I really want to understand what Japanese songs means through the Japanese lyrics! I only speak English but I really want to learn Japanese to understand things like this. The English lyrics are extremely relatable already and I assume the Japanese lyrics have an even stronger meaning. I hope this translates well!
For those who are confused about the title "dogdog" - a consistent theme in abuseken's works is feeling like a monster, animal, or inferior being. From my personal interpretation, in this song the "dog" refers to a person who struggles with feelings of inferiority originating from their religion, family, and/or sex/sexuality. These are all themes which are present throughout abuseken's music, so if you're interested, please check out his work.
Yo, thanks for the explanation! I always have trouble figuring out symbolisms and meanings behind songs in general. I’m a huge fan of their work and listen to their songs on repeat. They have such a unique style to their craft, and I really admire it.
Aye. And I also just looked it up, and even though I commented it already, i'll just share it here coz it's interesting. I've researched that 虻 in Abu-se's name means gadfly. Which is a person that asks controversial, potentially upsetting questions directed at authorities.
@@mynameisqualian2081 // probably the changes that have been made since god created us. this song is generally, what i assume is, about the fact that they want to commit suicide because their society is horrible, and they want to prove that no one notices a person until they die. so i think its just about how corrupted we've become ever since god created us??? thats just a thought though
Hello people, another year of listening to this song. I listen to it every once in a while, it just holds so much meaning to me. I first found it when I was going through one of the hardest parts of my life and now whenever I hear it it reminds me of what I’ve gotten through. I can’t lie, it’s only when I’m sad I come back here and is one of those days where I just feel like crying. For the few people who will see this, thank you. For being alive, for breathing, for just doing anything. You matter (even if it took me very long to realise) and you are loved. Thank you
This song hits a lot harder than it should be, mainly because of the people in my life. i currently live in a country and society where people like myself are killed constantly. i am closeted queer and i also love writing too. my family are also openly homophobic and super religious and traditional. every time i write, i always have to do it secret because i fear that if anybody discovers what i write about it (my feelings, opinions, etc) , i might get seriously hurt. it doesn't help with the fact that one of my friends is super religious, homophobic and racist. nobody, not even my family and friends, know who i truly am. they keep on saying these hurtful things towards "inferior" people like, not knowing that i am one of them. everday i live in constant fear and anger, because all i wish to do in life is to break free from this constant life of hatred and be somewhere safe where i can be who i truly am.
I can resonate with the feeling of having a terrifying secret to hide for fear of awful consequences! As another queer person, I see you and understand.
It's such an abstract dark theme that's usually hard to express personally into words when being gone through, that it actually gives me so much comfort to have found this song. It's an INCREDIBLE representation of it. Thank you for making this!!!!
Is the theme really abstract? Apart from some key concepts, like the hypocrisy of generalization, the dark theme of the song is pretty direct and straight to the point. Wanting to die but too scared to commit, moments of drunk joy and reckless abandon to sober shame and regret, wanting someone to feel suicide guilt as a manner of revenge (I don't like this part, though), etc. They're all very straight to the point. This is why I like this song, unlike a lot of other dark songs where they try to layers their lyrics with innuendos, double entendres, figures of speech, or perspective change, this song is very straightforward with its intent to let the listeners know that this is a song about someone suffering from what they or what someone else did.
@@olliestone5549 Yeah I mean abstract thing/theme being the experience of those feelings, not usually so easy to gather so directly into words ykno?(specially trying to express it personally to others) Thats why I do say it was such good comfort to find the song because of how it expresses and represents those feelings so directly and makes it easily relatable but yeah your comment is kinda on par with mine also anyway i just didnt get to word it as directly as yours haha
This reminds me of how I felt when I was homeless. One of the strongest memories I have from those days was touching my hair that hadn't been washed. And it felt like the fur of a dog. I was so angry in those days, and just wanted the people around me to suffer. I remember people looking at me with disgust, as if I chose this. I remember how apathetic the people who said would help me were. I genuinely wanted to die, but was too angry to let myself do it. The constant dehumanization, anger, and shame. Man. Memories! :)
@@8bitidiots Yeah bro. Shit always gets better. Weirdly enough, I look back at those days with a sense of fondness. I had grown up mostly online and alone. And I was always worried that I would never be good enough. So to be thrust into a situation where you MUST be enough or you die, and to succeed? It... Helped, weirdly enough. Anyway, I just want you to know you're not alone either. You've done alright, you're doing alright, and you'll be alright. Peace.
This song speaks to me. I don't know if I can exactly correctly say what I want to, but I'll try to anyways and explain it the best I can, even if it comes off as vent-ish I've always been looked down upon, or felt looked down upon. I felt like everyone hated me. When I brought this up in a frenzy of emotions, and how everyone treated me like I was trash or something meant to be forgotten, I was told "if you were treated like trash, you would be dead". Those words stuck with me subconsciously because I felt even more worthless, disgusting, and just a bunch of other disgusting words to call myself. I've felt this way since I was maybe 11, maybe even younger. As much as I wanted to die to get away from everything, I also didn't want to. I wanted to live at the same time so I could spite the people who frowned when I walked by, and teased me whenever they could. They always wanted to see me breakdown or cry, maybe even be angry. I have autism, and my emotions are kind of hard to control, and I always did my best to control them in a healthy way. But whenever people would mock, hurt, insult, and tease me, it was like they wanted to so they could make me seem irrational. Whenever I called them out, they only laughed more or called me irrational and dramatic. I felt alone, even if I wasn't. I wanted to die to get away from it all, but also wanted to live so I could make them angry, make them the irrational ones. Even if I would try to die, my body won't let me because it feels as if I'm trying to spite the people who hurt me. I'm still being hurt today, and it is going to keep being that way for me. If anything, I want the people who hurt me to actually mean the words they say, to actually mean the word sorry. I want them to actually mean it when they apologize. After all, I mean it when I say sorry to someone I didn't mean to hurt. I say it all the time. I say it too much. I would do anything to make it up. However, the people who hurt me never mean it when they apologize. They just want me to forget. I want them to mean the words sorry, I want them to actually feel guilt, I want them to actually realize what they've done. I don't want them to wake up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat when they remember. I only want them to actually apologize. I want them to mean it, that way that even if I don't forgive them, I could at least acknowledge the fact that they mean it and care about how I feel. Like another comment said when they shared about how they felt, I want someone to just try and understand me. Sorry this became a vent, but I just couldn't help but comment on it because I love this song, I think it's beautiful, and when I first heard it, I knew that it resonated with me in some way. I hope everyone else who relates to this song in some way will be comforted by it also, like how I have been comforted by it
I hope you're doing okay, Abuse-san. Such a song that explores this kind of serious concept is concerning but I shouldn't really meddle. All I can do is wish you good health, both in physical and mental. Your songs are very nice!
@@idk-qc9zy he hasnt said anything offical about his mental health, though if you listen to his songs you can see that he mostly tackles sensitive topics so that's that
When I first listened to this, even without the subtitles you can hear how tired and hurt the singer is and I think that's really comforting to me, in a way.
The "lololol" part reminds me of my raw emotion when venting. Like y'know when you're breaking down and you turn to the internet to vent and add "lol" for some reason everytime you finish a sentence. It kinda sets the mood for me along with the lyrics because the song feels like raw emotion. it's just relatable in a way.
in my opinion, i see it as a coping mechanism, like trying to down play a traumatic experience by making it a dark joke. i actually do it, like a lot. its a way (for me atleast) to try washing down said traumatic experience so people wouldn’t worry as much, like “oh thats a pretty dark joke xd good one” because honestly they don’t really understand what the hell you’re going through.
it's kinda funny that i got recommended this at such a low point in my life. i feel heavily the whole screaming into the void. wanting help n reaching out but getting nothing in return. not by doctors, not by friends and not by family. staying alive eventho u so badly want to just die. the line "bystander pretended to avert his eyes while muttering disgusting" part even reminds me of how i feel like i'm a constant annoyance to everyone around me, even the themes of feeling inferior. and that is why i stopped reaching out. it's just nice to find this at this time in my life.
The algorithm thrust this upon me out of nowhere, and I'm thankful because this song slaps despite the morbid subject matter. I sincerely hope that the artist is in a better space mentally than they were when they wrote this, and I wish them all the best
I'm having a bad day today. Remembering things that I don't want to remember. I haven't had a day like this in a long while. Every time I feel this shitty, I go to this song. It brings me comfort. I am grateful that it exists.
This song helps me cope. I can’t stop listening to it and it’s my favorite song, it’s one of the vocaloid songs I can really feel the emotion from. Thank you for this masterpiece.
I didn't know this song but now, just "wow", the melody is so emotional like the lyrics. This is the definition of "powerful". Thanks for this, it's a masterpiece. I love how Miku when she sings have a satured sound, it reminds me the Miku's song of 2010, so much nostalgia.
![muship - 色彩電気 [Official Audio]](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/c8_Ctg_VvD0/mqdefault.jpg)
『あなたに泣かれたくはないさ
なんだか身体も死にたくなるの』
の理由があなたを愛しているからとかそういうわけでもなく
『僕より幸せそうな顔で悲しまれると殺したくなる』からなのが鳥肌
ここに重いコメして、しばらくしてからまた消してを繰り返してたんですけど、今じゃ昔のトラウマはほとんど克服しました。もう重いコメをする気も起きません。それは私の誰にも理解されなかった苦痛が、あなたの曲で癒やされたからです。いつだってこの曲を思い出せば、孤独じゃないと思えたからです。本当にありがとうございます。感謝しかないです。負った苦痛の分、いやそれ以上に、優しい心を持って生きていこうと思います。
どうか幸せになって
「叫ぶくらいは許して下さいな」
を日本語翻訳すると「こんなふうに叫んでしまってごめんなさい」
になるのが好きすぎて進めない🙃
4:50｢あなたが殺した訳じゃないけれどあなたが罪を感じてくれたらいい｣で謎の共感と鳥肌が襲ってきた
分かる……歌詞に共感でしかない
わかります…！😊
物理的に殺してはないので「あなたが殺した訳じゃないけど」だけど、あなたにかけられた言葉とかされたこととかが最終的に僕を死に追いやったから「あなたが罪を感じてくれたらいい」なんだよね
生きていたくない人の脳内ってほんとにこの曲の音位繊細で壊れやすい分、感受性豊かで人の苦しい感情や悲しい感情を察知できるんです。
簡単に言うと人の気持ちを読み取る事が出来るってことです。
自分は壊れやすく壊されやすいのに相手の感情は読み取って傷つけない様にする人ってどんな宝石や絶景よりも綺麗で美しいと思いませんか？
この言葉で救われる
ありがとう
1年前のコメントに失礼します。
だけどそんな感情を余計に汲み取りすぎで負担になったり、先読みして会話しようとするとなんだか失敗してしまうような気がして毎回うっすい内容しか話せなかったり、1歩が踏み出せなかったり、そもそも話すのが嫌になってしまうんですよね。少なくとも私は。自語失礼。
アイコン&名前との 温度差酷すぎて 風邪引いた (事後)
なんか救われた‥
いいこと言ってるけどアイコンと名前のギャップで混乱してる
自分の身体を「価値観」って呼んでるの好き
いいですね〜
そしてなんか暴れてるうどんみたいなの好きです
暴れるうどんとかいうパワーワード
楔龍
自分もそれ思いましたw
/Loser負け犬 暴れてるうどんは笑いますわwww
/Loser負け犬 暴れるうどん…的確な表現ですね
うどんだって思いっきり身体を動かしたいだろうよ。
うどんも運動不足解消したかったのかも。
コメ欄の上位が外国の人ばっかで、多分翻訳通して聴いてるんだろうけど翻訳を通すと難しい表現が全部直訳されて話しても全てが伝わる訳ではなく、聴いてくれた人も実は分かっていない。言わずして分かりはしないという感じがした
このコメントも海外の方に伝わって欲しい
I think I understand what you mean, but the visuals also help to get the real meaning across! (I hope you understand what I’m saying!!)
I really want to understand what Japanese songs means through the Japanese lyrics! I only speak English but I really want to learn Japanese to understand things like this. The English lyrics are extremely relatable already and I assume the Japanese lyrics have an even stronger meaning. I hope this translates well!
200から201にしてしまった罪悪感
@@チョコころね-m8f
次の300につながる事だからそれが良いと思えたなら好きに押しなさいな👍️
歌詞は闇だらけで重たいのに凄く聴きやすい。明るい曲と勘違いするくらい。初音ミクの枯れたような声が心に響く。
MVの言葉と歌詞に関係がありそうだったので載っけときます🍬🍭🍫
午前二時三十分の
電車に飛んだ価値観と
「気色の悪い」とか言っちゃって
目を背けた振りする傍観者
ねぇ、どうだい？死にたいかい？
僕は止めないよ
こんな厭世じゃ身を投げるのもごもっとも
一般論is so Good.
"General(一般的な)"
性的倒錯(フェチ)には寛大 () so bad.
"fetishism(フェティシズム)"
隠してたいその原因は
君等が全部持ってんだ
"prejudice(先入観､偏見)"
あーそうかい
折れそうかい？
"不幸な自分に酔い痴れた"
動悸が収まんない
"フラッシュバックで殺されたい"
なぁ 痛い 今 消えたい
"罵倒を下さい"
頭ばっか殴らないで
"割れる割れる割れる割れる割れる割れる"
死にたい ほら 死にたい こんな痛むなら
死にたい 僕 死にたい
それでも
死ねない 死ねない 死ねないの
身体が竦んで動けないんだ
生きたい？ 逝きたい？ 叫んでる肌
叫ぶくらいは許して下さいな
あなたの言うその正常が
Sexual abnormalit(性的異常)
僕が死ぬその発端です
Testament(遺言､遺書)
あなたのするその善行が
Auf heben(高める､解消する､保存する?)
僕が死ぬその発端です
Testament(遺言､遺書)
あなたの吸うその愛情が
Breast feeding(授乳)
僕が死ぬその発端です
Testament(遺言､遺書)
あなたの愛した売春が
sex(性交)
僕が死ぬその発端です
Testament(遺言､遺書)
吐きたい 僕 吐きたい
"吐いたら全部融け出していた"
今日食べたものとか
"自らが自らである所以を"
吐いて 味わいたい
"胃酸の匂いだけがこびり付いた"
生きているって証を
"「死にたい」の思い方"
死にたい 僕 死にたい
そうして確かめたい
生きていたんだなと
『僕は生きていたんだな』
何処かの歌でさ歌ってた気がした
死生観も希望も虚弱性だとかも全部
誰かのさ 独り善がりだろ？って
言ってる僕はさ
此処で一人歌うだけ
駄犬
あなたに泣かれたくはないさ
なんだか身体も死にたくなるの
僕より幸せそうな顔でほら
悲しまれると殺したくなる
"?????????????????????????"
"お前のせいだ"
死にたい 死にたい 死にたいの
身体も心も綻ぶばかり
逝きたい 逝きたい 叫んでる ほら
僕がこんなに美しいだなんて
飛び散る僕の価値観はさ
真赤で染まってく跡かたもないな
あなたが殺したわけじゃないけど
あなたが罪を感じてくれたらいい
あなたの言うその正常が
Sexual abnormalit(性的異常)
僕が死ぬその発端です
Testament(遺言､遺書)
あなたのするその善行が
Auf heben(高める､解消する､保存する?)
僕が死ぬその発端です
Testament(遺言､遺書)
あなたの吸うその愛情が
Breast feeding(授乳)
僕が死ぬその発端です
Testament(遺言､遺書)
あなたの愛した売春が
sex(性交)
僕が死ぬその発端です
Testament(遺言､遺書)
て る ら り ら
た る
ら た る ら た る
て ろ ら り ら
て ろ
て ら り る ら
ありがたすぎます…😳
使わせていただきます！
わい｢おいおいなんだよこの神曲〜w｣
〜Twitter拝見後〜
｢16歳！？？？？？｣
まじかよ
マジだよ。ちなみにあぶせくん誕生日4日前。（816）
16歳???!!!?
なにぃ？？？！！！！
WAIT WHAT????? HES 16?????
「あなたが殺したわけじゃないけど あなたが罪を感じてくれたらいい」って歌詞が自分にぶっ刺さりすぎてどうしようかと思った。何も悪く無いから言えないけど貴方のせいでこうなったんだよって心のどこかで思ってるのが見透かされたようで凄くゾワってした。
「あなたの言うその正常が〜」の所が自分のせいで起こっていることなどをあなたのせいにしたいという人間の弱いところっていうか何というかを的確に表しているように感じた。もしかしたらこの歌の子は直接的に「あなた」に殺された訳じゃ無いけど積もり積もった「あなた」のせいでこうなったのかもだけどね。
"積もり積もった「あなた」のせい"って言葉、すごい分かった。共感できる
最後のてるらりら〜あたりが「大人になっても手が出るな」に聞こえてビビった...
ﾊｧｯ本当だ…
クソ聞こえる……！！！
5:45
気づいた君も作者も天才
確かに聞こえてしまった
1:34 「逝きたい」の「逝」の時に、ピアノの音が気持ち悪くぶつかってて凄く好き。デタラメにジャランって奏でている感じがとっても良い
この歌は約6分くらいある曲なのにあっという間に終わってしまう感覚がある
分かる
「一般論 is so good」って歌詞がこの感情を形容する言葉が無いくらい好き
For those who are confused about the title "dogdog" - a consistent theme in abuseken's works is feeling like a monster, animal, or inferior being. From my personal interpretation, in this song the "dog" refers to a person who struggles with feelings of inferiority originating from their religion, family, and/or sex/sexuality. These are all themes which are present throughout abuseken's music, so if you're interested, please check out his work.
Yo, thanks for the explanation! I always have trouble figuring out symbolisms and meanings behind songs in general.
I’m a huge fan of their work and listen to their songs on repeat. They have such a unique style to their craft, and I really admire it.
Finally I was looking for this
@@meme-pr1nc3 abuse ken really put complicated and deep meaning tbh
I am actually stupid af. I thought this was the song creator’s name.
Aye. And I also just looked it up, and even though I commented it already, i'll just share it here coz it's interesting.
I've researched that 虻 in Abu-se's name means gadfly. Which is a person that asks controversial, potentially upsetting questions directed at authorities.
死ぬのが怖いのは生きる理由になる
狂気的なのに透明で凄い
同年代だからこそ分かるこのどろどろと溢れる劣等感やどくどくと流れ出る虚無感を、ありったけの知識と才能と努力と感情で表していて、暗い歌詞だけどとても心がスッとした。
無気力だけど叫んでるような掠れたミクの声がすごく合う。めちゃめちゃ好きだ…
0:47 からの英語表記の意味です。
General: 一般的
Fetishism: フェティシズム（〇〇フェチとか？）、性的倒錯の一つとされる(性的倒錯の他の例だとサディズム、マゾヒズム、露出症などがあげられる)
Prejudice: 偏見、先入観
1:45 からの英文字表記の意味です。
Sexual Abnormality: 性的異常（”abnormality”が異常、"Sexual"が性的という意味なので）
Testament: 遺言、遺書、証明
Aufheben: アウフヘーベン(ドイツ語)、止揚、揚棄、矛盾/対立する二つの概念をそのままどちらも否定せずに統合すること
Breast feeding: 授乳、母乳哺育
Sex: 性行為、性別
kopipom08 ありがとうございます…！！
すごいですね！！
最後で吹いた
じゃあ少しセンシティブな歌なのかもしれませんね
ほんとに、毎年心が病んだ時心地よすぎて聴きに来てずっとリピします。
自分の希死念慮とか叫びたいことを代わりに歌ってくれてて本当に救われてる、ミクも虻瀬さんもありがとう
なんだろう、歌というか
...どう表せば良いか分からん
引き込まれました
自分が死ぬことで誰かが罪を感じてくれたら嬉しいけど、そうはならないのだろうな
電車の飛び込みって迷惑がられるけど、自殺した人ってもの凄い勇気と才能あると思うよ、半端な絶望では死ねない
罪は感じてくれるんじゃないかな……じゃないと救いようないし笑
令和様3世
殺した原因は罪なんて感じないし何にも関係の無い人だったり、運転手さんが罪を感じちゃうんだなぁ……残念な事に……
とある曲の歌詞にもあるけど自殺に使うような勇気とか才能とか、ないほうが良かったんだよなぁ。
I initially read the title as "Dog abuse with Miku Hatsune"
Saem me too
Same lmao
fun family activity
That would be really epic lmao.
Me too, that was the most aggressive double take I’ve had to do in a while
死にたいって本当に思ってた奴なんて多分最初はいなくて、本当はみんな死にたくなるほどどうしようもなく生きたいって思ってたはずなんだよな。それが、誰でもいいから助けてほしくて、でも誰にも助けてもらえなくて、助けてって言えなくて、本当の「死にたい」になったんだとおもう。もう生きることが面倒になって、諦めてしまって。語彙力どっかに飛んでってるしなんでこんなこと書き込んでるかわからないけど、心をすごく揺さぶられるいい曲だな
As you can see there are parts in the video where the words are mirrored and I just realised dogdog means godgod
Dog is backwards for God
Tԋҽ Cιɾƈυʂ wow thank you so much for enlightening us 💕
yeah, but what could that mean? That the character has lost all hope in God or something?
@@mynameisqualian2081 // probably the changes that have been made since god created us. this song is generally, what i assume is, about the fact that they want to commit suicide because their society is horrible, and they want to prove that no one notices a person until they die. so i think its just about how corrupted we've become ever since god created us??? thats just a thought though
You made me spill my tea.
死にたい、っていう人は、気づいてないだけで、意外と愛されたいとか必要とされたいって言う欲求が間違ってそういう形になってるだけで、生きたいって思ってるんじゃないかな。
少なくとも、私はそう
欲求が何者かによって崩されるケースもありますね
そういう時はギリギリまでほっておいてほしい
@@nannannanit011oma
そういう人のたった一言がとどめを刺すよね
誰かを助けたくて、偽善者にいつのまにかなってて、壊れた。
っていうパターンです僕は。
SUMIRE NAZUKA 同じく
@@nazukasumire7027 同じく
コンテンツとしての「死」じゃなくてなんかただ単に気持ち悪くて好き(語彙力)
「自然と涙が流れる」とかじゃなくてずっと叫んでる
リアタイで聴いてた記憶なくなっててさ、当時のコメント見て全部思い出しちゃってホント鳥肌たちっぱなし、、神曲すぎて記憶消せてもう一度聴けてほんとよかった。
薄っぺらい感想かもしれないですが、あなたが殺したわけじゃないけど、あなたが罪を感じてくれたらいいって本当に素敵すぎる歌詞。死ぬ最期まで人を呪うほど罰当たりにはならないけど、自責の念をせめて感じてくれたら報われるみたいな感じがもう本当に良いな。
Hello people, another year of listening to this song. I listen to it every once in a while, it just holds so much meaning to me. I first found it when I was going through one of the hardest parts of my life and now whenever I hear it it reminds me of what I’ve gotten through. I can’t lie, it’s only when I’m sad I come back here and is one of those days where I just feel like crying. For the few people who will see this, thank you. For being alive, for breathing, for just doing anything. You matter (even if it took me very long to realise) and you are loved. Thank you
thank you. i hope you doing great
Thank you so much
ily I wish you all the best
Question mark
thank u
この歌を聴いて、気持ち悪いと思う人もいるだろうし、希死念慮に蝕まれた人もいると思う、
けど初めて聴いたときからずっとこの曲は私の中で繊細で美しい救いです
この曲を否定したい訳じゃないけど、この曲のおかげでもう少し生きようと思えたし、報われないけどがんばれる ポジティブな憂鬱に浸れるから、だいすきです
やんばどうしよう。好き過ぎて鼻毛なくなるかと思いました。あのこれからついてきます。語彙力なくて感想上手く言えないけど、なんかザクザクしてて果物切ってるみたいに刺されて、でも脳みそがサッカーボールみたいになってリズミカルに蹴られてるぐらいの破壊力の塊で好き。
死にたいのに勇気でない
「あなたが殺したわけじゃないけど、あなたが罪を感じてくれたらいい」のフレーズ…こんなにも綺麗に心音をまとめられるなんて流石だなと思いました…！！！！
全くもってその通り……すぎる
「叫ぶぐらいは許してくださいな」でﾌﾞﾜｯって涙出てきた…辛い時この曲いつも聞いてしまう
This song hits a lot harder than it should be, mainly because of the people in my life. i currently live in a country and society where people like myself are killed constantly. i am closeted queer and i also love writing too. my family are also openly homophobic and super religious and traditional. every time i write, i always have to do it secret because i fear that if anybody discovers what i write about it (my feelings, opinions, etc) , i might get seriously hurt. it doesn't help with the fact that one of my friends is super religious, homophobic and racist.
nobody, not even my family and friends, know who i truly am. they keep on saying these hurtful things towards "inferior" people like, not knowing that i am one of them. everday i live in constant fear and anger, because all i wish to do in life is to break free from this constant life of hatred and be somewhere safe where i can be who i truly am.
I can resonate with the feeling of having a terrifying secret to hide for fear of awful consequences! As another queer person, I see you and understand.
なんか、一見怖い感じなのに、ひたすら美しく感じるのはなんでだろう
歌詞がメチャクチャ独特…決して明るくないけど単に暗いわけでもなく、聴き手の共感を得ようとしつつも突き放してる感じもあり…すごい独特（語彙）
あなたの歌を最近好んで聴いています。 これからも歌も本当に楽しみにしてます。(涙)
本物だ……
ほ、ほんもの…！
本物？！？！？！！
本物本物言うのやめろよ
ねえ君本物やんって書いてあると思った？？？
오
It's such an abstract dark theme that's usually hard to express personally into words when being gone through, that it actually gives me so much comfort to have found this song. It's an INCREDIBLE representation of it. Thank you for making this!!!!
Is the theme really abstract? Apart from some key concepts, like the hypocrisy of generalization, the dark theme of the song is pretty direct and straight to the point. Wanting to die but too scared to commit, moments of drunk joy and reckless abandon to sober shame and regret, wanting someone to feel suicide guilt as a manner of revenge (I don't like this part, though), etc. They're all very straight to the point.
This is why I like this song, unlike a lot of other dark songs where they try to layers their lyrics with innuendos, double entendres, figures of speech, or perspective change, this song is very straightforward with its intent to let the listeners know that this is a song about someone suffering from what they or what someone else did.
@@olliestone5549 Yeah I mean abstract thing/theme being the experience of those feelings, not usually so easy to gather so directly into words ykno?(specially trying to express it personally to others) Thats why I do say it was such good comfort to find the song because of how it expresses and represents those feelings so directly and makes it easily relatable
but yeah your comment is kinda on par with mine also anyway i just didnt get to word it as directly as yours haha
初聞は陰鬱な曲だなと思った。普段聞かないジャンルの曲調だし、一回しか聞かなかったけど、数日後になんでか、ふとこの曲が浮かんできて、いそいで履歴さかのぼってまた聞いてみたら、力強いピアノと訴えるような歌詞に一瞬で引き込まれて、なんでか、それからずっとこのメロディが脳裏に焼き付いて離れない…とても好きです…揺さぶられて魅了されました。これからも頑張ってください、応援してます！！
5年前、中2のときにこの曲から虻瀬さんに出会って、大学受験で親愛なるあなたは火葬とユダと叢に精神をめちゃくちゃ支えられました。これからも大好き
4:45 の「真赤で」が「ﾏｯｯｯｯｶで」って感じで好き
This reminds me of how I felt when I was homeless. One of the strongest memories I have from those days was touching my hair that hadn't been washed. And it felt like the fur of a dog.
I was so angry in those days, and just wanted the people around me to suffer. I remember people looking at me with disgust, as if I chose this. I remember how apathetic the people who said would help me were. I genuinely wanted to die, but was too angry to let myself do it.
The constant dehumanization, anger, and shame. Man. Memories! :)
im glad your still here. im hoping you are in a better spot now
@@8bitidiots Yeah bro. Shit always gets better.
Weirdly enough, I look back at those days with a sense of fondness. I had grown up mostly online and alone. And I was always worried that I would never be good enough. So to be thrust into a situation where you MUST be enough or you die, and to succeed? It... Helped, weirdly enough.
Anyway, I just want you to know you're not alone either. You've done alright, you're doing alright, and you'll be alright. Peace.
damn this is making me cry, i admire you.
@@julian7434 admire yourself. We all have the strength to survive when it matters. Finding the strength to thrive is what is important.
😢🙏🏾I’m glad you made it, I’m currently in the borderline of that
Vocaloid has been a blessing to poetry and music, this wouldn't exist if there wasn't software to create it.
「あなたの言うその正常が僕が死ぬその発端です」ってところが確かにって思いました。『普通』という言葉は人を苦しめると知ってから周りの人には使わないようにしました。
あとこの歌詞は自分の気持ちをそのままにした歌みたいで泣きました。
正常→「"普通"(とされる狂った世界)」
善行→「自殺制止」
愛情→「意識せずにあなたが吸っている空気のような無償の愛(私にはそれがない)」
飽きるのが早くて3分とかの曲でも直ぐに次の曲に行っちゃうのに、この人の曲はどれもサラッと最後まで聴いちゃって寧ろ終わってしまったって喪失感まである。
3:50
ここからのヤツ好き
This song speaks to me. I don't know if I can exactly correctly say what I want to, but I'll try to anyways and explain it the best I can, even if it comes off as vent-ish
I've always been looked down upon, or felt looked down upon. I felt like everyone hated me. When I brought this up in a frenzy of emotions, and how everyone treated me like I was trash or something meant to be forgotten, I was told "if you were treated like trash, you would be dead". Those words stuck with me subconsciously because I felt even more worthless, disgusting, and just a bunch of other disgusting words to call myself. I've felt this way since I was maybe 11, maybe even younger. As much as I wanted to die to get away from everything, I also didn't want to. I wanted to live at the same time so I could spite the people who frowned when I walked by, and teased me whenever they could. They always wanted to see me breakdown or cry, maybe even be angry. I have autism, and my emotions are kind of hard to control, and I always did my best to control them in a healthy way. But whenever people would mock, hurt, insult, and tease me, it was like they wanted to so they could make me seem irrational. Whenever I called them out, they only laughed more or called me irrational and dramatic. I felt alone, even if I wasn't. I wanted to die to get away from it all, but also wanted to live so I could make them angry, make them the irrational ones. Even if I would try to die, my body won't let me because it feels as if I'm trying to spite the people who hurt me. I'm still being hurt today, and it is going to keep being that way for me. If anything, I want the people who hurt me to actually mean the words they say, to actually mean the word sorry. I want them to actually mean it when they apologize. After all, I mean it when I say sorry to someone I didn't mean to hurt. I say it all the time. I say it too much. I would do anything to make it up. However, the people who hurt me never mean it when they apologize. They just want me to forget. I want them to mean the words sorry, I want them to actually feel guilt, I want them to actually realize what they've done. I don't want them to wake up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat when they remember. I only want them to actually apologize. I want them to mean it, that way that even if I don't forgive them, I could at least acknowledge the fact that they mean it and care about how I feel. Like another comment said when they shared about how they felt, I want someone to just try and understand me.
Sorry this became a vent, but I just couldn't help but comment on it because I love this song, I think it's beautiful, and when I first heard it, I knew that it resonated with me in some way. I hope everyone else who relates to this song in some way will be comforted by it also, like how I have been comforted by it
I hope you're doing okay, Abuse-san. Such a song that explores this kind of serious concept is concerning but I shouldn't really meddle. All I can do is wish you good health, both in physical and mental. Your songs are very nice!
Wait abuse ken have some mental illness?
@@idk-qc9zy he hasnt said anything offical about his mental health, though if you listen to his songs you can see that he mostly tackles sensitive topics so that's that
@@kenmeiaoi i see who knows right?
チカチカしてる感じが良いですね…………
歌に恋したみたい（？）
そのくらいのかっこよさがある、字のフォントも好きです（？）
サビの美しさはどくどくとした感じで、ラスサビは本当に人間の歪さと美しさが混ざってるのが本当に好きです
4:40のところ特に好きです、私の語彙力だと伝えられない本当の美しさって感じで……
5:25は諦めきったような感じがしてめちゃくちゃ好きです
死にたくなるのって、一種の嫉妬、比較から始まるのかもしれない
1:45 すごいここ好き
自己嫌悪と自己愛をそのまま歌にしたみたいな曲
サビの「貴方の言うその正常が 僕が死ぬその発端です」ってのが何でもかんでも正常と少し変わってたら異常と決めたがる今の現代みたいやなって思いました。
誰かにとっては善行でも誰かにとっては苦なだけやもんなって改めて思いましたわ。俺は嫌なことあったらノートに愚痴ってる。理解されないのはどうしようもないわけちゃうし。
それに曲の歌詞の背景とか前に出てくる文字がサビのとこ以外は書いてることちゃうのにサビの時歌詞と一緒なん本音みたいでええな
とある藍色の曲を聞いてたら
その下の関連に出てきたので
飛んできました。RUclipsの
オススメ神ですか…もっと
こういう隠れた曲を知りたい。
同じくすぎて同一人物かと疑った…
きっと趣味あいますよ（誰）
同じすぎて引いた…この人の歌他のも最高ですよ…
ここでいうのも何ですが
ラストリゾート
@@あらあき-l4h
そこら辺はもう見とるんや、だいぶ伸びたしなぁ。さらに再生数の低い曲を
漁り中( ˘o˘̥ )
プシュケー や 幽霊少女はどうでしょう？
知ってたらごめんなさい。
当時めっちゃニコニコで聴いてたなあ...胸が苦しくなるけど、不思議と気持ちが軽くなる曲で今でも大好きです。
この曲が大好きなんだけど、年に数回しか聴いていない
どうしようもない気持ちになった日の夜だけ思い出して部屋を暗くして一回だけ聴いている
聴く度に映像と音の魅力に取り込まれる、音も歌詞もゾクゾクする これ以上ないくらいに慰められた気持ちにもなるけど泣きたいくらい悲しい感じもする 聴き終えると全てが終わった気がして何かしらちょっとスッキリする
勝手な感情だけど私にとって特別な曲です…
16歳でこれは凄い
神やん…
This song officially has a place in my heart. It just hits so damn hard.
It does it hard
画面で暴れてる丸型のびよびよ(語彙)が人間の染色体に見える
なんというか…こう…
死にたいって言ってるけど殺されるのは怖いっていう感じがする。
泣ける。素晴らしい歌をありがとうございます。
この人のピアノは本当に綺麗で儚くて悲しい
何と言うか、この曲聞くと頭がじわじわして温かいスープ脳みそにぶっかけられてるみたいな感じする
キャパ超えると涙か鳥肌が来る…すげぇや
死ねない→死にたいって思う間に何があったのか知りたくない…
いや、知りたいけど想像も辛くてしたくないし……
この前車に跳ねられて死にかけたけど、
あ、轢かれたって時にどぐどぐって言葉が頭に浮かんでた
すごい曲だなぁ。大好きです^^*
冬の田舎の夜中の駅がパッと思い浮かんだ。サビに入ったらMVの影響もあるんだろうけどその駅から花火を見てる感じがした。小説上下二個ぐらい読んだ満足感が得られる最高の曲
こんな神曲を2年後に見つけちゃったぁぁ、もっと早く見つけたかった、、
この曲を聞くと泣きそうになる
「午前二時三十分」。
少し疲れて久しぶりに聴きに来たら真っ先に刺された。
現在時刻は午前二時四十分頃。
鬱々となる時間はやっぱり深夜なんだなあ。
ずっともにょもにょ動いてる塊が、偏頭痛が起こる前の閃輝暗点に似てるので
ストレスでも起こる偏頭痛の前兆に似せたのでしょうか、作り込まれすぎてます…感服です…
great👍👍
いきなりおすすめでてきた神曲
それ
When I first listened to this, even without the subtitles you can hear how tired and hurt the singer is and I think that's really comforting to me, in a way.
字幕無しでも伝わることに感動。作者が素晴らしいということがよく分かります。
Its a vocaloid. But ik what you mean.
The "lololol" part reminds me of my raw emotion when venting. Like y'know when you're breaking down and you turn to the internet to vent and add "lol" for some reason everytime you finish a sentence. It kinda sets the mood for me along with the lyrics because the song feels like raw emotion. it's just relatable in a way.
in my opinion, i see it as a coping mechanism, like trying to down play a traumatic experience by making it a dark joke. i actually do it, like a lot. its a way (for me atleast) to try washing down said traumatic experience so people wouldn’t worry as much, like “oh thats a pretty dark joke xd good one” because honestly they don’t really understand what the hell you’re going through.
ピアノの音がめちゃくちゃ綺麗でミクちゃんの声が凄く弱くて切なかったり、力強かったり…大好き…
半音下がってるメロディーとマイナスなワードで病んでる時100周回って吹っ切れる感じ。言葉でかけてる感じも好きです
歌詞が歌詞でも曲は透明感があって綺麗なの好き
動画の雰囲気とかあんま見ない感じで個性的ですこです〜
って16歳！？まさかの同い年、、、
死にたいんだか生きたいんだかゴチャゴチャで大変そうですね…でもめちゃくちゃ気持ちわかってしまうなんでや！？やっぱこの時期皆辛いもんなのかな！？！？(中学〜高校は辛い)
2:42のピアノのところが1番好きです
it's kinda funny that i got recommended this at such a low point in my life.
i feel heavily the whole screaming into the void. wanting help n reaching out but getting nothing in return. not by doctors, not by friends and not by family.
staying alive eventho u so badly want to just die.
the line "bystander pretended to avert his eyes while muttering disgusting" part even reminds me of how i feel like i'm a constant annoyance to everyone around me, even the themes of feeling inferior. and that is why i stopped reaching out.
it's just nice to find this at this time in my life.
よく聞くと、ピアノのおとが気持ち悪いでも、その気持ち悪さが心に残る
個人的にどちゃくそすきです
4:02 「悲しまれると殺したくなる」
4:16
4:22 「体も心も綻ぶばかり」
4:50 「あなたが罪を感じてくれたらいい」
とても率直で純粋な言葉に何度も救われています
突然オススメに出てきて、どこかで見たことあるような気がして、なんとなくポチッと押してみた。音楽が流れてきた瞬間全部思い出した。
俺、2年前にこの動画に惚れ込んでたんだった…
もっと早くこの曲に出会いたかった……いい曲すぎる
切実な叫びにも似た曲…才能の塊。ボーカロイドの掠れた声がまたいい！好きです。
ミクさんの声
背景
曲調
歌詞
全てに置いて好き
虻瀬Pのお掃除しましょとか青とかも素敵なのでみんな聞け！（
御掃除しましょ、だった(誤字)
このデザインあがクソ病んだPvすきだよ
こんなに深い黒の綺麗な音色あるんだな………
The algorithm thrust this upon me out of nowhere, and I'm thankful because this song slaps despite the morbid subject matter. I sincerely hope that the artist is in a better space mentally than they were when they wrote this, and I wish them all the best
I keep wondering why the heck it keeps appearing, lol.
あなたの吸うその愛情がってところあなたの質素な愛情がって聞こえる、、、
スゲェ
I'm having a bad day today. Remembering things that I don't want to remember.
I haven't had a day like this in a long while.
Every time I feel this shitty, I go to this song. It brings me comfort.
I am grateful that it exists.
This song helps me cope. I can’t stop listening to it and it’s my favorite song, it’s one of the vocaloid songs I can really feel the emotion from. Thank you for this masterpiece.
あー、好きな人を励まそうとして傷つけてしまった今聴くと泣きたくなる、
この曲は何度聴いてもいつも心に刺さります
綺麗で、ミクちゃん声といいネガティブな歌詞のところは壊れそうというか儚い…
高音のところエモい
自分に死ぬほどつらい思いをさせたあいつらが死ぬほど嫌いだけど、好きにはなりたかったから罪を感じてほしいという私の感情にぴったり最高。
結構アップテンポだから悲しいって感じにくいけど曲の奥底はかなり寂しい。(やばい語彙力ないw)
ピアノの音がするなにかの弦を弾いたような音がすきです(伝われ)
0:24 ~の点滅する音がとても好きです
I didn't know this song but now, just "wow", the melody is so emotional like the lyrics.
This is the definition of "powerful". Thanks for this, it's a masterpiece.
I love how Miku when she sings have a satured sound, it reminds me the Miku's song of 2010, so much nostalgia.
World is mine?
@@idk-qc9zy Yes, this type of song.