH**!!! I'll always be here, I hope you ❤ what you do, I know I do

  • @yashsawarn9050
    @yashsawarn9050 2 года назад

    Nathan, there will always be people that will have a negative opinion to everything you do. But till now i see an overwhelming positivity to all your songs. Keep fighting and godspeed.
    this track is dark.......like very dark, but it embodies whatever you have said in your comment very well.

  • @_Louve_
    @_Louve_ 2 года назад +1

    Tes compositions sont des chefs-d'œuvre, j'en ai des frissons à chaque fois que j'entends ta voix ❤ Tu mérites tellement plus de visibilité !

    • @RyanTheKingOfOrion
      @RyanTheKingOfOrion 2 года назад +1

      Oh un ou une fr! Complètement d'accord!

    • @_Louve_
      @_Louve_ 2 года назад

      @@RyanTheKingOfOrion Ouiii, je suis française ! 😂 Je crois bien aussi que c'est la première fois que j'en croise un.e sur un compte anglais x)

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      Thank you!

  • @jeremysolo4972
    @jeremysolo4972 2 года назад

    I've got chills. I am Bipolar and have bouts of Mania/Psychosis that can sometimes last for months.
    This song I'd amazing, my friend. Thank you for sharing it with the world. There are some things you just can't know till you're there and even when you're there, where are you...
    Oy.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      I appreciate you sharing! Thank you! Makes me so glad to hear you like the song!

  • @Mellói43
    @Mellói43 2 года назад

    As someone who has been dealing with depressive psychosis :
    Thank you so much for releasing this and I really love this song !
    I remember back when I didn't have my current medication to support me a bit and generally was in a darker place,
    it would come for me in phases where I'm either feeling like nothing I perceive is real or am full of selfhatred and hopelesness.
    Now I'm still struggeling, but defenitly a lot better and able to live my life.
    I feel like this song captures the questioning of what reality itself is if I should just go to the afterlife, where I can finally have peace, quite well.

  • @bence0302bence
    @bence0302bence 2 года назад

    Your work is terrific. To think you didn't want to release the song...
    I'm so glad you did

  • @Llawliet130
    @Llawliet130 2 года назад

    Thank you for using your gift to beautifully talk about this topic despite being terrified.
    Also, to be honest, I think you've already made it. Your soul comes through in your music, and we witness it.
    You've helped/are helping many of us processes our own things we deal with.
    I want you to know that I hear you. We are here for you too.

  • @juliav.6463
    @juliav.6463 2 года назад

    you deserve respect, because such lyrics reflect what people can feel,but are afraid to tell about. Like your songs since "Paranoia" came to my life.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      Truly means the world to hear! Thank you Julia!

  • @XolTheWanderer
    @XolTheWanderer 2 года назад

    You're helping so many people find the words for their own emotions. Bringing light to these feelings is such a beautiful and inspiring move. We can't mask these feelings any longer. Thank you Nathan ❤

  • @shnyfa
    @shnyfa 2 года назад

    This song is so damn awesome. I'm listening to it the whole day since Spotify suggested it to me. It speaks on so many levels to me and I'm so glad that you released it. Of course the lyrics are so touching, but the whole compilation with your heart-breaking voice... This song is totally epic!

  • @Inher_ownworld16
    @Inher_ownworld16 2 года назад

    Tonight i was walking around really no place to go, felt like i was flying i wasn't high but it was a feeling i hated, being trapped in my own head to the point im suffocating physically, it's like drowning... No place to go no where to feel. Trapped in your mind so long you feel numb. I relate to this song And the courage you took to post this was a great strength most don't have.

  • @jennaingram0000
    @jennaingram0000 2 года назад

    Nathan, I’ve been in love with your music since your song lonely. Your music has helped me through darks times and I honestly couldn’t thank you more. I also wanna thank you for releasing this song when it was difficult for you to release it. This song hit hella close to me since I feel like I’m stuck in my mind and have no idea what to do. I love you Nathan and thank you for being my fav music artist that changed my life

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +2

      Ahhh thank you for your continual listen since lonely!

  • @missdixie3053
    @missdixie3053 2 года назад

    I literally can't get enough of your voice. Your voice alone guides me through tough times and there seems to be more of those latley......so thank you ❤️

  • @benjaminmayer6152
    @benjaminmayer6152 2 года назад

    Fantastic song! I was out camping and clicked as soon as I got home. It sounds so cool, but speaks well to a sensitive and difficult topic.

  • @midnightshadow7031
    @midnightshadow7031 2 года назад

    I always love how the songs you write are stories themselves, conveying the emotions in this way to sense this awesomeness and powerful meaning.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      So glad you like then. Means the universe. Thanks so much listening!

  • @BlackNCS
    @BlackNCS 2 года назад +3

    Wow nathan, this is amazing, thanks for these songs, one gets to identify with them, thank you very much nathan ❤️

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      Thank you so much for listening. So grateful for you.❤️

  • @shea4636
    @shea4636 2 года назад

    Your lyrics are killer this song is epic and hits the soul hard, thank you for taking a chance and sharing it.

  • @jacobjig9550
    @jacobjig9550 2 года назад

    Life is a journey not a destination! The more we go through the stronger we get! Live like there's no tommorow for a bit and enjoy! Beautiful song and lyrics! Definitely one for the books!

  • @ace5180
    @ace5180 2 года назад

    Bro, I'm Brazilian and I've never known such a dedicated and impeccable work as yours, the feeling that your music conveys everything is magnificent, I honestly don't know how you're still not a giant. Lonely is perfection, you have a new fan and I bet it will be a big hit yet.

  • @devi.village
    @devi.village 2 года назад

    I always mesmerized by your music.
    All the feels inside.
    The emotion in every words.
    Wow...

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      I’m so glad you like it!

    • @devi.village
      @devi.village 2 года назад

      @@nathanwagner762 btw,congratulation for your wedding. Hope you both happy.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      Yes! Thank you!

  • @BryanTheFury
    @BryanTheFury 2 года назад

    You don't need to think about how to become awesome... because you know? You ALREADY ARE awesome. More people will comes with time! The more you'll express multiple kind of emotions in your songs and talk about them, the more people you will reach out and will come back at you! Keep pushing! Keep Going! Keep making us fly with those songs!

  • @vigortoonz8552
    @vigortoonz8552 Год назад

    this is super cool dude. thanks so much for sharing about your struggles. you're helping the lot of us with ours with your music so thanks

  • @jeffwilkerson1145
    @jeffwilkerson1145 Год назад

    Your music delivers such a strong message to many that need to hear and connect with . Powerful. Thank you for what you do.👍💯

  • @newrunning
    @newrunning 2 года назад

    You are the diamond in music ive been searching for years and now im in love with your music love it.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      Absolutely honored. Thanks so much for listening 🥺

  • @lunamoondemon9379
    @lunamoondemon9379 Год назад

    Thank you so much for releasing this song, it means a lot! It’s one of my favourite songs and as someone who suffered from psychotic depression and is prone to psychosis this makes me feel heard and less lonely❤

  • @dylan9610
    @dylan9610 2 года назад

    I’m about to get out of the military in a few weeks and I have been struggling for a couple years. Recently the phycologist told me to get tested for borderline personality disorder. I’ve been away from home for over three years now and it’s been difficult.
    You make some incredible music please keep it going.

  • @varenthian
    @varenthian 2 года назад

    This is the first I've seen from you, and I'm honestly really impressed, and glad this came up on my recommended feed. I've been listening on repeat for...what looks like 5 hours now :)

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      Thank you for checking out this song! Truly an honor to hear you enjoy it! 😭❤️

    • @varenthian
      @varenthian 2 года назад

      @@nathanwagner762 Thanks for sharing a creative masterpiece! I’ve had it on loop the last couple days now! 😁

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      Thankful😊

  • @JasonsHoerbuchstube
    @JasonsHoerbuchstube 2 года назад

    One one hand it is really great that you are brave enough to talk about experiences like that through art, showing others they are not alone with their problems, but also...
    This is sucha fucking banger, this is likely going to be one of my five favourite songs of you and you produced three off them within the last month (Opiate, which may be my favourite, Wedding Song and now this), your quality is just always rising even higher!

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      Ahhh! such timely encouragement! Thank you. I've been down on my newer work. Thank you thank you thank you! Means the freaking universe

  • @Jojo-dd1yq
    @Jojo-dd1yq 2 года назад

    So glad that I found you and your music, you're doing such amazing work and your songs are with me whenever I need them, acting like a medicine
    Couldn't find the words to describe how thankful I am for everything, keep the great work man 🙏
    Lot of love from France 🇨🇵❤️

  • @SteakFriesGuy
    @SteakFriesGuy 2 года назад

    Thank you for your talent and bravery to give a voice for so many out there that feel the same emotions all too well.

  • @noirescribbles7788
    @noirescribbles7788 2 года назад

    This Rawness of emotions is gorgeous.

  • @carriedemaio4555
    @carriedemaio4555 2 года назад

    Absolutely stunning, Nathan. So moving.... the lyrics, the understated, yet, powerful instrumentals... amazing!

  • @gabyl5364
    @gabyl5364 2 года назад +1

    This song is amazing, is full of emotion
    The lyrics are... woah, sometimes I have this feeling about nothing it's real, maybe we are a dream of someone else
    Sometimes the music it's a cure for ab emotion, a way to express them... so don't be affraid of express what you feel

  • @verdynerd24
    @verdynerd24 2 года назад

    This was something I needed to hear. This is so beautiful, and touching. I'll be listening to this for a long long while.

  • @berserkingtheburgerking9805
    @berserkingtheburgerking9805 2 года назад

    Your ability to open up is really amazing. You did a fantastic job with this song, thank you for releasing and and building the courage to do so.

  • @Da_868
    @Da_868 2 года назад

    Great as always! I love that you don't always follow typical song structures, like how you you only sing the chorus twice in this one. Speaking of the chorus, I heckin' LOVE it! Based on what you said, I'm pretty sure that the chorus' lyrics are literal, but dang do they make awesome metaphors too!
    I don't think I've experienced what you have, but I do occasionally experience what I think is called "derealization." Sometimes the space around me just feels like it's warping and my hands will look bigger or smaller, buildings look flat, trees look like movie props, etc. I felt super crazy at first, but know that I understand it, I don't care too much. I also used to self-mutilate, which I suppose is freaky to some people. Anyway, hopefully reading that I'm kinda "crazy" too helps you feel better about putting this one out. 🙂

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      You’re never alone! Appreciate you sharing! Honored you like it!

    • @Da_868
      @Da_868 2 года назад

      @@nathanwagner762 And you're never alone either Nathan! I appreciate your kind words and I'm so glad that you're able to put songs like this out, even if you're a little worried about it. 😀

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      @@Da_868 thank you so much

    • @Da_868
      @Da_868 2 года назад

      @@nathanwagner762 You're very welcome. 😊

  • @imnotasheeptrustme
    @imnotasheeptrustme 2 года назад

    I absolutely love your songs! I could spend HOURS! listening to them. This is no exception, I love the kinda dark and psycho vibe of it. Keep up the work. Also never forget to anti-dehydrate

  • @DutchTraveler
    @DutchTraveler 2 года назад

    This song is beautiful. I understand not wanting to release or talk about something that had a severe impact on you. I appreciate this song, since it makes me feel less alone regarding a past hell I went through. Thank you so much, and keep being amazing!

  • @dancinpenguins
    @dancinpenguins 2 года назад

    You're incredible, Nathan. Thank you for being willing to open up and share these feelings to help others who are in a similar place. Big fan.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      Ahhhh, thanks so so so much for listening. Appreciate you tons. Of course 😊

  • @paulgliadon909
    @paulgliadon909 2 года назад

    We can all relate. Many dont want to say it. You are the voice who can speak for us

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      🥺 honored . Thank you so so much for taking the time to listen. So grateful

  • @Ajonesidin
    @Ajonesidin 2 года назад

    Dude I cant explain how much I love this song! Idk if its called this but like, the glitchy theme that starts and ends the song is so fucking cool. I often listen to your music while I'm writing or as inspiration while im making characters. Your music creats such a vivid story in my mind and the emotion behind is is sublime. I read the description and while i understand your doubts, im really glad you didnt hold this back from us. Please continue to make great and inspiring music, its truly beautiful, nomatter the emotion it conveys or topic it covers.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      Means the universe! So so glad you like it. So so so grateful youd take the time to listen

  • @scarybubblegum5100
    @scarybubblegum5100 2 года назад

    This is another such an amazing song, and the lyrics as well as your story behind it are hella relatable. Ya an inspiration to a lot of people!

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      Means everything! Im so glad you liked it! Thank you so much for listening!

  • @stardapanda8916
    @stardapanda8916 2 года назад

    Dang….
    The state of “nothing feels real” I’ve been in and out of that since age 9.
    So listening to a song about that is really comforting in a way.
    Absolutely gorgeous song.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      Means the world! Honored to hear its comforting!

  • @pncne
    @pncne 2 года назад

    this is so powerful i have chills. thank you for sharing your vulnerability with us nathan, you aren’t alone

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      Thanks so much for listening 🥺 So so glad you liked it

  • @Alva-Crimson
    @Alva-Crimson 2 года назад

    For me you are an inspiration and your music have helped a lot throught the years. Its a dark (read human) topic but thanks for sharing it with us. God bless us all.

  • @Black_ReaperKai
    @Black_ReaperKai 2 года назад

    I am also struggling with this it's so hard to face it or to say anything to others just afraid they would turn on me fear is what controls me and i keep slipping away to just stop the climb back up i am unable to try cause if i don't try i can't fail right it's a struggle for sure
    You are a very brave man and I'm glad you released this song it's something i needed

  • @CreatorSakura
    @CreatorSakura 2 года назад

    Your music really helps people. I hope you never stop writing songs. Your voice is so powerful. 💜💜

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      Its been an honor that my music has been able to help! Thank you!

  • @notmydidea
    @notmydidea 2 года назад

    love this ! just so deep and i know the feeling of feeling unreal. of living the moment bcz the moment you pause everything will start to feel irreal again. dissociation, feeling even disconnected from your body. having few people, most online and not the energy to reach out. yeah. are we still alive or just breathing...?!

  • @janessao5114
    @janessao5114 2 года назад

    I love this, you're so brave to release the song 🥺😭 sometimes I feel stuck when people hurt me, I get things in my head that I don't want to deal with 😭😭

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      Ahhhh thanks so much for listening Janessa. Im sorry to hear that i can relate. Keep pushing on. Much love

  • @BodhiZhattva
    @BodhiZhattva Год назад

    What a wonderful work of art, and humanity.

  • @HarrenClubdog
    @HarrenClubdog 2 года назад +5

    It feels like every song you put out is directed at me. Every word pierces my heart and makes me realize I'm not alone in life. Thank you for everything you do. You truly are a gifted artist.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +2

      Ahh, means the world. Thank you thank you. Really appreciate you listening

  • @Khhaos
    @Khhaos 10 месяцев назад

    2:37
    Makes me feel so much

  • @duckylol7067
    @duckylol7067 2 года назад

    You never cease to amaze me 👍

  • @jaylah0193
    @jaylah0193 2 года назад

    I'm speechless. I think the song said everything so much better than I ever could.

  • @alexmagpie9715
    @alexmagpie9715 2 года назад

    Dude, everytime a new song hits I'm being remembered that you're still the best choice to put as a musical background to my Instagram story when I finished a new art piece 😂 so epic and deep, you're inspiring half of my character designs 😆

  • @shivaniraju791
    @shivaniraju791 2 года назад +4

    I'M HERE!! I'M HERE FOR THE NEW SONG.
    Also.. Amazing job once again!!! Wow those emotions.. You're so damn brave and amazing with your music, words and thought put into it all.
    I'll say it now and I'll say it forever. You're a blessing to us all

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +2

      Means everything. Thank you so so so much for taking the time to listen and comment. Appreciate you

    • @shivaniraju791
      @shivaniraju791 2 года назад

      I swear I tear up everytime you reply to my comment. I feel so damn honored 😭😭😭
      You've such amazing lyrics.. Such amazing music.. And you have so much emotion in your voice when you sing. I can't ever get enough of your songs. I was just listening to your songs when the notification came up.
      I don't know if I ever have enough words to express what I feel. I think I repeat myself a million times but I'm just like.. So lost for words and lost on your music.
      Thank you. Thank you so much for giving us music💚💚💚💚💚💙💙💙💙🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      You’re all good! I love the comments! They make my day!

  • @giadazangani7734
    @giadazangani7734 2 года назад

    it's a beautiful song. and what you say. we are never alone. c is someone or something that perceives us when we feel abandoned. but we. we are not alone and we will never be because some special person gives us the spirit of who we are and believe. the spirits of people are there, they come inside us to sit and lift us up. we will never be alone with union and strength we are people who give heart and light. nice nathan song

  • @TheOriginalCatfood
    @TheOriginalCatfood 2 года назад +1

    2:01 sick beat!

  • @markavatar1296
    @markavatar1296 2 года назад

    After recovering from psychosis twice, this song really resonated with me. Thank you 💓

  • @ashleytriton6255
    @ashleytriton6255 2 года назад

    This kinda hits a place as a schizophrenic, feeling of being trapped and lost in your mind, and that feeling of nothing being real, delusions.
    Regardless- I love the song, listened to you music for a long time Nathan, keep it up mane!

  • @andrewsterling2447
    @andrewsterling2447 2 года назад

    I’m glad you decided to release this it’s a good song

  • @v-g4276
    @v-g4276 2 года назад

    Awesome song dude 👏😎, I feel every emotions in your songs . No matter what situations in life everyone been through good or bad keep strong carry on .😊

  • @milkflavoredlacroix4868
    @milkflavoredlacroix4868 2 года назад

    Dear, god has really blessed Nathan and his lovely channel

  • @Dzugashvili
    @Dzugashvili 2 года назад

    love it my dude! thank you for all the emotion and art you grace us all with

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад +1

      Thank you for listening! Im so so grateful. Means everything

  • @jasminechavez7653
    @jasminechavez7653 2 года назад

    I felt your pain of what your going through and your message has uplifting my heart more thanks Nathan for my emotional support always I know how terrifying of all your situations and emotions you were feeling in the song it touched me for many reasons I get terrified yesterday Nathan my pet bird fitoria went to the vet yesterday I was worried that the vet doctors are hurting her when they examined her elbow I was crying at night worried that she might die anytime It was terrifying and stressful situations I was in yesterday Nathan my pet bird fitoria was nervous and scared and depressed but she’s okay now she’s at home right now healing herself and relaxing to uplifting her stressful feelings your song helps me heal with my own depression too I was depressed yesterday too it was hard my pet bird does not like going to veterinarian at all she gets depressed a lot you know that’s the truth Nathan loved your song my pet bird fitoria will listen to this song every day for her healing of her stress music helps her heal with stressful situations love you Nathan 😘🤟

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      I hope firoria will be able to heal! Sorry to hear about the vet experience.

    • @jasminechavez7653
      @jasminechavez7653 2 года назад

      @@nathanwagner762 thanks Nathan for prayers my friend fitoria is doing a little better every day her stress level is going down she still take medicine on her elbow once in a while but she is doing fine now thanks for support Nathan it means a lot to me my brother love you 😘

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  2 года назад

      Glad to hear!

    • @jasminechavez7653
      @jasminechavez7653 2 года назад

      @@nathanwagner762 ❤

  • @traciaa1723
    @traciaa1723 2 года назад

    Release everything with no fear. We will listen to every masterpiece.

  • @NotMisterCyn
    @NotMisterCyn 2 года назад

    Another masterpiece made by the legend himself 👏👏 you did great on this one! Keep it up, Nathan :D