As a nurse hearing your doctor advocate for you to the anesthesiologist saying “she says she doesn’t feel good.” Ugh chills. We love a doctor who listens to your concerns and advocates for you even to another doctor! ❤️
Carley, yes! Those were my favorite doctors to work with! As nurses, we get to hear some doctors being condescending and abrupt. This doctor sounds like one I would have taken a cut in pay to go to work for!
@@annadonieis3959 he was likely checking her vitals and the monitors, making sure her throat Wasn't actually closing and that everything was okay before he said it was... We can only hear the audio, not see what's happening.
Anaesthesia trainee here. Very common to feel a bit weird coz the chest is numb. So you feel like you aren't breathing coz you can't appreciate chest movements despite taking breaths. Reassuring patient's by saying you can speak, is to help them realize that to speak we have to draw breath. And it helps calm them down. If a patient is not breathing or struggling it reflects in the monitoring and observation of the Anaesthesiologist. Plus the anxiety, stress nausea of the operative process can make women feel sick.
I love that the doctors, while consoling you, didn't only say that you were wrong and not actually dying, they also said that this would be the best place for you to be treated if it were true. That feels pretty significant.
In my opinion the anesthesiologist could have reassured her in a better manner.. but her doctor was very kind. The anesthesiologist also should have given her drugs to relax and calm her more.
I think they did a good job too, though it may have seemed a little cold, technically as a healthcare provider you are not supposed to promise patients anything that you cannot know for sure. For example, saying "everything will be okay", when (though it probably will be!) the healthcare provider cannot say that with full certainty is technically not correct. Saying that she was in a good place to be if something were to go wrong, however, was a wonderful answer to her panic since that is a very true statement and can be backed up by evidence.
As a medical student, you sharing how your doctor was there for you made me tear up. I’m so glad there are doctors like that. I hope some day I can be like her.
@Laura Brown Not helping. Why would you even dare advertise at a time like this? It's also probably a scam. I know you're most likely a bot, but you are a disgusting human being for even having the audacity to advertise on a video like this. You're absolutely sick.
If he is comfortable talking about it, could Erik give his perspective of the birth experience on the podcast maybe? I can imagine it was terrifying. You are such a huge inspiration for so many women, and you and Erik really give me hope that there are good hearted people in this world. I love you Colleen, please never feel ashamed of talking about this 💕 Edit: Also wow I’ve never had a comment get this much attention, Colleen if you see this I LOVE YOU so much, I comment all of the time and say this but you’re like a big sister to me and I adore you and your strength and courage. Aghhhh! I hope you see this I LOVE YOUUU LOL
I really love how your doctor spoke over the male doctor that was invalidating how you felt. Your doctor sounds like a real advocate. “I know it feels that way and that’s scary, it’s not likely to happen but if it does we have everything to help” is waaaayyyy better to hear than “yeah that’s not happening”
In my experience, male doctors are the actual worst for invalidating my symptoms and feelings as an AFAB person. I've had two female doctors now and they've both been brilliant. I will never see another male doctor cos they're so condescending.
Post abdominal surgical trauma advice: use a pillow to hold against your tummy when you cough or sneeze! It’ll help with the pain ❤️ congrats again! These babies are so lucky to have you both as parents!
This is most definitely the best advice ever! Hands down! I only had a laporoscopy with just 2 teenie incisions but boy oh boy was my pillow my best friend for about 2 weeks. Coughing and sneezing = a whole new kind of pain post abdominal surgery. 2 years after my surgery my husband had a double hernia repair and he had two 2 inch incisions, one on each side of his lower abdomen and he was so grateful that I had learned some tips and tricks for him to use. Poor guy was miserable.
@@JNMKlover oh no please don't put honey on an open wound, that's a really good way to introduce bacteria and end up with a nasty infection. (Before you say the thing, yes I'm aware there's a chemical in manuka honey which has some antibiotic properties but that DOES NOT mean that topical manuka honey use can prevent infection - there is no evidence of that. And more than that, there are plenty of other chemicals in manuka honey which can promote bacterial growth - including, not insignificantly, sugar. In fact infants
In you’re last couple videos, you talked about how you guys were taking it “Hour by hour”, in this video you said “We are taking it day by day”. Just something I noticed! And that’s progress! So proud of you Colleen and Erik! 💗💗
This sounds absolutely terrifying and like a nightmare. I cannot even imagine. You are not dramatic at ALL. I am so glad you and the babies are through it and doing better. So proud of you and thanks for sharing
Oh yeah, I think she's on the defensive because people would say she's dramatizing for views. Obviously she's being real and she's recovering from physical and psychological trauma.
You had Flynn home for Christmas. I feel confident that these little ones will be home with their family for the big day, as well. Positive thoughts to you and your family.
I’m literally hoping, praying, and wishing for that. I just want these adorable miracles babies to meet Flynn and the whole fam be together for Christmas ❤️🩹 that would be the best gift for Colleen and Erik
Two c-sections here- you’re not dramatic. It’s very hard and very weird- like surreal. For me, the docs were gossiping about coworkers while I was being sewn up- paying no attention to me. My husband left with the baby and I was alone- no baby, no husband, just basically a slab on the table. You’re not being dramatic- it’s super hard to process, especially when it’s unexpected. You can do this!
I meant to tell you - a few weeks after we had each of our kids, I asked my husband to tell me what happened from his perspective. It really helped process some stuff. I found it so helpful! Maybe Erik could do that for you. Especially since this time was so traumatic.
I'm 16 years old, and the respect that I have for you, for being so strong and being such an amazing mother is crazy. I hope I get to be as good of a mother as you are one day.
It’s crazy how fast and efficient everyone in that room is when an emergency arises. When they hit the NICU button in my room, people were in there from a different FLOOR of the hospital in less than thirty seconds. Doctors and nurses are incredible. I’m so glad they took good care of you 💞
It's incredible the difference a caring doctor can make. The clip when you felt like you couldn't breathe is a perfect example. The male doctor seemed to brush you off, "yeah that's not gonna happen," while your doctor listened to you and reassured you that you were in good hands. I know doctors have a lot on their minds and are very busy during these procedures but I so wish more doctors understood the importance of listening to and communicating with their patients. Mental health is just as important as physical health when coming out of these traumatic experiences.
That was so nice to see!!! Considering when I had a c section almost 3 years ago the doctor that did it legit told me to shut up or else they'll put me to sleep 😫 they ended up putting me to sleep unfortunately.
the way your doctor comforted you when you felt like your throat was collapsing is incredible. she’s actually a hero and i applaud and appreciate her so much
Especially after the other doctor so dismissively said “yeah that’s not gonna happen.” I’m so glad Colleen had her doctor there with her to provide her with the exact care she needed.
@@jourdynne27 I think the doctor was meaning that he wasn't gonna let it happen but just said it poorly but I agree that her doctor was great at calming her down
@@lillyallen1170 hm yeah, listening again I hear it that way now. But still, in the moment when you’re freaking out about your life, that extra step for reassurance goes a long way
I'd like to hear Erik POV too, because despite everything, he sounded so calm in the audio.... he probably felt anything but calm... but still.. if he's comfortable with sharing, I'd love to know what it was like for him.
@Lori Lockwood I'm so glad someone finally said something. I gotta say, it's funny as hell that most everyone just rolls right by the spam and ignores it but omg, it is getting annoying on EVERY single comment! Shows how desperate a person really is when they have to try so hard to gain attention.
You are so strong!! My mom when she had me and my twin sister, the C-section. Tramuatized her. She felt the same feeling of her throat closing. She told me this story years ago and I still think about it, because I feel so bad her thinking she won’t see her babies again. Love you sm!! You are strong, and such an amazing moma ❤️❤️
my mom had me 2 months earlier and it was very sudden too. i had to be in the NICU for 2ish weeks and she says she really wanted to be with me all the time or at least in the hospital but she couldn't because she would always hear me crying from getting poked with needles for blood transfusions etc. moms are fucking badass for going through these things and staying strong
I'm sorry ur mom had to go thru that but it's a very good experience I'm guessing that's makes your moma stronger! Moms are wonderful . Also I think I used to watch your videos! They are entertaining!
Colleen-put a pillow on your incision and put some pressure on it when you need to sneeze. Or cough. Or laugh. Any jolting movement, really. It helps a ton! I hope you see this!
Best c-section recovery advice I received: Whenever you feel a sneeze or cough coming and you're not sure you can stop it, hug a pillow. I found pressing it onto to my incision area gently when I sneezed helped me feel like my insides weren't about to burst through my incision. Like you, I had never had a surgery before my c-section and, as you and others have said, I also felt like I couldn't breathe when my son was out. It's terrifying and, though I'm obviously okay, I'm still relieved to hear that seems to be a common thing.
I sobbed over my baby’s hospital bassinet when she had MINUSCULE levels of jaundice. She was under the lights for maybe 9 hours and then we could go home. And I was a wreck. I cannot imagine the emotional torment you have been in and yet here you are, strong enough to tell us all about it. My admiration is through the roof. 💘
I’m proud too . I also proud of myself. My twins were breach and had to have emergency c section too . They were 3lbs. Now my identical twin girls are 28 ❤️
Karrie Locher recently posted “there are two people born during a birth, the baby and the momma”. The point was mommas need care and love too during birth and sometimes get forgotten. Your story about your doctor made me cry - I’m 10 mpp and still get emotional about my hospital experience.
Everyone’s birth story is different and in no way should what you experienced be diminished or deemed like you’re complaining. C-Sections are rough, especially when they’re sprung up on you and not planned. I too had cholestasis with my only pregnancy and the exhaustion you experience is on a whole other level and really messes with you physically and emotionally because the lack of sleep. Felt like little tiny insects were pricking at me all night. 36hrs into being induced because of the cholestasis, I hadn’t dilated and had to have a C-Section. I was crying because I felt so defeated after everything I had gone through in my pregnancy and them trying to get me to dilate. I sat there on the operating table in tears trying not to have a panic attack. I was already struggling to breath from the crying and my sinuses being closed because of pregnancy. Once they pulled my son out and he was fine to hold, I didn’t wanna hold him because I was afraid I would start crying more. I immediately had a fever after the c section and was shaking/vomiting like crazy. Got postpartum eclampsia and didn’t get to leave the hospital for 5 days. Can be traumatizing but it is all worth it. Wishing you a speedy recovery and praying your babies stay healthy and come home soon!
Well THAT experience is understandable. .. and so is coleens, but she still is very overly dramatic about everything!! That comes from living a pampered life. Period.
@@jlishappy8811 everyone struggles even more privileged people. doesn’t matter how much wealth she has she can experience pain and suffering! she isn’t dramatic and even if she is who tf cares. it’s her life she’s just sharing her story
@@jlishappy8811 Please consider your words, and the effect they may have - would you say the same thing to someone who was telling you this in person? To a friend or relative? People have different lived experiences, and you don't know everything about a person based on what you see online. Best, C.
When I was born, I had the umbilical cord wrapped around my neck and had suffocated for so long that my heart had stopped. The only time I have ever seen my dad cry is while he recalled the events of my birth and how he felt waiting for me to cry while I was on the baby crash-cart. It reminded me of you talking about your baby girl. I don’t think remembering that moment will ever get less painful and scary, but that is just a testament to how much you love her and the place that she already holds in your heart. ❤️
Colleen, you pretty much told my birth story. I wish I could give you a hug. I loathed having my emergency cesarean because I felt so utterly alone and robbed of a great birth experience. Yet, I'm grateful for the cesarean saving our lives. It's a weird bag of emotions that not many people understand, so thank you for making me feel validated!
I had an emergency c section at 25 weeks, my husband was on a business trip in another state when I went into labor and I was all alone and it was so terrifying and traumatizing. My daughter spent 4 months in the NICU, she came home on oxygen and heart moniters and I was scared every moment. She's now 2, and perfectly healthy. Your doing great mama! This will be a distant memory soon and you'll be cuddling your baby's at home. Love you! Edit: to put how early she was into perspective, she was born June 21 and her due date was October 4th.
My son was an emergency c-section baby because the cord was around his neck and it went great. BUT, Sneezing is killer! And I was allergic to something in the hospital. Fun tip, squeezing a pillow to your incision while sneezing, coughing, or laughing brings the pain down just enough for it to be bearable.
try pressing a pillow against your incision when you have to sneeze. it made it a little bit more bearable for me when I was recovering from my c-section. also, listening to your birth story made me cry a lot (again), because I was reminded of how I felt, after my son was born. I was very lucky in that regard, that he was full-term and did not have to go to the nicu. But after the doctors pulled him out of me, I could hear him cry, but I could not see or hold him for what felt like the first 10 minutes of his life. And that was very traumatic. Just to hear him cry and not be able to even see him. Stay strong, Colleen, during this difficult time and please feel mentally hugged! :)
Hey, just saying, this is coming from someone who has PTSD - if you find that after the birth you've been increasingly anxious for no apparent reason, you may have developed PTSD from the event. You've said that multiple aspects of the birth day have been traumatic, so just something to look out for. PTSD is very treatable, so don't worry about developing it
Yes, it started at 3 months pp for me; severe anxiety and panic attacks with health anxiety. I think it’s definitely due to the emergency c section I had. It happened all within less than an hour.
My baby had her cord wrapped around her neck and they almost had to suction her out when I made direct eye contact with my partner and pushed her out in one push just so that they could get the cord off of her and she could breathe. It was terrifying, she was purple, I was completely torn, but she was okay after some extra oxygen. It was crazy to me how quickly that little baby became my hero, I kept telling her how proud of her I was. Your twins are heros and they are crushing it!
Strong mama. You did that! I’m a nanny. I don’t have kids of my own yet but seeing all these comments of how strong y’all are gives me hope that I can do it too one day. I’m terrified of giving birth. Thank you for posting your story. It gives me hope!
My mom had a really similar c-section experience when she had me. She felt like her throat was closing and she still cries when she talks about it because just like you said she thought she was going to die before meeting me. I wasn’t a twin, but I had cord prolapse and was stuck in my mom lol and I wasn’t breathing when I was born as well. When you talk about your experience it sounds so similar to the way my mom described it to me, and it makes me appreciate my mom so much more because she fought that much harder to bring me into the world mentally, even though she wasn’t “participating”. I bet your kids will feel the same way💗
This might sound silly, but i think crying a lot is a sign of healthy processing. You went trough big trauma and you are healing mentally and physically. Every time you apologize for crying, i just think: No no, you go girl, you are doing friggin' great! This also is taking care of yourself. I learn a lot from you, and i don't think i'm the only one.
As an L&D nurse, I’m so glad you were able to be awake for your c section. Most cord prolapse situations are so emergent that the mom is put to sleep. Also, I know this is silly but I just wanted to clarify that the NICU people in the room are mostly all nurses actually. Doctors do amazing work as well, of course, but just wanted to highlight the work those NICU nurses do.
I commented this on her other birth video cause I’m an L&D nurse, too. I’m glad because I’ve read about the disconnect women from their babies when they are not present for the birth which obviously adds to the trauma of an emergency.
I've worked for doctors. To me, they r the name, the insurance, and authority to sign off. Nurses r the BEST!!!! I LOVE U ❤️. Don't get me started on what y'all should be paid. I have two family members that r L&D. There r horror stories, u need therapy, if u haven't started, why not? All the cool kids r doing it ❤️
Not sure what hospital you are at. But never have I seen a mother put completely asleep from it. That's strange. And it is the doctor that does the main work and finding alot. Just like this story. If it wasnt for that doctor. This story would be sad
Aww 🥰 I’m a Nicu nurse that actually attended the delivery of twins yesterday! It never gets old and it definitely is a bunch of nurses taking care of those babies. And our wonderful respiratory therapists too ☺️ doctors are wonderful but nurses really are the glue that holds everything together 🥰 thanks for the recognition. L&D nurses are absolutely incredible! 😊
As someone who had cholestastis and an emergency c-section, it is hard to, but amazing to hear someone else go through the same thing. Makes me feel not so alone. Lots of love to you. So so happy for you.
Don’t ever feel like you’re being dramatic or too emotional! You were honestly afraid for the lives of you and your children. I’m crying just imagining how you must’ve felt.
I had my daughter at 29 weeks and she weighed 1 pound 12.6 ounces and she was in the nicu for 79 days. When you described how your doctor held you during your spinal it brought back all those memories on how incredible and caring they are when you feel like you are completely helpless with a million thoughts running through your head. This was so emotional to watch. I’m proud of you!
I am so incredibly sorry that happened to you💔my brother’s girlfriend had an emergency c section with her daughter and when they took my niece out of my future sister in law, she was completely purple and wasn’t breathing and it was very terrifying
I sent a thank you card to anesthesiologist at my second c section! It was like a dream and the best rest I'd gotten in months. Some are truly out here doing the Lord's work.
I literally asked mine to marry me the moment I had a contraction and they showed it to me on the monitor because I didn't feel it anymore! 🙃 and yes, my husband was standing next to the bed when I proposed to this stranger!
The first thing I recognized was Colleens new shirt and I thought: "Oh, how fitting. It's the theme of the video." And I cry with her EVERY time. Mommas unite. And the part with the not crying of the baby I can understand very well. My son took his time until he cried out for the first time. He came out of me and I just called his name and waited for his cry, but it didn't come. For me it felt like minutes, but it probably just were a few seconds. It took us a little longer than wished to get him out because my power left me. But my doctor helped by pushing on my belly from the outside. So my son just needed a second to take a breath. But this moment waiting for his cry was so horrifying for me.
I just had a baby at 32 weeks in May and the best thing I was ever told was that the highs will be unbelievably high and the lows will be just as intense and that really resonated with me. He is now a happy healthy 6 month old. Praying for you and your family. NICU life is the hardest thing I’ve ever been through but one day you will look back and realize it made you a stronger mother. 💕 talking about how hard it was made me feel better ❤️🩹
This! I had my youngest at 32 weeks too and agree with everything you said. I will add that almost 18 years later, those NICU days are a distant memory yet watching Colleen’s story brought all those feelings flooding back. It definitely makes us stronger though! I’m so glad your baby is home and doing great, my daughter was in for 6 weeks but is now a perfectly healthy 17 year old with her own car and full time job. NICU babies are tough cookies! ❤️ xx
I have never had any children, but I have had an appendectomy, and sneezing after that was ABSOLUTE HELL. It really helped to grab a pillow, pull it up to your abdomen, squeeze that tight against your body, and sneeze while keeping that pressure. I promise you, it helps so much. I love you so much, Colleen!!!! You are actually amazing.
I was about to comment this exact thing - well, almost, mine was an emergency colectomy, not an appendectomy, but the end result is still very very very very very very very very (is that enough verys?) ouchy when sneezing. Or coughing. Or laughing. The pillow trick worked wonders for me as well.
Girl !!!!! I had an appendectomy in august 😂😂😂 it hurt to laugh and to sneeze 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 i deff did the pillow pressure trick. Still hurt but not as much as without.
I’m a nurse and it was eye opening to hear your experience from the other side. Congratulations to you! I’m thankful you and the babies are doing well. As much as you want the babies home by Christmas don’t get your hopes up. It may not happen and that is okay. Trust me it was be worst if they don’t come home and you get your hopes up. If they come home sooner that’s fabulous!
As a nurse, I would strongly advise against commenting something like this. If the US is anything like my country, it probably breaches your social media and privacy policies - especially the second part of your comment - risking your registration. If you were to comment at all it should be something generic that doesn’t identify your relation to Colleen and the twin patients. Perhaps remove this comment for safety and save comments like this for if you see Colleen on the ward.
@@ictybtwbc I don’t know her personally and I am not in anyway involved in her or her children’s care. I’m just a nurse in a similar role as she described in her video so I related to that.
So, I’m only 13 so haven’t given birth to any humans (hopefully in 20 years or so!) but when I was born, my cord was wrapped around my neck and I wasn’t breathing for a while. My mum told me that was one of the scariest moments of her life. I do not truly understand this pain and fear, but I know I am so so so so proud of you! Hope you are recovering well (you look AMAZING!) and the rest of the fam - of course the twins - are doing great! Love ya 💗
My brother was born the same way as you and the doctors said they didn't know if he would be able to talk, speak, walk, or even make it through the night. He is now 13 and can do all of those, he just has a little trouble with math.
I'm a very sympathetic person, so whenever you started crying I started crying right there with you. You're so strong mommas and I'm glad that your twins are here and healthy. You have a beautiful baby girl and baby boy, I've been watching you since I was in middle school and I feel like I've kinda grown up with you. And I know a lot of people don't like to share their kids with people over the internet because of obvious reasons, but I really appreciate you sharing your life,family and stories with all of us on the internet. I know you don't know me and I don't know you personally, but I love you Colleen and I just want to thank you for being part of my life both as yourself and as Miranda.
You have genuinely taught me more about pregnancy, birth, and all that goes with it more than anyone else! No school or person! u are absolutely incredible! I love u! Sending all my love and prayers to u and your sweet family!
I am SOBBING. This is bringing back all of my c-section memories. I’ve had three and each time I also felt like I was going to die on the table. The spinal block was so easy for me, too, I barely felt anything at all each time! It’s crazy how similar we are, I also have ADHD and Dermatillomania and I’m a singing actress and it’s just so weird bc I feel like I’m watching my soul sister living a separate life on the opposite coast from me! I’m so proud of you. You are absolutely a SUPERWOMAN and even though it didn’t feel like you participated in your twins’ births, your body absolutely was a freaking BOSS LADY that knew exactly what to do to get those babies out exactly when they were supposed to. I believe the timing was perfect and you should be proud that you were able to endure such a hectic time! Love you, Colleen!
Yes c-sections have that weird connotation of making women feel they didn’t do something right… but our bodies certainly did all the hard work right from the start. Her baby boy knew it was time to get them out.. and kicked the walls down..his sister needed to go… 🙏🏻💕
Since it often is a traumatic experience and can also invite unwanted personal questions I can definitely understand not many women talking about their birth… so I really appreciate you talking so openly about everything! It‘s very interesting to hear your raw- in the moment- feelings and thoughts. You are so inspirational, Colleen! I wish you a fast recovery, mentally and physically 🍀❤️
When my mom was giving birth to my little brother, she had to do an emergency c section because his umbilical cord was wrapped around his neck. He is currently 12 and watching try not to laugh videos in the room next to me, I love him to bits. Glad your kids are doing okay, love you Colleen! ❤️
My oldest is 17, and he was an emergency C-Section, and his was so traumatizing. My recovery was even harder with him as well. However my other 3 kiddos were all scheduled C-sections, and they were way smoother, and less chaotic and recovery was a breeze. You will get through this and those precious babies will be home before you know it.
The epidural wasn't bad for me either. It was "zingy" when they were moving it around though. The back labor with contraction coupling was infinitely worse. Poor baby started to be in a lot of distress that nearly made her heart stop so they took me to emergency c section and gave me a spinal because the epidural didn't make me completely numb. So two spine jabs! And still they couldn't get me totally numb with even the SPINAL! SO I got to be put under general anesthesia and woke up totally disoriented and apart from my baby. Didn't get to hear her cry. Didn't get to know if she was OK. She was great and with my husband and mom but SHEESH! The process was barbaric. It's very weird getting to know what happened truly through the post op notes. I leaned my baby wasn't breathing and was resuscitated. I learned she had pooped myconium into the amniotic fluid. I didn't know the surgeon or anyone to even be able to ask later what really happened. I'm less than thrilled. Biggest piece of advice: make sure you have 1 doctor for your whole pregnancy so you know your surgeon and your care team. I went with midwives who cycled through and incase of emergency I just got whoever was on call.
See for me my epidural was pure agony but also I was having extreme back labor, contractions that were less than 30 seconds apart so they had no option but to do it while I was contracting instead of in between contractions, and my partner had to hold me still because with my contractions I had the urge to move around a lot 😭 went completely drug-free the second time (didn't have back labor so it was more manageable for me) and that was by far my best labor experience, although it was technically my worst delivery experience due to complications with both myself and my son.
That's absolutely terrifying. Maybe it's a good thing that you didn't have to go through the fear of seeing your baby not breathing and having to be resuscitated, though. It's completely understandable if you would have rather been awake, for me personally I would just be relieved to not have that image in my head. So grateful that your baby was okay!
I wish no one else had to go through general anaesthetic to have their baby, but it makes me feel less alone to hear someone else went through it too ❤️
I just wanted to say that my csection experience was like this. You aren’t the only one. It was terrifying and hearing you talk about yours made me feel more normal, so thank you so much. This is birth trauma and it’s okay to be worried and upset about it. It has taken me years to feel better and I still cried hearing about your experience. 🤍
As a 17 year old woman who’s FAR from having kids or thinking about that or adult life in general lol YOU INSPIRE ME! You to me feel like a mother figure and guiding force through the trials and tribulations of life and womanhood. You are extremely strong and this story brought me to tears. I love you and your family and new babies and wish you all the best! Thankful for you and your honesty it’s so touching ❤️❤️
I have never met Colleen yet I feel like I know her so well. I cry allll the time while watching her videos so when I saw the new babies for the first time I had a meltdown ! They were so cute and tiny and I remember watching Flynn when he was born too. You are doing great Colleen if you ever see this comment just know we all love and admire you so much ❤️
Colleen- I didn’t just give birth to two babies and I CRIED THIS WHOLE VIDEO. Thank you for sharing this journey. You have helping thousands of people throughout your career. You inspire me to be bold, authentic, and unabashed. I appreciate you.
Notice how when you were having a panic attack, the male doctor was like, "Yeah well you're fine" and your doctor was so nice and noticed immediately what was happening. I'm so glad you had her for this time around💜
I think he just knew that if you can speak it means you can breathe so for him it was so obvious that she was okay if she could speak in full sentences to him. He probably didn't even think that it wouldn't be obvious to her.
Hi Colleen, I had an emergency c-section too. I quickly went from pushing my son out to being told not to push whatever I did. My son had his umbilical cord wrapped around his neck 3 times. (I like to say he was protesting being born and insisting on staying inside). My son was also rushed the to NICU immediately after his birth. He was on a ventilator for a few hours and luckily recovered quickly. He was born at 10:29 pm and I didn’t get to see him until around 11 am the next day, it was horrible. All I had was a Polaroid of his little body with the ventilator in his nose. I was a single mom and that first night alone in my recovery room is one I will never forget. I hugged this Polaroid and probably should have been wearing the I cry a lot shirt! 🤦🏻♀️ I am happy to say he is now a very healthy 17 year old who NEVER stops eating, he is a literal bottomless pit. Someday you will have 3 teenagers eating everything in your pantry and fridge no matter how many times a week you grocery shop and this birth trauma will be a distant memory that you tell your children when they are driving you bonkers. Being a mom is the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I know it is the same for you. Hang in there, you and your little ones are all on the path to healing and strength. I am keeping you in my prayers!
I've had both a vaginal birth and a C-section. I honestly hated them both. My body hated being pregnant. I threw up every single day with both until the day I gave birth, I had constant cramps the entire time, my daughter was born was 34 weeks and because of that I had to take these shots during my second pregnancy that hurt so mad. And then I had gestational diabetes and diet didn't do anything so I had to get shots for that too. My water broke at home with my daughter in the middle of the night and I labored for 52 hours before she was finally born because my body wouldn't fully dilate. When they started talking about a C-section it was like she hears them and she finally came out 45 minutes after that. She weighed 5lbs exactly. We spent our first Christmas in NICU and she stayed a little over a month. Leaving her every night was the hardest thing I ever had to do. But I would spend all day with her alone in the hospital and when my husband got out of work, he would join us for a bit. It's so crazy to think that she is going to he 9 years old in 12 days!! But because of that pregnancy and birth, I thought I didn't want anymore kids. 6 years later we decided to try with my son and that pregnancy was worse. And I was supposed to deliver at a hospital almost 2 hours from us when I went in at my 38 week appointment for a non stress test and they told me I was not leaving. Because his heart rate keep dipping and going back up, they wanted to monitor him overnight. But things didn't get better, do we had to have a C-section. And I thought I was going to die the entire time. I felt so much pain and like I was going to pass out so all I remember is I was rubbing a nurse with my foot and singing my favorite song as loud as I could to keep myself awake. When my son was born and they wanted me to see him, I didn't even want to because I was honestly so focused on staying alive. It sounds so silly but it was so scary. And that was almost 3 years ago. It feels like yesterday. You're so brave and strong mama. And I can't wait until you have all your babies home. ♥️♥️
@@kbaylor123 If I understand correctly, the rule is for any labor that you’re not allowed anything except ice chips in case they do need an emergency C-Section or something, but it made me sad when she couldn’t even have that because she was already in the OR
This sounds like such a traumatic experience for you, I hope talking through it with us, family, friends, and in therapy can help you recover from it. You are not dramatic in any way, and you are such a wonderful mom. The twins and Flynn are so lucky to have you.
I am 6 weeks postpartum and could barely watch this because everything you were saying brought back such intense memories. My experience was very similar, though I didn’t have cord prolapse. My c-section was emergent, however. How you felt is exactly how I felt - you are not alone in that. Now that my baby is out of the NICU and home with me, I can tell you that it WILL get better, and you WILL be able to bond with them. Seeing them with monitors and feeding tubes is difficult, but when they finally are able to have them removed, it is the best feeling! If I can find one positive about the NICU experience it’s that my girl sleep GREAT because she was so used to bright lights, constant noise and beeps, and other babies crying. 🤪
I am still suffering from PTSD from my emergency c section. Hearing your story makes me feel like I am not alone. Thank you for sharing, I read a book called bravey by alexi papas and it helped me so much. It was hard for me to be strapped on the table, and I felt everything, it was traumatic. And then for my husband and daughter to leave while I was left there to be stapled back up. You aren’t alone, us C-section moms are tough. We did it🥰
@@meg_dances6235 yes so mine was an emergency C-section and it was rushed and I felt everything. I didn’t have time to get numb, but we had to do what we had to save my baby. And now she’s healthy
As a twin who was born early and spent weeks in the NICU, I actually got to home when my mom would have been 37 almost 38 weeks pregnant! So i would totally keep up the hope that they will be home before christmas, I think its a total possibility!! Oh and my sister and I are also two minutes apart even though my mom had a vaginal birth Edit to include I’m an identical twin and that how we were born so close together
It’s so crazy how your experience mirrors mine. My girl was the smaller one and stayed in nicu. My son was fine and stayed with me and was the bigger one. We didn’t have an emergency C-section but I had a panic attack nonetheless and had the experience of feeling like I was dying during the csection.
hearing the clip of colleen saying her throat was closing made me burst into tears that's so scary and i feel so bad that she felt that way. she is so strong.
You’re so strong!! The feeling of “omg I’m going to die here.” I was on the table and I remember telling myself “no! You can’t die! You have to make it through this so that you can be here for Abigail (my daughter) and Holden (my husband). You can’t leave him alone to raise her.”. So you’re totally not alone in that feeling. I had been in labor for 33 hours and pushed for 4 hours before they had to take me in for a csection so before they even started I didn’t think I was going to be conscious to meet her, I was so tired and my body felt like it was struggling. I am thankful I got to meet her and spend some time with her after and that I got to have skin to skin with her when I got back to the recovery room. What you went through is beyond hard and I don’t know you personally but so can relate to many things you’ve said because I too didn’t enjoy pregnancy most of the time and have experienced a lot of the same things so I feel like I can genuinely say… I’m so proud of your Colleen❤️
Hearing you explain how you didn’t feel like an active participant in the birth and they were cut out of you was so eye opening and something I’d never thought of before. Thank you for being so brave and sharing your story with us ❤️
My daughter's birth date was Nov 5 and she came July 21 and we went home Dec 22. Being a nicu mom was one of the hardest things I went though but it also made me and my daughter the strongest. I still look at my now 11 year old daughter and think she's still the strongest girl I know. Your babies are so strong and will be home very soon. I feel it. Hang in there Colleen and to all the nicu parents. ❤💜💙💚 you got this.
Girl coughing and sneezing is the WORST PAIN after having a c-section! I can feel your pain. I've done had 3 c-sections! Congrats on your 2 precious bundles of joy! So excited to watch them and Flynn grow up together. He's going to be such an awesome BIG brother! Sending lots of love and prayers y'alls way from Louisiana! ❤❤❤
I’ve never had a baby, but you illustrated your story so well that I was crying and smiling throughout. I’m so happy for you to be past that terrifying birth experience and thankful that you have such a beautiful growing family. Thanks for sharing and thanks for being here.
I’ve heard also the difference between a scheduled C-section and emergency C-section is night and day. I’ve heard so many people traumatized by emergency c sections and then have a wonderful experience with their next because it was planned and much more peaceful. Just writing for anyone who may be forced to schedule one and is scared.
@@JustanotherJLO same my second was scheduled and my daughter was an emergency cause she had her cord wrapped around her neck it was scary not hearing my baby cry and being rushed away...thankfully she's 10 yrs old now and a sassy little human lol
@@ridzzz226 you can absolutely have a vaginal birth after c-section and it’s fairly common, but not if the scar is vertical. There’s too much risk with it opening that way. It’s all up to mom and doctor!
@@ridzzz226 Not necessarily….my husbands ex-wife had a c-section then vaginal birth.. it’s called a VBAC. Most doctors don’t like that because there are higher risks due the surgery but that is something you would need to discuss with your Obstetrician… every case is different. I did not try although I wanted to, we decided another c-section was safest based on my history.
I had a scheduled C-Section because my son was also breach and my blood pressure was high. He came out screaming at 37 weeks and 2 days, but they quickly noticed he was struggling to breathe on his own so he was whisked away to the NICU. He was there for 2 of the longest weeks of my life. I spent every day at the hospital drowning in guilt for things I felt like I should have done differently for this helpless little thing. I spent my nights at home full of guilt for not being there. It was right at the beginning of COVID so we weren’t seeing anyone and no one was allowed at the hospital besides my husband and myself. I felt so alone. I am still traumatized by my experience. All that horribleness aside, I have a happy healthy 19 month old son now and it was worth every struggle. Every alarm on that NICU monitor. Every day of non-stop crying. Your babies will be with you soon (even though it doesn’t feel soon)!
I cried the entire video. Both of my Caesarians were extremely traumatic. Not being able to breath is so scary I relate to everything you experienced with your c-section. Colleen, you are such an amazing person! Talking about your experience is going to help so many people feel like their not alone. Thank you for being so candid with your story. We all love you!!!!
i didn’t cry when i was born either. i scared everyone in the room. but you’re strong and i send my love to the twins. congratulations on your babies! ❤️
“Anesthesiologist, that’s a hard word for me to say. Whatever the guy with the drugs.” 😂 In all seriousness you are strong Colleen and i’m so sorry you had to go through that. 💗
Like Colleen said, every birth is different. I’d like to share my c-section story to offer a different perspective. I LOVED my c-section experience. My baby wasn’t practicing his breathing in the womb and showed signs of distress at 37 weeks. I was admitted, induced and after 28 hours of labor my body stopped progressing and I needed a c-section to safety deliver my baby. It happened quickly, it was chaotic, but this primal feeling that Colleen mentions- I had that. As I lay on the table I thought, “I’m awake, my insides are on my outside and it’s for my son! I can do hard things! No one can tell me I wouldn’t do anything for my baby. Look at me!!! I would have my guts taken out for him!” When he came out and I was being put back together I could hear him cry. I had a wonderful nurse who stood by me and told me everything that was happening as my husband stood with my little human. The one my body made and carried and then came out of me. It was beautiful. My son was laid on my chest. He immediately tried to nurse. He knew me. I knew him. Yes, the recovery was hard, but the more I moved, the stronger I felt. I was recovering from my INSIDES being on my OUTSIDE while freaking awake!!! Who does that??? WOMEN! God, we are an incredible species. Mothers are a wonder. Birth, any way you have it, makes you Wonder Woman. Colleen, we are so proud of you. Please know that, while this looks different, you are a badass and a Wonder Woman and a great mother. ❤️
MY mom had a similar experience with the anesthesia going higher and literally not allowing her to talk, so it was so wild to hear that it happenbed to someone else too! so thankful you got through everything and everyone is safe =) I'm not straight, or a women, but following this journey I feel like I've learned so much and love it =)
By far the most realistic, honest and funniest RUclipsr there is. Love her personality sm!! it’s so cool how she keeps being so „normal“ in her videos, whenever I watch one I feel like she’s not faking any reactions/or exaggerating things like almost every other RUclipsr. Her channel is also personally the only channel where I can watch these long talks and actually find them funny and interesting. Comfort channel cuz her and Erik seem so real therefore every video has those positive/happy vibes! 🥺💕
For sneezing or coughing get a small pillow. Like a small decorative pillow thats got a decent amount of stuffing, and gently push it against the incision
I really appreciate hearing this story as someone who has been to several emergency c-sections as the doctor with the NICU teams its helpful to hear the experience of a mom and what they are going through
That doctor needs a christmas gift basket, that woman sounds like a blessing to this earth
I know, I want to have a doctor like that one day. 🥰❤
Seriously. I’m in LA and would love to know the doctor’s name for when I’m pregnant. Haha
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Is anyone else thinking her doctor might have been Mama Doctor Jones??..
@@kaseyjuhl3070 probably not because Mama Doctor Jones works in New Zealand.
As a nurse hearing your doctor advocate for you to the anesthesiologist saying “she says she doesn’t feel good.” Ugh chills. We love a doctor who listens to your concerns and advocates for you even to another doctor! ❤️
it saves patients lives.
Carley, yes! Those were my favorite doctors to work with! As nurses, we get to hear some doctors being condescending and abrupt. This doctor sounds like one I would have taken a cut in pay to go to work for!
The male doctor in that clip rubbed me the wrong way. I know they’re all busy but he took a little too long to say anything reassuring
@@annadonieis3959 he was likely checking her vitals and the monitors, making sure her throat Wasn't actually closing and that everything was okay before he said it was... We can only hear the audio, not see what's happening.
Anaesthesia trainee here. Very common to feel a bit weird coz the chest is numb. So you feel like you aren't breathing coz you can't appreciate chest movements despite taking breaths. Reassuring patient's by saying you can speak, is to help them realize that to speak we have to draw breath. And it helps calm them down. If a patient is not breathing or struggling it reflects in the monitoring and observation of the Anaesthesiologist. Plus the anxiety, stress nausea of the operative process can make women feel sick.
I love that the doctors, while consoling you, didn't only say that you were wrong and not actually dying, they also said that this would be the best place for you to be treated if it were true. That feels pretty significant.
In my opinion the anesthesiologist could have reassured her in a better manner.. but her doctor was very kind. The anesthesiologist also should have given her drugs to relax and calm her more.
Is pinching your nose to avoid sneezing not common knowledge?
Congrats Colleen, you're a warrior!
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I think they did a good job too, though it may have seemed a little cold, technically as a healthcare provider you are not supposed to promise patients anything that you cannot know for sure. For example, saying "everything will be okay", when (though it probably will be!) the healthcare provider cannot say that with full certainty is technically not correct. Saying that she was in a good place to be if something were to go wrong, however, was a wonderful answer to her panic since that is a very true statement and can be backed up by evidence.
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As a medical student, you sharing how your doctor was there for you made me tear up. I’m so glad there are doctors like that. I hope some day I can be like her.
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@Laura Brown Not helping. Why would you even dare advertise at a time like this? It's also probably a scam. I know you're most likely a bot, but you are a disgusting human being for even having the audacity to advertise on a video like this. You're absolutely sick.
@@wafflepup7593 its a bot
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@@wafflepup7593 oh lol
If he is comfortable talking about it, could Erik give his perspective of the birth experience on the podcast maybe? I can imagine it was terrifying. You are such a huge inspiration for so many women, and you and Erik really give me hope that there are good hearted people in this world. I love you Colleen, please never feel ashamed of talking about this 💕
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Also wow I’ve never had a comment get this much attention, Colleen if you see this I LOVE YOU so much, I comment all of the time and say this but you’re like a big sister to me and I adore you and your strength and courage. Aghhhh! I hope you see this I LOVE YOUUU LOL
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Yes! It would be so cool to hear Erik's side!
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I wonder if they might do that on the podcast!
that would be a great podcast episode!!
it's been like a week since she gave birth to twins and colleen looks absolutely stunning like she is GLOWING. this woman impressed me every time
i’m sorry someone stole this!
Here is an edit I made of Colleens twin pregnancy journey!! ruclips.net/video/cp7pEW95HWo/видео.html
So sorry that Debo Gaming stole your comment. It’s a very true and kind one!
@@323audrey stole what?
She always looks like she's glowing ❤
I really love how your doctor spoke over the male doctor that was invalidating how you felt. Your doctor sounds like a real advocate. “I know it feels that way and that’s scary, it’s not likely to happen but if it does we have everything to help” is waaaayyyy better to hear than “yeah that’s not happening”
In my experience, male doctors are the actual worst for invalidating my symptoms and feelings as an AFAB person. I've had two female doctors now and they've both been brilliant. I will never see another male doctor cos they're so condescending.
That really bothered me.
that annoyed me so bad, he was so rude
Agree 100% - no wonder why she loves her doctor, she seems very personable & caring.
That’s was her previous doctor too that made her feel bad her first pregnancy.
Post abdominal surgical trauma advice: use a pillow to hold against your tummy when you cough or sneeze! It’ll help with the pain ❤️ congrats again! These babies are so lucky to have you both as parents!
This is most definitely the best advice ever! Hands down! I only had a laporoscopy with just 2 teenie incisions but boy oh boy was my pillow my best friend for about 2 weeks. Coughing and sneezing = a whole new kind of pain post abdominal surgery. 2 years after my surgery my husband had a double hernia repair and he had two 2 inch incisions, one on each side of his lower abdomen and he was so grateful that I had learned some tips and tricks for him to use. Poor guy was miserable.
Have plenty of natural and gentle laxatives. Don't scratch. Use manuka honey on the incisions.
@@JNMKlover oh no please don't put honey on an open wound, that's a really good way to introduce bacteria and end up with a nasty infection.
(Before you say the thing, yes I'm aware there's a chemical in manuka honey which has some antibiotic properties but that DOES NOT mean that topical manuka honey use can prevent infection - there is no evidence of that. And more than that, there are plenty of other chemicals in manuka honey which can promote bacterial growth - including, not insignificantly, sugar. In fact infants
In you’re last couple videos, you talked about how you guys were taking it “Hour by hour”, in this video you said “We are taking it day by day”. Just something I noticed! And that’s progress! So proud of you Colleen and Erik! 💗💗
Very true. And sometimes it takes someone pointing things like that out because you don’t even realize yourself the progress you’ve made.
This sounds absolutely terrifying and like a nightmare. I cannot even imagine. You are not dramatic at ALL. I am so glad you and the babies are through it and doing better. So proud of you and thanks for sharing
I know. She is such a strong and beautiful woman,❤💞
Colleen is so down to earth 😍😍😍
Oh yeah, I think she's on the defensive because people would say she's dramatizing for views.
Obviously she's being real and she's recovering from physical and psychological trauma.
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You had Flynn home for Christmas. I feel confident that these little ones will be home with their family for the big day, as well. Positive thoughts to you and your family.
I’m literally hoping, praying, and wishing for that. I just want these adorable miracles babies to meet Flynn and the whole fam be together for Christmas ❤️🩹 that would be the best gift for Colleen and Erik
Me too, they’re a great birth weight for twins too! I give it 2 weeks max! Fingers crossed
@@Eriey3 I can only hope for the same
@@Eriey3 I also hope they come home from the NICU before Christmas and I cannot wait to find out their names.
Two c-sections here- you’re not dramatic. It’s very hard and very weird- like surreal. For me, the docs were gossiping about coworkers while I was being sewn up- paying no attention to me. My husband left with the baby and I was alone- no baby, no husband, just basically a slab on the table. You’re not being dramatic- it’s super hard to process, especially when it’s unexpected. You can do this!
I meant to tell you - a few weeks after we had each of our kids, I asked my husband to tell me what happened from his perspective. It really helped process some stuff. I found it so helpful! Maybe Erik could do that for you. Especially since this time was so traumatic.
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The audio of Colleen saying she felt like her throat was collapsing was so chilling. I'm so relieved that didn't happen and that she's okay!
Luckily, had that happened, (thank god it didn’t), the doctors would have been able to intubate her in an instant
@@secretname6725 i know its probably because of autocorrect, but intubate*😅
@@fyttii oh my gosh I didn’t even notice 😂 thank you
I’ve experienced that happen to me too many times, it’s weirdly a common side effect from the medicate.
What time stamp was that?
I'm 16 years old, and the respect that I have for you, for being so strong and being such an amazing mother is crazy. I hope I get to be as good of a mother as you are one day.
Same but I’m 13
I also look up to her so much. She’s truly an AMAZING mother. Eric is just as amazing.
It’s crazy how fast and efficient everyone in that room is when an emergency arises. When they hit the NICU button in my room, people were in there from a different FLOOR of the hospital in less than thirty seconds. Doctors and nurses are incredible. I’m so glad they took good care of you 💞
It's incredible the difference a caring doctor can make. The clip when you felt like you couldn't breathe is a perfect example. The male doctor seemed to brush you off, "yeah that's not gonna happen," while your doctor listened to you and reassured you that you were in good hands. I know doctors have a lot on their minds and are very busy during these procedures but I so wish more doctors understood the importance of listening to and communicating with their patients. Mental health is just as important as physical health when coming out of these traumatic experiences.
That was so nice to see!!! Considering when I had a c section almost 3 years ago the doctor that did it legit told me to shut up or else they'll put me to sleep 😫 they ended up putting me to sleep unfortunately.
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@@MaiaHochman69 omg that’s horrible
@@stanloonayouidiots6987 It was the most traumatic thing I ever went through. Still recovering mentally almost 3 years later.
I know it's just a small clip, but I also did not like the way he spoke to her in that moment
the way your doctor comforted you when you felt like your throat was collapsing is incredible. she’s actually a hero and i applaud and appreciate her so much
Especially after the other doctor so dismissively said “yeah that’s not gonna happen.” I’m so glad Colleen had her doctor there with her to provide her with the exact care she needed.
@@jourdynne27 I think the doctor was meaning that he wasn't gonna let it happen but just said it poorly but I agree that her doctor was great at calming her down
@@jourdynne27 A lot of surgeons have poor bedside manner. I think that's why they choose surgery.
@@lillyallen1170 hm yeah, listening again I hear it that way now. But still, in the moment when you’re freaking out about your life, that extra step for reassurance goes a long way
If Erik is comfortable we’d love to hear the story of the birth from his point of view!!
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I can only imagine it was the scariest experience ever 🥺
I'd like to hear Erik POV too, because despite everything, he sounded so calm in the audio.... he probably felt anything but calm... but still.. if he's comfortable with sharing, I'd love to know what it was like for him.
@Lori Lockwood I'm so glad someone finally said something. I gotta say, it's funny as hell that most everyone just rolls right by the spam and ignores it but omg, it is getting annoying on EVERY single comment! Shows how desperate a person really is when they have to try so hard to gain attention.
Someday in the podcast 🤷♀️
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You are so strong!! My mom when she had me and my twin sister, the C-section. Tramuatized her. She felt the same feeling of her throat closing. She told me this story years ago and I still think about it, because I feel so bad her thinking she won’t see her babies again. Love you sm!! You are strong, and such an amazing moma ❤️❤️
my mom had me 2 months earlier and it was very sudden too. i had to be in the NICU for 2ish weeks and she says she really wanted to be with me all the time or at least in the hospital but she couldn't because she would always hear me crying from getting poked with needles for blood transfusions etc. moms are fucking badass for going through these things and staying strong
Aww you are so sweet 🥰😍😘
I'm sorry ur mom had to go thru that but it's a very good experience I'm guessing that's makes your moma stronger! Moms are wonderful .
Also I think I used to watch your videos! They are entertaining!
ur mom is so strong so is mine i was born 6 weeks to early and born with c section
@@emlonie Omg Aw Tysm!! That means sm to me 🥰❤️
We need more doctors like Colleen’s ob/gyn 😭 I’m so glad she had someone like her
CAN'T WAIT FOR THE NAMES REVEALED! You are so strong Colleen! Even the fact that you survived is incredible
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@@shaheenshaikh8368 stop.
SAME!!!! I need this kind of distraction from my own life at the moment!
@@shaheenshaikh8368 why are you commenting the irrelevant video on every comment. Read the room. Please leave.
@@smeck9479 ahhh I see! I've seen it on at least 10 comments it's ridiculous. I shall report them! Thank you for explaining!❤️
Colleen-put a pillow on your incision and put some pressure on it when you need to sneeze. Or cough. Or laugh. Any jolting movement, really. It helps a ton! I hope you see this!
Best c-section recovery advice I received: Whenever you feel a sneeze or cough coming and you're not sure you can stop it, hug a pillow. I found pressing it onto to my incision area gently when I sneezed helped me feel like my insides weren't about to burst through my incision. Like you, I had never had a surgery before my c-section and, as you and others have said, I also felt like I couldn't breathe when my son was out. It's terrifying and, though I'm obviously okay, I'm still relieved to hear that seems to be a common thing.
I said the same thing and was practically yelling at the screen for her to grab one of those pillows behind her!
I was just coming to comment this! Weighted blankets are great too. Just small 5lb one. This is great for laughing, sneezing, coughing all the stuff.
I hope she sees this
This!!! I've had abdominal surgeries and the pillow-hug is key!!
So proud of you Colleen and Babies!!
I sobbed over my baby’s hospital bassinet when she had MINUSCULE levels of jaundice. She was under the lights for maybe 9 hours and then we could go home. And I was a wreck. I cannot imagine the emotional torment you have been in and yet here you are, strong enough to tell us all about it. My admiration is through the roof. 💘
I am so proud of her. She was scared, but she did it. Incredible woman and the twins are incredible too. Congrats Colleen. 🥰💚😄
Yess congratulations!!
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I completely agree!
I’m proud too . I also proud of myself. My twins were breach and had to have emergency c section too . They were 3lbs. Now my identical twin girls are 28 ❤️
I agree but what other option did she *really* have? 😂
Karrie Locher recently posted “there are two people born during a birth, the baby and the momma”. The point was mommas need care and love too during birth and sometimes get forgotten. Your story about your doctor made me cry - I’m 10 mpp and still get emotional about my hospital experience.
Everyone’s birth story is different and in no way should what you experienced be diminished or deemed like you’re complaining. C-Sections are rough, especially when they’re sprung up on you and not planned. I too had cholestasis with my only pregnancy and the exhaustion you experience is on a whole other level and really messes with you physically and emotionally because the lack of sleep. Felt like little tiny insects were pricking at me all night. 36hrs into being induced because of the cholestasis, I hadn’t dilated and had to have a C-Section. I was crying because I felt so defeated after everything I had gone through in my pregnancy and them trying to get me to dilate. I sat there on the operating table in tears trying not to have a panic attack. I was already struggling to breath from the crying and my sinuses being closed because of pregnancy. Once they pulled my son out and he was fine to hold, I didn’t wanna hold him because I was afraid I would start crying more. I immediately had a fever after the c section and was shaking/vomiting like crazy. Got postpartum eclampsia and didn’t get to leave the hospital for 5 days. Can be traumatizing but it is all worth it. Wishing you a speedy recovery and praying your babies stay healthy and come home soon!
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Well THAT experience is understandable. .. and so is coleens, but she still is very overly dramatic about everything!! That comes from living a pampered life. Period.
@@jlishappy8811 everyone struggles even more privileged people. doesn’t matter how much wealth she has she can experience pain and suffering! she isn’t dramatic and even if she is who tf cares. it’s her life she’s just sharing her story
@@jlishappy8811 if u don't have anything nice to say don't say it
@@jlishappy8811 Please consider your words, and the effect they may have - would you say the same thing to someone who was telling you this in person? To a friend or relative? People have different lived experiences, and you don't know everything about a person based on what you see online. Best, C.
When I was born, I had the umbilical cord wrapped around my neck and had suffocated for so long that my heart had stopped. The only time I have ever seen my dad cry is while he recalled the events of my birth and how he felt waiting for me to cry while I was on the baby crash-cart.
It reminded me of you talking about your baby girl. I don’t think remembering that moment will ever get less painful and scary, but that is just a testament to how much you love her and the place that she already holds in your heart. ❤️
Colleeen: im sorry im crying Im so hormonal!
Meanwhile me: sobbing just listening to the story
saaaame here 😅😅
Ikr. I started crying before she even did
Colleen, you pretty much told my birth story. I wish I could give you a hug. I loathed having my emergency cesarean because I felt so utterly alone and robbed of a great birth experience. Yet, I'm grateful for the cesarean saving our lives. It's a weird bag of emotions that not many people understand, so thank you for making me feel validated!
I had an emergency c section at 25 weeks, my husband was on a business trip in another state when I went into labor and I was all alone and it was so terrifying and traumatizing. My daughter spent 4 months in the NICU, she came home on oxygen and heart moniters and I was scared every moment. She's now 2, and perfectly healthy. Your doing great mama! This will be a distant memory soon and you'll be cuddling your baby's at home. Love you!
Edit: to put how early she was into perspective, she was born June 21 and her due date was October 4th.
i’m so sorry you went through that. i hope you’ve had support and have been able to work through that trauma. it sounds like it was so, so difficult.
OMG that’s terrifying. I’m so glad she is 2 and healthy now.
My son was an emergency c-section baby because the cord was around his neck and it went great. BUT, Sneezing is killer! And I was allergic to something in the hospital. Fun tip, squeezing a pillow to your incision while sneezing, coughing, or laughing brings the pain down just enough for it to be bearable.
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@@pc-u-18 about a week for me
@@pc-u-18 I heard colleen said 4 to 6 weeks you recover from c-section
How did they know the cord was wrapped around his neck before hand???
try pressing a pillow against your incision when you have to sneeze. it made it a little bit more bearable for me when I was recovering from my c-section. also, listening to your birth story made me cry a lot (again), because I was reminded of how I felt, after my son was born. I was very lucky in that regard, that he was full-term and did not have to go to the nicu. But after the doctors pulled him out of me, I could hear him cry, but I could not see or hold him for what felt like the first 10 minutes of his life. And that was very traumatic. Just to hear him cry and not be able to even see him. Stay strong, Colleen, during this difficult time and please feel mentally hugged! :)
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Yes!!! The pillow in the stomach for sneezing and coughing is a life saver… also when driving in the car👍🏼
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Hey, just saying, this is coming from someone who has PTSD - if you find that after the birth you've been increasingly anxious for no apparent reason, you may have developed PTSD from the event. You've said that multiple aspects of the birth day have been traumatic, so just something to look out for. PTSD is very treatable, so don't worry about developing it
Yes, it started at 3 months pp for me; severe anxiety and panic attacks with health anxiety. I think it’s definitely due to the emergency c section I had. It happened all within less than an hour.
She is very aware of it
My baby had her cord wrapped around her neck and they almost had to suction her out when I made direct eye contact with my partner and pushed her out in one push just so that they could get the cord off of her and she could breathe. It was terrifying, she was purple, I was completely torn, but she was okay after some extra oxygen. It was crazy to me how quickly that little baby became my hero, I kept telling her how proud of her I was. Your twins are heros and they are crushing it!
Women are literally incredible 🤍
My cord was wrapped around my neck too, but my mum had to do a c-section.
Strong mama. You did that! I’m a nanny. I don’t have kids of my own yet but seeing all these comments of how strong y’all are gives me hope that I can do it too one day. I’m terrified of giving birth. Thank you for posting your story. It gives me hope!
My mom had a really similar c-section experience when she had me. She felt like her throat was closing and she still cries when she talks about it because just like you said she thought she was going to die before meeting me. I wasn’t a twin, but I had cord prolapse and was stuck in my mom lol and I wasn’t breathing when I was born as well. When you talk about your experience it sounds so similar to the way my mom described it to me, and it makes me appreciate my mom so much more because she fought that much harder to bring me into the world mentally, even though she wasn’t “participating”. I bet your kids will feel the same way💗
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This might sound silly, but i think crying a lot is a sign of healthy processing. You went trough big trauma and you are healing mentally and physically.
Every time you apologize for crying, i just think: No no, you go girl, you are doing friggin' great!
This also is taking care of yourself.
I learn a lot from you, and i don't think i'm the only one.
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As an L&D nurse, I’m so glad you were able to be awake for your c section. Most cord prolapse situations are so emergent that the mom is put to sleep. Also, I know this is silly but I just wanted to clarify that the NICU people in the room are mostly all nurses actually. Doctors do amazing work as well, of course, but just wanted to highlight the work those NICU nurses do.
I commented this on her other birth video cause I’m an L&D nurse, too. I’m glad because I’ve read about the disconnect women from their babies when they are not present for the birth which obviously adds to the trauma of an emergency.
I've worked for doctors. To me, they r the name, the insurance, and authority to sign off. Nurses r the BEST!!!! I LOVE U ❤️. Don't get me started on what y'all should be paid. I have two family members that r L&D. There r horror stories, u need therapy, if u haven't started, why not? All the cool kids r doing it ❤️
Nurses keep the world going! 💗
Not sure what hospital you are at. But never have I seen a mother put completely asleep from it. That's strange. And it is the doctor that does the main work and finding alot. Just like this story. If it wasnt for that doctor. This story would be sad
Aww 🥰 I’m a Nicu nurse that actually attended the delivery of twins yesterday! It never gets old and it definitely is a bunch of nurses taking care of those babies. And our wonderful respiratory therapists too ☺️ doctors are wonderful but nurses really are the glue that holds everything together 🥰 thanks for the recognition. L&D nurses are absolutely incredible! 😊
As someone who had cholestastis and an emergency c-section, it is hard to, but amazing to hear someone else go through the same thing. Makes me feel not so alone. Lots of love to you. So so happy for you.
Don’t ever feel like you’re being dramatic or too emotional! You were honestly afraid for the lives of you and your children. I’m crying just imagining how you must’ve felt.
So so glad you found your doctor. She sounds like she was such an absolutely amazing advocate for you!
I had my daughter at 29 weeks and she weighed 1 pound 12.6 ounces and she was in the nicu for 79 days. When you described how your doctor held you during your spinal it brought back all those memories on how incredible and caring they are when you feel like you are completely helpless with a million thoughts running through your head. This was so emotional to watch. I’m proud of you!
😢 srry you had to go through that
@@caeycaye8810 awhh thank you, definitely the scariest thing I’ve ever went through but everything is okay now. She just turned 3. ❤️
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I am so incredibly sorry that happened to you💔my brother’s girlfriend had an emergency c section with her daughter and when they took my niece out of my future sister in law, she was completely purple and wasn’t breathing and it was very terrifying
My dads an anesthesiologist and hearing his position referred to as “I don’t know the guy with the drugs” made me laugh so much.
He should see this vid then 😂😂😂
I sent a thank you card to anesthesiologist at my second c section! It was like a dream and the best rest I'd gotten in months. Some are truly out here doing the Lord's work.
😂😂😂👍❤️❤️
I literally asked mine to marry me the moment I had a contraction and they showed it to me on the monitor because I didn't feel it anymore! 🙃 and yes, my husband was standing next to the bed when I proposed to this stranger!
Hearing ‘anaesthesiologist’ really confused me, in the UK they’re called anaesthetists :D the extra syllables really threw me
How has Flynn been during all of this? Has he asked questions? I’m sure he has seen pictures of the babies. What does he think about them?
I just want to see him meet them!
@@petabulmer7345 same I’m so excited to see the journey of Flynn becoming a big brother!!
I'm just thinking of when they grow up, and boy will say "I'm older" and girl will say " BY 2 MINUTES!!"❤😭
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Yes! I was thinking about this too 😂😂
haha this is actually true. I’m a twin as well and 2 minutes older, I never let anyone forget that 😁
Our twins do that…lol they are 16 now. Boy and girl. He’s older by a few minutes.
You had me crying talking about how your doctor comforted you in the OR. Empathetic healthcare professionals are so special
The first thing I recognized was Colleens new shirt and I thought: "Oh, how fitting. It's the theme of the video." And I cry with her EVERY time. Mommas unite.
And the part with the not crying of the baby I can understand very well. My son took his time until he cried out for the first time. He came out of me and I just called his name and waited for his cry, but it didn't come. For me it felt like minutes, but it probably just were a few seconds. It took us a little longer than wished to get him out because my power left me. But my doctor helped by pushing on my belly from the outside. So my son just needed a second to take a breath. But this moment waiting for his cry was so horrifying for me.
Yes! Every time she cries I tear up 😂😂 she’s like my best friend and doesn’t even know it 😂
I just had a baby at 32 weeks in May and the best thing I was ever told was that the highs will be unbelievably high and the lows will be just as intense and that really resonated with me. He is now a happy healthy 6 month old. Praying for you and your family. NICU life is the hardest thing I’ve ever been through but one day you will look back and realize it made you a stronger mother. 💕 talking about how hard it was made me feel better ❤️🩹
This! I had my youngest at 32 weeks too and agree with everything you said. I will add that almost 18 years later, those NICU days are a distant memory yet watching Colleen’s story brought all those feelings flooding back. It definitely makes us stronger though! I’m so glad your baby is home and doing great, my daughter was in for 6 weeks but is now a perfectly healthy 17 year old with her own car and full time job. NICU babies are tough cookies! ❤️ xx
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Same with me! Had him in May at 32 weeks with a cerclage in place and bed rest for 4 months. He’s perfect now and so healthy
I have never had any children, but I have had an appendectomy, and sneezing after that was ABSOLUTE HELL. It really helped to grab a pillow, pull it up to your abdomen, squeeze that tight against your body, and sneeze while keeping that pressure. I promise you, it helps so much. I love you so much, Colleen!!!! You are actually amazing.
YES I've had an appendectomy too and MY GOODNESS sneezing, laughing, coughing all hurt so bad
If you press the skin under your nose, it stops you from sneezing! Works every time haha
I was about to comment this exact thing - well, almost, mine was an emergency colectomy, not an appendectomy, but the end result is still very very very very very very very very (is that enough verys?) ouchy when sneezing. Or coughing. Or laughing. The pillow trick worked wonders for me as well.
Girl !!!!! I had an appendectomy in august 😂😂😂 it hurt to laugh and to sneeze 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 i deff did the pillow pressure trick. Still hurt but not as much as without.
Came here to say this! Pillow against the incision
The fact she looks so put together after just having her baby is just wow
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but yes i agree she is a superwoman!
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I’m a nurse and it was eye opening to hear your experience from the other side. Congratulations to you! I’m thankful you and the babies are doing well. As much as you want the babies home by Christmas don’t get your hopes up. It may not happen and that is okay. Trust me it was be worst if they don’t come home and you get your hopes up. If they come home sooner that’s fabulous!
Are you her actual nicu nurse?
As a nurse, I would strongly advise against commenting something like this. If the US is anything like my country, it probably breaches your social media and privacy policies - especially the second part of your comment - risking your registration. If you were to comment at all it should be something generic that doesn’t identify your relation to Colleen and the twin patients. Perhaps remove this comment for safety and save comments like this for if you see Colleen on the ward.
@@ictybtwbc I don’t know her personally and I am not in anyway involved in her or her children’s care. I’m just a nurse in a similar role as she described in her video so I related to that.
@@Leela1210 no I’m not I just am a nurse and I work in a similar role as she described in her video.
@@meredithg9240 okay that’s good, your original comment said I’m “the NICU nurse”. Just making sure you were being safe
Already so In love with the babies ... watching Flynn grow up is already so amazing and I can't wait to watch them grow up too
I still cant believe hes almost 3 already, it feels like he was just born. I'm sure it'll feel the same with the twins in a few years
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So, I’m only 13 so haven’t given birth to any humans (hopefully in 20 years or so!) but when I was born, my cord was wrapped around my neck and I wasn’t breathing for a while. My mum told me that was one of the scariest moments of her life. I do not truly understand this pain and fear, but I know I am so so so so proud of you! Hope you are recovering well (you look AMAZING!) and the rest of the fam - of course the twins - are doing great! Love ya 💗
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@@pearl_cove07 That's so cute!!
My brother was born the same way as you and the doctors said they didn't know if he would be able to talk, speak, walk, or even make it through the night. He is now 13 and can do all of those, he just has a little trouble with math.
@@isa-jw8tw thank you!!
love the implication that you’ve given birth to something _other_ than a human
I'm a very sympathetic person, so whenever you started crying I started crying right there with you. You're so strong mommas and I'm glad that your twins are here and healthy. You have a beautiful baby girl and baby boy, I've been watching you since I was in middle school and I feel like I've kinda grown up with you. And I know a lot of people don't like to share their kids with people over the internet because of obvious reasons, but I really appreciate you sharing your life,family and stories with all of us on the internet. I know you don't know me and I don't know you personally, but I love you Colleen and I just want to thank you for being part of my life both as yourself and as Miranda.
You have genuinely taught me more about pregnancy, birth, and all that goes with it more than anyone else! No school or person! u are absolutely incredible! I love u! Sending all my love and prayers to u and your sweet family!
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I am SOBBING. This is bringing back all of my c-section memories. I’ve had three and each time I also felt like I was going to die on the table. The spinal block was so easy for me, too, I barely felt anything at all each time! It’s crazy how similar we are, I also have ADHD and Dermatillomania and I’m a singing actress and it’s just so weird bc I feel like I’m watching my soul sister living a separate life on the opposite coast from me! I’m so proud of you. You are absolutely a SUPERWOMAN and even though it didn’t feel like you participated in your twins’ births, your body absolutely was a freaking BOSS LADY that knew exactly what to do to get those babies out exactly when they were supposed to. I believe the timing was perfect and you should be proud that you were able to endure such a hectic time! Love you, Colleen!
Yes c-sections have that weird connotation of making women feel they didn’t do something right… but our bodies certainly did all the hard work right from the start. Her baby boy knew it was time to get them out.. and kicked the walls down..his sister needed to go… 🙏🏻💕
Since it often is a traumatic experience and can also invite unwanted personal questions I can definitely understand not many women talking about their birth… so I really appreciate you talking so openly about everything! It‘s very interesting to hear your raw- in the moment- feelings and thoughts. You are so inspirational, Colleen! I wish you a fast recovery, mentally and physically 🍀❤️
When my mom was giving birth to my little brother, she had to do an emergency c section because his umbilical cord was wrapped around his neck. He is currently 12 and watching try not to laugh videos in the room next to me, I love him to bits. Glad your kids are doing okay, love you Colleen! ❤️
My oldest is 17, and he was an emergency C-Section, and his was so traumatizing. My recovery was even harder with him as well. However my other 3 kiddos were all scheduled C-sections, and they were way smoother, and less chaotic and recovery was a breeze.
You will get through this and those precious babies will be home before you know it.
The epidural wasn't bad for me either. It was "zingy" when they were moving it around though. The back labor with contraction coupling was infinitely worse. Poor baby started to be in a lot of distress that nearly made her heart stop so they took me to emergency c section and gave me a spinal because the epidural didn't make me completely numb. So two spine jabs! And still they couldn't get me totally numb with even the SPINAL! SO I got to be put under general anesthesia and woke up totally disoriented and apart from my baby. Didn't get to hear her cry. Didn't get to know if she was OK. She was great and with my husband and mom but SHEESH! The process was barbaric.
It's very weird getting to know what happened truly through the post op notes. I leaned my baby wasn't breathing and was resuscitated. I learned she had pooped myconium into the amniotic fluid. I didn't know the surgeon or anyone to even be able to ask later what really happened. I'm less than thrilled. Biggest piece of advice: make sure you have 1 doctor for your whole pregnancy so you know your surgeon and your care team. I went with midwives who cycled through and incase of emergency I just got whoever was on call.
you are such a strong momma! 🥰
See for me my epidural was pure agony but also I was having extreme back labor, contractions that were less than 30 seconds apart so they had no option but to do it while I was contracting instead of in between contractions, and my partner had to hold me still because with my contractions I had the urge to move around a lot 😭 went completely drug-free the second time (didn't have back labor so it was more manageable for me) and that was by far my best labor experience, although it was technically my worst delivery experience due to complications with both myself and my son.
That's absolutely terrifying. Maybe it's a good thing that you didn't have to go through the fear of seeing your baby not breathing and having to be resuscitated, though. It's completely understandable if you would have rather been awake, for me personally I would just be relieved to not have that image in my head. So grateful that your baby was okay!
That took so long to write I think
I wish no one else had to go through general anaesthetic to have their baby, but it makes me feel less alone to hear someone else went through it too ❤️
I just wanted to say that my csection experience was like this. You aren’t the only one. It was terrifying and hearing you talk about yours made me feel more normal, so thank you so much. This is birth trauma and it’s okay to be worried and upset about it. It has taken me years to feel better and I still cried hearing about your experience. 🤍
As a 17 year old woman who’s FAR from having kids or thinking about that or adult life in general lol YOU INSPIRE ME! You to me feel like a mother figure and guiding force through the trials and tribulations of life and womanhood. You are extremely strong and this story brought me to tears. I love you and your family and new babies and wish you all the best! Thankful for you and your honesty it’s so touching ❤️❤️
I have never met Colleen yet I feel like I know her so well. I cry allll the time while watching her videos so when I saw the new babies for the first time I had a meltdown ! They were so cute and tiny and I remember watching Flynn when he was born too. You are doing great Colleen if you ever see this comment just know we all love and admire you so much ❤️
Colleen- I didn’t just give birth to two babies and I CRIED THIS WHOLE VIDEO.
Thank you for sharing this journey. You have helping thousands of people throughout your career. You inspire me to be bold, authentic, and unabashed. I appreciate you.
Notice how when you were having a panic attack, the male doctor was like, "Yeah well you're fine" and your doctor was so nice and noticed immediately what was happening. I'm so glad you had her for this time around💜
I know right! Such a huge difference in demeanor
I noticed the same. That male doctor was not compassionate.
I think he just knew that if you can speak it means you can breathe so for him it was so obvious that she was okay if she could speak in full sentences to him. He probably didn't even think that it wouldn't be obvious to her.
Not because he’s a male doctor… were not all inconsiderate that guy was just a douchebag
OK sexist comment... If a doctor doesn't have empathy or is a douchebag, that has nothing to do with the gender!
Hi Colleen, I had an emergency c-section too. I quickly went from pushing my son out to being told not to push whatever I did. My son had his umbilical cord wrapped around his neck 3 times. (I like to say he was protesting being born and insisting on staying inside). My son was also rushed the to NICU immediately after his birth. He was on a ventilator for a few hours and luckily recovered quickly. He was born at 10:29 pm and I didn’t get to see him until around 11 am the next day, it was horrible. All I had was a Polaroid of his little body with the ventilator in his nose. I was a single mom and that first night alone in my recovery room is one I will never forget. I hugged this Polaroid and probably should have been wearing the I cry a lot shirt! 🤦🏻♀️ I am happy to say he is now a very healthy 17 year old who NEVER stops eating, he is a literal bottomless pit. Someday you will have 3 teenagers eating everything in your pantry and fridge no matter how many times a week you grocery shop and this birth trauma will be a distant memory that you tell your children when they are driving you bonkers. Being a mom is the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I know it is the same for you. Hang in there, you and your little ones are all on the path to healing and strength. I am keeping you in my prayers!
Holy crap, I just want to say you are so freaking strong and amazing. ❤️
I've had both a vaginal birth and a C-section. I honestly hated them both. My body hated being pregnant. I threw up every single day with both until the day I gave birth, I had constant cramps the entire time, my daughter was born was 34 weeks and because of that I had to take these shots during my second pregnancy that hurt so mad. And then I had gestational diabetes and diet didn't do anything so I had to get shots for that too.
My water broke at home with my daughter in the middle of the night and I labored for 52 hours before she was finally born because my body wouldn't fully dilate. When they started talking about a C-section it was like she hears them and she finally came out 45 minutes after that. She weighed 5lbs exactly. We spent our first Christmas in NICU and she stayed a little over a month. Leaving her every night was the hardest thing I ever had to do. But I would spend all day with her alone in the hospital and when my husband got out of work, he would join us for a bit. It's so crazy to think that she is going to he 9 years old in 12 days!!
But because of that pregnancy and birth, I thought I didn't want anymore kids. 6 years later we decided to try with my son and that pregnancy was worse. And I was supposed to deliver at a hospital almost 2 hours from us when I went in at my 38 week appointment for a non stress test and they told me I was not leaving. Because his heart rate keep dipping and going back up, they wanted to monitor him overnight. But things didn't get better, do we had to have a C-section. And I thought I was going to die the entire time. I felt so much pain and like I was going to pass out so all I remember is I was rubbing a nurse with my foot and singing my favorite song as loud as I could to keep myself awake. When my son was born and they wanted me to see him, I didn't even want to because I was honestly so focused on staying alive. It sounds so silly but it was so scary. And that was almost 3 years ago. It feels like yesterday.
You're so brave and strong mama. And I can't wait until you have all your babies home. ♥️♥️
I swear Colleen will never fail to impress me GURLLLL youre so inspirational to younger girls youre amazing sending you looooooveeeeee
She really is💕
*Erik drinking orange juice*
Colleen, through her tears: “CAN I PLEASE HAVE SOME?!” 😂
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When she said they gave Erik juice it was so funny to me 😂
@@akastardust Haha yeah. They're busy enough without adding fainting husbands in the mix!
Oh man, I was surprised they couldn’t even give her a tiny sip!
@@kbaylor123 If I understand correctly, the rule is for any labor that you’re not allowed anything except ice chips in case they do need an emergency C-Section or something, but it made me sad when she couldn’t even have that because she was already in the OR
I am so proud of you. Birth trauma is real and something that isn’t talked about enough. Sending so, so many hugs. ❤️
I can’t wait to see flinns reaction to the twins. And to find out their names.
This sounds like such a traumatic experience for you, I hope talking through it with us, family, friends, and in therapy can help you recover from it. You are not dramatic in any way, and you are such a wonderful mom. The twins and Flynn are so lucky to have you.
i was hoping they’d stay in a lil longer, but i’m so so excited for you
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I am also excited to find out their names and I hope they come home from the NICU before Christmas.
I am 6 weeks postpartum and could barely watch this because everything you were saying brought back such intense memories. My experience was very similar, though I didn’t have cord prolapse. My c-section was emergent, however. How you felt is exactly how I felt - you are not alone in that. Now that my baby is out of the NICU and home with me, I can tell you that it WILL get better, and you WILL be able to bond with them. Seeing them with monitors and feeding tubes is difficult, but when they finally are able to have them removed, it is the best feeling! If I can find one positive about the NICU experience it’s that my girl sleep GREAT because she was so used to bright lights, constant noise and beeps, and other babies crying. 🤪
I am still suffering from PTSD from my emergency c section. Hearing your story makes me feel like I am not alone. Thank you for sharing, I read a book called bravey by alexi papas and it helped me so much.
It was hard for me to be strapped on the table, and I felt everything, it was traumatic. And then for my husband and daughter to leave while I was left there to be stapled back up. You aren’t alone, us C-section moms are tough. We did it🥰
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Im terrified 😭 what do you mean by you felt everything!??? Like the anesthetic didn't work??
@@meg_dances6235 yes so mine was an emergency C-section and it was rushed and I felt everything. I didn’t have time to get numb, but we had to do what we had to save my baby. And now she’s healthy
As a twin who was born early and spent weeks in the NICU, I actually got to home when my mom would have been 37 almost 38 weeks pregnant! So i would totally keep up the hope that they will be home before christmas, I think its a total possibility!! Oh and my sister and I are also two minutes apart even though my mom had a vaginal birth
Edit to include I’m an identical twin and that how we were born so close together
It’s so crazy how your experience mirrors mine. My girl was the smaller one and stayed in nicu. My son was fine and stayed with me and was the bigger one. We didn’t have an emergency C-section but I had a panic attack nonetheless and had the experience of feeling like I was dying during the csection.
hearing the clip of colleen saying her throat was closing made me burst into tears that's so scary and i feel so bad that she felt that way. she is so strong.
You’re so strong!! The feeling of “omg I’m going to die here.” I was on the table and I remember telling myself “no! You can’t die! You have to make it through this so that you can be here for Abigail (my daughter) and Holden (my husband). You can’t leave him alone to raise her.”. So you’re totally not alone in that feeling. I had been in labor for 33 hours and pushed for 4 hours before they had to take me in for a csection so before they even started I didn’t think I was going to be conscious to meet her, I was so tired and my body felt like it was struggling. I am thankful I got to meet her and spend some time with her after and that I got to have skin to skin with her when I got back to the recovery room. What you went through is beyond hard and I don’t know you personally but so can relate to many things you’ve said because I too didn’t enjoy pregnancy most of the time and have experienced a lot of the same things so I feel like I can genuinely say… I’m so proud of your Colleen❤️
Hearing you explain how you didn’t feel like an active participant in the birth and they were cut out of you was so eye opening and something I’d never thought of before. Thank you for being so brave and sharing your story with us ❤️
My daughter's birth date was Nov 5 and she came July 21 and we went home Dec 22. Being a nicu mom was one of the hardest things I went though but it also made me and my daughter the strongest. I still look at my now 11 year old daughter and think she's still the strongest girl I know. Your babies are so strong and will be home very soon. I feel it. Hang in there Colleen and to all the nicu parents. ❤💜💙💚 you got this.
your story gave my goosebumps ❤️
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Girl coughing and sneezing is the WORST PAIN after having a c-section! I can feel your pain. I've done had 3 c-sections! Congrats on your 2 precious bundles of joy! So excited to watch them and Flynn grow up together. He's going to be such an awesome BIG brother! Sending lots of love and prayers y'alls way from Louisiana! ❤❤❤
I’ve never had a baby, but you illustrated your story so well that I was crying and smiling throughout. I’m so happy for you to be past that terrifying birth experience and thankful that you have such a beautiful growing family. Thanks for sharing and thanks for being here.
I love hearing your doctor in that clip of the c-section. She sounds like an amazing doctor who actually cares for her patients!!
Nothing can be "too dramatic" when you are telling how your babies were brought into the world! 💜
Colleen: omg I’m so hormonal I can’t stop crying. People are going to think I’m dramatic
Me: 😭 can’t stop crying listening to her story.
girl same 😢
Sameee
I’ve heard also the difference between a scheduled C-section and emergency C-section is night and day. I’ve heard so many people traumatized by emergency c sections and then have a wonderful experience with their next because it was planned and much more peaceful. Just writing for anyone who may be forced to schedule one and is scared.
Yes I had both kinds and my scheduled one was much better overall.. but both went well for me
@@JustanotherJLO same my second was scheduled and my daughter was an emergency cause she had her cord wrapped around her neck it was scary not hearing my baby cry and being rushed away...thankfully she's 10 yrs old now and a sassy little human lol
if ur first baby is a c-section, then does that mean the rest of ur babies will be c-sections too?? or is it possible to have normal births ?
@@ridzzz226 you can absolutely have a vaginal birth after c-section and it’s fairly common, but not if the scar is vertical. There’s too much risk with it opening that way. It’s all up to mom and doctor!
@@ridzzz226 Not necessarily….my husbands ex-wife had a c-section then vaginal birth.. it’s called a VBAC. Most doctors don’t like that because there are higher risks due the surgery but that is something you would need to discuss with your Obstetrician… every case is different. I did not try although I wanted to, we decided another c-section was safest based on my history.
I had a scheduled C-Section because my son was also breach and my blood pressure was high. He came out screaming at 37 weeks and 2 days, but they quickly noticed he was struggling to breathe on his own so he was whisked away to the NICU. He was there for 2 of the longest weeks of my life. I spent every day at the hospital drowning in guilt for things I felt like I should have done differently for this helpless little thing. I spent my nights at home full of guilt for not being there. It was right at the beginning of COVID so we weren’t seeing anyone and no one was allowed at the hospital besides my husband and myself. I felt so alone. I am still traumatized by my experience. All that horribleness aside, I have a happy healthy 19 month old son now and it was worth every struggle. Every alarm on that NICU monitor. Every day of non-stop crying. Your babies will be with you soon (even though it doesn’t feel soon)!
I cried the entire video. Both of my Caesarians were extremely traumatic. Not being able to breath is so scary I relate to everything you experienced with your c-section. Colleen, you are such an amazing person! Talking about your experience is going to help so many people feel like their not alone. Thank you for being so candid with your story. We all love you!!!!
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i didn’t cry when i was born either. i scared everyone in the room. but you’re strong and i send my love to the twins. congratulations on your babies! ❤️
“Anesthesiologist, that’s a hard word for me to say. Whatever the guy with the drugs.” 😂 In all seriousness you are strong Colleen and i’m so sorry you had to go through that. 💗
She reeally is. but my first thought after she said that was "that would be your dealer"
Thank me Later
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I came to the comments for this comment too 😂😂😂
In the UK its anaesthetist which is even worse! (Pronounced A-Nist-Na-Tist)
Like Colleen said, every birth is different. I’d like to share my c-section story to offer a different perspective. I LOVED my c-section experience. My baby wasn’t practicing his breathing in the womb and showed signs of distress at 37 weeks. I was admitted, induced and after 28 hours of labor my body stopped progressing and I needed a c-section to safety deliver my baby. It happened quickly, it was chaotic, but this primal feeling that Colleen mentions- I had that. As I lay on the table I thought, “I’m awake, my insides are on my outside and it’s for my son! I can do hard things! No one can tell me I wouldn’t do anything for my baby. Look at me!!! I would have my guts taken out for him!” When he came out and I was being put back together I could hear him cry. I had a wonderful nurse who stood by me and told me everything that was happening as my husband stood with my little human. The one my body made and carried and then came out of me. It was beautiful. My son was laid on my chest. He immediately tried to nurse. He knew me. I knew him. Yes, the recovery was hard, but the more I moved, the stronger I felt. I was recovering from my INSIDES being on my OUTSIDE while freaking awake!!! Who does that??? WOMEN! God, we are an incredible species. Mothers are a wonder. Birth, any way you have it, makes you Wonder Woman. Colleen, we are so proud of you. Please know that, while this looks different, you are a badass and a Wonder Woman and a great mother. ❤️
MY mom had a similar experience with the anesthesia going higher and literally not allowing her to talk, so it was so wild to hear that it happenbed to someone else too! so thankful you got through everything and everyone is safe =) I'm not straight, or a women, but following this journey I feel like I've learned so much and love it =)
By far the most realistic, honest and funniest RUclipsr there is. Love her personality sm!! it’s so cool how she keeps being so „normal“ in her videos, whenever I watch one I feel like she’s not faking any reactions/or exaggerating things like almost every other RUclipsr. Her channel is also personally the only channel where I can watch these long talks and actually find them funny and interesting. Comfort channel cuz her and Erik seem so real therefore every video has those positive/happy vibes! 🥺💕
I hope Colleen knows what an absolute QUEEN she is!
@Zis co Here is an edit I made of Colleens twin pregnancy journey!! ruclips.net/video/cp7pEW95HWo/видео.html
Hold a pillow against you incision site when you cough, sneeze, when you’re sitting down or when you’re getting up. It really helps!!!
For sneezing or coughing get a small pillow. Like a small decorative pillow thats got a decent amount of stuffing, and gently push it against the incision
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I really appreciate hearing this story as someone who has been to several emergency c-sections as the doctor with the NICU teams its helpful to hear the experience of a mom and what they are going through